TAILS OF THE APOCALYPSE

Edited by

Chris Pourteau

Foreword by

Mary Buckham

For our four-legged, feathered, and winged friends

Who often teach their human neighbors on this planet

What it means to be humane

Story Synopses

The Water Finder’s Shadow by David Bruns

Imagine an earth where water is the new oil, where humanity is reduced to the haves—who live in water-secure cities—and the have-nots: roaming clans who live a life of perpetual thirst in the open desert. Polluk, a Water Finder, and his dog, Shadow, make a living by showing the clans where to dig for life-giving moisture. As Polluk’s water-finding skills begin to fade, only Shadow’s uncanny ability to find water keeps him alive and free. But dogs don’t live as long as their human companions, and with Shadow’s passing, Polluk’s secret is sure to come out.

When You Open the Cages for Those Who Can’t (a Breakers short story) by Edward W. Robertson

The plague takes everything from Raina. Her parents. Her future. Her safety. But it can’t take her will to go on. Knowing there are dogs trapped in the animal hospital where her mom worked, she crosses what remains of Los Angeles to save them—and to find a way forward.

Protector by Stefan Bolz

This is a tale of courage and sacrifice, of undying loyalty and of the importance of the pack. At the heart of the story lies the relationship between two cubs—one of them a twelve-year-old boy, the other a young wolf. Neither of them is equipped to survive alone, and one of them will become a legend, remembered for generations to come.

The Poetry of Santiago by Jennifer Ellis

Life on the streets was tough, even for a cat with style and smarts like Santiago. When this aging cat takes refuge in an antique store, he finds more than he’d hoped for. A year later, despite his failing eyesight and sense of smell, Santiago knows that something very bad is about to befall Pompei. How can a cat that can’t speak get his beloved adopted owner out of the city in time?

Demon and Emily (a Symphony of War short story) by David Adams

My name is Demon. I’m a good boy. I’m a good boy because my human, Emily, tells me so. One day, terrible lightning and thunder comes to Polema, and even more terrible things follow. Normally when thunder comes, the humans aren’t scared and they comfort me. This time they’re terrified. So now it’s me who has to be brave. I will protect my human, and I will be a good boy. No matter how scary the thunder or the monsters are.

Keena’s Lament (a Weston Files short story) by Hank Garner

If you look back through time, you’ll see some calamities recorded as history. Some, relegated to myth and legend, have become part of our collective unconscious. When a Watcher, one of the ancient ones, witnesses the end of the world, he’s hard pressed to care about its price—until his companion, Keena, becomes part of the cost. Can a being who’s nearly immortal learn to value the transient nature of life?

Tomorrow Found (a Wasteland Saga short story) by Nick Cole

A nuclear war would kill off much of the world’s population. In the years that follow, friends forged in the crucible of the Wasteland, whether canine or human, would be rare. Here’s a story about loneliness and the wasteland we can find inside ourselves when we’re too long out there. Here’s a story about two friends crossing the terribleness that is the end of the world.

Pet Shop (an After the Cure short story) by Deirdre Gould

Life in a shopping mall pet shop was never fun for an unwanted parrot named Surly Shirley. But after the humans disappear and leave Surly and the other animals locked in their cages, she must find a way for them to survive. Just as food and water run short, the humans return. But they aren’t anything like the browsing, cooing customers Surly remembers.

Kael Takes Wing (a Mayake Chronicles short story) by E.E. Giorgi

When his mother fails to come home from a night of hunting, a falcon chick, hungry and looking for food, tumbles from his nest. Rescued by cyborgs—one of only two surviving human races in the world—the chick grows into a strong fledgling who longs to return to the freedom of the skies. But to learn to fly, he must first overcome a paralyzing fear of falling… and salve the loneliness left behind by his missing mother.

The Bear’s Child by Harlow C. Fallon

In the domed city of Icarus, people live easy lives free from the severities of disease, poverty, and unpredictable weather. But for Anya, life is anything but easy. She and many others live outside the dome as Ferals: cast out, disease ridden, vulnerable. Her connection with her clan, even her family, is troubled at best. But when she meets a bear in the wild, Anya finds friendship and family, even as the Icarites seek to exterminate their outcast brethren once and for all.

Wings of Paradise by Todd Barselow

In the post-Collapse world, animals are returned to the top of the food chain after nearly all the Humans on the planet have perished. The Budgies and Bats of Davao City are expanding their colonies as nature intended when they stumble upon remnants of the Human population. The decisions made after this discovery will affect all those involved in ways they could never imagine.

Ghost Light by Steven Savile

Buttons are pushed. Missiles fly. Mushroom clouds bloom. A plane load of passengers manages to land safely on an isolated road in the Scottish Highlands. Amid the desolation, a handful of passengers begin a quest across England to find whatever hope remains in a landscape desolated by nuclear war. As, one by one, the self-proclaimed Grail Knights fall to fate, one man finds himself guided by a golden-furred phantom in a final quest to go home again.

Kristy’s Song (a Pennsylvania short story) by Michael Bunker

In the world of New Pennsylvania, the ongoing battle between the TRACE rebels and the governing Transport Authority means that war is an ever-present reality. Up on the Shelf, under-populated cities—never abandoned because they were never really occupied—stand as decaying memorials to the ongoing war. Kristy, a dog for her time, helps her best friend make contraband runs into and out of New Detroit, but will they both make it home in one piece.

Unconditional by Chris Pourteau

The peaceful cool of a fall day is shattered when the Storm of Teeth consumes the world. A little closer to home, a dog watches, terrified, as his human family battles a herd of walking corpses. Forced to leave their pet behind, the family flees for their lives. The dog begins his odyssey through the zombie apocalypse to search for them. But can he find the boy he loves more than life itself?

Foreword to the Collection

by Mary Buckham

When the visionary author, editor, and producer behind Tails of the Apocalypse, Chris Pourteau, invited me to write a foreword to an anthology he described as The Walking Dead meets The Incredible Journey, I had no idea how 14 authors were going to pull together stories that did not all sound the same. The concept of a dystopian, post-apocalyptic world seen through the eyes of a variety of animals (or the humans in relation to their animals) was not something I’d ever considered. To say I was blown away by not only the power of these stories but by the affirmation of the human-animal connection in them is an understatement.

The authors hail from around the world, including the U.S., England (by way of Sweden), Canada, and the Philippines, and the animal protagonists in these tales are as varied as their creators. Some of the stories made me reach for the Kleenex box; others had me punching my fist in the air shouting, “Go! Go! Go!” All kept me engrossed and hungry for more. Not an easy feat across an anthology-length work centered upon a common theme.

Parrots, bats, budgies, wolves, bears, dogs, cats, and more—a variety of cultures from the past, present, and, based on these stories, future—can be found here. The authors acknowledge and celebrate the unique bond between humans and their animal companions, regardless of setting, time, or dystopian circumstance. Sometimes these relationships are about mutual preservation, but often there is more at stake for both human and creature than simple survival. That’s what resonates the loudest for me as a reader—not only the creativity and diversity of the situations our heroes find themselves in, but the underlying emotional intensity of the animal-human bond that these authors have brought out in so many unique ways.

David Adams, Todd Barselow, Stefan Bolz, David Bruns, Michael Bunker, Nick Cole, Jennifer Ellis, Harlow C. Fallon, Hank Garner, E. E. Giorgi, Deirdre Gould, Chris Pourteau, Edward W. Robertson, and Steven Savile have crafted stories about wolves who save humans, dogs who empower their owners to live up to their potential, a bear who gives a human the will to live—and that’s only the tip of the iceberg. These are stories of protection, sacrifice, empowerment, and, most of all, hope in times and places that need hope more than anything else.

These are stories that will have you hugging your own pet or going out of your way to help an animal if you are pet-less. They’ll make you reimagine the future and become more aware that the worst of times can bring out the best in us and our most special of partners in life.

A little over a year ago, I discovered such a partner myself in a feral cat, with whom I’ve since developed a symbiotic relationship that suits us both. Because my husband is very allergic to animals, it’d been years since I’d had a pet around. But when he was away for a few months on business, I happened to notice a pure-white cat who’d often sleep in a patch of sunlight in our backyard. I’d noticed her around the neighborhood for a few years but always assumed she was someone else’s cat. This particular year, though, she spent almost every day in our yard—the only dog- or cat-free zone in the extended neighborhood. She looked very thin, so I started setting some dry cat food out for her. It took days for her to come up on the back porch, and she’d only do so if I wasn’t around. It took six months for her to come onto the porch with the door partially open and a few more months after that before she’d step inside to eat. (I think the winter weather helped her with that decision.) Yet, the first time she curled up in my lap, feeling safe enough that I wouldn’t hurt her, I knew we’d both won. Trust, perseverance, connection—these are the gifts we give one another, and they’re what you’ll find in this collection’s stories.

But you don’t have to believe me. See for yourself. Then share what you’ve felt with others after reading these tales, and they too can experience the touching stories contained in this wonderful anthology.

White Cat Living the Good Life.

Mary Buckham is the USA Today bestselling author of the Writing Active series for writers, which includes Writing Active Setting and Writing Active Hooks. She’s also the co-author of Break into Fiction: 11 Steps to Building a Powerful Story. She doesn’t just teach writers though; she practices what she preaches, writing Urban Fantasy with attitude. Love romance, danger, and kick-ass heroines? Find it in her Alex Noziak or Kelly McAllister series. And follow her at http://www.marybuckham.com/.

The Water Finder’s Shadow

by David Bruns

A Finder without the Gift is nothing—less than nothing. A freeloading, water-consuming drain on their clan.

I lost my Gift a long time ago. But no one knows that because a friend entered my life at exactly the moment I needed him the most.

He whined softly on the floor next to me. I knelt down and stroked those long, velvety ears. How many times had I petted that heavy head, held that jowly face, pulled on those wonderful ears? Eighteen years was a long time for man or dog these days, and we both showed our age. His muzzle, once jet black, was snowy with the passing of time. My shaggy hair was mostly gray now and much thinner than when he found me.

“What is it, boy?” I whispered to him. “Do you need to go out?”

Shadow thumped his tail.

I gathered him in my arms. In his prime, Shadow had weighed more than fifty pounds; he was barely half that now, a collection of bones and flaccid muscles under a bag of loose hide. He let out a little wheeze when I hoisted him up and I felt a warm wetness run down my arm. Shadow closed his eyes with shame.

“It’s okay, buddy.” I kissed him softly on the side of his face.

The chill of the desert air invaded my robe as I squatted down to let Shadow toddle around the yard. His back bowed in the middle, and he walked with stiff legs on a slow circuit around the perimeter of our small enclosure. I bit my lip in joyful sadness when I saw my friend lower his nose to the ground and start sniffing. Always searching for the next Find. His tail wagged slowly as he breathed in the scents of the morning earth.

As long as he could still sniff like that, I wasn’t going anywhere. My escape plan was set, but I was staying right here until my friend passed on to the next life, or wherever we go when we die. Yes, I was risking everything by staying, but after a lifetime of faithful service—a lifetime of keeping me from being sold to the slavers—I owed him that much.

“You should put a collar on that dog.” Dimah’s voice was husky with sleep. She pressed herself against my back and slipped a hand into my robe. Her fingers were cold against my skin and I shivered.

“Never. Collars are for animals.”

I could feel her face pouting against my shoulder blade. “He’s a dog,” she said.

“He’s my friend.” I pulled her hand out of my robe, and tightened the tie around my waist. Maybe I was a bit short with her, but this was not the first time we’d had this conversation.

“I don’t understand, Polluk.”

In truth, that was the crux of the problem: she really didn’t understand. For her and the rest of the clans, if you wore a collar you were one of two things: a slave or a meal—sometimes you were both. The day that Shadow saved my life, I took off his collar and vowed I would never put it back on him again. I’d kept that promise.

I took Dimah’s hands in mine and faced her. “My little raincloud.” I used my most intimate Finder voice when I spoke her pet name. “It’s a complicated matter for Finders.” That was the go-to answer for anything a Finder didn’t want to talk about. No one wanted to mess with the clan’s water source, so most of the time that little deflection worked with small groups of people. Used in a one-on-one setting, it was hit or miss. On Dimah, my lover for nearly two years, my success rate for the strategy was one in ten.

She adjusted her robe in a way that let me know she was naked underneath. “You love that dog more than you love me.” She turned, swinging her hips as she made her way back into the tent. “I’m going back to bed.”

Shadow, his tour of the perimeter completed, snuffled at my knee. I dropped down to put my arm around him. “She’s right,” I whispered into the ears that hung down like velvet. “I do love you more.”

* * *

When I say Shadow entered my life at exactly the right time, I mean exactly. My Gift began to fail me before I was thirty years old. When we were in training, we were told that the Gift was like a switch, and it was either on or off. My experience was that the Gift was more like a muscle, something that peaked in performance and then declined with age.

When I was in my prime, I was the best Water Finder anywhere in the known world. But being the best Finder is not just about finding pockets of moisture under the dirt; it’s about showmanship. You have to inject a little tension into the performance, make them think that you might not find anything this time. Make them think that they might have to move camp again.

They never really taught us that in training. The course of instruction at the Finder’s Temple was hocus-pocus bullshit about respecting the Gift, giving thanks to the Great Ocean in the sky, and reading the texts about the Great Water Hold, a cache of water so large it could re-green the whole world.

They showed us pictures—color pictures—of ordinary people jumping into open pools of water. Of water sloshing onto rocks and nobody there to lap it up. The pictures were printed on ancient, flimsy paper that crinkled when you held it, not like the hides or thick pages of pressed fiber we write on these days.

As boys, we Finders-in-training soaked up the Water Scriptures and the religious instruction. After all, we were going out to save the world, to bring life to the clans.

All that idealism ended when we did our first apprenticeship. The Finders—the best ones, anyway—were really just con men with a side order of talent. They knew how to put on the kind of show that made the clans pay top price for their services: the best food, the best tent, the best companions to satisfy whatever nighttime needs they had.

My first master was Ghadir, a matronly woman who liked to hint to the clan leaders that the source of her Gift was her enormous breasts. She usually dropped that piece of information as she leaned forward to pick something up, giving Mr. Clan Leader an eyeful of milky-white cleavage. Although the clans were pretty evenly split between male and female leaders, when I was with Ghadir, we never played once in a matriarchal clan.

“Forget what they told you in training, kid,” Ghadir said in a rare moment of honesty. “Find your shtick and make it work for you. They’ve got to love you or you won’t be successful in this business.”

“Shtick? I don’t understand.” I was twelve.

Ghadir hefted her boobs in front of my face. I blushed and turned away. She grabbed my chin, twisting my head back to face her. “Look at me when I talk to you, kid. They don’t remember me, they remember these.” She squished her breasts together. “This is my thing, my shtick. I know one guy who does animal noises, another who only searches for water by walking on his hands. That’s their thing. I don’t even know their names anymore, I only know what they do.”

She patted my cheek. “Find your shtick, kid. People with shtick get paid.”

I stayed with Ghadir for two years, two good years. I was a decent Finder in a technical sense—better than average at finding water, actually—but I had no showmanship. There was nothing to set me apart from the other Finders. Not that I didn’t try. I juggled, I sang, I did cartwheels in the dirt, but nothing worked. I got polite clapping and a few smiles, but I always needed Ghadir to come in to close the deal with the clan leaders.

My shtick found me when a small dog wandered into one of my shows. He was nothing but a pup, maybe twelve weeks old and small for his age. I found out later that the only reason Shadow hadn’t been slaughtered yet was that he was the runt of the litter and the butcher wanted to put a few more pounds on him before the dog went under the knife.

* * *

When a Finder visits a clan, it’s a big event, probably the most excitement the clan has seen in months. Usually the clan leaders give their people the afternoon off so they can see the show, and the day Shadow found me was no exception. Most of the clans arranged their tents such that there was a clear oval in the center of the village. That’s where we performed. This time there was a decent-sized crowd of maybe a hundred people or so. Ghadir had done the scouting, and they’d been without a Finder for months. Water was beyond scarce; they needed a new Finder now.

“You close this deal, kid,” Ghadir said. “It’s time you earned your keep.”

So there I was: smiling, doing cartwheels, making small talk with the crowd, trying to build some anticipation for the moment of the Find. But in reality, I was dying. Ghadir was shifting in her seat. I knew that look: I had about a minute to make some magic happen before she took over.

And then Shadow walked in.

He’d pushed his way through the outer ring of children into the performance oval. His squat, black body looked like it belonged to a larger dog that had been cut off at the knees. Shadow sat facing me, and he frowned as if he’d found my performance lacking. A collar of heavy steel had worn the fur off the back of his neck.

I put my hands on my hips and looked down at him. “And who might you be?”

The dog laid down and put his paw over his eyes. The children erupted with laughter. I decided to milk the opportunity. I knelt in the dirt before him. “Oh come now, I’m not that scary.”

He peeked out from behind the paw, then covered his eyes again. Another burst of laughter, this time deepened by some grown-up voices.

“Hmmm.” I stroked my chin and stood back up. Shadow peered up at me with a “what’s next?” look on his face.

I cocked my head; he mimicked me.

I scratched my head like I was thinking; Shadow swiped at his ear with a paw.

“What say we go find some water, little dog?” I asked loud enough for the crowd to hear. Shadow jumped up and barked. The crowd clapped. Ghadir clapped as well, and winked at me.

I spread out my arms parallel with the earth, slowly turning my body clockwise, chanting the words of the Finder’s Prayer:

Mother Earth, the Source of all,

From your bosom flows Life.

I call on you to show me the way.

Show me Life.

I closed my eyes, and let the magic happen.

The trick to Finding is not the prayer or the way you hold your hands—it’s not thinking. You have to let it happen. I don’t find the water, I let the water find me. Nothing good comes from inserting your brain into that process.

It usually started with a tickle under one of my feet. I zeroed in on the right direction until the sensation was equally shared by both feet, then I walked forward, feeling the energy crawl up my legs as we got closer to the source. I opened my eyes to see the little black dog trotting along ahead of me, his nose to the ground. We reached the Find together and I turned to the crowd. “May you drink from the blessings of the Mother.”

Shadow barked.

The drillers hit water quickly, and that night there was a feast in our honor. It was customary for the clan leader to offer the Finder a gift at the feast. The bigger the Find, the better the gift. Usually, it was women or gold or a house to stay in for a few months. Since this was my first solo Find, Ghadir arranged for the clan leader to offer the gift to me.

“Polluk,” he called after we’d eaten and drunk so much water that our bellies sloshed when we moved. “You have given much to my clan. Tell me what you desire and it’s yours.”

The girls crowded close to where we sat together. Becoming the consort of a Finder was one of the few ways to break from a clan, and I could sense their eagerness. But I had other plans. I scooped up Shadow.

“I want this dog,” I said.

The clan leader’s brow wrinkled. “But we just ate. Are you still hungry?”

“I don’t want to eat the dog, I want to keep it—as a friend.”

The scowl sank into his forehead. This was a man who would gladly let me sleep with his daughter but balked at giving a water ration to a dog he wouldn’t be able to eat later. I matched his frown.

“You said I could have anything I wanted.”

The clan leader shrugged and the tension was broken. “So I did. He’s yours, Finder.”

The girls fell back from the fire, but I hardly noticed. “Good,” I said. “Now, remove his collar.”

* * *

We stayed with Ghadir another five years. Or rather, Ghadir stayed with us for another five years. Until she was taken.

She gave Shadow and me a good life and a chance to perfect our act. She called Shadow my shtick, but there were days when I felt maybe we had the order of things wrong. Shadow was the one who knew how to work a crowd; I just acted as his straight man. As a pet instead of a food source, he was a new experience for the clan audiences. He’d work his magic on the children first, then wheedle his way into the hearts of single women, then mothers. The men came along for free after that.

Even better, we found water together. Every time.

Ghadir, on the other hand, began to struggle. We had a disastrous show in the southwest, where she led the customer clans to two empty Finds. Had Shadow and I not been there, she would’ve gone to the slavers that day.

We stepped in when she was floundering and located a small Find. Then we piled back into the wagon and headed out into the desert as fast as we could. We even skipped the feast, telling the clan leader that we had an urgent call three days’ travel to the east.

I drove with Shadow perched on the seat beside me. Ghadir stared out the window. The low hum of the wagon’s electric motor was the only sound for a long time. Then I heard a whimper from Ghadir. Her shoulders were shaking, and she pressed her forehead against the glass.

I let the wagon coast to a stop. “Ghadir? What’s the matter?” I caught my breath when she turned toward me. My mentor was crying. I reached out to touch her cheek. Giving up water like that was so rare, I’d only seen it twice before in my life. Both times were over the death of a child.

“You had a bad day, Ghadir. That’s all.”

She shook her head. “It’s gone,” she whispered. “My Gift.”

“No.”

“I’m scared, Polluk.” Shadow put his paws on her chest and licked the tears off her cheeks. She made no move to stop him.

“Well… you’ll just retire then, right?”

Ghadir looked at me. Then she laughed, a long, lusty cackle that grated on my ears. “You don’t know, do you?”

“Of course, I do.” I put the wagon in gear and concentrated on driving. Finders who retired were taken in by the clans as breeders, trying to pass on the Finder gene to the next generation. They lived out their final days happy. A chosen few went off to search for the Great Water Hold. They’d taught us that in training. But I’d visited dozens of clans in the last five years and had never seen a retired Finder. Ever.

“What happens?” I asked finally.

“If—when—a clan catches a Finder who’s lost her gift, they sell her to the nearest slaver. If you’ve got enough money and advance notice, you can try to bribe your way into a Hold.” A few of the great American cities had secure water supplies and, therefore, no need of Finders. We called them Water Holds, or just Holds for short. As Finders, we avoided the Holds at all costs. Our place was with the clans in the open desert, where we were needed—and could get paid.

“What about the Great Water Hold?”

