Keary Taylor

EDEN

For my dad,

with whom I watched many, many science fiction movies and TV shows, making me always wonder “what if”.

ONE

“Good-bye, my friend,” Avian whispered, closing his eyes with silent words of regret that echoed through the rest of us.

We all shut our eyes as Avian pressed the device to Tye’s arm, unable to watch the death of the man who had been our family member and protector since the formation of Eden. The sounds reverberated in my brain, the hum of thousands of volts of electricity racing through Tye’s infected system. The back of my throat tightened as I heard the sharp hiss of the nanites under his skin short out and die. Agonizing seconds later, he took his last gasping breath.

Avian set down the one piece of electronic technology that existed in Eden on the wooden table. I finally opened my eyes again when I heard his suppressed sob. Bill and Graye bowed out of the medical tent silently, unable to deal with Avian’s grief in the moment of their own. I could only stand there and hug my sides, trying to keep myself from falling apart. It felt like everything inside of me had cracked.

My eyes couldn’t keep away from Tye’s body.

His lifeless form lay limp on the table, one of his legs about to slip off. His left arm rested at his side, the skin shredded and torn where he had tried to rip it off. The dirtied, bloodied wires shone from under the torn skin. His head had lolled to one side, staring emptily at me with one still human eye and one metallic cybernetic one.

I wished Avian would stop sobbing. I knew I should try to comfort him, but what do you say to the man who had just had to kill his own cousin? His tears seemed like too much of an invitation to let my own fall. But that wasn’t me; Eve didn’t cry. Ever.

Avian looked up at me from where he stood, braced with his hands on the table next to the body. “Thank you for bringing him back, Eve.”

I bit my lower lip and could only manage one small nod. He held my eyes with his own for a long moment, each of us knowing what the other was thinking. We both knew we would never hear Tye’s hesitant laughter again, never urge him to take a break from his watchful post to eat a few bites. He would never hunt through the woods or go on a raid again. Our beloved protector and brother had been taken away from us forever.

“Let me help you,” I offered as Avian started picking up the body. He graciously accepted, his entire frame trembling as we carried what was left of Tye to the furnace. We couldn’t even bury our fellow men and women in the ground after they were infected, couldn’t visit their graves. Even the destroyed cybernetics were too dangerous to keep around. They were melted down and transported away.

Avian collapsed to the ground as we slid the heavy door closed. Another round of tears consumed him as I lit the fire beneath it. I sank to the ground next to him, hugging my knees as I watched the flames grow in intensity and consume our friend.

I knew I was going to have to speak to Graye again. With how few of us there were left, you couldn’t ignore anyone. Maybe in a few days I would be able to look him in the eye but for now he was nothing but the man who had gotten Tye infected.

All it had taken was one brief touch from the Hunter. Tye had tried ripping his own arm off before the infection could spread any further. The attempt had been useless. Less than an hour later, Tye’s eye started changing. He’d turned on us within three hours and tried to return to the city. It had taken the entire unit to drag him back to Avian. Bill had had to knock him unconscious so he wouldn’t try to kill us all.

If it had taken us any longer, we would have had to shoot him in the forest and leave his infected, untouchable body for the wolves.

“Why don’t you go to bed?” I said quietly as I stared at the flames. “I will take care of things.”

“No,” he said as he shook his head, wiping a few tears away with the back of his hand. “I can handle it.”

“You don’t have to,” I tried to argue, but only half-heartedly. Saying good-bye to our friend was as hard on me as it was everyone else.

“Go home, Eve. You’ve done your job.”

Without another word, I stood and walked out of the tent, never looking back.

Small fires glowed in the darkness, scattered about in the village of tents. No one looked up at me as I walked by on my way to my own. They knew I wasn’t the reason Tye had been killed but they all expected more out of me. I was the one who always got everyone out, no matter how close it had come. Tonight I had finally failed.

I pulled the flap of my tent aside and stepped into the darkness. My worn out cot felt more uncomfortable than ever as I collapsed onto it. I stared up at the blackness above me, my arms resting above my head. The sound of Sarah’s breathing a few feet away let me know she was still awake.

We lay in silence for endless minutes, an unspoken conversation flowing. Tye’s death would be as hard on Sarah as it was on Avian, brother and sister in painful loss.

“How’s Avian?” she finally spoke.

“I helped him with the furnace but he sent me back,” I forced the words out of my mouth. All I wanted to do now was sleep. I just wanted this day to be over.

Sarah was silent again and I knew there would be tears rolling down her flawless, pale cheeks. I understood why she had not come to the farewell. It killed a little piece of us all whenever we attended one. Sarah was too tender, she couldn’t handle watching that happen to anyone, much less her own cousin.

I faintly heard her roll away from me before I fell off the cliff of consciousness into the dark.

TWO

My eyes slid open to meet the darkness above, fear and relief seeping through my system at the same time. We all occasionally screamed in our sleep, every one of us still haunted by the nightmares. Each of us was tormented by images of cybernetic infested friends, feelings of having your cells harden and turn you against everything that made you who you were.

I pulled myself up, listening for sounds of movement outside.  It was early, the sun still struggling to make its way above the mountain tops. Everything was silent.

Wearing the same clothes I had worn yesterday on the raid, Tye’s blood still dried on them, I grabbed my pack from off the floor, slid my pistol into my belt, and stepped outside, leaving Sarah sleeping. The fires had been reduced to smoldering embers, the camp left with the feeling of being empty and abandoned. I headed for the tree line.

My boots darkened, dampened by the heavy morning dew. I let my fingers trail on the tall grass as I walked down an unseen path. My ears strained for any sounds that didn’t belong, searching for any warning hums of an ATV or the faint chop of a helicopter. The morning was quiet, but that did not mean I dropped my guard against constant danger. Dropping your guard meant getting killed, or worse.

Waking so early gave me a chance to have the quiet to myself. Though I doubted anyone would ask about what had happened the previous day, everyone would be thinking the unspoken, wondering how and why I had finally failed to bring someone home. I may have only been seventeen but they certainly didn’t treat me like a child.

The trees dropped away in an abrupt line, giving way to the ten foot tall wire fence. Five acres of garden lay before me. The piece of earth that kept Eden from starving. Everyone had a duty to perform in the gardens. We were each required to work a minimum of two, five-hour shifts per week. We were all responsible for keeping Eden alive in a way.

I quickly went to the storage shed that was camouflaged at the tree line and geared up with a pair of worn gloves and a religiously cared for hoe. I pushed back my dirtied sleeves and fastened my pack tighter to my back. It never left my back, other than to sleep. To be separated from it could mean the difference between life and death. In it I had everything I needed to survive in the wilderness for nearly a month.

As I worked my way to the southeast corner of the garden, I realized I was not alone. A figure in dirty rags was kneeling on the ground, working steadily on a row of slowly growing potatoes. It was Terrif, the oldest member of Eden. He was mute and growing frail. He knew the most about gardening though. Without him, our harvest would be half of what it was.

Terrif looked up at me briefly as I went to work on a new area that would be planted later that afternoon. His eyes met mine for just a moment; oddly grey orbs that were starting to slowly lose their sight, and went back to his work.

The garden was in its fifth year and was gaining maturity. The fruit trees had produced well the previous year and we were hoping the late start of spring was not going to hurt production this year. It was agonizing, having so little control over something so vital to our survival.

Within a year of the Fall, people started realizing they weren’t the only ones on the run and began to band together. As our colony of thirty-three came together, we knew we were going to have to provide food for all these people or everyone was going to starve. And so the garden had been planted. Eden itself might be constantly moving for safety reasons, but the garden was the center, the anchor of which we revolved around.

It was pure and simple luck that the Fallen had not realized how vital this piece of land was. There was no way to camouflage such a large piece of land. It would be all too easy for the Fallen to bomb it and ruin our way of living. It wouldn’t take long for us to starve.

As the sun started graying the sky, other’s started trickling in, those assigned to work the morning shift while the others guarded camp. Not many words were spoken, each man or woman working in their silent grief. I saw the eyes flicker to my face, the questions forming in their heads. I wanted to tell them it was Graye they should be questioning, but I would never betray him like that. If he wanted them to know what he had done to Tye he could tell them himself. It wasn’t my place.

Each of us had reached Eden in our own way. Those who had survived the Fall had figured out that it wasn’t safe to be in the cities anymore. With so much electricity and other mechanical resources available, the Fallen flocked to them. If you were smart you ran as fast as you could toward the mountains or to the open country.

I didn’t remember much of my arrival at Eden. Only that I arrived alone, a thirteen-year-old girl, mostly naked, covered in blood, but with not a scratch on me. I had no memory prior to that time, no recollection of my parents or of where I had come from. I only remembered my name. Eve.

Avian and Sarah had helped me when I needed, despite how determined I had been that I could take care of myself. Avian had just escaped from the Army that wasn’t safe anymore, just as the world was falling to ruin. He’d rescued his sister, hiding in the garage after their parents had been infected. He’d had to shoot both of them to get her out. He’d collected his cousin Tye, who’d locked his infected mother in their trailer home, and stood guard outside the door with a rifle, and together they fled into the mountains. They were some of the first to arrive in Eden, only twenty-one and nineteen-years-old.

Just as the sun broke above the tree line, Sarah joined me at my side. She carried a sack of seeds, dropping them in a shallow trench and I raked the damp dirt over them.

“How is Avian this morning?” I asked, keeping my voice down.

“He didn’t look like he had slept all night,” she said quietly as she dropped seeds. “He wouldn’t eat this morning but said he was fine.”

“I will talk to him when I get back,” I sighed as I continued to rake.

Avian was the one person who never left Eden. He never went on raids, never even worked in the gardens. He couldn’t leave his supplies and the CDU. It was too dangerous. All too often he was needed. Even though he had only two and a half years’ worth of medical training, he knew more than the rest of us did.

“People are wondering what happened last night,” Sarah said as she looked around to make sure no one was listening. “I heard them talking at breakfast this morning. They’re starting to lose trust in Graye.”

Sarah’s statement surprised me. I had expected her to say that people were starting to lose their faith in me. “Why?”

“They overheard someone talking to Avian about how Graye had something to do with Tye’s infection. We all know he can be selfish and sloppy.”

I straightened slightly and looked over my shoulder to where Graye was working. He was alone, his head hanging low. I would never say it to anyone, but Sarah was right. Graye always tried to grab just a few more things, one more treasure to take home for himself. He hadn’t noticed the Hunter creeping up on him. Tye had gotten Graye out before it was too late but it had meant the death of him.

“We can’t afford to turn against ourselves,” I said as I got back to work before anyone could notice my stiff behavior. “We all know better than that.”

“They’re upset,” Sarah said simply.

“They’re going to have to move on though,” I said, more bluntly than I had meant it. “We need him. We need everyone.”

Sarah didn’t say anything else as she continued her work. It wasn’t until a few minutes later that I realized she was vocalizing not only the thoughts of others in Eden, but her own. I was going to have to talk to Avian and Gabriel about it later.

I worked a longer shift than required, in a way anxious to prove my devotion to keeping Eden alive. It was unnecessary, but I seemed to be feeling the guilt Graye wasn’t. The afternoon shift started trickling in, the post in the watchtower shifting. As I handed off my tools and gloves to someone else, I realized that Graye and I were the last of the morning crew to head back.

I hesitated, unnerved at having to walk back with him, but I wasn’t stupid. It was safer to travel with a companion, even if it was just between the gardens and home. I shouldn’t have walked there by myself that morning.

We traveled in silence. We had known each other for four years now and had been going on raids together for almost three. He was a good fighter and when push came to shove, I would want him on my side.

Graye had come to Eden when I was fifteen-years-old. He himself was twenty at the time. He had been recently married and had a baby girl, both lost to the infection. It was hard to condemn him for his selfish actions; he had lost everything that ever meant anything to him. He was just trying to take something back from the world that had stolen everything from him.

We were nearly back to Eden, our journey nearly successfully silent, when he finally spoke.

“I didn’t mean it you know,” he said in his gravelly voice. “I never wanted Tye to get hurt.”

“I know,” I said simply as we stepped into the perimeter of camp. That was as close to an apology as anyone would ever get from Graye.

We went our separate ways, him heading for the armory to clean his weapons from the night before, me to the medical tent.

THREE

I hadn’t expected anyone but Avian to be inside the medical tent but found him bent over, working on a skin and bones foot. Wix lay on the table, propped up on his elbows, watching as Avian worked.

“Hey, Eve,” Wix said with a bright smile on his narrow face. “Look what I got on the way home!”

He held up a nearly three foot long snake, one of the fattest ones I had ever seen. “Looks like it got you too,” I said as I raised my eyebrows.

“Eh, it’s nothing,” he said with a grin again, watching as Avian treated the bite.

I just smiled and shook my head as I sat on a stump that served as a seat. Wix was the skinniest person I had ever met but made up for his small size with personality. Even all the tough warriors like Bill couldn’t tease him about his build. It was impossible to dislike the green-eyed, red-haired kid. I supposed I shouldn’t call him a kid; he was two years older than me.

“Well, that’s all I can do,” Avian said as he finished wrapping a bandage around Wix’s ankle and foot. “Let me know if it starts oozing or turns black. I want to check on it before you go to sleep tonight.”

“Well that doesn’t sound pleasant,” Wix said as he sat up, his twiggish legs hanging off the table. “Thanks for fixing me up, Doc.”

With that he limped out of the tent, his prize and dinner swinging at his side.

“Snake is actually pretty good,” I said as I watched Avian clean up.

“What are you doing here, Eve?” he asked.

“Making sure you are okay,” I said quietly, taking the quick and honest approach. I took a good look at him, trying to determine if he was. His lean but toned frame was taught, his brow pinched together, his intense blue eyes dark.

“I’m fine. Did Sarah say otherwise?” he said with a sigh, throwing a few used rags into a basket.

I only gave a shrug, picking at a piece of bark that was peeling off the stump I sat on.

“You don’t need to worry,” he said, placing his hands on the table, staring at it. I had little doubt he was seeing the body of his cousin, hearing the volts course through it. It was the same thing I was seeing.

“I wanted to talk to you and Gabriel, together. I’m worried about people turning on Graye.”

Avian looked up at me, and after several long moments, still didn’t say anything. I was worried that I knew what he was thinking. That maybe they should.

“You know we can’t afford to lose him,” I said quietly, but keeping my voice firm.

His eyes hardened for a moment. “Gabriel is on scouting duty right now. He will be back this evening.”

“We need to talk,” I said as I stood. I hesitated at the opening to the tent, wanting to tell him that what Graye did was wrong, but that we needed him. Keeping my mouth closed, I walked out. I would make my argument later, when both Avian and Gabriel were there.

I realized as I walked out of the tent that I had already missed the serving of lunch.  My stomach growled immediately.  I hadn’t bothered to eat breakfast that morning. I walked to the far end of Eden and yanked up the door to the cellar. The room that stored the majority of the food in Eden smelled like earth. It was a comforting place, it felt protected, like Mother Earth wouldn’t ever let anything happen to you there. I helped myself to a few carrots and a few hard rolls that had been wrapped up, left over from that morning.

It spoke volumes as to the characters of the people that lived here in Eden, the fact that there was no need for a guard at the food stores. Most people who made their way here were starving, living only on what they could find in the wild. Here everyone could come and go as they pleased, take what they needed. We all lived by that rule: take what you need. We knew how to ration, no one would starve. We couldn’t afford for anyone to starve.

I ate quickly as I made my way back to my tent. Finding it empty, I threw my few items of clothing and my bedding in a sack and slung it over my back.

Eden moved every two months or so for safety reasons. The Fallen had helicopters that would scout every so often. For humans. We couldn’t risk them seeing us or pinpointing our exact location. The two limitations we had though, were the gardens and water. We always had to be within walking distance of water. It was necessary to survive.

I walked to the south bend of the river, finding myself alone with only the birds for obnoxiously loud company. Kneeling next to the water, I scrubbed my clothing furiously; all of it was barely more than rags anymore. I was going to have to see if there was anything in the storage supplies available or look for something on the next raid. I washed out my blankets and hung it all on the line to dry that had been set up for that exact purpose. My clothes felt hardened and caked with grime as I peeled them off. Dirt clouded the water momentarily as I soaked them and scrubbed furiously. But as hard as I tried, I couldn’t get Tye’s blood out. It would remain a permanent reminder of the man we had lost.

The water was freezing, freshly melted from the snow in the mountains. Bumps rose on my skin as soon as I stepped into the water, my stomach quivering. Closing my eyes, I took a short breath and let myself sink into the river.

I let the flow of the water wash my hair, letting it take the dirt away from my skin. I kept my eyes closed as I settled onto the smooth rocks at the river bottom, listening to the noises I couldn’t discern in the water. It felt peaceful down here. There was no one but me. There was no one else to worry about; no worries about supplies, food, or of being infected. The cybernetics couldn’t survive in the water, everything shorted out.

Down here there was just Eve.

When I finally rose from the water I shivered, the air around me turning brisk. Goosebumps flashed over my bare skin. I climbed out and onto the boulder that my clothes sat on. I wrapped my arms around my legs tightly, huddling against the cold while my clothes continued to dry.

I hoped Gabriel would not take too long. As leader of Eden, he was never away for long. He would never call himself the leader, but that’s what he was. He had never been elected, never asked to be such. But he was the most evenhanded among us, the one who always seemed to have the answers when no one else did. It was he and his family that had formed Eden. Terrif was his father-in-law. Together they had started the gardens that had saved us all from starvation.

He was as much of a father as I’d ever had.

My clothes were still damp when I pulled them on and started the walk back. I passed several other women on the way, heading to do their laundry as well. Two of them wouldn’t look at me, the third tried very hard to form a polite smile. I just tried to keep my eyes glued to the ground.

I found the morning scouting group depositing their weapons in the armory, and was relieved to find Gabriel among them.

“I need to talk to you,” I said quietly as he came out the door.

“Yes, Avian informed me of that,” he said as he came to my side and watched as the rest of the men walked out of the small building. He scratched at his graying beard, his thick brows furrowing.

“Can we talk, now?” I asked, feeling impatient. The distress that was hanging in the air agitated me, filling me with a sense of urgency.

“Fine,” he said, and we set out for the medical tent to find Avian. We retrieved him and made our way to Gabriel’s tent.

We each took a seat on a rug and I could tell both the men were irritated to be there. They would both hear me out though. They owed it to me for saving their lives more than once.

“What Graye did was wrong but you both know we can’t afford to turn on him. We need him, especially now that Tye is gone. You both need to talk to everyone.” It all came out in a desperate rush.

Gabriel and Avian looked at each other with a knowing glance. Avian gave a tired sigh as he looked back at me. “We know that. Everyone does. They aren’t going to turn on Graye. They all love him too, despite his faults. These things happen. We lose people every year. No one wanted to see Tye go but sadly it happens.”

I sat there, feeling stunned for a while. I had read everyone wrong. “Then what is happening? Everyone is about to explode out there!”

“They’re grieving, Eve,” Gabriel said, his expression a mix of annoyance and disbelief as his eyebrows furrowed together. “It’s a natural process. They want someone to blame, to shove it all off on and Graye is that man.”

My eyes slid from Gabriel’s face to Avian’s, whose expression reflected what Gabriel had just said. I’d missed it completely. I felt sorrow that Tye was gone but I had not considered that everyone would grieve so deeply.

“No one is going to force Graye out, no one is planning revenge.  They’re just trying to deal with Tye’s death,” Avian said, his voice catching on his last two words.

We were quiet for a few moments, my eyes studying theirs, making sure they weren’t lying to me. Once they saw that I believed them they moved on.

“We have found traces of something moving in the southern forest,” Gabriel said. “We found shoe prints and traces of waste. We don’t think they’re Fallen but we need to be careful. If they’re human we may watch them for a few days, see if we want to invite them in.”

“How many?” I asked, my interest piqued.

“It looks like three, two older and a smaller child.”

“Where are they headed?” I asked.

“We’re not sure. If they are headed out this way they are probably just running. We will try and contact them soon.  We could use each other, I am sure.”

“Don’t act too soon though,” I said a bit too quickly. “We have to be careful.”

“Of course,” Gabriel said with a nod.

I didn’t know what to say for a minute. I had come in here, prepared for an argument, to state my case. Instead I had made a fool of myself.

“Take the day off, Eve. Try and relax,” Avian said, his face looking concerned.

“Take the day off?” I questioned. I could no sooner take the day off than I could stop breathing.

“Yes, take the day off,” Gabriel said, he eyes sternly set on my face. “I’m ordering you to take a break from your duties. I don’t want you scouting today.”

“But Gabriel, I…”

“I mean it Eve!” he suddenly shouted. We all knew that when he used that tone of voice it was time to stop arguing. He shook his head at me, his brow furrowed. “Go home, Eve.”

My jaw set, I stood and walked out.

Home. I didn’t even know what that was.

I threw the flap of my tent aside, finding it empty. I was glad it was, I was too flustered to talk to Sarah then and I didn’t want to have her try and calm me down. I grabbed my bow and my quiver out of the corner and walked back out. They may have ordered me to keep away from my duties but I could not sit around idle.

The woods were both silent and full of sound. Noise didn’t travel far, absorbed by the towering threes that surrounded us, by the earth and moss that covered the ground. And yet the birds never stopped chirping, the insects never ceased their harmonious singing. If they ever did it was too late.

I watched for the signs. For the trails in the grass, the droppings on the ground. It felt like I had to push farther and farther out from the perimeter of Eden to find anything. I wasn’t the only one that hunted in Eden but I was the most persistent. I almost never came back empty handed.

Goosebumps rose on my skin as I caught a glimpse of movement to the south. My heart started racing in the familiar feeling of anticipation of meat. I pulled the arrow back, holding my breath. Two seconds later the buck stepped into view.

The next second it jerked violently, the tip of an arrow appearing in the side of its neck. It took a few staggering steps forward.

My arrow was still in my bow.

A moment later a figure leapt out of the underbrush, knife in hand, and slit the thrashing animal’s throat. Just as the animal fell still, the boy looked up and my gray-blue eyes met his wide brown ones.

It took me a fraction of a second to react. I leapt over the boulder I had been hiding behind in one bound. That was all it took for the boy to leap back into the brush and take off at a sprint.

I heard him crashing through the maze of the forest, leaving a wake of fallen grasses and trampled moss behind him. Every time I thought I was gaining on him though the sound of his retreating form would get further away.

It wasn’t an easy thing to out run me. I couldn’t remember the last time it had happened. But after ten minutes of dead-sprint chase I couldn’t find any traces of him.

I climbed out of the tree where I had made a desperate attempt to gain some ground and catch a glimpse of movement. As I dropped to the ground with a gentle stirring of the dirt, I knew I had to get back to Eden quickly. After gathering as much of the buck as I could carry, I jogged back to camp at a steady pace.

When I stepped away from the tree line and into camp, I found things in a state of unease. Several scouts were gathered around Gabriel talking quickly in hushed tones. Others stood on the perimeter looking nervous and anxious.

“What’s going on?” I asked as I came to Sarah’s side, readjusting the hunks of meat I had bundled up.

She glanced at me, her eyes widening slightly as she saw what I was carrying. “The scouts saw someone in the woods again. They’re getting closer.”

“Yeah,” I said as I started walking toward Gabriel and his group. “I saw him.”

Gabriel caught sight of me as I approached them, his brow creasing. “I told you to take the day off, Eve.”

“I saw him, in the woods,” I said, ignoring his protests.

“You saw him?” he asked doubtfully.

“Yes, I chased him but he was quick. He got away.”

Gabriel gave the scouts a disapproving look. “I suppose that explains the fourth body.”

I gave Gabriel a questioning look.

“They found evidence of the three unknowns in the woods. Eli saw a fourth one, running through the woods, following another of them.”

A little smile tugged at the corner of my mouth. “I was out hunting. He killed my buck just before I was about to. I tried to capture him but he got away.”

Gabriel glared at the two men in front of him. “Pay a little closer attention next time.” He said, then waved them off.

“It’s not safe wandering in the woods alone,” Gabriel said as he watched the crowd disband.

I only stared at him, waiting for this moment of false fatherly chiding to pass.

“Even for you,” he added, his tone less scolding now.

“I am going to need two people to help me collect the meat. He was a big one.”

Gabriel glared at me again. I could see the words forming in his head, I told you to take the day off. He couldn’t say them though. He wanted to eat the meat just as badly as I did.

“Get Graye and Wix. They are both relieved right now.”

Great, of the two people he could have picked, he had to choose the one who was as weak as a child and the one I could hardly stand to look at right now.

It had taken longer than it should have, gathering the rest of the meat. I felt distracted and I sensed it in Graye as well. There was an unknown running around out there. Neither of us liked that thought.

We ate well that night, everyone filled themselves more than we thought it was possible. It seemed bringing meat also brought me redemption I didn’t need to earn. People started looking at me again, hard lines turned into slight smiles again. Everyone seemed less hardened toward Graye even. The feast had apparently put everyone in a forgiving mood.

I went to bed before Sarah did, a rare occurrence. I normally slept little but tonight I felt exhausted. I slid into unconsciousness to the sound of distant laughter.

FOUR

The smell of steel was strong in the air. I would recognize it anywhere since it was so uncommon in Eden. Low, hurried voices sounded behind me, speaking with words I couldn’t understand.

My heart hammered, the only part of my body that seemed able to move. I could feel the cold metal surface underneath me, pressing unrelenting back at my shivering body. I lay on my stomach, my face resting in a hole cut into the table.

The voices approached through the dark, excitement and nerves apparent. I suddenly felt afraid. I wanted to run, to hide so the people in the dark could never find me. I didn’t want to know what they were going to do to me.

A gloved hand touched my head and I realized it was so cold because all of my hair had been shaved off.

They gathered around me and even though I couldn’t see them, I felt half a dozen pairs of eyes settle onto the back of my exposed head.

The sound of a drill was the last thing I heard.

I jerked awake, my hands leaping to my head. I slumped back, relieved to find that my straight blond hair was still on my head. I closed my eyes again, the smell of steel still burning my nose. My heart continued to pound in the way it only did when I had the nightmares that seemed so vivid.

A stirring of the dirt outside caught my full attention. It was still hours from dawn, no one should have been awake at this hour, and even if they were, they wouldn’t be wandering outside of their tents.

Silently, I sprang from my bed, slinging my pack on in the same movement. I grabbed a knife and a pistol from my own stash of weapons and went to the opening of the tent.

The moon cast a faint glow on Eden, just enough light to enable me to see the figure that was retreating to the tree line.

I kept out of sight as I slid between tents, careful to keep my cover. The outline looked vaguely familiar as I stalked it. It moved with sure, deliberate strides, quieter than I would expect from anyone but me. He must have dropped something or tripped just outside of my tent for me to have heard him.

He kept watch as he moved through camp but held his pace quick and straight. He was in a hurry to get out of there.

I followed him to the edge of the forest, hiding behind Wix’s tent as I watched the figure dart into the trees. He glanced back once, making sure he wasn’t seen before he dropped into the trees. He should have looked a little closer.

I darted into the trees ten yards to the west of where I had seen him enter. My footsteps fell silently on the damp earth as I regained the footing he had gained on me. When I heard more than one set of footsteps I took to the trees, being careful not to rustle the leaves as I crossed from one bough to the other.

It was not difficult to keep up with them. The other older figure moved with a slight limp in the right leg, all the while trying to keep a small figure close to her side. They didn’t seem dangerous.

Without hesitation or fear, I dropped from a limb directly in front of them, my blade just inches away from the boy’s chest.

“We don’t tolerate theft in Eden,” I said, my voice calm.

“Then point that knife back around,” a male voice said, filled with forced confidence. “I believe you stole my buck.”

So I had been right, this was the same boy I had seen in the forest earlier. Looking closer, I realized I shouldn’t call him a boy. He had to be around my age, maybe eighteen or even nineteen.

My eyes flickered to the figures that stood behind him. A woman who looked to be just a year or so older than myself stared at me with wide green eyes that shone brightly in the moonlight, her brilliantly red hair draping around her face in curls. She had her arms around a small boy with similarly curly blond hair.

“I couldn’t let them starve,” the boy said simply.

He carried a cloth in his arms and I could see several food items sticking out of it. The small child held a piece of bread possessively in his hands, ready to protect it with his life.

“It’s dangerous coming here and taking what isn’t yours,” I said as I held his eyes.

“We haven’t eaten in days,” the boy said, his voice sounding tired. “We’ve been running for over a week, maybe longer. So I guess it’s either you kill us or starvation will.”

My eyes scanned over them carefully, checking for any signs. Their eyes looked normal but it was difficult to tell in the minimal light. I was fairly certain the woman was organic, considering her wound. The Fallen could heal themselves as long as the injury wasn’t fatal. The cybernetic molecules would spread to the damaged area, stealing more of their humanity as the injured flesh was replaced with mechanical components.

The boy seemed likely organic as well, Fallen children didn’t know how to hide their true nature.

So the only one I had to question was the boy. He moved with skill, he had shot with deadly accuracy. He hadn’t earned a clearing yet.

“You are going to have to come with me,” I said finally, keeping the boys tired but determined stare.

He held my eyes for a moment before looking back at his companions. I glanced at the woman, she actually looked slightly relieved. The child only bit into his bread, devouring it with a speed that left half of the food on his face.

“Alright,” he finally said, as if he actually had a choice. I nodded my head in the opposite direction and they started walking toward Eden with the feet that had traveled a hundred miles.

The walk back didn’t take long. They hadn’t gotten far from Eden before I confronted them. Our pace was slowed, hindered by the woman’s limping. I watched her closely as she moved. She could have been faking, trying to pretend to be human. Doubt crept into my mind. It was hard to tell human from Fallen sometimes. It all depended on how long they had been infected.

Camp was still silent when we entered its perimeters, as it should have been. Pressing a finger to my lips, I urged them toward Gabriel’s tent. I assumed by the lack of alert that the guard in the tower had fallen asleep. I took a mental note to request that Gabriel add more night watches to my list of duties.

I went to the east wall of Gabriel’s tent, the one I knew he slept on.

“Gabriel,” I whispered in attempt to not wake everyone nearby. “Gabriel.”

I heard a grunt and a shift of movement. At the same time I heard a flap being thrown back from another tent and a moment later an alarmed looking Avian stumbled out of his tent.

“Eve?” he questioned as he squinted through the darkness. “What… whoa! Uh…” he struggled to make his brain work as he realized I wasn’t alone.

“I found them after he stole from the stores, out in the woods nearby,” I gave a hushed explanation. “Gabriel,” I hissed again.

This seemed to finally rouse him as I heard a curse and two seconds later Gabriel half tripped out of the entrance.

“What the devil…” he said angrily and stopped short as he took in the growing group outside his tent. “Who are they?”

“The ones we saw in the woods,” I said simply for him. It was amazing the Fallen hadn’t figured out how slow humans were after they woke up. Everyone could easily be picked off in the middle of the night.

“You caught them?” Gabriel said stupidly.

“No, he’s forcing me to point the blade at them,” I said as I rolled my eyes.

Gabriel glared at me for a moment before he turned his attention to Avian. “Get the CDU,” he said.

With a nod, Avian turned and jogged toward the medical tent.

“Where did you come from?” Gabriel demanded as he turned to the boy.

“We were just outside a city, a few days south of here. There were thirteen of us. We’re all that’s left.”

“The city?” Gabriel said, surprise evident in his voice.

“Our camp moved around but we were always within walking distance. We needed to be able to get to supplies. The Hunters found us though.”

That was explanation enough for us. While food was becoming scarce in the city as roamers raided, other supplies were still to be found; clothing, medical supplies, weapons occasionally. We went on our own raids when the need arose.

The sound of Avian’s quiet jogging announced his return, feet that had been trained to move as silent as possible. His eyes were grim as he slowed when we came into view. We were all quiet as he charged it up and calibrated it.

“What is it?” the young child asked as he pressed himself against the woman, eyeing the device with uncertainty.

“This,” Avian said as he finished pushing buttons, his tone careful for the child. “Is called a Cybernetic Diffusion Unit. Or a CDU for short. It protects us from the bad guys.”

“What are you going to do with it?” the boy asked warily.

“I’m just going to touch you with it. It will give you a little shock but shouldn’t hurt.”

Shouldn’t.

“This isn’t necessary,” the older boy said as he watched the child. “We’re not Fallen.”

Despite his words I knew he understood why we were doing this. Even as Avian touched the CDU to the young boy’s arm I knew nothing would happen. They weren’t pretending.

The child jumped as the electricity leapt though his system. He buried his face into the woman’s skirts, not wanting to watch as Avian looked into the woman’s eyes with polite apologies.  She barely flinched as she was shocked.

With more uncertainty, Avian turned to the boy, his eyes not so kind anymore.

If the CDU was turned on a Fallen they would be shorted out and killed instantly, including their human parts. The cybernetic molecules saturated every part of your body once you were infected, even if your skin stayed intact, your muscles, your hair. This was the device that had saved us from Tye once he had Fallen.

The boy did not take his eyes from Avian as he approached. He rolled up his sleeves, almost in a challenging way, as if daring Avian to prove him not organic.

I didn’t even realize I had been holding my breath for over a minute until Avian had taken the CDU away from the boys arm. He hadn’t even flinched, not reacted in any way.

“Satisfied?” the boy asked in a flat voice, his eyes suddenly looking ready to sleep.

“No,” Gabriel said, his thick brows drawing together. “You’ve stolen from us.”

“We needed food,” the woman spoke for the first time. “The boy, he needed to eat.”

Gabriel turned his dark blue eyes on her, his hands on his hips. While his face was stern he looked almost comical, standing in the moonlight, in his nightgown. With his gray beard he looked almost like a picture I had seen of Santa Claus long ago.

“What are your names?” Gabriel demanded, though his expression softened slightly.

“This is Victoria,” the boy said, indicating the woman. “And Brady. And my name is West.”

“Are you going to cause any trouble here?” Gabriel asked, his tone serious with the need for assurance that was essential to our survival.

West shook his head, his eyes meeting mine. “I’d rather not have her knife me, so no.” The woman and the child both shook their heads as well.

“We were going to approach your camp in the morning,” West said, his tone less sarcastic. “Brady couldn’t wait to eat.”

Gabriel looked at the group for a long moment. I could see the gears turning in his finally awake head. The decision to let them stay was a gravely important one. On the one hand it was risky.  We knew nothing of their past and there was the chance they could be being tracked by Hunters. On the other hand we could use more bodies, especially West, considering the recent loss of Tye. And besides that, they were human, our fellow species. We owed it to them to take them in. We were becoming fewer and fewer, a dying race.

“You,” Gabriel finally said, indicating West. “You may stay with Avian for the time being. There is an extra tent close to his, used for storage at the moment that the two of you can stay in,” he said, meaning the woman and child.

Avian and West eyed each other warily but I could tell West was too tired to fight anything. I knew Gabriel had assigned West to Avian’s tent so he could be watched.

“Thank you,” Victoria said gratefully.

“Are you alright until morning?” Avian said, looking meaningfully at Victoria. “I have medical training.”

She looked embarrassed to have his attention on her, her face flushing a visible scarlet, even in the moonlight. “I will be alright, thank you.”

“Don’t try and run off in the night,” I said as everyone started to disband. “It’s not safe.”

West met my eyes for a moment and I thought I saw a hit of a smile tug at his lips.

“I want to talk to you at day break,” Gabriel said as he lifted the flap of his tent. “All of you.”

Avian and I nodded and the newcomers followed Avian. Alone again, I started the walk to the watch tower. I breathed the cool night air in, letting it relax my tense muscles. It was strange, how alive I felt. I felt oddly satisfied and excited.

It wasn’t my night but I climbed the ladder to the tower. I woke the guard who was on duty. He was immensely apologetic, obviously embarrassed that he had fallen asleep. He would feel ten times worse come morning when he learned three people had raided camp while he had dreams of television and air conditioning.

The distant sound of awkward helpfulness drifted up to the tower for a few minutes and then the night was quiet again, just as it should be. I sat on the hard wooden bench, pulling my jacket tighter around me. The air felt suddenly cold now that the adrenaline that had been saturating my muscles had ebbed.

I rubbed my eyes which suddenly felt heavy, though mentally I didn’t feel tired in the slightest. I hated sleep. Idleness made me irritable and frustrated. Sleep was about as idle as you could be. It wasn’t like it came as a relief to me. Others in Eden dreamt of times before the Fall. Of families, of homes with electricity and running water. Of what life should have been like.

I couldn’t remember what it was like before the Fall. Even though I was thirteen when the world ended, my very first memory was of Avian’s burning blue eyes.

About eight years ago, a breakthrough in science was made. For years, technology had been evolving. Robotic prosthetics were made, artificial hearts kept people alive. Nanorobotics and cybernetic technology evolved faster than the media could even keep up with. It started out so harmless. There was nothing but good intensions. It was difficult to find faults in the people who had created the infection.

A group of scientists created a new breed of technology, manufactured a product that was going to save millions of people’s lives, improve another few million more. They created technology that infused human DNA with cybernetic mater. It had the ability to generate new limbs, organs, and just about any other part. It was a perfect blend of machine and man.

The scientists became billionaires overnight. People were put on waiting lists, crying with joy that their lost leg was going to be regenerated, that their little sister who had been waiting for a liver transplant was going to live.

The unconfirmed question hung in the air. This technology had the ability to regenerate any body part. When your heart, liver, lungs began to wear out you could simply buy new cybernetic hybrid ones. If you could afford it. Would people now be able to live forever?

Fifteen-hundred implants were given. Those who were treated came from every corner of the world, were observed for a week after the procedure to make sure the implants grew as they were programmed to, and then sent home. For three months the world seemed like a better place to live in.

And then the side effects started showing up. The people who had been improved were having other parts of their bodies change. A cybernetic lung was joined by a mechanical kidney, an enhanced, metallic eye. The technology was evolving on its own, slowly taking over the human’s bodies.

Then it wasn’t just the patients that were starting to lose themselves. It was their families, their close friends. After further research, it was found that cybernetic cells weren’t stopping where they were supposed to. The technology was dubbed as “the infection” and could be spread as easily as touching an infected person.

A war raged through mankind, splitting the world into two sides. There were those who wanted to build an electromagnetic pulse, to wipe the infection out completely. But the rest of them cried there had to be another way. Doing such would send everyone back into the dark ages. Setting off an EMP would wipe out every computer, every car, every water heater, and backup generator.

They waited too long.

It hadn’t mattered, wondering if mankind could now live forever. They were all killed instead.

By month four, ninety-eight percent of the world’s population had become infected, not even human anymore. More machine than man. We, mankind, were a dying race.

Those that had survived figured out real fast that you had to flee into the country. The world was plunged back into the dark ages anyway.

As the first hints of light started to faze into the sky my replacement came, a man in his early thirties named Tuck. He seemed surprised to see me instead of his comrade whom I had relieved. I climbed down from the tower with stiff legs and headed back toward the tents.

I caught a glimpse of the red-haired woman and the small child walking with Avian toward the medical tent.  Just as I walked past it, Gabriel stepped out of his tent. He gave me a knowing look and walked with me after Avian. A few moments later I heard someone step out of another tent and looked back to see West following behind us silently.

The air in the medical tent was sharp, smelling faintly of blood and stolen bleach. Victoria was already sitting on Avian’s table, pulling her skirt up to her knee as Avian pulled on a pair of precious latex gloves. It was disheartening how something that had been so mundane ten years ago had become so precious.

“I trust you got some rest last night?” Avian asked as he inspected her foot, the boy standing close by. The skin on her foot was swollen and red, puss struggling to be let out.

“Yes, thank you,” she answered quietly, her expression uncomfortable, as if the thought of a man touching any part of her body scandalized her.

Gabriel sat on one of the stumps that served as a seat, his fingers scratching at his grayed beard. I could tell he was struggling for words, unsure of what his actions were going to be.

“What are your intentions?” he finally asked, directing his question to West. I then noticed that West had been studying me with narrowed eyes. “What is your goal right now?”

“Stay alive, just like all of you,” West answered simply, his eyes shifting from my face to Gabriel’s.

“And where had you been heading, when Eve found you?”

“Just away from the city. We didn’t know if we would ever find anyone else. As far as we knew, our little group could be the only humans left. And then there were only three of us after we got separated from our group.”

Gabriel considered his words. A strange feeling of emptiness filled me as I thought about what he had said. The thought of no one else being out there felt like final defeat. No wonder they had looked so tired last night. They’d had the weight of the world on their shoulders.

“We could use you,” Gabriel said, having seemingly made up his mind. “We’ve lost someone recently; his absence will be felt, in more ways than one.” Avian’s eyes flickered toward Gabriel’s face for a moment. I didn’t miss the pain that filled them. “We invite you to stay with us, if you can be trusted. We won’t hesitate to dispose of you if we find otherwise.”

“We won’t be trouble,” Victoria said, her voice desperate.  “Please, we just want to stop running.”

Our attention turned to West. Even though it hadn’t been stated, and even though Victoria seemed to be the same age, he was obviously the one who had taken care of everyone, the one who made the decisions.

He simply nodded.

“I will have some of the extra tents set up,” Gabriel said. Avian looked relieved to hear that he wouldn’t have to share his quarters again with a stranger he didn’t know if he could trust. “How does she look Avian?”

He didn’t even look up as he scrubbed at her skin, Victoria’s face looking pained. “The cut was bad. It’s amazing you didn’t bleed to death. Even more amazing this infection hasn’t killed you. But if we keep it clean it should heal up fine. I suggest she stay off her feet for at least a few days.”

Gabriel nodded, looking momentarily at the boy. I knew it hurt him to see another child. Gabriel had lost a child to the infection in the beginning.

“You will go with Eve to the fields this morning,” he said, taking his eyes away from Brady and looking at West. “This is important. The gardens keep us alive. If he acts suspicious, if you fear any betrayal from him, kill him, Eve.”

West glanced at me briefly, his eyes slightly wide with surprise at Gabriel’s bold words. He then looked back at Gabriel and gave the smallest nod of understanding.

“Come on,” I said as I went to the flap of the tent. “I am already late.” I didn’t wait to see if he followed me as I headed in the direction of the gardens.

He walked a few paces behind me.  I listened for any sounds of wrong movement. I kept my hand on the knife that was fixed in my belt, ready to use it on him if he tried to attack. He only followed me, his eyes taking the forest around us in.

“How many are there here?” he finally asked, his voice falling in short waves in the trees.

“Thirty-four,” I said automatically. “I mean, thirty-three. There are thirty-three of us in Eden.” It felt like a rock had just formed in my chest as the image of Tye’s lifeless metallic eye staring at me came back.

“And your leader, his name is?”

“He’s not exactly our leader. He didn’t ask to be one but we all trust him. His name is Gabriel. And the other one is Avian. He is as close to a doctor as there is anymore.”

“And your name is Eve.” It wasn’t a question. “Where do you come from, Eve?”

My stomach knotted up, my hand gripped tighter on my knife. “You ask a lot of questions.” His question felt more meaningful than it should have.

“I’m just trying to figure things out.”

He didn’t say anything else after that and I made sure I didn’t let him see my face. Everyone had come from somewhere in Eden. I just didn’t know where I had come from. All I had were broken images from my nightmares that didn’t link together, a shattered mirror that would never be put together again.

We walked in hardened silence the rest of the way to the gardens. When we arrived it felt as if every pair of eyes fell upon us, growing wide with fear and curiosity. I couldn’t raise my eyes to meet theirs. The attention made me want to run. I had raised myself to keep out of sight and in the shadows.

Pretending like we weren’t being scrutinized, I led West to the storage shed and grabbed a wheelbarrow. “This way,” I said, keeping my voice and my gaze down.

West was well aware of all the looks he was getting but he didn’t hide from them like I did. He met their eyes, his face showing no emotion as he followed me through the gate and down a path. Despite the questions that they were practically screaming with their eyes, no one said a word as we passed.

We stopped in the western field where hints of corn were starting to sprout. Tufts of green rose in perfect rows. Spring brought hope every year. Every row echoed our victory over the infection, against the Fallen. We were still here. While we were still here there was still some form of hope.

I dropped to my hands and knees and started on a row, picking out the rebellious weeds that insisted in cropping up. Seeing what I did, West dropped a few rows away from me and started pulling too.

My hands worked swiftly and with well-practiced precision but my eyes kept flickering to West’s form. His back was turned to me, his head bent low as he worked dutifully. He looked able to take care of himself. His frame was light but well-muscled.

His dark hair fell across his eyes, left shaggy and long like the majority of the males in the world. It was difficult to cut hair without shaving it completely off. The only man in Eden who kept his hair short was Avian, who shaved his head completely every other week or so.

As I was tangled in my own thoughts I suddenly realized that he had looked at me, his woodsy eyes holding mine. He had paused in his work, his hand a few inches above the ground, holding a weed. I felt frozen for a moment, unable to look away. Why did his eyes echo something in the recesses of my mind, calling to a place in my memory I had forgotten?

The small smile that tugged on his lips was all I needed to snap back into reality.

“How long have you been here, Eve?” he asked, his eyes turning back to his task. He threw the weed in his hand into the wheelbarrow.

“For as long as I can remember,” I said simply. I felt oddly disarmed, as if he had tipped over a wall in me that I didn’t really realize was there. I didn’t really want that wall tipped.

“Since before the fall?” his voice sounded slightly surprised.

“No, just after it.”

“How old are you?” he asked, glancing up at me for a moment.

“How old are you?” I questioned back. I didn’t like the questions. I felt like I didn’t have enough answers most of the time.

“I turn nineteen in two months.”

We were both quiet for a few moments, only the soft sound of earth being disturbed.

“I’m seventeen,” I said quietly to the dirt. “I think.”

“You think?”

“I think,” I said sharply, making sure not to look into his face.

The sound of feet brought my attention up. Graye had moved into our field, keeping a short distance away but watching us as we worked.

“Who’s he?” West asked, meeting Graye’s eyes for a moment.

“Graye,” I answered. “He can have a temper. Stay out of his way if you can.”

West met Graye’s eyes again for a second, holding them as if to test what I had just said.

We said little else as we finished our shift, dumping the full wheelbarrow of weeds into the compost pile. With the rest of the group, we walked back to Eden. Despite the whispers that flew through the group, no one dared to ask about West’s presence.

I saw little of the newcomers the rest of the afternoon. They stayed close to Gabriel’s side, getting settled in. Word was spreading fast about them, it would be impossible for it not to. Emotions were mixed. Some were elated to have three new members come into our family. There was obvious excitement about Brady. There weren’t many children anymore. Other’s felt like I did, not sure if trust was to be automatically given just because they were human.

The sun started to set, an orange haze peppered with stars. I sat on the hill that protected Eden on the north side, watching as everyone went about their evening routine. Some made trips to the outhouses, others to take an evening bath, some heading to bed early. I watched them, feeling a sense of pride for them yet feeling disconnected and distant. I was one of them but they didn’t understand me and I didn’t really understand them.

I heard rubble being disturbed on the trail that led to my spot and poked my head over the ledge. Avian climbed up over the rounded ledge, giving me a half tight-lipped smile as he joined at my side.

The silence was comfortable as we saw the fires being lit below us. Trails of smoke drifted into the sky before they faded into the darkening light. The sound of Avian’s breathing comforted me. It was so familiar. If anything was home in this wreck of a world it was Avian.

“What do you think of them?” I finally broke the silence, my eyes never leaving the tents below us. I picked West out, walking hesitantly to a fire. He didn’t sit to warm his hands, just stood back from the group and watched.

“I don’t know,” Avian mused, watching. The glow of the fires cast an orange haze to his face that highlighted his sharp brow, the line of his cheek bones. “The woman and child seem harmless. I don’t know what to think of West though. There’s something strange about him.”

I nodded in agreement. West had history to him. Some people were just like that. You just looked at them and could tell there was a story behind their face. “He’s keeping a secret.”

“Like what?” Avian asked.

I shook my head. “I’m not sure. He knows something.”

Avian was quiet, unsure of what to say, echoing my own thoughts. I didn’t like being uncertain about people, especially when those people could end the lives of the others around me. All it would take was one simple beacon to call out the Fallen.

“Happy birthday, Eve,” Avian said quietly. He extended his hand out to me, a small box in his palm.

A small smile tugged at my lips. “My birthday.”

It probably wasn’t my real birthday. Having no memory of anything when I came to Eden, Sarah insisted we pick a day as my birthday. Some date to mark the years of my life as they passed. I had no idea the date had come.

“There was once a time when turning eighteen meant something. It used to be a big deal.”

I took the box from his hand. It was simple, nothing special to it. I pulled it open and something light and shiny fell into my hand. I held it up to the light. It was a silver necklace, attached to it was a tiny set of wings, carved out of a soft black stone.

I took the wings gently in my fingers. They seemed so delicate, yet hard at the same time. I knew I must be gentle with it or it would break. It was the most elegant piece of craftsmanship I had seen.

I smiled as I recalled the conversation he and I had had when I was about fourteen. I had asked him what his name meant. He explained that it related to things to do with birds and flight. I had loved his name ever since.

“May I?” Avian asked.

I only nodded. Avian took the necklace and fastened the clasp behind my neck. His hands felt warm as they brushed my neck, causing goosebumps to rise on my flesh. He sat back and watched where it lay on my chest.

“You made it,” I stated, picking it up again to observe the flawless details. The feathers looked so soft I almost brushed my fingers over them.

He only nodded, his eyes still looking at his creation. “I didn’t want it to go by without some notice. It’s an important day for you.”

“It doesn’t feel important,” I said as I lowered the necklace to my chest again.

“It is,” Avian said, his eyes going back to Eden.

And we sat there on the hard earth, our shoulders barely brushing, until the sky went black and the stars shone with burning intensity.

FIVE

I cinched my pack tighter to my back as I walked out of the armory. A blade was strapped to each of my legs, a handgun secured in my belt, and a rifle rested in my left hand. I stood to the side of the door as Graye looked at me with serious eyes and ducked inside. Bill joined us a few minutes later.

“Same as always?” I asked as they both looked to me. They nodded their heads, Graye shifting a gun into his other hand, Bill strapping a blade to his arm.

“Just a minute, Eve,” a voice came from behind us. I turned to see Gabriel walking toward us, West following two steps behind. “I want you to take him with you.”

“We can handle it, Gabriel,” I said as I turned back to my scouting partners.

“I’m not asking, Eve,” he said sternly as he joined our small circle. “With Tye’s loss we need him. I won’t leave us unprotected because of your pride.”

“Fine,” I said as I stalked into the armory. I grabbed a rifle and walked back out. I raised my eyebrows slightly at him as I handed it over. “Keep up.”

Not waiting for either of them to say anything else, I turned and headed toward the tree line.

Graye headed toward the northern border, Bill to the west. We kept a constant circle around Eden. I was a little disappointed to see that West had not chosen to follow Bill or Graye. Guess that should have been expected considering my warning about Graye.

I kept my eyes trained to the trees, keeping my ears alert. Maybe I could just simply ignore West’s presence. Maybe he’d get the message and go scout on his own.

“What have I done to make you hate me?” West suddenly demanded. His words stopped me in my tracks. “You don’t… you don’t even know me.”

I whipped around, my eyes blazing as I looked into his. “That’s the point. I don’t know you. I don’t know if I can trust you.”

“And how do I know if I can trust you?” he asked, his voice dropping low. “How do I know that you aren’t just going to turn that blade on me out here where no one can see us?”

“You don’t,” I said, my tone softer. “But I wouldn’t do that. We need you.”

“Exactly,” he said, the smugness obvious in his voice.

My eyes hardened as I held his. I wanted to wipe the small little smile off his face.

“Just stay out of my way,” I hissed as I turned and started walking east.

“Why do they treat you different?” he asked as he followed me. “Like you’re some kind of leader. Like you aren’t just some girl?”

“Why don’t you find out?” I said as I stopped suddenly, turning cold eyes on him again. When he didn’t say anything, I started walking again.

“’Cause I know how to survive,” I said simply as my eyes scanned the trees, keeping my ears keen for any misplaced sounds. “Because I keep them alive.”

“Why are you any better than either of those other two guys?”

“Would you just shut up!” I hissed as I glared back at him. “You’re going to get us both killed!”

West threw both hands up in defense, his gun facing up toward the blue skies. “There isn’t anything anywhere near here. We didn’t see anything since the first day we left our camp.”

I stared at him in disbelief for a second. Did he honestly think that meant he could let his guard down? Finally, I just shook my head and kept walking.

The necklace Avian had given me bounced on my chest as I walked, its surface cool and hard. The light reflecting off it blinded my vision for a fraction of a second. At the same time, the memory of seeing this same item jarred my brain.

“Graye!” I screamed as we headed back into an alley. “Leave it! We’ve got to get out of here!”

“Hang on! I’ll be right back. I’ve got to grab something!” The helicopters above our heads nearly drowned his voice out.

“Graye!” I screamed, but it was too late, he had already dashed back out into the street. At the same time, Tye jumped out from behind me, dropping his pack full of supplies beside me.

I was about to dart after them when a strong hand grabbed hold of my arm. I whipped around to see Bill shaking his head at me. “We don’t all need to get caught.”

I stared at him wide-eyed, yet knowing what he said was the truth. I wasn’t thinking clearly. But what was Graye doing? We had everything we needed. What could he possibly be going back for?

A light shone overhead from the circling helicopter. We ducked behind a long unused dumpster, dropping into the shadows. The faint sound of glass breaking was followed by the roar of a Hunter’s ATV.

Twenty seconds later we saw a flash of light from in front of the building as the Hunter exploded and Graye and Tye came running around the corner. The glint of the circling light overhead reflected off an object in Graye’s hand.

An hour later Tye’s eye had hardened and turned metallic.

My breathing came in shallow breaths as I looked back down at the necklace. Avian had asked Graye to grab it for me on the raid. Tye had saved him from being turned but had been infected himself. Tye had died to get Avian’s gift for me.

“Why are we stopping?” I jumped as West’s voice was too close behind me. His eyes scanned the trees for the reason for my hesitation.

“Uh, nothing. Why don’t you take the south trail? You don’t need me to babysit you,” I said as my brow furrowed, my fingers closing around the pair of wings.

West gave me a concerned look but nodded and started walking in the direction I had told him to.

It suddenly felt like my blood was burning with fury. Why would Avian risk so much for something so stupid? Something so unnecessary? Tye’s death was in no way worth the shiny bobble I wasn’t sure I even wanted anymore.

Taking two seconds to collect myself, I started off toward the eastern border. I wouldn’t let myself get distracted on scouting duty. I couldn’t live with myself if a Hunter slipped past me because I was regretting things I had no control over.

The terrain took a steady climb upward as I reached the limits of our boundaries. I took two steps backward before sprinting forward and then launching myself onto a branch of a wide-leafed tree. I pulled myself higher into the branches, twigs and leaves brushing my skin as I ascended. When the branches began to thin and bow under my weight I found one and settled.

Valleys and low mountains spread before me. At one time this was a part of something, belonging to some state or city. None of that mattered anymore. Once the infection got you, nothing mattered anymore, except for turning the rest of us into nothing too.

And beyond where I could see, there was an entire city of Fallen. And more cities full of them beyond that.

A movement below me caught my attention. It could have been nothing, a breeze I hadn’t felt, an animal stalking through the forest. Nonetheless, I was down the tree in less than five seconds and moving through the woods on silent feet.

Something breathed a few yards away, a heavy sound, reverberating through a chest too big to be human. A musky smell floated in my direction, the scent of wet fur.

It saw me at the same time I saw it. A recently woken brown bear.

Adrenaline shot into my system like a geyser erupting from the earth. At the same time that I grabbed for my blade, the bear realized it was in danger and was taking lumbering bounds toward me.

I leapt at my opponent, blade gleaming in the air, and swung. It connected with the bear’s throat, though as I had expected, it wasn’t enough to take it down. The beast gave a ferocious cry and swiped at me with a massive paw. I jumped out of its reach, reaching into my belt for my handgun. At the same time another shot was fired from above my right shoulder.

I shouldn’t have gotten distracted. I was a better hunter than that.

In the half second I glanced over at West where he sat perched in a tree, the bear leapt at me, angry and fearful at the same time. Blood seeped into his fur and that was all I noticed as his gigantic paws swiped at me.

I landed a good four feet from the creature and by the time I rolled over to spring back up, it was on top of me again, it’s teeth bared as it gave a very ticked-off growl in my face.

I pulled my handgun once again and fired one shot straight up into the bear’s heart.

It collapsed on top of me with crushing force.

“Eve!” West’s shout came from somewhere behind the mass of the bear. “I’m sorry, I didn’t think it would keep coming at you after I shot it!”

Bracing my hands against the bulk of the beast, I shoved with everything I had. It was just enough to roll it off of me and wiggle out. I stood, wiping my hands, and noticed West’s wide-eyed expression.

“What?” I asked, annoyance in my voice.

He blinked twice and then shook his head. “Nothing. I think we should get you back to Avian. I think the majority of the blood is the bear’s but that looks like a pretty nasty scratch.”

I barely even glanced down. I was fighting some very angry words back that were going to be targeted in West’s direction.

“Come on,” I said instead. “Let’s haul what we can of this.”

We hacked what we could off, hauling as much of the eighteen-hundred pound beast as we could and set off through the woods.

“What was it like?” West suddenly asked as we huffed from our loads, struggling through the forest. “Where you came from, before here?”

“You really ask too many questions,” I said as I wiped my arm across my forehead quickly.  When he didn’t say anything in response, I rolled my eyes before fixing them on the unmarked path in front of us. “I don’t remember anything before I came to Eden. Eden has taken care of me, Gabriel mostly, Sarah. Avian when I needed him.”

“You and Avian? You two aren’t…” I didn’t like the implication the trailing of his voice left.

“What?” I questioned, wondering if he was being serious. “No, Avian’s twenty-five. It’s not like that.”

“Twenty-five? Huh, he doesn’t look that old.”

I just gave a shrug as I stared forward. Avian just looked like Avian to me.

We were quiet for a while as we hauled our load. I was looking forward to eating the fatty meat of the bear tonight but at the same time I wished we hadn’t wandered this far from Eden before finding it.

People buzzed with excitement as we drug the pieces of bear through camp to the mess hall. I left them and West to take care of the meat that would feed us for days.

I walked toward my tent, passing by the newly set up tents. Just as I was about to slip by, a mass of red hair stepped out, followed by an explosion of Brady. The boy giggled as he raced out and hid behind another tent.

“Brady, stay here!” Victoria said, her voice slightly alarmed sounding.

I paused, feeling awkward just walking away, but not knowing what to say to this person I didn’t know.

“I’m sorry if he startled you,” she said apologetically as she grabbed Brady’s hand and pulled him back to her side. “He’s restless after sitting still. We’ve been running so long, he’s not sure what to do with himself now.”

“He’s an active boy,” I tried to make conversation. “He needs that to be a survivor.”

Victoria only gave a nod. “He’s a good man you know,” she said, her voice dropping a bit. “I mean West. We wouldn’t have survived out there without him.”

I stiffened as West was brought up. Was my hesitancy about him so obvious? Feeling the awkwardness double, I gave a nod and continued on to my tent.

That night, after the rest of the bear had been retrieved and the rest of the food had been cleared away, the stars started to wink into the sky.  I sat beside the fire in front of my tent, staring into the flames. The heat warmed my skin, but the night air hadn’t chilled me. I rarely felt cold.

I had avoided Avian all day. I didn’t know how I was going to react to him when I had to face him. What he had asked Graye to do was stupid. I didn’t need the necklace. It was just a silly little thing. It wasn’t going to help me survive, or anyone else. Why had he bothered?

