David Jackson

Marked

ONE

So yet again she’s on the edge of death.

A tumor. A friggin tumor. Why would it be a tumor, for Chrissake? Why can’t it be a headache like any normal person would have? A migraine even. He could cope with her saying it was a migraine. People get migraines all the time. They don’t immediately assume their brains are about to disintegrate.

It was the same when she had those stomach pains last month. Appendicitis, she said. Or maybe even bowel cancer. He told her what it was. It didn’t take no medical expert to work it out. The bananas. Too many friggin bananas. She should be a monkey, the number of those things she eats. A big hairy ape.

He chuckles to himself. I’m married to a gorilla in a dress, he thinks. King Kong in frilly underwear. I better not take her to the Empire State Building anytime soon. Might give her ideas.

Harold Bloor hefts the two large garbage sacks out into the hallway, then closes the door softly behind him. He knows she’ll only complain if he makes the slightest noise. ‘You slammed it,’ she’ll say. ‘My head is pounding like a drum, and you went and slammed the door, you unfeeling bastard.’

He knows this because he’s heard it all before, many times. When she was anemic it was because he’d once talked her into making a blood donation. When she had a stiff neck it was because he’d thoughtlessly opened a window behind her. He’s always the one to blame. If she does have a friggin tumor — which she doesn’t — there’ll be an explanation that involves his inconsiderate behavior. Like not insisting they should move farther away from Japan when those nuclear reactors were hit by a tsunami.

He hitches his pants over his ever-expanding gut, picks up the bags again, and heads out of the building. At the top of the front stoop he pauses and watches a group of young men go past, dressed in T-shirts even though it’s the middle of October and heavy rain is forecast. He inhales a deep lungful of the city air. He smells exotic spicy food from the restaurant next door, mixed with the usual heady aroma of exhaust fumes. It makes him cough. This city, I should wear a face mask, he thinks. Or I could get one for the wife. A full face mask, completely covering every inch of visible flesh from the neck up and suppressing all noise generated in that vicinity. Purely for health reasons, of course. She shouldn’t keep breathing in these nasty city germs.

He chuckles again, then descends the stone steps. When he gets to the sidewalk, he turns and shuffles into the shadows of the stoop. He puts the bags down and removes the lid from the nearest trashcan.

Son of a bitch.

He replaces the lid, then tries the next one. And the next, and the next.

That’s it, thinks Harold Bloor.

This means war.

Two blocks away from the flashpoint of World War Three, Geoffrey Landis stares intently at his caramel torte, his arms and legs tightly crossed and his lips pursed in what he believes to be his most indignant pose.

‘It won’t jump off the plate and into your mouth, you know. You have to make a degree of effort.’

Geoffrey turns his glare on his boyfriend. ‘And what effort did it take to put whatever went into your mouth today? That’s what I want to know.’

‘Oh, puh-lease,’ says Stuart. ‘Don’t tell me we’re back on that again. I told you. It was a drink. One drink. He’s my boss. How could I say no?’

‘You start with an n, and then you put an o after it. It’s not difficult. Just because Antonio is your boss, it doesn’t mean you have to mince after him every time he clicks his fingers. There are limits, you know.’

Stuart gets up from the table and picks up his empty plate. ‘For God’s sake, you can be so childish sometimes. I had a drink with my boss in a public bar. I didn’t go down on him in the back of a taxi. Get it in perspective, Geoffrey. Maybe if you had a job of your own, you’d understand it a little bit more.’

He turns then, heads toward the kitchen area.

Geoffrey pushes back his chair and follows him. ‘I wondered when that would come up. I do work, and you know it. I work on this apartment. I work on doing all your washing and cleaning and ironing. I do all the jobs you hate to do. If it wasn’t for me, this place would be the stinking shithole it was before I moved in. So don’t you tell me-’

‘I’m not denying what you do here, Geoffrey. I’m simply pointing out that you don’t have an employer. You’ve never had an employer. If you did, you would understand that it’s sometimes a wise move to keep on your employer’s good side. And just because Antonio’s a good-looking Mediterranean type-’

‘You think he’s good-looking?’

‘Don’t you?’

‘No. With those teeth, I think he looks like a horse.’

Stuart smiles. ‘Well, he has been compared to a horse before, but not because of his teeth.’

Geoffrey crosses his arms again. He does it so abruptly that he punches himself in the bicep and has to pretend it doesn’t hurt.

‘Oh, so now we’re getting to it,’ he says. ‘The sex angle.’

‘Which angle’s that, Geoffrey? Do we need a protractor?’

Geoffrey has to resist the impulse to stamp his foot. He has done it before, and it only causes Stuart to laugh at him.

‘You know, you’re really starting to infuriate me. This is serious. I’d like to have a proper adult conversation about this, please.’

Stuart throws down his dishcloth and rounds on his partner. ‘Well, we can have an adult conversation when you stop behaving like a child. Now if you don’t mind, I need to clear away all this food you didn’t eat while you were sulking. So go away and come back when you’re in a more civilized frame of mind.’

Right, thinks Geoffrey as Stuart shows him the back of his head again. Right!

He storms toward the apartment door. Thinking, I’m going out. I’m going to find a bar and get drunk and maybe even pick somebody up and go back to their place. I may never even come back here again.

He opens the door, pauses at the threshold while he takes the deep breath he needs for the commencement of this decisive journey.

‘And don’t forget Agamemnon,’ Stuart calls after him.

Geoffrey lets the air out of his lungs again. The dog. It’s time for his walkies.

Not my problem, he thinks. Let Stuart do it for once.

Except that it is my problem. Aggie is my dog. He’ll miss me, even if nobody else in this place will.

Sullenly, Geoffrey heads back into the apartment, the planned demonstration of his independence on indefinite hold.

They’re all smiles when he first walks in. That’s because they figure he’s just another dumb schmuck they can rip off with their overpriced monosodium glutamate crap.

‘You want table?’ the girl asks him.

She’s pretty, thinks Harold. Even if she is a gook.

‘No,’ says Harold. ‘I want manager.’

The girl looks helplessly behind her, and one of her co-workers scurries over. He’s beaming idiotically too.

‘You want table?’

‘No. I want the manager. Are you the manager?’

‘No. No manager.’

‘Then get me the manager.’

‘No manager. Is family business. No manager.’

Harold sighs. ‘Okay, then get your dad.’

‘Dad?’

‘Your father.’

‘He not here. He very busy.’

‘Doing what? Putting out the trash?’

The young waiter simply blinks his lack of comprehension. Around them in the restaurant, the customers sense that something untoward is taking place, and the buzz of conversation fades, to be replaced by a few uneasy whispers.

‘I’m asking you about the trash,’ says Harold. ‘The garbage. Who put the garbage out tonight? Was it you?’

‘Garbage? No garbage.’

Two more male staff members glide silently toward Harold. The smiles have all evaporated now, but Harold isn’t fazed by the pathetic attempts to look stern. These guys have never encountered Mrs Bloor.

‘You don’t have garbage? Of course you have garbage. Everybody has garbage.’

One of the men calls over to the man behind the bar. Gives him some instructions in Chinese. The barman picks up a phone.

Says Harold, ‘You want to know where your garbage is? In my trashcans, that’s where. Your stinking garbage is in my trashcans.’

There is much head-shaking now. A whole row of heads on swivels. ‘No garbage.’

‘Yes garbage. In my trashcans. And it’s not the first time, neither. Every time I go to put out my trash, I can’t because the trashcans are full. They’re full of your shitty Jap food.’

‘Not Jap food. We not Japanese. We Chinese. Is not same.’

‘Whatever. It’s your garbage. From your restaurant. It stinks. It brings rats. Put your crap in your own friggin trashcans.’

He hopes that that will be an end to it. He hopes they will get the message and say sorry, and he can go home, secure in the knowledge that his waste will never again be adulterated by these people.

But no.

‘Maybe. .’ says one of the men. ‘Mmm. . maybe is your people eat Chinese food. Is people in your building trash.’

Harold wonders how these people get by on such piss-poor English. Well, I ain’t got all night to teach ’em how to talk good, he thinks.

He wags a finger at them. ‘No you don’t. I know my tenants. They haven’t changed for the past five years. I know their trash. This is restaurant garbage we’re talking about here. Your garbage.’

But the waiter is undeterred. ‘Yes, I think so. Is your people trash. Not restaurant.’

Harold looks each of them in the eye. He sees no sign of contrition, and every sign that they are going to continue to act dumb when it suits them. This softly-softly approach isn’t even scratching the surface.

Time to break out the big guns.

‘I’ll be back,’ he says, thinking they must have heard of Arnie. Everybody’s seen the Terminator movies. Even the Japs.

Tell someone you have a dog called Agamemnon, and they’ll assume you have a Rottweiler or a bull mastiff or some other nasty-ass monster just looking for the next limb to tear off. Geoffrey Landis’s Agamemnon is a tiny West Highland terrier. The only chance it has of killing something is to get it stuck in its throat. He’s had it for five years now — two years longer than he’s lived with Stuart. Probably have it a lot longer after his relationship with Stuart too, the way things are going.

He is ambling along East Sixth Street, heading in the direction of Tompkins Square Park. Aggie is on one of those extensible leashes that allows him to have a good roam and to investigate all those aromas that assail his doggy senses.

Stuart should be on a leash too. I mean, why does he think it’s perfectly okay to entertain other men in bars without even telling me? What if I did the same? What would he say about that?

Ahead, a burly man turns the corner of the block and starts coming toward Geoffrey. Although not as the crow flies. He weaves along the sidewalk as though he’s aboard a ship in a storm.

Geoffrey pauses. Winds in the leash a little. Wonders whether to cross the street. The man looks far too inebriated to be capable of putting up much of a fight, but Geoffrey’s maxim has always been that discretion is the better part of valor.

The man continues his serpentine meandering, but then lurches to his right and trips over his own feet. He crashes into an array of trashcans outside a drugstore, knocking a couple of them over and causing their contents to spill out onto the sidewalk.

The drunk struggles to his feet again, but then seems confused as to where he was going. Seemingly at random, he selects a bearing and follows it, apparently oblivious to the fact that he’s going back the way he came.

When the man has disappeared around the corner, Geoffrey resumes both his walk and his train of thought. He gets to the corner of the block, still seething over Stuart’s actions, and tries to decide which way to go next. It doesn’t seem sensible to follow the path of the drunk — Geoffrey’s other maxim being that it is better to be safe than sorry — so he could either continue along Sixth or take a left onto Second Avenue. Whichever direction he chooses, he thinks he should take his time about it. Give Stuart something to worry about. And if he phones me I’ll just ignore it. Maybe then he’ll realize just what-

He sees them then. Seated at the table in the window of that nice Italian restaurant across the street.

Antonio.

Or, to be precise, Antonio plus one. The plus one being a male friend. Although ‘friend’ seems a somewhat weak description, given that he has just twirled something onto his fork and pushed it into the mouth of Antonio.

Geoffrey’s evening suddenly seems a whole lot brighter.

It’s like disturbing a hornet’s nest.

When he walks back in carrying all those garbage sacks, the staff go crazy. All running around like headless chickens, yelling and jabbering.

Harold can’t stop a smile of satisfaction creeping into his jowly face. This is what you call an entrance.

When they descend on him, he holds his ground. He notices that they seem to have a leader now, an old guy with wild eyes and wild gray hair that looks to have been cut by its owner.

‘What you do?’ cries the old man.

‘Your garbage,’ says Harold, dropping the bags onto the floor. ‘I’m bringing it back to you.’

‘No. Not our garbage. We tell you before. Not garbage from here. You take back.’

The man picks up one of the sacks and pushes it into the arms of Harold, then bends to retrieve another one.

‘Not yours, huh? Okay, let’s see.’

Harold digs the fingers of both hands into the bag he’s holding. The flimsy plastic gives way easily, and he rips the whole thing open in one movement. As its contents hit the floor, a brown wet sludge splashes onto the old man’s shoes, and he jumps back in horror. Harold hears gasps from the customers, and even some laughter. They seem to be enjoying the show. The staff, on the other hand, are yammering furiously again and looking to each other to decide who’s going to do something about this refuse-slinging lunatic.

‘Well, what do we have here?’ says Harold. ‘Looks like gook food to me. And if my eyes don’t deceive me, I’d say those are napkins just like the ones you got on your tables here. Let’s try another one, why don’t we?’

He doesn’t wait for an answer. Just picks up another bag and tears it wide open, enabling it to disgorge its stinking sodden payload onto the intricately patterned Chinese carpet.

The staff are working themselves up into a frenzy now. They’re jostling each other and pointing at Harold and barking commands, but nobody seems to know what to do. It’s left to the old man to take action. He grabs at the third bag as Harold lifts it. Tries to yank it away from him. For a few seconds the pair form an absurd sight as they tug back and forth. It’s East versus West in a wrestling match for a prize that is literally garbage.

The inevitable occurs when the bag splits, and once again a pile of detritus cascades to the floor.

And that’s when time freezes.

This isn’t Chinese food, or Japanese food, or any kind of food for that matter.

It’s paper, mostly. Newspapers and magazines.

But there’s something else too.

It hits the floor hard and rolls across the carpet, stopping when it bumps up against the soiled shoes of the elderly restaurant owner. Everyone looks down at it. Customers seated at the nearest tables get to their feet for a clearer view. The yelling stops. The warring factions are on the same side now, united against whatever may have brought about the incredible apparition that has landed in their midst.

Harold stares at the object in disbelief. Is it really what it looks like?

When the place erupts again — the screams of horror, the yells of fear and confusion, the sounds of people retching and vomiting — Harold knows he is not mistaken. Everybody else has seen the item for what it is.

A human head.

Geoffrey doesn’t move for several minutes. He remains on the street corner, a huge smile on his face as he dreams about how he is going to break his news to Stuart.

That boss of yours? Antonio? The one who took you for a drink? The one you think is so good-looking? Wanna know something about him?

And then it hits him. How bitchy his imagined words sound. His smile drops away, to be replaced by immense sadness at his planned cruelty to the most important person in his life.

Because what he realizes then is that Stuart was being honest with him all along. There was nothing to it. A harmless drink with the boss — that’s all it was.

I need to make it up to him, he thinks. I should go back there right now and tell him how sorry I am for jumping to conclusions and being spiteful. Yes, that’s what I’ll do.

He almost wants to run across the street and knock on the restaurant window and blow Antonio a kiss for his unwitting part in all this. But he doesn’t. Instead, he turns away, feeling that he is a happier and wiser man.

Agamemnon seems happy too, although maybe not so wise, buried as he is in the trash that the drunk spilled onto the ground. Geoffrey tightens the leash and tries to yank him away, but the dog continues with its burrowing into the mound.

‘Aggie, come on! What the hell have you got there?’

Geoffrey takes a few steps closer. He sees that Agamemnon is concentrating on one particular garbage bag, ripping at it with his front paws and teeth.

‘Aggie!’

He heaves on the leash, dragging the dog backwards as its claws scrabble on the sidewalk for purchase. It’s only once Aggie is out of the way that Geoffrey gets a good look at the item of interest now exposed to the air.

It looks like. .

Geoffrey brings a hand to his mouth as he utters a high-pitched giggle.

Well, it looks like. . An ass. A tush. A pair of buttocks. All by themselves.

It has to be something else. A part of a store mannequin, maybe. Something like that. It can’t just be-

But when he steps closer and sees the tattoo of the angel at the base of the spine, its wings unfurled over the wound-ridden globes of flesh, when the aroma hits him and he is instantly transported into a butcher’s store, when his dog continues to strain to get back to its feast of raw meat — that’s when he knows this is no dummy.

And that’s when he scurries to the curb to empty his stomach.

TWO

She hears the voice, but it seems just a faint drone in the distance. She doesn’t catch the words.

She stares at the television, but the pictures make no sense. They are just blurs of color.

There’s a cup of tea on the table in front of her. It’s cold and untouched.

Her senses are almost closed. They will stay that way until things are right again.

Something touches her shoulder. The voice repeats, louder and more insistent this time. The words are forced into her head.

‘Nicole. Come to bed. You need to get some sleep.’

Sleep. What is that? Why is that important? Doesn’t he know? Doesn’t he understand?

She stays where she is. She would sit here for ever if she knew it could make a difference.

Detective Second Grade Callum Doyle is feeling good about this night. Even though he’s reaching the end of an October day that has been dismal and gray enough to thump misery and depression into the most optimistic of souls, Doyle has no complaints about it. To Doyle this could be the first day of spring. He could be witness to lambs gamboling and daffodils pushing their heads above the earth and the sun getting its ass into gear with some seriously overdue illumination. Doyle is so full of joy he could sing. And does, in fact. ‘Norwegian Wood’ by the Beatles, for some reason. It’s not exactly tuneful, but he belts it out anyway, ignoring the grimacing of his partner in the car passenger seat.

The reason Doyle is so buoyant tonight is that he has caught a homicide. Which is not to say he relishes the thought of staring death in the face, or of the consequences of death for the innocents who are left to deal with it. Far from it. What’s important here is the symbolism. The fact that the Police Department is willing to entrust its lowly detective with solving a crime of such enormity. Which might sound odd, given that’s exactly the kind of thing Doyle is paid to do.

It wasn’t so many months ago that the relationship between Doyle and his employers was less than amicable. He was being given all the shitty jobs — the cases nobody else wanted to handle. Cases that served to keep him occupied but out of the limelight and out of everybody’s hair. It got so bad that Doyle was seriously considering abandoning his police career.

And then he got a break. Second fiddle on the murder of a young girl in a bookstore. He was meant to be doing the menial stuff, freeing up the other detectives to do the real investigatory work. But it turned out to be a whole lot more than a simple homicide. It grew into something gargantuan that threatened to chew Doyle into tiny pieces and spit him out. It could have been the end for Doyle.

But he survived. He came through it, not exactly unaffected by his experience, but in the NYPD’s eyes something of a hero. And since that time he has become a cop again. A true detective rather than a helping hand. Back on the cases that matter.

Like this one, for example. A homicide. Handed straight to Doyle as soon as the call came in.

After what he’s been through, how tough can a case like this be?

Doyle practically jogs into the Chinese restaurant, he’s feeling that good. He doesn’t wait for his partner: he’s not even aware that the kid is struggling to keep up.

Doyle still doesn’t know what to make of LeBlanc. He’s probably a perfectly good cop, but he’s young and he’s inexperienced and he has this aura about him of not knowing what the hell he’s doing. He doesn’t even dress the part. He goes for trendy instead of functional. Skinny ties and pointy shoes and stupid designer spectacles. When you’re in need of an authority figure to follow in a moment of crisis, this kid with his waxed blond hair is almost certainly the last person you’d consider.

Inside the restaurant, Doyle’s ebullience subsides a little when the first person he sees there is a guy called Kravitz. It would have been difficult not to spot Kravitz, seeing as how he’s nearly six foot seven tall. He’s unnaturally thin too, which makes him appear even taller. Or his height emphasizes his lack of musculature. Either way, he’s a man of mismatched dimensions. He looks to Doyle like someone who should permanently have a basketball under his arm. ‘Ah,’ people would say, ‘you’re a basketball player.’ And they would no longer question his freakish frame.

Kravitz is a cop. More specifically, he’s a member of the Manhattan South Homicide Task Force — a mouthful that is usually condensed by his fellow cops to the more memorable Homicide South. Doyle bears no grudge against this cue-stick of a man; it’s his partner — a more meagerly proportioned individual called Folger — who is the one to watch. Doyle’s last run-in with the poison dwarf is still fresh in his mind.

Steeling himself, Doyle moves toward the center of the activity. Kravitz is the first to notice Doyle’s arrival, his eyes turning on him from his lofty position like a lighthouse scanning the seas.

‘Well, well. Hello again, Detective.’

Doyle looks around him. ‘Where’s Tom Thumb? I didn’t step on him, did I?’

Kravitz smiles. ‘You mean Detective Folger? We had a parting of the ways. We didn’t see eye to eye.’

‘More like eye to crotch, huh? You get sick of him poking his nose in your business?’

Still Kravitz smiles, and Doyle feels he’s doing so in apology for what has gone before. He decides he should stop being so hard on the guy. At least for now.

Kravitz gestures to the man standing next to him. ‘Meet my new partner. This is Detective Fenster.’

Fenster nods, but doesn’t proffer his hand. He seems to be studying Doyle intently. Probably wondering why Doyle is smiling.

The reason Doyle is smiling is not because of anything pertaining to Fenster’s physical appearance. Whereas the man’s predecessor was massively challenged in a vertical sense, and played an important part in amusing his fellow officers by merely standing next to his cloud-scraping partner, Fenster’s own build is unremarkable. In fact, aside from a slight reddish tinge to his hair that only the cruelest of jokesters would refer to as a disability, his looks present negligible entertainment value. No, Doyle is smiling because he knows that Kravitz is often given the nickname Lurch, after the ugly tall butler in The Addams Family. And because Doyle remembers that in that family was also an ugly bald guy called. .

‘Fester?’

So much for not giving the Homicide boys a hard time. Hey, how many opportunities get handed to you on a plate like this?

‘Fenster,’ says Kravitz sternly, obviously already acutely sensitive to the likelihood of this comparison.

‘Not Fester?’

‘No.’

‘Ah.’

Fenster continues to stare at Doyle. ‘Have we met before? You look awful familiar.’

Before Doyle can answer, Kravitz chips in again: ‘You’ve probably seen him over breakfast.’

‘Huh?’ says Fenster.

‘In your newspaper. Or on TV. This here is the famous Detective Callum Doyle of the Eighth Precinct. The Eighth Wonder, as I like to think of him. You remember that serial killer we had a few months back? Only nobody knew we even had a serial killer?’

‘Oh,’ says Fenster. ‘Yeah. Doyle. I remember that one.’

‘Of course you do. Doyle solved it all by himself. He was the only cop in the whole city who realized the murders were connected. It was uncanny. I still haven’t figured out how he did it.’

Doyle remains silent. It’s clear to everyone listening that Kravitz is suggesting that Doyle must have been privy to more information than he ever revealed at the time. And the reason Doyle fails to respond is because he accepts the accusation is true. He knew a lot more. And he still feels the pain every time he thinks back to that case. The guilt over deaths that should never have happened. Deaths he might have been able to prevent if only he’d acted differently. He has tried telling himself that he shouldn’t dwell on thoughts involving ‘should’ or ‘ought’. But still it hurts.

He says, ‘You’re right. It was a little weird. I guess I was just thinking outside the box. I mean, I’m just one cop in one small precinct. It’s not like I got a wider picture of things. Not like, say, the boys in Homicide. .’

Doyle’s targets glance at each other, and then Kravitz says to his partner, ‘You should know that Doyle here is not a man to be crossed. He’s upset a lot of cops in the past, not least my previous partner, with whom he had a little altercation.’

‘Is that so?’ says Fenster, and again he stares at Doyle.

Kravitz continues, ‘But then Doyle knows what it’s like to lose a partner. Ain’t that right, Detective?’

Same old same old, thinks Doyle. It always gets dredged up. I miss my partners more than anyone, yet still some people insist on trying to taint me with their deaths. How much longer am I going to be haunted by it?

For a few seconds the three men stand in strained silence. Then Kravitz says, ‘Speaking of partners, you wanna complete the introductions?’

Doyle suddenly remembers that LeBlanc is standing behind him.

‘Uh, this is Tommy LeBlanc. He’s gonna be working this with me.’

‘Pleasure, Detective,’ says LeBlanc, moving in front of Doyle and thrusting his hand out. Doyle rolls his eyes, while Fenster regards the younger man with disdain until he sheepishly drops his outstretched arm.

‘You been on a homicide before?’ asks Fenster.

LeBlanc shrugs. ‘A couple. Nothing like this, though.’

It’s only then that the four men turn their collective gaze on the reason they are all here. The head is that of a blond girl. No more than twenty, and probably pretty too. Once. Devoid of blood, of life, of spirit, her wavy hair matted with food, her white skin blotted by injuries — it’s difficult to imagine how she appeared in life. Impossible to imagine how she ended up like this.

‘You think she’s dead?’ asks Kravitz.

‘Hard to say,’ answers Fenster, ‘us not being medical experts. I’d hate to make such a pronouncement and then be proved wrong when the ME gets here. What idiots we’d look then.’ He glances up at his partner. ‘You know about chickens, right?’

‘Chickens?’

‘Sure. Those bastards can live for some time even without a head. There was this one chicken, lived for months that way. Its owner would put food into its gullet with an eye-dropper.’

‘Really? Where’d you learn about such a thing?’

‘Ripleys. You know? The Believe-It-Or-Not people? ’Course, what we got here ain’t exactly the same. We got the head, and I don’t think the chicken’s head stayed alive.’

‘Maybe not. Although we humans are more highly evolved than poultry. I’ve yet to see a chicken program a computer or drive a racing car. Hell, those fat feathery fucks can’t even fly for shit. Who knows how long we could live without heads if we put our minds to it?’

‘We certainly are the master race, all right,’ says Fenster as he puts his finger up his nose.

Doyle is grateful when the door opens again and another figure breezes in. The man is Chinese, but he’s not here for a meal. He wears spectacles with lenses so thick they magnify his eyes to cartoon proportions. He is wearing an overcoat that looks several sizes too big, and he is carrying a large black bag.

Fenster nudges his partner in the ribs. Doyle recalls that the much tinier Folger used to do similar nudging, only it was much more painful.

‘Watch this,’ says Fenster.

He steps out in front of the Chinese man. ‘Hold on there, fella! Who let you in? This is a crime scene. The restaurant is closed. No more food. Savvy? You speakee English?’

Unfazed, the man blinks his saucer-sized eyes at the detective. ‘You’re an idiot,’ he says in perfect English, which gets a bigger laugh than Fenster’s own attempt at humor. ‘You’re an idiot if you believe your prejudicial — dare I say racist — comments were funny, which they weren’t, and you’re an idiot for calling this a crime scene, which it ain’t. Now get outta my way.’

Realizing that his stunt has backfired, a sheepish Fenster steps aside to admit the man, who marches straight past the four detectives and up to the focus of all the activity here. He stops, shakes his head and makes tutting noises.

‘What a waste,’ he says.

‘Yeah,’ says Doyle. ‘She looks so young.’

‘I’m talking about the food. This is so symptomatic of what’s wrong with society today, the amount of food we throw away. But yes, the girl too.’

That the girl seems almost an afterthought to this man says a lot about him. It is not that he is incapable of sympathy or sorrow. It is just that death in all its various guises is nothing new to him. He sees it regularly. He lives with it. He has become hardened to it, not out of choice but out of necessity. Norman Chin, MD, has lost count of the number of corpses he has examined over the years, many of them mutilated, decomposing or maggot-ridden. As one of the city’s Medical Examiners he views this as just another job, and the cops here understand that.

Chin checks with the crime-scene people that he can proceed, then he snaps on a pair of latex gloves and sets to work. He picks up the head, rolls it around in his hands for a while, then puts it down again.

‘Okay,’ he says. ‘I’ve seen it. Now I can go back to bed. Get it bagged, tagged and shipped, and I’ll get on it as soon as I’ve caught a few z’s.’

‘That’s it?’ says LeBlanc.

Doyle glances sharply at him, but it’s too late.

‘What do you want from me?’ says Chin. ‘Like I told your wisecracking bozo friend over there, this ain’t a crime scene. She wasn’t killed here, and aside from her head, she wasn’t even dumped here. That ain’t a lot to go on. You want me to do more, you need to find me more. So get out there and do your job before you start criticizing me over how I do mine.’

LeBlanc looks helplessly at Doyle. ‘I wasn’t criticizing. I was just saying-’

‘You know there’s another body part, don’t you?’ says Fenster.

‘Yes, I do know that,’ Chin snaps. ‘Because, unlike you guys, I have already visited the site where the other part was found. And what I also know, with all my years of expensive and intense medical training, is that a head and a pelvis are not the sole components of the human body. There are other pieces out there, gentlemen, and finding them is your job, not mine.’

He starts to move toward the door, pausing only when Doyle says to him, ‘Norm? Anything you can give us to go on right now?’

Chin turns to him. ‘Now that’s more like it. A civilized intelligent question. Okay, a coupla things. There are cuts, abrasions and burn marks on both body parts. Looks like this girl was tortured before she was killed.’

‘And the other thing?’

‘It may be nothing, but the girl had a tattoo at the base of her spine. Picture of an angel.’

‘Lots of girls get tattoos done there,’ says Fenster.

‘That’s true. Like I say, it may mean zilch. But this tattoo looks fresh to me. Like it was done in the past few days.’

He heads toward the door again. ‘Happy hunting, guys!’

LeBlanc mutters something, but Doyle doesn’t hear it. He’s too busy thinking about something Chin just said.

Something that summons up dark memories and an unquenchable thirst for justice.

A second after midnight. It’s now my birthday. Happy birthday, Nicole.

She says nothing out loud, and the voice in her head is a dull monotone. She doesn’t even smile. Last year, at this exact time, she started bouncing up and down on the bed and singing birthday wishes to herself like an over-excited child, waking Steve so she could demand to know what presents he’d bought for her.

Not this year. This year she remains motionless in the bed. Stares at the illuminated face of the alarm clock and counts the seconds as they eat into what should be a special day.

When the digits blur, she doesn’t dab at her eyes. Just lets the tears come. Lets them roll down her cheek and slide over her nose and pat softly onto the pillow.

This is not a day for celebration. Never will be again unless things change. Birthdays, Christmas, Thanksgiving — how will she ever be able to enjoy them in the same way again?

But I should be positive, she thinks. This being my birthday, maybe I’ll receive the only gift I really want.

And then I can sleep again.

It becomes a long, dirty night. Long because Doyle was supposed to have gone home when his shift finished at one o’clock in the morning, and now he can’t. Dirty because of what he has to spend his sleepless hours doing instead. Which is submerging his arms elbow deep in piles of crap.

He’s not the only one, of course. Every available cop in this and the neighboring precincts, uniformed or not, has been called in to help out on the search, and the Department of Sanitation has been told not to do any collections in the area while it proceeds. The cops move from building to building, opening up trashcans and dumpsters, shining their flashlights into them while they sift and root and examine.

It’s not something that can be done furtively. An army of cops on the prowl like this attracts attention, and it’s too big an area to cordon off. Passers-by stop to ask questions. Vehicles slow to a crawl so that the drivers can lower their windows and yell questions. Residents leave the warmth and safety of their buildings just so that they can put their damn questions. To each and every one of them Doyle and the other cops say the same thing, which is basically nothing.

The task has its lighter moments. One woman asks Doyle to let her know if he manages to locate her missing dentures. Another tells him that she has just thrown away the last of her apple pie, but that he can have it if he finds it. One bedbug warns him that the trashcans are really the pods of alien visitors, and that he should leave well alone. In response, Doyle assures him that his flashlight is equipped with the latest extraterrestrial threat alert systems.

The media are less easy to shrug off. Who would have guessed that lifting the lid from a trashcan would make such a newsworthy photograph? Or that the sight of a patrol officer poking his nightstick into a garbage bag would make for footage so exciting that it would be replayed endlessly on the news channels?

Eight hours later, when daylight returns almost grudgingly, and the streets start to overflow again with people and cars and noise and the hustle and bustle of life, it is time to take stock. Time to assess the results of the exercise. To wit, a bunch of exhausted cops who smell like they haven’t bathed in years.

Oh, and one other thing.

A human arm.

THREE

She feels a little better the following morning. A little more hopeful. She even manages to force down a few spoonfuls of breakfast cereal.

And then Steve has to go and spoil it.

He spoils it with a book-sized rectangular package wrapped in bright-pink paper with pictures of balloons and cakes and all kinds of happy words on it. Words such as ‘Celebrate!’ and ‘Hooray!’ and ‘Yippee!’

‘Here,’ he says simply, and he accompanies it with a smile. As if that’ll work. As if that’ll make it all right.

And she puts down her spoon and stares into his face and says what shouldn’t need saying.

‘Steve, what are you doing? We agreed. No presents. Not yet.’

‘I know. It’s not from me. It’s from Megan. She asked me to get it for you and she wanted you to have it today. You know what she’s like. She hates the idea of belated presents.’

Nicole suddenly wants to bring all that cereal back up again. She looks at her husband in disbelief. She can see that he doesn’t know what he’s doing wrong, but that doesn’t make it any more right. He should have thought. He should have known. He can’t just pretend that carrying out Megan’s wishes puts her back in this room.

‘Take it away.’

‘Nicole. Please. She wanted you to-’

‘Then she can give it to me herself. Take it away. Don’t you understand? She needs to give it to me herself. Here, in person. From her hand to mine.’

‘Nicole, look, it’s just a-’

She picks it up then and throws it across the table at him. ‘Take the fucking thing away!’

‘Jesus Christ, Nicole!’ He looks at her in silence for a while, then he picks up the gift and leaves the room.

Doyle goes home while others continue the search. He wanted to carry on, but neither his body nor his boss would allow him. He goes home and he takes a fifteen-minute shower, finishing off a bottle of shower gel in a desperate attempt to eliminate any lingering odors. He shampoos his hair three times. The foam blocks his ears and stings his eyes. He wishes he could force it into his head. Brainwashing. A clean mind in a clean body. He needs to wipe it spotless and start all over again. There are too many dark thoughts in there.

The past is whispering to him. Calling to him. Reminding him of things he thought were over and done with. Avenues he believed were closed suddenly seem to be yawning wide open again, beckoning him to enter.

After his shower he lies on the bed and tries to sleep, but his subconscious keeps hurling out sporadic images and sounds that jolt him awake. He sees a girl. Sees what is being done to her. Sees a man. The ace of spades. The skull and crossbones. He hears the girl’s screams.

When sleep eventually claims him, it is short-lived and fitful. He tosses and turns for three hours, and when he drags himself off the bed again he does not feel refreshed.

He needs to get back into work.

He needs to find out whether this is what he thinks it is.

And if it is, he must find closure this time.

While Steve goes out for a jog, she puts on the television. The news channel. It’s the only thing on which she can properly focus her attention. She forces herself to watch it. Just in case.

There’s a story about a police search in the East Village. Nicole and Steve live in Forest Hills, which is in Queens, which is way over on the other side of the East River. So it can’t have anything to do with them.

The reporters conjecture that the police may be hunting for body parts, following the gruesome discovery of a severed head in a restaurant.

But it’s in the East Village. Megan wouldn’t have gone to the East Village. Not alone. So that’s all right, then. No news is good news, as they say.

She is aware of all kinds of synapses firing in her brain, trying to make connections, trying to posit various scenarios. She refuses to let them. This is nothing to do with their life. It’s a world away. Their life is a nice big white house in a tree-lined road in a friendly part of Forest Hills, Queens, where the neighbors have time to talk and smile and help each other out. That stuff on the TV is dirt and violence and crime and sadness. Megan would not visit that world.

She shuts the television off. It’s annoying her now. Why can’t they ever talk about nice things on the news? Good news. Happy news. Why does it always have to be about disaster and death and shock and war? Is that really what people want to hear? What if they created a channel that carried only good news? Surely there would be an audience for that? And surely it would make for a happier, more positive-thinking population?

When I’m president, she thinks. But she doesn’t smile.

She goes over to her chair at the front window. The chair never used to be there, but now she won’t allow Steve to return it to its four indentations in the rug. She spends a lot of time in that chair.

She sits at the window and she looks out at the leaden sky and she tells herself that it will rain soon. And that means that Megan will come home, because she hates the rain.

Nicole stares at that sky. It is a deep, oppressive gray. It looks bloated with moisture. It has no option but to relieve itself of the pressure it contains. It will unburden itself. And then Megan will come home.

It’ll be a phone call, thinks Nicole. She won’t just turn up at the door, because she’s worried that we’ll be angry with her. She’ll phone instead. She’ll say, ‘Mom,’ and her voice will be cracking and fearful, and then she will say, ‘I want to come home.’ That’s how it will be. That’s how the agony will end. And when they meet up, Megan will appear tired and hungry and not a little frightened by her experience, and there will be hugs and tears and a lot of emotional release, and everyone will say sorry and promise to do better and they will forgive but not forget and they will all be supremely grateful for the happy outcome.

That’s what will happen.

When it rains.

Doyle at his desk in the squadroom. On the phone to Norman Chin.

‘What can you tell us, Norm?’

‘I can tell you many things, oh seeker of wisdom. What I can’t tell you is cause of death. Not with just three body parts. She could have had her heart ripped out for all I know, but without a torso. .’

‘Yeah, I know, Norm. We did our best. So far, that’s all we got.’

‘No problem. With a genius like me on the case, who needs a body, right? So, we’re running a tox screen. Results aren’t back yet, but I’ll let you know.’

‘What about time of death?’