She barked a laugh. “It’s a myth, Polluk. Just like so much other nonsense they teach you in training.” The dirt in this part of the country was ruddy, and she watched the landscape glow in the afternoon sunlight. “Still, some Finders do go after it. No one’s ever returned, though.”

“Let’s do it,” I said. “Let’s go after the Great Hold—just the three of us.”

“You’re too young to die following a dream, kid. I’ll be fine.” The reddish light from outside touched her cheeks.

“We’ll protect you, right, Shadow? We’ll run the Finds and you can stay with us.”

Ghadir pulled Shadow onto her lap. He snuggled his head into her bosom and closed his eyes.

“Sure you will, kid.”

* * *

I helped Shadow navigate the steps into the hut I shared with Dimah. Tired from his morning constitutional, he collapsed on his pallet and was asleep in a few seconds. I watched until his paws began to twitch in the throes of a dream. His nose wrinkled at some imaginary scent.

I could see daily declines in his health now. My friend had days left in this world, maybe a fortnight at the outside. My self-preservation instinct said to leave, or if I couldn’t do that, ease his passing from this world—and then flee. Every day, every hour, I stayed here increased my chances of being found out for what I was: a Finder with no Gift.

I was playing with my freedom and I knew it. The last Find we’d done for this clan was over three months ago. It was a good water source, but my best Find ever had only lasted four months. Indeed, as Finders, we sought out smaller pockets of moisture to make sure the clans needed our services on a regular basis. I’d known this last Find needed to last as long as possible.

Over the last month, I’d quietly restocked my wagon with supplies and charged its batteries with the solar array. I smiled down at Shadow; I was ready to go as soon as my friend released me from this place.

“Polluk?” Dimah called to me from the bedroom. “Leave that stupid dog be and come back to bed.”

I stripped off my robe and slid between the sheets. Dimah pressed her water-fat flesh against me, still warm and funky with sleep. She crowded her dark curls into my cheek and kissed the hollow of my collarbone. I stroked the length of her back, resting my hand on the dimples at the base of her spine just above the swell of her buttocks.

I’d been with this clan for nearly two years—an eternity in the career of a Finder—and Dimah had been my woman since the first week of my tenure. We fit together. She was older; not as old as me, but well beyond the normal age that Finders sought in companions. Early in our relationship she’d let on that she was widowed, but turned stony when I tried to find out more details.

“Don’t ask me about my past, and I won’t ask about yours,” she’d told me. I dropped the topic.

As the weeks, then months passed, Dimah lost the gaunt look that came with scant clan water rations. Under my more-generous Finder rations, she grew more beautiful. Her features filled out, she grew softer and more curvaceous, and a sort of love developed between us. Is there such a thing as love without trust? Whatever we had, the relationship worked for us.

Dimah shifted her hips and slipped a soft thigh between my knees. I smiled at the ceiling. As an apprentice Finder, it was easy to get lost in the sheer volume of sexual opportunities, but Ghadir had trained me well. “They don’t want you, they don’t even want a Finder. They want their lives to change,” she’d said. “Never promise anything, and never take one with you. Never.”

A small minority of companions wanted something else from their Finder: a baby. Although research had shown—back when there was enough infrastructure to have something like research—that the Gift was not a genetic trait, the hope remained. Bearing a child with the Gift was like winning the lottery for the parents. When they presented themselves at the Temple of the Water Finders, the child was taken and the parents were invited into a special Water Hold community to live out their days as servants in the temple. Life as a servant might not sound so good, but there’s no water rationing in the temple. Just the opposite, in fact: there’s all the water you could possibly want for the rest of your life.

Dimah lifted her head and rested the point of her chin on my chest. Her smoky eyes looked directly into mine. “Do you love me?” she asked, her breath warm on my cheek.

“Yes,” I answered automatically. Long practice had taught me the right answer to that question was yes—anything else was an argument waiting to happen.

She smiled and rolled her eyes. “Really? You couldn’t even pretend to think about it?”

This was the problem with long-term relationships. After living with me, she knew me better than I knew myself. I frowned at her.

“It’s true.” Even as my lips moved, my brain kept working to head off the argument. It was true, sort of. I had no idea if I loved her—I had no idea what that word meant—but I knew I cared for her as much as I’d ever cared for another human being, and that should count for something.

“Is it? Do you really love me?”

This was the longest conversation we’d ever had on this topic. Something was up. I sat up in bed and slid my arm around her. “I really do love you. Now, what’s going on?”

She picked at the hair on my chest. Gray hairs outnumbered blond, I noted. Then she straddled me with one fluid motion, the weight of her body warm in all the right places. My breath hitched in my throat as she nuzzled my neck.

“I’m pregnant,” she whispered.

I could almost hear my libido hitting the dirt. “You’re what?”

“You heard me.” She leaned back, studying my face. “I have a plan.”

“Dimah, the chances that it has the Gift—”

“He. And he has the Gift. I can feel it.”

I bucked her off me and sat cross-legged in the bed. She matched my posture, still studying me. I took her hands in mine. “Look, Dimah. Everything we know says the Gift is random—that’s why it’s called a gift.”

“Don’t you want to hear my plan?”

I blew out my breath. “Okay, tell me your plan.”

She shook off my hands and placed them on my knees. As she spoke, she slid her palms down my thighs. In a voice of hushed tension—sexual and the other kind—she spoke.

“We take over the clan—you and me and the child. Tarkon is weak. The only reason he’s not been challenged is because of you. You’ve kept the water flowing for him, so no one wants to mess with that.” Her fingertips reached my hips and she dug her fingernails into the flesh of my sides.

“You take over as clan leader, with me as your wife. The child trains under you. When your Gift fades, he takes over and you remain as clan leader. It’s perfect.” Dimah laughed as she came up to her hands and knees. She pushed me back down onto the bed.

In the other room, Shadow yelped in pain.

I pushed Dimah off me and ran to Shadow’s side.

* * *

The new Finder arrived in the settlement near sundown. He looked eighteen at most, pretty young to be on his own. I studied his rig through my spyglass. Top-of-the-line solar array—better than mine even—new sand tires, lots of tinted glass unscoured by sandstorms.

Young kid still dry behind the ears on his own with a new rig. This did not add up.

I dressed carefully that evening, putting on my best knee-length multi-colored jacket with gold trim and new sandals. I’ve always thought you could tell a lot about a man from the state of his footwear.

“I haven’t seen that robe in a while,” Dimah commented when I came into the sitting room. Shadow snoozed peacefully, but he’d been restless all afternoon.

“I’m headed to the saloon. I promised Tarkon I’d see him tonight.” That was a lie; I’d been avoiding Tarkon for the past two weeks. The water quality and quantity in our current well was dropping daily, and he was pressuring me to get him a new Find.

“You thought about what I said?” She caressed her belly. What a woman: pregnant and planning a coup all at the same time. Just since this morning, I could’ve sworn I’d seen her midsection swell a little right in front of me. I leaned over her chair and gave her a lingering kiss.

“I love you,” I said.

“Let’s keep it that way.”

“You’ll watch Shadow for me?” I thought I saw a cloud flicker across her features.

“Of course.”

I checked on my wagon en route to the saloon. That afternoon, I’d placed the last of the supplies inside and fully charged the batteries; it was ready to go now. I had water rations for two people for three months, and with some lucky Finds along the way, I could stretch it to four. Inside, I’d gathered every scrap of information and innuendo about the Great Water Hold that existed in the known world. The route was laid out, the vehicle was ready, there was just one piece of unfinished business before I made my run—our run—for it.

The saloon was noisy for a weeknight. I nodded to the regulars and nudged my way up to the bar. “Pure-clear,” I said to Roseth. She drew exactly four ounces of crystal clear water from the tap and set the glass in front of me. She was a pretty redhead whose beauty was marred by a dirty face, a scar across her right cheek, and a worn steel collar around her neck. Despite the fact that her owner ran a bar, she still retained the dried-out, gaunt look of a desert dweller.

“Come to check out the competition, Polluk?” she asked, eyeing my robes. “Be warned, he’s a pretty boy. I might have a go at him myself.”

“Zed wouldn’t like to hear that, Roseth.” I winked at her. She lived with Zed, the bar owner, who was old enough to be her father and rarely sober enough to care if she slept around or not. I set my hip against the bar and made a nonchalant show of surveying the room.

Roseth was right; he was a pretty boy. His curly locks were the color of morning sand and his eyes a beautiful hazel flecked with gold. He wore a sleeveless vest open to the waist, exposing a hairless, but well-muscled and water-fat chest. When he spoke, a faint smile twitched the corners of his generous mouth.

“See what I mean, Polluk?” Roseth said. “He’s like a picture.”

“Send him a drink.”

“He’s drinking aragh. Quite a bit, too.”

A Finder drinking liquor? I almost smiled.

“Send him a Pure-clear. A double.”

I let the drink get to the table before I made my way across the room. He was in my clan, on my turf, but he met my eyes without fear. Cheeky.

“Blessings of the Mother upon you,” I said.

“And also on you.” He stood and extended his hand. “Basr.”

His grip was cool and strong. “Polluk.”

“I know who you are. You’re the Finder with the dog. Everywhere I’ve been, that’s all they talk about—the freaking dog.” He grinned at me. “You make it tough for the rest of us to make a living.”

The other visitors at his table had melted away and I took a seat without asking. “You’re a little young to be on your own, aren’t you?”

Basr shrugged. “I get that a lot. My master lost his Gift shortly after I apprenticed with him. Slavers got him.”

“Just like that?” I let the unasked question hang in the air: did you give him a push out the door?

“Just like that.” He had the conviction of youth in his voice. “He’d lost his Gift.”

I sipped my water and stayed silent.

“I won’t be staying long,” he said.

“Oh?” I’d already contracted with this clan, so by rights he should have checked with me when he’d first arrived.

“I’m off as soon as I can resupply.”

I nodded and rolled the last of my water around my mouth. His gaze faltered, then he leaned across the table. “I’m searching for the Great Water Hold,” he said in a low voice. “I have a map—I have the map.”

I resisted the urge to spit out my water.

“The map? What does that mean?”

Basr smiled. “You’re not that old, Polluk. You remember your training. The Map of the Ancients.”

Everyone knew of the Map of the Ancients, but no one had ever actually seen it—at least no one that I’d ever talked to. And this kid claimed to have it?

“You must think I’ve been in the desert a very long time, my young friend. It’s a myth, like the rest of the bullshit they fed us in training.”

He tossed off the last of his aragh, ignoring the glass of Pure-clear I’d sent him. He was drunk.

I reached across the table, picked up his glass of water, and drank it off. Then I stood. “Show me.”

His gait was steady but sloppy as we walked to his vehicle. He deactivated the alarm and opened the door. I wrinkled my nose when I saw the interior. A messy cabin is a cluttered mind, Ghadir always said. Organization is the key to survival in the desert.

“Well?” I folded my arms.

Basr propped his elbows on the table that folded down from the wall. “I bet you’ll never guess where it is.”

“I don’t have time for this, Basr. I’ll—”

He flipped the tabletop over and there it was. In hindsight, the key to the Map of the Ancients answer was so simple that I wondered why no one had used this technique before. We navigated by the Finding of water or we followed the direction of the sun, that was it. As long as the clan had water, we didn’t care much where we were. If we saw birds in the sky, we knew we were near a Hold City and we moved on.

But I knew of old-timers that claimed the Ancients used the stars to guide their travels. Of course, these same tale-spinners also said that men floated their way across the Salt Ocean and flew through the air like birds, so their stories were just a wee bit suspect.

But maybe there was more to the myth. The Map of the Ancients used the stars. The device consisted of three rings: a center ring of constellations, an outer ring showing the day of the year, and a middle ring of numbers that ranged positive and negative.

“What is this?” I touched the middle ring.

“Angle,” he said. Basr took a triangular-shaped device off the wall. “You measure the angle between the star and the horizon with this—it’s called a sextant. The Great Hold is here.” He tapped the center of the star chart.

The map looked very old and was made out of some sort of laminate material that gleamed in the lamplight. I touched the outer ring; it spun easily under my fingers. “Where did you get this?” I asked.

Basr had pulled a bottle out from the cabinet behind his head. He uncorked it with his teeth and took a long swallow. He offered the open bottle to me.

“My master had it when he took me on. He was a thief and worse… a bad person. Mean. I was just a kid, after all.” Basr was slurring his words. “He was going to ditch me somewhere out on the sand and make a run for it. I showed him.” He grinned up at me, those beautiful hazel eyes full of hate.

“You turned him in, didn’t you, Basr?”

He wiped his mouth with the back of his hand. “You’re damned right I did.”

* * *

“Where have you been?” Dimah demanded as I walked in the door. “I’ve been looking everywhere for you!”

“What? I had some business—”

I stopped short when she pointed to Shadow. For a second, I thought maybe my friend had passed while I was out, but then I saw his chest heave up in a long, slow breath.

“He shit in my house again. You should have taken him out before you left.”

I knelt next to Shadow. “Go to bed, Dimah.”

“But who’s going to clean up this—”

“Go. To. Bed.”

I cleaned the mess off the floor after she left. Even his shit was pitiful now, a dried up turd. More like something that might come out of a rabbit, not a mighty Water Finder like my Shadow.

I turned out the lights and curled up on the floor next to him, my hand on his rib-etched flank. He tried to lick my face, his tongue rough on my skin. All of him seemed dried out now. Used up.

“Easy, boy. It won’t be long now,” I whispered.

He thumped the floor three times. That was our signal in the old days: three slaps of his tail against my leg meant he’d found water.

When my own Gift began to falter, I was just past my thirty-second birthday. Ghadir had been gone for two years by that time and the two of us made a good living. Then one day, in the middle of a show, I just lost the feeling. The familiar sensation beneath the soles of my feet was gone.

I panicked. I began to shake like I’d been struck with fever.

The crowd went silent, watching me lose my cool. One minute I was all patter and flash and the next a quivering boy with stage fright.

Shadow’s bark brought me back to the moment. I wonder if he’d smelled the fear on me. He trotted over to me like it was all part of the act and took my fingers in his mouth, leading me forward.

I played along, desperate to recover the good will of the audience. “The water’s this way, Shadow? Is that what you’re trying to tell me, boy?”

“Yes!” the children chorused.

The familiar feeling returned to my legs, the tingle that told me moisture was near. When the clan diggers struck water, I hugged Shadow so hard he yelped.

That was the beginning of the end of my Gift. I still had it some days, but the feeling was inconsistent, and I was never quite sure if I’d be able to perform. But Shadow picked up the slack for us both. The act actually got better as I learned to recognize his cues and play off him.

* * *

I stayed on the floor next to Shadow all night, my head never more than a few inches from his. I watched his black nose quiver with each breath and when his filmy eyes opened, I met his gaze. I dripped water into his mouth with my fingers and stroked those silky ears that I loved so much. Toward dawn, he grew restless and I carried him outside into the early morning chill.

Still in my best Finder robe, I sat down in the dirt and watched Shadow make his halting way around the yard. He had dirt on his nose when he finally got back to me, and he was wheezing. I cleaned the crust of dusty snot off his face with the sleeve of my robe and gathered him into my lap. He curled up nose to tail, just like he used to do when he was a puppy.

Shadow closed his eyes and let out a long sigh.

When the first rays of the sun touched our yard, I was still sitting in the same position. I tried to will the sun to go backward, to retreat behind the hill again and never come up.

I refused to look down as the light sharpened the gloom around me. Instead, I begged every god I could think of to give me a few more moments with my Shadow.

I never shed a tear over Shadow’s passing. I just let the weight of him rest heavy in my lap, let his body drain of warmth against my thighs. The settlement had just begun to stir when I stood up with Shadow in my arms.

I needed to move swiftly now. For both of us.

Shadow had lost so much muscle mass I was able to tuck him under one arm and mostly hide him with my robe. On the way out the back, I picked up a shovel and slung it over my other shoulder.

The desert in the early morning is beautiful. The sun at a low angle highlights the sand but leaves pools of mysterious darkness. The clean, chilly air even holds a hint of moisture. I walked in a straight line north for maybe a kilometer, then gently set down Shadow’s body and dug.

It was over in a few minutes. I said my last goodbyes and heaped the sand on him. I knew it was foolish to avoid the reclamation process, but Shadow didn’t belong to the clan, he belonged to me. On the way back to the settlement, I made sure to obliterate my tracks. By the time I made it over the second dune, even I couldn’t have found Shadow’s body.

Dimah was serving Tarkon chai tea when I returned to the tent. Her eyes took in the dirty robe and the dusty sandals, but she said nothing. The clan leader might have been old and frail, but his mental faculties were still there.

“Where’s the dog?” Tarkon asked. He had a wheezy voice. Sand lung, they call it.

“Gone.” I had to blink back tears. It was the first time I’d said it out loud.

“So you’re just back from the reclaimer?”

I accepted a cup of chai from Dimah and said nothing.

Tarkon set his gray-whiskered chin. “We need a new Find, Polluk. You’ve put me off long enough and the clan is worried. I want you to do it today.”

I shook my head.

Dimah intervened. “Polluk would be happy to do it, Tarkon. Maybe in a few days. He’s just lost his dog…”

“Today. If you don’t want the job, I’ll give it to the other Finder. He seems eager enough.”

“He’ll do it,” Dimah said. “Today at sundown. Count on it.”

Tarkon was barely out the door before she whirled on me. “What’s the matter with you? This is our chance to take him down. He’s practically begging you to take over.”

“Sit down.”

“I will not sit down. You need to—”

“Sit down, Dimah.”

She lowered herself to the ground carefully, her eyes watching my face.

“Do you love me?” I asked.

She nodded.

“I have something to tell you.”

Her hand went to her belly when I told her the truth about my Gift and Shadow. She took the half-drunk cup of chai out of my hand and sucked it down in one gulp. As her eyes flicked around the tent, she twisted her fingers together.

“But you said it comes and goes, so you might be able to get a Find today, right?”

“It’s possible, but I have a better plan.” I told her about the hunt for the Great Water Hold.

“That’s not a plan, Polluk, that’s suicide. I’m pregnant and you want to go chase a myth?”

“There’s a way, but I need your help.”

* * *

I watched Basr leave his wagon and head for the center of the settlement. I let dusk settle a little more firmly around the camp before I approached his vehicle.

It had taken some persuading to get Dimah to agree with my plan. The Map of the Ancients turned the tide in my favor. I showed her the information about the Great Hold I’d collected already and described how Basr’s map would lead us right to the greatest Find in all of history.

From that point, she’d taken over. While I took a nap, Dimah met with Tarkon and the other clan leaders to explain how my recent loss left me unable to perform the Finding ceremony, but that I would offer to pay Basr to take my place. She even met with the young Finder to arrange for his services. All I had to do was steal the map and meet her at the wagon. By the time they finished digging on Basr’s Find, we’d be long gone.

I stood when I heard the sound of cheering from the center of the settlement. The Finding ceremony had started. A dull ache of loss settled in my chest when I heard the crowd noise. At this early point in the show, Shadow and I would be doing our mimicking bit designed to draw the children in.

Sand shushed under my sandals as I made my way to Basr’s wagon and deactivated his alarms. The interior was as dim and messy as it had been the night before. I imagined I could smell traces of Dimah’s perfume from when she’d been there that afternoon.

The Map of the Ancients was exactly where I’d last seen it. After removing a few screws, the map was mine. I snagged the sextant from the wall, draped a rug over the map, and hurried through the deserted streets of the settlement to the enclosure where I kept my wagon.

The dark headlights glinted in the light of the stars but the interior of the tent covering my wagon was pitch black. In the distance, I heard the crowd laughing and clapping. It certainly sounded like Basr knew his stuff. Good for you, kid.

“Dimah?” I hissed. “Are you there?”

“I’m here.” She stepped out of the inky blackness in a gray silk dress that shimmered silver in the starlight. She had one hand on her belly as if to protect our child. “Do you have it?” she whispered.

“Yes.” I dropped the rug and held the map up for her to see. The numbers on the ring and the star constellations were painted with some sort of glow-in-the-dark ink. “Look at that,” I breathed. There was no doubt now; this was definitely the Map of the Ancients.

“It’s wonderful.” Dimah placed her hands on either side of my face and kissed me. Hard. When she backed away, she left a smear of moisture on my cheek.

“Dimah—”

They came at me from three sides. I tried to toss the map to Dimah but she let it fall to the sand. I took a hard right cross on the chin and went down. Two more men grabbed me and slammed my back against the ground.

A halo of silver hung in the sky over my face.

“No!” I shouted.

But it was too late. The ring descended, rough hands lifted my shoulders off the sand, and I felt the chill of bare steel against the flesh of my neck.

“Wait!” I screamed. “I want to talk to Tarkon.”

The sound of the collar snapping shut was like a rifle shot in my ears.

One of the men laughed. “Tarkon has another Finder. He doesn’t need—”

Dimah pushed the man aside. “Our Finder said he wants to talk to Tarkon, so let’s take him to see Tarkon.” Her face was a mask in the darkness, just the glint of her eyes and the whiteness of her smile. Not a nice smile.

“I never really loved you,” I said.

She leaned into me until her breath tickled my ear. “I know. That’s why I made other arrangements.”

Two of the men frog-marched me through the streets while the third ran ahead to let Tarkon know we were coming. The performance oval was silent when I was pushed inside. Tarkon occupied his normal place with Basr seated on the rug next to him. Fully aware that every eye was on her, Dimah sashayed her way across the sand, her silk dress flowing like a sheet of water. She folded both hands across her chest and bowed to her clan leader in a formal greeting. She even mustered up a tear. A murmur ran through the crowd at the sight of the moisture.

“Tarkon, I bring you sad news. Polluk, my mate these last two years, has lost his Gift. I found him trying to flee your camp. He had stolen a map from Basr’s wagon.”

“It’s a lie!” I said. “That map is an artifact from the Water Finder’s Temple—I was going to return it. He’s the thief!” I leveled a finger at Basr.

