Andrea Cremer

Treachery

A book in the Nightshade series, 2011

The weakest has strength enough to kill the strongest, either by secret machination, or by confederacy with others.

Thomas Hobbes, Leviathan

THE PAIN NO LONGER kept me awake, no matter how much I needed it to. Sleep would kill me. I was sure of it.

I tried to move as often as possible, forcing my body to remember that it was bruised, scraped raw in ways that should always jolt me back to the present moment. Pressing up against the cold steel of the cell walls, I sucked in a sharp breath when the icy surface met my skin through the ruins of my clothes. But I didn’t relax. I couldn’t. No matter how much my bones were screaming at me to collapse. To puddle onto the floor, letting go of the conscious world.

I’d let it happen before, more than once. When exhaustion pushed on my head and shoulders, forcing them to the ground. When everything that had happened shoved my eyelids down with tears burning beneath them. That was the most dangerous time because I couldn’t hold my mind in check. I couldn’t fight off the swell of feelings that rose up, choking me with confusion, fear, and regret.

The torture I could take-at least until it killed me. But I’d quickly learned that my mind was the real problem. When that broke, I’d give up. And I was so close to breaking. I no longer remembered how much time had passed between being shoved into this cell and now. I knew I existed on the verge of losing it. And it got much worse whenever I passed out.

Because I only had two dreams.

I never knew which one would take me when staying awake slipped out of my control.

But they were both deadly.

Everyone is here. My whole life, embodied by the wolves I live with and the witches who rule us. The Keepers stand apart, but still in sight, tall shadows illuminated by firelight and moonlight. Nightshades and Banes ring us-shadows lurking in the woods just behind the pack. The new pack. My pack. Haldis.

The air is static with anticipation and I can hardly keep still. Bryn stands opposite me, but I can see her through the leaping flames of the bonfire. The burning pile of logs sends glossy waves of heat into the night sky. Above us the blood moon is bathed in ochre and crimson.

Voices join the smoke and flames that leap skyward. First Nev. Then Sabine. I haven’t heard this song before. It’s nothing like Nev’s tunes when he plays at the Burnout, or favors the pack with an impromptu, exclusive acoustic set. The minor key of this melody is old, but it feels familiar. Already I want to howl-to lend my voice to the ancient song that speaks of loyalty, honor, courage. But it’s not time yet.

My eyes meet Bryn’s in the flickering light.

I love you, I mouth. I see her eyes brim and dimples appear on her cheeks when she smiles at me.

It’s almost here. The moment where we’ll be together. Living together. Our future.

The song ends, though Nev and Sabine’s voices linger in the air, filling the forest a moment longer.

Without a word, we shift. All the wolves. I lift my muzzle, staring at the blood moon, and howl with all my being. My call is a hundred calls. I’ve never heard all the voices of the Nightshade and Bane packs united. It sends electric waves beneath my fur. We are the night. We are power.

In his wolf form, Ren steps from the shadows, dark as the smoke rising from the bonfire. He stands before us. The only wolf not joining in our song. He waits, alert and unwavering. Our alpha.

I continue to sing, though I’ve drawn my eyes from the moon to search the edge of the trees for my sister. I think of how her white wolf will look like a ghost materializing from the dark. How her light will contrast the shadow gray of Ren’s coat.

I don’t see her.

We’re still singing, but the mood of the packs ripples. Ren stirs, turning in an anxious circle as his gaze darts to the forest.

Where is she? Bryn’s thought enters my mind.

I force my tone to be light when I answer. Cold feet?

God, I hope not. Bryn has stopped howling. Beside her, Sabine bares her teeth.

Mason whimpers in my ear. Something’s wrong.

I don’t answer. I don’t want to. The thrill of the night racing through my veins has grown cold.

The chorus of howls falters. Intermittent snarls and low growls begin to filter through.

The Keepers, who’ve been standing apart, silent and watchful, begin to move. Efron Bane, standing with Logan and Lumine, suddenly shouts:

“Emile! To me.”

I watch the burly Bane alpha lope to his master’s side. I can’t hear what Efron says, but a moment later Emile is racing into the forest with five elder Banes at his heels.

A large, dark shape shoulders into me. My father doesn’t say anything, but I can feel the tension in his body. The way he’s standing is defensive, as if he expects an attack at any moment.

My hackles raise, but I force myself to stay still.

Bryn creeps across the circle, standing close to me but careful not to touch me. There are too many watchful eyes here. What if she’s hurt?