‘Again, not easy. I got no core temperature readings to work with, not much in the way of body fluids, the parts were tightly sealed in the garbage bags against infestation. .’

‘Best guess?’

‘Recent. No more than about twenty hours ago.’

Doyle checks his watch. It’s one-thirty in the afternoon now. That puts TOD at somewhere after 5.30 p.m. yesterday.

‘Anything else?’

‘Yeah. The body was cut up with a serrated blade. There’s no finesse about it. No evidence of any surgical expertise. She was basically sawn into pieces, probably just to make her easier to dispose of.’

‘What about the other wounds you mentioned, on her face?’

‘I was coming to that. They’re present on the other parts too. Numerous incisions made by a sharp blade — a razor blade or scalpel, probably. Burn marks. I don’t know what caused them, but I don’t think it was a cigarette. Then, on the buttocks in particular, there are many long raised welts. It looks as though somebody got their kicks by whipping the hell out of her. Sometimes they’ve ripped right through the skin.’

Doyle closes his eyes. The images return. A naked girl, terrified and screaming. A man standing over her. The whip he yields lashing at her flesh.

The feeling of déjà vu is nauseating.

‘Jesus,’ he says.

‘Yeah, and that’s not the worst of it. There is extensive damage to the anus, rectum and vagina, consistent with the insertion of sharp-edged implements. This poor girl was subject to intense and prolonged torture of the worst kind. This is one sick individual you’re looking for here, Doyle.’

Doyle finds himself nodding. His lips curl in disgust and fury at what this bastard did. He badly wants to get his hands on the twisted fuck.

‘Tell me about the tattoo,’ he says.

‘Sure. You ever had one?’

‘No.’

‘What, not even a little one somewhere? One that only your darling wife knows about?’

‘Not even that. Get on with it, Norm.’

‘All right. What you should know about tattoos is that they tend to fade over time. When they’re new, the colors are vivid. The colors on this girl’s tattoo are really bright. The other thing you need to know is that a tattoo isn’t like a painting. It’s an open wound to the skin. That means it has to heal. Because of that, fresh tattoos often scab over until the healing process is complete.’

‘And this one had scabs, right?’

‘Correct. It’s a very recent tattoo. Put there in the last few days.’

That’s all Doyle needed to hear. He didn’t need the explanation of the deductive process. He’s heard it all before. He knows a lot more about tattoos than he’s willing to reveal right now.

‘You said it’s a picture of an angel.’

‘Yeah. It’s good work. Very artistic. This is no backstreet hack job. Should make it easier to narrow down the list of people who could have put it there.’

Doyle already has a list in mind. If it were any narrower it would be squeezing the fuck out of the one person it contains. Something he would be perfectly content to watch.

‘How old was she?’

He waits for the evasive answer. Another rough estimate. Still, it could be helpful.

‘Sixteen. She’d have been seventeen on the third of next month.’

Doyle feels the surprise, takes a mental step back to determine what he would have been thinking if it hadn’t been a surprise.

‘You know who she is,’ he says.

‘Like I said, who needs a whole corpse when you got me on the team? I cross-checked with the Missing Persons records. Found a girl who disappeared last Saturday.’

Yesterday was Tuesday, thinks Doyle. That’s a lot of time she spent in the company of her torturer before he finished her off. Jesus.

‘You sure it’s her?’

‘Positive. Photographs match. Dental records match. Fingerprints match. I even found an old fracture to her thumb, done when she was nine. I’ve ordered a DNA test, which we’ll have to wait for, but I’m certain we have the right girl.’

‘Okay, Norm. Thanks. That’s great work. So who is she?’

‘Name’s Hamlyn. Megan Hamlyn.’

Nicole Hamlyn sits in her house in Forest Hills, which is light years away from the East Village, and stares out of her window again. The clouds are black now, and appear to be hovering just feet above the houses. She imagines a black balloon being filled with water, stretching and straining as it fills, becoming more pendulous every second, threatening to burst at any moment. The expectation, the tension, as she waits for the explosion.

And then it happens. One huge deep rumble of thunder. A roar of relief as the heavens relent and release their unbearable load.

The rain comes not in droplets but in globules. Massive spheres that crash into the ground and throw up huge splashes. Rain that looks as though it could hurt.

She pictures her Megan. Frightened. Running for cover. Pulling her coat over her head as she hurries through the downpour, looking for somewhere, anywhere, that will afford her protection from this onslaught. She pictures her huddled under an awning or in a doorway, shivering and wet.

But, above all, she imagines her wishing for her home. Her family. Warmth and dryness and love.

And then Nicole sees the car.

It’s a sedan. It cruises like a shark through the waters. It is long and sleek and dark. Too dark. This is not a bringer of happiness. It glides like a predator, and as it nears her house she wishes for it not to notice her, not to see this house or the woman watching from its window. She prays that it will continue on its deadly prowl, that it will seek out some other unfortunate victim.

But then it slows, and she feels the terror start to build inside. Wishes that this house was not so stark and white, that it could blend into the shadows and the grayness. Wishes that her outline was not so clear in the window. Wishes that she could run and hide and cover her ears and wait for the outsiders to go away again.

But she finds herself transfixed. She cannot move from that chair she has spent so many hours in lately. It is as if it has taken hold of her and is forcing her to play this out, this most dreaded of outcomes.

The car stops, and it is directly in front of her house. Not even slightly to one side, so that she might imagine they are going to see one of her neighbors. No, it is here, lined up with her front door. They are coming to see her. Even in this rain, they are coming.

She sees the car doors open. One either side. Driver and passenger. They always come in twos. She sees them glance up at the sky, as if they too cannot believe what a backdrop nature has created for them on this fateful day. She sees them turn up their collars and make a dash toward the house. Her house. The house where she is sitting and watching and waiting for Megan to come home. Because that is who is supposed to be coming up her path now. Megan.

And, in a way, she knows that that is what is happening. She knows that Megan is here, in the form of these two men. It is the story of the Monkey’s Paw. She has wished for the return of a loved one and that wish has been granted, but in a way that is more horrific than anything she could have imagined.

When the doorbell rings, and its usually joyful notes sound like the solemn doleful tolling of a church bell, she cannot move. She stays glued to her chair at the window and pretends it’s not happening, even though she can feel the tears already starting to build.

She hears a noise behind her, and she looks. Steve is moving to answer the door. He glances at her, and there are questions on his face because he knows she has seen the people who have come to darken their lives, and all she can do is shake her head slightly, even though it is not enough to stop him, not enough to prevent this happening.

She hears the door being opened. Hears the voices. Officious male voices. Voices dripping with the promise of unbearable sadness, which Steve doesn’t seem to notice because he is allowing them in. He doesn’t know what he is doing. He is letting them in and actually closing the door behind them.

And now they are all trapped here together.

Now it is too late.

FOUR

Doyle hates this. Hates being the bearer of the worst news possible. He particularly hates it when the recipient of his devastating message is a woman, and a breakable-looking one at that. What he dreads most is that they will go to pieces in front of him, because he never knows what to do. He’s relieved that, in this case, the husband is here too — someone to step in when the emotional waves get rough. It doesn’t always play out that way, of course. Sometimes it’s the man who falls apart and the woman who provides the comfort. For some reason he has yet to analyze, Doyle can cope better with that. Men he understands, women he doesn’t. That’s all there is to it, he thinks. Sue me.

The house is beautiful. Quiet. There is a peacefulness here. He imagines it to be one of those houses that would never be on the market for very long. You would walk into it and it would feel right and you would instantly want to buy it.

The decor and furniture are modern and tasteful. No dark colors anywhere. Doyle feels a little embarrassed at the rivulets of rainwater that are dripping from his leather jacket and onto the oatmeal carpet. A distance of only a few yards from the car to the house, and he feels like he’s just climbed out of a swimming pool.

There’s one thing out of place here. So out of place it hits you as soon as you walk in. It’s the chair by the window. Doesn’t belong there at all. But Doyle understands the reason.

He nods toward the occupant of that chair. Doesn’t smile. This is not a time for smiling. Wouldn’t want to send out the wrong message. What you have to do in these situations is be officious. It may sound cruel, but the message has to be clear and unambiguous. You can’t tell someone their daughter is dead with a stupid grin on your face.

The woman looks to be just shy of forty. She is good-looking, and is probably stunning when she tries. Today she hasn’t tried. Her long blond hair is tied loosely at the back. She wears no makeup. She is dressed in a baggy sweatshirt and blue leggings. Today is a ‘throw it on and leave it be’ day.

Her husband is of a similar age, but of a different disposition. He is clean-cut, has precisely preened hair and smells of aftershave. He wears a Diesel T-shirt and well-pressed jeans. He appears to Doyle like someone who is obsessed with looking after himself. Hitting the gym, eating all the right foods, not smoking or drinking — all that annoying healthy stuff.

‘Come in,’ says Mr Hamlyn. ‘Please.’ He turns to his wife. ‘Hon, these guys are from the Police Department. The Eighth Precinct?’ He looks to Doyle for confirmation of this, and Doyle nods.

Doyle hears the shakiness in the man’s voice. Sees the uncertainty in the woman’s eyes.

Doyle looks down at his clothes. ‘We got kinda wet out there. I wouldn’t want to ruin your furniture. .’

‘No, it’s okay. Please. Take a seat. Would you like some coffee? Tea?’

Doyle sees LeBlanc’s eyes light up, and quickly interjects. ‘No. Nothing. Thank you.’ He looks across the room. ‘Mrs Hamlyn? Perhaps if you came over here, next to your husband? We need to speak with both of you.’

Nicole Hamlyn gets up from her chair like it’s a supreme effort. She stares warily at her visitors as she approaches. Steve takes her arm and helps her to lower herself to the sofa, as though she’s an elderly grandmother.

Doyle starts walking to the vacated chair. ‘You mind if I bring this across?’

Mr Hamlyn shakes his head, and Doyle restores the chair to its rightful place for what must be the first time in days. As he does so, he sees that Mrs Hamlyn is watching him. He hopes that she doesn’t regard the moving of her chair as some kind of disrespectful act.

The two detectives take their seats opposite the Hamlyns.

‘Mrs Hamlyn, as I was just telling your husband, my name is Detective Callum Doyle, and this is Detective Tommy LeBlanc.’

‘Are you from Missing Persons?’ she asks. Her voice is quiet but clear.

‘No. No, we’re not from Missing Persons.’

‘Because all the detectives we’ve met so far have been from Missing Persons. And so I thought maybe you were from there too. I thought maybe you were more senior detectives from there. Because, well, it’s been a while now, and so the case should be given more urgency, don’t you think? Something more needs to be done.’

‘Mrs Hamlyn, we’re not from Missing Persons. We’re precinct detectives. From the Eighth Precinct, which covers the East Village and the Lower East Side.’

She flinches. Something has hit home. She crosses her arms, then lifts a hand and tugs at a strand of her hair.

‘I. . I don’t understand. The East Village? Why would you be involved in this? Why would you-’

‘Mrs Hamlyn, there’s no easy way to tell you this. We believe we’ve found your daughter, and I’m afraid to say she’s not alive.’

There’s a silence then. Doyle rides it out, gives the words time to sink in and percolate into their consciousness. Lets the fact of what he has just said become established in their minds.

Steve Hamlyn rubs his hand up and down his thigh. Up and down, up and down. He starts to shake and his eyes glisten. To his left, Nicole’s face contorts into a mask of intense anguish.

Mr Hamlyn finds some words. ‘You’re saying our daughter is dead? Megan is dead?’

‘Yes. I am. I’m sorry.’

Nicole emits a high-pitched keening noise that is barely recognizable as a long, drawn-out ‘Noooo.’ Her husband puts his hand on hers, but he still stares with incredulity at the police officers who have dared to invade his house and present him with this story.

‘You’re sure?’ he asks. ‘I mean, could there be a mistake?’

‘There’s no mistake. The Medical Examiner ran tests. We’re as sure as we can be that it’s your daughter.’

‘As sure as you can be? But not a hundred percent, right? Maybe if I could. . The body you’ve found. If I could. .’

‘Steve, no.’

This from Nicole. She grasps her husband’s hand tightly and utters the words in a small quiet breath through her tears. And in that instant Doyle knows that she has skipped a chapter beyond the text he has given them so far.

‘But what if they’re wrong, Nicole? Don’t you think we should at least-’

‘Stop it!’

‘Hon-’

‘NO! Please. Stop it. She’s dead, Steve. Can’t you hear what they’re saying to you?’

She turns to Doyle then, and the look in her eyes is one of heartbreaking comprehension. ‘The news. This morning. The East Village. It was her, wasn’t it?’

Doyle says nothing, because he doesn’t need to and because he can’t. It would be a slap to the face.

She stands up then, and her courteous announcement seems almost surreal: ‘Excuse me, gentlemen. I’m going to be sick.’

She runs out of the room, her hand to her mouth. From somewhere else in the house come retching noises followed by the sound of running water.

Steve stands up, unsure whether to go to her or to stay and satisfy his burning need to understand what’s happening to his family.

‘The news? What’s she talking about? What news?’

‘Mr Hamlyn,’ says Doyle, ‘could you sit down, please?’ He waits for the man to sit, then says, ‘The police undertook a large-scale search of the East Village last night-’

And that’s all he has to say. Because now Steve gets it too. His brain finally allows the connection it has probably been vetoing all along.

‘Oh God, no! Not that. Not to Megan. Please tell me that wasn’t her.’

‘I’m sorry,’ says Doyle.

The roar of anguish that the man lets out then is primeval. It chills Doyle to the bone and he feels the goosebumps break out on his skin. He experiences a sense of loss himself that seems profound but is mere fallout. How more unbearable must that feeling be at its source?

An age passes while the detectives allow the man his release. Doyle can almost feel the discomfort radiating from LeBlanc.

When Hamlyn speaks again, his words seem as misplaced as those of his wife. ‘Thank you,’ he says, his words coming out as a squeak through the emotion.

Doyle says nothing in return. Out of the corner of his eye he sees LeBlanc looking at him, willing him to take him the hell out of here. Doyle waits, because he must.

Hamlyn clears his throat to bring his voice down an octave, then continues: ‘For being straight with us. For being honest. I want you to know we appreciate it.’

‘Mr Hamlyn,’ says Doyle, ‘I don’t want to take up any more of your time, especially at this moment. But there’s one thing I need to ask you about.’

Hamlyn wipes his eyes and sniffs deeply. ‘What is it?’

‘Megan’s body. .’ He uses the word body, even though there wasn’t much of one. ‘. . It had a tattoo.’

He sees the puzzlement on Hamlyn’s face then, and he rushes out his next words before bafflement becomes doubt becomes hope.

‘It was done recently. In the past few days.’

‘A tattoo? What kind of tattoo?’

‘A picture of an angel. At the base of her spine.’

Hamlyn bows his head and pushes his hand through his hair. ‘Aw, Jeez.’

‘Does it mean something to you?’

He raises his head again. ‘Yeah. Kind of. She wanted a tattoo. For years she’s wanted one. We told her she couldn’t have one. She was sixteen, for Chrissake. I don’t think it’s even legal at sixteen, is it? But even if it was, I didn’t want her to have it. I wouldn’t want her to have it even if she was twenty. I told her: Those things don’t come off. You’re stuck with them for ever. But still she kept banging on about getting a damned tattoo.’

‘Far as you know, though, she didn’t have it done before she disappeared?’

Hamlyn strains against his helplessness. ‘No. I don’t think so. At that age. . I mean she was practically a woman, you know? I wouldn’t see. .’ He pauses as a thought strikes him. ‘Wait. She went swimming with Nicole. On Friday. The day before she went missing. They always get changed together. There’s no way she could have hidden it.’ He pursues his own chain of thought, then looks hard at Doyle. ‘You think, whoever gave her that tattoo, maybe he. .’

‘I don’t know. It’s too early. But it’s something for us to look into.’

Hamlyn starts rubbing his hands together. His leg shakes. The crying is on its way again.

Doyle stands up. Motions LeBlanc to do the same. He is only too eager to comply.

‘We’ll leave you alone now, Mr Hamlyn. We may need to come back and ask you some more questions, but right now I think you and your wife need some time together.’

Hamlyn gets up. ‘Sure,’ he says, but he finds it difficult to turn his tear-stained face to the cops. It’s a man thing, not wanting to appear weak. Doyle knows that when they’ve gone, he will bawl like a baby. And that’s okay.

Then, at the door, Hamlyn grabs Doyle by the arm. This time he looks Doyle straight in the eye, because this time it’s about what he regards as the appropriate male response.

‘Promise me,’ he says. ‘Promise me that you’ll get this bastard.’

Doyle nods. ‘We’ll get him.’

‘And. . if there’s any chance. . I mean, if I can be there when you do. .’

The sentence is left unfinished, but the message is up there in neon. Doyle doesn’t know what to say. He’d like nothing more than to grab up this sicko and hand him straight over to Hamlyn and anyone he wants to invite to a revenge party. But he knows it’s not going to happen. All he can do is give a hint of a nod, meaning nothing more than the request has been noted.

And then the detectives leave. On the way out, Doyle hears sobbing coming from upstairs. When the door closes behind them, LeBlanc makes a dash through the rain. Doyle takes his time. He ambles down the driveway, through the tidy front yard with its manicured patch of lawn, out onto the street with its perfect line of trees. And all the way there, while the rain batters down on him, he thinks about his promise to Hamlyn.

He will not allow the killer of this young girl to walk free.

Not this time.

FIVE

See, it’s the preconceptions that bother Doyle.

Not so much the clothes. Or the spectacles. Or even the inexperience. No, thinking about it, what it all boils down to is the preconceptions.

LeBlanc has been a detective for only about a year. He joined the Eighth not long before Doyle had all those problems with everyone around him being whacked just for knowing Doyle. What a joyful Christmas that was. Hi, my name’s Doyle. And you are? Oh, now you’re dead. Sorry about that.

Since that time, Doyle has never been partnered with LeBlanc. LeBlanc has worked with several of the other detectives since his arrival, but has spent most of his time with one in particular. A man named Schneider.

And the thing about Schneider is that he hates Doyle’s guts.

It all dates back to a time in prehistory when Doyle was in a different precinct uptown and working with a woman called Laura Marino who had a thing for him and was not very discreet about it and then ended up being killed by a shotgun-bearing skell in a Harlem apartment. Which was tragic enough in itself, except for the fact that some people started suggesting that Doyle himself may have had something to do with her demise — suggesting it so forcefully, in fact, that Internal Affairs became involved and Doyle nearly lost his job, his freedom and his marriage. That episode was the trigger for Doyle to transfer to the Eighth with the hope of making a clean start.

Only things are never as simple as that, are they? Police precincts do not operate in isolation, oblivious to the events in other precincts. Believe it or not, they talk to each other — an aspect of modern policing that is actively encouraged. Occasionally, friendships are struck up between members of different precincts, or existing friendships endure even after one of the friends transfers out.

One of Schneider’s close friends is Danny Marino — widower of the aforementioned Laura Marino. And being such a good buddy, he has always done his damnedest to ensure that everyone in the Eighth remains aware of what a checkered past Doyle has.

All of which brings us full circle to LeBlanc. Because — though Doyle has no evidence to support this — Schneider will have been relentless in pouring his poison into his protégé’s ear over the past year. He will have been unable to prevent himself. It’s what he does. And the young impressionable LeBlanc, looking up to his older and more experienced mentor, will have soaked all this up as the gospel truth and established preconceptions that Doyle is now powerless to eradicate.

And that’s the real reason why Doyle feels uneasy about LeBlanc.

He figures this out while he’s driving, and feels that he’s done a pretty fine job of self-analysis, even though head-shrinking is a practice he usually avoids at all costs. In fact, he wonders now why he bothered. What’s wrong with disliking LeBlanc for his style choices? Who says I’m not allowed to be superficial?

‘That was tough,’ says LeBlanc.

He’s in the passenger seat. Doyle has the wheel, because only he knows where they’re going.

‘For them or for us?’

‘For everyone. I, uh, I liked the way you handled it, by the way.’

‘Why?’ says Doyle. He knows he shouldn’t act so snippy. With anyone else he would take the compliment and shine back his gratitude. But not with LeBlanc. Not with the preconceptions he’s got.

‘What?’ says LeBlanc.

‘Why did you like the way I handled it? What was so special about the way I did it?’

‘I. . well, I don’t know why. I just thought you were. . professional about it. You showed compassion back there.’

‘Uh-huh. And why does that surprise you?’

‘Surprise me? I didn’t say it surprises me. It’s just that. . well. .’

‘Go on.’

‘Well, we’ve never worked a case together, you and me. So I don’t know anything about you, and-’

‘What would you like to know?’

‘What?’

‘You wanna know stuff about me? Shoot.’

‘Well, I. . It’s not like I’ve got questions or anything. I just thought I could learn a lot from someone like you.’

‘Someone like me meaning. .’

LeBlanc shrugs. ‘Meaning an experienced detective who seems to know what he’s doing. That’s all.’

‘Uh-huh,’ says Doyle, and even that carries an undercurrent of coldness to it.

They lapse into silence then. It lasts while they get across the Williamsburg Bridge and plunge into the thick Manhattan traffic. Doyle stares intently ahead, trying to see where he’s going through the vertical rods of rain. The car’s wipers swat wildly, but the rain just keeps on coming. It creates a moving, shimmering film of water across the windshield, and just beyond, countless plumes of spray as the drops explode on the hood of the car.

It’s not until the car sails across East Seventh Street that LeBlanc gathers up the courage to speak again. ‘Where you going, Cal? You missed the turning for the House.’

‘We’re not going to the House,’ says Doyle. ‘I got someone to see first.’

He doesn’t bother to tell LeBlanc where they’re going, and he doesn’t bother to say who they’re about to visit.

It’s the preconceptions, you see.

That, and the stupid dress sense.

LeBlanc thinks they’ve got him all wrong.

He’s heard a lot of bad things about Doyle. That he’s a maverick. That he’s ruthless. That he’s a dirty cop. That he has no great love for his fellow officers. That he will even stoop to murder when it suits him.

He tries not to believe it. At the very least, he tries to keep an open mind. It’s how he was raised. Treat people as you find them, his parents used to say. Give folks the benefit of the doubt until they prove otherwise.

He smiles as he casts his mind back to those times. Simpler times, in a simpler life. It was easier to follow advice like that in a tiny God-fearing community in Iowa.

Not so easy in a place like New York City. Especially when you’re a cop. The niceness gets squeezed out of you. Cynicism gets hammered in. You can’t give the benefit of the doubt to a junkie who may or may not be holding onto an AIDS-infected hypodermic needle in that pocket of his, or to a hooker who may or may not be about to whip a six-inch blade out of that purse. Shit like that happens, and you have to assume that it will happen unless you take precautions to prevent it. Otherwise you don’t last long as a cop.

But as for Doyle. .

He’s also a cop. A brother. A fellow Member of Service. And no matter what people say, LeBlanc has seen nothing to confirm that he’s bad.

Look at the way he handled the Hamlyns. That was impressive. He was in control, but he was sympathetic with it. He knew exactly what to say.

No doubt about it, thinks LeBlanc, he’s an interesting guy. Hidden depths. There are some people who don’t like such a closed book. They’d like him to be a little easier to read. Well, maybe he’ll open up to me. I think I could learn a lot from him if he’ll let me. The impression I get is that he’s a stand-up guy. He just wants to do things in his own way. Nothing wrong with that.

It’s a hard shell he wears, though. Gonna be difficult to break through that one.

But give me time. .

He feels a jolt as Doyle suddenly yanks the wheel and pulls the car into a parking space. LeBlanc looks through all the windows, trying to figure out what they’re doing here. They’re at the uptown end of Avenue B, parked outside a TV-repair place. Straight ahead, on the other side of Fourteenth Street, loom the drab brown boxes that are the Stuyvesant projects, while here on this block are just a variety of small stores fronting low-rise tenements criss-crossed by fire escapes.

‘We here?’

‘This is it,’ says Doyle.

‘This is what, exactly?’

Doyle doesn’t answer. He just opens his door and steps out of the car.

‘Just asking,’ LeBlanc mutters. He climbs out of the car and circles it to join Doyle, who is preparing to dodge through the dense traffic. As if deciding that anyone foolhardy enough to challenge its ferocity without so much as a hat is in need of a good dousing, the rain seems to choose at that moment to step up its intensity a notch or two. By the time the two cops have fought their way to the other side of the street, they are already drenched.

‘Damn this rain,’ says LeBlanc. It’s been his experience that the weather is often a good way to start a conversation. Doesn’t work with Doyle. The man just picks up the pace. When LeBlanc does the same to keep up, he ends up stepping in a puddle so deep it comes over the top of his shoes.

‘Shit!’

When Doyle stops suddenly, LeBlanc almost crashes into him. He turns to see what has attracted Doyle’s attention.

He sees dragons. He sees tigers. He sees naked women and snakes and movie stars and sharks and hearts and flowers and crosses. All here on display in the window. And above them all, in dark Gothic lettering, the name of the place: Skinterest.

Doyle doesn’t budge for what seems like ages. Doesn’t seem to notice that the rain isn’t willing to wait with him. We’re standing here like idiots, thinks LeBlanc, just getting wetter and wetter.

And then Doyle moves. He opens the door to the shop and steps inside. LeBlanc hurries in after him, even though his haste seems pointless now. He closes the door firmly behind him and savors the instant warmth. He’d like to get a good look at the interior, but his glasses have fogged up. He has to dig into his pocket for a tissue to dry them off. The tissue comes out somewhat moist, but it’s all he’s got.

The place is eerily quiet after the white noise of the rain outside. LeBlanc puts his glasses back on and looks around. He sees a small waiting area with a black sofa and a glass coffee table holding a stack of magazines. Farther ahead is an adjustable chair of the type one might find in a dentist’s, complete with an attached overhead spotlight. Next to that is a typist’s chair on casters. Black curtains on rails allow that area to be screened off for when the tattooist is working on more private areas of the body. On the walls are mirrors and framed close-up photographs of tattooed body parts. The air is thick with chemical smells. Disinfectant and ink.

Beyond a counter at the far end of the room, a door opens and a man steps out. ‘Hey, guys,’ he calls, then steps around the counter and comes closer. When he gets as far as the dentist’s chair he stops. His welcoming attitude suddenly withers and his smile droops. He lowers his hands to his sides and says no more.

The man is tall and scrawny. Late twenties, probably. His dark hair is shorn at the sides but long on top, and he has a small goatee. Large black studs in both ears. He wears a blood-red T-shirt that carries a picture of some kind of screaming demon with pointed teeth and vertical slits for eyes.

LeBlanc waits to take his cue from Doyle, since he doesn’t even know what they’re doing here. But Doyle just stands where he is and stays mute. All that can be heard is the steady dripping of water from the clothes of the detectives onto the tiled floor. It’s like the prelude to a gunfight in an old cowboy movie.

‘Hello, Stan,’ Doyle says finally.

‘Detective Doyle,’ says the man, and it is clear to LeBlanc that there is no joy in that recognition.

LeBlanc shuffles up next to Doyle. Just in case he’s forgotten he has company.

‘You two know each other?’

Doyle nods. ‘We know each other. This here is Stanley Proust, tattoo artist extraordinaire. Ain’t that right, Stan?’

Proust doesn’t answer. He just blinks, as if in fear.

Doyle takes a few steps toward Proust, and LeBlanc trails after him. His shoes squelch as he walks. Proust backs away, putting the chair between himself and Doyle.

‘How’s business, Stan? A lot of pain happening here lately?’

Proust’s mouth twitches, as if he is trying to smile but can’t quite manage it.

‘I do okay.’

Doyle inclines his head toward LeBlanc, but keeps his eyes fixed on Proust.

‘This guy’s good, ya know? A real artist. You ever feel the need to get a tat done, Stan here’s your guy. Stan the man. No hatchet jobs here. Huh, Stan? I’m saying you don’t do hatchet jobs. You don’t hack away at someone like they’re a piece of meat. You’re careful. You know how to do things right. Sure, there’s pain. But what’s a little pain? It’s the end result that counts, am I right?’

Proust gives a minimal shrug. ‘I guess.’ His voice is only just above a whisper.

‘Show him,’ says Doyle. ‘Go ahead, show him your work.’

Proust looks at the detectives with uncertainty. Doesn’t move.

‘Go on,’ urges Doyle. ‘Show him.’

Proust turns slightly and reaches a tentative hand out to the counter behind him. ‘Well, I got some books here. .’

‘No, no,’ says Doyle. ‘Not the books. Photos don’t do it justice. We need the real thing. In the flesh. Show him yours. You know. .’ Doyle taps himself on the chest.

Proust looks at Doyle, then to LeBlanc, then back to Doyle. He shakes his head, and again the movement is infinitesimal. Like he’s trying to conserve energy.

‘No, man, I don’t-’

‘Come on. Don’t be shy. Show him.’

Doyle starts to move around the chair. Proust puts his palms up in front of him.

‘Please. I. . I don’t want to. .’

Doyle’s voice hardens. ‘Show him, Stan. My partner would like to see how good you are at your job.’

‘No, I-’

‘Show him!’Doyle grabs hold of Proust by his shirt. He starts to pull at it. ‘Come on, Stan. You should be proud. Your work is great. It’s a masterpiece.’

‘Please,’ says Stan. A pathetic whimper.

LeBlanc has no idea what’s going down here. If this is scripted, then a heads-up before they entered the place would have been nice. But it doesn’t look like it’s being done for show. It looks like Doyle has lost his senses.

‘Cal,’ says LeBlanc. ‘It’s okay.’

‘No,’ Doyle snaps. ‘It’s not okay. He needs to show you.’

And then LeBlanc can’t believe what he sees. Because Doyle is ripping at the man’s T-shirt. Tearing it apart at the seams while Proust cowers and whines.

This isn’t right, thinks LeBlanc. He’s terrorizing the guy.

He calls out: ‘Cal!’

But Doyle doesn’t stop. Proust bounces around while Doyle puts all of his strength into ripping that shirt right down the middle. And when he is done, his face looks to be burning with the effort and the heat of his anger.

‘There,’ says Doyle, gesturing toward the man he has just attacked. ‘What do you think of that? Pretty cool, huh?’ Proust himself is a sad spectacle. His frame is slumped in defeat and humiliation. His shirt is in tatters, with a hoop of material remaining like a slack noose around his sinewy neck. His panting chest is hairless and concave, and his ribs are clearly visible beneath the thin skin.

But that’s not what LeBlanc focuses on. It’s not what anyone would focus on right now.

Not when there’s an image like that to look at.

It makes it look as though Proust’s chest has been torn open. A pair of hands pulls aside the ragged flesh, and a head pushes out through the bloody opening. It has Proust’s own face, but it is contorted in pain. Its mouth is open in a scream, and the eyes have rolled back into their sockets. And it’s all so lifelike. It looks three-dimensional, like there really is a copy of Proust desperately trying to escape from inside his own body.

For a moment, LeBlanc forgets what events have just caused that picture to be put on display.

‘Jesus,’ he says. ‘That’s. . that’s awesome.’

‘Told you,’ says Doyle. ‘This man is a genius. He did this all by himself. Can you believe it? He can tattoo anything you like, wherever you want it. So tell me, Stan. What other examples of artistic brilliance could you share with us? What are you most proud of out of the stuff you did recently? Why don’t you show me? Are they in these books of yours?’

He reaches out and grips the back of Proust’s neck, then forces his head down to look at the books on the counter.

‘Show me, Stanley. Tell me what’s good in these books.’

Doyle opens a book at random, flicks through its pages of photographs.

‘What about this? Do you like this one?’

He tosses the book aside. It slides off the counter and crashes to the floor. He pulls another book across.

‘How about this book? Would you say these are better than the other ones? I’d say so. Look at that picture of Marilyn Monroe there. That’s terrific, it really is. And this one of a Corvette. That’s a peach. But you know what I don’t see here, Stan? I don’t see any angels. Where are the angels? Are they in one of these other books here? Could you show me, please, Stan? Because I like angels. They’re my favorite. And I’m sure you could do a real good angel if you tried. What do you say, Stan?’

Proust suddenly slaps Doyle’s arm away and takes several steps backward, out of arm’s reach. Doyle closes the gap again.

‘Get off me, man! Leave me alone! I don’t know what you’re talking about. Why are you here?’

‘You know why I’m here, Stan. I’m here about an angel. The one you did recently.’

‘What angel? I haven’t done an angel for months. What is this?’

‘You did one a few days ago. On a girl. And now she’s dead.’

Proust shows his palms again. ‘Now wait a minute, Detective. Don’t do this to me again, man. I know you don’t like me, and I don’t know why. But I’m not a killer. I’m an artist. I do tattoos. That’s all, man.’

‘Oh, I like you, Stan. I like you for the murder of Megan Hamlyn. Sixteen. That’s how old she was. Just sixteen years old.’

Proust looks across to LeBlanc, as if hoping for a more receptive ear.

‘Ah, well, there you go. She couldn’t have been a client of mine. You have to be eighteen to get a tattoo in this state, and I always insist on ID. No way would I have-’

The slap he receives from Doyle resounds around the room.

Proust brings his hand to his cheek. Tears well in his eyes.

‘Don’t fuck with me, Stan,’ says Doyle.

LeBlanc feels he has to cut in. He says, ‘Cal, don’t you think-’

And then suddenly he’s the target of a finger aimed in his direction, behind which is the face of a man who looks like he could pull the trigger if it were a real gun.

‘Stay out of this, Tommy,’ says Doyle. He turns back to Proust. ‘Where were you last night, Stan?’

‘Last night? I was here, man. I’m always here. I live back there, behind the shop. I don’t go out much.’

‘What about Saturday night?’

‘Saturday? Here. I’m always here.’

‘Can you prove it? Anyone who can vouch for you?’

‘N-no. I live alone.’

‘Tell me what you did last night.’

‘I. . I watched TV.’

‘What did you watch?’

‘Well, actually it was a DVD. The Transformers movie.’

‘Transformers? Exactly how old are you, Stan?’

‘Twenty-eight.’

‘Uh-huh,’ says Doyle, as though that makes his point. LeBlanc feels faintly embarrassed. He enjoyed the Transformers movie himself. What’s so wrong with that?

‘You didn’t go out at all?’ Doyle asks.

‘No, man. I told you.’

‘So if we ask around, nobody would’ve seen you out on the streets last night?’

‘No. How could they?’

‘What about the rest of the time between Saturday and now? Did you go anywhere?’

‘I guess.’

‘You guess what? You did or you didn’t?’

‘I went out. Sunday night. I got a pizza at Oscar’s on the next block, and then I called in at the liquor store.’

‘And that’s it? You didn’t go anywhere else in that time? Not even for your lunch?’

‘No. I make my lunch here. A sandwich and fruit. Every day.’

‘So we’re not gonna find anyone else who says different? Nobody who saw you in the subway or taking a cab, or in a different part of town? Is that what you’re telling me?’

‘Yeah, man. Like I said.’

‘Jesus, you’re a real hermit, aren’t you, Stan? You don’t go out. You don’t see anyone. .’

Proust shrugs. ‘It’s how I am. I’m not good with people.’

‘What about girls? Are you good with them?’

Proust hesitates before he answers. ‘I don’t know what you mean.’

‘Sure you do. A young guy like yourself. You got all these girls coming in here, getting undressed, asking you to put pretty pictures on parts of their bodies they wouldn’t let any other stranger see. Must be pretty tempting, Stan. Must be quite a turn-on.’

‘It’s my job. It’s like being a doctor. I don’t look at them in that way. All’s I see is a canvas for my art.’

Doyle nods without conviction. ‘You got a girlfriend, Stan?’

‘No. Not at the moment.’

‘Had any girlfriends since the last time we met?’

‘I. . I don’t have the time.’

‘So that would be a no. Any particular reason for that? I mean, where’s your outlet? All that sexual tension building up in you over these young semi-naked girls, and you don’t have an outlet? Christ, that must be really frustrating.’

‘I told you, man, it’s not like that.’ He turns to LeBlanc again. ‘Can he do this? Can he ask me these personal questions? I haven’t done anything. I swear. Please.’

LeBlanc finds himself wanting to come to this guy’s aid. He wants to say something in his favor. It’s not that he’s never seen a cop come down heavy on a perp or a skell before. He’s often had to get in people’s faces himself. The worst thing you can do in the street is show weakness, because one thing the scum out there excel at is spotting the vulnerable and pouncing on them without mercy.

But this is different. This is a one-on-one in the guy’s own place of business. Actually, it doesn’t even feel like a one-on-one, given the differences in size, strength and ability. It seems more like an army-on-one. And even that can be okay in the right circumstances. For some perps, it’s the only approach that gets through to them.

All that LeBlanc can do now is trust his partner. But he tells himself that Doyle better have a damn good explanation for this. The train of thought better be a lot more convincing than ‘Victim has tattoo; I know a tattoo artist.’

