Erin McCarthy

Fuzzy Logic

A book in the Bad Boys Anthologies series, 2005

One

Lucas Manning was absolutely certain he hadn't ordered a box of neon pink dildos.

Yet there they were, packed four across, three deep in plastic bags, a faint rubbery smell rising from them. They were very bright. With sparkles.

"Holy crap."

Lucas closed the box back up to find the packing label. He hadn't actually looked to see who it was addressed to. The package had been sitting on the front porch outside his door and he'd brought it in the house with the rest of his mail.

He sure in the hell wished he'd looked first.

Or hadn't looked at all.

The box was addressed to Ashley Andrews, who lived in the upstairs apartment of his house. Ashley, his best friend Jason's older sister, who Lucas had secretly been lusting after for, oh, about the last decade.

And she had bought a case of dildos.

Lucas opened the box again and was sorry he had. They were so goddamn pink. And there were so many of them. What did one woman need all these for?

Since Lucas was a chemist and schooled in logic, he was convinced there must be a logical explanation for this. He just had to figure out what it was. Leaving the box on his kitchen table, he went to the refrigerator for a beer.

He needed it to think.

So maybe Ashley had got up an order together with her friends so they could receive a group discount. That was kind of uninhibited, but plausible.

Maybe they were all for her, so one was always in easy reach. Lucas took a sip of his beer, swished it around his mouth. One for her bedroom, one for the living room, one for her purse… He stuck the cold bottle to his head. He was sweating.

One for the shower-damn, there was an image. Ashley, her wet blond hair clinging to her breasts, water sluicing down her fair skin, rocking onto a neon pink… He shifted uncomfortably from one foot to the other.

One for the kitchen? No, he just couldn't picture a sex toy alongside the spatulas. So that was only four. Which left eight unaccounted for. He tried to imagine other uses for them, but drew a blank. These were no cat toys.

Maybe she had ordered them online and had changed her order from one to two. Only when she had added the two, the one hadn't been removed and it had shown up as twelve. He could live with her buying two. Twelve was alarming.

Of course, Ashley's really good friend, Kindra, was getting married soon. Maybe these were gag gifts for the bachelorette party. That sounded reasonable. And Ashley liked to throw really fun parties.

Not that he’d ever been invited to any of them.

Ashley still thought of him as her little brother's geeky friend, Lucas.

Which, he supposed, was true.

But that didn't stop him from having a killer crush on her. She was so vibrant, so energetic, so enthusiastic that he got pleasure just from being near her.

But not twelve dildos' worth of pleasure.

Lucas set his beer bottle down with a hard slap. He picked up the box, grimacing.

Heading out onto the porch he took the two steps to Ashley's front door.

As he rang the bell he wondered if he should tape the box back up and plead ignorance.

Nah.

He'd never sleep again if he didn't hear the explanation for the package of pleasure addressed to her.

Ashley was a little astonished at what she'd do for money.

But she had gotten herself backed into a corner with her spending habits, and while her girlfriends were buying houses and taking nice vacations, Ashley had a closet full of expensive clothes and an empty checking account. Not to mention those credit card bills, which had crept from "Hmm, that's kind of high" to "Yikes!" level. Third World countries had less debt than she did.

It was time to get her finances back in the black.

The doorbell rang as she shifted the tickle-whip on her dining room table. Damn, she hoped no one was early for her debut as a Pleasure Party consultant. She didn't even have the lotions set out yet and the wine was still chilling.

The purple whip was clashing with the leopard print furry handcuffs. Grabbing it, she went to the door and threw it open, a smile pasted on her face.

Lucas was standing there holding a cardboard box. Her smile fell off her face and she sagged in relief. It was just Lucas, her little brother's friend, and her neighbor for the last two years. Fortunately, she had known Lucas since he had been in diapers and they had a deep affection for each other, like brothers and sisters.

Which meant she could rudely blow him off and it wouldn't matter.

"Oh, hey, Lucas, what's up?"

He shifted the box. "This was by my door, but it's yours. I opened it already thinking it was for me."

"That's okay." She grabbed the box from him and stuck it under her arm. "Thanks." She had every intention of slamming the door in his face, but he stepped forward.

"Ash?"

"Yeah?" She tossed her head, trying to get the hair out of her eyes without dropping the box or the tickle-whip.

Lucas had that look on his face, that serious, studying gaze that meant he was thinking hard. Sometimes she thought he looked cute when he was like that, sort of like a puppy dog sniffing out a bone. But it also reminded her that Lucas had more brainpower in one lobe than she had in her entire skull, and he always needed to understand everything. A curiosity that she just didn't have.

Not that they were kids anymore, and he wasn't following her around asking why, why, why, Ashley, but she had a party to put on and didn't have time for his theories on how they could improve energy efficiency in the house.

"Why are there twelve dildos in that box?"

Since she had expected something uber-intelligent to come out of his mouth, she just blinked for a second. Then shoved the whip in his hand so she could open the package. "Oh, they got here!"

Running her finger over the plastic bags, she said, "Cool! I didn't think they'd be here in time, which would have been a bummer. 'Pinky' is a top seller."

She was hoping to move at least three of these suckers tonight alone. It was possible, since she had over thirty people attending her open house to browse the Pleasure Party line of products, all designed to enhance your love life.

Trying to visualize where she could display one of them for her customers to see and touch and turn on, she moved to go back into her apartment, taking the steps to the second floor two at a time. Lucas was following her, she realized distractedly.

"Umm, Ashley…"

"What!" She dropped the box on the living room floor and surveyed her work so far. Using both her dining room and her living room, she had three tables lined up with products, from the handcuffs and a blindfold, to the full line of vibrators and toys. One table was empty, waiting for her to display the lotions and other edible products. She had interwoven strands of white Christmas lights among the products and used tulle and ribbons to dress displays up. It looked pretty darn good.

"You forgot this…" Lucas was waving the tickle-whip back and forth in the air, his caramel brown hair falling in his eyes the way it always did. He was wearing a white shirt and a blue striped tie with his khaki pants, looking like a J. Crew ad with his earnest look. All he needed was a blue blazer and the words Feel or something equally ridiculous slapped across his chest and he could be a teen model.

Of course, he wasn't really a teenager anymore. And when had he gotten those muscles in his forearms? Unnerved, Ashley frowned. What did she care if Lucas had started working out?

"You forgot this… what is this?"

Lucas knew what pi was and the theory of relativity, but she knew clothes and sex toys. Every woman needed a claim to fame.

"It's a tickle-whip. The feather end you use to, well, tickle." She grinned as his brown eyes enlarged. "And the other end you use to whip your partner without any risk of actual injury. Fun stuff, huh?" Not that she'd ever actually used one, but he didn't need to know that. It was just amusing to shock Lucas, who she suspected spent too much time at his computer.

Only he didn't look shocked.

"Really? Interesting." The whip end cracked into the palm of his hand. "Just enough sting, huh?"

Ashley jumped involuntarily. My God, was that lust in Lucas's eyes? Of course it wasn't. He was just interested, seeking all the answers, the way he always did. Next he'd be asking her the best way to use it for maximizing pleasure. Not because he wanted to use it, but because he wanted to know how everything worked. Pick it apart. Figure it out. Like the microwave he'd destroyed at age twelve.

"So, is there a reason your whole apartment is filled with sex toys? Or are you just entering a fun phase in your life?" He had the feather end under his chin now, rolling it back and forth so the purple plumes rose around him. He looked ridiculous.

And cute.

Damn it. Why was she thinking that? Flustered, Ashley ran her hand through her hair. "Put that down somewhere and help me unpack these lotions." If he was going to hang around, the least he could do was make himself useful. "And for your information, I'm trying to make some extra money so I'm selling romance enhancing products. I'm having an open house in an hour."

"Oh."

She could practically hear the wheels churning in his head at high speed.

"Have you personally tried all these products?"

The Pleasure Party company had seventy-three products in the line, two-thirds of them scattered around her apartment right now. Was he freaking serious? How much free time did he think she had?

"No." She was just going to leave it at that. If she volunteered any information, he'd be asking her which ones she'd tried and why.

"I wouldn't want to sell something I hadn't tried myself." Lucas had been studying a bottle of edible massage lotion. He opened it, squirted some on the back of his hand and licked it. "Huh. Chocolate." His nose screwed up. "But somehow licking it off my own hand just doesn't do anything for me."

And before she could even protest, call him an idiot, or collect the twelve bucks retail that bottle cost, he reached out, snatched her arm and slathered chocolate lotion all over her.

But even stranger than that, was the sudden hot kick of interest from her inner thighs. Which was horrifying. She should be ashamed of herself.

Lucas was a baby.

Well, not that young exactly, since he was her brother Jason's age, and she was pretty sure Jason had turned twenty-five last December, but still. She was twenty-eight, damn near twenty-nine, she reminded herself firmly as his head bent over her.

Besides, she had never really thought of Lucas in a sexual way. He was too serious, too smart; he was above all those base physical urges.

He licked her arm.

Or not.

Two

Lucas hadn't meant to lick Ashley.

He wasn't usually impulsive, but he was curious if the lotion would taste different on her skin than it did on his. He imagined it was designed to react to an individual's body heat. Not to mention that everyone secreted different amounts of perspiration.

The opportunity to taste Ashley's flesh was too tempting to pass up.

So he had licked.

And damned if it didn't taste a hell of a lot better. In fact, it was delicious. Like rich, creamy, chocolate mousse, cool on a warm spoon.

"Mmm, that's good. Have you tried it?" Running his tongue over her moist wrist one more time to get the stray bits, Lucas chanced a glance up at Ashley.

Her green eyes were huge. Her breathing was a bit faster than normal. She shook her head, and Lucas had to acknowledge to himself that he was hopelessly, pathetically in love with her.

It was the only explanation for why he let her rent this apartment at half its market value, and why he could never seem to get involved with a woman beyond casual dating. It explained why he wanted to ram a fist into the face of every big stupid ugly jock Ashley had dated-and there had been quite a few.

He was in love with her, and just once he wanted her to see him as more than Jason's friend.

He wanted her to see him as a man.

Which was why he lifted her arm to her mouth. "Try it."

Ashley shook her head even harder. "No, I just ate dinner."

He nearly grinned, but kept it back. "It's not meant to fill you up, Ash, it's to turn you on."

She took a step back, yanking her arm from his grip, looking flustered. "Well, I know that. I'm the Pleasure Party consultant here, after all."

He was certain she'd make an excellent one. Ashley had good people skills, something he could not claim, and her enthusiasm could probably sell a hell of a lot of dildos. Yet she always seemed to underestimate herself, making comments about never being able to expect more than the entry-level job she had at a computer design firm.

It bothered him, which seemed to be further evidence that he was irrationally in love with her.

"What kind of training did you receive? For ease of selling, I would think you'd want to personally experience as many products as possible." His eye fell on the tickle-whip contraption he'd set down on the table. Had she used that?

On the one hand, the thought had him painfully hard. On the other hand, the idea that some guy-some low-IQ Encino Man, half a step below a chimp, bonehead used-car salesman-had taken a fake whip to Ashley's bare skin made him so angry the room sharpened into red-hot focus while his veins throbbed.

