Jason Halstead

New Beginnings

Chapter 1

“ Kira!” Captain Sharp snapped, drawing the attention of his navigator.

“ Captain!” She jumped, hitting her knee against the steel at her station. She was tall and her predecessor was considerably shorter. The handyman on the Rented Mule hadn’t made it up to adjust the ergonomics for her yet. She clenched her jaw to bite back the pain and turned to face him. “Sir?”

“ It’s a milk run,” he said, grinning at her to show he was amused, “but have contingency courses plotted, this isn’t the core shipping lanes we’re flying.”

“ Yes Sir,” she snapped. “I’ve got two backup routes and a warning alert in place for proximity.”

Sharp nodded. “Good, we still on schedule for the jump in two hours?”

“ Aye, Sir!”

Sharp turned away from her and looked at the rest of the small bridge of his transport vessel. He was a private merchant that made money trucking goods for the highest bidder. The rumor was so far he’d only handled legal fair, but that was only because the right offer hadn’t come along. “Where’s Tarn?”

“ He was in the galley last I seen him, Captain.”

Sharp grunted, then hit the ship-wide intercom on his chair. “Tarn, report to the bridge!”

Nearly three minutes later a mildly overweight man with a scar running from his disfigured left ear across his cheek and nearly to his chin stomped through the hatch to the bridge. “What’s up, boss?”

Sharp turned to stare at him. “The galley is twenty feet away!”

“ Had to finish my sandwich, Skeet was eyeing it up.”

“ Skeet’s a songbird in a cage.”

“ Never trusted birds. I seen rebels running greenhouses on Venus using birds to communicate to each other!” Tarn protested.

“ You got problems,” Sharp said with a sigh. “Look, we’re jumping to the Altair jump station and heading from there to the mining stations. We unload mining equipment and pick up ore to ferry back to the smelter. There’s a good reason for anyone who knows our payload to be interested and Altair’s not heavily populated. I want to make sure our defenses are up, are they?”

Tarn snorted. “Best they ever been, Cap. Shields are ready and the damages from that last brush when was chasing that comet are fixed.”

“ Weapons?”

“ Yeah, plasma defenders are good.”

Sharp grunted. “Make sure you set up early warning alerts when we get in system, it’s a three month trip and I don’t think you want to be the only one up for it.”

Tarn laughed and waved his hand, then headed off the bridge. “I’m an ex-Marine, Captain, I’m always ready.”

After he was out of earshot Kira turned and caught the Captain’s eye. “What?” He snapped.

“ Sorry, Sir!”

“ Kira, you’re new, but so far you haven’t screwed anything up. You got something on your mind, you say it — unless it’s about me, then you tell me in private.”

She nodded and swallowed visibly. “Okay, um, Sir. I just… I thought there was no such thing as an ex — Marine?”

Sharp nodded slowly. “Yeah, me too.”

Chapter 2

“ Hey Kira, you looking forward to the cold sleep?”

Kira turned away from her locker, holding the shirt she’d just taken off over her breasts. “Eric! I didn’t know you were in here, I’m sorry!”

Eric Sackman shrugged, the movement going all the way to his prominently displayed penis. Kira jerked her head up from watching it bounce, blushing fiercely. “Got doused in some coolants while I was patching up a leak in the pushers. Something always goes wrong every time we jump.”

Kira nodded, glancing down at him again as he waved his arms to finish drying off the water that the blowers hadn’t gotten. He was a small man, or so she’d thought. He was several inches shorter than her and looked pretty scrawny in the coveralls he usually wore. The height wasn’t a problem — she was taller than most people — but now she saw that Eric was lean but also solid. And of what weight he did have, well, there was a good size chunk between his legs. She looked away, blushing again.

“ Hey, relax. It’s gonna happen from time to time. We got one locker room and one shower, even if there are two stalls in it. Only three heads in the whole ship. There’s six of us and not a one that hasn’t seen the other naked. You’re going to have to get used to it or…”

“ Or what?” Kira turned back to look at him.

He smiled, showing perfect teeth. “You know what they been calling you?”

“ What?” She groaned.

“ Legs.”

She shook her head and looked down. Her pants were still on and they covered her legs. She was tall; a lot of that length came from legs. She’d kept them in great shape with whatever aerobic exercise she could find, depending on where she was at and what she was doing. “Better than ‘Boobs,’ I guess.”

Eric laughed. “It’s not that they’re not fine…”

She laughed with him after a minute. “Okay, all right, I get it. Loosen up. I just… this is not how I saw my future happening.”

Eric chuckled. “Yeah, I hear that.”

She stared at him, surprised. “Really? I mean…Oh crap. I’m sorry. I didn’t mean anything by that. I’m just flustered.”

Eric laughed again. “I’ve evolved over the years to look the part, no offense taken. What’s got you flustered?”

She wanted to tell him trying not to stare at the enormous piece of meat between his legs, but her cheeks caught fire at the scandalous thought. “Um, me being half naked and all.”

“ I could turn around,” he offered without moving. “Or you could just get used to it and drop the shirt.”

She bit her lip as she considered it. Sooner or later everybody would see her, it only made sense. She nodded. “All right, but there better not be any new nick names!” She lowered her shirt and tried to present her chest as proudly as she could.

Eric’s face went from a smile to being purely blank, then he caught himself and nodded with a smile. “I don’t know, I can think of a few fitting ones.”

She rolled her eyes and tossed her shirt into her locker. She knew the blush had spread from her face to her chest but she refused to back down. She turned and grabbed the waist of her pants before she could come to her senses. They dropped and she reached in for a change of clothes. She heard a gasp come from Eric.

“ Problem, Mr. Sackman?” She inquired as sweetly as she could. She glanced over and understood immediately. What had been hanging impressively was now pointing directly at her — and it was exponentially more impressive. “You’d better put that away before you put somebody’s eye out.” Or spear me in the kidney, she mentally added. She shivered at the thought but tried to disguise it by changing into her workout clothes.

“ Um yeah, I’ll see what I can do about that.”

Kira glanced at him again after she finished dressing. He was still staring at her with an erection strong enough to act as a landing strut for the Rented Mule. She smiled again, knowing this time that he wouldn’t notice the redness of her face, then turned and walked out with a little extra sway of her hips. She bit back the giggle until she was out of the lockers and heading towards the passageway that circle the cargo bay. The cargo bay had been vented for this trip, but the access passage around it was the only decent option for exercise. She turned the corner and looked down the long passage.

Three dozen laps later she figured she was close to three miles in. A short run, by her standards, but life on a transport was never promised to be one of luxury and accommodation. She headed back to the locker room wiping sweat from her brow. She stepped in and saw Captain Sharp putting on some running shoes of his own. He glanced up at her and did a double take.

“ Check the display, Kira! If it says occupied you stand fast. Last thing I need is a bunch of sex-crazed men running around this ship because you walked in on them in the shower or something!”

Kira stared at him, thoughts firing off in her brain so quickly she couldn’t identify them.

“ Pick your jaw up, it’s okay. I was finished anyhow. Going to get a run in before we sack out. Looks like you already did.”

“ Sir! I didn’t- I mean, I don’t- I wasn’t-“

Sharp chuckled. “Relax, just pay more attention. This is your first run, you’re nervous. I get that, it’s okay. Everything set up all right in the nav computer?”

She nodded, finally managing to seal her lips together. “Good, get yourself a shower but be sure and hit the button on your way in. Last thing you want is Tarn stumbling in on you.”

Kira shuddered. The thought of the fat ex-Marine ogling her body made her nauseous. “Yes Sir. Sorry Captain, I’ll be more careful next time.”

He nodded. “I bet you will. Otherwise I’ll have to make sure I’m the one who walks in on you…”

Kira gasped, causing the Captain to laugh at her as he walked out of the locker room. “Never had the need for a lock but if it’s a problem I can see if Eric can rig one up.”

At the mention of Eric Kira’s eyes narrowed. “No Sir,” she growled. “It’s fine.”

He shrugged and headed out for his own run. Kira followed him just enough to turn and see the display that was now obvious to her. Letters that clearly indicated occupied or unoccupied, along with a red and green light. She shook her head at her own naivety and walked back in to the shower. She slapped her hand on the button to set the display to occupied, then went to her locker.

Her shower did little to cool the growing anger inside of her. She slipped into comfortable clothes for the cold sleep but instead of heading to the hibernation chambers she called up the whereabouts of Eric Sackman on the computer. He was in the engine room, how fitting. She hoped he was getting dirty again.

When she found him he was just replacing a panel on a console. She waited until he turned before stepping up and slapping him. Hard. Eric’s head snapped back and he took a half step away from her to catch himself. His own hand went to his cheek, but the flare of rage she saw in his face drained once his eyes met hers.

“ Oh shit, Kira! Oh no, you’ve already changed. Oh shit, oh shit! Look, I’m so sorry — I didn’t mean for anybody else to- Oh shit, who was it?”

“ Captain Sharp,” She spat at him.

“ Oh, okay, well at least it wasn’t Tarn or one of the cargo monkeys. Still, he didn’t see anything did he? Shit Kira, it was just a little joke, I didn’t mean for-“

“ Aren’t the ‘cargo monkeys’ your men?”

He nodded, looking miserable while he did so. “I was going to tell you but you just got naked in front of me I couldn’t think straight! Then you left and I realized I had to tell you, but before I could the Captain ran into me and asked me about a repair I’d told him I’d finished up, except I hadn’t really finished it yet. So I had to bust my ass to get that fixed, then I was going to come and tell you. But-“

“ But I run faster than you thought,” Kira finished for him. She shook her head and poked him with her finger in the chest. “I’m the new girl, I know. I’m going to catch some shit, I know. You can fuck with me all you want. You can make me run stupid errands and give me the shit work. But don’t act like my friend unless you mean it!”

Kira turned, still royally pissed off. She didn’t know what else to say or do. She’d hit, she’d yelled at him, everything should have been fine. But it wasn’t. With a growl that threatened to turn into a sob she started to walk away from him.

“ Kira!” She hesitated, but kept walking. The door was only a few steps away. “You’re beautiful!”

She stumbled, stopping at the door.

“ Look, I’m sorry. I’ll say it every day to you for three months while you sleep and I do nothing but stare at your hibernation chamber if you want. I don’t rattle easy, but the confidence and the sexiness you showed me just knocked me on my ass. I couldn’t believe it. And yes, I’m shallow, but you’re the hottest thing that’s ever set foot on the Rented Mule — even better than the girls the Captain’s brought back from time to time.”

Kira grabbed the hatch and slammed it shut, then turned to stare at him. She walked back over, her feet landing heavily as a message of her mood. “You fucking with me again?” He shook his head so hard she thought he might bruise his brain. She grabbed his shirt and pulled him closer. “Because if you are and I fall for it, I’ll shove your ass out an airlock first chance I get. Got it?”

This time Eric nodded with equal fervor.

“ Good, now shut up.” Kira stared down at him for a moment, her tall figure all the more imposing for her anger. Then she leaned forward and kissed him. He gasped, giving Kira the opportunity to press the kiss deeper and move in for the kill. She crushed herself against his muscular body until she could feel his interest pressing against her leg.

“ You like confidence?” She asked rhetorically. He nodded but she had already started talking again. “Take your clothes off.”

He had to lean against the machinery to keep his balance as he stumbled to obey her. Kira removed her own clothing at a calmer pace, though inside her heart was racing. She’d never tried the dominant thing before, it was exciting. Seeing him proudly on display again made her mouth water and her thighs clench. She was tempted to toss the dominance out the window and beg him to take her, but she wanted to make sure she did it right.

“ Oh Eric, I may be the bottom of the ladder around here, but I’ve got a lot of things you’re going to be doing for me.”

Eric’s answering groan was silenced by her mouth.

Chapter 3

“ Kira!” The navigator groaned as the words filtered through the disturbing images of her dream. She’d been reliving some very pleasant aerobic activity with Eric one moment, then felt as though she’d been sucked through the wall of the ship to be immersed in the absolute zero temperatures of deep space the next. She coughed, feeling like her lungs were coated in ice water. Somebody grabbed her, helping her up and over a metal ridge that pressed painfully into her ribs. She gagged some more, dry heaving until she could hear straight. Spittle hung from her lips and chills racked her body.

“ Kira, we’ve been dumped out of cold sleep, your prox warning is going off, what’s going on?” Captain Sharp demanded.

Kira looked up slowly, wincing at the pain in her chest, throat, and head as she did so. He looked pale and miserable, but his actions spoke otherwise. She nodded and forced herself up, fighting back a wave of nausea. “C..c…cold, Sir!”

“ Walk it off, damn it!” He snapped, perhaps a concession to his own condition.

Kira nodded and pulled herself out of the pod she’d been in. The others were either doing likewise or were standing around in robes. She felt a tug and looked down, her head clearing as she realized she was still fully integrated with the hibernation chamber. The light blanket that had covered her nude body was still on her, but she’d given the Captain quite a show in spite of it. She glanced up when she heard a scuffling sound and saw Eric was struggling into a robe and trying to join them. He brought a spare robe for her. That’s nice, she thought, then her view of her recent lover was blocked by the Captain. “Kira, snap to!”

“ Sorry, Captain,” she mumbled. “Never been dumped before.”

She reached down and removed the catheter, grimacing as she did so, then slipped the sensors that were adhered to her body and head off. She held the blanket tight and forced herself to climb up and out of the cocoon like bed, taking the robe from Eric with a grateful smile and slipping it on. Her feet were cold on the steel floor but she could tell from the Captain’s tone she had no time to worry about that. “Prox alert, gotcha Sir!”

Sharp and Eric followed her as she walked stiffly out of the hibernation room. Her body warmed and began to obey her as she walked, allowing her to pick up the pace. By the time they reached the bridge, only a few short minutes later, only a faint headache persisted. She touched the data port on her palm to the matching port of her station, then proceeded to mentally send the navigation system commands. The large display at the front of the bridge responded almost immediately, allowing them all to see what had transpired.

“ That’s not an asteroid!” Sharp growled. He turned to Eric. “Get Tarn up here now!”

Eric took off with barely an, “Aye, Captain!” tossed over his shoulder.

“ That’s why the dump from cold sleep, Sir,” Kira said. “The autopilot adjusted course but so did the other ship. It’s closing with us fast. ETA is less than ten minutes. It must be accelerating,” Kira muttered to herself as she fed more commands via the cybernetic link into the computer. “I don’t understand, even a cold dump takes hours — this hit my outer threat range seventeen minutes ago.”

“ Had some modifications done to our chambers,” Sharp explained. “You’re going to feel like hell for a week or so because of it, but most of the time it’s only temporary.”

“ Most of them time, Sir?” Kira turned to look at him.

Sharp shrugged. “Guy who done it said he only had one case of somebody suffering permanent brain damage.”

Kira swore. “Hey, you prefer to let them board while we’re still snuggled up in dreamland? What happens then? Pretty thing like you might get raped a few dozen times before they sold you as a slave. The rest of us most like get our throats cut — if we’re lucky.”

She nodded at the Captain’s logic. He said no more until Eric returned with a grumbling Tarn behind him. “Tarn, where’s your threat sensors? And the plasma defenders? Why aren’t they online and tracking?”

Tarn ignored him, staring at the screen and deciphering it. “Fuck, must be bugged up,” he muttered, then turned away to head over to the security station.

“ Don’t give me that, you said everything was fixed!” Sharp roared. “Get them up and running now or I’ll shoot you at them!”

“ Sir, we don’t know who it is,” Kira pointed out. “It could be another transport or even a naval vessel.”

“ Uh-uh,” Eric said, slipping up quietly beside her chair and pressing his hand against her shoulder. Kira glanced up at him and smiled. This proved he wasn’t the kiss and tell type and that he would still respect her in the morning. Then again, after the things she’d made him do in the heat of the moment she wasn’t sure she could respect herself.

“ Free agent would be steering clear of us,” Sharp confirmed. “Naval vessel would be broadcasting to us. This ship’s silent. You tried hailing?”

Kira nodded. It was standard procedure on seeing another ship, especially one with an intercept vector. “No response, Sir.”

“ Tarn?”

“ Hang on,” He grunted. “Must be a bug in the activation code, the program’s in there but it never executed properly.”

“ What about our guns?”

“ Enemy ship is out of range. They’ll be ready when it gets closer though!”

“ What’ve they got to use on us?” Sharp asked.

Tarn laughed bitterly. “This is a transport! No sensors worth a damn on here. Mining rig’s got better eyesight than this thing does.”

Kira looked at the Captain and saw the muscles in his jaw flexing. She felt Eric squeeze her shoulder again. Her own free hand went up to rest on top of his. “Are these Pirates?”

“ They’re not a welcoming committee,” Tarn muttered.

Kira stared at him, eyes narrowed. Eric gave her shoulder another squeeze forcing her to relax. She looked at the display again. Even though they could all see it she felt the need to announce, “Seven and a half minutes, Sir.”

“ Tarn, how long until they’re in range?”

“ Four minutes.”

Sharp swore. “Glad I spent so much on the weapons you recommended!” The ex-Marine wisely chose to stay quiet. “Kira, what’s our position? How long were we under?”

“ A little over a month, Sir,” Kira had already figured that much out from the data on the display. She input several more commands to analyze the stars and compare their position. “Otherwise we’re on course for the mining region, roughly two months out. The rotation of this system’s planets and stations are further from us than a return to the jump station would be.”