For now, discomforting though it is, all he does is give Proust a helpless look.

Says Doyle, ‘Don’t ask him, Stan. This is between us. And I want you to know that this is just the beginning. You know what you did, and I know it too. So I’m coming back. I’m gonna come back again and again until you admit what you did. From now on, you’re mine, Stan. Every spare minute I have is gonna be spent watching you. You’re mine. Do you understand that?’

‘Man, that’s not right. I’m clean. I didn’t do nothing. I just do tattoos.’

Doyle grabs him by what’s left of his shirt and shakes him. LeBlanc finds himself taking a step forward.

‘I said, Do you understand, you piece of shit?’

Proust’s mouth curls down as if he’s about to cry. ‘Okay. Yeah. I understand.’

Doyle pushes him away. ‘I’m coming back, Stan. While I’m gone, I want you to write down everything you did since Saturday morning. I want places and times, to the exact minute. That includes details of any customers you had here. Because, believe me, I am gonna check them out. And if I find one anomaly, just one. . well, you know what would happen then, don’t you, Stanley?’

Doyle doesn’t wait for an answer. He just turns on his heel and heads for the door. When he brushes past LeBlanc, it’s as if he doesn’t see him. His face is a perfect match for the thunderous weather outside.

LeBlanc takes a last look at the pathetic figure of Proust, busy trying to pull the fragments of shirt together around his skinny frame as if it’s somehow possible to reassemble it. Again he feels he should say something, but doesn’t. Instead, he leaves the shop and runs to catch up with Doyle.

In the car, LeBlanc puts the obvious question. The one that will clear all this up and put his mind at rest. The one that will lend logic to Doyle’s actions and attitude.

‘You want to fill me in? Tell me what all that was about?’

Doyle’s answer is in his scowl and in the way he puts his whole body into twisting the ignition key and in how he slams forward the transmission lever. Words are hardly necessary, but he supplies one anyway.

‘No.’

And that’s it. That’s the best LeBlanc’s going to get. A single syllable infused with venom. And as Doyle whips the car out into the traffic and pounds his horn at the first driver who dares to object, LeBlanc starts to wonder whether the stories are true after all. He starts to imagine that this big guy in the leather jacket and with the bent nose could easily fit into the role of a criminal. Maybe even a killer.

Sitting next to this man about whom he really knows nothing, LeBlanc feels incredibly uneasy.

If not a little afraid.

SIX

She is no longer sure what to do with her time.

When there was hope, she could stare for hours out of the window and picture Megan walking back to the house. She could tell herself that it was an episode with an end. One of those crazy things that hormone-filled teenagers go through in attempting to understand themselves and their place in the world. Megan would return.

Now that has gone. The window holds no interest for Nicole. The world beyond this house holds no interest. It is dark and it is filled with evil and it destroys. The chair remains where the detective put it, back in its rightful place. A tiny attempt to restore order in a home where normality has been ripped to shreds.

The crying won’t stop. Whenever she thinks all her reserves of tears have been squeezed out of her, her body seems to manufacture more, and five minutes later the valves are open again. Her head is pulsating with pain at the effort of dealing with the grief.

She is tired, so tired. But she cannot sleep. Not yet. Not until she collapses with exhaustion.

She doesn’t want to see anyone or talk to anyone. When her mother phoned, she had to tell her the dreadful news. There was little conversation: it was mostly mutual wailing and silent sobbing. Her mother wanted to come over; Nicole ordered her not to.

Steve has his own ways of dealing with this. Or not dealing with it. She can hear him upstairs now. Loud animal grunts as he lifts his weights. Before that he went on a five-mile run. He hasn’t trained this hard for years.

She remembers little of the hours that have passed since the visit from the detectives. That time is a hole in her life, devoid of content. Her anguished mind pushed everything else away. She saw nothing, heard nothing, was not even conscious of time. She could have been dead.

Now, she tries to find things to do. Little jobs to occupy her mind. But Megan is there. She will always be there. Nicole will wash the dishes and see Megan take them from her to dry them. She will switch the kettle on and hear the tiny clinks of crockery as Megan fetches down the mugs. She will tidy the bathroom and smell Megan’s body spray.

Her head is so filled with Megan. Her life is so empty without Megan.

Outside, it continues to rain. Lord, how it rains.

She hears a steady thud, thud, thud. Steve coming downstairs. Much more heavy-footed than usual. There is anger in those footsteps.

He comes into the kitchen and opens the refrigerator and takes out a carton of orange juice and drinks straight from the carton. A manly dismissal of social niceties. She would rebuke him for it, normally.

She watches him drink. The bobbing of his Adam’s apple. The fluttering pulse in his neck. The sheen of perspiration on his face and pumped-up arms. She can smell the sweat. She can feel his pain.

‘You should take a shower,’ she says, because she doesn’t know what else to say.

He drains the carton and tosses it into the flip-top trashcan.

‘I’m not going to let this rest, Nicole.’

She folds her arms and leans back against the counter. ‘What do you mean?’

‘The police. I’m going to call them later. I’m going to call them every couple of hours if I have to. I’m going to stay on their case until they catch this sonofabitch.’

‘Steve, you don’t have to-’

‘You know what I’ve been thinking? A private eye. We should get a private eye on this. I don’t care how much it costs. We’ve got to find the bastard.’

She keeps her voice soft and low. Soothe the savage breast, and all that.

‘We don’t need a private detective. Let the police do their job.’

‘Boy. I tell ya. If I could just get my hands on that. .’

He doesn’t finish his sentence. Just puts his hands out and tightens them around an imaginary neck. She can see his tendons flex. She can sense the power in that grip and the satisfaction he is getting from his envisioned deed of vengeance.

Like many men she has met, Steve does not deal well with emotion. He was brought up by a very competitive sportsman of a father. Crying is weakness. Forgiveness is weakness. Surrender is weakness. The stereotypical view of manliness was one of the things that attracted her to Steve in the first place, and there has been many a time she has been grateful for the reassurance and feeling of security it has brought her.

Not now, though. She heard him crying earlier, but it wasn’t enough. He didn’t purge himself. He kept too much inside, where it will fester. Where it will gnaw away at him. And when he does release it, it will be at the wrong time, in the wrong place, and for the wrong reason. Watching him now as he chokes the life from his invisible victim, she feels not a little afraid.

She walks across the room and puts a hand on his arm. It’s like oak. Hard and unyielding. He needs to yield. He needs to give a little. Otherwise he’ll break.

‘Steve,’ she says. Calm. A whisper. ‘That’s not the answer. It won’t change anything.’

He looks at her, but seems blind to what he sees. It’s as if he doesn’t recognize her. She wills the tension to leave his body, the coldness to leave his eyes. She needs him, and she longs for him to need her in return. Because what are they without that?

‘I need a shower,’ he says, and he walks away, and she stays in the kitchen and stares at the space where he stood and she wonders why everything she holds dear in her world is being taken away from her.

LeBlanc sits at his desk, staring at Doyle, who is pouring himself a coffee on the other side of the squadroom. He’s still not sure what happened at the tattoo shop. What got into the man? Why was he behaving like that?

Or maybe that was the true Doyle. Maybe that’s the way he is with people.

‘How’d it go this afternoon?’

The voice is low. Conspiratorial. LeBlanc turns to find Schneider watching him. Schneider is a bull of a man. Stocky and menacing. His steel-gray hair is cut close to his skull, giving his head the look of a bullet. He chews his gum behind a smile that doesn’t ask you to be his friend.

‘How’d what go?’

Schneider chin-points toward Doyle. ‘Working with Irish. You two get along?’

LeBlanc looks at Doyle again. He would like to say yes to Schneider’s question. He would like to say that, contrary to all expectations, Doyle is beyond reproach. An upstanding cop of the highest caliber. A true team player who sticks to the rules.

But he finds that the words catch in his throat. They linger there so long that Schneider makes up his own answer, and his smile broadens into something that could stop a heart.

‘A piece of work, ain’t he? You want my advice, you should ask for another partner on this case. Doyle is no good. He’s a bad cop. Working with him is like walking through a minefield. Just make sure he doesn’t make you go first.’

Schneider sidles away then, but he leaves his thoughts behind. They trickle into LeBlanc’s head and begin to simmer.

Doyle opens the first of the files on his desk. It’s the autopsy report. Pages of medical jargon, plus some photographs. The parts of the report that Doyle is able to decipher tell him nothing new. The photographs, on the other hand, mesmerize him.

He starts with the head. Placing his hand over the area beneath Megan Hamlyn’s chin, he tries to imagine her whole. Tries to picture her as the young pretty girl that she was just a few days ago. It’s difficult. The face in front of him is a mess. God knows the pain she went through.

He flips through the other photographs, then pulls out one which gives a close-up of the tattoo. It’s superb work, all right. You can see the serenity in the angel’s face. The wings have a soft, fluffy quality to them that makes them look like they’re made from real feathers. The angel’s robes have pleats and folds that make them seem as though they could really move. Whoever did this worked for a long time on it. They spent ages staring at this young girl’s flesh. Touching it. Talking to her. Getting to know her.

But this whoever has a name, doesn’t he?

Stanley Proust.

Oh yeah, a name to remember. A name seared into Doyle’s brain. A name that causes Doyle to clench his fists and grind his teeth every time he thinks of it. He’s like Pavlov’s dog with that name. The mere mention of it causes him to salivate at the thought of eating Proust alive.

He lost it in that tattoo shop. In the cold light of hindsight he accepts that the way he acted there was unprofessional. God knows what LeBlanc must have thought.

In fact, he realizes, it’s probably a good thing that LeBlanc was there. I don’t know what I might have done to Proust if I’d gone there alone. It wouldn’t have been pretty and it wouldn’t have been right. But damn it if that man doesn’t deserve a little harsh treatment. If LeBlanc knew what I know. .

‘Doyle. LeBlanc. In my office.’

Doyle raises his head to see Lieutenant Cesario looking straight at him. Set against his permanently tanned features, Cesario’s teeth light up the room with their whiteness. But this is no welcome smile, no invitation to a coffee morning. It’s more the rictus of the big bad wolf inviting two little piggies into his den.

Doyle closes the file, sighs and gets up from his chair. He sees the questioning looks from LeBlanc as he joins him.

Doyle says, ‘What have you done this time? Don’t be looking to me to save your ass.’

They get into Cesario’s office, and the lieutenant motions LeBlanc to close the door. Cesario is as smartly turned out as he usually is. Not an unintentional crease anywhere. Doyle would be willing to bet he irons his socks. His undershorts too.

Cesario is a recent addition to the precinct, and Doyle still finds it difficult to take him seriously. Not that the guy’s done anything wrong — after all, he’s the one who gave Doyle the opportunity to work on the homicide of the bookstore girl — but something about him doesn’t sit right. He’s a little too perfect, too glossy. His hair doesn’t move. His eyebrows look drawn on. It’s like he’s an actor playing the part of a cop in one of those ridiculously glitzy TV shows.

Doyle snaps a glance at LeBlanc, who is also impeccably attired, then drops his gaze to his own garb. Okay, he thinks, maybe I’m the odd one out here. Maybe if I dressed like these guys I wouldn’t attract so much flak.

His sartorial musings are interrupted by Cesario: ‘I just had a very long phone conversation. A conversation I’da preferred not to have. You wanna guess who it was with?’

Doyle can guess. He decides it’s wise not to admit it.

‘I’ll tell you,’ says Cesario. ‘It was from a man called Stanley Proust. A man I’d never heard of before today. But I think you know him, don’t you, Cal?’

‘We’ve, uhm, crossed paths.’

‘Uh-huh. Care to tell me why you went to see him today?’

‘He’s a suspect. On the Megan Hamlyn case.’

‘I see. And why is he a suspect?’

Doyle sees the files in front of Cesario. He reckons the lieutenant already knows the answer to his question. Doyle figures he’s got nothing to lose.

‘Because he’s a murdering scumbag. Because he puts tattoos on young girls and then he abducts them and rapes them and tortures them and kills them. That’s why.’

‘Hold on. Rewind this for me, would you? You know all this how?’

‘I know it because I’ve investigated him before.’

‘Yeah, that’s all on your record, Cal. Remind me how that went again. You must have got the goods on Proust that time. I mean, for you to be so sure about him on this occasion. How long did he go down for?’

Doyle shifts uncomfortably. ‘He didn’t go down for it.’

‘Oh? And why was that? A technicality in the court case, maybe?’

Doyle says nothing.

‘There was a court hearing, wasn’t there, Cal?’

‘Not exactly.’

‘Not exactly. You mean no. In fact, Proust was never even formally booked, was he, Cal? And the reason he was never booked was because you couldn’t produce any evidence he did something wrong.’

‘It was him,’ says Doyle. ‘He did it last time, and he did it this time. I know it.’

‘Nobody else knows it, Cal.’ He turns to LeBlanc. ‘Do you know it, Tommy? You were there today. Did you come to the same conclusions as your partner regarding the guilt of Mr Proust?’

LeBlanc clears his throat. ‘I, uh. . this is all new to me, Lieutenant. I don’t have the same background knowledge of Proust that Cal has.’

‘Oh, really? You mean your own partner hasn’t even brought you up to speed? He hasn’t made you privy to all the important information on someone he regards as a key suspect in this case?’

Doyle sees LeBlanc redden a little. With embarrassment, probably, plus at least a soupçon of anger at his partner.

But Cesario hasn’t finished hammering a wedge between them. ‘Didn’t Cal tell you what happened last time? About his obsession with Proust? About being officially warned to lay off the guy? About him then ignoring that directive and finding himself being taken off the case? Hasn’t he told you any of this?’

The answer, of course, is no. But LeBlanc can’t admit to that without also admitting that his partnership with Doyle isn’t all that it’s supposed to be. So he claims the Fifth.

Cesario aims his weapons at Doyle again. ‘Jesus, Cal. I don’t know if I’ll ever understand you. I get given this squad hearing all kinds of negative things about you, and most of the time you prove to me they’re unfounded. Then you go and do something stupid like this, and all my doubts come jumping back again. When are you going to start thinking about the consequences of your actions?’

‘I’ll bear it in mind, Lou,’ says Doyle. He gets up from his seat.

Big mistake.

‘Sit down, Detective! I am not done with you.’

Doyle sits again. Thinks, This is not going well.

There is a moment’s silence while they wait for the echoes of Cesario’s roar to die away. Doyle realizes they must have heard it out in the squadroom. Schneider is probably having the time of his life.

Says Cesario, ‘Tell me what happened when you went to see Proust this afternoon.’

Doyle shrugs. ‘I asked him some questions. He answered them. We left.’

‘That’s all? No pressure tactics? No need to twist his arm a little to refresh his memory?’

‘Why? What does Proust say?’

‘He says you frightened the living daylights out of him. He says he doesn’t want to go into detail or put a complaint on record, but you came on real strong with him. Any truth in that? You think maybe you overstepped the mark?’

Before Doyle can answer, LeBlanc pipes up. ‘Proust got a little overexcited, Lou. His behavior became threatening. At one point we had to restrain him physically. My opinion, we used minimum force.’

Cesario looks at LeBlanc in surprise. Doyle feels a little surprised too, given the ankle-high rating he must now have in LeBlanc’s eyes.

Cesario addresses Doyle again. ‘You got a good partner there, Cal. Treat him like one. Show him what a good cop you can be when you want to.’

To Doyle it sounds like the sermon is over, but after what happened last time he thinks he should check.

‘We done here?’

The way Cesario looks at him makes Doyle realize his response was perhaps a little curt. Maybe a more deferential ‘Yes, sir’ would have been better. Never ask me to be a diplomat, he thinks.

‘Not quite,’ says Cesario, as though feeling the need to punish Doyle for his impudence. ‘I want to make things clear before you go. From now on, Proust is off-limits, understand?’

‘What? That’s crazy. He’s a suspect, Lou. No, scratch that. He is the suspect. How am I supposed to work this case if you tie my hands like this?’

‘You bring me something concrete to implicate him in all this, then maybe I’ll change my mind. Until then, you back off. If we need to talk to this guy, then fine, Tommy does it. Without you present. I’m not giving this guy a chance to sue my ass for ignoring his complaint. And if you hassle him again, I’ll take you off the case and glue you to a desk for the rest of your days. Do you get what I’m saying to you, Cal?’

Doyle doesn’t answer. He can’t say no, and he doesn’t want to give Cesario the satisfaction of hearing him acquiesce.

Cesario says, ‘Now get out of my sight, the pair of you. Run this like you would run any other case, preferably without letting prejudice cloud your judgment.’

Doyle stands up and heads for the door. LeBlanc is right behind him. As soon as they get back into the squadroom, LeBlanc starts up.

‘Cal, you got a few minutes for me? We need to talk.’

Doyle doesn’t want to talk. After the verbal assassination he’s just been through in Cesario’s office, talking is the last thing on his agenda. He heads toward where his coat is hanging on a rack, still drying off.

‘Cal, are you listening to me? I said we need to discuss this.’

Doyle glances at Schneider, who has tipped his chair back on two legs. His arms are behind his head and there’s a stupid smirk on his ugly mug. Doyle wishes like hell for those chair legs to snap.

He grabs his coat and starts to put it on as he heads out the door.

LeBlanc calls after him. ‘Where the hell are you going? Why are you doing this, man?’

And then Doyle stops listening. He doesn’t want to debate and he doesn’t want to listen.

He just wants to act.

Proust is at work when Doyle gets there. A shirtless guy is having a mermaid tattooed on his upper arm. He’s big, but it’s mostly flab. Doyle walks across the room and casts his shadow over Proust.

‘We need to talk. In private.’

The bare-chested client nudges Doyle’s arm with the back of his hand.

‘Hey, asshole. We’re busy. Come back another time.’

Doyle gives the man his best look of disdain, then turns again to Proust.

‘Let’s go out back.’

Another nudge, harder this time. ‘You deaf or just stupid? I said come back later.’

Doyle looks at the man again. ‘You touch me one more time and I’ll break every finger on your hand. And then I’m gonna take that tattoo gun and write “Nil by Mouth” across your forehead. Might help you shift some of that ugly fat you’re carrying.’

‘Right, that’s it! You fucking piece of shit.’

Incensed, the man starts to shift his bulk. His pallid flesh quivers as he struggles to raise himself from the reclined chair.

Doyle puts his left hand around the man’s throat and forces him back into the chair. His right hand whips out his detective shield and suspends it two inches in front of the man’s nose.

‘Don’t get yourself so worked up, fatso. You’ll give yourself a heart attack. At the very least you’ll get your ass kicked before I throw you in the slammer.’

‘You didn’t say you was a cop.’

‘Yeah, well, think of it as a test of your social skills. You got a failing grade, by the way. Now do you wanna stay and appeal the decision, or do you wanna go get a coffee for ten minutes while I talk to Michelangelo here?’

‘I, uhm, I could do with a beer.’

‘Sure you could. There’s a good bar on the corner of this block. They don’t even have an anti-obesity policy. Take your time.’

Doyle releases his grip, then helps the man out of the chair. He waits until the man has dressed and left the building before he turns his burning gaze on Proust.

Proust backs away a little, cowering just as he did on their previous encounter.

‘Cut the act, Stanley. There’s nobody else here to see it.’

‘What act? I’m not acting, man. You’re here to scare me. You wanna hurt me.’

‘I’m not here to hurt you. Not this time. I’m here to warn you.’

‘W-warn me about what?’

‘It’s not gonna work, Stan. Calling up my boss. Putting in complaints about me. All you’ve done is made me mad. It ain’t gonna stop me coming after you. In fact, you’ve just started a whole new ball game. From now on, I only come here alone. No partner to see what I might do to you. And that way, I can deny I was ever here. You haven’t made yourself safe, Stan. You’ve made it a hundred times worse for yourself. Think about that before you try to jam me up again.’

Proust shrinks back against the counter. ‘I don’t understand. Why are you doing this to me? I didn’t touch those girls. I never even met them. You’ve got it all wrong about me.’

Doyle steps forward. Gets right in Proust’s face. So close he can smell the onions he must have had on his sandwich.

‘It’s just you and me now, Stanley. Nobody can save you. Start being afraid.’

Doyle stands there for a while. Allowing time for this moment, this threat, this promise, to burn itself into Proust’s consciousness.

When he finally turns and leaves, he feels himself trembling. He runs through the rain and gets into the car. He looks at his hands. They’re shaking, and he has to grip the steering wheel tightly to stop them.

He wonders what he’s becoming.

SEVEN

Why won’t they listen?

He’s right. About Proust. But nobody will listen. Just as nobody listened last time either. Jesus, what is wrong with these people?

The first forty-eight hours after a killing are crucial to the solving of the case. If you get nowhere in that time, chances are you’ll get nowhere period. Over half of that time has already elapsed. Try as he might to stay calm and allow the wheels of the investigation to grind on, Doyle can’t suppress the feeling that the Department is giving Proust space to slip out of the net. Ordering Doyle to back off is the exact opposite of what they should be doing, and it frustrates him that he doesn’t know a way to make them reconsider.

In his uptight state, he pulls into the parking space too quickly. Has to slam on the brakes to stop the vehicle from jumping the curb and mangling a street lamp. He feels his blood boiling in his veins as he gets out of the car. When the rain hits his skin he expects it to sizzle and burn off as steam.

And that’s another thing: this damned rain. When will it ease off? Maybe if it could give these other cops a chance to think in peace and quiet, they’d realize he needs to be listened to.

He ducks his head and jogs into the station house, sick of being constantly wet. He gets a nod from a uniform. He ignores it. The desk sergeant mutters something to him. He ignores that too. If it’s something trivial, then he doesn’t need to know; if it’s something important, he doesn’t want to be troubled by it. He’s got enough on his plate already.

He pounds up the stairs, heading for the squadroom. He’s not sure what he’ll do when he gets there. He is supposed to work the Megan Hamlyn case. That’s his top priority. Except he can’t work it the way he wants to work it, because nobody in this place wants to open their fucking ears and listen to what he has to say.

On the stairs he bumps into LeBlanc coming the other way. LeBlanc puts an arm out, gesturing for him to hold up.

‘Hey, Cal. Where’d you get to?’

Doyle keeps moving. ‘Not now, Tommy.’

LeBlanc puts a hand on Doyle’s arm, not knowing that another man has just been threatened with having his fingers broken for doing a similar thing.

‘Cal, we need to talk about this.’

‘No. We don’t.’

He pulls away from LeBlanc’s grasp and continues up the stairs.

‘Damn it,’ says LeBlanc. ‘I saved your ass with the boss today. I coulda told him what you did to Proust, but I didn’t. You know why? Because you’re my partner. Like it or not, we’re partners on this case. So how about you start treating me like one?’

Doyle pauses on the stairs, his back to LeBlanc. Thinking about the preconceptions. LeBlanc’s, but maybe his own too.

Slowly, he turns. ‘You wanna know what it’s about? I’ll show you.’

He continues up to the second floor, LeBlanc almost scraping his heels. He looks into an office normally occupied by one of the PAAs — the Police Administrative Aides — and finds it empty.

‘In there,’ he says to LeBlanc. ‘I’ll be right back.’

While the bemused LeBlanc enters the office, Doyle continues down the hall and into the squadroom. Ignoring the stares from Schneider, he goes to his desk, grabs one of the folders from its surface, then retraces his steps to join LeBlanc. In the office, he closes the door behind him.

LeBlanc says, ‘What’s with all the cloak-and-dagger stuff?’

Doyle doesn’t respond. He sits at the PAA’s desk, opens up the folder, and takes out a DVD. He presses a button on the computer in front of him. A tongue of black plastic slides out, and Doyle feeds it the disk and watches it swallow.

LeBlanc leans forward to get a better look at the screen. ‘What is this, Cal?’

Doyle mouse-clicks the play button. ‘Watch.’

The movie starts up. There are no opening credits. We go straight into the action, and boy, does it grab you by the throat. This is one to make you pause with the handful of popcorn on its way to your mouth.

Opening scene — what looks like a basement. Sparsely furnished. Plaster peeling off the walls. No carpet on the floor. In the center of the room, a crude platform fashioned from two wooden doors set atop a number of plastic crates. On the platform, a naked girl, face down. She is anchored to this dais with ropes on her wrists and ankles. There is no sound to this movie, but it is clear that the girl is crying, that she is in agony. Her body carries marks all over it. It’s hard to tell what they are or what caused them. Here and there, rivulets of blood trickle down her skin.

A man steps into view. He is visible only from the waist down, and it seems that he is wearing only tight leather shorts, which would be comical if the subject matter were not so serious. His legs are stout and hairy.

And he is carrying a bullwhip. And it is only seconds later that he is raising his arm out of view and bringing that whip down again. Slicing it through the air. Firing its tip at supersonic speed into the flesh of the young woman. There is no eroticism here. No soft spanking with a leather thong. This is sheer sadism, acted out on an unwilling participant. A victim, no less. When the tip of this whip strikes, it does so with ferocity. It opens up her flesh. It gouges out chunks. Her face pleads for mercy. She receives none.

Fade to black. No end credits. See you at the Oscars.

Except that this isn’t acting. This ain’t Tinseltown. Doyle knows it, and he can tell that LeBlanc knows it too.

‘Jesus,’ says LeBlanc. ‘What the fuck was that?’

‘A home movie. Or at least part of one. It was found on the hard drive of a scumbag who got arrested on porn charges. He said he found it on the Internet.’

‘Okaaay,’ says LeBlanc. ‘And this is relevant how?’

Doyle grabs the mouse and manipulates a slider on the screen to rewind the video a few frames. He’s not good with computers, but this he can manage. He’s done it enough times. He must have studied every frame of this clip.

‘Tell me what you see.’

LeBlanc leans forward again and pushes his spectacles up his nose.

‘A guy. A girl. The guy is torturing the girl. That’s it. Cecil B. DeMille it ain’t.’

‘Closer. The detail.’

A pause while Doyle waits for LeBlanc to get it. And then he gets it.

‘Tattoos. On the girl and the man. Is that it? The tattoos?’

On the frozen image, a blotch of color is just visible on the girl’s shoulder. It’s almost lost amongst the wounds there. The man’s tattoo, on the back of his lower leg, is more obvious. For one thing, it’s darker, but on this grainy picture it’s still just a blob.

LeBlanc says, ‘I don’t get it. That’s not Megan Hamlyn, and that’s not Proust. They’re just two people with tattoos. What are you telling me here, Cal?’

Doyle swivels the chair to face LeBlanc. ‘Six months before I came to the Eighth, I caught a homicide. A floater in the Hudson.’

He opens up the folder, extracts a large photograph and passes it to LeBlanc. The photo shows the body of a young woman. She is naked. Her body is bloated and mottled, but the numerous injuries it carries are still evident. And, on her shoulder, what looks like a tattoo.

LeBlanc studies the picture, then switches his gaze back and forth between it and the computer screen.

‘Looks like her.’

‘It is her,’ says Doyle. ‘The wounds and the position of the tattoo match up exactly. And before you ask, that’s not just my opinion. It’s also the opinion of a Medical Examiner and an expert in image-comparison techniques.’

‘Okay, so it’s the same girl. Who is she?’

‘Name’s Alyssa Palmer. She disappeared just over a week before she turned up in the river. She was seventeen. Her friends told me she was obsessed with the idea of getting a tattoo, but that her parents wouldn’t let her have one until she was old enough. The day before she went missing she told her best pal that she thought she’d found someone who would do the tattoo for her.’

LeBlanc looks up. ‘And she named Proust?’

Doyle doesn’t answer, because his answer isn’t the one he wishes he could give.

He slides another photograph from the folder and hands it over. ‘This is a close-up of the tattoo.’

LeBlanc studies it. It’s a red-winged butterfly, hovering over a flower. Delicate curling fronds from the plant intertwine above the insect.

‘Nice,’ says LeBlanc. ‘You trace it to Proust?’

Again, another negative that Doyle doesn’t want to voice. ‘We talked to every tattoo artist in the city. A couple of them said it looked like it could be Proust’s work.’

LeBlanc nods. Says, ‘Uh-huh.’ Makes it pretty damn obvious that he doesn’t think it’s a lot to go on. Which, Doyle has to admit, it isn’t.

‘And the other tattoo? The one on the guy’s leg?’

Doyle gives him the next photograph in the sequence. ‘Best we could get.’

It’s a magnified view of the guy’s calf. Unlike blow-ups you see done in TV programs, which magically supply absent detail, this one is highly pixelated. The tattoo consists of a black symbol containing a blurred white smudge at its center.

‘That’s the ace of spades,’ says LeBlanc. He taps the photograph. ‘What’s this in the middle?’

‘We think it could be a skull and crossbones,’ says Doyle, using a plural rather than the more accurate singular pronoun. He watches as LeBlanc squints at the image and makes no attempt to confirm that he sees the piratical symbol too. Doyle wants to snatch the picture back from him and tell him to forget it if that’s going to be his attitude.

Then LeBlanc compounds his error. ‘What makes you think that?’

‘Because. .’ Doyle begins in a louder than necessary voice. He softens it again. Tries to find some patience for the inexperienced young cop. ‘Because Proust has done a number of tattoos of the ace of spades with a skull and crossbones in the middle. They’re in his books. Okay?’

He glares at LeBlanc, daring him to make further challenges. Keeping suppressed deep within him his knowledge that there is a lot to challenge.

Heedless of the danger, LeBlanc presses on. ‘Hold up. What am I missing here? You have one tattoo that a coupla people say could have been put there by Proust. And you have this other tattoo that might possibly be similar to some others that Proust has done. And this is why you like Proust for two murders?’

And now Doyle does snatch the photograph back. He grabs it back so fast he hopes he gives LeBlanc a paper cut.

‘No. Did you hear me say this was everything?’

‘So, then, what? You pin some forensic evidence on him? Maybe locate the basement in the video?’

None of the above, thinks Doyle. Oh, what he would give for something as concrete as that. And oh, how lame it sounds when his answer leaves his lips:

‘I talked to the guy.’

LeBlanc moves quickly on to his next question, but Doyle sees the irritating flash of disbelief on his face before he does.

‘Proust? What did he say?’

‘He denied everything.’

Thinks Doyle, You just go ahead and say, ‘Okaaay,’ in that long, doubting way again.

‘Ah,’ says LeBlanc. Which is almost as bad. ‘But you caught him out on something. Right?’

Now he’s being patronizing, thinks Doyle. Throwing me a line like that.

‘I told you. I talked to him. I spent hours with that sonofabitch. He did it. I could smell it on him. He killed Alyssa Palmer. And now he’s killed Megan Hamlyn.’

Which, to Doyle, should be an end to it. LeBlanc should shut up now and bow to the wisdom of his older, more experienced partner, and leave it at that.

But he doesn’t.

‘What exactly did Proust do or say? How do you know all this about him?’

Doyle stuffs the photographs back into his folder, then presses the eject button to retrieve his DVD. He gets the computer’s tongue again, the disk still sitting there like a pill it refuses to take.

‘He didn’t exactly do or say anything. It’s a feeling, Tommy. I know this guy. I know what he is. I know what he did.’

LeBlanc thinks about this for a moment. ‘We can’t work on hunches, Cal. We need something more.’

Doyle stands up. ‘For fuck’s sake, do you think I don’t know that? I’m sick of everyone in this damn squad telling me how to work this case. You do what you want, Tommy. I’m going after Proust.’

LeBlanc gets up. ‘Cal, I didn’t mean-’

But Doyle is already out the door. LeBlanc wanted an explanation, and now he’s got it. If he doesn’t like it, he can shove it.

Doyle is getting used to working alone. Even when he has a partner.

EIGHT

This should be an oasis of calm. Here, at home. With his wife. In their beautiful apartment in the Upper West Side.

But it isn’t. He knows how tense he is. Everything he says or does seems loaded with pent-up energy. Earlier, when he tripped on the corner of a rug, he felt compelled to kick the damn thing across the room. And when he went to sit at the table and found that the leg of his chair was caught up in one of the other chairs, he almost turned the whole set of furniture upside down in an effort to get himself seated.

He wonders if he’s going through a mid-life crisis. If he is, then he’s going to have a short life. It should be way too early for one of those.

Maybe he’s hormonal. A problem with his thyroid or whatever. It’s playing havoc with his system. Yeah, that’s it. He’s ill. He can’t be blamed for the way he’s been acting lately. People need to be more understanding.

He’s not ill.

He’s obsessed. Which, he realizes, could also be classed as a form of illness. Except that he’s obsessed for the right reasons. His obsession is justifiable. He’s not some kind of irrational stalker. He just wants to put a killer behind bars. Is that so weird?

Rachel comes out of the kitchen, carrying his meal in an oven mitt. Note to self, he thinks: don’t touch the plate.

She sets it down in front of him. Some kind of pink fish. He has a love-hate relationship with fish. He loves the taste, but hates picking out the bones. He can’t bear to have even those flimsy little bones in his mouth. Rachel never seems to notice them. She just swallows them. Doyle doesn’t understand how she can do that.

He turns the plate.

‘Shit!’

‘It’s hot,’ says Rachel. She holds up the oven mitt for emphasis.

So much for my fucking mental notepad, he thinks. When was that — all of five seconds ago? The fish on this plate probably had a better memory than mine.

He picks up his knife and fork. It’s supposed to be a fillet. Maybe it won’t have bones.

Rachel removes the mitt and sits at the table. She tucks some wisps of her dark hair behind her ears, then puts her chin on her hand and waits for him to start eating.

He cuts into the fish. Pulls a piece away. Sees the bones spring into view like the prickles of an agitated hedgehog.

He wants to sigh.

‘How’s the case going?’ asks Rachel.

He’s told her about it. On the phone this afternoon. He let her know he would be home late, and he let her know the reason. Didn’t give her all the details, though. Nothing about Proust, for example.

‘Okay,’ he says. Which is giving her nothing. It’s a shitty response. He knows it, and yet he can’t help it.

He leaves the fish alone and takes up a forkful of potato instead.

‘Did you identify the girl?’

He nods while he chews. ‘Yeah. Her name was Megan Hamlyn. She lived out in Queens. She was only sixteen.’

He thinks, There, see? You can do it. You can have a proper conversation.

‘Oh, God,’ says Rachel. ‘Sixteen. That’s so young.’

She lapses into silence for a while as she contemplates this. Then: ‘You got anything to go on?’

‘A few things. We’ll get him.’

She waits for more. Doesn’t get it.

‘Is that just you giving yourself a pep talk, or do you actually have something concrete?’

He ventures another assault on the fish. Tries teasing out those menacing white barbs. He just knows he’s not going to get them all. One of the little bastards always manages to bury itself deep. It’ll lurk, just waiting for its chance to jump out and impale itself in his cheek or, even worse, lodge in his throat. Why do fish need so many damn bones anyway?

‘We’re close,’ he says.

‘Well, how close? You know who did this? You know where they are? What?’

The answers are in the affirmative. Yes, he knows who did this, and yes, he knows where he is. But if he tells Rachel what he knows, then she’ll go all negative on him. She’ll tell him to back off. She’ll remind him of how it went last time. And he can do without that right now.

‘Rachel, can we change the subject, please?’

He waits for her to snap at him, which she has every right to do. But she doesn’t snap. She sits there, more calmly and patiently than he deserves.

‘How’s the fish?’ she asks, which is certainly a change of subject. Makes him feel guilty, though. He knows she really wants to talk about big, weighty matters, but he has diluted her conversation to the point of dealing with trivia.

‘Bony,’ he says, and then wonders if he has a death wish. He should have said the fish was fine, even though it isn’t. Instead, he has to go and mix it up. That’s the sort of self-destructive mood he’s in today.

Rachel leans across and peers at his dinner. ‘They’re not bones.’

He jabs at his food with his fork. ‘Look.’

‘What, those puny little things? You make it sound like the dinosaur exhibit in the Natural History Museum. You won’t even notice them.’

He begs to differ. He already has noticed them. And if he allows them into his mouth he will notice them even more. But for once he makes the right decision and keeps his objections to himself. Time for another change of topic. Who’d have thought a fish dinner could be the cause of such friction? Bones of contention, if you will.

‘How’s Amy?’

‘Oh, she’s all right.’

Even in his distracted state of mind, Rachel’s tone is not lost on him. It’s a tone that says, Well, actually, she’s not so great.

‘Something happen today?’

‘Yeah. I yelled at her.’

Her voice is tinged with regret, and Doyle blinks in surprise. Rachel almost never loses her temper with Amy.

‘You yelled at her? Why?’

‘She had some things. In her schoolbag. Things that don’t belong to her.’

‘What kind of things?’

‘Pens, erasers, rulers — that kind of thing. I think they belong to the school.’

‘Did you ask her about them?’