My chest tightened as I thought of Tye. He often joined me in my solitude, if he would leave his post. We shared that. Neither of us liked having to take time away from our duties. There were nights we would both sit here, staring into the flames in silence, wishing we could be scouting the woods, or keeping watch in the tower. Now he was gone, nothing but a pile of ashes thrown into the wind.

The ground crunched as someone walked toward me. I didn’t look up from the flames, not really caring who it was that joined me. We sat in the darkening silence, two people lost in their own minds.

“Did you know that the Hunters are the only ones that do anything?” Somehow I wasn’t surprised when it was West’s voice that spoke quietly through the dark. I glanced up. His silhouette faced the flames, earthy eyes watching the fire. “I saw them once. The rest of the Fallen. Just standing there, lined up inside the crumbling buildings. Like they were waiting for something.”

A shiver worked its way from my stomach out as I heard his words. “Waiting for what?”

“I don’t know,” he said quietly.

It was a terrifying thought, one I couldn’t dwell on. “She said you saved them,” I said to the flames.

He didn’t say anything.

“I’m sorry I’ve been so cold to you. I don’t trust people easily.”

He was quiet for a few moments. He shifted positions, sitting forward, his forearms resting on his knees. “He’s her son, you know. Brady.”

I wasn’t completely surprised by this. Part of me had assumed he was but when I thought of how old Brady was and how young Victoria looked, the numbers didn’t add up.

“Victoria was fifteen when she was raped. A man forced himself on her just after she escaped the city. She joined our camp when Brady was only fourteen months old. He’s four now and she’s only nineteen. She’s only a few months older than I am.”

I shook my head, disgust filling my stomach.

“Does she mean anything to you?” My blunt question startled even me. I didn’t know where it had come from.

West glanced over at me for the briefest moment, his brow furrowed. “Victoria is a good person. But she’s just someone who needed help. I couldn’t not help her.”

My eyes remained glued to the flames, I couldn’t think of anything to say. Conversation was something I wasn’t good at. I was good at most of the things I did but talking wasn’t one of them.

I noticed West check something in the inside pocket of his jacket, securing it like it was something precious.

West kept secrets. Secrets could be dangerous but weren’t we each entitled to them?

SIX

The next morning started in a rush of panic. I was woken in the early hours of the morning to the sound of Sarah’s wheezing coughs. I tried to ignore it at first as I stared up at the black ceiling of the tent. As the sound of her coughing intensified I rolled onto my side to face her.

“Sarah, are you alright?” I asked quietly through the dark.

She didn’t answer me but her coughing had paused. It took me two full seconds before I realized what had happened, why she was suddenly so deathly quiet. She had stopped breathing.

“Sarah!” I said in a panicked whisper. I was out of my bed and across the tent in less than a second. Through the dim morning light I could see that Sarah’s skin was covered in sweat and her eyes looked sunken, her lips the wrong color. Without another second’s hesitation, I scooped her up in my arms and barreled out the door of the tent.

The sound of my footsteps fell flat against the sides of the silent tents as I ran through Eden. A thick fog had settled around us, lessening my visibility. I could have made my way through camp blindfolded though.

Sarah’s head jostled around as I ran with her in my arms. Her eyes slid partially open. They were rolled into the back of her head, looking frighteningly gray. She still wasn’t breathing and her lips were turning an ugly shade of purple.

“Avian!” I cried as I neared his tent. “Avian! Wake up!”

I didn’t even hesitate as I plowed through the flaps of the tent and stumbled inside. My arms shook as Sarah’s body limply lay in my arms. “Avian, wake up!”

He jerked up from his cot on the ground, his eyes wide but unfocused with sleep. “What… Eve…?”

“Sarah!” I cried, frustrated that he didn’t understand what was going on already. “She’s not breathing!”

This seemed to finally shake the sleep from his brain as he jumped to his feet, taking Sarah from my arms and laying her on his cot. He held his fingers to her neck, sitting quiet for a moment.

“She was coughing and then all the sudden she stopped breathing,” I explained as I watched him put his ear to her chest.

“Run to the medical tent, grab my kit,” he said, his eyes wide with fear and adrenaline.

I didn’t hesitate as I dashed out of the tent and sprinted for the infirmary. People were poking their heads out of their tents, wondering what was going on, what all the shouting was about. I ignored them and slipped inside the white tent. It only took me a moment to find the black, hard-sided kit. It frightened me that he needed it. He only used the items within it when things were really bad.

It took me all of ten seconds to get back to Avian’s tent. By this point a few people were standing outside, confusion and sleep filling their faces.

When I stepped back inside, I found Avian doing chest compressions and breathing air into Sarah’s mouth. I handed the kit to him and stepped back. Seeing people like this made me want to run away. It was never a good thing when someone had to see Avian.

He opened the kit and took a syringe out. He pulled the cap off and plunged the needle into her chest. Sitting back on his heels, he watched her.

A few seconds later, Sarah took a gasping breath, her eyes opening wide with panic. They tried to focus on what she was seeing but instead they just rolled back into her head before she fell back against the bed. I could tell she was unconscious but she was still breathing and the color was quickly coming back to her face.

Avian sat back on his heels, his fist pressed into his pursed lips. It frightened me to look into his eyes. Avian was always so calm when it came to things like this. He always knew what to do. I hadn’t seen him look like this since he had to end Tye’s life.

“What’s wrong with her?” I asked, my throat feeling tight.

He just shook his head, not saying anything for agonizing seconds. I wondered if he didn’t dare speak yet. There were emotions just under the surface that were threatening to explode.

The flap of Avian’s tent was opened and in stepped Gabriel, West silently following behind him.

“Sarah’s sick,” I said hoarsely, saving Avian from having to speak. “She stopped breathing but Avian helped her.”

Gabriel gave a simple nod, his eyes fixed on Sarah. My eyes slid to West, his own meeting mine. They were reserved but I was surprised at the concern that I saw there.

“Are you okay?” he asked quietly as Gabriel ducked out of the tent.

“Me?” I questioned. “I’m fine. Why?”

West just shook his head, then looked to Avian. “Is there anything I can do to help?” he asked, his voice sincere.

Avian gave a sniff, finally seeming to jerk out of his state of shock. “You can help me move her to the medical tent.”

Each of them grabbed an end of the blanket Sarah was lying on, and being very careful not to jostle her, carried her from one tent to the other. By this time, most people had woken up. They watched with fear as she was transported to the medical tent. I knew what they were all thinking. We had just lost someone. We couldn’t deal with that again, not so soon after.

The men laid Sarah softly on the examination table though I didn’t think it was necessary. Sarah was still completely out. She wouldn’t feel anything. I helped Avian place pillows around her in a vain attempt to make her more comfortable.

“Eve,” I was slightly startled when I heard Graye’s voice from the entrance. “We need to be leaving for scouting duty. We’re already late.”

I looked from his face to Sarah’s still form. I wasn’t one to shirk my duties, ever. But how could I leave her right now?

“I’ll go in her place,” West spoke up. “I still haven’t been assigned an official scouting party.” I then realized he had been watching my face. His eyes connected with mine for a brief moment. I couldn’t make the words “thank you” form on my lips for some reason, but I hoped he felt my gratitude anyway.

Graye nodded once, and West followed him silently.

Avian had grabbed an array of well used but meticulously cared for medical equipment. He placed an instrument on her chest and was listening. Next he pressed his fingers to her wrist, checking it to the one watch that existed in Eden. He wrote a few notes down.

“What’s wrong with her Avian?” I asked again, standing along the edge of the tent, unsure of what to do with myself.

“I think she had some kind of allergic reaction. The pollen is really bad this time of year. She just wasn’t able to handle it.”

“That sure seemed a lot worse than just an allergy attack.”

Avian couldn’t quite meet my eyes as he pursed his lips and gave the tiniest of nods.

“Is she going to be okay?”

He didn’t answer right away. His hesitation made my stomach clench. “We’ll have to keep her indoors, probably for a few weeks till the air clears. It would help if it would rain. There isn’t going to be much I can do for her.”

“But if she stops breathing again, you have more of those shots?”

“It was just adrenaline,” he said as he sat on one of the stumps we used as seats. “I have two more now.”

I couldn’t decide if two sounded like a lot or nothing at all. Avian used those shots for several things. Terrif’s heart had stopped once and Avian’s shots had got it started again. But what if something like that happened again? We’d be down to only one. What if Sarah stopped breathing again? What if it happened more than once?

“I’m going to go get us some food,” I said suddenly, ducking out of the tent without saying anything else. I didn’t like the feeling that was flooding through me as all the questions I didn’t have any answers to ran though my head.

The scent of freshly baked bread wafted through the air as I made my way to the ovens. Half a dozen other people were flocked around the kitchen. A few women handed out the rolls. Another man was scooping a steaming mush into bowls and handing them to people.

As I stepped up to take Avian and I’s portions, everyone’s eyes grew a little wider.

“Eve, is she okay? Is Sarah alright? What did Avian say?” I was bombarded with their questions. It didn’t take long for news to travel in Eden.

“Avian thinks it was an allergy attack. She stopped breathing for a minute this morning. That’s all I know.”

I grabbed our food and made a hasty retreat back to the tent. I found Avian staring at Sarah’s still form, his brow furrowed.

“Eat something,” I commanded as I handed him the warm food.

“Thank you,” he said as he looked up at me briefly, accepting the bowl and the rolls. For a brief moment, I saw the twenty-one-year-old young man who had fled for his life again with fear in his eyes, not knowing what to do.

Avian had been a bright student in school. He had skipped grades and eventually got a scholarship to an accelerated private school. He had graduated high school at the age of fifteen and received his bachelor degree in pre-med by the time he was eighteen. Scholarships had been offered but it wasn’t going to be enough to pay the hefty price of medical school. Just months after he turned eighteen, Avian joined the Army with the offer that they would pay for all of his medical school. Along with his military training, Avian had been put into an accelerated medical program specific for Army and survival training.

But only two and a half years into his training, he noticed how everyone was acting strange. The world fell apart and Avian took what knowledge he had gained and fled with his sister and cousin into the mountains.

I picked at my food, not feeling like eating in the least. My stomach was a hard knot and I couldn’t tear my eyes away from Sarah. I was sure at any minute she would open her eyes and complain about having to lay on the hard wooden table.

After we both pretended like we had eaten something, we watched her in silence. I was getting anxious. I didn’t know how to handle just sitting. I debated internally what I could do that was close by, so that if I needed to, I could run right back in. Not that I could really do anything to help Avian. When it came to the body, I was just glad mine functioned. I didn’t know how to fix it.

I was saved from idleness in a horrifying way.

Sarah suddenly started shaking violently. Her arms flailed and her legs spasmed. We both sprang to our feet, catching her just a fraction of a second before she fell of the table.

“She’s having a seizure!” Avian said, panicked.

“What do we do?” I screamed.

“Help me roll her onto her side,” he shouted as he ducked out of the way of her thrashing arm. With difficulty we maneuvered her onto her side, balancing her so she wouldn’t shake her way off.

“That’s it?” I asked, my voice struggling to come out.

“That’s it,” Avian said quietly, looking at me with fear in his eyes again.

The seizure lasted for just over a minute. Her limbs continued to swing violently, her arm beating against Avian’s side so hard I knew he would be bruised in a few hours. I could only stare at her for a moment when it was finally over, horror filling me.

Avian sank onto his seat again. His head dropped into his hands, rubbing his scalp with force. I realized then that he didn’t know what was wrong with Sarah. I felt angry with him for a moment. Why didn’t he know what to do? He always knew what to do with everyone else. Why couldn’t he save his sister?

And then I felt my own fear double. This was his sister. Avian had already lost his cousin. Maybe he was about to lose his sister too. The only family he had left in this world.

We paced around the tent, each pretending to do something productive. I rearranged the plastic aprons used for operating several times. He cleaned his tools till they shone.

We were both startled by the sound of Sarah coughing. We jumped to her side, Avian grabbing one of her hands in his.

“Mum… ahh,” she tried to speak, her eyes struggling to open.

“We’re here Sarah, me and Eve,” Avian spoke quietly as he pushed the hair back from her face with his free hand. “We’re here.”

She gave a soft sound of acknowledgment before her eyes closed fully and she fell asleep. Or into unconsciousness, I wasn’t sure which.

Avian’s body slouched as he stood next to me, his shoulder brushing mine. His hand fell away from her face. As it dropped to his side, his hand brushed mine. His fingers stretched out toward my own, curling around them till our fingers were intertwined securely.

My eyes shifted to our hands, my chest suddenly feeling strange. I wasn’t sure what it was feeling. It was almost like a bunch of bees were buzzing inside my chest, making my breaths come in shallower swallows. And yet, at the same time, I felt like I should pull my hand away. People didn’t touch me, I didn’t touch people.

But I didn’t. I left my hand in Avian’s. The feeling of the bees buzzing in my chest didn’t feel too bad. In fact, it felt kind of good.

SEVEN

We waited. And waited.

Sarah’s condition didn’t improve. She continued to have the seizures and only became conscious once more after the day Avian held my hand. She had started coughing in her sleep, so violently she started choking. On the second day we had to use another of the shots. After four days of watching Sarah waste away, Avian used his last one.

We were going to need more.

As if Sarah’s illness wasn’t enough, there was a lot of anxiety flowing through Eden. A Hunter had been spotted twenty miles away and a helicopter had been heard, though not seen. We needed to move camp but Avian begged them to wait. He didn’t dare move Sarah in her current condition, especially since he was out of the adrenaline.

Camp was quiet as I rose and strapped my pack to my back. There was barely even enough light to see by as I pulled my boots on. I bit my lower lip as I pulled the shiny silver handgun from under my cot and tucked it under my belt. I pulled the box of ammunition out as well, dumping a heaping handful into the side pocket of my pants.

I surveyed the tent carefully, making sure there was nothing I was going to leave behind that I would need later.

Last night had been one of panic. Sarah had started coughing again so violently it left traces of blood on her lips when she finally stopped. As I helped Avian, Bill had come into the medical tent informing us that there were now two Hunters that had been spotted. They were getting closer. Gabriel was ordering everyone to pack up. Eden was to move in two days. Those who could leave sooner were encouraged to do so.

“We can’t move her,” Avian said, panicked. “She won’t make the trip.”

“You don’t have a choice,” Bill said quietly. Even though I knew he felt for Avian and Sarah, he would obey Gabriel’s orders. “If we stay here, we’ll all die.”

Avian hung his head, his hands braced on the table.

“If Sarah had the right medicine, would she be okay?” I asked as I placed a hand on his shoulder in an attempt to comfort him. I felt awkward. I wasn’t good at that kind of thing.

“She’d stand a chance. But it’s all gone. I don’t have anything left.”

So there I was, walking out of my tent, ready to take the two day journey to the city by myself. I wasn’t going to let Sarah die. It was pointless to ask for Gabriel’s permission to go on a raid, not with Hunters in the area. Besides, I didn’t need his permission, he wasn’t king.

I had just gotten to the outskirts of the tents when I heard the sound of fabric being rustled. I turned and looked back down the row of tents and saw West stepping out of his, his eyes locked onto me.

I briefly considered bolting into the woods. I couldn’t afford to lose time now. Dealing with West, trying to convince him not to rat me out to Gabriel or Avian would delay me too long.

Yet there I was, frozen as I watched him duck back into his tent then reemerge a few moments later with his own pack. He was at my side before I even realized what he was intending to do.

“Let’s go,” he said quietly as he looked away from me into the woods.

We jogged through the trees silently for nearly an hour as the sun crawled up into the sky. I had to remind myself frequently to keep my pace slower. West was in good shape and he was by no means slow, but few people were able to keep up with what was my normal pace. But then I knew he was capable of outrunning me; he had done it before.

We came to a stream and slowed. I was about to barrel right through it when West noticed a tree that had fallen partially over. There was a large boulder close enough to the end of the tree and the other side that we could jump.

As we got to the other side we both slowed our pace to a swift walk.

“Why did you come with me?” I finally asked. “You don’t even know where I’m going.”

“I figured it must be important if you were willing to head into the woods by yourself with Hunters in the area,” he said as he glanced at me. “I felt like I needed to do something, even if I’m not sure where I’m going.”

“I’m going to the city. There’s a few pharmacies that should have the medication Sarah needs,” I said as I jumped over a tree that had fallen across our path. “This is going to be really dangerous.”

“I know,” he said as he jumped over after me. “She’s really important to you, isn’t she?” West asked. “Both of them are.”

I nodded. “Sarah has been like my big sister. She’s taken care of me.” I paused as I was about to say something about Avian. I wasn’t sure what exactly Avian was to me anymore. He would always be family in a way, everyone in Eden was, but now there were new feelings mixed in. After he had held my hand, I felt strange. In a way I wished he had never done it and yet at the same time I kept hoping he would do it again.

“They must mean a lot to you if you’re willing to risk your life and take off to the city by yourself,” he said.

“But I’m not by myself,” I clarified as I glanced over at him for a brief second. He gave a faint smile in my direction.

We stopped briefly at mid-day to drink from a stream that looked clean and I shared some of the food rations I had taken the night before. We were going to have to be careful. I had only taken enough for myself. Now it was going to have to keep the two of us going for the next five days. Maybe we’d get lucky and find something non-perishable in the city.

The sun was hot as it started toward the western horizon. I actually had to remove my jacket as sweat beaded in the small of my back. I felt hope though. Spring was finally starting to warm up into Summer. This was exactly what the gardens needed.

I explained the layout of the city to West as we walked. There were certain hideout spots we knew to be safe, places the Fallen didn’t know about, or would never care to go. There were three pharmacies in the city, each on opposite ends. It would take us nearly a full day to get to all three, if there were no complications and we didn’t get caught. It was one thing going on a raid with four of us that had experience with this kind of thing. It was another going by myself with someone who I knew almost nothing about, had no idea how he would handle himself in a situation like this.

As the light faded away, we found a place to make camp. Traveling in the dark wasn’t safe.

I caught a decent-sized rabbit and was lucky to find a large handful of wild, though not nearly ripe, blackberries. When I came back to our camp, I found West had built a fire and slung a hammock high up in a tree.

“Where did you get that?” I asked as I set to skinning and gutting the rabbit.

“I found it in my old camp. Someone left it. It will be a lot safer sleeping up in that than it will be on the ground,” he said as I gave him the rabbit. He drove a narrow, sharp stick through it, then set it over the fire to cook.

I gave a nod, pretending like the fact that we were going to be sleeping right next to each other didn’t make me uncomfortable.

It felt good to get food in my system. While none of us were starving, we had to be careful over the winter to make sure our stores would last until spring. It was nice to get my share. I licked my fingers off and threw the bones as far as I could to keep the wolves away.

The heat of the day faded away and the chill of evening started to set in. We both huddled closer to the fire, palms raised to the flames.

“What do you remember from before the Fall?” I asked, my voice quiet.

West glanced at my face for a brief moment, taken off-guard by my sudden, very serious question.

“I lived with my father and my grandfather. My mother left when I was really little. My grandfather was a scientist, my dad was a doctor.”

“What kind of a scientist?” I asked. Just the word scientist brought up all kinds of hateful feelings in all of us. It was the scientists who had ruined our world, our race.

“He did experimental stuff. It was weird; I was always around other adults. I never even knew any other kids really. We lived in a unit that was attached to where they worked. A woman came to take care of me during the day while they were at work. When she couldn’t come they would take me to work with them.”

“I bet that wasn’t too fun for you,” I said as I stared into the flames.

“It was all I really knew. It might have been harder if I’d ever lived any different,” he said with a shrug. “And you don’t remember anything?” he asked. “Nothing before you came to Eden?”

I shook my head.

“No parents? No childhood friends?”

“Nothing. I know everyone has lost someone, but I don’t even remember there being anyone. People talk about electricity and running water in houses, but it’s just a story to me. A myth even. The world in Eden, the world of raids and running is all I’ve ever known.”

West looked over at me and I looked back at him, watched the flames dance in his eyes. “Maybe it’s better you don’t remember. Not everyone has had a happy childhood.”

I wasn’t sure how to respond to that as I looked back into the fire. Even though I didn’t feel cold often, the wind that gusted through suddenly shook me with a shiver. West draped an arm across my shoulders, squeezing me to his side. As he did, I felt something square and flat press into my side.

“What is that?” I asked him again as I indicated it.

“Nothing,” he said, suddenly tensing up. “Just… a connection to my past.”

I looked at his face for a moment, observed his dark eyebrows, the way they furrowed over his earthy brown eyes. His hair fell across his forehead in the unkempt mess everyone but Avian had. More secrets.

“We should probably get some sleep,” I finally said as I looked away from him.

“Good idea,” West said as he stood. We both kicked dirt over the dying fire until it was smothered. Even though it would be cold tonight, it would be dangerous to keep it going all night. It would be spotted easily from a helicopter above.

West helped hoist me up into the hammock and I pulled him in after me. Despite how uncomfortable and awkward I felt, we wrapped our arms around each other in an attempt to keep warm.

As West quickly drifted off to sleep, I felt myself relax. I considered the fact that I was going to be sleeping in the arms of the boy I wasn’t sure if I could trust and could hardly stand just a week or two ago. The fact that he had chosen to take off with me into dangerous woods with no hesitation washed away the majority of any doubts I had about him though.

And, for the second time in the last week, I was being touched in a way I never had before. While it didn’t have the safe familiarity Avian’s touch did, it still felt good.

I didn’t sleep more than a total of three hours. Every little sound made me jump, ready to pull my handgun out and unload it. West slept like the dead. Good thing I didn’t need much sleep.

We got moving long before the sun came up, as soon as it was light enough to make out the trees that surrounded us. We were quiet again as we moved, each feeling the seriousness of what was coming soon. The closer we got to the city, the more Hunters there would be.

We managed to keep out of sight of any Fallen that day and made camp far back in a cave that night. Not much was said and I silently wondered if West was regretting his decision to come with me. He was finally understanding just how dangerous this really was.

I doubted either of us slept that night, each thinking too much about what was to come tomorrow. We left before we could even really see at all. It was a widely speculated theory that the Fallen were stronger during the daytime. We would get there before the sun came up and woke the ranks.

It was always haunting, walking among the houses, feeling the pavement underfoot. This may as well have been an alien world to me. I think I still would have preferred my canvas tent to the brick walls. They seemed too much like a prison.

The suburbs eventually gave way to the rise of apartment buildings and offices.

We crouched behind a long abandoned car, the world foreignly silent. After I checked to make sure nothing was watching, I signaled to West, and we darted across the street to the pharmacy. Hugging the wall, we made our way around to the back of the building. As we stepped inside, I heard the whooshing of helicopter blades off in the distance. Gray color started to creep into the city.

The door had been busted in by Bill a few years ago. We’d cleared out the things we needed, things to reduce fevers, things to clean out wounds. I just hoped I would recognize the syringes Avian needed.

“Hurry,” I whispered as I looked around the building to make sure there wasn’t any sleeping Fallen inside.

“What are we looking for?” he asked as he hopped over the counter and started searching through shelves. I hopped over as well and started searching with him.

“The adrenaline was in a syringe,” I said as I headed to look toward the back. I noticed the fridges and opened one. It seemed a miracle that the electricity still ran in the building. The fridge was still cold. Row after row of vials and syringes greeted me. “Got it!”

We both scoured the labels, searching for any indicator of what we needed. I didn’t even understand what most of it was supposed to be. I felt my heart start pounding faster as the room lightened. They would all be waking soon.

“This is it!” West suddenly gave an excited hiss. “There’s… one, two, two of them.”

“That’s all?” I asked, feeling my stomach sink into my knees.

“Ya, I’m pretty sure,” he said as he checked again.

I grabbed the syringes from him and wrapped them in the cleanest shirt I had, packed exactly for that purpose. “Check for aspirin, anything that looks like we could use it.  And hurry, we haven’t got much time.”

We picked our way through everything. I wished I could load up one of those long forgotten about cars outside and just dump the entire store into it. Even if everything was expired by several years, it could still help us.

“Come on,” West said as we double checked to be sure there was nothing left we might need.

We slipped out the back door. As we did, I picked up on the sound of the chopper blades again, this time sounding further away than earlier. They were heading out to scan the outskirts of the city.

The other pharmacy was five blocks to the east, all city with nothing but abandoned cars for cover.

I bit my lip, scanning the road for any signs of activity. I glanced at West, only becoming scared when I saw how white his face was.

“Let’s go,” I said before either of us panicked and did something stupid.

I bolted toward a bus that was sitting half in the middle of the road. West’s footsteps pounded softly behind me. My own adrenaline raced in my system, propelling me all the faster as I peeked around the bus, saw that the coast was clear and sprinted along the side of a skyscraper.

“You okay?” I asked as I stole a brief glance at West as we pressed against the side of the building.

He only nodded as he stared wide-eyed back at me.

I looked around the corner, keeping my body pressed to the cool surface of the side of the building. I caught sight of a woman walking in the opposite direction of us. Only half her head was covered with red hair that trailed to her waist. The other half of her head was shiny metal. I noticed her left hand had no flesh, only a cybernetic skeletal frame of fingers poked out of her long sleeved shirt.

I glanced at West, pressed a finger to my lips, then motioned for him to follow me. We both sprinted silently across the street.

There was only one block to go. I could see the pharmacy when something inside the bottom floor of a sky scraper caught my eye. I froze with stunned horror.

They were there, just as West told me they would be. Rows of Fallen inside the building, facing the windows, watching with inactive eyes. There were children with cybernetic legs, women with half faces, men with bare metallic chests. And they were just standing there inside. Waiting.

“Eve, come on,” a voice said urgently as it tugged on my arm. I had been pulled ten steps away before I managed to take my eyes off of them.

“Why are they like that?” I asked, panic filling my voice. How had I not ever noticed them like that before? “What are they waiting for?”

“Let’s not find out,” he said as he checked to make sure we were clear before we crossed the street. He grabbed my wrist and dragged me across.

I finally snapped out of it as we stepped through the large broken window. We went to the fridge first this time. The electricity was still working in this building as well.

“Here we go,” West said. “Four… five… six. There’s six of them here.”

“Great,” I said as I wrapped them with the others. I stuffed the shirt back in my bag and set it down on the ground as I went to scour the shelves. “That’s got to be enough. I don’t think we’ll have to go to the other pharmacy. We probably couldn’t make it anyway with it getting this light. It’s across the city. Six or seven miles.”

There were bottles and bottles of aspirin, cases of allergy medication I hoped would help Sarah. There was probably something here for seizures as well, but I wouldn’t know what it was.

“Does it smell funny in here to you?” I asked as I followed the source of the strange scent.

“Just like an old abandoned building with breaking down chemicals,” he said as he stuffed his pack full of life-saving medication.

I wandered to the back of the building, into a utility room. A rusty looking water heater dominated the cramped space. Electric cables and lines ran in different directions, disappearing into the wall. This was where the smell was coming from.

A movement caught my eye outside the small window to my left. By then it was too late.

The glass shattered as the Hunter outside fired. The bullet brushed past my left shoulder, embedding itself into the thick metal side of the water heater. The spark of metal was small, and it wasn’t a heavy gas leak, but it was enough to cause the explosion.

“West!” I screamed as I ducked as the flames billowed out at me. “Get out of here!”

I could feel the oxygen being quickly sucked out of the building as the flames ate it up. I scrambled along the floor toward my pack. I couldn’t leave it here. It was the whole reason we had come.

“Eve?!” I heard his screaming toward the front of the building.

“Run!” I screamed as I came to his side, grabbed his hand in mine, and bolted out the door.

By this time the sun had broken over the buildings and the morning rays were charging the enemy. I heard the rev of an engine come from behind the building and the screeching of tires against asphalt.

We were only two blocks away from where the forest butted up against the city but we weren’t as fast as an ATV.

The hunter shot across the street behind us, the sound of the engine the only thing I could concentrate on as we ran for our lives.

The pile of metal that slammed into me from the side and knocked me to my back wasn’t the one I expected.

Neither of us had noticed the other Hunter hiding in the shadows of another building. He had launched himself at me, tackling me to the asphalt, choking the life out of me with one bare flesh hand and another cybernetic one.

As I stared into his metallic eyes, I couldn’t believe this was how my end was finally going to come.

The Fallen who had slammed into me suddenly jerked to the side as a metal rod dented its head in. It collapsed with a hiss of dying electric sounds. I looked up to see West holding a five foot long broken street sign, looking quite pleased with himself, a half smile tugging at his lips despite the terror in his eyes.

We didn’t hesitate though as I jumped up, pulling my pack tighter, praying none of the syringes had broken during my fall.

As the screech of tires against pavement assaulted my ears again, I turned and pulled my handgun out.

In one shot, I embedded the bullet into the gas tank and the ATV exploded in a ball of blazing glory for humanity.

Somehow we made it to the edge of the city and back into the trees where the Fallen only scouted when there was nothing better to do, which was apparently the only thing they did. West wheezed as we ran further into the forest, falling behind me several steps.

“Holy…” he gasped. “Eve.”

I slowed and turned to him as we stopped. “What?”

“Your shoulder,” he said, his eyes filled with horror.

My stomach knotted instantly and I almost didn’t dare look. With all the adrenaline coursing through my system I didn’t consider two very important things that had just happened.

I looked down at my shoulder and realized half my shirt had been burned away. So had my flesh. The skin from the top of my right shoulder down as far as I could see on my back was a charred, black, smoking mess.

“Oh my ga… Eve,” West said, his voice a horrified whisper that choked off. “Are you…?” I knew he was going to ask me if I was okay but it was obvious I wasn’t.

And then it hit me. “I don’t feel anything. I didn’t even know it was there.”

West continued to look at me with that horrified expression. I could only stare back for a moment.

“It touched you,” I could barely even hear his words as they escaped his throat.

My blood froze in my veins and it felt like all my internal organs had suddenly disappeared as his words hit me. A Fallen had touched me. One touch was all it took. The Hunter had been all over me.

“I have to go back to the city,” I said as I locked eyes with him. “You have to run, West. Don’t look back.”

I took two steps back toward where we had come from when he grabbed my wrist. “No,” he growled and shook his head. “No.”

“I have to West,” I hissed, almost angry with him. He knew how the world was now. “I only have a few hours. Then I’ll be trying to kill you too.”

“No,” he said again, his jaw clenched as his eyes burned into mine. I noticed there was moisture brimming in them. “I’m taking you with me. If you start to turn, I’ll shoot you myself and run.”

“It’s not a question of if, West,” I said, my voice low and husky sounding. I shook his hand off and started back again.

West grabbed my wrist again, this time yanking me back toward him with much more force. His other hand encircled my waist pulling me against his body. “No,” he said again.

And then he crushed his lips to mine. I could have sworn I was back in the middle of that explosion again in that moment.

I didn’t even realize for several moments after that I was being drug through the forest again, West’s hand securely around my wrist. I couldn’t think straight enough to resist.

Finally, I yanked the gun from the belt of my pants and forced it into West’s other hand. “Here,” I said, my eyes daring him to fight me. “You’re going to need this soon.”

He didn’t say anything, just tucked it into his own pants and continued to pull me through the trees.

EIGHT

The chill of the morning air shook West in an obvious way, his teeth chattering as we ran through the forest. His hand was still clenched around mine, his fingers a frozen color of purple. Our breath caused clouds to bloom around us in a cruel reminder that summer was still a few weeks off.

As we pounded our way through the woods, I could only think one thing, over and over. What was happening? Or more accurately: what wasn’t happening?

We had run through the entire day after I had been tackled by the Hunter, and had continued through the night. I kept waiting for the sensation of my cells hardening, waiting for my vision to sharpen and for the data to start flashing across my eyes, or something. It shouldn’t have taken more than two or three hours for the changes to start. It had now been just short of twenty-four and still nothing had happened.

The terrain became familiar and I felt both relief and panic. Perhaps Avian could give me some answers and I now had the medication Sarah needed. Yet I was infected now. I couldn’t bring it into Eden. That was the very thing we had fought all these years to keep out.

I was startled to see how Eden had changed since the time I had left it. There were only a few tents left by this point and the place that was my home looked deserted. I then remembered that Gabriel had told everyone to leave.

The few people who were left looked busy packing and preparing to leave. They stared at West and I as we walked swiftly toward the medical tent.

“Avian!” I half shouted before we were even inside the tent. “Avian!”

“Eve!” I heard his excited yet panicked shout as we burst into the tent.

I froze as I got inside, my eyes seeing nothing but Avian, standing there looking back at me. All the years watching him work, the hours we had spent by campfires, the feeling of his hand in mine, the sound of his breathing rushed through my head. Everything I was going to lose by turning into a Fallen was standing in this tent.

“Eve,” he finally whispered as he closed the gap between us and wrapped me in his arms. His entire frame was trembling. Softly, he pressed his lips to my temple.

He took a step back, placing his hands on my shoulders, and took a good look at me. That was when he realized what was under his right hand.

“Eve!” he nearly shouted as he whipped his hand away. “You’re fried! How are you not writhing in pain?”

Without waiting for me to say anything, he grabbed me and maneuvered me onto the table. I then noticed Sarah wasn’t lying on it anymore. What did that mean? Was I too late?

I felt a rock form in my throat. I couldn’t make myself ask about her.

“I can’t feel it,” I said, my voice sounding dead. “I haven’t felt it since it happened. There was an explosion.”

“It’s a good thing you can’t feel it,” Avian said as he poured some water onto a rag. “Burns are some of the most painful injuries. And this would really, really hurt.”

Avian cut away the rest of my charred shirt and I clung to the tattered pieces to keep myself covered. I stole a glance at West who stood in the doorway and watched with fearful eyes. Avian then started scrubbing at my charred skin.

“When did this happen?” Avian asked, his voice oddly tight.

“Yesterday morning,” West answered before I could.

“This looks a week old,” Avian said quietly. “It’s already started to heal.”

I tried to swallow the rock in my throat but it wouldn’t go down. “A Hunter touched me, Avian. It was all over me. It happened just after the explosion.”

Avian suddenly froze as he scrubbed. He stopped breathing for a moment and I felt him automatically withdraw his hand just slightly.

“I haven’t changed. Nothing’s happened except that I can’t feel this,” I said as I nodded my head toward my shoulder.

He paused for a while longer before hesitantly placing the rag back to my shoulder and slowly started scrubbing again.

“What does this mean, Avian?” I asked quietly. “Why haven’t I changed?”

He didn’t say anything for a little bit. It nearly drove me insane.

“I don’t know,” he said, his voice tight again.

“This doesn’t happen. They all Fall.”

And then a strange thing happened. I blacked out.

There were wires attached to every exposed surface of my body. And I was running. I’d been running forever it felt like. The belt turned under my feet, creating an endless four foot section of road.

“Increase the speed,” a voice said. I didn’t like those voices.

The belt started spinning faster under my small bare feet. My pace picked up to match so I didn’t fall.

“Doesn’t she get tired?” a young voice asked.

“That’s what we’re trying to find out,” the voice I knew answered.

I turned my head toward the window where they watched me from. A pair of curious brown eyes stared back at me.

I opened my eyes, only to squint them back to nearly closed. Light streamed in, momentarily blinding me. My left shoulder felt stiff, and as I reached a hand to it, I found it covered in layers of bandages. I was also wearing a shirt that I recognized as Avian’s.

“Try not to move too much,” a voice said kindly.

Ignoring the voice, I pulled myself into a sitting position. I blinked my eyes several times, willing them to focus.

I was still on the medical table but now there was not just the three of us inside but Gabriel as well. I wondered when he had come back.

“What happened?” I asked as I rubbed my eyes.

“You passed out from the pain,” Avian said, his voice stiff again.

“But I didn’t feel it,” I said, my voice sounding a little more annoyed than I had meant it to. “I still don’t feel it.”

Avian and Gabriel exchanged looks. West just stared at me with a blank expression.

“We need to have a talk, Eve,” Gabriel said as he looked at me. “In private.”

West seemed to realize this last part was directed at him. “I’m not leaving her,” he said, his voice stubborn.

“I’m not giving you a choice,” Gabriel said, his eyes hard. I then heard someone shift position outside and recognized Bill’s shadow through the wall of the tent.

“Go,” I said quietly to West, looking into his earthy eyes. “I can take care of myself.”

He gave me a hard look. I could tell he didn’t like this but after a moment he walked out. I saw Bill walk away with him.

Once I was sure West was out of earshot I looked back at Avian and Gabriel. “What is happening to me?” I asked, my eyes daring them to not answer me. “I can’t feel the pain. I didn’t change.”

“You still feel the pain,” Avian said, swallowing hard on the rock that seemed to have moved into his own throat. “Your brain just doesn’t tell you it’s feeling it. That’s why you passed out this morning. Your body couldn’t handle the pain.”

“But I didn’t feel the pain,” I insisted, not that the statement made me feel any better.

The two of them exchanged looks again. That was really starting to annoy me.

“What do you know?” I snapped. “What aren’t you two telling me?”

Avian bit his lower lip, his eyes dropping to the floor. Gabriel took this as an indicator to take the lead. “When you came to us, we knew right away that something was different about you Eve. You shouldn’t have survived out there on your own. You were only a thirteen-year-old girl for heaven’s sake.

“We didn’t know what it was. We watched you for weeks, looking for any signs that you were a Fallen, sent to spy on us. It’s difficult to tell sometimes. We kept the CDU with us at all times, ready to use it should you show any indicator that you might turn on us.

“You were nearly as strong as any of the grown men. You never got tired. You were so blasted tough and solid. And yet you lived among us. You didn’t turn against us.”

My heart pounded as I listened to Gabriel. I recalled everything he was saying, remembered the way the two of them had hovered over me at all times when I was a younger. I had thought they were trying to protect me. They had just been protecting themselves though. They had been ready to short me out at any moment.

Apparently there had been reason to.

And I was still too strong, still too fast. And apparently my brain didn’t register pain.

“What the hell am I?” I said in a raged hiss.

“We don’t know,” Avian finally said as he looked up. “You’re human but part of you is cybernetic. You’ve been enhanced in a way we’ve never even heard of before.

“That’s why you didn’t change when the Hunter touched you. You’re already part Fallen.”

My breathing increased as my eyes dropped to the floor. It suddenly rushed up at me as I fell off the table and landed roughly on my hands and knees. Avian jumped to help me up but I pushed him away.

“No,” I said as I shook my head and stumbled to my feet. “Get away from me!”

I bolted out of the tent and stumbled through what was left of Eden without seeing or caring where I was going.

My tent felt safe and frightening all at the same time. This was my space, and yet it was wrong. Sarah still wasn’t here. As I hid in my tent, Avian had come to tell me that she was starting to recover but was staying in his tent so he could watch her.

Eden was too quiet as darkness fell upon us. It felt strange to have our colony split up like this. I felt like I had been left behind. I wasn’t used to the feeling. I was always at the forefront of everyone.

I heard the dirt stir outside my tent as someone approached.

“Go away, Avian! I don’t want to talk to you right now!” I shouted as I lay in my bed and pulled my blanket up over my head.

“Good thing I’m not Avian,” a voice said as someone entered my tent.

“What are you doing here, West?” I asked as I glared at him, pulling the blanket back down.

He stood there, staring back at me, refusing to be intimidated. I then noticed he held something bulky and black in one arm.

“I brought something I hope might make you feel better,” he said as he shrugged his shoulders.

“I just found out I’m the enemy I’ve been fighting against for the last five years. I don’t think there’s anything you can do to make me feel better.”

West rolled his eyes. “You could try not biting my head off. I’m not the one who kept that massive secret from you all this time. Get up,” he said.

“What?” I asked, my voice annoyed again.

“Get up so I can lay this down,” he said as he raised his eyebrows at me.

I didn’t know what he was talking about, but I did as he asked. He then rolled out the black mass and I realized it was a hide.

“The bear?” I asked as I rubbed my hand over the soft fur.

“Yeah,” he said as he looked at it on my bed with a half-smile. “I asked Bill if he could tan it for me. I wanted to give it to you as an apology for stealing your kills.”

“Well, I did take your buck that one time. I was the one who technically stole it.”

West looked up at me, a half smile coming to his lips before he gave a little chuckle. “See, it made you feel better.”

I then realized that I was smiling too.

“Thank you,” I said, really meaning it.

West gave a nod and then stood there uncomfortably as if he wasn’t sure what to do with himself.

“They asked you to watch me tonight, didn’t they?” I asked as I narrowed my eyes at him.

“And you’re not going to give me trouble about that, are you?” he shot back at me.

I just glared at him for a minute, gauging his stance and expression. I hadn’t forgotten the fact that we had spent two nights together, a little more intimately than I would have cared to remember, or the fact that in the moment he thought I was as good as dead, he had kissed me.

“You can sleep in Sarah’s bed, then. Don’t oversleep though; I’m packing up early in the morning.”

“Good,” he said as he went to lie on the other bed. “I’ve already packed up all my things. I would have been sleeping in the dirt if you kicked me out.”

I crawled into my new bed, surprised at how much of a difference the hide made. I balled my pillow up under my head and pulled the covers up to my chin.

“Good-night, Eve,” West said quietly through the now dark tent.

I hesitated for a moment. This whole situation felt so strange. As awkward as it was to have West sleeping in such close quarters, it was kind of nice to have him here at the same time. “Good-night, West,” I half whispered as I turned onto my side away from him.

NINE

The stiffness in my arm woke me as I tried to roll over. The bandaging had loosened up during the night but it still prevented me from having full movement.

I was surprised at how light it already was outside. I must have been asleep for nearly nine hours. I then remembered what Avian had said about my body feeling pain, even if my brain didn’t register it. Apparently it had needed the rest.

I felt like there were two parts to me. There was the part that my body registered, the part that told me to do things I shouldn’t normally be able to do. And then there was my brain, the part that felt things that I didn’t.

A soft snore reminded me that I wasn’t alone and I rolled over to see West sprawled across Sarah’s bed. He lay on his back, his arms spread out, his head lolling to the side facing me. I gave a little half smile as he gave another quiet snore. Apparently he had needed his rest as well.

I noticed something on the floor that didn’t belong and reached across the cramped space for it. It was a notebook, its edges tattered and frayed. As I opened to somewhere in the middle of it, evaluating its shape and size, I realized this was the thing West always carried on him.

I wasn’t one to invade another’s privacy and was about to close the notebook when some of the writing caught my eye.

Test subject Eve shows signs of extreme endurance. Block capabilities of chip X73I seems to be successful.

I read the line twice to be sure I had read it correctly.

Quickly, I glanced up at West to make sure he was still asleep. Suddenly I had to reevaluate everything I had ever known or thought about him.

Unable to keep from doing so, I turned my eyes back to the pages. I continued from the line I had started with.

Subject Eve was tested on treadmill for two hours straight with no indicators of tiredness. Vitals remained stable, peaking little during fastest speed. Tests have yielded same results for the past five days.

Eve continues to show lessened need for sleep. After close monitoring for the past four months, we have recorded subject sleeps for little more than five hours a night, at times less.

Tomorrow weight endurance testing will begin.

I stared at the scribbled words for a full two minutes when I came to the end of the page. My stomach knotted.  I realized I had been holding my breath.

My eyes focused on the page again and I noted the date written in the top right corner. I would have been roughly five years old at the time.

I flipped through the pages, seeing words and equations and endless things I couldn’t comprehend, but taking nothing in really. All I saw was my name. Subject Eve, tests done on Eve, problems with Eve.

“What are you doing?!”

The notebook was suddenly ripped out of my hands and I looked up to see West glaring at me with burning eyes.

“What is that?” I asked as I stared with wide eyes at the notebook in his hand. “Where did you get it?”

He didn’t say anything for a second, just continued to look at me, his expression softening. I could see the internal debate going on in his head.

“Don’t you dare lie to me, West,” I said, my voice cold and sharp as ice. “I will hurt you if you lie to me.” I would have surprised myself, the seriousness of my threat, if I hadn’t meant it so gravely.

He continued to look at me for a minute. I didn’t expect to see all the emotions that played through his eyes: fear, agony, regret, among other things I wasn’t so sure about.

“I told you my grandfather was a scientist,” he said, his voice hoarse sounding. “Those are his notes. About a third of them are about you.”

I couldn’t make my throat form my loss of words. My chest felt oddly hard as West confirmed what I had already known.

“He experimented on me,” I finally managed. “For how long?”

“I remember you always being there. Maybe since you were a baby.” I had never seen West look so hesitant and so vulnerable as he did when he said those words.

“You remember me?” I said slowly, never breaking my eyes away from his.

“Like I told you, my grandfather was the scientist. My father was the doctor who monitored you. We lived at the testing facility. On rare occasions they would let us play together,” his voice trembled a little as he spoke.

“I don’t remember you,” I forced my voice out. “I don’t remember any of it.”

“Someone released you after the infection started. They probably wiped your memory.”

“Why didn’t you tell me?” I asked, my voice suddenly shaking with rage. “Why didn’t you tell me right away? I had no idea who I was, but you knew!”

“I wasn’t sure,” he said, the tone of his voice picking up with defense. “It’s been five years since I’ve seen you, Eve! I had thought you must have died a long time ago! It wasn’t easy for me to think you were dead. You were my best friend! My only friend!”

I glared at West. I wished he hadn’t said that. I wanted to be angry with him. I wanted to throw him out and to tell him to leave Eden and never come back. But a part of me wondered if what he was saying was the truth. Maybe West had been my friend at one time. But I couldn’t remember any of it.

“I trusted you,” I whispered as I glared at him. “You should have told me sooner. Were you ever going to tell me?”

He was quiet for a second as he looked back at me. “I don’t know.”

“Well at least you’re being honest about that,” I said coldly. “You should leave now. I have to get ready to move.”

“Eve, I’m…”

“Get out!” I shouted, cutting him off.

He stood and went to the flap of the tent. “I’m sorry,” he said quietly as he walked out.

Attempting to keep myself from doing something violent, I quickly set to packing my things. Everything I owned would fit into one bag.

I had just finished putting my clothes into the bag when the flap of the tent was pushed aside. Avian stood there, his expression open, waiting for me to attack him again. I wasn’t sure what to say so I just kept gathering all of my things.

“Sarah told me to come get her things. She’s strong enough now we can move her. Those allergy pills are what finally did it I think.”

I just gave a nod as I rolled the bear hide up, vowing to give it back to West later. I suddenly didn’t want it.

Avian set to gathering Sarah’s belongings and stuffing them in a bag the same way I did. Within a few minutes we had everything cleared out of the tent.

“I can get this myself,” I said as we stepped out and Avian started taking down the tent.

“I know,” he said simply as he untied a tether.

We worked quietly as the tent came down. We then packed the poles into their bag and set to rolling the canvas up.

“We wanted to thank you for what you did,” Avian said as he worked at my side. “I wanted to thank you. It was incredibly dangerous but you did it anyway.”

I just gave a nod as I held the bag open and Avian slid the bulk of the tent in. I tied the opening after the poles went in and set it on the ground.

“The wagon should be back in just a few minutes,” Avian said as he looked out to the east. “Sarah went this morning with Bill. West set out on his own a little bit ago. It’s just the two of us now and our things.”

I gave a nod and allowed Avian to help me carry the three bags that had once been Sarah and I’s tent toward the pile that was his belongings and the medical supplies and tent.

“I don’t want you to be angry at me forever,” Avian said as we stood there, side by side. “You have no idea how many times I wanted to tell you, how many times I knew I should have told you. I’m sorry, Eve. It was wrong.

I gave another nod, as close as I could make myself get to accepting his apology at the moment. We then heard the sound of the wagon rumbling through the trees towards us.

There had been two horses kept in Eden, until about eight months ago. The older of the two had broken its leg and, unable to take care of the animal, Gabriel had to put him down. We managed with the smaller wagon with just one horse.

A woman by the name of Morgan and her husband Eli, drove the wagon and helped us to load our things into the small space. With everything that had to be hauled there was no room for anything else. Avian and I would be walking.

That was fine with me. I would have walked anyway.

Little was said as we finished loading. The couple told us that no signs of the hunters had been seen and that the new location for Eden was wonderful, located right next to a lake. Everyone was getting settled in just fine.

The wagon made good pace as we let them go ahead of us, and it didn’t take long before it was out of sight, leaving Avian and I alone.

“He knew who I was,” I suddenly said as we walked through the trees. “West, he knew me before I came here. His grandfather experimented on me. He’s the reason I can do the things I can do.”

“He told you this?” Avian asked, his brow furrowed.

I shook my head. “No, I found a notebook filled with the things he did to me. West said I had been at this facility for as long as he could remember. Possibly since I was a baby. He told me we used to play together as children sometimes.”

“I have a hard time imagining you playing anything,” Avian said. I noticed a smile was tugging on his lips.

“I can’t imagine I was very good at it.”

A chuckle suddenly broke from Avian’s chest. I couldn’t help smiling too.

We walked quietly for a while. I sensed how relaxed Avian was. I wondered how it felt. I never felt relaxed. My ears listened to the sounds of the woods around us, searching for any sign of alert. My eyes scanned the trees. I even smelled at the air, being alert for any scent of exhaust from an ATV or a helicopter.

I kept the handgun West had given back to me tucked into the back of my pants. I was ready to pull it out at any moment and unload it, grab Avian, and run for our lives.

Despite Avian’s relaxed stance, I had little doubt the bulky bag he had on his back contained the CDU. He wasn’t coming out into these woods unprepared either.

“Why did you ask Graye to get the necklace for me?” I asked, glancing over at his face.

Avian hesitated for a few moments. “I wanted you to have something special for your birthday,” he said as he looked at me briefly. I noted the way he stiffened slightly. “I thought you should have something a woman would normally have. I hoped you would like it.”

I looked away from him, fixing my eyes on the trail. I couldn’t think of anything that seemed less fit for me as a gift. I’d never owned any other piece of jewelry nor had I ever had the desire to own any.

“You shouldn’t have asked him to,” I said quietly. “It wasn’t worth it.”

“I know,” he answered me even more quietly.

Regret for my words seeped into me. Tye’s death had been hardest on Avian and I kept bringing it up. Now I was pointing it out that in a way it had been his fault he was dead.

Not really even knowing what I was doing, I reached over and took Avian’s hand in mine. He squeezed my fingers, his shoulder brushing mine.

“There are getting to be fewer of them you know,” Avian said after a few moments. “The Hunters. Right after the infection started and people stopped being people, there were thousands of them. It was all too easy for them to turn others. We didn’t understand what was happening at first. The base where I was stationed in what used to be Texas was flooded with them. I don’t know how I escaped. But as more and more people became infected, Fallen who used to be Hunters stopped hunting. There aren’t that many more of them left now.”

“They just stand there, you know,” I said as I recalled the haunting scene. “Like they’re waiting for something. Just standing there inside, watching the world crumble outside.”

“I didn’t know that,” he said, his brow furrowing. I then realized he wouldn’t have known. After rescuing Sarah, Avian had come here and he never left. We couldn’t afford for him to leave. He was too needed in Eden.

I was glad it wasn’t me. That would have felt too much like being a prisoner. I wasn’t the only one that felt like I had the weight of Eden resting on my shoulders. We wouldn’t have survived without Avian, just as they wouldn’t have survived without me.

“I was out of my mind,” Avian said, his voice tight as he looked down at his feet. “When you left. I didn’t know what happened to you, what was going to happen to you. You’re tough, but you’re not indestructible. If it hadn’t have been for Sarah I would have come after you.”

“You can’t do that,” I said as I furrowed my brows, looking back up at him. “They need you here.” And there I was, making him a prisoner of Eden again.

Avian slowed, pulling me to a stop with him, our hands still clasped together. “Don’t do that again, Eve. Don’t run off on me.”

I looked up into Avian’s face, surprised at the intensity that burned in his eyes. His face was closer than I had expected it to be. I took a sharp breath in as I recalled the feeling of West crushing his lips to mine. This was different though. This was Avian. He wouldn’t do it that way.

“I’ll do what I have to,” I finally managed to say. My heart was pounding in my chest in a way that was foreign to me. “I’ll protect them all till the day I don’t have any more fight in me.”

He continued to look at me for a long, intense moment. He brought his other hand and softly brushed a thumb across my cheek. My skin tingled as his hand went back to his side. He started walking back down the path, my hand still in his.

“Tell me what it was like, what it would have been like, if the world hadn’t fallen apart,” I said, moving on when I wasn’t sure how to handle Avian’s intensity or the intensity that was building up inside of me. “What would my life have been like right now, if I wasn’t a cybernetic human hybrid?”

That brought a sad little smile to his face. “Let’s see, it’s early May. You would have been a senior in high school. You’d be dying to get out of school. The last few months of your senior year are agony. All you want is for it to be over.

“Prom would probably be around this time. You would have had a dozen different guys ask you to go with them. You would have had your pick.”

“What’s prom?” I asked.

Avian chuckled. “It’s a dance. It’s probably the biggest event of the school year. Girls buy fancy dresses and guys wear tuxedos. People rent fancy cars and pick up their dates. Then they go to the dance and just have fun.”

The things Avian told me about seemed so foreign. It was like he was reading to me out of a fairy tale book and I barely even understood the terminology he used. I would never go to a prom.

“You might have had a boyfriend. The two of you would go out on special outings, just the two of you or with friends. You might try and sneak out of your parent’s house to try and see him. Boys always get girls into trouble.”

“I can’t imagine you getting me into trouble,” I said as I glanced over at him. “Is that how you were?”

Avian gave a little chuckle and looked at the ground. “I was the guy that couldn’t get up the nerve to ask the girl I wanted out. I would have stayed home by myself, burying my head in my latest health or medical book.

“I would have wanted to ask you but you would have said no.”

I looked over at Avian and really looked at him. He was tall, at least six feet. He wasn’t built as big as Bill was, but he wasn’t small. He had the lean frame of a man who worked hard and had lived on a rations diet for the last six years. His dark short hair accented the tanned color of his skin, his surprisingly blue eyes piercing. “I highly doubt that.”

He smiled at me and squeezed my hand.

“Problem would have been that while you would still be in high school, I would have still been in the Army, hopefully going through real medical school. People wouldn’t have liked the age difference. You would have barely even been legal.”

I gave a little chuckle.

I considered what I might have been like if I hadn’t grown up the way I did. I was as mature as any of the other women in Eden. They didn’t look down on me and I didn’t consider any of the others superior to myself. But maybe if I hadn’t been experimented on and grown up in a world of running and raids I wouldn’t have been that way. Maybe all I would have cared about would have been jewelry and what boy was asking me to the prom or what dress I was going to wear.

The world we lived in made me grow up. I didn’t know what it was like to be a real teenager.

We walked at a swift pace for another two hours before signs of life were detected. I glanced at Avian who gave me a weak smile, the smile of knowing the tiring endless work that was before the both of us. I returned his smile, let go of his hand, and went to help reassemble Eden.

TEN

With as little as we possessed these days it didn’t take long to put everything back together. Everyone helped everyone, no one was left in distress about what needed to be done. We were a family, a unit that worked as one.

Things were different though. With Sarah’s newfound medical condition, she had moved into Avian’s tent permanently. The seizures were infrequent but happened enough that Avian insisted. I was on my own now.

Avian and Gabriel’s tents were always placed close together since, in a way, they were the leaders of Eden. I would have set up my tent next to theirs, but when I realized West had set up not far from their tents, I assembled mine on the farthest edge of the clearing. Forgiveness wasn’t one of my stronger traits.

Our new location was as beautiful as Morgan had said. The lake was crystal clear, the sunlight dazzling as it danced upon its surface. A clearing to the side of it provided the perfect place to set up camp. It was also a perfect defense location. Should any of the Hunters find us here, we could all head into the water where they couldn’t follow. As long as they didn’t start shooting.

It was, however, much further from the gardens. As I walked to the gardens for my shift the first morning, I figured it took me at least forty-five minutes. But by a week later we were all used to it and made the trek without complaint. The fact that the garden was starting to yield early crops helped that.

The sun shone down on us as we worked on the rows of vegetables, the temperature rising slowly. It was always hard, having to move locations but it was difficult to complain considering how the weather was warming and the perfectness of the new location.

Graye worked silently two rows behind me. We had talked little since I realized what he had done for Avian. In a strange way, I felt like I should apologize to him but at the same time, it wasn’t me that had asked him to grab the necklace.

Terrif directed people soundlessly as to the areas they should work on. I could tell he was getting flustered with Wix who had pulled up a section of carrots, thinking they were weeds. It was hard to stay mad at him though when he started eating the green stems as a way of apology.

West worked in the opposite corner, never looking up as he weeded in the potato patch. We had kept up a careful pattern of avoidance ever since I had discovered the notebook, barely uttering more than five words to each other.

I pulled a massive weed out of the patch of peas I was working on, and tossed it into a wheelbarrow. My eyes scanned the tree line for the fiftieth time since we had arrived. Even though all the scouting parties had found no signs of the Hunters, I felt uneasy. They had to still be out there somewhere. Hunters were persistent.

The afternoon shift arrived and I bolted out of the garden as soon as I handed my gloves off. I wasn’t ready to have to talk to West yet, I wasn’t sure what I should say or how I would even react. Apparently he wasn’t ready to talk to me either. That was just fine with me.

Upon arriving back at camp, I looked for Sarah. I’d had little chance to talk to her ever since she had gotten sick. I didn’t want her to feel like I was avoiding her.

Just as I was about step inside their tent, Avian came out, our bodies bumping into each other unexpectedly. His vivid blue eyes looked down at me, a small smile coming to his lips as he grabbed my shoulders to steady the both of us. A hint of a smile crept into the corner of my lips as well.

“Sorry,” I said. “I just came to see Sarah.”

“She’s inside resting,” he said as he withdrew his hands after a long hesitation. “She had another seizure a few minutes ago.”

“Is she going to be alright?” I asked, concern flooding through me.

“I think so,” he said as he smiled at me again, warmth spreading through his eyes.

“I’m not deaf, you know,” Sarah called from inside the tent. “And I’m still here.”

Avian chuckled, placing a hand on my arm again. “I’ve got to go. Victoria is having troubles with her foot again.”

“Bye,” I said as he walked away. As he did, I caught a glimpse of West before he ducked into his tent, causing my heart to jump into my throat for a moment. I wondered why my chest gave a strange squeeze.

The tent was dark as I entered, the air stuffy and warm.

“Tie it back, would you?” Sarah said through the darkness as I entered. “I think he’s trying to suffocate me. I feel like I’m living in a cave these days.”

I tied the flap of the tent back as she asked, light flooding the cramped space. Turning, I made my way to Avian’s bed and sat.

Sarah’s hair was tousled, her dark curls sticking out in every direction. Her eyes were reddened and tired looking.

“How are you feeling?” I asked, hoping she didn’t notice the way I scrutinized every inch of her.

“I’d be better if everyone would stop asking me that question,” she said with a tired tone.

“Everyone is concerned.”

“I know,” she sighed as she lay on her back. “I’m just tired of being the sick one. I’m as fine as I can be I guess. I’m handling it. Avian thinks this is something I’ll probably deal with the rest of my life.”

“There’s nothing he can do?” I asked, feeling suddenly sick.

“If he had access to an MRI machine, a pharmacy full of drugs, and a neurologist, maybe. But we just have to be careful now.”

“We can get drugs,” I said as I felt hope surge within. “I can go on another raid. I got the shots Avian needed before. If he tells me what you need I can get it.”

Sarah shook her head, a smile creeping onto her face. “He would never ask you to do that, to go into danger like that again.”

“He wouldn’t need to ask me. He didn’t need to ask me before,” I said as my brow furrowed, my blood boiling just a little.