Sharp swore again. “No outrunning them either I bet.”

The display popped up a new frame with calculations and text within it. The answer was clear seconds later. “No Sir,” Kira parroted the system’s visual display.

“ You better hit those sons of bitches so hard they get turned into a wormhole.” Tarn grunted as he sat sweating over his chair.

Kira stared. She could see the sweat running down the side of Tarn’s face. She was still chilled to the bone and only the adrenaline of the moment was keeping her from falling to the deck. She glanced up at Eric again and saw the misery in his own eyes. He smiled in spite of it when she caught his eyes, which prompted a strange flutter in her own stomach. Her first real relationship and he was an engine jockey on a dead end tanker in the middle of nowhere. She bit her lip to fight back the tear, then smiled back at him. It wasn’t his fault that she’d fucked her own life up so badly that a desperate shot at running away on the Rented Mule was her only way out.

“ Five minutes, Sir,” She croaked loudly.

Sharp’s hand rested on her other shoulder, squeezing so firmly it hurt. Then it was gone. Kira felt her heart thundering in her chest, something she had read was next to impossible after being dumped out of cold sleep.

“ Where are Jeff and Kevin?” The Captain asked.

“ I told them get suited up and stand by for emergency repairs,” Eric said. “They can handle pressure leaks and basic electronics, I’ve been showing them a few things.”

“ Might need you in the engine room.”

Kira felt Eric’s hand stiffen on her shoulder. It might have been because she was suddenly squeezing his so much harder. “Aye Sir, I’ll keep an eye on things. Call me if I’m needed.”

He pulled his hand away but the warmth of it lingered on her shoulders. Kira set her jaw and blinked away the tears. After everything she’d done and all the sacrifices she’d made this did not seem like a fitting way to die.

“ Sir!” She screamed, looking a fresh readout on the display. “We’re being-“

Lights flashed and an alarm went off, even though nothing seemed amiss. “We’re under attack Sir!”

“ Damage?”

“ It was a relativistic projectile, no breech but it definitely hit us on the port side.” The inertial suppressors eliminated the shock from spreading throughout the two thousand ton ship. It was neither graceful nor pretty, but the Rented Mule could certainly take a beating.

A few second later another alert sounded, followed by fresh damage indicators. This continued for several more rounds, each spaced a few seconds apart. “Sir, they’re firing something large enough to clear our avoidance field but not big enough to do any serious damage.”

“ Tarn!”

“ Just a damned minute!” He growled. Then he slammed his finger on the panel, triggering the plasma defenders.

Sharp stared at display that showed the star field in front of them, watching a green mist streak out so quickly it was barely identifiable. It disappeared into the blackness, giving no indication of what had transpired. “Well?” He asked, his voice overpowering the steady chirps that indicated fresh hits form the enemy vessel.

“ Limited sensors, Sir,” Kira said.

Tarn let out a whoop. “I got the bastards!”

The ongoing alerts continued. “Why are we still being fired upon?”

“ Didn’t say I killed ‘em,” Tarn snapped. He went back to his display and began hammering in fresh commands. He snarled as two more plasma shots went out, both missing.

“ Sir, less than two minutes until they’re on us!”

“ Roll us twenty degrees so I can bring both plasma guns on line!”

“ Do it!” Sharp snapped.

Kira rolled the ship, firing the thrusters manually to save time. She arrested the roll too late, but Tarn had already triggered his attack. The star field display went blank. One of the frames on the main display stopped scrolling updated data.

“ What happened?”

“ Something else hit us,” Kira stammered. She was desperately trying to make sense of the data, inputting fresh queries to the system. “An energy weapon I think, looks like they found our primary sensor modules.”

“So we’re blind?”

Kira fought with her system several seconds before she slumped in her chair. “Looks like it…Sir.”

“ Shut those damn alarms off, internal sensors will still tell us if there’s a problem.”

Kira silenced the alarms and stood by, expecting to have to cancel a new one in a few seconds. She realized she’d have to do it constantly and wondered if there was a way to issue a command so that only a different type of alarm would sound.

“ Did you cancel everything?” Sharp asked her as the seconds ticked past silently.

“ No Sir,” she said. “Trying to figure out how to differentiate between the existing attacks and more serious ones.”

“ You may not need to. They’ve stopped shooting at us.” Sharp stared at the unmoving displays then turned to the ex-Marine. “Tarn, did your last shots hit?”

“ Of course! Both barrels down the throat!”

“ Your sensors show the damage before we lost them?”

Tarn grunted as he tapped clumsily away at the display. “Feedback from the sensor loss must have wiped out the logging.”

“ So you don’t know for sure.”

“ That range there ain’t no way I could miss!”

Kira glanced up and saw the stare down between the Captain and the security officer. She looked away, hoping she could ignore the growing tension in the room. “All right no, I got no way of knowing what shape they’re in now.”

Sharp stabbed the intercom button. “Everyone suit up now! Our attackers have destroyed our sensors but we believe they’ve also been damaged. If they board us they won’t give us the time to arrange a welcoming party — they’ll just blow the hull. Suit up and stand ready to repel boarders.”

“ Sir, should I-“

“ Go get your suit, I’ll mind your station until you get back.”

“ Yes Sir,” Kira hopped up and hurried to the air lock. She met Eric on the way and they grabbed each other’s hands briefly, then let go and hurried on when Tarn came huffing along behind them. The suits were unisex and universally uncomfortable. Kira grabbed the tallest one and turned to glace at Tarn. Eric looked up, catching her gaze, then slipped between them while the ex-Marine busied himself with displaying a very hairy back and butt so he could slip into the suit.

With him distracted, Kira shucked her robe and jumped into her suit, zipping it up quickly before fixing the helmet on. The onboard system powered up and did a system check. With a few adjustments it read off a list of green statuses. Kira turned to see Eric helping Tarn into a different suit, then waited patiently for the porcine man to be ready.

“ Get back to the bridge,” Eric told her. “I’ll help Tarn finish up, you’re needed up there.”

“ Be careful!” She whispered.

“ Careful’s my middle name, Legs!” Kira squeezed her eyes shut and clenched her fist at Tarn’s voice over the suit-to-suit radio. He chuckled even as she turned and stormed off.

Her station at the bridge was far from comfortable in a bulky space suit. They had evolved and improved over the years but still weighed twenty five pounds and remained bulky enough to make even a runway model feel like they were wearing a fat suit. She settled in as best she could and then had to break the seal on her suit so she could route the suit’s internal data cable to her palm. After she resealed it, and noticed the Captain trying to look everywhere but at her, she applied the external cable to her station to allow her direct input to the system.

“ Sorry, Sir,” she said, somewhat out of breath. “I’m ready now.”

“ Kira, the bridge is yours. Do what you think is best should the situation require it.” Sharp gave her tap on the shoulder that she barely felt through the suit then he turned and left the bridge.

She stared after him for a long moment, then turned back to look at the partially functioning screens. She swallowed loudly, aware that the only thing she could hear was inside her own helmet. “Okay, let’s see what we’ve got left,” she muttered, feeding fresh commands into the computer as quickly as she could think them up.

Chapter 4

A week passed without further incident. They were blind on the inside, but they remained alive. Of the pirate that attacked them they heard nothing further. Hour by hour they struggled to come up with alternative plans to restore functionality to the ship. Aside from cutting power to the engines, nothing was viable.

Eric had done a couple of walks on the hull of the Rented Mule to assess damage better. The ballistic projectile the pirates had used had cracked, bent, and done damage to numerous portions of the ship. Three thruster ports were damaged or destroyed, the main airlock was inoperable for the foreseeable future, and even one of the pushers had been damaged and knocked slightly out of alignment. The primary sensor array had been fused into a mass of metallic junk. Shielding that protected it from asteroids and incidental physical contact had done little to spare it from the high power energy weapon that had fused it into a single piece of metal.

As frustrating as it was receiving no positive news or answers, Kira found the best way to get through the sickness of being dumped out of cold sleep was to stay focused on her job. Between that, running, and spending a lot of time sweating in the engine room with Eric, she managed to escape the majority of her sorrows and remain hopeful.

The working theory was that an object in motion stays in motion. They should reach their destination on time. The computer would continue to track their progress, using simulated movement versus actual, and notify them when the time was up. It was ugly but with hand scanners and radio links inside the space suits they could still dock with the mining facility to offload their gear, taken on the new payload, and conduct repairs while they were there.

Until then they still had almost two months of travel.

“ So what’s your story?” Kira asked her lover as the sweat cooled on their bodies. “You told me you hadn’t expected to end up here either, or something like that.”

Eric smiled up at her. Kira felt her stomach flutter a little and she knew it must have translated into a muscular movement based upon the way his eyebrows raised. She was sitting on top of him while he reclined against a metal paneled wall. “Nothing too complicated, I was just in the wrong place at the wrong time.”

Kira could appreciate that, but it wasn’t an answer. “Isn’t everybody?”

“ I don’t know, I can’t think of a place I’d rather be right now,” He flexed his abs and prominent other muscles that caused Kira to blush at the tickle inside of her.

“ Good point,” she said with a wink. “And yes, it is a very good point.”

“ I’ll tell you mine if you tell me yours,” Eric said after laughing with her.

Kira bit her lip. It was why she could never play cards, serious thought required serious introspection. “This is about you, not me.”

“Fair’s fair.”

She pouted, then shrugged. “Tell you what, I’ll give as good as I get. Deal?”

He chuckled again. “So far you’ve done a great job of it.”

“ You’re a naughty boy,” she admonished, shifting her hips enough to let him know that she liked naughty.

“ Oh good, I hope you spank me for it later.”

“ Ooh, kinky too!” Kira loved their conversations almost as much as she loved the sex. He made her feel so alive and so exciting. She had already done things she’d never dreamed she could do with him just because he made her feel so wanted. She almost regretted what might happen when they reached the mining station. She hadn’t wanted to stay aboard the Rented Mule very long but Eric had made some very convincing arguments without saying a word.

“ You haven’t seen nothing yet, baby,” Eric promised. Kira felt a shiver run down her back. “Later — now tell me why I get to ride this magnificent beast instead of some uppity princess on a core world?”

Eric laughed again, then drew silent. He shrugged as he looked up at her. “You’ve got a keen eye, there’ve been a few uppity princesses in your place.”

Kira knew her jaw was hanging open but it seemed impossible to shut it. Her entire body felt like belonged to someone else; she couldn’t draw in a breath or explain the way her stomach seemed to have fallen through the deck of the ship.

“ Long time ago, Kira, but definitely wrong place and wrong time. I was a stupid kid who discovered girls while interning at an astrophysics lab.”

“ Sleep with the boss’ daughter?” Kira forced the question out as calmly as she could. It was stupid to expect him to not have been with anyone else but he was just so damn good and he felt so damn good, it wasn’t fair that she’d have to share him with anyone. She knew it was irrational but just once she wanted something completely for herself.

“ No, the boss wasn’t married. He wasn’t into girls either. No, I had too much to drink one night then ended up getting picked up by a Lady.”

“ That doesn’t seem so bad…” It did, but for personal reasons and not ones that made sense to normal people.

“ Not a lady, a Lady. The governor’s wife.”

“ Oh!”

“ Yeah, her daughter found out and she wanted some fun too. At that level you wouldn’t believe what people will do. Everything’s a game to them, it’s appalling!”

“ I bet you were thinking just that while you were slipping between their beds.” Kira ground herself down on him, trying to make it uncomfortable but she also had to admit she was kind of turned on.

Eric grunted. “Yeah, maybe not so much. But afterwards I realized it. They just kept sucking me back in though.”

“ I bet.” She twisted her hips, feeling him swelling to his full size again. He’d left her walking funny for days already, this time it was his turn. She was going to leave bruises.

“ The governor found out,” Eric said, then gasped as Kira ground herself against him. “I’d had enough by then, I just wanted to get away. He had me brought in and demanded I do the right thing for his daughter, considering her condition.”

Kira gasped and stopped. “She was…”

Eric nodded. “I had no idea. She told me she couldn’t. I mean seriously, these days that doesn’t happen without both parties consent, especially in those circles! She must have had her sterility reversed secretly.”

“ Wow, she really wanted you.” Kira stared down at him and felt how deep he was inside of her. She could understand why, he was wonderful. Well, he was a good man out of bed too.

“ But I didn’t want her,” Eric emphasized.

“ That didn’t go over well, did it?”

Eric snorted. “Turns out we’d succeeded at hiding our relationship from the mother too.”

“ Oh shit — you mean?”

Eric nodded.

“ How’d you get away?”

“ I’m banned from that world, the official decree. Unofficially I keep my head down because he has contracts out on me.”

“ And the child?”

“ Which one?”

Kira slapped him on the chest.

“ Oh, you mean her being pregnant. No, it turned out the doc she went to wasn’t legit. She got real sick from the complications and lost the baby.”

“ You’d better not ever do that to me.”

Eric looked up at her and smiled. “You haven’t said anything but I’d guess you haven’t had your sterility reversed.”

“ I don’t mean that,” Kira said, biting her lip briefly. The thought of having a child with him sent butterflies through her stomach. The good kind. She didn’t know him very well but she could see how the other girl had fallen for him. “I mean you’d better not decide you don’t want me.”

Eric slid his hands up her sides and pulled her down to him. She resisted at first but then let him bend her forward until her breasts were mashed against his chest. He stared into her eyes and said, “Impossible. I haven’t even figured out all the different ways that I do want you.”

Kira closed her eyes and let a tear slip out. She pushed her lips to his so he wouldn’t see her, then crushed herself against him at both points of contact. Eric groaned beneath her but that only prompted her to wiggle her hips and grind against him that much harder. In no time she felt him swell larger than ever and stiffen beneath her. A moment later he was gasping into her mouth and she felt herself returning the gesture as she tried to melt into him.

Several minutes passed before Eric kissed her again and said. “It’s your turn, but there’s one little thing I should probably mention…”

Kira sat up on him, making him gulp loudly as she slipped him fully back inside of her. “If this is bad I’m going to-“

“ I love you, Kira.”

“ Aw fuck,” she muttered, her eyes tearing up even as she tried to look anywhere but at him.

Chapter 5

“ You’re sure on our speed?”

Eric nodded. “Engine power is unaffected and the pushers are operating optimally. One took a ding but it’s been fixed.”

“ All right, it’s time to hit the bunks then. We’ll go under for four weeks, then back up early in case there’s problems.” Sharp said with everyone gathered in the galley.

Kira knew Eric kept looking at her. Everyone did, it was obvious. After his profession of affection she’d made an excuse and gotten the hell away from him. After two days of avoiding him she was thinking it was time to rectify that situation. Being without him just didn’t feel like fun. Not to mention she was starting to walk without any twinges.

Sharp dismissed them to deal with any last minute issues. She caught Eric watching her. She wanted to look at him. Wanted to send him a smile or a wink or even a wave. She wanted to give him any sign, but she was afraid. It wasn’t him she was afraid of — he’d done nothing but be perfect for her. No, she was afraid of herself. She forced herself to stare at the wall and clenched her stomach and fists tightly, wishing she could make all the confusion and heartache go away.

Kira opened her eyes, unaware that she’d closed them. She gasped and reached out, grabbing the wall for support. She was in the engine control room… with Eric. She looked around, her heart suddenly thundering in her chest. Nothing looked out of place aside from one of Eric’s utility knives laying on the floor several feet away.

“ Eric…what happened? How’d I get here?”

Eric swore softly. “You really don’t know?”

“ What? Did something happen? Did I black out? I used to do that when I was a kid. I…I even heard that I did some things during the black outs.”

“ How old are you?”

“ I’m thirty seven Terran Standard years.”

“ Impossible!” Eric blurted out. “You look like you’re twenty two!”

Still upset, Kira shrugged his surprise off. She needed answers, not more dilemmas. “Good genetics, I guess. Other than this trip I’ve never gone under cold sleep.” She paused before bitterly adding, “At least not that I can remember.

“ What about body mods? Cyber or Genetic?”

She held up her arm with the data input link on it. “Just this. I swear.”

Eric swore again. “Tell me Kira. Tell me why you’re here. How’d it happen? When were you born? What’s your story — you’re full story.”

She looked at him, chewing on her lip even as her lip trembled. Here it was, the moment where she decided what her future held. Maybe. She didn’t know, she’d never tried telling her story to anyone before. Then again, she’d never let herself begin to trust anyone before. “I’m not crazy! Please believe me, I’m not crazy!”

Eric stared at her, expressionless. “From the beginning.”

Kira nodded, sniffing back unshed tears. “I’m Kira Eskew. I was born at the hydro farms in the near Earth orbit. School was normal, friends were normal. Then I started having my blackouts when I hit my teen years. They came and went and I’m not sure what I did to get by, but I always had money. I got this data port during one of them, in fact.”

Eric whistled softly. “That’s one way to avoid the pain of surgery.”

Kira smiled sadly. “I’d rather have the pain. Do you know what it’s like having entire blocks of your life missing? I held different jobs, receptionist, model, aeroskimmer shuttle pilot, janitor, and a bunch of other entry level things. It was always something new, and I never really knew how I got them.”

“ That’s amazing,” Eric whispered.