‘Of course I did. I sat her down and I asked her. I gave her every opportunity to explain how they got there.’

‘And what did she say?’

‘She said she didn’t know they were even in her bag. Said she’d never seen them before.’

‘Okay, so maybe somebody else put them there.’

Rachel shakes her head. ‘No. She wasn’t telling the truth, Cal. Amy’s a terrible liar.’

Doyle puts down his fork. ‘Rachel, have you heard yourself? You’re calling our daughter a liar and a thief. How can you say such-’

‘I didn’t say she was a thief. I said she knows more about this than she’s saying. And I’d like you to back me up on this, please.’

‘Back you up how?’

‘By talking to her. By asking her how she got hold of that stuff.’

‘She’s seven years old, Rachel. She’s not a criminal mastermind. She doesn’t need me giving her the third degree over some little mistake she’s made.’

‘She’s old enough to know right from wrong, Cal. And when she gets confused over that, it’s up to us to set her straight.’

‘Okay, tell you what — why don’t I haul her into the station house and take her fingerprints and stick her in the cells? You think that’ll teach her?’

Rachel slumps back in her chair, her mouth working like she doesn’t know what sounds to make with it next.

‘Why are you being like this? I’m asking you to have a quiet word with her. Father to daughter. It doesn’t have to be a confrontation. I just want you to-’

‘There’s no evidence, Rachel. She says she’s done nothing wrong, so I think we should believe her. I can’t go accusing her just because-’

He stops then. Stops because he realizes things are getting all jumbled up in his head. He’s talking to Rachel about Amy, but in his mind he’s working on the murder case. He’s saying things that Rachel would probably say to him if he told her how he was going after Proust. That’s how much of a hold Proust has on him. He knows things won’t be normal again until he nails that sonofabitch.

He pushes his chair back and stands up. ‘I gotta go out.’

Rachel stares at him. ‘What do you mean? Why do you need to go out all of a sudden?’

‘I just do. Something I forgot to do on the case.’

‘And now it comes to you? Right in the middle of your dinner? Right when we’re having a conversation about something important like this?’

‘I won’t be long,’ he says.

He starts to head out of the room. Behind him he hears Rachel muttering something about how he should eat more fish because it might do his stupid brain some good.

The rain has subsided to a light drizzle. Doyle is glad, because it will make it easier to see. To make doubly sure, he winds down the window of his car. Then he kills the engine. Then he waits.

It’s not the same, he tells himself. Proust and Amy. Two totally different kettles of fish — there we go with the fish again. Amy has made an innocent mistake of some kind. No big deal. It’ll be cleared up in no time.

Proust, on the other hand. .

See, you had to be there. You had to be the one who spent hours talking to Proust. Getting into his head. Getting to know how his mind works. Getting to understand how an apparently normal guy could commit such a heinous act. Explaining this to other people doesn’t cut it. You can tell people what you believe as many times as you like, but they’re never going to be convinced. Not without further proof.

And, if he’s to be honest, why should they accept his word? Would he act any differently if it were another cop laying down conclusions like this?

But they weren’t there. They didn’t see.

They didn’t see the bloated naked body of Alyssa Palmer, draped over the river-washed rocks below the Henry Hudson Parkway. They didn’t see the heart-splitting expressions on the faces of Alyssa’s parents when he had to inform them that their daughter had been found. Dead. Tortured. Raped. And they didn’t see the coldness in Proust’s eyes when confronted with these facts, these images. When Proust looked down at the photo of Alyssa, there was no recoil — not even a grimace or an out-breath of sorrow. Doyle knew then that this was his man.

But how do you explain all that to someone? How do you tell them it was all there, in the man’s eyes, his body language, his lack of emotion? How do you convince them without more concrete evidence?

They looked for it. Of course they looked. They must have talked to every tattoo artist in the city. Only one of them felt right, and that was Stanley Proust. An artist extraordinaire, all right. But no matter how hard they looked, they found nothing to prove Alyssa had ever visited Proust. They found nothing to suggest that Proust was into the S amp;M scene. They found nothing to substantiate Doyle’s opinion that this seemingly mild-mannered individual was in fact a deranged homicidal maniac.

The most disturbing and yet exhilarating piece of evidence that landed in their laps was the Internet video. But even that fizzled into nothing. Other than the presence of some blurry tattoos, it provided no connection to Proust. They never even located the basement in which it was filmed.

But it did play a more unexpected role.

Doyle remembers it vividly. He’d pushed and pushed at Proust, but had gotten nowhere. Despite being warned by his superiors to cool it with Proust, he continued to hammer on the man’s consciousness.

‘Take a look, Stan. Look at the photos. Look at what you did.’

‘I didn’t do nothing. That wasn’t me. I didn’t make that video.’

And then the pause. The long pause while Doyle and Proust stared at each other, the truth suspended between them.

‘Who said anything about a video, Stan? And who suggested you were the one who made it?’ He tried to backtrack then, of course.

‘You did. You said these were stills taken from a video.’

‘No, Stan. I never said that. Why would you think it was a video?’

‘Well, somebody said it. One of the other cops, maybe.’

‘No, Stan. That came from you. You just put yourself behind the camera too.’

‘No, I. . you’re putting words in my mouth. You’re twisting things. I never meant. .’

‘You were there, weren’t you, Stan? You did things to this girl. Maybe not all of it, but some of it. Tell me, Stan.’

‘No. NO!’

That was the closest he got. Proust’s biggest slip. Doyle pursued it, of course. As doggedly as he could. But Proust got a lot more tight-lipped after that. Stuck to his story that somebody must have mentioned a video to him.

And he walked. To Doyle’s fury, Proust walked away a free man.

He wonders now why he didn’t mention this episode to LeBlanc, but doesn’t have to wait long for the answer to come to him.

He was frightened.

He was scared that LeBlanc, cynical young pup that he is, would have ripped any meaningful content of that conversation to shreds. He would have refused to interpret it as the undeniable proof of Proust’s guilt that it so obviously is.

Because it is proof, thinks Doyle. You don’t understand, Tommy, because you weren’t there. None of you understands.

The Alyssa Palmer case would have continued to haunt Doyle anyway, but fate decided to lend her ghost a helping hand. Following the fireworks surrounding the death in service of his female partner, Doyle transferred to the Eighth Precinct. For which the station house is situated just a few blocks from Proust’s place. Doyle has driven or walked past it countless times since then, and every time the sight of it has taunted him. Each time, it reminds him of how he failed the Palmers.

And now the gods have decided to ratchet up Doyle’s torment further by making him relive the nightmare all over again. The circumstances of Megan Hamlyn’s case are almost identical to those in the Palmer case. The young dead teenage girl. The griefstricken parents. The untouchable Mr Proust. Identical except for one thing, thinks Doyle. This time the outcome will be different. This time, Stanley, you pay for what you did.

He looks out of the half-open car window. Cool rain spits into his face as his eyes read and re-read the sign.

Skinterest.

An interest in skin. An interest in flesh. You got that all right, Stan. Young, innocent skin that you put your mark on. A permanent mark. You mark them for life. You mark them for death.

Movement catches his eye. From inside the shop. A huge shadow, gradually shrinking as its owner gets closer to the door. And Doyle is parked right in front of that door.

The shadow is replaced by solidity. The scrawny frame of Stanley Proust, standing behind the glass panel.

Doyle hears a key being inserted and turned, then the sound of bolts being drawn.

That’s when Doyle switches on the interior light of his car.

Proust stops moving for a second. Then Doyle sees him press his nose against the rain-spotted panel as he peers out.

Doyle doesn’t do a thing. Just sits there and stares back. Lets Proust know that this is how it’s going to be from now on. Lets him know that this is what he’s prepared to do, for as long as it takes. He will stay on Proust’s back until the man can take the weight no more and he buckles. He will break him. He will do this for Alyssa Palmer and for Megan Hamlyn and for their families. He promises all this in the intense stare that he sends Proust’s way.

Slowly, with trepidation, Proust reaches up and lowers the roller blind into position.

NINE

‘I wasn’t trying to give you grief, Cal. Okay? I want you to know that.’

Doyle has only just sat down at his desk. Hasn’t even touched his first coffee of the day yet, and already LeBlanc is jabbering in his ear. Which would be okay if it was something valuable, like letting Doyle know he’s just managed to nail Proust with a murder rap. This touchy-feely stuff he can do without right now.

‘Forget it, Tommy.’

LeBlanc looks around the squadroom, as if checking for eavesdroppers, even though nobody else on their shift has arrived yet.

‘I don’t want to forget it. I want this to work between us. If you think Proust has something to do with this, then that’s good enough for me.’

Doyle puts down his coffee mug. ‘Meaning what?’

‘Meaning that. . I’ll talk to him.’

‘You’ll talk to Proust?’

‘Yeah. Sure. If you think he’s involved. But even if he isn’t, maybe he can give me something useful on the tattoos. Like maybe suggest some other artists I could talk to.’

Doyle wants to tell LeBlanc he’s wasting his time. He will get nothing from Proust. In fact, Proust will have LeBlanc eating out of his hand, he’s that clever.

Well, let him find out for himself.

‘Yeah, maybe. You do that, Tommy.’

LeBlanc nods, but still lingers at Doyle’s shoulder.

‘’Course, I can’t take you with me. Much as I’d like to. You heard what the boss said.’

‘I heard him. Don’t worry about me. You go ahead. Knock yourself out.’

Tommy nods some more, and seems to Doyle to be relieved at having cleared the air like this.

‘What about you? What are you going to do this morning?’

‘Me? I thought I’d drive over to Queens and talk to the Hamlyns again.’

Yet more nodding. LeBlanc no doubt even more relieved that Doyle is not planning to get into trouble. Seemingly satisfied, LeBlanc sidles back to his own desk.

A half-hour later, Doyle leaves the station house and gets into his car. As he said to LeBlanc, he’s off to see the Hamlyns.

Via a quick stop-off at Proust’s place.

He starts the car up and pulls his sedan out into the traffic of East Seventh Street.

He doesn’t see the black Dodge SUV as it also pulls out and starts to follow him.

‘Hi, Stan.’

Proust continues with the job of cleaning his counter. He sprays some fluid onto it, then wipes it down with a cloth.

‘What’s the matter, Stan?’ says Doyle. ‘Not speaking to me today?’

Proust says nothing. He just carries on with his task. Spray and wipe, spray and wipe.

Doyle moves away from the door and crosses the room. He wipes a finger along the counter and looks at it.

‘Seems pretty clean to me. Don’t you think?’

Proust maintains his silence. He sprays the area of the counter that Doyle has just touched, then rubs it vigorously with the cloth.

Doyle cups a hand behind his ear. ‘What was that, Stan? I don’t think I heard you.’

Proust doesn’t look up, but he does find his voice. ‘Hygiene is important in my work. Everything has to be ultra-clean.’

‘Ultra-clean, huh? I see. Ultra-clean. No fingermarks. No bodily fluids. No DNA of any kind. You musta got pretty good at that over time.’

‘I don’t know what you mean.’

‘Yeah, you do. I’m talking about contamination, Stan. Making sure you don’t leave anything behind. Like you were never there.’

Proust goes quiet again, so Doyle picks up where he left off.

‘Except that’s not totally true, is it, Stan? You do leave a mark. A permanent mark. A piece of yourself that will never disappear.’

Doyle takes a photograph from his inside pocket and slides it under Proust’s nose. It’s a picture of Megan Hamlyn’s detached pelvic section.

‘Oh, Jesus Christ,’ says Proust. He drops the cloth and puts his hand to his mouth.

‘Yeah, yeah. Get the amateur dramatics outta the way, Stan. It’s not like this is news to you. You’ve seen it before.’

Proust turns his head and closes his eyes. ‘Take it away, man. Please. I think I’m gonna be sick.’

‘Shut up, Stan, and look at the picture.’

Proust shakes his head, his hand still clamped over his mouth.

Doyle reaches out and grabs hold of Proust’s hair. Ignoring the yells, he twists Proust’s head and forces it back down to the photograph.

‘What do you see?’

‘Part of a body. Please, Detective, stop.’

‘What else? On the body?’

‘A. . a tattoo.’

With his free hand, Doyle reaches into his pocket again and takes out another photograph. He drops it on top of the first. It shows the blow-up of the tattoo.

‘Yeah. This tattoo. Recognize it, Stan?’

‘N-no. I didn’t do that. It’s not my work.’

‘It’s a damn good angel, Stan. I bet there aren’t many artists in this city can do angels as good as that. You could, though, couldn’t you?’

‘It’s not my work.’

‘That’s what you said about the butterfly on Alyssa Palmer. Other people disagreed. They said it looked very much like your work.’

‘They were wrong. Look through my books. There’s nothing like either of those in there.’

‘’Course not. You’re not stupid. Why would you do a tattoo that’s exactly like any you did before? I bet you even changed your style a little, just so nobody could say it was definitely yours. But we know, don’t we, Stan? You and me, we know what really happened.’

‘Please, you’re hurting me.’

Doyle realizes just how tight his grip has become. When he removes his hand and opens his fingers, he sees it contains a number of Proust’s hairs.

Proust straightens up. He touches a hand to the top of his head.

‘You didn’t have to do that. I told you. I don’t know how many times I have to tell you before you’ll believe me. I didn’t hurt either of those girls. It wasn’t me.’

‘Say it as many times as you like. Don’t make it true. You want me to start believing you, then start telling me what really happened with those girls. I want answers. The girls’ families want answers. You wanna talk to them? You wanna tell them how you don’t know anything? Maybe I should arrange that. You wouldn’t believe how badly Megan’s father would like to have a private little chat with you about his daughter.’

‘You can’t do that. You can’t endanger me like that.’

‘Answers, Stan. Until I get them, I stay in your life. See you later. I ain’t sure what time yet. Don’t wait up. It could be late the next time I show up here.’

When Doyle leaves, he slams the door shut behind him. The rain has started up again, and it’s getting heavier.

‘Shit!’ he says, and steps onto the street.

Despite what he said to Proust, he’s not sure how long he can keep this up. The anger and the frustration are eating him up inside. It’s a question of who will break first, and he’s not sure it will be Proust.

He thinks about this as he hurries along the block to where his car is parked.

It keeps him distracted from the man who comes up behind him and presses the muzzle of a gun into his spine.

‘Don’t make a scene. I haven’t shot a cop in a while. I could do with the practice.’

The voice is deep and gruff and menacing. Doyle knows that any sudden move could carry the danger that his spine gets blasted in two, leaving him permanently paralyzed from the waist down. It would be a stupid, insane thing to do.

So he does it, knowing that it will be the last thing the man behind him will expect.

He whirls around, simultaneously chopping his arm into the gun hand of the man. The huge semi-automatic flies out of the man’s grasp, while Doyle completes his maneuver with one of the most powerful punches it has ever been his satisfaction to deliver. The man pulls his head back just in time to avoid having it removed from his neck, but the blow still lands on his chin, sending him reeling backward across the sidewalk.

In that instant, Doyle is back in the boxing ring of his youth. Not long after he was dragged all the way from Ireland to the Bronx and started getting into scrapes with those who saw this pasty-faced kid with an impenetrable accent as an obvious target, his mother decided that the best substitute for his absent father to advise him how to deal with such matters was a boxing coach. Turned out Doyle was a natural. He got stronger, he got faster, and he learned technique. But most of all he learned not to fear his adversary, no matter how big or ferocious he might be.

He puts all that training to good use now. He doesn’t know who this prick is. He just knows he wants to pound the crap out of him.

And so he goes after him. Doesn’t pause to give the man a chance to recover. Doesn’t even waste time trying to pull his own gun. That can wait until this piece of shit hits the ground.

He lands another punch. A good solid strike that bursts open the man’s lip. He pulls back his left for an uppercut that should finish this. .

Which is when something hard and heavy smacks into the side of Doyle’s head.

He turns, sees another burly figure in front of him. It comes as something of a surprise. You don’t normally have more than one opponent in the ring. Queensberry Rules and all that.

Doyle raises his defenses. Ignores the pain in his skull. Ignores the fact that he’s now outnumbered by two to one.

Another blow, this time to the back of his head.

Make that three to one.

Doyle topples forward. He puts his arms out before he hits the ground, then remains there on his knees, trying to shake the dark swirling shapes out of his brain as the rain rolls over his back and down his arms.

He feels strong hands grip him and yank him to his feet. The two new attackers drag him back across the sidewalk and slam him against the side of his own car. They stay on either side of him, pinning him in position with his arms wide like a scarecrow. Doyle blinks. He sees the first guy come staggering toward him with murderous intent in his eyes. There’s not much Doyle can do to prevent the beating he’s about to receive.

Other than to kick the man in the nuts, that is.

He drives his foot with unerring accuracy into the man’s groin. The force of the impact is magnified by the man’s own forward momentum. He comes to an abrupt halt as though he has just run into a brick wall — which would probably be less painful — then clutches at his privates as he drops heavily to the ground. Doyle sees tears well in the man’s eyes before he bows to touch his forehead to the wet sidewalk like a praying monk.

One down, two to go, thinks Doyle. Although he starts to acknowledge that’s a little ambitious when the other two gorillas start smashing their fists into his midriff. He hears his own breath being forced out of him as the men pummel his ribcage and pulverize his abdominal wall. And when they’ve run out of steam and they allow their captive to sink to his knees, Doyle notices that the first attacker is back on his feet. He approaches warily and shakily, and Doyle prepares himself for the coup de grâce.

Raising his face, Doyle looks at the man, who is still clutching at his groin and baring his bloodstained teeth in agony.

‘That’s a terrible Michael Jackson impression,’ says Doyle.

Instead of a laugh, he gets a kick to the face. Doyle’s head flies back and bangs into his car door. The dark shapes flood into his consciousness again. They try to merge together to form total blackness, and Doyle has to fight to keep them separated.

He feels himself being dragged again, his feet scraping the ground. He hears a car door being opened. The hands frisk him and take away his gun. Then he feels himself being lifted from the ground and tossed into a vehicle. More doors open. The three goons climb in. Doors slam shut.

Doyle does his best to raise himself into an upright position in his seat. As the car takes off, he looks through the rain-washed window. The streets are mostly empty. Everyone has fled from the rain. The ones who are still out there stare back at him from beneath their umbrellas. One person points. Doyle knows that it’s unlikely they will report the incident.

Fighting the nausea that is starting to creep into his system, he starts to turn toward the man in the seat next to him. Stops turning when his temple touches the gun barrel leveled at him.

‘Gimme an excuse, dickwad,’ says the man.

‘Where are we going?’ Doyle asks. ‘Did Proust hire you?’

‘Who’s Proust?’ the man answers, and Doyle can tell he really doesn’t know. It was a long shot anyhow. Why would Proust risk organizing something like this, right outside his own premises?

No, somebody far more dangerous than Proust is behind this.

TEN

The conversation isn’t exactly sparkling during the journey. Doyle puts several questions, gets several stony glares in return. Oh, except that one time when one of the men tells him to shut the fuck up.

The guy sitting next to Doyle — the one who started all this with his offer of a free lumbar puncture — has white hair that contrasts starkly with the blood still dribbling from his lip. Not old-person white. Just white. And he’s not an albino either. Doyle wonders whether to ask him if he’s had an accident with bleach recently, but thinks better of it.

The other two bozos sitting up front are big and ugly and stupid. All muscle and no brain. It’s a wonder either of them has enough intelligence and coordination to drive.

But somehow they manage to transport Doyle across town without incident. He keeps an eye on the changing streets as he tries to work out where they’re taking him. The buildings around him become large brick-built warehouses, now mostly converted for use as bars and restaurants. Directly ahead, he sees the horizontal slash of the High Line — the elevated park that was once a section of the rail system. His stomach begins to churn.

His fears are confirmed when the SUV makes a sudden turn into a narrow alleyway. That’s when the sun comes out, if only figuratively. In reality, the rain clouds continue to piss on everyone. But at least Doyle now knows exactly where he is. Knows exactly whom he has been brought to see. Knows exactly why he’s here. Shoulda guessed, he thinks.

This is the meatpacking district — a tiny quadrilateral that once somehow managed to contain over two hundred slaughterhouses and packing plants. The smell of death is rarer here now.

But not always entirely absent.

Doyle has been here before. Last Christmas, to be precise. It wasn’t fun then, and it won’t be any more hilarious now.

When the men drag him out of the car and he stands on the slick cobblestones, looking up at the dark-brick building, it all comes flooding back. He remembers every detail of that night. He has never told anyone else about it. Not the police, not his wife.

He has never told them about how he shot and killed a man in this alley.

The man with the whiter-than-white hair steps up to a side door in the building, pulls out a bunch of keys, and opens up. His two associates take Doyle by the arms and lead him inside.

They move through a dim utility room, then through another door that opens into a vast empty chamber. Doyle has never seen it like this before. The last time he was here, the place was heaving with gyrating, sweaty bodies. The air was filled with a rhythmic pounding that shook his bones. Everyone stoned and happy and oblivious.

Now, though, the nightclub is as forlorn as an abandoned ship. The dance floor is deserted and marked with scuffs and numerous unidentifiable stains. The bar is unmanned, and black steel shutters have been lowered to keep out intruders. The walls are of bare brick — harsh and unwelcoming.

The footfalls of the men echo around the converted warehouse as Doyle is led over to an iron staircase. They start to climb, and the metallic clatter reverberates. They arrive at a walkway that runs the length of one wall. Doyle can still picture the half-naked female dancers that were positioned here on his last visit.

They don’t stop here, but continue up another staircase to the next level. Doyle is guided along the walkway to a door at its center. Whitey knocks three times and waits.

‘Maybe he’s in the shower,’ says Doyle. ‘Or busy jerking off.’

The man to Doyle’s left gives him a smack on the side of the head.

When the door is finally opened, another man-mountain comes into view. He’s even bigger and uglier than the three who were sent to collect Doyle. The kind of guy who should be holding a peeled banana in one hand while picking his nose with the other.

‘Would you like to buy some of our cookies?’ Doyle asks him. ‘Or chocolate brownies? You look like a chocolate brownie kind of guy.’

The man furrows his eyebrows slightly, like he’s smelled something unpleasant in his cave. Then he looks at Whitey, and a spark of recognition fires in the recesses of his brain. He pulls the door wide open and steps aside.

The men hustle Doyle into the room, and he feels his breathing become faster. It’s a large office. Wood floor and oak paneling on the walls. A massive oak desk in the center of the room. The air is cool — the building designed to prevent its carcasses from rotting when it was used to house animal corpses. That time was way before Doyle’s last visit here, but even in his own memory this is a place of violence and bloodshed. He will never forget what happened here in front of his eyes.

There are two things vying for Doyle’s attention here. One is an object covered by a gray tarpaulin. It stands over to Doyle’s left, like a life-size sculpture waiting to be unveiled. Doyle isn’t sure what’s under that tarpaulin, but he can make some guesses.

Then there’s the man seated at the desk. He wears a dark suit, no tie, shirt open at the collar. He is broad of shoulder, broad of head, and carries a broad smile. His name is Lucas Bartok. Despite his smile, he is not a pleasant man. In fact, as Doyle knows only too well, Lucas Bartok is the stuff of nightmares.

‘Doyle! Glad you decided to accept my invitation.’

Doyle shrugs, then jerks a thumb toward Whitey. ‘How could I refuse, with your boy here asking so nice? For a while I thought he was gonna get down on one knee and propose.’

‘Yeah, Sven’s a charmer, all right.’

Doyle turns to the man with the snowy hair. ‘Sven, huh? And what part of Ireland are you from? Maybe I know your folks.’

Sven just glares back at him, possibly because he’s not sure if Doyle’s question is serious or not. Possibly because he doesn’t give a shit and just wants to tear Doyle’s limbs off.

Bartok says, ‘Looks like you didn’t fall for him right away, though, Doyle. That’s some whack you took to the cheek there.’

‘I’ll take your word for it. I can’t look at it without a mirror. Makes my eyes go funny.’

Doyle waits for everyone to tense, and he gets it. He gets it because he just broke the cardinal rule. The one which says: Don’t make fun of Lucas Bartok’s eyes.

Lucas Bartok is cross-eyed. And we’re not just talking a mild squint here. Not a slight drifting of a pupil. No, Bartok’s eyes are so misaligned he can have staring competitions with himself.

Everyone in this room is aware of Bartok’s condition, but none of the other men here will have dared mention it. Not ever. Otherwise they wouldn’t be in this room. They’d be somewhere nobody would ever find them. Decomposing.

Doyle says it because he needs to show these people that he’s not afraid. The jokes too. Humor to hide the fact that he’s actually scared shitless. To hide the fact that, although he may seem unruffled on the surface, inside he’s trembling. Because if there’s one thing he knows not to do right now, it’s to show weakness. Weakness could get him killed. But then again, so could pushing Bartok too far, because Bartok is certifiable. Doyle found that out last Christmas. He witnessed first-hand what this man is capable of when roused.

‘Get him a chair,’ Bartok orders, the amusement gone from his face now.

‘I don’t mind standing,’ says Doyle. ‘I don’t plan to stay all that long.’

One of the men brings a heavy oak chair over, places it behind Doyle, then pushes down on his shoulders to make him sit.

‘Long time no see,’ says Bartok.

It seems to Doyle that it’s a statement just crying out for a personal insult, but he decides it’s prudent to hold back this time.

‘Yeah, we should get together more often. Say, what are you doing next Thursday? I got tickets for Springsteen.’

‘Yeah? I’m tempted. Let’s wait and see if you’re still alive then, huh, Doyle?’

‘Why? What’s my doctor been saying to you?’

‘You got a clean bill of health. For now. Which is good news for me, because I got a job for you.’

‘No thanks. I already got a job. I got a long list of scumbags to lock up.’ Doyle selects one of Bartok’s eyes at random and focuses on it. Letting him know that he’s high on that list.

‘Yeah, well you’ll just have to fit this into your busy schedule. You don’t get to say no to this one.’

‘And if I say no anyway?’

Bartok glowers at him. At least, Doyle thinks it’s aimed at him. Then Bartok slides open a drawer in his desk and takes something out of it. He holds it up and studies it, allowing Doyle to do the same.

It’s an icepick.

It could be worse. It could be a meat hook, that being Lucas Bartok’s implement of choice when he really wants to go to work on someone. But an icepick can be lethal enough. Go ask Trotsky.

‘What does this say to you, Doyle?’

‘You’re expecting another ice age?’

Bartok’s sigh is more of a snort. He gets up from his chair, still brandishing the pick. Doyle’s eyes dart around the room as he tries to decide his best move. He’s got a psychopathic killer in front of him, and a wall of muscle behind him. And they’re armed too. The odds don’t seem in his favor.

He relaxes only slightly when Bartok walks across the room, away from Doyle and over to the tarpaulin-covered object.

‘You know what’s under here?’ says Bartok.

Doyle doesn’t answer. He doesn’t want to see what he’s about to be shown, because he knows what it is.

When Bartok whips away the tarpaulin, Doyle’s fears are confirmed. It’s a man, sitting on a chair. To be precise, it’s a man who is very naked and very dead. And, also to be precise, he’s not exactly sitting; he’s more kind of perched there. He’s scrunched up into a ball, his knees pushed up to his abdomen and his arms folded across his chest. His fingers are stiffened into claws and his eyes are open. He stares accusingly at Doyle. As well he might.

The sight of this figure is disturbing enough, but there’s something else that makes it all the more horrific.

The man is frozen solid.

Doyle can see the vapor tumbling down the frost-whitened flesh. He tells himself it doesn’t matter to the victim. He’s beyond feeling the cold. But still it doesn’t sit right with Doyle. You freeze turkeys. You freeze fish — even those with bones in. You don’t freeze humans. Even in the mortuary, bodies are usually stored a couple of degrees above freezing.

‘What are you thinking, Doyle?’

Doyle can’t tear his eyes away from that grotesque solidified corpse. Can’t shake the feeling that it in turn is looking right into Doyle’s soul. The icy glare chills him, and he wants to shiver.

‘Pretty good, Lucas. Can you carve swans too? I prefer swans.’

Another quip. Bravado. Trying to prove how unmoved he is. But it lacks conviction. It sounds hollow, even to himself.

Bartok leans closer to the frozen head of the man. He seems morbidly fascinated, like a kid observing a bug after he’s pulled the legs off it. Slowly he raises the icepick, then with the tip of it he gently taps one eyeball. The harsh clicking sound sets Doyle’s teeth on edge.

‘Now that’s what I call a stiff. You remember this guy?’

Doyle swallows hard. Do I remember? Of course I remember. Sonny Rocca. He worked for the Bartok brothers, back when there were two of them. I killed him. I had no choice.

Even though Rocca was a career criminal — a failed Mafia applicant who saw the Bartoks as the next best thing — Doyle kind of liked him. In life Rocca was good-looking and had a disarming smile, and Doyle almost felt sorry for him because of the treatment he received from the Bartoks. He never desired to see Rocca dead. But fate put the two of them in the alley outside, guns drawn, and it was clear only one of them was going to walk out of there alive. Doyle decided it had better be him.

All of which might have been fine had Doyle been here on official police business, fighting the good fight against the forces of evil. But he wasn’t. He came here because he’d struck a deal with Lucas’s brother, Kurt. A deal that effectively involved Doyle signing his soul over to that man, putting him forever in his service. Luckily for Doyle, but not so luckily for the Bartoks, Kurt wound up dead shortly before Rocca did. That put an end to the deal, but it didn’t make Doyle’s actions any more forgivable. He couldn’t tell anyone that he’d consorted with known violent criminals, and he certainly couldn’t reveal that he’d killed one of them.

He watches now as Bartok traces the point of the icepick down the face of Rocca. Onto his neck. Then down his torso. Doyle listens to the scraping sound it makes.

‘See here?’ says Bartok. ‘Four holes, though not the best grouping in the world, Doyle. The slugs are still in there. Your bullets. From your gun. The cops would know that, wouldn’t they? I mean, if I was to give them Rocca’s body here and they took a look inside, they’d be able to figure out who did it, wouldn’t they?’

Doyle has always dreaded this day. Last Christmas, Bartok told him he had Rocca’s body. Told him, too, that one day he would come back to Doyle for a favor. As the months came and went, Doyle started to believe it was a bluff. He almost convinced himself that Bartok had dumped the corpse.

But no. Here it is. Bartok kept it. Put it on ice, literally. And now he’s found a reason for using it as his bargaining chip. Doyle is no expert on ballistics, but he knows that discharged bullets bear rifling marks unique to the weapon that fired them. If the tech guys get to the bullets inside Rocca, it won’t be long before Doyle is fingered as the owner of the gun involved. Especially if someone like Bartok helpfully points them in that direction.

‘What do you want, Lucas?’

Bartok smiles again, and his grin seems even more malevolent below those unruly pupils of his.

‘Anton Ruger.’

‘Who’s Anton Ruger?’

‘Piece of shit used to work for me.’

‘Used to?’

‘Yeah. We didn’t see eye to eye.’

Another cue for a wisecrack. Doyle is starting to think Bartok is acting the straight man on purpose, just to test him. He lets it ride. He’s decided he wants to get out of here alive.

‘What’s your beef with him?’

‘He’s got something belongs to me.’

Bartok steps back to his desk. He flips open a folder that’s lying there, then takes out a large photograph and hands it to Doyle. The photograph shows Lucas Bartok and his brother, Kurt, posed at a desk. Kurt is smiling into the camera. It’s hard to tell what Lucas is looking at. He could be checking his watch for all Doyle knows.

‘Ruger’s got your brother?’

‘You know, Doyle, that’s some fucking mouth you got on you. Cut the clown act before I shove this icepick up your ass, you get me?’

Doyle returns his gaze to the picture. ‘All right, so what am I looking at?’

‘Our hands, dick-brain. Look at our fucking hands.’

Doyle looks. The siblings are sporting matching rings. They’re garishly huge, and shaped into a letter B. At the center of each curve of the letter is a large sparkling gem.

‘Solid platinum,’ says Bartok. ‘And those rocks? Diamonds. We bought them for each other.’

Doyle can almost swear he hears Bartok’s voice catch as he says this. Very touching, he thinks. Or at least it would be for normal brothers. With Bartok, this uncharacteristic display of sentimentality makes him seem even more deranged.

‘Very nice. I’m lucky if I get socks.’

‘That’s because you’re a nobody, Doyle.’

‘Thanks for the confidence booster. And what do you want this nobody to do?’

‘When Ruger left my employ, he didn’t go empty-handed.’

‘He took your ring?

‘You catch on fast for a dumb mick cop.’

‘You should put in an official police complaint. We take that kinda thing very seriously.’

‘This here is my police complaint. And I know you’re gonna take it deadly serious.’

‘Meaning what? What is it you’re asking me, Lucas?’

Bartok leans forward. He has the icepick out in front of him, its tip pointed directly at Doyle.

‘What I’m telling you, Doyle, is that you’re gonna kill this fucking piece of crap.’

Doyle stares at Bartok for several seconds.

‘Okay,’ he says.

Bartok flinches. ‘Okay?’

‘Sure. When do you want it done?’

Bartok’s eyes rove even more uncontrollably than usual. His lip twitches. ‘Are you fucking with me, Doyle?’

‘’Course I’m fucking with you, Lucas. I ain’t killing nobody. Now are we done here? Because I got places to be.’

He sees the look of sheer evil on Bartok’s face. The icepick is still aimed between Doyle’s eyes. He braces himself. Waits for the onslaught. Tries to figure out how he’s going to defend himself.

But Bartok smiles. Not the most comforting of expressions when it’s worn on a man like this, but surprising nonetheless. Bartok steps away from Doyle. His smile develops into a low chuckle, then a deep-throated laugh. He looks across to his men, and they join in with the merriment. Nervously, it seems to Doyle.

Bartok continues walking away. He steps past the rigid contorted figure of Sonny Rocca.

And then he spins back to face Doyle. And as he turns, he raises his arm, the one carrying the icepick, and he lets out a huge angry roar and he brings that arm down again. Brings that icepick down. Sinks it handle-deep into Sonny Rocca’s skull. Doyle hears the crunch of bone. He winces. The laughter stops. Somebody sucks air through their teeth. Bartok releases his grip, leaving the icepick still embedded in the top of Rocca’s head. He’s dead, Doyle tells himself. It doesn’t matter. But still it hits Doyle as a shocking, senseless act of violence.

And then Bartok is advancing on Doyle again. Coming straight at him, charging at him, fists bunched, teeth bared. And Doyle cannot read his intent. Cannot work out what those crazy eyes are looking at. .

And then Bartok stops. He stops and he points at Doyle. He laughs again. He holds a hand against his paunch as he laughs, like this is the funniest thing ever. And again the men join in, but still it is not genuine amusement: it is a release of tension. Because everybody in this office except one knows that they are in the presence of insanity.

‘You should see your face,’ says Bartok to Doyle. ‘What a picture.’

Doyle is the only one who isn’t laughing. He doesn’t find this the least bit funny. He finds the whole situation unsettling and scary in its unpredictability.

Says Bartok, ‘I know you wouldn’t kill this hump. Don’t matter what goods I got on you, you wouldn’t whack somebody for me. I know that.’

‘So what do you want?’

‘My ring. I want my ring back.’

‘You want me to get your ring back for you?’

‘That’s what I want.’

Doyle considers asking one more time whether he’s heard correctly. It seems such a mundane request, unrepresentative of Bartok’s fearsome reputation.

Says Doyle, ‘What about Ruger?’

‘Ruger is nothing. He’s less than nothing. One day our paths will cross again and I’ll waste him. Until then, all I want is what belongs to me.’

‘Why don’t you waste him now? Get your ring back yourself?’

‘Because I don’t know where he is, dumbass. That’s why you’re here. You’re a detective. I want you to do some detecting. Find this cocksucker and get my property back. If it helps, think of it as returning stolen goods to their rightful owner.’

‘You really think Ruger’s still got it? I’m no expert, but I’d say a ring like that has to be worth a lot of money.’

Bartok shakes his head. ‘Nah, he’s still got it. For one thing, I put the word out that I’m looking for it. Everybody who Ruger could possibly sell it to knows who it belongs to. Ruger tries to sell it, I find him. That’s the last thing he wants, believe me. Besides, what I’m hearing is that Ruger likes to wear it himself. His story is that it’s my brother’s ring, and that he whacked him to get it. It’s his way of trying to build up some respect. Anyone who would dare to cap one of the Bartok brothers has to be a real bad-ass, right?’

Doyle mulls it over. Considers his options. Decides he doesn’t have any.

‘And that’s all you want me to do? Get the ring?’

‘Don’t make it sound like a walk in the park, Doyle. Ruger, he don’t wanna be found. And if he hears you’re looking for him, he’s gonna try stopping you. He may be an asshole, but he’s an asshole with teeth.’