She wiped her wet arm on her pink-and-white striped skirt. It was soft and clingy and one side was shorter than the other. Her shirt was sleeveless, white, with a big fake pink flower pinned on it. It was kind of overblown and odd, but knowing Ashley, it was trendy and expensive. Her shoes were spiky little high-heeled sandals that looked painful at best, lethal at worst.

“Lucas, I don't have time for this. I'm not even finished setting up and people are going to be here in thirty minutes.” She ripped open one "Pinky" and took it out of the package. Shaking it at him, she said, "Either help me unpack or go home."

He could honestly say that being reprimanded with a neon dildo was something of a strange experience. He felt like he had when he was thirteen and his dad had caught him with a pilfered Playboy. Ashamed and slightly dirty.

And fighting the urge to bust his gut laughing at the ridiculousness of it.

Lucas bent over and grabbed a box and hefted it onto the table. Ashley moved away from him, finding a spot for "Pinky" on another table, before she started fussing with some folders and brochures.

He arranged massage oils, lotions, and shaving cream onto the table in neat, tidy little rows. Looking at all the flavors and textures of lotions and powders, and reading all their buzz words like erogenous, erotic, maximum pleasure, and stimulate, he was getting a little uncomfortable.

"Is it hot in here? Is your air-conditioning unit working right?"

"Yes." Ashley had a rubber ducky in her hand.

"You sell rubber duckies? Isn't that kind of tame?"

She ripped the duck's head off. "It has a vibrating egg hidden inside." She pulled a small soft egg out and twisted it. It started humming. "It's a tub toy."

"Oh." He went back to his box, thinking. He didn't see the logic. "So, is it in a duck so no one knows it's there?"

"Yes."

"But… why would an adult have a toy duck? Wouldn't people think that was weird? And if you have kids in the house, wouldn't they want to play with it, and what if they accidentally unscrewed the head? Wouldn't that egg be a choking hazard?"

The look she shot him suggested she didn't know the answer. "Don't you have somewhere to be?"

She was trying to get rid of him, but he wasn't ready to leave just yet. It wasn't often he got a chance to see Ashley without her brother or without one of her best friends.

"No." He pulled out glow-in-the-dark condoms from the box.

"So, what's the point in these?" He spoke half to himself, genuinely puzzled. "I mean, they don't glow until they're out of the package, so it can't be meant to lead you to the nightstand. And the man is the one who needs air traffic control guiding him in, not the woman. In fact, I would think seeing a glowing pink penis would scare the shit out of most women, wouldn't it?"

"I'm assuming that's a rhetorical question." Ashley disappeared into the kitchen.

"Well, have you used these?"

"No." Her voice carried loudly and vehemently.

Products all arranged to his satisfaction, he tucked the empty box under the table and started browsing. "Why would anyone want edible underwear?" He shook the box and sniffed it. "I mean, it's not like you'd wear them all day. You would only put them on in the heat of the moment, and wouldn't that sort of kill the spontaneity of the whole thing? Like here, go put these on so I can eat them off… and how can these possibly be one size fits all? That doesn't make any sense."

Ashley came clicking back into the room and slapped a cheese and crackers tray down on the coffee table. "Lucas Manning, some things don't make sense, all right? They just don't. People do them because they're fun. F-U-N. Fun. Got it? Because it's silly and sexy and exciting to do something crazy and maybe even stupid when you're attracted to someone. Can you understand that?"

Oh, hell yeah, he could understand that. Because he was attracted to her and about to do something crazy and even stupid.

"So if I pulled up your shirt and smeared this peach powder across your nipples, it would be fun?"

Ashley closed her eyes for a split second. Oh, Lord, help her. He was so smart, yet so damn dumb when it came to common sense. He had no idea that you couldn't just run around discussing touching a woman's nipples and not expect them to harden. Like hers just had.

Which was ridiculous. Lucas was talking about her nipples in a purely scientific manner. He was trying to understand the logic behind romance enhancing products, and she was pretty sure there just wasn't any. And in the meantime, he had somehow managed to arouse her.

It must be all the aphrodisiacs in the room. The power of suggestion. It couldn't possibly have anything to do with Lucas, whose smiles were so infrequent as to attract notice, and whose hair looked like he'd forgotten to comb it for a week solid. But in all fairness, Lucas was a very good-looking guy. Who suddenly when she wasn't looking had sprouted to over six feet tall and broadened out a bit.

"In theory, yes, that would be fun, given the right circumstances." She put a hand on her stomach, as if she could press the alarming heat out of her womb.

"What would those circumstances be?"

She barely heard the question, frozen in place watching him unscrew the lid on the jar and pull out the little feather duster applicator. "Well, it would be if two people were settling in for a night of making love. I don't think you'd want to rush through this kind of foreplay."

His brown eyes pierced hers in concentration as he closed the two feet between them. "So, you wouldn't want to just smear it on the nipples then? You'd want to start maybe with the shoulder."

The brush touched her skin and she shivered. He moved it gently back and forth over her shoulder while she tried to find the willpower to step away. But before she could even think to react, his tongue was on her, sliding in little swirls around and around before his mouth dropped down completely over her in a wet embrace and he sucked.

She almost fell off her stilettos she was so shocked. "Lucas!"

"No, the shoulder isn't right?" The feather dabbed her neck, close to her collarbone. "Maybe here, then?"

And dang it if he didn't start licking and sucking there too, until she was curling her toes and fisting her hands and tilting her head back. He didn't touch her anywhere else, and her body started to strum and hum and ache for attention.

Which was just so wrong. This was Lucas. He had seen her with braces and acne and bad hair. This was Lucas, who she loved absolutely, in a pure sisterly sort of way. She'd do anything for Lucas.

Apparently even let him experiment with her body for the sake of sexual science.

A shaky sigh fell out of her mouth before she could stop it.

Maybe this was ecstasy envy. She hadn't had sex in eight months, since her last boyfriend had moved to Chicago for a better job opportunity. He hadn't suggested they keep in touch and she hadn't been all that broken up. Chad wasn't the brightest bulb in the pack and his jokes had become wearing after a while.

Not that she wanted to date someone smart, like a genius, who would make her feel inadequate, like she had her whole life, growing up with a super-intelligent brother. But she didn't want to date someone dumb either. She'd settle for a happy medium.

Since Kindra was engaged and her friend Violet was seriously dating someone, she knew they were both getting it on a regular basis. Maybe this bizarre arousal was just her body's way of reminding her that she was heading into her peak sexual years and this wasn't the time to neglect it.

Lucas dusted powder on her chin and sucked. She grabbed his arms for balance and tried not to be turned on. His whiskers rubbed against her cheek and his hair tickled her nose and his tongue started shifting upward and, damn, she was turned on.

Especially when his finger tapped her bottom lip, depositing powder on it. The peachy fragrance drifted up to her nostrils, and without thinking her tongue darted out and licked a tiny bit. It melted in her mouth in a juicy sweet river.

"No, I'm supposed to taste it," Lucas murmured against the corner of her mouth.

Then he was rolling his tongue across her moist lip, clear from one side to the other, making little sounds of approval at the taste. Ashley's fingers curled tighter in his shirtsleeves and her breath jerked out of her in little ragged bursts.

She wasn't sure what was happening, wasn't sure why she was letting Lucas lap at her like a dog with a bowl of water, but oh my, it felt so good, and no matter how loud her brain screamed, her feet weren't walking her away.

Suddenly he shifted, and he was kissing her. Just plain and simple kissing her, his lips locked over hers and his tongue doing reconnaissance in her mouth. The sweet peachy powder still clung to both of their tongues and the embrace was hot, wet, exciting, full of heat and passion.

When Lucas finally pulled back, she heard a great lusty sigh emerge from her own mouth. Lucas's eyes were dark, half closed, his lips shiny. But he simply said, "The peach is definitely better than the chocolate."

Ashley relinquished her death hold on his shirt and tried to take a step back. She hit the table with her backside, wobbling on her stilettos and upsetting the display of disco vibrators. Whirling around, she placed the yellow, blue, and red vibrators with flashing chaser lights back to the original position. Her cheeks were flushed and hot.

"So I should push the peach then?" she managed, hoping her voice didn't warble.

Here Lucas had just been curious, like he always was, and she had gone all weak in the knees and wet in her panties.

"Definitely."

Then she could hear packaging tearing and she was forced to turn around in exasperation. "What are you opening now? This stuff was expensive."

"But you need some things opened for demos, right? More customers will buy if they can taste, touch, and try the product. These lotions are perfect for that." He held up a little jar he'd pulled out of the box. "This stuff is supposed to heat your skin and tingle."

If he tried to pull up her shirt and touch her nipple with that crap, she was going to scream. He was starting to unnerve her. Maybe he was so elevated intellectually that he could isolate his brain from his penis, but she wasn't on quite such a higher plane. He was making her horny.

Since he had no intention of having sex with her and she had no intention of having sex with her little brother's best friend, at the end of the night he was going to leave her hot and aroused, with no one but rubber ducky for company.

And no matter how naughty and inventive the Pleasure Party ducky was, nothing beat a real man covering you.

"And your samplers can be for personal use as well then."

Lucas reached out for her and she yelled, "Don't!"

But he was only turning her wrist over and rubbing the cream into the soft skin at the bottom of her palm. "Don't what?"

"Uh… don't get it on my skirt, please." She was aware that sounded lame, but her brain had stopped working. Never in her entire life had she suspected her wrist could be sexy.

But the way Lucas was stroking it with the pad of his thumb, in little floating circles, was oddly, incredibly sensual.

"Is it getting hot? Tingling?"

"Yes. Very hot. Everything is hot and tingling," she whispered.

All over every part of her she was hot and tingling and starting to think something was wrong with her, and damn, damn, was he going to kiss her again?

His body moved closer to hers.

The doorbell rang, Ashley jumped back two feet. "Oh, shit, someone's here!"

But she was secretly relieved, even if her show wasn't completely set up yet.

Another split second and she might have been doing some serious cradle robbing.

Three

Lucas watched Ashley bolt down the stairs like her skirt was on fire.

He knew the feeling. His pants felt capable of melting steel-twenty-five hundred degrees Fahrenheit was all that was needed, and he was certain he had achieved it.

Oh, man, he sure hoped he knew what the hell he was doing here. He didn't want to ruin his relationship with Ashley, but he couldn't stand by any longer and pretend he didn't care about her in a way that wasn't even remotely brotherly.

If he tried to tell her his feelings and she rejected him, well, hopefully it wouldn't affect their friendship. But this way-this waiting, this wanting, this ache-he couldn't live like this. He had to know if there was any chance, however remote, that Ashley might be attracted to him in return.

So far, she looked a little confused. But she wasn't balking at his overtures either.

And if he wasn't mistaken, she had enjoyed that kiss.

The feeling was mutual. Tasting her tongue had about seared his clothes right off his body.

Ashley came back up the stairs, her heels clicking on the hardwood floors. Her friend Kindra was with her, wearing shorts and a tank top, her auburn hair back in a ponytail.

"Oh, hey, Lucas."

"Hi, Kindra. How's it going?"