“ Try annoying. Up until just now I haven’t had a blackout in a couple of months. That’s a record! Well, it was. I’d hoped they were over but I guess not…”

More tears fell, prompting Eric to step closer and gather her up in a comforting hug. “That’s why I ran away. I’m scared of what’s going to happen to me. And to you. I don’t want to wake up somewhere else and not have you with me. Or what if I don’t remember you at all?”

“ Five million Core Script,” Eric spat out abruptly. “That’s the price on my head.”

Kira stared at him for a long moment. “That’s…a lot of money,” she ventured. “I can’t think of a safer place for you though. Always on the move and no real address or clue where you’ll be next. No reason to trace your name either. Does anybody know you’re on the Rented Mule?”

He shook his head. “Just me…us, I guess.”

“ Well, that’s my story,” Kira said. “There’s a lot of holes in it, but it’s all I’ve got. I’m scared shitless of what always seems to happen to me, but I’ve never told anybody before either. Maybe I just needed to trust somebody to make it go away. Or maybe I’ll never see you again.”

Eric nodded, then looked away. When he looked back at her he focused on her eyes and said, “I’m fucking crazy, but I believe you. Everything you’ve just said, I believe. I’m willing to risk it for you. Not anybody else, just you, Kira.”

Kira found herself smiling. The smile faded quickly. “Why are you looking at me like that.”

“ Just trying to make sure every part of you hears me, so that way I’m burned into your memory to keep you from pulling the blackout again.”

“ Oh!” Kira smiled again. “I hope it works!”

He let out a laugh. “Me too. Now come on, we’ve got a date with some hibernation bunks.”

“ Don’t suppose the Captain would let us share one?”

Eric laughed. “Don’t even ask, trust me! The good thing is the time will pass quickly.”

“ Do we have time for me to apologize for running out on you?”

“ I bet we can squeeze it-mmph!”

Chapter 6

Kira woke up slowly, coming out of a fog that she had to fight her way out of. She remembered something about a conversation she had with another woman, but she could never see her face. As the light intensified she memory of the dream faded.

“ Kira? You with us?”

Kira groaned and opened her eyes, squinting even though the lights had been turned low. A familiar figure loomed above her. She smiled in spite of herself and removed the attachments that allowed her body to enter the hibernation sleep. A moment later he was helping her out of the tube and handing her a robe.

“ Want to help me out of my bed too?” Tarn called with a nasty leer in his voice. Thumb protruding between index and middle finger, Eric gave Tarn the universal gesture everyone throughout the Coalition worlds had only one definition for. Tarn laughed again.

“ Be at your stations in fifteen minutes, I want know what our status is,” Captain Sharp ordered. He headed off to his own quarters to change, leaving the rest to make do in the communal locker room.

“ If you hurry you can get there before the men,” Eric urged.

Kira’s eyes widened. She winked at him and hurried off, thankful that her body was responding to a normal wakeup instead of the forced one. Until she stubbed her toe going through a hatch, that is. Limping, she still made it to the locker room before the others and slapped her hand across the occupied button. Breathing an unnecessary sigh of relief she let the robe fall and turned to the full length mirror. She studied herself, noting how growth during hibernation was effectively halted.

Then again she’d always been exceptionally lucky when it came to her body. She seldom needed to use any depilatory creams, for example. Aside from her long hair that was currently died red her body didn’t seem to grow any. She’d wanted to get that checked out at a doctor’s office but the opportunity had never presented itself. Her finger and toe nails were similar, they seemed to grow to a set length but never beyond. She’d gotten used to it over the years but it still seemed bizarre.

Kira looked up, looking in her own eyes. She jumped and spun around, looking for the dark shape that was behind her. There was no one there. She looked around, her heart beating quickly in her chest, but still no one was there. She turned her head to glance in the mirror again but all was as it should be.

Kira straightened, then wondered why she had been crouched so low she was almost on her hands and knees. She’d been comfortable, but why would she want to duck? She shook her head again and walked to her locker, intent on dressing quickly. She definitely wanted a shower before she had a chance to get Eric alone, but right now she was more interested in getting out of the locker room.

No further peculiarities haunted her as she dressed and left the locker room behind. She walked past the four men waiting in the hall outside, with Tarn alone being the one to grunt, “Finally!” Eric just flashed her a smile and shrug, then moved past her into the room to change.

Kira considered waiting but decided she’d do better to get to the bridge. She needed the Captain happy with her, not frustrated. Especially if she was really going to try and stick it out with Eric. Staying on the Rented Mule made the most sense to her, at least for now. She knew he’d stick up for her, it was the least she could do to give him the same respect.

“ That was fast,” Sharp said as he entered the bridge and took his seat. Kira smiled to herself, she’d heard him coming and smelled the cologne he’d splashed on. It wasn’t out of any hopes of bedding her, she knew, but just something he’d done until he could get a proper shower.

“ Yes, Captain. I wanted to see if four weeks of sleep might have given me any new ideas on how to fly a blind transport ship.”

“ I like your attitude, Kira. This was a probationary milk run, but you’ve done a great job. Keep from screwing up and I might just keep you on,” he said. “Not to mention if I lose you I lose my engineer too.”

Kira realized she was staring at him too late to stop herself. He was grinning. “Thought so,” he said. Kira glared at him briefly then turned away before he could see the heat in her cheeks or the smile that refused to let her lips stay down. “Just keep it quiet, okay? Last thing I need is Tarn running around making cracks or thinking he deserves a piece.”

“ Tarn couldn’t get a piece with a handful of Core Script in the middle of a whore house!” Kira slapped her hand over her mouth, turning quickly to see the Captain trying to stifle a laugh. “I’m sorry, Sir, it just slipped out! I didn’t-“

Sharp held up his hand to stop her. “Yes you did. It’s okay, he’s a pig. He’s been with me a while and he wasn’t always like this. Couple of lifetimes ago it seems Tarn was a member of Marine FIST team One. He was a heavy weapons guy, specialized in exo-planet operations.”

“ What happened to him?” Kira couldn’t stop herself from asking. Marine FIST teams, First Insertion Special Tactics, were the best that the Coalition of Worlds military had to offer. The Navy was better known for its ships and vast presence, but the Marines did the grunt work. FIST teams were the best the Marines had to offer. Elite and unstoppable. Plus they had access to genetic engineering far beyond anything available to the regular population. Even royalty couldn’t come close to the military upgrades FIST team members could pick and choose from.

“ He doesn’t talk about it,” Sharp answered with a shrug. “Says it was time for him to move on, pay wasn’t good enough or something.”

Kira snorted. If he thought the pay babysitting a transport was better than the military pay plus FIST team bonus, he was even dumber than she thought. “Doesn’t smell right.”

Sharp laughed again. “No. No, he never does smell right, does he? Now how’s my ship doing?”

Kira nodded and spun back around, smacking her knee in the process. She swore and rubbed it before resting her data port over the matching port on the station. She ordered a status check across the display at her station, picking and choosing what to route to the main display visible to everyone on the bridge. A few minutes later she looked up to see Tarn and Eric had joined them. She frowned, upset that they had stepped foot on the bridge without her realizing it.

“ Kira?” Sharp asked, seeing her looking around.

“ Sir, we’re still blind. Sensors are useless and our backup systems are passive, useless for navigation.”

“ Tarn?”

Tarn abused his station’s buttons a few more times before he snarled and kicked it, leaving a minor dent in the steel panel. “Shot to hell…Sir.”

“ Our main external cameras are fried too, right?”

“ The Mule wasn’t designed with redundancy in mind, Captain,” Eric said. “All the sensor feeds were in our main array.”

“ Damn ship doesn’t even have a window I can look out,” Sharp muttered. “Figure out how we can fix that — all of you! In the meantime, fix what can be fixed. Airlock, hull, whatever.”

Eric left immediately, motioning to Jeff and Kevin to follow him. Tarn hung around a minute longer, staring at the back of Eric’s head until he disappeared. Then he, too, left the bridge. Kira glanced at her station, wondering what use she could be. She had dozens of skills but none of them seemed worth a damn on a transport vessel. Sure, she was a certified navigator, even though she didn’t remember what made her decide to enroll in the training program. She could pose for a videographer too, or clean the ship until it sparkled. None of that did a damn bit of good though. She punched her station and stood up abruptly.

“ You too?” Sharp barked at her.

Kira glared at him, then remembered her position and backed down. “Sorry Sir, just frustrated.”

“ Yeah, that makes all of us. Hell of a first run. You let Eric get some work done, you hear me?”

Kira felt the deck open up beneath her. Rather than swallow her entire body it only took her stomach. She nodded, refusing to look away even though the blush on her cheeks gave her away. “I’d like to go and see if I can help, Sir.”

Sharp waved with his hand. “Can’t make it any worse,” he muttered.

Kira jerked as though he’d slapped her. Was it her fault? Had she screwed up something and not realized it? He’d complimented her a few minutes ago, now this? Or maybe the Captain was just as upset as the rest of them. She nodded and hurried past him, trying to make sense of his moods and wondering if any of it was her fault.

Kira cursed herself for how clueless she was. Falling for Eric was just making it worse for her. Normally she was reserved and careful because she knew a lot more went around her than she realized. Now she had that and an obsession with a man dominating her thoughts. She was lucky she’d managed to put her clothes on right!

Kira stumbled to a halt, nearly losing her balance in the process. She reached down and pulled the waist of her pants out just enough to let light in. “Oh!” She gasped, letting go of her waistline and slapping a hand to her mouth. She really was an idiot, she’d forgotten her underwear!

Chapter 7

The repairs were finished, or at least as much as could be done with the material they had. What remained to be done they figured they’d take care of once they docked at the mining station. That left time only for stewing on their situation and trying to pass the time. Kira and Eric enjoyed the latter far more than the former.

During a rare public appearance, both sat in the galley eating a mushy mess of reconstituted meal replacement powders. Kira’s had an orange flavor that was supposed to be reminiscent of an ancient Terran Chinese dish. It amazed Kira that after expanding to live on worlds hundreds of light years apart, humanity’s diet still consisted almost exclusively of dishes that originated on Earth. The lack of successful terraforming and crop migration being largely responsible. Earth plants only wanted to live on Earth it seemed.

“ Captain Sharp said he’d keep me on so long as I didn’t do anything stupid,” Kira said to him. She leaned a little closer and added in a hushed voice, “He was worried if he cut me loose he’d lose his engineer too.”

Eric snorted, then coughed up some of the paste he’d been shoveling into his mouth. “Figures he’d know. I bet the others suspect, especially my guys, but Tarn’s pretty stupid. Jon doesn’t miss much though.”

Kira started at the name, then remember Captain Sharp’s first name was Jonathon. She smirked at how easily she’d forgotten that and put him on a pedestal. “So, would he?”

“ Would he have lost his engineer? Depends on whether you wanted me to come along or not,” Eric pushed some of his mush around on his plate. “Would you?”

Kira took a deep breath and smiled. “Yes. I’d be scared, but yes.”

“ Why scared?”

“ What if I had another black out and when I came out of it you were gone? Or worse, hurt? I don’t know what happens during those times. I’d be scared for you too — what if I left you and never came back? Promise me Eric, if that ever happens just let me go and move on with your life, okay? I couldn’t bear the thought of you trying to find me. I get around…trust me, it’s upsetting some of the places I find myself in.”

“ So you have done some cold sleeps before?”

Kira shrugged. “I must have. Like you said, I look almost half my age. That only happens with hibernation.”

“ Did you ever look back on what you had been doing to see if something happened?”

She stared at her plate, silent and embarrassed. She felt herself growing distant, almost as though she was trying to pull away. She jerked her head up, a gasp escaping her throat. “Oh my…Eric! No, no I never did. I was just never interested in it. But that’s not it. I think I just beat it!”

“ Beat what? I don’t understand.”

She shook her head, her bright red mane flying. “No, you wouldn’t. I’m sorry, I’m not making sense. Just now, I thought about your question and I felt shameful for never questioning myself. Never looking back, I mean. I just went with it because that’s what I felt I was supposed to do. There was always a feeling of fear of what I might find. But sitting here I started to retreat, to back away. It doesn’t make sense, I know, but I felt like I was retreating.”

Eric reached across the table and took her hand. She stared at it and smiled. Her vision blurred until she blinked it away. “Thank you,” she whispered, and squeezed his hand for emphasis. She swallowed and tried again. “Okay, so here I am feeling like I’m falling away and suddenly I realized I was about to have another black out. I don’t know if it always happens like that or not, but I think I stopped it. I got scared! Really, really scared! I mean stranded in a chunk of steel floating through space without eyes and ears scared.” She paused to share a chuckle with him. “Anyhow, I fought back. I pulled myself out of it and came back…I came back to you. For you, I mean. Or for me because of you…whatever, you’re the key here.”

He had a ruddy color to his cheeks that she found irresistible. She wanted to kiss him, but a sudden noise from the passage outside made her jerk her hand back quickly. Just in time Tarn walked in. He stopped, seeing them together, then grumbled something about them eating all the good food before he turned to make himself a meal.

“ I need to speak with Captain Sharp,” Eric said, nodding his head.

“ Have you got an idea?” Kira asked, confused by the abrupt change of topics. She knew better than to discuss anything personal in front of the ex-Marine, but beyond that she was as lost as she claimed to be.

“ Something like that. Come on, I might need some help with astrogation.”

Kira grabbed her plate and scraped it into the recycler, then she stashed it in the dishwasher while Eric followed suit. He led the way out and up to the bridge, moving too quickly for her to ask him what he was going on about.

“ Captain!” Eric burst into the bridge, making the man jump in his chair. “Sir, I- we, I guess, need to talk to you.”

Sharp scowled at them. “This better be about fixing my ship. We’ve been floating another week and nobody’s got a clue what’s going on. It’s Tarn’s shift on the hull watching for the asteroid belt but still nothing.”

Kira looked at Eric and saw him looking back at her. “Uh, Sir,” she said, “Tarn’s in the mess hall.”

“ It’s a galley, this isn’t an army barracks,” Sharp snapped.

“ Right, galley. Sorry, Sir.”

“ Might make a space monkey out of you yet…or not, is that what this is about?”

“ No, or not unless you decide it is,” Eric said.

Sharp stared at him, then finally motioned for him to go on when Eric didn’t say any more.

“ Sorry, just trying to figure out how to say this,” Eric said. He took a deep breath before plunging in. “Captain, when you hired me I wasn’t entirely truthful about my past.”

Sharp chuckled. “You think anybody on this boat is?”

Eric nodded the point. “All right, fair enough, but I think you really need to know this. There’s a bounty on my head. A big one.”

Sharp leaned back in his chair and crossed his hands in his lap. “What’d you do?”

“ Does it matter?” Kira interrupted. “You’ve got Tarn on here, ethics and morality can’t be too high on your priority list.”

Sharp turned an icy glare on her. “Loyalty is my top priority, young lady. I care about morality to a point, but with a proper sense of loyalty it doesn’t matter, so long as you’re not breaking any laws on my ship.” He turned back to Eric. “So, what’d you do? Kill somebody? Steal from somebody?”

“ Nothing that impressive, I just slept with the wrong people.”

“ People?”

He nodded.

“ This sounds like a good story, go on.”

Eric sighed. Kira interrupted again, “I don’t think that’s any of your business, Captain.”

“ It’s my ship, it’s my business. I’m judge, jury, and executioner here.” Sharp’s tone was exactly what his name implied.

“ I spent time with both the wife and daughter of the Governor of Plentiful. When-“

“ Wait! Both? Together? Like, at the same time?”

Kira rolled her eyes while Eric laughed. “No!” He burst out. “No, that would have been…awkward.”

“ I bet,” Kira added drily.

“ Awkward, hmm…”

“ Anyhow,” Eric continued in an exasperated tone. “The governor found out and I was banished, legally. Off the record he put a contract on my head. Five million in Core Script.”

“ Five Million?” Sharp echoed. “You must have really pulled one over on him!”

Kira smirked. If Sharp only knew just how ruined any women who’d been with Eric would be for another man he’d think five million was a pittance.

“ There were some medical issues,” Eric muttered. “But I decided you should know. I’ve been with you a few years now and it’s been smooth sailing, by and large. Sooner or later somebody’s going to find me. Doesn’t seem right me putting you all at risk because of something I done when I was a stupid kid.”

Sharp nodded. “No, it’s not right, and you should feel downright ashamed of yourself for hiding it from me. Matter of fact, if you’d have told me that when we first met there’s no way you’d be on the Mule right now.”

Kira saw the muscles tense in Eric’s jaw. She reached over and took his hand in hers, trying to coax some of the tension out of him.

“ That’s a port we won’t go back to though,” Sharp added. “You been a damn fine engineer for me and I don’t take that service lightly. You want to leave, I won’t stop you, but you’ve been taking care of the Mule for me and I take care of my own. Same reason I haven’t spaced Tarn for the dumb shit he’s done lately.”

Eric relaxed, then glanced at Kira. “You know about us?”

Sharp smirked. “Walls of this old bird don’t block as much sound as they used to.”

Kira wanted to die. She grabbed Eric’s hand and that alone kept her from running out the hatch and leaping into the airlock herself, especially now that it was fixed.

“ If Tarn’s in the galley, doesn’t that make it your shift up on the hull, Mr. Sackman?”

Eric nodded and gave Kira’s hand a squeeze. They started to leave but were stopped by the Captain calling Kira back. With a nervous flutter in her stomach, she waved good bye to Eric and turned to face the Captain.

