Damon Young

I’LL SEE YOU IN HELL

Call me Kingston. Killing is my vocation. It comes naturally to me, so, like the best prodigies, I decided to make a career of it. Some people would say that makes me a sociopath. That’s why I try not to take too much pleasure in my work.

Of all the men I’d killed, I enjoyed Seamus the most, much to my regret. But, to be completely fair, the S.O.B. had it coming.

Ours is supposed to be a quiet profession, done secretly. Anonymously. Discreetly. But professionalism, anonymity, and discretion were qualities that, apparently, were all well beyond Seamus. He reveled in the notoriety and the mass panic that came with a big, bloody, public massacre. Seamus had become an embarrassment and liability to our mutual employers, so when the contract came with his name on it, I tried not to crack too much of a smile. After all, this was a job.

Seamus was a disgrace. But he was also very good. Despite his sloppy methods, he somehow never managed to get caught, and he always got his man, along with anyone else within the blast radius. I needed to make sure he didn’t wiggle his way out of this one.

I’d planned a clean hit: no collateral damage, no witnesses, no reason for anyone to think anything other than that the dumb bastard had finally doped himself to death. But most important of all, I wouldn’t even have to be in the room to see his big snaggletoothed grin before he shuffled off of this mortal coil. All I had to do was sit back across the street and wait for the ambulance to show up to pronounce him. Sit back. Relax. Watch Seamus’ neighbor give her girlfriend a sponge bath.

A nice clean hit.

Until I heard the gunshot. And my name, screamed from Seamus’ mouth. He came bursting out onto the balcony of his apartment, frothing at the mouth, waiving a Glock with the tainted needle still hanging from his arm.

“Kingston!!! I know it’s you, Kingston!!”

With a gunshot for every exclamation point.

Luckily, I came prepared. I leaned over to the other side of my balcony, looked through the scope of the rifle that was already positioned and trained on Seamus’s apartment, and put a bullet through his forehead.

Dirty, but, sadly, necessary.

“Is that all you’ve got, Kingston!?” With a bullet in his forehead, Seamus turned in the direction of my shot and just started blasting. I ducked down to dodge the hail of bullets and unloaded on him. This had broken down far too quickly. I needed to finish him off before the sirens arrived. But even laying on my side and aiming through a balcony railing, I’m a damn good shot. I hit Seamus three more times, square in the chest.

“There you are, Kingston! I’ve got you now!”

Riddled with bullets, Seamus jumped from his balcony to the fire escape and started climbing down to the street. The SOB just wouldn’t die.

Clearly the rifle didn’t have the stopping power I needed. If anything, Seamus was thick. I rolled into the empty apartment, flipped open my case, and grabbed the Desert Eagle. The time for finesse had passed.

I ran back to the balcony, hoping to get a quick one off into the top of Seamus’ skull. But he was gone from the fire escape and out of sight. I looked around the ground floor of Seamus’ building, hoping maybe I’d lucked out and he’d slipped and finally cracked his skull on the pavement. I leaned over the balcony to see the whole street. No such luck.

Then a hand grabbed my ankle through the railing.

“Kingston!”

And there he was, with that big stupid gap-toothed grin, face glistening with blood in the moonlight. Seamus, climbing up the balconies to get to me. It was ridiculous. It was almost funny.

“Now I’ve got you!”

I aimed for his mouth. He knocked the Desert Eagle to the street. He pulled my leg through the railing, tripping me and knocking me down to the ground. He climbed over the railing, drooling blood onto my slacks. I kicked him in the face. He lost a tooth, but kept grinning. I tried to pull back into the apartment. Seamus tumbled onto me like a giggling sack of potatoes.

“Get back here, Kingston! We’re not finished!”

He took the needle from his arm and stabbed me with it in the gut before filling me with the poisoned heroin. I’m not a screamer like Seamus, but sometimes, your pain gets the best of your dignity.

“I knew if I caused a big enough scene, they’d eventually send you, pretty boy. Always looking down on me, like you’re something special.”

I pulled my rifle & bashed him in the head. When would I learn? Hitting him in the head was clearly a waste of time as he bled all over my nice new Zegna suit, clawing for my face.