“This is true?” Tarkon asked the new Finder.

“No, that map was passed to me from my master. I didn’t steal any—“

“Tarkon,” Dimah interrupted. “Maybe you didn’t hear me. I said Polluk, your Finder, has lost his Gift. He’s nothing but a slave now. We already collared him for you.”

Tarkon’s eyes were a washed-out blue, like the sky when it’s filmed over with high cirrus clouds. He squinted at me. We’d never had much in common, but I sensed a hint of sympathy in his gaze. At least I thought I did.

“The only thing I’ve lost is the trust of a woman who said she loved me,” I said in a loud voice. “Nothing more.”

Another whisper murmured through the crowd. This was more excitement than these people had seen in years. As one, they crowded closer.

Dimah stamped her foot and crossed the sand with her hand raised.

“Enough!” Tarkon was on his feet. The old man moved faster than I would’ve expected. “There’s an easy way to solve this. You say your Gift is intact? Wonderful, then give us a new Find, Polluk, and you can be on your way with my blessing. As for the map business, you Finders can sort that out on your own.”

I shook off the men holding my arms and drew myself up to my full height. “Two conditions, Tarkon.” I touched the collar at my neck. Even now, I was having a hard time breathing—not because it was too tight, just because it was there. “One: take this off me now.”

I stepped closer to Dimah. Her cheeks were flush with color and her eyes widened as I drew near. Her hand slid across her belly. “And two: if—when—I make this Find, you put the collar on her.”

Tarkon’s eyes shifted from my face to Dimah’s and the crowd leaned in, holding its collective breath. Tarkon nodded. “Take off his collar.”

The sting of steel left my skin and I drew a deep, cleansing breath of the night air. Normally, at the beginning of the Finding ceremony, I would feel a tingle of anticipation, a sense of where the water was hiding. But I felt nothing. I knelt and washed my hands with sand, pretending to whisper a prayer but really stalling for time. Sweat broke out on my neck.

“We don’t have all night, Finder.” Dimah’s voice prodded me with all the venom a scorned woman could muster. I bit my lip. I should’ve run when I had the chance.

I stood and smiled with a confidence I did not feel. I nodded at a few of the clansmen, who averted their eyes. So that’s how it was. Only Roseth, the bartender’s slave, met my gaze. I winked at her, and she forced a smile across her pale face.

There would be no shtick tonight—this was life or death. My life or death. Whatever happened in the next few minutes, they were never putting that collar back on me. I walked to the center of the oval and spread my arms. I let my eyes close and forced myself to relax. Just one more Find, that’s all I needed, and then I’d drive off into the desert alone.

A hush settled over the crowd, the tension in the chill air like the frayed string of an instrument about to snap. I let them fade away, melt into the background. It was just me and the water, searching for each other. The words of the Finder’s Prayer slipped from my lips as I turned.

Nothing. Not even a tingle in the soles of my feet. Fighting the panic, I kept turning, repeating the chant:

Mother Earth, the Source of all,

From your bosom flows Life.

I call on you to show me—

A burst of laughter interrupted my meditation. I opened my eyes. “Tarkon, how can I perform a—“

Some joker had thrown a dog into the ring. No more than a pup, it was all legs and ribs. A steel collar had worn an open sore onto the back of her neck. “You forgot your dog, Finder,” someone called. The crowd laughed. I’d played audiences my entire adult life, and that wasn’t the kind of laugh that portended good things for me or the dog.

A rock the size of a hen’s egg sailed into the ring and struck the dog in the side with a dull thud. The animal whimpered and slumped to the ground.

“That’s enough!” I strode to the side of the creature and knelt down. The dog couldn’t have been more different from my Shadow. He’d been short and squat with a waddle to his step; she was tall and thin with long legs that made her appear to be moving even while standing still. Shadow had long silky ears and a squat nose, while she had a long, tapered muzzle and short, pert ears. She was bone-white, but when I brushed my hand across her flank a thick layer of white dust sloughed off. Underneath her coat was the color of sand.

Her molten brown eyes pleaded with me. I saw another missile flying in, and I blocked it with my back. I scarcely felt the sting of the stone.

I gathered the dog into my arms. She was light, like lifting a pile of sticks. I pressed her against my chest. “You’re safe with me.”

And that’s when it happened.

The call of water roared up from the earth and into my body. My knees burned like they were on fire and I nearly dropped the dog from the overwhelming sensation. Another rock clipped my shoulder as I staggered to my feet.

“Stop!” I roared. “And follow me.” I waded into the crowd, kicking bodies that didn’t get out of the way soon enough. I used no pretense, no showmanship. No shtick. The call of water was like a string pulling me forward. I marched out of the camp and into the desert, carrying the dog, heedless of whether anyone followed. The moon rode high in the night sky, casting a silvery sheen across the landscape as I strode up and down the dunes.

“It’ll be okay,” I whispered to the dog. She tucked her long nose into my armpit and fell asleep.

I stopped and turned. My would-be judges came staggering and out of breath behind me.

“Dig here,” I said.

* * *

I named the dog Honey.

After her collar was removed and she was given a bath, her coat was revealed as a rich, amber color. Given the size of the Find I’d made, Tarkon didn’t argue about giving a dog a bath. To his credit, he didn’t say much of anything at all.

He found his voice at the feast, though, when he begged me to stay. I looked around at the same clansmen who only hours before had been ready to stone a defenseless dog to death and sell me to the slavers. Now they toasted me with full glasses of clear water.

I told Tarkon to eat sand.

In the euphoria following my huge Find, Dimah and Basr fled in his wagon. Still trying to curry favor, Tarkon offered to send a hunting party after them, but I said no. They deserved each other. Besides, they left the Map of the Ancients and the sextant behind. That was more than a fair trade for the likes of Dimah.

The next morning, only Roseth, the barmaid, was there to see me off. I lifted Honey into the wagon, laying her carefully on a bed I’d prepared for her.

As I settled into the driver’s seat, the first rays of sunlight peeked over the horizon. Roseth tapped on the window and I rolled it down. The scar on her cheek twisted when she smiled up at me.

“Where will you go, Polluk?”

My bruised ribs ached whenever I drew a breath. I thought about the Map of the Ancients hidden under the floorboards and Shadow’s grave somewhere out there in the sand. My hand automatically dropped to the place where Shadow used to lay when I drove the wagon. Honey licked the inside of my wrist. I put the wagon in gear.

“Anywhere but here.”

A Word from David Bruns

David with Lucy and Sydney.

There’s no better feeling in the world than being greeted at the door by a four-legged friend who’s bubbling over with excitement to see you. Whether you’ve been gone four minutes or four days, the joyous welcome is the same. With the exception of four years at the Naval Academy and two years in nuclear power training, I’ve always had a dog in my home. Part furniture, part family, dogs have always been part of my life. Always.

But the awful truth is that our canine friends don’t live as long as we do, and every pet owner knows the feeling of making that last, lonely trip home from the vet with nothing but an empty collar and a heavy heart. In the days and weeks leading up to that final moment, you suffer right alongside your friend and there is nothing—nothing—you wouldn’t do to make his time with you just a little less painful.

That’s the moment I wanted to capture in “The Water Finder’s Shadow”—those final days when you would do anything, say anything, risk anything to ease your friend’s passing. Set in a post-apocalyptic world of desertification and tribes, Polluk is waiting for his friend Shadow to pass—and not making good choices about whom to trust.

If you enjoyed “The Water Finder’s Shadow,” come visit me at www.davidbruns.com, where you can download a free Starter Library. You’ll find some other short fiction titles as well as my sci-fi series, The Dream Guild Chronicles. I also write military thrillers with another Navy veteran. Our most recent book is Weapons of Mass Deception, a novel of modern-day nuclear terrorism that looks less like fiction every time I open the newspaper.

When You Open the Cages for Those Who Can’t

(a Breakers short story)

by Edward W. Robertson

Exhaust blew down the street, choking and putrid. She wouldn’t miss it when it was gone.

Raina waited until there were too many cars for any of them to move, then darted across the six lanes of PCH to the gray building on the other side. The parking lot smelled like sun-warmed pee, but that meant she was right where she wanted to be.

She snuck up the back stairs and poked her head around the corner. Her mom was behind the front desk talking about cats to a rich lady. Raina waited for her mom to disappear into the filing racks behind the desk, then scooted across the lobby to the door to the back.

There, men were hosing down small dogs in countertop tubs. The dogs didn’t look happy, but their baths would be done soon and then they’d be fine. But the ones in the cages would still be locked up with their sadness. Raina went to them, closing the door behind her. It smelled like dog fur and kibbles. The big dogs were in big kennels on the ground, while the small ones were shut up in two rows of cages stacked on top of each other. Half of them were barking at her. Others wiggled at the front of their cages, asking to be let out.

They had names clipped to their cages: Betsy. Mango. Chief. But those names were stupid, so Raina gave them names to suit them: Bellow, Snaps, Wasp. She let them lick her hand. A woman in scrubs entered and gazed at Raina but said nothing.

The door opened again. Her mom stopped in her tracks. “Raina?” She glanced at the clock on the wall. “Why aren’t you in school?”

“Because I hate it,” Raina said.

“You still have to go.”

“No, I don’t. I’m here, aren’t I?”

Her mom pressed her lips tight. “How did you get here?”

“At recess, the other girls were making fun of me. So I left. I walked here.”

“Raina, that’s like five miles! You can’t walk that far on your own.”

“Why not?”

“Nobody knew where you were. You could have been hurt. You’re too young to be running around on your own.”

“I’m ten years old,” Raina said. “I can take care of myself.”

“Oh really? Then maybe it’s time for you to start buying your own food. And clothes. And games.” Her mom sighed. “I can’t take you home right now. Your dad’s at work, too. So I guess you get to stay here until I’m done.”

That was fine with Raina. She sat in the room with the dogs, scratching their ears and asking them questions. She knew their owners would be back for them soon, but there in their cages, they acted like the kids whose parents were late picking them up from school. Some sat still like the saddest things, while others paced like their stomachs hurt.

After a few hours, her mom came into the back to get her. As they headed for the front doors, Marisa walked in, dressed in her scrubs. She stopped, swung her mouth into the crook of her elbow, and coughed hard, shoulders jumping.

“That sounds terrible,” Mom said. “Why didn’t you call in?”

Marisa shook her head, voice strained. “Lydia told me if I don’t make it in and I’m not dying, I’m fired.”

“So next week, instead of one sick person up front, she’ll have three.”

“I tried. You know how she is.”

“A load of shit from above?” Her mom spun toward Raina. “You didn’t hear that.”

* * *

They didn’t talk much on the ride to their home in Gardena. Raina’s dad was still at work, so her mom started preparing chicken thighs for dinner. Raina cut the peppers and onions.

Her dad got home. They ate. After, her mom pulled her dad to their room and shut the door. A few minutes later, he came to Raina’s room and knocked on the door frame.

“Hey, killer.” He walked in and sat on the bed. “Hear you want to be a ten-year-old dropout.”

She looked him in the eye. “School’s stupid. It doesn’t teach you what you need.”

“But you need it if you want a job. Or to go to college.”

“I don’t like being told what to do.”

“No one does. I go to work every day, and every day, someone tells me what to do. Same goes for your mom. That’s life.”

“Why do people put up with that?”

He laughed, rubbing his forehead with his palm. “Most of us don’t got a choice. Bills to pay. Mouths to feed. But you know what? If you don’t want that to be you, you better do good in school. Or else you’ll have someone telling you what to do until the day you retire.”

Raina watched a singing contest on TV with her parents, then went to bed. She could hear the cars outside. She thought about walking away, following PCH until there was no city around her at all. Until the only voice she had to listen to was the wind in the grass.

* * *

Her mother’s coughing woke Raina the next morning. It was a Wednesday and Raina got ready for the bus as usual. At school, the other children sat quietly as the teachers taught them things about the division of numbers and books of made-up stories. At recess, the kids split into packs, seeking out those who didn’t have groups and teasing them. They coughed as they ran, eyes watering.

On Friday, both her parents called in sick. Even though they were staying home, they still made Raina go to school. As the bus groaned down the street, Raina hid behind the neighbor’s agaves until it was gone. As the diesel fumes faded, she smiled.

She walked west, all the way to the ocean, where the houses were made of glass and light. People sat in the sand or beneath restaurant umbrellas. They didn’t have to be at school or work, but when Raina asked one woman why, the woman gave her a funny look.

When afternoon came, she walked to the school, waited for the final bell to go off, and got on the bus home. She’d been on her own all day and nothing had happened. Her mom would be mad at her for leaving school again if she found out, but Raina didn’t care. Her mom had to learn that she was wrong.

Back home, both her parents were in bed. Their breathing was heavy and sounded like something wet dragging itself up the shore. Raina looked in on them, but they were asleep. She was hungry after the day of walking, and she went to the fridge to warm up last night’s rice and beans. Sirens whined outside, but there were always sirens.

Her parents stayed in bed the next day, too. Raina brought them water and broth. They were pale and the room smelled wrong. The Kleenex in the trash beside the bed were spotted with blood.

That evening, her parents argued. Blankets rustled. Drawers scraped. Her dad walked out. He was dressed, but his brown face was waxy. Sweat dewed his temples.

“Get your shoes.” His voice was thick. “We’re going to the hospital. Can’t leave you alone.”

On the drive, the only sound was their wet coughing.

Cars jammed the hospital parking lot. Sirens spun. Lights painted the crowds red and blue. There were tents in the lot like they were selling the cars parked there. Her dad had to park three blocks away. Hundreds of people stood back from the front doors, where uniformed men in bug-like masks held long guns. People shouted and pressed forward. The men lifted their guns and yelled, and the crowds fell back.

“Martin.” Her mom grabbed her dad’s arm. “They’ll never let us in there.”

“They have to. We’re sick.”

“Look around. Everyone’s sick. And if we stay, Raina will be, too.”

He blinked, skin pulled tight over his face. “Come on.”

As they walked away, a gun went off. Men and women screamed. The three of them ran to the car and drove home.

Her mom trudged back to bed, shoulders jerking as she coughed into her fist. Raina’s dad bent down in front of her. The heat from his face was like afternoon sand.

“What’s going on?” Raina asked.

“We don’t feel good. But we’ll get better soon. Can you make yourself dinner?”

“Do you want some?”

“Not now.” He reached out to touch her arm, then stopped. A bead of sweat slipped down his nose. “Keep the front door locked, okay?”

“Okay.”

He turned, then stopped and looked back, a vein pulsing in his brow. “If something… happens. Wait for help. Okay?”

“Okay.”

He went to his room and shut the door. Raina turned off the lights and sat beside the window blinds, where one of the slats was broken. She peered through it to the intersection down the street. Normally, headlights streamed through the break in the blinds long after dark. That night, seconds passed between each car. Sirens whooped past every few minutes.

Raina only left her post to get food, use the bathroom, or bring her parents water. A day and a half into her vigil, her head snapped up from a doze. It took her a minute to understand what had woken her.

They’d stopped coughing.

Raina shot to her feet, heart heavy with dread. She took two steps toward their door and stopped. What if it would only be true if she opened the door and looked in? What if they’d needed her but she’d been asleep and they’d been too weak to get up and wake her? She sank to the stained, threadbare carpet. She knew what waited on the other side of the door. The worst thing in the world.

And that was why she had to stand up and make herself see.

The door creaked. The room smelled like blood and waste. Raina watched them for several minutes, then closed the door again. She went to her bed and lay down and wept. When she was done, she went back to the broken slat to watch the street.

Like one of the windup toys she’d had when she was little, the city seemed to stall, shudder forward, and stop. No more sirens. No more little planes burbling through the sky all afternoon. No more men walking their pit bulls. No more older kids hanging outside the Wendy’s and laughing too loud.

But her dad had told her what she needed to do. So Raina stayed at the window and waited.

* * *

Three days after she’d opened the door to the bedroom—three days alone in the silence waiting for help—the phone rang. Raina snatched it up. “Hello?”

“Hi there,” a man said. She could hear the smile in his voice. “And who’s this?”

“Raina.” Too late, she knew this was the wrong thing to say. “Who are you?”

“I’m a friend. Of your parents. Are you alone?”

Raina went still. “No.”

“Who’s there?” the man said. “Your parents?”

“That’s right. They’re in the other room.”

“Are they sick?”

“They’re fine.”

“Is that so. Then can I speak to them, Raina?”

She stared across the kitchen. “Hang on.”

Raina set the phone on the counter. As the man waited, she got the backpack she’d used for school. She got toilet paper and her toothbrush and the Tupperware of rice and beans she’d boiled. She emptied out the tail of a Pepsi two-liter and filled it with water. She got socks and underwear and a bag of the Bugles her dad liked.

Had liked.

Raina went to the front door, the man’s voice squawking from the phone back in the kitchen. He sounded angry, now. Like a man who wanted her parents to be dead. She went back to the kitchen and got the long, thin knife from the block. The same one she’d used to cut peppers and onions for dinner just a few days earlier.

Outside, crows scolded from the tile roofs. There was no sound of traffic. She didn’t know where she was going but she knew she needed to get away from the house and the lying, angry man on the phone. It was spring and the streets were wet from rain. Cars were parked at odd angles in the middle of the street. Others were crashed together and left behind. Sometimes she heard an engine far away, but that only made the silences in-between all the louder.

Shards of glass glittered on the sidewalk where shop windows had been punched out. At the corner, the Walgreens was torn apart, deodorant and shampoo bottles littering the entrance. Raina wandered down a side street. The front doors hung open like dark mouths at some houses. The people who owned them had abandoned them. If she wanted, she could walk in and make them her own.

But she doubted they were truly empty. She thought they had rooms like her parents’, where people slept forever in their bloody beds.

Los Angeles was gone. But what if the sickness hadn’t gotten to other places? She could go north. Santa Barbara. Her parents had taken her there when she was younger. It was pretty there. Maybe it wasn’t so silent and still. Maybe she could find help.

An hour later, with the clouds drizzling rain onto the apartments and strip malls, something growled at her from beneath a shrub. Raina stopped. A stout, black Chihuahua trotted out, hackles raised.

“Hi,” she said. “Are you scared?”

She crouched and held out her hand. The dog leaned warily forward, sniffing. It backed up a step, then leaned in and sniffed her again, its nose catching a whiff from her pack.

“I’ve got food.” She glanced down the street and shrugged out of her backpack. “Are you hungry?”

She opened the container of rice and beans and scooped a few bites out with her fingers. The Chihuahua edged closer, nostrils whuffing. He licked her hand, spilling grains of spicy rice to the sidewalk. He gobbled these up, so Raina dropped more to the ground. When the dog finished that too, she dug another scoop from the Tupperware, and he ate it from her hand.

“Hey!” A man’s voice echoed down the street. “Hey, you!”

He was two blocks away. A grown-up. The man leaned forward, breaking into a jog. Something about the way he moved felt wrong. He looked like a dog going after a squirrel. She shoved the food into her backpack and ran the other way.

“Hey!”

His shoes pounded the wet sidewalk. Raina darted down an alley that cut between two rows of houses. At the first open door, she ran inside. It smelled like her parents’ room. She found an empty bedroom and scampered under the bed.

Outside, the man’s shouts grew wrathful. That was the way of things now: with everything else taken, the only thing people had left was their anger.

Raina’s heart beat hard against her chest. Footsteps smacked outside the house, then faded, leaving nothing behind but the patter of the rain. After a few minutes, she got out her two-liter and drank some water. She waited half an hour before sliding from beneath the bed to check the windows. The alley was clear.

She couldn’t go north for help after all. Because she’d forgotten all about the dogs in the cages at her mom’s hospital. And if she’d forgotten them, then maybe everyone else had, too. She walked west toward the ocean she couldn’t see. It had stopped raining, but the streets smelled good for the first time since the sickness.

Something scraped behind her. She turned, tensing to run. The black dog stood on the cracked concrete, head tilted to the side.

“You can come with me,” she said. “But you better keep up.”

A mile later, he was still with her. Sometimes he trotted ahead, head swiveling every time a crow flapped from a tree. His nails didn’t click as he walked. He was so quiet Raina decided his name should be Knife.

She saw two people on her way to the hospital, but she hid behind bushes until they went away. At the intersection on PCH, cars clogged the lanes. Most were empty, but in a few, bodies sat behind the wheel, their flesh puffy and dark. Raina moved past them as quietly as she could.

The animal hospital’s front doors were locked. So were the dented metal doors downstairs. She trudged back up the slope to the front and pressed her nose to the glass. Knife joined her, nose twitching. If someone had locked the doors, maybe they’d taken the dogs out of the cages, too. But she wasn’t sure people were doing what they were supposed to anymore. Not after what she’d seen at the hospital.

She walked down the sloped parking lot to get one of the rocks from the landscaping and bash out the glass in the front door. She picked up a round stone and turned back. One of the second floor windows was open.

She walked beneath it, Knife trotting beside her. “Hello?”

No one came. There were some trash cans in the parking lot, but even if she stacked them, they wouldn’t be high enough to reach. Inside the window ledge, a hand crank jutted up. Raina frowned and went to the box at the front doors where they kept the slip leads. She took out a tangle of them, tying them together until she had a rope twelve feet long with a loop at the end. She went back to the window, twirled the rope, and slung it at the crank.

It took her dozens of tries before she snagged it. She tested the line, then set down her pack and climbed. Near the top, her arms began to shake. She hauled herself inside and dropped to the floor of a veterinarian’s office.

She went downstairs and unlocked the outer door. Knife ambled in, hopping up the steps behind her. The room with the cages smelled like pee and poop and something even worse. When she walked inside, the dogs lifted their heads and began to whine.

* * *

Not all of them stirred to greet her. A pug and a German shepherd lay flat in their cages. Their skin was the same temperature as the room.