“ It’s been itching at me for a while and I just can’t figure it out. That’s unusual, most things I can’t figure I don’t let get to me,” He began then paused to look at her.

Kira felt a weight press on her chest, making it difficult to breathe. Was the Captain making a pass at her? Or worse, was he going to extort her into doing something?

“ I was contacted by somebody with no name and no face, you see. Someone that offered me a tidy sum to take you on. Quarter of it was just to agree to meet you, then remainder is released when we check in at the mining station.” Captain Sharp studied her, his eyes trying to pierce the skin from her face. Kira stood steady. She had no idea what he was talking about. She had no relatives or mysterious benefactors out there. Her parents had died in when she was a child, innocent bystanders killed in an uprising over food.

“ I thought maybe that somebody was you. Computer disguises the voice, darkens and blurs the image, you know how it is. Looking at you now though, I see you’ve got no idea.”

“ No Sir,” Kira said. “I’m about the loneliest person the universe has ever seen.”

“ I see, just you and whoever you’re shacking up with, and they’re just the flavor of the week?”

“ No!” She fell silent after blurting out her answer. It pissed her off, what she felt was real! She’d never trusted herself to have a boyfriend or more than an occasional lover. She gave up trying until Eric. Or at least she thought she gave up. Her blackouts lasted months sometimes, maybe she was shacking up with any flavor of the week.

“ None of my business,” Captain Sharp said softly. “What you do on your time is your business, not mine. Long as it don’t bring trouble to my ship or crew, you can screw whoever you want and I’ll just sit back and be envious.”

“ Envious?” Kira asked, disrupted from her depressing thoughts by his choice of words.

“ Yeah, you’re getting some action and I’m stuck doing Captain-y things.”

Kira smirked. The last thing she wanted to do was smile, especially with the things Captain Sharp was saying, but she couldn’t help it.

“ You’re a good navigator. A little inexperienced sometimes, but you’ve also come up with some things I wouldn’t have expected. I did a little checking into you, but everything checks out fine even if you like to move around a lot. I wasn’t supposed to — that mysterious benefactor of yours wanted me to take you on sight unseen. I can’t operate like that. I tell you what though, I’ll split this signing bonus with you fifty — fifty if you keep your head on your shoulders, you keep Eric in line, you don’t go disrupting my ship, and if you can come up with some way of keeping us from smashing the Mule to pieces when it comes docking time.”

Kira stared at him until her eyes started to hurt from the strain. She nodded and looked away, her eyes going to her station. “Yes Sir,” she said softly. “But Sir, if Eric leaves, I have to go with him. He’s all I’ve got.”

“ I understand, Kira. Trust me, I understand.”

She looked up at him sharply. “Was there someone…”

Sharp’s eyes focused and he looked at her. He chuckled and shook his head. “A girl? Naw, they just hold a good man back. Look around you, the Mule. She’s my pride and joy. She might not be much but she means I’m a free man in charge of my own life. You don’t turn your back on that sort of thing, not if you got two working grey cells between your ears.”

Kira thought his sentimentality over the transport they were on was silly, but aside from a raised eyebrow she tried to keep it off her face. Sharp chuckled. “That’s all right, I’ve got your secrets, you can keep mine too.”

Kira smiled. It wasn’t much, but it was something. She nodded and went to her station, sitting down and plugging herself into the data port to try and think outside of the box. No sooner had she sat down then her stomach felt funny, as though it had moved without her body going with it. It wasn’t an emotional lurch, nor was it a reaction to a bad lunch. She frowned and started working on her station, losing herself as she input data into it.

“ Sir!” Kira gasped a few minutes later. She stood up and turned to face him. “We’ve just been damaged!”

“ What? By another ship? We’re under fire?”

“ No…well, I don’t think so. Passive sensors aren’t picking up anything. There was an explosion aft.”

“ Internal?”

“ External. Our engines are fine but the pushers have readings all over the place!”

Sharp slammed his hand down on the intercom. “All hands report!” He turned back to her. “Get your boyfriend to check the damage out!”

Kira’s cheeks burned even as she felt a small thrill deep in her heart from hearing the words spoken publicly. She picked up a microphone and triggered the suit radio channel. “Eric, do you read? This is Kira on the bridge of the Rented Mule.”

“ Hang on, Kira, something just happened. Damn near ripped my tether off and snapped my spine. I’m checking it out now,” Eric said.

Kira sucked in a breath, worried for him. “Be careful,” she whispered into the radio. “Check the pushers.”

Tarn was the last to report to the bridge, as usual. Jeff and Kevin stood by, looking uncomfortable even though Kevin was trying to overcompensate by leaning casually against a bulkhead. Sharp held up his hand and looked at Kira, waiting for Eric to report in. His timing was impeccable.

“ Kira, something blew up. I don’t know if we were hit or what but all four main pushers are damaged. One and three are out complete, two is operating at about twenty percent and four is close to eighty percent, but its orientation has been shifted. We’re drifting off course, I recommend we shut them down to fix or we’ll have to burn fuel with the thrusters to compensate.”

Kira turned the Sharp while Jeff and Kevin both gasped. Tarn spat out something vile but offered nothing more. “Captain, the pushers maintain thrust, losing them won’t slow us down it just prevents us from accelerating further. Our intent was to use them until we found the mining belt then rotate to slow down and dock. Shutting them down won’t hurt us other than making us take longer.”

“ Longer? We’re already overdue!” Sharp spat out. He gripped the arm of his chair tightly then snapped, “Turn them off. We fix them and figure out where the hell we’re at!”

“ Sir, we don’t-“

“ You find a fucking way to do it! There’s stars out there, right? Figure out how far they are and triangulate our position. They did it five hundred years ago sailing on water on Earth, I think we’re a little bit more educated than they were!”

Kira paled and went to answer him, but Sharp was already up and headed out the door. “Tarn, stand ready in case this was an attack. Jeff, Kevin, get out there and help Eric conduct repairs.”

They dispersed quickly, asking no questions and offering no problems. Even Tarn moved efficiently, something Kira had never seen before. She bit her lip, trying to figure out what was bothering her, then turned back to her station. The ship was dying. Every event took another chunk of it from them, leaving them more and more stranded.

A ship in the core systems had a chance of recovery. For them, stranded somewhere near the rim, there was little hope unless they could make it happen. Even if they could generate a distress beacon it would take weeks, months, or years for it to be heard, then twice as long for help to come. Twice as long at best. She fought down a rising wave of panic in her, blinking back sudden tears, and focused instead on trying to figure out ways to locate the needle in the haystack that the Rented Mule was.

Chapter 8

“ So what happened?” Sharp demanded once Eric was back on the bridge. He as limping, Kira noticed, and seemed thoroughly exhausted.

“ The pushers are ionic, slow but powerful thrust over time,” He said. The Captain scowled at him. “Right, you know that, sorry. Well the point is they wouldn’t explode on their own. The damage wasn’t internal.”

“ So we were attacked?” Kira interrupted with a squeak in her voice.

“ I can’t say for certain,” Eric said. “I mean, if we were, why haven’t they followed it up? We’re floating in space with nothing but thrusters right now and not enough fuel for them to make a difference outside of dodging some rocks. And that’s if we could see to use them!”

“ Captain, I had an idea about that,” Kira interrupted again.

“ That’s why I never had a women on my ship before, they can’t keep their damn mouths shut!”

Kira’s head jerked back in surprise at the rebuke. She recovered quickly, her idea had merit, damn it. She glared back at him and took the risk of sticking her tongue out. The Captain’s eyes widened and a laugh burst from his lips. “All right,” he said, “out with it.”

“ Eric can reroute the nav controls to the hull. I can patch myself in from there, in a suit, and visually steer the ship when we get to the asteroid belt.”

“ Manually steering a ship the size of the Rented Mule? You’ve got balls, Kira, I’ll give you that!” Sharp said. He leaned back and clasped his hands together, pondering the idea. “You really think you can do it? Some pretty intense calculations have to be made to dock a ship, let alone dodge the rocks floating around.”

Kira shrugged. “I have to try, what other option do we have?”

Sharp nodded. “All right, I’ll think about it, now about this damage…”

“ It wasn’t just a single hit. Either we’ve been sabotaged or there’s a damn good gunner out there,” Eric said.

“ Sabotage?” Sharp’s eyes narrowed. He stared hard at both of them.

“ I haven’t been out of the ship yet,” Kira pointed out.

“ I damn near had my spine broke when we were hit — I was outside of the inertial suppressor field,” Eric said.

Sharp grunted. His fingers tapped a cadence on the arm of his chair.

“ Sir, Tarn came back early from his shift, remember?”

“ You think Tarn did this?”

“ Does anybody else have knowledge of how to rig an explosion and make it look like an accident or an external attack?”

Sharp opened and closed his mouth. He growled and stood up. “Weapons locker now, you two are with me.”

“ Captain, do you really think Tarn would do this? He’s stranded with us too!” Eric said, following behind the Captain as he walked briskly down the passage.

“ Any chance he overheard you talking about the bounty on your head?” Sharp snapped.

Kira gasped, drawing looks from the other two. She waved her hand. “It’s nothing, I just hadn’t thought of that is all.”

The rounded a corner and stopped at a hatch. Captain Sharp unlocked the door with a retinal scan then stepped in and beckoned them to follow. He stopped, causing Eric and Kira to run into him. “Son of a bitch! I’m going to kill him with my bare hands!”

“ Sir, if he was a FIST, he’s not going to be easy to kill,” Kira pointed out. “Even if he is old and fat.”

The weapons locker was virtually empty. All that remained were a couple of low grade laser pistols with output ratings low enough to require several seconds for a burn through on an unarmored human target. An alarm rang through the ship, making Eric jump. Sharp turned with a snarl and started back towards the hatch.

“ Sir, wait!” Kira spotted a display and, near it, a data port. She hurried over and pushed her hand against it, then started commanding the computer to display the source of the alarm. “Our passive sensors picked up an active sensor hit. And there’s another, they’re coming in fast!”

“ They? How many are there?”

“ Looks like five, no si- nine of them Sir.”

“ Nine? Why didn’t you see nine ships out there?”

“ Sir, they may not be ships. Could be EVA suits. They disable us then send in a boarding party to take control of the ship. After it’s secured, they bring in theirs and tow us off for salvage.” She suggested.

Kira saw a strange look in Eric’s eyes. “What? It makes sense! That’s what I’d do.”

“ You have a history of disabling and stealing ships?”

“ Well no, I just mean when you think about it and break it down…”

Eric went over and grabbed both of the pistols. He handed one to the Captain and the other to Kira. She looked at it with wide eyes. “I don’t- I’ve never used a gun before!”

“ Me either, but I’ve got a hunch you’ll be a better shot than I would.” Eric wouldn’t look her in the eyes as he spoke.

Kira slipped it into the waist of her pants without thinking. She turned to see the Captain watching the two of them. “All right, these things will be useless against an armed and armored boarding party, but maybe if we don’t fire them they won’t know it. You think they’ll override the airlock or blow a hole in the hull?”

“ If they’ve got inside help they’ll use the air lock. Or if they want to use the ship themselves, they’ll need it pressurized,” Eric theorized. “Doesn’t make me a betting man.”

Sharp’s laugh was bitter. “You just wagered all our lives.”

Eric swore. Kira’s eyes widened but she gave him a supportive smile. “If it makes you feel any better I’ll even take off my clothes to show my support.”

“ Remember when I said to make sure you don’t disrupt my crew or complicate things? That goes double when we’re repelling boarders!”

Eric chuckled. “Had that talk, did you? Just think of what it might do to the pirates!”

Kira turned, having heard it first. Her pistol was out of her pants and pointed at the open hatch before Tarn rounded the corner and pulled up short. Sharp swore and pointed his own pistol at the man. “We beat you here, Tarn?” He asked.

“ Yeah, now put those useless things down. You wasn’t on the bridge so I brought you these,” Tarn grabbed the straps over his shoulder and pulled off two assault plasma rifles. “Anybody ever shoot one of these?”

Kira felt Eric looking at her from the corner of her eye. She glared at Tarn a minute longer than lowered her pistol. She glanced at her lover and saw him still looking at her. “What? No, I’ve never shot one. I don’t even know what kind of gun it is!”

“ You handled that pistol pretty well,” Tarn observed.

“ Beginner’s luck,” she said through clenched teeth.

“ Give me one,” Sharp said, stepping forward and taking the rifle. He checked the weapon over quickly, then looked at Tarn until the ex-Marine gave him a quick rundown of the weapon. When he was finished the Captain fixed him with a stare. “What happened to the rest of the weapons?”

Tarn pointed at the two plasma rifles. “Traded ‘em for these. These babies are mil-spec. Not heavy duty like I’m used to, but good enough for pirates. Not what they use these days, that’s how I could get a break on ‘em.”

“ All my weapons for these?” Sharp persisted.

Tarn shrugged. “Wait till you see one in action.”

Sharp scowled and turned to Eric. He handed him the laser pistol. “Kira, patch back to the computer and let Jeff and Kevin know to grab whatever they can for a weapon and lay low.”

Kira did as she’d been told, a moment later the synthetic voice of the ship’s computer came across broadcasting throughout the ship. While she was there she checked on the progress of the boarding party. “Sir, based on the rate of closure they should reach us in a few more minutes.”

“ Don’t you want them to be with us?” Eric asked.

“ You left ‘em on the hull or are they on the ship?”

“ Shit!”

“ Yeah, that’s why Kira sent out the message. The computer will have broadcast on the suit’s frequency as well,” Sharp said.

“ That’s why he’s the Captain,” Kira said.

Eric shot her a dark look but couldn’t hold it.

“ Main airlock, let’s go!”

They filed out, falling in behind Tarn and the Captain. Kira’s eyes went to the Tarn’s rolls, noticing the higher quality pistol at his hip. She also picked out a bulge in his boot that she assumed was a backup gun. A moment later as he stepped over the entry to another hatch she saw his shirt rise enough to display the handle of a high tech combat knife.

She gasped as Eric grabbed her hand. She glanced at him and he nodded for her to hold back with him. She did, asking him the question with her eyes that she dared not utter aloud. He pulled her after him, turning down a passage to the crew’s bunkroom.

“ Baby, this isn’t the best time for this,” Kira said. “I’ll admit, I can’t think of another time when we’d have the bunks to ourselves though.”

Eric snorted. “Open your locker.”

“ Eric?”

“ Do it!”

Kira jerked back at his tone. She nodded and turned to the wall with the crew’s storage lockers in it. It scanned her eye, releasing the lock, and she opened it up before stepping back. “There, you want to go through my underwear now?”

“ Maybe,” Eric said. He scanned everything quickly, then started pulling open the drawers and rooting around in them.

“ Eric, seriously, what are you doing?”

“ I knew it!” He gloated. “This drawer doesn’t track right, hang on.” He fiddled with the drawer for a moment before he pulled it out of the locker and set it on the floor. He reached back in and pulled out a slim box that had been stashed beneath it. “Open this.”

Kira looked at it and felt herself start to retreat inward again. She shook her head, not at the action, but at the thought of losing herself. With a mewl of frustration, she swallowed past the lump in her throat and reached forward to press both her thumbs against the ID scanners on it. It chirped and clicked, letting her know the locks were released.

She opened the case and let loose the breath she had not known she was holding. Inside was a folded piece of cloth that shimmered in the light. Eric let out his own gasp, drawing Kira’s gaze. “I thought there’d be something else.”

Kira reached in with trembling hands and picked it up. It unfolded, hanging loosely in her hands until she stretched it taut as she held it up. “What is that? Lingerie?”

She shook her head. “It’s a bodysuit designed to diffuse energy weapons. It offers protection against any radiant beam weapon, but not something like a plasma weapon. Those have a highly energized form of matter.”

“ How do you know that?”

She looked at him and saw the pale color of his cheeks. “Eric, this is mine. I don’t know how, I’ve never seen it before, but it opened to my thumb prints. And I can’t think of a better time to find out.”

“ Find out what?” His question went unanswered. She stood up and stripped off her clothes, standing nude in front of him in the single least sexual moment she could ever remember being in. She slipped the diffusion suit on, pulling the shimmering material into place and noting how it fit her perfectly.

“ Wow,” Eric whispered. “Pretty crude of me, but you’re beautiful.”

Kira smirked. “That is crude, but there’s never a bad time to tell me I’m beautiful. What I need to know is how you knew it was there?”

Eric fell silent. She saw him struggling internally. His eyes dropped and he gasped. She followed his gaze and saw what had stolen his breath. She dropped to her knees and reached in, pulling out the strange pieces of metal that the bodysuit had hidden. Her hands slid across them, feeling a sense of familiarity even though she had no idea what she was doing. She looked at Eric, meeting his gaze, and then closed her eyes. Her hands worked the items, putting them together in a smooth and practiced manner that left a dryness in her mouth.

When Kira opened her eyes she held a rifle in her hand that was light weight and possessed a deadly beauty. Her eyes went to a magazine that was loaded full of ellipsoid shapes, with each narrow end coming to a point. She slipped it into the rifle and cycled a round into the chamber.

“ Damn…”

“ Yeah,” Kira said softly. She looked up abruptly. “Shit! The others! We’ve got to help them.”

“ You really know how to use that?” Eric stood up and asked.