"Good." Kindra set her purse down on the floor. "Except I'm so ready for my wedding to be over. Just done and over. My advice to everyone and anyone is to skip the wedding and elope." She glanced at the tables of products. "But I also figure if Mack and I can survive planning this wedding from hell without killing each other, then we can make it through anything."

"Well, I hope it all goes well for you." Lucas put the lid back on the peach powder and returned the jar to its box. He was tempted to take it home with him, but it didn't make sense to remove it from the source of its true enticement-Ashley.

Ashley got him hot, not the powder.

"Are you staying for the party, Lucas?" Kindra asked.

"No!" Ashley said, horror in her voice. Then she tucked her blond curls behind her ear and cleared her throat. "Men can't be at these parties. It's company policy."

"That's logical," Kindra said. "Otherwise it could have the potential to dissolve into an orgy."

Lucas tried to picture it, but couldn't. "Your friends must be more exciting than mine."

Kindra laughed.

"Lucas was helping me set up, but now he's leaving. Right, Lucas?" Ashley gave him a bright smile, a warning in her eyes.

He stared back. "Right. I'll get out of your hair. But I'm coming back after the party to do some shopping. There are| a few things I'd like to try-hands-on."

Ashley's jaw dropped. Then she glanced at Kindra, who wasn't even really listening to them. She was fingering a black silk blindfold.

"Lucas has this need to know how everything works. Bikes, microwaves, edible underwear-" Ashley broke off, her hand on her chest. Her cheeks were stained pink.

She was blushing. And babbling. Lucas figured that was a good sign. If she wasn't interested in him at all, she would have just told him to knock it off and taken the lotion away from him.

Instead, she looked confused.

"I'll see you later then. I'll give you a call to make sure everyone has left." He started for the stairs.

"Okay."

Lucas shot a long lingering look at that purple tickle-whip as he walked by it. He could really, really see the appeal in that. Brushing that feather over Ashley's breasts… he glanced back at her over his shoulder.

He definitely had the need to see how that worked.

Ashley broke out in a sweat.

Holy smokes, Lucas had just checked out the tickle-whip. She was sure of it. He had stared at it, then at her. Like he was picturing using it.

On her.

Oh, my.

She didn't move until the front door downstairs slammed shut, then she collapsed on her bright blue sofa. There was sweat on her inner thighs. Sweat on her goddamn inner thighs. Maybe her air-conditioning was broken.

"Is it hot in here, Kindra?"

"No." Kindra shook the box of edible underwear then put it back down. "Unless you count the sexual tension between you and Lucas. That was hot enough to melt chocolate."

Ashley fanned herself. "There is no sexual tension between Lucas and me! He's my little brother's best friend. My little brother, who is a genius, by the way. And Lucas is his genius friend. Who is only twenty-five years old. Way too young for me, way too smart for me, even if I were interested, which I'm not."

She was protesting too much. She knew it and winced.

Kindra raised an eyebrow. "Oh, you poor thing. Suffering from sexual tension and delusions."

Was she? She certainly felt delusional. Like she had dreamed that erotic kiss they had shared.

"Just a little friendly advice… why don't you just go for it? You like Lucas, don't you?"

"As a person, yes, of course I do. We grew up together. He's a very sweet, honest guy. I love him like a brother." Which made her current feelings sick and incestuous.

"Maybe there's more to those feelings than that. You're not the kind to just sleep with a guy for the heck of it, and Lucas doesn't seem like the kind of guy to do that either. So I maybe there's something really there and you should explore it." Kindra picked up a vibrator and waved it around. "I don't think Lucas is really all that interested in sex toys. I think he's interested in you. That's why he's coming back here tonight."

Oh, damn, he was coming back, wasn't he. She honestly wasn't sure how she felt about that. "You know, the problem with your friends getting married is that they suddenly think they know everything about relationships. Just because you and Mack are happy nesting in your house with your poodle doesn't mean the rest of us are looking for that."

Kindra laughed. "That may be true. But if love and marriage were there, you wouldn't say no to them, would you?'

No, she supposed she wouldn't. But the thought of love and marriage at all, let alone in relation to Lucas-well, it gave her hives. She literally itched and ached to get out of her own skin.

"And you can't tell me you aren't completely preoccupied thinking about Lucas, because you haven't even once mentioned how you hate my outfit, which is usually the first thing you say when you see me."

Well, now that Kindra mentioned it. "Those shorts do look kind of outdated, Kindra. They go practically to your knees."

“My fiancé doesn't seem to mind my clothes." She grinned. "Though truthfully, he prefers me in no clothes at all. And given the look on Lucas's face, I bet he would love to see you naked."

The doorbell rang. Ashley stood up, relieved to escape any conversation that mentioned love, nudity, and Lucas in the same sentence. "Sometimes it's better to leave things a mystery."

Kindra cleared her throat, a smile on her face. "And sometimes the real thing, with a man who adores you, is better than any sex toy could ever be."

Ashley couldn't dispute that. "I'm not arguing with you Kindra, but before I can even consider falling in love and start planning my own wedding from hell, I need to sell some sex toys and get my credit card debt down into the single digits. And even if I did fall in love and get married, it wouldn't be with Lucas."

She didn't think. It would be highly unlikely. Even if she did already love Lucas, it wasn't love. Or was it?

The thought had her rushing down the stairs too quickly, stumbling, and nearly breaking her neck before she skidded to a stop at the front door. She threw the door open. "Hi! Thank you so much for coming."

The next ten minutes were spent answering the door and giving greetings. Then Ashley was knee-deep in her demos, passing lotions and candles around for her friends to smell.

It should have been enough of a distraction to turn her mind from Lucas. Instead, it only made it worse. With every laugh, every bawdy remark someone made, every product she picked up, she thought about Lucas and his strange, arousing behavior.

It didn't help that her brother Jason's girlfriend, Hope, was there, showing an incredibly inappropriate amount of interest in every single item. Hello. Boyfriend's sister here. Didn't Hope know that she was getting all sorts of gross mental images?

Of course she had invited the girl, but she had just thought Hope would come along and buy some shaving cream out of charity. Her brother's girlfriend was a medical student, aspiring to be a surgeon. She wore glasses. She wasn't supposed to be coveting a book on sexual positions.

Ashley's friend Trish was glancing through the book with Hope. "Ooh, that's a good one."

"Done it already," Hope said.

"No kidding?" Respect crept into Trish's voice.

Bile rose in Ashley's mouth. She turned and grabbed her glass of wine.

"It's the scientist in Jason," Hope continued. "He likes to try and defy gravity."

Eeew! She so did not want to know that about her brother. And God, did that mean Lucas would be the same way? Huh. Now that was kind of sexy.

"So he just has to hold on here with his…"

"Hope!" Ashley blurted out. "TMI-too much information! Come on, this is my little brother you're talking about.”

Hope blinked those innocent looking brown eyes behind her owlish glasses. She giggled. "Oh, sorry, Ash."

Her cousin Jenny stopped sniffing the strawberry edible lotion to demand, "Bring out the vibrators and stuff, Ashley. We want to get to the good stuff."

Pasting a smile on her face, Ashley held up Pinky and gave her little rehearsed speech about his many features, including being waterproof. All of her guests had wish lists she'd passed around, so they could write down the names of products that they were interested in as they came around.

Everyone started writing after viewing Pinky, except for Trish and their friend Violet, who looked speechless.

"Aren't you going to write this one down?" Hope asked Violet. "It looks like a good one, and that's a great price."

Violet just swallowed hard and shook her head. "I don't think I would even know what to do with that."

Ashley laughed, though she had a feeling Violet wasn't kidding. She'd seen Violet's latest boyfriend. Sweet, but a total geek. Which about summed up all of Violet's boyfriends.

Hope turned to Trish. "Well, what about you? Didn't you like this one?"

Ashley took a gander at Hope's wineglass. Empty. It figured. She had a strong feeling Hope was drunk. At least she hoped she was, or Ashley was going to have a little chat with Jason.

"I don't do vibrators or dildos or whatever you want to call them."

"Why not?" Hope looked genuinely puzzled.

Trish stuck her pencil behind her ear, where it jutted through her short hair. "Because you all have boyfriends and it's okay to play around with stuff like that. I'm single. So if I get a vibrator, that's all I've got going on. And I don't want to become dildo dependent."

The room erupted with laughter. Ashley snorted before she clapped her hand over her mouth. "Dildo dependent?"

"Yes, I've heard women get so dependent on their vibrators, that they can't have orgasms without them. They have to wean themselves off the machinery. I just don't want to go there."

Three people scratched Pinky off their lists.

Ashley glared at Trish. She could see her point, but she was trying to make a quick buck here. She was going to pay her bills off and reform. She was going to stop buying clothes beyond her means. But first she needed to push some product.

Trish gave her a sheepish look and mouthed sorry. Then her voice rose enthusiastically. "But I'm definitely buying those colored condoms. A single woman always needs to have condoms on hand."

Violet patted Trish's leg. "Nice save."

Ashley was starting to think she was learning way more than she ever wanted to know about her friends' and her family's sex lives.

Four

Lucas peered through his blinds at the street. It looked like the last of the cars crowding their driveway and the front of the house had pulled away. The wild eruptions of laughter and loud female shoes traipsing back and forth above his head had stopped. The front door slamming over and over had quieted.

He was almost positive Ashley was alone.

And he was tired of waiting.

Watching TV and playing computer solitaire had done nothing to curb his desire for Ashley. If anything, the three hours spent in itchy anticipation had made him more eager than before. And sweaty.

Standing on top of the central air-conditioning vent to cool himself off, he called Ashley's apartment.

"Hello?" she said breathlessly after four rings.

Lucas swallowed hard, and shifted so the cold air would shoot straight up his boxer shorts. "It's me. Everybody leave?"

"Yes."

"Can I come up?" He held his breath, eyes closed.

"Sure."

Thank you. Lucas strove to sound nonchalant instead of desperate. "Cool. I'll be up in a second."

"The door's open."

He hung up the phone, ran across his apartment in a fast sprint, and turned his shower on cold. He stripped off his boxers and took a thirty-second shower to remove the stickiness from his skin and to shrink his erection. He didn't want to lay all his cards on the table when he walked in, so to speak, and a big old boner would be doing just that.

Two minutes later he was locking his front door, his hair hanging wet over his forehead. He stuck his keys in his jeans pocket and looked at the bottle of beer in his hand. He'd picked it up for a swallow on his way past the coffee table and had forgotten to set it down. Oh, well. He wasn’t taking an extra three seconds to return it.

Nor was he wearing shoes or a shirt. It was a hot, muggy July night and he was horny. He didn't need additional clothes to sweat through.

Ashley's front door was unlocked like she'd said, probably from all her friends leaving. He shot the dead bolt behind him, even though they lived in a safe neighborhood. He didn't like the idea of her being unprotected even for five minutes. It was why he'd given her the upstairs apartment, since it was less likely someone would go in through the windows on the second floor.

Lucas kept an eye on Ashley, whether she realized it or not. And he would continue to do that, no matter what the outcome of this night was.

When he got to the top of the stairs, he saw her back, bent over a box, packing something into it. She had taken her shoes off and her blond hair tumbled wildly down her tank top. It was sexy hair, curly and riotous, going every which way with a mind of its own. He wanted to know what it would look like brushing over her naked flesh instead of white cotton.