One by one, she let the others out. There were twelve in all, from a big golden lab to a tiny tan Chihuahua. They crowded around her, whining and yowling, licking her hands and legs. Knife moved back, watching in concern. Raina opened the door to the large room, where her mom’s friends used to bathe and inspect the animals, and filled shallow plastic trays with water. The dogs lapped greedily.

From the other side of the room, a cat meowed like there was no hope. Raina jogged to the other room of cages, where eight cats stared at her from behind the thin metal bars that enclosed them. She had to let them out, but if she did that, she was afraid the dogs would eat them.

Raina stepped away, pressing her back to the wall. The dogs needed to be fed and cleaned. Some of them had chewed wounds in their paws and needed the medicine her mom used to give them. She should clean out the cages and take the dogs outside, in case they needed to use the bathroom. There was so much to do, and she didn’t know if she could do it. Abruptly, she felt very young. Why had the adults left the animals to die?

She clenched her teeth. Maybe the adults had been too scared or too stupid. But she was there now. And she was the only one the animals had.

“Don’t worry, kitties,” she said. “I’ll be right back.”

If they were full of food, the dogs wouldn’t want to eat the cats. Raina got a bag of kibbles from the shelves out front and filled two of the plastic trays. As soon as she set the first one down, the dogs lunged for it, growling and menacing each other with their fangs. She set down the second tub. Soon, they’d each found a place, crunching away. While they ate, she carried the pug and then the German shepherd outside. There was nowhere to bury them, so she took them down the ramp to the underground parking of the motel next door.

Upstairs, a schnauzer had barfed on the floor, but it was already cleaning it up. While the dogs sniffed around, she brought water and kibbles to the cats. Some of them hissed at her and most of them didn’t want to eat.

Raina had known lots of cats in her neighborhood. Some had liked to be petted, but most slunk away when she came near. They liked to be by themselves. Three cat carriers were stacked against the wall. She went out back to set out food and water, then brought the cats outside one by one. They all ran away.

She’d thought to keep the dogs inside, but seeing the cats scatter to their freedom, Raina knew she had to bring the dogs out, too. Or she would be no better than the people who’d kept her in school against her will. Who’d abandoned the animals in the first place?

Upstairs, she whistled to the dogs and led them outside. Knife stood beside her, watching the others click around the parking lot to sniff and pee. The schnauzer and a terrier climbed the incline to the road and strutted away, but the others stayed close, stealing the cat food she’d brought out or flopping in the sun. When she opened the door, they filed back inside and clattered up the stairs.

“Okay,” she said to Knife. “Looks like we’re staying.”

* * *

The first thing she did was clean the cages. The second thing she did was wash the dogs. The third thing she did was go to the motel and get sheets to shape beds for them.

And the fourth thing she did was name them.

There was Brick the golden lab and Eggplant the pug. There was Dragon, the little one with long black tufts on her ears and tail who never backed down. The Chihuahuas, Cloud and Mean and Mouse, who scattered whenever there was a loud noise. Smile the retriever. And the mutts, Tooth and Tough.

And there was Knife.

For food, there were dozens of bags and hundreds of cans in the hospital, but Raina knew no one would ever bring them more. And she needed people food, too. There was a Target store up the street her mom had sometimes gone to on the way home. Raina fed the dogs and brought them out to the bathroom, then got Knife, who went everywhere with her, and walked up the hill to the Target.

She got a red shopping cart and pushed it up and down the aisles. The tile floor was cluttered with kid’s clothes and containers of hand soap people had knocked down and left there. Every single scrap of people food was gone. Raina’s head flushed with hot blood. How could they have been so greedy? To take everything? She hoped whoever had taken it all had been found by the man who’d tried to find out if she was alone, or the other one who’d chased her in the street.

Abruptly, a cold tingle soothed her blood. She wasn’t the only one out there. The others would be hungry, too. And there was no one left to stop them from taking whatever they wanted.

The people food was gone, but there were shelves and shelves of dog food. Too much for one trip. Or even two. She loaded bags into the cart and headed out of the store. On the smooth tile of the aisles, the cart hadn’t been too loud, but out on the pavement, it rattled so badly Raina wanted to scream at it to stop. At the hospital, she wrestled the bags of dog food inside and stashed the cart in the motel’s underground parking, far away from where she’d covered the pug and shepherd.

With Knife beside her, she returned to the Target. In the aisles of skateboards and Legos, she found a big red wagon. Its tall rubber tires crossed the linoleum with the faintest of gripping sounds. She loaded it with the biggest bags of kibbles and dragged it back to the hospital.

By the time her knees were too tired to keep going, she’d filled up all the empty shelves downstairs. It was only when Raina went to feed the dogs dinner that she realized she had nothing for herself. She got a kibble from the bag and crunched it between her teeth. It was very dry and tasted exactly the way it smelled. But it was food. She ate.

After dinner, she felt rested enough for another trip to the store. She came back with enough dog beds for all of them. Including herself. She turned off the lights and flopped down.

Now, in the quiet aloneness, the impact jarred tears from her eyes. She wiped them on her shirt. What had happened to her parents? Her teachers? The stupid girls at school? Why wasn’t anyone there to tell her what had happened and bring her somewhere safe? Why hadn’t someone stopped the bloody cough? Why was she still alive?

Two paws pressed down on the side of the bed. A small round head stood in silhouette. Knife leaned forward. She tried to push him away, but he ducked her hand and licked her face. Hearing the sound of licking, another dog trotted over and licked her, too—Eggplant, there was no mistaking her breathing. A third dog rolled into the bed and flopped down on her feet.

“Maybe I don’t need to understand what’s out there.” She stared up at the dark ceiling. “Maybe I only need to understand what’s in here.”

Knife sighed and lay on her chest. It was okay to cry for a moment. But only a moment. There were ten dogs and they needed her.

* * *

As soon as she’d taken care of the dogs the next morning, she went back to the Target to pick up more kibbles. Two men and a woman were inside the store piling carts with diapers and soap. Before they could see her, Raina slunk back to the hospital to wait. The daytime was too dangerous. That was when the big creatures came out. The night was the time for the possums, the raccoons, and the skunks.

From then on, she only left the hospital after dark. Tough, the mutt with the brindle legs and white feet, was good at watching and staying close, so Raina took her along to the Target, too. While Knife sat up front guarding the doors, Tough watched Raina’s back as she loaded the wagon with dog food. Soon, she’d moved all of it home except for three bags, in case someone else needed them more.

Two weeks went by. The days got longer and warmer. Raina and the dogs slept through the afternoons, curled in their beds. Mean made peeping noises in his sleep. At night, Raina took them to the parking lot. She tried to take the others out by themselves, but Dragon and Cloud barked too much, and Smiles would wander away and refuse to return unless she dragged him by the collar. He was so heavy that she had to lean with all her strength to pull him away from what he was sniffing.

“You guys have to learn better,” she told them when she had them back inside. “Or else you’ll have to stay inside. Be like Knife and Tough. Be quiet and watch.”

Smiles was sniffing the corner. Mouse and Brick were asleep. Some of the others were watching her, but the rest were busy licking their paws.

“If you’re going to learn better, then I’m going to have to teach better. But you’ll have to listen. There’s only one of me and ten of you.”

She started with Smiles, trying over and over to get him to stay. Time after time, he went straight for the treat. Blinking back tears of frustration, Raina shut off the light and went to bed. Knife licked her face, but licking couldn’t solve everything. After a while, he gave up and lay down close beside her.

Day after day, she worked with each of them. Bit by bit, they got a little better. But Smiles still liked to wander off when she tried to take him down back streets, and Dragon bolted after every bird and squirrel that caught his eye. What if they never listened to her? What if one of them ran off at the wrong time and got hurt?

But there was nothing to do but keep trying.

* * *

Raina was bringing in a bag of oranges from the tree down the street when the hospital lights flickered and blinked off. She gazed up into the darkness. After ten seconds, the lights snapped back on, blinding her. But in that moment of darkness, she’d seen something vital. The machines that ran the lights and water were still out there, but the people who ran the machines were dead.

She spent the next days gathering jugs. Filling them with water. Climbing to the flat roof and placing buckets for rain. Every morning, dew glinted on the cars. Raina knew that came from the air, too—was it mist from the sea? There had to be a way to catch it, but she couldn’t think how.

The water wasn’t the only thing. Earlier, their rooms of food had looked like enough to last forever. But now that she knew the water could stop, the supplies no longer looked so large. They were going to need more.

That was the one lesson of the new world: you would always need more. If you weren’t busy getting it, you were busy losing it.

She’d visited enough of the nearby shops to know they’d already been looted. But there were hundreds of houses right behind the hospital. She’d been avoiding them. She knew what lay in the beds. What she’d found when the angry man on the street chased her. But she couldn’t be afraid anymore. The bodies couldn’t kill her. But fear could.

That night, Raina got her pack and her kitchen knife and walked outside. She meant to go alone, but Knife snuck out the door after her.

“Fine,” she muttered. Then her face softened to a smile. “Come on.”

Early on, she’d used snips from Target to cut a hole through the fence between the hospital and the home on the other side. She ducked through it and walked through the shaggy yard to the house’s back door. It was unlocked. She stepped into the entrance and was stopped by a wave of rotten stench. She took a step back, ready to turn and run. Knife trotted past her into the darkness. He sniffed at the kitchen table, then turned to stare at her.

“You’re much smaller than me.” Raina put her hands on her hips. “You should be afraid of everything. But that’s why you’re afraid of nothing, isn’t it? Or else you’d never stop running.”

She walked through the door. Inside, cans of food filled the cabinets. Human food: beef stew and chicken soup and cream of potato. She ate a can of stew on the spot. After weeks of dog food, the beef tasted like pure strength. She gave a bite to Knife, followed by a second. He ate in fast little jerks.

There were many houses, but less food than she thought. Much had been taken. Much had gone rotten. It would let them last longer, but not that much longer. They ate most of what they found each night, saving the dog food, which seemed made to last a long time.

She’d need more food, but what else could she do to find it? Could she teach the dogs to hunt? Some were too slow and loud, but Knife and Tough might be able to snatch crows or the rats that ran along the fence out back. It would be better than nothing.

The only other choice was to move somewhere she could grow corn they could all eat, but it would take weeks to haul the bags and cans of food anywhere. She could take one of the cars, but she didn’t like them. They made too much noise. Noise was how others found you.

So every night, she went out to scavenge. The first few nights, she only took Knife, but it was a good chance to take the others farther than they were used to. One at a time, of course—she wasn’t sure every house was unoccupied. Sometimes she heard a car engine or a gunshot, but these were always distant. She avoided any house with buckets on the roof for collecting water or gardens in back. There weren’t many of those.

One day, she turned on the hospital sink and nothing came out but a sputter of air. On her nightly runs, she started looking for water, too, and cans of soda for herself.

She was out with Knife and Smiles that night. Outside a Spanish house with broken windows, she turned to Smiles.

“Sit,” she said. Smiles sat. “Stay.”

She went inside with Knife, moving quickly through the cabinets. When she came back outside, Smiles was nowhere to be seen.

She moved to the corner, straining her ears for the click of claws. Noise could get you killed, but she had no other choice. Not if she wanted to see Smiles again. She whistled. Knife peered into the night, nose twitching. Raina whistled again, then jogged back past the house to the next block. She whistled a third time. Down the street, Smiles lifted his head from the bush he was snuffling.

Raina ran to grab him. “Come on, stupid. Time to go home.”

She went back to the house for her wagon and headed for the hospital. After a few blocks, something scraped behind her. Raina whirled into a crouch. Knife growled, but the street was empty.

At the hospital, she unloaded the night’s catch and dumped beef stew over kibbles. She thought about punishing Smiles by withholding the stew, but he wouldn’t understand. After dinner, she bagged up the trash, which was full, and took it to the underground parking next door. She went to bed.

* * *

Hours later, Raina snapped awake. She’d heard an engine outside. There was no sound now. She got up and went to the door to the front office, standing on her tiptoes to peer through its small window.

A flashlight beamed through the front windows into the hospital’s reception area. Raina held perfectly still as the light swept through the front room, passing from the reception desk to the empty shelves that had once held bags of food. The woman outside wore a dark uniform and had a silver badge on her chest.

The officer tried the door. Finding it locked, she flipped her flashlight around, and cocked her arm to smash it into the door.

Raina flung open the door to the back room. “Stop! We’re in here!”

The woman drew a pistol, shining the flashlight in Raina’s eyes. “Show me your hands!”

Raina lifted them. The officer flicked the beam of the flashlight across the room, then back to Raina.

She lowered the gun, voice muffled by the glass. “Can you open the door?”

Raina hesitated. “How’d you know I was here?”

“Someone said a little girl was here. All alone except for a few dogs. Is that true?”

Was she there to help? Like Raina’s dad had said someone would be? Raina nodded to the officer and unlocked the door. “Who saw me?”

The woman walked inside, casting her light past the front counter. “Another survivor. He thought it would be better if I came by. What’s your name?”

“Raina.”

“Hi, Raina. I’m Officer Morgan. Are you okay?”

“I’m fine.”

“My friend said you had dogs here. Are they okay?”

“Some of them bark too much. And one likes to sniff too far.”

The officer smiled. “Can I see them?”

Raina brought her to the back room. The dogs swarmed around Officer Morgan’s legs. Smiles and Eggplant jumped up on her. Tough and Tooth barked. The Chihuahuas backed away, hackles standing straight up. The officer bent to scratch their ears and thump their backs.

After they calmed down, Officer Morgan straightened, rubbing her hand over her mouth. “You can’t care for all these animals.”

“Yeah I can. I have food for them.”

“What’ve you got?”

“Kibbles,” she said. “And the meat they like.”

“Dog food. Right.” Officer Morgan folded her arms, looking down at Raina just like her teachers used to do. “What about water?”

“I filled lots of jugs,” Raina replied proudly. “And I have more on the roof for the rain.”

“It’s almost summer. You’ll be lucky if it rains an inch between now and November.”

Raina frowned. She tried to think of a place nearby where water flowed, but the only place she could remember was the ocean. “Then we’ll have to find more.”

Officer Morgan turned toward the front of the building. After a long moment, she smiled at Raina. “Tell you what. I have a place in the hills. It’s near a reservoir. I’ve got food. Water. And all kinds of room for dogs. If you’ll help me farm it, you can come stay there.”

“But this is my home.”

“It isn’t safe here. There are bad men out in the streets. This place is away from that.”

Raina thought for a moment. “Is it just you at the farm?”

“Sure.” Officer Morgan smiled deeper, eyes crinkling. “And a whole bunch of dogs.”

Raina lowered her eyes to the animals. She’d worked so hard to build their home here. They had food and medicine; she didn’t know which pills did what, but there were books that would tell her so. They knew the streets and homes around them.

But the animal hospital was on the main road. There was nowhere to grow food. There was no lake or stream. Sooner or later, they’d have to move—if the other survivors didn’t come for them first.

“Okay,” she said. “Let’s go.”

Officer Morgan placed her hand on Raina’s shoulder, then walked around the hospital, assessing the animals. “Let’s take the big ones first. Then we’ll come back for the little guys and anything else you want to bring.”

She had a K-9 van parked on a side street down the block. Raina led Brick, Smiles, Tough, Teeth, and Eggplant to it. Officer Morgan helped them into the back. They returned to the hospital to load bags of food on the wagon and lock up. As they closed the door, Knife darted out to stand beside Raina.

“Can he come?” Raina said. “He goes everywhere with me.”

“Why not?”

They got in the van, Knife riding on Raina’s lap. Officer Morgan checked to make sure Raina was buckled in before driving away. As they headed north through the night, fear fluttered in Raina’s heart. She’d done fine on her own, hadn’t she? Why leave with the officer? But she thought of what was best for the dogs, and she calmed down.

Officer Morgan stayed off the highways, traveling down side streets and avoiding the bigger roads, many of which were clogged with cars. The towers were black bricks against the sky. The officer asked her lots of things about how she’d survived the last few months. What she’d seen. Whether anyone had tried to hurt her—and whether she’d had to hurt anyone back.

“I had to run and hide sometimes,” Raina said. “But that’s it.”

“You’re lucky.” Officer Morgan slowed to ease the van through a tangle of cars. “It’s bad out there.”

They drove for miles. Raina thought they were headed north, but she didn’t know the parts of the city they were traveling through. Bodies lay on sidewalks, bones beginning to show through what was left of their skin. Knife climbed behind her seat and curled up on a towel there.

In time, hills loomed before them. The van slowed. Ahead, another intersection was blocked with wrecked cars. Officer Morgan swore, glanced at Raina, and turned the van around, coming to a stop.

“Raina, there’s a map under your seat. Can you dig it out for me?”

Raina slipped her head under her shoulder strap and leaned forward. There were several maps under the seat. She got them out and turned to Officer Morgan.

The barrel of a gun stared back.

Officer Morgan’s jaw tightened. “Don’t look at me.”

“What are you doing?”

“I said, don’t look at me!”

“I don’t understand.” Raina angled her head to the side, trying to obey, but she couldn’t take her eyes from the gun. “What are you doing?”

“There’s nothing left out there. If you knew any better, you’d thank me.”

“Don’t hurt my dogs!”

The officer’s finger twitched on the trigger of the revolver. She bared her teeth and cursed. “Get out of the van.”

Officer Morgan lowered the gun. Raina stared, then scrabbled for the door handle. She tumbled into the street. Officer Morgan slammed the door shut behind her. As she drove off, Knife popped his head up in the passenger window and howled, black eyes gleaming.

The van rumbled away, tires screeching as it turned. Raina stood in the middle of the road, her head spinning. She was miles from home. Officer Morgan had her dogs. The woman knew where Raina lived, but Raina had no idea how to find her.

A cold voice spoke from the back of her head. She only had one choice that made sense. Find a car. Drive back to the hospital. And get the other dogs somewhere safe before Officer Morgan came for them, too.

But there was also a hot voice. And it told her to do something else. She ran down to the corner where the van had turned, then headed north, following its sound. She sprinted as hard as she could, but the engine’s hum diminished with each passing second. She gasped for breath. Her legs burned. When she couldn’t run any further, she coasted to a stop at the bottom of a long hill, gazing up the empty street. Palm fronds fluttered above the sidewalks.

Tears streamed down her face. She sank to her knees. Ahead, a small shadow trotted toward her from the darkness.

“Knife!” She leaped to her feet and ran to meet him. “How’d you get here? Did she throw you out?”

He jumped up, pawing her, then spun in a circle. Raina gestured north over and over. “We have to find them, Knife. Do you know where they went? Do you know where she took them?”

Knife stared up at her, his black eyes just like the button eyes of a stuffed bear she’d had as a little kid. He turned around and walked swiftly up the hill, nose sweeping side to side. She followed him through winding roads of grand houses nestled in the trees. After another two or three miles, the houses stopped altogether and there was nothing but forest. On top of a rise, Knife came to a stop, his wet, black nose twitching.

Raina gazed into the darkness. “What’s wrong? Where’d they go?”

Knife glanced up at her. He took one step forward, then stopped again, paw lifted hesitantly.

Raina balled her hands into fists. “Just tell me where to go.”

Uphill and to her left, far away but clearly her, Tough barked three times.

* * *

The house lay in the darkness like a spider’s hole.

The smell of rotting bodies wafted on the wind. Eggplant whined from around the back of the house, her smush-nosed voice like a raspy baby. A candle flickered behind the windows. Raina waited for it to go out, then waited longer still. Knife sat beside her. Silent. Watchful.

The wait gave her a long time to think. At first, she thought to go around back, get the dogs, and run away. But Officer Morgan knew where she lived. She was a bad person. The same as the man who’d called and the one who’d chased her in the street. The type to come back for her. Even if Raina could find a car, get back to the hospital, and move the dogs somewhere new, it wouldn’t be right. She would still be out there. Preying on the city. On the dogs.

The front door was locked, but the garage door was propped up by two-by-fours, with a couple of hoses running out into the drive. Raina used one board to lever the door up another few inches, slipping a second board beneath it and wriggling through the gap. The door to the house was unlocked.

Raina stood in the darkness. Someone was snoring from a back room. She took off her shoes and snuck forward. Officer Morgan lay in bed beneath her sheets. The revolver rested on the dresser beside her. Raina moved silently forward and picked up the gun. It felt too heavy, like something from another world.

Knife growled. Morgan blinked, inhaling with a stutter and grabbing at the empty space on the dresser.

Holding the gun in both hands, Raina aimed it at her head. “Why did you take them?”

The woman startled upright, pressing her back to the headboard. “Jesus!”

“Why did you take my dogs?”

“Put down that gun, little girl. Before someone gets hurt.”

“Shut up.”

“Do you even know how to aim that?”

“I saw you do it.” Raina lowered her aim to Morgan’s chest. “Tell me why. One. Two. Th—”

“They’re not pets anymore!” Morgan blurted. “One dog keeps you safe. Anything more is just meat.”

Raina didn’t think she could pull the trigger. When the gun went off, it was so loud that Knife peed on the floor.

* * *

Along with her dogs, two others were caged out back. When she let them out, they snuffled around the yard, inspecting the pile of bones, but they didn’t pick any of them up. They knew better. Raina called them to the gate, but when she opened it, the two strange dogs ran away. Smiles followed them. She whistled, but he didn’t come back. Hoping his new friends would help keep him safe, she let him go.

Raina loaded the others into the van. With the seat scooted all the way forward, she could barely reach the pedals. On the way home, she kept running into snarled intersections, forcing her to detour. Miles from the hospital, she backed into a pole because she was too short to see behind. Some part of the van caught fast to the pole. She got out with the dogs and walked south.

The sun rose, slanting over the buildings, glinting on the dew on the cars. When she got to the hospital, she found the dogs scratching against the other side of the door to reception. She opened it and they rushed her, jumping up against her legs. The back room smelled like poop. They’d eaten all the food she’d left out and the water bowls were down to the last licks.