Kira rose as well. “No, but I’ve got a hunch I’ll figure it out. Come on! And Eric, you’re going to tell me how you knew about this later. I don’t even want to think about it right now, but as soon as this is over I’m going to seriously freak out and either I’m going to need you there to hold me or I’m going to need you there so I can slap you silly.”

Eric grinned. “So long as you need me.” He followed her out of the bunkroom and back towards the main airlock where their shipmates were presumably waiting for them.

Chapter 9

They paused at the top of the stair well that led down to the passage with the airlock. Sharp shouted something that was drowned out by the sound of a scream. Eric looked at Kira, his eyes impossibly wide. She held up her hand to him, acting without thinking, and used her long legs to fly down the stairs in two steps.

She knew Eric was following but she didn’t wait. It was exciting and terrifying, but she somehow knew what she had to do. She burst through the open hatchway into the passage and threw herself into the far wall. She felt the heat of a passing shot and it brought the reality of the situation to her. She’d already seen several of the invaders through the open door to the airlock. One on the inner side of the door, two on the outer side, and a third kneeling further back in the middle. She had also seen the twitching leg of a fifth on the ground.

Tarn was kneeling behind an open panel that he’d removed from the wall. He was also sporting multiple scorch marks on his clothes. The panel glowed in a few places from strikes from the raiders energy weapons. Captain Sharp stood in another hatch, trying to angle for a shot but she knew he was being driven back each time he attempted it.

Kira threw herself forward, springing off the wall and crashing on the floor in the middle of the passage. Her rifle was held ready for the moment she stopped moving. She pulled the trigger mechanically and jammed her right hand and right knee into the floor.

When next she came to rest she was kneeling with her left was on the deck and her right knee spread wide for balance. She sensed more than felt the beams from the pirates’ lasers that missed her spinning form. She held her breath long enough to send another high density sliver at supersonic speeds through the faceplate and head of the pirate that stood on the right side of the hatch, then she dove forward into a roll. She felt the heat along her buttock and thigh from a highly focused light beam that grazed her. The suit fragmented and disbursed the energy, causing discomfort but not injury.

A cry behind her proved far more distracting. She risked a glance back, her only thought one of fear that Eric had been hurt. She saw him clutching his forearm and scrambling backwards. Another shot hit her, this time squarely in the side beneath her left arm. The body suit prevented it from burning through, but the heat blistered her skin beneath the second skin.

With teeth clenched, Kira fired a round blindly then let her mind go enough to drop supine to the deck. Her rifle hummed as the magnetic rails in the barrel sent forth a round into the crouching invader on the left side of the air lock door. It hit him high on the left side of the chest, near the shoulder, but the spray that coated the wall of the airlock behind him and the way he spun away from the impact gave proof that he was out of the fight.

With only one visible attacker left Kira knew what her next move should be. She gathered her legs in preparation to spring then noticed the spherical ball that was only now slowing its roll toward her. It had just passed Tarn, leaving it half a dozen feet behind Captain Sharp. With less than ten feet until it reached her, she drove her hands into the deck.

The concussive blast from the grenade swept over her, knocking her off balance and leaving her disoriented. It was a LF grenade, or Low Frequency, which let loose a powerful subsonic blast that was great for disorienting people and even damaging delicate electronics. She tried to make sense of how the floor and the ceiling seemed interchangeable, fighting back a wave of nausea at the same time.

The remaining pirate held his position while five others rushed past him and down the passage. Tarn was slumped against the wall, the steel panel resting on him. Captain Sharp was rolling on the ground, trying to find his feet much the same as Kira. She rolled onto her back, clamping down on her lips to prevent her stomach from emptying. She tasted the bile and screwed her eyes shut. When she opened them she saw one of the men pointing their laser rifles at her.

They had been modified, she noticed instantly. Without knowing how, she understood the bulky modifications amplified the power considerably. As a trade off she estimated the guns had to cool longer between shots or, if ignored, would shut down to prevent damage. That or the pirates went through a lot of weapons.

Tarn and Sharp were both being covered as well, though Tarn was only beginning to show signs of coming out of the grenade induced stupor. The fourth boarder walked up to Kira and chuckled when he saw her rifle laying in the passage. “Well well, what have we here?” He said. He had opened up the external speakers on his suit to allow his voice to be heard.

The man guarding her turned to look at the other pirate as he bent down to pick up her rifle. Kira realized that if any life lay ahead of her would be short at best, or long and filled with pain and suffering. Her body wanted to act now that the dizziness was fading. She was terrified of blacking out again, but living through what was about to happen scared her more.

“ One last time,” She thought to herself, surprised at the thought and the fact that she was not sure it had even come from her. Kira let out her breath and fell back within herself.

She watched, almost as though she was staring at a display screen, as her body spun on the floor so her legs were between the man’s standing above her. She scissored her legs open, hitting his at the ankles and sending them flying. With barely a yelp he fell, pulling muscles in his groin and slamming into the deck roughly.

Kira, or her body at least, sat upright and grabbed the laser rifle from his hands. She lay back down and planted both feet on him, then propelled herself across the floor even as she sent him rolling into the pirate that was straightening with her own dropped weapon. As she slid she oriented the laser and fired, burning through the soft portion of the pirate’s suit at his neck and making him lurch backwards. Being off balance, he crashed to the floor.

Kira felt another wave of nausea hit her as her body flipped up into the air, driven by a powerful convulsion of her back and legs. Then she was on her feet and running forward. Distantly she smelt scorched hair and she knew her head had been narrowly missed. Another beam struck her in the chest, burning her badly and charring her bodysuit with the direct hit, but not penetrating.

She fired her laser with one hand, puncturing the suit of the pirate that stood near Tarn but doing no damage. He pulled himself back into a crouch, an instinctive reaction that Kira suspected whoever was controlling her body had expected. Her free hand grabbed her own magnetic accelerator rifle from the wounded pirate, which she then used to fire point blank into his chest.

Space suits were designed to be radiation and energy resistant. Against a sharpened ballistic projectile travelling close to three thousand feet per second they were no better than papier-ma c he. He collapsed onto the deck, gasping for breath and clawing at the hole in his suit over the hole in his chest.

Another beam staggered Kira, this one warming her thigh. It had come from the pirate in the air lock that had remained to cover the others, much the same as the blast that had taken care of any split ends in her hair. She gestured at him with the laser rifle, making him duck behind the wall. The beauty of beam weapons was that they fired at the speed of light and the beams themselves were invisible to the human eye. Calling her bluff would have been a very dangerous gamble.

Even with that threat momentarily averted Kira had no idea how she was going to survive. The man near Tarn, who remained senseless, was a heartbeat from firing at her. The man who had slipped through the hatch to cover Captain Sharp had also stuck just enough of his body out to fire at her. She winced internally, preparing to be consumed in a painful fiery death.

“ The wall! ” The voice inside her said. “ Jump to it, spring off it, and put a bullet through the man ahead of you, then use the laser to deal with the man in the hatch. ”

Kira stumbled, suddenly realizing her body was her own again. Her stumble saved her, based upon the curse she heard from the pirate in the hatch. She lurched forward, knowing she had only a few feet to go. She felt her rifle throb in her hand, a feedback control in the grip notifying her that the capacitors had recharged. She leapt to the side, dodging the beam from the man ahead of her, then planted her foot on the side of the passage as instructed and boosted herself higher into the air so that she had a better angle at him over Tarn’s slumped figure. She fired and felt a jolt of exhilaration flare through her as he fell back to the floor and fed a growing pool of red liquid.

Then her head hit the ceiling of the passage. She hadn’t considered what the extra boost might give to her already impressive height. She fell down, crashing to one knee, and struggled against the pain that threatened to tip her over. She struggled up while the remaining nearby pirate shouted something at her. She failed to make it out, so intent was she on her own course of action.

She felt her right arm on fire even as it swung the laser towards him. The rifle broke in half as it hit him, but so too did the viewport on his suit crack. The pressurized suit hissed as air escaped from it and the pirate fell back, stunned by the physical assault. She fell on top of him, reversing her broken laser rifle and jamming it into his body time and again until she was certain he was no longer a threat. The sharpened fragments had pierced both suit and skin many times.

“ One left,” she whispered to herself without looking at the persistent pain in her upper arm. She dropped the laser rifle and considered picking up the pirates, then reasoned her own Toledo Systems MAR-7 was weapon enough. She smirked at the realization that she knew the exact model number and specifications of her rifle. She wondered what else she knew, then discarded the thought. If this worked out right she would have more than enough time to have a long talk with herself.

Kira dove through the hatch and tucked into a role that left her feeling freshly bruised. She dimly heard Captain Sharp blurt something out behind her, but she ignored him. Killing the last of the pirate boarding party was all that mattered. There had been nine sensor contacts and eight of them were now down. Ignoring the pain she pushed herself off the wall and rolled up onto her feet. She jumped ahead, each leg alternately driving into the decking to propel her into a different place as she closed on the airlock. She screamed in denial when she saw the door close ahead of her, spurring her to run faster.

The door shut before she could reach it, though only by the barest margin. She crashed into it and beat her fists against it angrily. The green light cycled to red, indicating it was being depressurized, then she felt as much as heard the machinery in the ship’s hull open the outer door to let the pirate escape. Nearly three minutes later the light cycled back to green and the door opened. Kira stood ready, rifle held at her shoulder and her own body crouched into a shooter’s stance.

Inside the air lock a mess awaited her. All four of the dead pirates had suffered varying degrees of explosive decompression. Blood, brain, and other tissue coated the walls, floor, and even ceiling. Kira’s eyes swept over it without feeling, then she swore and stood up slowly.

“ Emily?”

Kira turned to the source of the voice. Captain Sharp stood in the hatchway, plasma rifle in hand though he still looked unsteady. Tarn was watching as well from where he had gathered himself up against the wall. His rifle lay across his lap and a small pile of vomit lay beside him. The name had come from further down the passage, to where Eric was walking slowly towards her while still cradling his arm. Her eyes fell on the first man she’d assaulted, realizing she had not finished him. Somebody else had taken care of that for her, someone with a plasma rifle, from the extent of the injuries to the body.

“ What? Who’s Emily?” She pulled herself away from the vision of the burned corpse. Something about the name seemed familiar to her. It was a pretty name, the same name she’d once called an imaginary friend she’d invented after her parents had died. Emily had helped her get through her grief and the horrible times that followed. Then one day she stopped thinking about her, it was as though she didn’t need her anymore.

“ Kira?” He asked, his tone sounding light and hopeful.

“ What, Eric? They’re all dead except the one that got away. He’ll either be back with reinforcements or they’ll just start blowing holes in the ship.” Kira turned to look back into the airlock. The macabre scene broke through her state of shocked calm, making her gasp. She stumbled back, her hand going to her mouth, then she stumbled on something and fell on her butt.

Kira looked over and saw she had tripped on the foot of one of the pirates she had killed. She let out a yelp and scrambled away, putting her hand solidly into the puddle of blood from the dead pirate near Tarn. She gasped again and lurched away, climbing to her feet and looking for a place to run. “I killed them!” She stammered through trembling lips.

“ You kicked their ass between their shoulders and hit ‘em so hard their grandparents felt it,” Tarn said with a chuckle.

Kira looked at him as he wiped spittle from his lips. He grinned and gave her a thumbs up. Kira felt her stomach twist and this time she knew it would not be denied. She turned and felt it explode out of her, sending her to her knees as powerful convulsions threatened to tear her insides apart.

Chapter 10

Kira opened her eyes and found that she was lying in the bunkroom. On her own bunk, no less. She looked around and found it deserted. She frowned, trying to figure out what was going on. She didn’t remember lying down to sleep.

Her arm ached, prompting her to look at it. It had been bandaged. Her chest and a few other body parts hurt as well. She picked up the sheet and looked beneath it, gasping when she saw another bandage on her chest. She threw the blanket down the bed and sat up. She was nude, aside from a collection of bandages. Another blackout? She groaned and swung her legs over the edge of the bed. At least she was still on the Rented Mule.

Laying on the bedside stand was a torn up and otherwise abused piece of cloth. It was stretched out fully, showing her the extent of the damage to it. The chest was blackened and the right upper arm had a hole with the edges of the fabric melted and charred. Rips and scorch marks marred the fabric, but where it was whole it had a sheen to it that sparked her memory.

Kira gasped as it came back to her. The pirates, the sniper rifle, the voice she had heard, and the name ‘Emily.’ “What have I done?” She whispered to herself.

She stood up on shaky legs. Her body ached, causing her to move slowly and stiffly across the room to a mirror. The bunkroom was communal, a necessity of limited crew space aboard the transport vessel, yet she was the only in it. She stared at her reflection, noting the bruises in the early stages of showing color, as well as the edges of burn marks that appeared beneath some of her bandages.

“ I killed seven men,” she whispered again. She watched as her chin trembled at the memory of it.

“ Knock it off, it’s not like it’s the first time!”

Kira gasped, her grief forgotten. She spun around but with her body stiff and aching she made it worse by falling to the cool steel floor. She craned her neck looking all around the room but saw nothing. She climbed back to her feet slowly, groaning at the pain in her burned leg and bruised back. She glanced into the mirror again, only a flicker of interest, and felt her heart leap into her throat.

She spun again, looking behind her, but saw nothing. Back in the mirror she saw a silhouette of a figure that seemed shrouded in shadow. It stood still, facing her back. “Em…Emily?”

“ You did well today Kira, I’m proud of you. All the time and money I spent seems to have paid off. ”

Kira’s hand flew to her mouth, muffling her gasp. “You’re…you’re not real! I made you up as a kid!”

The shadowed figure stepped forward slowly. The shadows began to lighten as though she was coming into the light. “ I’m as real as you are, Kira. You sent me away, but I wasn’t ready to go. After all we’d shared — all the help I’d given you. ”

Kira realized she was nodding. “I really am crazy,” she whispered.

The figure shrugged. “ I hated you, you know. I wanted to hurt you for what you did to me. You sent me away, after you were the only person who ever cared for me. But I couldn’t — if I hurt you, I’d hurt myself. ”

“ I’m sorry,” She whispered to the woman in the mirror. It was obviously a woman; the shadows had faded to show a tall and shapely person wearing what Kira recognized as the bodysuit she had so recently worn.

“ I know you are,” She heard in her head. “ You weren’t ready — I know that now. I’ve gotten tired of my life Kira. Of our life. It was only half a life and it wasn’t the fun part. You’ve never had the good part either, I kept it from you. That’s not fair, and I understand that. I want you to be whole again, Kira. I want you to live and to do everything you should do. I even like Eric, not as much as you, but I’ve only talked to him once.”

Kira gasped. She remembered hearing Eric call Emily’s name in the passage before she had blacked out. No, not blacked out, she’d passed out. She understood that now.

Emily stepped closer, the shadows fading from her face to reveal to Kira that she was staring at two images of herself in the mirror. One, the real one, in front of the mirror, and the other just slightly behind her and to her left. She felt her chin trembling again.

“ Be strong Kira. You wouldn’t believe the things we’ve done over the years. Eight pirates was impressive, but we’ve pushed the line even further before. Now it’s all about you. There’s no tie to the money or to Kira Eskew, only Emily Bradford. My time is over, yours is just beginning. Live for us, Kira. Do all the things I could never do. ”

Kira felt the tears run down her cheeks. She nodded, both fearful and excited at the prospects ahead of her. “I won’t wake up and find Eric missing!” She whispered.

“ Eric might need you more than you need him,” Emily told her. “ Now stop talking to yourself, it makes you look crazy. ”

Kira laughed at the joke. She wanted to turn but she knew it do her no good. She watched instead as Emily stepped to her right, hiding completely behind Kira. She gasped, feeling something inside of her mind release. Millions of images and thoughts flashed through her conscience mind in a heartbeat, unrecognizable but now a part of her.

Kira refocused on the mirror, then reached up to wipe the tears from her face. She felt different, she realized. She no longer felt lost and inadequate. Kira turned, shaking her head slightly at the incredible weirdness of it, then made her way back to her bed. She picked up the torn and burnt bodysuit and considered it. She glanced at her locker, where she had other clothes available, then smiled as she slipped the bodysuit back on.

She made sure it covered the most important areas then moved at a stiff but deliberate pace to the bridge, where she expected to find somebody, if not all of them. She was in luck; Eric, Tarn, Captain Sharp, and Jeff were gathered when she stepped into the hatchway. They fell silent instantly, staring at her with mixed expressions.

“ Do you have my rifle?” Kira addressed Captain Sharp first.

“ Here,” Tarn said, turning and picking up her MAR-7 from his station behind him. She noted he sported multiple bandages as well, and had a steel rod with a cross piece at the top to use as a cane. She took it from him and glanced at the cane deliberately. “That LF Grenade went off next to me. Shrapnel tore into my hip pretty good.”

Kira nodded, then began to turn away from him. She saw that Eric’s face was guarded. He met her eyes briefly, then looked away before she could offer him a smile. “Hey, that’s an impressive piece of hardware you got there. Newer than what I’m used to. Then again, I never cared much for sniping. You got clearance for that thing?”

Clearance? She glanced down at it, clueless as to how to answer him. “Does it matter?” She asked, remembering his own boasting about the military grade plasma rifles he’d acquired.

Tarn grunted. “Only if somebody with bigger guns and a search order comes asking.”