Doyle thinks some more. Okay, so maybe it’s not such an innocent request after all. Maybe I’m underestimating the amount of danger involved in this operation.

‘If I do this? What then?’

Bartok strolls back toward the gruesome seated corpse. ‘You scratch my back, I scratch yours. I get my ring, you get the wop. You want, you can dig the slugs out yourself. I’ll make sure he’s nice and defrosted for you. You got till eight o’clock on Sunday morning. Drop it in on your way to church.’

‘Sunday? It’s already Thursday. No dice, Lucas. I need longer.’

‘Sunday morning. After that, I get rid of the body before it starts to smell. I’ll tie a ribbon around it and leave it outside police headquarters, somewhere like that, and you can start looking forward to your jail time.’

Doyle looks at the sad spectacle of Sonny Rocca. Sitting there, all hunched up, with four bullets in his chest, a length of steel in his brain, and every cell in his body turned to ice. Could the guy be any more dead?

Doyle sighs. ‘How do I get in touch?’

‘Sven will give you a number. You don’t call, then he comes looking for you. Don’t make him have to do that, Doyle.’

Doyle stands. ‘You better keep your side of this, Lucas.’

Bartok returns to the chair at his desk. ‘I told you. You scratch my back, I scratch yours. Just make sure Ruger don’t scratch you first.’

The four meatheads escort Doyle out of there then. It’s a relief to be away from Bartok, but he could do without this new mission.

As he clatters back down the iron staircase he thinks, Don’t I have enough on my plate already? Now I have to go on a quest for a damn ring.

Now I’m Bilbo fucking Baggins.

ELEVEN

Stanley Francis Proust sits at his table and stares at the man opposite.

He doesn’t like bringing people back here, into his living quarters. The shop, fine. He can keep things professional out there. He can be in charge. But here, the presence of others always makes him feel defensive.

He wonders what the man thinks of his home. There is nothing expensive here — Proust doesn’t make a lot of money and hey, we’re talking Manhattan rental here. The furniture is old and battered. The wallpaper is peeling in several places. The paintwork is faded and scratched. Proust has done his best to liven things up with some pictures and photographs and arty curios from charity stores, but he always feels that visitors can see through to the cheapness and nastiness that lurks beneath.

The man’s name is Ed Gowerson. Other people may call him Eddie or Edward, but Proust will stick with the name that was given in the introduction. He doesn’t want to risk causing offense.

Gowerson is one of those men who shave their head completely to hide their premature baldness. Proust guesses he can’t be much older than thirty. He is wearing a black sports jacket and a blue striped shirt, open at the collar to reveal a silver chain around his neck. He has incredibly square teeth, like a row of Chiclets. Unlike his head, his lower jaw is darkened by a pall of stubble that threatens to erupt from his face at any moment. If Proust were to make a tattoo of Gowerson, or even just a sketch, he would focus on that darkness and make a feature of it. He would echo it in the blackness of the man’s eyes. That is how he sees this man: a figure of intense shadow.

Proust clears his throat, then wishes he hadn’t because it makes him sound nervous. Which he is.

‘You, uh, you want a coffee or something?’

Gowerson shakes his head. ‘No, I’m good.’

‘A soda, maybe?’

Gowerson leans forward and places his arms on the scarred wooden table. His shoulders strain against the fabric of his jacket. He is not a large man, but Proust guesses that there is a mass of muscle tissue rippling beneath that jacket. Proust glances at Gowerson’s hands, now lightly clasped together. There are no rings on his fingers, but his wrist bears a huge watch with lots of dials on it. Like one of those diver’s watches. Proust can imagine this guy at the bottom of the sea, pounding the shit out of a Great White.

‘Mr Proust, why did you call me?’

Mr Proust. So formal. It seems anomalous in the circumstances.

He clears his throat again. How to put this? How to be clear in such an unusual request?

‘You. . I mean, I heard you were good at this kind of thing.’

‘What kind of thing would that be?’

‘Hurting people.’

There, thinks Proust. It’s out there. In the open. We both know what we’re talking about here.

Gowerson stares for a while. ‘Yes. Yes, I am good at hurting people. But what I often find is that those who employ me don’t truly understand the nature of my work.’

Proust wants to say, You beat the crap out of people. What is there to understand? It ain’t exactly splitting the atom. But he doesn’t.

‘I. . I’m not sure I get you.’

‘What I’m trying to say to you is that it’s not like on TV or the movies. You’ve seen those fights they have, where they go back and forth, back and forth, smacking each other hundreds of times until one falls unconscious and then the other one walks away with no more than a cut lip and a bruise? Well, it’s not like that. What I do is brutal and messy and it hurts. And sometimes people never get up again after I’m finished with them.’

‘I’m not asking you to kill anyone. Jesus, why are you saying all this? This isn’t what we discussed on the-’

Gowerson holds up the palm of his hand. ‘All I’m trying to do is make sure you know what you’re getting into, okay? There’s nothing that pisses me off more than when a client starts bleating afterwards about how they didn’t know what they were buying from me. I will do exactly what we agreed. I won’t go beyond the boundaries you mentioned. Occasionally, however, things don’t always go as planned. A guy might have a weak heart or something wrong with his brain. It’s like there’s a bomb in there, and all it takes to make it go boom is something as small as a light tap to the chin.’

‘You’re saying there are risks involved.’

Gowerson nods. ‘Is what I’m saying. You need to be aware of those risks. You also need to be aware that there will be blood and there will be pain. Now, are you still certain you want me to go through with this?’

Proust wishes he hadn’t been asked this. He doesn’t want to be confronted with all this doubt and uncertainty. He doesn’t want to think about risks and ramifications. He thought he would just meet the guy, pay him, and the job would get done. Clean and simple.

And so the upshot now is that he’s having second thoughts. Does he really want this to happen? Does he really want to unleash this Rottweiler of a man?

And yet what choice has Doyle left him? Doyle will never let up. He has made that crystal clear. The man is obsessed. He needs to be taught that he can’t keep harassing people like that.

‘I’m certain,’ says Proust.

Gowerson watches him for what seems like an age. Proust can feel himself withering under the man’s gaze.

‘All right,’ says Gowerson. ‘Then there’s just the little matter of payment for my services.’

Proust gets up from the table, glad to be moving away from this man, if only for a few seconds. He goes over to a low bookcase and pulls out an envelope that he previously secreted between two science fiction novels. When he turns around again, he sees that Gowerson is on his feet. He is not tall, but he is imposing, and Proust suddenly wishes he could pass the envelope across on the end of a long fishing rod. His steps toward Gowerson are tentative, and his arm has a discernible tremble to it when he presents the envelope.

‘Once I take the money,’ says Gowerson, ‘that’s it. Our agreement is binding. There’s no going back, no calling me off. Think of me as a cruise missile. Once you launch me, you can’t pull me back in. You cool with that?’

It’s the point of no return. Proust considers pulling his hand back. Forget it, he’ll say. I made a mistake. I don’t really want to do this. .

But he doesn’t do or say any of this. He can’t back out now.

He takes a step closer to Gowerson. Puts the envelope right under Gowerson’s nose.

Gowerson reaches up a hand and takes the envelope. He doesn’t open it. Just slips it into his inside jacket pocket.

‘It’s all there,’ says Proust. ‘You can count it if-’

The blow comes from nowhere. One second Proust is talking, the next a fist is crashing into his jaw with the force of a sledgehammer. He feels something explode in his mouth and he reels backwards. He blinks furiously to clear his vision and sees Gowerson coming toward him, his fists clenched. Proust puts his hands up to protect his face, but then another blow smashes into his ribcage. He swears he hears his ribs shatter into a thousand pieces as the air is forced out of his lungs, and as his arms drop again another cannonball lands on his cheek. His head snaps back and forth like a punchbag in the gym, and now he wants to tell his attacker to stop. He wants to say he’s had enough, but he knows it will be fruitless. This is just the beginning. He knows this. He has signed up for this. He has handed over good money for this. And so the beating continues, and he continues to endure it. He absorbs blow after crushing blow, wondering when he will die or fall unconscious or simply fragment. He sees blood on his hands and on his clothes, and then he loses the ability to see because of the blood in his eyes — at least he hopes that is what it is and that he hasn’t been made blind. And when he loses the will to do anything but be a target he drops to the floor and curls into a ball and puts his hands over his head and listens to the thud, thud, thud as feet and fists pummel his body into mush. And while he does this he reaches a curious state of detachment. It feels to him as though he leaves his body, rising above it to watch as it is mercilessly battered. Pain leaves him. Fear leaves him. The experience becomes almost. . exquisite.

It takes him some time to realize when it is over. The thudding stops. The pain floods back in. He realizes he is not dead, and that it is not necessarily a good thing. He craves the relief that unconsciousness would bring.

He unfurls his arms slowly, surprised that he can still move them. He raises his head, sees nothing. He brings a hand to his eyes and wipes them. He feels warm wetness on his fingers — his blood, presumably — and his cheeks seem grossly swollen and tender. He blinks. Dark fuzzy shapes come into view. Gradually they sharpen. He sees the figure of Gowerson standing a few feet in front of him. He prays that he is not merely taking a rest, and that the ordeal has truly ended.

He manages to twist himself into a sitting position. The pain will permit him to do no more than that. He is seized by a sudden need to cough. As he does so, it is as though a razor-sharp spear is thrust into his chest. Blood sprays from his mouth, then dribbles down his chin. He explores with his tongue. Finds a loose tooth. He pushes against it with the tip of his tongue and it comes away. He spits it out. More scarlet dribble. Another agonizing cough. He looks again at Gowerson. It takes an effort, but he manages to push out two words that seem so absurd they are almost comical.

‘Thank you.’

TWELVE

He frightens her, this man Doyle.

It is not just his physical presence, although he is a big man. He is tall and broad and carries himself with an air of confidence that suggests he is afraid of no one.

Nor is it the fact that he is no stranger to violence. The slight bend to his nose from an old break attests to that, and the massive swelling on his left cheek suggests that he still doesn’t go out of his way to avoid it.

Nor is it merely his eyes. Those startling emerald-green eyes that are the first things everyone must notice about him. You cannot help but be drawn to them, and they in turn seem to penetrate beyond mere flesh and bone, and drill deep into your very thoughts.

No, what it is about Doyle that disturbs Nicole Hamlyn so much is that she gets the unshakeable feeling that he is an iceberg. What she sees in front of her now is merely the tip. There is much more that is hidden, that will probably remain hidden. Things he has seen. Things he has done. Things he can never talk about. She does not know quite why she senses this about him, but she knows she is right. She would bet on it.

And yet. .

And yet, despite the aura of danger and dark, unimaginable happenings, she feels that this is a man you want on your side. This is a man who will never give up. He will always uncover the truth, whatever the cost to himself.

She wants — needs — that to be so about Doyle. And as she realizes that, she starts to wonder whether her needs are distorting her reality. Maybe Doyle is nothing special, after all. Just another regular cop.

But she doesn’t think so.

She allows him into their home again. He comes alone this time, and he is wet again, but not as soaked as last time.

She touches her fingers to her own cheek. ‘What happened?’

He looks puzzled at first, and then he understands.

‘Oh. This. Occupational hazard.’

And that’s it. That’s how lightly he dismisses the violence that left this imprint on his face. Nicole has met many men who would have been severely traumatized by such an act. And others who would be seething with anger and a self-destructive need to exact dreadful revenge. Steve falls into the latter group. He would neither forgive nor forget. He would seek retribution.

She wishes that Steve could be more like Doyle. She wishes he could allow himself to process the grief in whatever way he needs so that they can prepare to move on.

‘Please,’ she says. ‘Take a seat. I’ll fetch Steve. Can I get you tea or coffee?’

‘No,’ says Doyle. ‘Thank you.’

She walks through to the kitchen and then to the door that opens into the garage. She can hear clattering and banging on the other side. It’s been like this all morning.

She opens the door and steps into the garage. Steve is bent over a cardboard box, hauling things out of it and tossing them onto the concrete floor. The whole of the floorspace is covered in items that were previously tidied away in crates.

‘Steve,’ she says, and when he doesn’t hear her, she shouts, ‘STEVE!’

He pauses and looks across at her. ‘Why did we keep all this junk? What the hell were we thinking?’ He grabs an object from the box. ‘Look at this. A clock with no hands on it. Why the fuck did we keep a clock with no hands? What possible use could it be?’

He hurls it away from him. It hits the wall and shatters. Pieces ricochet across the garage.

It occurs to her to remind him that the clock was a family heirloom passed down to her by her mother. The missing hands were taped inside the casing. Steve had put them there with the intention of restoring it one day. All of this occurs to Nicole, but she says nothing. She just stares down at what is left of the clock, now damaged beyond repair. Perhaps like their marriage, if they do nothing to stop it fragmenting.

‘The police are here,’ she says, fighting to disguise her sadness. ‘Detective Doyle. I thought you should know.’

‘What does he want? Have they caught the guy yet?’

‘No. I don’t think so. I think he just wants to ask us some more questions.’

‘Then you don’t need me. I got nothing more to say.’

She thinks, Nothing to say? Your daughter has been murdered and you have nothing to say?

He turns away from her and starts rummaging in the box again.

‘Steve?’ No answer. ‘Steve, please!’

He stops again. Looks at her with more than a hint of annoyance. Stands up.

‘Five minutes,’ he says. ‘I’ll give him five minutes.’

Thanks, she thinks. For your precious time.

She lets Steve push past her without a word, then follows him into the living room. Doyle is looking at her. He knows something is up, she thinks. She gives him a smile that is meant to say, No problem. We’re all pulling together here. But she knows he’s not deceived.

They all sit down. Nicole takes the sofa. Doyle takes the chair opposite — the same one he sat in last time. She hopes that Steve will come and sit next to her, but he doesn’t. He perches himself on the arm of another chair. A clear signal that he doesn’t intend to hang around.

‘First of all,’ says Doyle, ‘I just want you to know that we’re working flat out on this case. It’s our top priority.’

‘I should think so,’ says Steve. ‘A young girl hacked to pieces like that, why wouldn’t you pull out all the stops?’

Nicole glances at Steve, but he seems not to notice. She wonders if she did the right thing, bringing him into this room.

She shifts her gaze back to Doyle. Searches his face for signs of irritation. She is relieved to find that he seems unperturbed.

Don’t ruin this, Steve. We need this man.

‘You’re absolutely right,’ says Doyle. ‘It’s a natural assumption. Why wouldn’t we want to catch this lunatic? But I also know that most families of victims don’t want to be left alone to assume things. Sometimes they like to hear us put it into words.’

There, Steve. See? They’re doing their best. Don’t give him a hard time.

‘We don’t want words,’ says Steve. ‘We want action. We want you to get the bastard.’

Shut up, Steve. Shut up! You’re not helping.

‘Of course you do,’ says Doyle. ‘I understand.’

‘Do you? Then you’ll understand if I don’t want to answer any more questions. I already told the cops everything I know. It’s all in your files. Go read them, catch the guy, then you can come back.’

Steve pushes himself up from the chair’s arm. Nicole thinks he’s about to escort Doyle to the door, but he doesn’t. He disappears into the kitchen again. She hears the slam of the door to the garage.

She looks at Doyle. ‘I’m sorry. He’s. . he’s not dealing with this very well.’

Still Doyle does not appear concerned. ‘It’s okay. You’ve both been through the worst kind of ordeal. Different people react in different ways. Give him time.’

She blinks. Give him time? The advice surprises her, but maybe he’s right. Megan’s body has only just been discovered. Steve needs time to come to terms with that.

‘Do you. . do you have any news? On the investigation?’

‘Nothing significant yet. We’re looking into all the possibilities. The reason I came here, I want to be sure I got all the facts right.’

‘Okay. Sure. What can I tell you?’

‘According to the Missing Persons report, Megan told you she was going out with some friends of hers last Saturday. Is that right?’

‘Yes. Three of her girlfriends from school. She said they were going to see a movie.’

‘But the girls never saw her on that day?’

‘No. They didn’t even know about any arrangements to meet up.’

‘You spoke with them?’

‘Yes. I met with each of them, and their parents.’

‘And did you believe them? You don’t think they were trying to cover anything up?’

She blinks. The thought has never occurred to her. She has met the girls countless times. They seem like good girls. What would they be covering up?

‘No. Why do you ask? Do you think they might be?’

‘I don’t think anything, Mrs Hamlyn. I’m just filling in all the gaps. We’ll talk to the girls ourselves. I just want to know what your thoughts are.’

She wonders then about the nature of Doyle’s job. He’s a cynic, because he wouldn’t be doing his job if he wasn’t. He’s trained to be suspicious of everyone, to question everything. It must be hard to live like that — in constant distrust.

‘I don’t think the girls were lying.’

‘Did Megan often lie to you?’

She wants to take offense at this. She opens her mouth, ready to ask him what the hell he means by making such an accusation. She stops when she sees on Doyle’s face that there is no spitefulness in the question. He’s calling it as he sees it. Megan said she was going to the movie theater, and she didn’t. It was a lie. No other word for it.

‘Do you have any children, Detective Doyle?’

‘Yes. A daughter.’

‘How old?’

‘Only seven.’

‘Does she ever tell lies to you?’

She sees a small smile of recognition tug at the corner of Doyle’s mouth. ‘Sometimes. She’s not very good at it, though.’

‘She’ll get better with practice. Kids always lie to their parents. Or they simply withhold information. It’s part of growing up. It’s their way of rebelling, of gaining independence. Didn’t you lie to your parents?’

She gets another smile, and presses on: ‘Of course you did. We all do. We mean no harm by it, and usually no harm is done. But sometimes, just sometimes, there are consequences that go way beyond what we can imagine.’

‘Tell me about the tattoo,’ says Doyle. ‘Did you argue about it?’

‘We had some conversations about it. Occasionally it got a little heated. Megan had wanted a tattoo ever since she was thirteen. We told her she was too young, and that if she wanted one she would have to wait until she was eighteen.’

‘How’d she take it?’

‘Not well, but we thought she’d accepted it. We thought she’d wait.’

She watches Doyle as he thinks about her answer.

‘You keep coming back to the tattoo,’ she says. ‘Why?’

‘It was done during her disappearance. Whoever did it saw her after you did and before the killer did. There could be something important there.’

‘But you don’t know who made the tattoo?’

‘Not yet, but we’re looking.’

There’s something in the way he says those words that don’t quite ring right to Nicole. There’s something there he’s not telling her.

‘Do you have any suspects yet?’

He shakes his head. ‘Not yet. But it’s early days.’

Again, something in his voice. She can’t put her finger on it, but it’s there, and its presence irritates her. Makes her question the faith she has placed in this man.

Or is it because he is so committed to this case and this family that he is unable to keep his suspicions buried as well as he should? Maybe that’s it. He desperately wants to tell her something, but his job doesn’t allow it. Maybe she’s not wrong about him at all.

Before she can pursue it, Doyle changes the subject: ‘Was Megan in the habit of going to the East Village on her own?’

‘No. I don’t know that she ever went there before.’

‘What about Manhattan generally?’

‘Not on her own. With friends or with us, sure.’

‘But once she was there, did you ever let her off the leash? Give her some space to do her own thing?’

‘Well. .’

‘Go on.’

‘Steve, he’s an accountant. He’s based here in Queens, but sometimes he goes to meetings at the head office in the city. Now and again, Megan would go with him. She would go shopping, then they would get together after his meeting and he would bring her back.’

‘Okay.’

‘I. . It was shopping. For a couple of hours. That’s all.’

‘It’s all right. I’m not judging you, okay? I’m just trying to work out how she ended up where she did. Maybe she went there, maybe someone took her there. Maybe she had no intention of even going to Manhattan when she left here. If I can figure that out, then maybe I can get a handle on how she met the tattooist.’

Nicole nods. She understands now. She can start to see how Doyle’s thought processes are working. He really isn’t here to pass judgment. He simply wants answers. And it seems to her that all his questions are the right ones to be asking right now. She trusts this man.

‘How will you know? I mean, how will you be able to figure out where she went and who she met?’

‘From talking to people. From studying camera footage at the subway stations and so forth. It’ll take time, but we’ll do what we have to do.’

She nods again. ‘Thank you.’ She pauses for a long time, then says, ‘Did. . Did they find any more? Of Megan, I mean.’

‘No. We’re still looking, and not just in the East Village. A bulletin went out to all precincts. We’re checking the rivers, construction sites, derelict buildings — any place we can think of. We’re even going through the garbage in the landfill sites. But, well. . a place like New York, you can’t freeze it for long while you search it.’

‘I understand,’ she says. And she does. New York isn’t a huge area, but it’s tightly crammed and intensely busy. Constantly shifting and changing. It’s amazing they found what they did. But three pieces. It’s nothing. Somewhere out there is more of Megan. Undiscovered, unclaimed. She deserves better. She deserves to be brought home.

Nicole feels herself filling up again — when will this crying ever stop? — and says, ‘It’s just that. . The burial. You understand? We’d like to be able to bury Megan. I mean. . all of her.’

She sees Doyle’s discomfort, and realizes she is putting him in an impossible situation. How can she expect him to answer that? He’s doing what he can for us. Let that be enough.

And yet. . If he really wants to help. .

‘There’s something else,’ she says. ‘Maybe you can’t answer it, but I’d like to know.’

Doyle studies her for a while, then nods. ‘Go ahead.’

‘Was Megan. . Was she. . I mean, did the killer. . did he interfere with her?’

There. A tough question to get out, but she did it. And now it’s out there, hanging around for a response, she’s not sure she’s done the right thing. She’s tempted to reel it back in.

Doyle looks at her again, long and hard. He chews on his lip, as though he’s debating what to do with this big fat question mark being dangled in front of him.

Finally, he says, ‘There is evidence of sexual assault, yes.’

She knew this. Not definitively, but in her heart. She tried to prepare herself for the confirmation when it came, but still it seems to slice deep into her gut. The tears that had welled up in her get squeezed out with the pain. As they roll down her cheeks, she keeps her gaze fixed on Doyle. And as he stares right back, she senses something from him. Defiance. Not of her, but of whatever constraining forces are being applied to him. Screw the rulebook, he seems to be saying.

‘You weren’t supposed to tell me that, were you?’

Doyle shrugs. ‘I do a lot of things I’m not supposed to do.’

She nods her gratitude. Any other cop would have refused to answer. Would perhaps even have lied. Doyle won’t lie.

She says, ‘Whoever did this, he’s a monster. He’s evil. Megan was a child. She was my baby. How could anyone hurt a child?’

‘I don’t know. And I can’t imagine your pain. Just thinking of this happening to my daughter makes me sick to my stomach.’

She blinks in surprise. Should policemen say such things? Aren’t they supposed to remain detached and objective? He’s full of surprises, this one.

She finds herself relaxing in his presence a little. He has that effect. A calming influence. She feels as though she could talk to him about anything, no matter how personal. She gets another jolt when her next thoughts of Megan do not involve death and agony, but instead are fond memories stretching back in time. Of Megan as a child, a toddler, a baby.

‘Megan could be hard work, you know.’

There is a slight smile on her face as she says this, and Doyle reflects one back at her.

‘Mine too.’

‘Right from birth she was determined to be a troublemaker. Ripped me to pieces so badly I can’t have any more kids.’

‘Yeah?’ says Doyle. ‘That happened to my wife too. At one point I thought I was gonna lose both of them.’

She narrows her eyes at him. What is this? Whatever happened to Just the facts, Ma’am? Where’s his little notebook, into which he jots down times, places, names? The uniformed cops weren’t like this. The Missing Persons cops weren’t like this either. How is it possible for this man to let his humanity through like this when he has to deal with murderers, rapists and other scum? How can he shoot the breeze about his wife’s pregnancy while contemplating how he’s going to catch a man who has just raped a teenage girl and cut her into little pieces?

Her voice becomes bolder, less mired in intense sadness. Like it’s the first normal conversation she’s had in days. ‘You should have heard me in the hospital. I thought I was going to be all calm and collected. The model mother-to-be. You know what I do for a living?’

‘No, I don’t think I saw that in the files.’

‘I’m a midwife. I’ve lost count of the number of babies I’ve delivered. I’ve seen every complication there is. The only thing that worried me about giving birth to my own child was that I would try to tell the other staff how to do their jobs. But boy, once I got my feet in those stirrups it was a totally different story. I lost it. I forgot everything there was to know about midwifery. I just lay there and screamed.’

She sees that Doyle’s smile has broadened, and realizes that hers has too. And it feels okay. It doesn’t feel disrespectful, because it’s about Megan. It’s about celebrating who she was and how she did things. And that’s fine. She’s allowed to do that. In fact, she believes that the only way she’s going to get through this is by holding on to the happy moments, even though she knows it won’t always be possible.

‘That’s what I don’t get,’ she says.

‘What is?’

‘I bring life into the world. It’s what I wanted to do ever since I was a kid. I get a huge kick out of it. New life — there’s nothing more sacred than that. But this man, whoever he is — this murderer — he enjoys raping and torturing and killing and dismembering. How do such opposites get to exist in the world? How is it possible for a person to enjoy such things?’

And now Doyle’s smile has gone, and she regrets the fact that she has soured the atmosphere again.

‘Because he’s not really a part of this world,’ says Doyle. ‘He’s sick, and I don’t think he can be cured. That’s why he needs to be removed from it.’

She listens to his words, and it seems to her that Doyle could be talking about a specific person rather than some unknown killer he has never met.

‘Can I ask you something else, Detective?’

‘Sure.’

‘Could you remove this man from our world? Permanently, I mean. Not prison.’

When Doyle says nothing for a couple of seconds she adds, ‘I’m sorry. Maybe I shouldn’t be asking-’

‘If it were up to me?’ says Doyle. ‘In a heartbeat. No doubt about it. If I was sure I knew who had done this to your daughter, and the law allowed me to do it, I would put a bullet in this scumbag’s brain without hesitation.’

‘And if the law said no, but you thought nobody would ever find out?’

She sees the muscles twitch in Doyle’s jaw. It’s a tough ethical question, but she genuinely wants to hear his response.

‘I’m a cop,’ he says finally. ‘I have to uphold the law. Otherwise what am I doing in this job?’

The right answer, she thinks. But the expected answer. She’s not certain that it accurately reflects his position. She knows what Steve would do. Steve would hunt this man down and make him endure as much pain as possible before killing him as slowly as possible — that’s what Steve would do.

And I bring forth life, she thinks. That’s what I do. That’s what is right.

‘Mrs Hamlyn, I should go now,’ says Doyle.

‘Please,’ she says. ‘Call me Nicole.’

He nods, then stands up. ‘There’s a lot of work to be done.’

She shows him to the door. When she opens it, the noise of the rain suddenly intrudes. They both look out at it.

‘You think it’s ever gonna quit?’ Doyle asks.

‘Yes,’ she says. ‘In time.’

Then Doyle steps into it and is gone.

He drives just far enough to be out of her view, then pulls the car over.

Damn!

Why did I even come here? For all I’ve learned in this meeting, wouldn’t a phone call have been just as good?

And why did I let her get to me? Why do I always have to get so fucking involved?

Telling her about how we can’t have any more kids. Letting her know that I’d happily cap the sonofabitch killer of her daughter. What the fuck was that about?

And, to top it all, the lies. Telling her there were still no suspects, when the one and only suspect is sitting at home in his crappy apartment, laughing his ass off at the failure of the police to nail him.

Doyle sits there for a full five minutes, working through his anger, berating himself for his stupidity.

But he knows why he came to the Hamlyns’ house. He came because he cares. He cares about the Hamlyns and he cares about their daughter and he cares about finding her killer. He cares far too much, in his opinion. It’s a fault which always tears him apart, and he doesn’t know what he can do about it.

It’ll be the death of me, he thinks.

Stanley Proust stands naked in front of his bedroom mirror. His shoulders are slumped slightly because he cannot straighten up. It hurts too much.

He has managed to staunch the flow of blood from his various cuts, but he still looks as though he has been hit by a train. There are marks and swellings all over his body. His face looks like that of the Elephant Man. One eye is so puffed up it’s difficult to see out of it. His ribs in particular feel like a hot poker is being inserted between them when he breathes. He has taken some strong painkillers, but they don’t seem to be making much difference.

He puts his tongue in the gap where his tooth used to be, and pushes gently on the cap of congealed blood. Shame to lose a tooth, but he can always get a false one put in.

But what an experience!

He has never been through anything like that before. The last time he was punched was in a fist fight in middle school that lasted barely five seconds. He didn’t even get a bloody nose on that occasion. Since then he has often wondered whether it would toughen him up to get involved in a proper no-holds-barred brawl — to find out what it’s really like to absorb a barrage of stinging blows. But he has always been too scared. He has always backed down from any confrontation that has threatened to become physical.

Well, now he knows. He understands. The pain is nothing. He can transcend the pain.

And he could go through it again. Now that he has done it once, he could do it again and again. Whatever Doyle throws at him, he can take. And that means Doyle can never win.

Proust drops his eyes to the tattoo on his chest, still clearly visible behind the bruises. He looks at the image of himself, clawing its way through his flesh.

That’s me now, he thinks. That’s what I’ve been waiting for.

I am reborn.

THIRTEEN

LeBlanc knows something is wrong as soon as Doyle walks into the squadroom.

Actually, he suspected Doyle was up to something when he disappeared for the whole morning. Showing up now with that shiner under his eye merely confirms it.

This is not good, he thinks. This is definitely not going to be something I want to hear.

He accosts Doyle before he even has a chance to sit down. Before he has even had a chance to remove his jacket.

‘Cal, can we talk? In private?’

‘What, again?’ says Doyle. ‘This is how rumors start, ya know, Tommy?’

‘You mind?’

Doyle looks around. Only Schneider is staring back at him.

‘All right. Come on.’

They leave the squadroom and move down the hallway, where Doyle opens the door to an interview room. That is, it’s officially an interview room. Unofficially it’s a dumping ground for anything that can’t be squeezed in anywhere more appropriate. File cabinets in particular seem to end up here. There is hardly an inch of lower wall space that doesn’t have a file cabinet in front of it.

‘What is it?’ asks Doyle, and it seems to LeBlanc that there is already a hint of irritation there.

‘You mind if I ask where you been all morning?’

‘You mind if I ask why you’re asking?’

‘Because I’m your partner. I thought you were gonna talk to the Hamlyns.’

‘Then you just answered your own question.’

‘It took you all morning to do that?’

‘I’m nothing if not thorough.’

‘Go anywhere else?’

‘Hey, Tommy, cut it out, okay? I know we’re in the interview room, but that doesn’t mean you have to get in character. You wanna get some practice in on your Q and A technique, go drag in some skells.’

LeBlanc breathes out. A long slow breath. This isn’t how he wanted it to go.

‘Look, I’m sorry. I’m finding it difficult to get used to the way you do things.’

‘The way I do things?’

‘Yeah. You know, the way you just disappear. The way you don’t always tell me what you’ve been doing or what you’re about to do.’

He realizes he’s starting to sound a little like an abandoned wife. But he also knows just how close partners can get. They need to rely on each other. They need to trust each other. Each needs to understand precisely how the other one ticks. LeBlanc doesn’t know whether he will ever manage to reach that depth of familiarity with Doyle. Maybe this partnership wasn’t such a good idea. But he’s not going to be the one to give up on it.

‘You know what?’ says Doyle. ‘You’re right. I haven’t been telling you everything. Just don’t take it personal. I had some things I needed to do this morning. Stuff that doesn’t concern you, okay? From now on, I’ll try to bring you in whenever I can.’

‘Is that how you got the mouse? From these other activities you can’t talk to me about?’

Doyle touches a hand to his cheek. For a moment it seems to LeBlanc that Doyle’s expression is that of someone who has just been caught in a lie and is frantically trying to manufacture a way out of it. And when Doyle smiles, it seems to come far too late.

‘Yeah. Nothing to do with the Hamlyn case. Now can I go, please, Officer? I’m beginning to feel like I should ask for a lawyer.’

LeBlanc answers with a smile of his own. But it wilts as soon as Doyle leaves the room.

Fuck!

He wants to believe Doyle. He wants to trust him. But why does the man insist on making it so damned difficult? Why can’t he at least talk about this, for Chrissake? What’s he got to hide?

When he leaves the interview room, he doesn’t follow Doyle back into the squadroom. He heads the other way, out of the building.

Skinterest looks to be all closed up. The blinds are drawn and the lights are off. LeBlanc stands in the rain for a while, telling himself that it’s nothing. The man’s decided to close for the day, is all. Nothing to worry about.

He thumbs the buzzer anyway.

He hears nothing, so he buzzes again, then hammers on the door with his fist.

A light comes on. A shadow appears behind the blinds. LeBlanc hears a fumbling of chains, the drawing back of bolts, the turning of keys. As he pulls open the door, Proust shuffles backwards, maintaining the door as a shield between him and LeBlanc. Only a fraction of Proust’s face is visible, and even that is cast into silhouette by the light behind it.

‘Mr Proust? You mind if I come in for a moment?’

‘Is Doyle with you?’

Proust’s voice is faint, croaky and filled with fear. LeBlanc swallows. It worries him that Proust’s first question should be about Doyle. He seems terrified of the man.

‘No. No, he’s not. It’s just me. Is that okay?’

‘I. . it’s not really a good, unh, time.’

LeBlanc hears the slight grunt. Like Proust is in pain. Jesus, could he. .

‘Mr Proust, I promise this won’t take long. And I’m not here to give you any trouble. A couple of questions and I’m gone.’

Proust says nothing. Just stands there. Then the door swings open a little wider.

LeBlanc steps inside. Takes a quick look around. Nothing amiss that he can see. Everything in order. He turns back to Proust, who is closing the door. From the back he seems strangely bent and stiff, like an old man.

And then Proust faces him.

LeBlanc gasps. ‘Jesus Christ! What happened? What the hell happened to you?’

The man is a wreck. He looks as though he has just tumbled from the top of a mountain to the bottom. How is he not on a slab in the morgue?

‘I’m okay,’ says Proust.

‘Okay? You’re not okay. Have you seen yourself? How did you get like this?’

Proust limps past LeBlanc. ‘I was, uhm, I was mugged.’

As soon as LeBlanc hears the explanation he knows it is not true. And then he starts to feel sick with the realization of what the truth might be.

‘You were mugged? When were you mugged? Where?’

‘Here. Two guys came in this morning. They wanted my money. I told them I didn’t have any. So they beat the shit out of me.’

LeBlanc says nothing for a while. He doesn’t know what to say. Proust’s story is a crock, but he’s not certain he wants to drag the real one out of him. He watches as Proust sits himself down on a stool, wincing as he does so.

‘Have you reported this to the police?’ LeBlanc asks.

LeBlanc snorts a laugh, then follows it up with a cry of pain. ‘The police? Are you kidding me, man? After the way you guys treated me yesterday? Something tells me I wouldn’t get a whole load of sympathy from you people.’

LeBlanc looks him up and down. Jesus! This was no ordinary beating. Somebody wanted to give him a message. They probably didn’t even care if he lived or died.

‘These men. What did they look like?’

‘I don’t remember. They were big and they were mean. That’s all I know.’

‘They use fists or weapons?’

Proust shrugs. Winces again.

LeBlanc chews his lip. Break through the lies, or leave it be? This is a fellow cop we’re talking about here, Tommy. Do you want to know? Do you really, really want to know?

‘Did Detective Doyle come here again this morning?’

Slowly, Proust raises his head. Turns his battered, misshapen face full into the light. Through half-closed lids, his eyes twinkle as they stare at LeBlanc.

‘Detective Doyle?’

‘Yes. Was he here this morning?’

A long pause. Then: ‘No.’

Except that it’s a no which means yes. It’s a no which says, You’re a cop too and I don’t trust you and so I’m playing it safe, because all you cop bastards stick together and anything I say against one of you is said against all of you.

All of that in one word. That’s what LeBlanc hears. That’s what shakes him to the core.

And now he’s not sure what to do. A part of him wants to pursue this. A part of him wants to put the badge away and talk to Proust as another man, another human being. He wants to tell him that he will listen, and that whatever Proust says to him will be treated in the strictest confidence. He thinks that might work. He thinks that Proust might open up to him.

And then he takes a mental step back. He thinks, I am a cop and Doyle is a cop, and Proust is still a suspect. Despite the apparent fuck-up that Doyle seems to be making of this case and his own life, our roles haven’t changed.

It is not without some shame that he opts not to side with this man against one of his own, and so he offers to do what he can: ‘Get up,’ he says.

Again there is fear and suspicion in Proust’s eyes. ‘Why?’

‘I’m taking you to the hospital.’

‘I don’t need no hospital, man. I’m okay.’

‘You might have broken bones. Internal damage. You need to be checked out. Come on, I’ll take you in my car.’