She cleaned up the mess. Poured fresh water. Let out the little dogs who’d been cooped up all night. After, most went back to bed. Raina sat on the bench in the front room, Knife on her lap.

“She was right,” Raina whispered. “I can’t take care of you all. If something had happened to me, they would have been trapped. Nothing to eat. Nothing to drink.”

Knife looked up at her from the corners of his eyes.

“I had to learn to take care of myself. That’s the only way now. For all of us. Do you understand?”

He yawned, squeaking, and closed his eyes.

She let them sleep a while longer. She tried to think of another way, but Officer Morgan had shown her the truth. No one was coming to save you. No matter what your dad said, there was no salvation except what you honed for yourself from whatever you had.

The next night, she brought a full bag of kibbles down to the parking lot and poured it into multiple tubs in case any of the dogs came back later. Then she got her pack, brought the dogs outside, and headed east.

The dogs ranged ahead. Raina slowed. Dragon bounded onward and the others raced after. One block away, then two. Raina stopped. The dogs kept running. All except for Knife, who turned his head, one black paw lifted from the street. He glanced at the others as they disappeared around a hedge, then strutted back to Raina and took his place by her side.

She wanted to tell him to go, to be with the others, but she couldn’t make herself do it. She kneeled and scratched his ears.

“I can’t take care of all of them,” she said. “But maybe we can take care of each other.”

He lifted his nose to the wind. Raina did the same. When he moved down the street, she followed.

A Word from Edward W. Robertson

Ed and Cricket.

Growing up, my family had a golden retriever named Lady. She’s been dead for close to twenty years now, but my family still tells the occasional story about her. Like when we got a kitten who was so small she would curl up on Lady’s back to sleep. Or the time my dad went pheasant hunting in his friend’s asparagus field; my dad got one bird, his friend got one, and so did Lady—she’d found a hen out in the maze of asparagus gone to seed and done as her instincts suggested.

But Lady was the only dog I had as a kid. After her, it was nothing but cats. As recently as my late twenties, I didn’t think too much of dogs. I had nothing against them, but I had no desire to own one. And I definitely didn’t like little yappers.

Then I started dating someone whose mom had two dogs: a little orange terrier and a mutt—maybe a Chihuahua/miniature greyhound—named Vinnie. I thought the terrier was okay, but Vinnie was an ambassador to dog skeptics. Funny. Playful. Loyal. One time, when we came by the house for the first time in a few weeks, Vinnie threw back his head and howled when he saw me.

Six years later, I own two dogs. Little ones. One’s a mutt from an LA shelter. The other’s a Chihuahua we got as a puppy from a family at the dog park. She bears a suspicious resemblance to Knife. Both my dogs are yappers, but they make up for it in other ways.

In LA, sometimes it seems like there are more dogs than people. Most of my Breakers books are set in this area. When I thought about what the end would bring, I had no problem squashing seven billion people. But I never liked to think about what would happen to all those dogs.

In this corner of the universe, it turns out they helped a little girl through the loss of everything she knew.

Protector

by Stefan Bolz

The fire had separated him from his pack. The wolves had made their way east, across the great plains and toward the lower mountains. They traveled around the city. Even though there was food there, they dared not go too close. Meat was rare, and wolf meat was considered a delicacy. They wouldn’t have survived.

When the thunder came and fire began to rain from the sky, the earth shook under them in great tremors. He was still too small to run as fast as they did. So he and his sister, cubs and not yet fully certain on their feet, fell behind. His mother’s eyes commanded them to follow whenever she turned her head back to find them. He understood but couldn’t go any faster, as hard as he tried. His sister, slightly bigger and stronger already, had a good twenty feet on him. But even she couldn’t reach the others.

His mother slowed down and his sister caught up to her. Through the raging fire and the thunderous sounds around him, he saw his mother pick up his sibling by the neck. She looked at him once more, then turned and disappeared into the storm. His howling didn’t reach farther than the wind.

* * *

His nose couldn’t find them anymore. The acrid smoke overwhelmed his senses. As he drifted farther and farther away from his mother’s path, trying to escape the maze of fire that enclosed him, his feet suddenly stepped into emptiness. He fell down an embankment, tumbling over and over to land in a small reservoir of water. The fire above him leapt across the narrow creek bed to the other side, the heat scorching the parts of his fur not covered by water.

And there he waited. In the days that followed, he never forgot his mother’s eyes as she’d turned, his sister safe in her jaws, to find safety for the pack. He saw her face when he looked up at the sky at night, and she was there when he closed his eyes to sleep. He’d never been alone. No previous experience had prepared him for it. He felt the pain of it, raw and unremitting. It ached worse than the growing hunger in his belly.

When the rain came, the creek swelled up, and he found a low section of the embankment to climb up. He ran across the plains, his nose picking up his mother’s fading scent. He didn’t have to go far. He saw her, recognized her shape and that of his sister—blackened remnants, coated in ash on the charred ground. The whole pack lay there with them in death.

He held watch for two days. It was his hunger that drove him away in the end. It took the night and half the next day before the ground beneath his paws was no longer burned, before the desert grasses began to peek through the blackened soil.

He was dizzy and half-starved when he came upon the settlement. It lay in a valley before him, with the sun shining on the small lake surrounded by makeshift tents and hastily erected huts.

Somewhere in his mind he remembered his mother’s warning, her fear of places like this one, where wolf flesh was prized. But his exhaustion had taken over, and finding food was his only instinct. He trotted along the creek bed, watching the slow-flowing water for any signs of fish. He’d been with his mother when she’d caught them in the past, but he’d never done it himself.

He didn’t see the trap. It was set inside a patch of ferns in a narrow area between the creek and a large outcropping of rock. If he’d been protected by the wisdom of the pack, or older and more experienced himself, he would have seen it or smelled the human imprint on it. But he was young and hungry and alone.

The sudden, piercing pain obliterated his hunger, inundated his senses completely. Panicking, he tried to pull away from the iron claws that ripped through the muscles and tendons of his front leg. His cries of terror were swallowed by the sound of the rushing stream. Nobody heard him. Except for one.

* * *

“It’s not gonna hold.”

“It’ll hold.”

“It needs to be reinforced over there. Otherwise, it’ll break apart.”

“It’ll hold.”

“And how can you be so sure?”

“I’m telling you, it’ll hold, Manny.”

Jack, ever so slowly, let go of the branch. It was embedded in a pile of other branches anchored into both sides of a small creek bed. The two boys stood in the center of the stream, watching the dam.

“We need to reinforce it here.” Manny pointed at a spot where the water rushed through, cascading along the driftwood and into the now much lower stream on the other side of it.

Both boys dug their hands into the muddy soil along the water’s edge.

“We’ll mix that with leaves and smaller sticks, and we should be good to go,” Jack said as he worked.

They moved several handfuls of dirt up top and added whatever they found from the ground, working it into a thick paste. They then carried it carefully to the dam. Jack heard the faint whining sound but didn’t think much of it. He was too focused on ladling the leafy paste into the narrow openings between the dam’s branches.

The second grunt was louder, more urgent. Jack stopped for a moment, listening closely.

“What is it?” Manny asked. His hands were still submerged. At this point, their clothes were completely soaked.

“I don’t know. I thought I heard something.”

The third cry was followed by a low growl.

“There’s something out there,” Jack said.

He saw fear in Manny’s eyes. Fear and the hope that if it was an animal, it would simply pass through without bothering them any further. Jack knew better. The cries had been stationary. They’d come from the same spot maybe fifty feet behind the area of the ferns and close to the large boulder downstream. He moved away from the dam toward the other side of the creek bed.

“I don’t think that’s a good idea, Jack.”

“We won’t find out until we take a look.”

“I didn’t hear anything,” Manny said.

“I did.”

“We should go back. It’s getting late.”

“I’m going,” Jack said, climbing out of the creek bed. Manny followed as he’d always done. They’d entered the world from their mother’s womb three minutes apart, with Jack leading the way. Manny had followed his older twin ever since.

The whimper was urgent now and fueled by pain. It was Manny who found the source first. They’d climbed on top of the boulder.

“It’s a wolf cub,” Manny said. Jack moved forward until he saw it too. The cub’s right front paw was caught in a large, iron trap. It was evident from the whining and the odd way it was trying to stand that the cub was in pain.

The two boys gave each other a glance. Both knew that meat—any meat—was sparse, and for them to come home with something that could feed at least part of their group would be a big deal. Their status would instantly rise from mere children, dependent on their elders, to young men, able to take on some of the group’s responsibilities.

When they climbed down the side of the boulder and approached the cub, it didn’t move. Jack didn’t realize just how young it was until they stood in front of it. Half its fur was blackened and singed, the other half burned off entirely. The trap had caught its right front leg half-way up, and the shin and foot were soaked in blood.

Jack could almost feel the animal’s pain himself. He held his knife inside his pocket, readying himself to cut the cub’s throat. The boys had watched other members of their group of survivors slaughter animals before, and Jack was fairly sure of what to do.

He’d planned to move around the cub and get behind it. From there it would be relatively easy to hold it and slit its throat. But when he saw the cub up close, all he could think of was to open the trap and set it free.

“Help me open the trap,” Jack said after a moment’s hesitation.

“What?”

“The trap. We need to open it and I can’t do it by myself.”

“We can’t do that.”

“Why?”

“We have to go back and tell them that there’s a wolf cub in one of the traps.”

“But they’ll kill it,” Jack replied, louder than he’d intended. He was sure now. He wouldn’t kill the cub or go back to the village and tell them of a new food source. He could only hope it wouldn’t die out here, injured and without the ability to hunt for itself.

“It’ll die anyway,” Manny replied. “It’ll die without food.”

“You don’t know that—”

“And if it doesn’t die, if it survives and gets stronger and becomes a full-grown wolf, it will come back and try to kill us.”

Jack didn’t want to admit that Manny was right.

“Besides,” Manny continued, “we can’t set the trap back. It’ll be closed with nothing in it, and they’ll know someone must have freed whatever was in there.”

Damn you, Manny! Jack thought. He couldn’t argue with his brother’s logic. He was right.

“I’m going back to tell them,” Manny said as he turned and began to climb up the boulder.

“Manny!”

“I’m going back to tell them,” his brother repeated without turning. “You can come or not. It’s up to you.”

Manny was gone. It would take him thirty minutes to get to the village and another thirty to bring someone back. Jack didn’t think. He didn’t consider the possible consequences for himself or the village. He only saw the pain the cub was in, the terror in its eyes. Its silent plea for help.

He knelt before the trap. A grown man could probably open the trap alone, but Jack knew he wasn’t strong enough. Nevertheless, he had to try. He put his hands on either side of the iron jaws and pulled. The cub was still, as if it knew that moving might result in further injury. It watched him carefully.

Jack was able to pull the claws apart a quarter inch, but it wasn’t enough. The cub whimpered when Jack eased them back together around its leg. He needed to prevent the claws from closing once he pulled them apart. He needed to pull harder and farther than he did before.

Jack sat down with the trap between his legs and grabbed the two sides of its jaws and pulled. He was able to move the claws farther apart than the first time, but it still wasn’t enough for the cub to remove his foot. Jack felt his strength waning. The sharp edge of the iron cut into his hands and tears filled his eyes. He screamed his frustration, fueling his arms with one last ounce of strength. Jack’s muscles were cramping, and just when he was about to give up, the cub pulled its paw out of the trap. The blood had made the fur on its leg slippery enough to slide out.

Jack let go and the trap snapped shut. He expected the cub to run, but it cowered instead, licking its injured leg. The wound was raw and deep and caked with dirt and blood. Jack took the handkerchief off his neck and soaked it in the stream.

“Let me take a look,” he said, slowly stretching out his hand toward the cub. It didn’t resist, but its whining asked for tenderness. Jack gently took the paw and cleaned the wound as best he could, then ripped the handkerchief in half and wrapped one part around the cub’s leg to staunch the flow of blood.

“You need to leave,” he said, lightly petting the cub’s head. It responded by pushing its ears against his fingers. The young wolf was in no hurry to leave Jack’s loving touch. “You need to get out of here. Do you understand? You have to go!”

Jack stopped stroking the cub’s head and pushed at its side, away from the direction Manny had walked. But the animal refused to go. Its whole body shivered, and it pulled itself forward until its head rested against Jack’s palm again. But the boy knew what had to be done and pushed the cub a few more times and finally—afraid one of the villagers would walk around the boulder and see them—he picked it up and carried it downstream, scratching its ears as he went. The village was several miles upstream from where he was. He figured he’d go down another mile and leave the cub there. After that, it was on its own.

Ten minutes later, his back and shoulders ached so much, he had to stop and set the cub down. It hobbled a few feet away from him, still unable to put any weight on its injured leg. It looked miserable.

“Come on now,” Jack said as he picked it back up and continued their journey downstream. A series of rock formations stood a few hundred yards to the west, near the stream but relatively hidden behind a cluster of low-standing pine trees. Jack climbed across the rocks to a small gap between two of the boulders. The overhang there was large enough to give shelter from the rain and protection from prying eyes that might look up from the creek. Only by climbing the rocks as he had would anyone see the small dugout. Jack hoped that wouldn’t happen.

“This will make a nice den for you, at least for a while. You stay here. Okay? I’ll be back tomorrow to get you something to eat. It won’t be much. Don’t leave!”

The cub appeared even smaller now as it lay, back pushed against the flinty wall of the hollow, licking the handkerchief. Though Jack expected to be punished once Manny returned and the villagers learned what he’d done, he ran upstream just the same. Part of him regretted setting the cub free. It would most likely die anyway, either from hunger or from the infection in its leg. He should have killed it and brought it back to the settlement, he knew. Everything would have been better. Perhaps even for the cub, blessed with a merciful, quick death.

* * *

The pain was red.

It wasn’t only in his leg. It radiated upward into his chest. When he slept, his fever dreams were filled with images of crows pecking at the wound, piercing the slowly healing skin and ripping out large chunks of it.

The night before, he’d eaten a rat. It crept up from the stream, probably attracted by the blood seeping through the cloth around his leg. He couldn’t keep any of it in his stomach. It came back up in heaves, though he managed to walk a few feet before he threw up.

The boy returned after two nights and brought a bowl of thick liquid. He only stayed for a short time, during which he replaced the smelly cloth with a fresh one. The new cloth had some kind of salve on it. It smelled almost as bad as the previous one, so the cub shied away from it.

The next day—or maybe it was the day after that—the boy came back again. The other boy was with him, and they each brought him a fish. They sat with him for a while, cutting the small fish into pieces and feeding them to him. He felt better after that.

From then on, the boys came every day. They never stayed long but always brought something for him to eat. They petted him, and when he began to feel better, he played with them, pretending to gnaw them but never actually biting them. In his mind they were cubs like him, from the same pack and equals.

After a few more days, he was able to put both front paws on the ground with only a little pain. The boys came one last time. That day, he saw fear in their eyes, and when they left, he knew they wouldn’t return. He waited at the entrance to the cave for two nights and two days.

When they didn’t come back, he left his hiding place and followed their scent along the banks of the creek until he reached the settlement. His nose caught the sweet smell of death before he found its source.

Half the huts were burned to ashes. Slain bodies lay on the ground, limbs ripped from their torsos. There was no sign of the boys. No sign anywhere. He sniffed at each tent, each hut that still stood, and even the remnants of all the burned ones. He found the younger boy along the lakeshore, ten feet from the water’s edge. Half the boy’s arm was missing. His lifeless eyes stared into the sky. The cub’s howl echoed across the water.

He picked up the older boy’s scent at the edge of the green surrounding the lake. He followed it into the tundra, the pain in his heart as wide as the land that lay before him, as vast as his hope for the boy’s safety. The stars stood cold against the darkened sky that night, and he felt immeasurably small below them.

The next day brought rain. It washed away the scent, leaving no trace of it behind. For seven months, he searched the steppe. He traveled far to the east until he reached the mountains. From there he went west, through the swamps and the lowlands. Twice he came upon another settlement. Perhaps the boy had joined one of those packs. But he didn’t dare go near them to see, though he so desperately wanted to. He remembered the lesson of his pack. He remembered how much humans loved wolf meat.

Except for a slight limp in his right front leg, he became strong and fast and a fierce hunter. His scorched fur grew back in, and save for a streak of black skin, a ghost of his burning, it stood thick and warm against the winter. He learned how to fish in the narrow creek beds and hide from the packs of hyenas at night. He learned to be a shadow in the dark. The cub had become a wolf.

* * *

Jack and the others had fled across the plains and toward the mountains. There were twenty-eight of them left. First, they’d run from the fire. Now they ran from those who hunted them. They’d found a small plateau in the hills, protected by a steep, narrow incline in front and sheer cliffs in back. They stayed there for a few months. It reminded Jack of the small hollow he’d found for the cub. And as he had then, the survivors clung close to the rocks, protected by them, until the wounded were able to walk again.

But as the nights grew colder and food once again became scarce, they left their refuge and made their way along the green river at the edge of the desert. The rocky landscape made it difficult for anyone following to spot them. At the same time, the rough ground slowed their progress to a few miles per day.

One night, Jack overheard the men talking about a settlement, a stronghold where they would find safety and food and warmth. The mountains on the horizon came closer each day. Yet, they seemed unreachable in Jack’s mind, standing distant and mocking him with false hope, a promise of safety never to be fulfilled.

Seven moons ago, Manny had taken his hand and pulled him to safety when the dark figures charged into their makeshift camp. The boys had risen early and snuck into the kitchen hut to steal a bowl of wheat porridge for the cub. From there, they’d seen the shadows moving through the fog that stretched across the lake at dawn.

The intruders were cloaked in dark robes, hoods pulled over their heads, and armed with long, curved swords that gleamed in the early light. One minute the camp lay sleepy and quiet alongside the water’s edge; the next, chaos reigned. The attackers set fire to the huts to force out the ones sleeping inside, then cut down anyone who escaped the burning. They slaughtered his fellow villagers right in front of him, and Jack knew the cloaked invaders weren’t merely after their food—they were after them. Through the smoke that filled the air, Manny took his hand and pulled Jack away and toward the shore and safety.

“We’ll swim out,” he said. “We’ll be safe out there.”

Only a few feet before they reached the water, Jack felt his brother’s grip release as the sword cut across Manny’s back. With a cry cut short, his twin fell to the ground. Jack stumbled on, driven by terror, the screams of his fellow villagers echoing across the lake. When he looked back, he saw the cloaked man kneeling next to Manny, lifting his brother’s arm up and pulling it toward his own mouth, teeth bared.

Pain gripped Jack’s heart as he fled. He wished he could’ve found the courage to return to his brother’s side. But the way Manny had slumped to the ground made Jack certain he was dead.

Tears stung his eyes and blurred his vision as he ran as fast as he could along the edge of the water to where the lake became swampland. From there he went east, and following the high grass, Jack circled the settlement. He stayed low to the ground, running from one boulder to the next for cover.

Jack had found the other survivors a few hours later. The small group, mostly women and children, huddled against a large, rock outcropping, tending to the wounded. The few men remaining were too old to be warriors. None had brought more than they wore on their backs. A few had knives, and one carried a small bow. From that day until this one, they’d lived their lives on the run.

* * *

Jack grabbed the quiver he’d made from the furs of muskrats he caught by the river. He’d made it his mission to look for long, thin sticks he could cut into spears for fishing. During the last few months, he’d become one of the group’s main food providers. Jonu, one of the older women, taught him how to set traps for animals, and Carrie, a girl only two years older than him, showed him how to use the spears to catch fish. She’d stand completely still in the center of the stream, holding the spear above the water, then drive it through an unwary swimmer.

Now they fished and hunted together. Carrie let Jack use her knife to whittle the sticks into spears. It was important not to make the tip too long and thin, or it would break. Too short a tip would leave the spear dull and unusable. They figured out how to attach sharp pieces of narrow and pointy stone to the tips to make them more effective.

Carrie knew that Jack and Manny had been brothers. Every once in a while, she’d ask Jack if he still thought of his twin. He’d simply nod his head and continue with whatever task he was working on.

Jack wanted to talk to her about Manny, wanted to tell her all about him and how they’d found the cub and brought it food each day. But he was afraid he would start to cry. So he kept silent, even though he suspected she’d understand.

“When we reach the stronghold,” Jack said, “I would like to find a stream and build a dam in it and name it after Manny.”

“I like that idea,” Carrie replied.

She was shouldering a spear with four fish stacked on it. As long as he’d known her, she always wore her hair long and braided. About a month before, she’d come to him, handed him her knife, and told him to cut off the braid as close to her head as possible. He didn’t want to do it at first, but she told him it was getting knotted and filthy and she couldn’t take it anymore. So she sat down on a rock in front of him, and he cut her hair while tears ran down her cheeks.

To lay his palm on her head felt strange. He’d touched her hands before, but that was necessary touching, when his hands were tools that helped her up onto a boulder or pulled her out of a deeper part of a creek. But Jack had never touched her like this.

Despite the dirt, her hair was soft, and he felt the warmth of her head under his hand. When he saw Carrie crying over her lost braid, he wanted to hug her and hold her, but he could only bring himself to pick up the braid from the ground and hand it to her. After that, her hair always stood up in all directions.

Sometimes, when he watched her kindle a fire with two sticks and a few blades of grass or tell stories to the younger children in the evenings, he wished they’d lived in a time where she hadn’t had to cut her hair, where she could wear it long and beautiful and pretty.

You would like her, Manny, he thought during those times. She’s one of us.

One morning, Jack felt someone tugging at him in his sleep. When he opened his eyes, Carrie knelt beside him, pulling his shirt.

“You’re early,” he whispered. Except for the two women holding watch at the edge of their camp, nobody was up yet. The night was just beginning to lose its hold on the land, and Jack saw only Carrie’s silhouette against the sky.

“I couldn’t sleep anymore.”