An image of herself filling out forms at an office then transferring money from three separate accounts to a fourth account played through her head. “Yes, I have a security clearance for it.”

He nodded and looked away from her. Kira frowned, he hadn’t been nodding to her, it had been for the Captain. She turned to face him. “This going to be a problem?”

“ Problem? Maybe you hit your head but you just saved our butts. Near as we can tell the pirates turned tale and ran away. Eric’s even went out on the hull to see about some repairs. No sign of ‘em,” Sharp said. “You can sail with me anytime, navigator or security.”

“ Hey!” Tarn protested.

“ Shut your hole, you’re old and not much to look at. Kira here is younger, faster, and a lot nicer to look at!”

Tarn chuckled. “Got me there.”

Kira looked back and forth between them. “Aren’t you the least bit curious about how I did all that?”

“ Ain’t a one of us that doesn’t have secrets. A dark past, a mistake or a string of ‘em. We wouldn’t be where we was without them. Long as they don’t threaten my ship or my crew, you’re entitled to them. One thing though, is it Kira or is it Emily?” Eric made a strangled sound at Sharp’s words, drawing glances from Kira and the Captain.

“ It’s Kira. Emily is- was a…well, I don’t know what she was. A survival mechanism I suppose. She’s gone now, and I have to pick up the pieces and move on with my life.” Kira paused to stare purposefully at Eric. “If my life will let me, that is?”

Eric met her gaze and after a long couple of seconds he gave her an abbreviated nod. The butterflies in her stomach settled down, but it took a few additional moments for her to tame the grin that came to her face. She turned back to the Captain. “I don’t even know all the skills I have, nor what’s so special about me. It’s going to take a lot of time to figure out.”

She paused, thinking about where to begin or what to say. She looked at all of them and noticed for the first time the absence of Kevin. “Hey, where’s Kevin?”

Jeff stiffened and looked away. “He didn’t make it,” Eric said softly.

“ Pirates picked him off the hull on their way in,” Tarn said in his usual gruff voice. “Jeff was hiding on the other side, they never saw him.”

“ Oh. Um, I’m sorry,” Kira said. She was sorry, but in spite of having spent months on the same ship with the man she had never really gotten to know him. That and her natural compassion and empathy seemed diminished for some reason. She frowned, wondering if Emily was responsible for that dehumanizing trait. Not for the first time she wondered just what Emily had done while she was blacked out. “Okay, let’s move on. What’s next? How’s the Mule doing?”

“ Engines are good but the pushers are shot up,” Eric answered. “I can probably get some minimal thrust out of one of them. They took another shot at us after they left. A parting gift.”

“ We was just discussing that very thing,” Sharp added. “Unless you’ve got any more revelations for us?”

Kira shook her head, then moved over to sit down at the navigator’s station. She noted that the seat had been adjusted to give her knees more clearance. She smiled and blinked away the sudden moisture that came to her eyes. Even uncertain of their future, Eric had still been thoughtful enough to help her. She pushed the thought aside; there’d be time to thank him properly, and messily, later. She checked her rifle over, noting it still possessed three rounds in the clip. She wondered if the case it had been packed in had any more.

She turned and saw them all still watching her. She stuck her tongue out at them and put the MAR-7 down, then pressed her data port against that of the nav station. Moments later she was reading data on her display and mentally injecting commands back into it faster than she could ever remember doing. New commands came to mind as well, slipping in with the old ones and allowing her to bypass just the navigational systems she normally accessed and giving her free reign of the ship’s computer. She smirked, wondering how upset Sharp would be if she routed the output of the display to the main terminal instead of just her own private one.

As she sorted through the different sections she now had available she stumbled across the cargo load. She surveyed it, feeling something nagging at the back of her head. “Hey,” she said, drawing the attention the others while she continued to survey it, “when we lost our sensors what happened?”

“ Energy blast, probably a charged particle beam. Too far for plasma or a laser,” Tarn answered.

She glanced at him, nibbling on her lip. “You said something at the time. Something about our sensors being useless even before.”

Tarn shrugged. “Yeah, they is- was.”

Kira scowled at him. “What did you say?”

“ That they’re junk.”

“ Don’t make me slap you!” Kira growled. “I don’t mean just now, I mean when it happened.”

Tarn shrugged. “That was weeks ago!”

Kira closed her eyes and thought back. She’d found the enemy ship but it was at extreme range still. Sharp was worried what kind of weapons the pirates had… She gasped. Suddenly it flashed into her head as clear as if she had just heard it. “This is a transport! No sensors worth a damn on here. Mining rig’s got better eyesight than this thing does,” she even did a poor job of imitating Tarn’s gruff and surly voice.

“ Yeah, sound’s right,” Tarn agreed.

“ It is right, it’s exactly right!” Kira said, turning back to study the inventory list again. “Captain, we can float blind forever or you can break into our cargo and rig up some eyes for us out of the mining gear we’ve got. There’s some small scout craft we’re carrying that have them on them. Perhaps even hook them up in an array for greater detail.”

She looked up at the open mouthed faces of the rest of the crew. “That’s brilliant!” Eric said in awe. Sharp slapped his chair and laughed, then he hopped up and went over to Kira’s station, giving her a resounding smack right on her lips. She let out a surprised yelp and pushed him back but he just gave her a wink. “Captain’s prerogative. Don’t worry, I won’t tell Eric.”

“ What?” Tarn blurted out.

“ Tarn, suit up, you and Eric got some work to do. Jeff, start clearing off the old sensors.” Sharp gave Kira another thumbs up. “We may be limping and we may not have much hope, but by the stars out there, we’re going to know where we are!”

Chapter 11

Close to thirty hours later Eric’s disembodied voice came across the ship’s speakers. “We’ve made the last connections. Some calibration may be necessary since we’re running in tandem, but we’ll deal with that when it’s needed. Energizing the array in three…two… one…”

Kira slipped in streams of commands into her station. Text scrolled across her screen, then blinked out for half a second. When it returned it was sectioned off into windows, one containing her text stream while two others had graphical displays. Kira hissed triumphantly, then continued to instruct the computer to bring the new sensor arrays on line. Within moments the main display came back to life, rendering a simulated image rather than the direct optical feed of the space outside of the Rented Mule.

Captain Sharp threw his fist in the air and let loose a woop. “Keep your hands to yourself!” Eric warned over the speakers. Sharp and Kira both laughed, remembering the last time Kira did something Sharp was pleased with.

“ All right, so where are we?” The Captain asked.

Kira focused on her display as she worked the controls and tried to zero in on their location. She frowned, not making sense of what her system told her. “I’m not sure. We’re traveling just under half the speed of light.”

“ What!”

“. 45 of C,” Kira confirmed. “A lot of this doesn’t make sense. I can’t even figure out our course or where we came from. Something must have happened during the fi-“

“ What’s wrong?” Sharp demanded as Kira fell silent.

She held up a finger on her free hand, which only served Sharp to hop out of his chair and come and lean over her shoulder. She glanced up at him, conveying her annoyance with her pinched eyebrows. “The Mule doesn’t have any inertial compensators.”

Sharp snorted. “It’s a damned old transport, we’re lucky it’s got engines!”

“ Yeah, well without those and with inertial suppression on the inside of the ship, we’ve got no idea when our course is altered without active sensors. The first battle, with all of those impacts from the raider, must have skewed our heading — probably our pitch as well if not the other axis as well.”

“ So what, we’re lost in space?”

Kira sighed. “No- well, yes, but only until I have time to figure things out. We’re going faster than we thought. We didn’t expect to hit anything over. 15 C. I bet nobody bothered checking either, because of that, but now that I’m looking at it… yes, see, our fuel reserves for the pushers are at ten percent. We were supposed to make the run to the mining station and back and still have forty percent left!”

Sharp swore and turned to stomp back to his seat.

“ Captain,” Eric said over the speakers, “it doesn’t really matter how much fuel we have for the pushers. We’ve only got one that I can squeak anything out of and it would take close to sixty years to slow down, turn around, or do anything else.”

“ What happened?” Sharp spouted. “Why the extra speed? Why the extra fuel?”

“ Does it matter?”

Kira turned to look at Tarn. He held up his hands, showing that her glare was similar to the Captain’s. “Hey, don’t be looking at me like that. It don’t matter what happened — it happened. Now we got to figure out what we’re going to do about it. More time we waste not doing that, the more fucked we are.”

Kira felt her eyes narrow as she eyed him suspiciously. He was right, but why draw attention away from figuring out what happened if not to hide something? She turned back to her station, suddenly taken with an idea prompted by Tarn’s suggestion.

“ Got it!” Kira cried out a minute later. “I couldn’t pinpoint us because I wasn’t using the right dimensions!”

“ Dimensions? We hit a natural jump station or a wormhole or something?” Sharp asked bitterly.

Kira shook her head. “No, sorry, I meant x, y, z, and time. I hadn’t factored in that we might not be in the time we think we should be.”

“ I’m waiting for this to make sense and I have to say, I’m not in the mood for being played with.”

“ Yes Captain, no games, Sir. When the sensors were hit it sent all sorts of feedback into our system that messed with the ship’s core computers. Our four week sleep was closer to 12 months.”

Sharp groaned and slumped in his chair after a long moment of staring at Kira with an open mouth. Tarn was quicker to react, blurting out, “Them pirates followed us for a year?”

Kira shrugged. “I don’t know, maybe. I think they were probably somebody else though.”

“ Who would be this far out?” Sharp perked up.

“ No idea, Sir, but more importantly we missed the asteroid belt by about eleven months. It’s damn near a light year away from us, but we didn’t just shoot past it, we also were pitched up about five degrees. Although the recent fight skewed us some more.”

“ So where are we headed?”

“ Out there…Sir.” Kira said. “Deep space. Deeper, we’re already outside the rim.”

The silence on the bridge was agonizing until, after a pregnant pause, Captain Sharp exhaled softly. “How are our maneuvering reserves?”

Kira called up another display on the main screen. “Seventy percent, Sir.” She turned to look at him, not sure what else she could or should do. He nodded as he looked at it, then stood up slowly. “Do we have broadcast ability?”

“ Yes Captain,” Eric said over the speakers. Kira noted his voice sounded subdued, then again she supposed not a one of them sounded the best. Their situation had passed desperate a while ago, now even bleak was an optimistic description. “Radio signal or direct transmission.”

“ I’ll be in my room,” Sharp announced abruptly. He paused, looking at both Kira and Tarn alternately. “If either of you have anything you want to say to anyone left behind, I suggest you figure them out now.”

Sharp left the two of them with that somber thought. Kira looked at Tarn and found her vision skewed by unshed tears. She blinked them away and took a deep breath that had potential to turn into a sob. She kept it controlled and offered the ex-Marine a faint smile. “Ex-Marine?”

He nodded. “Discharged for a little misunderstanding with some terrorists that took over a space station.”

Kira felt the muscles in her back stiffen even as the new memories flooded through her mind. “Blue Vistas space station?” He nodded. “You used a particle accelerator cannon to blow a hole through the hull! You killed nearly two hundred people, most of them civilians!”

Tarn shrugged. “Got the job done.”

“ You’re a cold blooded son of a bitch!” She hissed.

Tarn chuckled. The chuckle turned deeper as it went on, until he was laughing at her. Kira glared at him, ready to rise out of her seat and shut him up forcefully. She refrained either from a sense of curiosity or futility. They were all doomed, she figured, why not get her questions answered instead of just putting her foot through his teeth.

“ Wasn’t no warm and fuzzy girl that put down seven pirates,” He finally said. “Don’t know what you done girl, but I reckon you and I got something in common. And I’m not talking about lusting for that engineer’s horse-dick neither!”

“ I lost a friend on Blue Vistas. A civilian that got caught in the wrong place at the wrong time and you spaced her.” Kira stared at him, feeling a sense of calm that scared her. It came from deep within her and, she suspected, it was a leftover from Emily. The friend she mentioned, she was a friend of Emily’s. Or at least as close to a friend as her alter-ego had ever had. Kira had never known her or known of her, but now she could see her faintly freckled pale face with a startling clarity. Her name had been Angela, but Emily had called her Angel. Especially when Kira’s hand went to her mouth to hide her gasp. Tarn frowned. “What? You was looking like you was about to shoot me now this?”

“ She was more than a friend,” Kira whispered. She was shocked. She’d never known. Another woman? She wondered if there had been any others.

“ Sorry,” Tarn shrugged, clearly anything but sorry. “Older I get, smaller the universe ends up being. You want some payback you come and get it. Maybe I’m old and fat and out of shape, but I still got what they put in me. Might be a good way to go — better than waiting for us to run out of food or die in my sleep.”

“ I’m not going to kill you.” Kira put the memories of Emily’s long lost friend away. That had been over sixteen years ago, she realized. Seventeen now, considering their prolonged sleep. “I think you’re kind of a loser, but my social options are limited.”

“ I’ll drink to that,” Tarn said.

Kira spared him a withering glare then turned back to her station. With nothing else to do but wait for the end to come she figured she might as well figure out what their future held.

Chapter 12

Each member of the Rented Mule’s crew recorded their messages privately. When it came Kira’s turn she realized she had no one left behind her. No family and no friends. She’d only had herself and, though she’d searched her memory long and hard, she could only find one resemblance of a relationship and that had been to Angela. Emily’d enjoyed a few trysts here and there — with men, Kira was happy to remember — but that was the end of it. Instead she rattled off instructions to have her various accounts, over a dozen of them, donated to charitable organizations that specialized in helping to provide aid and assistance to troubled children.

With that finished, the crew gathered on the bridge to plan what would become of the rest of their lives. It was a somber meeting, with none of them saying much. Eric stood next to her station but they did not reach for one another. Kira longed for the comfort of human touch but she thought it would be cruel to the rest of the crew. They had no one to turn to for solace.

“ All right, with any luck our messages will be received in a year or so. We’re broadcasting a distress signal, but we’re also stuck travelling away from help faster than most ships would risk going. A military vessel is our only hope for a quick recovery, and by quick I mean about three years.” Sharp looked around the bridge at his crew. He sighed and shook his head. “You’re a sorry lot of castoffs from society, but I guess I can’t think of anyone better to fly into the great unknown with. Well that’s not true, maybe some gene-bred triplets trained by a courtesan service might be a little more enjoyable…”

“ Sir,” Kira spoke up after giving everyone a chance to pretend they were amused by the Captain’s joke. “I’ve been studying the new readings our sensors are pulling in. It’s light years away still, but there’s a star close by. The other charts don’t make mention of it but that could be because of the angle we’re at, it looks like there’s a particularly dense asteroid belt ringing the system.”

“ Close by and light years away?” Sharp asked, pointing out her contradictory terms.

“ Sorry,” she said, seeing his point, “but yes, it’s less than 4 light years from us. That’s a little under eight years.”

“ Then what?” Tarn snorted.

Kira refused to favor him with even a glance. “Then we see what they’ve got there. Maybe we can find a planet big enough to hook us in orbit and sling us back around. We might even pick up some speed so that we head back core-ward at a faster speed.”

Tarn grunted derisively. Sharp stared at the display and then at her, nodding his head as his eyes lost focus. She glanced up at Eric and saw him staring at her with a hint of a smile on his face. “Eight years?” Sharp muttered. “Another eight years back…”

“ It’s a long shot, Sir,” Kira reminded them all.

“ But it’s better than anything else we got,” Sharp finished for her. “All right, do what you have to so we can get there. It’s not like we’re using our fuel for anything else. Then we’ll get the ship ready for a deep sleep and go for it. Our engines will run for a couple hundred years, but that’s just energy. We’ve got the chemicals on hand for a couple months of food and water, more if we go sparingly, and probably twenty years worth of cold sleep chemicals and nutrients.”

“ You’re talking about a deep sleep, not just a few months at a time?” Eric asked. Kira glanced up at him and, in spite of her earlier concerns, reached out to take his hand in hers.

“ Yeah, and it won’t be easy coming out with all of us down but as long as nothing messes up our computers again we should be able to do it.”

Kira nodded. She felt her heart beat faster in her chest. It excited her to have a plan. To have hope. It was a slim chance but it was a chance and that’s what mattered. “So what are we waiting for? I’m looking forward to putting another eight years under my belt!”

“ Can we wait a few hours, at least?” Eric said. He squeezed Kira’s hand and then admitted. “Risky stuff, going in deep like that. Just in case anything goes wrong I’d like to get under her belt too, if you don’t mind?”

The others all laughed, causing Kira to blush. Most had the good grace to let it alone but Tarn added to it, “Sounds good to me, you starting the line?”

Kira displayed a small but very wicked looking knife and said, “Tarn, you can touch me with anything you want, as long as you can get it passed this first.”

Sharp whistled while Kevin chuckled. Tarn stared at with wide eyes then grinned. She squeezed Eric’s hand to reassure him then fed the necessary commands into the nav station to steer the ship towards the unnamed system. That finished she stood up and then gasped as Eric picked her up and tossed her over his shoulder. Catcalls from the rest of the crew made her face burn but at no point was there any way she could deny the grin that split her lips.

Chapter 13

The display blinked, shifting from an unpowered darkness to a black non-light that nevertheless revealed shapes in the room. A moment later colors and lines sprang into existence, casting shadows from the dust covered stations, chairs, and other objects on the bridge of the Rented Mule. The display quickly coalesced into lines of text. A window displayed the sensor readings collected automatically, indicating the layout of the solar system the Rented Mule was entering.