“He wouldn’t tell you what to look for to prevent you from trying. You’re too important to him. It would destroy him if you were lost.”

An awkward silence hung in the after she stopped. Things were changing between Avian and I. I was confused. No one had ever behaved this way towards me before and I didn’t understand what I was even feeling.

“Don’t be angry with him for keeping the secret from you,” she said softly, her eyes hesitating to meet mine.

“You knew too?” I asked, my voice slightly accusing.

“No, but Avian told me after you came back. How are you handling that information?”

“The fact that I’m a robotic-human hybrid?” I said sarcastically. “Just great.”

“I’m serious, Eve.”

I didn’t say anything for a second as I looked down at my weathered hands. “I’m trying not to think about it too much. The fact that my shoulder has already healed up isn’t helping that much though.”

“He said you were hurt pretty badly.”

“You should see the scar,” I joked half-heartedly. “I didn’t feel anything. I didn’t even know it was there until West told me.”

I felt it before I even saw the sly grin that crept onto Sarah’s face. “Running off to the city with the new man in Eden, huh? Never would have pegged you for that type.”

“What?” I asked, suddenly feeling appalled. “What are you talking about? He just… came with me.”

“And you had no desire to get a little close and cozy along the way with a face and body like that?”

“I’m going to go now,” I said as I suddenly stood. “Take it easy.”

Sarah just chuckled as I stepped outside.

I shook my head as I started back for my tent. What was wrong with people? All anyone could seem to think about lately was holding hands, unexpected kisses, and getting ‘close and cozy’. We were in the middle of our struggle for survival. There wasn’t time for things like that.

Evening settled and the camp started to grow quiet. The stars seemed more intense than usual as they reflected off the surface of the lake. It looked like it could swallow everything up in the vastness of space.

I had tried to insist on taking the night guard but apparently Bill had already beaten me to it. A new watch tower had been erected and everything was nearly back to business as usual. With nothing else to do, I found myself around the fire with Avian and Sarah. Recalling Sarah’s comments earlier and my new resolve to not be distracted by anything or anyone, I had sat as far away from Avian as I could.

“Is Victoria alright?” Sarah asked as she pulled her blanket tighter around her shrinking frame.

“It’s just a small infection. It just needed a little cleaning out.”

I heard someone approach from behind me and turned to see West hesitantly approaching. “Do you mind if I join you?” he asked to no one in particular.

Avian just gave a nod.

With little elsewhere to sit, he sat just to the right of me. He was close enough I could smell the earthy scent of him.

“Have they seen any more signs of the Hunter?” Sarah asked. I was grateful for her insight and tactic to keep awkward silences away.

I shook my head. “Not since we left our last site.”

“Maybe they’re giving up,” she said as she stared into the flames.

“I doubt that,” Avian said as he stared at the fire.

“Will they ever?”

No one said anything for a moment. That was what we had all wondered for the last five years.

“It’s something in their engineering,” West suddenly spoke. “The infection craves more human flesh. It was designed to spread. It’s trying to reproduce more.”

“That’s why the Hunters keep looking,” Avian said, neither a statement nor a question exactly.

West nodded. “It’s looking to assimilate more.”

“What happens when there’s nothing left to assimilate?” I asked, feeling sick as I thought about what my question implied. That humanity would finally succumb.

“There would be no more Hunters,” Avian answered, his eyes staring into the fire as the wheels turned in his head.

“And then what?” I said, my brow furrowing. “What will happen then?”

“Whatever they’re standing and waiting around for,” West said in a low voice. That statement hung in the air over our heads like a dark cloud. No one said it but we all wondered, what are they waiting for?

“There’s got to be a way to stop them,” Sarah said as she shook her head, again killing the silence. “Like making a large CDU. Why haven’t we done that, Avian?”

“We don’t have the resources,” he said as he too shook his head. I knew he’d thought about this idea before. We all had. “Everything we need is in the city. And we can’t just take it and bring it back here. We’d need massive amounts of electricity to make it work. And besides, none of us know how exactly the CDU even works, how it’s engineered. It’s some very complex technology.”

West shifted his position. His eyes flickered from Avian’s face, to mine, and back to Avian’s. I wondered what he was thinking. He remained quiet though.

“So basically, we’re all just waiting around to be infected,” Sarah said, her voice falling. “As long as there are still people out there, the Hunters will keep coming.”

“And we’ll keep fighting,” I said harshly, my tone coming out more sharply than I thought it would. “We’ll never give up.”

Sarah looked at me with cold eyes that surprised me. Without her even saying it, I knew what she was thinking. I didn’t have to worry about being infected. I was already immune by being part of them.

“Maybe we should all get some rest,” Avian said, feeling the tension that was building around the fire.

Without saying anything, Sarah stood and walked back inside the tent.

“Good-night,” Avian said as he gave me a small smile and then gave West a nod.

I stood, pushing my hands into my pockets as I stared into the fire. West stood too, and together we slowly walked away from Avian and Sarah’s tent.

The way West had shifted uncomfortably when the topic of creating a device to short out the Fallen stood out to me. He knew something he wasn’t sharing. I wasn’t going to pry it out of him just yet. Maybe he just needed a while to think about it before he would divulge what he knew. I wouldn’t wait too long though before I pressed.

“I want to look through the notebook,” I suddenly blurted out and stopped walking. West stopped walking too and I stood watching his back, my hands still pushed into my pockets against the cold.

He didn’t say anything for a while as he stood with his back to me. I could almost see the gears in his head turning as he considered my request and what it would mean.

Slowly he turned and took three steps toward me to close the gap. He stared into my eyes, intensity burning in his own. He reached his right hand into his jacket and pulled the tattered notebook out.

“Only read the parts that are in the middle,” he said, keeping his voice quiet. “Those are the pages about you. And don’t lose it. If you do…” he squeezed his eyes closed, his lips forming a thin line as he considered the horrifying possibility.

“I won’t,” I promised as I went to take it. West opened his eyes, holding on for another heavy moment before finally letting go.

“Good-night, West,” I said as I stared back into his eyes.

“Good-night, Eve,” he whispered. He brought a hand up to my cheek, softly brushing his thumb over it. It only lasted a moment, however, before he stepped away and ducked into his tent.

Armed with the answers to my past, with the keys to what made me what I was, I returned to my own.

ELEVEN

The ceiling seemed to flash images before my eyes as I lay awake in the dark. The notebook lay on my chest, my fingers clenching it tightly. I hadn’t been able to will myself to open it. All the things I couldn’t remember, all the dreams that haunted me, the answers were all inside and I couldn’t make myself look at them.

Why couldn’t they just be dreams? They were chilling but the fact that they were more than just dreams was terrifying. I squeezed my eyes closed as I remembered smelling the steel beneath me, of hearing the drill. Feeling my head and realizing all my hair had been shaved off. I remembered dreaming of running endlessly. Dreaming of a pair of earthy eyes watching me through an observation window. It was West, I knew that now. He had seen everything they had done to me. The only person I had actually known my whole life, and I couldn’t remember him.

I didn’t sleep that night. I just stared up at the ceiling, trying to dredge up memories I couldn’t recall, memories that were recorded by someone else’s hand on the pages I held.

Morning came, casting a grey hue to the space around me. I didn’t leave my tent, couldn’t make myself even get out of my bed. But it was one of those very rare days I didn’t have any duties.

As I heard Eden begin to stir, a plate of food was pushed under the flap of my tent and then I heard footsteps retreating. I reached for it, eating what was there without realizing what it even was.

The food in my system seemed to boost my commitment to unlock the past and I finally opened the pages.

West was right, the pages about me were located in the middle. The notes in the beginning of the notebook may as well have been written in another language. It was scientific and talked about a lot of different alloys, programming, words I didn’t understand. I could only guess that they were about the design for making me what I was.

The first entry was dated from when I would have been roughly four-years-old.

Test subject Eve has been observed for 1,128 days. She has shown optimal health, vitality, and intelligence. Procedure is scheduled for this coming Friday.

So there was my answer. They had been watching me since before I was even a year old. Had I been with my family before that? Had I even had one, ever? Maybe they had picked me out of an orphanage. They could have found me in a dumpster for all I knew.

The next entry was dated for two days after my surgery was supposed to take place.

Operation was a success as far as we can tell. Subject was sedated and Dr. Rothenberg assisted my son in the procedure. Chip was implanted and subject transferred to recovery room and is being closely observed. She is being sedated for the first three days and then we shall see what happens. Under normal circumstances, recovery could take up to a month, maybe longer. Vitals are showing signs of recovery already. Brain activity is steadily increasing.

What he didn’t know was that the sedation had taken longer than they had expected. I had relived that horrifying moment of paralyzation in my dreams. I had heard the sound of the drill, the feeling of being unable to move my limbs. Thankfully, I must have been finally pulled under before they drilled into the back of my skull. Or if I hadn’t, I didn’t remember that part.

Seven days later:

Subject began to awaken five days after surgery. Eve was sluggish at first, appearing confused and unsteady. Coordination was obviously thrown off. Things changed rapidly by the next day.

An assistant went to check on Eve and to give her the morning rations. Subject was startled awake and attacked the assistant. We heard the racket and opened the door to find Eve on top of the assistant, fingers gripped tightly around her neck. The assistant wasn’t breathing and her lips were turning blue. Upon seeing us enter the room, subject leapt at us, attacking with force far beyond what a four-year-old should be capable of. It took three of us to wrestle her onto the bed and secure her down.

Aggression was extreme for the next few days. We waited for things to even out. The fusion of the chip and the human brain is bound to be fought. The implant is placed in an area of the brain where emotion stems from. The brain is trying to attack itself, manifesting as aggression. Programming will be adjusted to fix the problem.

Problem. That was what my reaction to being altered was. It was a problem that I hadn’t liked what they had done to me, that I had tried to fight back.

“Eve? Are you alright?”

I jumped violently when I heard the voice from outside my tent.

“Yes, Gabriel,” I said, trying to steady my shaking voice. “I just needed some time to myself today.” Was I lying? What counted more as time to yourself when you’re learning what happened to you in the past that you can’t remember?

He hesitated, catching my out-of-character response. “Okay,” he said, drawing out the word. “Let me know if you need anything.”

“Thank you,” I said, shrinking into my bed. I listened hard until I heard his footsteps fade away.

My hands were shaking as I looked back at the notebook. I suddenly felt like I had to keep this a secret, as much as West had felt he had to. I didn’t want anyone to know what was in here. The past it contained exposed what I was, what I was capable of. It exposed the fact that I wasn’t completely human.

But West had read it all. He knew everything that was written here. And he hadn’t been afraid of me.  He hadn’t run away.

I shook my head. West was a distraction I couldn’t afford. I didn’t like to admit it, but that’s what he was. A distraction.

An entry from several months after the chip had been implanted:

Thus far the chip has been successful in overriding limitations as designed. Endurance has been increased. Exhaustion has been overruled. Tied to this is increased strength.

There has been talk about approaching military officials. This technology is something they have sought after for decades. We have created the potential for the perfect soldier in Eve. With an army that never tires, doesn’t feel pain, and is stronger and faster than everyone else, they would be unstoppable.

While I may have decreased morals I am unwilling to allow this to get out. Eve’s experimentation is a means to another end. Once the data needed has been collected, I shall move onto the next phase of the experiment. I will not allow the world to be destroyed with an army of beings like Eve. Surely it would be the end of humanity.

He had been wrong. It was with the intent to heal and save the world that he had in fact destroyed it.

And that was when it hit me. West’s grandfather was the one who had created the infection. It was his research and his creation that had led to the fall of humanity. And I had been a part of that. He had created the infection using the data he had collected from the experiments done on me.

I nearly vomited.

My stomach rolled as I forced myself to read through the rest of the pages. It didn’t seem important to read them in detail anymore. I had been experimented upon as a child. And now here I was. I was the way I was and there was nothing I could do to change that.

There were pages and pages recording the endurance tests I had been put through. They continued to monitor my sleep habits. It seemed I had required little sleep my entire life. I didn’t require as much food as normal people but I still required it as I was mostly human.

The shock of reading what was continued on those pages should have worn off by then. It didn’t. Things continued to get more twisted and terrifying.

An unexpected side effect of the chip implantation has occurred. I have been aware of the fact that everything Eve is able to do should be impossible. Her strength, her speed, her increased eyesight and hearing capacities. It’s just not possible with a simple chip in her brain telling her to do these things. This has evolved beyond the capacity of what was expected.

The chip itself has been evolving. After sedation and a full body scan, hints of cybernetic enhancements have been detected throughout subject’s body. It is not just Eve’s brain that has been altered now. It is her entire body.

I stared at my hand, willing my eyes to see the metallic fingers I had seen on the Hunters, searching for any signs of alloys bonded to my bones. My skin didn’t look any different than Sarah’s would have, no different than Gabriel’s or Morgan’s. It was all inside. That was the reason I was so much faster, so much stronger. That was how the Fallen where. That was why the infection had spread so quickly. They were better than us. We had been overpowered so quickly.

An entry from when I was eleven:

As subject’s brain has continued to develop and evolve, adjustments have been required. Her emotions have been changing. Fear and anger started to surface this last week, indicating our previous programming has been outdone. As she continues to grow we will need to make more adjustments.

I did the adjustments myself. It is a complex procedure; the programming must be done precisely. Emotion is something not easily blocked. Modification must be dealt with carefully to not harm the brain and therefore, the body. After I had the programming correctly written, the adjustments were interfaced with the chip. The change was instantaneous. Amazing, the control that is exacted through remote programming.

Subject is again devoid of emotion.

I stared at the last line for a long time, my insides feeling hollow and empty. It was as if this man had reached through the pages and yanked all my insides out.

Subject is again devoid of emotion.

It explained a lot. How I didn’t panic when others did. How I didn’t understand what was happening to everyone after Tye had died, how I didn’t recognize their grief. I didn’t feel things.

I forced myself to read the last page that referenced directly to me.

All data needed has been collected from experiments done to subject Eve. Project is being handed off to Dr. Beeson.  The next phase of experimentation and testing is now ready.

And that was the end of the entries about me. The rest reverted to the language I didn’t understand with diagrams of robotic parts and human bodies.

The sun started to sink into the western horizon and I still had not left my tent. Another plate of food had been pushed under the flap of my tent as evening set but it remained untouched on the ground.

I imagined myself sinking through the ground, of burying myself into the earth and disappearing. I had helped cause the end of the world. Whether it was by my choice or not, I was a means to the end. It would have been better if I didn’t exist. I felt meaningless, an experiment forgotten about, no longer needed. I was a hollow vessel with no reason for still being. They had gotten what they needed out of me and moved on.

Eden fell quiet, slumber sweeping over its inhabitants. And still I lay there, my eyes staring up at the ceiling, yet seeing nothing. My mind was blank, my insides hollow. It felt better that way. Should I fill back in, everything would collapse in on me.

I barely even heard the sound of feet outside before a dark figure entered my tent. I knew who it was, even if my eyes couldn’t see his face until he raised the lantern and closed the flap behind him.

My bottom lip trembled as I looked away from him and drew my eyes back to the ceiling. I felt my insides shake in a way I didn’t understand.

West stepped closer to me, set the lantern on the ground by the wall and sat on the floor facing me.

“Here,” I managed to make my throat work as I handed the notebook to him. “Please take it.”

He accepted it and set it on the ground next to him. “I’m sorry,” he whispered as his eyes dropped to the ground.

I should have told him that none of it was his fault. He had been a child after all. It was his father and grandfather, not him. But I couldn’t do it. It was his blood that had done what they had. I didn’t think I could make my voice work anyway.

“You still don’t remember any of it?” he asked quietly.

I barely managed to shake my head.

“I’ve thought about it. Dr. Beeson, the one who took over your care and research, he was a kind man. He didn’t approve of everything that was done to you. When things started getting out of control, when the infection started taking everyone, I think he let you go. He made you forget somehow. Probably with the chip. And then he let you go. He knew you would survive, that you could take care of yourself.”

I gave the smallest of nods. What had happened didn’t matter. I was what I was. What had happened wasn’t going to change, no matter the paths that had created it.

“Please say something,” he whispered as he raised his eyes to my face.

I turned my head slightly to look at him. Tears traced patterns in the dirt on his face as they rolled down his cheeks. “I don’t think I can even do that,” I said quietly as I watched one of the tears drop into the dirt beneath him.

West wiped his thumb across his cheek, before slowly extending his hand to my face. His eyes burned and clouded at the same time as he wiped his damp thumb across my own cheek. Borrowed tears.

“I can’t feel anything,” I spoke quietly through the dim light. “I can’t feel emotion. I’m hollow.”

West shook his head. “You’re not hollow. You feel things.”

I shook my head. “You’re wrong. He blocked it all. He made sure I didn’t feel anything. It became a problem.”

West scooted closer, shifting himself forward. He reached a hand toward me, placing his palm on my cheek, his thumb traveling from my cheek to my lips. I closed my eyes as heat tingled on the surface of my skin.

“You feel things,” he whispered again. His hand trailed down the side of my neck, down my arm until his fingers intertwined with mine.

A quivering filled my stomach as I kept my eyes closed. My entire body felt like it hummed as I smelled West’s presence, so close to me. It felt as if I could sense every surface of his body, so acutely aware of him it was if he was an extension of my own being.

West shifted again, the one hand still intertwined with mine, his other one coming up to the side of my neck. And then his lips were on mine.

It wasn’t crushing like the first unexpected one had been. This one saturated me slowly, hesitant in a way that consumed me. It smoldered at first, heat rising with every passing moment, eating me up from my stomach outward.

A gasp escaped from my lips as they parted and I didn’t even realize it as my free hand knotted in West’s shaggy hair. He shifted again, most of his body lying on top of mine.

I didn’t understand what was happing as I burned from the inside out. My heart raced in a way it never did, even when I had been running for hours. I wanted more but felt totally consumed by West, getting everything I needed yet feeling that it was not even close to enough.

He pulled away just a bit, resting his forehead against mine. His eyes were closed as he tried to slow his breathing. “You feel things.” He said raggedly. “I know you felt that.”

West had fallen asleep, his arms wrapped tightly around me. His face looked so peaceful. He looked younger. In sleep he didn’t have to worry about survival, feel guilt for the actions of his family.

It took me a while to understand how I was feeling that night. I felt relaxed too. Sluggish almost. I didn’t understand what was happening inside of me. It was more than the fall of my defenses

I felt happy.

Maybe I did feel things after all.

TWELVE

Sweat beaded between my shoulder blades and rolled down my back. I wiped my forehead and scanned the trees again. Maybe it was just the fact that I was out on scouting patrol by myself but I felt uneasy. It felt like something was coming.

While on scouting duty that morning, I happened upon the biggest elk I had ever seen. It had taken three shots to bring it down. Bill and Graye had taken it back to Eden to be prepared to eat that night.

Dead pine needles crunched softly underneath my feet as I circled around the lake. I smelled at the air, searching for any traces of something that didn’t belong. I tried to keep my head in the task at hand but I’d been distracted the last few days.

Everything had changed and yet everything hadn’t. I’d been away from the people of Eden for the most part since that day I had read the notebook, the night West had kissed me, again. I’d been on scouting duty every day and then on watch tower nearly every night.

Despite everything I had learned about myself, everything had gone back to normal. I was still who I was. I hadn’t changed at all. I just knew how I had become the way I was. I was still Eve. As long as I was breathing, as long as I was still in control of my actions and the cybernetic side of me didn’t turn me against myself, I would continue to protect Eden until I took my last breath.

Gaging by the position of the sun above me, I knew it was about time for the scouting switch. I headed back toward the lake. I took a quick bath and walked to Eden in the fading daylight.

I drug my fingers through my tangled blond hair and stepped back into the mass of tents. The scent of something delicious wafted through the air. There was a sense of excitement buzzing around, almost a tangible thing.

“Eve!” Sarah called to me from the clearing in the center. “Come on!”

I made my way through our version of a city, watching as people bustled about. I was confused how everyone wore their nicest clothes; at least what passed for nice these days.

“What’s going on?” I asked her as I observed several women cooking up a food frenzy in our makeshift kitchen area.

“We’re having a party,” Sarah said with a wide smile. “Today is Gabriel’s sixtieth birthday!”

My eyes widened a bit at this and I gave a nod. It was impressive. Not many people lived to see that age anymore. Terrif was the only person older than Gabriel in Eden. Only the strong had survived the Fall.

“Come with me,” Sarah said excitedly as she grabbed hold of my wrist and pulled me in the direction of her and Avian’s tent. “We have to get you ready.”

“What’s wrong with the way I am now?” I asked with only half a voice of protest.

“You may only be part human Eve, but the woman inside of you needs some pampering.”

I wasn’t sure what Sarah was talking about and if I was being honest, I was a little frightened what she might mean. We stepped into the tent and found Avian, just pulling a shirt over his thin but toned frame.

“Out,” Sarah commanded. “I have to get Eve ready.”

I glanced at Avian, ready to give him what I was coming to think of as our smile, but he wouldn’t even meet my eye. “Yes, ma’am,” he said and ducked out without another word.

I stared at the place where he had disappeared with a strange feeling in my stomach. There had been a weird feeling between us the last few days. I had not been around anyone much but I had seen even less of Avian than I had expected. He would hardly even look at me. I realized then that he had been purposefully avoiding me.

“Put this on,” Sarah said as she rummaged through a bag of things. What she thrust at me was a mass of light green material.

“What is this?” I asked, holding it away from me, trying to figure out the answer to my question.

“A dress,” Sarah said with a half-smile as she looked back at me. She herself held something similar, but in a red color.

“A dress?” I questioned as I held the folds up, looking through what must have been the top of it. “It looks more like a small tent.”

Sarah chuckled. “Here, let me help you.”

Despite my protests, Sarah soon had me undressed and into the light green dress. I felt half naked. While it was long enough to cover even my ankles, the thin straps at the top of it felt like it would barely hold it on my frame. The front of it also plunged far lower than felt right, exposing what even I felt embarrassed to see.

“This seems so ridiculous,” I said again as Sarah worked on my hair, twisting and pulling at it.

“It’s part of being human, of being a woman. Or at least it used to be. We’re all clinging to anything we can. Trying not to forget what it used to be like.”

We were quiet for a while as her fingers continued their swift work. I wondered if the fact that it had never been a part of my existence had crossed Sarah’s mind.

“Avian’s been strange lately,” I suddenly said, recalling the cold way he had left earlier. “He’s been avoiding me.”

Sarah paused for a moment. She gave the slightest of sighs before resuming. “He saw you and West the other night. He saw your shadows through the tent.”

My breath caught in my chest for a moment, a rock forming there. “He was watching?”

“He went to talk to you, to make sure you were alright. He was worried because you hadn’t come out all day. That’s when he saw you and West kissing.”

The knot in my chest tightened, the feeling spreading down to my stomach. I wanted to run after Avian, to explain. But what was there to say? West had kissed me, but I had kissed him back. More than that, I had liked it. I had felt something and I wasn’t sure I wanted to stop feeling. But why did I feel so guilty?

“You deserve to be happy, Eve,” Sarah said with another sigh, her hands falling into her lap behind me. “As much as anyone else here, maybe more after all you’ve been through and done for us. But be careful. He has feelings for you, even if he won’t be obvious about them.”

I glanced back at Sarah, having a hard time meeting her eyes for some reason. Hadn’t I really known all along? Hadn’t it been so obvious? The necklace he had given me? Our conversation about the prom, the way we had held hands? The way he had gathered me into his arms upon my return with the syringes? Of course Avian had feelings for me. And he had seen me with someone else.

I shook my head as Sarah shifted to sit beside me. I closed my eyes and hugged my arms.

“Are you alright?” she asked.

I shook my head. “What is happening to me?” I asked. I suddenly felt like I was splitting in two. One part of me feeling like I needed to console Avian, wanting to have the feeling of his hand in mine again. The other half wanting to run to West and grab hold tight enough that I’d never have to let go.

“You’ve got feelings for both of them,” Sarah said softly. Even though I wasn’t looking at her I detected the small smile that was in the corner of her lips. “Love’s a complex emotion, isn’t it?”

“Love?” I said, my brow furrowing as I looked up at her. “There is no place for love in this world anymore. The luxury of love died with the rest of the world.”

“If love dies, that’s when we’ve all truly died.”

I didn’t know what to say for a while, contemplating everything she had said. “I don’t want to hurt him,” I whispered.

“I know,” Sarah said as she wrapped her arms around me. “But you have to do what makes you happy. Maybe West is what will make you happy.”

I turned so that I was facing her. “Thank you, Sarah,” I said with a half-smile. “For all of this,” I said as I indicated the hair and the dress.

“You look beautiful,” Sarah said with a sly smile. “West won’t be able to keep his hands off of you!”

I just chuckled and rolled my eyes at her. “Come on,” I said as I stood and pulled her up with me. “Let’s get this over with.”

We sat down at the table, surrounded by Morgan, Eli, Bill, and Wix. Piles of food had been placed on the table, a good chunk of our left over stores from the previous fall’s harvest. The elk I had killed earlier had been prepared in every way I could think possible. Gabriel sat at the head of the long table, his family gathered around him. I had never seen him look so happy. He deserved it.

I glanced down the table as I ate. Avian sat near Gabriel’s family. I noticed he still wouldn’t look at me. It made my insides feel strange and not in a pleasant way. I almost felt sick. West was seated at the middle of the table, next to Graye. He on the other hand kept glancing down at me, the barest hint of a smile ever present on his face, the smile of a secret. West’s glances did other strange things to my insides, things that I kind of liked.

“I’d like to make a toast,” Avian said halfway through the meal, standing up and holding his glass. “To Gabriel. To the man who has always kept us safe. The man who has willingly led us, for not having to be asked to do so. To the man who has built this place we call home. To Gabriel.”

“To Gabriel,” we echoed.

As the meal came to a close, an unfamiliar sound came from the head of the table. It was then that I noticed Wix had disappeared as well as a few other people. They were now the source of the noise I heard.

“What are those?” I asked Sarah as I observed them.

“Teresa is playing a guitar,” Sarah said quietly to me. “Thereon is playing a drum. And Wix is playing his violin. He was something of a child protégé when he was young, before the Fall. He got to play at all these world class venues and with famous symphonies.”

I watched them as they played. The sounds were beautiful, but so foreign and strange to me. I knew nothing of music but something told me these instruments were not normally played together. Still, it was the most beautiful thing I had heard. It may as well have been magic.

As people finished their meals, they drifted to the sides of the table, and started doing what I could only guess was dancing. The tables were cleared away and a bonfire was built in the middle of the clearing, the dancers moving around the fire.

I stood to the side along the tree line, watching how they moved. At first it had looked so strange, so silly. But as I observed the way they moved in time with the music I understood why they did it. There was something about the music that spoke to a place inside of me. Dancing was a way to let the body and the music combine.

“You look really beautiful tonight,” a voice said from behind me. I turned to see Gabriel come to my side.

“Thank you,” I said as my eyes dropped to my bare feet. “I feel so exposed.”

Gabriel chuckled, his lips disappearing into the mass of his beard as they pressed together. “Not exactly what you’re used to.”

“I’ve never worn a dress before.”

“It’s good for you. A reminder of what you really are.” When I didn’t say anything in response Gabriel filled it in. “Human.”

“Thank you, Gabriel,” I said quietly as I looked back down at my feet. “Happy birthday.”

He gave a chuckle and then a sigh. “I feel so old.”

“That’s a good thing,” I reminded him. “Not too many get to feel old anymore.”

Footsteps approached us and we both looked up to see West coming to join us, his hands stuffed in his pockets.

“Happy birthday, Gabriel,” he said. “Eve,” he gave a nod in my direction.

“Thank you. Well, I’d better get back to my party,” Gabriel said with a grin that got lost in his beard again. He wandered back into the crowd.

West and I stood there for a few moments, staring at the scene before us. The fire, the people dressed up, the music, and the laughter. It was almost as if the Fall had never happened.

But in that case, we would probably be inside a building, not under the stars. There would be a heater warming the room, not a billowing fire that licked out at the night air. I think I almost preferred it this way.

“You look beautiful,” West finally broke the silence.

“Thank you,” I said, feeling heat rush to my cheeks, both from his compliment and at the feeling of our shoulders brushing. West slipped his hand out of his pocket and his fingers intertwined with mine.

“Would you dance with me, Eve?” he said quietly as we both continued to watch the people move before us.

A smile tried to break out on my lips but I shook my head. “I don’t know how. I’ll look ridiculous.”

He looked at me for a moment, that look in his eyes that made my stomach do strange quivers. He took a step toward the woods, pulling me behind him.

We didn’t go far, just through the trees enough that no one would see us. We stopped where the trees met the sandy water’s edge.

“No one has to see you dance,” he said quietly as we stood face to face. We could still faintly hear the music coming through the trees. West took one of my hands in his, wrapping his other hand around my waist. I placed my other hand on his shoulder since that seemed like the right place to put it. West pulled me closer and I let my head settle on his chest as we just rocked side to side in a small circle.

The sound of West’s heart beating matched the slow rhythm of the music. I closed my eyes and let the symphony of it reach inside me and find the part of me that was real, the human part.

“So have you thought about what I said?” he said quietly into my ear, his cheek resting on the top of my head. “I know you feel things.”

“It’s so strange. I’ve never felt things like this before. It’s overwhelming,” I said quietly into the soft cloth of his shirt.

“Is it bad though?”

I considered it for half a moment and then shook my head. “No,” I whispered. I didn’t tell him how it terrified me more than anything else had terrified me though. I’d been through a lot in my life and developing feelings was the scariest thing I had ever faced.

West slowed to a stop and brought his hand to my chin. Slowly he tipped my face up to his, his eyes staring down at mine with intensity. In that moment, I thought I almost remembered them looking at me through a window, younger and more innocent. Almost.

“I’m glad you don’t remember,” he said in a low voice, his eyes turning darker. “Even if that means you don’t remember me.”

“Good thing you found me then,” I said.

He tipped his head down and his lips met mine, brushing them so softly they tingled with anticipation as if they’d never touched at all.

“What was that?” I hissed as I whipped my head toward the tree line, stepping away from West and into a stance ready to spring. My ears strained, listening for the sound of a branch breaking again. I smelled at the air, searching for signs of life that shouldn’t be there.

I took a few steps into the trees, West stepping quietly behind me. “I didn’t hear anything besides the party.”

“Shh,” I hissed at him, my eyes straining to see through the dark. A figure stepped back into the clearing at the exact same time someone else stepped toward us.

“Eve?” Sarah’s voice called through the dark. “Is that you?”

I sighed as I glanced back at West who had a very annoying smile on his face.

“A little paranoid?” he said quietly.

“Shut up,” I said as I rolled my eyes and walked toward Sarah, trying to suppress the smile that wanted to break through.

“Eve!” Sarah called excitedly as she saw me walking through the trees. “The guys are setting up a knife throwing contest. The prize is Terrif’s hunting knife. He offered it since his eye sight is getting too bad to do anything with it. They were all hoping you’d stay gone so they’d have a chance at winning.”

The smile did break onto my face as I stepped back into the clearing and saw the target set up across from where everyone was gathered. As soon as Bill and Graye saw me they groaned and threw up their hands in surrender.

“Come on, Sarah!” Graye moaned. “Why’d you have to go and tell her? We might as well not play!”

“Settle down, boys,” I said as I shook my head. “Go ahead. I’ll just watch.”

Cheers erupted and the energy turned to teasing Wix for taking up a blade to enter. He kept up with the banter though, pretending to be the toughest of them all.

“I’ll be back in a minute,” West whispered into my ear. He then started walking in the direction of his tent.

Sarah caught my eye, flashing a quick wink.

It was pretty comical, watching Wix try and keep up with our best scouts in Eden. I had to respect him for trying though. The kid wouldn’t be bullied.

I looked up from my place by the food tent and searched for Sarah. I found her talking to Morgan. She glanced over at me and as she did I felt my insides hollow out. Her eyes were suddenly glazed-over looking, her face going blank. I bolted up from my seat and was across the clearing in five bounding steps. I caught her just as she collapsed.

Sarah’s right arm flailed wildly as I carefully lowered her to the ground. Her eyes stared blankly up at the night sky, her body thrashing violently.

Everyone had been told of Sarah’s newfound condition. It had been necessary should she be with someone and have a seizure. But everyone still gathered around her, watching in horror and with sad expressions. I suddenly wanted to tell all of them to get away. They didn’t need to see her like this.

“Where’s Avian?” I asked to no one in particular as Sarah’s arm batted against my right shoulder. I didn’t even feel it.

“He went back to his tent a while ago,” Morgan said as she crouched down next to us, Sarah’s form starting to still.

“Stay with her,” I instructed. Morgan sat next to me and pulled Sarah’s head into her lap. “I’ll go get him.”

I made my way through the tents, seeing Avian’s in sight. He had a lantern lit, his shadow falling against the off-white canvas. I stopped short just ten feet away though when I noticed another shadow inside.

“Don’t think I don’t know this isn’t normal,” Avian’s voice floated through the night harshly. “I know she’s too young, that I’m too old for her.”

“I don’t know what you want me to say.” I was surprised when it was West’s voice that answered back. “I respect you Avian. But I know how I feel. I know what I want. And I’m pretty sure Eve feels the same way.”

Avian was quiet for a moment and I could almost sense the hard look that was on his face, see how he would rub his hand over his recently shaven head. “You don’t know her,” he said, his voice low. “How would you know how she feels, what she’s been through? I’ve been there for her every moment the last five years. I took care of her when we found her alone in the woods. I watched her, knowing what she was, knowing that even if she turned against us that I wouldn’t be able to short her out.

“And it’s not like she’s just some eighteen-year-old girl. She’s never had a childhood. She’s never been a kid. She’s been a leader her whole life.

“So don’t try and tell me what I already know and wish could be different.”

The tension inside the tent billowed out in an almost tangible way. When West spoke again it was tight sounding, as if he was speaking through his teeth. “Don’t you dare say I wasn’t there for her. I’ve known her for as long as I can remember. I watched everything she was going through. I begged my grandfather and father for years to stop, to let her go. She was my best friend, my only friend. After she disappeared, I hoped for years that she was still alive. It ripped me apart, not knowing what happened to her. I’ve never stopped looking, hoping, for those five years.”

I stood there, feeling ready to explode. I wanted to run in there and tell them to stop fighting. I didn’t belong to either of them. They had no claim on me. And yet the words they said, they settled into a deep place inside of me, burrowing into every corner of me. I also just wanted to run into the dark and force it all out, to go back to the way I was just a month earlier. I felt like I was about to be swallowed up by myself.

“It’s just going to have to be up to Eve,” Avian finally said quietly. “We both know that.”

I saw West’s shadow nod.

I didn’t want to hear anymore. I didn’t want their words to make me feel anymore. I didn’t think I could handle any more of it.

“Avian,” I called, shuffling my feet, trying to pretend to just be walking up. “Sarah needs you.”

There was a pause as they looked at each other for a moment, and then Avian stepped out.

“She had another seizure,” I said quietly. I almost felt like I was seeing a different side to Avian. He wasn’t just the man who had looked out for me all my life. He was the man who pretended like he would destroy me if he had to, but would never be able to bring himself to do it if I turned against them. Did that mean he cared more about me than he did Eden?

“Where is she?” he asked when I paused.

“Still in the clearing,” I finally managed. “Morgan is taking care of her.”

He gave me a long look and I could sense the things that surged inside of him. A moment later he started back toward the clearing.

I heard footsteps come up behind me. West’s hand slipped into mine, but I took a quick step away, shaking it off.

“I think I’m going to go to bed now,” I said. I didn’t even glance back as I walked swiftly toward my tent. My breath was coming in shallow gasps. My hands started shaking and my insides quivered. I wanted to turn it off. Not feeling was easier.

THIRTEEN

Without meaning to, West was added to my avoidance pattern for the next few days.

I got my lunch and went to sit at the edge of the lake to eat it. I sat with my toes dipped in the water, sweat dripping down my back, my pack becoming damp through my threadbare shirt. Summer had finally arrived with full force.

My afternoon was free of any duties and I wasn’t sure what to do with myself. I almost didn’t want to do anything. The heat made me feel sluggish and slowed down. Guess that was one thing I didn’t share with the Fallen. The sun certainly didn’t charge me in the same way. In a weird way, that felt like a triumph.

I deposited my pack into my tent, always a nearly painful thing to do, and made my way to the east side of the lake. The trees hung over the lake in this section, providing a lot of privacy. I slipped out of my sticky clothes, washed them quickly, then hung them out to dry. I jumped in, the cool water hitting my skin with a sharp slap. I gave a sigh as my head surfaced, pushing my hair out of my face. The sun was nearly blinding as it danced on the surface of the water.

I set out for the west side of the lake, taking long strokes that propelled me forward.

As hard as I tried, I couldn’t push Avian and West from my thoughts. I found myself craving their presence and yet dreading having to come face to face with either of them. I wanted that peace I had felt with Avian’s hand in mine, to hear him breathing and just feel him there. And yet I wanted to feel alive in a way I never had felt before when West kissed me, held me.

What was wrong with me? I was Eve. I didn’t need to feel things like this. I wasn’t supposed to feel things like this! Everything was supposed to be blocked out. I was just making my life more complicated.

I reached the eastern shore of the lake and turned back.

I was nearly back to where my clothes hung to dry when I felt something splash against me, waves not created by my strokes. I pulled up short, my head popping out of the water at the same time Avian’s did.

“Avian!” I gasped as my hands automatically clamped around my chest. “What are you doing here?!”

“Swimming!” he said in a shocked tone. “What are you doing here?”

“Swimming!” I answered back, turning my back to him. The water was dark in this section of the lake because of the shadowing of the trees, for which I was immensely grateful. We were still nearly ten yards away from shore though. I then noticed Avian’s clothes hanging about twenty feet away from mine, dripping wet, just like mine were.

“Well turn around,” I commanded as I started swimming for the shore again. Avian did as I asked.

I wasn’t sure what to say as I debated what to pull on. Everything was still soaking. My cheeks flushing, I pulled on only my underthings. It was uncomfortable wearing wet clothes with the temperatures so warm. I turned my back as Avian came to shore and pulled on his pants.

We stood there, both unsure of what to say, not quite looking at each other. I sensed a lot of tension coming from Avian, hating the way it made me feel inside.

“I don’t want things to be like this between us,” I finally said, looking up into his face. “You mean more to me than anyone here in Eden. I can’t stand this.”

“More than West?” he asked, his voice tight with a hint of hurt in it.

I took a few steps toward him, stopping just a foot away from him. “More than West,” I said quietly. “You are home to me Avian. You are all I’ve ever had.”

Avian finally looked up into my eyes, his blue ones filled with feelings I was starting to understand. “You mean everything to me Eve. I know I haven’t exactly come right out and said it yet, but you do. But if you have feelings for West, I…” he trailed off as his eyes again fell to the rough sand underneath our feet.

I bit my lower lip, my own eyes falling from his face. “Something is happening to me, Avian. There is something inside of me that is waking up and I don’t know how to handle it. I’m feeling things I’ve never felt before. Things I don’t understand. I’m terrified, Avian.”

His eyes met mine again, soft and sad looking at the same time. I wanted him to do something, to say something. Avian always had the answers for me, always sorted things out when I couldn’t understand. “You can’t have both, Eve. It just doesn’t work that way.”

I stared into his eyes, feeling my insides raging. I felt like I was going to get swallowed up by myself again. Something inside of me reached out to Avian, wanting to pull him closer and never have to let go.

He reached up, taking the stone wings he had carved into his hand, his eyes studying its surface. “No matter what you choose, I’ll still be here. Just don’t expect me to not get hurt.”

My lips were against his before I even allowed myself to consider what I was doing. My arms wrapped behind his neck at the same time that his wrapped around my waist. My insides surged in ways I didn’t understand, and a feeling of what I could describe as nothing other than belonging settled into every corner of my being. Everything about his scent, his body, his presence brought on a flood of memories, sizzling with a feeling of newness and anticipation.

And almost as soon as it started, Avian pulled away, resting his forehead against mine, one of his hands pressing softly against my bare stomach. He closed his eyes, his lips pursed together. “You can’t have both,” he said quietly. He pressed one more quick kiss to my forehead, then grabbed his clothes and walked back in the direction of Eden.

FOURTEEN

The floorboards creaked in protest as my booted feet walked across them. Dust swirled around my legs, the light catching their form, tracing patterns in the air. The air was stale with the heavy scent of abandonment.

While on scouting duty that morning, I had found the cabin in the trees. It was a log style structure, fairly large for its remote location. A roughhewn road led up to it, the forest pressing back in, trying to take the land back. I had watched silently from the trees for a full ten minutes before I dared move closer. Silently, I had peered into the windows, searching for any signs of life, enemy or friend. There were none.

I felt like I was stepping into another world. The world of houses, of flooring, running water and windows was from another age. The age of humanity, of mankind. We were in the age of the Fallen now.

The front area was full of furniture, well-worn but taken care of. Pictures lined the walls, smiling faces staring back at me. Books were stacked on random surfaces, a yellowing newspaper lay casually on the kitchen table. I grabbed a handful of the books and stuffed them into my bag for Gabriel and Wix. A bedroom led off of the front room. It was a small room with little more than the bed in it, but it was still larger than my tent. I was tempted to lie down on the bed, just to see how soft it was, but my nerves were too on edge.

A small bathroom was attached to the bedroom. I lifted the handle of the faucet in the sink and a small smile crept onto my face as brown water sputtered out. It was true. Running water really was real. I left it on as I turned to explore the rest of the house.

The kitchen was small, but it may have served the king of the land for all I knew. It was glorious looking. I knew what the women who worked in our kitchen would give to have use of this. I opened a lower cupboard and pulled out bottles, not even knowing what they were for, but figuring they would appreciate anything I could bring back.

I was looking out the cracked window of the back door when I felt the boards under my feet wiggle. I looked down and noticed the cutout shape of a small door. It creaked loudly as I pulled it open. The overpowering smell of spoiled food assaulted my senses. I pulled my shirt over my nose and dropped into the dark space below.

It took a moment for my eyes to adjust to the darkness. The air was damp, feeling like earth and humidity. As my eyes finally adjusted, I wasn’t sure what to think of the sight before me.

The area that had been dug out had to be nearly as big as the rest of the cabin. Rows and rows of shelves crowded the area. Canned goods were stacked everywhere, buckets of flour and sugar covered all of the bottom racks. Two entire shelves were filled with glass bottles of water. The source of the smell was coming from a few sacks of rotting potatoes in one corner.

Whoever had lived here was preparing for something. It didn’t look like they had even gotten to use it before whatever had happened to them happened. I wondered what their fate had been. Had they been found by Hunters? Had they gone to the city for supplies, only to be infected there?

Pushing away the ghosts of the past, I climbed back up the ladder and closed the hatch behind me. I wandered back into the bathroom to where the water was still running. It was clear now and flowing steady. There was a glass stall in the bathroom as well. I thought this must have been a shower. It seemed to fit Sarah’s description. I turned the knobs in it and a minute or so later, it too was cascading clear water.

Checking again to make sure the house was still clear and that I didn’t see anything outside, I stripped down and climbed inside. The water was cold but not as cold as it was at the lake. I found a few bottles of liquid and sniffed at their contents. They smelled so good, I massaged it into every surface of my body. I couldn’t stop smelling my skin.

A towel was hanging next to the shower and after flicking a spider off of it, I used it to dry myself off. A movement to my right caught my eye, causing adrenaline to flood my system. It had only been my reflection though.

I approached the mirror slowly, taking in the person who stared back at me. My grey-blue eyes looked washed out in the dim light. My cheek bones were bordering on gaunt looking, having spent all my life on rations and scouting through the forest every day. My jaw line was sharp as well, all of my features pronounced.

I turned my back to the mirror, glancing over my shoulder at my bare back. The skin was rippled and twisted looking. Even though it had healed completely in just a few days, the scar would be there forever.

Unease crept into my system at letting my defenses down for so long and I climbed back into my clothes and pulled my pack back on, feeling my anxiety ease up just a bit. I walked back outside and headed toward the back of the house.

There was a large outbuilding behind the cabin, no windows, just roughhewn wood siding. I pulled the doors open and my heart jumped into my throat.

I had never seen a car this far from the city before.

It was large, with a big bed for cargo. Bill called this kind of vehicle a truck.  I could tell it was old, even in the days when it would have been used, it would have been old. I wished I knew how to drive to see if it still ran. I made a note to bring Bill here with me soon.

I gathered up what more I could fit into my pack and started back toward Eden.

The light was just starting to dim in the sky as I made it halfway home. The sound of a branch breaking drove me up the nearest tree. I moved silently along the boughs, my eyes searching for the source of the noise. My heart jumped into my throat when I saw West, walking back in the direction of Eden.

I picked the biggest pine cone I could find out of the tree I stood in and threw it at West with precision, hitting him square in the back of the head. His shoulders scrunched up towards his ears, whipping around violently, a knife clenched in one hand, a pistol in the other.

A sly smile crossed my face as I picked another, throwing it so it landed just behind him. He spun around again, his eyes scanning the trees, a curse slipping across his lips. I couldn’t help it as the laugh slipped out.

West whipped around, the knife launching from his fingers. Instinct reaction took over as I caught the blade tightly in my hand; the tip of it just inches away from my chest.

“Geez, West,” I said sharply as I threw it back down at him, burying it in the ground between his feet.  “A bit paranoid?” As I looked back down at my hand, the skin was already closing up where it had been cut.

His eyes finally found me and after picking his knife up, he scaled the tree, sitting next to me on the large branch. “I was wondering where you had wandered off to,” he said, his eyes hesitant as they met mine. We were both remembering the way I had run away from him the night of Gabriel’s party.

“I found a house,” I said, trying to drive away the awkward moment. “It had a cellar underneath it. It was stock full of non-perishables. Enough for two people to live off of for a year probably. And they had a truck. I don’t know if it runs still though. I don’t know how to work it.”

“Me either,” he said as he shook his head. His eyes grew in intensity as he looked at me and I saw his thoughts reeling. “Is everything okay? You’ve volunteered for night watch almost every night since the party. It feels a little like you’ve been avoiding me the last few days.”

“I have been,” I said honestly as my eyes dropped to the ground below us.

“Does this have anything to do with Avian?” West asked, his voice dropping in volume a bit.

I pressed my lips tightly together. I wasn’t sure how to answer him. It had a lot to do with Avian, but I couldn’t tell West that without hurting him. “I’m just really confused right now. I don’t know how to handle all these feelings. Everything feels so intense.”

West’s hand shifted, his fingers covering mine. I looked back at him. He stared back at me, bringing his other hand to brush the side of my face.

“It’s normal,” he said quietly. “You’re supposed to feel this way.”

“Not for me, it’s not normal.”

“It’s supposed to be,” he said as he leaned forward.

And once again, it felt like I was consumed in flames, heat rushing through my body in a way I loved and feared. My heart raced as he closed his eyes and his lips met mine.

That’s when we heard the screaming.

I leapt out of the tree and was sprinting through the trees before West could even open his eyes to look for the source of the scream. It hadn’t been far away. Within ten seconds I saw Graye, lying on the ground, twitching and writhing in pain. Two metal barbs were embedded into the skin of his chest, a sharp hiss emanating from them as they shocked Graye, over and over.

I felt the sharp shock of the electricity coursing through my body as I yanked the barbs out of Graye. As I stuffed them into my pocket I saw it, sprinting towards us, with robotically enhanced speed.

I didn’t hesitate as I sprang though the air at the Hunter. His eyes shown with a metallic glint, empty and cold. Two cybernetic hands stretched towards me and we collided with a heavy smack. Its hands went straight for my throat, my hands pulling at every gear and wire I could get them on.

“Eve!” I heard the scream as we collided.

“Get out of here, West!” I tried to scream, the noise cut off as the Hunters hands tightened around my throat. “Run!”

Black spots started forming in my vision as my air supply was cut off. I clawed at the hands, gaining no breathing room. The Hunter’s eyes stared at me, empty as ever, empty as those I had seen standing under the cover of the skyscrapers.

I worked my hand into my pocket, the metal rods sizzling my skin as it shocked me over and over. My arm felt ridged as they forced the muscles in it to clench up. With every ounce of strength I had, I forced my arm to move. I jammed the rods into the Hunters eye with everything I had.

Even though I knew it couldn’t feel pain, the Hunter jerked away, its hands reaching up to its injured eye. It was just enough for me to wiggle my hand free and pull my handgun out and blast its head open.

At the same time, another shot was fired from behind me, hitting the Hunter square in the chest.

I fell back to the ground, my breath coming in sharp gasps. The Hunter collapsed to the earth with a sharp hiss of electric death, its form falling still. I stared up at the sky as it turned blood red and tried to steady my breathing.

“Eve!” West yelled as he half fell to my side. “Are you alright?”

I was about to say yes when I raised my hand to look at it, the one I had grabbed the rods with. The skin of my fingers had been burned away, muscle, bone, and metallic parts gleaming in the fading light.

“Holy…” I breathed as I took it in. There was the proof. It was more than just the chip that was cybernetic about me.

“Come on,” West said as he yanked me to my feet. “We’ve got to get Graye to Avian. Whatever those things were, they burned some nice sized holes into his chest.”

I stumbled to my feet and back toward Graye. The Hunter had had a clear shot at him. I then realized Graye was in my area of patrol. He had been looking for me when he had been shot. I should have seen the Hunter coming. Instead I had been up a tree, getting close and personal with West.

Graye’s form was limp as I picked him up and slung him across my shoulders. I didn’t miss the baffled look that filled West’s face as he watched me. We were both running through the forest moments later, desperation propelling us faster and faster.

“Avian!” West started shouting as we reached the edge of the tents. “Avian!”

We barreled into the clearing and ran straight for the medical tent. Avian burst out of his tent, stepping aside when he saw my load, and followed us in.

“A Hunter shot him with these electric rods,” I explained as I laid Graye’s still form on the table. “They hurt.”

Avian grabbed a piece of medical equipment and pressed it to Graye’s chest, listening to the other end. “He’s still breathing but his heart beat is erratic. How long where they in him?” Avian started compressions to Graye’s chest.

“Not more than fifteen seconds. I wasn’t far away,” I paced the small space of the tent, passing West as he stood in one corner, watching Graye as Avian worked on him.

“The Hunter?” Avian huffed as he worked on Graye. He stopped and listened to Graye’s chest again.

“I killed it,” I said through clenched teeth. “I don’t know if there are any more though.”

“You’ve got to get back out there,” Avian said as he ripped away the remains of Graye’s shirt, exposing the burned flesh underneath. “You’ve got to check.”

“Come on,” I said to West, stepping out of the tent. Gabriel and Bill came running up to us just as we exited.

“Is Graye with you?” Bill asked as he stopped before us. “I couldn’t find him.”

“A Hunter shot him,” I said, feeling anxiety, knowing we were wasting time. “Avian’s taking care of him. We’ve got to go check for more of them though.”

Bill nodded and the three of us ran back into the trees without another word to Gabriel or anyone else.

“How much ammo do you have?” I asked Bill as we jogged through the trees.

“Two mags and a pocketful,” Bill answered as his eyes scanned the trees.

“West?” I asked as I checked the chamber of my own hand gun, replacing the bullet I had used on the Hunter.

“Full mag,” he replied as he checked it. “Nothing extra though.”

“Here.” I shoved a handful of bullets into his hand, pulling them out of my pocket.

I pressed faster back to where I had found Graye and the Hunter, West and Bill quickly falling behind me. I smelled at the air. The scent of the Hunter I had killed wafted through the air, undetectable to anyone but me, I was sure. I quickly passed its body, following the path it had created through the grass and undergrowth.

I ran another half mile before I saw it.

I froze beneath a low tree, jumping behind it as it came into view. My ears searched for any hints of an attack. When I found none, I turned my eyes back to the mechanical beast before me.

I’d never seen a helicopter so close before. It looked like an oversized mechanical bug, its blades still and less threatening looking. It was hard to believe the machine could be so silent. It was a piece of raw, powerful destruction when it was flying.

But if there was a helicopter here, that meant there was more than one Hunter. They always flew in pairs.

By this point Bill and West had finally caught up to me, huffing as they came to my side.

“A chopper?” Bill said as he crouched at my side, a gun in one hand, his finger on the trigger. “Then there’s another one out there.”

We each scanned the trees, our senses strained and ready to spring.

“Stay close,” I said as I started west, heading in the opposite direction we had just come from. “If you can’t shoot it, run. Let me take care of it.”

They followed silently as we came to the other side of the helicopter. A clear trail led in the exact opposite direction the other had gone. They had split up to cover more ground. The Fallen didn’t bother to cover up their trails. They had nothing to be afraid of, no one to hide from.

We followed the trail for two miles, seeing no traces of the Hunter other than his footsteps.

“You think it doubled back?” Bill whispered, his gun still raised, finger on the trigger, the same as West and I.

“We would have seen it by now,” I said quietly in response.  And just as soon as I said it the trail ended. The small patches of grass that had been smashed by its weight suddenly disappeared. I glanced up, my eyes searching.

“It went up,” I said, my eyes tracing the path it had taken through the trees. There wasn’t much to see. “It could be anywhere now.”

“Maybe we should split up,” West said, his breathing betraying his nerves.

“Bad idea,” I said quietly. “They can’t infect me. You wander on your own and what’s going to be your barrier?”

“I’d prefer it not have to be you,” he said quietly.

As I registered West’s words I also heard the snap come from behind us. “Get down!” I screamed as I whipped around, pushing both Bill and West to the ground. Half a second later the Hunter fired, the bullet grazing the side of my thigh. I stumbled, half falling on top of Bill.

I had just gotten back to my feet when it started sprinting towards us. Every muscle in my body flexed as I sprang and hurtled myself at the Hunter.

We crashed to the ground, a mere ten feet from Bill and West. I clung to its shoulder with one hand, beating at the back of its head with the butt of my gun with the other. With one hand, it reached back, grabbed me by the back of my neck, and slammed me to the ground.

My hands flung out, grabbing its ankle as it started toward the others, and dropped it to the ground. It turned its empty eyes on me, coiling its leg for a crushing kick to my face I barely managed to avoid. Two shots were suddenly fired, both barely missing the Hunter and myself.

Undeterred by my efforts, it turned its focus back to West and Bill.

“No!” I screamed as I leapt back up and jumped onto its back. “Get away from them!”

And then something I couldn’t explain happened. The Hunter froze, me still clinging to its frame, and then took two steps back. And then it stood there, staring out at nothing. Before it could do anything else, I scrambled off its back, drew my gun again and blasted a hole in the back of its head. It collapsed to the ground in a heap.

And then I buckled, caving in on my right leg. It didn’t hurt, but apparently it wasn’t going to hold my weight anymore.

West and Bill were instantly at my side. “How’d you do that?” Bill demanded. “It listened to you.”

“What are you talking about?” I huffed as they each grabbed one of my arms and helped me to my feet, supporting my weight for me.

“You told it to get away from us,” West filled in for Bill. “And then it stopped and backed away.”

Adrenaline was still pumping through my system, making everything seem like a blur in my head. “Why would it listen to me?”

“Maybe because you’re partly like them,” West said as we scrambled through the trees.

“Whatever just happened, let’s just get out of here,” Bill said as his eyes stared intently at the path we had just come down. “We’ve got to get you to Avian.”

FIFTEEN

I limped out of the medical tent, cursing under my breath.

There wasn’t much Avian could do for my leg. I had tried to tell Bill and West that. He had simply wrapped the wound and sent me out, turning his attention back to Graye. He was still unconscious and Avian was having to pound on his heart every so often to keep it beating normally.

“Eve,” West called as I headed in the direction of my tent. “Are you alright?”

“Leave me alone, West,” I said as I shook my head. I refused to look at him as I kept on my path.

“What?” he asked, his voice sounding taken aback. “What did I do?”

I just shook my head, my jaw clenching together. Something boiled under my skin. He’d better do as I said or he was going to be the victim of an explosion.

“Eve,” he said as he followed me, his voice becoming more insistent. “Eve! Look at me!”

“Seriously West, leave me alone.”

His hand grabbed my wrist, pulling me to a stop. I whipped around to face him, my hand rising, the cybernetic parts gleaming in the light. I barely registered the shock in West’s face before I stopped myself. I’d been about to connect my fist with his jaw.

“What’s going on, Eve?” he asked, his brow furrowing, his eyes searching mine. “What did I do?”

That’s when I finally erupted.

“I can’t be around you like this!” I cried, not even looking around to make sure no one else was listening. “Yes, you make me feel things, but you also distract me so much I can’t even do my job! It was my fault Graye got hurt. He was looking for me and where was I? Up a tree kissing you! He could have been killed! If I had been five seconds later getting to him, he would have been infected!

“I can’t do this, West. I can’t keep getting distracted. I can’t feel things that the rest of you are supposed to feel. People will get killed if I do.”

He stared at me, hurt and anger creeping into his eyes. When he didn’t say anything, I looked away. A few people had stopped what they were doing to watch us. My stomach dropped out as I realized Avian had stepped out of his tent and was watching our heated scene.

“That goes for you too, Avian,” I said just loud enough he would be able to hear. Looking back at the rest of the people who had been watching, I felt my skin boil again. “What are you all looking at?” I snapped. Before anyone could say anything, I took off in the direction of my tent.

I shut it all off and kept away from everyone.

After talking to Gabriel, I got myself on scouting duty every day, trading out my gardening hours. He didn’t fight me like I had expected but then again, he had heard my outburst and he knew what I had said was true. I couldn’t afford to be distracted.

I also took over all of Graye’s night watch duties. Without Gabriel’s knowledge, I took over everyone else’s as well. There were two reasons. One, it made it possible to avoid Avian and West even more, and two, I didn’t really trust anyone to guard as well as I could. Given recent events, we had to be more careful than ever.

Between scouting duty in the morning and watch at night, I simply slept the rest of the time. I blocked out the noise and light around me and shut myself down. It wasn’t hard, with everything I was doing I was actually feeling exhausted. I was finally finding my limits.

Gabriel had thought about moving Eden again after what had happened with Graye but Avian and I had talked him out of it. It was the only time I let myself be around him since that ugly day. It was obvious the Hunters were getting more aggressive. There wasn’t far for us to go without getting too far away from water and the gardens. We were just going to have to fight them off if they continued to come. Plus, we were never going to find a better location than the one we were already at.

I couldn’t always avoid everyone though. There were too few of us left for that.

Everyone short of two people on scouting duty were gathered together for a light dinner. We had been trying to be careful lately with our provisions. We were in the lull of time between the leftovers of last year’s harvest and this year’s pickings. The light was just starting to fade behind the mountain, the sky a mix of orange and purple.

Some of us peeled off, settling into our nightly activities. I found myself with my eyes glued to the fire, watching as the flames danced in the night air. Gabriel, Bill, Graye, Avian, and a mix of others stayed as well. We were all quiet, lost in thoughts of mixed memories and fears, the flow of all our lives. The same thing ran through our minds though. Life, our world, what was going to happen to it.

“I can’t believe how fast it happened,” Gabriel said suddenly as he stared into the flames, seated only a few feet away from me. “Civilization took thousands of years to build up to where we were. And it was destroyed in just four months.”

None of us said anything for a while, each reminiscing on how we had gotten here. I didn’t have much to reminisce on. My life started when everything ended for the rest of them.