Proust stares at LeBlanc’s beckoning hand for some time before making a decision. As he gets off his chair, he grimaces. If he wasn’t in so much obvious discomfort, it could almost be mistaken for a smile.

Doyle sees the glance from the man with the backpack. He knows the guy has seen him. Can tell by the way the man speeds up his rhythmic lope that he’s trying to put as many yards as he can between him and Doyle without it seeming too obvious.

Doyle pushes himself away from the window of the bodega and takes up pursuit. The man speeds up. Doyle speeds up. The man risks a quick look behind him and increases his pace a little more. Doyle decides he’s not in the mood for burning calories.

‘Freeze!’ he calls.

Coming from a cop, that would usually mean only one thing. It would mean, I have a gun trained on you right now, motherfucker, and if you so much as blink too fast then I’m gonna blow your sad ass off of this planet.

Or words to that effect.

On this occasion, however, it doesn’t mean that. The man Doyle is chasing is called Edwin Jones, but nobody other than his mother ever calls him Edwin. They know him as Freezeframe Jones, or Freeze for short. And the reason they call him that is because one of the ways he chooses to scrape a living is by selling pirated DVDs. Doyle knows he’s built up a thriving business over the years. Freezeframe prides himself on always being able to get hold of the latest movies, sometimes even before they hit the theaters. His boast is that he had the first Harry Potter movie before J. K. Rowling had finished writing the book.

Freezeframe stops and turns, then affects a grin of recognition. He is as tall as Doyle, but gangly with it. He has an angular face, with prominent cheekbones. His arms seem too long for his body, and he has a habit of waving them around with abandon, threatening bodily harm to those who get too close.

‘Yo, D! S’up, man?’

‘Hey, Freeze. For a minute there I thought you were avoiding me.’

‘Who, me? Nah. Just didn’t recognize you, is all. Can’t blame a cat for tryin’ to stay safe and shit, you know what I’m sayin’?’

‘Got something worth protecting?’

‘Only my life, yo. Worth sumthin’ to me, even if no other motherfucker give a damn.’

‘My heart bleeds for you. I was talking about the movie business. You made director yet? Producer? Or is sales and marketing still your thing?’

Freezeframe feigns puzzlement. ‘You lost me, D. I don’t know nothin’ about no movie business.’

‘Uh-huh. I bet the bodega owner does. What’s his thing? The new Tom Cruise? Or is he more your alien invasion kinda guy?’

‘Only thing I know is he sells gum.’ Freezeframe digs a pack of chewing gum from the pocket of his hooded top and shows it to Doyle. ‘You want a stick?’

Doyle shakes his head. ‘What’s in the backpack?’

Freezeframe looks over his shoulder as though he’s just been told there’s a bug crawling there.

‘This? I don’t know.’

‘You don’t know what’s in your own backpack? The one you think is important enough to be carrying around in the rain like this?’

‘I found it, D. Planning to hand it in to the po-lice at the next opportunity.’

‘But you didn’t bother to look what was in it?’

‘Nah, D. None of my business, you know what I’m sayin’?’

Doyle sighs and looks up at the rain clouds. It seems to him that they don’t plan on dispersing anytime soon. Seems more like they’re waiting for reinforcements.

‘Step over here,’ says Doyle, moving under the awning of a hardware store. Reluctantly, Freezeframe joins him.

‘I tole you, D. I don’t know shit about no DVDs. This ain’t-’

‘Forget the DVDs. I want some information.’

Freezeframe pulls his neck back in surprise, his head disappearing turtle-like into the shadows of his hood before it slowly emerges again. Then he suddenly breaks into raucous high-pitched laughter as he slaps his thighs with those elongated arms of his.

‘You fucking with me, right?’

Doyle keeps his face straight. ‘No, I’m serious.’

Freezeframe stops laughing. ‘I ain’t no snitch, D. And if I was a snitch, which I ain’t, I would not be your snitch, because I heard ’bout what happens to your snitches. Motherfuckers be ending up dead.’

‘This ain’t an offer of permanent employment, Freeze. It’s a one-time deal.’

‘I still ain’t interested. I got a reputation, yo. Folks get to hear I been talking to the man, they be smokin’ my ass.’

Doyle pulls out his wallet, opens it up and strips out a few bills.

‘Tell you what. I can open up your backpack there and then I can run you in and we can talk about this down at the station house, or you can make yourself a little green for one small piece of information and then walk away. What’s it to be?’

Freezeframe looks out into the rain as if for guidance, then back at Doyle.

‘Shit, that ain’t no kinda choice. That’s you putting a nine to my head, is what that is.’

‘What’s it gonna be?’

Freezeframe looks around again, this time appearing a little more nervous. Which tells Doyle that he’s on the verge of accepting his offer.

‘Suppose I ain’t got this particular piece of information?’

‘Do your best, Freeze. Ain’t nobody else I know mixes with the criminal fraternity like you do.’

As Doyle suspected he would, Freezeframe takes this as a compliment, and his face brightens.

‘I do got a lot of contacts, that’s true. Aiight, what you wanna know?’

‘I’m looking for someone. Man called Anton Ruger.’

Wide eyes now. Astonished eyes.

‘Uh-uh, D. You don’t wanna be messing with that shit. That cat is nasty. Word is he offed one of the Bartok brothers. Anyone even insults the Bartok brothers got to be either insane or havin’ balls of steel.’

‘I wanna know where he is.’

‘I don’t know where he’s at. Nobody does.’

‘Somebody does. Somebody must have mentioned his name to you, at least.’

Freezeframe pauses. ‘You didn’t hear this from me.’

‘No problem.’

‘Aiight. There’s a white boy I know. Likes to talk big. Says he did some work for Ruger.’

‘What’s his name?’

‘Likes to go by Cubo. Thass all I know.’

‘Where can I find him?’

‘He cribs at his girl’s place. Skinny-ass ho called Tasha Wilmot. She live at 309 Stanton. Top floor. Apartment 5D.’

‘That’s pretty damned specific, Freeze. How’d you know all this?’

‘Boy likes to watch movies, when he’s not getting it on with his girl.’

Doyle nods. He scans the street himself, then palms off the wad of bills to Freezeframe.

‘You made the right decision.’

Freezeframe slips the money into his pocket. ‘Yeah, and you be making the wrong one. Don’t say I didn’t warn you.’

LeBlanc tries every which way he can to justify it to himself.

I’m young, he thinks. Relatively inexperienced. Still got a helluva lot to learn. Older, wiser cops are still capable of surprising me. Sometimes I need to hold back before I interfere. Give them a chance to-

Scratch that. It’s bullshit.

This is Wrong, with a capital W.

LeBlanc has seen many things that have made him feel uncomfortable. Cops who have accepted one too many ‘freebies’. Cops who have been a little bit too free and easy with their fists during their interrogation of suspects. Cops who have suggested that LeBlanc look the other way while they have a ‘private conversation’ with a perp. He has witnessed all these things. He is not naive. He knows how the world turns.

But this. .

He can’t let this go.

When he enters the squadroom he is ready for a fight. Not a physical fight — he knows that Doyle would put him on his ass in a second — but a squaring off while some serious truth-seeking takes place. He doesn’t care if anyone else is there to listen. He needs to hear what Doyle has to say for himself. Doyle owes him that much, and he will demand that Doyle gives it up.

Except that there is no sign of Doyle in the squadroom. His desk is unoccupied. His jacket isn’t on his chair or the rack. LeBlanc came in here with adrenalin pumping through his system, and now he has no way of putting it to use.

‘What’s the matter, kid?’

This from Schneider, who has watched LeBlanc thunder into the squadroom like he’s about to tear it apart.

LeBlanc rounds on him. ‘I’m looking for Doyle. You seen him?’

‘Me? No. But then he’s not a guy I make it my business to find very often. Ain’t he supposed to be your partner?’

LeBlanc knows what Schneider’s doing. He’s saying: Doyle is your partner. He should be keeping you up to speed. You shouldn’t have to ask where he’s gone. And he’s doing this to turn LeBlanc against Doyle, because every day that Schneider can create another enemy of Doyle’s is a successful day in Schneider’s book. LeBlanc knows this; he’s not stupid. But right at this moment he’s willing to overlook the obviousness of this ruse. Right now he’s pretty amenable to being asked to play for the opposing team.

‘That’s what I thought too,’ he snarls. ‘But hey, what do I know?’

Schneider raises his eyebrows in obvious surprise at the vehemence of LeBlanc’s reply.

‘I told you. Doyle doesn’t do partners. You get put with him, you still have to watch your own back. Remember that. Look after number one, kid, because you can be sure that’s what Doyle’s doing.’

LeBlanc doesn’t know what to do. This is unfamiliar territory. The last thing he wants is to jam up a fellow cop, especially his own partner. But Schneider is right. In his own blunt, opinionated way he is uttering wise words. LeBlanc needs to make sure he doesn’t end up getting accused of covering up for Doyle through his failure to speak out. He needs guidance. An older, wiser head to whom he can turn for help.

‘You wanna talk about it?’ says Schneider.

And there it is. The offer of assistance. Right here, right now.

‘You got a few minutes?’ LeBlanc asks.

The marks are already darkening into savage bruises. Purples, blues and greens stain almost his entire body, making it look as though it bears one huge abstract tattoo.

Proust is impressed by the workmanship.

One missing tooth, another broken in half, and a hairline fracture of one rib.

That’s pretty damned good. To be carrying all those marks and to have only those underlying injuries — well, that’s the sign of a true craftsman. Gowerson performed exactly as advertised. Proust has always admired those who not only have great skill, but who also go to great pains to make things just so.

Speaking of pains. .

The rib hurts like crazy. A red-hot dagger into the chest every time he breathes or moves, both of which he tends to do frequently. Who would have guessed that such a tiny crack could make its presence felt so emphatically?

The hospital staff told him there was nothing more they could do for the rib. Rest and strong painkillers is what they prescribed. They told him he was lucky to come through an assault like that with nothing more serious. Said he was, in fact, fortunate to be alive.

He wanted to laugh when they told him that. He does it now instead. Naked in front of the mirror, he lets out a long, loud burst of laughter, stopping only when the tears running down his cheeks are those not of amusement but of indescribable agony.

He hasn’t taken the painkillers. He wants to experience this pain. He is so used to others enduring pain at his hands in the tattoo shop, and yet he has suffered very little in his lifetime. He has never broken a bone before or had toothache or even a severe headache. Pain has always been something to avoid, to fear. He feels that he is somehow conquering that fear. He is becoming stronger. He can cope much more easily with what life may throw at him.

Bring it on, Doyle, you miserable, puny fuck. Bring it on.

FOURTEEN

‘You need to talk with her.’

This from Rachel, across the dinner table. It’s spaghetti bolognese tonight. Not fish. There shouldn’t be bones. If there are bones, then his wife has planted them there to teach him a lesson.

‘Tomorrow,’ he says, even though he knows it’s pointless.

‘No, not tomorrow. I know what it’s like when you’re working a homicide. We hardly ever see you. You’ll be out before Amy is up for breakfast, and you’ll be home after she’s gone to bed. I’m not complaining about that. That’s just how it is. To be honest, I’m a little surprised you’re home right now. But since you are, you should take the opportunity to talk to Amy. It can’t wait, Cal.’

The reason Doyle is home right now is that it’s probably his only chance today to see his family and have a decent meal. He hasn’t told Rachel yet, but he’s got a busy night planned, and it doesn’t involve dancing or drinking. It doesn’t involve solving the murder of Megan Hamlyn either. As far as Doyle is concerned, he’s already nailed that one. All he needs to do now is find a way to prove it. And it’s precisely because of what he intends to do tonight that he is determined the couple of hours he can spend at home now will be friction-free.

‘All right,’ he says. ‘Gimme five minutes, okay?’

She smiles at him. Doyle finishes his meal. Doesn’t find a single bone.

‘What’s for dessert?’ he asks.

‘Chocolate mousse,’ says Rachel. ‘It’ll be your reward for counseling Amy.’

Doyle frowns at her. ‘You do know that attempting to bribe a police officer is a felony, don’t you?’

‘It’s also an offense for an officer to accept a bribe. Let’s see what you do when the chocolate mousse is on the table in front of you.’

Doyle gets up from his chair and starts to head out of the living room.

‘This mousse better not be something you made up just to get your own way,’ he says.

He finds Amy in her bedroom. She’s lying on her bed, wrapped in a fluffy white towel, her head buried in a book.

He’s had a lot of conversations with Amy in this room. For some reason, it has become a place of opening up, of voicing fears and innermost thoughts and wishes for the future. And not only by Amy. Doyle has often found himself putting his own opinions and worries under the spotlight during these brief one-on-ones with his only daughter. She has that effect on him. Her innocence and complete trust never fail to make him lower his shield.

‘Hey, sugar,’ he says. ‘What’s the book?’

She looks up at him, beams a cheeky smile. ‘Hi, Daddy. It’s about stromony.’

‘Stromony, huh? What’s that?’

She looks wide-eyed at him. ‘You don’t know what stromony is?’

‘Nope. Is it about dinosaurs?’

‘No, silly.’

‘Ponies?’

‘Uh-uh.’

‘Fairies?’

‘No, Daddy,’ she says in despair. ‘It’s about stars and planets and space.’

‘Ah. And little green moon goblins?’

‘No. No moon goblins. Don’t you know anything?’

‘Not a lot, I guess.’

He tries to dredge up a fascinating astronomical fact, and fails miserably. All that comes to mind is a limerick that begins, ‘There was a young space-girl from Venus,’ but he decides it’s best not to share it.

He says, ‘Tell me something about stromony.’

‘Well. .’ says Amy. ‘You know all the stars?’

‘You mean the movie stars?’

‘No, silly. The stars in the sky. The twinkly ones.’

‘Oh, those stars. What about them?’

‘Well, they’re really suns.’

Doyle allows his jaw to go slack. ‘No. Suns? Tiny little suns?’

‘No, they’re not tiny. They’re big, like our sun. But they’re really far away.’

‘How far? You mean, like, from here to Ellie’s apartment?’

‘More than that.’

‘How about here to New Jersey?’

‘More.’

‘To the North Pole?’

Amy has to think about this one. ‘Can we see the North Pole from here?’

‘No.’

‘Then maybe not that far.’

‘But still a long way,’ Doyle says.

‘Yes.’

‘Wow!’

‘Yes, it’s amazable, isn’t it?’

‘It certainly is amazable. Are you doing this stuff at school too?’

He thinks, Subtle switch, you sly dog.

‘Sometimes. Not all the time.’

‘No. You have to do lots of other work too, don’t you?’

‘Yes. Hundreds.’

‘Sure. And I bet you get through lots of pencils and erasers and things, don’t you?’

Amy goes quiet then, and drops her gaze. Even at seven she can see Doyle’s ploy for what it is. She knows exactly where this is headed.

‘Honey, you listening to me?’

She nods. Says nothing for a while. Then: ‘Are you mad at me?’

‘No. Why would I be mad at you?’

‘I don’t know. Mommy’s mad at me.’

‘No she isn’t. She just wants to understand.’

Amy picks at a stray thread on the edge of her towel.

‘Pumpkin?’ says Doyle. ‘Is there something going on at school? Something you don’t want to talk about?’

Amy shakes her head.

‘You sure?’

‘Yes. I told Mommy. I don’t know how those things got in my backpack.’

‘You didn’t put them there?’

‘No.’

‘You weren’t looking after them for a friend?’

‘No.’

Her head is bowed really low now. So low that Doyle cannot see her expression. But it seems to him that she is on the edge of tears. He feels his own heart cracking.

And then a sequence of images starts to play in his head. He is back in Proust’s tattoo parlor. Ripping the guy’s shirt off. Threatening him. Letting him know that there is no doubt in Doyle’s mind about his guilt.

So why the difference?

Why the heavy-handed approach with Proust and the soft touch with Amy? Why believe one and not the other?

And what if he’s wrong? What if Proust is actually innocent and his own daughter has become a thief? Is that possible? Could Doyle’s own judgment be so impaired?

No, he tells himself. I’m right, on both counts. Even if nobody else trusts me on this, I’m right.

‘All right, Amy,’ he says. And when she doesn’t reply, he touches a curled finger to her chin and raises her face to look at him. ‘I believe you. No big deal, okay?’

He spends a few more minutes with her, changing the subject and doing his best to blot the earlier conversation out of her mind. But when he leaves her bedroom he cannot shake off the profoundly sad feeling that a little something has died between the two of them tonight, and with it, a little of his belief in himself.

Lorenze Wheaton ain’t afraid of no man. Not tonight. Not any night.

That’s what he tells himself. That’s what he believes. He doesn’t see what’s underneath. He’s blind to the young man in constant fear for his life. That version of Wheaton is a pussy. This here is the real Wheaton, walking tall and slow, not afraid of meeting the gaze of any motherfucker who might feel the need to stare him out.

His bravery is supported by the six-pack of beer he just shared at Tito’s place. The blunts they fired up there didn’t hurt neither. That was some seriously good shit Tito had there.

And then of course there’s the nine. The biggest confidence booster of them all.

He reaches behind, taps himself on the back, just over the right kidney. Feels through his jacket the reassuring hardness of the Beretta 92 tucked into his waistband.

Go ahead, Mojo, he thinks. Make your play. This nigger’s strapped, motherfucker, and don’t that change everything?

He’s strolling back from the projects on the other side of Avenue D, heading along East Seventh Street. It’s after midnight and it’s raining hard and the slick street is quiet. He doesn’t mind the rain. In fact he likes it. It calms him. He thinks he could just stop and stand here for hours, his face upturned to the sky, feeling the heavy raindrops beating softly on his face.

But he doesn’t stop walking. Something is dragging him home. Not fear. He ain’t afraid.

He knows Mojo wants to down him. Mojo has been putting the word out on this for weeks, and for no good reason. Not unless getting it on with Mojo’s huge-titted girlfriend counts as a reason.

Wheaton chuckles to himself. She was a fine piece of ass, all right. He’d loved to have seen Mojo’s face when he found out.

He hears the deep-throated roar of a car as it accelerates behind him. He turns, and is dazzled by the headlights. He halts and puts his hand behind him. The car goes straight past, the passenger, a blond white woman, giving him a cursory glance.

Wheaton blows air. Ain’t nothin’. Not Mojo’s boys and not Five-O. Besides, he can handle either one of them. If it’s Mojo’s crew, he pulls his nine and starts downing those bitches. If it’s the police, he books. He’s got it all figured out. Soon as a cop shows interest, he takes off like Road Runner, meep-meep. Maybe they catch him, maybe they don’t. What matters is that it gives him time to toss the strap. And if they find it, he can deny all knowledge. He always wears gloves when he takes the Beretta out with him. He’s not taking chances. If he’s caught carrying a concealed weapon it would mean serious jail time.

It’s but a short walk to his mom’s place. She won’t be there. She’s hardly ever there. She’ll be out with that new boyfriend of hers. She’ll turn up some time tomorrow. Lunchtime probably. Looking like shit. Then she’ll go straight to bed.

Wheaton doesn’t care. He likes having the crib to himself. When he gets in he’ll be able to play his music as loud as he wants while he has another beer and smokes some more weed.

Another car approaches. Wheaton tells himself to ignore it. He’s already at his apartment building. Seconds from safety. Not that he’s scared or nothing.

He doesn’t even bother to look as the car flashes past and he hears the spray of rainwater churned up from the wheels. No gunfire, no yelling at him to freeze. Nothing to get worked up about. He smiles as he permits himself a moment of feeling bulletproof before he abandons the street.

He looks up at his building. One light shines out from the top floor. The rest is in blackness. On the other side of the tall stoop he can make out bags of garbage stacked high on the trash cans. He kicks open the iron gate and starts down the steps to the basement apartment. The front door is set into the side of the stoop. He pats his pockets as he tries to get his fogged brain to remember where he put his damned keys. He hears a small metallic sound somewhere in his jacket. He reaches into one of his inside pockets, finds the key. He inserts it into the keyhole and turns. Pushes the door open.

The shape is on him in an instant.

It floats down from the street level. Barely seems to touch the steps. The slightest of sounds is all it makes. Wheaton has time to turn only a fraction before the dark shape is level with him. And although it seems to Wheaton that this must be some terrible ethereal demon to be able to travel so quickly and silently, when it strikes he discovers just how solid it actually is. Something — a fist, a weapon, he doesn’t know — connects with the side of his head with force enough to make everything go temporarily black, and when he next can see again, it’s the tiles of his floor he’s staring at.

He feels hands sliding over his back. At least he presumes they are hands. Right now he’s not even sure his attacker is human. What if these are some kind of feelers or claws running over him?

He hears a whimper, and realizes it’s himself.

He feels his jacket being yanked up and the Beretta snatched from under his belt. Now he’s utterly defenseless. Something grabs him at shoulder level. It lifts him from the ground slightly. Starts to drag him along the floor and into the interior of the apartment. There are no lights on in here. He cannot see anything. He feels like he’s being dragged into the lair of a giant insect of some kind, to be trussed up and eaten at its leisure.

Another whimper. Then he remembers he has a voice. ‘Hey! HEY! What is this? Who are-’

He gets hit again. Another blow to the right side of his head. He grunts, then starts to feel the burning pain in his ear.

His arms are grabbed and pulled behind his back. Something is tied tightly around his wrists, binding them together.

He raises his head from the floor. ‘Please, man. . Whoever you are. . Please. .’

He knows he’s making no sense, but he has no idea what is going on here. He doesn’t know what he should say, what he can do to stop this.

Something presses to his face. It forces his head back onto the cold floor. It’s a hand — a human hand. He’s sure of this now. ’Course it’s a human hand, Lorenze, you dumb fuck. What the fuck else would it be?

The hand is gloved. He can smell the leather as he struggles to draw air into his lungs.

And then his ear burns some more, but this time because hot breath is being blown onto it. Breath that carries three simple words that explain all this.

‘Mojo says hello.’

So this is it. The moment he has been preparing for but which, deep in his heart, he never really thought would come. He thought it was all bluster on Mojo’s part. Trying to sound big. Trying to maintain control through fear. All part of the game. The game that Wheaton has been playing too. Carrying that piece to show that he is also a warrior, ready to do battle at any time, even though he believed he would never have to pull the trigger.

And now that time has actually come, and he has already lost. He is about to die. Here in his mother’s place, where he ought to be safe. And tomorrow she will come home and find her only son with a bullet-hole in his skull, and his blood and brain matter spilled across her cold tiled floor.

‘I got money,’ he says. ‘I can get it for you. Just don’t-’

But his words are lost when the sack comes over his head and is fastened tight around his neck. He hears only his own breath now, coming fast and shallow, and his pulse, booming in his head. He closes his eyes. Even though he can see nothing anyway, he screws his eyes up tight and clenches his teeth and waits for the gunshot.

But it’s not going to be so quick and easy. His mental torture is not yet over.

‘Sing,’ the voice hisses against the cloth. At least that’s what it sounds like to Wheaton.

‘Wh-What?’

‘I want you to sing.’

‘Sing? You want me to fuckin’ sing? S-sing what?’

‘Whatever. You choose.’

Wheaton’s mind races. He can’t focus on songs right now.

For his hesitation he receives a slap through the hood.

‘I said, “Sing!”’

‘I–I can’t think. The words won’t come. I can’t-’

‘All right, then. I’ll choose. Sing “White Christmas”.’

‘What? You fucking with me, right? You want this nigger to sing ’bout a white Christmas?’

‘Just do it.’

‘I. . I can’t. I only know the first line. Bill Cosby ain’t exactly my thing, yo.’

‘All right, then. “Jingle Bells”. The chorus, okay? Everybody knows the chorus to “Jingle Bells”.’

‘But. . but it ain’t even Christmas. Why the fuck do you-’

Another slap. ‘Do it! Now!’

‘Aiight! I’m doing it, I’m doing it. . Jingle bells, jingle bells, jingle all the way. .”’

‘Louder!’

‘. . Oh what fun, di-dah-di-dah, on a sumthin’ sumthin’ sleigh, hey!’

‘Again, Lorenze. Even louder. Keep repeating it. Stop and you’re dead, hear?’

Wheaton knows he’s dead anyway. He doesn’t know why he’s singing, but he does it. In truth, he’s glad of it. It takes his mind away from what’s about to happen. He doesn’t want to hear a round being chambered or a safety being flicked off or a hammer being cocked. So he sings. Louder and louder. Sings like he’s trying to fill Carnegie Hall with his tuneless voice. Sings like he really does want this to be Christmas, and he’s standing in the cold air of Washington Square Park, belting out his festive chorus for all to hear, for all to know just how wonderful he feels at this happy, happy time of peace and generosity and good will to all men. Sings like he knows it will-

Where the fuck is that bullet?

He stops singing. Strains to listen through the thick cloth. Hears nothing.

‘Yo,’ he says quietly. He tenses, still expecting the gunshot. When it doesn’t come, he risks raising his voice. ‘Yo, you still there?’

Still nothing.

He dares to move. Lifts his head from the floor first of all. Rotates it in all directions while he tries to detect the slightest sound. Any indication that he is not alone.

Silence.

He rolls onto his side, brings his knees up and manages to push himself up into a sitting position.

‘Hey!’ he calls. ‘Whatchoo doin’? Where you at?’

It takes Wheaton a while to convince himself that his attacker is not still here, playing some kind of cruel joke for which the punchline is a bullet to Wheaton’s brain. And when he eventually does manage to believe it, he still can’t understand what this was all about. Why is he still alive? Was this simply some kind of warning? A message to let him know that he’s not untouchable and can be taken out at any time?

He sits cross-legged in the darkness of his mother’s apartment. The hood still on his head. His hands still bound behind his back.

‘Fuck!’ he says. ‘Fuck you, motherfucker!’

His outburst is fueled by anger, but also by self-loathing. He wishes he had fought back more. He wishes he had been more of a man in the face of death. Above all, he wishes it had been the truth when he told himself he was not afraid.

He was very afraid. He knows it now, and it stings.

He could try denying it again. Try acting the hard man he wants everyone else to see.

But his lie would be betrayed by the tears on his cheeks.

Those, and the large wet patch on his pants.

Doyle pulls the car over. He strips off the leather gloves and drops them onto the black ski mask he has already tossed onto the passenger seat.

It doesn’t rattle him that he’s just terrorized another human being. Lorenze Wheaton hardly enters into that category anyhow. Lorenze Wheaton is a punk. A lowlife. He sells drugs to schoolkids. Rumor has it that he also raped a girl of fifteen, but the cops never managed to make that one stick. So what if he’s just had a taste of the misery he doles out to others?

But of course that’s not the real reason Doyle paid him that little visit. He’s not in the business of setting up as a vigilante. No, something else drew him to Wheaton’s place tonight.

He’d heard on the streets about Wheaton’s feud with Mojo. Heard too that Wheaton had taken to carrying a semi-automatic pistol around with him for protection.

Doyle reaches into his pocket and pulls out the Beretta 92. Wheaton’s gun.

He doesn’t know how dangerous this mission he’s on for Bartok is likely to get. What he does know is that if he needs to shoot someone, this time he’s going to make damn sure he doesn’t use a weapon that can be traced back to him.

Not that it will come to that. Doyle doesn’t plan to shoot anyone.

And don’t his plans always work out?

FIFTEEN

It’s after two o’clock in the morning when he kicks in the door.

He hopes this will be straightforward. He hopes that Cubo and his girl will be tucked up in bed. Fast asleep. Not expecting any interruptions to their sweet dreams. Doyle will present his most fearsome aspect, wave his gun around, offer up a few simple questions and then get out of there. That’s how it will go.

Sure.

The first thing he sees is Tasha Wilmot. Which is a surprise in itself because he wasn’t expecting to be able to see a damned thing. But he can see Tasha because there is a lamp on in the room. Not only that, but there is some R amp;B playing quietly in the background. And Tasha is stark naked on the sofa. Welcome home, sugar.

And yet Tasha does not scream. Despite the fact that she is unclothed and is looking at a burly man in a ski mask who has just barged uninvited into her apartment and is now pointing a cannon at her face, she does not yell. Doesn’t even attempt to conceal her assets behind a cushion or two. And the reason for this apparent devil-may-care attitude of hers is not bravery or indignation; it is that she is stoned out of her skull. Doyle sees immediately that she can hardly focus on him, and that the only response he’s likely to get from her is some random eye-rolling accompanied by a little drooling.

He wastes no time in racing across to the bedroom, his heart now thumping warnings against his ribcage. If Tasha is awake, then there is every possibility that Cubo is also awake. And if he’s only a little more compos mentis than his girlfriend, he could well be reaching for a weapon of some kind right now.

Doyle shoulders the door open. Flies into the room. Scans the area with gun outstretched in a two-handed combat stance that would be a dead giveaway to any observer that this intruder is probably a cop, ski mask notwithstanding.

But there are no observers here. Except for perhaps those of the six-legged variety. There is a lamp on in this fleapit of a room, but no Cubo. Which leaves only. .

He hears the noise before he gets there. The bathroom. He launches himself at the door with his leg raised. Drives his foot into the area just over the handle. The door practically comes off its hinges as it crashes open. Doyle’s momentum carries him into the room, and for a terrifying moment he wonders whether an entrance like this is the wisest of moves.

He’s found Cubo.

Luckily his quarry doesn’t pose a threat. In fact, he’s probably the least threatening quarry imaginable. For one thing, he’s naked. He also makes size-zero models look obese: every bone in his body is visible through his thin pallid flesh. And his response to Doyle’s invasion is not to come at him with a knife or a gun, but to contemplate jumping out of the window he has just opened. He sits straddling the windowsill, one leg outside, one in, his gaze oscillating between Doyle and the blackness on the other side of that wall.

‘You don’t wanna do that,’ yells Doyle. ‘You’re five floors up and you’re not over the fire escape. You jump and you’re dead. And if you don’t die, where you gonna go with no clothes on?’

Cubo turns his head to the night air again. A gust of wind blows rain into his face. He turns back to Doyle.

‘I just wanna talk,’ says Doyle. ‘Don’t risk it, man.’ He pushes his Beretta into his waistband, then steps closer to Cubo. He sees that Cubo seems to relax a little, as though he is resolving his dilemma. As though he is on the verge of accepting that an encounter with a masked gunman, however undesirable that might be, beats a fall to certain death.

Doyle makes the most of the opportunity. He covers the remaining distance between himself and Cubo in one sudden bound. He reaches out his hand. .

. . and pushes Cubo out of the window.

Sometimes Doyle thinks he can be a little too impulsive for his own good. Can be a little too reckless.

Take now, for example. Dangling a naked guy out of a window by his ankles has to be one of the more outrageous acts he has perpetrated in his career. He would slap his own wrist if it didn’t mean letting go of this lowlife.

‘Quit the yelling!’ he calls down to Cubo. ‘You want the neighbors to hear? You want them to step into the backyard and see you like this?’

‘Bring me up!’ yells Cubo. ‘Get me the fuck inside, will ya!’

‘The sooner you quit yapping, the sooner I haul you back up. I ain’t exactly enjoying the view I got from up here, if you know what I mean.’

‘Okay,’ Cubo says, his voice unnaturally high-pitched. ‘Okay. I’m shutting up. Now bring me in. I ain’t good with heights.’

‘Then what the hell were you doing opening the window, dumbass? Don’t answer that. I got a more interesting question.’

‘What? What question?’

‘Anton Ruger. Where can I find him?’

‘Who? Who?’

‘Don’t prolong this, Cubo. My hands are getting pretty slippery in this rain. Anton Ruger. Where is he?’

‘I don’t know what you’re talking about, man. I ain’t never heard of no Anton Ruger.’

Doyle allows Cubo’s ankles to slip through his grasp by about an inch. It’s enough to cause Cubo to let out another ultrasonic yelp.

‘Don’t fuck with me, Cubo. I know you been mouthing off about how you’ve been running with Ruger. Now where can I find him?’

‘All right, man. It’s true. I did say that. But it was just talk. I ain’t never met the guy.’

Doyle jerks his arms enough to shake the coins from Cubo’s pants, if he were wearing any. He gets another girlish scream.

‘Then why say it? Of all the scumbags you could claim to fraternize with, why pick Ruger? How come you know so much about him?’

‘All right, listen. There’s this other dude I know. He’s copped from me once or twice. When he was high, he told me about Ruger. About how he works for him. That’s all I know, man. It’s all hearsay. Now, please, let me up.’

Doyle doesn’t relent. Not yet.

‘Who is this guy?’

‘Calls hisself Ramone. I ain’t got no last name.’

‘What’s he look like?’

‘He’s a spic. Smart dresser. Likes the ladies. Has a gold earring.’

‘Where can I find him?’

‘I don’t know. Please. I ain’t got his address.’

Another shake. Another cry.

‘Then where’d you meet him?’

‘A strip joint in Brooklyn. The Arabesque. You know it? Close to the river.’

‘He go there every night?’

‘No. Saturdays. He goes there Saturdays.’

‘Every Saturday?’

‘Yeah. Every fucking Saturday. Now will you bring me up, please?’

Shit, thinks Doyle. This is turning into a wild-fucking-goose chase. How many more of these assholes do I have to lean on before I get to Ruger himself?

What makes it worse is that this Ramone guy is Doyle’s only lead to Ruger, and Saturday night is only hours before the deadline for getting the ring back to Bartok. There’s a big time period between now and then in which Doyle could be just sitting on his hands as far as locating Ruger is concerned.

He decides that this is the most he’s going to get out of Cubo, and hauls him back into the bathroom.

Sitting on the hard floor, dripping and shivering and rubbing his ankles, Cubo looks up at his masked attacker. ‘You didn’t have to go and do that.’

Doyle pulls his gun and aims it at Cubo’s head. ‘This never happened. All right, Cubo? I hear you talked to anyone about this, then I’m coming back. And next time it won’t be your ankles I’ll use to dangle you, if you catch my drift.’ To make his point clear, he lowers his aim. Cubo hastily places his hands over his shriveled genitals.

‘I won’t say nothing. I swear.’

Doyle nods. He believes what he’s just heard. Cubo is too terrified to risk another encounter like this one.

He leaves the bathroom. On his way out of the apartment he sees that Tasha hasn’t moved from her position on the sofa. Still hasn’t bothered to cover herself up.

Seemingly oblivious to the events that have just taken place in her bathroom, she gives Doyle an idle wave and a spaced-out smile. ‘Bye,’ she says. ‘Have a nice day.’

Cubo sits on that bathroom floor for a long time. Sits there shivering until he can’t take the cold anymore.

He drags himself up and closes the window. A last glimpse of the darkness out there makes his head swim. That guy was gonna drop him. From five floors above the ground! Jesus! He would have done it, too. It was in his voice. That dude was serious.

Cubo pulls open the bathroom door. He half expects to see the intruder still there. Maybe balling Tasha or drinking his beers or stealing his stash. And it shames him that, even if the motherfucker is doing any of those things, Cubo will smile and say nothing and wait while the guy has his fun.

But the man is not there. Just Tasha, waving her arms and yelling occasional words she remembers in the song being played, the dumb bitch.

Cubo crosses the living area and goes into the bedroom. He picks up a sweatshirt and jeans from the floor and puts them on. Then he goes back into the living room and paces up and down.

The guy said he would come back if Cubo told anyone about this, and Cubo believes it. Busting down his door, dangling him out of his own window, pointing a nine at his junk — that is one scary-ass motherfucker, man.

But, scary as he is, he is only one man. And, scary as he is, he is not scarier than Ramone, and the men who work for Ramone. When the guy goes after Ramone, and Ramone wastes him, as he surely will, then Ramone will want to know how the stranger found him. He will make inquiries — persistent and forceful inquiries that will undoubtedly lead him back to Cubo. And then hovering five floors above the ground will seem like a carnival ride in comparison to what Ramone will do to him.

And if, perchance, the man in the ski mask defeats Ramone — which he won’t — then he has to go up against Anton Ruger. And then all bets are off. Ruger is the baddest of the bad. Ruger will eat this guy for breakfast. And he too will want to know which rat squealed the information that led to him.

So weigh it up, man. Who frightens you more? A guy who is too chicken-shit even to show his face to you, or an army of killers led by a man who would slice up his own mother just to avoid boredom? Which of those is likely to triumph here, hmm? Which of those would it be sensible to stay on the right side of?

Making his decision, Cubo yells at Tasha to turn the music down, then picks up the phone.

SIXTEEN

Doyle hasn’t had a lot of sleep. Which means he’s irritable on this Friday morning. Which means that LeBlanc is not choosing the best moment to get in his face.

‘You went to see Proust yesterday,’ says LeBlanc.

Doyle thought he would be the first one in this morning, but LeBlanc has beaten him to it. In fact, Doyle gets the impression that LeBlanc has been sitting here for some time, just itching to get something off his chest.