"Hey, Ashley." He put his beer to his mouth and took a long pull.

Ashley had heard Lucas come up the stairs, but she waited for him to speak before acknowledging him, feeling weirdly nervous. But when she turned, she wished like hell that she had just caught his eye as he came up the stairs, and given him a friendly wave.

Because she wasn't prepared for what she saw.

Lucas was standing in the door frame, wearing nothing but soft, faded jeans slipping low on his hips. He was bare-foot. Bare-chested.

The last time she'd really stopped and taken a gander at Lucas, she was pretty darn sure he hadn't sported a chest like that. All firm and strong and grown-up sexy.

With his damp hair clinging to his forehead and his bicep flexing as he lifted a beer to his lips and drank, he no longer reminded her of a teen model. He looked like a beer commercial, a cigarette ad, an underwear billboard. The perfect masculine image that had first tripped into her consciousness when she was about thirteen and had realized there was something in between scrawny middle school boys and her father's soft paunch.

In between was this.

And it was gorgeous.

"Hi," she said, dropping the Ben-Wa balls she'd been holding.

"Do you need help cleaning up?" He set his beer down on her coffee table and walked toward her.

"No, I guess not. I just need to throw this stuff in boxes and stick it in the closet. I haven't really figured out how to organize it yet."

"Don't put it all away yet. I want to check some of it out."

That's what she was afraid of. "Maybe another time, Lucas, when I'm not so tired, okay?" After she had time to think about the fact that she could be attracted to Lucas. After she'd had time to convince herself that she wasn't.

"It's hard work selling sex toys, huh?" He sat on the couch and patted the seat next to him. "Take a load off, Ash. You've been walking around all night in those heels; your feet must be killing you. I'll pack all the boxes up for you."

She wasn't sure why, but she sat down next to him. Her shoulders screamed as she relaxed them. "The crowd control is the toughest part, I found out. You have to keep them focused on what you're selling, but people get silly because it's fun and sexy and sometimes a little embarrassing. I want the women to laugh and have fun, but I don't want the party to last five hours either, you know?"

"Were the sales good?" Lucas turned on the couch, his hand snaking up to her neck.

Ashley started a little at the feel of his fingers on her bare skin, but when he began rubbing her sore muscles, she sighed. "Yes, actually, I profited five hundred bucks tonight."

"Really? That's a lot of edible underwear." Lucas sounded fascinated.

"But I'm not sure I thought this whole thing through. I invested two grand up front on all these products, and I made fifty percent of the retail price as profit, but I have to reorder to replace what I've sold, so it will take four parties like tonight just to break even." She was getting a headache just thinking about it. "Sometimes I think I'm lacking in a financial commonsense gene. I touch money and it disappears. I'm an idiot when it comes to money management."

The balance on her credit card flashed in her head like a humiliating score card. Ashley The Idiot's Team Take-home pay is negative fifteen grand after taxes, rent, and all of her stupid mistakes. "I'm worse than that. I'm a financial fuck-up."

"Come on. Don't be so hard on yourself. In the grand scheme of mistakes, this one's not so bad. Not like joining a gang and embarking on a crime spree."

Ashley laughed. "No, that's not really me."

"This is fixable. Three more parties like tonight and you break even. Three more after that and you pocket fifteen hundred bucks. That's not bad for something like fifteen hours of work. And you're a damn good salesperson. You're knowledgeable about your products and enthusiastic." Lucas stopped rubbing her neck and dropped his arm. "I bet you could sell me anything on that table. Come on."

He stood up and grabbed her hand. "Sell me something, Ash."

"Lucas…" she protested, but she couldn't help but smile as he tugged on her arm. He was being awfully sweet.

So she let him pull her to her feet. Then she grinned when he picked up the box with the Ben-Wa balls.

"What does this do?"

"Those are multipurpose metal balls. They can help develop stronger muscles, like Kegel exercises do, but in a way that's much more fun. And they can also aid in sexual stimulation, either alone or with your partner."

She pressed her lips together to prevent laughter as Lucas frowned, his eyebrows drawing in. He wasn't getting it.

"But… what…"

"You insert them in the vagina."

"Really?" His expression made her laugh outright. He gingerly set the box back down.

"Okay, well, you can sell me anything but those."

Just to tease, she said, "But you said I could sell anything. I guess I'm not that great, after all."

"No, no, anything else. Come on." He picked up the black satin blindfold. "Okay, here, what's this?"

She snorted. "It's a blindfold, obviously. For titillating foreplay. Or if you're single, consider it a beauty mask, or a way to shield that bright morning sun on Saturdays."

"I could use that. There, sold." He set the blindfold aside. "See? You're great at this. What else?"

"How about some fur-lined handcuffs? Feel how soft they are." Ashley rubbed the fabric across his wrists. She was amused at Lucas, pleased that he cared enough to try so hard to make her feel better. She was actually starting to have fun with this.

"Very nice. Definitely got to have those." He took the cuffs from her and set them on the blindfold. "And I can tell you right now I want one of those tickle-whips."

He locked eyes with her. She gulped. "Do you now?"

"Oh, yeah." Lucas's expression was unreadable, but his eyes burned into her, his body leaned toward her, his arms reaching, reaching… He snatched up a box, brushing his forearm across her breasts.

She sucked in her breath. Any doubts she had about her attraction to him evaporated. She wanted Lucas, plain and simple, for whatever reason. Her body was hot, heavy, her inner thighs wet, a knot of desire growing in her belly.

"What's this?"

Focusing on what he held up, she tucked her hair behind her ear, and strove for nonchalant. "Umm, that's a, uh, cock ring." She had been practicing saying that word out loud in her apartment, so she wouldn't giggle when she had to say it at her parties. But she still stammered, especially since she had a sudden inexplicable interest in that word in relation to Lucas.

Yet it wasn't an embarrassed stammer, but a husky, interested tumble over her words that made her blush deeper than saying cock ring.

"A what?" Lucas turned the blue jelly ring around in his hand. "I never felt the need to decorate mine, but maybe that's just me."

Ashley wanted to laugh, but was too aroused to do more than let out a soft sound of amusement. She put her hand next to his on the ring, intending to pull it away from him. But he stroked her skin, effectively holding her hand, and she froze, blurting out her rehearsed speech.

"Actually, it's meant to help sustain an erection, for both you and your partner's increased pleasure."

Her arm was brushing across the bare flesh of his hard stomach and she stood completely and utterly still, afraid to move, afraid of what he might do. Afraid of what she might do.

"I see," he whispered, his voice low, gravelly, raw.

She wondered what he would say next. Obviously he wasn't really going to buy any of these things, but she was curious if pride would make him say no or if he would go along with the idea.

"Well. If it's for my woman's pleasure, then of course, I'll have to get it."

His gaze swept over her lips, her breasts, and Ashley thought that was the sexiest thing she'd ever heard any man say.

Five

While Lucas was aware that he had just admitted in a roundabout way that he needed help keeping it up for long periods of time, he didn't care. Ashley seemed to need a confidence boost, and he'd say anything, even claim he was a virgin if it would make her feel better.

That might actually be a good plan. He could ask her to show him how to use all these products.

But he wasn't that desperate yet. He still had hopes that Ashley was intrigued by him. That she was seeing him differently tonight for the first time.

"Don't forget I want the peachy powder stuff too," he told her. "So what's my total so far?" He'd probably spent a hundred bucks already.

She let go of the cock ring with a jerk. Lucas couldn't believe he was actually going to have to take that thing home. Maybe he could freeze it and use it in his lunches. Keep his turkey sandwich cold.

"Let me get my calculator." She shot him a questioning, sideways glance. "You don't really want this stuff, do you?"

"Of course I do."

Her look turned mischievous. "Are you sure you don't want the Ben-Wa balls then? It could be a sexy surprise for your girlfriend."

"I don't have a girlfriend." Tucking his hands in his back pockets, he studied her. "But I'm working on it."

She knew he meant her. He could see it in the way her eyes widened and her mouth fell open.

"You like Ben-Wa balls, Ash?" He picked the box up, never breaking eye contact. "Add these to my bill." Reaching out, he opened her fingers, set the balls in her hand. "Consider it a gift."

Just the thought of her in her bed, naked, rolling those little things up inside her had him harder than hell.

Her tongue moved out and moistened her rosy bottom lip. Her fingers closed around the box of balls.

What came from her mouth next would probably determine the course of the night, maybe even the course of their relationship from here on out.

So when she paused, he decided to add some additional persuasion.

He kissed her. One hand wrapped over hers, the other rising to her cheek, he tasted her deep, with no pretense of licking peach powder off her.

Just with all his feelings, all his desire for her, all his love.

She opened for him without hesitation.

His control started to fragment as he took it deeper, wilder, his tongue plunging in to meet hers, Ashley's fingers splaying across his chest. She tasted good, felt so wonderful in his arms, and he shifted his leg to get nearer to her.

But she pulled back, and their excited breathing filled the room. Through puffy, shiny lips, she said, "What are we doing, Lucas?"

"We're doing what I've wanted to for a long time." He ran a finger across her jaw.

"I thought you were just curious about all these sex toys. That you were trying to figure out their use and purpose."

"While I am curious how all this stuff works, I came up here tonight because I want you, not a sex toy."

She looked worried. "Define want."

Lucas kissed her jaw, trailed his lips up to her earlobe and nibbled on it. "I want to make love to you. I want to give you pleasure." He also wanted to love her, marry her, have children with her, but that much information might scare her. As it was, she looked like a strong wind could knock her over.

Her head tilted back, and when he dipped his tongue into her ear, she moaned. "How old are you?"

The question was unexpected, but he answered automatically, more interested in the graceful line from her neck to her shoulder. "Twenty-five."

"When's your birthday? It's in April, isn't it?"

"April seventeenth." He shifted so his thighs closed around hers and her belly pressed enticingly into his erection.

"So you're just barely twenty-five."

"I guess." Her breasts rested against his bare chest, and he reveled in the sensation.

"You're too young for me." She pushed against him like she wanted out of his arms.

Lucas looked up at her. Was she serious? "I'm an adult, Ash. I know what I want. And three years doesn't mean a damn thing."

"It doesn't?" She was relaxing again. "It seems like it should."

"It doesn't," he quickly assured her and cupped her breast, closing his eyes briefly at the sensation of her heavy in his hand.

"Oh damn, that feels good." She squirmed a little. "But we still shouldn't do this."

"Why not?" He stroked over her nipple, wrenching a gasp from her.

"We're friends, we've always been friends, and I don't want to ruin that." Biting her lip, she sighed. "But wow, I am so attracted to you right now."

"The feeling is mutual." He kissed her forehead. "If you want me to go back downstairs, I will. But I don't want to."

Ashley felt like one of the problems with her personality was that she was too impulsive. She didn't think things through.

She was trying to make better choices, weigh the pros and cons before just jumping into something.

But her mind was mush. Cold, runny, leftover mush. She couldn't think about anything rational when Lucas was stroking her nipple and moving his lip back and forth on her forehead.

All her brain could seem to focus on was that she wanted Lucas to make love to her. She really, really wanted him to, in a way she couldn't remember ever wanting another man.