“My aunt was one of the first to get the technology,” Bill surprised me when he spoke up. Bill usually wasn’t one for many words. “She’d been waiting for four years for a new heart. All the money in the world at her disposal and it couldn’t buy her a new organ. Until the infection was created. The week after the technology was approved, her husband had her transported to the facility and she was fine the next month. Cured. Until she choked the life out of Uncle Rich twelve weeks after the operation.”

A log popped in the fire, sending a billow of red hot ash into the darkening sky.

“Fifteen hundred had the implants. Fifteen hundred was all it took to wipe out six billion and a half,” Avian said. I glanced up at him, watching as the flames danced in his eyes. They were always so serious. I wondered how they would look if none of this had ever happened.

“Everything collapsed so quickly,” Gabriel said quietly. “The entire senate was gone within two weeks, the rest of the government within a week of that. All the Army, Navy, and Marines couldn’t fight it off. All the weapons and technology we did have and they couldn’t destroy this. And then there was the war. They waited too long.”

“It was so fast,” I said. Eyes jumped to my face as I said it. I supposed I should have felt embarrassed for speaking up, considering I didn’t understand what they were talking about. I hadn’t been a part of that world. I’d just been the means to creating their hell.

As the eyes dropped away from my face, I glanced around at all of them. Gabriel looked so sad and I felt a twinge of pain for him. He’d been in the normal world the longest. How things used to be had been so engrained in him. The world was nothing how it used to be. My eyes moved to Bill. Bill had very little family as far as I knew. He’d never been married, never had any children even though he had to be in his early forties. I didn’t think he had even had any parents left. I sensed that in a way, he almost liked this way of living. Because even though everything was so complicated, life was simpler now. You didn’t have to worry about having a nice car, a job, or whatever else people used to worry about. You just had to survive. Bill was good at that.

Graye sat silent, staring into the fire, just like the rest of us. He was a person I could never fully figure out. There was a history to him that he never talked about, that he kept locked up and buried in a deep place. I knew he had been married before, had a daughter. How had he escaped the infection? Had he had to leave them and get to a safe place? Somehow I didn’t think he could just up and leave them. Out of everyone in our circle, I had a feeling he was the one who had been hurt the most. He was the most angry at our Fallen world.

“Did you ever run into any marauders?” Gabriel asked Bill, nothing more than a small glance in his direction.

“Just once,” he answered as he cleared his throat. “I walked a long ways. There were two of them in a truck, scavenging for food. They had guns but they were desperate.”

“What happened?” I asked through the dark.

“I walked away with what I had walked into there with.” He left it at that. I knew what that meant. Bill would fight till he had no fight left in him.

“They killed each other off pretty quick,” Gabriel said, not directing his recollections at anyone. “They fought over food, open territory. Eventually there was no one left who would fight them over it.”

The stars winked into view overhead, burning with intensity. I was going to have to head up to my post soon.

“How did any of us survive it?” Avian said as he rubbed two fingers over his lips.

No one answered for a while. The sky was now almost pitch dark as I stood, pulling my pack tight around my shoulders. “You were smart. That’s how.”

I walked away from them, feeling one pair of eyes watching me as I left.

The trees started chirping with life as the sun started spreading its rays. I stretched my legs, shaking my body awake. It was harder than I expected to switch my internal clock to a nocturnal sleeping pattern.

I heard boots on the ladder and poked my head over the ledge of the watchtower. Sarah looked up at me with dark circled eyes. I gave her a hand and pulled her up over the edge. She half tripped as she got to the top. I caught her and helped ease her down to the rough bench.

“You alright?” I asked as I looked at her closely.

“Yes,” she said with a small chuckle. “I just didn’t sleep well last night.” She took a deep breath, closing her eyes for a moment.

I looked at her closely, taking in every detail of her. Her eyes were dark. I guessed she hadn’t been sleeping well for a while now. She looked like she had lost a little weight lately as well.

“Are you feeling okay? You don’t look so good.”

She gave a laugh, her eyes opening again. They looked tired. “You could try being a little more tactful.”

“Blame it on the robot in me,” I said with a little bite in my voice. She just smiled up at me and patted the space next to her. I sat and watched as the sun continued to creep up into the sky.

“So are you?” I asked. “Feeling okay?”

“I’m fine,” she said quietly. It didn’t fully feel like the truth. “I just had a seizure this morning. Woke me up.”

I didn’t feel scared often, but this shook me. There was nothing I could do about the seizures, there was no battle I could fight, I could never be strong enough. It wouldn’t matter. “How many a day?”

“It depends. Some days it’s only one. Others it’s five or six.”

I just shook my head as I looked down into my lap.

“I’m fine.” It felt like she was saying it more to herself than to me. “So how are things going with West?  Better than with Avian?”

I shook my head, my eyes falling to the boards at my feet. “Feelings are too complicated. How is anyone supposed to deal with it? They just make you crazy.”

“Crazy sounds like a good description,” she laughed.

“Sarah?” I heard the call from the ground beneath us. Avian.

She sighed. “He will hardly let me out of his sight these days.”

I didn’t blame him. He was scared too.

“Coming!” she yelled and headed down the ladder. “Hang in there, Eve. You’ll figure it out eventually.”

I looked over the edge as she went down. Avian’s eyes met mine and he gave me a sad half smile. I wasn’t sure if I managed to return it. It felt like a crack split down my chest.

I waited a few minutes before I climbed down, Tuck, the day watchman, coming to replace me. As I walked toward the kitchen area, I realized I was being followed. I turned to see the child following me.

“Can I help you?” I said awkwardly. I had never been around a child before. How did you talk to one?

He just stared at me with his big green eyes.

“Where’s your mother?” I asked as I stopped walking and turned fully toward him. He stopped suddenly, nearly tripping over himself. It only now struck me how odd it was that Victoria was actually his mother. She was so young.

“She’s working,” he said.

I nodded, still unsure how to interact with Brady. I remembered Victoria had been assigned as seamstress. In fact, I should go to see her soon. I was in dire need of some new clothing.

“Does she know you’re wandering around?” I asked.

He shook his head.

“Maybe you should go back to her.” I was squirming by now, itching to get away from a situation I didn’t know how to handle.

“Can you teach me how to use this?” I hadn’t realized he was holding anything until he held up the slingshot. “He told me you could teach me.” I looked as he pointed, my eyes catching with West’s. He gave me an almost smug smile. I just shook my head at him and turned back to Brady.

“You think you’re big enough to handle that thing?”

He gave a very enthusiastic nod.

“Come on,” I said as I glanced back at West, giving him the smug smile this time. “I’ll give you a few pointers.”

I thought the smile was going to crack Brady’s face as we walked away from the growing crowd.

We walked down to the lake’s edge and stopped at a spot with round stones large enough to use.

“Here,” I said as I picked up a medium sized one and handed it to him. “Show me what you’ve got.”

Brady pursed his lips together and placed the stone in the sling. He closed one eye and pulled it back. Just before he released it, he squeezed his eyes closed. It flew about five feet before it splashed in the water.

“Hmm,” I said as I looked everything over. “Try this and keep your eyes open this time.”

I adjusted his hands, showing how to properly hold the sling. I showed him how to aim it, told him all the tricks I could think of for better accuracy. He was making every target I gave him within an hour.

“How old are you Brady?” I asked as I watched him hit a tree fifteen feet away.

“Four and a half,” he answered as he bent and picked up another stone.

“Brady!” Victoria’s frantic voice floated over the tents at our backs. “I’ve been looking all over for you!”

She rushed over and grabbed onto one of his arms. “I’m sorry if he’s been bothering you, Eve. I thought he was with Leah. I’ve been working all morning.”

“No, he’s been fine. I’ve just been teaching him how to use the slingshot. He’s pretty good actually,” I said with a smile. That brought the smile back to Brady’s face.

“Well, thank you,” she said as she looked down at him.

“Actually, do you have some time? I could really use a few new shirts. Mine are getting a little worn.”

“Ya, sure,” she said with a grin and a nod. “Come on. I’ll measure you right now.”

I returned her smile and followed her.

Why did my face feel so hollow lately?

SIXTEEN

Sleep came all too easily when I finally managed to get into bed. When I woke up that evening though, I felt ready to explode.

“What do you mean they went without me?!” I demanded of Gabriel. “Bill and Graye don’t go on raids without me!”

“They left just before mid-day. We weren’t sure where you were. Supplies are low. They had to go.” Gabriel wouldn’t meet my eyes as he spoke to me.

“You’re lying to me,” I said as I crossed my arms over my chest. “Of course you knew where to find me. I was the same place I always am this time of day. How could you let them go on a raid without me?!”

“Calm down, Eve,” Gabriel said in a low voice. He glanced around to make sure no one was listening to our argument. Or rather, my explosion.

“Clam down?! They could get killed out there without me! Worse, infected! How could you let them go without me?”

Gabriel gave a sigh, again looking around. “Avian asked that they go without you.”

“What?!” I bellowed. “Avian… and you listened to him? You know I’m the best one for the job!”

“Of course, Eve. But, he…” Gabriel struggled for words.

“I’m going now. It’s only been six hours, I can still catch up with them.”

“Eve, we need you here. The three of you are our best scouts and guards. It’s best you stay here.”

I wanted to hit Gabriel. I was furious. I wanted to punch Avian so hard it made his head spin. How could he do this to me?  “Is Graye even healed yet?”

“Avian cleared him this morning,” Gabriel said quietly.

I clenched my jaw and just shook my head. I couldn’t believe this. I had gone on every raid in the last two years. I didn’t like being left out.

“I’m going hunting,” I said through clenched teeth. I didn’t wait for a response as I headed toward the armory.

The door banged against the wall as I shoved it open. I jumped as West whipped around to look at me.

“What are you doing in here?” I nearly shouted.

“I just got off scouting duty,” he said defensively. “Just putting my stuff away.”

I shook my head and squeezed my eyes closed for a moment. “Sorry I snapped at you. Grab your bow, we’re going hunting.”

“Really?” he said, his voice hitching up a notch with excitement.

“Yeah, come on,” I said, irritated again as I grabbed my bow. The emotions I wasn’t supposed to have were all over the place today.

We headed out east, towards the higher mountains. We’d been on enough scouting and hunting trips together now to know how each other moved. We listened and watched as a team.

What I didn’t expect was West’s cool and easy silence. He never once asked me what was the matter, why I was so angry, or even about how I had been avoiding him. We were just two soldiers, two hunters.

We paused as we came to the edge of the trees. A rock cliff jutted out in front of us, dropping down far enough we couldn’t see the bottom. Perched on the edge was the fattest wild turkey I had ever seen.

I gave West one glare which he returned with a smile that said, Fine, this one’s yours.

I drew an arrow and sent it slicing through the air. It embedded itself in the turkey’s fat neck.

“Well, that couldn’t have been easier,” West said as he stood from our hiding spot.

“Hey, you won’t be complaining when your stomach is full tonight,” I shot back as I walked forward and pulled the arrow out of the bird. I wiped it clean on a mossy tree trunk.

“Well it isn’t a bear,” he joked as he handed me a length of rope.

I just rolled my eyes at him as we tied it by its legs to the back of my pack. We set out again on a trail heading south without another word.

Being so far away from Eden, we didn’t try for anything bigger than birds and rabbits. As we felt the temperature drop slightly as the sun started to think about going down, we took a break on a rock outcropping that overlooked a valley.

I closed my eyes and breathed the summer scented air in. “I almost wish I could just stay out here for a few nights, away from everything.”

“Why don’t you?” West asked as he leaned back, propping himself up on his elbows.

“You know why. I have jobs, duties. They need me.” I took a sigh. “I just wish…”

“That you could have a break,” he said. It wasn’t a question. He knew he’d filled in the blank.

“Yeah,” I said as I let my breath out, opening my eyes to the view before me. “It’s all just so…”

“Exhausting?” This time he didn’t seem so sure.

“I guess,” I said as I looked down at my hands in my lap. The hand that had been eaten away from the barbs was covered in more rippled scar tissue. “It’s a lot of pressure I suppose. Not that I’ve really known any different.”

“You’re pretty amazing,” he said after a few moments of quiet. “You know that?”

“Just ‘cause your grandfather made me that way.”

“No, you’re amazing. Eve. The human part of you. You’ll never stop fighting for them. You always put them before yourself.”

And he was right. As much as I liked being with West, as good and alive as he made me feel, I would keep him pushed away so something like the incident with Graye would never happen again.

“They may be all that’s left,” I said quietly. “I’ve got to keep them alive. We’re already an endangered species.”

“Just don’t forget who you are in the process,” he said as he looked out over the trees.

“This is who I am. I’ve never been anyone else.”

“Well, maybe you need to find something that’s just for you.”

I considered this. What else was there to do besides what I already was doing? What else was I passionate about? As I glanced back over at West, a weird feeling settled into my stomach. I wanted to ponder that maybe West or Avian could be what was just for me, but I couldn’t. I’d already decided that. That was too dangerous. “Maybe,” was all I could say in an attempt to steer my thoughts in a different direction. “We’d better get going. I’ve got night watch tonight.”

“You mean every night?” he said as we stood and started down a deer trail.

“Every night,” I agreed with him.

“No one will do a better job.”

“Exactly.”

I couldn’t look at Avian for the next five days. I knew if I did I would explode on him, and there was a part of me that was human enough to not want to do that.

Eden got a big surprise that fifth day though. Graye and Bill returned. In a truck and a flatbed trailer. Full of non-perishables, clothing, shoes, tents, and other supplies.

We came running out of our tents in the early hours of the morning, alarmed by the noise the truck created. It was a sound a lot of people couldn’t remember hearing and for some of us, a sound we had never heard outside of the city. Half of us came running out with guns, ready to mow down a Hunter on an ATV. Graye had jumped out, arms waving.

We all pitched in, helping to unload the supplies, shipping off the clothing and shoes to Victoria, sending the food to the kitchen help, and sorting everything else out where it needed to go. Once all the work was done, the two of them pulled Gabriel, Avian, and I into a tent.

“Something is happening out there,” Graye said. It was only then that I noticed the slightly panicked look in his eyes. “Hunters were coming out of everywhere. I don’t know, I mean, maybe they were just being more aggressive. We had to take the truck, just to help keep them off of us!”

“Slow down, Graye,” Gabriel said, holding a hand up to him. “Were there actually more Hunters? We thought there were getting to be fewer of them.”

“I don’t know. Maybe. They were just everywhere. We couldn’t seem to hide from them.”

“They’re getting more aggressive,” Bill said, his voice low. “We used most of our ammo keeping them off of us.”

“We have four bullets left!” Graye said with a fearful sounding chuckle. “It’s a good thing we got the truck to start or we wouldn’t have gotten out of there.”

“If they’re getting so much more aggressive, is it going to be possible to go back again?” Avian asked, keeping his voice down.

Neither of them said anything for a moment. They exchanged looks and I knew their answer before either spoke.

“If it keeps going like this, there’s no way,” Bill answered.

“I don’t know how we made it out of there, much less with all the supplies we got,” Graye said as he rubbed his hands together.

“Do we move again?” I asked as I looked at Gabriel.

“It’s likely they’re getting more aggressive everywhere,” Avian said when Gabriel seemed at a loss for an answer. “West said it’s designed to spread. There isn’t much of any one left to spread it to. It’s desperate. Any other cities will probably be the same way. And besides, we have the gardens here. We’d be smarter to stay put.”

I swallowed hard as another thought occurred to me. If the Hunters were getting so desperate, they were likely to keep pressing further and further into the country and outskirts looking for what was left of the human race.

Something within told me our dangerous world would soon become much more dangerous.

Gabriel pursed his lips and gave a small nod. “That’s it then. No more going back into the city. We can’t afford to lose anyone else. We should be alright, the gardens are doing just fine, and we even have a little bit of the stores from last year left over.”

I felt an itch inside of me as we disbanded. It felt like we needed to do something. I didn’t like the feeling that we were just sitting and waiting around to be attacked. But what were we supposed to do? There were billions of Fallen out there. How were we supposed to take a stand against them?

SEVENTEEN

I woke up the next afternoon with a plan.

They were going for an all or nothing wipe out. The Fallen wanted to take us all. We had to fight back. There had always been a part of me that remembered they were all human, but we all knew being infected made you as good as dead. You didn’t come back after you were infected. We were going to have to use the same approach they were using themselves.

We had to get rid of them all.

“Avian?” I called before I even entered the medical tent. I found him washing out a handful of bloody rags in a basin of sharp smelling water. I swallowed hard, knowing we wouldn’t be able to go after more bleach. Just one more thing that had become so precious. “What happened?” I asked.

“Brady,” he said with a sigh. “He fell out of a tree and split his forehead open. I stitched it up.”

“Is he okay?” I was surprised at the small pain that formed in my chest.

“He’ll have a nice scar all his life, but he’ll be okay.” Avian wrung out a rag and set it out to dry on the table. He looked up at me expectantly, waiting for me to say whatever I found important enough to say to break my silent treatment toward him.

I paced around the tent, trying to gather my thoughts into a question, or just a statement, or something.

“The CDU, it shorts out anything cybernetic,” I said as I continued to pace.

Avian paused, as if questioning what was going through my mind. “Yes.”

“There’s got to be designs for it somewhere,” I said as I rubbed my cheek, continuing to pace. “If we could get those designs we could figure out a way to make it bigger. There’s got to be a way to make a pulse that would destroy anything cybernetic within a certain range. Someone has to have designed something like this when everything started.”

Avian turned to face me, his face suddenly tired looking. “It’s not that simple, Eve. For starters, where would we even look for plans like that? We wouldn’t even know where to start. And then there’s the matter of getting into the city. It might be possible if we could have free reign of the right city for about a week, but that’s not going to happen.

“And then there’s the materials to even build it. And none of us here would know how to build it. None of us has the right know-how.”

I stopped my pacing and stared at Avian, feeling hollow again. “What are we supposed to do then? Just wait here for them to come get us? What happens when a dozen Hunters come? Thirty, forty, or fifty of them? I can’t fight them all off. We can’t fight them!”

Avian took a step toward me and placed his hands on my arms. “Calm down, Eve. Take a deep breath.”

I then realized my breaths had been coming in short, shallow gasps. My head was spinning and my heart was pounding. “What’s wrong with me?” Black spots were forming on the edges of my vision.

“Breathe, Eve,” Avian said as he placed his hands on my cheeks, looking into my eyes. I forced myself to focus on the intense blueness of his as I took deep breaths in and out. Slowly, the dizziness in my head ebbed away. “Better?”

I bit my lower lip, closed my eyes, and nodded my head. “Something’s wrong with me. Maybe I’m sick.”

Avian chuckled. “You’re not sick. It’s just emotion. It’s normal.”

“I don’t like it,” I said. Not even realizing what I was doing, I leaned into Avian’s chest and wrapped my arms around his waist. His arms came around my shoulders, his chin resting on the top of my head. It didn’t take long for my heartbeat to match the rhythm of Avian’s. I wanted to stay there forever and just forget everything that felt so out of control. Everything was safe here.

“Why did you tell Gabriel to send the raid without me?” And just like that, I had broken the peace I had found.

He didn’t say anything for a minute. He pressed his lips to the top of my head before he spoke. “Because I didn’t think I’d survive the few days of not knowing what was happening to you.”

I didn’t say anything in response. My insides were pulling me everywhere. Part of me wanted to yell at Avian and tell him he should know I could take care of myself. Another part of me felt all soft and mushy. That part felt weird. I buried my face in Avian’s chest, breathing his scent in.

“We won’t ever give up, Eve,” he said quietly in my ear. “I’ll never give up. As long as you’re still here, I’ll keep fighting ‘til they destroy my system.”

I pressed my cheek harder to his chest, listening to his heart thump. “I won’t either. Until they blow me up or something.”

He gave a chuckle, sending crazy vibrations through his chest.

“I need to go talk to West,” I said, taking a step away, breaking the bubble of comfort. “I have to look through that notebook. There were all kinds of notes in it. Maybe there will be something that will help us figure out a way to win this.”

Avian’s face fell at the mention of West, but he made a good effort to give a small smile. “It couldn’t hurt.”

My eyes met his again and not thinking about what I was doing, I placed my hand on his cheek, feeling stubble forming there already. My eyes searched his, wanting to give him promises, not even knowing what they meant. Wanting to give promises I knew I would never be able to keep.

And so I didn’t say anything.  I simply stepped outside of the tent into the blinding light of mid-summer.

Summer had a way of bringing everyone in Eden to life. Everyone bustled around, going about their duties with a smile on their face. In the summer people seemed to feel safer, knowing there was plenty of food and that we wouldn’t freeze to death. The excitement and contentment in the air was almost electric.

I understood then why people kept secrets so often. What if I were to suddenly announce to everyone that we could no longer go on raids? That we could expect at any time to have the Fallen come down on us? It was better sometimes not to know.

I’d still rather know though.

Was this the conflict of right and wrong I had heard so much about?

I found West by the lake. He stood in only a pair of pants, washing out the few clothes he possessed.  He looked up at me, his shaggy hair flopping across his forehead as he did.

“I want to look at that notebook again,” I said, coming to a stop ten feet away from him, stuffing my hands in my pockets.

“Well, hi, Eve. I’m doing great this beautiful afternoon. How are you?” he said with a chuckle.

“Great,” I said shortly. “I’d like to look at the notebook again.”

His expression stiffened as he looked back at me. I tried to decipher what was going through his head. He looked uncomfortable, but I couldn’t be sure. “Why?”

“Does it matter?”

“Kinda’.”

“I think I have a right to look at it as much as I like, considering most of it is about me,” I said, feeling an itch of annoyance build in my chest.

“Only about a third of it,” he said sarcastically as he stepped out of the water, wringing a shirt out.

“Why does everything have to turn into a joke with you?” I asked, my tone sharp.

“Geesh, Eve,” he said as he narrowed his eyes at me. “Wake up on the wrong side of the bed today?”

I clenched my teeth together. I fought back the urge to clamp my hands around his neck. My eyes dropped from his eyes, to the pile of his stuff at the base of a tree. I saw it there, lying next to his pack. Without hesitating, I walked over to it and grabbed it. I started heading back in the direction of my tent.

“Hey! Eve!” he yelled as he started after me. “What do you think you are doing?”

He grabbed my arm, pulling me around to face him.

Before I even realized what I was doing, I found my left hand wrapped around his throat. For half a second, everything flashed black.

“Eve! Stop it! What are you doing?” I heard Sarah’s screams from behind me. I had dropped my hand before she even got to us. West started coughing violently and dropped to his hands and knees.

My eyes grew wide as I took two steps away from him. My mouth opened and closed a few times before I found any words to form. “I’m… I’m sorry. I…” I couldn’t seem to find anything else to say as I turned and jogged toward my tent, notebook in hand.

I sank onto my cot, breathing hard. What had I just done? I didn’t even remember making the decision to do what I did. I didn’t think I was even that worked up over his reluctance.

I pressed my hands over my eyes, trying to calm myself. My chest was hammering again.

Three minutes later the flap of my tent was pushed aside.

“You attacked West?” Avian asked, his voice stiff.

“I’m sorry, Avian! I don’t know what happened. It’s almost like I blacked out or something.” I couldn’t even look up into his face.

He didn’t say anything, just stood in front of me. That’s when I actually felt scared about what had happened. Why wouldn’t he say anything?

“Let’s take a look at that notebook,” he said quietly as he sat beside me. I closed my eyes again and leaned into him. He wrapped an arm around my shoulders and gave me a tight squeeze. I took several deep, long breaths. Why, when I was with Avian, did everything seem like it might be okay?

I sat back up, feeling slightly better, and opened the notebook.

“All this is about you?” Avian asked as we started flipping through tattered pages.

“Just these ones,” I said as I pinched a bunch of pages together.

“That’s so weird,” he mused. “I can’t even imagine how it was for you to read it all.”

“Weird,” I breathed. Avian chuckled.

We turned to the pages that came after all the entries about me. I didn’t understand what most of it meant, just that it was the notes about the evolution of the technology that was a part of me and how it changed into the infection.

My eyes were glued to the page as we came upon one entry.

Something has gone wrong. It is spreading. Lab assistant Kelly Strong, who received a hearing implant, has been complaining about uncontrollable movement in her left leg. Other reports have been coming in from other patients as well.

Eve’s technology wasn’t the only to evolve.

We’ve made a terrible mistake.

“They should have stopped it right then,” I said as we turned the page.

“They thought they could control it,” Avian said quietly.

We continued to flip through pages, reading about the horrors that took place in the facility used to do the procedures. The doctors started Falling, one by one.

“Hang on a second,” Avian said, turning a page back.

“What?”

He didn’t say anything as he brought the notebook up closer to his face. There was a drawing on the page, an octagonal shaped thing, with other crazy drawings inside of it. Hurried notes were scribbled all around it. None of it made sense to me.

Avian flipped to another page. This one had more drawings. These looked more detailed, like maybe they were the things inside the octagon. Tiny writing was inside of the drawings, so small I had to look very closely to read it.

“What is it?” I asked, looking at Avian.

His nose was only about an inch away from the pages, his eyes squinting. “I don’t even know what half of this stuff is. They’re materials. Reactive elements. I think this is it.”

“What we need to destroy it?”

“I’d guess,” he said as he shook his head. “I didn’t think it was this complicated. I had always assumed it was just some kind of electrical pulse but this is far more complex. I never studied engineering or that kind of thing much so I don’t really understand it all. But this is more involved than I had thought it would be.”

“The infection must be harder to kill off then we realized,” I said quietly. I had to take deep breaths again.

Avian turned the page, finding the next one to be full of notes. I didn’t even bother reading it. I wasn’t going to understand what it was talking about. He read through four more pages of notes. He flipped back and forth between a few of the last ones.

“It’s not finished,” he said as he looked up at me. “It’s here, I think. But it’s not complete. The notes on how to create the core, the thing that makes the whole thing work, they’re not here.”

“He got infected before he could complete it,” I said quietly. West had told me how his grandfather and his father had Fallen fairly early on. How could they not, being so involved in everything?

Avian turned back to the first of the pages that detailed the device. “Why didn’t he tell us he had this?” I asked as I narrowed my eyes on the pages. “We could figure it out. West had the instructions on how to save everything hidden away in his jacket the whole time. Why has he been hiding it?”

“Hang on, Eve,” Avian said with a little sigh. “I’m not even positive that is what this even is. We don’t know the scale of this thing. For all we know it’s for nothing more than our very own CDU.”

“Still,” I said, the pitch of my voice rising. “Why didn’t he tell us? Why has he been hiding it?”

Avian didn’t have anything to say to that.

It started building up inside of me. An unfamiliar sensation. It took me a while to recognize it.

It was distrust.

Every moment I had spent too close to West flashed through my head. All the times I had let him kiss me, touch me in any excessive way, filled me with regret. I had been so stupid. I hadn’t trusted him in the beginning. I had let my guard down too quickly. He was human, he knew the peril we were all in. So why would he hide something like this?

“He’s not getting this back,” I said as I stood and started pacing around my tent. “How can he even call it his? This kind of information belongs to us all.”

“It doesn’t do us a lot of good,” Avian said as he stood. “If we can’t understand what any of it means. How to use it.”

“We’ll figure it out,” I said through clenched teeth.

“You know where an electrophysics engineer is?” I was surprised at the tone Avian used. It wasn’t harsh, but it was still unexpected. It felt like he was taking West’s side.

“No, but I’ll find one,” I said as I glared at him.

“Good luck,” he said as he stepped toward the door. “I’ll see you at dinner.”

I headed to the gardens after that. I needed something to distract myself. I was afraid what I might do with all this angry energy built up inside of me. Ripping weeds out of the ground seemed to help a little.

West wasn’t at dinner that night. I had mixed feelings. I felt like I should feel guilty or something. I wanted to throttle him though.

Avian kept ahold of the notebook, which was fine with me. None of it made sense to me and I had no desire to look over the parts about me again. I remembered every word like they had been branded into my partially cybernetic brain.

Alone on the watch tower that night, I paced from one end to the other. The night was passing slowly, as they had been for the past few. I kept thinking about the notes, wondering how we could use them, if we could even use them. My brain hurt from thinking about all the things it felt like I could do nothing about.

My eyes scanned the trees.

Something felt off. I couldn’t explain it, but I could feel something.

I shifted the rifle in my hand, too on edge to sling it back over my shoulder. My pack was cinched tight to my back. In my agitation, I had sorted through it all twice. Food, water, ammunition. Everything I needed to survive on my own out in the wild. For as long as it would take me to reach a city and take what I needed.

I then remembered how Bill and Graye claimed it wasn’t safe to go into the cities anymore. I didn’t think I could fully believe that though until I’d witnessed it myself. Maybe it wasn’t safe for them, but it might be for me. I was at least not in danger of getting infected.

They could still blow me apart though.

EIGHTEEN

My breathing came in steady rhythm as my bare feet beat against the gravel. I checked my surroundings as I ran. The houses were starting to fall away and trees rose up around me. The sound of another set of feet came up after me.

I brushed leaves out of my tangled hair as I ducked into the bushes. It felt strange to have it so long, but I wasn’t sure why.

My feet were agile as I leapt over a fallen tree and crashed through the undergrowth. My pursuer continued to chase after me.

I analyzed the terrain before me, picking out the best path. My hesitation was too long though. The next second I was tackled to the ground.

All I saw after that was red and gleaming metal parts.

The dream haunted me as I joined the others in the gardens the next afternoon. I’d never had that one before.

Red.

There had been so much red.

“Set this in there, will you?” Sarah said as she extended a cucumber toward me. I grabbed it from her and set it in the basket at my feet.

The heat was getting intense, made all the worse by the clouds that were coming in. The air was heavy with humidity. I heard several people begging for it to rain.

With summer midway over, the garden was producing well. This was our second round of early harvesting. There was an abundance of squash, peas, beans, cucumbers, and other delicious vegetables. The kitchen crew had been busy canning the last week or so. Our new cellar was getting its shelves filled quickly.

“Do you know what it is Avian’s been working on lately?” Sarah asked as she handed me another cucumber. “He’s been obsessed, but he won’t tell me what it is he’s doing.”

Avian and I had both agreed to keep our discoveries quiet. Until we understood what it was we were looking at, we didn’t want to give anyone false hope.

“Why does this project seem so strange?” I diverted. “He gets into different projects sometimes.”

“I don’t know. He’s just being so secretive. And he’s been weird lately. I don’t know how to describe it.”

I did. Desperate hope filled with total inept ability.

“I wouldn’t worry about him,” I said as I reached for the next vegetable she handed me. It slipped through Sarah’s fingers before I grabbed it.

Sarah cursed under her breath, shaking her hand.

“Are you alright?” I asked as I bent and picked it up off the ground.

“Yeah,” she said as she shook her head and went back to work.

“You sure?”

“I’m fine!” she snapped at me.

I watched her closely after that. I didn’t understand what the fact that Sarah seemed to be having a hard time keeping her grip on things meant.

That evening, I watched as the one of the afternoon scouting groups arrived back at camp. Among them was West, who wouldn’t even look me in the eye as he grabbed a bowl of soup and headed straight for his tent.

Good. I didn’t want to talk to him either.

I didn’t know if I would ever be able to trust him again.

That night as I went up the tower for watch duty, Avian followed me. I should have protested. I had meant it when I told him he was too distracting. I thought I could control myself though, as long as I kept him at arm’s length.

“I recognize these things here,” Avian said as he sat on the bench. I leaned over the page, feigning interest. I was interested; it just didn’t mean anything to me. “These things here could be found at any hardware store. Most of these,” he said, pointing to something else. “Could be found in just about any lab. But these,” he said, indicating another few things. “I’m not even sure what they are.”

My eyes scanned the trees. I had that feeling again.

“There’s got to be someone out there who knows what it is,” I said distractedly.

“Have you talked to West about this yet?”

I shook my head. “I don’t think I can face him without doing something stupid again.”

“He may know what we’re looking at,” Avian said quietly. “We should talk to him.”

“Feel free,” I said as I paced.

“I’m serious, Eve. He might know something. I think he’s a lot smarter than any of us realize. What he said about the infection having been designed to spread. It makes sense. He’s bound to have picked up on a lot of things from his family.”

“He was thirteen when everything happened. I doubt he learned too much about electro physics, or whatever.”

“Don’t underestimate inherited intelligence. I think we should talk to him.”

“Fine,” I sighed. I fought back the urge to send Avian back to his tent. It was setting me on edge to have him talking at me. I needed to be on full alert.

Eventually Avian fell asleep on the bench, the notebook balanced on his chest. I sighed in relief when I heard his heavy breathing. Finally, silence.

The air felt thick as the clouds kept building. There was a charge running through the atmosphere, like the sky was ready to split apart at any moment.

Two hours before dawn would have broken, the thing I had been waiting for finally happened.

The sound of a chopper buzzed through the air. A few moments later I picked up on the sound of another. I barely made out the tiny black dots in the sky to the west of Eden.

I cursed under my breath. They were slowing down in their approach.

Twenty seconds later, the glow of a stream of fire blazed through the pre-dawn sky.

“NO!” I screamed, true horror filling me for the first time.

Avian jerked awake as the second scream leapt from my throat. His eyes followed my line of sight.

Both helicopters had fire billowing out from them.

They were burning the gardens.

“Gabriel!” Avian bellowed as he leapt down the ladder and started sprinting through Eden. I leapt down after him, heading directly to the tree line.

I had to be careful not to crash into any trees in the nearly nonexistent light as I plowed through the woods. I pulled my pack in front of me, digging though it for more ammunition, putting it into a side pocket.

The glow of the flames told me I was getting close. It took me a while to realize the sound of the helicopters had disappeared.

I was about fifty yards away when it came running at me. A nearly all metal Fallen leapt at me from the trees. I pulled my gun and blasted its head open before it got within ten feet of me.

I had just gotten to the fence line when another tackled me, its hands closing around my throat. I rolled, coming on top of it. Getting my hands free, I attacked its head with my clenched fists. As soon as the outer metal was broken I started pulling at wires and gears. Its form was still a few seconds later. I pried its dead hands away from my throat.

Finally, I turned back to the fence, my fingers twining in the chinks. I could only stand there and watch as the rows of peas, spinach, tomatoes, and pretty much everything else, burned.

Shouts started racing toward me in the chaos the early morning had become. There was nothing we could do but stand at the fence and watch everything we had worked for for the last five years burn.

Maybe there was a God out there. The sky finally couldn’t hold any more pressure and the rain started to fall. As I watched the fires sizzle out, a hand slipped into mine. I didn’t even have the will to turn and see who it was. It felt like nothing mattered anymore.

We were finally done for.

NINETEEN

Even though no one had died, the feeling of death and despair hung in the air like a ghost.

We had salvaged what we could out of the garden. Two tomato plants, half a row of squash, a small patch of potatoes, and one broccoli plant was all that had survived. The amount of food it would eventually produce would feed everyone in Eden for less than a week.

Inventory of our stores were immediately taken. We had enough to last about four months if we all went on starvation diets. We’d been counting on a good fall harvest.

Two days after the burn I had taken Bill with me on scouting duty. He got the truck to start at the cabin I had found and together we filled the back with everything that had been in the storage room beneath the house. That would buy us another month or so if we were careful. Nearly everyone cried when we drove the truck back through the forest and showed them the supplies. I sensed Bill was harboring hard feelings toward me for not telling everyone about what I had found before. How could I have forgotten about something so important until now?

Three weeks after the burn, I came back from my morning scouting duty, joining the others for dinner. We were each given a roll and half a scoop of canned corn. After receiving my plate, I sat next to Sarah, watching my movements as I did. My skin was turning a light shade of pink under my normally tanned tone. The sun had been brutal the last few days.

“You should go see Avian about that,” Sarah said as she looked at my arm that rested next to her pale white one. “He has some aloe he could put on it.”

“I’m fine,” I said as I tore a small piece off of my roll. “I’m sure someone will need it more than me.”

Sarah nodded her head, not wanting to argue with me. She scooped her corn into her spoon and raised it to her lips with a shaking hand. I looked at her closely as she chewed the bite carefully.

Sarah looked like a skeleton. She had started dropping weight even before the burn happened, and then when we all went on starvation rations, she started declining even more rapidly. She was frightening to look at now, I didn’t want to know how she would look in a few more weeks, a few months from now.

“I’m not very hungry,” I said as I picked my plate up and scooped my corn onto her hers. I broke half of my roll off and set it there as well. “Why don’t you have mine?”

“Eve,” she said as she looked at me with tired eyes. “You have to eat too.”

“I’m not hungry,” I said again as I stuffed what was left of my roll into my mouth. As I stood, my stomach growled. Before Sarah could protest further, I walked toward the medical tent. Just as I was about to step inside, West stepped out, nearly crashing into me. My eyes dropped to the tear in his shirt. His sleeve was soaked in blood and I saw fresh stitches in his arm.

“You alright?” I asked stiffly. West and I still had not talked much since I had attacked him.

“Fine,” he said shortly. “I just fell.” He walked away without saying anything else.

A strange rock seemed to form in the pit of my stomach as I swallowed hard and stepped inside.

“Hi,” Avian said as he looked up at me with a small smile. He pulled off a pair of bloodied latex gloves.

“I have an hour or so,” I said as I sat on a stump, pulling my knees to my chest and resting my arms on them.

“You should be sleeping,” he said as he busied himself with cleaning up. “You’re going to over work yourself.”

“I’m not sure that’s possible.”

“Of course it is,” he said as he finished up and sat across his examination table from me. “You’re still human. Look how much weight you’ve dropped already.”

I didn’t look, but I knew Sarah wasn’t the only one who had dropped some. We all had.

“Are you still eating your rations?” he asked me.

“Yes,” I lied. Somehow I sensed Avian knew I wasn’t telling the truth.

He knew better than to argue with me though, so he just stood and bent down to a wooden box that sat on the floor. Being careful, he pulled the CDU out and set it on the table. He grabbed West’s notebook and opened it to the last pages.

Over the last few weeks, Avian and I had been pulling the CDU apart, piece by piece. We had been matching parts to those we found in the notebook, making our own notes as we went along. We were always obsessively careful to make sure we put it back together exactly the way it had been before. We tested it every time after reassembly on Avian. He flinched from the shock of the electricity every time.

Today we were looking at its core.

We pulled the outer shell off, exposing all the inner working parts. We unbolted several of the larger parts we had already completely torn apart. Next we unscrewed the inner casing of the core.

A small band created the core of the device and at the center a small blue ball glowed with such intensity it was almost painful to look at.

“That must be this,” Avian said as he tapped at a drawing on the page of the notebook. It just looked like a ball on the page and had a long name that I wasn’t sure I could even pronounce. “It’s what makes the entire thing work.”

“What is it?” I asked as I stared at the glow.

“I’m not even sure,” Avian said as he shook his head. “When it’s on, this band that surrounds it spins. I think the two of them are what makes the electrical charge that shorts everything else out.  I’ve never even seen anything like the center piece.”

“If we could figure out what it is and make it bigger, would it be able to make a pulse that could wipe everything out? So that it wouldn’t have to be touching them like this does?”

“I suppose,” Avian said as he turned the device over in his hands, looking at it from a different angle. “It seems like it should be able to work, in theory.”

I mulled that over silently. We had to do something. Soon. We had to figure this out or we were all dead. We were already headed that way.

Avian and I carefully pieced the CDU back together, frustrated as ever. We both had expected this to happen. We knew eventually we were going to find the parts we didn’t understand. As we bolted the shell back on, Avian powered it up and calibrated it. He handed it to me and I pressed the button as I held it to Avian’s arm. His muscles twitched violently as the shock leapt through his system.

“Sorry,” I said as I handed it back to him and he powered it down.

Avian just chuckled as he stored it back in its box. He sat back down and looked at me with his intense blue eyes.

How was it possible for someone to be so good? We’d been so fortunate to have Avian in Eden. He’d given up his life in a way to keep us alive, tying himself to this one place, a constant prisoner. How had I been so lucky to have him come into my life? It could have been anyone who found me, some twisted man who could have taken advantage of a young girl who didn’t know who she was, didn’t know anything.

My chest felt tight as I looked back at him, a weird feeling forming in my stomach. I suddenly thought about the feeling of my hand in Avian’s, thought about how it felt to have our hearts beating to the same rhythm, the way it had felt when I kissed him. I wanted to do it all again. I needed it right then in a nearly painful way.

I half whispered a good-bye and bolted out of the tent.

My breathing came in hollow swallows as I walked across Eden to my tent. It took every ounce of control that I had not to turn back around and run back into Avian’s arms.

What was wrong with me? Where was this coming from?

I felt almost as if my body was shaking with the need to go back as I lay in my bed. I squeezed my eyes closed, forcing thoughts of Avian from my mind.

I expected to dream of Avian as I slept that afternoon. Instead I dreamt of West.

The glass felt smooth under my fingers, flowing perfectly, one molecule into another. How was it possible to make something so perfect and even? The glass warmed under my hand, a ghost of my flesh forming in fog as the heat of my body met the cool of its surface.

I realized then that the air around me was freezing.

Turning, my body chilled as my eyes scanned the cinder block walls. No outside light tricked in, only a single light bulb hanging from the ceiling cast a cold shadow on everything.

My chest felt tight as I searched for an escape. There wasn’t even a single door, just the window. A bed was pushed into one corner of the room. This was as good as a prison cell.

As I turned back to the window, a pair of earthy eyes stared back at me.

“West!” I screamed as I put my hands against the glass. “You’ve got to get me out of here!”

He stared at me, his lips set in a firm line. A single tear slipped down his cheek.

“West, please,” I said, slapping my palm against the cool surface. “Please let me out!”

“Please, grandpa,” he suddenly said, turning away from me. “Can we please let her out?”

I then noticed a shadowy figure behind West, standing in a doorway.

“But she may attack you again. You know she doesn’t trust you,” a gravelly voice said.

West turned back to me. Another tear rolled down his face. Slowly he raised a hand to the glass, our hands separated only by the window. “I know,” he whispered.

My eyes widened as I saw his expression harden, his eyes betraying the hurt I had caused him. I shook my head, taking a step away from the glass. I crawled up into the bed, tucking my knees under my chin.

“She’s not really human,” the shadowed voice said again. “If she were she would see what she is doing to you. She’d know she can trust you.”

West continued to stare at me with mixed emotions on his face. He brought both his hands up, pressing them to the glass as if he wished he could slip through it, and push me all the further away, all at the same time.

I saw him mouth my name but the rumble of a noise I couldn’t identify was rising quickly in my ears. For a moment I was worried the building might be collapsing on us, one floor of a building crashing down on the next. But the walls weren’t shaking, dust wasn’t falling from the ceiling. The noise continued to grow to a deafening point. It saturated every part of my body.

“Eve!” I saw him scream though the glass. And then everything was silent. The next second the window exploded into a billion stars of red death.

I jerked upright with a gasp. My hands wiped at my face, trying to brush away the shards of glass that weren’t really there.

I felt momentarily panicked when I realized everything was totally black. Had I not just been dreaming? Had I been blinded by something while I slept?

The panic ebbed away as I realized it was simply dark because of the muggy night. I leapt out of my bed as I realized that meant I was beyond late for my night watch. I pulled my pack on and jogged out of my tent.

Most all the fires had completely died out and there wasn’t a soul around as I crossed camp. Gripping the rungs, I scaled the ladder to the watchtower. I jumped violently when I was about to climb over the ledge and a head popped over. West looked at me with a slight smirk.

“Hope you enjoyed your beauty sleep,” he said as he extended a hand and pulled me up and over the edge.

“I don’t usually oversleep,” I said as I pulled the straps of my pack tighter, my eyes scanning the trees.

“You’ve been working yourself to death for the last month. And running on no food. If you were human you’d be collapsing from exhaustion more often.”

My stomach turned to stone as I recalled what the man from the dream had said. She’s not really human. West chuckled, but I couldn’t seem to force even a crack of a smile.

West took a seat on the bench, patting the seat next to him. I eyed him for a moment. I hadn’t been in close proximity of West for a long while now. The last time we had touched I could have easily killed him. He must have known his life was in danger. And yet he was asking me to sit by him. Maybe he still trusted me, even if I didn’t know if I could trust him.

I sat.

West turned his gaze to the dark night. I followed, looking into the endless star-peppered sky.

“Do you ever wonder if there is anyone else out there?” he asked quietly, his eyes never leaving the stars.

“No,” I answered honestly.

“I can’t imagine there isn’t,” he said. “All that space. We can’t be the only living things out there.

“Makes you feel kind of important though, if we are the only ones. All that beauty and it’s there for only our eyes.”

I looked over at West, watching him as he watched the heavens. His hair fell across his brown eyes, in need of a haircut. His shoulders were shrugged up to his ears as he leaned back. In that moment I saw something in West. Not the boy who always turned everything into a joke, always got to me in a bad way. But the boy who had to live with the knowledge that it was his family who had destroyed the world.

“I want to hate you, you know,” he said, though he still didn’t look at me. “For the way things have been between us these last few weeks. I want to hate you for attacking me like that, for taking the notebook. For all the ways I see you look at Avian. I want to hate you for all the ways you make me feel. For the way I feel every time I think about the times we kissed.”

I felt like a knotted mess as West finally stopped talking. “I don’t want you to hate me.”

“That’s the thing. I can’t. I don’t think I could ever hate you Eve.”

“I’m still just not sure I can trust you.”

West finally looked at me, his eyes almost empty looking. “That I can hate.”

I watched his face, the way his eyebrows knitted together, the way his cheeks seemed so stiff, the shape of his lips. My eyes froze there, remembering how they felt, how they tasted. Before I could reason with myself, I leaned forward, pressing mine to his.

West’s hand came to the back of my neck, pulling me closer to him. My hand knotted in his hair and I suddenly found myself settled into his lap, facing him. My pack dropped to the ground as West’s other hand circled around my waist.

“I want you to trust me, Eve,” he whispered as his lips trailed down to my neck.

“I want to trust you,” I said as I tilted my head back, my eyes closing.

His lips found mine again, causing fire to race through my blood. My heart hammered so hard I was sure West could feel it against his own chest. The intensity building up inside of me seemed to make my brain start and stop.

The image of Avian’s piercing blue eyes suddenly flashed through my head and I jerked away. I was on my feet the next second, pulling my pack back on.

“I’m sorry. I…” I struggled for words as I pressed my knuckles to my lips, shaking my head.

“Don’t worry about it,” West said, his lips hardening slightly. He stood and walked toward the ladder. “At least you aren’t running from me anymore.” Without saying another word, he climbed down.

I took a deep breath once I was alone, letting it out in a quivering whoosh, my eyes looking up to the stars again. My body hummed.  I felt alive in the way I only seemed to when I did those types of things with West. And yet I felt sick. I couldn’t get Avian out of my head and I felt ashamed.

What was I doing? I had vowed to myself that I wasn’t going to let the two of them distract me. Yet here I was again, spending more time with Avian, aching for him in a very physically painful way, and kissing West.

I was going to get someone killed.

TWENTY

Bill and Graye headed off to the south while West and I headed east. Now that I had figured out I could be around West again without attacking him, I had agreed to let Gabriel put him back in our scouting group.

The sun beat down on us with an intensity that was beyond miserable. My entire body felt tender, a deep red building under my skin. Had I felt pain like the rest of everyone I was sure it would be beyond uncomfortable to move, much less go on an entire scouting operation.

West and I walked silently through the woods, eyes searching the tree line. Birds chirped in an annoying afternoon chat. Insects hummed. But there were no other sounds. No traces of any Fallen.

“Clear?” West whispered, clutching his rifle tightly in his hands.

“Clear,” I said as we finished sweeping around the perimeter of the gardens. West waited at the bottom while I scaled the biggest nearby tree. As I reached the top, I shook its branches with as much force as I possessed. The entire top half of the tree swayed.

One hundred yards away I saw a figure wave at me. They knew it was safe to come work.

I dropped down to the ground and straightened my pack. We had to be more careful than ever these days. The Fallen obviously knew where the gardens where, knew we would be nearby. It wouldn’t be too difficult for them to track us down here. That was why we scouted the area every morning first, before the small crew came to tend.

Not that there was much to tend anymore. The heat wave wasn’t letting up and everything was withering away. Soon there would be nothing left.

West and I set out to the north again, eyes constantly scanning the trees.

“What do you think is going to happen to us now?” West said quietly as we walked.

I didn’t answer for a moment, trying to collect my thoughts. “Eventually we’re going to have to move. Sooner than later.”

“Why do you say that?”

“It’s obvious. We have supplies for a while but winter is coming. We don’t have enough to last that long. We’re going to have to move where it’s warmer or we’re going to starve to death. We have natural resources here, animals to hunt, but it’s not going to be enough to sustain everyone through the winter.”

West was quiet for a while. “Have you talked to Gabriel about this? You’re right. But he’s going to have to be the one to initiate it.”

“I will,” I said as I readjusted my grip on the shotgun in my hands. “The problem is, how do we move that many people without being spotted by Fallen? How do we move that many supplies at once?”

“It might be safer to move in small groups,” he said quietly as his eyes jerked to the right. A squirrel scampered down a tree.

“Then again, it might not be. I don’t know,” I said as I briefly considered shooting the animal. I decided against it. With as little meat it would provide it wouldn’t be worth the ammunition. As if on cue, West’s stomach let out a rumbling growl.  I chuckled.

“Okay, we’ve seriously got to bring back some food. I can’t take the starvation rations,” West said in exasperation.

“When we’re ready to head back we’ll look,” I said as I started the climb up the low hills that looked over Eden.

I was grateful we didn’t see anything the entire day. While it was boring to be walking endlessly through the woods, it was better than running into something we didn’t want to. As we started back in the direction of Eden, we kept our eyes peeled for anything to eat. I sensed there was something West wanted to talk to me about, but had been putting it off the entire day. Now he had to be quiet if he wanted to eat.

The woods were silent as we moved, as if sensing we were on the lookout to take something home with us. Something to the left caught West’s eye and he drew his bow and an arrow before I even caught sight of what he had seen. The arrow sliced through the air and the next second we heard a scream.

A human one.

We were both bolting through the trees without a second’s hesitation, my mind running through the possibilities of what we might find. Surely not Fallen, they didn’t feel pain and therefore would never scream. Could it be Bill? Graye? Everyone else knew better than to wander this far from Eden on their own.

He was slumped against a tree, clutching at his left shoulder. He had already broken off the shaft of the arrow. His eyes were squeezed shut in agony. He bit his lower lip to hold back the scream.

“Holy…” West breathed as the man came into view. I didn’t recognize him and I doubted West did either. “I thought it was a deer or something. What is he doing out here?”

We both dropped to the man’s side, his eyes flying open in delirious confusion.

“You’ve been shot with an arrow,” I said, my voice calm and even. “We have a doctor at our camp. I am going to have to pull the arrow out though or it will cause more damage as I move you.”

The man’s green eyes opened wide, searching the sky for things only he could see now.

“West, help me,” I said as I placed my hands on the base of the arrow that was still embedded into his chest. “This is going to hurt him.”

West shifted forward, placing his hands on the man’s shoulders, being careful to stay clear of the wound. In one swift movement, I yanked the rest of the arrow out. The man screamed so piercingly it made my brain rattle.

“We need something to stop the bleeding,” I said as I tried to recall what Avian would do in a situation like this. West slid off his pack and pulled his shirt off. It was damp with sweat but it would work. I pressed it into the wound and together we secured it with a length of rope from my pack. Another scream leapt from his throat as I picked him up, gathering him securely in my arms.

“What was he doing out here?” West asked as we jogged through the trees. We were still far from Eden. So much for getting food for tonight.

“On the run maybe?” I said as I glanced down at him. He’d had only the clothing on his back. I didn’t see any traces of provisions with him, no tent, no food.

It took us nearly an hour to get back to Eden. Even my arms weren’t strong enough to carry him by myself the entire trip and West had taken half the load. The man had turned a pasty white and he shivered violently, despite the blazing sun above us. He had also bled through West’s shirt. My left arm was covered in his blood.

Avian was in the medical tent when we sprinted into it. He set the notebook down and jumped to his feet. There was no hesitation in his actions. He knew how to handle a situation like this.

“Who is he?” Avian asked as he pulled on a pair of gloves and removed West’s bloodied shirt we had used as a bandage. He started cutting away the man’s own shirt. The man barely even whimpered as his wound was jostled. Until Avian began cleaning it.

“He was just in the woods. We didn’t realize it was a person,” I said as I moved out of Avian’s way.

“I thought he was a deer,” West said, his eyes looking tortured. “I couldn’t really see anything. Just saw something move.”

“Where’d he come from?” Avian asked. He threaded a needle. I watched with wide eyes as he started sewing the man back up.

“We don’t know,” West said quietly. “Is he going to be okay?”

“The wound is dangerously close to his heart. There are a lot of major blood vessels in that area. I can’t repair the internal damage so there’s a risk that even if the bleeding stops on the outside, it may not stop on the inside.”

West’s face blanched white.

The man opened his eyes, rolling around in his head. “My wife,” he said. His voice was rough sounding and then I noticed the tears rolling back toward his ears. “My son. They found us. I… was out. They got them. …had to run.”

We all looked up at each other. Avian dropped what he was doing and opened the box that contained the CDU. Less than thirty seconds later he had it charged up and calibrated. The man jerked away as it was pressed to his bare arm. His eyes continued to roll around in his head.

Organic but dying quickly.

“Where did you come from?” I asked, leaning over him so he could look me in the eye. His own eyes remained unfocused.

“He may not be able to speak right now,” Avian said as he cut the threads of the stitches. “His body is going into shock.”

“Where did you come from?” I asked again.

“E… east,” he barely managed to whisper. “Been running since… day before yesterday.” He then started coughing violently. Red splatters coated his lips.

“His lung has been punctured,” Avian said in despair as he sat back and rubbed his hand over his stubbled hair.

“He’s not going to make it,” I said quietly, looking back down at the man. Avian shook his head.

“I killed him,” West whispered, backing up to sit on a stump.

“You didn’t know,” I said, glancing at him. “You were trying to feed us, keep us alive.”

“He’s obviously not food,” his voice was hoarse.

Two hours later, the man whose name we didn’t even know, took his last shallow breath. Avian checked his pulse and pronounced him dead, his voice shaky and hollow. Gabriel instructed Bill and Graye to bury him on the outskirts of camp. After it was done, Gabriel, Avian, West and I gathered back in the medical tent.

“They’re getting close again,” I said as I paced the length of the tent. “Attacks don’t usually come from the east. It’s just mountains for miles and miles.”

“Graye was right,” Avian spoke. “They’re getting more and more aggressive. This man probably lived in a cabin somewhere with his family. They tracked him down. We all know what they did to the gardens a few weeks ago.”

Gabriel rubbed at his beard, deep in thought. I wanted him to say something, to tell us what to do. But I didn’t think he knew what to do though.

“We’re going to have to leave,” I spoke when he didn’t. “We have a few months of food left but it won’t be enough to last us through the winter.”

“Where would we go?” Gabriel asked. I saw something frightening in his eyes that I had never seen there before. A loss of hope.

“It would have to be south,” Avian spoke up, his eyes coming to my face.

“Exactly,” I said. “If we can get somewhere warm enough we should be able to scavenge for food until we can figure something else out. I think it would also be wise to go southwest. Heading east first will take too much time. The trucks we have might not make it very far and it could take months just to hike over the mountains, if or when they break down. By then winter will claim the rest of us.”

Gabriel nodded his head, his brain seeming to start to work again. “I agree but going west won’t be easy either. We leave now and we’ll be crossing nothing but desert in the heat of summer.”

“Do we wait?” West asked, the first he had spoken since the meeting began.

“We risk the Fallen pressing further in on us if we wait,” I pointed out.

“We risk the desert heat claiming us if we go now,” Avian said, sitting forward, resting his elbows on his knees. “Temperatures can get close to 120 degrees out that direction. Without massive amounts of water, no one would last long.”

We seemed to be at a standstill. What was the right thing to do? The safest thing?

“I say we take it to everyone,” West said. “We have to let everyone in Eden know what is happening. They have to be figuring it out for themselves anyway. Let’s let everyone decide what to do.”

“I agree,” Avian said as he sat back again.

Gabriel nodded, his eyes thoughtful. “Fine. We’ll call a meeting tonight after dinner.”

West and Gabriel exited the tent to spread the word. I stood rooted and closed my eyes. I counted backward from ten to help push out the feelings of loss and despair I didn’t know how to deal with. A warm hand slipped into mine, immediately enhancing the calm I was looking for. Without opening my eyes, I raised our hands up to my face and rubbed the back of Avian’s hand against my cheek. I could feel Avian’s eyes on my face and I realized what the emotion that was rolling off of him was. Worry.

I wanted to reassure him that everything was going to be okay. I wanted to tell him that we were all going to make it out of this. I wanted to tell him that I knew exactly what to do.

But I couldn’t do any of those things. I didn’t have any answers.

I finally opened my eyes and looked into Avian’s. Raising my other hand, I placed it on his cheek, feeling the stubble that was growing there. His eyes burned as he looked down at me and I felt a strange feeling in my chest. Almost as if it were splitting in two. I wanted to press my lips to his in that moment, to bury my face in his chest and to have him wrap his arms around me again.

But I also remembered what I had done with West, remembered Avian’s own words.

I let go of Avian’s hand and stepped outside into the dying light.

You can’t have both.

Avian was right. Even though I didn’t know how to handle feelings like this, I knew what I had been doing was wrong. I couldn’t have both. It was unfair to both of them. And it was tearing me into two people.

But how was I supposed to choose? I felt a tie to both of them, a tie so solid I wasn’t sure that even I was strong enough to sever it. On the one hand, Avian was home and made me feel secure and right. Everything felt okay when I was with Avian. But at the same time, he was still so much older than I was. And he would be tied to Eden in such a permanent way. He would never be able to go on raids with me, never be able to go hunting or on scouting duties. We would always be separated at times and there was always the risk that we might be permanently that way.

On the other hand, West had woken up something inside of me. I never felt more alive than I did when I was with West. West pushed me to be more. More human and yet more cybernetic at the same time. West could go anywhere with me. He could nearly match me step for step on scouting duties, could hunt with me.

But I still didn’t fully trust him. West kept too many secrets, had lied to me too many times. And he almost seemed to like to make me angry.

It would be so much easier if I didn’t have to make either choice. Picking neither and going back to the way I was just a few months previous would have been so much simpler. But something inside of me had changed. There was no going back now. I couldn’t live the same without them.

But how was I going to sever one of them?

I decided to pull Sarah aside after the meeting. I needed someone to talk to or I was going to explode.

Someone had to sit out and keep watch during the meeting so West had volunteered. The rest of us gathered in the center of camp. I watched them as they gathered, saw the way the lines around their eyes were tighter, the way their breathing was just slightly shallower. Everyone was on edge.

Our already slight frames were all the more skinny already.

“Thank you for coming tonight,” I was surprised when it was Avian who took control of the meeting. I glanced over at Gabriel. He sat to the side of Avian, his eyes on his hands in his lap. His face looked empty. “You are all aware of what happened a few weeks ago. I know everyone has been thinking about it but it is time we actually talked about it and what this means for our future.

“We will run out of food in the middle of the winter. We have enough for everyone for a few more months but with most all this year’s harvest gone to ash we will not make it to next spring.

“Add to that fact that the Fallen have become more aggressive. It has been deemed not possible for us to go into the cities on raids any longer. They have been pushing further and further into the country. Just today a man passed away who was on the run after his family was attacked. He came from the east. We’ve never heard of them pressing in from the mountains like that.”