What could hurt Calla? I ask, but my stomach is knotted.

The other young wolves begin to cluster and I notice that we’ve split into our former groups. Sabine, Dax, Ren, and Nev huddle together. Mason and Fey appear at Bryn’s flank.

New howls echo in the woods and I jump. The Banes’ call is alarmed and furious.

Stay close, my father says as a low growl rumbles in his chest.

My mother comes to his side, pressing her muzzle against his.

I wish I knew what she was saying to him.

Emile bursts from the trees, shifting form as he reaches Efron. He keeps his voice low, but I watch the Keeper’s face contort with outrage. Efron points at us and Emile grins. He’s a wolf again, barreling toward my parents.

My father jumps in front of my mother and Emile stops just short of him. His teeth are bared and drool slips from his jaws.

What do we do? Bryn is trembling beside me. What’s happening?

I don’t know. My hackles are raised, but we can’t attack a Bane alpha. Can we?

As my father and Emile stare at each other, fur bristling and muscles quivering with rage, Lumine and Efron move together, closing the space that had separated the Keepers from the wolves.

Lumine passes Emile without a glance. Her eyes are cold as they pass over my mother to rest on my father.

“This will be much more pleasant if you stand down, Stephen,” she says. I can’t detect anything amiss in her calm voice.

Keeping his eyes on Lumine, my father shifts form.

“Mistress, please.” He bows his head. “What’s happening? Where’s my daughter?”

Lumine stiffens, but Efron smiles.

“That is something we’d all like to know,” he says. He flicks his wrist and Emile lunges forward, knocking my still-human father to the ground.

The squeal of the cell door opening woke me. I cemented my jaw shut, forcing myself to swallow the sob at the back of my throat.

I knew what I’d see next: the slithering movement of a wraith. The Keepers sent them in at least twice a day.

But today-whatever day that was-something different came through the door. Something worse.

I recognized him immediately. The dark fur and smoky eyes. The confidence in his stride.

Ren. In wolf form.

It was the first time I’d seen him since the Chamber. Since my mother’s throat had been torn out. And then they’d taken Ren… and given him to wraiths. That was something we’d shared. Torment by the Keepers’ shadow pets.

Looking at Ren now, it was clear that we no longer had that in common. In this cell, I was a husk of what I’d been. My body was barely covered by tattered scraps of formal wear, but my skin was marbled by indigo, sickly green, and gray-blue bruising. I was caked in my own filth.

Ren was none of these things. He looked… well.

And he was a wolf.

Rolling onto my back, I pushed myself against the wall until I was sitting up as much as I possibly could. Some of my muscles refused to fully stretch out anymore.

I wanted to glare at him, to show him how much I hated him, but I couldn’t look at him. I couldn’t look at a wolf without falling apart, and the Keepers knew that. They knew seeing him would be that much worse than being a wraith’s bitch for yet another day.

My mind was bursting with questions about what had changed. Why was I still being tortured while Ren had been made whole? But I couldn’t risk asking. Somewhere in the sliver of my mind that still functioned, I knew I didn’t want the answers.

Keeping my eyes downcast, I croaked, “Get out.”

My throat shrieked at the effort; it was still raw from all the screaming. Those were the first words I’d spoken in days.

Ren didn’t give any sign he’d heard me. I glanced up and saw that he had lain down, though his head was still lifted. His gaze was fixed on me, unwavering.

I turned my head, resting my cheek on the frigid metal wall.

We stayed like that for so long. I didn’t look at him again. I stayed silent, curling in on myself, pretending that his presence was only making me angry. But I wasn’t angry, and after a while, tears I could no longer hold back began to drip onto my cheeks.

I heard the click of his toenails on the steel floor. He stopped next to me and shifted into human form.

Still crouched close, he whispered, “She did this to you.”

An invisible hand began to crush my throat. I closed my eyes, shaking my head, afraid to do anything else.

The stiff denim of Ren’s jeans rustled as he rose and walked away from me. “Coming out!”

The door squealed open, then clanged shut.

I was alone again.

The other dream was worse. Worse because I always knew it was a dream but I couldn’t get out of it. I didn’t want to. Worse because it meant I cared about myself more than my sister’s betrayal, than my mother dying, than my friends’ suffering.

The high forest that skirts Haldis is my favorite. I’m tearing through it at the best time of day. Just before dawn. The ground is still laced with mist that comes up to my chest. The air is alive with scents. The day stretches out before me, brimming with possibilities.