I bit down hard and took two of his fingers with me. I spat them back in his face. Seamus cackled through the pain.

“Look at you, Kingston! You’re not special! You’re just like me!”

He was blabbering right in my face. Finally close enough where I could knee him in the one head that really counted on the dumb bastard. Seamus cackled as he rolled over, clutching his family jewels with his eight remaining fingers.

I got to all-fours just as Seamus pulled a Saturday Night Special from his ankle holster. He got off two quick shots — one through my shoulder, the other through my earlobe — before I smashed his arm against the rail and broke his wrist.

Staggering, I was light-headed when I slumped over him and pulled out my knife.

“Got a secret, Kingston! It’s a big surprise!”

With his bad hand, he starts perforating my stomach with the needle. I stabbed his arm and nailed it to the ground, just to make him stop. I ripped off what’s left of his shirt, just to make sure the dumb bastard’s not wearing Kevlar or something before I fillet him.

Seamus spat out another tooth as he laughed.

Even through the bullet wounds and blood, I saw that his whole chest is covered with tattoos: a black goat’s head with flaming eyes in a circle and surrounded by writing in some language I didn’t understand.

“Surprise!”

Big fucking deal. He had an ugly tattoo. Definitely didn’t see that coming. Yawn.

I stabbed him right in the goat’s forehead.

And black blood came out.

Black. It looked like steaming hot crude oil spurting in a gusher around my knife. But I know the smell of blood, even when it’s rotted and spoiled like this.

Seamus was gagging. But still grinning.

“I’ll see you in Hell, Kingston.”

I had to admit: I didn’t see that coming.

Whatever.

I stabbed him again. And again. But the bastard would not just shut up. So I finally just held down his forehead and sawed until I cut his head off.

And THEN he was dead. Finally.

It was a real horror show. I was covered in my blood and whatever the Hell else was coursing through Seamus’ veins. A slug in the shoulder. Missing a piece of my ear. Gushing blood like a spigot from all the needle holes in my gut. I looked at Seamus, and I couldn’t help but laugh, thinking “You should see the other guy.”

I couldn’t stop laughing. Most of the contracts I’d done in the last 10 or 15 years were all whisper jobs: nobody even knows it’s a hit, it’s so clean and blameless. I was still a kid the last time I had to really mix it up like the old days. Most of the time, if someone wants to go toe-to-toe with me, they’re really better off just lying down and taking the poison. Otherwise, they bring out the part of me that Seamus got to that night.

The part of me that likes it when my hands are sticky.

Most of the time, it’s just some poor deadbeat or a random family man. Rarely is it a pro in his prime, and, even if it is, I make sure it never, ever comes down to fisticuffs. I liked living and getting paid for doing the job way too much to leave it to that much chance.

But Seamus? A whole other story. The fact that he was an asshole was just the icing on the cake. It was awesome. That dumb bastard had given me the best time I’d had on the job in my entire life.

I laughed my ass off. Until I started gagging. And puking up blood. Black blood. The damn needle.

And even though his head was rolling around on the balcony, Seamus still mocked me with that stupid, gap-toothed grin. I scrambled around the balcony, trying to get my grip onto something that could make it stop.

And, in that perfect moment, the cops kicked the door in.

“Freeze! Put the knife down, now!”

Fuck you. I’d rather take a bullet than die from my own poison. I staggered to my feet, spit black blood at them, and threw the knife.

I counted 18 hits before the shots knocked me over the rail. Not bad.

Of course, I was wide awake and puking into my own face all the way down to the pavement. Not nearly as magical and painless as you might hope. Then again, I was only on the 5th floor. Luckily, I landed headfirst. And, yes, in case your wondering, having your neck snapped as the full weight of your body squashes your skull into a lovely pink pâté hurts about a hundred times more than it sounds for the millisecond it takes to actually kill you.

At least, it did with me. It took me a second to actually realize that I was dead. It’s not like the pain just stopped. Quite the opposite, in fact. If I had to describe it, the closest I could get would be to say “Imagine a 13 inch needle with a burning tip being pushed all the way through every single patch of skin, under every finger & toe nail, into every pore and orifice. And then they wiggle them all around, just for fun.”