Avian cleared his throat, his eyes dropping to the ground. I realized how hard this must be on him, having to be the one to finally bring this to everyone’s attention. He was strong in a way I had never realized before. He may not have been as physically tough like Bill and Graye were but he was a rock, a foundation for the rest of us.

“It has been proposed that we need to move. I agree with this. I don’t think there is any other choice. The natural resources we have will not last us for as long as we need. We’re going to have to go someplace warmer. Southwest.

“The question is when and how to move,” Avian said as he looked around at our fellow men and women. “If we leave right now we would be crossing the deserts in the hottest part of the year. And yet if we don’t leave now our supplies will become all the more depleted.

“It would be incredibly dangerous to move any way we do it. If we leave all at once it will be easier for Fallen to spot us. At the same time, there is safety in numbers. We can have our best scouts with us all at once. If we move in smaller groups it will be easier to stay hidden, to keep a low profile. At the same time, each group could have no more than one or two of our most skilled scouts. It also splits all of us. There’s the risk that we might not all ever be reunited. Without electronic devices it will be difficult to stay in contact and reconvene.

“It is up to you. We, Gabriel, Eve, and myself, won’t force any decisions on you. This affects all of us. The choice is yours.”

Everyone was silent for a long while. How was anyone supposed to make this decision? There were pros and cons to each way, there was no clear decision to make. There was great risk with either. Each carried the possibility of destruction, with being wiped out in one big group or the chance we would never be a group again, a family.

“We could go in two groups,” Graye spoke up. We were all surprised when he did, he was usually a man of few words. “If we split right down the middle, one group could go in a few weeks or so when things will start to cool slightly. We send our best scouts and Eve to clear the way. We could leave messages for the group to follow, traces the Fallen won’t pick up on. Leave a trail for each other to the new location. The last group will bring the rest of the food. We have the two trucks, if we camouflage them well enough, we should be able to bring enough supplies. At least until we run out of fuel.”

The group was quiet for a bit, mulling over Graye’s idea.

“That seems reasonable to me,” Avian finally said. “Eve? Gabriel?”

“It seems a viable option,” I answered.

Gabriel simply nodded his head. His behavior was disturbing.

“All those in favor of Graye’s plan?” Avian asked, turning his eyes over the group.

The majority of hands, including mine, went up. After a few hesitant and thoughtful seconds, the rest of them went up as well.

“It is agreed then,” Avian said with a nod. “We will make preparations. I think until then that a priority should be to hunt as much as possible and gather as many other resources as we can find. Traveling would be hard under normal circumstances, but considering the conditions we have been under these last few weeks, it will be even harder. We will need food to keep up our strength. Our survival has become all the more difficult.”

A flurry of mixed emotions was tangible as everyone left. I watched their faces as they did, Wix, Victoria, Morgan. Each of them had different thoughts behind their eyes, but there was one unifying one. We had to survive.

It wasn’t until the meeting was over that I realized Sarah had not been in attendance. I asked Avian where she was and he told me in a very hushed voice that she had not been feeling well. I didn’t miss the anxiety that seeped into his face. I had a feeling then that things weren’t getting better.

TWENTY-ONE

The beast hit the ground with a loud cry. A circle of red started forming on his neck before he was even fully down. He twitched for a few moments before the fight seeped out of him.

I slung my bow back across my shoulders and leapt down the small cliff I had been hiding on. I crouched beside the animal, checking to make sure it was fully dead. I saw my own reflection in the buck’s eye as he took his last strangled breath.

I pulled my arrow out of his neck and wiped it clean on the grass at my feet. I placed two fingers under my tongue and gave a loud whistle. Two minutes later Bill and Graye joined me. Together we started the mile journey back to Eden with the animal.

We had been hunting nonstop for the last three days. While scouting duty was as important as ever, it was now just as important to find food. We had brought back three doe’s, a few foxes and rabbits, and now this buck. The kitchen had been busy cooking, bottling, and drying the meat, others tanning the hides.

Not only would our food supplies have to last us the few weeks till the first group left, and then another month after the second group left, it would also have to last the week, maybe two, journey into the unknown. And who knew what immediate food sources would be like once we reached where we were going.

It had been brilliant on Avian’s part to put everyone to work on making preparations to leave. With everyone so busy, there was no time for anyone to sit and worry too much about the fact that we were moving, that we would be traveling so far. Everyone had a role to play. Hands were needed to forage the woods nearby, searching for berries and edible mushrooms. Others were needed to collect water in any containers we could spare.

As I walked through Eden, after I had dropped off the buck, I caught a glimpse of Gabriel. He sat at the entrance of his tent, staring out over the rest of us. He watched as the rest of us worked. He wasn’t supervising, checking to make sure everything was done right. He was just gone. He’d checked out. I hated him for his behavior.

Checking to make sure no one was watching me, I poked my head inside Avian’s tent.

Sarah had not come out of the tent since before the meeting. When I pressed Avian about it he simply told me that she was not feeling well. I did not think he was intentionally lying to me. He was lying to himself.

“Sarah?” I said quietly through the dim light. “Sarah?”

Only silence greeted me. I stepped inside, closing the flap behind me. It felt muggy inside and it was suffocatingly hot as the sun beat down above. “Sarah?” I said again as I knelt next to her cot.

A thin sheet was gathered up around her neck, damp and clinging to her skin where it touched her. Her brown curls were matted and stuck to her face. Her skin clung to her cheekbones. Her eyes were closed. They frightened me. They looked like they were sinking into her head.

“Sarah,” I called again, my voice insistent. I felt the urgent need to wake her up. Now. “Sarah,” I said again as I placed my hands on her and shook her slightly.

“Eve.” The tent was suddenly flooded with light as Avian opened the flap. “Leave her alone.” He waved me out.

“She looks like death,” I whispered as I followed him out into the light. “What is happening to her?”

Avian pursed his lips together, his eyes dropped to the ground. His hand rubbed over his short hair. I noticed he did this when he felt stressed or worried.

“She’s getting worse, isn’t she?” I asked.

It took a moment before Avian nodded his head. “She’s not having as many seizures but she’s sleeping the majority of the time. She’s woken up a total of maybe two hours in the last twenty-four. She can’t keep much of anything down.

“I don’t know what else to do for her,” he said in a hoarse whisper. “Maybe if I were an actual doctor…”

“Hey,” I cut him off, giving him a sharp look. “Don’t talk like that. You’re an amazing doctor. Sometimes nature just can’t be fought.” I felt sick saying it but the need to make Avian think straight was more important.

He nodded his head, his eyes still on the ground.

“There’s West,” I said as I looked back toward the center of camp. “Come on. We’re supposed to meet again.”

Avian, West, Bill, and I all sat around the long dining table and smoothed the plans we had written out over its rough surface.

“If the scouts continue at the rate you have been going, we should gain at least a few more weeks worth of food supplies, maybe even another month,” Avian took control of the meeting again. It bothered me that he had not even asked Gabriel to join us. He knew as well as I did though, that it was pointless. Gabriel was gone for the time being. “We need a few more things that we’re going to have to go look for. We need more water containers. We’ll go through what we have quickly.

“We’re also going to need a way to transport a large amount of people. The supplies we will have to haul will fill the beds of the trucks. Bill, the trailer you and Graye brought back from the city will work. I’m hoping we can fix up the old one that was found rusting away by the lake.  I’ve already got a few people working it.

“We also need a way to communicate with the second group. A way to leave signs the Fallen will not notice. Any ideas?”

No one jumped right away. “Think about it for a while, let us know if you come up with any ideas.

“The other issue. It will be invaluable if we can take the trucks with us the entire way. We’re going to have to look for gas stations, as far on the outskirts of towns we can find. We also run the risk that any fuel that will be left will have gone bad. It’s been nearly six years since any new fuel was brought in. It may very well destroy the engines if we put it in.”

“We don’t exactly have any other choice though, do we,” West piped in.

“Exactly,” Avian said as he looked up at West. “Bill has maps, we’ll carefully plan our route, try to avoid any Fallen, any big city areas.”

With this, Bill reached into his pack and pulled out a book that must have weighed a good ten pounds. He flipped it open somewhere near the middle and started scanning through pages.

“Where did you get that?” I asked, my eyes growing wide. I had only ever seen a map once before.

“Got it from a man who didn’t need it anymore,” he said, not looking up from the map. I knew what that meant. He’d taken it from a dead man.

“This is where we’re at,” Bill said as he pointed to a place on the map. As I studied it, I recognized the shape of the lake, the terrain of the mountains. “This is the closest city,” he drug his finger over the page. “We should find somewhere to get fuel on the outskirts here. It’s a small city so there is a chance there won’t even be any Hunters. They tend to flock to the larger ones. We could get out of there scott-free.”

“What about the groups?” I asked as I looked up at the faces around me. “Who is going to go when?”

Avian didn’t answer right away as he took all of us in, gauging the abilities of each of us. “Obviously you have to go in the first group, just in case we run into any problems with Fallen.” I nodded in agreement. It was a relief to not have him try and shelter me unnecessarily again. “I’m also going with the first group.”

“What about the rest of them?” I immediately protested. “What if they need you?”

“And what if the first group needs me?” he said as he looked at me sharply. “I can’t clone myself, Eve. I can’t be in both places.  I’ll ask for a volunteer and train them in every way I can. There’s no other choice. I think it’s clear that the first group will be in the most danger, will be at the most risk. That’s where I feel I need to be.”

I heard the other implications in his voice from his last words. He also wanted to be there to watch me. Protect me, when it was I who was more capable of protecting him.

“If Eve is going with the first group, it would probably be best if Graye and myself went with the second group, to even things out more,” Bill said. “Gabriel can also go with us, since you’re going with the first group.” I was sure the same thing was running through everyone’s head: if Gabriel would ever be useful again

“That’s a good idea,” Avian nodded in agreement. “I suppose you can pick which group you want to go with,” he said to West, his jaw suddenly tightening up.

“I’m going in the first group,” he said without any hesitation. His eyes flicked up to mine. My stomach did a strange leap.

“Fine,” Avian said. “We’ll let the rest of Eden decide when they want to go, with some monitoring to make sure things are even.”

We disbanded with plans to scout for water containers and a time later that evening to meet with everyone in Eden to layout the plans. It was then that something occurred to me. If Avian was going with the first group, Sarah would have to come with us as well. From what I had just seen, I didn’t see any way she would be able to move. I didn’t think she would even be able to walk out of her own tent, much less survive the thousand miles or more that were ahead of us.

It was decided in which groups people would leave. Avian and Bill had monitored and made sure things would be even, that there was no one group that would be bigger than the other, that one group would not be left without someone to make sure everyone stayed fed or protected.

Something settled over Eden as our futures were laid out before us. Things were becoming more real, solid and tangible. People were starting to realize that this was actually going to happen. We were going to have to leave the place we had all called home. This had been their safe haven, the place they had fled the world to. And now we were leaving it behind.

The next morning, birds chirped annoyingly loud as I padded silently through the undergrowth. They were complaining about the heat as well. My eyes watched the lay of the land, images flashing through my mind.

As I stepped away from the trees I knew I had been going in the right direction. I was back at the cabin.

It felt like I was walking into a foreign land as I cautiously stepped through the front doors. The walls that surrounded me felt like a trap and I was the animal. I fought the urge to get back out into the open air. I felt half blind being in here.

The groan of floorboards sounded from one of the back rooms and I quickly crouched behind the dusty couch, my handgun held firmly in my clammy hands. As I heard steps approaching, I poked my head out from behind the couch. My eyes met a pair of worn brown boots.

“What are you doing here?” I said as I stood. The barrel of West’s shotgun was immediately pointed at my chest.

“Geeze, Eve!” he snapped as he jumped. He immediately lowered the gun. “I could have shot you! I don’t think even you could recover from a blow like that.”

“Probably not,” I mused, my eyes scanning my surroundings again. “How do you know about this place?”

“I scouted it out, same as you,” he said as he headed back to the other room. “I’m assuming this is the house you found all the food at?”

“Um hum,” I mumbled as I followed him. The room held two large white boxes that were hard sided and nearly as large as me. It also contained a sink, a few cupboards, and a small counter space. West opened the cupboards and my eyes grew wide as I recognized the round white bottles he started pulling out.

“Bleach,” I breathed. “I didn’t see it when I was here last. And look at those, they’ll be perfect for storing water,” I said as I spotted some empty plastic containers on the top shelf.

“Here,” West said as he pulled a length of rope out of his pack. “Tie them on for me.”

The containers secured to West’s pack, we searched the rest of the house for more but didn’t find anything useful. We headed outside and started pacing the perimeter.

“Look at these,” I said as four blue barrels that were nearly the same size as me came into view.

“Catchment containers,” West said, his voice hitching up a notch in excitement. “See that pipe that leads into the top of this one?” he said as his finger traced the line that ran along the roof line and dropped into the first barrel. “These one’s here connect them, it’s set up as a big containment unit but they would work individually. They’d hold probably 200 gallons between all of them.”

“They’re nearly empty,” I said as I knocked on the side of one. “We could each take one back with us tonight, bring the rest tomorrow. It’s nearly time to head back anyway.”

We got the catchment system unhooked and drained the rest of the dank smelling water out of them. It was then that I realized just how long it had been since it had rained.

It wasn’t easy maneuvering the barrels through the woods as we rolled them but it was worth every push. This was exactly what we needed.

The silence hung heavy over us as we moved, discomfort growing by the minute. I felt like I had two pieces of me inside regarding West. One part of me was constantly infuriated at the way he reacted to everything, the things he said, the way he looked at me. The other side wanted me to constantly move closer, to let him wake up the all too human side of me. Right then I wasn’t sure which Eve I was.

“Did you really mean it when you said that you couldn’t be around me?” West graciously broke the silence for me. I instantly knew what he was talking about and I wished for the silence back.

“Yes,” I answered simply as I maneuvered my barrel around a boulder.

“Then what was the other night about? Up on the watchtower?” he pressed as he followed behind me.

“A moment of human weakness,” I responded. I knew it was too harsh but I also knew West wasn’t fragile.

We were quiet for a while as we continued back toward Eden. “What is it that you want from me, Eve? What am I to you?”

I stopped short and turned my eyes on him. “Nothing. I don’t want anything from you. You’re my fellow soldier in his impossible war. What… what do you mean?”

“What went through your head when you suddenly pulled away that night?” he asked quietly.

I froze, recalling how I had seen Avian’s face. Part of me was human enough to try and not hurt West with that fact though. “What did you mean that night? You said you hated the way I looked at Avian? How do I look at him?” My insides felt like they were running in a circle at a stumbling sprint all the sudden.

West looked back at me, his eyes hard to read. He stuffed his hands in his pockets, his eyes dropping to the ground for a moment. “You have no idea what you want, do you?”

“What are you talking about?” I demanded, feeling frustrated. “The only thing I want is to survive, to have Eden survive.”

“No Eve,” he said as his eyes hardened as he shook his head once. “That’s not the only thing you want and you don’t even know it. You don’t think that I don’t see what is happening to you? I know you feel something when we’re together, that you crave more of it. If you didn’t it wouldn’t keep happening. But then there’s Avian. When you are around him, you’re different. You’re… yourself. You can’t stay away from him, unlike me, even when you’re furious with him.

“You want us both. And you don’t even know it,” he said more quietly. “But you also need to realize that you can’t have both.”

“I know that,” I whispered as I looked away from West and started pushing my barrel again.

“He’s too old for you, you know that,” West said from behind me as he started pushing his barrel again. “It’s not normal.”

“And I’m a child?” I shot back.

“No, but you’re not a woman either. Avian should be with someone more like Victoria. He should be thinking about a family, of moving on with his life. You’re not ready for that are you?”

“And are you saying you’re better suited for me?” I said as I kept my eyes fixed before me.

“I don’t know. I’m not sure I’ll ever know until you know what you want.”

And that stuck in my mind the entire journey home. For once someone was giving me the option to think about what I wanted. Not what was needed or required, but what I wanted. I wasn’t sure I’d ever really wanted anything before. But it was then that I realized that I did want something. I just didn’t know what.

TWENTY-TWO

Everyone was ecstatic when we brought the barrels back and I sensed a small feeling of pride that I was part of the team that had brought them back. I found myself seeking Avian out to report the good news.

I heard his voice floating out from the open aired medical tent. Another voice joined his and they burst into a chorus of laughter. I slowed my approach, stepping behind a tent to conceal myself.

Avian stood next to Victoria, pointing to something in a book. He looked up at her and I watched as his eyes trailed over her red curls. I saw the light that danced in his eyes. His shoulder brushed against hers as he reached across the table for a gauze wrap. She held out her hand as he demonstrated his technique for stopping blood flow.

Victoria had volunteered to be Avian’s apprentice. They had been spending a lot of time together the last few days.

I swallowed hard as I turned and walked the other way. Did the light shine in Avian’s eyes when he looked at me? I had never noticed. Had he ever laughed with me the way he just had with Victoria?

West’s statement that Avian was in a different place in his life than I was reverberated in my brain. Had he been right? Was Avian too old for me? I didn’t feel young and I had never seen Avian as that much different than myself but the numbers were there. Did they matter?

Maybe he should be with someone like Victoria. Maybe he should have a family, have a son like Brady.

But could I handle seeing him with someone who wasn’t me? I’d never had to face that thought before. It made my stomach turn in a way I wasn’t familiar with.

The light burned away with the blazing heat of the day, a violent colored sky painted above our heads. Dinner was quiet as we quickly ate our small portions and set about our evening activities. Fires were built as the last of the day’s light faded away. I stood on the edge of the lake against the tree line, just watching.

Morgan, the woman who took care of our horse, walked to her husband Eli, placed a kiss on his forehead as she sat beside him. Gabriel wandered out of his tent, joining his wife Leah at the dining table where she talked to a few other women. Under the table he rested his hand on her knee, a brief moment of affection flashing in their eyes as they looked at each other.

Was that what love was? Brief touches and physical assurances of another’s presence? Or was it what that touch made you feel inside? Was it the impression that it left inside of you and stayed with you for as long as you would remember?

Would I ever understand what that word meant?

My stomach felt tight as I noticed the lack of Avian’s presence. He and Victoria had made a brief appearance at dinner before disappearing back into the lamp lit medical tent. Brady scampered around with Wix, laughing at the jokes his apparent babysitter made. The two of them had been spending a lot of time together with Victoria being so preoccupied with Avian.

My eyes found a lone figure, sitting hunched against the light of a small fire. My feet were moving toward it without my head thinking about it.

I sat on the log next to West, close enough my shoulder brushed his as I settled. He glanced over at me briefly. He held a long stick in his hands, stirring the coals that fell of the larger logs.

“Tell me about where you came from West,” I said as my eyes fixed on the flames.  Something inside of me felt hollow and I craved something to fill it back in.  “What happened after the infection? How did you come into my life after I left yours?”

He stared into the coals and I could envision the images that flashed before his eyes. But what things had he seen that I couldn’t imagine?

“My father Fell first,” he said, his voice low and rough. “It wasn’t any surprise I guess, working and operating on them like he did. He Fell in the second week of the spread. I was kept in solitary when my grandfather realized what has happening. I was locked away in our apartment by myself for two whole weeks.

“A few men broke in through the locked door,” West said as he shifted positions, resting his forearms on his knees. “They were wearing biohazard suits. As if that would have stopped the infection. They said that my grandfather had been infected but that he had told them to come and get me and transport me away. I grabbed my grandfather’s notebook before I was shoved out the door. They took me and a few others to a van and then we just drove. For days.”

I tried to bring up the images that I knew must be in my brain. Somewhere inside there must have been a record of this facility, of the scientists faces, of West’s. But there was nothing.

“I slept most of the drive but I could tell we were a long way from home. Finally, we were let out at a camp. It was very different than this one,” he said with his jaw suddenly stiff. “That camp was filled mostly with military personnel and government officials. I was the only teenager there.

“Everyone had a duty to perform. I suppose like here, but there it was your only reason for existing. They all knew who I was, who my family was. They never said it but they hated me for it. I scrubbed the dishes three times a day till my hands were raw and bleeding. For three years.”

The heat of the day finally gave way to the mercy of the night. A breeze picked up, ruffling my tied-back hair. My eyes ascended to the star dusted sky, resting on the moon as it shone with furious intensity.

“I couldn’t take it anymore,” West continued. “I gathered provisions and just left. I headed northeast, not really sure where I was going, but thinking that even getting infected was almost better than being treated the way I had been.”

I looked over at West with hard eyes. How could real life ever be worse than getting infected? What had they done to him for him to say that?

“I spent probably close to a month traveling on my own. I didn’t see another soul, not a single infected. It nearly drove me mad, being alone like that.

“And then I met two men who had been out hunting. They took what little food I had and brought me back to their camp. There were twenty or so of them. They were survivors but they weren’t a family like here. It was every man for himself first, help your fellow man stay alive second.

“But they knew how to survive. They taught me how to hunt, to survive in the woods. I owe them a lot I guess. They could have just killed me on sight out wandering in the woods,” he glanced over at me with awkward hints of a smile. I saw scars behind that smile. He dodged away from my probing stare back down at the fire.

“It was there that Victoria found us. She was beaten and could barely stand. She had Brady with her, not even able to walk yet. Brady had to grow up in the middle of that group. No child should ever have to learn to live in that setting.

“The group was out on a scouting duty, different from how we do it here. We were sent out in groups, all of us, to collect any food we could find and bring it back. Victoria and Brady were in my group, along with another man. That’s when the raid happened. We heard the blast, even from a few miles away. Our camp was gone. Soon we heard the helicopters and we knew the others were gone too.

“The man who was with us, he heard something coming up on us. He told me to take Victoria and Brady and run. He went back to keep them off our trail.”

West was quiet after that, his eyes resting in the dirt at our feet. I knew the fate of the man who had saved them.

I realized then that life had never been easy for West. In a way he had been shunned his entire life. When he was a child, he had been shut out because of the fact that he was one. And then because everyone had known who he was. I couldn’t blame him for keeping his knowledge and information to himself.

The next morning we both had scouting duty, which meant hunting. Animals were becoming scarce as we brought down more and more of them. The sun blazed overhead, sweat dripped down our backs, and we kept our pace slow and steady.

West walked a few paces ahead of me and I watched him as he moved. He didn’t have the grace and agility that Avian moved with. West was a good two inches shorter as well. But West had a confidence about him that Avian didn’t. He was a self-involved person without being selfish. I wasn’t sure how to describe it but it was almost as if everything in his world was right there with him, contained in his head.

What was it that I felt for West? He could send sparks through me, make my pulse race. He evoked strong emotions in me, not always good ones.

Was that love?

I wished someone could fully explain it to me. I felt lost in this on my own.

I silently caught pace with West and slipped my hand into his. He gave a small glance down at our hands, the faintest hint of a smile cracking on his lips, and turned his attention back to the forest around us.

West’s hand felt warm in mine, his calloused skin rubbing mine. It was a steadying gesture almost, like there was a confidence attached to it that West would always keep me away from danger, even though I could protect myself.

But it didn’t bring on the sense of absolute belonging and comfort that Avian’s hand brought.

The following morning, I pulled West to a stop at the foot of a gigantic evergreen. I looked into his earth-colored eyes, looking for the answers I was desperate for. Was this love between us? A place inside of me hungered for him, wanted him in a selfish way and I listened without hesitation. His lips greeted mine.

Was this burning in my chest love? This overwhelming desire for more, that felt like it would consume me from the inside out?

That night I stayed silent as I crept to the medical tent. Its flaps were tied back again even though today had been much cooler. Avian and Victoria were inside, slowly eating as they sat side by side. They talked quietly in easy conversation, no awkward or tense silences between them.

They looked… happy.

I walked away, an uncomfortable feeling in the pit of my stomach. Was this what it felt like to be sick?

I didn’t even realize where I was going until I was at Sarah and Avian’s tent. A lamp softly glowed from within and I pushed aside the flap.

To my amazement, Sarah was propped up slightly, a plate of food in her lap. It was double portions to what the rest of us had been getting.

“You’re alive,” I said. I had had doubts if I would find her to be so.

She gave me a weak smile and a glare as she forked some canned carrots into her mouth.

“I’ve been worried,” I said as I sat down on Avian’s cot across from her. “How are you feeling?”

“I’ve been better,” she said. Her voice sounded terrible.

I stared at Sarah while she ate. She was nothing more than a skeleton now, her skin too loose on her frame. Her hair was a matted mess and truthfully, she smelled off.

“What is the matter, Eve?” Sarah said as she finished the last of her dinner and set her plate down on the bed. “Something is bothering you.”

My eyes stared at nothing as I tried to collect my thoughts. She was right, something was wrong, but I didn’t know where to start. It felt like everything was wrong.

“Does it have something to do with West?” she prompted.

I nodded, my eyes dropping to my hands in my lap. “I’m very confused,” I started. “I don’t understand what it is that I feel for him. I know I feel something I just don’t know what to do with it.”

“Is it bad that you feel something?”

I paused, evaluating her question. “I can’t have both,” I finally said quietly.

“Ah,” she said as she folded her legs and rested her hands between them. “Cause then there’s Avian, huh?”

I gave a slight nod, still not looking up. “Is he in love with Victoria?” I suddenly blurted.

“Victoria?” Sarah sounded startled. “Have they been spending time together?”

“Quite a bit,” I said quietly. “He has been training her.”

Sarah watched my face for a moment. “You’re jealous,” she half whispered.

“Jealous?”

“You don’t like him spending time with her, do you?” she said with the tiniest hint of a smile.

“No,” I said with a relieved sigh before I could think to be more tactful. It was strange that it felt like a relief to realize what I felt in that aspect.

“Do you know what you feel for Avian?” she asked, her voice soft and kind.

I bit my lower lip and shook my head. “I wish I did.”

“How does Avian make you feel?” she asked.

I looked up into Sarah’s eyes. How did Avian make me feel?

“Avian is home,” I finally said, feeling like my chest was swelling. “He makes me feel safe, even though I can keep myself safe. He makes me feel normal, like I’m me. He knows me. He matters, far more than he should to me.”

“And how does West make you feel?”

“Alive, I guess,” I said, an almost frustrated sigh escaping out of my chest. “I feel like I grow when I’m with him but not always in a good way. He pushes me to be more human but then he also brings out the Fallen in me.”

Sarah looked at me, silent with contemplation. I suddenly hoped almost violently that she was thinking of the answers to give me. If only she could lay things out clearly, tell me exactly the things I needed to know.

“I don’t know which one is going to be right for you. You are going to have to learn that for yourself. But I think there is going to be a time that eventually comes when you’re going to realize it in an instant and there’s going to be no question in your mind.”

“Can’t that be right now?” I said wistfully.

She chuckled, shaking her head slightly. That brought on a round of coughing. I helped her lay down and tucked her blankets up under her chin.

“I’d better go. Got to keep prepping for the trek,” I said as I moved to the flap of the tent.

“Trek?” she questioned as she looked after me, her brow furrowing.

I was about to blurt when I suddenly stopped myself. “Never mind,” I said. “Just get some rest.”

Sarah only nodded, too tired to question me further. She rolled to her side and was almost immediately asleep.

I stepped out of the tent and started for my own. I wasn’t even halfway there when a figure moved toward me in the darkness. I was familiar enough with his gait to know it was Avian.

“Hi,” I said, my voice rising in pitch a bit as I stopped a little too suddenly.

“Hi,” he breathed as he stopped just a few feet from me. We stood there in momentary awkward silence. I wanted to walk away, I didn’t want to be around Avian just then for a reason I didn’t understand. But at the same time I didn’t think I could walk away. I was so relieved to see him, to have him notice me.

“How is the training going?” I asked, taking a hard swallow.

“Very well,” he said, his eyes nearly glowing in the moonlight. “Victoria catches on quickly.”

I took another swallow, only able to nod my head.

Again that strange magnetic pull to Avian kicked in and I fought with everything I had to not throw my arms around his shoulders and press my cheek into his chest.

“You haven’t told Sarah we’re leaving,” I said instead.

“No,” he said simply, his voice catching in his throat.

It felt as if my insides had hardened and I could only nod my head again. My eyes dropped to the dirt at our feet and my arms wrapped around my midsection.

Avian placed his warm hand on my cheek and I squeezed my eyes closed as relief flooded my system. I craved more though.

“Things are going to be okay,” he whispered.

My eyes rose to meet his. “I don’t see how,” I quietly said back.

“Somehow they will be,” his eyes burned as he stared back at me.

There were a million things I wanted to say to Avian in that moment. I wanted to tell him that I wanted to know it was him that I wanted. I wanted to tell him that I didn’t want to be alone tonight. I wanted to tell him that in a way I wished it was just him and I that were leaving to go into the unknown.

But how could I say those things when I didn’t even know if he felt the same way anymore?

“Good-night, Avian,” I said quietly as I took a step away from him.

“Good-night, Eve,” he whispered back, his burning eyes following me as I walked away into the dark.

Graye had taken over two of my night watches and I now felt lost at nights. It was difficult for me to sleep at nights now that I had changed my schedule for so long. I wandered the perimeter, feeling restless and idle. If only my vision was better at night.  I could be hunting or scouting, or something.

Maybe then I could outrun these feelings I didn’t want to be dealing with.

I didn’t even think to stop myself before I was standing at the entrance of West’s tent.  I couldn’t make myself go inside.  I could only stand there, feeling like I was being torn in two.

The flap was pushed aside and a half-asleep West poked his head out.  “Eve? What are you doing?”

I shook my head. “I’m not really sure.”

“Well don’t just stand there. That’s really creepy,” he said quietly. “You want to come in?”

I hesitated, hating myself at the moment. Had I ever felt hate before? Towards anything other than the Fallen? But I hated what I was doing. I wasn’t sure how to stop myself. “Yes.”

I stepped in, diverting my eyes when I realized West was not wearing a shirt.

“Sorry,” he said when he noticed I couldn’t look at him. He started pulling a shirt on. “It’s hot tonight.”

“We’ll be experiencing even hotter next week,” I said as I looked around the tent for a place to sit. There was nowhere but his bed.

“Next week,” he said as he rubbed a hand over his eyes. “Wow. It hasn’t quite hit me yet.”

I stood there, staring at West, fighting with the emotions I felt inside. I wanted to feel the fire again, to push and see how far I could go till I burned to ash. And yet something inside of me felt that was wrong. Being with someone wasn’t just about feeling the blaze. There were other things you were supposed to feel as well.

“Can I stay with you tonight? Will you just…” I hesitated. “Hold me?”

He looked at me for a moment, a million different things running through his head. “Of course,” he answered, his voice hesitant.

West lay back on his cot and I folded myself into his chest, his warmth immediately seeping into my skin. He wrapped his arms around me and I was surrounded by his scent. I pressed my cheek into his chest, listening for his heartbeat. Exactly the same but yet so different from Avian’s.

“Are you okay?” he whispered into my ear.

I shook my head. “No. But I hope someday I will be.”

TWENTY-THREE

Two days later, the flap of my tent was opened in the dead of night. Avian stepped inside, his face grave and illuminated by the lantern in his hand.

“Can you come with me?” he asked. I had never heard his voice sound so rough. I then noticed the red rim around his eyes. I nodded once and followed him through the dark without a word.

Somehow I knew we were going to his tent before I had even left mine. The darkness felt heavy and cold, despite the summer heat. My hands felt clammy and my insides hollow.

We stepped inside and I felt myself freeze up in despair.

Sarah lay on her cot, her eyes closed, rimmed with a frightening shade of red. Her face was covered with a sheen of sweat and her entire frame trembled slightly. Her breathing came in terrifying gasps.

“She’s been unconscious for more than twenty-four hours,” Avian said, his voice sounding as if it were being dragged over rocks. “I can’t wake her up.”

I knelt at her side, pushing the hair back from her face. Her chest twitched violently as her body fought for air.

“Sarah?” I said quietly, taking one of her bony hands in mine. “Sarah?” I said again, my lips pressed into her clammy skin.

Avian sank to his cot, resting his face in his hands. In a few moments his shoulders started to shake as the tears consumed him.

I knew then why Avian had asked me to come. He had wanted me to be able to say good-bye.

I closed my eyes as I pressed my lips to her hand again. Every time Sarah had gathered me up in her arms, every encouraging word she had spoken to me as a young teenager reverberated in my mind. Flashes of her smiling face swam through my head. I recalled all the squabbles she and Avian had gotten into, remembered all the days they wouldn’t talk to each other afterwards, and then the awkward apologies that followed.

West, Bill, or even Gabriel might say that I had never had a mother, never known a sister. But he was wrong. I’d had Sarah. She was better than both.

“I’ll always miss you,” I whispered, surprised at how rough my voice sounded. Avian’s sobs became all the louder as he heard my words. “I will always remember you. I don’t know that I would have turned out as human if it wasn’t for you. You gave me a family when I didn’t have one.

“Thank you for everything, Sarah.”

Avian gave a heart-wrenching cry, his shoulders shaking violently. In that moment I had to push out his pain and stay with my best friend. These were our final moments together.

The sound of Sarah’s labored breathing became all the more terrifying over the next hour. Her skin started turning a grey purple and her hands grew cold. I squeezed her hand all the tighter.

Just before dawn, Sarah’s body was finally still.

We buried Sarah by the lake. Bill and Graye had found a perfectly smooth salmon colored rock and had somehow managed to carve her name into its surface. Gabriel snapped out of his stupor just enough to speak, to give honor and remembrance to her name. Avian hadn’t said a word since he had come to get me the night Sarah died. I held his trembling frame for two whole days after.

TWENTY-FOUR

I rolled the blue barrel up the ramp and it settled at the front of the truck bed with a small sloshing sound. I hopped down and West helped me roll the next one in. The rest of the first group started packing in the rest of the water, then loaded the supplies and our food stores.

The boxes I grabbed rattled as I picked them up and I suddenly realized just how valuable all of our ammunition had become. We couldn’t grow ammunition, we couldn’t scavenge it out of the woods. Ammunition had to be found in civilization and it had become nearly impossible to go into the cities. We were going to have to be even more careful than ever.

Sarah’s death seemed to have woken something back up in Gabriel. I had talked to Avian about it. He’d explained that more than likely, Gabriel had just snapped. He’d been trying to keep everyone alive for so long and finally, after recent events, he just couldn’t take anymore. But he was back to his old self, taking charge and making sure things were taken care of. It was he that had come up with our future means of leaving messages, just twelve hours before we were to leave.

“What are the Fallen?” Gabriel asked one day.

“The Fallen?” I asked, confused at his question.

Gabriel nodded. “The Fallen. What are they?”

“Robots.” West said. I hadn’t heard him approach us and jumped at his voice.

Gabriel nodded again, bending down to pick up a rock. “And what are they made of. What makes them tick?”

“Metal.” I said, watching him pass the rock from hand to hand. “Nanites. Pulses and currents. I don’t get what you are…”

“Exactly.” Gabriel interrupted. “They aren’t organic. Not anymore. They don’t see the world. Fallen don’t notice nature. The cybernetics in them only seek out human tissue, to spread itself. We’ll use nature to hide our messages.” He crouched to the ground, gathering stones that had any size to them. Carefully, he started stacking them, one on top of the other. “The Fallen won’t notice them. They will just see the rocks. But we, Eden, we will see the messages. They’re called cairns.”

“We could leave notes at the bases of them,” West said, his voice excited as he observed Gabriel’s work. “The things we’ve found, any warnings. If we place them under the stones the Fallen will never see them.”

“Exactly,” Gabriel said, his smile disappearing into his beard. “My wife has been copying the maps as exactly as she can for the last few weeks so we can leave locations. We run a smaller risk that we will be permanently separated that way. Pick a destination in the direction we are headed and let us know. We have our general direction but there is going to have to be room for change. Who knows what we’re walking in to.”

The work on the trailers was completed that night. The one that had been rusting away for years, left abandoned, was the one that the first group would take. The second one that Bill and Graye had brought back from the city would transport the second group.  And if either of them failed to function, we always had our legs.

On our last night in Eden we feasted. At least a starvation feast. Food never tasted so wonderful as I helped myself to two rolls, a heaping scoop of canned corn and a baked potato. The thought to share my portions with Sarah flashed through my mind. Then I remembered.

I glanced down the table at Avian who sat talking hurriedly with Victoria, pointing at something in the book that was laid on the table before them. Not that it truly mattered, but her status and usability in Eden would be greatly increased if we ever all actually made it south. She was going from seamstress to the other doctor.

The thought that that would free up Avian crossed my mind and the smallest of a smile tugged at my lips.

West sat next to me, wolfing down his food faster than he could chew it. I chuckled, shaking my head at him.

“What?” he said around a mouthful of bread. “I’m starving!”

“I know,” I said with a chuckle again.

“You going to finish yours?” he said, eying the remains on my plate.

“Yes,” I said as I raised my eyebrows at him. “I intend to finish every bite.”

He chuckled then. Underneath the table he gave my knee a small squeeze. My flesh tingled when he took his hand away.

We finished packing most everything that night. The members of the second group had to open their tents up to those in the first since everything had been loaded into the truck. I was glad I had watch duty that night; I wouldn’t have known how to handle that awkward situation.

I looked out over the tents that night. I realized that this place we were staying wasn’t Eden. Eden was wherever these people were, Eden was them. In this hellish world we had created our own utopia. I wondered if there were any other places like this that existed. It didn’t sound like it from what I had heard others say. How had I been so lucky to have come here?

Sarah wouldn’t have called it luck. To her it would have been fate. Maybe it was.

But Eden would be breaking up in the morning. Would it ever be fully put back together again? What were our numbers going to be like if it did? Who would be lost along the way?

I felt immensely relieved that we would finally be leaving. The event had loomed over us like a lightning cloud. We were all just waiting for it to strike. It would be nice to finally get it over with.

I made a resolution that night. By the time we reached our new location, if we reached it, I would have to have made my choice. Avian or West. I would pick or I wouldn’t let myself have either of them. We couldn’t continue like this. I couldn’t live with myself going on the way I was. And I didn’t even know if Avian still felt the same way.

By dawn, Eden was teaming with life. I wondered how much sleep anyone had even gotten. I wouldn’t have been able to sleep. Nerves were obviously running high.

People said hurried good-bye’s, giving hugs, tears pooling in their eyes. I realized then that they knew this could be a permanent good-bye. My chest hardened as I watched Avian talking to Victoria again, gave her a slightly longer than necessary (in my opinion) hug good-bye.

Bill and Graye walked up to me and to my surprise, a pang formed in my chest. These two had been my team. We were part of the elite, the best. In a way they had been my brothers.

For some reason I wasn’t all that surprised when Bill wrapped his arms around me and pulled me into a hug. “Be careful out there,” he said quietly before he released me.

I gave him a small smile. I looked over at Graye and he could only give me a tight lipped smile and a nod of agreement. I didn’t expect to get a hug from him. Graye wasn’t one to hug. “Just remember that they can still blow you up,” he said with a smirk.

“Thanks,” I said with a chuckle as I shook my head. “You two be careful, too. You’re smart, you know how to survive. Just keep doing what you’ve been doing.”

“Promise,” Bill said, his cool gray eyes on me.

I walked back to the truck, joining Avian and West. “Everything ready?” I asked, feeling both anxious and reluctant to leave.

“I believe so,” Avian said as he hoisted his bag of half the medical supplies into the back of the truck. We couldn’t fit much more in it.

Gabriel walked up to us, his hands stuffed into his pockets. His lips were invisible in his beard as he pressed them tightly together.

“We’ll reach the first destination this evening,” Avian said as he turned to Gabriel. “We’ll leave the marker with any notes on what we encounter today.”

Gabriel nodded. “I wanted to thank you,” he said, his voice suddenly rough sounding. “For keeping things going when I snapped. It was selfish of me.”

Avian pressed his lips together and nodded. “No one can really blame you.”

Gabriel extended his hand and Avian gave it a tight shake. He then shook West and I’s hands as well. “Be safe,” he said. “We have to keep Eden alive. We may be all that’s left out there.”

Final good-byes were said and all the members of our first group loaded onto the trailer and into the truck. A man I did not know very well had volunteered to drive. He had only been a member of Eden for a short time. I believed his name was Tuck. Morgan climbed into the front cab with him and so did another woman by the name of Bea. The other fourteen of us got to ride the bumpy thousand miles on the trailer.

The members of the second group gathered around as Tuck started the truck to life. As he pulled away they waved, tears falling down half their faces.

Would we ever see any of them again?

The first hour was slow going as we made our way through the forest over uneven ground. We had worked hard to keep ourselves hidden so that we couldn’t be found by any still-remaining marauders or Fallen. We each had to hold onto the short railing that lined the edge of the trailer to keep from being bucked off.

No one said anything for the first few hours but we all knew what the other was thinking. There was uncertainty and fear about traveling into the unknown. There was the very real possibility that this truck wouldn’t continue to run for more than another mile. Or it could break down in the middle of the desert, only half way to our destination. Helicopters could buzz over our heads at any time, reign down on us with dozens of Fallen and infect them all.

There were endless horrible ways for us to die on this journey.

But it was death by starvation or infection for sure if we stayed.

We jarred over a rough patch, everyone jerking violently to the right. “Careful!” I was surprised when Avian shouted to Tuck.

“I’m sorry,” he called. “I don’t see a clearer path.”

Avian said something under his breath as he turned his eyes forward.

“You okay?” I asked quietly. I suddenly felt all too open to everyone. There wouldn’t be too much privacy for the next week or so.

Avian shook his head, his eyes darting to the cab of the truck. “Morgan’s pregnant,” he whispered.

“Pregnant?” I repeated. I glanced at the back of her head through the window. It explained why she was sitting up there.

Avian nodded. “Sharp, rough movement like that isn’t very good for the baby.”

“Should she be coming with us if she is carrying a child?” I asked. Suddenly this journey seemed all the more perilous.

“I thought it would be safer. Victoria would be able to stitch a wound or anything basic but her training is limited. Not that I know that much about taking care of a pregnant woman but I thought it would be better. She’s not that far along anyway. She should be just fine.”

I glanced at Morgan’s husband, Eli, saw that he was watching us. I thought I was supposed to say congratulations or something but it didn’t seem like something you could say anymore. This wasn’t a happy world to be bringing a baby into. Our world wasn’t a good place for children.

After two hours the truck pulled to a stop and Tuck poked his head out the window to look back at us. “This is going to get really rough and I’m going to have to go really slow. I think it would be best if everyone got off and walked for a bit.”

Without another word, everyone hopped off and we started the slow journey down the rocky face of the mountain on foot.

As we moved I watched people, gauging their ability, strength, and skills. A few of them moved carefully, watching their step as they moved over the rocks. Others had more confidence, some of them more practiced from helping with scouting.

And at the front of them, walking to the side of the truck was Avian. He held a shotgun tight in his hands, his eyes scanning the trees and sky before us. I couldn’t recall ever seeing Avian with a gun. But his hands were perfectly positioned, his frame aware of everything around him. His shoulders were set tight, his knees bent slightly, ready to run or fight at any second.

I had never seen the soldier side of Avian before.

I then had a vision of Avian in a camouflage uniform, a gun in his hands, running through a bomb blasted field. I had forgotten that Avian had been in the Army when the world had started to fall apart.

Avian was probably better trained than I was to survive in our new world.

It’s curious how a person’s value is placed. We needed soldiers. We needed people who could protect us, who knew what they were doing. But we had also needed someone who could take care of us, stitch us back together. Even with the limited amount of training Avian had, he was more valuable to us as a make-do doctor than as the best trained soldier we had.

Remembering this made the pull inside my chest all the stronger.

“So what do you think it will be like?” West’s voice jarred me back to my senses. “When we get to our new location?”

“Uh,” I stuttered, trying to refocus my attention from Avian to West. “Warm? I don’t know.”

He chuckled, adjusting his grip on his rifle. “I hope wherever we end up it’s near the ocean. I remember as a kid going to the ocean with my father a few times.”

“What was it like?” I asked. The ocean. It was a term I barely understood.

“Big,” he breathed. “It never ended. It was really beautiful. And scary.”

“How could a body of water be scary?” I said, my voice mocking.

“All that water is a lot bigger than you,” he said as he glanced over at me. “You think you could control the violence of the ocean?”

I was quiet after that, trying to imagine what the ocean would look like. It was hard to imagine it as a threat. “I’d like to see the ocean someday.”

West looked over at me with another smile, bumping his shoulder against mine.

For the briefest moment, it felt like my heart jumped into my throat. But the strange part was that for just a second, my vision went completely black.

I tripped over the stones under my feet, throwing my hands out to catch myself before I fell.

“Whoa!” West said, obvious concern in his voice. “You okay?”

“Of course,” I tried to recover, brushing the dirt off my knees. I noticed Avian had glanced back at me, a probing look in his eyes. I shook my head and he turned his attention back front.

I didn’t think I had ever tripped before. Ever.

“And I hope it never snows,” West continued, brushing my incident off. “After last winter I wouldn’t mind if I never saw snow again.”

“Agreed,” I said distractedly.

We were both quiet for a few minutes as we kept pace with the rest of the group. “Do you think we’ll ever be able to stop running from them?” West suddenly asked.

I thought about my response before I spoke. “I guess if we could hide ourselves good enough. Push far enough into the country. If they can’t find us, they can’t infect us.”

West kept his eyes glued to the rocks at our feet. “I’m so sick of running from them,” he said quietly.

“Me too.”

We continued for another hour before we got to the base of the mountain and out of the canyon. We would be stopping here until dark. Those who knew how to cook set to prepping lunch, others lounged around, unused to not having much of anything to do. We would wait here until dark, when it would be safer to travel. We had only traveled the last few hours in daylight because it was too dangerous to come down the mountain in the dark. We all would have killed ourselves on the rocks and cliffs. We would take shifts, some would sleep while others would keep watch.

I’d be staying up all night, as usual.

“Avian,” I said as I walked to his side. “I’m going to get a few minutes of sleep before nightfall.”

“I think I’d better do that too,” he said as he looked around at those who were traveling with us. “I think it would be best if I stayed up at night since my rifle has a night vision scope. Koby,” he suddenly said to a man as he walked past us. He was roughly the same age as Avian. “I’m checking out for a while. Keep an eye on things, will you?”

He nodded, securing his handgun. “West,” I called as I spotted him. “Keep watch for a while?”

“Sure,” he said with a nod and automatically turned his eyes to our perimeters.

Avian and I walked towards a tree, each greedy for the shade it would provide. We settled on the wild grass that grew at its base, side-by-side in the coolness.

“I’ve never seen the soldier side of you before,” I said as my eyes slid closed.

“There hasn’t been much opportunity,” he said as he gave a sigh as he relaxed. “It feels weird being back in that mode. It was drilled into me constantly for over two years and it kept me alive for another six months. Then it got pushed to the back of my mind.”

“Eden has been lucky to have you,” I said quietly as I shifted around to get more comfortable, sleep already creeping in to take me over.

“I could say the same about you,” he said, his voice drifting away.

A few moments later I joined him.

TWENTY-FIVE

My heart thumped in my chest as I tried to press my back further into the corner. My vision blurred, the dark shadows before me blending together.

“She’s never been this aggressive before,” a voice said. It felt like someone was screaming into my ear. I pressed my hands over the sides of my head, trying to block it all out.

“She’s afraid,” a lighter voice said.

I couldn’t make out anything anymore as I opened and closed my eyes, trying to clear my vision. My head felt fuzzy and clouded.

The next second all I could make out was the scent of steel under me. And that my head felt so cold.

Then I heard it. The sound of a drill.

My eyes slid open, blinking immediately closed against the dimming but still bright light of the evening sun. I turned my head to the side, raising my hand to block it from my face. At the same moment my pillow moved and I opened my eyes to find myself nose to nose with Avian.

“You were having a nightmare,” he said quietly as he pushed a few stray hairs out of my face. I realized then that I was lying in his arms, him as my pillow, still under the same tree. After I glanced around at our caravan and knew things were still safe I relaxed again, resting my head against his chest.

“Yeah,” I said quietly, trying to push the memory of it away. “Did you sleep much?”

“For a while.”

I lay there for a little longer, listening as Avian breathed, the sound of everything that was still okay in the world. A part of me wanted to never have to move again, to lay here until the sun died and time ceased to exist or matter anymore.

“We should probably get going,” Avian said, always right about everything. I nodded, pulling myself up to my feet, then helping Avian to his own. He went to take a step back toward the group but before he could, I slipped my hand into his. I had been wanting to do that for so long, but starving myself of it.

Avian looked down at me, his eyes open and intense at the same time. I brought our hands up to my cheek then briefly pressed my lips into the back of his hand. Then I let go and walked back to the group.

The sun died below the horizon in the west, the temperature immediately dropping. I watched as Avian stacked some rocks at the base of another tree where it would be obvious to see, the note he had written tucked securely under the largest stone. We all loaded onto the trailer and for the first time, Tuck set out on level ground.

“It won’t go any faster than about forty miles-per-hour,” Tuck called out the window.

“It’s a miracle that it still runs at all,” Avian called back to him. “Let’s just pray that it will keep that pace.”

Tuck nodded, turning his attention back to the level ground before him. Those who traveled with us had grabbed their blankets out of the back of the truck and started arranging themselves to get more comfortable. It was cramped quarters but they used each other as pillows, everyone suddenly getting much closer to one another than they ever had before.

Avian sat at the front passenger side of the trailer, rifle ready at any moment. I sat in the opposite corner in the back, watching the landscape as it fell behind us. West lay at my right, his head resting against my thigh as he drifted off to sleep.

As far as I could tell, all the others were asleep before we even got to the road. It seemed a shame. To me, driving on a road was the first tie to normal life I had ever had.

It wasn’t perfectly smooth. After not being taken care of for so many years it had cracked and started to break down a bit. But in a way it felt like flying. I knew Tuck had said we weren’t going very fast but I had never moved this fast before. Legs could only carry me so fast, even my legs. The way the wind whipped my tied-back hair around my face was an experience I had never felt before. I closed my eyes for just a moment and imagined I could smell the ocean as well.

The only sound that met my ears was the wind around us, the grumble of the truck, and its tires rubbing the road. The truck’s one working headlight created a tunnel of light before us that made me slightly uneasy. It felt like a beacon jumping up into the sky, alerting our position.

I reminded myself that Fallen weren’t supposed to come out during the night.

Except for when they burned gardens.

It wasn’t long before we reached the outskirts of a small city. My nerves pitched as houses came into view. Tuck pulled off the road and continued through the fields. I saw the shadow of buildings that created the small city we had raided a few times before. We had only encountered a few Hunters there before but it was too dangerous to risk driving through the city. Even if it was night.

As we got to the outskirts we reconnected with the road and pulled into a gas station.

Tuck pulled up to one of the pumps and Avian jumped off the trailer, grabbing a hose and started punching a few buttons. Nothing happened. Avian started walking toward the back of the store, waving Tuck forward with the truck. I hopped off, jogging ahead to catch up with Avian. I kept my shotgun level to my eye, my finger on the trigger. I wasn’t going to be caught off guard if anything woke up.

“Here we go,” Avian whispered, a bit of a smile forming on his lips. He waved Tuck over to a pipe that rose up out of the ground. At the top it had some sort of hand pump and a hose that ran off the side of it.

I watched in fascination as Avian opened a small round cover on the side of the truck. Tuck shut it off and stepped out, walking the length of the truck back and forth to stretch his legs. Avian put one end of the hose in the hole in the side of the truck and started pumping.

“This is going to take a while,” Avian huffed as he worked the stiff joints. “Watch the perimeter.”

I nodded once and walked to the side of the store, checking to make sure it was clear. I snuck back around to the front of the store, still clear. My nerves tight, I crept up to the glass front door and peaked inside. It had been obviously raided and the shelves were mostly barren but it was empty. I still didn’t relax though.

I continued to pace the perimeter of the building the entire ten minutes or so that it took Avian to pump the truck full of gas. As he finished he asked me to wait with the truck while he ran inside to look for something. I didn’t like it but I wouldn’t leave them here asleep and defenseless.

Less than two minutes later Avian jogged back towards us, five blue bottles in his hands.

“What’s that?” I asked, eyeing it warily.

“It cleans the fuel,” he whispered as he set three of them in the back of the truck and set to pouring two of the bottles in with the gas. “I don’t know if any of it is still good, the fuel or the cleaner but I figure if we’ve got anything of a chance we’ve got to try it.”

I nodded. When Avian was finished, he set the empty bottles on the ground.  He motioned for the three of us to get back inside. A few people stirred as the truck was started back up but they were asleep by the time we pulled back on the road and continued down it.

“We should be good for another three hundred miles or so,” Avian said quietly. “Depending on what kind of mileage this thing still gets. And if it keeps running.”

I nodded again, watching the darkness around us. It was frustrating that I couldn’t see anything. I took a little comfort in the fact that Avian could though. He kept looking through his night vision scope every few minutes.

West eased his head back up onto my thigh, a soft snore letting me know just how asleep he really was. I tried to ignore him, remembering what had happened earlier when we had just brushed shoulders. My vision was already black, I didn’t need my brain going black as well.

I watched Avian for a while. He had been so strong these last few days. He had now lost his entire family and was the only remaining human in his bloodline. His parents had been infected early on, Tye, his cousin but brother to us all, had fallen a few months ago, unwitting at Avian’s bidding. Sarah had been taken from him by natural causes. Now it was just him.

“Is it harder now?” I suddenly said quietly. My fingers felt for the wings around my throat. “To keep going now that they’re all gone? Now that you’ve lost all your family?”

Avian looked at me, a million words behind his eyes. “I still have you,” he said very quietly. “As long as you’re still around I’ve got something to keep fighting for. And them as well,” he said as he looked down at those sleeping around us. “They’re my family too.”

That swelling in my chest started up again. I both craved it and didn’t want it. It made me say stupid things.

“Are you in love with Victoria?”

Avian’s eyebrows knitted together as he looked at me. “What? Victoria?”

I could only nod. My face suddenly felt hot.

“Victoria is a smart woman and she is beautiful, but… Why would you think that?” I was surprised to see that Avian’s face looked almost hurt.

I suddenly wished I had never said anything. What had been the point of this conversation? “I just… I didn’t…” I couldn’t find words that wouldn’t make me want to jump off this trailer and hide myself in a hole in the ground.

“You’re jealous,” Avian said with dawning in his voice. A bit of a smile tugged on his lips and his eyes suddenly seemed to light up.

“Jealous,” I said, meaning to form it as a question. That was what Sarah had said I was feeling.

“It’s not a fun emotion, is it?” he said as his face grew more serious, though a tight lipped smile formed. As he said it, he glanced down at West.

“No, it’s not,” I said quietly, my eyes falling down to West’s sleeping form. “I haven’t been very fair, to either of you.”

“This is all new to you,” he said quietly. “I can’t judge you too harshly.”

“I’m going to figure this out,” I said, my words hardening my resolve. “I know I can’t keep going on like this. I will choose.”

Avian’s eyes lost their light. He gave a nod, his eyes dropping to the ground that fell away behind us.

“I’m sorry,” I whispered.

“Don’t be,” he said, glancing at me. “I know this shouldn’t work.”

“Don’t say that,” I suddenly said, more harshly than I meant to. “None of that other stuff matters. This is about you and me, not about age or social normality. Society is dead.”

Avian only nodded as he continued to watch the ground.

I might not have known what love was but I was sure starting to understand what hate was. I was getting well practiced with myself.

TWENTY-SIX

I felt too exposed, too open. I suddenly missed the mountains, the trees. Only then did I realize just how much they had protected us. Now in the open desert, I wanted to get out from under the wide sky and distant horizons as fast as possible.

The sun seemed almost blinding as it gleamed against the sand. Amazing how the Earth could change so fast, in just the eight hours we had driven, going from forest to stark desert. We had pulled off the road and into a patch of rocks and a plant Tuck had told me was called cactus for the day. There wasn’t anything else to hide us from being seen. It was poor camouflage but it was all we were going to get.

A married couple set to making breakfast, bottled pears and bread left over from the day before. I then realized why Avian had been so insistent on getting so much water. With every bite I took I felt like my tongue was sticking to the top of my mouth. I would have guzzled down an entire gallon if I didn’t know how precious our supplies were.

I helped to assemble three of our tents. Two were for anyone who was feeling overheated to go inside to get out of the sun. The other was for Tuck, Avian, and I to get some sleep whenever we felt tired. I was too on edge to rest though.

We split into groups, deciding it wasn’t safe for anyone to wander on their own. I had chosen West as my partner, dragging him with me to circle the perimeter.

“You sleep like the dead, did you know that?” I said as my eyes scanned the endless horizon. It looked like waves were rising off the hot clay.

“Do I?” he said, a smile trying to escape onto his lips.

“Yeah,” I replied with a chuckle. “I think I could have slapped you across the face and you wouldn’t have woken up.”

“Hum,” was all he responded. My stomach suddenly felt cold as the thought that maybe West had just been faking while Avian and I had talked last night. Had he heard our entire conversation?

“I kind of like this heat,” West said as he dropped the subject mercifully. “There’s something, I don’t know, comforting about it.”

“You mean suffocating, right?”

“No,” he chuckled. “I don’t know. I just kind of like it. I wouldn’t want to deal with it all the time but it’s kind of a nice change. Dry. Not like how it’s felt so humid all the time lately.”

“I’ll agree with you there,” I said as I glanced back at the caravan. Everything looked blurred from this far away. Maybe we would be better hidden than I had thought. They just looked like an extension of the rock outcropping.

West sat on a large boulder, patting the space beside him. I took one more look around before I joined him. We sat together in awkward silence for almost a full minute.

“Why didn’t you tell any of us that you had those notes? They could save us all.” My habit of blurting was becoming worse.

West looked over at me, his eyes hard to read. “Because I didn’t understand it all,” he finally said. “I’m not sure what it all is but I do know that the plans aren’t complete. Whatever makes it work at the core, the part that gives it enough power to do the pulse, is missing. My grandfather was infected before he could complete the plans.

“I didn’t want to give anyone false hope.”

“You still should have told us,” I said, looking back toward the caravan. So Avian and I had been right. It wasn’t complete. It was the vital heart of it all that was missing.

We fell into silence again after that. As the quiet settled over us I felt that there was something that West wanted to say, something was on his mind.

“What?” I simply asked.

He took a breath to speak then stopped. His eyes glanced up once before falling back down to his weapon in his hands. “You still don’t know what you want, do you?”

My eyes fell to the ground. “Why do you have to ask me that? When you already know the answer? It doesn’t make it any easier on me.”

“Because I have to know, Eve,” he said, desperation rising in his voice. “Because my head is all in the wrong places right now, not knowing and always wondering what is going on. What do I have to do to make you sure that you should be with me? What do I have to do to show you how much you mean to me?”

I looked up, finding his eyes on mine. My stomach felt like it was doing strange little spasms. “Tell me,” I said quietly. “I need to hear it.”

My reply seemed to catch West off guard, his eyes reflecting his sudden blank.

“I watched you every day for as long as I can remember,” he started. “I wanted to help you, to make them stop what they were doing. I wanted you to be a normal kid with me. And then you were gone and I had no idea where you were. But the entire time, these last five years, I never stopped hoping I would find you again.

“And then I did. You were, are, the most incredible being I have ever met. And it’s not just because of the things my grandfather did to you. You’re strong all on your own. You care about all of them, even if you don’t really know what love even means.

“Eden is a wonderful place but it wouldn’t be anywhere near the same without you. I know I don’t fit in there, that people still don’t fully trust me. But you’re there so it’s all okay. When I’m with you, I feel something I didn’t think it was still possible to feel in this world. I feel alive, like there is still hope in this world. Like maybe things will still be okay someday.”