I’m light as the wind when I run. If I could race the slightest bit faster, I’d be flying. The forest knows me. Deer flit out of my path. Rabbits dash for their warrens, not wanting to become a morning snack.

A clear, commanding bark catches my attention. Calla stands on a ridge, a few yards ahead of me. She wags her tail, barks again, and jumps from the ledge. She lands on the forest floor, even closer now. With a yip, she wheels and takes off.

I know this game. We’ve played it since we were pups.

She wants me to catch her, but she’s always been able to outrun me. But I’m older now. Taller. Stronger. This time I will catch her. This time she’ll be proud that her little brother isn’t so little anymore.

I keep pace with her, though she twists and turns, making a maze of the tall pines. We reach an open meadow as the sunrise hits it. Tall grasses wink with dew. Wildflowers turn their faces to the light.

With a bark to let her know that I’m about to overtake her, I lunge forward. The ground churns beneath my paws. My toenails dig into the dirt, propelling me ever faster.

But something isn’t right. My body feels heavy. I should be running faster, but I’m slowing down. My bones ache. My muscles shriek as I feel them stretching too far, and then tearing.

I can’t feel the wolf, only my human form, which is a painful hulk of flesh and blood. I drop to my knees when I see it. The wolf that was me is still running. Each stride brings it closer to Calla. My wolf runs with his alpha, free and full of joy.

I’m kneeling in the dirt and I begin to scream, “Calla! Calla!”

But she doesn’t come back.

My mouth was open, my throat on fire. I knew it was the screaming that woke me. I’d been calling out my sister’s name in my sleep. That had happened too many times. It seemed to be the only thing that could pull me from that particular nightmare. And this time the dream had held me captive, even through the door opening and closing. Even through someone joining me in the room.

Ren was taking his turn as my cellmate again. He was also in wolf form again, but when he saw my eyes open, he shifted into his human body.

For a moment I felt grateful, but a wave of sickness pushed any relief away. I hated that nightmare so much. Pushing myself to my hands and knees, I crawled to the opposite side of the room.

“Bad dreams?” Ren asked.

I laughed, but what came out was a cracked, gurgling sound.

Ren jumped to his feet, and I marveled at the quickness and ease of his movement.

“Coming out!” Ren called through the small slit high in the cell door. But when the door opened, he didn’t leave. I heard him murmur quietly to whoever stood guard in the hall. A couple minutes passed. I didn’t move. Ren didn’t move.

With another quiet word, Ren closed the door and I noticed that he now had a glass of water. He walked slowly to my side. He approached with caution, as if I might attack him. I wanted to laugh, but I couldn’t bear to hear that awful sound again.

“Drink this.” He offered me the glass. When he saw how badly my hand was shaking, he put the lip of the glass to my mouth without asking.

Instinct overpowered my desire to shove the glass away. I doubted I could do anything close to shoving anyway. I probably couldn’t swat a fly away.

I swallowed through the rawness of my throat. My tongue was thick and parched in my mouth.

When Ren took away the glass, letting me catch my breath, he said, “They told me they were giving you food and water.”

I was surprised to see him frown.

He gave me another swallow and I decided to try talking again.

“They do,” I rasped. “But not that often.”

“I’ll fix that,” he said. “There’s no reason to treat you this poorly.”

My lip cracked when I smiled. “Since they’re going to kill me soon enough anyway.”

The news of my execution didn’t come as a surprise. I’d been expecting it every day. Even after I lost count of days. At this point I was ready to welcome it. I wondered if Bryn was dead. And Mason. Had the Keepers decided to eliminate all the young Nightshades?

I squeezed my eyes shut tight, having made that terrible mistake: thinking for even a moment about Bryn. I had to push the memory of her away. I’d heard her screams coming from another cell, their tinny echo bouncing off my cell walls, worse than any torture the Keepers could have subjected me to. Then the screams had been replaced by silence, which scared me even more.

“They’re not going to kill you.” Ren’s voice broke through my slide into despair over Bryn.

I forced my eyelids up. “Why not?”

“Because it wasn’t your fault,” he answered. “It was hers.”

My mind flashed back to the dream. Calla’s wolf running free, running away from me no matter how much I cried out to her.

I knew Ren could read the pain on my face, though I’d looked away from him.

“How do you think I feel?” he asked.