I opened my eyes. I was lying face down on the street. I rolled over, taking a second to process where I was. I was still in the street where I’d fallen off the balcony. But I was still alive. Somehow. No broken bones. No pink pâté brain fritter.

Something rolled off of my balcony and landed right next to me. It was Seamus’ head, bouncing like a soccer ball, still with that awful gap-toothed grin. Instinct kicked in. I remembered the cops and figured it would only be a minute before they were back down here and on top of me. Couldn’t take a chance that 20 gunshot wounds, poisoned heroin, and a squashed head might not get miraculously healed again. Thank you, Hitman Gods, but it was time to scram. I looked around for any sign of the police to see what direction to move. Someone was standing on my balcony. But I couldn’t make out who it was.

Because he didn’t have a head.

He leaned over the balcony and pointed at me.

“He’s here!”

But that voice came from next to me on the ground. It was Seamus’ head, talking and ratting me out. You son of a bitch. I punted that head down the street. But by then it was too late.

Every balcony on both buildings was filled with people. They looked down in the direction that Seamus’ headless body was pointing. And then they all started climbing down to my level. This was not good. Suddenly the street filled up with people. Men, women, children. And they were all glaring at me. Silently.

In the crowd, I recognized someone: “Johnny C.”, we used to call him. Always wore a fedora because he thought he looked like Frank Sinatra in those old studio portraits. He didn’t. He really looked like a Jersey Shore reject trying to class-up.

I killed Johnny C. six years ago. And he still had the bullet hole in his forehead to prove it. Slowly, I realized that I recognized them all. These were all of the people I’d killed over the years, still bearing the wounds I’d inflicted.

And that’s when it dawned on me. This was Hell.

I must admit, I was a little disappointed.

Where was the fire and brimstone? Where was the endless suffering and torment? This was just a random street corner from Brooklyn. And where was The Devil?

More lies the priests told us.

For a professional as prolific as yours truly, I fully expected to be greeted at the gates of Hell by the souls of all the men and women and children I’ve killed over the course of my career.

Frankly, that didn’t really phase me. I figured I could take them.

There was a family of three standing nearest to me — the Masons. I’d locked them in their own two-car garage and left the Camry running to end their blissfully suburban existence back in 2000. But on my first night in Hell, I kicked 6-year old Cindy Mason straight in the teeth.

Come on, you pansies! Show me what you’ve got!

Cindy Mason took a chunk out of my calf with a row of jagged, pointed teeth that would have made a great white cringe. They all snarled in unison, bearing their zombie fangs and descending on me.

I should have known better. Most of those people are really in the other place, sipping Mai Tais on Cloud 9 with St. Peter and Gandhi. I was actually surrounded by demons.

That was more like it.

I punched, kicked, and bit everything in sight. In the process, I lost my foot, my fist, my molars. They dug their claws into me and just start ripping me apart. It was like a bad George A. Romero movie.

Once everyone had a piece of me, they all just started wandering aimlessly, bumping into each other as they gnawed on my separated flesh. And even though I was no longer whole, I felt every bite, every chew in every demonic mouth.

A demon wearing the face of Gladys Page, a bookstore-owning octogenarian I had pushed down in her bathtub a few weeks back, managed to make off with my head and was nibbling on my chin on the front step of the building, when the crowd parted.

It was Seamus, holding his giggling head like the Heisman trophy as he approached Gladys and my head.

“Ah, Kingston. I told you I wasn’t done with you. And my friends here, this is just the beginning.”

This was Hell, and that dumb headless bastard was laughing. His shirt was open, and the eyes on the goat’s head tattoo were glowing a dull red. Seamus caught me looking, and grinned.

“Doesn’t look so stupid now, does it? See, I’ve known for a long time that I was going to Hell. So, I called ahead and made a reservation. While you were up there, running me down to the boss, I talked to our REAL boss down here. He promised me that, as long as I brought a soul with me, I’d have power down here.”

Dumbass. You’re holding your own head. Of course, at that point, I was just one head telling another head how stupid it was, so I suppose I really wasn’t one to talk.