My eyes fell as West finished, looking down at our hands where they rested side by side. I slipped my fingers into his, picking apart every little thing I felt.

I didn’t get to analyze for long because suddenly, everything went black.

* * *

I opened my eyes to the washed out color of canvas, having to squint because of how light it still was. Two faces leaned over my field of vision, both filled with concern and another emotion that surprised me. Fear.

“What happened?” I asked as I pulled myself up into a sitting position, shaking what felt like fog from my brain.

West and Avian glanced at each other and I became all the more concerned. “What happened?” I demanded again.

“You… passed out,” West said. I noticed the sweat that suddenly beaded on his forehead. I glanced at Avian who just looked at the ground to the side of me. He couldn’t meet my eyes.

“It’s pushing one hundred degrees out there,” West said as he sat back on his heels. “You’re not used to the heat.”

“And you are?” I scoffed. I didn’t believe West. I hadn’t passed out from the heat. He was lying about it and Avian knew it.

“Just drop it, Eve,” West said as he pulled himself to his feet. “You’re obviously fine now.”

The conversation we had just had came back to me with force. I remembered what I had been thinking about West’s words before I had “passed out”. He had said that I made him feel like there was still hope in the world. Like things were going to be okay.

As I looked back at Avian I remembered what I had been thinking. That that was how Avian made me feel.

West avoided me the rest of the day and Avian insisted I get some sleep before we left that night. He was covering up for West but I sensed he didn’t want to be.

Once everyone was asleep on the trailer again that night I couldn’t hold it back any longer.

“What really happened to me earlier?” I asked quietly.

Avian looked at me, his eyes narrowed slightly.

“I didn’t really pass out, did I?”

“I didn’t see it,” he finally said. “West walked you back to the group but you weren’t there. Your eyes were totally blank and you wouldn’t respond. He said you two had been talking when you suddenly just… froze up.”

“Froze up?” I asked. Even as I did, I knew what he was talking about. The way I had blanked and then tripped the day before. The way I had felt like I was suddenly gone when I had nearly choked West.

“You weren’t there for a while,” Avian said, his voice cool. “It was like you were empty all of the sudden. Hollow.”

I swallowed hard, not because of the dryness or the heat this time. “Am I going to turn into one of them?” my voice sounded hoarse.

“I think if you were going to you would have already,” Avian said, his voice suddenly tight. “There’s been plenty of time for you to change, plenty of opportunity for you to be infected. I think this is something different.”

“What then?”

“I don’t know.”

The things that Avian didn’t know frightened me.

TWENTY-SEVEN

As pressure built in the air I felt uneasy. It reminded me of the night the Hunters had burned the gardens, the night our lives had been changed so drastically. The stars disappeared, plunging the night into a darkness I had never known. It was unnerving, feeling so blind and yet so exposed. There was nowhere to hide out here.

We didn’t talk anymore that night. Every conversation just seemed to turn so ominous and heavy. It was almost nice to not think about reality.

One nice thing about traveling through the desert was that there were few towns that we had to skirt around. It slowed us down a great deal having to drive around a city. There was always the risk that we would find Fallen on the outskirts unless we pressed further out.

“Pull over here,” Avian said in a harsh whisper as we approached another gas station. “Kill the lights.” Tuck did as he said immediately.

Avian jumped off the trailer, his rifle held at eye level. I jumped off at the same time, my own shotgun held firmly in hand. His eyes never left the glass front of the store as he stalked slowly towards it. I released my safety, gauging how many extra shells I had in my pocket that I could easily grab if needed.

“There’s two of them inside,” Avian whispered. At the same time he said that, I caught sight of the gleam that came off their metallic parts. Their eyes stared back out at us, empty orbs.

“Should we go to a different gas station?” I breathed.

Avian shook his head. “We most likely wouldn’t make it to another.”

“Together?” I said quietly.

“On my count,” Avian breathed. “Three… two… one.”

The glass exploded into a billion stars, followed by screams from those who were sleeping unsuspecting on the trailer. The next second, the two Fallen had leapt through the remains of the glass, barreling straight towards us.

Countless shots were fired but only one of the two dropped. By the time I had realized what had happened it was too late to fire again. My magazine was emptied.

“No!” I screamed as I sprinted toward the Fallen who was barreling straight at Avian. “Get away from him!” I leapt between the two of them, slamming my body into the Fallen.

We hit the ground in a tangled mess of arms, each trying to destroy the other. It’s steel cold hand wrapped around my throat, cutting off my air supply.

“Dis… dis…” I gasped for air. “Disengage!” I screamed out. It stopped moving immediately.

I clawed its hand away from my throat, realizing then that as I had jumped to get between the Fallen and Avian my handgun had fallen out of its holster. My hands beat at the frame that covered its neck and lower face, exposing the gears and wire beneath. I lost it then, ripping and shredding everything I could get my fingers around. I didn’t even care as the volts of electricity the infected body produced shocked me over and over again.

I sat back, straddling the now still body, my breaths coming in shaking, gasping swallows. I glanced back over at Avian only to see him surrounded by the rest of the group. Their faces were a mix of shock, awe, and fear.

Now they all finally knew my secret.

I looked back down at the Fallen, my hand rising to my throat, and took a hard swallow. In its blank eyes, I saw everything I hated about myself. All the things that were wrong with me, all the things I couldn’t remember but knew the truth about. I spit in its face and stood to walk back to the others.

“Let’s gas up and get going,” I said, unable to look anyone in the eye. Especially Avian. My emotions were pulled in two directions as I analyzed what he had just done. He’d been willing to sacrifice himself to keep the Fallen off of me. Even though he knew I didn’t need protection.

No one said anything as Tuck and Avian pulled the truck around to the hand pump and filled it. They all got back on the trailer but I felt their eyes on me as I stood at one corner of the building, pretending to be watching the perimeter, even though I couldn’t see much of anything.

“Are you okay?” West asked quietly from behind me.

“I’m fine,” I said, my voice rough.

“Are you sure?” he whispered.

“I’m fine!” I said harshly, turning to glare at him. I looked at his defensive face, anger suddenly filling me. “You lied to me again.”

“Lied?” he asked, his eyebrows furrowing.

“I didn’t pass out earlier. Avian told me,” I said quietly, my eyes glancing over to him. “It was like I was suddenly one of them, wasn’t it?”

West swallowed hard, his eyes guarded as he looked back at me. “It was the same way you looked when you tried to choke me.”

I stared back at him, my insides a running, stumbling mess. “And why does it only seem to happen when I’m around you?”

West just looked back at me, hurt showing in his eyes. He didn’t say anything, just turned and walked back to the group.

Avian left a message and a cairn at the gas station, warning the second group to take extra caution. I just hoped Bill and Graye kept a wary eye out. They were tough and smart but they could still be infected.

No one slept the rest of that night. I knew they were all on edge after seeing the two Fallen, but I suspected it was mostly because of me. They might not have understood what I was before, but now they knew a few things for certain. One- that I should start turning at any moment, yet Avian wasn’t turning the CDU on me and didn’t seem concerned. Two- there was something different about me, that I could take being shocked like that, could kill a Fallen with my bare hands. And three- that the Fallen listened to me.

The pressure in the sky kept building, turning the air muggy and heavy. We stopped two hours after we had gassed up, hiding ourselves in a cluster of sickly looking trees. Tents were set up, five of them, as a precaution to the saturated sky.

Not five minutes after we had everything set up, the sky finally broke.

I’d never seen rain like that.

I kept the perimeter, Tuck volunteering to keep watch with me. I was soaked through almost instantly and it was difficult to see far. Small wisps of steam rose from the sunbaked ground, heat and cool being smacked together.

The world was doused in a hazy color of gray as the sun fought to break through the heavy clouds above us. The rain continued to pour, soaking us in more rain than I had ever seen fall at one time. Small streams started tracing lines in the desert, running to unseen rivers.

A few hours into my scouting Avian walked out, using a raincoat that had been smartly packed to keep his head dry. He walked over to me, giving me shelter as well, and handed me two carrots.

“I doubt we’re going to see any of them in this,” Avian said, having to speak louder than normal to talk over the noise of the rain pounding above our heads. “They don’t like the water too much.”

“I’m not taking any risks,” I said as I bit the end of one of the carrots off. “And what was that back there? You know I can take care of myself.”

“I know,” he said as his eyes fell to the ground. “Just instinct, I guess.”

He stood there with me for a while, our eyes watching the rain as it fell, our feet getting soaked as it did.

“Did you say something to West?” he asked. “He’s acting kind of… put out.”

I swallowed my bite before answering. “I told him that I knew he had lied to me earlier. I also pointed out the fact that I only have these blackouts when I’m around him.”

“Really?”

I nodded. “The first time was when I choked him. It was like I didn’t know what I was doing.”

“And then when you tripped,” Avian said, his eyes staring out over the desert. “You two had been talking. I’ve never see you stumble before.”

I nodded again. “And then yesterday.”

“Why do you think that is?” he asked.

“I don’t know,” I said as I shook my head.

“I’m going to be honest here, all feelings aside, Eve. I’m worried about you being close to him. If being around him makes you lose control of yourself, it’s a danger to us all. We can’t afford to have you gone, to have you check-out, even if you don’t mean to. And we can’t afford to have you turn on us.”

“I wouldn’t do that,” I defended as I glared at him.

“I know you wouldn’t,” Avian said as he looked at me. “But what if you don’t have a choice? I mean, you didn’t want to strangle West, did you?”

“Of course not,” I said. “I mean I was mad at him but I would never actually do that.”

“That’s what I mean. If you don’t have control over this it’s dangerous for us all for you to be around him.”

The rain picked up in intensity, if that was even possible. “He infuriates me,” I said quietly, feeling my frustration pick up inside of me. “I think he just likes to make me mad sometimes. And I don’t know that I can ever trust him. He keeps too many secrets.

“But he also…” I trailed off, instantly wishing I could erase my words.

“But he also woke something up inside of you,” Avian filled in for me, his voice quiet.

My eyes dropped to the ground and I nodded. “I won’t lie to you, Avian,” I whispered. “He did and I can’t say I regret the fact that he did.”

Avian’s hand came to my cheek, making me look at him. “I wish it had been me that had woken you up. I won’t say that I’m not jealous over what he makes you feel. But I’m glad you are feeling things. It gave me hope. You were finally seeing me as well.”

My chest swelled again at his words. My eyes dropped to his lips, remembering what it had felt like to press mine to his. The magnetic pull inside of me to lean just a little closer would have been impossible to fight if it hadn’t been for the movement I saw out of the corner of my eye.

“Stop right there!” I shouted as I took five steps forward, my shotgun level to my eyes.

Thirty yards away, two figures stopped in their tracks, their hands held up.

“Please,” a female voice called through the rain. “We just need something to eat. We’ve been lost in this desert for days.”

I walked toward them, gun in hand, Avian following me, his own handgun held steady. As the figures became clearer, I realized it was a man and a woman, looking to be in their late thirties.

“Please,” the man said. “We mean you no harm. We just need something to eat. If you can spare anything.”

“Where’d you come from?” Avian demanded, his gun pointed right at the man’s chest.

“Back from the southeast,” the man said. “We’ve been running for almost a year now.”

I glanced at Avian, unsure of what to do. Part of me felt they were harmless but trust wasn’t something to just give these days. He looked over at me as well and I knew what he was about to say.

“Come with us,” he said.

We walked behind them, their hands held behind their backs where we could see them. I looked down at their feet, their shoes were held together with strips of material and lengths of rope. Their clothes were torn and ragged looking.

We led them to one of the tents. Morgan and Eli were inside resting and jumped at the sight of the strangers. “Who are they?” Morgan’s husband demanded as he put himself between the newcomers and his wife.

“We’re about to find out,” Avian said as he walked back to the truck while I kept an eye on them. A minute later Avian walked back in, the CDU in hand.

“What are you going to do with that?” the woman asked, eyeing it warily.

“Just make sure you’re really human,” I said.

Avian made one swipe down the woman’s bare arm, water rolling off of her to the floor of the tent.

“What are you doing?” she jumped, huddling back into the man.

“This puts out an electrical current. Being this soaked will make it much more intense,” Avian explained as he met their eyes. With hesitancy, she let him wipe her arm more. The man tried drying his own arm.

They didn’t fight us as Avian touched the device to their still damp skin, which told us there that they were organic. Once sure they weren’t out to destroy us, we all sat, finally inside from the rain. Tuck had been notified I had gone inside and took over full watch.

“Why are you coming out here from the east?” Avian asked.

“Things are bad back east,” the woman started. “There is hardly anyone left. The Hunters have gotten so aggressive. It wasn’t safe anywhere. We had no choice but to come west.”

“It took us a year to figure out what was happening any way,” the man said, his eyes wild with recollection. “It’s amazing we stayed alive.”

“What do you mean?” I asked.

The two of them exchanged a look, a million memories between them. “We were on a year long sailing study,” the man started. “That’s how we met. We were both working for the university, doing marine studies. There were six of us on the sailboat. We hadn’t been into port in nearly six months, hadn’t seen another human being beside the six of us in that long either.

“We came in for supplies only to find the ocean-side town abandoned. Or so we thought.”

“We went to look for food,” the woman said, her eyes haunted. “That’s when we saw them, sleeping in the buildings. It was dark but we saw them, hundreds of them. Just staring out at nothing. We didn’t know what had happened but we knew something was very wrong.”

“We split into groups,” the man said. “We hid ourselves as best we could. Got supplies at night. We did okay for a few years but they started pushing further and further into the country. We didn’t think it was safe anymore to stay. So we started walking.”

“That was a year ago,” the woman said hoarsely. “We’ve been running ever since.”

“But you’re still alive,” Avian said quietly. “That’s the part that really matters.”

“What are your names?” I asked, finally relaxing my shotgun.

“Tess,” the woman said. “And this is Van.”

“I’m Avian,” he said. “This is Eve, that’s Morgan and Eli.”

“Thank you for giving us shelter,” Van said as he put his arm around Tess. “We will be out of your way soon.”

“You’re welcome to travel with us,” Avian said. I stiffened at his hasty acceptance. “We are headed southwest before the winter comes. We plan to find somewhere safe and set up camp again. Ours was just destroyed. The rest of our group is coming later.”

“How many of you are there?” Tess asked.

“Here now, seventeen. There are another seventeen that will follow. With the two of you that will bring us up to thirty-six members of Eden.”

“Eden,” Tess said, a hint of a smile in the corner of her lips. “We would love to be members of Eden.”

Avian nodded, a smile on his own lips, as he placed his hand on her knee for just a moment. He then stood and looked at me, his eyes reflecting the private moments we had shared before they had been broken.

We fed Tess and Van as much as we could. Our food supplies had been limited before and adding two people to the mix was going to strain us all the further. But we couldn’t just let them wander in the desert and starve. We were all more human than that.

I got some sleep, lying next to Morgan as she napped, Tess dropping to sleep almost as soon as we finished talking. I dreamed dreams that would have made me blush during the day with alternating fantasies of West and Avian.

When I woke up that evening the rain had still not let up. The clouds were still dumping on us and Tuck told us that unless it let up soon there was no way we were going to be able to drive that night. The windshield wipers didn’t work anymore. Avian was also worried everyone would catch sick if they sat out in the rain on the trailer all night.

Everyone settled down in one tent or another that night, each silently grateful to be able to sleep on stationary ground after two nights on the trailer. I watched as West went to one tent, Avian to another. I stationed myself just outside one of the tents they hadn’t chosen, volunteering as usual, to keep night watch.

As those behind me started breathing the deep breath of sleep, I wondered what was going to happen in our near future. I had told myself that I was going to make a decision by the time we got to our destination, where ever that was going to be. Avian had said we were only two, maybe three solid nights drives away now. After that it was just a matter of finding a place that was safe and secluded. And that had water.

Was I going to be able to make a decision in just a few short days? What was going to happen once I had decided?

I was going to have to forever live knowing how I had hurt one of them. What would happen if I chose West? Could I stand to hurt Avian? Avian would never leave those in Eden, he loved them too much to do that. And he knew they needed him. I would have to see the pain I had caused him on his face every day.

But what if I chose Avian? I wasn’t so sure West could stick around, already feeling like an outsider who no one trusted. Could I turn out the only tie I had to my past?

And what was it even like to be in a relationship? I had watched Gabriel and Leah, Morgan and Eli. Commitment meant sharing a tent every night, meant always having someone to eat with at meals, meant small displays of affection. People like them told each other those three special words I had heard so much about.

I had a hard time imagining myself telling anyone I loved them. Was it even happening for me? Was I falling in love?

Why did being human have to be so hard?

TWENTY-EIGHT

The rain let up an hour before dawn and by the time the sun came up nearly all the moisture on the ground had dried up to little more than tiny puddles.

I met each of their eyes as they came out of their tents. Knowing I couldn’t deal with all my confusing thoughts any more that day, I ducked into one of the tents and pretended I was asleep until I really was.

At first I thought it was a dream, the arguing voices I heard. They spoke in hushed tones but their voices were harsh and biting.

“Do you want to be putting everyone in danger?” As my brain woke I realized it was Avian’s voice I was hearing.

“How do you know it’s me?” It was West’s voice that responded, no surprise. “There’s all sorts of programing in her brain. Who knows what she’s capable of? How she could evolve?”

“Because the only time it happens is when she’s with you!” Avian nearly shouted. “You get her so worked up it sends her into overload and she can’t handle it!”

“You don’t know what you’re talking about,” West said coldly. “You just want me out of the picture.”

“I’m not going to lie and say I don’t wish you weren’t here,” Avian said, just a little more calmly. “But this isn’t about that. Whatever you’re doing to her is putting us all in danger. You should see that the most clearly, she attacked you!”

“We’ll get this figured out,” West said through clenched teeth. “It’s not like she’s been trying to keep herself away from me all the time. Almost every move has been made by her.”

“Maybe so,” Avian said through clenched teeth. “But she told me herself that she doesn’t think she can ever trust you.  How can you expect to have a relationship when trust is absent?”

West didn’t seem to have anything to say in response to that.

“Don’t think you’ve won this,” Avian said quietly.

“I know I haven’t!” West nearly shouted, his voice cracking. “I see every look she gives you, like you’re the center of her entire world. She trusts you so much I can’t even comprehend it! I hate every time I see her slip her hand into yours, the way she looks more human and more at home than I have ever seen her than when she’s with you.

“But I know the way I make her feel when she is with me. I’ve never seen that intensity between the two of you. I make her feel alive in a way you haven’t.”

“Not yet,” Avian said quietly.

I couldn’t take anymore then. This had to end between them, right now, even if I hadn’t made my final decision.

I got to my feet and stepped out of the tent and was around it the next second later.

“Stop it!” I yelled louder than I had meant to. “Stop it, both of you!”

Their faces filled with surprise and mixes of shame and embarrassment, knowing they had been caught and overheard.

“I am not some prize,” I said through clenched teeth. “This is not a war to be won. I know I’ve made a mess of things and I intend to clean it up. But I can’t do it, knowing that at any moment things are going to explode between the two of you. So grow up and get back to what you’re supposed to be doing. Protecting Eden.”

Before either of them could respond, I walked off.

I felt like my blood was boiling. What was their problem? Was I nothing more than a prize? When had this become a competition between them?

Maybe I wouldn’t pick either of them just to teach them a lesson.

If only it could be that easy.

The rest of the day passed painfully slow. There was so little to do and I could only pace our twenty yard perimeter so many times. We all sat around, awkward silences running rampant, just waiting for the sun to fall into the west.

But in the reliability of nature it finally did. We loaded up onto the trailer and kept along our route.

I watched Morgan as she started falling asleep in the cabin of the truck. What a terrifying thing, to have this other life growing inside of you, knowing it counted on you for every little thing. She had to be so careful, to not do anything to upset the balance of its growth. And she was now all the more tied to Eli. They had created a brand new life between them. That was pretty amazing.

Could I be so tied to someone? Not in the way of having children together, I was almost positive that it was not possible for me to have children at all, what with my partially steel interior. But that kind of a connection. Could I handle being so close to someone, to let them into my life like that?

I glanced down at West, supposedly asleep. I tried to imagine a life with him, of committing myself to him. Would it be a lifetime of feeling alive, of living in the fire we created? Or would it turn out to be a life filled with distrust? Of constant arguments where I couldn’t hardly stand to look at him? And was Avian right? Was I going to be putting everyone at risk by being with him? What if being with West meant that I lost myself?

I let my eyes quickly glance to Avian where he sat poised with his rifle at the front of the trailer. What about a life with Avian? Would life be so different? We would share a tent, never have another awkward moment of wondering who to sit by at nights, at dinner. But how would things change? How could Avian make me feel? Being with him like that?

I didn’t think I could find out unless I was certain it was him that I was going to choose. I couldn’t do that to him.

My chest suddenly ached for Sarah. I wanted to talk to her, to tell her every little thing I was feeling and let her analyze them all for me. I wanted someone to help me figure this out.

It was then that I missed our old way of life as well. I wanted the days of simple scouting back, days of tracking through the woods with my team of Bill and Graye. I missed going on raids, when it was always dangerous but still possible to go into the city. I missed having the sweat roll down my back as I helped the others pull the weeds in the garden that was overflowing with our harvest.

You never realize what you’ve got until it’s gone.

Thankfully, nothing happened that night. We gassed up in a small town that looked like it had been dying before the Fall even happened. Avian poured two more of the blue bottles into the tank and we drove another hour before stopping in more desert for the day.

I didn’t let anyone know but I was panicked that day. Avian told everyone that we only had maybe two more days of traveling until we got to our destination. That should have been a relief but I still had no idea what my decision was going to be. I need more time. But I also had to decide, now.

I pretended to sleep that day but didn’t. I stared up at the tan canvas above my head, my mind empty, my eyes seeing nothing. It was nice to have a few hours to clear my head of all the confusion.

We left that night with a mix of anticipation, both nervous and excited. We were all ready to get to our new home but for most, the unexpected and unknown was frightening. What would we be finding?

I didn’t like that I had so many questions lately with no answers.

TWENTY-NINE

Everyone had just started falling asleep when Avian’s attention perked up. He stood in his place on the trailer, his eyes narrowing at something ahead of us.

“What is it?” I asked quietly in an attempt to not wake anyone. I took the safety off my shotgun.

“Stop the truck,” Avian told Tuck. As he did, Avian hopped out, myself in close pursuit. He walked up to an old road sign and only then did I notice that there was something different about this one.

“What are those?” I asked as I looked closely at the white dots beneath the words leading to somewhere that now meant nothing.

“Morse code,” Avian whispered as he ran his fingers over the dots.

“What does it say?” I said as my eyes swept the area again. No threats in this desert forsaken place.

Avian shook his head, his eyes frustrated looking. “I don’t know. I hadn’t learned it yet in my training.”

Without hesitation I walked back over to the trailer. “Wake up!” I said loudly. A few bodies stirred. “Come on. Wake up.”

Some of them eyed the gun in my hands warily, others simply rubbed the sleep out of their eyes. “Does anyone know how to read Morse code?”

West yawned as he raised his hand. “Come on,” I said, waving him toward the sign. “Sorry to wake everyone. You can go back to sleep now.”

I heard a few grumbles as we walked toward the sign. Most of them lay back down but a few of them watched what we were doing with curiosity. I didn’t blame them. I would want to know what was going on too.

“You know Morse code?” Avian asked as we walked up.

“My grandpa thought it was a fun game when I was little,” West said as he rubbed his eyes again. “That’s a scientist’s version of fun for you.”

“What does it say?” Avian asked as he looked back at the sign. “This isn’t the regular paint that was used for signs. It’s too irregular and the paint doesn’t look that worn. This was put there in the last few years. After the infection.”

West squinted through the dark to read the sign. As he did, he stepped around it, looked at the back, then looked at the edge of it. “It just says ‘look underneath’.”

Avian furrowed his brow at West, then looked back at the sign. That was when we all saw the slightly bent form of the metal sign in the bottom right corner.

With a hefty tug, the three loose screws at the top of the sign were ripped out and I let the metal sign fall to the ground with a thud in the dust.

Our eyes grew wide as we took in what had been hidden under the old road sign. Words were crammed onto the wood board beneath, and detailed but obviously hand drawn map spread over most of it. There had unquestionably been people here, trying to leave a message for anyone who might find it.

“Holy…” both Avian and West breathed.

“Where is the map leading?” I asked, my eyes following the hand drawn lines.

“Right to the middle of one of the biggest cities there was before everything fell apart,” Avian said quietly.

If you’re reading this, congratulations on surviving. To be brief, there is a group of us, hiding in the city. We have unlimited supplies of food, water, other necessities. We also have electricity and can offer you protection. A life. If you can reach us. Here is the map to our location. Travel only at night and travel silently. Good luck.

Below that, in another person’s handwriting was written: May the force be with you.

“Do you think it’s a trap?” I asked as I reread everything.

Avian chuckled as his eyes trailed over the words. “I don’t think so. A Fallen would never write that last line.”

“What does that even mean?” I asked. May the force be with you. It sounded like gibberish to me.

Avian chuckled again. “It was a line from a very famous movie.” When he saw my confusion at the word movie he just shook his head and laughed again. “Never mind. Just know that it is a very human thing to say.”

“How is that even possible?” West asked, fully awake now. “For a group of people to be living in a city?”

“I can’t imagine anyone is that careful,” I said quietly.

“But if they were…” West said wistfully. “Can you even imagine? Having actual electricity, living indoors?”

“No,” I said, furrowing my brow at him. “I can’t imagine what it would be like. It would be too dangerous. Avian said that was one of the biggest cities. It is going to be flooded with Fallen. We couldn’t even get fifty miles outside the perimeter.”

“But they must have a way of getting people in if they’ve left this message,” West continued. “They said to travel at night and to travel silently. Why would they have us walk into a death trap?”

“This could have been left a few years ago,” I said, my voice rising. “They could all be infected by now, dead. There could be no one left in the city anymore.”

“But if there are people there…” Avian said, his voice sounding wishful. “They could have access to anything if they can get around that city.”

“You can’t be serious about this?” I demanded as I turned my eyes on him. “We cannot take this risk. We have a mission to complete. Find a new, safe location for Eden and settle. Lead the others to us.”

“We could change our course,” Avian said as he walked back to the truck. He grabbed Bill’s maps out of the trailer and walked back to us. He opened it up and quickly found our location. “We were going here,” he said as he pointed to a place that was due south of our current location. “We could get there by dawn if we can get the truck to drive fast enough. But we could go here,” he said as he drug his finger across the page to a place that was due west of our location. “Frankly it will be a nicer location. We’ll have access to more water, there will be more natural resources. And it is close to the ocean so there will also be more options for fishing. Temperatures shouldn’t be much different.”

“But it is surrounded by cities,” I observed as I read the names around the textured green space Avian had his finger on.

Avian nodded his head. “But it is less than sixty miles from where these other people are supposedly hiding out. We could go to this new location, even if it is only temporary, hide out and send a scouting party to check things out.”

“This is suicide, Avian,” I said as I shook my head. “A city that size? We don’t have a chance of even getting to the outskirts.”

“But if there are people there…” Avian said again. “Eve, we’ve already lost so many people this last year. As far as we knew, we were the only ones left. But if there are more of them out there… We have to stick together, to keep humanity alive.”

I looked up at Avian, searching his eyes. There was hope burning there, but I was surprised at another thing I felt coming from him. A total lack of fear. I realized then just how much we had all underestimated Avian.

“This isn’t just our decision,” I said quietly. “This affects all of them too,” I said as I indicated those waiting on the trailer for us. “We have to let them decide as well.”

Avian and West looked up to those who were watching us silently. Their faces were anxious looking, mixes of hope and fear on their faces. They could read what was written on the sign as well as I could.

“What do all of you think?” Avian said as he took a few steps toward them. “I assume you heard everything we said.”

No one spoke up at first and I sensed they were afraid to voice their opinions.

“Tuck,” I called on him. He jumped slightly at being directly addressed. “What do you think?”

“I…” he stuttered. “It is dangerous, but if there really are people there I think we have to go.”

“No, we don’t,” Tess, the newcomer, spoke up loudly. “Like Eve said, this is suicide! Have any of you ever been to a city? We have, and it’s been years. It’s bound to have gotten worse.”

“Eli?” I asked when Tess was finished.

He glanced at Morgan where she stood at his side. “I’m not willing to risk putting my family in danger, but if there are some willing to go into the city on scout, I’m willing to change course. It could only be temporary. I trust the three of you to keep us safe.”

The majority of the heads in our group nodded, much to my surprise. Maybe they did still trust me with their lives, even if they knew what I was now.

“Let’s put it to a vote then,” Avian said, putting his hands on his hips. “All those in favor of changing course and hiding out while some of us scout the area, raise your hand.”

Every hand but mine, Tess and Van’s went up.

“That’s the majority,” Avian said with a nod. He turned his intense blue eyes on me, his brow furrowed with mixed emotions. “Are you going to be with us Eve, if we change course? Would you go with the scouting party?”

I glared at him. Where had my cautious Avian gone to?  Who was this daring risk taker?

“Of course I will go with you,” I said, my jaw tight. “If anyone is going into the city I have to go with them. There’s no other option. I’m the only one that can’t get infected.”

The smallest of a smile formed in the corner of his mouth but I didn’t miss it. I almost returned it.

“Alright,” Avian said, clapping his hands together. “Everyone get ready to go. We’ll get our new destination mapped out and get going as soon as we can. We’ve still got a few hours of darkness left.”

Avian’s instructions were unneeded as no one but the three of us had anything to prep. They were already set to go.

“Crazy idiot,” I muttered under my breath as we turned back to the map. Avian just gave me a smug smile as he started drawing on the map.

A few minutes later we all loaded up, heading out west on the crumbled highway.

“We’ll find somewhere safe to hide everyone for a few days at least,” Avian said as he squinted against the wind that blew in his face. “If everything goes smooth, we’ll get everyone settled in the morning, get some sleep, and then the three of us will head into the city tomorrow night.”

“I’d like to come too, sir, if that’s alright with you,” Tuck said from the driver’s seat.

West chuckled and Avian couldn’t seem to help himself as he cracked a smile. I wondered if anyone had ever called Avian “sir”. “That’s up to you. You seem competent enough with a gun. If you’re willing to take the risk you’re welcome to come.”

Tuck just nodded.

“But what if they need you?” I asked as I glanced at those who were resting around me. “A lot could go wrong.”

Avian’s eyes swept over them and I saw that he had already been having this argument with himself. “I have to go where I think I am most needed. In twenty-four hours that will be in the city. Right now I’m most valuable as a scout, not an ill-trained doctor.”

I held his eyes for a while, wanting to argue with him but knowing I didn’t have any ground to stand on. As much as I didn’t like it, he was right. The likelihood that something would happen just as soon as Avian was unavailable was not very high. It was still too possible though.

“I’m assuming you will be coming with us?” I asked West, who had been unnaturally quiet the last few hours.

“Of course,” he said, his voice almost sounding insulted. “I’m not going to let you and Avian have all the fun.” As soon as the words were out of his mouth he looked like he wished he could take them back. “I mean… uh…”

“We knew what you meant,” I cut him off before this moment could grow any more awkward.

Excitement was tangible in the air as we drove but the uncertainty was thick enough to cut through with a knife.

An hour and a half later, a few looming figures to the south of us drew my attention. They almost looked like… giant birds. “Avian, what are those?”

He squinted in the direction I pointed then he raised his rifle to his eye level to look through the night-vision scope. “They’re planes,” he said as he glanced down at the map in his lap. “This is an old Air Force base. Tuck, pull over.”

“Military?” I asked, my attention perking. “They would have weapons inside somewhere?”

Avian shook his head and shrugged. “Maybe. The base I was stationed at was just abandoned when things started falling apart. Who knows what we’d find in there.”

“Would we have time to go take a look around?” West asked.

Avian looked at the map again. “We’re making good time. We should have about an hour of extra time pretty safe. You really want to go inside? There could be dozens of them in there.”

“It’s really deserty around here,” West said as he looked around us. He was right. There wasn’t even sagebrush growing in the cracked earth. “It looks like there are only a few buildings for there to even be anything in. I doubt this small base attracted them.”

“I think West is right,” I said as I scanned the area. “It doesn’t seem like a likely place for Fallen.”

“Alright,” Avian said as he nodded. “Eve, obviously it’s best if you go in. We’ll stay here and keep an eye out for if anything happens.”

“No way,” West said as he shook his head. “I’m not letting her go in there by herself.”

“I can take care of myself,” I said as I rolled my eyes at him. “I think you would know that by now.”

“Even so, I’m not going to just sit here,” West said as he locked eyes with Avian. And the argument over me continued silently.

“Get over it you two,” I said in an exasperated tone as I jumped out of the trailer and started walking toward the looming buildings. A moment later another set of feet jumped to the ground and jogged to keep up with me.

West and I padded silently across the sand and clay, guns in hand, ready to fire at the slightest movement. As we approached the buildings my eyes grew wide.

“They’re huge,” I breathed as I took the size of them in. The thing just went on and on, a massive landscape of waved metal. I had never seen a building so big.

“You should have seen the building we used to live in,” West said, again without thinking. I gave him a hard look before he let out an awkward chuckle. “Okay, maybe it’s better you don’t remember it.”

We found a door in the vastness of the north wall. It was locked. I tapped it, testing its thickness. “It’s pretty thin,” I said as I squinted through the dark. “Ready to see how enhanced I am?” I chuckled. West just shook his head and gave me a half smile.

I punched a hole through the waved aluminum without too much effort. A thin scratch ran down the length of my hand, a few tiny drops of blood dripping to the ground. Ignoring it, I reached through and opened the door from the inside.

The interior of the building was massive. Everyone in Eden could have set up their tents inside and still had plenty of room to be comfortable. “They must have put those planes in here,” West said as he too took our surroundings in. There were no traces of any life around, cybernetic or organic.

“Come on,” I said. “Let’s get moving.”

We jogged along the perimeter of the building, finding a few rooms in one corner. One contained a desk, papers and books scattered around the room. We found a handgun in one of the drawers and a small box of ammunition. The other room was used for storage. We found a few pairs of shoes and pairs of pants to bring back with us.

We went back outside and jogged to the next building. It too was locked. Five seconds later it wasn’t.

Proof of West’s theory was found inside this building. Through the darkness we could make out the figure of one of the massive planes.

“Isn’t that amazing?” West mused. “That we used to have control over the sky like that? I would have loved to learn to fly one of those.”

“Maybe someday you’ll get your chance,” I whispered as I started along the perimeter of the building. We found a kitchen but there was no food left in it. It was in the next room we struck gold.

“Here we go,” I said with a smirk as I stood in the doorway.

The walls were lined with all kinds of weaponry. Handguns, shotguns, things I had never even seen before but would learn to use shortly. “Grab everything you can,” I said, grabbing the nearest menacing looking piece of destruction and salvation.

I filled my pockets with ammunition until my pants threatened not to stay on my hips from the weight. I grabbed three oblong balls with small pins stuck in the top. I wasn’t sure what they would do but if they were in this room they must have had destructive force. I shoved them into one of the pockets at the side of my knees.

“What Avian said, about you only blacking out around me, it’s true, isn’t it?” West said as he continued to load up.

“I told you that myself,” I said as I strapped two guns to the side of my pack.

“I guess I thought you were just mad at me before, when you said it, as usual,” he said quietly as he worked. “Why do you think that is?”

“I don’t know,” I said, feeling a little frustrated. I just wanted to be doing something useful and not have to deal with my feelings right now.

“Do you think what Avian said is true?” he asked quietly. “That feeling those things kind of… overloads you?”

“Maybe,” I said as I felt along an upper shelf. I pulled down another box of bullets. “All of my emotions were supposed to be blocked. Now that I’m starting to feel things again I sure feel like I don’t know how to handle it.”

West was quiet for a while after that and I could sense all the turmoil he was in. “I don’t want to be putting everyone at risk but I don’t know how to stay away from you, Eve. I don’t think I can just shut my feelings for you off.”

I finally fell still at his words. “I don’t know how to shut them off either. I’m trying to see where the line is between acceptable risk and feeling alive.”

I heard him walk up behind me. I felt his hand on my arm, slowly turning me around. I met his brown eyes, alive and dancing in the darkness. His hands came to my waist, softly pushing me back against the wall behind me.

“I know how I make you feel, Eve,” he whispered, his lips only an inch away from mine. “Does Avian make you feel the same way?”

Before I had a chance to answer, West pressed his lips to mine. His entire body molded against mine. My pulse skyrocketed, my breath catching in my throat as West’s lips moved with mine. I felt as if my body had exploded, a raging torrent of wanting more, more, more.

And then the lights went out.

THIRTY

When I opened my eyes the sky was starting to lighten, a pale shade of blue and pink. The tips of trees surrounded my vision and as I rolled over I was momentarily confused. For half a second I thought we were back in Eden, back home. But the shape of this lake was different, the trees a different species, though similar. And there were only nine tents instead of a few dozen.

The people of our group bustled around, finishing setting up the tents, putting their belongings inside, washing their sweat-crusted clothes out in the small lake.

How long had I been out for? It must have been a few hours if we had finally left behind the desert and found a forest.

I sat up, realizing I was still lying on the trailer. I shook my head, trying to clear the fog that felt like it was still nesting in my brain. It was then that I spotted West at his tent. He glanced over at me and my eyes narrowed at him. His left eye was surrounded with a ring of black.

My eyes then found Avian. His bottom lip was split.

I didn’t even have to ask what had happened. West had sent me into overload again. I’d blacked out. Avian wasn’t too happy when he found out. They’d finally gotten physical.

I got up, feeling a little strange still, and went to look for my tent in the back of the truck. It was then that I realized that it was already being set up. To my surprise it was Tuck who was assembling it.

“Thank you,” I said as I grabbed a pole and helped him. “I can take care of it.”

“It’s no trouble,” he said, his lips pulling into a small smile.

I tried to return it, unsure if I had succeeded. It felt strange working next to him, I didn’t know him well. Tuck had only been with us for just over a year. I wasn’t sure how he had come to join our group.

“Was it bad?” I asked him quietly.

“What?” he asked as he started hammering a stake into the ground.

“The fight between Avian and West.”

Tuck gave the smallest of chuckles. “A few fists flew but it was over pretty quick. I reminded them that we didn’t have time for squabbles.”

I just shook my head, letting out a frustrated breath. “I didn’t do anything did I? Nothing… I don’t know.”

“Just zombie walked,” he said as he stood and wiped his hands off on his pants. When I gave him a blank stare he continued. “You just walked back to the truck with West, loaded up with weapons. But your eyes were just…”

“Blank,” I finished for him. “Was that all?”

He nodded. “You just sat on the trailer where we placed you, staring out into nothing.”

My insides felt all twisted up as I imagined what I must have looked like. “Was everyone afraid of me?”

He didn’t answer right away. “Some of them were a little concerned. Avian kind of chewed them out for it though. He made a good point. You’ve protected everyone for the last five years, why would you turn on us now?”

“Thank you, Tuck,” I said. He just nodded and walked back toward his own tent.

Feeling only slightly better, I turned my attention to my surroundings. It was similar to our old Eden in that it was surrounded by trees. But these trees were bigger, taller, like they were older. And there was something that smelled different here. It was then that I remembered how close we were to the ocean.

I had the sudden burning desire to see it. But that would have to wait.

Around lunch time, Tess walked up to me, a wary look on her face.

“Why did you just agree to their plan?” she asked, looking uncomfortable to be talking to me. “If you’re so afraid to go so close to the city, why would you allow them to come here? You know how dangerous this is.”

I gave her a curious look. “I’m not afraid,” I said. “It’s all of them I’m worried about. I will go where ever they do to keep them from getting infected.”

“So it’s true?” she half whispered. “That you can’t be infected?”

“Yes,” I said as I swallowed hard. “I’ve been touched by Fallen, multiple times.”

“Why is that?”

I felt uncomfortable. I didn’t know this woman, didn’t know if I could trust her. “I just can’t.”

“And that’s why you’re not afraid,” she said, giving me an almost harsh look, and walked back toward Van.

I didn’t like Tess very much I decided then. But at the same time, she had been right.

I couldn’t avoid them any longer. I finally sought out Avian, finding him keeping watch on our western perimeter, in the direction of the cities. I stood there, ten feet away, not even knowing what to say. The hate I felt for myself deepened as I saw the hurt there in Avian’s eyes. I wondered what West had said to Avian, and in that moment I hated West as well.

“We should get prepped to leave tonight,” Avian mercifully broke the silence. “We should get as familiar with the route as we can.”

Even though Avian spoke of plans, he didn’t move. I nodded my head, unable to do anything but stare in those infinitely blue eyes.

“I’m sorry,” I finally managed.

“I don’t blame only you,” he said as he slung his gun over his shoulder and started back towards camp. “West should understand the danger he’s putting us all in.”

We walked back to camp in silence.

We found West and Tuck and took the map back to the trailer. Setting it down, we all gathered around it. “We’re here,” Avian said, pointing to a spot next to an exact replica of the small lake. “I think we can take the truck this far,” he said has he pointed to another spot. “From there we’re going to have to walk. I’m guessing it’s about fifteen miles. Even if everything goes smooth and we don’t run into any Fallen, it’s going to take us nearly all night to get there. If we don’t find them by morning we’re going to have to find somewhere to hide for the day.”

“This is insane, Avian,” I said as I shook my head. “There are going to be so many of them. This is like sticking your hand into the middle of a beehive.”

“But if the people that are hiding in the city have put other messages out there, they must watch for others,” West said. “Maybe they have some form of transportation they can take to scout.”

“An electric vehicle would be virtually silent,” Tuck said as he studied the map. “If they have electricity and can power one, they’re around. They aren’t as fast as a normal car but it should be fast enough to outrun a Fallen.”

“That may be,” Avian said. “But we can’t count on that. Everyone we’re leaving behind has to know that we may be gone more than just tonight. We may be gone for a while.”

“And how long do they wait till they have to assume we’re dead?” I said harshly. “Then what do they do?”

“Survive,” Avian said as he glared at me. “As they’ve been doing for the last five years.”

“There’s one problem, when, or if, we get to these other people,” West said as he rested his hands on the trailer. “If they’re smart they test any newcomers, just to make sure they’re not Fallen. If they test Eve it’s going to kill her.”

“That’s a good point,” said Tuck, his eyebrows rising slightly.

“I’ll deal with it when we get there,” I said, shrugging that possibility off. I was still only about ten percent sure we would find anyone alive. “Did you want to talk about anything else?”

Avian shook his head. “I don’t think so. I think we’re set, as long as we are all ready to leave tonight.”

We each nodded our heads that we were. “Have any of you slept yet?” I asked them. Their pause told me they hadn’t. “I’ll keep watch since I’ve been sleeping for the last however many hours. Or whatever it was that I was doing.”

West gave me a little half smile. Avian glared at him. They disbursed to their tents.

Everyone must have been tired after being up half the night. A lot of that was probably my fault. It felt like a ghost camp, with only myself and Eli outside of our tents. He kept himself busy whittling at a piece of wood.

I walked back over to the truck, fighting the war that was raging inside of me. Actually there was more than one. Eager for a distraction, I set to unloading the rest of the supplies from the back of the truck.

It was then that I realized the amount of food we had left was only going to last us another month, at the best. We had left as much as we could with those back in Eden. It was precautionary, in case more of us were to be lost on this dangerous first journey, and their truck had a bigger bed. But unless they got here soon we were going to have to either attempt a raid or start hunting.

It was a relief though, to know we had an unlimited supply of water with the lake. We had already used one of the big blue barrels and had emptied all the smaller containers. On the third day in the desert, we discovered a very slow leak in the second barrel. We could all be grateful for nature and that we wouldn’t die of dehydration.

Even though we were further south, the air felt cooler here. The peak of summer had passed and fall would be coming in the arriving weeks. I thought longingly of the harvest that would have been ready soon. The garden would have been overflowing with fresh vegetables, the fruit trees heavy with their crop.

I wondered then if we would ever have a garden again. I wasn’t so sure it would ever be safe to set down roots like that again.

But it was hard to imagine we could survive with a good quality of life without one.

People started waking back up around dinner time and those who knew what to do with food prepared it for those who were lacking that know-how. As we finished eating, Avian told them our plans, told them not to expect us to return sooner than a week or so. As he said the words, I felt like a deserter. These were my people and I had to protect them at all costs. Now I was leaving them for who knew how long. Maybe forever.

We asked for a volunteer and Morgan and Eli accepted the task of being in charge of making sure things were run well. Weapons were redistributed and most everyone was educated on how to use them. They seemed so defenseless without our usual scouts.

But they’d survived this long, they knew how to take care of themselves.

The four of us loaded our minimal supplies and the majority of the weaponry into the back of the truck. We unhooked the trailer, every one of us grateful that it had held it together for this long. With quick good-bye’s, we headed directly south.

Tuck sat in the cab by himself as he worked his way through forest again. The tension was obvious in the back, between the three of us, but there was a much more important task at hand than worrying about emotions and feelings.

But I hadn’t forgotten that I was supposed to have made a decision by now. We’d arrived at what might be our final destination and I hadn’t made up my mind.

I felt unprepared as Avian checked the map and we pulled over less than an hour after we had left the rest of the group. As the houses started to crop up, we parked it next to a few other vehicles that had been long abandoned. We all hunted around for stones of any size and stacked them up directly behind the truck. A message to those who might come looking for us.

Thankful for a nearly full moon to see by, we set out at a jog, each in a hurry to get this suicidal task over with. I had to constantly remind myself to slow down. Not all of us were machines.

The houses seemed so forlorn, their windows empty and hollow. All of the families that had once lived there now didn’t care about their upkeep, didn’t laugh or tell stories within their walls. The houses were all just overgrown pieces of a dead history now.

When we had looked at the map all I saw was city after city stacked together, crammed into such a small space. As we came into the center of the first one, my blood chilled. We slowed as we moved past the buildings, Avian and Tuck’s eyes growing wide.

“You were right,” Avian breathed as he cautiously walked up to a building. Dozens of Fallen stared back out at us, their eyes inactive and empty. “They’re just standing there.”

“They look like they’re just waiting for something,” Tuck said, going nowhere near the building.

“Let’s not find out what for,” I said as I started back down the cracked road.

We jogged for as long as Tuck, Avian, and West could breathe for. Tuck held his side as we slowed, Avian’s breathing became heavy, and West struggled to keep up. I wondered what it would be like to feel physical exhaustion. At times I could be grateful for all the enhancements I had received and developed.

I wasn’t sure how they defined one city from the next. It all just seemed like one endless city that kept repeating over and over. And everywhere empty eyes watched us.

We had just turned a corner when I stopped dead in my tracks, West plowing into me from behind, Avian and Tuck nearly tripping over him. The barrel of a shotgun was pressed tightly to my chest.

THIRTY-ONE

“Who are you?” a thickly built man with graying hair demanded. “How’d you get here?”

“We walked,” I started, holding my hands up, despite the weaponry that hung all over my body. “We’ve traveled from the east and found your sign. We came looking, to see if there was  anyone still alive.”

The man’s eyes grew wider in awe. He lowered his gun slightly. Now it was just pointed at my feet. “We haven’t seen anyone else in well over a year. We weren’t sure there was still anyone left.”

“There are more of us,” Avian started. “We’re only part of a fairly large group. Half are still back east. The rest of us are hidden about sixty miles from here.”

He watched us warily and I knew what he was thinking. He was trying to determine if we were human. “You’re coming with me.”

We glanced at each other, knowing we were going to have to be careful. Who knew what to expect.

It was then that we noticed the vehicle that was parked behind him. It was much more rounded than all the other cars I had seen. The front seat where the driver sat was encased with a custom looking glass bubble. The rest of it was a bed similar to the one on our truck. As I climbed in I understood its set up. In case they ever ran into any Fallen and were tricked, they were safely separated in the bubble.

I was confused as the man started down the street. I was expecting the normal engine noise I knew a vehicle should make. This one was soundless.

“Electric,” West said when he saw my confusion. “Now I believe you owe Avian and I an apology?”

“For what?” I asked, furrowing my brow.

“For doubting, for telling us we were wrong. There’s people here. Apparently more than one considering he said ‘we’.”

I just shook my head and watched the buildings as they whipped by. Avian, who sat smashed against my side in the tight quarters of the small vehicle, slipped his hand into mine. The familiar feeling of peace immediately started sinking into me, but even that wasn’t enough to reassure me that everything was going to be okay.

Eyes watched us as we sped down the crumbling streets. I watched for signs of other life, surely this man was not alone out here. But I didn’t see any, just the sad reminders of the empire the human race had once had.

“Where do you think he is taking us?” Tuck asked.

“It will be somewhere incredibly secure,” I said as I continued to observe. “They probably don’t have enough CDU’s to give to each of their scouts. I’m sure he’s taking us wherever there is one.”

Avian’s hand tightened around mine and I noticed how he readjusted his hold on his rifle. Unease washed over me. Not for fear that I might be shorted out in the next hour, but that Avian might do something stupid trying to protect me.

“Don’t,” I whispered to him, though keeping my eyes straight forward. I shook my head just slightly.

“I’m not going to let them do anything to you,” he said as he too kept his eyes forward.

“But I’ll never forgive you if you get yourself killed because of me,” I said quietly, giving his hand a small squeeze.

“Same goes here,” he said as he glanced over at me for just a moment.

We drove for not more than ten minutes when I started seeing them. Humans, standing on top of the towering buildings, watching us from above. Each was heavily armed and looked like they knew how to use their weapons. But despite the fear I knew they must be feeling, I saw the light in their eyes. Was it true that they hadn’t seen any other outsiders in over a year?

We slowed down as we approached a building that had levels upon levels and spanned massively in both directions.

“A real hospital,” Avian breathed as he studied it.

The vehicle we sat in pulled around to the back of the hospital and straight into a huge door. As we stopped inside, it closed behind us.

There were five armed men just inside the door. They each looked as surprised to see us as the first man had been.

“Where’s Royce?” the man who had brought us here asked as he climbed out of the glass bubble. He indicated for us to climb out, his gun pointed at our backs. I wondered if he realized how ridiculous he looked with his one single shotgun when we each had at least three firearms on us.

“He’s upstairs,” one of the men answered him. He stared wide eyed at me. I wondered if anyone could tell that I was different just by looking at me.

“That way,” he said as he prodded West in the back with the barrel. We started walking.

As we walked I noticed that there were rows and rows of vehicles in this concrete expanse of a room. Each of them were shiny and beautiful. They had picked through the best of all the cars, trucks, and vans they could find.

We walked to a large silver rectangle in the wall. The man pressed a button next to it and as it depressed into the wall, it lit up. A few seconds later I jumped, my hands grabbing my hand gun, when the silver wall suddenly opened. I calmed down slightly when Avian and Tuck both stepped inside the box that had opened. The rest of us entered as well and the man pressed another button inside. We started rising.

“It’s called an elevator,” Avian said quietly behind me.

The elevator made a dinging sound and its doors slid open again, revealing a different scene. A hallway stretched out before us, buzzing with the hum of electric devices behind closed doors. More bright lights filled the space.

We walked where the man told us to, stopping at a door midway down the hall. The man knocked, listening.

“Come in,” a voice called.

There were four people inside, gathered around a large desk, looking over some papers. A man with well-trimmed gray hair and a beard straightened. I assumed this was Royce.

“I found them on patrol,” the man behind us said. “They said they found one of our signs and came to take a look.”

“Are there more of you?” the man asked, his gray eyes showing hints of excitement that had given away the rest of them.

Avian nodded his head. “There are sixteen more of us waiting outside the city. The other half of our group is at our old camp. About 800 miles away.”

The man’s eyes widened. “You’ve traveled a long ways to reach us. How was the journey?”

“We made it,” Avian said simply.

“Forgive our unfriendly welcome,” he said as he walked around the table, his arms folded over his chest. “I’m sure you understand the precautions we have to take these days.”

“Of course,” Avian said. I heard the anxiety that was creeping into his voice.

“Come with me please,” Royce said as he stepped around us and out of the room. We followed silently.

Just looking at Royce, one would think he was a leader. His stature was tall and confident. His shoulders were sure, his gait unfaltering. He looked like a man who knew what he was doing, all the time.

Royce led us down the hall and into a room that had no windows and was totally empty of anything other than a leather case. He opened it up as we stepped inside. Others followed us in. I didn’t miss the weapons in their belts, in their pockets, and obviously in their hands. And I was very aware of the fact that they had closed the door behind us.

It looked different than ours but it was unmistakably a CDU. As if on cue, West, Avian, and Tuck adjusted their stances so they were standing just in front of me.

“This shouldn’t hurt gentlemen, and lady,” he said with a tight-lipped smile as he charged it up. The center of it glowed a brilliant blue. “Just a small shock.”

Avian stepped up first, pulling the sleeve of his shirt up and offering his arm. His arm twitched as the device was pressed to his arm. West went next, followed by Tuck.

“Thank you, gentlemen,” Royce said, giving them that same tight-lipped, fake looking smile. “My lady.”

The three of them tightened around me. As they did, Royce’s eyes hardened and he stopped in his tracks. “You know all newcomers must be tested. She is no exception.”

“She is,” West said quietly.

“She’s different,” Avian said, trying to keep his voice calm sounding.

As if their words had opened up a book on their faces, Royce’s eyes widened and he took a step back, drawing a handgun out from the belt of his pants. As he did, the rest of the people in the room drew their weapons as well.

“Hold on!” Avian shouted as he backed further into me, holding his hands up toward our captors. “She’s not Fallen! But she has cybernetic parts in her. She’s different from them.”

“They’re all the same!” Royce shouted as he aimed his gun at my head. “She’s a danger being here. My scouts should have shot her before she came within a hundred feet of this building.”

“She can’t be infected!” West shouted at the man. “She was experimented on. My grandfather was Dr. Evans. She was his experiment before the infection was developed.”

“Dr. Evans?” Royce spat out. “That heartless scum bag created the infection. He wouldn’t have bothered with a hybrid. In his quest for savior status he destroyed the world.”

“Yes he did, but I assure you he was my grandfather. My father Fell early on and someone set Eve free after everything happened. She’s human but he did things to her. You can’t test her or it will kill her,” West’s voice sounded pleading.

“They are all the same!” Royce shouted as he thrust his gun in our direction again. “I don’t know how she’s tricked you into thinking differently but it’s a miracle she hasn’t infected you yet.”

At the same time, both Avian and West turned and each took one of my hands.

“She doesn’t carry the infection,” Avian said, his voice serious and low. “She’s been with me for the last five years and she’s never turned against us. She’s done nothing but protect us.”

The door at our backs suddenly opened and a very tanned looking face with jet-black hair popped in. I had to do a double take. I almost wondered if I had seen him before but brushed that off.

“What is all the shouting about?” he asked, his voice sounding slightly alarmed.

“She’s one of them,” Royce said, his voice cold. “They’re claiming she’s different.”

The new man’s eyes jumped to my face and his eyes narrowed at me. “Eve?”

“How do you know my name?” I spoke for the first time since we had been brought in.

“It’s really you,” he breathed as he stepped inside. “You survived.”

“Dr. Beeson?” West asked with uncertainty in his voice.

“You were the one who took over my observation,” I said as the name echoed in my memory from the notebook.

He nodded, his eyes still wide.

“So, you’re saying they’re telling the truth, Erik?” Royce demanded.

“She is different, yes,” he said as his eyes glanced over at Royce. “She had a chip implanted into her brain that enhanced her. She was a preliminary experiment that lead up to the infection. If you use that on her, it will kill her,” he said as he indicated the CDU Royce still had clutched in his hand. “I cannot confirm though what she is capable of.”

“She’s fine,” Avian said through clenched teeth.

“If I turn on you, you can shoot me yourself,” I said to Royce with hard eyes. “I promise you that won’t happen though.”

He looked at me long and hard, distrust written all over his face. I didn’t blame him, I would have been the same way. I thought then, that under less critical circumstances, we might have gotten along very well.

“Remove her weapons from her,” Royce said. “I won’t have you walking around here armed like that.”

I saw West’s eyes flash to my face in momentary panic. I shook my head at him. I didn’t like it either but I also didn’t see any other way to get through this. Their men relieved me of my weapons. When one of them reached for my pack, I grabbed his wrist, shaking my head at him. His eyes grew wide and he withdrew his hand, backing away across the room. I almost smiled.

“You’re sure she’s different, Erik?” Royce asked again, his eyes narrowed.

“Quite,” he said as he opened the door and held it open for everyone.

Royce finally lowered his weapon. As he did, the rest of his men followed suit. “Forgive me if I’m not exactly welcoming,” he said as his face softened, though his eyes were still cold on me. “I’m not so keen on the reliability of a human-cybernetic hybrid I’ve never heard of.”

“I wasn’t so keen on the idea myself when I first found out what I was,” I said back, never loosing eye contact.

Everyone else in the room probably missed it, but my enhanced eyes caught the twitch in his cheek as a smile was fought back.

“Well gentlemen,” Royce said as he started for the door. “And lady. Welcome to Los Angeles. This is our Sanctuary in the middle of hell on Earth.”

We followed him back out into the hall and Dr. Beeson broke off from the rest of us. “Our offices are on this level, as well as several of our labs,” Royce said as he indicated the doors down this hall. We followed him back where we had come from and reentered the elevator. My stomach felt strange as we started to descend. The door opened to a different level, this one bustling with people, opening up into a big lobby.

“This is our other headquarters,” Royce said as we stepped out and into the busy room. “Everything gets run from this room. All the scheduling for patrol, shifts in the kitchen, maintenance, it’s all made here. Everything is logged in, tracked. We keep a tight schedule but everything runs smoothly.”

And as I looked around, everything he said made sense. Everyone looked like they had a place to be, a job to fulfill. It was then that I noticed the solid steel shutters that covered the front door, all of the windows, and every other opening.

“Keeps out things we don’t want getting in,” Royce said when he noticed me observing them.

“You keep them out during the day, even in the middle of all of this,” I said, my voice impressed.

Royce nodded as we continued to follow him toward the back of the big front area. We entered into another hallway, this one wider and more open than the one upstairs. “Restrooms are right there,” he said, pointing to a pair of wooden doors. I wondered what he meant by “restroom”.

We turned a corner and came into another fairly large room with tables and chairs set up everywhere. Along one wall was some sort of glass case and beyond that I could see the strangest looking kitchen I had ever seen. It was all shiny steel and smooth surfaces.

“Back there’s the kitchen,” Royce said as he pointed in that direction. “Meals are served at nine PM, one AM, and seven AM. Pretty much all of us keep a nocturnal schedule here. Dinner will be served in about two hours,” he said as he glanced at his watch. “Most of us wake up around eight PM, just before the sun starts to go down outside. Bed is around ten AM.”

“Doesn’t this place start to feel like a prison?” I couldn’t help but asking. “You never even see the sun.”

“Our lifestyle isn’t easy,” Royce said as he met my eyes. “But it’s kept over one hundred people alive all this time.”

“There are that many of you?” West asked in amazement.

“For a few years we were gaining five or six new people a year. Then it started becoming fewer and fewer. There’s been no one for the last year. We figured there wasn’t anyone left.”

“We found two more people on our way here,” I said as we walked out of the dining room and back out into the hall. “In the middle of the desert.”

“We look forward to meeting everyone in your group. I’ve never heard of such a large group traveling so far. How did you manage it?”

“We drove,” Avian answered.