Turning my gaze back to him, I searched his dark eyes. Behind the strength and health of his body I could still see it-he was haunted. Something in him was broken and bleeding. But he was still a wolf. And I couldn’t forgive him for that.

“I don’t have anything to say to you,” I said, though I couldn’t muster any heat with the words. “The Keepers can do what they want to me. I have nothing more to lose.”

“But you have a lot to gain,” Ren countered.

My heart pumped harder, in a way I wished it hadn’t. I squirmed another foot away from him.

“No,” I whispered. “I don’t.”

Ren didn’t try to approach me, but from where he sat he spoke slowly. “I think we feel something similar. About being left behind. About being betrayed.”

I didn’t answer him. Bile began to climb from my stomach into my throat.

“But I can’t imagine how you feel now,” Ren continued. “Without your wolf.”

My fingers curled against the cold metal floor. I couldn’t speak. Shame and sorrow were rising up, threatening to drown me.

“They did the worst thing they could to you,” he said, bowing his head. “They know that. But Ansel, can you imagine how angry Calla made them? She spit in their faces. She turned against everything she’s ever been given, and they gave her all she could want.”

His voice had begun to crack. I tried to look at him, but his head was bowed so far, I couldn’t see his expression.

Not wanting to admit that his words were water in the fissure of the last resolve I had, I said, “They killed my mother.”

“I know.” Ren lifted his face. He wasn’t crying, but in the fluorescent light, his eyes brimmed. “And there’s nothing that will change her punishment. She’s gone.”

He stood up, turning his back to me. “The Keepers’ laws are clear. And the punishments for violating those laws are also clear. Your mother knew that. Calla knew that.”

I tipped my head back, letting the crown of my skull rest on the wall. I couldn’t deny the truth of it. We’d all been so foolish. I’d been such a child. I told Calla I’d break the rules for her. She and Ren had broken the rules so Bryn and I could be together. We were on the road to hell and we should have known it.

“All that’s left is for us to start over,” Ren said, returning to my side. He sat down, his back against the wall in a mirror of my posture.

Dropping my head into my hands, I told him, “There’s no starting over for me.”

“I’m telling you there is,” he said. “That’s why I’m here. To offer you a second chance.”

I worried that I’d slipped into some new dream. Another torment offered up by my eroding psyche.

Ren’s gaze was earnest when I turned to look at him.

“What the Keepers took from you, they can give back.” He refused to break our gaze when he spoke, letting the words settle in. “I swear to you, Ansel.”

I knew there had to be a catch. That all was not forgiven.

As if he anticipated my next question, Ren hopped up. “Think about it.” He walked to the door, banging on it with his fist. When it opened, he turned back. “And think about what she did.”

When the door slammed and Ren was gone, I reached for the glass of water he’d left behind. My hand shook so badly that I only got the glass halfway to my face before it jumped from my fingers.

I stared at the water as it pooled around my feet.

Think about what she did.

As if I’d thought about anything else since the night she left.

When the door opened this time, I was awake. Ren entered and for the first time I wasn’t surprised to see him. Behind him, Logan Bane strolled into my cell, making my bones shudder. Ren’s good-cop bit was obviously over and Logan’s bad cop was bound to be a showstopper with a wraith backing him up.

Hope followed by despair was the worst torture. I should have known.

Logan tilted his head, looking me up and down. “He is a bit worse for wear, isn’t he?”

Ren gave a stiff nod.

“Hopefully we can amend that.” Logan kept his distance but smiled at me. “I have an offer to make you, Ansel. I think you’ll find it quite generous.”

I remembered the first time Logan had come into my cell. Ren hadn’t been there, but Logan’s father, Efron, and Ren’s father, Emile, had been. That visit brought no offer of redemption. First, there’d been Emile’s fists. I supposed it was better than his teeth, but even that thought didn’t take away the pain of the heavy blows Emile took obvious delight in delivering.

After Emile was through, Efron had summoned a wraith. I’d tried so hard to be strong. Brave, even. I’d spat at them. Shrieked curses and hatred as long as I could. But soon enough I’d only been able to scream. And eventually my voice disappeared altogether, though my body still writhed in pain while the wraith clasped me in its black tendrils.

Lifting my eyes to meet Logan’s assessing gaze, I half wondered where my anger had gone. Part of me thought that even looking at one of the creators of my misery should make every insult I knew boil out of my mouth. But whatever will to fight back, to resist, I’d once had was gone. I was so tired. Of this place. Of life. I just wanted it to be over.