She cared about him, she trusted him completely, and when she looked into his eyes, she saw something she didn't understand, but that made her feel she was just about the most desirable woman in the world.

So she opened her mouth and told him, "Don't go. I want you to stay."

Damn, she couldn't believe she'd just said that.

But Lucas leaned back so she could see his face. Then he gave her the most beautiful smile she'd ever seen on him, one that lifted sweetly, a little crooked, and went all the way up to his eyes. It did strange things to her insides and left her breathless.

"Ashley."

He gave her a light kiss, a feathering of his lips over hers, so that she barely had a taste of him, barely got to feel him against her before he was gone. It was a caring kiss, not a passionate kiss, and it sent her deeper into confusion, panic, concern that she was acting on a hormonal impulse and would live to regret it.

Oh, well. She was sure she'd done stupider things, and he was doing the most delightful things to the underside of her breasts. Somehow when she hadn't been looking or thinking or noticing anything but the desire in his eyes, he had worked her tank top up to her bra.

Now his fingers were stroking back and forth, slowly, steadily, enticingly, on her bare skin below her bra. Jumping up from time to time to tease her nipple with a barely-there touch.

She'd never thought of herself as a passive lover, but this was different. Lucas was different. She knew him, but she'd never seen him like this, with this lusty determination on his face. It had her aroused, yet unsure of her own role. So she just stood there and let him touch, let him take the lead.

Which he was. He seemed to be approaching her the same way he would a chemical equation. He was assessing her, observing her reactions, deciding on the best plan to proceed with. He was slow and steady, lips on her neck, her shoulder, nuzzling, caressing, while his fingers touched higher and higher until they were brushing back and forth over her nipples.

Ashley swallowed hard, her legs quivering, her pulse racing. She was still clutching the Ben-Wa balls in her hand, and suddenly aware of the fact, she reached back for the table, intent on dumping them. The image of those balls, what he could do with them, was so hot and scorching she nearly moaned. Too much. It was all too much to take in.

His eyes followed her movement. "Maybe later," he whispered, his mouth rubbing over the front of her shirt, right at the swell of her breast. "The second or the third time."

He yanked the cup of her bra down at the same second she realized his meaning. Ashley sucked in her breath. He meant more than once, tonight. He meant all night. He meant… oh, boy.

"Sounds like you've got this all figured out."

With one expert flick, he popped open her bra. Why had she ever stupidly thought that Lucas was naive when it came to women? He clearly knew his way around intimate apparel.

"I've had a lot of time to think about it, and what I want."

He took a step back, and she whimpered when his hands fell off her.

"And right now I want to see you naked. And then I'm going to touch and taste every inch of you."

If he insisted.

Six

Lucas was having a hard time not just ripping Ashley's clothes off and taking her on the Pleasure Party table.

But he had meant what he'd said. He had anticipated this moment for years, never really expecting it could actually happen, and he wanted to savor it. Savor her. Savor the feeling that he could give Ashley pleasure.

"Well, that's getting right to the point, isn't it?" She smiled at him then, a naughty suggestive smile that made his gut clench and his groin tighten.

Ashley had been tense a minute before, but now she seemed to have made a decision to enjoy this shift in their relationship.

"Are you going to get me naked or should I?" Her tongue slipped out and wet her bottom lip.

She looked gorgeous with her flushed cheeks and her wild curls, with her shirt shoved up and the top of one breast peeking out of her unhooked bra. She had golden skin, and a tiny silver ring in her belly button above her skirt that made him want to lick it.

No woman was as attractive to him as Ashley was, because she was a beautiful woman and because he was in love with her. And one way or another, tonight she was going to be his.

"Oh, I'm going to get you naked." He tossed his hair out of his eyes. "If you don't mind."

She shook her head. "I don't mind."

Lucas's heart filled. Damn, this was everything he wanted, everything he could ever hope for. Ashley in front of him, desire in her eyes, and a sweet smile playing about her lips. Did she even know what she meant to him? He wanted to tell her, knew he shouldn't.

So he reached for her and took the shirt over her head, her hair tumbling back over her shoulders as the tank top cleared her head. He dropped it onto the empty box Ashley had set on the table to pack up her products.

Since her bra was sliding down her arms and was crooked on her breasts, he just pulled down the straps and flung it over in the direction of the shirt. Then stopped to look. To stare. To mentally groan and to try not to grovel.

Damn. His blood rushed, his pulse pounded, and his jeans were unbearably tight.

"Stop looking at me like that." Ashley was blushing, her hands on her hips, shoulders raised protectively.

"Like what? Like I think you're incredible? Amazing? Sexy? Because I do."

Her skin had goose bumps, her nipples taut.

Since it was hotter than hell outside, he knew she wasn't cold.

"Like I'm a cell on a microscope slide."

He had to laugh at that. "Never once has looking at a cell from any organism given me a hard-on. I'm staring at you because I think you're gorgeous."

"Since when?" Her hand was reaching for her discarded shirt.

Lucas stopped her by grabbing her arm. He'd cry if she covered up those breasts after only sixty seconds. "Remember that summer you went away to camp to be a counselor?"

She nodded, hand still poised to grab her top. He knew she would if he let go of her wrist. "I was eighteen."

"When you came home, tanned and confident, laughing and excited, I watched you. And I realized that you were beautiful. You've only grown more so every year since then."

"Lucas…" she said, and it sounded like a warning, but her green eyes had gone soft.

He knew what her warning was. He knew now there was no time to take it slow, to hesitate, to savor Ashley. Not this time. She wasn't sure of him, her feelings, what they were doing, yet she wanted him. Lucas was sure that Ashley cared about him, maybe even loved him, given how she had treated him over the years. But she wasn't in love with him.

That was okay, because he planned to make love to her until she did fall in love with him. Or at the very least until she saw that they had something really solid to build a relationship on.

If she got cold feet, it would be over before they could even start.

So he had to take her so far into pleasure, she'd forget to think.

Instead of answering, he kissed her. Hard. With tongue.

She gasped.

He took the wrist he was holding and draped her arm around his back. He pulled them together. Then bent down and took her nipple into his mouth. She tasted warm and sensual, her nails digging into his back. Lucas sucked, and he licked, and he sucked, until she was whimpering and breathing hard. Until he grew rougher and rougher, nipping at her with his teeth, flicking along her breast with his tongue until he reached for the other one.

The room was quiet except for their heavy breathing and an occasional random moan from Ashley that spiked his temperature and sent him sweating. She tasted so damn good, so sweet and eager and he was so completely sure that he wanted to spend the rest of his life with her. When he cupped her ass, a tight firm cheek in each of his hands, Ashley swore.

"Shit, this feels good," she murmured.

"You're telling me." Lucas pulled his mouth back from her breasts as he slipped his hands under her skirt. Her panties were silky, tight across her backside, and low on her hips.

He wandered around, his thumbs landing on her soft mound. "It's very hot under here."

"I'm sure there's a purely biological reason for that," she said, her head tilted back. "Like that the proximity between my thighs raises the temperature."

"Or because, biologically speaking, your body wants to be fucked."

"Lucas!" She stared down at him, her mouth open as he dropped down onto one knee.

"What?" He pulled her skirt down, watched it puddle around her ankles, exposing her pink panties. Of course they were pink. Ashley was a pink kind of girl. "All the signs of arousal are here. Heavy breathing, tense muscles, heated flesh."

Ignoring her fingers pressing down hard on his shoulders, he skimmed his thumbs under her panty line, sinking one into her slickness. "Wet. Definitely aroused."

"So this is all about biology?" Her voice had gotten sharp. "My body is reacting to a stimulus? How flattering. I suppose that's what has happened to you too, then. Your body is reacting to the arousing image of all these sexual products and their functions."

He liked her outrage. It meant she cared. Lucas peeled down her panties. "No. Not at all. My body is reacting to seeing you naked. My body is reacting to the fact that my fantasy is finally coming to life. My body is reacting to the fact that I love you."

Ashley gasped. He so did not just say that. "What? You don't mean that!"

And oh, God, would he just stop stroking her like that, right across her clitoris with the pad of his finger. She couldn't think, couldn't concentrate on anything but how she ached deep inside. About how good this felt. If she wasn't clinging to his shoulders, she swore she would have fallen over in a heap of quivering muscles.

But he couldn't love her. He couldn't.

"I do mean it."

Lucas was on his knees and Ashley realized that he was leaning forward, his mouth opening, heading right toward her like he was going to…

"You're not going to…"

His lips pressed against her curls, right over her clitoris. Bull's-eye. She jerked in surprise, in desire.

"Lucas, don't." Ashley wasn't a prude, not by any stretch of the imagination, given that she sold dildos to her friends, but she was standing up in her living room. She was naked, except for her panties still hooked around her thighs. Lucas was on his knees in front of her, and it was so damn sexy, yet so unnerving. Intimate.

"You're not, you can't, you won't," she babbled.

His tongue stroked her.

Oh, yes he was, could, would.

One of his hands was on her backside, holding her in place, the other spreading her apart for his mouth, and Ashley saw stars. Twisting his hair around her fingers, she held on for dear life as he moved over her again and again, his tongue incredibly talented. He dipped, he twirled, he slid deep inside her until her legs were shaking and her heart was racing.

She murmured, "Oh shit, oh shit, oh shit," as the tight burning need rose higher and higher. When she tried to ease away from him, afraid she'd shatter too soon, he just followed her, stalking her, never letting up for a second.

Desperate to get away, she almost fell off her stilettos. It felt so damn good, so hot, so wet, so perfect and she couldn't stop if he didn't stop.

The light from her teardrop crystal chandelier fell on Lucas's head, drawing out the caramel highlights in his hair. The hair that she was just about ripping out at the roots.

He pulled back far enough to murmur, "Come for me, Ashley. Please."

Like as if she were doing him some kind of favor. She would have laughed, except he buried his mouth in her and sucked her clitoris.

Her head snapped back, a low groan ripping out of her, as she exploded, spasms of pleasure rocking through her body. It was short, volcanic in intensity, and left her stunned. She shuddered, she shivered, she whimpered.

"Lucas, oh my God," she managed as she tried to remember to breathe, her body still pulsing from the cataclysmic orgasm.

Her legs wobbled when he let go of her. Somewhere in the back of her mind she realized he was ripping off his jeans, his briefs, tearing open a condom. But it didn't really register what that meant until he wrapped her leg around his thigh and slid into her, hard and possessive, sinking in like he owned the place.

Ashley came again. Immediately. And was so damn shocked that she did fall off her shoes, landing on the flat side of the sandals. Which only sent him deeper inside her as they both moaned.

Her inner muscles convulsed, her whole body tingled, as he pulled back and thrust up into her again. Going on her tiptoes, she kicked her slip-on shoes out of the way and held onto his chest, her forehead resting against his shoulder. She could smell his skin, a musky sensual scent, intermixed with the sweetness of her own desire rising between them.

He was moving in her, hard, steady strokes, and Ashley nipped his skin, wanting to taste him, wanting to feel and experience all of this moment. Everything felt hot, over-bright, sharply in focus. She was dizzy, out of control, holding onto Lucas, thinking that this was something more, something deeper, than what she'd ever had with any other man.