Doyle looks down at LeBlanc behind his desk. The seriousness in the kid’s eyes seems intensified by the stark frames of his spectacles.

‘You put the coffee on?’ Doyle asks. ‘I could really do with a coffee right now.’

‘Was it worth it?’ says LeBlanc, refusing to be distracted from his agenda.

‘It’s gotta be strong, though. Plenty of caffeine. What about you, Tommy? You want some coffee?’

He starts to move away, but LeBlanc leaps from his chair and grabs him by the arm.

‘For fuck’s sake, Cal. I’m trying to talk to you, here.’

Doyle lowers his gaze to his imprisoned arm, then yanks it out of LeBlanc’s grasp. ‘Seems lately you always want to talk to me, Tommy. What the fuck is your problem?’

‘You went to see Proust.’

‘Yes. All right. I went to see Proust. Now will you get over it and move on?’

‘Move on? You act like it’s nothing. Like it’s an everyday occurrence for you. What kind of cop are you, Cal? I thought you were better than this.’

Doyle stares at him. ‘Tommy, why are you getting so bent out of shape about it? Okay, so I didn’t tell you where I was going yesterday. What’s the big deal?’

LeBlanc releases a mirthless laugh. ‘You don’t even know, do you? You don’t know what you did wrong. Have you seen what you did to Proust? Have you actually given him any thought this morning?’

‘Not since I ate my Fruit Loops, no. Tommy, what’s this about?’

LeBlanc pauses. Gathers his thoughts. ‘I went to see Proust too. A few hours after you did.’

Doyle shrugs. ‘So?’

‘Cal, he was really bad. So bad I had to take him to the hospital.’

Doyle stares again. Realizes he’s not on the same page as LeBlanc at all. Not even in the same book.

‘Bad? In what way?’

‘Bad in the way that people get when they’ve had the crap beaten out of them.’

‘What? He. . what?’

‘I’ve seen tune-ups before, Cal, but this goes way beyond that. I don’t know what you were thinking, but-’

‘Wait. Hold up, Tommy. You’re telling me that Proust has been assaulted? And you think I did it?’

‘Are you denying it?’

‘Of course I’m denying it. Does Proust say different?’

‘Not in so many words. He made up some lame story about being mugged by a gang, but it’s bullshit.’

‘So he didn’t say it was me. But you still think it was?’

‘What am I supposed to think, Cal? You go to see him without telling me, even though you’re not supposed to. You come back with a bruise under your eye that you won’t explain. And when I go to see Proust, he looks ready for a body bag. How else am I supposed to read that?’

‘Not in the way you’re doing. I don’t know what happened to Proust, and I can’t say I feel sorry for the guy, but it wasn’t me. I didn’t hit him. Not even once.’

Doyle can tell from the look on LeBlanc’s face that he’s not convinced. And he can’t really blame him. Doyle has already let LeBlanc see his lack of regard for Proust. Yes, maybe he did go too far when he ripped the scumbag’s shirt off him. And yes, maybe the secrets he has kept from his partner have done nothing to promote his integrity in LeBlanc’s eyes. But that doesn’t mean he would beat Proust to within an inch of his life, even though there are times when he pictures himself doing a lot more than that.

He turns away then, and starts heading out of the squadroom. LeBlanc runs past him and blocks his way.

‘Where you going, Cal?’

‘To sort this out with Proust. To get the truth from him.’

‘Uh-uh. Can’t let you do that.’

Doyle almost laughs in surprise. This kid has balls.

‘You can’t let me do it? What, are you gonna arrest me?’

LeBlanc chews on his lip for a moment. Doyle can see how nervous he is, and in a way he both admires him and feels sorry for him.

‘The lieutenant has already given strict instructions for you not to go anywhere near Proust. You disobey that now, and I’ll have to talk to the boss.’

‘You’d do that? Why? You think I’m gonna take another pop at Proust?’

‘No. Because somebody needs to protect you from yourself.’

‘Nice of you to care, Tommy, but I don’t need no protection. Get out of my way.’

Doyle takes a step forward, but LeBlanc doesn’t budge.

‘Okay, then, if you won’t listen to me for your own sake, then do it for the case.’

‘What are you talking about?’

‘Proust is your number-one suspect, Cal. You got a real hard-on for this guy as the perp. And maybe you’re right. Maybe he did do it. But you going at him like this won’t prove anything. In fact, it could jeopardize the whole case. Let’s take it slow and easy. We’ll follow the leads and we’ll find the evidence. But you need to keep him at arm’s length while we do that. Okay?’

Doyle thinks about it. He wants to shoulder LeBlanc aside and storm out of here. Go straight over to Proust’s place and squeeze the truth out of him. And it’s not LeBlanc’s words of wisdom that are stopping him. If anything, the kid’s patronizing tone is irritating him to the point of making Doyle want to pull off his partner’s spectacles and stomp on them. No, what’s holding him back is LeBlanc’s earlier threat. Doyle believes it. The kid will go straight to Cesario as soon as Doyle leaves the building. And that will be it. He will be off the case.

He can’t risk that.

‘I haven’t had that coffee yet,’ he tells LeBlanc. Then he turns around and heads back into the squadroom.

‘Go ahead, Mom. Get your ass up there.’

Nicole turns. Megan is standing just a few feet away, grinning, showing her dimples. Her blond curls are tucked up under her swimming cap. She is wearing her favorite swimsuit — the black Speedo with the cut-outs. God, she’s so shapely now. Going to be a real heartbreaker.

Nicole tilts her head back and gazes up that staircase that seems high enough to take her to the moon, then looks across at Megan again. Megan urges her on with a wave.

‘Go on. You can do it.’

Nicole gives her the subtlest of nods. A nod which says, I’m doing what you say but I’m not convinced in the least. Biting her lip, she starts up the steps of the tower. When she gets to the first platform, she pauses and looks down.

‘Uh-uh, Mother,’ calls Megan. ‘All the way up.’

Nicole continues her ascent. She feels the fluttering starting in her stomach. Her teeth begin to chatter, more from nerves than the cold. She thinks she may vomit. She goes up and up and up until the roof of the building seems close enough to touch.

On the top platform she grabs the handrails and looks directly ahead. She doesn’t want to look down, because her thoughts are already starting to swirl with the knowledge that there’s a vast space beneath her, just waiting to swallow her up.

But Megan is yelling for her attention: ‘Mom! Mom!’

Nicole grips the handrails tighter and risks a quick glance downward. Tries to focus on the tiny figure of her daughter rather than the fact that she’s a million miles straight down.

Okay, so not a million miles. But ten meters is still pretty damned high. That’s thirty-three feet. It would be like falling off the roof of a house.

Megan is gesticulating wildly, urging her mother to move along the platform.

Nicole gives another tentative nod, more for her own benefit than for Megan’s. She faces forward again, starts to step gingerly along the board. Keeps forcing herself onward until the handrails disappear and there is only a narrow rectangle of solidity preventing her from plunging into the depths below.

Somehow — she’s not sure how — she makes it to the end of the platform. Even manages to curl her toes over its front edge. She’s breathing hard, but not through exertion. Her pulse is pounding in her head. She tries to focus. She knows exactly what to do, what the technique is. She has seen Megan do this a thousand times. Has even acted as her daughter’s sternest judge and critic of her efforts.

Megan is good, though. Superb. Nicole can picture her now. Launching herself into space, her arms out, her spine arched. Sailing through the air for what seems like an age. Then, at the last possible moment, bringing her palms together in the flat-hand position, her arms tight against her ears. A perfect ‘rip’ entry into the water with barely a splash. And throughout this, her mother watching from the benches, unable to breathe through both admiration and fear.

Nicole ventures a snap glance into the dive well. Jesus, it’s high up here.

She can’t back out now. She has driven twenty miles to get here. She’s at the Nassau County Aquatic Center in East Meadow. It’s only eight-forty. The place isn’t even open to the public yet. But that’s okay. The staff here know her well. The countless hours she spent here with Megan while she trained and competed.

‘Go, Mom! Nothing fancy. A simple dive, just like all the others.’

Simple. Easy for you to say. I’m crapping myself just standing here.

Focus, Nicole tells herself. She has limbered up with twenty lengths in the main pool. She has done several practice dives from the three-meter springboard. She has worked her way up the tower to the 7.5-meter platform. What’s this but just a little extra height?

She purses her lips and exhales hard, trying to control her breathing. She flicks water from her fingers at her sides. Curls her toes over the platform edge again. I’m ready, she thinks.

‘Stop thinking about it. Just do it.’

Nicole looks down. This time, she thinks. I can do this.

And then she turns around and almost runs back to the safety of the handrails.

‘Jeez, Mom! What are you doing?’

But Megan isn’t annoyed. She’s laughing. And Nicole is laughing too. They are both laughing because it’s the same every time. Nicole goes up, Nicole comes down. But it’s always via the stairs. It’s become a running joke between mother and daughter. Something Nicole will never forget.

As she clambers her way down the steps, she can hear Megan practically screaming with laughter. And Nicole cannot help but join in. They will laugh together until the tears run down their faces, and Megan will refuse to let it lie. She will tease her parent all the way home. Tell her that she cannot believe how her own mother cannot even-

The laughter stops.

It stops because Nicole cannot see Megan anywhere on the poolside. She is not here.

She was never here.

And now Nicole knows why she came all the way to the Aquatic Center in East Meadow. When she got up this morning she told herself she needed to get out of the house. She needed some exercise. Something to take her mind away from the horrors of reality.

Swimming, she decided. She has always been a good swimmer.

But now she knows it was her mind playing tricks on itself. She didn’t really have to settle on swimming as a distraction. And even if that was all she could come up with, she could have visited a pool closer to home.

No, she came here not to forget but to remember. To make a connection. This is Megan’s place. This is where she spent a huge portion of her free time outside school hours. Not hanging around on street corners. Not going off to places like the East Village. Why would she? This sport was her life.

And now Nicole knows why she didn’t execute her dive. It wasn’t just her fear. It was the fact that it wasn’t right. It wasn’t what was expected. By either of them. If Nicole had dived, there would have been no laughter, no ribbing. It would have been the end. It would have closed a door.

‘Nic? Are you okay?’

Phil. One of the pool guards.

‘I. . I heard about Megan,’ he says. ‘I’m real sorry.’

‘It’s okay,’ she replies. But then she hurries away. Back to the changing rooms. She doesn’t want to lament; she wants to celebrate. She wants to keep the laughter of Megan ringing in her ears for ever.

A crap.

That’s all he’d gone for. A quick dump.

It’s always the same when he drinks strong coffee. It pushes everything else out of his system. He couldn’t contain himself any longer.

Besides, he’s not a nursemaid. He’s not paid to sit here minding Doyle all day.

But he can guess where Doyle has gone. His choice of the very moment that LeBlanc slips out of the squadroom to do his own disappearing act is no coincidence.

Of that LeBlanc is certain.

He is angry, but his anger is tempered by a sense of sadness. He feels he has given Doyle every opportunity to do things in the right way and, every time, Doyle has insisted on shrugging off his partner’s helping hand.

I can’t stop Doyle’s march of destruction, thinks LeBlanc.

All I can do is make sure the only one destroyed by Doyle is himself.

SEVENTEEN

‘Jesus, Stan! What the hell happened to you?’

He’s not concerned, thinks Proust. Curious, yes. But Doyle doesn’t care about my welfare. Wouldn’t matter to him if I was dead.

‘I got on the wrong side of someone.’

There, Doyle. Make of that what you will. You wanna play games, let’s do it, you sonofabitch.

‘Who would that be, Stan?’

‘Why? You think they should be arrested? Think they should be locked up for doing this to me?’

He sees the confusion in Doyle’s eyes. The uncertainty. He’s on unfamiliar ground now, and he doesn’t like it. Well, fuck him. He started this.

‘What’s going on, Stan? You looking to jam me up for what happened to you? You really think you could pull that off?’

Doyle advances as he says this. He cuts a threatening figure, and although Proust has the counter between him and Doyle, he still feels nervous. He can feel himself starting to tremble.

No, he tells himself. You can do this. Stand up to him. He’s a bully, and there’s nothing a bully likes better than a willing victim. Show him what you’re made of. What’s the worst he can do? Inflict pain? Ha! I can do pain now, you bastard. Try me. Go ahead, you big fucking nobody, try me.

‘I’m not looking to do anything, Detective. Why would I? What would be the purpose? I’m just a plain ordinary citizen, wanting to get on with his plain ordinary life. There something wrong with that?’

When Doyle slams his palm down on the countertop, the bang echoes around the room and Proust flinches visibly.

Stay calm, he tells himself. Anyone would have jumped at that. Doesn’t mean you’re scared. Don’t let him get to you.

Doyle raises his voice. ‘No, Stan. You’re not a plain ordinary citizen. Ordinary citizens don’t torture and kill other citizens. You’re special in that way, Stan. That’s why you get my special attention.’

Proust can feel his eye twitching. Shit! He gets it sometimes. A nervous tic. He rubs his eye, trying to massage it back into its normal behavior. He doesn’t want Doyle thinking he’s intimidated by him, because he’s not. Damn straight, he’s not.

‘I ain’t nothing special. I just do tattoos. And you need to stop making all these accusations about me.’

Doyle leans forward over the counter, his expression menacing. ‘Or what, Stan? What will you do?’

Proust wants to maintain eye contact. He wants to look this bastard right back in his pupils and tell him what a sad, pathetic clown he is. He wants to punch him. Right in the mouth. Knock a few teeth out.

But he can’t do any of that. Can’t even endure the staring match. He has to look away. And it shames him to do so. Reminds him of all the times he backed down from the bullies at school. It makes him sick to the stomach, and he feels the self-loathing start to rise in his gullet.

And then, as if to make amends for all the times he has been put through situations like this, fate offers him a helping hand. If he hadn’t averted his gaze just when he did, he might never have detected the opportunity being presented to him.

In one of the wall mirrors he sees a movement on the street outside. A man, getting out of his car. It’s Doyle’s partner. The blond cop. LeBlanc, or whatever his name is. He’s looking at another car parked behind his own. Doyle’s car. And now he’s throwing his hands up in despair and shaking his head.

‘Are you listening to me, Stan? I asked you what you were going to do about it.’

Proust runs his hand through his hair. Pretends he’s considering Doyle’s question. Acts as though he’s about to collapse under this onslaught, which is exactly what Doyle wants him to do.

He sees LeBlanc move to the curb, a look of grim determination on his face. He’s getting ready to cross the street. Getting ready to barge straight in here.

He doesn’t know where it comes from, but that’s when Proust gets his idea. The muse strikes. Oh, yes, that beautiful muse grabs him right by the crotch and whispers sweetly in his ear.

‘I ain’t doing this no more,’ he says to Doyle, and then he’s gone.

It takes Doyle by surprise, Proust walking off like that. It’s as if the man was suddenly seized by an impulse to get away. As if he knows that a bomb is about to go off in here.

Doyle knows he can’t leave it at that. He can’t just go back to his car. He has to find out what the hell is going on. Why is Proust acting so peculiarly? Why the sudden need to go into his living area? Has he finally snapped? Is he going to fetch a weapon of some kind, or to call the cops?

Doyle steps around the counter. He pushes open the door through which Proust has just exited. It leads to a small, narrow room. Windowless, it is illuminated by only a single naked bulb of feeble wattage. The walls are mostly lined with dark wooden shelves holding tattoo equipment and books on art and design. At the far end of the claustrophobic space, in the left-hand wall, another door creaks as it slowly closes. Proust has just left through that door.

Doyle picks up his pace as he traverses the storage room. He doesn’t want to give Proust time to set a trap or locate a weapon. He gets there before the door can finish closing, and puts a hand out to stop it. The door consists almost entirely of a panel of translucent glass, enclosed in a narrow painted frame. The glass is an ugly pale yellow, like paper aged by sunlight, and through it Doyle can just make out the shape of Proust in the room beyond. He pushes the door open and steps inside.

The place hasn’t changed much since Doyle was last in here, all that time ago when he was looking into the Alyssa Palmer case. To Doyle’s right is a counter, beyond which is a kitchen area so small you could fetch food from the fridge, wash it, slice it and cook it without your feet even shifting position. Next to the kitchen is a tiny living area containing a lumpy sofa and chair huddled in front of a television. The TV sits on top of a hi-fi unit that leans to the left because one of its front wheels is missing. In stark contrast to the clinical cleanliness and modernity of the tattooing room they have just left, everything here seems shabby and faded and threadbare.

Directly in front of Doyle, Proust is standing with his back to an old dining table. There is an odd expression on his face. Doyle isn’t sure what to make of it. Terror? No, not that. What then? Expectation?

Behind Doyle, the door swings back and clicks home, the glass rattling slightly in its frame.

‘Stan? Is there something you need to tell me?’

‘N-no.’ Proust’s eyes dart from side to side. He rubs his palms up and down his pants. It’s about the most nervous Doyle has ever seen him. Why is that? What does he think I’m about to do to him?

Suddenly this all seems so wrong to Doyle. He can’t put his finger on it, but there’s something happening here of which he’s not aware.

A trap? Is this a trap of some kind? Would this little shit dare to attempt such a thing?

Doyle finds himself scanning the cramped living quarters. Can there be somebody else here?

‘Stan? What the hell is eating you?’

The buzzing noise startles them both. Proust in particular almost leaps up onto his dining table. On the wall to Doyle’s left, a red light starts flashing.

Says Doyle, ‘You got a customer?’

‘I don’t know.’

Doyle furrows his brow. ‘You don’t know? What do you mean, you don’t-’

‘I don’t know, I tell you. I DON’T KNOW!’

Doyle’s eyes widen. Proust’s reaction is totally disproportionate. Why is he shouting like this?

‘All right, Stan. Take it easy. I was just-’

And then Stan is moving away from his table. Sidling around Doyle. There is a crazed, hunted look in his eyes.

‘I DON’T KNOW ANYTHING! PLEASE! STOP THIS!’

There is deep pleading in his voice. He could almost be begging for his life. Doyle feels the situation has suddenly spun out of control. Any logic that was here before has abandoned ship. A crash is about to take place and he doesn’t know what he can do to stop it.

He starts to reach for his gun.

‘Stan! Stay where you are!’

‘PLEASE! NO! STOP!’

‘STAN!’

And then it happens. It happens so fast that all Doyle can do is stand there and watch. He watches as Proust starts running. Watches him run straight at the door. The door with the glass panel running all the way down it. Watches as Proust raises his arms and crashes right through it, the glass exploding into thousands of shards. Watches as he falls through into the storeroom on the other side and hits the floor, the fragments of glass still raining down on him.

‘Jesus!’

Doyle moves across to what remains of the door. Stares through it at the motionless figure of Proust lying on his bed of glinting needles. His mind struggles to make sense of what he has just witnessed. What the hell is going on here?

‘Stan! You okay?’

He steps through the hole in the door. Feels and hears the glass being crunched beneath his heel. He starts to bend toward Proust.

‘Jesus fucking Christ, Cal! What have you done?’

Doyle looks to his right. Sees the silhouette of the figure standing in the other doorway, the one leading into the shop.

And then he understands. It all clicks into place.

The clever bastard. The clever, manipulative, devious, conniving bastard.

Doyle reaches down, slaps his palms onto Proust’s shoulders. Grabs hold of his shirt and flips him over.

‘Oh you fucking sonofabitch!’ he yells. ‘You twisted fuck!’

‘Cal!’ LeBlanc shouts.

Proust’s eyes are closed. His face is streaming with blood. He lets out a low moan.

Doyle drops to his knees, arrows of pain shooting into them as the glass penetrates. He grasps hold of Proust’s shirt collar and begins to shake him violently.

‘It won’t work, Stan. You think you can get away with this? Well, think again. It ain’t gonna work. I am gonna nail you, you sick bastard.’

‘Cal, get the fuck off him, man. What the fuck are you doing?’

Doyle feels the arm snake around his neck. When he doesn’t let go of Proust, the pressure increases and starts to choke him. Doyle allows himself to be dragged upward, away from Proust. When he gets his feet under him again, he launches himself backwards, propelling LeBlanc into the shelves behind him. LeBlanc grunts but doesn’t relax his grip, so Doyle drives his right elbow hard into LeBlanc’s solar plexus. Doyle feels an explosion of breath on his neck, and when LeBlanc drops his arms, Doyle spins around and grabs him by the throat. He draws back his free hand, ready to drive it into LeBlanc’s face.

‘Cal!’ LeBlanc squawks. ‘Cal! Look at yourself. Look at what you’re doing.’

Doyle freezes. He is glad there are no mirrors in here. He can imagine what he must look like. He can picture the crazed fury written on his face and in his eyes. He can feel the tautness in the muscles and tendons of the arm that is about to pulverize his own partner’s features.

Christ, he thinks. He’s right. What am I doing? Can this really be me?

He relaxes the fingers wrapped around LeBlanc’s throat. Starts to lower his clenched fist. LeBlanc slaps Doyle’s arm aside and pushes himself away from the shelving. He moves toward Proust, still lying on the floor, groaning.

‘He jumped,’ Doyle says.

LeBlanc whirls on him.

‘What? What did you say?’

‘He jumped through the door.’

LeBlanc’s laugh is without humor. ‘What, not even a trip? A stumble? A fainting spell? Come on, Cal. Even you can do better than that.’

Doyle feels his anger building again, and he has to fight to push it back inside. ‘He jumped, Tommy. It’s a set-up. He’s trying to put me in a jam to save his own ass.’

LeBlanc just shakes his head and kneels down to examine Proust.

‘What,’ says Doyle, ‘you don’t believe me? You think I’d make up something as ridiculous as that?’

LeBlanc glares at him. ‘I don’t know what to believe. All I know is what I heard and what I saw. What do you think a jury would make of that, Cal? Especially given your history with this guy?’

LeBlanc stands again. He reaches into his pocket and pulls out a cellphone.

‘You giving me up, Tommy?’

‘You must know, I’m calling in EMS.’

‘He doesn’t need an ambulance.’

‘Oh, so you’re now a medical expert too, Cal? The man has just gone through a sheet of glass. Maybe there’s a piece of glass in an artery and he’s bleeding to death here. Maybe he’s fractured his skull. Maybe he’s broken his freaking neck.’

‘He doesn’t need an ambulance,’ Doyle repeats. Then, to Proust, he says, ‘Get the fuck up, Stan. Cut the act.’

LeBlanc suddenly forgets about his phone call. He steps toward Doyle. Reaches under his jacket. Whips out his Glock.

Doyle’s pulse races. What the hell has gotten into LeBlanc?

‘Here,’ says LeBlanc. He offers his gun to Doyle. ‘Go ahead, take it. You wanna finish this, go ahead. Put a bullet in his brain. You really hate this guy so much, then take him out.’

Doyle stares at the younger man. He wonders how things got to be so twisted around. How it is that he, Doyle, is acting like a rookie who doesn’t know what the hell he’s doing, while LeBlanc is being the true professional. How did that happen? When did the world get turned upside down?

He has no answers. And he has no words for LeBlanc. Instead, he starts walking away. He’s done here. He doesn’t care anymore, and maybe that’s because he cared too much. Let LeBlanc make his call. Let him report Doyle to the bosses. Let them take him off the case, off the squad, off the job.

Who gives a fuck?

EIGHTEEN

The noise is driving her crazy.

The hammering, the drilling, the sawing — she can’t hear herself think. It was going on most of yesterday, and it was going on when she had breakfast this morning, and now it’s lunchtime and it’s still going on. What the hell is he doing in there?

Nicole pours the remainder of her still-steaming coffee down the drain and places her cup in the sink. She walks across to the door leading into the garage, then pauses.

It’s gone quiet. Eerily so. She puts her ear to the door. Nothing. Not even the shuffling of Steve’s feet. She presses her head harder against the wood. Holds her breath. .

Whirrrrr.

She leaps back, afraid that a drill bit is about to come straight through the door and into her skull. Angrily, she flings the door open and steps inside. Ready to confront him.

Only she can’t speak.

She can’t talk because of what she sees here. This is not the garage she was expecting. All of its contents have been pushed to one end. In the center of the space, Steve has set up his workbench. A length of wood lies across it, and on top of that is a saw and a retractable tape measure.

But what really grabs Nicole’s attention here is the shelving. Miles of it. Or at least there will be when Steve has finished. Almost every square inch of wall space now has brackets running up it, and some are already supporting wooden shelves.

Steve is standing at the wall separating the garage from the kitchen. He is holding a cordless drill. There is masonry dust and wood shavings all down the front of his coverall and on his face. He looks blankly at his wife as if to say, What’s the problem?

‘Steve,’ she says. ‘What are you doing?’

‘The place is a mess. It needs organizing. I want it neat and tidy.’

She stares at him, incredulous. ‘You want. . What about what I want? Were you planning to consult me on this major change to our property?’

‘Nicole, don’t wig out over a few shelves. You never come in here anyway. Anytime you want something you send me in here to find it. Takes me hours sometimes, going through all that stuff.’ He gestures behind him at the boxes and crates and bicycles and gardening equipment. ‘This way we’ll be able to find things instantly.’

Nicole moves into the center of the garage and looks again at Steve’s handiwork. She’s not convinced that all these shelves are necessary. Not at all sure that they have enough items in here to fill them.

She turns to look at the possessions they keep in the garage, and notices that Steve seems to have divided them into two piles, one larger than the other. She steps closer to the smaller pile. Opens up one of the boxes. It’s full of old auto magazines.

‘Steve, what are the boxes on this side of the garage?’

He turns to face her, the drill still in his hand. ‘Things we can throw out. We don’t need them anymore.’

She nods, but something tugs at her. Whispering to her that something isn’t right here. It’s in Steve’s body language. It’s in his voice. Awkwardness. Anxiety.

She opens another box. Peers inside. Her heart stops. She faces Steve again, sees the guilt on his face.

‘Steve. Please tell me you’ve made a mistake.’

‘What?’ he says, but she can tell that he understands her exactly.

‘Some of Megan’s things are in this box. In this pile that you say is garbage.’

‘I didn’t say they were garbage. That’s not the word I used.’

‘You want to throw them out. What the hell else do you call stuff you’re throwing out?’

‘I. . It’s all really old stuff, Nicole. Stuff we never look at anymore. Stuff you probably don’t even remember keeping. When’s the last time you asked me to dig out any of those things, huh?’

She glares at him. Her eyes blur. She wipes away the tears.

‘I don’t believe you,’ she says. ‘Megan has been dead for what seems like five minutes, and already you’re throwing away her stuff. How could you do that? How could that idea even occur to you?’

He shifts his gaze away from her then, and she can tell that he’s lost the argument. He knows that what he did is wrong. Probably knew it when he set up the two piles. But he did it anyway. What she can’t comprehend is why.

She hopes he will explain. She hopes he will apologize and say that he didn’t know what he was thinking, and then he will cry and they will talk and they will start to come to terms with their grief.

But instead, when he looks back at her there is anger in his eyes. ‘Nicole, we have to move on. The only way we’re going to survive this is if we move on. Megan is dead, and we have to accept that.’

She takes a step toward him. ‘No, Steve. You have to accept it.’

‘What do you mean?’

She waves her arms to indicate the space around them. ‘All this! The way you’re keeping so busy. The way you won’t come near me. The way you won’t talk. The way you’re pushing Megan’s things away from you. You’re in denial, Steve. Can’t you see that?’

He shakes his head, and his lips twist into a sneer. ‘That’s crap.’

‘No. No, it isn’t. Take a look at yourself. Tell me this is normal. Tell me you’re acting exactly the same way you did before Megan was taken from us.’

‘Of course I’m not the same. Nothing is the same. I’m just trying to cope, Nicole. You do it your way and I’ll do it mine. Is that okay with you?’

She goes back to the box and takes out one of the items. A swimming trophy. A shiny shield set upon a polished wooden plinth. One of the first things Megan ever won. She carries it over to Steve and holds it up to his face.

‘This is Megan, Steve. It’s not just a memory. It’s what she was. And it’s all we have left of her. If you think you’re coping, then fine. But don’t you dare, don’t you dare, throw anything of Megan’s away. Not a trophy, not a photograph, not a school report, not even a drawing she made when she was two. Because if you do, if I find that a single possession of hers has gone missing, then I’m going missing too. I’m taking Megan’s things and I’m walking out of this house and I’m never coming back. Do you understand me?’

He looks at her for some time, and she tries to work out what’s going through his head. Is he ashamed? Or is he steeling himself for round two?

‘I hear ya,’ is all he says. Which tells her only that he doesn’t want to continue this conversation. It’s a nothing answer. A cop-out. She feels her own anger growing. She wants to slap this man, to bring him out of this semi-conscious state he has imposed on himself.

But then suddenly her rage is elbowed out by pity. This is her husband. Megan’s father. He wasn’t responsible for her death. He didn’t ask for this. And he can’t deal with it. That’s not his fault either. He is strong in so many ways but he can’t handle this. What is so wrong with that? What is so weak about a man who cannot accept the loss of his only child, his beautiful daughter?

She takes a step closer. She wants to hug him. Wants him to hug her. She reaches out a hand and touches it to his arm.

‘You’re hurting,’ she says. ‘We’re both hurting. We need to help each other. Nobody else can do it for us.’

He takes a deep breath and exhales slowly. She hopes that a whole lot more will follow that breath. Some tears. Some release. Some emotions other than hate.

‘I should finish these shelves,’ he says.

She nods. She closes her eyes and then opens them again, and a tear falls.

She walks over to the shelving. Puts Megan’s trophy on one of them. Turns it slightly so that it is square on. She steps back and lets the metal reflect the light into her eyes.

‘It looks good there,’ she says. ‘Don’t you think?’

He doesn’t answer, and she steps out of the garage and closes the door softly behind her. She waits for a while, then puts her ear to the door. She remains poised there, her fingers on the handle, praying for a cry of anguish or at least a rhythmic gentle sobbing.

Hearing nothing, she walks away.

He’s crazy.

Has to be.

Nobody throws themselves through a panel of glass like that. That only happens in the movies, where they use fake glass. The real stuff is dangerous, man. It can cut you to ribbons. It can slice through your jugular or another artery, or it can take part of your face off, leaving you permanently disfigured. Nobody in their right mind would risk that.

Which is kinda the point, really. Because Proust isn’t in his right mind, is he? Anyone who could do what he did to those girls has to be certifiable.

Or desperate.

What? No, surely not. Nobody could be that desperate. Sure, Proust is afraid of me, but not as shit-scared as he pretends to be. That’s for show. That’s for the likes of LeBlanc and anyone else who’s willing to act as an audience. Proust is clever. He knows what he’s doing. He’s devious and manipulative and crazy. And that makes him dangerous as fuck.

And let’s not forget guilty. Let’s keep that on the list. Because he is. This act of his is all a smokescreen, designed to hide the real story here. Which is that Stanley Proust murdered those two girls. That’s what I need to hang on to. That’s what I need to make others see too.

‘Cal!’

It’s Tommy LeBlanc who interrupts his thoughts. He’s just come into the squadroom, and he’s standing there with his legs apart and his hands twitching at his sides like he’s a gunslinger calling out his sworn enemy.

‘Lemme guess,’ says Doyle. ‘You wanna talk.’

‘Yes, I want to talk. That okay with you?’

Doyle starts to rise from his chair. ‘Lead on, Macduff.’

He follows LeBlanc out of the squadroom and into the interview room along the hallway. LeBlanc closes the door. He marches across to the window, then back again. Then back to the window, all the while refusing to look Doyle in the face.

‘This an exercise class?’ Doyle asks. ‘I forgot to bring my gym shorts.’

LeBlanc halts and turns angrily on Doyle. ‘This is no joke, Cal. What the hell were you thinking? You promised me you would keep away from Proust.’

‘Uh, no I didn’t. You said I should keep away. I never agreed to that.’

‘Didn’t you even think to keep me in the loop?’

‘You weren’t here when I decided to go see him.’

‘Jesus Christ. I went to the washroom. I was gone for all of five minutes.’

Doyle shrugs. ‘What can I say? I make snap decisions.’

LeBlanc shakes his head. Paces up and down a little more.

Says Doyle, ‘How is he?’

‘Proust, you mean? You really wanna know? He’s dead, Cal. He didn’t make it.’

Doyle tenses. He stares in disbelief at LeBlanc. Proust dead? No. He can’t be. It can’t end like this.

‘What? No. He can’t be dead.’

‘No, he’s not fucking dead, Cal. But isn’t that what you wanted to hear? Don’t you want him taken out? Wouldn’t you love to see him lying on a cold slab in the morgue?’

Doyle feels a stab of irritation. ‘All right, Tommy, that’s enough. I don’t like being told what my thoughts are, and I don’t like little pranks like the one you just pulled on me. You got this all wrong.’

‘Have I? Have I, Cal? Tell me how I should see this. Tell me what I should think when I see you attack Proust, ripping his shirt off like that. Tell me what conclusions I should reach when you come back from seeing Proust with a huge shiner under your eye, and he ends up with broken ribs and missing teeth. Tell me what I should imagine happened when Proust comes flying through a glass door and you’re the only other guy in the room, and then you continue to assault him. What kind of picture should I be seeing here, Cal?’

‘Not the obvious one. I know how it looks, but it’s phony. Proust jumped through that door. He must have seen you outside and then he ran into his apartment so that I would follow. When he heard you come through the front door he started yelling and then he dived through the glass.’

‘Uh-huh. And the bruises? The fractured rib?’

‘I don’t know. He threw himself down some stairs. He picked a fight in a bar. I have no idea. But I didn’t do it. That I do know.’

‘Then how come it looks so much like you did?’

‘Because that’s what he wants you to think. He wants you seeing him as the victim instead of the perp. He wants your sympathy. He wants me off his back.’

‘Pretty extreme way of doing it, don’t you think?’

‘Absolutely. But we’re not talking normal here, Tommy. Proust is a man who gets his kicks from torturing young girls. That makes him not right in the head. But he’s also a fucking genius. You remember that tattoo on his chest?’

‘Yeah. What’s that got to do with it?’

‘Looked pretty real, didn’t it? Proust coming out of his own chest. That’s what he’s good at. Making pictures that look real but aren’t. He makes people see what he wants them to see. You see a helpless victim, in fear of the cops. I see a murdering sonofabitch. Same guy, though, Tommy. Same guy.’

LeBlanc rubs his chin while he considers this. ‘I don’t know, Cal. I want to believe you, I really do. But you’re not making this easy for me.’ He pauses. ‘I heard a lot of things about you when I came to this precinct, Cal.’

‘That’ll be Schneider singing my praises again, huh? That guy loves me.’

‘Him, but others too. They said a lot of bad things. They said you were a dirty cop. They said-’

‘Yeah, well, Schneider and his buddies can go fuck themselves. They can-’

‘See, now that’s what I mean.’

‘What? What do you mean?’

‘That’s why I can’t understand you, Cal. All of this stuff with Proust, it suggests they’re right, you know? It says to me, Hey, maybe this guy really is a dirty cop after all. And if you’re not dirty, Cal, then you have to be one of the stupidest cops I’ve ever known.’

‘If you’re giving me a choice, I’ll settle for stupid.’

‘I’m serious. It’s like you have a self-destruct button you have to keep pushing. Take your relationship with Schneider, for example. Did you ever try taking him and his pals for a pizza and a beer and just explaining things to them? You haven’t, have you? They say something negative and you react instantaneously. You blow them off, without a thought for the consequences, without even considering that you’ll have to work with these guys for years to come. And then there’s how you are with me, your partner. All this sneaking around behind my back, again not even caring about how it affects me or the case. You’re not a one-man band, Cal. You have a partner. You’re part of a squad. Why do you insist on forgetting that?’

‘You’re beginning to sound like my mother.’

‘Well, maybe you should listen to your mother a little more often. I may be younger than you. I may be a less experienced detective than you. But Christ do I seem to be a whole lot more aware of what’s going on than you are right now.’

The two detectives lapse into silence for a while. LeBlanc paces some more. Says, ‘Jesus!’ to vent a little steam.

‘What are you going to do?’ Doyle asks. ‘You taking this to the lieutenant?’

‘Would you blame me if I did?’

‘Actually, no. You should do what you think is right.’

‘Well, that’s the fucking thing. ’Cause I don’t know what’s right anymore. You’ve got my head so screwed up, I don’t know what I should be doing.’ He pauses again. ‘You do know, don’t you, that all it will take is one word from Proust to drop you in the biggest pile of crap you ever saw?’

‘Did he say it was me, after I left?’

‘No, he didn’t. But if he does, I won’t be able to contain this, Cal. I’ll have to tell the boss what I saw and what I heard.’

‘Proust won’t say anything.’

‘What, are you going to make sure of that? Is that what you’re telling me, after all we’ve just discussed?’