Jack got up and grabbed his quiver. They left the camp silently, signaling the guards on their way out. They’d been in this spot for a few days now, mainly to stock up on food and water before they went farther into the mountains. The rocks all around them gave them cover from anyone approaching from the east and south. To the west stood a large cliff. It rose up steeply, protecting the group from possible attack from that direction. The land to the north sloped downward and into a valley. A cold, clear stream rushed over the rocks, providing pools of water for fishing and some of their more basic needs, like washing clothes and bathing.

They hadn’t seen other groups for the last six months. After the cloaked invaders killed two-thirds of their group, they avoided contact with anyone else. Though they’d taken to sleeping huddled together against possible attack during the first few weeks of their flight, they’d become more confident now, spreading out more—still holding watch each night but not under constant fear of death.

Jack and Carrie climbed down a rocky path they’d explored a few times over the last two days. Their familiarity with it made their steps certain, even in the dim twilight of the early morning. The stream was their hunting ground, and if today was a good day, they’d catch a dozen or so fish before the sun came up.

Carrie was only a few feet ahead when she stumbled and let out a muffled scream. The dark shape on the ground appeared to be a large blanket at first. Jack went down on one knee to explore the lump on the ground, then jumped back, pulling Carrie with him.

Before them lay a body. Jack dared not speak. Both looked at it, watching for any movement. After a moment, Carrie knelt and shook it slightly. There was no reaction. Jack knelt again beside her.

“Jack,” Carrie whispered. He could hear the fear in her voice.

“Yes?”

“Whoever this is—was—is wearing a robe. A hood.”

The hair on the back of Jack’s neck pricked up. There was a moment when he felt paralyzed, unable to take another breath or move. He felt the darkness closing in around him, and a grim certainty that his own death was imminent descended over him.

“What shall we do?” Carrie’s voice brought him back. Jack took her hand as they retreated.

“We have to tell the others,” he said.

She nodded.

They made their way quietly but quickly back along the rocky path, their feet swift and sure again. When they arrived at the camp, the eastern horizon became a pale, orange hue, pushing the darkness back.

“A dead cloaked one, halfway down toward the stream,” Jack said to the two women holding watch. They rushed to the others in the camp, waking them quietly.

“Get ready to leave,” Jonu told the group after they’d roused. Two older men had already shouldered their weapons.

Jack’s heart raced when they returned with the others to the body. Carrie wouldn’t let go of his hand, and he was glad to offer his own for comfort. He’d never seen her afraid until today. But now he saw the terror in her face, and he knew it mirrored his own fear back to him. He was glad she wouldn’t let go of his hand. The gesture filled him with an irrational sense of calm. Perhaps, he thought, it was fate balancing the scales, offering him absolution for when he’d held Manny’s hand but fled, leaving his dead brother behind.

By the time they reached the cloaked figure, the horizon had lightened. Dawn was now in full bloom. The early light softened the face of the dead man lying on the ground. Jonu turned him on his back, and his hood slipped off. His head was shaved bald and covered in blood. His right ear was missing. When Jonu opened his tunic, the extent of his injuries became visible. One part of his neck was ripped away and hung by a few pieces of skin and muscle. His sword was still in its sheath, as if he hadn’t had time to draw it against his attacker.

“An animal,” Carrie said.

“Yes,” Jonu replied.

“Shouldn’t we have heard it?” Carrie asked.

“Not necessarily,” Tom, one of the older men, said. “It was far enough down the path, and as long as he didn’t scream, we wouldn’t have heard him.”

A feeling had gnawed at Jack since Jonu had exposed the man’s wounds. Their size, their shape. Could it be?

He looked from the man to Carrie and the others. He’d never told anyone about the cub. And now, they were hundreds of miles away from where he’d first encountered the wolf, when he’d saved him from the iron trap.

No, he thought, dismissing it again. It can’t be. Maybe another wolf, but not that one.

“Wolves?” Jonu asked, voicing the question everyone was thinking. The wounds had demanded it be asked.

“This far into the mountains?” Tom sounded doubtful.

“We need to leave.” Jonu unbuckled the belt and took the man’s sheath and sword. “We need to leave now.”

The fear in her voice made everyone move quickly. Now and then, Jack looked back to scan the land below.

No, he thought again. Impossible.

He packed his sleeping blanket and hunting quiver, and while the others hurriedly gathered the little they had, he decided to tell Carrie about the cub. She needed to know. He couldn’t think of a good reason for why he hadn’t told her already. Was he afraid she would judge him for not telling the group about saving the cub rather than offering it as food to the village before?

The group made its way along the rocky mountain pass in single file, with Jonu scouting ahead a few hundred feet and Tom at the end, guarding the rear. They carried a few smoked fish from the previous day but little else. Jack calculated they’d be able to move for two days, assuming they found a fresh source of water. After that, they’d have to catch more fish or find another source of food.

None of them spoke. They glanced worriedly about, all lost in their own thoughts, each fighting an individual battle against a feeling of rising dread. If an attack came, they’d never survive, so exhausted were they from their long, strenuous march. The hope they would reach safety had vanished this morning.

“We’ve got three more days, maybe two, before we reach the stronghold,” Tom said quietly when they rested next to a small pool of water. “At this speed, three is more likely.”

Jack could see the fatigue in his weathered face.

“We’re so close,” Tom lamented.

Tom’s wife had died on the same day as Manny, Jack knew. Most if not all those who’d survived had lost at least one loved one. Carrie had lost her older brother; Jonu her two children. Jack’s parents had died the year before the raid, but he’d always had Manny.

“We’ll make it,” Carrie said.

Jack wanted to believe her. In fact, at this moment, there was nothing he wanted more. He wanted to be strong for her and tell her that he’d be there to help her and the others—that he’d protect her, all of them, from harm. But the place that held that belief in him was nearly empty. He cast his eyes down and didn’t speak for the rest of the day as the group sought refuge deeper in the mountains. His thoughts circled around Manny and what he could have done—what he’d failed to do—to protect him.

It wasn’t until after they’d settled down for the night that the howling began.

* * *

The wolf had picked up the scent of the cloaked ones a few days past. They smelled of death and decay, of festering rage. He circled around them and stayed downwind, careful not to get too close, vigilant to remain hidden from their scouts. He saw their curved blades and remembered the slain bodies in the boy’s village. But the way they moved, swift and fearless and as one group, recalled another memory from even further back: the memory of life as a cub with his pack. Following the leader without question, unified and complete as a group, he’d felt utterly whole.

During the last few months, he’d longed for the companionship and trust of the pack. His natural instinct to protect others lay buried deep below his need to survive on his own. But as much as he yearned for the safety of companions, he also sensed the danger that wafted from the group he was tracking—their willingness to take life, without mercy; simply for the pleasure of taking it.

A few hours ago, he’d passed the two scouts who moved a mile ahead of the rest. Now he made his way deeper into the mountains, following the small creek as it flowed over smooth rocks.

He spotted a few small fish. He was hungry and looking for the best place in the water to snatch them from, when he saw the boy. A female was with him. The humans weren’t cubs anymore but they were still young. The female stood at the center of a basin, spear in hand. She was quick and caught one fish after another in a short time. The wolf admired her stealth and swiftness.

His instinct told him to retreat, to leave and find a different hunting ground. But he only stepped backward into the brush until he was certain he couldn’t be seen. From there, he watched. He knew the scouts of the cloaked ones were close and feared they’d fall upon the boy and the others during the night. When the boy and his companion left, the wolf followed them until they reached their group’s camp. When night fell, he doubled back toward the creek, looking for the cloaked scouts.

* * *

When he was halfway down the mountain, he saw the first one. The cloaked figure moved up the narrow, silvery path toward him. Then the wolf saw the second scout. That one was farther down in the valley, moving away from them and in the opposite direction, most likely to guide the rest of the hunters to their quarry.

The wolf didn’t think. He didn’t calculate the value of his own life versus the boy’s. He moved as a fast, gray shadow darting across the dark landscape. When the first scout became aware of him, it was too late. The human grabbed for his sword but the wolf jumped, his fangs clamping shut around the side of the man’s neck first. The scout fell, already dead before his body touched the ground. His companion fled.

The wolf sped toward the creek and crossed it in two leaps. The second scout was a fast runner, but the wolf gained quickly on him. He’d never been a strong sprinter, but no prey could outrun him over distance. The wolf saw the cloak’s silhouette move in the wind as the scout ran toward a copse of small trees in the distance.

Until now, the wolf had used the rocks to stay hidden from his target, but now he stepped into the open, where he could move more quickly. The moon shone bright in the night sky, illuminating the land around him. In long strides, the wolf leapt after the running man. Farther down the path, a group of cloaked ones started toward him, swords in hand. The wolf knew he’d reach the scout before his comrades could, but it would be a close race after all.

The scout stopped and turned, drawing his sword. The wolf slowed, baring his teeth, one weapon challenging another. His head low, the first scout’s blood still crimson on his muzzle, he circled his second target warily. If he didn’t attack soon, the wolf knew, he’d be overwhelmed when the other humans arrived.

The scout smiled, a hunter certain of his prey’s fate. The wolf heard the others coming and growled as he retreated, then turned and disappeared into the night. By the time the other cloaked ones arrived, the wolf was gone.

* * *

He watched them from afar as they gave up the search for him and made camp for the night. A few slept on the ground with their swords close, but most stood in pairs at the perimeter, their backs to one another, holding watch. Low to the ground, the wolf crept toward them. He’d watched them hide two traps in the grass before, but the night was his ally, and for a few more hours he’d be invisible to them, a shadow at best. He wouldn’t let them get to the boy.

He quietly approached the two guards who kept watch to the east. They spoke quietly to each other. If not for that, they might have heard him.

He jumped, his jaws open, his fangs ripping into the first man’s sword arm. The second scrambled, fumbling for his sword leaning against the rock, but the wolf was too fast. The man threw his hands over his face as a last defense against the onslaught of sharp teeth ripping into his forearms and hands.

The wolf disappeared before the others, alarmed by the screams of the two watchmen, arrived. He heard shouts behind him as he slunk low in the darkness, once again beyond their vision.

There were eight cloaked ones left. One kindled a fire. Two brought driftwood and the dried remnants of a dwarf tree. The flames licked upward into the night, creating a circle of orange light around the men who gathered within its warmth, their backs toward the heat, their eyes watching the shrouded land beyond.

The wolf knew he wouldn’t be able to attack now and live. The light was too bright for him to move among them unseen. His eyes found the horizon, where night would soon surrender to dawn. He hoped the dead one he’d left near the boy’s camp would be enough warning. He hoped the boy’s pack would be gone. He hoped he’d bought them enough time. And with only the boy’s image in his head, he stepped forward into the circle of firelight.

* * *

Jack and the others had reached the mountain pass that evening—the narrow road that would lead them to the stronghold and safety. Their camp lay behind a cluster of rocks near a small spring.

They were weary of walking. Their feet were blistered and raw, and they needed to rest. Jonu tended to the children, and Tom organized the watch schedule for the night. Jack sat next to Carrie, who used her knife to divide the last of the fish.

When Jack heard the howl, he knew. They were used to hearing animals along their journey. There’d been distant cries of coyotes at night, of owls hunting for food. But this one was different. It was full of pain and weak, and somehow Jack knew it was his wolf calling to him.

Everyone heard the howl when it came. Tom grabbed his bow, Jonu the sword she’d taken from the corpse of the cloaked one they’d found the night before. As Jack got on his feet, the wolf stepped unsteadily into their camp. Tom raised his bow, but Jack quickly moved between him and his wounded friend.

“No!” he shouted. “Don’t shoot! Don’t shoot!”

As Tom lowered his bow, Jack went down on one knee. The wolf, shaking and barely able to stand, stumbled forward, then sank to the ground.

“We need water,” Jack whispered.

Carrie handed him one of the canteens, and Jack poured the water into his cupped hand. The wolf licked at it. His coat was covered in crusted blood. A large cut to his hind leg was visible, and half his left ear was missing.

“We have to clean those wounds,” Jonu said as she knelt next to Jack. She didn’t hesitate. She didn’t judge. She simply ripped off part of her scarf and soaked it in water, then wiped the crusted blood from the cut. “How do you know him?” she asked.

Jack looked at her for a moment, considering his answer. He wasn’t the same person from nine months ago. He was no longer a child. He’d lost his brother, his best friend. He’d learned to provide for the group. The boy from that earlier time was gone, killed on the same day as Manny had been. When he answered, Jack spoke as a young man whose life had changed in an instant; who’d survived against long odds.

“I met him when he was still a cub. His foot was caught in a trap and I freed him from it.”

He looked up at Tom and the others, whose expressions reflected the sadness in his own gaze.

“The dead cloaked one near the camp earlier…” Jonu said.

“Yes. I’m pretty sure that was him.”

Jack noticed the blood on the ground. It was pooling from the wolf’s belly. “He’s bleeding,” he said, unable to stop his tears from flowing.

“Let me take a look.” Jonu moved to the other side and lifted the wolf’s hind leg. He whimpered sharply. The cut was short, no longer than the width of a blade. “He must have been stabbed. There’s no way of telling how deep it is. Here, hold this on the wound with a bit of pressure.”

Jonu gave Jack the piece of scarf, and he pressed it against the wolf’s soft belly. He felt Carrie’s hand on his shoulder as his tears dropped onto the wolf’s head. He hadn’t cried for Manny, wouldn’t allow himself to. He knew that crying for the loss of one would open the gates to his grief for all the others, the stored-away grief of the last two years. In front of Jack, on the barren ground, lay not just a wolf, but a brother, a mother, and a father. His sorrow washed over him, drowning him, and Jack couldn’t stop himself from weeping uncontrollably. Anguish and gratitude for his family’s sacrifice, his wolf’s sacrifice, twisted in his gut as he buried his face in the wolf’s fur and sobbed. He could feel the wolf’s ragged breathing begin to slow. Shallow, short breaths now.

“It’s okay,” Jack whispered. “It’s okay. You’re among friends now. You’re among friends.”

* * *

The wolf felt the life bleed out of him, but with it also the pain. He’d killed some of the cloaked ones, wounded all, one of them only a few hundred feet from the boy’s camp. He’d ripped their sword arms or their legs, whatever he could reach, so they could neither move nor strike.

At first, he’d felt fear. But when he’d stepped into the circle of firelight, it lifted from him. Only the boy and his need to protect him remained in his thoughts. When the cloaked ones came at him, swords raised and screaming with their heat and rage, he moved like a silver shadow among them. He struck and withdrew and struck again. He was quick, and he was death to three of the eight.

When the first sword cut him, the pain struck him straight to the ground. But he’d rolled back to his feet and tore more legs and more arms to shreds before one of them stabbed up and into his belly with a short knife. The wolf ripped that one’s throat as well, but he knew by the way the blade had sunk deep into his belly that he would die.

And he’d loped, slowly but steadily, following the boy’s scent until he’d reached his camp.

As he lay on the ground, the boy’s tears falling onto him like drops of warm rain, the wolf felt at peace. For he knew he’d breathed his last breath surrounded by his pack.

* * *

Jack and the others reached the stronghold two days later. They’d buried the wolf in a grave made of river stones at the edge of a valley. Into the soil surrounding it, Carrie etched the name Jack gave to the wolf before he died. Rain washed the letters away by the time the moon was full.

But the name was never forgotten. It lived on—passed along as family history by Jack and Carrie to their children; then a half-believed story a generation later; then a myth of survival handed down through the history of an entire people. The telling of the tale, a testament to one whose bravery stands as a lesson of loyalty, captured in the simple name of a wolf who gave his own life so that many might live.

Protector.

A Word from Stefan Bolz

Stefan and Ember.

Ever since I first read The Farseer Trilogy by Robin Hobb, I’ve had an affinity for wolves. A few years back, I had a T-shirt made with three simple words printed on the front: “We Are Pack.” I’ve gotten many positive comments for it. The shirt gave its life in a freak bleach accident during laundry. But the message stayed with me, a shining example of the bond we all share.

Please check out my other works, in particular my fable, The Three Feathers—a story of friendship between a young rooster, a war horse, and a grey wolf, and their epic quest to search for three magical feathers deep inside a mountain.

The Poetry of Santiago

by Jennifer Ellis

2015

Santiago opened his single eye and took in the morning on the piazza. The light had the strangest and faintest of orange hues, and Santiago stretched his stiff limbs still wrapped in a drowse. He ran a quick inventory—habit after years of street life. All four legs still in place. Eyesight growing weaker. Hunger faint but present; which was good, because surely he couldn’t be dying if he still wanted breakfast. As his senses came back online, his old heart began to accelerate. There was something wrong with the air. It grasped at his nostrils and forced him unsteadily to his feet where he ran his inventory again, this time checking for the man, who was nowhere in sight. The apartment stood empty and dark, and it occurred to Santiago that he did not even know the man’s name.

* * *

He came into the world the son of a stray, who was the daughter of a stray, who was descended from a long line of cats who eked out an existence on the street. After making a wrong turn as a young kitten on the piazza on which he was born, he was ushered into an overly hot home that smelled of cabbage, clinging to the sticky, clenching hands of a child.

He lost most of his tail in that home in an unfortunate incident with a door while attempting to come inside on a particularly rainy night, and although being a housecat was a much whispered-about and longed-for thing on the street, Santiago could not say that it was a particularly comfortable experience. He could not recall the final incident that had separated him from that home. Perhaps he had wandered too far and gotten lost. Perhaps his owners had just up and moved without collecting him. Possibly he had simply set out on his own, carried forward by a quiet joie de vivre and a sense that he was not especially wanted or safe.

He spent most of his younger years living in alleys and corners of Pompei, fighting, scrounging, and carousing. It was there he lost his left eye to another ginger tom, a mean and heavy scrapper twice Santiago’s size and who took no prisoners. It was there that he learned the economy of the street, the art of the grab and dodge, and the quick and inevitable slide into violence of the desperate to survive.

But Santiago got along with his smarts and knack with the ladies and enjoyed an acceptable life, as street lives go. Certainly he had outlived most of his contemporaries—the ginger tom who took his eye got run over by a lorry when Santiago was ten—and there were many handsome kittens wandering the streets of Pompei with brilliant orange fur, pronounced stripes, and a certain loft to their tails.

When Santiago crested the last few months of his fourteenth year, a sluggishness settled into his reflexes, and he could no longer zero in as easily on the precise location of mice with his single eye. His once solid and reliable bones had started to feel fragile and delicate. Life had started to get more dangerous; a cat who could not see or run very fast was an easy target, and Santiago’s escapes had become a bit too heart-pumping for his liking.

After a particularly harrowing encounter with a veritable army of spiteful and vicious rats, an antique store on the Piazza di Santa Caterina caught his attention. The crowded, dusty shop with dark corners and shelves of collectibles was manned by a gentleman with a stooped back and a tightly knit fuzz of grey hair that encircled the sides of his head. It was close to the outdoor market, where scraps and essential street gossip could always be had, and most importantly, the door to the shop sat open wide all day in the hope of enticing tourists.

Santiago cased the store for weeks, working his way up to surreptitious wanderings through the brown furniture that smelled of wood, age, and turpentine. At the end of his fourth week, he found a quiet corner behind a bureau with a small shaft of sunlight for warmth and fell asleep, though he made sure he was out before the shop closed for the evening. He came back the next day and the next, always sleeping in the same blanket of light, always being sure to leave before the door got shut for the night.

One evening he did not wake up in time and spent the night meandering through the corners of the shop, strolling over armoires, sniffing old upholstery, and trying not to knock vases off shelves. He caught a mouse that night and quietly devoured the entire thing save for the intestines, which he politely left near the front desk for the shopkeeper as a token of his gratitude for the night’s lodging.

He slipped out before the man found him the next morning, but when Santiago returned for his nap in the sun that afternoon, he caught the man looking at him around the edge of an old wardrobe. He braced to flee, his body taut and low to the ground, but the man simply turned and walked away, leaving Santiago to settle back in the pool of sunshine with a pounding heart. It took longer to fall asleep that day.

Santiago made sure to be out before the store closed that night, a practice he maintained for a while. But as the days went on, he sometimes missed the tinkling of the bell above the door—his cue to leave—as the man brought in the outside displays prior to closing the shop, his hearing having gone as frail as his bones. When he spent the night in the store, he always made sure to dispatch a mouse or sometimes a rat in payment, depositing the appropriate remains near the shopkeeper’s desk. Sometimes the best he could find was a spider or two. Delicately spitting the legs out by the desk often proved to be a challenge, and on those nights he was never sure if the man appreciated that Santiago had done his best in his nighttime patrol of the store.

The first afternoon the man set a bowl of cream by the wardrobe, Santiago bolted in fright, certain it was a trick of some sort. When he returned the next morning, he selected a different spot for his nap, a more secluded corner behind a pale blue dresser. There was no sun, but Santiago made do in his new spot, his body folded around itself amidst the heavy wooden monuments of another time.

After a week in the new location, the bowl of cream reappeared just around the corner from the dresser. Santiago had not heard the man leave it. The mice had been thin for the last several weeks, and Santiago could feel the press of his ribs against the floor whenever he settled down to sleep. He approached the bowl tentatively and drank his fill.

And so the cat and the man developed a routine. Santiago kept the store free of rats, mice, and invertebrate vermin in exchange for a safe place to sleep and a pool of creamy milk every second morning. Once he felt confident that the shopkeeper was okay with his presence, Santiago even readopted his original pool of sunlight for his afternoon naps. After a few weeks, the man started to leave a door that led to a set of stairs open at night, and on the fifth night Santiago crept up the stairs, his heart skittering like it never had in his years of dumpster raiding and nightly sparring. The stairs led to a small set of quarters with a covered deck that looked out on Pompei. Santiago spied the shopkeeper in his undershirt sitting hunched at a table. The man looked up, and Santiago whirled and bolted to the safety of the antique store.