Maybe it was because they knew each other so well. Because they cared.

Whatever it was, when Lucas groaned with ecstasy in her ear, he touched a spot in her heart that she hadn't even known existed. "Ash."

Then while she was overwhelmed, in awe, he came inside her with one last fast thrust. Squeezing her muscles around him to further his pleasure, Ashley watched his face, watched his eyes roll back, watched his jaw twitch, studied the dewy perspiration on his upper lip with a kind of feminine triumph.

She had done that.

He wanted her. Desired her. Lost his control in her.

And that made her feel very, very sexy.

"Whoa," he said, after he had stopped pulsing in her.

Ashley gave a soft laugh. "Is that your scientific conclusion?"

"Yes. Based on the fact that this was incredible."

"Yeah, it was, wasn't it?" Ashley kissed his shoulder, then eased herself off of him, and stepped back with a grin.

She felt fabulous, her body still tingling and shivering with aftershocks. It was the rush of running a marathon and winning. Or more accurately, like scoring big at a Nieman-Marcus sidewalk sale. Sexy shoes for five bucks.

The floor was sticky beneath her feet from humidity, and she stepped back into her stilettos, lifting herself up two inches. The room was hot, suffocating, and her hair was damp from sweat. Turning, she headed on wobbly legs toward the fan she had standing behind her dining room table.

"Where are you going?"

She glanced back at Lucas, who was watching her, one hand unrolling the condom, neither his erection nor his expression looking like he was finished for the night.

Good.

"Just turning on the fan. It's hot in here."

With a flip of the switch, it started up, blowing cool air across her heated body, sending delightful little shivers through her. It caressed her hot inner thighs, her hardened nipples, her tight belly, and she lifted the heavy hair up off her neck to dry the dampened curls.

"This feels good, Lucas. Come here."

The air dancing across her was turning her on, and she was hoping for round two.

"Coming."

Perfect.

Seven

Lucas wondered if Ashley had any idea what she looked like bent over that fan completely naked, wearing high heels.

Given the tone of her voice, he suspected she did. Which meant she wouldn't be shocked when he came up behind her and slid his cock back into her.

Because once wasn't enough for him. He didn't think a lifetime would be enough, but he was hoping to settle for that.

It was stifling in her apartment, a side effect of being on the second floor of a ninety-year-old house with the original windows. Her air-conditioning was twenty years old and mediocre, and the sun had pounded heavily all day. It was probably still seventy-five degrees outside and eighty in the house, even though it was eleven at night.

So there was definitely a need to stay naked. And Ashley looked so good doing it. She was bent just a little, enticingly, her back arching, the bumps of her spine curving gracefully. Her ass was high and firm, her waist dipping in so it created an hourglass shape. Those blond curls of hers blew behind her as she dug her fingers in the crown of her hair, her head tilted.

Lucas walked toward her, sweating from want more than from the heat. There was just something so unbelievably sexy about the lines of her body. He dropped down on his haunches and caressed her ankle.

Ashley jerked. "What are you doing down there?"

"Making my way up." The cool air from the fan came between her spread legs and hit him in the chest. Lucas licked the back of Ashley's calf, tracing the curve of the muscle to the back of her knee.

She sighed, the sound almost lost over the hum of the fan. He kissed the soft skin behind her knee, let his fingers follow along behind his mouth as he edged higher and higher, inch by luscious inch. Lucas let his eyes drift half closed, let himself hold onto her other leg and nudge his nose up to the underside of her ass.

"Lucas…" she said in that plaintive way she had of drawing out his name. She had always strung his name out, sometimes in humor, sometimes in annoyance, sometimes in affection, but he liked this way the best, the way she sounded so aroused, so shocked at her own reaction, so sure they were being naughty and yet liking it.

"Hmmm?" He got his head between her legs, urging her legs farther apart. "Hold onto the fan, baby."

She did, even as she was saying, "This is crazy, what are you doing?"

It took a little maneuvering, but he was able to twist and reach her soft inner folds. He spread her, blew on her swollen, slick, secret spot. "Cooling you off."

Her voice was strangled. "That's having the opposite effect."

Allowing one quick lick first, he retreated. "Sorry." But he had ascertained she was still moist, ready for him. Important information since he was about to stand up and enter her.

"No problem." Her breasts heaved and her eyes were clamped shut.

Lucas moved out from between her legs, enjoying the cry of disappointment she gave.:

"That was cruel," she remarked. "What am I holding on to the fan for if you're leaving?"

"Because I'm planning on doing this." He aligned himself behind her, held her waist, and urged, "Bend over a little more."

"Why?" But she did it anyway, and he figured she had to know what it was he wanted.

Then he was nudging deep inside her, groaning as her vaginal muscles clamped around him and squeezed. "Is this cruel?"

Ashley clutched the fan and decided these shoes needed to be flung out the window. Lucas kept catching her off guard, and she was going to sprain an ankle with one false move. Since he had her straining and squirming and wiggling, it wouldn't be hard to take a tumble off the heels.

"If you start moving, I'll forgive you." For anything. Ever. For the rest of their lives. He seemed to know instinctively how to please her. And was doing it in spades.

"That can be arranged."

He was thick inside her, full, and when he moved, her tender swollen body ached with pleasure. "Lucas? Would it be rude if I came, like, right away?"

It was almost embarrassing how quick he could bring her to the point. She had never thought she was quite this easy. She was never really difficult, exactly, but usually she required more than three strokes.

Not now.

"No. That's what I want. I want you so turned on you can't help yourself."

"I think I can wait a second." Ashley licked her lips, which were rapidly drying from the fan blowing on her. There was something extra sexy about the cool air rushing over her hot body, teasing her nipples tight, while Lucas pounded into her.

"Don't wait too long. I'm about done."

"Oh!" Well. That changed everything. Ashley rested her head on her forearm and just felt. Just let her body absorb the thrusts, enjoy the brush of his testicles against her backside, and relax into the rhythm.

When he paused, then came in a silent orgasm, straining and digging his fingers into her waist, Ashley went right after him.

Only she didn't try to keep it quiet. She let out a yell to rival an Olympic shot putter. It encompassed all her excitement, pleasure, satisfaction, and a myriad of other emotions that she wasn't ready to deal with just yet.

Lucas's head dropped onto her back, his breath ragged as he stopped moving inside her. "Holy shit."

Her thoughts exactly. Ashley peeled her fingers back from the fan, not surprised to see deep grooves in them from the slats she'd been pressing against. "I'm going to fall down. My legs don't work anymore."

Lucas pulled out of her. "Couch. That's what we need." He took her hand and they stumbled the two feet to the sofa.

Ashley collapsed on him, letting her shoes drop off. Her breasts pressed into his chest and her thigh settled between his. With a sigh, she lay her head down on his shoulder, thinking it was much too heavy to keep upright any longer. "Well, this was unexpected. Incredible, but unexpected."

She meant the whole twist in their relationship, not just the second sex session so fast after the first, though that was pretty amazing too.

Lucas idly stroked her back, his mouth rubbing back and forth over the top of her hair.

"You could sell me anything right now, Ashley. I mean anything. That's how good I feel."

She laughed. Playing with his fawn-colored chest hairs, she let herself think about what Lucas had said. He had said he loved her.

What did that mean? She loved him too. Like a brother… well, okay, not exactly like a brother. But like a friend.

Only that wasn't right either, not when she was intertwined with his naked body. Not when it was very possible that she wanted to repeat this night. But there were so many complications, including her younger brother.

"What about Jason?" she said, thinking out loud, curious if Lucas had given any thought to what his best friend would think about what they were doing.

"What about him?" Lucas cupped her butt, squeezed a little.

"I don't think he'll like us doing this." Ashley had palpitations just thinking about her brother's reaction. He would be horrified. Furious with her. Of course, it was a little late to be worried about that since she was naked and Lucas had had her over an electric fan.

"I'm not sure it's really any of Jason's business. But why do you think he'll be upset?"

Distracted by the sight of his lips moving, so close to her, she ran her finger across the cherry redness of his lower lip.

He added, "You worried he won't think I'm good enough for his sister?"

That got her attention. What a joke. Ashley let her hand drop. "No, I think Jason thinks I'm not good enough for you! His best friend, fellow chemist, being defiled by his shopaholic, blond, brainless sister? I think he knows you can do better."

She hadn't meant to sound so whiny. But it was true. Jason had gotten the brains, and she had gotten the beauty. Her parents had told her that over and over, every time she brought home a "D" in Math on a report card or struggled through reading Moby Dick. She was destined to be in service, they'd said, since she was so good at smiling, being cheerful, making people happy. And what she resented was that they made that sound like it was less worthy than working in a laboratory. It wasn't, and at twenty-eight she knew that.

She hadn't at twenty-two, and getting a job at a computer design firm had been an act of defiance in some ways. Unfortunately the triumph was short-lived since she'd worked there five years and was still an entry-level employee.

Lucas frowned at her, his hand going still. "You're kidding me. Is that how you think Jason sees you? Is that how you think I see you?"

"Well…" Ashley didn't want to discuss this. She didn't know why she had sounded so needy. She didn't know why it mattered in the least what her parents or anyone else thought of her abilities. She knew who she was and she liked herself.

But the harsh truth was she was not the kind of woman Lucas Manning would want long term, no matter what his hormones thought. She would bore him senseless in under three weeks.

"Jason doesn't think you're brainless. And neither do I. In case you hadn't noticed, I think you're amazing. I think you're the most exciting, fun, beautiful, interesting woman I've ever known. I've known you for almost twenty years and I've always respected and admired you for who you are."

She winced. She hadn't meant to force him into extolling her virtues. "Thank you. I've always felt the same about you." But that didn't change the fact that they were intellectually incompatible.

Chances were good he would bore her too.

Only she knew that was a lie the minute the thought popped into her head. She had always liked Lucas, enjoyed his curiosity, his humility, so different from her brother, who bragged incessantly.

"I meant what I said before." Lucas turned on his side so he was facing her, chocolate eyes searching over her. "I love you."

His voice was so tender, so determined, that Ashley felt her resolve wavering. He sounded so damn sincere, and she felt that it would be so, so easy to just relax into her own feelings. It would only be a matter of a second and she could fall straight into love with Lucas.

It couldn't be that easy.

"We're complete opposites," she whispered. "You're responsible, I'm flighty. You have a master's degree and a title with a whole bunch of words I can't even pronounce, and I only graduated from college by a prayer."

Lucas didn't look concerned. He kissed her softly. "You have common sense, I have none. I have trouble remembering left from right and to turn the oven off when I'm done cooking. Don't you see, Ash? We balance each other."

She chewed her lip, wondering, worrying. It wasn't like her to get this worked up-usually she dove into relationships and thought later. Which was probably why they had all ended disastrously. And this was Lucas. Help her, she did love him, and she didn't want to hurt him, to mess this up.

"I know I'm annoying, Ash, I know I ask too many questions and I think too much instead of just doing things. But that's who I am, and I can't change that."