“Doesn’t matter down here.”

He just as calmly re-attached his own head. Which gave me an idea. I could still feel my hand in the mouth of Holly Richardson, some co-ed who had the misfortune of laughing at the penis of a very well connected individual who employed me. As she turned my hand to get a good bite, I made a fist and punched her in the jaw. I could feel all of me everywhere in this street corner, and the one thought I pushed through my entire being was “Punish”.

Disembodied feet kicked. Demons all along the street with my flesh in their stomachs started collapsing in piles of their own puke and shit. My head spat in Gladys’s eye before I bit her nose off. The streets ran black with demon blood.

I told you I could take them.

Seamus looked around and laughed even more.

“Oh, you’re going to be so much fun, Kingston. He gave me power down here. I know all the things deep down inside of you that you don’t ever want anyone to know. Let me show you.”

I blinked.

I was whole and sitting on the ratty couch with the busted springs we used to have in my mother’s old apartment. A folding tray was in front of me with a half-eaten Happy Meal. Mom’s floor-model TV was directly in front, showing some old imported Japanese cartoon. I heard the doorbell ring. Instinctively, I reached for my knife. All I had was a handful of Bazooka Joe bubble gum in my shorts pocket. I looked down at myself. I was 9 years old again. And I remember what day this is supposed to be all too well.

“Jimmy! Get the door! Mama’s working!”

I could hear the bedsprings and the headboard and my mother being stretched to the limits in the next room. The doorbell rang again. No way. No way in Hell I was getting up to open that door.

I blinked.

I was at the door. The locks unlocked themselves. I backed away as far as I can. The door followed me. No matter how far or fast I ran, I’m still right in front of the door.

It opened. And there, standing in the hallway, was a frail man in a black suit with a white collar. Silvery hair and glasses.

“Praise the Lord, Jimmy. Are you ready for Vacation Bible School?”

I wanted to punch him right in the balls. I wanted to gouge his eyes out. I wanted to sink my teeth into his throat until this sick bastard was begging for mercy.

But all I did was cry. That’s really all you can do when you’re nine years old.

I blinked again.

I was in the church rectory. It never occurred to me how disgustingly ironic that name was, given what had happened to me here all those years ago. Given what was about to happen again. The man in black locked the door behind him and started to unbuckle his pants. I remember that, when this really happened to me as a kid, it was probably the last time I ever said “Oh, God” out loud. After all, what was the fucking point? Not like He did a damn thing to stop it. After all, this was His man, about to literally have his way with my nine year old ass.

I wanted to look away, but something about his face. I never ever forgot that face, even after the last time I’d seen it, when I was an adult and had, in fact, come back here to gouge out his eyes and make him scream for mercy.

This wasn’t that same face. And this certainly wasn’t that same grin. No, this grin was dumb. And gap-toothed.

Seamus!

“Surprise, Kingston!”

Reliving my childhood rape, with the role of Father McMurray being played this week by fucking Seamus, of all people?

That was just not right.

“Silly pretty boy. This is Hell. There’s no rules here. There are no bodies or walls or time or place. It’s all a state of mind that all boils down to one word: suffering. Let me show you.”

He slapped me before he pulled out a hunting knife and started to cut off my clothes.

You’ll excuse me if I choose to skip the gory details of my priestly defilement here in Hell. Let’s just say that, when it was all said and done, Seamus was much more adventurous, imaginative, and bloody than Father McMurray could ever have dreamed to be. It wasn’t just about sex and violence. It was about degradation & humiliation. In the real world, Father McMurray just wanted to soil my body. Here, Seamus wanted to spoil my soul. And despite all my seemingly fatal injuries and violations, it never seemed to end.

More importantly, I realized through my agonizing torture that Seamus never seemed to end either. And no matter how much he upped the ante, he could never find release or satisfaction. He was, in fact, in pain. Agony.

This was a punishment far worse than I could have imagined. The two of us forced to fuck each other to pieces for all eternity, no end in sight. And through my ruptured lip and shattered teeth, I giggled just a little. Come on, Seamus: is that all you’ve got?