He left the shop before closing the next day and found his way through hallways and a fire escape to the roof of the neighboring house. Then he squeezed through some slats and onto the man’s covered deck, where he spent the night under the shelter pressed against the wall, while the man sat inside in his white undershirt writing in a black notebook.

Days turned into weeks and the summer turned into fall, and both Santiago and the shopkeeper became a year older. Santiago still made his rounds on the streets for a few hours most mornings, inhaling the intricate archive of smells, calling on old cronies, and tracking the ever-shifting landscape of acrimony and alliance among street dwellers. But the stray-filled corners and casual violence of the streets felt dangerous for a one-eyed cat whose bones no longer moved with the suppleness of youth. His years and reputation as a fighter earned him a sort of respect, but always as he sauntered through the piazza, his stubby tail aloft, he felt the eyes of the other animals on him, sizing him up. And soon it no longer felt like a choice to return to the safety of the shop and the man’s deck before nightfall. Now it was a strategy for survival.

It was the man who named him Santiago. He had been called other things before: Gingie when he’d first been snatched up as a bundle of soft, orange fur in the streets by one of the children in his former home. And then more often than not—when his fur ceased to be so soft, and before he left that family—he’d been labeled Nasty Tom or Wretched Beast. On the streets he’d been known as Stubs, and while said mostly with respect, Santiago wasn’t at all sure he liked the allusion to his physical imperfection; as if the other animals might have the occasional laugh or two after he and his failing hearing had walked on past. Santiago liked his new name better. He liked the way it rolled off the man’s tongue, gently, almost reverently, as if they were both aged and hardened warriors who respected one another.

When Santiago first started spending time in the back of the shop, he discovered that the man spent a lot of time talking to a framed picture of a woman on his desk. He would speak to her for hours, his voice beating a rhythmic but gentle staccato, while Santiago snoozed inattentively on the floor.

Santiago could not pinpoint exactly when the shopkeeper started talking to him. It happened gradually in short bursts. The man would say, “Santiago, what do you think of this?” or “Well now, what do you suppose we can sell this for?” when a new piece of furniture would be brought in, or “Santiago, can you believe this weather?” when the rains came.

As time went on, the man began commenting on bits of the daily news, which he and Santiago listened to on the radio, asking Santiago’s opinion of the Pope and this climate change thing, Greek economic recovery, or the murder of Cecil the lion. The man also liked to talk about someone named Sofia. Santiago learned that Sofia took her coffee with milk and sugar, made excellent chicken scaloppine, had a sixth sense regarding the value of antiques, and preferred pieces from the Queen Anne period. What Sofia would have thought of something—everything—was very important to the man, and there were many times when the shopkeeper would go very quiet after speaking of Sofia and just run his fingers softly over a particular item.

Santiago often did not understand precisely what the man was talking about when he said something to Santiago or to the photo, but he liked to hear the man speak. He would often sit on the desk in the shop with his paws curled beneath him while the shopkeeper filled in information on an inventory ledger, paid bills, or fixed small pieces of furniture.

The man was a poet. He’d informed Santiago of this one day as the cat sat on the man’s desk watching the fan blow gossamer strands of dust into the air. Santiago was not sure what this meant exactly, but apparently this was what the man did at his table in the evenings. He wrote poetry. The man said this apologetically, as if Santiago would have an opinion on how the shopkeeper should better spend his time. Then the man announced that when this was all gone—he waved his hands through the air at that point, and Santiago wasn’t sure if the man referred to his antique store or Pompei or the entire world—poetry would live on.

A few weeks later, during a particularly dreadful heat wave that made Santiago resort to panting like a dog and caused everyone in the outdoor market, especially the chocolatier, to be grumpy, the man explained to Santiago that poetry was a dance of words, a tapestry of images, and a handful of dreams. Santiago was still not sure he understood. But it didn’t matter. Poetry made the man happy, and that made Santiago happy.

Occasionally, when he was feeling bold or perhaps needy in the evenings, Santiago would wander through the open deck door and into the man’s quarters, where he would sleep carefully at the foot of the man’s chair. The man would look up and nod at the cat, one old warrior to the other, and then he’d return to writing in his little black notebook, which he carried with him during the day in the front pocket of his shirt.

Santiago never tried to jump on the man’s lap, for he was not a lap cat, after his experience of being squeezed so tightly as a kitten by the children in his first family that his lungs and head had hurt, and then being boxed around the ears routinely by the woman of the house for unknown transgressions. Besides, the man was clearly intent on his work and did not look like the sort to sit and hold a cat. When the shopkeeper went to bed, Santiago would retreat to the deck where he’d spend the night curled in an orange ball, his stubby tail tucked around his haunches for warmth.

Poetry will live on.

The man repeated this statement, almost to himself, when he removed paint from old furniture with careful strokes of the scraper; or when he limped slowly to the market on one leg shorter than the other; or when he put the money from the day’s transactions in the deposit bag to take to the bank.

Poetry will live on.

* * *

When Santiago came fully conscious that morning on the deck, he knew immediately that everything had changed. It was the start of his second autumn with the man and Santiago’s sixteenth year of life. Each morning now arrived as a bit of a surprise. Street cats rarely lived beyond their tenth or eleventh year. But he was no longer a street cat. He was a deck cat, a netherworld of in-between that likely bought him greater purchase on the land of the living.

The world had changed in ways that were immediately observable, and in ways that beat at the back of his subconscious, where his instincts lay in wait. Instincts that had kept him alive for so many years.

For one thing, he’d slept late, his old bones slightly more exhausted than the previous day, his sight and sense of smell the tiniest bit duller. The man had already descended the stairs to open the shop, and Santiago remained on the deck overlooking the piazza. Failing to wake when the man did was a sure sign, in Santiago’s mind, that his life force was nearly depleted. For another thing, all the other animals that normally occupied the streets seemed to be gone.

From his vantage point, Santiago could make out none of the cats or dogs at their usual posts on the piazza begging or thieving for food. And yet the humans went about their days as usual, greeting each other, chattering in the streets, setting up market stalls, and traversing the narrow cobblestones on bikes and scooters. Santiago paced back and forth on the deck searching the piazza for any sign of old Pete and Fritz—the Columbo twins who ran the piazza through a combination of big bone structure, egomania, and dirty dealing—or even Nervy the pigeon. The Piazza di Santa Caterina appeared completely bereft of other animals. Where could they possibly have gone?

But the last and most troubling thing was the scent of the air. Even to Santiago’s weakened nose, it smelled of fire and chemicals. And death.

There was definitely something wrong.

He padded down through the antique store and out onto the cobblestones, sniffing cautiously. He made his rounds to the dumpster behind the grocer, the teahouse, and the maze of stalls in the piazza, uncertain of the last time he’d visited some of his old haunts. When had all the other animals disappeared? Had they been gone for weeks while he lay sated on his deck, wallowing in his new life and contemplating the inevitability of death?

A rat he recognized scurried past. Ray, as he was known, was officially the biggest rat in this quarter of Pompei. He was too big for Santiago to consider taking on, and, with Ray’s reputation as a fierce fighter, was immune to the various pressures to which rats were subjected.

“Where is everyone?” Santiago asked in Furfar, the pidgin language of the streets.

Ray paused mid-scurry and eyed the cat warily. Santiago had no doubt the rat could easily take him down, and apparently the rat agreed because he suddenly got all puffed up and cocky. “Don’t know and don’t care. The eats are plenty good with me all on my own. Don’t even think of trying to move in on the chocolate lady or the butcher.” The chocolatier’s stall was always a favorite among the animals because the woman who ran it seemed to have coordination problems. She was forever dropping things.

“When did they all leave?” Santiago said.

“This morning,” Ray said and then made a threatening chitter and lunge at Santiago, who bolted—but not before he noticed the rat had chocolate spattered in his brown fur and remembered that Ray wasn’t all that bright.

A weak tremor rumbled through the cobblestones, and Santiago froze and arched his back, hissing embarrassingly at his own shadow. Ray skittered off through the stalls of the outdoor market, his round behind swaying back and forth over his long shiny tail. A dog started to bark wildly—a snow-white poodle with a pink bow in her topknot straining at her red leash, her owner struggling to keep it under control. After he had regained control of himself, Santiago peered around. Surely the humans would take action now.

But the marketplace remained as crowded as ever with locals and tourists alike. The skinny grocer with the red nose, who took sips from his flask over the course of the day, bustled among his fruits and vegetables. The plump bread ladies, who liked to give Santiago the broom if he sat too close to their stall, bullied people into purchasing sugar-covered pastries and loaves of golden bread. Their braying voices carried all the way across the piazza. The jeweler haggled with a pair of tourists, and the chocolate fountain bubbled as it had every day before.

Santiago did a more thorough tour of all the usual places where animals congregated and found only the old, infirm, very young, and stupid remained.

The faint rumble beneath his paws came again, like thunder in an underground cavern far away.

Santiago had to save the old man. He trotted back to the antique store as fast as his tired paws would take him. The man sat at his desk with the radio on. Santiago leapt up onto the desk, a move that was costing his brittle body more and more each day. The man flipped off his radio, an ancient brown box of a thing with a dial and a big cream grating for a speaker.

“Good morning, Santiago. Stromboli had a particularly large explosion this morning. I almost think I can smell it from here. They say one of the volcanoes in Iceland is erupting as well. I can’t remember the name. No cream this morning, I’m afraid. I haven’t made it to the market yet. I have an important project I’m working on. It might be my last.”

He examined Santiago for a few seconds, then sighed as if he’d been hoping for a response from the cat. Then he rose and ran his hands reverently over a glossy armoire he was refinishing. He’d grown thinner over the past few months and spoke of something called cancer that Santiago did not understand.

The cat peered out the front window of the shop and off into the distance, where a slice of the dark cone of Mt. Vesuvius was just visible above some of the buildings. How was he going to get the man’s attention and make him understand that they needed to leave?

He jumped off the desk, the shock of landing traveling from his paw pads all the way up his legs. He meowed and wove in and out of the man’s legs and ran to the door.

The man ignored his crazy antics the first few times and then finally looked down. “I will get you your cream later this afternoon, Santiago, I promise.”

Santiago tried his meow, leg weave, run-to-the-door routine again, this time stopping to claw at the man’s pant leg and pulling the cloth in the direction of the door.

“Santiago, please. I have work to do.” The man’s fuzzy eyebrows were lowered in a way the cat had never seen before, except when a particularly brash American tourist entered the shop and tried to haggle the man down to nothing for one of his treasures.

Santiago tried simply running back and forth between the shopkeeper and the front door. But the man only started to look alarmed at the cat’s behavior, as if Santiago had finally gone senile.

“Very well,” the man said. “Is it your cream that you want? I’ll go get it now.” And the man set off with his limp to retrieve his hat and head out for the market.

Santiago ran to the front door and tried to block it with his small body. He tried growling and arching his back until his fur became bristly. The shopkeeper stepped backwards surprised, and then Santiago mustered up a rusty old purr and wound between the man’s legs to show that he wasn’t really angry. This seemed to startle his patron even more, and the cat was certain the man thought he had gone quite mad.

Santiago ran back to the desk, jumped up first on the chair, then the desktop where he sat atop the radio, hoping the man would understand. But the shopkeeper just shook his head at the cat, removed his hat from a peg and placed it on his head, then turned to leave. The cat jumped down, feeling the sting of shock once again in his bones, and loped across the floor. He darted out the door before it closed. He stayed close to the man on the walk to the marketplace and once again scanned the streets for signs of the other animals. The bad smell had grown stronger, and Santiago resisted the urge to flee to safety. He had to get the man to leave Pompei.

On the way back with the cream from the grocer, Santiago approached the man and delicately sunk his teeth into the man’s pant leg again and pulled him toward the eastern hills, away from Mt. Vesuvius. The man gave him an incredulous look and pushed him aside gently with his foot.

Santiago was beginning to feel desperate. Back inside the antique store, he cast about for something to knock off an armoire or dresser, or for the arm of a fine Chippendale sofa to shred. Anything to get the shopkeeper’s attention, to make him understand. But this would probably just get him thrown out permanently.

While the man poured his cream, Santiago bolted across the store and onto the man’s desk, slamming his paws against the picture of the woman on the wall. The frame fell to the floor, shattering the glass. The cat clawed at the photo until it came loose, then snatched it up in his teeth and shot back out the open front door. The man followed close on his heels, yelling in anger.

And so their game of cat and mouse began, except that for once, Santiago was the mouse. He drew the man out of the piazza, down streets that wound through unfamiliar neighborhoods, and eventually along busy roadways that passed through entirely different villages, always keeping Mt. Vesuvius at his back. As they went, he could on occasion sense other animals moving along with him; they were there in the shifting shadows, with flat-back ears and ridged tails, always going in the same direction as Santiago—away from the dark cinder cone of death.

Santiago was not sure how long he ran. But it was at least a few hours. The man tried to trick him sometimes by stopping the chase and walking away in the other direction, but always, always looking back over his shoulder. Santiago never relented. He pressed on, slowing sometimes to let the man catch his breath. And the man always turned back and continued following him. By the time they reached the green rolling hills at the edge of a village many villages away from their own, the man was pasty faced and flagging, and Santiago’s old bones ached and his heart felt leaden.

They were alone on a tree-studded slope, and Santiago turned and regarded the man. He still held the photo in his mouth, but he could go no further. His energy, fueled by a desperate need to save the shopkeeper, was spent at last. He was sure the man hated him now, would turn him out into the streets. But Santiago could not muster any feelings of anxiety regarding this. He was too exhausted and closer to death, perhaps, than he’d ever been, the strain of the journey too much for his aging heart. He would not be able to make the return trip. He set the picture down on the ground and drew back, his head bent low, preparing for the man’s anger.

The man came forward slowly and collected the picture. Three white strands of his hair had escaped from his wispy comb-over and fell into his eyes. “Why? Why, Santiago?” he pleaded simply, as if the cat could answer. Then he placed the picture in his pocket with his notebook and turned to look down the slope at how far they’d come.

A kaboom shook the earth, and the top of Mt. Vesuvius exploded, throwing a mushroom cloud of smoke and debris into the air to rain down on Pompei and the neighboring communities. Cinders fell around them like burning, black snow, and the heavens turned hazy as buildings went up in flames. The smoke plume above the volcano ascended into the sky where it spread and blotted out the sun.

The man sank to his knees and stared at the flames, the destruction, the utter decimation. Red sprays of lava leapt into the air and showered the already burning villages. Santiago choked on the thick air, his heart beating in dull throbs.

The man started to weep openly. “Oh Santiago, Pompei, Naples, Torre del Greco, Scafati… they are all gone. Did you know this was going to happen? How? Did you bring me here to save me? You brave cat. So brave, Santiago. But I am dying. I have only a few more weeks, maybe months to live. I was content to die. To join my Sofia. And now, I must watch the destruction of my home, of everything I have ever known. Oh, my Santiago, there is no poetry, no dance of words, that could express the agony of this moment.”

The sky grew increasingly dark, and the thin lines of rain marked the sky. Except it wasn’t rain. It was falling ash; burning, incendiary ash. It started to fall all around them, graying the air, searing their skin; burning away Santiago’s fur and the man’s clothes.

They had not run far enough away.

Within seconds, the ash became thick and unyielding, and although Santiago through his pain and failing eye thought he could see the edge of the ash storm farther up in the mountains, there was no way two old men, exhausted and dying, could outrun the blanket of ash that covered all.

2548

“There’s one all the way up here,” Zoey called to Devon. She waved to him from behind a patch of dry brush that covered the desolate hillside. “This one is really well preserved.”

Devon jogged up the hill carrying all of their scanning equipment. As he studied the figure, he said, “Hmm. A man and his cat. Nice find, Zo. I’ll have the guys come and get it. This one must have been on the edge of that rainstorm that came up just after Vesuvius exploded. The details are nice and crisp.” He tapped the stone lightly with his small mallet. “Sounds hollow. We might be able to get some good information from this one and cast it.”

Devon moved on, as he always did, in a hurry to find the next specimen, in a hurry to collect their data and get home and away from this blackened no man’s land of beetles and scrub, back to their home in the green north.

Zoey paused and glanced back at the man. She’d become an archeologist because she’d wanted to know how their ancestors lived before the United Colonies of the North became one of the last remaining outposts of civilization. She was curious as to how human populations had operated when the earth still supported over seven billion people, with countries on all continents. She could hardly imagine—seven billion people. Surely that was an exaggeration.

She’d read all the accounts by the elders, all the stories of the 753 people who’d survived because they were in Arctic outposts or on research vessels in the north. But the historical record had so many gaps, so many varying stories, and there were so many deniers. Even now Rainy Armestan was gathering people around him to build his case that the elders had lied about the relative equality of the races and women, about the seven billion people. Because, after all, if the predominantly white colonies had been placed on earth by the divine God of the North only a few hundred years ago, if the seven billion people had never existed, if the races had never been equal, then that would justify the extermination of the wastrel clans to the south. Call into question one element of the elder accounts, and they all became suspect.

But now that the atmospheric ash layer had dissipated and the ice had receded, colony archeologists were beginning to find hard evidence to back up the claims of the elders. The ruins around Vesuvius were particularly special. In most parts of the world, the supervolcanoes had incinerated everyone and everything in the surrounding area; and the subsequent famine and ice age had eradicated much evidence of human civilization.

But Vesuvius’s ash fall had preserved many people and buildings in stone, allowing their dress and customs to be studied. And here in a pocket to the east of Vesuvius, a heavy rain right after the ash fall had cooled the stone sufficiently that the artifacts were encased and mummified, rather than petrified, which allowed for even greater opportunities to collect DNA, and actual objects from the epoch of the explosion. The researchers yesterday had even discovered a small cache of intact books—a gold mine of cultural information—in a house at the bottom of this hill.

Zoey looked back at the ash-formed statue of the man, his arms cradling the small feline with a stubby tail, and his head bent over the cat as if to protect him; as if he might be talking to the cat as they both sat, waiting for death to take them together.

She fluttered away a tear on her eyelash that discovering and recovering bones had never caused her before. At least they knew one thing for sure now: their ancestors had loved animals.

Specimen 4938; Mt. Vesuvius: Extremely well-preserved specimen of older man with cat. Exposure to brief rain subsequent to ash fall hardened shell without fully destroying clothing and other items on body. Man was carrying a small book entitled Le Poesie di Santiago by Alberto Rossi, and a picture of a woman with “Sofia 1979” written on the back. No other information was found. Man and cat have been removed to Vesuvius Warehouse 1 and are to be taken to the Colonies for further study. TBD if the ash-fall outer mold is strong enough to cast a life-sized statue.

A Word from Jennifer Ellis

Jennifer and Goose.

I love animals, especially companion animals. I sometimes get into trouble for greeting my friends’ pets more enthusiastically than I greet my friends. I’ve owned hamsters, guinea pigs, rats, goldfish (who hasn’t?), cats, dogs, assorted bugs, and a very large snail (a.k.a. Snailie—well, he was actually my son’s, but we all felt his loss keenly). Right now, I have two crazy and beloved cats—one almost 19 years old and the other almost 19 weeks old. I’m also a known dog borrower and cat sitter in my neighborhood, and I spend a lot of time outside dodging the bears, who seem to like to hang around in our yard and on the trails in our community. So when Chris Pourteau asked me to participate in this anthology, I could not have been more thrilled.

Santiago came to me as a fully formed character. Even though I have a geriatric cat who continues to defy our vet’s expectations and is a major hit in the old folks’ home when she visits, Santiago is his own man. My pets, and the pets I look after, continually surprise me with their intelligence, heart, and problem-solving abilities. It was fun to explore how a crafty street cat might navigate and contemplate his life, and writing about the deep bond that can exist between humans and animals was both a joy and a privilege. I know that when the apocalypse hits, I want a few four-legged friends watching my back.

I live in the mountains of British Columbia where I ski, run, write, and keep cats. Add in two teenage boys and their friends, and mayhem often reigns in my household. I also work as an environmental researcher and strategic planning consultant when the cats agree to get off my desk.

I write science fiction, romance, and dystopian fiction for children and adults, including Apocalypse Weird: Reversal in Wonderment Media’s Apocalypse Weird world and A Pair of Docks, which was a bestseller in children’s time-travel fiction. I’ve also contributed to several anthologies, most notably Synchronic: 13 Tales of Time Travel, which hit #16 in the Kindle Store.

You can subscribe to my blog for the latest book news and industry insights at www.jenniferellis.ca. I tweet about writing, cats, and teenagers at @jenniferlellis.

Demon and Emily

(a Symphony of War short story)

by David Adams

A dog is the only thing on Earth that loves you more than he loves himself.

— Josh Billings

New Panama

World of Polema

May 19

2239 AD

Four years before the events of Symphony of War: The Polema Campaign

I’m Demon. I’m a good boy. I know I am because Emily told me so.

“Get in the car, Demon,” Emily says, frantically pulling my lead, trying to drag me into the open car door. Emily is my human and today is not a very good day. Evacuation sirens wail all around me. “The Prophets Wept, hurry!”

I don’t want to. I whine and pull back, pushing away from the door.

Even though I’m a good boy, I don’t want to get in the car today.

Sometimes the car is good; it takes me to the park, or to the vacant block near the water purification plant, where I can run and play and jump. Sometimes it takes me to the vet. Then the car is bad. I can normally guess which one it is. If we’re going to the park, Emily is relaxed and happy; if we’re going to the vet, she’s unhappy and stressed.

I don’t know what to think of the car today.

Emily is terrified.

I can smell it on her. The other humans, her parents, are scared too; the stink of their fear is everywhere. Emily’s father is in the steering seat. Her mother is in the other. She has the boom-maker from their cupboard. I can smell something strange in the boom-maker. Sulphur and chemicals and metal.

All the humans in this block are scared. And that makes me scared. There’s so much noise; thunder in the distance and flashes of lightning.

I run to Emily every time there’s thunder, and she’s never scared; she soothes me and tells me I’m a good boy. This is different.