“I’m impressed,” he said as he raised his brows. We turned another corner and stopped at a desk where a man in a white jacket sat. He looked up at us with surprise in his eyes as we approached him. “This is Dr. Giles. He’s the head physician here. These people here traveled from back east,” he explained to Dr. Giles. After the introduction, Royce stepped into a side room. I heard another voice floating through the door.

“Congratulations on surviving,” the man with the shiny head said. His eyes were kind behind his glasses as he extended his hand to us. I watched as Avian and Tuck shook his hand, observing closely so I did it just right when it came my turn. The motion felt strange and foreign.

“You’re a real doctor?” Avian asked, longing and awe in his voice.

“Board certified,” he said with a smile. His teeth were astonishingly white. “Well, used to be before there was no more board to pass. There are three other medical doctors here as well.”

The amazement was obvious in Avian’s eyes as he shook his head.

“Avian has been our doctor for the last five years,” I said, feeling an odd sense of pride in him.

“Ah, wonderful,” Dr. Giles said. “Where was your practice before the world Fell?”

“Uh,” Avian stumbled over his words. “I actually never attended medical school. I had two and a half years of medical training when I was in the Army. Since I had the most experience I became the doctor. I learned most of my knowledge through experience.”

“Very good,” Dr. Giles said, something in his eyes changing. It took me a moment to realize what it was. It was the loss of respect. I suddenly didn’t like the doctor half as much. I’d like to see this man treat a bullet wound in the middle of the forest with next to no supplies.

“Do you mind if I take a look around your quarters?” Avian asked, unbothered by the man’s rudeness.

“We have a few open rooms you’re welcome to examine,” he said, his friendly demeanor back. “And so is our surgery room. We have patients in a few rooms so I’ll ask you to keep quiet.”

He led us into a room that was so sterile I hesitated in the doorway with my dusty boots and dirty clothes.

Avian walked into the room alone as the rest of us waited in the doorway. His eyes were alight as he observed the strange bed with the rails on the side of it. He ran his hands over a piece of equipment that stood as tall as him, all kinds of buttons and screens on it. He opened and closed drawers and I could just imagine what he would have done for all of these supplies.

I realized then what the fact that there were four doctors here meant. If we stayed here, moved the rest of Eden into this city, Avian would never have to be tied down because of his medical knowledge again. He would be free to do whatever he wanted. He could go anywhere.

Dr. Giles took us to the surgery room, but only let us look in through a window. As I observed the steel blades that lay out, gleaming in the light as it shone through the window, my breath caught in my throat. I saw the steel table in the middle of the room and my dreams flooded my thoughts.

The sound of the drill and the cool against the back of my shaven head were all I could process.

“Come on,” West’s voice said from somewhere and I felt him take my hand and lead me back out into the hall.

I saw nothing as I stood with my back against the tall desk, holding my arms around me. West stood to the side of me, his arm draped around my shoulders, squeezing me into his side.

Avian finally walked back out into the hall and stopped in his tracks. He looked at me, glanced back in the direction of the surgery room, and his face blanched white. “Eve, I’m so sorry,” he said, his eyes looking panicked.

I just shook my head, my eyes glued to the floor. Avian was suddenly standing right in front of me, his hands on either side of my face. As I looked up into his blue eyes, I felt my insides loosen up. I still felt sick though.

“You shouldn’t be touching her,” Avian said, his voice cold as he looked over at West. “Having something happen here is not going to help Eve’s case.” He spoke quietly enough only the three of us could hear.

West only looked at Avian coldly as he took two steps away from me. All three of us glanced over at Royce who had just stepped out of the room and Dr. Giles who watched us with hesitancy.

“Sorry, gentlemen,” Avian said as he stepped away from me slightly. “Just bad memories for some of us.”

They both gave slight nods, though they still looked at me warily.

“I’ll show you our sleeping quarters,” Royce said, dismissing the awkward moment. He walked back out into the main hall and continued down. As we followed, West slipped his hand into mine. I shook it off, remembering what Avian had said to him. It was too great of a risk, having West send me into overload here. West should have understood that.

We entered another hall that was lined with doors. These ones were different however. They had names written on them, some written in clear, precise letters, others painted in colored fonts that I could hardly read.

“These are the living quarters,” Royce said as we walked past personalized doors. “Of course they were once just normal hospital rooms. We’ve converted them into living space. Each of them has their own restroom. They’re not large but they’re big enough to keep all of your personal effects in and get some sleep.”

“What’s a ‘restroom’,” I whispered to Tuck as we walked.

He gave a slight chuckle and whispered in my ear. My brow furrowed. “If that’s what it is why do they call it a restroom?”

Tuck just chuckled again and shrugged his shoulders.

We came to the end of the hall and opened a door that revealed a set of stairs. As we came out on the next floor up, we discovered another hallway of personalized doors.

“Would you like rooms for this afternoon?” Royce asked as we stopped in the middle of the hallway. “I hope you plan on staying with us. Of course you’re free to leave whenever you like but I would encourage you to stay. We can offer you protection, food, comfort.”

Comfort. I was pretty sure I would be more comfortable out in the woods than I would be in this boxed-up prison.

“We’re not sure what our plans are honestly,” Avian said as he glanced at West, Tuck, and I.

“We weren’t even sure if we’d find anyone alive, or if we were walking into a death trap,” West said.

“I’m sure we could all use some sleep though,” Avian continued. “I know at least I would like to stay for another day, explore your facility more. I’m fascinated by how you’ve managed to thrive in the middle of a city.”

Royce nodded. “Of course. This way.” He led us further down the hall. “You can use these three rooms, they’ve recently been made empty.”

“Three?” I questioned. “There are four of us.”

Royce looked confused for a moment. “I’m sorry, I assumed the two of you would want a room together,” he said as he indicated Avian and I. I then remembered how he had watched as Avian had held my face between his hands, how close our faces had been together.

“If you have four rooms,” West jumped in, not looking at Avian or I. I swallowed hard, unsure of how I felt.

A small smile crossed Royce’s face. “That one is available as well,” he said as he pointed at the door across from the other three. “Will you remember how to get back to the dining room in an hour for dinner?”

We each nodded our heads and Royce left our sides.

Before I would have to face any of the awkwardness between the two of them I let myself into one of the rooms and closed the door behind me.

The room felt so sterile, just like the rest of this relic of a hospital. The walls were all white, the bed made up with white sheets, white pillows. Even the wooden drawers and cupboards felt too clean and pristine.

I longed for my tent back in Eden.

I opened a door, finding what must have been a “restroom”. The hint of a smile tugged on my face as I saw the shower, remembering the one real one I had had in the cabin I had found.

A knock on the door startled me. “Who is it?” I called through the thick wood.

“I’ve brought you some things,” a female voice called from behind the door.

Hesitantly, I opened it. The girl behind it looked close to my age. Her eyes were narrow and dark, her hair jet black and perfectly straight.

“My name is Lin,” she said, giving me a smile. Her eyes seemed to almost disappear when she did so. “I brought you a few things.”

I then noticed the cart she was wheeling. She grabbed a gray colored blanket, a few items of clothing, and a few bottles of unknown liquid.

“What are these?” I asked as I opened the lids and took a wiff. They smelled nice.

“To wash your hair?” she said, her face looking slightly confused. The smallest of a chuckle escaped her lips.

“Thank you,” I said as I put all my new things under my arm. There was something about this girl I liked. She seemed… warm.

“If you need anything else, any help, I’m just a few doors down,” she said as she pointed down the hall. “My door is the one with the white lily painted on it.”

“Thank you, Lin,” I said again. She gave me another smile and crossed the hall to knock on another door.

I went back into the bathroom and after a few minutes figured out how to get the hot water to flow. My clothes felt crusted as I pealed them off, setting them and my pack on the floor.

A sigh escaped my throat as the hot water poured over my beat and scarred body. My muscles relaxed and even my insides felt cleaner as I breathed in the steam. The water ran brown for a while, the desert we had survived going down the polished silver drain.

I used the products Lin had given me on my hair. I ended up lathering it all over my entire body it smelled so nice. My hair felt so smooth after it all washed out.

I stood with my hands braced against the shower wall, the water cascading over my head. I didn’t want to go back out there, to where I knew people didn’t trust me. Facing Avian and West felt like too much to deal with right now. And what was going to happen now? It was all to exhausting to think about.

After almost an hour, I climbed out of the shower, dried off with the towel Lin had given me, and pulled on the stark green clothes. Grabbing the gray blanket, I curled up in my new bed.

I had finally hit my limit. Just a few seconds later I was out.

THIRTY-TWO

The ceiling above my head confused me when I first woke. Everything that had happened in the last day, in the last week, came rushing up at me with exhausting force. Dim lights glowed along the floor as I slid my feet off the edge of the bed. I walked to the now open window and looked out.

How strange, to live in this concrete jungle. Small patches of green cropped up but it was being choked out by the gray concrete, steel, and glass. And everywhere I could see eyes. How could they stand it, being in the middle of them all, all the time? How had they kept them out?

The lights glowed brightly overhead as I walked out into the empty hall. My steps echoed as I descended the stairs. I had to take a deep breath as I stood behind the steel door, gathering courage to go out into the unknown. Why was it so simple to go on a raid into the city, knowing I might not come back, and yet walking out among those strangers, among other humans, was so hard and terrifying?

I traced my way back to the infirmary, past the dining hall and kitchen, and out into the bustling lobby. I stood at the entrance of the hall for a while, watching as they moved around.

In a way, they were all like soldiers. They all had their orders, a task to execute. Some of them entered what I assumed was some kind of information into black boxes, a few cleaned the area, other’s brought in sheets of paper. The guard seemed to switch as a handful of armed men walked out those glass front doors. I wondered where I would fit into this hive.

I saw no signs of Avian, West, or Tuck and I felt awkward for a while, unsure of what to do with myself or where to go. And I didn’t like the fact that I didn’t know where any of my weapons had gone to.

“Eve,” a familiar voice called from behind me. As I turned, I recognized Dr. Beeson. His smile was bright as he approached me, his eyes always filled with awe. “I was just looking for you. You’re companion, Avian, said you were still resting.”

“I overslept,” I said simply as we stood together.

He gave the slightest of chuckles for a reason I didn’t really understand. “Would you mind chatting with me for a while? I’m dying of curiosity as to what has happened to you in the past almost six years.”

“I suppose,” I agreed. This man didn’t seem like a threat, and even without any weapons I was quite confident I could overpower him if I had to.

We walked to the elevator, a dozen pairs of eyes watching us as we did. He pushed the number seven button and slowly we began to rise again. When it slid open I was almost startled at all the brilliant blue lights that ran through the walls, along the floor, on the ceiling.

“We use a lot of power on this floor. This level has been specially wired to keep up,” he explained.

We walked down the hall a little bit, stopping at a large solid black door. Dr. Beeson entered a code into a number pad and it clicked open.

The room we entered into glowed with the blue lights, heavily contrasted by the darkness of having no windows into the starlit night. Screens glowed from the walls, flashes of information bursting across them.

“This is my office, my lab,” he said as he looked around the room with me. For some reason all the information flashing across his screens seemed familiar, like a language I had forgotten how to speak. “Please, have a seat.”

I sat in one of the two overly comfortable black chairs, sitting on the edge of it, my hands tucked between my knees.

“So I assume you know what happened to you?” he asked, his voice losing its cheeriness. “About the things that were done to you?”

I nodded my head. “I knew that West’s grandfather experimented on me. He placed some kind of chip in my brain but it didn’t just stay a chip. I was observed for years and eventually he used the information he gathered from me to create the infection.”

I stopped there, swallowing the lump in my throat.

Dr. Beeson nodded. “First, let me say that I never agreed with what they were doing to you. I was a young scientist then, working on my development of the capacity of the human mind to receive wireless signals. I was fascinated with the work he was doing on you. But you were just a girl. What Dr. Evans did was wrong.

“But, if we would have been able to control what happened, we would have saved millions of lives.”

“Instead billions were killed,” I said coldly.

“Unforgivable,” he said as his eyes dropped to the ground. “I first tried to remedy what I did by setting you free. I used the wireless capability of the chip in your brain to wipe your memory clean. No girl should have to remember the things you were put through. I assume it worked?”

“I have dreams sometimes,” I said quietly, my eyes falling to my hands. “How much of it is purely nightmare and how much of it is something real, I don’t know.”

“The brain is a complex thing. I’m sorry I couldn’t spare you from everything.”

“Will those memories ever be recovered?” I asked.

“No,” he said simply. “They were permanently wiped, almost as if that part of your brain was removed. Would you really want to remember the rest of it though?”

I had to think about it for a while. “No.”

“There were only five of us that escaped that facility. Everyone else Fell so quickly. It’s a miracle that I made it out. That was when I first realized that you couldn’t be infected. I tasked one of the other men who made it out to take you out into the country and set you free. I never saw that man again.”

“Avian found me,” I filled in the empty blanks of the past. “Nearly naked out in the forest, covered in blood, but with not a scratch on me. They knew something was different about me. They just didn’t know what. I only found out a few months ago.”

“Tell me what you’re able to do,” he said, excitement building in his eyes again. “Has the programming evolved more? The cybernetics?”

I sat forward again, rubbing my hand over the thin scar that had already formed on the back of my hand from when I had punched a hole through the metal door at the Air Force base. “I heal quickly,” I started. “I don’t usually feel pain. Electricity is about the only thing I seem to feel. It’s made me pass out before though, pain. My brain still registers it I guess.

“I don’t require as much sleep as normal. I don’t get tired very easily. I don’t need to eat as much as normal people. I’m faster than everyone, stronger than most.”

“Have you ever been up against a Fallen?”

The smile on my face couldn’t be fought back. “More than a few times. I didn’t understand what was happening the first time one tackled me. I thought I was going to change. But I didn’t.”

“Amazing,” he whispered, a smile in the corner of his mouth. “Have you seen any traces of the cybernetic parts that have saturated your system?”

I nodded. “The Fallen had these metal barbs that shocked you. I grabbed some once, it burned away my skin,” I said as I turned my hand over, observing the scars there. “I could see all the gears and wires.”

“That must have been frightening for you,” he said.

“But you know that I’m not supposed to feel fear,” I said quietly as my eyes rose to meet his.

He didn’t say anything for a while as he held my stare. I wondered how he lived with himself, knowing he had helped bring about the end of the world and then survived to see the destruction. I felt sorry for him. “You’re right. You aren’t supposed to feel emotion. It was an anomaly that Dr. Evans chose to ignore, the fact that you were evolving past the programming. You had to be reprogrammed every few years. As you moved beyond it though, your emotions and reactions were so strong. When you got overwhelmed by your emotions a few times, you just blanked out. Just like those Fallen you see outside.”

I swallowed hard, my stomach knotting up. “It still happens.”

“Really?” he said, his eyebrows knitting together as he sat back in his chair.

“But only when I’m around one certain person.”

“And how do you feel about this person?”

“That’s the unanswerable question,” I said quietly.

“Do you have romantic feelings for him? Or maybe an extreme hatred?”

I gave a hollow chuckle. “I think both.”

“It’s one of the men you arrived with, isn’t it?” he said with a sly smile.

I nodded. “I didn’t feel things like this until he showed up at our camp. Something inside of me started waking up when I was with him. I don’t know how to handle it. He makes me feel alive and yet he can anger me so much I almost tried to kill him once. And then I just black out.”

“It’s probably overloading you, or rather the chip. Your brain and the chip can’t work together and it shuts you down in a way. I don’t think you will be a danger to anyone. It’s not like you’re turning into a Fallen, you just kind of… shut off.”

It was a relief to have it so plainly explained to me. And to know I wasn’t going to try and attack anyone. If only the other parts related to it all could be so easily explained.

“Do you know what love is, Eve?” he asked as he leaned in close to me.

I closed my eyes, shaking my head. “Please don’t ask me that question. Everyone wants to know and I don’t have an answer for any of them.”

“There’s something else I need to tell you, Eve,” he said, his voice low and serious again. There was something in the tone of his voice that told me this conversation wasn’t going to be a good one. “I knew your mother.”

At his words, my eyes flew open. My mother.

“She worked at the facility with me, with West’s father and grandfather. She was an incredibly beautiful woman, she looked a lot like you. She had your same blond hair, your same exact nose.

“There’s no easy or polite way to put it,” he said, looking uncomfortable. “Your mother and Dr. Evans had an affair about nineteen years ago. The younger Dr. Evans.”

As I pieced together the things he was telling me, my insides grew cold. My mother and Dr. Evans. An affair. Nineteen years ago. West’s father.

Could also be my father.

My stomach gave a lurch and I barely suppressed the gag that ripped up my throat. Stars formed on the edges of my vision. Dr. Beeson guided my head down between my knees.

“There was another man involved,” Dr. Beeson continued quickly. “I didn’t know him, he didn’t work with us but your mother wasn’t sure who the father really was. But there is a fifty percent chance that Dr. Evans is not your father,” he said as he rubbed circles into my back. It wasn’t comforting. “I’m sorry to be the one who has to tell you this. I just thought that enough secrets have been kept from you, it wasn’t fair that there was one more.”

“He… West…” I gasped. “Could be my… brother.”

“It was very public, that your mother and Dr. Evans had had an affair. His wife found out and basically announced it to the whole building in her rage. Your mother had to come in to work every day, baring the shame of what she had done.”

I continued to take gasping breaths, my head spinning. No, no, it couldn’t be true.

“Your mother had no family, no real friends. Her work was her life. She gave birth at the facility. Dr. Evans delivered the baby himself. Your mother, she didn’t make it. There were complications.

“We weren’t sure what to do with you. There was no family to send you to and we all knew what foster care was like. It was the senior Dr. Evans that decided that you would be raised at the facility. It was as you neared your first birthday that we realized what his real plans were for you all along.”

I wondered if this was what shock felt like. I remembered Avian talking about it once. I wanted to tell Dr. Beeson to stop talking.  But I had to know. I had to understand where I had come from.

“The younger Dr. Evans had a paternity test done, to see if he really was the father. His wife had just had a baby around the time of your conception. He’d been left with West almost as soon as he was born. Now he might have two babies on his already busy hands.

“He kept the results to himself. None of us knew if the toddler we were experimenting on was his. Everyone lost a lot of respect for him though, after that. Even if you weren’t his, what he was allowing to be done was wrong in so many ways.”

I gulped down air, willing my vision to focus. My head still spun as I sat up and tried to focus on Dr. Beeson’s face. I was also fighting the urge to vomit.

“We have samples of Dr. Evans DNA. We have managed to recover some things from the old facility,” he said very quietly as he looked intently into my face. “We can easily run a test and prove or disprove Dr. Evans was your father. Would you like me to do that?”

I could only look at him for a long time. I would have no doubts if he ran the test. I always craved the truth, especially after all the lies I had uncovered. But what if West really was my brother? Would it be better to not ever really know?

My instincts took over as I nodded my head.

“Alright. Do you think you can walk down the hall with me?” he spoke very slowly. I stood and followed him on shaking legs.

We walked into a small room, filled with beeping equipment and flashing lights. It was the epitome of a lab.

Dr. Beeson fussed at a drawer, pulling out items and snapping on a pair of gloves. “Make a fist,” he instructed. Mindlessly, I obeyed. I didn’t even feel it as he tied a rubber band around my arm and sank the needle into the crease at my elbow. He filled a small vile with my blood. He pulled the needle out and capped the vial.

“We will run this as soon as we can. Hopefully we can get the results back the day after tomorrow,” he said quietly. He watched me closely, always the observer. “I really am sorry to drop this on you.”

“He doesn’t know, does he?” I asked, my eyes fixed on a blinking red light before me.

“No, West doesn’t know about everything that happened,” he almost whispered. “I thought you should know, Eve. I know how complicated emotions can be. I just thought you needed to find out before it became a painful regret.”

“Thank you,” I whispered as I turned back to the door and stumbled out. The next thing I knew, the elevator doors were sliding open and I slumped against the wall after pressing the number two button. It dinged and I walked emptily back towards my room.

THIRTY-THREE

For an entire day I shut myself off. I stared at the wall through the dark, not allowing myself to feel anything, not thinking anything. I was empty.

It was easier to feel hollow.

I think Avian and West and maybe even Lin knocked on my door. I just locked them out with no intention of letting any of them in. I just couldn’t deal with them right now.

But eventually my survival instinct kicked in. I felt dried up and starved. I hadn’t eaten since we had left the first group of Eden in the national forest.

There were only a few people left in the dining hall when I wandered down, still in my strange green clothes. They glanced up at me, merely a look to try and remember my face. They were now all well aware of the fact that there were four newcomers.

I was handed a scoop of pears, a pile of steaming eggs and a glass of ice cold, formerly powdered milk. I sat at a table in the corner of the room, shoveling everything down so fast the real chicken eggs burned my throat. It had been years since I had had eggs from a chicken. Wolves had gotten to ours long ago.

I caught sight of Royce approaching me from across the room. He was in good shape, especially for being in his later forties I guessed. His nose was straight, his jaw sharp. He looked like a leader you would want to follow.

He sat down at the table across from me, just searching my face for a while. “Erik told me everything that happened,” he said. “Everything about what was done to you as a child. I also talked with Avian.

“I’m sorry for my behavior before,” he said uncomfortably. I had a feeling Royce wasn’t one that apologized often. “What you’ve been though is unfathomable. Avian told me what you did for the members of Eden. For his sister.”

My stomach knotted up again as he spoke of Sarah. I wanted her to hug me and tell me everything was going to be okay.

“We could use a soldier like you,” he said as he held my eyes steadily. “It’s getting harder and harder to keep them out, times are changing. We want to invite you, and the rest of your group to join with us. We would be honored to have all of you here.”

I just looked at him, trying to make my brain process everything. I felt so sluggish. “What did Avian say?” I asked. My voice sounded terrible.

“He hasn’t given me an answer yet. I talked with West and Tuck as well. They both liked the idea but wouldn’t give an answer without consulting with the rest of your group.”

I nodded. “My answer is the same. It’s not just my decision.”

Royce nodded. “That’s fine. I wouldn’t expect anything different. I want to show you something. All four of you.”

My chest felt tight at having to finally face West. I wasn’t sure I could handle it. But I wasn’t a child, I wasn’t going to just flop at the first sign of difficulty. I stood, returned my plate and glass, and followed Royce out into the main front room. I felt my face blanch as I saw West reading something in one corner. His eyes found mine and my stomach felt sick.

West could be my brother.

Royce indicated for him to come with us. West marked his place, set the book down and joined us.

“There are a few things I want to show you,” Royce repeated to West. We spotted Tuck across the room as well, talking to a woman. He joined us.

As we walked down the hall to the medical wing, West couldn’t hold back the question anymore. “Are you okay? I’ve been pretty worried about you.”

I shook my head, feeling freezing cold as I did. I caught a glimpse of myself in a mirror. I looked like a skeleton walking, my skin pale white, my hair hanging loose and limp, my body too thin.

“What’s the matter?” he pushed.

I shook my head again. “I don’t want to talk about it right now.” I had to know for sure first if West really was my brother before I could drop that bomb on him. And I still couldn’t wrap my head around the possibility.

He didn’t get a chance to respond to that as we entered the medical wing and Avian came walking out of a room with a doctor I had not seen yet.

“That’s a wonderful idea,” the new doctor said. “I’d love to give it a try sometime.”

“When we have more time I’ll tell you how I removed a tree branch from a man’s chest cavity in the middle of the forest with no medical supplies. Without killing him,” Avian said with a chuckle.

“Okay,” the doctor grinned back. He shook Avian’s hand and walked into another room.

“There’s something I’d like to show you,” Royce said when Avian turned his eyes on us. He looked momentarily surprised to see me. A few moments later, we were rising in the elevator toward the third floor. I was very aware of Avian’s keen eyes on the back of my head.

We stepped out into the blue glowing hallway, surprise filling the other three’s faces. Unease crept up in me as we approached the door to Dr. Beeson’s lab. We stopped just outside the door.

“I understand your hesitancies in joining us,” Royce started. “Living here has its challenges. But I want you to understand the benefits that come with a place like this, besides the obvious of electricity and running water.”

He opened the door and we crowded into the room, Dr. Beeson staring at the flashing screens before him.

“Erik has developed technology to interface with the Fallen,” Royce started explaining. “Trust me, there are endless Hunters out there who would have ripped this building apart, bit by bit, if not for his research.”

“You can control them?” West asked.

“What we can do is very limited,” Br. Beeson said as he tore his eyes away from the screen before him. “It’s difficult to transmit any information to such a large amount of receptacles. If we could focus only on one Fallen we could do probably just about anything to them. But with so many, pretty much all we can do is tell them to keep away from this building.”

“So in a way, you make this building invisible, or make them forget that it’s here?” West questioned. He eyed the information on the screens closely. I wondered if he understood any of it. “It’s kind of like when Eve controls them.”

“You can?” both Royce and Dr. Beeson exclaimed at the same time.

I shook my head. “I don’t know. I’ve just made them stop what they were doing before. All I did was tell them to get away. For some reason they listened.”

Dr. Beeson nodded, his eyes excited again. “The chip in your brain is set up for wireless transmission. That’s how we made adjustments to the chip. We never would have guessed that you could send signals though.”

“So, could I be controlled with that?” I asked hesitantly, pointing at the screens. Dr. Beeson looked back at them.

“I don’t see why not. The technology is virtually the same. But this computer is password protected so that only myself and my assistant have access to it. No one is going to hijack your brain,” he said with the hint of a smile.

“So you see why we are safe here?” Royce said. “In the four years that we have had this set up, we have never had a breach, or anything even remotely close.”

“It’s impressive,” West said, his eyes still studying everything before him. “Would you mind if I came back later and talked to you about this some more?” he asked Dr. Beeson.

“Of course,” he said with a smile and a nod.

“I have one question for you,” I said. My voice was hoarse sounding. Dr. Beeson nodded. “What are they waiting for?”

“The Fallen?” he asked. I simply nodded. Everyone in the room stiffened slightly, recalling the bodies we had all seen, lined up inside the buildings.

“The end of the world,” he said, his eyes looking dead suddenly. “You have to understand that the technology was designed simply to assist people in living. It doesn’t have any desire to do anything but spread. Once it has finished doing that, it will simply exist. It isn’t waiting for anything but the end of time.”

No one said anything as Dr. Beeson looked back at us with hollow eyes.

Hollow. That was a good way to describe the way the world was becoming. The way I was starting to feel again.

“Excuse me. I’ve got to get back to work,” Dr. Beeson said, his voice tight.

“Thank you, Erik,” Royce said as we walked back out into the glowing hall and closed the door behind us. “This way. There’s something else I want you to see.”

We walked further down the hall and opened another heavy black door. The room we entered into was largely dominated by a terrifying looking steel chair in the center. Bands for securing a person’s hands were welded to the arms of the chair, another set of bands for the ankles. The entire chair was surrounded by metallic arms that rose from the ground, curving in a bowl shape, giving the slight resemblance to a terrifying bird cage. They shone in a menacing and primal way.

“We’ve been lucky to have the best scientists who survived at this facility,” Royce said as he approached the contraption. It almost seemed to glow under the blue lights. “We worked on this for five years before they got it right. We started work on it before this facility was even fully developed.

“I worked in weapons development and warfare research for the United States government for seventeen years before the Fall happened. It was my concept but I couldn’t have done it without the entire team.”

“What is it?” Avian asked.

“It’s an extractor.”

“For what?”

“The infection.”

We all stood in silence for a moment, processing what Royce had just said. It hit us like a punch in the gut.

“It extracts the infection?” West said, his voice doubtful. “As in takes the cybernetics out?”

Royce nodded and started circling the extractor. “It isn’t always successful. The person who has been infected must start treatment within an hour of being touched. After that time frame it seems to always be too late.”

“And it’s worked?” Avian asked in awe.

“On one man. We’ve tried it on two others but it was not successful. They had been infected for over two hours though. The process, however,” Royce paused, looking us in the eye as he rested his hands on the back of the intimidating chair, “is very, very painful.”

“These are magnetic, aren’t they?” West asked as he approached the extractor and touched one of the rounded arms. They were taller than he was.

Royce nodded. “Surgery could never find all the tiny parts. And you could never operate fast enough. They’d turn on the table and heal before your eyes. And then they’d infect you. With this method, it gets every little piece. And pulls it right out through your skin.”

“But how could anyone survive that?” Avian asked, his brow furrowing. “The process would kill you just from the pain you would feel.”

“Anyone going through the treatment is placed in a medically induced coma. It’s a slow process. If we pull too fast, all of the person’s insides will be shredded to bits. We have to extract everything slowly, allowing the body to heal as everything is being pulled out. And then this,” he said as he pointed to a round disk in the ceiling above us, “keeps it from spreading. It’s an electrical pulse that contains it. It’s not strong enough to wipe everything out. If we crank it up too far, it would kill the person too fast.”

“You wanted to see me, Royce?” a voice from behind us said. We all turned at once to see who had joined us.

“Yes, please come in, Elijah,” Royce said as he stepped past us and joined the man at his side. “Elijah underwent extraction five months ago. He has fully recovered with no traces of cybernetics left.”

Saying this man had fully recovered seemed like a cruel joke. He wore an eye patch and I understood why. The eyes were usually the first thing to turn. Half of his face looked like it had been rubbed over the crumbling road, and not let up for hours. The short sleeved shirt he wore exposed the pocked and scarred skin of his arms. His hands looked similar.

“Elijah had been on scouting duty when a Hunter cornered him. As you know, one touch is all it takes. One of our other scouts killed the Hunter and brought him back here. It had only been just over a half an hour when he started the treatment.”

“How long did it take?” Avian asked. I saw him swallow hard. I wondered if he was thinking of Tye, like I was.

“Almost three weeks,” Elijah said. His voice was as rough sounding as the rest of his body looked.

“This is really amazing,” Avian said, shaking his head. He just kept blinking, as if what he was seeing would disappear at any moment. I didn’t blame him. This didn’t seem real.

“I must get back to my duties,” Elijah said, looking over at Royce.

“Of course,” he said. “Thank you for coming.” Elijah stepped out of the room and I heard his footsteps fade down the hall.

“I see no reason for you not to stay,” Royce said as he turned and looked at the four of us. “We can keep you fed, keep you safe, comfortable. I think we have an obligation to keep the human race alive. We all do.

“But, I understand that you need everyone to make a decision. We can send vehicles after the rest of your group if you like. We have military tanks that will keep any Fallen out and there is room enough for all the members you brought with you.”

I could feel my brain clouding up again. This was too much, too fast. I needed more time to process everything, to sort it all out. Luckily, Avian was clear-headed as always.

“If we could have a bit of time alone to discuss this, it would be appreciated,” he said, glancing at West, Tuck, and I.

“Of course,” Royce nodded. “You’re welcome to use one of the offices if you’d like, or you have your rooms. I will be in my office if you need me.”

We followed Royce back to the elevator. I felt like I was suffocating in this tiny box. Everything was pressing in too close, including West. I gasped in the air as the doors slid open and we stepped out.

West…

My brother…

Breathe, Eve. Focus.

We entered into an empty room just a few doors down from Royce’s office. It was devoid of anything but two wooden chairs. I took one as soon as we entered.

“This is amazing,” West said as he closed the door behind us. “I wondered how they kept them away here but I never would have imagined it was through wireless communication.”

“And that extractor is incredible,” Avian said, the same excitement in his voice.

I could only squeeze my eyes closed and try to subdue the rolling of my stomach that hadn’t stopped since I had talked with Dr. Beeson. I didn’t want to be around West right then, I couldn’t look at him. I just wanted to run and never stop.

“I see no reason we shouldn’t go get everyone else,” West said as he slowly paced the room. Even the sound of his voice felt grating.

“If they have military tanks they would probably be safe to even go out during the day,” Tuck said quietly. “Not that they would, but it would be better than us trying to sneak out and get them ourselves.”

“I agree,” Avian said. Even the sound of his voice wasn’t soothing to me in that moment. “What do you think Eve?”

My stomach gave a little jump and I had to purse my lips closed to keep everything in my system down. I just gave a little nod of agreement. I honestly didn’t know what to think on the matter. My brain wasn’t really working.

“Are you feeling okay?” Avian asked as he squatted down in front of me. I couldn’t even meet his eyes. He pressed the back of his hand to my forehead. “You’re freezing. And you’re clammy. Are you sick?”

I managed another nod.

West… My brother… Our parents… Family…

Breathe.

“I didn’t think you could get sick,” he said as he placed his hands on either side of my face. “I think I’d better stay here. The two of you are going to need to go with Royce’s people to get everyone tonight, to prove that this is all real. And don’t force anyone if they don’t want to come. It’s still their decision.”

“Maybe I should stay too,” I heard West say as he took another step towards me.

“No!” I tried to shout but it came out as more of a drugged sounding mumble.

Avian gave me a confused glance before looking back up at West. “You should go with Tuck. You’re in charge now.”

I didn’t even realize that West and Tuck had left the room and that Avian had picked me up in his arms. I barely registered the lights overhead as they came and went as we moved down the hall and into the elevator. Some time later, I felt a bed underneath me and Avian’s blue eyes came into focus. I caught sight of someone else in the room but it didn’t seem to matter who it was.

“What’s wrong, Eve?” Avian’s voice sounded fuzzy. I just blinked, staring at him through the haze of my brain.

Everything was wrong.

Something was pressed into my ear and it beeped a few moments later. “Ninety-eight exactly. Not too far from normal temperature.”

Something was placed around my arm and it gave a tight squeeze. Something else was clipped onto my finger. “Blood pressure is low and her pulse is racing.”

“She’s in shock,” Avian said quietly as he placed his hands on my cheeks again. “But why?”

“Nurse,” the other voice called. “Grab a few blankets and get an IV bag.”

Some kind of mask was placed over my nose and mouth, forcing air into my system. I felt some pressure in the crease of my arm and a while later, felt something cool start spreading through my system. Something warm was tucked around me and my head became all the fuzzier.

“Eve,” someone’s voice called through the haze. “Eve, what’s wrong? Did something happen?”

A lot had happened, I thought. I’d learned who my mother was. I’d learned how I’d come to be in this world. I had some sort of idea who my father might be.

But I’d also learned that the boy I had developed some sort of feelings for, the boy I had kissed, and spent intimate time with, might be my brother.

I’d learned I might have a family member still alive.

I could handle being attacked by robots. I could handle watching our beloved gardens burn. I could survive losing Sarah. I had handled living in a world that had fallen apart.

But I didn’t know how to handle this.

I think I slept. I didn’t remember what happened after that and I had no idea how much time had passed when my eyes focused on the dimmed lights above my head. My hair stuck to my forehead and neck as I turned my head to see where I was. I laid on one of the strange skeletal looking beds and there were tubes and wires sticking to and in my body. They led to a screen that beeped and flashed things I didn’t understand.

I looked the other way, my cheek brushing the top of Avian’s recently shaven head. His head rested right next to my shoulder, my left hand held loosely in his. As I brushed against him, his head jerked up. The whites of his eyes were red, his entire face tired looking. He looked like he hadn’t slept for a while.

“Hey,” he said, a small smile forming on his lips. He squeezed my hand tighter. “How do you feel?”

“Tired,” I said as I raised my hand to rub my eyes. It was encumbered by all the tubes that were sticking out of my hand. I ripped them out in one quick move. Avian gave a small chuckle and shook his head as he stepped around the bed and pulled something out of a drawer. Raising my arm, he wiped the drops of blood that were forming there and placed a small bandage over it.

“How long have I been out?” I asked as I rubbed my eyes. The room came into sharper focus.

“About twelve hours,” Avian said quietly as he sat on the edge of my bed and took my hand in his again. His eyes were serious as he looked into mine. “Dr. Beeson came to talk with me when he heard you were here. He said he’d given you some really shocking news that probably caused this. He said it was personal.”

I gave a nod, my eyes falling away from his again.

“Are you going to be okay?”

I let out a sigh and shook my head. “I don’t know. I still don’t know what to think about it all. This is…” I couldn’t think of the word that described what this was.

“You know you can always talk to me if you need, right?” he said quietly.

My eyes met his again. “Always,” I said softly as I raised my other hand and held it against his rough cheek. “Have you slept at all since?”

He gave a chuckle and I dropped my hand back to the bed. “I fell asleep about twenty minutes ago. Other than that I couldn’t really. You really had me worried.”

“Sorry,” I said, trying to smile back. “Have they left?”

Avian nodded. “West and Tuck went with their team last night. They should be back before dawn if everything goes smooth.”

I nodded my head that I heard him. Grabbing the rail with my other hand, I pulled myself forward with Avian’s reluctant assistance. As I swung my legs over the edge of the bed I realized I was wearing a loose fitting gown of some sort.

“You changed my clothes?” I asked as I narrowed my eyes at him.

“Your other ones got a little… wet,” he said uncomfortably as his eyes dropped away from my face.

“Oh. That’s incredibly embarrassing,” I said as I couldn’t look at Avian either.

Avian chuckled, putting his hand under my chin to make me look at him. “Don’t worry about it. I’m just glad you’re feeling better. At least you seem to be.”

“I feel fine,” I said as I stood. As I did I felt a draft come in from behind me. My stomach jumped to my throat as I looked to see where it was coming from. “Uh, where is the rest of this thing?”

Avian laughed out loud, something he rarely did. I suddenly wished he would do it more often. It did amazing things to his face- and my chest. “It’s a hospital gown. They’re made to… easily access everything.”

“Nothing back or down there needs to be easily accessed,” I said as I pulled the openings closed, shifting there uncomfortably.

Avian opened a cupboard and grabbed another gown and handed it to me. I pulled it on backwards, only feeling slightly more comfortable. “I think they washed your clothes and put them back in your room,” he said as his eyes settled on mine again.

I nodded, looking around for my pack. I found it sitting on the counter by the door.

“I didn’t think you’d be happy if they took that,” Avian said as he grabbed it and handed it over to me. “I hid it from them so they wouldn’t try and sterilize it as well.”

“Thanks,” I said, forming a small smile as I pulled it on. I felt myself relax just a bit.

“You’re welcome,” he said, his lips still in a slight smile as his eyes fixed on me. I felt all those strange emotions building up inside of me again.

“I need to do something today, tonight, whatever it is right now. I can’t tell with no windows open in this place.”

“We’ll talk to Royce, I’m sure there’s something you could help with.”

“I need to get out,” I clarified as I walked to the door and opened it. “The air tastes weird in here. Everyone else has already breathed it. I need to get outside.”

Avian asked me a million questions as we walked down the hall, trying to assess my physical health. He held his fingers to my neck for a while, timing my pulse to the watch on his wrist. His eyes studied me as we left the elevator and I started back toward my room.

“I’m not going to be able to talk you into resting anymore, am I?” he asked as he leaned against the door frame of my room.

“You would be correct,” I said as I gave him a smile and closed the door.

I found my clothes clean and folded on the counter in my room. It felt like a relief to pull them on. I could think of nothing more uncomfortable to wear than a hospital gown. Someone must have wanted to torture patients. I cinched my pack tight to my back and Avian followed me to the main floor to search out Royce.

Ten minutes later I was outside in the dark night, walking the streets with a man who had not spoken one word to me. That was just fine with me. I was just glad to be outside.

It was unnerving, seeing all the eyes and faces inside the buildings. I expected them to burst through the glass at any moment and tackle us to the ground.

It was a relief to be outside but it wasn’t the same as being back home, or even being in the desert. I still felt so small, so closed in. Buildings rose all around us, closing us in. I felt like they were blinding me.

Two hours after I had been allowed to join the others on patrol, the sound of the tanks echoed off the buildings around us. I followed them to the back of the hospital where they parked. Two armed guards jumped out of the top hatches first and one by one, my family members started climbing out of the tanks. All fifteen of them were there. West climbed out last, joining me as we watched the others go in through a back door to the hospital.

“Are you feeling okay now?” West said as he walked with me around the perimeter of the building again.

“Better,” I replied simply. It was the truth, if only a little bit. I vowed to myself I wasn’t going to go into shock again. “What did the others say when you arrived?”

“They were surprised, that’s for sure,” West said with a chuckle. “Tess and Van were really freaked out. She actually ran when she saw us. But we told them what we’d found. It didn’t take too much convincing to get them to come with us. I think they all liked the idea of running water and toilets.”

“They are certainly nice, in their own way.” It took everything I had in me not to run.

“I can’t wait till everyone gets here,” West said as he stared at the stars above us. “It will be nice to have everyone back together again.”

I just gave a nod. I didn’t like awkward moments. How was one supposed to remedy it?

“Time to get inside, you two,” one of the scouts said as we rounded to the front of the hospital. “It’s almost dawn.”

Neither of us said anything as we walked through the front sliding glass doors. As the last of the scouts came inside, the steel doors closed over the glass ones and we were once again caged in. Before I had to face West anymore, I ducked away, escaping into my room.

THIRTY-FOUR

The next day I rambled around the halls, half checking on the members of our group, half just aimlessly wandering as I felt lost in my thoughts.

With the revelation of the fact that there was a very good chance West was my brother it seemed like my choice should have been made very obvious now. If West really was my brother obviously I couldn’t pick him. I wouldn’t want to pick him. And even if the paternity test came back negative, would I ever look at West the same? Could I ever kiss him again without thinking about it all?

It should have been so easy to finally choose Avian. I had wanted to pick and now my other possibility had been essentially taken out. But it all seemed so unfair. This was too abrupt. There were too many other things going on. It felt impossible to seriously consider my emotional feelings, anything romantic or involving love.

I still wasn’t ready to decide if anything I was feeling was love.

It was difficult to adjust to the schedule they kept at the hospital. We slept during the middle of the day, woke around eight at night, had breakfast, and once it was dark outside the scouts went out on patrol. Lunch was served in the middle of the night and dinner was served a an hour after dawn. It felt so off, but only if you paid attention to the actual times. Night and day looked pretty much the same in the hospital considering the windows were only open when it was pitch dark outside.

I sat eating my breakfast alone when Royce and a few of his other men approached me. I could tell from the looks on their faces that they had business on their minds.

“Do you have a few minutes to talk, Eve?” he asked. I could see a strange look of excitement on their faces.

“I was planning on going out on patrol but I think I have a few minutes before they’re ready to leave,” I said as I stood. They followed me to the counter where I returned my tray and we headed for the elevators. “What’s this about?”

“I have one last thing to show you,” he said, excitement in his tone.

We exited on the blue floor, the lights glowing bright as ever. I followed them down the hall, to the very end. A thick black door was closed, heavier and stronger looking than all the other ones. Royce punched a few numbers into the keypad attached to the handle. It beeped twice and I heard it unlock before he pushed it open.

Almost immediately inside the door was a set of stairs. All three of the men glanced back at me before starting up them, making me feel a little uneasy.

Even if they were planning to take me to some secluded area of the hospital and try and attack me, I was pretty sure I could take all of them if I had to.

My eyes grew wide as we got to the top of the stairs. They opened onto the very top floor of the hospital, one big room. There were no walls or ceiling, just windows. It was almost as if we had just walked out onto the roof of the building.

Dominating the center of the room was a ring. A fifteen foot ring, balanced on five steel legs about four feet off the floor. Inside the ring were more rings, gears, mechanical devices I didn’t even have names for. But I knew what it was. I’d already seen a smaller version of it.

“It’s a CDU,” I breathed as I took it in.

A small smile crossed Royce’s face as he looked at me and nodded. “Yes it is.”

“It’s massive,” I said as I started to circle it.

“It’s taken us a long time to build it,” Royce said as he crossed his arms over his chest. “We not sure exactly how far the blast will reach but we are certain it will at least clear the city.”

“Why haven’t you used it yet?” I asked as I ran my hand along the smooth metal surface. I immediately withdrew my hand, remembering what it would do when it was live. It would kill me immediately.

“It’s not quite finished,” he answered. “It still needs a power source.”

I nodded as I stopped, coming back around the gigantic ring. “I suppose you can’t just plug it into any normal outlet.”

“The amount of power this thing requires is astronomical,” Royce said, his eyes fixed on me. “Even directing all the power that runs to the hospital wouldn’t be enough to charge this thing and set it off. We need to tap directly into the power plant that is three blocks from here.”

“Then why haven’t you done it yet?” I asked, my brow knitting together.

He looked at me for a moment before he replied. “Because it is crawling with Fallen. Even at night.”

It took me a moment to understand what he was saying. The Fallen flocked to places with power. It made sense that a power plant would be saturated with hundreds of Fallen.

“You need me to go in,” I said as I put everything together. “I’m the only one that can’t be infected.”

He simply nodded, his eyes fixed on me.

I looked back at the Pulse, thinking of what it could mean if it really did work. This entire city, and all the ones around it, clear up past the forest we had hidden in for a short time, free of any Fallen. We could likely live the rest of our lives in peace.

“If I set this off, what’s to keep it from shorting me out and killing me?”

Royce adjusted his stance, pushing his hands in his pockets. “We’ve been working on proofing the entire hospital for the last two years. This room was added a while ago, completely sealed off from the rest of the building. The glass is all going to blow, but the rest of the hospital won’t be effected. You’ll be perfectly safe inside, along with all of our other electrical equipment.”

“And how do I get into the plant without being torn apart, limb from limb?” I asked as I stuffed my hands in my pockets as well.

“Heavily armed,” he said, a sly smile tugged on his face.

“No,” a voice suddenly said from behind us. Both Avian and West stepped into the room, looks of rage and fury on their faces. “You can’t send her right into a power plant. She’ll never make it out alive,” West said through clenched teeth.

“You can’t ask this of her,” Avian said, his eyes dark.

“Apparently Lex forgot to close the door behind us,” Royce said as he glared at one of the armed men behind him. The man just gave a shrug.

“You realize what this device will do for us? For humanity?” Royce asked, turning his eyes on Avian and West again. “We will never have to worry about the Fallen again. We can live like normal people again, start to rebuild.”

“But not at the cost of losing Eve,” Avian said, his hands forming fists.

“We will not be sending her in there naked. A tank will drive her as close as possible, our men will take out as many as they can without risking infection. She will be armed.”

“No,” West said, shaking his head. “It’s too great of a risk. There will be hundreds of them there, maybe even thousands.”

The three of them stood like that for a long moment, staring at each other with unrelenting eyes.

“I’ll do it,” I finally spoke. “When will everything be ready?”

“Tomorrow,” Royce said.

“No, Eve!” West hissed at the same time.

“You can’t do this!” Avian chimed in.

“Yes, I can and I will!” I nearly shouted back. “Neither of you are in charge of me. I’m the only one that can do this and I am going to do it. For all of us.”

“Wonderful,” Royce said as he clapped a hand on my back. “I’ll let them know and we will get things prepared for tomorrow night.”

Avian looked at me with cold eyes and I read a million words of shock, hurt, and betrayal in them. Without another word he turned and walked back down the stairs.

“You can’t do this Eve,” West said, closing the gap between us. He took my hands in his, his brown eyes staring into my blue gray ones. “You most likely won’t walk out of this. Don’t kill yourself to make life a little easier for us.”

“Maybe you’re underestimating me,” I said quietly, slipping my hands out of his. “I am doing this.”

Before he could say anything else, I stepped around him and walked down the stairs.

I hurried out to join the rest of the patrol group. It was then that I noticed how they kept a wide berth around an entire block. As I looked through the dark in that direction, I saw them, rows and rows of them, surrounding the complexities of the power plant.

As we patrolled that night, I thought of the dozens of ways I could die in twenty-four hours. I also thought of what the world would look and be like after the Pulse was set off.

I stood a good chance of not making it out of there alive, but I would do it a million times over without thinking twice about it.

We finally stood a fighting chance.

As I walked back through the doors just before dawn, I was immediately greeted by Dr. Beeson. My stomach leapt into my throat.

“The test results just came in,” he said quietly, fidgeting with an envelope in his hands. “I haven’t looked at them yet. I wanted you to see them first.”

I swallowed hard, nodding. We started for the elevator, working our way through the crowded lobby.

“Eve,” West called as he crossed the room towards us. “I need to talk to you.”

“Not now,” I said as I held my hand up to him, shaking my head.

“But I need to talk to you,” he said, his step unfaltering.

“I said not now!” I bellowed as I stopped, my eyes fierce as I locked eyes with him.

My vision flickered. I was about to lose myself.

West’s eyes were large as he finally stopped in his tracks. I felt a hand close around my forearm and I was pulled toward the elevator.

Dozens of eyes watched me as the doors slid closed.

“It was happening, wasn’t it?” Dr. Beeson said quietly as we rose.

“Yes,” I replied simply.

We walked silently down the blue hall to his office and closed the door quietly behind us.

“West is a smart young man,” Dr. Beeson said as he leaned against his desk. “He has been up here most of the night with me, asking questions about the wireless system. I showed him how it works and I believe he understood everything I said. He got his grandfather and father’s brains.”

I nodded mindlessly as he handed me the envelope. I held it with shaking hands.

My stomach rolled as I tore the envelope. The edges of my vision started to turn black as I pulled the sheets of paper out.

The words seemed to move and shift around as I skimmed through the information that didn’t mean much to me.

But they froze near the middle of the page. At the only line that mattered.

DNA TEST RESULTS: NEGATIVE MATCH.

“Negative,” I breathed, my heart racing.

“Dr. Evans was not your father,” Dr. Beeson said quietly, though my brain barely processed what he had said.

“He isn’t my brother,” I said as I pressed a fist to my lips. “West isn’t my brother.”

I was confused at the sting behind my eyes at first. It took me a moment to realize that I was trying to cry. My body just didn’t know how.

Dr. Beeson eased me down into a chair. My eyes scanned the page again and again, processing nothing but the line that mattered.

“I assume this is good news to you,” he said quietly as he sat.

It took me a moment to nod. “Yes,” I whispered, my eyes still glued to the page. “Yes it is.”

We were both quiet for a moment, both processing the news.

“I’ve been thinking about something,” he said quietly as he leaned forward, resting his forearms on his knees. “The way your emotions were blocked, it was just done wirelessly with the chip in your brain. I think I can remove the programming.”

“I’d feel things everyone else feels?” I asked, my eyes shooting to his face.

He nodded. “I think we would have to do it slowly. I’m afraid if I just erased it all at once it would overwhelm you. Your body and your brain couldn’t handle it. But I think if we do it bit by bit, over a length of time, you could be brought back to normal.

“You wouldn’t have blackouts anymore.”

My eyes dropped to the floor, my breathing coming in shallow swallows. I would finally understand what everyone else felt. I could allow myself to feel. There wouldn’t be any danger of me attacking anyone any longer.

“Would you like to give it a try, Eve?”

My eyes stung all the more as I nodded my head.

“I can start it right now,” he said as he glanced at his computer screens. “It won’t take very long. I will however, have to kind of shut you down for a while to do it. It will take a reboot, if you will, for everything to take effect.”

“Do it,” I said as I let the pages and envelope slip from my hand to the ground.

THIRTY-FIVE

I shifted the weapons that were strapped to me, counting again how many grenades were attached to my belt.  I pulled at the vest strapped around me, feeling uncomfortable. It might have been bulletproof but it was torture to wear.

I glanced around at the four men that sat nestled in the tank with me. Their faces were set hard, no emotions present.

The noise from the track wheels died away and I knew we were there. It hadn’t taken long to get from the hospital to here. It was only a few blocks away.

One of the men opened the top hatch and we all climbed out. We were only one hundred yards away. I could see them even from here, rows and rows of Fallen, standing on and around the plant.

“We’ll take out as many of them with this as we can,” one of the men said as he patted the firing turret. “We have to be careful not to damage the plant though. The rest of us will pick them off one by one, as quickly as we can.”

I nodded, my eyes never leaving the gleaming bodies ahead of me.

Two of the men unhooked the mile long power supply line from the back of the tank. One end of it trailed behind us, going directly back to the Pulse. We unwound the rest of it, attaching the end of it to a hook on the back of my vest that I could easily release once I got inside. I shrugged my shoulders, testing its weight. It would have been too heavy for me to carry if I had been a normal girl. It had taken two of them to carry the entire line.

As one of Royce’s soldiers handed me my weapon, I couldn’t help but smile. I had to admit, the M4 assault rifle was beautiful.

“You ready?” one of the men asked, gripping the firing turret.

“Fire away,” I said as I trained my eyes ahead of me.

The blast from the tank shook the ground and nearly knocked me off my feet. Gleaming metal eyes jumped to life as they turned in our direction. I took off running toward them as the second blast was fired.

Gleaming parts exploded and flew through the air as dozens of them leapt at me. I fired, flashes of light illuminating the streets. Bodies dropped, metal frames shattered, wires sparked. Shots fired from behind me dropped more bodies. Still more and more of them woke to life, leaping to attack their intruder.

The line attached to me slowed my progress more than I would have expected. I put all of my weight into it, dragging it behind me as I fired. The plant suddenly seemed miles away, even though I was closing in on only a few dozen yards.

I pulled the pin of one of the grenades and tossed it at the chain-link fence that surrounded the plant. I almost couldn’t see it through all the Fallen that surrounded it. A few seconds later, metal flew through the air, raining down on me with deadly force.

A hand grabbed at my right arm, closing in with nearly crushing force. I jammed the butt of my firearm in its face, knocking it away for just long enough to blow its head off. Another leapt at me, its eyes gleaming through the dark. It was blasted apart before it even hit the ground.

I remembered the advice Dr. Beeson had given me and focused all my thoughts on pushing the Fallen away as my feet pounded the pavement. A few Fallen hesitated as they ran at me, their movements becoming jerky as they fought my wireless commands. I couldn’t transmit to them all and keep a very strong connection.

The plant was a mere twenty feet away. While plenty of them had woken, most of them stood there motionless, their eyes fixed on the source of electricity ahead of them. I had to push my way through mechanical bodies, firing as I went to take out as many of them as I could.

I was plowed into from the side, knocking me to my back. I rolled as I went down, the line wrapping around my midsection. A body leapt on top of me, its hands closing around my throat. Before it could even squeeze, its head burst open from a bullet coming from the tank. I jumped to my feet again, untangling myself as I sprinted.

Just as the transformer came in sight, I heard the additional gun shots. They were being fired in my direction. I didn’t look back as I pushed myself faster.

Bodies started dropping ahead of me as both me and Royce’s men fired. I mowed down the last row of Fallen who stood at the edge of the plant, clearing my way to the ladder that rose fifteen feet up to the transformer. The metal sang as I ascended, my boots striking each rung. The ladder vibrated as another body joined me in the climb.

The Fallen had climbed faster than I had and grabbed my ankle, threatening to pull me back over the edge. The sound of another shot filled my head and a fraction of a second later blood sprayed from my left arm as my flesh was torn open. Another shot was fired and the Fallen grabbing me dropped to the ground with the sound of electric death.

The blood started to spill from my arm as I heaved myself onto the platform and pulled the line to give me some slack. I hadn’t noticed the two Fallen who were surrounding the transformer until they tackled me to the cement.

One of them closed its hands around my throat as it held me pinned to the ground. The other pulled a hand gun, releasing the safety.

I narrowed my eyes at the armed one, focusing every thought I had towards it. The next second, the Fallen choking the life out of me dropped to the ground, killed by its fellow kind. It turned the gun on itself the next second.

I scrambled to my feet again, finally reaching the transformer. I could feel the currents of electricity emanating from it as I finally connected the line. It hummed to life instantly.

The sound of metal on concrete sounded as I turned to make my escape. Dozens of Fallen climbed onto the platform, their dead eyes fixed on me. Light flashed through the sky as shots were fired from both directions.

I sprinted forward without thinking, barreling through the bodies in front of me before they could react. I leapt off the platform, flying through the night sky for one freeing second before I slammed to the ground. Pain jumped through my legs as I landed but I kept running through the bodies.

Stay away, stay away, stay away, I thought as my boots slapped the pavement back toward the tank.

Just as I was clear of the ring of Fallen that surrounded the plant, I heard an explosion. The buildings and streets before me were illuminated as the fire billowed, racing towards me with unstoppable force. I screamed as the flames ate away the fabric of my pants, melted the rubber of my boots to my feet. I felt every cell of my skin as it singed and was burned up. I hit the ground just fifteen yards away from the tank as the flames of the Fallen’s explosive died away.

I couldn’t distinguish one scream from the next as I heard feet meeting the concrete and felt hands close around my arms and start pulling me back toward the tank. Every movement felt like tortured death as they hauled me up and into the tank. It roared to life as we crawled back to the hospital.

“Are they following us?” I heard a voice ask.

A few moments later a voice responded. “No, they’re flocking around the plant again. That’s incredible! They don’t even seem to care.”

I clenched my teeth together as I tried to force my vision to focus on the roof of the tank. My breathing game in labored gasps and I felt lightheaded. I’d made it out of the plant alive but would I make it back to the hospital alive as well?

Black spots swam in my vision as I was jostled again a few minutes later. One of my legs scraped against the lip of the hatch of the tank, sending a blood curdling scream ripping from my chest as I wished to die. I’d never known pain like this.

Maybe it was more than my emotional blockers that Dr. Beeson had removed.

Between each gasping breath, I couldn’t help but let out another agonizing scream.

Men in white jackets surrounded me as I was blinded by the lights on the ceiling of the white hallways. The only thing I could see was the pair of blue eyes above me, trying to speak words to me that I couldn’t hear.

My body exploded in blossoms of pain as I was moved again, a hard board beneath my body.

I heard only jumbles of words. My brain tried to sort everything out, trying to grasp onto something that made sense.

“…transfusions…”

“…skin grafts…”

“…cybernetic parts…”

“…accelerated regeneration…”

A strange thumping in my chest startled me. It didn’t come in even beats, it was erratic, painful. My breaths came in quick gasps. Even that hurt. It hurt to scream. It hurt to lie still, it hurt to move. It hurt to be.

Just as I slipped under, I felt two hands close around each of mine.

Beeping noises surrounded me as my eyes slid open. The ceiling tiles slowly came into focus, the sound of air blowing through a vent above me bringing me awake as I blinked slowly. A warm weight lay on top of me, a soft pillow beneath my head.

I slowly sat up, my head feeling like it was spinning. I was back in a hospital room, surrounded by the now familiar flashing screens, dripping bags, and tubes sticking out of my arms. The room was completely devoid of life other than myself.

I ripped the lines out of my arm, a small bubble of blood immediately forming on my skin. Shifting my weight, I slipped my legs out from under the heavy quilt and off the side of the bed.

I barely suppressed the scream as I took in my legs coming out from under my hospital gown. My right leg was a mass of crusted and wavy looking skin, small pieces of black rubber melted into the heel of my foot. Despite the intensity of the burn, it looked like it was already healing.

But my left leg scared me the most.

The skin twisted and deformed in disgusting ways, hardly identifiable as human flesh. But from mid-calf down, there was nothing left but a gleaming metal skeleton.

I crashed to the floor, my hands barely reaching out to catch myself before the ground came rushing up at me. I scrambled to my feet, not even noticing how I once again felt no pain in my injuries. The back of my eyes burned as I heard the sound of my metal foot clanking against the tile of the floor.

The hall was devoid of any life as I stumbled out. I blinked hard several times, making my vision refocus as it tried to fail me. I held to the rail along the wall as I drug myself down the hall. I didn’t make it more than ten feet before I collapsed to the ground, a mix of terror, unregistered pain, and shock bringing me down.

As my head fell back against the tile, a pair of boots came into view, followed by a cry of shock.

“Eve!” the shout said. The next moment I felt a pair of arms underneath me and the ceiling came a little closer. A few seconds later my bed was back underneath me.

Slowly, the sight of West’s brown eyes came into focus.

“Can you hear me?” he asked, his voice sounding so far away.

I gave a nod, blinking hard. When I opened my eyes again everything was clearer.