Doyle sighs. ‘No, that’s not what I’m saying. Proust won’t accuse me because he knows it’s not true. He’s not sure he can get away with saying it was me. And he also doesn’t want cops looking too closely at him, not with him being a murderer.’

‘You’re sure about that?’

‘About me not hurting him, or him being a murderer, or him not putting in a complaint? Doesn’t matter — the answer’s the same to all of ’em.’

LeBlanc studies Doyle for a while, narrowing his eyes at him. ‘Tell me, Cal. How do you know all this? With such certainty, I mean. So far we’ve got nothing on Proust. Not one shred of evidence that says he’s bad. How can you be so damn sure you’re not wrong about him?’

Doyle thinks about this. ‘I know Proust. I’ve spent a lot more time with him than you have. I’ve looked into his eyes. I’ve looked into his soul. These homicides are his work, Tommy. I’d stake everything I have on that being true.’

‘Yeah, well, you may have already done that,’ says LeBlanc. He turns away from Doyle and heads for the door.

‘What happens now?’ asks Doyle.

LeBlanc halts and faces Doyle again. ‘We prove you’re right about Proust. We work the case. But by the numbers, Cal. I can’t work the way we’ve been working anymore. You want to carry on treating me like I don’t matter, then fine. But I won’t take it lying down.’

He reaches for the door, but again Doyle stops him.

‘Do you believe me? About me not being involved in what happened to Proust?’

Now it’s LeBlanc’s turn to sigh. ‘Like I said, I want to believe it. Crazy as the story sounds, I think I could probably make myself believe it. But you know what? There’s one thing getting in the way.’

‘What’s that?’

‘What you said a minute ago about looking into Proust’s eyes? Well, I looked into your eyes, Cal. When you had your hand around my throat in Proust’s place? I saw things in your eyes that terrified me. At that moment there was no doubt in my mind that you were capable of doing some god-awful things.’

And, with that, he leaves the room.

He’s naked in front of the bedroom mirror again.

Mirror, mirror, on the wall, who is the fairest of them all?

Ha! Fairest! Look at you! Look at that wreck of a man staring back at you. It’s Halloween in a coupla weeks. You don’t even need a costume.

He has pulled off some of the Band-Aids. Too soon. Blood is trickling down his face. Coursing over the purple-blue flesh. There were healthier-looking specimens in the Michael Jackson Thriller video.

He tilts his head to the left, then the right, studying his features. He likes this look. He has undergone a metamorphosis. He is not what he was.

He has some more stitches, but most of the cuts were superficial. That cop — LeBlanc — took him to a different hospital this time. He knows why. LeBlanc was trying to protect his friend and colleague.

‘Doyle.’

He says the name out loud. And smiles.

It was painful, going through that door. He doesn’t deny that he felt the pain. Mostly in his cracked rib rather than because of the cuts. The cuts are nothing.

The pain, too, is nothing. He has mastered pain. He feels it, but he can choose to ignore it. That is the power he has discovered.

‘Do you believe me, Doyle? Do you believe you can’t hurt me?’

Proust slaps his own face. Hard. So hard it stings. He slaps it again, and again. A wound on his cheek opens up and more blood flows. It drips onto his chest.

He looks to his side. There is a dresser there. And on the dresser, a small pair of nail scissors. He picks up the scissors with his right hand, puts his left hand on the dresser.

Without hesitation he plunges the point of the scissors into the back of his hand. He yanks the scissors out, stabs it again into his flesh. And yet again. A cry escapes his lips and pink-stained froth bubbles out of his mouth.

He brings his damaged hand to his face and examines it. It trembles, and blood gushes from its wounds. He makes animalistic keening noises as he watches his hot blood run down his arm. His eyes blur with tears, and then he is laughing or crying or both.

‘You see, Doyle?’ he says to his mirror image. ‘You cannot hurt me. You cannot win.’

He is stronger than Doyle now. In fact, he feels almost invincible. He can survive a severe beating. He can jump through glass without serious injury. What’s next? How much stronger can he possibly get?

And there are other forces within him that are yet to be released. Doyle doesn’t suspect this. He doesn’t know what he has unleashed. Well, he will find out soon enough.

Doyle started this.

Stanley Francis Proust will finish it.

NINETEEN

What if Doyle is right?

LeBlanc considers this as he sits in his car. He pulses the windshield wipers, batting away the rainwater for a brief instant to afford him a glimpse of Proust’s place.

What went on in there? What really happened?

The most plausible scenario is the obvious one. Doyle beat the crap out of Proust, not once but twice. That account fits all the facts, without the requirement for much imagination or twisted reasoning. When faced with multiple possible explanations, always go with the simplest. Occam’s razor, and all that.

But would even Doyle go that far? Would he resort to beating a perp to within an inch of his life? Even if he got a confession, what could he do with it? It would be obvious to the DA and everybody else that it had been obtained through violence and intimidation. Why would Doyle put his job on the line like that?

So then there’s the alternative. Doyle is telling the truth. Proust is an evil genius who killed two girls and is now trying to discredit the only cop who believes he did it. And the way he does that is by practically killing himself.

How likely is that? Is Proust capable of such a thing?

He seems the genuine article to LeBlanc. Since the first moment he met Proust, he has felt that this is a man who is truly terrified of Doyle. An innocent man who has been wrongly accused and is being continually harassed and bullied by his accuser. Could that all be an act? Is Proust that good?

‘Shit,’ says LeBlanc.

He doesn’t know what to make of this, whom to believe. The problem is he doesn’t know either party well enough. Not even his own partner. Doyle is not the sharing type. Maybe he’s got issues. If we were to get all psychological about this, maybe the shit he went through when his partners were killed has turned him into a man who feels he cannot trust anyone but himself. Who the hell knows?

Can I even be sure that he hasn’t gone totally off the rails?

And as for Proust. .

Well, maybe I need to get to know him a little better too.

It’s almost as if Proust has been waiting for him to arrive.

He is standing behind his counter at the far end of his shop, staring straight at LeBlanc as he comes through the door.

Pangs of pity instantly stab at LeBlanc.

Jesus. Just look at the guy. He can’t even stand up straight. If he were an animal he’d be put down.

‘Hey,’ he says. ‘How’s it going?’

‘Detective LeBlanc,’ says Proust, and it seems to LeBlanc that he has difficulty just getting those two words out. ‘Are you. . alone?’

Meaning, Is Doyle with you?

LeBlanc catches Proust’s fearful glance through the window behind him.

‘I’m alone,’ he says. ‘Thought I’d check up on you. See how you are.’

‘I think. . I think it looks worse than it is.’ He attempts a smile, but then winces with his pain.

Putting a brave face on it, thinks LeBlanc. Would he do that if he were faking?

‘You got time to talk?’

‘Sure. It’s pretty quiet right now. You wanna come back for a coffee?’

LeBlanc nods, then walks around the counter to join Proust. He follows him through the first door into the small storeroom. It looks as though most of the glass has been cleared up, but as they get closer to the other door there is still a crunching noise underfoot.

‘I made a start,’ says Proust apologetically. ‘I’ll try to get the rest later.’

LeBlanc glances at the spot where Doyle had him pinned against the wall. The image of Doyle’s face is still vivid, his expression that of a man who was about to rip LeBlanc’s head off.

They step through the now useless door, and into the tiny living area.

‘You want coffee? Or do you prefer tea?’

‘Tea. If that’s okay.’

He watches as Proust shuffles over to the electric kettle, grunting as he picks it up.

‘Here,’ says LeBlanc. ‘Let me do it.’

He takes the kettle from Proust, then tells him to go sit down while he prepares the tea. For the next few minutes, the only conversation is about where the teabags, cups and so on are kept.

When the tea is made, LeBlanc joins Proust at the table. He starts off with some chit-chat. Some meaningless preamble to put the guy at his ease.

‘How’s business?’

‘Two customers today. The first one was a woman. Took one look at me and walked straight out again. Then a guy came in for a neck tat. He asked what happened. I told him I forgot my wife’s birthday.’

LeBlanc smiles, putting on a show for Proust’s benefit. ‘You expecting any more today?’

‘I doubt it. Nothing booked in. And this weather, not many people passing by either. You ever consider it yourself?’

‘Me? A tattoo? Nah, not my thing.’

‘You should. You worried about the pain?’

‘Should I be?’

‘Not at all. It’s like a. . like a hot scratch.’

‘A scratch, huh?’

‘Yeah. And you don’t need to worry about hygiene neither. All of my equipment is guaranteed bug-free. I use an autoclave. You know what that is?’

LeBlanc shakes his head.

‘It’s kinda like a pressure cooker, you know what I mean? It makes this super-hot steam which-’

‘Stan, what happened here today?’

Proust was happy talking about his work. LeBlanc can see the enthusiasm drain from his face.

‘What?’

‘What happened? When Doyle came to see you.’

LeBlanc watches as Proust’s eyes widen and the knuckles whiten on the fingers of his hand holding the cup.

‘We were talking. He wanted to ask me some questions.’

‘About what?’

‘About the girl who was killed. He thinks I had something to do with it.’

‘And did you?’

Proust’s stare is one of disbelief at the bluntness of the question. ‘No, man. I told Doyle and I’m telling you. I never met that girl. I wouldn’t put a tat on someone that young, and I wouldn’t hurt a girl like that. I wouldn’t hurt anyone. You gotta believe me.’

‘Why doesn’t Doyle believe you?’

‘I. . I dunno, man. I really don’t.’

LeBlanc hears something else in those words. He’s not quite sure what it is. Something Proust wants to say but which he’s holding back.

‘Okay, so he’s asking you questions. When I came into your shop, it wasn’t just a conversation, Stan. It was getting kinda heated back here.’

‘Yeah, I know. He wouldn’t let it go. I kept telling him I didn’t do this terrible thing, but he wouldn’t listen. He kept calling me a murderer. Saying how I enjoyed doing disgusting things to young girls. Sexual things. And then. . torturing them. Detective, I couldn’t even torture an ant. I respect life. He’s trying to make me out to be some kind of monster. I couldn’t do those things. Please. You have to believe me.’

Proust grimaces and brings a hand to his ribs. He’s really suffering, thinks LeBlanc.

‘What I heard, it wasn’t just an argument. You were pleading, Stan. You sounded like you were being attacked. You were begging Doyle to stop. Stop what, Stan?’

Proust drops his gaze. Stares into his tea. ‘The questions. The accusations. I’d heard them a thousand times. So many times I was starting to believe them myself. I needed for them to stop. I felt like he was driving me crazy.’

It’s a lie, thinks LeBlanc. Everything in Proust’s body language tells me it’s a lie. He can’t look at me. His words have no emotion. The question is, is he lying because he’s afraid of what Doyle might do if he tells me what really happened here? Or is he lying so badly on purpose because it’s all part of this elaborate plan to set Doyle up?

‘Okay, so then what? What happened after the shouting?’

‘I just needed to get away. I ran to the door.’ He gestures to the remains of the door behind LeBlanc. ‘I wanted to get out of here. Maybe out of the building, if that’s what it took. And then. . I just tripped.’

‘You tripped?’

‘Yeah. I musta been in too much of a hurry. My foot caught on the rug or something. That’s all I remember.’

He’s looking down at his tea again. Lies, lies, lies.

‘Look at me, Stan.’

Proust raises his head slightly, but not his gaze. His eyelids flutter as though he’s struggling to lift them.

‘Stan, look at me.’

It’s an effort, but Proust finally gets there. They lock eyes.

‘Doyle says you didn’t trip. He says you jumped through that door.’

‘What? No. No. Why would I do that? That’s crazy. Why would I jump through a glass door?’

Good question, thinks LeBlanc. Why the hell would anyone do such a thing?

‘Maybe you were trying to make it look like Doyle was assaulting you?’

Proust’s mouth drops. ‘W-what? Trying to make it look. .? That’s ridiculous. He really said that? Do you know how ridiculous that suggestion is? I coulda been killed going through that door. Why would I. . That’s fucking ludicrous, man.’

LeBlanc keeps his eyes fixed on Proust. Christ, he’s good. If this is an act, then this guy should get an Oscar. And he’s right, of course. Said out loud like this, the suggestion sounds absurd. LeBlanc feels faintly embarrassed that he even dared to voice it.

‘There’s another possibility,’ he says.

Proust says nothing for a while. He picks up his cup. Takes a sip. ‘What’s that?’

LeBlanc isn’t sure he wants to ask this. Proust has told him what happened. Isn’t that enough? Is there any need to give him the idea he might want to change that story?

‘You sure Doyle didn’t throw you through that door?’

Proust’s mouth twitches. ‘What? What did you say?’

‘You heard me, Stan. Answer the question.’

He doesn’t really want Proust to answer the question. Or if he does answer it, he doesn’t want it to convey the message that, yes, Doyle was responsible for the state Proust is now in.

Suddenly, LeBlanc’s heart is thudding. He can hear the blood rushing in his ears. He wants it to grow louder so as to drown out Proust’s words.

Proust lowers his head again, mumbles something.

‘What was that, Stan?’

His eyes flicker upward once more. ‘I tripped. It was like I said. I tripped.’

Right answer. The expected answer. But bullshit all the same. LeBlanc is no closer to knowing the truth.

He slurps some of his own tea, then says, ‘I don’t get it, Stan.’

‘Get what?’

‘The whole thing with Detective Doyle. Your relationship.’

Proust gives the subtlest of shrugs. ‘He hates me.’

‘Yeah. But why? Why does he hate you?’

‘He thinks I murdered those two girls, and he can’t prove it. And the reason he can’t prove it is because I didn’t do it.’

‘Yeah, but it still seems weird to me. Maybe you are a killer-’

‘I’m not.’

‘Okay, but suppose I thought you were. I wouldn’t waste my time and energy hating you. I would go out and find the evidence. I’d prove it was you.’

‘You’re not Doyle. That guy is obsessed. He would do anything to see me punished. Even for something I didn’t do.’

‘See, that’s where I get confused. I just don’t get why he would be that way. What buttons of his could you have pushed?’

He expects a shrug. Maybe a ‘dunno’. He expects Proust to say he is clueless about Doyle’s personal crusade. He expects him to say he is not aware of any reason aside from the one that Doyle is convinced he’s a cold-blooded killer. Which, LeBlanc reminds himself, could still be the truth here.

And yet. .

Proust seems to be toying with something. Tossing something around in his mind while he stares at his tea again. Appears to be wondering just how much he should reveal to this cop sitting at his table, drinking with him, acting like he’s on his side.

‘What?’ LeBlanc urges.

‘I, uhm. . The girl. Maybe the girl.’

‘You mean the victim? Yeah, but aside from-’

‘No, not her. I mean the one I saw Doyle with.’

Something crawls over LeBlanc’s skin. ‘What girl? Who are you talking about, Stan?’

‘The cop. Doyle’s partner. Look, maybe I shouldn’t be saying-’

‘His partner? When was this?’

‘When the first girl was killed. The one they found in the Hudson. Doyle came to see me with his partner.’

‘You remember her name?’

‘I think so. Marino. Something like that.’

‘Laura Marino?’

‘I don’t know her first name.’

‘Okay, so what about her?’

‘They pulled up in the car one day. I saw them through the window. They were. . they were necking.’

‘They were kissing?’

‘Yeah. For about two minutes. Then Doyle got out of the car and came inside.’

‘He came in alone?’

‘Yeah. She was fixing her makeup in the car. When Doyle came in, I didn’t even know he was a cop. I made a joke about what he was getting up to out there.’

‘What did he do?’

‘He, uhm. . Let’s just say he didn’t like what I said. He made that very clear.’

‘He accuse you of killing the Palmer girl?’

‘Yeah. That time, and every other time too.’

‘The other times he came back, was he with his partner?’

‘No, I never saw her again. Doyle was alone. One time I made the mistake of mentioning the necking incident again. He went ape-shit, man.’

‘Did he assault you?’

‘I. . I don’t wanna answer that question.’

LeBlanc’s mind races. He doesn’t want to believe this. This is information he’s not sure he can handle. And yet there is a ring of truth here. A pretty solid ring at that. It ties in with a lot of things he’s been told about Doyle, much of which he has always dismissed as fable. Until now.

‘If you never spoke with the female cop, how come you know her name?’

There is no hesitation before Proust replies. ‘Doyle told me. He said that if I mentioned Detective Marino one more time, either to him or anybody else, he would. . well, I don’t wanna say.’

LeBlanc collapses back in his chair. Shit! Proust can’t be making this up. How could he know any of this if it wasn’t true?

Laura Marino. The female cop who was killed when an apartment bust went bad up in Harlem. The cop whose death many blamed on Doyle. They said he sent her the wrong way, when he knew there was a killer just waiting to blast her with a shotgun. And why would he do that? Because they were having an affair that he wanted to end and she didn’t. She threatened to go public and he couldn’t allow that to happen.

That’s what many said. It’s what some, including Schneider, still believe. But there was never any proof. Nothing to say that Doyle and Marino were actually anything more than just partners. It was all just rumor and hearsay.

But this. . This changes everything.

LeBlanc asked for a reason why Doyle might hate Proust, and now he’s got what he asked for.

He feels like he’s just been handed a grenade with its pin pulled out.

TWENTY

Doyle actually feels grateful to LeBlanc.

He has spent most of the afternoon away from his desk, trying to track down leads. Talking to Megan Hamlyn’s girlfriends. Trying to find people who may have seen her on the subway, or in the East Village. Questioning the owners of security cameras that may have picked up her image during the final moments of her short life.

More particularly, though, he has stayed away from Proust. And he feels better for it. Proust has an irritating habit of raising Doyle’s blood pressure. Of making him think he’s about to blow an artery. The man’s a health hazard. Which is quite an understatement for a murdering, torturing piece of shit like Proust.

Calm down, Doyle.

And then there are these stupid games Proust is playing. Making himself out to be the victim. Trying to give the illusion, without actually making the blatant accusation, that Doyle is violently attacking him at every opportunity. What the hell is that about? Does he really think that’ll work? What the fuck does that crazy, fucked-up, psychopathic-

Chill, dude. Relax.

He lets out a long, slow breath. He switches on the car radio. Hears Adele. Nice. Soothing. Sing along, man. You’ll be home soon. Away from all that shit.

Because it’s driving him out of his skull. He knows this. He knows he is not acting normally. Not with his family, not with LeBlanc, not with anyone.

Poor Tommy. He doesn’t know what to make of any of this. Doesn’t know what to believe about his own partner.

And yes, it’s my fault, thinks Doyle. I’m not playing fair with Tommy. I’m keeping him in the dark.

And yes, I did feel out of control when I had my hand around his throat. The poor kid was scared shitless. That’s what Proust does to me. He makes me crazy. But it’s not an excuse. What I did back there was unforgivable.

So maybe Tommy is right after all. Maybe this is the way to nail Proust. Play it by the numbers. Proust isn’t perfect. He will have made mistakes. With enough time and effort I can find out what those mistakes were. And, by God, I won’t stop until I do. I owe it to those two young girls, and to their families.

As he turns onto West 87th Street, he is still thinking about LeBlanc. Thinking he is actually starting to like him. He was never sure before. Didn’t know what views LeBlanc had of him, especially with LeBlanc working so closely with Schneider. And because he was uncertain, he tended to shun him. LeBlanc was right about that, too. Doyle is too quick to dismiss people. Sometimes he should give others more of a chance.

Hell, he thinks, maybe I should start going to LeBlanc for psychotherapy.

He also admires the way LeBlanc stood up to him. That took balls. And he didn’t jam him up with the bosses when he could have. That took loyalty.

Christ. I’m starting to sound like I’m falling in love with the guy.

Smiling, Doyle squeezes his car into a space several buildings down from his own. He wishes he could get closer, seeing as how there’s still no let-up in this damned rain. He clambers out. Locks up the car. Makes a dash along the street. Draws level with his front stoop.

‘Hey, Doyle.’

The call is as brief as that, but Doyle recognizes the voice immediately, and it stops him in his tracks. His smile vanishes. His day has grown somewhat darker.

Oh yes, he knows this voice.

It’s a reminder of a part of his past he would rather forget.

‘Get in,’ says the voice through the open window of the gray Chevy Impala.

Doyle doesn’t move.

‘Come on. You’re getting soaked out there. And I’m getting wet with this window open.’

Doyle looks up at the front door of his apartment building. He is just steps away from warmth, dryness, friendly faces. The last thing he needs right now is a conversation of the type he’s being invited to have.

But he knows this guy won’t go away. He knows how this man operates.

Doyle steps around the car, opens the door and climbs in. The man behind the wheel closes his window and then turns to face Doyle.

It’s like being confronted by one of the undead. The man’s pale skin glows white in the dim interior of the car. His cheeks are hollow, his lips thin. Lank black hair furls across his forehead like a raven’s wing. He wears a dark suit, dark overcoat and dark tie.

‘Hello, Doyle,’ he says.

‘Hello, Paulson,’ says Doyle. ‘Little early for trick or treat, ain’t it?’

They are not, and probably never will be, on first-name terms, these two. Although they go back some way, it has not always been the most affable of relationships.

After Laura Marino died in that apartment on that fateful night, and all the rumors of Doyle’s possible role in it began to surface like dead fish, Sergeant Paulson here was assigned the task of investigating his fellow officer. Except that ‘fellow officer’ is a term that most cops would choke on when trying to describe Paulson and his ilk.

Sergeant Paulson is a member of the Internal Affairs Bureau, that section of the NYPD charged with unearthing corruption in the force. It was at one time known as the Internal Affairs Division, but it got promoted, such was the thirst for its activities amongst the bosses and the politicians, who were determined to demonstrate how seriously they took the integrity of the city’s law enforcers. Whatever its name, its job is to police the police. And it is not known for wearing kid gloves when it carries out its mission.

Doyle found that out for himself when seated across a table from Paulson. He found out just what a bastard this man was. He found out what it’s like to be the suspect rather than the one doing the suspecting. And he found out what it was like to hate another man with an intensity that brought him close to committing murder.

Paulson was relentless and he was without mercy. He hounded Doyle. His questions were devoid of both subtlety and sympathy. He seemed determined to destroy Doyle, to the extent of making threats to do precisely that. And despite official assurances that the investigation was confidential, it became apparent that everyone and his dog were aware of what was taking place here. Rumors became fact, whispers became confident voices, blunt opinions became sharpened spears of distrust and dislike. These were carried on the wind, reaching the ears of Doyle’s wife and his loved ones. He almost lost them. He almost lost everything.

And all because of this man seated not two feet away from him.

Says Paulson, ‘Crappy night, huh?’

‘I think it just got worse,’ says Doyle.

Paulson adopts a pained expression. ‘Now why’d you have to go and say that? Didn’t we part on good terms last time we met? You brought me donuts, as I recall. You wished me a merry Christmas.’

‘I think your medication must have been too strong. You were imagining things. I don’t remember any of that.’

‘My medication? Oh, you mean for that bullet I took. The one that had your name on it.’

And there’s the thing. That’s what makes this relationship so complicated. Doyle wants to hate Paulson with a passion. He feels he’s entitled to that. But the best Christmas present he got last year was the one from Paulson. It was the gift of his life. How do you hate someone who does that for you? Why did Paulson have to go and mash up something that was so patently black and white into a muddy gray mess?

‘Look, Paulson, I owe you one. I admit it. You saved my life. There. Happy now?’

‘It helps. Your recognition of my gallant self-sacrifice certainly goes some way to assuaging my indignation here.’ He pauses. ‘But, of course, it fails to recognize what else I did for you.’

‘Which was?’

‘Where shall we start? Well, there was that confidential information I gave you at the time. Information which I think was crucial in getting you out of that jam you were in. Without that you’d probably still be afraid to enjoy the freedom of coming home to your lovely family here. And then there was the fact that I overlooked some distinctly dubious practices of yours while you were endeavoring to extract yourself from said jam. So, taking all of the above into consideration, I’d say I deserve a little leeway here. Wouldn’t you agree?’

‘You’ve got your leeway. It’s why I’m sitting in the car with you. Think yourself lucky I’m not jumping up and down on the hood right now. Look, Paulson, what you did for me, it’s much appreciated. Really. I’ll try to return the favor someday. But I can’t forget what came before that, and I’m sure it’s still fresh in your memory too. You came after me with all guns blazing, and you nearly succeeded in ruining my life. My wife sees me sitting out here with you, she’ll be down here choking you with your own tie. That’s the kind of love she has for you, Paulson. Think about that.’

‘You don’t think what happened last Christmas wipes any of that away?’

‘I think it complicates things, is what I think. What I would like to do is forget about the past and move on with my life. But certain people won’t let me do that. You included. What are you doing here at my home anyhow?’

‘Maybe I just thought I’d see how you are. Catch up on things.’

Doyle wags a finger at him. ‘Uh-uh. You’re here on business. You’re here as an IAB man. Don’t try pretending you’re not. At least have the decency to be honest about it.’

‘What, you think it’s always a question of one or the other? Is that how it is for you, Doyle? Do you stop being a cop when you take off your shield and your gun? Is it that easy for you?’

‘I’m saying that you have your shield with you now, Paulson. Even though it’s in your pocket, your IAB shield is the only thing I can see in front of me right now. I’d like to know why.’

Paulson pats his pockets, and for a second Doyle thinks he’s about to pull out his badge.

‘You got any cigarettes?’ says Paulson. ‘I think I ran out.’

‘I don’t smoke,’ says Doyle. ‘And if you light up in here, I’m getting out of the car.’

Paulson nods, goes quiet for a few seconds, then says, ‘I heard some things.’

‘Things? What kind of things?’

‘Things concerning you. You and a guy who runs a tattoo place.’

And now Doyle is interested. Also a little concerned. He was always of the conviction that Proust would not put in a complaint. Could he have gotten that so wrong?

‘Stanley Proust.’

‘Yeah, that’s him.’

‘What’s he say about me?’

‘He ain’t said nothing yet. Leastways, not to me. Other voices are whispering your name.’

‘I don’t suppose you wanna say who?’

‘Don’t matter. The point is, you’re making waves again. Disrupting the cosmic karma.’

‘So they summoned you to restore order to the universe?’

Paulson smiles. ‘Actually, no. I asked for this gig. I kinda feel fate has fashioned an unbreakable bond between us. We’re forever joined by elemental forces beyond our feeble understanding.’

‘That’s a disturbing thought, Paulson.’

Paulson shrugs. ‘Who are we to question the actions of the gods?’

Doyle pulls his what-the-fuck-are-you-talking-about face. ‘Those cigarettes of yours, they’re just tobacco, right? You mind coming back down to earth now?’

‘I’m trying to put you in the picture, Doyle. The bigger picture which you never seem to appreciate. You’re causing ructions, and there are some who don’t like ructions. They are severely ruction averse.’

‘I’m doing my job. Proust is a murderer. I’m gonna nail him for it. It’s as simple as that.’

Paulson emits a laugh which could cause small children to burst into tears. ‘It’s never simple, Doyle. You of all people should have learned that by now. Life is complex. It’s got hidden corners and trapdoors. The unwary need to be careful. Step on the wrong floorboard, and down you go.’

‘Yeah, right. Thanks for the warning. If it’s all the same to you, I’d like to go home now.’

Doyle reaches for the door handle, but Paulson puts a restraining hand on his arm.

‘Jesus Christ, Doyle. Do you have to be so obtuse? I’m trying to help you here.’

‘Help me or threaten me?’

‘You’re fucking paranoid, do you know that?’

‘Like the joke goes, just because I’m paranoid, it doesn’t mean they’re not out to get me. Plus, my experience is that there are definitely people out there who would love to see me taken down.’

‘Maybe. And maybe you’re handing them the ammunition. Proust is a time bomb, Doyle. And you’re the guy who’s started him ticking. When he goes off, he will shake the fabric of the space-time continuum. Time will be reversed. You and me, we’ll be back to square one. It will be as if last Christmas never happened. It will be just you and me in a tiny room somewhere, with only a tape recorder for company. I don’t want to see that happen. I don’t want to relive that.’

‘You been watching too much Star Trek. And that still sounds like a threat to me.’

Paulson sighs. Rolls his eyes. ‘Like I said, the problem with you is that you only ever see what you want to see. You got tunnel vision. You see IAB sitting next to you. The rat squad, right? The bureau whose only purpose in life is to make you miserable. What you don’t see is me. Paulson. The guy who saved your sorry ass. And when you look at Proust, you see a stone killer, right? You fail to see the man who holds your liberty in his fingers. And your ears ain’t so good, neither. Remember me saying how I asked for this assignment? You know why? Because if I hadn’t taken it, somebody else would have. And this other IAB detective would’ve marched straight into your squadroom. He would’ve talked to your lieutenant about what we already know, and then he would’ve marched you into an interview room to squeeze what else he could out of you. And all this happening while your colleagues are watching and thinking and making up their own version of events. That’s what I’ve protected you from by coming here tonight. You can thank me when you’re ready.’

Doyle considers this. It’s all true. But what he can’t work out is why. A part of him wants to believe that Paulson really is a changed man. Another part wants to know what the catch is.

‘Okay, Paulson. Thank you. That what you want to hear?’

‘Yeah,’ says Paulson, nodding. ‘Yeah. That’s nice. I’m touched.’

There’s something in Paulson’s voice that tells Doyle he really means it. But it also feels to Doyle like he’s about to be beheaded and he’s forgiving his executioner. Handing him a bag of silver before the ax descends.

‘Until we meet again,’ says Doyle.

He says it jokingly, but Paulson appears to take it seriously. He looks almost. . sad.

‘Sure,’ says Paulson.

Doyle opens the door and steps out into the rain. As he walks around the car he hears the engine being fired up. But it’s followed by the soft hum of the driver’s window being lowered.

Says Paulson, ‘Everything’s connected, you know. The past, the present, the future. They’re all parts of the same river. Nothing exists in isolation. Sometimes we’re not even aware of it. But when that truth hits you, it can hit you hard. Take it easy, Doyle.’

Doyle stands there for a while. Watches as Paulson’s car pulls away. Tries to figure out what the hell he was getting at.

When he notices that the rain is trickling down the back of his neck, he shivers.

Home sweet home.

He walks in with the expectation that, finally, he can leave all his troubles out there in the rain. He can get out of these wet clothes, have a steaming-hot shower, a nice meal that isn’t fish, and then he can spend some quality time with his loving wife and doting daughter.

But those expectations are dashed when he sees the expression on the face of said loving wife. Because it’s not so loving at the moment. In fact, it’s downright livid.

‘What’s up?’ he asks.

‘What’s up?’ she echoes. ‘Your daughter is what’s up.’

It doesn’t escape his notice that this has suddenly become a one-parent family.

‘What’s she done this time?’

‘She did it again, Cal. She put some stuff from the stationery closet in her bag. Only this time she was seen doing it by another child, and he told the teacher about it.’

‘Wait a minute. Are you sure about this? Maybe there’s been a mistake.’

‘How can there be a mistake? She was seen. Caught red-handed. It’s the kind of open-and-shut case police officers can only dream of.’

Doyle feels something inside himself sinking. He doesn’t want to believe this. Not of his own daughter.

‘What happened? When the teacher found out?’

‘I got called in, Cal. I spent an hour in the principal’s office this afternoon, desperately trying to defend our family name. Trying to assure them there was no great domestic upheaval taking place in our home. No divorce or terminal illness — that kind of thing. It was humiliating, Cal. And I still don’t know what to do about it. What the hell has gotten into that child?’

And now Doyle’s mind is racing again. Searching for explanations. Looking for reasons. Wondering what mistakes they may have made in the upbringing of their daughter. He can feel his stress levels building again.

He hasn’t even taken his coat off yet, he’s still dripping rainwater onto the floor, and already he’s wishing for this night to be over.

Home sweet home.

Too easy.

That young detective. LeBlanc. Thinking he can play me. Asking those dumb questions about my business just to put me at my ease. Acting like he’s my BFF so he can get me to talk.

Well, he got me to talk, all right. Not what he was expecting to hear, though, was it?

He fell for it, the sucker. All those grunts and expressions of pain — he was totally taken in. Well, let me tell you, Detective The Blank, about how I don’t feel pain. About how the only one around here who’s gonna know pain is your pal Doyle.

Or is he your pal? That was a damn straight question you asked about whether Doyle tossed me through that door. A big gamble of yours. Supposing I’d said yes, Doyle did do that? What would you have done then? Taken me seriously or tried to shut me up? Whose side were you on, Detective?

More importantly, whose side are you on now?

Now that your head can’t shake out the picture of Doyle sitting in his car with that Marino woman, his hands and his lips all over her, what do you think of your partner? You still believe in him? You really think that anything he says can be trusted? You think he wouldn’t resort to beating me up, when it’s possible he’s done things a lot worse than that?

Stick around, oh blank one, while I finish creating my masterpiece. Because I haven’t finished with Doyle.

I’ve got a lot more work to do yet.

TWENTY-ONE

Steve Hamlyn tries to remember what sleep is like.

Proper sleep. The kind where you leave the physical world behind while you explore the surreal, your brain experimenting with new connections that give rise to all kinds of previously unimagined happenings — often absurd, sometimes even comical. The kind where you wake reinvigorated, ready to face all that life can throw at you.

Not this. Not the kind of sleep where you feel like you’re lying a mere fraction of an inch below wakefulness. Where the slightest sound — the rustle of a sheet, the heavy breath of your partner, the patter of rain, the rush of your own pulse — is enough to jolt you back into the room, drenched in sweat. Where the dreams, when you can reach them, are of the darkest kind imaginable, filled with violence and fear and gut-wrenching images. And where you know that, even when you escape the nightmares, your reality is little better. It is no longer something you welcome. You wake up crying silently, the tears streaming down your face. You feel the pressure in the center of your chest, as though your heart is ready to burst. And sometimes you wish it would burst, because sometimes you would gladly accept death as a way of ending this torment.

Steve turns to look at Nicole lying next to him. He can see only the back of her head, but her slow breathing suggests that she, at least, has found some peace. He doesn’t want to disturb her. He owes her that much. He owes her so much more, in fact. He has not been there for her. Not provided the shoulder she needs. At this very moment he can see that, but such moments of clarity have been rare lately, and this one will also quickly fade and die. His mind gets too crowded with other thoughts, other emotions. But he will make it up to her. Later. When things have been resolved. When Megan’s killer has been caught.

He wishes he could do something — anything — to help bring this to an end. He wishes he knew people. The kind of people who would undertake any job, no matter how illegal. If he knew people like that, who could guarantee that they would find Megan’s killer, then he would give them everything he owns. He would sell his house, his car, everything. He would even sell his soul. And he wouldn’t want them to administer any justice. He would do that himself.

Just find the sick fuck. I’ll take it from there.

But he doesn’t know people like that. All he has is the police, and he’s not convinced he can rely on them. They don’t seem to be getting anywhere with this. He calls them every day, several times on some days, and they tell him nothing. They’re following leads. Making inquiries. The usual bullshit. It all amounts to a heap of nothing. The killer is still out there, and they’re not going to catch him.

A tremor passes through Steve as he thinks this. What if they never catch him? What will I do then? How will I ever get my life back?

Anger wells up again. His chest tightens. His breathing accelerates. He wants to let out a roar of frustration. He feels so powerless. So fucking useless. His feelings toward Nicole change in a heartbeat. She transforms from someone he has wronged into someone who is too weak, too understanding and too accepting of this whole fucking mess their life has become. Where is her rage, her thirst for vengeance? How can she not be filled with fury at every waking moment? How can she even sleep?

He tosses back the covers and swings his feet onto the floor. He sits there for a minute, his face in his hands. Wondering how he can care so much while Nicole seems to care so little.

When he stands up and fetches his robe, he catches a glimpse of himself in the mirror. He sees an ugliness in his expression he has not seen before. It’s the face of a man who has had enough. A man who feels he has nothing left to lose. A man who could kill.

He goes downstairs. His fists are clenched, his muscles taut. He craves coffee, even though he knows it’s probably the worst thing he can take right now. A run. He needs to go for a run. Then a workout. Then. .

He sees it. There is no way he couldn’t. It practically jumps up and screams at him. It begs for him to approach and examine it.

A stark white rectangle. An envelope. There, on the floor. Just in front of the main door. As though it has been pushed underneath.

Steve glances at the wall clock. It’s only five in the morning. Somebody has visited them during the night and delivered this message. Somebody has sneaked here under cover of darkness to let the Hamlyns into a secret.

Steve feels his heart begin to pound. He doesn’t yet know what the note says, but he is certain it’s something of immense importance. Something about Megan that will turn everything upside down.

He steps closer to the front door. When his bare toes are just inches away from the letter, he stares down. It seems to stare back at him, daring him to touch it. Whispering to him that this is the answer to his prayers.

He bends down and picks up the envelope. Straightens up again as he stares at the printed words on the front:

Content

David Jackson
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