Seamus tried harder and harder, and only injured himself more in the process. Crying and bleeding from all the wrong places, Seamus was wretched. I could never have imagined that it was possible to extract so much pain from another soul so deeply through my own suffering.

I think this is where Seamus miscalculated. He assumed that because I was refined, tailored, elegant, and professional, it somehow made me soft on the inside. He didn’t understand that my exterior restraint was there to hold back the monster inside. He wanted to spoil a soul for his master that was already black as coal.

By then, I’d turned the tables. I gave as good as I got. I used my own flesh as a weapon against his. Matching him violation for violation. It was as if time had stopped.

Hell was exquisite. Sublime. I taunted and tormented Seamus even more. I spat on him and smeared him with his own filth. I realized what a waste my life had been. I’d spent so much time keeping my emotions in check that I had made sure all of my hits were clean and antiseptic. I never imagined how much more I could have gotten out of my work if I had just let go and thrown caution to the wind, reveling in the pain of all of those people like I was devouring Seamus.

Here. In Hell.

I’d never been happier.

Finally, Seamus cried out to the air around him, to anyone but me who might hear.

“You promised me! You promised me satisfaction if I gave myself to you and brought you souls! You lying bastard!”

It took me a moment to realize who he thought he was talking to.

Then I could feel the temperature drop in the room. Inside this poor, decimated faux-rectory, smeared with blood and excrement and gore, everything turned bone-cold on a dime. Frost and icicles grew instantaneously from all the walls and windows. Frostbite dug into every single limb. Stabbing sharp pain. So cold it actually felt like it burned. Even as the lights grew dark around us, the ice all seemed to glow with a cold, low, blue flame. A fire that can never die.

Seamus and I were no longer even recognizable as anything we could ever imagine as ourselves. Brittle, frozen, wretched blobs of lacerated flesh, struggling to scream with fractured jaws in pain & horror as the walls of the rectory split apart around us, leaving us lying on a craggy, ice-covered wasteland. A lake of cold fire, filled with the echoing moans of the miserable undead, all scattered about and sunken into the icy plane by the millions in all directions as far as the eye could see. Lumps of living, shrieking misery that dotted the landscape like the cultivated fields of a farmer of woes.

And, then, in the crackle of lightning from the dark clouds gathered among the stalactites of ice that seemed miles above us, I saw it. At first, I thought it was some distant mountainous glacier in the distance. But then it moved. And the moans of the undead sufferants turned to wails of pure, unadulterated horror, knowing what would come next.

The glacier unfurled, revealing that it was really coiled, snow-covered batwings that were miles across and towering over us like the Andes. Wrapped inside its own wings, the monster within had jet black skin, with millions upon millions of twitchy insect arms and wriggling tentacles covering its body like some awful pelt, topped by a black goat’s head the size of an aircraft carrier.

Its eyes glowed red, like blazing search-lamps that skimmed the surface of the frozen boneyard, leaving tracks of smoldering putrid ice in the wake of their gaze, until they found the quivering lumps of frosted desecrated meat piles that were all that were left of me and Seamus. It snorted puffs of blue fire from its nostrils as the intensity of its gaze made running boils form on our skin. Seamus wailed as the few remaining teeth in his mouth melted from his wretched gums like white chocolate chips on a hot summer day.

“I served you! I praised you! I sent you souls! So many souls!”

The beast opened its mouth, and millions of the chewed-up damned spilled out between its teeth and drool like stale, uneaten breadcrumbs. Some screamed all the way down to the ice below, while others were snatched, mid-fall, by the beast’s appendages and hurled back into its waiting maw. It spoke, and its voice made the very ice beneath us quiver, like the sound of a million fingernails being drawn across an endless chalkboard.

WHAT.

SOULS.

Seamus waved a bloody, dislocated, wart-covered stump that used to be his arm at me. “Kingston! What about Kingston?”

The goat’s jaws pulled back and pouted a column of fire into the air as it laughed. Those who composed its meal were shot out into the air like screeching fireworks that rained down on the rest of us in a nightmarish hailstorm. The frost-entombed sufferants screamed and cried. But as for me, I was simply stunned at just how much the monstrous laugh sounded just like my own.