That got her attention. Ashley touched his cheek, horrified that he would think that about himself. "Oh, Lucas, don't say that. You're not annoying at all. I like that about you, I like that you stop and think everything through instead of just throwing yourself into it. I… I…"

Oh, dear God, she was going to say it. She'd never said this to any man, ever, and she was going to just blurt it out right now, naked on her couch, to Lucas, who was giving her one of those earnest looks she just absolutely adored.

"Yes?"

"I… I love you, Lucas. I do."

His brow wrinkled as he frowned. "You do?"

She nodded. "Yes." She did, she really, really did.

And she was scared shitless.

Eight

Lucas studied Ashley's face. She loved him. She. Loved. Him.

He hadn't seen that one coming.

He had hoped that someday, maybe, after much persuasive sex, she could be convinced that they could work out something permanent, and he knew that she cared about him… but in love with him?

That was beyond his greatest expectations.

"Like you love me like a friend, a brother, someone you've known your whole life?" He sought clarity of her statement.

"No, silly." She kissed him, moving her mouth over his softly.

Ashley tasted sweet, warm, and he liked the way she was sliding up against him, hand on his cheek, her touches tender and seeking. She pulled back and smiled.

"I love you like a woman loves a man. I love you in a way that is almost overwhelming, because it's so unexpected."

He kissed her fingertips resting on his lips, happiness crashing over him.

"But it's so strong, it seems to me that maybe somehow it's always been there, I just didn't know it."

Lucas couldn't say the same. "I always knew I loved you."

"Really?" She smiled, sighed, snuggled into his arms. "Why didn't you say something?"

He nearly laughed. "For all the reasons you just outlined. I didn't think you'd be interested in your little brother's geeky friend. Not when you were busy dating every high school football coach on the west side. I've never been into sports."

Ashley squeezed his bicep. "Though you have developed some sexy muscles. Why have you been hiding these from me?"

"I don't think I have been."

"Then I've clearly been an idiot because when I turned tonight and you were standing there with no shirt on, jeans, barefoot, I about had an orgasm just looking at you."

Now that was a sexy little image. And it was good information for future seductions.

"Now just to recap what we've established here, Ash. I love you, you love me, we're sexually compatible, and our personalities are the perfect complement to each other. Right?"

She nodded.

"So we can consider ourselves together. Permanently." He liked to know where he stood.

Her cheeks lost their color. "But Lucas, don't forget I'm older than you. When I'm forty, you'll only be thirty-six."

"But I'll be forty in my heart," he said, with a perfectly straight face, even though he was being sarcastic. He thought a less than four-year age difference between them meant absolutely nothing. Less than nothing. Negative relevance.

She smacked his back. "I'm serious. I'll be all old and haggard at eighty and you'll only be seventy-six."

"I don't think it matters at that point. We'll both have plastic parts and wrinkles." But just the thought of spending his whole life with Ashley made him grin. "Now drop the age thing, Ash. It doesn't mean a damn thing."

"But…"

He cut her off. "I have a tickle-whip, remember? And I'm not afraid to use it."

Her green eyes went wide. "What do you mean?" She licked her lips.

Hot damn. She was so sexy. He patted her ass. "I mean, if you don't stop borrowing trouble and looking for excuses, I'll have to use whatever means necessary to convince you we're perfect for each other."

Breath catching, eyes half closed, she rubbed against him in a way that had him groaning.

"Could you maybe do your convincing in my bedroom? This couch isn't really comfortable, Lucas."

"I can do that." He sat up, pulled her into his lap. "And maybe this time we'll actually make it to a supine position."

"What is that? It sounds kinky." She shivered with delight, the sound hitting his ears at the same time her hot wet center slid against his cock.

Lucas bit back a groan. "It just means lying down on your back, faceup. Which we won't get to if you don't stop doing that."

"Doing what?" she said, even as she lifted her hips and rocked on him again.

"Driving me crazy." Lucas set Ashley firmly away from him and stood up. He shook out his legs, every muscle sore. "Now where are all my purchases?" he said, to tease her. "Let's take them into the bedroom with us, and you can show me how they work."

Not that he didn't already have an idea what to do with them, but it might be fun to play dumb. Let her give him step-by-step instructions.

Ashley's eyebrows rose. "All of your purchases? At one time?"

Lucas thought through what he'd bought. Blindfold, handcuffs… sure, why not? Peachy eating powder stuff, definitely he wanted that. Tickle-whip… yes, yes, and fuck, yes.

She grinned. "Even the cock ring?"

Damn, he'd forgotten about that thing. "Sure," he said reluctantly. Maybe he could kick it under the bed and pretend it was lost. It wouldn't be that difficult to pop it either, he imagined. It was just soft plastic. "And the Ben-Wa balls."

Ashley's grin disappeared, though her breath caught. "We don't need any of that junk, Lucas. All we need is each other."

"True. Very true." He heartily agreed, except for one thing. He took her hand, started walking toward her bedroom, right past the tables of products. Spotting what he was looking for, he paused, turned to pull her into his arms.

"Ashley, I love you." He kissed the side of her jaw, kissed her bottom lip, kissed her nose, knowing there was nothing logical about his feelings for her, but for once in his life not needing the answers.

Ashley pressed her body to his, going up on her tiptoes to kiss him. "I love you too, Lucas."

He reached behind him on the table, his fingers closing around what he wanted. Flicking it open, he slapped one ring of the fur-lined handcuffs on her wrist and clicked it shut.

"What is that?" Ashley jerked back in shock, but he was already attaching the other end to his own wrist. "Lucas! You handcuffed us together!"

"That was the plan." He gave a jerk to test them. Ashley's arm flew toward him. The leopard print fur was soft and comfortable against his skin. "I'm going to leave these on until you agree that we're perfect for each other. That we'd be stupid not to go for it."

"Are you calling me stupid?" She flashed him a big smile, showing all her straight, white teeth. They were away from the light and half of her face was in shadows.

Something in his gut told him now was the time. Go for it. Grab for everything he had ever wanted. "I'll think you are if you don't say yes."

"To what?" She put her hands on her hips, which meant his hand had to rest there too.

"To getting married."

"Married?" Her jaw dropped. "Married?"

Ashley slapped her hand over her mouth. Oh, God, he was serious. He was completely and totally serious. He was giving her that look-that intense, expectant look.

"But we just… but we just…" she babbled, not sure what to say. It would be absurdly impulsive to say yes. It would be irresponsible to just leap into something so incredibly important as marriage without thinking it through.

Too bad she wanted to say yes. She wanted to be with Lucas forever. She wanted to make him laugh, and she wanted to feel his hand steady on her back.

And Lucas was logical, to the very depths of his soul. If he thought this made sense, then surely it must.

It was time to trust her own instincts.

"Okay. Yes."

Now he was the one who looked floored. "Really?"

She laughed, joy rising up in her. "You're the one who said we're perfect for each other."

"We are." He wrapped his one arm tighter around her. "But I thought I would have to do some convincing."

Then he brushed her lips with his, and she wanted to cry at the tenderness of it.

"Damn, you've made me so happy." His kiss was full of passion and love, his tongue gliding across hers.

She sighed. "Oh, Lucas, me too."

"I love the way you say my name." Then he shook their hands linked together and grinned. "We can take the cuffs off if you want. Or leave them." He gave her a wicked wink.

Ashley nearly came on the spot, but she thought handcuffs were more than she could handle at this point. Her emotions, her body, were all on sensory overload. Any more stimuli and she might wind up in a puddle on the floor. "We can take them off."

"How do we get them off?" he asked.

She stared at him blankly. "I don't know."

"What do you mean you don't know?" Lucas pulled their hands up to eye-level and studied the cuffs. "What did the directions say?"

Feeling a little panicked, she said, "I told you, I didn't try all these products. In fact, I didn't try any of them. I just read my Pleasure Party consultant manual."

Lucas didn't look particularly worried. He just said, "Well, I guess we leave the cuffs on, then."

What if she had to go to the bathroom? Needed a shower? Who were they going to ask to get these things off? They were naked, damn it, they couldn't just flag down a neighbor. "That's it? That's all you're going to say? You don't have some complex method of melting these cuffs off of us?"

"No." He shrugged. "I'm not wearing any clothes and I'm handcuffed to the woman of my dreams with very soft, furry cuffs. I'm not about to complain."

"That's a very male attitude." But she could see his point. It had to be almost midnight. There was nothing they could do about the situation right this second, unless she wanted to dig through all her paperwork to try and find the handcuffs' directions.

It made more sense to look for them in the morning.

"I'm a male, what can I say?"

Ashley closed her free hand over his penis and cupped it. "Mmm, yes, you definitely are."

He groaned.

She stroked up and down, pleased at his immediate reaction. He had swelled into a nice, thick rod under her fingers.

"We're not going to make it to the bedroom, are we?" she asked.

"If we hurry, we still can." He gripped her elbow, forced her hand to stop moving over him. "Let's go. One, two, three… run."

Neither one of them took a single step.

"Let's just get supine on these tables," she said, trying to push him backward by leaning against him.

He planted his feet apart and didn't budge, though somehow mysteriously his fingers had wound up between her thighs, exploring and stroking and digging through her curls to her clitoris. "I don't think those tables can hold us. The one right behind us is a card table, Ash."

"Then we'll have to improvise." Ashley dropped to her knees in front of Lucas, keeping her left wrist up near his waist so she didn't pull him down.

He swore. "What are you doing?"

"Isn't it obvious? I'm improvising." She brushed her fingers over the soft hairs on his thigh and ran her lips over the satin smooth skin of his hard penis. "It's so hot, so silky."

Lucas grunted.

She licked along the side of his shaft, from the tip, past the ridge, down to the end, then back up again. Holding him in her hand, she rolled her tongue over the top, taking up the salty clear fluid hovering there.

His fingers buried in her hair, digging harder and harder into her scalp, encouraged her. Excited her.

Emboldened her.

She closed her mouth around him and took him deep inside. Breath rushed out her nose as she rolled her eyes back in ecstasy. He tasted so damn good. She pulled back, filled her mouth again.

Lucas gripped her head harder, making little low growling sounds in the back of his throat. Desire gripped her in a tight little knot right between her legs as she sucked faster, her lips sliding along the moisture she left behind, her movements losing finesse as she lost control.

"Oh, damn, Ashley." Lucas started moving his hips, meeting her halfway with urgent thrusts.

She closed her eyes, gripped his thigh, letting the taste and sound and scent of him wash over her. Everything was different. Her whole world had shifted today.

Instead of finding a lucrative side job, she had found something she hadn't even known she'd been looking for. Love. With a man who had been right under her nose her entire life.

It felt so right, so wonderful, so passionate to share her future with Lucas.

She let her hand that was cuffed go slack, dangling in the fur and held up by Lucas, so she could concentrate on stroking with her mouth, sucking in her cheeks, and enjoying his body. There was no hesitation on either of their parts, and everything with Lucas was erotic, sensual, safe, comfortable.

And when he exploded in her, she was very, very pleased.

Nine

Ashley woke up feeling extremely satisfied and sore. Lying on her back, a thin sheet pulled over her naked body, Ashley pried her eyes open.

And saw her brother standing in the door of her bedroom looking like he'd been smacked in the face with a two-by-four. His mouth moved, but no sound came out.