My cell door stood open and a Bane elder came into the room, carrying a chair.

“Thank you,” Logan told the guard as the Bane set the chair down to face me.

With a curt bow, the Bane elder left-slamming the door behind him.

Logan settled into the chair, pulling a pack of Djarum Blacks from his jacket pocket. He crossed his legs, lighting a cigarette and watching me. He gave a quick jerk of his chin and Ren came to stand beside me, ready to block any attack I might make.

That almost made me laugh. As if I were any sort of threat to Logan. As if I could do anything to him. Even if I still wanted to.

While smoke curled around him, Logan asked, “Do you miss your life, Ansel?”

I stared at him. What kind of a question was that?

Logan seemed to take my nonanswer as affirmative. “Because I’d like to give it back to you. My father and I have been talking, and we agree that you’ve gotten the worst of this debacle. Poor boy.”

That rankled me a bit. Logan was only three years older than me, and despite my current state, I still believed I was more of a man than he’d ever be. Not that it mattered.

“It must be hard,” Logan went on. “Being the younger sibling of an alpha. Did you ever wish you were the firstborn?”

I stayed quiet. It wasn’t like Logan really wanted me to speak. He liked to hear himself talk and I was happy enough to let him. If I had spoken, he wouldn’t be happy with my answer. I’d never wished to be alpha-letting Calla bear all that responsibility had made me feel like I had a freedom she’d never have.

Maybe that’s why she ran.

I shoved back that thought as quickly as I could. As much as I couldn’t muster anger toward Logan, I still wasn’t willing to break down in front of him again. He’d had that pleasure too many times already.

Logan smiled briefly. “I think we’re all a bit regretful that your sister failed so miserably in her duties. But how could we know? All that’s left is to pick up the pieces.”

Beside me, Ren stirred. Glancing at him, I couldn’t tell if he was nervous or angry.

“Your mother bore the brunt of Calla’s failure,” Logan told me, and I turned my head away. “Surely you understand why her death was imperative. One female alpha failing to instill respect for law and duty into her heir… shameful.”

My breath became ragged, and it made my chest burn. I tried to keep my face blank as I stared ahead, not blinking. My eyeballs were rapidly drying out, but I couldn’t risk blinking. I knew if I did, I’d see my mother. See her splayed on the stone slab in the Chamber. See Emile’s muzzle bathed in her blood.

“And your father has lost his place as alpha,” Logan continued, taking a long pull off his cigarette. “But you, Ansel. You could be all you were and more.”

I didn’t so much as glance at him, but I listened hard, straining to hear any truth in what he was saying.

“Ren,” Logan said abruptly. “If you wouldn’t mind.”

Ren crouched beside me. His voice was low, calm. “You could return to the pack, Ansel. Come back to us.”

I dared to lift my head, peering at him. “What pack?”

There was a brief flicker of uncertainty in his gaze. Logan coughed delicately, and Ren quickly went on: “It will take some time to sort that out. Right now, we’re all one pack. Reunited as Guardians to prove our loyalty to the Keepers, recognizing all they’ve done for us.”

He paused, taking a long breath. “And all that Calla betrayed.”

“But… my wolf…” When I said it, I couldn’t stop the sucker punch my mind threw at me. It didn’t take much for me to feel all of it again. The wolf being peeled from my human body, like scraps of skin torn away one piece at a time. The way its shape burned in front of my eyes, scorched out of existence. The husk I felt like every moment since they took it away.

Logan piped up. “Have you so little faith in us, Ansel? What we’ve taken away we can give again.” The quasi-delight in his voice pulled my gaze to him.

The shaking began at the base of my neck, creeping slowly over my shoulders, gripping my arms. In moments, my entire body was close to seizing up.

“Breathe, Ansel,” Ren murmured.

Logan’s smile curved with pleasure.

“But it’s gone.” I could barely whisper. “You killed it. Killed that part of me.”

“That’s true.” Logan nodded. “But you’re forgetting your history. Once, there were no Guardians. The first wolf warriors had to be made. Do you think we’d be careless enough to lose that magic?”

I swallowed hard, clenching my fists with what little strength I had as I tried to gain control of my limbs. “You’re lying.”

“He’s not,” Ren answered.

The smoke from Logan’s cigarette had filled the airless room. I wheezed, but Logan shrugged, flicking ash from the burning tip.