“You really shouldn’t be getting up right now,” West said, taking one of my hands in his. He sat in a seat next to my bed, pressing my knuckles to his lips.

I looked over at him, my thoughts running a million places all at once. “How long have I been out?” I started. It seemed like I was having to ask that question so often lately.

“Only about a day,” he breathed, his eyes intense on mine.

I glanced back down, catching the light as it gleamed off the skeleton of my foot. I lay back down, swallowing hard.

“It’s a lot better than it was last night,” he said quietly. “There was nothing from your knee down.”

“How can you still look at me?” I said quietly, laying my other arm across my eyes. “Seeing the what I really am? I’m not far from being one of them.”

I heard West stand, letting go of my hand, he sat on the edge of the bed. He moved my arm from my eyes, placing his hands on either side of my face. “You are nothing like the Fallen,” he said seriously, his eyes burning into mine. “You keep proving that, over and over again. You’re more human that a lot of the people I’ve known. You give no second thought to doing all these insane, suicidal things to save those around you. Everything you do is out of love. You just don’t realize that.”

“Please don’t say that word,” I said as I closed my eyes, my insides quivering. “I have no idea what it means.”

“You know what it feels like,” he said more coolly as he sat back, releasing my face. “You just don’t know how to recognize it.”

I heard another set of footsteps enter the room and opened my eyes to see Avian enter. His face was hard to read as he took in the sight of West and I, so close together. I felt myself hating everything I was again.

“You’re awake,” he said simply.

“I’ll let him catch you up on everything,” West said quietly to my surprise and left without another word.

As I watched Avian standing there, my eyes stung and my lower lip started to quiver. I felt like I couldn’t breathe.

He crossed the room silently and gathered me up into his arms, his face buried in my mass of tangled hair. His entire frame shook as he held me tightly. My lip continued to tremble, my eyes burning. The sob that escaped my chest surprised me.

“How can you look at me?” I barely managed to get the words out. “My leg…”

Avian sat back a bit, taking my face between his hands. His blue eyes looked like there might be flames burning behind them as he stared at me. “You will forever be the most beautiful creature on this planet to me, no matter what happens. I don’t care what you’re skeletal frame is made of. You’re still Eve.”

“Avian, I want…” I dropped off, not even knowing how to finish that sentence. I was tempted to put my head in that gigantic ring on the roof, just to stop all the confusion I felt.

“Don’t,” he said, pressing a finger to my lips. “You can’t make any decisions right now. You just need to finish healing.”

I took a deep breath, finding some sense of my normal self, and nodded. Slowly, I felt the calm start to spread itself through my system again. “How bad was it?”

Avian sat back, close to the foot of the bed. “The skin on your left leg was totally burned away up to your knee,” he started. I saw the terror he had felt then in his eyes. “Traces of metal could be seen in your right leg, most of the skin was gone, and a lot of the muscle had been burned away as well. Your backside had been burned but not too horribly. It healed pretty fast. You lost a few inches of hair. You were bleeding profusely from the bullet wound in your arm and all your other injuries. You needed a blood transfusion. But within hours you were already healing. I would expect your left leg will look totally normal again within three days.”

“Guess you were right about being wary about letting me go to the plant,” I said.

He chuckled. “Like I could have stopped you.”

“You couldn’t have,” I said with a small smile. “Now find me some pants and boots so I don’t scare the town folk away.”

He just chuckled again and shook his head.

It took him a few minutes but Avian found me some clothes and we walked down the hall together.

“They haven’t set the Pulse off yet, have they?” I asked, a strange sense of missed anticipation filling me. My boots were too big without any flesh to fill them and the metal foot slid around inside it. I walked with a slight limp.

“No,” he answered, his always serious eyes forward. “Royce said it takes about two days to build up enough power to set it off. It’s charging now though.”

“Two days,” I breathed. “Do you really think it will work?”

Avian shrugged. “The technology seems right. They have the brains here to do it. It sounds like it is just a matter of building enough power to set it off.”

“I can’t even imagine what life is going to be like if it works. No Fallen. No more running, or scouting to do. Everything I’ve known will be changed.”

“It will be better,” Avian said quietly as we entered the main lobby area. “You’ll see how life should have been, in a post-apocalyptic way.”

I gave him a small smile, already feeling comforted, even after everything that had happened.

By now the lobby was emptying out, everyone preparing for sleep at mid-day. I suddenly missed my days of free scouting, of roaming through the woods, free without any walls barricading me in. Hopefully all that would end in just a few short days.

I followed the others up to the rooms, feeling like everyone could see through my pants to my cybernetic leg as I limped along. No one bothered me though, didn’t ask questions or pull my pant up to see. I made it to my room without being exposed for what I was.

The ceiling greeted me as I lay down, knowing I wasn’t going to be getting any sleep for the next eight hours of silence. Images started to slide across my mind, the blinding light from the explosion that had tried to take my legs, the blue eyes that had tried to call out to me when my brain couldn’t handle it all. Flickers of row after row of Fallen. The flash of light from my firearms.

So much violence.

I turned my head when a crack of light started growing on my wall. The silhouette of a man appeared in the door before he closed it behind him.

“Hi,” I breathed as he hesitated next to the door.

“Hi,” West said through the dark. I could feel the mixture of feelings that were rolling off of him. I knew what it was like to feel like an emotional wreck.

“I won’t bite you,” I said as I scooted to one side of my bed.

“You sure?” he said light-heartedly as he crossed the room and sat on the edge of the mattress.

We sat there in silence for a while, each unsure of what the other had on their mind.

“Are you going to tell me why the sight of me made you sick the last few days?” he asked quietly.

I felt myself tense up, the sick feeling creeping up in me again. I wished he had just left it alone. I would have rather forgot all those feelings I had been fighting with. “No. You don’t want to know why. Just know that it’s over.” This was one secret I would carry with me to the grave. I vowed that West would never have to go through what I had gone through.

“You sure?”

I gave a nod.

West trailed his fingers softly across my forehead, brushing stray hairs off my face. He didn’t look in my face as he did so, his eyes lingering on my ears, my shoulder, my neck, as he struggled with how to form the words he had in his head. Hesitantly, he picked up the wings Avian had carved and held them lightly in his hand. I wondered if he knew Avian had made it for me, and the sacrifice he had given for me to have it.

“I thought you were going to die,” he said quietly. “When they brought you in after the explosion you looked so broken, I wasn’t sure they could put you back together. You heart barely kept going. For a while I think I’d fooled myself into believing that you couldn’t die. I knew I was wrong then. I didn’t know what I would have done if you’d died.”

“Good thing I’m not dead then,” I said as I placed my hand over his as he stilled it on my cheek. The coals started to burn as we touched. A sense of anticipation started to ignite in my belly.

“I wanted to give you something,” he said quietly as he finally met my eyes. “One last thing before I stop this. It won’t happen again until you make your decision.”

He leaned forward then, his eyes holding mine all the way until his lips met mine. My own eyes slid closed as I kissed West back, feeling the fire leap to life inside of me. West’s lips moved with mine, parting as gasps were inhaled. I blazed to life from the inside out, the flames licking along my veins.

Could I ever give up this heat? If I were to choose Avian would I ever feel the blaze again that I craved so much? Would I ever feel so alive again?

I had worried that I might not ever feel the same about West again, after thinking he might be my brother. It should have been clearer that he wasn’t. We looked nothing alike. It wasn’t bothering me now…

West’s hand came to the back of my neck as my hand tangled in his hair. I suddenly craved more, more, more.

And then I remembered that Dr. Beeson had lessened my emotional blockers. How far could I push before I blacked out? Would I ever again?

But in the middle of the burn West pulled away, his earth colored eyes looking into mine as I wished for more.

“I won’t do this again until you’ve made your choice, Eve,” he said quietly. I could feel all the hurt and pain I had caused him in the last few months in his voice then. Hate crept into my stomach again. “This isn’t right. I like Avian, respect him, despite everything. It isn’t fair to anyone. You have to make a choice. Until then, I’m tired of trying to convince you that it should be me. I’m not even sure it should be me anymore.”

I tried to find the words to reassure West, to convince him that he was wrong. I wanted to come up with promises and answers then but I couldn’t. He’d been right. About everything.

“I’m sorry,” was all I managed.

“Just don’t take forever,” he said as he stood. “If I’ve got miles of pain before me I’d rather start walking them sooner than later.”

And before I could come up with anything to that he walked out of the room.

THIRTY-SIX

Something strange was going on the next day, or rather the next night. I’d seen no sign of Royce, most of his scouts, West or Avian. Their presence was strangely absent from the lobby area.  I couldn’t find them in their rooms, nor in the dining area.

As I came down from the private rooms I stopped in the main hall, hiding myself slightly as I saw a few of the missing men trickling out of the stairwell. They were all heavily armed, each dressed in bulletproof vests. They were going out for something and I had every intention of going with them. I needed out.

I dashed back toward the stairs that led to the second floor. I barely limped as I ran down the hall, layers of tissue already forming over my metallic bones. I burst into my room, grabbing my familiar firearms, strapping them to my person.

As I turned to walk back out my door, an unexplainable thing happened.

My vision flickered for half a second. And then everything turned off.

THIRTY-SEVEN

West stepped away from the computer with a hard swallow. He knew the possible consequences of what he had done, but he wouldn’t risk losing her. He ran over it all again in his head, recalling everything Dr. Beeson had told him about the wireless transmissions system and its programing. He was certain he had done everything correctly.

As he turned to leave, he nearly ran into Avian.

“What are you doing in here?” he asked, his eyes narrowing.

“I couldn’t let her go,” West said as he glanced back at the screen.

As Avian looked at West, realization filled in. “What have you done?” Avian demanded, his features darkening, his eyes filling with a mix of fear and uncertainty. West made no response and Avian’s eyes widened as he put the pieces together. “She’s never going to forgive you for this. You know that, right?”

“I know,” West said as he stepped around Avian.

Despite Avian’s anger, West detected the sense of relief Avian felt at his actions. Now neither of them had to worry about her being blown up again.

A crowd gathered just outside of the front doors of the hospital. Weapons were being distributed and a few bulletproof vests were passed out. There wasn’t enough for everyone to have one though. Neither Avian nor West were handed one.

Every man and woman who was brave enough was gathered with them. Avian couldn’t help but feel how wrong it was to go out on a mission like this without Eve. He wondered where she had been when West had shut her down like she was some common Fallen.

“You’ve all heard what happened an hour ago,” Royce started as he stepped in front of the crowd. He was one of the few with a vest. “The line Eve installed has been disconnected. Apparently a Fallen or two got curious.

“I won’t lie to any of you. This is going to be extremely dangerous. The plant is going to be saturated with Fallen. You all heard about what happened to Eve. We will be far beyond lucky if we all make it out of there alive,” Royce’s eyes were grave as he looked over everyone. “Your task is simple. Take out as many of the Fallen as you can so some of us can attempt to get to the transformer. And keep yourselves alive. There’s already been six billion lives lost, we can’t afford to lose anymore.

“Let’s roll out.”

All three tanks had been assembled and they started west in a grumbling, grating line. The small army followed suite, each one of its members grave faced and somber.

“How did you know how to shut her down?” Avian asked as he fell in next to West.

West glanced at him, adjusting his hold on his assault rifle. “I spent an entire night with Dr. Beeson, asking every question I could think of about the wireless transmission system,” he said as he looked forward. “He thought I was just interested in how it worked. He didn’t realize just how close I was watching as he typed in his password. I studied every move and click he made on that computer of his.”

“Your grandfather would be proud,” Avian said, as he too kept his eyes straight ahead.

“Don’t pretend you wanted her coming along tonight,” West said through clenched teeth. “You know she would have come without a second thought.  You know how dangerous this mission is. She would have put herself right in the middle of all of this.”

“I meant that he would have been proud for how smart you are,” Avian said coolly as he looked over at West with hard eyes. “You’ve obviously got his brains.”

They held each other’s eyes for several long moments, neither willing to waver.

It didn’t take long to walk three blocks. The scraping of the track wheels of the tank slowed and finally came to a stop. And there it was for all of them to see, layers and layers of Fallen, flocked around the power plant.

“Not all of us are going to make it out of this,” West breathed as he took it all in.

Avian didn’t answer.

“Who’s going into the plant with me?” Royce asked as he pulled his specialized pack on.  In it was a portable welding unit.

Half a dozen hands went up, including West and Avian’s.

Royce bucked the strap across his chest, giving a nod to those who had volunteered. Turning his attention to the men stationed at the three turrets atop the tanks, he said “Fire at will. All of you.”

The sound was deafening as endless shots were fired at the bodies that stood around the transplant. As some of them exploded into gleaming metal rain, others leapt to life, turning toward the shots. The group didn’t wait any longer. All six of them sprinted toward the plant.

The world seemed to move in jerky snapshots. With every flash of light, bodies came closer and closer together, organic and cybernetic racing to end one another’s existence.

Avian was glad then, as he fired his automatic weapon, that he hadn’t been there to see Eve run into the middle of this. She’d done it alone, and as it was right now, he knew West was right.  Not all of them were going to walk out of this alive.

Closing in on fifteen yards from the plant, they could all see the twisted and broken remains of the fence Eve had blown to bits on the first mission. This time, bodies created the fence. Fewer shots were being fired at the Fallen closest to their small group, danger now at shooting their own men. Bodies leapt at them from every side and empty shell casings sang as they littered the concrete.

“Climb! Climb!” Royce shouted as the six of them broke through the ring of cybernetics.

One man clung to the ladder, climbing it two rungs at a time. Royce ascended next, followed by another of his men. Just as West was about to start climbing, the man above him let out a small gurgle as a bullet embedded itself into his chest. He fell backward, nearly knocking West to the ground, smearing blood over his neck and chest as he came down.

Instinctively, Avian bent, pressing his fingers to his throat, checking for a pulse.

“He’s already gone!” West shouted as he grabbed the back of Avian’s shirt and pulled him back toward the ladder. “You can’t help him!”

It took everything he had in him, knowing that if he did leave that man he would be dead, but West had been right. Avian followed the others up the ladder.

The platform was clear as the five of them raced across. Royce unbuckled his pack as he ran, slinging it in front of him as he kneed at the line that lay limp and useless on the ground.

“I’m going to need someone to hold the line while I weld it in place,” Royce said as he pulled out the torch and a mask to protect his eyes.

Not waiting for anyone else to respond, West knelt next to him and picked up the line. Avian and the others turned their back to them, firearms ready.

Metal fingers gleamed as they grabbed the ledge of the platform, a metallic face emerging with blank eyes. The head disappeared half a second later and they all heard the crash as the body dropped lifeless to the ground. The metal rungs of the ladder sang as more and more of the Fallen started to ascend.

“How long’s this going to take?” Avian shouted as he fired at the Fallen, one by one as they tried to climb the ladder.

“Just give me a minute!” Royce shouted over the noise of the welding torch. “I just want to make sure nothing’s going to pull the line again!”

None of them noticed the second ladder. Silent bodies moved up to the platform, empty eyes of former people, people who weren’t anything more than mindless machines now.

One of Royce’s other men dropped to the ground without even a scream. He was dead before he collapsed to the ground. Avian turned and fired, at the same time he noticed where the Fallen’s weapons were pointed. Without another thought, he leapt in front of West.

Pain exploded in his thigh and left arm, bullets embedding themselves in his flesh. The flame of the welding unit went out as Avian hit the ground, the line now sure and permanent. Royce and West raised their weapons as more bodies climbed onto the platform. Royce stumbled as a bullet grazed his lower leg.

None of them noticed the cybernetic eyes that had been watching them silently from the walls and intricacies of the plant. None of them saw the way its metal fingers flexed in the darkness.

Lights flashed as more shots were fired on that blood filled night.

The hidden Fallen sprang to life.

A set of cybernetic hands closed around a fleshy throat.

THIRTY-EIGHT

I couldn’t…

Couldn’t…

Move.

A flash of light flickered across my vision and my eyes twitched just once as my brain flipped on and off. Another flash of light and I managed to turn my head to the left just slightly. Another and I was able to twitch the fingers on my left hand.

I took a gasping breath as the lights stayed for longer flashes of time. As my muscles unlocked for half a second, I attempted a step forward, only to crash to the floor as my brain flashed out again for a brief moment.

The lights stayed on finally, only occasionally flickering in the corner of my vision. Slowly, movement by movement, I worked my way to my hands and knees.

Struggling for each breath, my muscles finally released and the flashes stopped.

As I caught a glimpse of the clock on the wall, I realized it was almost four hours later than it should have been.

My movements still stiff and jerky, I closed my hand around the doorknob and pulled. Feeling slightly numb still, I started to work my way down the hall.

I’d never checked out like that before. I’d been alone when it had happened. I hadn’t emotionally overworked myself.

Someone had shut me down.

“Eve,” a voice called to me from behind. I turned to see Dr. Beeson jogging down the hall toward me. “I thought you would have gone out with the others?”

“I tried,” I said, my voice sounding like it wasn’t working. He slowed to match my still off gait. I narrowed my eyes as I looked over at him. “You didn’t shut me down did you?”

“What?” he asked, his brow furrowing. “Of course not.”

“I’ve spent the last four hours, frozen and gone in my room.”

Dr. Beeson’s step faltered as he looked at me, his face blanching white.

“Someone shut me down,” I said through clenched teeth.

Remembrance seemed to flash through his mind as his eyes widened suddenly. “West spent nearly an entire night with me, asking questions about the wireless transmission system.”

“He…” I nearly choked on my words. “West shut me down.”

“I’m so sorry,” he said quietly. “Come with me. They’re having problems with the communication system for those who went out. I’m going to take a look at it and see if I can get it fixed.”

Numbly, I followed him down the stairwell and into the frantic lobby.

It seemed that everyone who lived in the hospital that hadn’t gone out on whatever mission they had left on was gathered in the lobby. A feeling of tension rippled through everyone, setting my nerves on edge. Seeing Tuck by the front door, I joined him.

“What are you doing here?” he asked, his brow furrowing as he looked at me. “I thought you had gone with them.”

“It wasn’t for a lack of trying,” I said as I looked out into the dark and silent night. “What’s going on?”

“Something pulled the power line about five hours ago,” Tuck started to explain as he looked outside as well. “Royce’s men and a few others went with him to go fix it.”

“West and Avian went with them, didn’t they?” I suddenly felt hollow.

Tuck simply nodded. “We lost communication with everyone about two hours ago though. They called for Dr. Beeson to try and fix it. We have no idea what’s going on out there.”

I turned to see Dr. Beeson working with a handful of other people, their movements rushed and frantic. As I scanned the faces that anxiously watched them, I took strength from those I knew. Eli stood with Morgan, their hands clasped together, one of her hands held over her still flat stomach. Van held Tess tight in his arms, her eyes reddened as if she had been crying not long ago.

A hard rock formed in my throat.

A crackle suddenly sounded from the device Dr. Beeson and the others worked on.

“…anyone there? Please come in…” a voice crackled through the system.

“Yes, we’re here!” a woman said as she took the handheld piece that was attached to the system. “Is everything okay?”

“People shot…” the voice cut out. “…at least four dead… Get the Extractor powered up!”

Everyone seemed to freeze as those last words filled the room. I felt my blood run cold.

“Who’s been infected?” the woman asked, her voice sounding dead.

“…Fallen hidden… shots fired everywhere…” the voice continued to crackle in and out. “…Royce and West… Avian… didn’t see it…”

“Who was it?” I suddenly said, louder than I should have. “Who got infected?”

They all suddenly looked up at me, every single pair of eyes. “I’m not sure,” Dr. Beeson finally answered me.

I looked at the woman who had been speaking. “I couldn’t tell either,” she said quietly. No one seemed to notice how the receiver had gone dead again.

It was pure instinct that forced my legs to work. I sprinted out the front glass door into the dark night.

In that moment I finally knew.

I knew which one I would grieve over. A piece of me would be missing forever if he was gone. A part of me would break. But I would make it through.

And I knew which one of them I couldn’t live without, couldn’t take another single breath if he were to be taken away from me.

In that moment I finally understood what love meant.

Sarah had been right all along. A single moment was all it had taken.

The wind whipped through my singed hair, my cybernetic legs pumping me faster than I’d ever moved before. I didn’t need to know which direction to head; I could hear them with my enhanced ears.

Shouts and screams of agony rose into the night air as I closed in on a block from them. Shots were fired and flashes of light pinpointed their exact location. As I rounded the corner, I raised my rifle, firing two shots at the pair of Fallen who rushed the struggling group from behind. They dropped to the ground in a heap. One of Royce’s men raised his own gun. For a moment I thought he was pointing at me, until the Hunter I hadn’t noticed creeping up on me from behind dropped to the ground.

I didn’t even remember feeling my feet slap the pavement as I ran toward him, my eyes never leaving his face. In that moment, every memory I had of him, every second we had spent together, flashed through my mind.

The rest of the group struggled to keep moving, hampered by injuries, their wounded men, and the figure that was losing so much blood that they carried. I didn’t miss the fear in their eyes as they looked at him.

I ran past West’s infected, bleeding body, straight into Avian’s blood soaked arms. I threw my arms around his shoulders, crushing him into myself, pressing my lips to his with a heat that burned me from the inside out. Avian’s assault rifle fell to the ground with a clatter as he wrapped one arm around my waist, bringing his other hand up behind my neck. Everything about his lips, his breathing, the way his body melted into mine left me craving more.

There was no Fallen world around us as I kissed Avian and he took my breath away. There was no infection, there were no cybernetics. There was no running, no fighting, no violence or death. There was only Avian and there was only me.

And the explosion that came from within me.

I’d never felt the heat from Avian that West had given me but I realized then that it had been because I wouldn’t allow myself to seek it out until I was sure it was Avian that I wanted and needed.

Now I was sure.

West may have made me feel alive but he didn’t have the gravitational pull that Avian did. Avian was my world, my universe. He was everything worth living, fighting, and dying for.

“I love you,” I whispered against his lips as Avian consumed me, body and soul. “It’s you. It’s always been you.” And I realized then that it was true. I had always loved Avian, it was always him. I just hadn’t realized it until now.

I felt the tears as they rolled down Avian’s cheek, his lips still moving with mine. “I love you, Eve. More than anything in this world.”

“We’ve got to get out of here!” a man screamed. As I looked back, I realized the majority of the group had continued back to the hospital. Even as he said it, I raised my rifle and fired at the two Fallen who sprinted down the street after us. They dropped with a clatter.

Taking Avian’s hand in mine, I half dragged him back to the hospital with me. I realized then that there was blood oozing out of his left arm in two different places and in one spot in his right thigh.

The lobby was a shifting mess of chaos as everyone got back inside just as the sky started to lighten. People ran everywhere, more than one life on the edge of being lost. Avian and I spotted a group of men in white coats hauling West’s twitching body into the elevator. We dashed for the stairs as it closed, taking them two at a time. Avian stumbled behind me, blood dripping onto the steel stairs as we ascended.

We followed the shouting as we got to the blue floor, down to the extraction room. A doctor ran past us, back to the stairs. As we stepped into the room, it all finally hit me.

West was really infected.

“How long ago?” I asked quietly, squeezing Avian’s hand all the tighter.

“Just over an hour ago, I think,” he forced the words out. “They kept coming at us as we tried to make our way back.”

I squeezed my eyes closed as a group of men and women forced West’s twitching body into the terrible chair, clamping his wrists and ankles secure.  He stilled for just a moment as he caught sight of me. “Eve!” he screamed, his eyes wide, terrified and confused.

It was then that I noticed the metallic veins that were growing in his left eye.

West gave a blood-curdling scream, squeezing his eyes closed as his chest surged forward, his body held back by the bands around his wrists. A pair of doctors rushed back into the room and I watched horrified as they injected something into West’s neck. He was instantly still.

I couldn’t look anymore as I turned into Avian and buried my face in his chest. I heard the doctors fussing around, bandaging his wounds with gloved hands, trying their best to stop West’s bleeding.

The hum of electricity alerted everyone that the Extractor was being powered up. Avian took two steps away from it, pulling me with him. My entire system was riddled with cybernetics. If I got too close to that device, it would shred me to bits.

They continued to work on and around West, the hum of the device growing louder and louder by the moment.

Avian suddenly stumbled, his skin pale and clammy looking. I realized then that there was a pool of blood at his feet. “Eve, I…” he didn’t finish as his eyes rolled into the back of his head.

In a strange way I felt relief as I slung Avian across my shoulders and dashed back down the hallway. Earlier I might have felt torn, not knowing who I wanted to stay with, who was more important to me. But now I finally knew where I needed to be.

Avian was totally limp as I took the stairs two at a time, too impatient to wait out the slow elevator ride down. The sound of my feet against the tile echoed off the walls as I ran toward the medical wing.

“Help!” I shouted as I neared.

As I stepped into the hall, I stopped, taking the scene before me in.

Avian and West weren’t the only ones who had been shot. Men and women were everywhere, most of the floor covered with a slick sheet of red. People rushed everywhere, panicked.

“Help him!” I shouted to no one in particular. Not a single eye turned in my direction. More blood continued to drip from Avian’s wounds. “He needs help!” I shouted at the closest person in white. He paid no attention to me.

“Please,” I said to a woman who rushed past me, reaching out for her arm. She barely glanced at me and shook her head. “I already have three patients.”

Anger surged in my system and for the briefest moment, the room shifted with lines of black.

I drew my handgun and fired two shots into the ceiling.

Every eye in the room turned to me and every single body froze.

I lowered the gun and leveled it on a woman in those strange starched green clothes. “If you let him die I will not hesitate to kill you.”

She swallowed hard, her eyes twice their normal size. She gave one nod and pointed me towards a room.

There was already a blood covered man in one of the beds but I didn’t really care as I laid Avian’s limp form in the empty one. The young woman followed me in, her hands shaking.

“He’s been shot,” I said, my voice calm and even.

She simply nodded and lifted Avian’s bleeding arm. “There’s no exit wound. The bullets are still inside. It could be a while before I can get the instruments to get them out.”

“It can’t wait that long,” I said as I shook my head at her. “He’s already lost too much blood. Can you sew him up? You’re a doctor, right?”

She shook her head. “I’m a nurse but I know how to suture.”

I grabbed a pair of gloves out of one of the boxes on the wall and pulled them on. “We’re getting them out now.”

The nurse watched me wide eyed as I dug my fingers into Avian’s flesh and felt for the bullets. I wondered if her face was just like that all the time. Either that or I had really shaken her up. I guess I had pointed a gun at her.

The bullets gave a small ping as I dropped them in the sink. The nurse set to stitching his skin closed while I fished the bullet out of his thigh. I gave a hard swallow as I dropped the last bloody bullet in the sink.

Once she was done with the stitches she left the room for a moment and came back with a bag of blood. “He needs a transfusion,” she said as she punctured Avian’s skin and the blood started mixing with his own. I didn’t like the idea of some stranger’s blood mixing with his.

The soldier in the bed next to us limped out of the room, eyeing me as he walked by.  “I would have done the same thing if it had been my wife bleeding to death,” he said as he met my eyes. I managed to give him a half smile as he walked out the door.

“This shouldn’t take too long,” the nurse said as she peeled off her gloves and threw them in the trash. “He could start coming around any time now. I’ll be back to check on him in a while.”

“Thank you,” I said as she started for the door. I reached out and lightly touched her arm. She flinched. “I’m sorry about earlier.” She merely gave a short nod and walked out the door.

Just as I was about to sit on the edge of Avian’s bed, three heavily armed men walked into the room.

“You need to come with us,” one of them said. His eyes were hard, his brow drawn together.

“I’m not going anywhere,” I said as I glared back at him.

“You’ve been deemed a security threat,” he said as he took another step toward me. “You fired two shots in the middle of a crowded room, threatened a nurse. You need to be secured.”

“I’m not leaving him,” my voice was cold and hard.

The three of them took another step, their hands twitching on their firearms.

“I suggest you don’t come any closer if you like your nose the way it looks,” I warned, balling my fingers.

He merely gave a cocky little smile and took another step forward.

A scream of pain leapt from his throat as my cybernetic-boned fist met his face, my other hand chopping at his throat. One of the men behind him raised his firearm, leveling it at my face. In the same movement I spun, knocking it out of his hands with my heel. The third man turned and ran out into the hall.

“I told you I’m not leaving,” I said calmly as I extended a hand to the man who I had just broken his nose. He simply glared at me and got to his feet on his own, holding his bleeding nose. “You can take these,” I said as I handed over my firearms. “But I’m not leaving.”

He took my weapons, looking surprised at my cooperation. “We’ll be keeping watch over you. Isaac, you take the first shift. Watch her like a hawk.”

Isaac looked at the first man hard, looking like he might want to hit him too.

“I won’t bite,” I said as I turned and walked back to Avian’s side. The first man left in a hurry, the second stationed himself outside the door.

Not many things scared me but seeing Avian laying there like that did. Now that I finally understood who it was that I needed, was I going to lose him? Was I to only get a few glorious but horror filled minutes now that I had finally made my choice? I might be losing both of them at the same time. Maybe this was my punishment for taking so long to figure my feelings out. For doing what I had done to them.

2,634 seconds later, Avian’s eyes blinked open, a haze covering his gaze. I jumped back to his bed, after pacing back and forth for what felt like eternity. I balanced on the edge of the mattress as I took his hand in mine, pressing my lips to the back of his hand. He blinked several times before he turned his head and his eyes found mine.

“Hi,” I said quietly, kissing his still clammy skin.

“Hi,” he said back, the life coming back into his eyes.

I leaned forward, pressing my lips to his, coals growing in my chest, the heat rising with every passing moment. I pressed my forehead against his, biting my lower lip.

“I was worried I might lose you there for a while,” I said, closing my eyes. “You lost a lot of blood. I thought you were going to die.”

“So I didn’t just imagine everything that happened?” he asked. “West being infected? You telling me that you loved me?”

I shook my head as I kept his intense gaze. “Are you sure?” he asked very quietly.

“Without a doubt,” I said as I pressed my lips to his again briefly. Here was everything that was home.

“When did you finally decide?”

I thought back to that horrid but enlightening moment, a hard knot forming in my stomach. “When we heard over the radio that someone had been infected. I realized then that there was only one person I couldn’t survive loosing. I’ve lost Tye, Sarah, everyone in my past that I can’t even remember. But I realized then that I couldn’t live through losing you. You’re everything I have that’s worth living for.”

“But what about West?” he asked, his question hesitant, as if he wasn’t sure if he really wanted to hear the answer.

“He will always be a part of me,” I said, searching inside of me for the answers. “He’s the only connection to my past that I have. But while West woke up something inside of me, I realized what I was feeling for him wasn’t love. He made me feel alive, but he doesn’t make me feel…” I struggled for the right words. “I don’t crave being around him like I do you. I don’t know how to exist without you. You’re a part of me in a way that I can’t explain. I just don’t feel the same about him.”

Avian brought his hand up behind my neck, bringing my lips to his again for just a moment. “I love you, Eve. I promise I always will.”

“I love you,” I breathed, relishing in the warmth that radiated into every corner of my body. I’d said love and I finally understood what it meant.

“Eve,” he said as his eyes drifted to the doorway. “Why is there an armed guard standing just outside the door?”

I glanced in that direction, seeing Isaac standing there with his back turned to us but his automatic weapon in obvious sight. “I may have used a little more force than needed to get someone to help you,” I said, not quite meeting his eyes.

“You didn’t hurt anyone did you?” he said with a hint of a sigh.

“There’s just a couple of new bullet holes in their ceiling…”

Avian suddenly chuckled. He brought my hand up to his lips, pressing a brief kiss there. “That’s my Eve.”

I gave him a small smile, everything inside of me loving hearing him call me “his”.

“Have you heard anything yet?” Avian asked as he lay back on his pillow.

I shook my head as I sat back, my hands falling into my lap. “I haven’t left you since you collapsed upstairs.”

“You should go find out what happened,” he said, his eyes sad and serious. “See if we were too late.”

“Are you sure?” I asked, my brow furrowing. I didn’t like the idea of leaving him here like this alone.

“It’s just a couple of bullet holes,” he said with a small smile. “I’ve patched enough of them to know that I’ll survive.”

“I’ll be back as soon as I can,” I said as I stood. I glanced back at him one last time before I walked out the door.

THIRTY-NINE

I argued with the guard for a good five minutes and finally convinced him that he could just follow me. I felt cold and stiff as I walked back to the stairs. A sense of dread saturated my system as I started the climb, having to fight back the urge to turn back. I didn’t know if I wanted to find out if he was going to pull out of it or not.

The blue floor was abuzz with activity as I entered the hall. People went in and out of the stairwell that led up to the Pulse, Dr. Beeson’s door was wide open, people coming and going. But most of the activity was coming from the Extraction room.

I held my arms around my midsection to keep myself from falling apart as I stepped into the room. It felt like everything inside of me was about to crack and fall apart, like I’d been filled with too many strong emotions and then someone had taken a sledgehammer to me. I just couldn’t contain anything more, good or bad.

A group of people surrounded West’s limp body. Bandages were wrapped around half of him but even I could tell the blood had stopped flowing. It seemed as if his wounds were already healing themselves.

Those who worked on West suddenly froze as they noticed me in the room. I squirmed under all their eyes, not knowing how to deal with their attention.

“Is it going to work on him?” I asked, my voice small sounding.

A man with flaming red hair glanced at the others before stepping away from the group towards me. He stuffed his gloved hands in the pockets of his lab coat as he stopped just a few feet away from me.

“The extraction process has begun but we are unsure of the exact time frame of how long it was between when he was touched and when he was brought in. Some are guessing it was only forty minutes, others thought it was an hour and a half.”

“And the magic time frame is an hour or less, right?”

“Exactly,” the man said, his eyes regretful looking. “Under such stressful circumstances, no one is sure how long it was. If it really was less than hour, he stands a good chance of recovering. If not…”

I nodded, understanding what his trailing thoughts meant. “How long until we know?”

The man glanced at West. “When it worked before, we didn’t see any results for over a week. Within a week and a half we started to see positive signs that he might recover.”

“So we just have to wait?”

He simply nodded.

I couldn’t take any more then. I turned and walked back down the hall without another look back. My breaths were coming in sobbing chokes before I reached the end of the hall. It felt like someone was trying to squeeze me from the inside out. As I stepped into the stairwell, I leaned against the cold cinderblock walls and slid to the floor. When the guard saw me, he stepped back out, his discomfort obvious. I heard him walk away.

It took me far too long to get myself back under control. The image of metallic veins sprouting in West’s eye kept playing over and over.

I used every ounce of strength I had to force myself off the floor and go back down the stairs.

As I walked numbly back into the medical wing, I caught a glimpse of another figure lying on a hospital bed in another room. In my panic of the previous hours, I hadn’t noticed that he was injured.

“Royce?” I said as I stepped into his room a few feet. “Are you alright?”

He just gave a shrug, brushing it off. “I’m fine. Just a few bullet holes. Nothing I haven’t lived through before.”

I just nodded, my brain trying to function again. Maybe I wanted Dr. Beeson to turn the emotional blockers back on. They felt so out of control right now.

“I really am sorry about your friend,” Royce said, his eyes studying my face. “He seemed like a good man. We all hope for the very best.”

I nodded again, my eyes glued to the floor but not really seeing anything. Even though no one had said it, I heard it in the tone of their voices. They might have been hopeful, but they didn’t expect a positive outcome.

“When do you plan on setting off the Pulse?” I changed the subject.

“With the Extractor running it takes a lot of power. It will be another day before the Pulse has generated enough power to go off.”

I nodded, stuffing my hands into my pockets.

“He tried saving West, you know,” Royce said quietly. “Avian. Everyone was firing at the Fallen who were flooding the platform. But Avian jumped in front of West while he was helping me repair the line. He probably would have died right then if not for Avian.”

I squeezed my eyes closed, imagining the horrific scene behind my eyelids. “If I’d been there they both would have been fine.”

“You can’t be sure of that.”

“He wouldn’t have gotten infected.”

“Maybe.”

I turned to leave when Royce spoke again. “Eve, if I ever hear about you firing a weapon in this hospital again I will have Dr. Beeson make you think you’re a three-year-old little girl for the rest of your life.”

I glanced back at him, a chuckle escaping my lips. “It won’t happen again, promise.”

He gave a twitch of a smile. Something started to beep on one of his medical devices, two doctors rushing in behind me. I took the opportunity to duck out.

Avian was asleep when I returned to his side, much to my disappointment. He did need his rest though. The doctors said they were giving him antibiotics to keep infection out but other than that there was little more they were going to have to do to him.

As I sat with Avian’s hand in mine, I thought about what was to come. If the Pulse really worked and we were able to freely roam, what would that mean for Avian and I, now that I had finally made my decision?

I imagined taking him hunting with me, intrigued by the total mystery of it. I’d never seen him out in the woods like that, free to do and go as he pleased. I had little doubt he would be good at it. Avian seemed to be good at everything.

Where would we live once we were let out of this place? What would it be like to live with Avian, the way Gabriel and Leah lived together, Morgan and Eli? The thought was strange yet exciting.

Three years ago I watched with everyone as Morgan and Eli stood before everyone, she dressed in a makeshift white dress. They spoke words to each other that I didn’t understand then. Now they made perfect sense. Would Avian and I ever speak words like that to each other? Would I ever wear a white dress like that?

Finally, after four hours of restless sitting, Royce limped into Avian’s room, accompanied by his regular armed men. The man with the broken nose was among them. He glared at me with blackened eyes.

“We’re getting everything prepped,” Royce said as he leaned on his crutches. “I thought you might want to come see before it goes off.”

I glanced from Avian’s still form and back to Royce. “We can have the doctors page you when he wakes up.”

I wasn’t sure what “page” meant but there was a big part of me that was itching to do something. This sulking, scared, unsure Eve was starting to get to me. “Alright.”

The doctors on duty gave me a small black box to carry around and they informed me that it would beep loudly when Avian woke up. I didn’t like leaving Avian’s side but I vowed I would return as soon as he was conscious again. Already feeling slightly more like myself, I followed Royce’s group to the blue floor and up the locked stairwell.

I had to blink furiously as we reached the top of the stairs, to the old roof of the building. The sun shone with burning intensity. It felt like forever since I had actually seen the sun. I had missed it.

The Pulse had a blue glow emanating from its core already. A loud hum was a testament to the amount of electricity that was being poured into it.

“Those are energy storage devices,” Royce said loudly as he pointed to five hulking black boxes. They were as tall as I was and wider than four of me. “When it’s time, all the power stored in them will surge into the Pulse. They’re going to be blown to high heaven when the thing goes off, but hopefully not before they’ve been completely drained. Hopefully we won’t ever need them again.”

“And you’re sure the hospital is protected from the blast?” I asked as I looked at the beautiful, yet menacing device before me.

“We’ve put a lot of effort into making sure it is,” Royce said with a half-smile. “Trust me, no one here wants to lose all of our electricity or electrical devices. We all lived in the dark for too long. None of us want to go back.”

I nodded that I understood, starting to pace around the Pulse. The central ring of it was spinning rapidly, each of the outer rings moving steadily as well. It seemed like there were a million things that could go wrong in the next four or five hours. The device could just not work. It could reach no further than this building unexpectedly. The precautions to proof this hospital could fail. I could be dead in just a few hours.

But if everything went off without a hitch, life was going to change dramatically. We could go out into the city. We could start to rebuild. I dreamed of the outcome for the simple reason of being able to go back out into the sun freely.

I spent an hour, just looking at the beautiful blue glow of the Pulse, trying to not think of anything, to simply zone it all out. But before long I was advised to leave the Pulse room. As the power it held built, I could feel the sting of electrical output. I didn’t argue as I descended down the stairs. As I did, my pager started beeping. It actually startled me, the sound reverberating off the walls of the stairway.

The medical wing was quieter by then, all of the damage from the previous day’s mission taken care of. When I came back into Avian’s room I found him sitting up, tying the shoelaces of his boots.

“How do you feel?” I asked as I leaned against the doorframe, my arms folded over my chest.

“Like I’ve been shot three times,” he said with a chuckle. “But better.”

“You sure you want to be getting up now?”

“You sound like me,” he chuckled again as he stood slowly.

“Just worried about you.”

“Now you know the feeling,” he said as he took a few steps toward me, limping as he did, his eyebrow raising. “I see you lost your guard.”

“I think he got bored.”

Avian chuckled. “Everything almost ready?”

I nodded as we turned and walked out of the room, his hand slipping into mine. The familiar sense of calm started running through my system. “I think so. It’s a bomb of electricity up there. I had to leave.”

“I’d be lying if I said this whole thing didn’t scare me.”

“Royce assures me the hospital will be protected,” I said as we continued down the hall. We walked up the stairs to the second floor and went into Avian’s room. He kicked off his boots again and laid gingerly back on the bed. “I just needed out of that stuffy room,” he said when he saw the smirk on my face. I just shook my head and laid next to him, resting my head in the crook of his good arm.

“I’ve been thinking about something. If you don’t like it, just tell me. I will understand.”

“What?” he asked as he pressed his cheek to the top of my head.

“I think I should be in with West when the Pulse goes off. Even if he can’t hear me, there are a few things I need to say to him. Something doesn’t feel right inside of me. I think it’s because West has no idea what is going on here. It feels too unfair.”

Avian propped himself up just enough to look down into my eyes. “I think you should. We don’t know what is in his future and I think you should be there when this happens. I’ve been thinking about it too. I don’t like feeling like we’ve gone behind his back with this.”

I brought my hand to the side of Avian’s face, feeling such a strong rush of emotions. I didn’t know if I could handle it if Dr. Beeson removed all of my emotional blockers. It would be so easy to be totally overwhelmed. “I hoped you would understand.”

“Even if you say you don’t love him, he means a lot to you. He always will,” Avian said as he looked down at me. “I would never expect that to change. People affect you, some stay with you forever. West will be one of those people.”

I gave him a small smile, blinking several times before I pressed my lips to his briefly. “Thank you.”

“What do you want to do once this is over?” Avian asked, changing the subject, and lying back down. He may have been understanding but West being in the picture had still caused him pain in the past. I didn’t blame him for not wanting to talk about West anymore.

“Get out of this hospital,” I said immediately, settling my head back against his shoulder. “I just realized that I hate being here. The people are fine, and I will admit it is nice to feel so protected. But this place feels like a prison. I feel like I can’t breathe. I need some sun.”

“I wondered how you were handling being locked up in here,” he said with a chuckle.

“I want to see the ocean,” I said as I stared at the white ceiling. “West told me about it once. How big and intimidating it is. We’re so close to it I swear I can almost smell it at times. But yet I still haven’t seen it.

“What about you?”

Avian was thoughtful for a while. “I just want freedom to go wherever I want. I have no complaints about how things ran in Eden. In a way it was a utopia. But I couldn’t ever leave. I was limited to this mile radius of wherever the people of Eden were. After the trip out here, of having the freedom to move around even the hospital as I wish, it’s been freeing. I want to just take off into the mountains if I want, to go, I don’t know, explore if I want to, without having to worry about someone dying if I’m unavailable.”

“You’ve been a prisoner in a way for the last five years,” I said as I nuzzled all the closer. I’d reinforced that feeling multiple times, telling Avian that he couldn’t leave. Everyone had needed him too much. He’d saved so many lives. “Now you’re not the only doctor.”

He gave a nod, pressing his lips briefly to my forehead. “And I just want to spend time with you.”

FORTY

The blue floor was a buzz of activity again, people rushing in and out of every room. Such chaos before the storm. It was easy to feel the excitement that coursed through their veins but you could almost touch their nervousness as if it were a tangible thing. I felt my own heartbeat pick up a few paces.

There was only one doctor in the Extraction room when we walked in. He entered something into a computer as we approached, glancing up at us. “I’m almost done, then you can be alone with him.”

“How is he doing?” Avian asked. As he spoke, I remembered what Royce had said about what he had done for West. Despite everything, Avian had risked his life to save West’s.

“No change yet,” the doctor said as he stepped away from the computer, ready to leave. “It hasn’t been very long though. We won’t know any different for about a week, probably more.”

Avian gave a nod and the doctor stepped out.

We walked up to the Extractor silently, each lost in our own thoughts. I knew Avian felt no sense of relief at now having West out of the way, no longer a distraction to me. That was just Avian, always pure-hearted and a good man.

“I hope he responds soon,” Avian said quietly as we stopped five feet away from the curved arms that rose around West, circling him in an open bowl. “He is a good soldier.”

I simply nodded, unable to say much. My throat felt all tight.

Avian’s hand slipped into mine. “Say what you need to say to West. Don’t worry about me, I’ll be waiting for you when it’s all over. Take as much time as you need.”

He pressed a quick kiss to my forehead and left without another word. I glanced at the clock as he closed the door behind him. Fifteen minutes to activation.

My thoughts raced through my head in a mixed up jumble of words and emotions. Where did I start and where did I stop? Was this totally pointless if West couldn’t even hear me? I had already been told that West was in a medically induced coma.

But I wasn’t sure if I could move on in my relationship with Avian until I said the things I had to say to West. I grabbed a chair and sat in front of him.

I hated seeing him so broken. West had always been so strong, he had always survived and could take care of himself. He had proven that over the last five years. And here he was, after such a long battle, right as our enemy was about to be wiped out, his system infected.

A horrifying thought occurred to me then. If this didn’t work, if it was too late, West would be the only body left around that was still actively infected. They would only try for so long. They could only keep his body around for so long. As it was now, they could no longer touch his skin with their bare hands without getting infected themselves. Eventually, if he didn’t respond, they would have to destroy his body.

“You have to pull out of this,” I started. “You’re too strong to go down like this. I need to say this to your face, to tell you what has happened these past few days. This is too easy and too hard all at the same time. But in case I don’t get that chance, I’m going to tell you now and hope that you can somehow hear me.”

I swallowed hard, my eyes falling to my hands, my fingers interlocked. “You woke something up inside of me. I had no desire to experience the human flesh in the way you showed me. I didn’t crave touch like I do now. And despite how terrible my past is, I’m glad you had the answers for me, most of them anyway. I don’t think you can fully understand who you are until you know where you’ve come from.

“You have made me feel things West. But I’ve realized now that something was missing. Loving someone isn’t just about feeling passion, or whatever it is. You got under my skin, you drove me insane. And I could have gotten over those things. You learn to deal with people’s quirks. But I never felt like I could trust you, West. You deliberately kept things from me, with no intention to ever tell me the truth. I can’t have a relationship built on lies. You carry too many secrets.”

I paused, taking a few deep breaths, unsure if I would ever be able to give this speech again if West did wake up. It felt like I was ripping myself to shreds. And yet I felt so relieved, to finally understand how I felt. To be speaking the truth.

“I love Avian,” I said quietly, my chest swelling with my words. “I have for a while, I just didn’t realize it. Maybe I fought it, knowing that there will be a lot of people who won’t approve, knowing that you certainly didn’t. But I love him. He accepts me for who I am, always has, even when I didn’t know what I was. He doesn’t try to lie to me.

“I’ve made my choice West.”

As the words escaped my lips the building suddenly shook and I faintly heard glass shatter.

This was it.

The lights flickered as all the electricity was directed to the roof. The air seemed to ripple as immeasurable amounts of electricity pulsed through the air. Just as the first wave died away another blast could be faintly heard. The building shook again, frightening moans echoing through the walls. A third blast sounded, the air surging. And then all was quiet and still.

I was still alive.

Royce had been right. They’d protected the hospital.

The noise I heard echoing throughout the hall outside the door confused me at first. It was cheering. Feet pounded the floor as people ran toward the stairs and elevator.

“Good-bye, West,” I whispered. Without looking back, I walked out the door.

Most everyone had cleared out of the top floor by then and I took the stairs two at a time to find them. As I sprinted into the lobby, I saw them standing at the front sliding doors, the protective steel doors retracted, looking through the thin glass out into the sunlight.

I was confused by their hesitancy at first, at their silence. But they were afraid. Afraid that it might not have worked, afraid that it might have.

I worked my way to the front of the crowd, stepping out in front of them. A few hundred eyes settled on my back as I hesitated for a moment. Taking a deep breath, I pried the doors open, letting in a rush of sun filled air. Just before I stepped outside, a familiar hand slid into mine. I glanced over at Avian, his burning blue eyes giving me courage.

The streets were silent as we stepped out. Making sure no Hunters were hiding in the shadows, waiting to leap out at us, the two of us crossed the street to another building. My heart hammering in my chest, we looked through the windows.

They were all there, crumpled in a pile of destroyed metal and flesh.

“It worked,” I breathed, opening the door. I slipped inside, my eyes widening as I saw dozens of bodies lying around, empty eyes staring up at us. “It worked.”

Avian walked up to a woman with a half metal face and pushed her shoulder with his booted toe. She didn’t move. “They’re dead,” he whispered.

“They’ve been dead for a long time,” I said as I nudged a body. I couldn’t even tell if it was male or female anymore. “They just can’t kill us anymore.”

Not a one of them moved as we continued to check the bodies. Assured that none of them were just faking, we walked back out into the sunlight. Faces watched us from the doorway of the hospital, a few of Royce’s men standing just outside, their firearms held tightly.

“It worked,” Avian said loudly as we crossed the street. “The Fallen are dead.”

That was all it took. Everyone started pouring out of the building in a stampede, rushing out onto the street. Cries of joy echoed off the buildings, laughter emanating from everywhere. I couldn’t help but smile too. Avian turned his face to the blue sky, a laugh bubbling out of his lips.

“This probably wouldn’t have been possible if it weren’t for you,” Royce’s voice came from behind us. He struggled to coordinate himself on the crutches. “We owe you a lot.”

“You would have found some other way if I hadn’t come along,” I said, giving him a small smile.

“We would have lost a lot more people,” he said, clapping a hand on my right shoulder. “Thank you.”

“Thank you,” I said as I watched him hobble down the street after his people.

“They did it,” Tuck said, his hands pushed into his pockets as he walked up to us.

“We all did,” Avian said as he glanced at me.

“Just imagine Gabriel and everyone’s surprise when our messages lead them into a cleared city,” he said with a smile creeping onto his face.

“They were planning to leave in just over a week,” Avian said. “We should be seeing them in less than two.”

“How different Eden is going to be,” I breathed.

“Not so different,” Avian said as he slid his hand into mine. “We’ll always have each other. As long as we have that, it will always be Eden.

And as usual, I knew Avian was right.

FORTY-ONE

Not a single trace of glass was to be found as the roof of the hospital was flooded with its occupants. The Pulse sat in the middle of the expansive space, a gleaming trophy for every single one of us. It was a testament to mankind’s will to survive. To live.

Twinkling lights were strung around the area, the only light to see by beside the huge moon that loomed in the sky. Music filtered through a box that was plugged into one of the many electrical cords that ran back into the building. The sounds it made caused my insides to quiver and the back of my eyes to sting. I’d never heard anything so beautiful.  I watched as people moved in time with it, saw their smiling faces as they held each other close.

The rest of the members of Eden had arrived only six days after the Pulse went off. When Hunters had been spotted every day for three days straight they decided they had no other choice but to leave early. Their truck had run better and faster than ours had and they found us quickly.

I felt like my insides might burst from the joy I felt as we explained to them the bodies they saw lying everywhere. We were finally safe. Nearly every one of them had tears in their eyes.

I hesitantly hugged Gabriel when a sob escaped his chest. “Thank you,” he had simply whispered. I pulled Bill into my arms next. To my surprise, he didn’t let go for quite a while. Even though I knew it made him uncomfortable, I pulled Graye into a hug as well and gave him a tight squeeze. It felt so good to see my brothers again.

Their joy was crushed though when we told them about West. Their tears of joy quickly turned to tears of sorrow. Victoria broke down into sobs. I didn’t think West ever realized just how loved he had been in Eden. He had been accepted as a family member, even if he didn’t feel like it.

What was unexpected though, was seeing the way Wix looked at Victoria, seeing the way he consoled her tears. I didn’t anticipate seeing her slide her hand into his. And to see Brady grab Wix’s other hand and call him “daddy”. Apparently I’d been way off the marker thinking she and Avian were falling for each other.

And so there we were, three days later, watching as Wix and Victoria stood before the one-hundred and thirty-six residents of Los Angeles. Gabriel stood with them and spoke of love lasting beyond death. And wearing the white dress she had picked from one of the long forgotten about shops, she and Wix spoke words to each other I finally understood.

Maybe I should have waited to have Dr. Beeson remove more of my emotional blockers. Ever since the rest of my family was reunited, I’ve felt everything was going to overwhelm me. One little bit at a time, he said, and someday I’d be normal. As normal as I could be anyway. Already at times I felt everything would consume me, all the joy I felt, all the sorrow I experienced for the billions of lives that had been lost.

But mostly I felt an overwhelming sense of hope for the future.

We’d slowly been clearing bodies out of the city in the days since the Pulse went off. Even though we knew everything was dead, most of us didn’t trust having them all lying in the streets and in buildings. There was enough live tissue left in most of them for there to be a risk of a cholera breakout as well. We were never going to be able to clear all the hundreds of thousands of bodies out, but we would clear the areas we inhabited. The floor of the Pacific Ocean would be littered with bodies.

I pushed the plate of food away from me as I brought myself back to the present, feeling fuller than I could remember ever feeling. Avian walked over in his recently picked out suit, two cups filled with some kind of liquid. He offered one to me and when I shook my head, he set them down on the table. I couldn’t help but smile at him as he held a hand out to me. I took it and stood, the green silky fabric of the dress I wore sliding around my body in an unfamiliar way.

My hand in his, Avian led us to the area of the roof where people danced, moving in time with the music that wove around us. He slid his hand around my waist, pulling me close, resting his cheek against mine.

“You look amazing,” he said quietly as we moved in a slow circle.

“You clean up pretty nicely yourself,” I said as I smiled.

We danced slowly to the music, our hearts slowing to the same rhythm.

“I can’t believe you asked me if I was in love with Victoria,” Avian suddenly said with a chuckle.

“You’re bringing this up now?” I said defensively as I backed away from him just a bit.

“I just think it’s funny,” he said with a chuckle as he pulled me close again. I just shook my head and rolled my eyes, even though he couldn’t see.

“She looks really beautiful tonight,” I said as I watched her and Wix dance together. Their red hair nearly glowed under the twinkling light. Brady danced by himself next to them in his own little suit.

We slowed a bit as Avian turned to look at her. The fabric draped around her thin frame in an almost dreamy way, shimmering in the lights.

“Would you wear one?” Avian asked quietly as he looked at me with his blue burning eyes. “For me?”

My eyes widened a bit as I realized what he was really asking. My insides swelled, my heart picking up in pace. A smile crossed my lips as I leaned forward, pressing my lips to his. “Only for you,” I whispered.

Avian smiled as I pulled away, giving me a small squeeze. Keeping his eyes on mine, he took a step away, keeping my hand in his. He led me through the crowd, through the door, and back down the stairs into the hospital.

As we walked past the door to the extraction room, I gave a hard swallow. It was hard to fully enjoy the wedding party when I knew West was sitting unconscious in that room.

We continued to watch West on a daily basis. His vitals remained stable, his wounds completely healed from that awful day. Every night someone would go in to sweep up the cybernetic scraps that worked their way out of his skin. I asked the doctors every few days what they thought would happen but they only said that they still don’t know if he would recover or not. We could only hope.

Things had escalated between Avian and I the last few days. Even though West still didn’t know what had happened, things feel whole. Maybe it was the nights we’d spent together, simply sleeping in each other’s arms. Maybe it was the hunts we’d gone on. It didn’t matter. It only mattered how right it was, how perfect.

There were a lot of things that I didn’t know about the future. I didn’t know if West would ever wake up. I didn’t know how I would deal with it if he never did. I didn’t know if the Fallen would ever travel here from another city, if we would ever have to fight them off again. I didn’t know how everyone in Eden would adjust to our new way of life.

I didn’t know if we would ever reclaim our planet or even just our country, whatever that meant anymore.

But there were a few things that I did know. I knew that I would continue to take care of Eden. I knew I would help till our new gardens come spring. I would continue to do everything in my power to keep my family alive.

I knew that I could count on Avian to be by my side until the day my heart stopped beating.

And I finally knew what love was.

I woke the next morning just an hour from dawn. I felt the cold sheets next to me, realizing that Avian was gone. At the same time, the door to my room opened, letting a little sliver of light in.

“Where were you?” I asked as I pushed my hair out of my face.

“Come on,” he said through the dim light. Even with how dark it was I could see the smile on his face. “I’ve got a surprise for you.”

I followed Avian silently through the sleeping hospital, most of its previous occupants still in it, exhausted after the party. We came out on the ground level and exited through the front doors. Sitting on the sidewalk was a beautiful two-wheeled red mass of machinery.

“What is it?” I asked, running my hand along its glossy surface.

“It’s called a motorcycle,” Avian said with a smile as he walked over to it. “It’s like a car, but with only two wheels and all open.”

“Does it still work?”

“Royce had it saved in the basement of the hospital, along with about fifty other vehicles. Do you want to go for a ride?”

I couldn’t suppress the smile that spread on my face as I nodded.

Avian straddled the motorcycle and a moment later had the engine roaring to life. I sat on the seat behind him, wrapping my arms around his chest. “Hang on,” he said over his shoulder.

The beast ripped to life, the pavement falling behind us as the hospital faded away. The night air caressed my cheeks as we sped by, my hair fanning out behind me. This was a freedom I had never experienced, one I vowed to experience over and over again.

We drove for nearly an hour and I realized where we were going as I smelled the salt in the air. Avian parked the motorcycle in the middle of the road and looked out to the west.

I didn’t wait for him to follow me as I slid off the back of the motorcycle. My eyes fixed in front of me as I crossed the pavement and my boots sank into the sand. I walked to the edge of the water, staring into the horizon.

There was nothing but water and sky for as far as I could see.

I understood then what West had said about the ocean being scary and beautiful at the same time. I felt so small then, so helpless. It could claim my life in just a moment if it were to awaken with fury.

But it was also so beautiful. The slowly fading moon gleamed on its surface, an endless dance of celestial skill. Mankind could never hope to move like that.

It was then that I noticed something at the edge of the sand. My old tent had been pitched, waiting there like an old friend.

“Welcome home,” Avian said softly.

As I looked back out over the water, his thumb brushed across my cheek. It was then that I realized there were tears streaking down my face.

Maybe I was more human than I thought.

ACKNOWLEDGMENTS

I first have to thank my Father above, for the gift that I have to write, for the chance that I have to share my stories with everyone. Nothing is possible without Him. Thank you to my husband, for his encouragement and love. Thank you to my Mom, Jenni, Alex, Crystal, Halley and Kim for beta reading for me and pointing out all of its flaws and potential. Thank you to my dad, for taking me shooting and for answering all my random questions that helped to create the world of Eden. And thank you to you. I couldn’t do what I do without you.

About the Author

KEARY TAYLOR lives on Orcas Island in Washington State with her husband and their two children. She is the author of the Fall of Angels series. Learn more about Keary and her writing process at

www.KearyTaylor.com

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http://kearytaylor.blogspot.com

Copyright

Copyright © 2011 Keary Taylor

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First Edition Digital Copy: June 2011

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The characters and events portrayed in this book are fictitious. Any similarity to real persons, living or dead, is coincidental and not intended by the author.

Taylor, Keary, 1987-

Eden : a novel / by Keary Taylor. – 1st ed.

Summary: After 98 percent of the world falls to a cybernetic infection, Eve learns to survive in a world losing its humanity, and discovers what love really is.

ISBN 978-1463525965

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