HE.

BELONGS.

HERE.

YOU.

DID.

NOTHING.

The warts and boils were exploding all over us. The demonic gaze was unbearable. Seamus rolled over and squealed in anguish, “You lied to me!!!”

I.

AM.

SATAN.

I.

LIE.

Seamus, you poor, dumb bastard. I laughed. I never knew anything could be nearly as funny as what I’d witnessed and experienced that day. Just for more shits and giggles, I swatted Seamus with a lump of meat that was either one of my arms or one of my legs. The difference no longer mattered here. I just laughed, and the beast laughed right along with me. Like we were old buddies. Like he and I had this whole big con planned from the very moment of my conception, and Seamus was the intended mark the entire time. Like we were one and the same. Blood ran from my empty ear sockets because the drums inside had long since ruptured down here, but we still laughed all the same.

The beast was absolutely right. This is where I belonged. My home, my soul’s resting place, is right here, in the ninth circle of Hell.

LAST.

LAUGH.

KINGSTON.

And I think, despite all of the horrors I’d seen and felt and witnessed and, frankly, caused, both in the world above and this one below, that moment, when the beast called me by name, made me both the most proud and the most scared. Proud, because I’d served it all my life, without even knowing, and it knew me. Scared, because it only speaks to torment. Torment far beyond anything that poor little Seamus could conceive.

I couldn’t blink. My eyelids were gone. My eyes burst.

Then, after a moment, they were back. My eyes. My eyelids. My whole body. Whole, unharmed, completely scar-free. Wearing my best suit. The one I always wore when I had a job because you can never wash out the smell.

Only this time, there was no smell. I was disappointed.

I was sitting in a gold-plated arm chair in front of a long dining table filled with every meal you could imagine in an immaculate white room. The most calming, soothing music fills the air. And there, at the other end of the table, was Seamus. My favorite victim. Also whole and unharmed. This time, I didn’t bother trying to contain my joy. Just the thought of the two of us whittling each other down to bloody numbs only to be reborn and ready to do it again until the end of time gave me the biggest hard-on I’ve had in my entire miserable existence.

I picked up the butter knife in front of me. I wanted to make this time last. I strolled over to Seamus, but he still didn’t move. He just looked at me with the dullest eyes.

Are you ready to play now, Seamus?

I gave him a quick knick with the butter knife.

No blood. Not even a scratch on him. He didn’t even flinch. I grab his hair, pull back his head, and plunge the butter knife into his eye. But the knife just bent like it was the weakest rubber. He didn’t flinch. He didn’t even move.

Enough of that. I saw a turkey in the middle of the table with the carving knife still inside. I grabbed it, took it back to Seamus, and started hacking away on his wrist. He didn’t even fight back. He didn’t even look at me. And the damned knife wouldn’t cut. Nothing. I tossed the knife and just hauled off and hit Seamus in the jaw. It was like punching Jello. All give. Nothing solid at all. He didn’t say a word. He just looked up at me and smiled with a full row of teeth. No gaps.

I throttled him, but there was nothing to squeeze or to break. I put my thumbs in his eyes, but they didn’t budge an inch. I bit his forehead, but it just stretched like rubber.

I sweated and groaned in frustration. I grabbed Seamus by the collar to throw him to the ground. He just stood up easy. I couldn’t even get a grip on him to toss him. I tried to shove him, but he was just out of reach.

Goddamnit!

I hit him with a plate. A chair. The fucking turkey. Nothing. Nothing! This was bullshit. I ran for the door.

But there was no door. No windows. Just me and Seamus, in peace and prosperity for all eternity. And, despite the lack of windows, a gentle breeze passed through the room. It filled the whole space, like an all encompassing embrace, full of affection, compassion and forgiveness.

It was the breath of God.

Just a whiff, but enough to let me know what had happened.

Hell is not a place. It’s a state of mind that only equals one word, even for those who serve it.

Suffering.

And Seamus laughed. It was the laugh of the beast.

That cheating bastard. He’d sent me to Heaven after all.

The End

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