“It’s not worth my time to concoct a lie for you,” Logan said. “We’re on a timeline here and if you want to be whole again, I can offer you a deal.”

“What do you want?” I squinted through the haze of clove-scented smoke.

“Your sister has chosen some unsavory allies,” Logan said, grinding his teeth. “The Searchers have deluded her with their lies. We need to put a stop to their collusion before matters get even worse.”

“She’s with the Searchers?” I couldn’t imagine how that was possible. Running away was one thing, but seeking refuge with our enemies? “That’s insane,” I muttered.

Logan laughed. “That’s the consensus we’ve arrived at as well. We think Calla somehow convinced herself that she’s in love with Shay and that by offering to help the Searchers, she can be with him.”

A quiet growl rolled out of Ren’s throat.

“But we’re going to fix that.” Logan looked at the alpha. “Aren’t we, Ren?”

“Yes, Logan,” Ren answered.

Logan stood up, dropped his cigarette, and put it out with his heel. With his hands folded behind his back, he paced the cell. “We need to get your sister and Shay back. In order to do that, we first have to find them.”

“How can I help with that?” I asked. “I’m worthless.”

“Actually, in your current state, you’re quite priceless.” Logan smiled. “Though your sister is a traitor, I’d wager she’s also guilt ridden about leaving her family behind. She knows how our punishments work.”

Ren growled again, louder this time. I glanced at him, but he turned his back so I couldn’t see his face.

“If you don’t know where she is, how am I supposed to find her?” The more I talked, the easier it became, as if my vocal cords were remembering how to work.

“An apt question,” Logan said. “We’ve known for some time that the Searchers have a hideout in Denver, from which they pester us in Vail. But the precise location is cloaked by enchantments. We have to break down those spells so we can attack.”

“So why don’t you?” I frowned.

“These sorts of enchantments can only be dispelled from within,” Logan said. “Obviously, we can’t get inside the Searchers’ hovel if we don’t know where they are.”

Logan threw a sharp look at Ren. The alpha pivoted to face me, crouching low to be at eye level with me.

“Calla will want to help you, Ansel,” Ren told me. “You can get inside.”

“But I don’t know anything about Denver.” I balked at the idea. I could barely stand, much less hunt down Searchers-who would kill me on sight if they knew who I was.

“Leave that to us,” Logan quipped. “Being the wretched creatures they are, it wasn’t too hard to narrow down the parts of Denver where they might be. We’ll send you out into those areas one by one, until they pick you up.”

“What if they kill me before I get to their hideout?” I asked.

“We consider that an acceptable risk” was all Logan said.

I sat silently, my head trapped in a vise of confusion, sadness, and futile hope.

Beside me, Ren said, “You have to, Ansel. You have to bring her back.”

Looking at Ren, I narrowed my eyes. “Are you going to kill her?” I hated that I harbored mixed feelings about the question. Calla had left us all behind. Left us to imprisonment, torture, and death. But she was still my sister.

Ren shook his head, but I kept searching his face for signs of deception, not knowing if I could really trust him.

“We don’t think killing Calla is our best course,” Logan interjected. “After all, we’ve already lost one alpha female in this debacle.”

“But she’s a traitor,” I said to him before I’d even thought about my words.

Logan attempted a somber nod, but he couldn’t stop himself from beaming at me. “She is, Ansel. But we think with time that Calla can be… re-educated and eventually brought back into the fold. Don’t we, Ren?”

Ren’s answer was little more than a snarl. “Yes.”

“So you see,” Logan purred, “you’re not only our best hope. You’re Calla’s only hope.”

One more question lingered in my mind, but I was afraid to ask it. I looked to Ren rather than Logan.

“Bryn?” Her name was all I could manage.

Ren spoke curtly. “She’s fine.”

“I want to see her,” I said. Just knowing that she was alive gave me a jolt of audacity I wouldn’t have imagined possible.

Logan stepped into my line of vision. “I don’t think that’s something we can do.”

I hung my head, but Logan continued to speak. “Not until you’ve shown us where your loyalties lie.”

Glancing at Logan, I asked, “If I do this, will you let me see Bryn?”

“Of course,” Logan answered, with a careless wave of his hand. “You’ll see all your packmates.”

Swallowing hard, I continued, “And will you… will you swear to me that if I make it back…”

My heart felt like a sharp rock cracking against my ribs with each beat.

“Will I swear what?” Logan asked, irritated with my stumbling words.