"Jason!" She darted a glance to her left, hoping somehow Lucas had miraculously separated himself from her and was in the shower. No such luck. He was still cuffed to her, sprawled out on his stomach, without a stitch on him. The sheet was shoved toward her in a messy heap, leaving him completely bare.

"Umm… sorry." Jason closed his eyes. "I didn't know you, uh, had someone here." Her brother's cheeks were bright red. "I was just looking for Lucas. We were supposed to go golfing this morning and he's not home. Lucas has never stood me up for anything. I was just wondering if you knew where he was."

Ashley clutched the sheet to her chest and gawked at her brother. Jason didn't even realize that was Lucas lying next to her. It was almost funny. "Why didn't you just knock?" she demanded, starting to enjoy her brother's discomfort.

He covered his face with one hand, rubbed vigorously. Jason was wearing a crisp red golf shirt and khaki pants, looking efficient and clipped and confident, like he always did. Except a mug of coffee was shaking just a little in his free hand. She knew that hot pink mug with the funky daisies on it. It had come from her kitchen.

"I used my key because I wanted to see if you had anything to eat, but I didn't want to disturb you if you weren't awake."

"This is what you get for stealing my food."

"Yeah, well, I've lost my appetite now."

She laughed. The shoe was on the other foot now. "I guess we're even then. Hope was at my Pleasure Party last night and trust me, I heard way more than I ever wanted to know about your sex life."

"Hope was here?" Interest crept into Jason's voice. "What did she buy?"

"I can't tell you. That would be violating my customer confidentiality."

"Oh, come on! She's my girlfriend. You're my sister."

Since Jason still had his eyes closed, Ashley leaned over the side of the bed, hoping there might be a stray T-shirt lying around. Unfortunately, she forgot she was connected to Lucas. She yanked his arm a foot before she realized it.

Lucas groaned. "Ash, you just ripped my shoulder out of the socket."

Ashley winced and fell back against her pillow. "Sorry."

Jason's hand fell off his face. "Lucas?" His eyes popped open. Then bugged out. "What the hell am I looking at?"

Lucas lifted his head and shot a bleary glance at Jason. "Oh, hey, Jason."

Ashley twitched the sheet over Lucas's butt and prayed a shark would swallow her whole. This was so embarrassing.

"Umm, well, Lucas and I…" Had hot monkey sex.

"Well, no shit!" Jason said in exasperation. "What I want to know is why my best friend and my big sister are getting it on with each other?"

"That's a stupid question, man." Lucas yawned. "Give me ten minutes to shower and I'll meet you downstairs."

"Lucas, honey?" Ashley cleared her throat. "Aren't you forgetting something?" She lifted her hand up, and by default his.

"You handcuffed my sister?" Jason set his coffee down on her dresser, his face going from red to an alarming shade of plum purple. "That's it, I am so going to kick your ass."

"No!" Ashley squeaked, ready to fling herself over Lucas if need be.

But Lucas just snorted. "Relax, Jason, we were just goofing around. Can you go look through Ashley's Pleasure Party stuff and find the key? It's probably in the box the handcuffs came in."

"Oh my God. I'm going to be sick." Jason backed out of the room. "You're a dead man, Manning. Here you are, my best friend, and I trusted you to look after my sister for all these years, and this is how you repay me? I'm going to kick your ass the minute the cuffs come off."

"We're getting married," Ashley said.

Her words were smothered under a blanket of testosterone.

"You couldn't kick my ass with the cuffs still on." Lucas rolled onto his back and eyeballed her brother. "And I have looked out for Ashley. More than you have."

"What the fuck is that supposed to mean?" Jason's hands curled into fists.

Ashley rolled her eyes. This brotherly concern was touching and all, but they both seemed to be missing the point. "We're getting married."

No one heard her.

"It means that all these years Ashley's been thinking she's the family dumb blonde and you let her think that. You talk down to her and that's not cool."

Oh, that was throwing a big old glob of chicken fat on the fire.

"I don't think of Ashley as a dumb blonde. Do I, Ash?" Jason looked absolutely affronted.

Since he'd been telling blonde jokes just about since he'd started speaking at eight months old, she wasn't sure why he looked so startled. "Well, actually, Jason, you average about three blonde digs a week. You introduce me as your beautiful, but not very bright sister, and at one point suggested I would make a hell of a shampoo girl."

He frowned. "I said that?"

"Yeah." It was burned into her memory. Lucas's hand caressed her back, giving silent comfort.

"Well, that's because you're my sister, I care about you. It's my way of ribbing you, like a brother should. Like when I give you a hard time about shopping. It's because I'm really proud of you. I mean, you're gorgeous, and you always look like you stepped out of a magazine. What guy wouldn't want a sister so classy? But I couldn't let you get an ego about it."

"No chance of that." But her hurt feelings started to ebb, as she realized something for the first time. Jason looked confused, the poor guy. Maybe he wasn't so smart after all. At least she understood people, which was obviously more than she could say for him.

"Look, I'm sorry if any of that stuff bothered you. I didn't mean to hurt you, Ash."

She could see that, and it was a huge relief. It wasn't Jason's fault they had never talked about this before. He couldn't have known it bothered her if she never said anything. And she had always loved her brother, known he cared about her. "I believe you, Jason. It's okay."

"You were always so popular, so good with people. I never had any of that. My only friends were Lucas and the guys in the chess club." Jason grinned. "They all thought you were so hot. When we were in eighth grade and you were a junior, they all paid me five bucks to walk through your bedroom and touch your cheerleading uniform."

All the fuzzy warm feelings she'd been having evaporated. "What? Jason Andrews! That's horrible." She threw her pillow at him and turned to glare at Lucas.

He held up his hand. "Don't look at me. I didn't pay five bucks to touch your pom-poms."

"Nah. I let him do it for free."

"You didn't!" Ashley gaped at Lucas, who looked painfully guilty.

"I didn't actually touch anything, I just sort of walked around your room." He scratched the whiskers sprinkling across his chin and shot Jason a dirty look.

"Oh, my God. You're both twisted." Ashley shifted on the bed, a little stunned that she had been the object of Lucas's teenage fantasies. "Now, Jason, can you get out so I can get dressed? And please go find the key."

"Sure." Jason snorted and started to turn.

"We're getting married, Jason," Lucas said, his words arresting her brother.

How come no one heard her when she had said that?

Jason turned back around, looking horror-stricken. "Very funny." He gave a forced chuckle. "You had me for a second there."

"I'm serious."

They locked eyes. Stared each other down. Jason's gaze shifted to her. "Is he shitting me?"

She shook her head. "No. I'm in love with Lucas." Geez, it was so exciting to say that out loud. It felt so right, so real. Like it had always been there, and she hadn't known it. Ashley's cheeks grew hot, even as Lucas squeezed her hand, kissed the top of her head.

"Oh. Oh. Well." Jason shuffled his feet. "Marriage, huh?" Then his face split into a grin. He crossed the room and punched Lucas in the arm, gave him a half hug, with thumps on the back. "Dude, we'll be brothers for real! That's so cool."

Put out at being neglected, she said, "Hello… big sister here, planning a wedding, going to wear white… where's my hug?"

Jason spared her a glance. "You're naked, Ash. I'm not hugging you. And you might want to rethink the wearing white thing. Not very believable since you handcuffed yourself to a guy."

Idiot. "Lucas is naked too," she pointed out.

Jason jumped back. She grinned in satisfaction.

Lucas laughed at the mischievous look on Ashley's face. She knew how to rile up her brother.

For that matter, she knew how to rile him up too, but in a different way altogether.

Knowing he was grinning like the village idiot, Lucas wrapped his arm around Ashley and pulled her to him for a kiss. Her mouth was swollen, soft, her morning taste earthy, her curls tousled, her cheek still bearing the imprint of her pillow.

He was going to get to wake to this sight every single day for the rest of his life. He couldn't imagine how he'd gotten so damn lucky.

"If I find the handcuff key will you still go golfing with me?" Jason called from the living room, his lingering presence extremely unwanted.

Lucas did have to admit it was cool to think that Jason was going to be family now, officially. And he wouldn't have to worry about liking his wife's relatives. He already knew them all, and thought of Mr. and Mrs. Andrews like a second set of parents.

He would prefer to stay and roll around in some peach powder with Ash, but he had made the plans with Jason first.

"Do you mind, Ash? We've had this tee time booked for a couple of weeks." Lucas didn't want to leave her, but she might want to actually get some real sleep. "I can come over later and help you pack up the dildos." He owed those dildos a huge debt. They had brought him to Ashley's apartment last night. The least he could do was pack them in bubble wrap.

"Go golfing. I feel so good, this calls for shopping. But first, I have to visit my mom and my friends and every person I've ever met in my life and brag that I'm marrying the sexiest, smartest, most amazing man in existence."

"Do I know him?" Lucas joked, kissing each of her eyelids.

"Lucas," she sighed. "I do love you."

"I feel exactly the same. I've loved you for forever." It was perfectly logical, the smartest thing he'd ever done- falling in love with Ashley.

"Hey, guys? I'm not finding any key," Jason called from the other room. "But I did find some things I want to buy. This sex sling has potential."

Ashley rolled her eyes, groaned. But she was laughing. "He's never going to leave, is he?"

Lucas grinned, lay back down on the bed, and pulled Ashley over top of him. "I don't think so."

"We should get dressed."

"In a minute." Or a year.

"Ashley, what's a Mr. Right Now?" Jason yelled.

With an exasperated groan, she turned and called to him over her shoulder, "Why?"

"Well, these papers all sort of fell on the floor, and I was picking them up and I accidentally saw Hope's order form. She bought a Mr. Right Now."

"Accidentally?" Ashley snorted.

Lucas figured Jason's peek was as much of an accident as him making love to Ashley over a fan. It was more taking advantage of an opportunity than an accident, and he didn't think he could fault Jason for that.

"So what is it?" Jason asked again.

Ashley glanced down at Lucas and gave him a wink. Then she said, "There's a brochure sitting on the table. Read the description."

Lucas grew somewhat curious, his mind starting to spin possibilities for what could be given a title like that. "What is it?" he murmured, suddenly very aware of the press of Ashley's firm breasts against his chest. Her warm, moist sex resting over his cock.

"Use your imagination."

They were under the sheet, sticky and close, and Lucas had a very active imagination.

Jason's head popped into the bedroom. "Here's the handcuffs key." He threw a key dangling from a leopard striped plastic key chain in their direction. "We'll go golfing another time, Lucas. I just remembered something I need to tell Hope."

Lucas just bet he did. Then Jason was gone, and Ashley grinned at him.

"Worked like a charm," she whispered.

"Smart girl."

Ashley wiggled appealingly over top of him, and winked. "Now let's have our own Pleasure Party."

Hell, yeah. He could do that. Lucas planted his hand on her backside. "Sell it to me, Ash. I'll buy anything."

Erin McCarthy

Erin McCarthy sold her first book to Kensington Brava through author Lori Foster's website contest in 2002, and has since sold an additional nineteen contemporary romances and novellas to Brava and Berkley Publishing. Her debut, BAD BOYS ONLINE, was a Romantic Times Top Pick, and BAD BOYS IN BLACK TIE was a USA Today bestseller. Erin lives in Northeast Ohio with her husband, two kids, and two cats.

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