Colored lights sent shadows fleeing their prismatic brilliance in the cold sleep chamber. Chemicals released into controlled intravenous lines, introducing countering agents to the stasis inducing drugs in their systems. With heartbeats reduced to single digits in the span of a minute the absorption took the better part of two hours before the lights changed again and announced the next stage of the process.

Electrodes activated, triggering stimulus to the atrophied muscles of the nearly flatlined sleepers. As the heart rates began to climb into the double digits basic nutrients and simple sugars filled the IV lines, restoring glucose and energizing the depleted muscles. Once the changes were made the system resumed a standby state, administering the new changes over a span of several days.

When next the lights changed it was not only to signal the introduction of a gas into the enclosed chambers, but also to engage the overhead lights and raise them to a low level. Intubation tubes, filled with fluids siphoned as the bodies warmed and returned to life, retracted. A final injection, this one purely synthetic adrenaline, was delivered before the electrodes were triggered with a powerful jolt. Each body convulsed, breath exploding from dry mouths as eyelids opened. The cover of the chambers popped open, hissing as the low pressure maintained internally was equalized.

Kira lay in the chamber, unable to see through the blurriness in her aching eyes. Her throat was dry and her chest felt heavy; each breath was an experience in swallowing razorblades. Kira tried to speak but barely managed a moan. It evolved into a weak attempt at coughing, and that upset her stomach and made her attempt to vomit. With nothing in her stomach, the dry heaves only left her aching and breathless. The only benefit from the process was that the tears watered her eyes enough to make her eyelids feel less like sandpaper.

Fighting the agony of muscles long gone unused, Kira forced one arm across, pulling the IV out of one arm then repeating the action with her other arm. The other necessary connections were removed, albeit slowly, before Kira faced the daunting task of needing to climb out of her chamber.

“ I can do this,” Kira whispered with a voice that was so weak that the pulse pounding in her ears nearly drowned it out. She reached up to the sides of the chamber and tried to pull herself up. She collapsed, having hardly moved. Fresh tears ran from her eyes down the sides of her face. “I’m not weak!” The rasp in her voice claimed otherwise.

Gathering her legs slowly in the cocoon she reached up and tried again. She managed to pull herself up enough to lean over the edge of the chamber, pinching the flesh in her armpit against the cool metal. The pain helped to focus her and distract her from the exhaustion that made colors dance in her vision. Kira gasped for breath, counting internally until more than a minute had passed, then she pulled her legs beneath her again and used them to help boost her over the edge.

Kira crashed to the cold metal floor. She felt needles and daggers stabbing her body inside and out. The pain was so great she blacked out for a moment, then came around with a gasp of air as though she had been drowning. She managed to roll over and lay there, the cool floor stealing what little warmth her body had managed to reclaim. She felt herself shiver, then she felt the hollow nausea she had come to associate with being so hungry her body was on the verge of malnutrition.

Still she lay on the floor, unable to comprehend the amount of effort it would take to move. Her breathing and heart eventually calmed to the point that she could hear little more than just herself. The faint background hum of the ships air filtration and recycling service provided her only auditory companion. She steeled herself, feeling sorry for the men trapped still in their tomb-like bunks. They’d once been so strong and filled with life, now they were shadows of themselves that required machinery to exist. To be reduced to something so powerless was terrifying. She knew that Emily, if she was still around, would be terrified of being in a situation like the one Kira found herself in.

For Kira it was miserable, but she was accustomed to being disadvantaged and without resources. Now she clung to one thing and one thing only: hope. Kira knew now who she was and who she had been. She knew that she had done incredible things, even if she had not been aware of it at the time. Most importantly she knew that if she could bend her mind to it, she could survive this too.

It was with that belief clutched desperately in her heart that Kira rolled on to her stomach and pulled her knees beneath her. She reached out, grabbing the hateful sleep chamber again, then managed to rise to one shaky leg and then the other. She bent over it, supporting herself with her arms and legs, and tried to will away the nausea and the shakes that threatened to pull her back to the metal floor.

Minutes passed before Kira felt the rubber in her legs turn to the electric pins and needles associated with the return of circulation. She realized her jaw was clenched only after the agony began to pass and her sinuses were burning with the effort of harsh breathing through the dried out passages. She dared to open her mouth, then slowly turned to look upon the other cold sleep chambers that lay beyond her. To get to them she would need to walk around hers, a task that seemed no less difficult than swimming the liquid methane oceans of Europa.

“ One squeeze of the trigger at a time,” Kira breathed. She paused, wondering where the expression had come from. It had to be a holdover from something Emily had picked up. She put it aside, realizing she was letting herself be distracted, and began to move around her chamber as carefully as she could.

She made it, though her entire body was numb with fatigue and she felt like blacking out would be a blessing. The next stage for her was in crossing the six feet of open space between her cocoon and Jeff’s. She gathered her strength and evened her breathing. Kira felt a deep ache in her head and neck, but she pushed it aside. Dehydration and fatigue, she suspected, but neither of which would help her crewmates.

Kira pushed herself off, moving slowly across the floor. She felt like she was balancing on a wire above a bottomless pit, with each footfall doomed to send her plunging. She gathered speed as she went, her legs burning with the effort, until she crashed into Jeff’s cocoon. She held on for dear life, fearing if she slid to the floor she might not get back to her feet.

As her heart began to settle she peered over the clear window, staring down at his shrunken chest and upper stomach. Seeing his body on display she remembered her own and could not help but glance down at herself. The prolonged stasis had robbed them all of both muscle and fat. Even her breasts, once something she’d taken a small token of pride in, seemed deflated and aged.

Kira mentally slapped herself, ‘No more distractions!’ She refocused on Jeff and studied both his sleeping body and the displays on the sleep chamber. He was alive but sleeping, the IVs continuing to pump nutrients into his body. She frowned, then regretted it for the cramp in her neck that ensued. His overall health score was still nearly thirty points from being high enough to initiate the automatic wakeup procedure. That must have meant hers had reached that level. Why then did she feel like she’d been run over by a military grade space frigate?

The ache in her body refused to abate, but the sharper pains faded into a numb background as Kira slowly checked on the rest of the tubes. They were at varying stages of recovery, with Tarn being the next closest to reaching the threshold. She had no idea how long it might take, but he only had five more points on the computer derived scale of wellness remaining. It could mean hours or days, for all she knew.

Kira staggered to a couch in the room and lowered herself carefully to it. The padding was thin and even sitting on it caused a puff of dust to arise. Nevertheless it felt heavenly to her. Before she knew it she had slid down further and fell asleep, succumbing to the exhaustion that claimed her.

Kira awoke to an insistent chime. She jolted her head up, looking around, and instantly regretted it. Pain blossomed in her mind, a holdover from the condition her body was in and the residual effects the drugs in her body had caused. She sat up, feeling certain she was going to be sick again, but several deep breaths allowed her to regain control of herself. She glanced around, finding a display and wondering how long she’d slept. She couldn’t remember noticing it before she’d fallen asleep, so it could have been minutes or hours.

The chime persisted, drawing a breathy groan from her. She warily climbed to her feet, startling herself at how cool the metal floor felt on her naked soles. That had to be a good sign, it meant her core temperature had risen.

After a few experimental steps she found her footing more stable. She glanced back at the closed sleeping tubes of the others then nodded to herself. Even if she could wake them up it would be hours, at best, before they would be able to do anything. More likely days if they felt like she had. She gathered herself together and set off through the ship. It wasn’t until she reached the bridge and moved to her station that she realized she had yet to think of putting any clothing on. She shrugged it away, the ship’s climate control system had adjusted the temperature to accommodate them before they awoke. The floor might be cool but at least there was no danger of her freezing.

She read the displays slowly, refocusing as she grew distracted. He stomach twisted, as though she needed a reminder that she was at or beyond starvation-level-hungry. “Soon,” she promised herself, though the simple words exiting her throat made her fear how painful eating would be.

Doubling her efforts, she studied the map of solar system, looking for opportunities. The ring of broken rock that rimmed the system was unusually dense, but not so much that she could not easily plot a course through it. She tested a few routes, judging that the minimal fuel usage would come from making minor corrections in the field, rather than trying to boost the ship above or below the central thickness of it.

She put in further instructions into the nav system, causing a slightly longer burn that would put the ship on an intercept course for a planet that preliminary sensor scans showed to be unusual. The modified mining sensors returned strange readings from it. The usual combination of metals and elements, but it also appeared to possess an unusual amount of water. Water in a liquid form, rather than frozen or gaseous.

Kira stood up too quickly, one hamstring cramping and her vision tinting dark as the blood failed to rise with her. She barely managed to fall back to her seat, crying out as she did so. She rubbed and stretched her leg, working the cramp out, then swallowed in an attempt to put out the fiery patch in her throat. More carefully this time, she rose up slowly with her hands on her station.

Vertical once more, she let out a faint smile at her triumph, then turned to head out of the bridge. She paused on the way, her fingers idly resting on the arm of the Captain’s chair. She glanced around as quick as her neck allowed, then sat down in Captain Sharp’s chair. She settled into it, an arm on each rest, then leaned back in it and enjoyed the unfamiliar comfort. From there she could see the entirety of the bridge, including the displays at each station.

“ I could get used to this,” she whispered, then enjoyed another quiet moment of reflection before feeling as though a knife speared through her intestines and twisted into her kidneys. She growled against the pain and rose up, slowly. “Fine, I’ll feed you,” she muttered, hobbling out of the bridge and towards the galley.

Years of dust and misuse covered everything in the galley. Even coaxing water from the faucet took minutes rather than seconds. The initial water seemed discolored as well, though she knew the ship’s automated systems would have stirred the potable water tanks, applying chemicals necessary to purify them. Nonetheless, she let the water cycle for several minutes before she dared to rinse out a cup and then fill it.

The feel of the water on her lips was beyond description to her. It was cool but it stung as it reached into cracks in her lips that she had grown accustomed to. The first bite of stretched and aggravated tissue in her throat soothed with each gentle swallow. It was only through supreme force of will that she stopped herself after only a few small swallows. Just in time, fresh chaos within her stomach made her knees buckle. Only by grabbed on to the counter and slamming her legs into the panel beneath it did she keep from falling.

Several minutes of fighting the seemingly shark-skinned monster in her belly passed in what Kira was sure took at least a lifetime. Finally she was able to pick her head up enough to see that her cup had somehow been thrown across the counter, spilling the precious water within it. The last thing she wanted to see at that point was more water, but she also knew it was exactly what she needed.

She gathered another cup, rinsed it out, then tried to drink again. The results were similar, though not quite as debilitating. If water was that hard to get down, how would she ever be able to stomach the solid food she really needed? Kira fought the tears of desperation that threatened to blind her. She looked around, blinking rapidly and sniffing just as rapidly to keep her nose from running. She was a mess. Why couldn’t Eric have woken up before her and taken care of her? Even the Captain would have been a welcomed helping hand. Tarn — no, okay, not Tarn. Jeff had given her some hungry looks too, so she didn’t think being this weak and alone with him while the others slept was a good idea either.

Kira glanced down at her deflated body and almost felt the urge to chuckle. She’d have trouble getting a man who’d spent the last twenty years in prison to find her attractive. She pushed the thought aside and looked around again at the appliances. Her eyes fell on the powdered protein dispenser, then the flavor packets beside it. She glanced back at the sink, wondering how disgusting it would be to try and drink a protein soup.

Kira gasped, which caused her throat to constrict in momentary pain. She didn’t need a soup, she needed a shake! She turned to another machine and punched in commands on the old fashioned button-style interface, then poured some protein powder into her empty cup. She grabbed up two chocolate flavor packets and, after nipping them with her teeth to help her open them, she dumped them in as well. Moving as quickly as she could she slipped the cup under the dispenser and waited impatiently for the ready indicator to light up. As soon as it did she pressed the dispensing button and watched the mixture of hot water and synfeine pour into her cup.

Ignoring the heat, Kira stuck her finger in the cup and started to swirl it around. She hissed after a minute, pulling her scalded finger out and quickly stuck it in her mouth. The flavors burst across her tongue like an explosion, shocking her with their intensity at first, and then making her suck on her finger harder. She realized a moment later what she was doing and managed a snicker at her behavior. She gently blew on the steaming liquid and then sipped it carefully.

It burned her lips and tongue, but in spite of that it tasted delicious. She swallowed carefully, feeling the warmth spreading down her throat and into her belly and soothing her. In spite of her trepidations, her stomach opted to behave this time around. She sipped again, repeating the experience and fighting the urge to guzzle the drink.

Kira moved carefully to the table and sat down, holding the cup between her hands and feeling the warmth leaking through it. She drank sparingly, wondering how she could have disliked the taste before. Then again, considering the state her body was in she would have probably found just about anything organic to taste delicious. She pushed the thought away before her mind could chase it down some of the more disturbing paths it could take.

Before she knew it the cup was empty. She stared into it, wanting more but knowing better. Her stomach felt bloated and uncomfortably full as it was. Her jaw stretched as she yawned, which turned into a grimace as sore tissue was stretched. She climbed to her feet and made her way back to the bridge, this time settling into the Captain’s chair without a second thought.

Kira pressed her data port into the one built into the arm rest of the Captain’s chair. She routed output to the main display instead of the fold out one that was part of the chair and proceeded to check on her crewmates. Little had changed, aside from nominal increases in the computer designated health scores. She sighed upon noting that Tarn was still going to be the first to awaken, then dug deeper into the new solar system. If she truly was the first human to set eyes on it, she wondered if she could name it. She smirked. The Kiran system had a nice ring to it.

Chapter 14

Captain Sharp, Eric, and Jeff woke up within half an hour or each other. Kira had slipped back into her regular clothing in preparation for Tarn coming around. To spare as much awkwardness as possible, she’d given him a robe to wear after he had emerged from his own chamber. She’d needed to help him get out and put it on, something she remembered with considerable distaste. Another two days of nursing him back to health was only slightly lower on her scale of things she hoped to never need to do again.

Getting the other three up and active was a little easier with Tarn helping her. So much so that she was able to focus on helping Eric with his first meal, the same shake she had made herself what seemed like a lifetime ago.

“ It’s pretty good,” she told him, sliding it in front of where he sat at a table. He offered her what she assumed was an attempt at a smile. She smiled in return, remembering all too well how he was feeling.

“ Don’t take this the wrong way, but I’m glad you guys are wiped out,” Kira whispered after she’d sat next to him and put her arm around him. She could feel how cool his body was even through the robe he wore. “It’s not some mothering instinct or anything; I just wouldn’t be able to live with myself if you guys didn’t feel as bad as I did when I woke up first.”

Eric glanced at her at first, then looked back at the cup in front of him. He lifted it carefully, his hands shaking slightly, and took a sip of it. Kira felt her cheeks threatening to split she was grinning so widely. Eric had raised it again and was drinking as rapidly as his body and the hot liquid would allow.

“ Careful,” she admonished, gently pulling the cup from him. “Your stomach won’t be able to handle it all at once.” Kira remembered her first few sips of water and shuddered.

A moment later Eric was drinking again, stopping himself after a few swallows and pacing himself. He glanced at her and tried to smile again, but the obvious pain in the expression brought tears to Kira’s eyes. She hugged him close, remembering only at the last minute not to squeeze too hard.

“ I didn’t realize how alone I’ve been these last couple of weeks,” she whispered to him.

He stared at her, his eyes clear from fatigue and pain for a brief moment. Kira nodded. “Yes, I’ve been awake for just over thirteen days. Tarn’s been up for three. We recovered faster because of the genetic modifications we’ve had. I’m still not sure what all is in me, and I may never know, but I’m not complaining! Without it there’s no way I could have pulled myself out of my cold sleep tube.”

Eric pulled away and stared at her, his lips open clearly showing the cracks in the dried out skin. Kira wanted to kiss him, but restrained herself, knowing it would only hurt him more than it would comfort him. “Trust me and get some rest. Don’t speak, it only hurts. A few days and you’ll be back to normal, especially with nurse Kira tending to you. And don’t get me started about the sponge bath I’m looking forward to giving you after you’re feeling better!”

She saw his smile turn to a wince. Eric turned back to the drink to finish it, then let Kira help him up. She led him to the crew quarters and tucked him into his cot, taking special care not to rush him. He fell asleep almost instantly, giving her a few moments to stare at him. Even looking starved and pathetic she still felt something stirring inside her chest for him. She knelt down next to him and gently kissed him on the temple.

“ I think I love you,” she whispered, then quickly stood up and glanced around. Jeff was already asleep a few cots away and the Captain had yet to make his way in. She smiled once more at Eric’s sleeping body, then turned and hurried back to the bridge.

“ Captain!” Kira blurted out in surprise. Sharp was sitting on his chair, with Tarn standing close enough for Kira to surmise that he had just helped the stubborn man into it.

“ Status?” Sharp croaked, grimacing as he did so.

“ Sir, you should get some rest, we’re a week away from our destination and-“

“ What destination?”

Kira winced at the resemblance between sandpaper on rocks and the Captain’s voice. “There’s a planet, Sir. Sensors are picking up readings I haven’t seen anywhere before, aside from Earth, that is.”

“ Earth?” He croaked.