“I want to be with Bryn,” I blurted. “Mated to her.”

Logan stared at me, his eyes wider than I’d ever seen. After a moment he recovered, and gave a throaty laugh. “Well. Well, well, well.” He lifted an eyebrow at Ren. “Did you know about this?”

Ren bowed his head and I squeezed my eyes shut. How could I have asked such a stupid question? In an already hopeless situation, I’d made things that much worse.

“So many secrets.” I was surprised that Logan didn’t sound angry, but rather like he’d heard the funniest joke of his life.

Trying to salvage anything from the wreck I’d made, I said, “It wasn’t Ren’s fault. We were together before he knew anything about it.”

“Don’t worry about Ren,” Logan told me. “Worry about yourself.”

I banged my head hard against the wall, not caring that it made my vision blur for a moment.

“Now, now,” Logan coaxed. “You act as though I have no heart.”

My guts twisted at the irony of having to rely on Logan’s compassion. His words weren’t far off the mark. I’d suspected more than once that he lacked anything resembling a heart.

Meeting my wary gaze, Logan smiled. “Please understand: there’s only so much I can do. No matter how much I might pity your case.”

When Logan looked at Ren, his jaw tightened. “Who is your master, Ren?”

“Efron. Your father.” Ren’s eyes remained downcast.

“And why is that?” Logan asked.

Ren glanced up, surprise written on his face.

Logan’s laugh was brief and sharp. “Go ahead. I’ll forgive you. Tell him what I know my father told the Guardians.”

With some hesitation, Ren spoke, but he kept his eyes on me, not once sparing Logan a glance. “Efron told us that the Haldis pack wouldn’t be formed. Not without Calla. And he said that Logan wouldn’t rule a pack. That he’d failed to rule us as a packmaster should.”

“So you see, Ansel,” Logan said, “I’m being punished too. And this mission that I’m sending you on-it’s one of the ways I can return to my father’s good graces. We can all get what we want. If we work together.”

I nodded as I realized that the repercussions I’d feared because of my outburst weren’t coming.

“And you want Bryn… among other things.” Logan pursed his lips. “You can see that I can’t give orders about pairing you up. But I can probably persuade my father to keep what would have been the Haldis pack without mates for a while. He’s promised that I can be restored to mastery of your pack if I prove myself to him.”

“And that starts with me,” I said quietly.

“It started with Ren,” Logan told me. “But our alpha is sorted. You’re the next step to making things right.”

It wasn’t much. It wasn’t even a promise. But it was something. At this point I would have taken anything. He couldn’t give me Bryn, but he could make sure she wasn’t given to another wolf.

Filling my lungs with air, I used all my strength to push myself upright. Though I had to brace myself against the wall and my legs trembled, I’d managed to stand. Slowly, carefully, I tipped forward, bowing deeply to Logan.

When I’d straightened, he was smiling at me.

“Tell me what to do,” I said.

“First, I’m sending in something decent for you to eat,” Logan told me. “There are details to take care of. While I’m making arrangements, you eat. For reasons that should be obvious, we can’t clean you up, but you will need to be able to walk. Good food will give you some strength back.”

Logan’s smile broadened to a grin. “You won’t regret this.”

He walked briskly to the door, gave a sharp rap on it, and when it opened he was gone, leaving the door still ajar and me standing beside Ren.

I felt a hand press into my shoulder and I turned to meet Ren’s piercing gaze.

“When you see her, don’t forget what she did.” His canines were sharp. “To all of us.”

“I won’t,” I told him. “I’ll never forget. And I’ll never forgive her.”

“Neither will I,” he said. As if to remind me of what I’d lost-what Calla’s choice had cost me-Ren shifted forms. His deep gray wolf bared its teeth at me before darting from the cell.

The door slammed shut and I sunk to the floor, my leg muscles quaking from the effort of standing.

I’ll never forgive her.

I’d meant those words when I said them, but I wondered if they were entirely true-if Ren asked me not to forget what Calla had done because he knew what it would be like to be face-to-face with my sister. With someone whom I’d always trusted and always loved.

But I couldn’t imagine forgiving Calla.

Exhausted from the effort of standing and talking for longer than I had in days, I lay on the cold metal floor. Sleep crept over me, and I hoped I might dream something other than the nightmares that had dogged me until now.

Before I let go of the waking world, one last thought slipped through my conscious mind.

If Ren wanted to be sure I couldn’t forgive Calla, was it because he was afraid he could?

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