“ Captain, please! Get some rest!”

He glared at her, getting his message across without words. Kira shook her head and sat down. “Fine, but the longer you fight recovery, the longer Tarn’s going to try to figure out a way to run this ship.”

Her ploy worked, making Sharp’s gaze jump over to Tarn. Tarn jerked as well, then sent a scowl Kira’s eye. “Captain! I never once-“

“ Sir, there’s nothing in this system large enough to slingshot us back towards the Core worlds,” Kira interrupted. “Our speed is too great. Given our remaining pusher’s status and our fuel level, we won’t be able to slow down nearly enough. We need a gas giant. The star is nearly identical to Earth’s, only younger. If we had more fuel we could establish an orbit around it and head back, but with what we have we’d have to veer in too close to it and the Mule’s not built for that level of heat and radiation. We still might make it, but the odds are bad and a single solar flare would end it.”

Sharp grunted, then motioned for Tarn to help him stand. He gained his feet, sweat breaking out on his brow as he did so. Kira felt herself aching for him, knowing the agony he had to be enduring and the incredible willpower it must have taken for him to function that way. “Get some rest Captain, I’ll figure something out for you by the time you’re ready.”

He stared at her a long moment. Kira steeled herself, knowing that she had to show him she was confident. She was confident, at least in the area of knowing that she had an idea. It was dangerous, but not as dangerous as trying to use the star’s gravity well. It was also probably a permanent solution, but one that she felt she could live with.

Kira stayed on the bridge, rerunning her calculations and rechecking her sensor readings. The planet was still eight days away, plenty of time for the rest of the crew to be back to feeling like human beings again.

Chapter 15

“ You want to what!”

Kira had braced herself, but the volume and intensity coming from Sharp’s outraged question caused his voice to crack. She forced the wince off her face as she met his angry gaze. “Sir, we’ve been broadcasting for nine years now. We’ve got three days until we need to make a decision, and that would still put us at six days until we reach our destination because we’d be slowing down. Nine days to broadcast a new message, indicating where we are, what we’ve found, and…well, whatever else we’ve got left.”

“ Why bother, there’ll be nothing left of us!”

“ Captain, I’ve run every possible scenario I can come up with and a few suggested by others. This is the only one that has any chance of success.”

“ We could bypass the system entirely and stay on the ship.”

“ Aye, we could, but at our speed we’d almost certainly stay ahead of any rescuers that attempted to come after us. Sir, with all due respect, I don’t want to die marooned on the Rented Mule.”

Sharp’s eyes narrowed. He waited until Kira realized he was expecting her to go on. “So we rotate the ship and use the pusher to slow us down. Using the last of our reserves we can get to. 29C. That leaves us with only our thrusters, which will produce a lot more immediate thrust but will run out quicker. My simulations show those are best saved for once we enter the atmosphere to help us maneuver and slow us down. The planet has a lot of water so if we can use the atmosphere and our thrusters for breaking we can land in the water and have a reasonable chance of surviving.”

“ Land? You mean crash,” Tarn muttered.

“ Crash land,” Kira corrected. “The engines will be on line and the inertial suppressor as well. An impact like that will override it, but by diverting all of our power to it at the last second it shows a decent chance of not being smeared against the floor. That much power will require the overrides be thrown though, and the inertial suppressor will be destroyed by the overload.”

“ What kind of chances?”

Kira felt her heart leap in her chest. By asking that question she knew he was considering it. “Better than one in three, Sir. If the timing is right on everything.”

“ Then what? The Mule’s not that kind of boat. This ship is rated at forty thousand tons, and we’re carrying another eight thousand in cargo. If we survive a splash-down then we’ll sit on the bottom and watch the water come pouring in.”

“ Sir, the course I’ve plotted maximizes our thrusters to put us at an angle. We’ll definitely hit and hit hard, but we should come to a rest near a shore. Hopefully not too deep so we can get out. Maybe even try to modify one of the mining surveyors to help us get out of here and to shore.”

“ You’re crazy,” Sharp growled.

“ Yes, Sir,” Kira admitted with a nod. “Crazy and not ready to die, Sir.”

“ You got anything better?” Sharp turned, addressing the others that were gathered on the bridge. Nobody spoke, though Tarn was fidgeting. The Captain swore then shook his head. “I’ll think about it. Until then, come up with something better!”

Sharp left the bridge. Eric sent Jeff off to check on the engines. Tarn hunched over his station, ignoring the rest of them. Kira looked on until Eric let out a pent up breath and turned to her. “You really think this is going to work?”

She reached out from where she sat and took his hand in hers. “It’s this or we drift through space forever. The odds of us coming close to another system are long, and even worse that it happens before we run out of time.”

“ We could go into a cold sleep again,” Eric said with a shudder.

Kira shook her head. “We could, but we’d need a few weeks of getting ourselves to full health or we probably wouldn’t survive it. Our food will only last so long.”

“ The ship’s got recycling systems.”

Kira knew her sour expression conveyed her thoughts of eating anything recycled. Eric nodded in agreement. “Yeah, as if the powders aren’t bad enough some days. Okay, so what are our odds?”

“ Depends on how the ship can handle the stress and how good our engineer is,” she smiled at him. “I think we’ve got the best engineer to be found outside of the Core worlds, so I’m feeling pretty good about it.”

Eric frowned. “Best engineer outside of the Rim worlds, maybe, but that’s because I may be one of the only ones dumb or unlucky enough to be out here.”

Kira squeezed his hand. “Stop that. I’m learning a lot about myself these days and it turns out I’m a lot tougher and a lot more capable than I ever thought I was. I know you are too.”

Eric chuckled. “You’re a special case.”

She shrugged it off. “The computer gives us about a one in ten chance of survival.”

“ Ten percent!” Eric hissed. They both turned to Tarn but he seemed to engrossed in whatever he was doing at his station to notice them. “You told the Captain-“

“ One in ten is if the computer handles everything and we just enjoy the ride,” Kira said. “Autopilot on the way in and everything. With me flying and you controlling the power our odds are better.”

“ From one in ten to one in three?” His expression showed his skepticism.

“ Yes, the computer can’t override safety limits.”

Eric snorted. “For good reasons!”

“ The Mule’s never going to fly again,” Kira said in an even lower voice. She glanced around, feeling as though she was talking about the ship behind its back. “We just need the hull to remain sealed, the thrusters to be operational until we’re out of fuel, and the inertial suppressor to work for one last kick. We can overload them when we need them to increase our odds. If it breaks them, oh well, we won’t be needing them anymore.”

Eric winced but said nothing in response. Finally he nodded, then glanced at Tarn again. “So we’ll be stranded on an undiscovered planet that your sensors indicate supports life. Is there any life already on it?”

Kira’s hopeful smile faded. “Some. I mean there’s oxygen, water, nitrogen, carbon, and other elements that result from living creatures. I can’t pick up any evidence of electronic emissions or man-made elements.”

“ Sounds too good to be true.”

Kira nodded. “But it beats the alternative.”

Eric sighed. “Okay, guess it’s this or nothing. I’ll see about rigging up the necessary overrides so I can run them remotely, rather than being stuck in the engine control room.”

Kira shook her head. “We need the opposite.”

“The opposite?”

“ Well, I assume. We need to all be in the safest place in the ship in case something happens in spite of all our plans.”

Eric snapped his fingers. “Brilliant!” He hissed. “If I reduce the coverage area of the inertial suppression field I can increase the power of it far more effectively than covering the entire ship!”

Kira grinned and kissed his hand. “I think I can handle being stuck on a remote tropical world with you.”

“ It’s tropical?”

Kira grinned. “Heat and moisture readings show tropical climates for most of it, with temperate zones near the poles. Just think of it as a vacation.”

Chapter 16

A herd of six creatures large enough to rout an elephant was startled into a stampede by a crackling thunder overhead. A flash lit the sky brighter even than the sun, beginning with red and yellow flames until a darker shape emerged from it, streaking towards the ground below. Smaller fires burst free from it, giving proof to the unstable nature of the alien object.

The largest piece slammed just off a recently abandoned shore, flash vaporizing the first water that came in direct contact with the superheated metal and sending a the rest away in a surge that spread in all directions with the force of a tidal wave. Beating the tidal wave to the shore was the tremor as the Rented Mule slammed into the bedrock of the ocean.

Creatures throughout the nearby forest howled and screeched, unprepared for the sudden tremors that threatened their footing and trembled the trees. A moment later an unnatural quiet returned to the jungle. Birds had taken flight, but the animals that remained stared around in confusion. Some even dared to emerge from the edge of the jungle to the sandy beach and study the smoky trail through the sky that led to a growing wall of water. When the wave crested and broke against the beach the uncomprehending creatures were swept away with the sand, water, and trees of the forest.

The water slowly returned to the ocean or remained trapped in puddles and ponds. Small waves lapped at the shore, another unnatural stillness. Cleared of any indigenous life forms, the machine that broke through the surface of the water several minutes later was greeted by nothing but silence. Water crested around it until it began to climb out of the water and onto the beach on wheels covered in metal treads. With less than a dozen feet to go the treads bogged down in the soft sand and jammed up.

After a few minutes of attempting to rock the vehicle back and forth to free it, the wheels proved too jammed with sand and mud to move. A hatch opened on the side, hissing as internal and external pressures equalized. Tarn stepped out, plasma rifle in hand and a bandage across his head and leg. He climbed across the hull of the tracked mining vehicle and lowered himself carefully into the water. It was waist high on him, allowing him to wade forward slowly, his rifle held at the ready.

Captain Sharp followed, bandages around his midsection and bloodstains covering much of his clothing. Kira and Jeff came next, supporting Eric between them. The extensive bandages on the engineer gave proof to where much of the blood on Sharp’s clothing had come from.

They waded ashore, on their own or with the support of others, and all but collapsed on the beach. Eric glanced over, gasping for breath as he did so. Kira followed his gaze, tears running down her cheeks as she did so. A large serpentine fish flopped in a shallow puddle of water. As it gasped and extending its mouth they saw the sharp row of teeth lining its jaw.

“ Tropical paradise,” Eric wheezed.

Kira tried, and failed, to bite back a sob. “Sorry,” he whispered.

She shook her head and fought back the tightness in her throat. “No, it’s all right. Just try to rest. We’ll get you in the shade.”

“ What shade?” Tarn called out from ahead. “Wave took out most of the threes and them that’s left got no leaves on ‘em.”

“ Then we’ve got building materials,” Kira snapped at him. She looked around and gestured with the arm not holding on to Eric. “Gather up the broken ligs and limbs and we can make a lean-to.”

Tarn stared at her, open mouthed. He turned to Sharp, ready to sputter a protest when the Captain nodded. “Do it, there’s nothing around us for a ways, let’s make shelter and rest up. Grab some of those fish and we can have a real dinner too.”

“ Can we eat them?” Kevin asked, staring at the sharp teeth in the mouth of the nearby fish.

“ If we can’t eat what’s here, we won’t last long. Might as well find out sooner rather than later.”

Kira grunted, signaling to Jeff and they moved forward up the beach until they neared the first of the uprooted and broken trees that had been at the edge of the jungle. They gently lowered Eric to the ground. “Go help with the shelter,” Kira bade Eric’s assistant. He nodded and hurried off, limping at his own twisted knee.

None of them had escaped the crash unscathed. Kira had a nasty scrape across her back that had torn her shirt and skin, but it was minor in comparison to the slivers of metal that had speared through Eric’s side when the inertial suppressor overloaded and exploded in front of him. His leg had been broken by a large piece of metal paneling and his head gashed when he’d crashed to the floor.

Kira pulled back his bandages at his side and stared at the torn flesh. The edges were raw and pink. She shook her head, terrified at what the lack of real medical attention would mean. A new world with new strains of bacteria and an open wound — Eric’s time was limited, at best.

“ How is it?” He asked her.

“ The bleeding has stopped,” she said. That was the only positive thing she could think to say of it. The water from the ocean had cleaned it some. “Now rest will determine what happens next. The metal pieces were through and through, at least, and so hot from the explosion they were self-cauterizing.”

“ Lucky me,” Eric groaned.

Kira faked a smile to keep herself from crying. After all she’d been through, discovering both herself and Eric, it wasn’t fair that she should lose him now. Of all the people that had to be hurt, why couldn’t it have been Tarn or Jeff or the Captain? She glanced away, suddenly ashamed at herself for thinking that way. The Captain and Jeff didn’t deserve to be hurt any more than Eric did. Tarn — well…

Jeff supervised the construction of the shelter, which quickly came to resemble a simple but spacious lean-to. Using the laser rifles they started a fire and cooked up the fish. They found a few drowned or crushed animals amongst the fallen timbers as well, creatures that went unidentified. They left them alone, content to dine on the fish instead.

The meal was simple but satisfying. They had no water to wash it down with, a problem that they only now realized. The ocean was far too salty to drink, another reminder of the human home world hundreds of light years away.

The sun fell quickly, proving they’d crashed in the afternoon. With the setting sun came a sudden and surprising downpour from above. “All that water we kicked up when we crashed,” Tarn muttered. “Temperature dropped.”

“ Gather it up!” Kira snapped. “Use whatever we’ve got!”

They looked around, scrambling to find anything they could to capture the rainwater. A loud crash from the darkness drew them up short. “What was that?” Jeff asked.

His answer came in the form of a loud roar that made their ears ring. They scrambled again, this time grabbing weapons and raising them to point into the waterlogged darkness. “Put the fire out!” Sharp hissed.

“ No! Leave it. Tarn, stay here, I’ll flank it,” Kira rose up, grimacing at the stiffness that had set into her back. Without waiting for a response she slipped into the night, picking her way as best she could over the fallen timbers and spongy ground. She grunted in surprise when she stepped in a puddle that was deeper than she expected. Adding a fresh twist of her ankle and wrench in her hip, Kira struggled up to her knee and raised her scope to peer into the darkness. She flipped the imaging mode on it to thermal and saw a massive shape approaching.

A crackle followed immediately behind a burst of light that streaked across the rainy landscape. Unlike laser and ion rifles, a plasma rifle fired a burst of energized matter that was visible to the human eye. It let off a bright light, displaying for a fraction of a second the two legged beast that stood close to twenty feet tall.

Additional bursts of plasma followed, lighting up darkness as both the Captain and Tarn opened up on the beast. Most of their blasts flew wide in the darkness but a few hit home, causing additional roars of rage but little in the way of actual damage. It spurred the creature on, bringing it towards them closer and closer. The only thing saving them was the unfamiliar ground beneath the beast as it tripped and stumbled over the ruined landscape.

Kira noted the range in her scope and fired when it was only a hundred yard away. Assuming the monster had the same general physiology as every other mammal, she had aimed for its head. She had a quartering towards her shot, so she put the crosshair just behind the beast’s right eye.

The first shot rocked the beasts head to the left. It had stepped in a depression as she had fired, lowering it just enough that the. 276 caliber teardrop glanced off the creatures forehead. It staggered from the impact, sidestepping several times to keep its feet, then shook its gargantuan head and roared anew. More plasma bursts speared towards it, catching patches of its hide on fire. Kira stared calmly through her scope, noting additional heat spikes showing up as someone fired a laser rifle at the beast as well. Whatever the hide consisted of, it seemed highly resistant to energy weapons.

Her rifle throbbed against her palm, letting her know the coils were ready. She stroked the trigger, making the contact that generated the magnetic pulse along the rails. This time the round struck where she intended it, at a direct angle on the side of its head. It crashed to the ground, falling on its side and jerking its powerful legs several times before lying still.

Kira rose up, stumbling as she did so. Fresh pain lanced through the leg she’d wrenched. Gritting her teeth she limped over to the fallen monster and stared at it in the darkness. The fires on its hide had been put out by the rain but she could see well enough in the darkness to see it was covered with a thick layer of short feathers. Tarn and Sharp joined her a moment later, swearing as they drew close enough to see it.

“ Where the hell are we?” Tarn asked.

“ I wonder if it tasted like Chicken?” Sharp offered.

Kira turned away from it. “Doesn’t matter, it came hunting and we got in its way. We need to find a safe place as soon as we can and hole up. If we can eat the fish, we can eat the animals too. We need a source of fresh water and good hunting. Fruits too, or whatever this place has. We’ve got to give Eric a chance to get better, then we’ll be stronger and better able to find a permanent place to stay.”

“ Permanent?” Jeff asked. They were close enough to the shelter for him and Eric to hear her.

“ We have to assume permanent,” Kira said, looking everywhere but at her wounded lover. “If help comes that’s great, but until it does we have to figure otherwise. We’ve got rechargers for the energy packs and Eric shaped plenty of ammunition for my rifle before we landed. Means sleeping in shifts and everything.”

“ Ah… paradise,” Eric muttered, then he grimaced and covered his side with his hand.

Kira bit her lip and looked away. “I’ll take first watch.” When — if — Eric died from his injuries it would take some time. They had a day or two at least she figured. A day or two before she’d need strength she didn’t know if she had. A day or two before she’d need to see just how truly gone Emily really was.

Content

Jason Halstead
New Beginnings

Chapter 1

Chapter 2

Chapter 3

Chapter 4

Chapter 5

Chapter 6

Chapter 7

Chapter 8

Chapter 9

Chapter 10

Chapter 11

Chapter 12

Chapter 13

Chapter 14

Chapter 15

Chapter 16