This time the thunder scares her too.

“Emily,” says Emily-mother, her voice stressed. “We have to go. The roads are going to be blocked if we don’t move.”

Emily starts to cry. This upsets me more. I pull away from the car. She pulls back.

“Come on, Demon! Get in, get in!”

No! I don’t want to get in. Normally I’m a lot stronger than Emily, but fear gives her power. She drags me roughly into the back seat. My neck hurts. Emily-mother slams the door behind me so I can’t escape.

The car starts to move. I jump up, looking out the window. Our house, red bricks and green grass, disappears behind us. We’re heading away from the park and toward the vet. I start to bark. No vet. Not while there’s thunder.

So many cars, all driving in the same direction. Some are going on the wrong side of the road. With a thump, our car drives up on the middle part, and over to the wrong side, too. Cars swerve, and their whining engines hurt my ears. They are driving so fast. Heedless. Away from the house; away from everything.

Running.

The sky lights up in flashes; huge clouds billow, black and bruised, on the horizon. They rise in strange ways, like no cloud I’ve ever seen before; a giant ball of cloud slowly rising, and there’s fire underneath it. Then another flash, and another. They hurt my eyes.

“Shit!” says Emily-father, his voice hollow. “They’re using nukes. The evacuation hasn’t even begun.”

I don’t think we’re going to the vet.

The car swerves to one side. A huge car is coming down the road—it is like a very big box, and it has a big boom-maker on top of it. Our car gets out of the way. Another car doesn’t; the big metal-box drives over it, crushing it like a can. The people inside die. Did they have a good boy too? I didn’t see.

Another metal-box is right behind that one. And then another. It is a long train of metal-boxes with strange wheels. They have boom-makers on top.

“We have to get going,” says Emily-mother. “Can we get around?”

“The tank just drove over those people,” says Emily-father. “I don’t want to get too close. Hang on; if I swing on the outside…”

“Be careful,” says Emily-mother.

The car starts to move again. We’re only part of the way on the road; the car shakes uncontrollably. We’re very close to the metal-box, passing it on one side.

I bark and paw at the window. Emily tries to hold me down but I’m frightened. I don’t want to be crushed. I don’t want to be lightninged to death. Go away, metal-boxes!

We pass the column of metal-boxes. Our car surges ahead of the others; there are fewer cars ahead. I stop barking. I did it. I scared them away.

“Good boy,” says Emily, rubbing my neck. “Good boy.”

I lick her face. She still seems very frightened; I want to help. I don’t understand what’s happening, but it’s okay. As long as I have Emily, I will be okay.

“It’s the Earthborn,” says Emily-father. He seems very worried; his fingers clutch hard at the steering wheel, and he doesn’t look at us. “It has to be.”

“If it was the Earthborn, they’d say so,” says Emily-mother. She holds the boom-maker close. “It’s not going to be another Reclamation.”

“What else could it be?” Emily-father shouts.

I don’t like shouting. I bark.

“Keep Demon quiet,” says Emily-mother. “Dad’s trying to drive.”

“Shh,” says Emily. She rubs my neck some more. “Shh, Demon. Be a good boy.”

Everyone smells frightened and angry. I don’t understand what’s happened.

We drive on for some time. The sun begins to sink ahead of us. We leave the sirens and the thunder behind us. Emily-father drives very fast. The car complains; I can understand. I wouldn’t want to run for this long. But I’m a good boy, and I don’t complain. I have Emily and everything’s okay.

Emily-father and Emily-mother are mostly quiet. When they do talk it’s always in hushed voices about things I don’t understand. Emily gets more scared as we go; I think her parents are trying not to frighten her, but if they are, they’re doing a bad job.

I know the car can speak to them all. Humans have metal in their bodies that allows them to hear what the car, or the house, says. They listen to things like games and hear things happening a long way away from here.

I can tell by how quiet they are that they’re listening a lot.

“New Panama News says the military is containing the outbreak,” says Emily-father. “An outbreak of what, exactly? I heard someone say they were bugs.”

“Some kind of bioweapon?” asks Emily-mother. “Could we be infected?”

“I don’t think it’s a disease,” says Emily-father. “Listen to the way they talk. They keep stressing to people to take their weapons with them. You can’t fight bioweapons with shotguns.”

“You can’t fight bugs with shotguns either,” says Emily-mother.

I put my head in Emily’s lap. She pats my ears. I feel a bit better. Wherever we are, we’re a long way away from the vet, and that’s good.

“We need to stop and charge,” Emily-father says. “It’s down to one bar.”

“There’s a station up ahead.” Emily-mother twists around to look at us. “How are you two travellers?”

I’m okay. I feel a lot better. Although even a trip to the vet is less scary than this.

“I’m gas,” says Emily. “But I need to pee.”

“We’re going to be stopping soon,” says Emily-mother. “I’ll come with you.”

Emily stops patting me. “I don’t like people watching me when I go.”

“This is different,” Emily-mother says, stress in her voice. “I need to come with you. It’s not safe by yourself.”

“What’s going on? Is it the Earthborn?”

Emily-mother shakes her head. “It’s not the Earthborn. We don’t know what it is. My ’net is clogged.”

“I know,” says Emily. “My ’net is clogged too. I sent heaps of messages to Tatyana and Mei Xiang, but I think my implants are broken.”

“Keep trying,” says Emily-mother. “If mine comes gas, I’ll let you know.”

The car slows down. It’s hot and doesn’t seem to be working right. Maybe they ran it too far too fast. It pulls off to one side of the road toward a building.

Nobody’s around. Not even any other cars. We were ahead of most of them. Everyone gets out. Emily keeps a tight grip on my leash, then ties it to the back of the car. I’m okay with this. I take the time to pee. Emily-mother takes Emily to do the same, behind the building.

Behind us, those big clouds continue to hang in the air. I take a moment to look at them; there’s a soft whine as Emily-father hooks up the car-feeder to the car. It hums as it begins to do things. They are feeding the car.

Thinking of food reminds me: I’m a little hungry. I smell something in the air; it’s like meat, but also living things, too. It has a strange smell. I don’t like it. It’s blowing in from those clouds, but I think it’s ahead of them. It’s something alive. A lot of somethings.

They’re coming.

I get afraid again, but then the wind changes and the smell goes away. Now I can smell something else.

There are other people here.

I bark.

“Fucking dog,” says Emily-father. “Shut up.”

I bark and I bark. The smell of someone else is coming from where Emily is.

Emily-mother and Emily return.

“How long?” asks Emily-mother.

“Two minutes,” says Emily-father. He smiles widely. “Aren’t you glad I paid extra for the fast-charge option?”

“Okay, okay,” says Emily-mother. “It turned out to be gas.” She laughs. Everyone laughs—it’s good to see something other than fear. It makes me feel better again. I wag my tail for the first time in a while.

Then the smell of someone else comes back. I bark again.

The door to the building opens with a bang. A man runs out, dressed in green, the same colour as the building. He’s covered in sweat and I smell pee from him, too.

“Get in the car,” says Emily-mother to Emily and me. She turns to the man, holding the boom-maker against her shoulder. “Stop! Who are you?”

Emily begins frantically undoing my leash. I strain against it, barking at the man. I will get him! I’m a good dog.

“My name is James,” the man says. He’s frightened; he’s angry. I’m angry too. “Did you come from New Panama?”

“Yes,” says Emily-mother. She keeps her boom-maker held tight. “Listen, we’re leaving now, okay?”

“Let me in,” the man pleads. “Please, you have room. I’ll ride in the back.”

“This is our car,” says Emily-mother. “We don’t know you.”

Emily unties my leash, but she holds it tight, leading me around to the side door. I growl at the strange man. I want to hurt him. I don’t think he’s a good man. Emily ties my lead to the inside of the door.

“You can’t leave me here for them. They’re killing everyone.” The man steps forward. “Come on. What a beating. You can’t pick a fucking dog over a person.”

Emily-mother points the boom-maker at him. “Get away.”

“Take me with you!”

BOOM.

The man falls.

My ears hurt, and there’s a high-pitched whine at the edges of my hearing. I bark a lot. Emily screams. I can smell burning chemicals and blood. The man doesn’t move. I want to hurt him too; I yank against my leash, but Emily has tied it up good. I kick and bark, straining against my collar.

“Drive!” Emily-mother shouts. She breaks the boom-maker and two red tubes fall out. She sticks two more tubes in and fixes it again with a click. She does this so fast I can barely see; she’s done before the first set of tubes hits the ground. “Drive, Daniel!”

Emily-father’s strong hands grab my leash and pull, roughly dragging me into the car. I kick and bark the whole way. It hurts. Finally I’m inside.

“Go, go, go!”

The car takes off again, leaving the man and the building behind us.

Silence. Nobody says anything; Emily-mother’s hands are shaking. Emily-father keeps looking at her. She doesn’t look back.

They are talking using the metal in their bodies. I’ve seen them do it before. They don’t want Emily to hear what they’re saying.

Emily, I think, knows that. “Is that man going to be okay?” she asks.

Nobody answers. I lick her face to try and calm her down; she pushes me away.

“Why did you shoot him?” Emily asks.

“I had to,” says Emily-mother. Her voice is so different now. Frightened, but with a hardness to it I don’t understand. “I had to, darling.”

“Are you a murderer?”

Nobody says anything for a bit. The car zooms on.

“Honey,” says Emily-father, “sometimes when people try to hurt you, or try to take what you have, you have to stop them. Sometimes you can’t use words.”

“Like the Reclamation,” says Emily. There’s a big silence. “I know you were in the army, Mum. Did you kill people then?”

“Sometimes you have to,” is all Emily-mother says. She smells strange. A mixture of fear and anger. I haven’t smelled anything like it before.

We go on, and the sun falls further. It is starting to get dark now, and Emily-father is forced to drive slower. This makes me a bit happier. We were driving very fast before.

I start to get hungry and whine. Emily feeds me bits of her snacks; they’re some form of very salty meat. I don’t like it, but I eat it anyway. I’m not very scared now. I think we’re safe. I eat some more.

And then a giant monster appears in the lights in front of our car.

It is big. Some kind of bug as big as a horse, with eyes that reflect red. I have never seen anything like it. Its pincers are up, reaching for the car, and it grows bigger as we quickly get close.

Emily-father yells. The car swerves. We try to miss the bug but hit it.

The car rolls over and over and over.

* * *

I’m very sleepy.

I want to sleep more, but something is shaking me, and my rest isn’t comfortable. I’m lying on something hard. It’s the inside roof of the car.

Now I remember. I kick and stand up. I smell a lot of blood. Emily is dangling down from her seat. Blood runs down her face. I lick the blood, hoping she’s not dead.

Slowly… slowly, she wakes up. Her face is red from being upside down a lot. She’s groggy; she doesn’t say much, just looks at me.

“Demon?”

Then she wakes up. She starts kicking, moving her arms around. The movement scares me. I bark.

Something shakes the car. Something big and heavy. I bark harder.

“No no no,” whispers Emily. She sounds scared too. “Demon, be quiet.”

Then I see what she’s looking at. The giant bug. It’s chewing on the front of the car.

I don’t know why it would do that. It chews into something and steam goes everywhere.

“Mum?” says Emily quietly. “Dad?”

I can smell a lot of blood in the front of the car. Emily-mother and Emily-father hang limp, like Emily did, but they don’t move. Emily-father has a hole in his head. I can smell Emily-mother’s bone marrow.

Emily fiddles with her seat and then falls. She lands with a thump. The bug stops eating the front of the car.

It moves around the car. Around and around. I recognise the behaviour of a predator animal; the bug is hunting. It must sense the heat of the car, smell the blood of Emily-mother and Emily-father, and think the car is bleeding. But I know the truth. We’re inside the car. It’s not the car that’s bleeding.

Now the bug is beginning to understand this, too.

Emily puts her hand over her mouth, trying to force her breathing to nothing. I growl at the legs of the bug as it passes; it’s a submissive growl, I’m not challenging its dominance. It can beat a car. I cannot beat a car. The bug is boss.

The bug hisses and digs at the door. Emily shrieks. The car shakes and rocks; the window breaks.

I bite the bug’s claw. It’s hard and slimy, like a wet tennis ball. I bite and I snarl.

The bug is too big. It can’t put its claw through the car window. I keep biting it, going for the weak points in its claws. Emily screams and screams. This urges me on.

I must defend Emily.

I taste bug meat. It bleeds black blood. I have hurt it, but it keeps coming. It doesn’t seem to feel pain. Normal things would retreat when they’re bitten. This bug continues, bending the metal of the car, trying to pry open the door. I latch my jaws onto the claw and shake my head back and forth, tearing at the flesh of its joint. I bite deep.

The limb comes away. The bug flails at the car, bashing with its good claw and its stump. Thump, thump, thump on the roof.

Emily cries and I’m afraid. It’s too big. We have to run. I jump out the other window.

“Demon!”

I leap on top of the car. The bug is there. I look right into its big, weird eyes. Its mouth clacks at me as it bites.

I know how to fight. I twist and jump, biting for its neck. There’s only thick, slimy skin there. My teeth drag across it, trying to find a weak spot. I don’t find one.

The bug’s remaining claw latches onto my rear left leg. It digs in deep. I howl. It hurts!

BOOM.

Emily. She has the boom-maker. The bug falls over the car, chattering and clicking. I smell guts. I smell blood. It’s all over me. All over the car.

My leg hurts. But the bug is dead. I limp over to Emily. She’s shaking so much the boom-maker falls out of her hands.

I lick her all over. She cries a lot. She tries to wake up Emily-mother and Emily-father. But she doesn’t try for long. They’re dead like the bug.

Emily tries to break the boom-maker so she can stick new tubes in. It takes her a little while, but she manages. I lick my wound when she fixes the boom-maker again. It hurts. I can’t walk on that leg, but I have four. I’m okay. I will lick it more later and make it better.

I can smell more bugs. I can smell a lot of things.

“I’ll come back with help,” Emily says to the car. “I’ll come back with an ambulance. Bye, Mum. Bye, Dad. I’ll be back soon. I promise.”

With the boom-maker held in her hands, Emily and I leave the dead car behind.

* * *

“Everything’s going to be okay, Demon,” Emily says as another car drives past. They’re getting more common. Our car was fast. These were slower. “Someone will stop for us. We’ll get help.”

None of the cars stop. Emily and I keep walking by the road. She holds my lead in one hand and the boom-maker in the other. Every time lights come, she tries to get them to stop. Nobody does.

I walk along with Emily. My leg hurts a lot. I know Emily is scared, and I’m scared, too. I smell bugs. They’re getting closer. I don’t think Emily knows. She keeps walking along the road.

This is a mistake. We should get away from the road and hide. I know how predators think.

They go where the food is.

We keep walking. The cars are now constant. They begin to move slowly; I get scared. They’re moving too slowly. They have light. This will draw the bugs to them for sure. I keep tugging for Emily to leave the road and get out toward the wilderness, where we can be safe.

“No, Demon,” she says, tugging me back. “We have to stay with the people.”

One of the cars stops. The people inside open the door. It’s four humans, probably related. They smell of sweat and fear.

“Hey girl,” the driver says. He’s very fat. They all are. “Get in.”

“There’s no room for Demon,” says Emily. There’s barely room for her.

“Forget the dog,” the man says. “She’ll be okay on her own.”

“Demon’s a boy,” says Emily. “And I can’t go unless he comes with me.”

The man shrugs and drives away. We keep walking.

Finally, the flood of cars slows down. One of the cars far ahead has broken. The road is blocked. Now we’re walking faster than the cars. People look at us. I growl at them. They leave us alone. We pass the fat man and his fat family. I growl at them, too.

One of the cars is different from the other cars, a metal-box. There are people riding in it; I can see their faces through tiny windows.

Emily runs up to the door and pounds on it. The window rolls down.

“This is an ambulance, right?” she says, her eyes very big.

“Sorry, kid,” the driver says. He’s wearing strange, bulky clothes and a helmet. “Military use only.”

“No, no,” says Emily. “You gotta go help my Mum. She was in the army! She fought in the Reclamation; she’s back there, and she’s hurt bad.”

“Sorry,” the driver says again. “We can’t go back.”

“You have to!” Emily is shouting. “She’s in the army like you!”

“We’ll radio another unit to pick them up,” says the driver. “They’ll be fine.”

“You promise?” Emily doesn’t look happy. That makes me unhappy.

“Yeah. Sure, kid.” The driver looks down at her. “Are you hurt?”

I growl at him.

“No, Demon,” says Emily to me, quietly. I growl anyway.

“I’m fine,” says Emily. “Demon is hurt.”

“So your mother’s back there,” says the man. “Where’s your father?”

Emily points back the way we came. “That way, too. They crashed. I still think we need to go back for them.”

The man shrugs helplessly. “We couldn’t even if we wanted to,” he said. “The road that way is bumper to bumper. What a beating.”

Emily cries a bit. “My parents need help. They were bleeding. The car rolled. We hit a bug.”

“What?” The man looks concerned. He opens the door and leaves the metal-box. He slides a small box into his boom-maker. It makes a clicking noise. “What kind of bug? How big?”

“Big,” says Emily. She’s shaking a bit as she talks. I bump up against her leg to reassure her. “Like, really big. It attacked our car. Demon and I killed it.” She holds out the boom-maker. “With this.”

That seems to surprise him a lot. His voice is quiet. “You killed one?”

“Yeah.” Emily gives the boom-maker a shake. “Like I said.”

The man squints at her and pulls out a light. “The Prophets Wept,” he says, looking over Emily and me. “Black blood. Like they have.”

“I told you,” she said. “Demon bit it, and while it was distracted, I shot it.”

I did bite it. I’m a good boy.

Nobody says anything for a bit. Then he touches his helmet. “LT, I got a little girl out here. She’s separated from her parents.” He pauses. “I know, but she’s got a shotgun and a pretty mean-looking dog. She says she killed one of them.”

Another big pause. Then the man jerks his thumb toward the metal-box. “Anyone who can kill one of those has gotta be tough. Go around the back and jump in.”

Emily hesitates. “What about Demon?”

“And your dog, too. We’re getting past this shit-show. Don’t worry, we’ll keep you safe till we reach the evacuation point.”

“Evacuation?” Emily looks confused. “What?”

The man suddenly smells funny. “Just get aboard,” he says. “Let the corpsmen in the back take a look at you, and then I’ll call the rear elements and make sure they pick up your folks.”

Emily seems happy. That makes me happy. She goes around to the back of the metal-box. It slides open, extending a ramp. The inside seems cramped and smelly. It’s full of people. Emily walks up the ramp and cautiously sits on the floor. I sit beside her. The door closes, then the metal-box begins to drive; it swerves to one side, and through the tiny windows, I see it passing the line of stopped cars.

We’re driving off the road. Metal-boxes don’t seem to be worried by that.

Everyone is looking at me. They’re male humans and female humans. One of the males pulls out a bag full of weird-smelling chemicals. The metal-box shakes a lot but nobody seems bothered by it.

“Hey there,” he says. “My name is Specialist Roderic. I’m a medic.”

“Hello, sir,” Emily says. “I’m Emily Rowlandson.”

He nods understandingly. He looks at the boom-maker. “I don’t think you’ll need that anymore.”

Emily clutches it close. “It’s my Mum’s. I’m keeping it.”

“Okay,” he says. “Just keep your finger off the trigger when we’re moving. If that thing goes off in here, that’s a recipe for unpleasantness.”

Emily lays the boom-maker down beside her.

“Mind if I take a look at that wound?” the man asks.

Emily shows him her head. He seems pleased as he looks it over.

“She’s not hurt bad,” says one of the females. She has a long tube that smells of sulphur. But there’s a sound in her voice that raises the fur on my back.

The man glares at the woman. “What’s your problem, Corporal?”

“The LT didn’t authorise us to pick up a fucking dog. I hate dogs.”

I growl a bit at her. Emily rubs my back. That usually means the human is okay. I stop growling.

“I know,” says the man. “But it’s here now, so stop complaining.”

We ride in silence. The metal-box rocks from side to side; Emily and I slide across the floor. Driving away from the road is difficult. The man holds Emily with his legs. I whine and start to get dizzy. I throw up.

“Fuck!” The woman has my vomit on her boots. “Are you shitting me?”

“It’s not Demon’s fault!” says Emily. She’s crying again.

The woman kicks me. I feel sick from the rocking and my leg hurts. I whine and put my tail between my legs. I don’t want to fight the woman.

“Knock it off,” says the medic-man. “Don’t be a bitch.”

“I fucking hate dogs,” the woman says.

We keep going.

“What’s this about an evacuation?” says Emily.

Nobody answers.

“You’re getting everyone out, right?” she asks. “All those people?”

“Yeah,” says the medic-man.

“And other army people are going to pick up my parents?”

“Yeah,” says the medic-man. He smells funny as he talks. “We’re driving to meet a ship. It’s going to land in the woods and pick us up.”

“What kind of ship?” asks Emily. “A heavy lifter? There’s a lot of people.”

The humans all look at each other.

“I don’t have an aural implant,” says Emily. “Just say it out loud.”

“You don’t?” The medic-man looks surprised. “Most people have them by your age.”

“I know,” says Emily, sounding angry. “My Mum got sick in the Reclamation. The pension isn’t much. Implants are expensive. I only have the basics.”

For some reason, this seems to make most of the people… strange. They all look a bit sad, a bit angry.

“Yeah,” says the medic. “Military pensions aren’t exactly great.”

“That’s what we have to look forward to,” says the woman.

“You vote, don’t you?” says the man. “If you don’t like the system, change it.”

They bicker for a bit. Talking about something they call politics. I throw up again.

“You said it, buddy,” says the medic-man, patting me on the ears. I’m too sick to growl at him.

The metal-box jerks, rocks, and then mercifully stops. Everyone instantly becomes tense, listening to a sound only they can hear. More metal-talking, I guess.

“We’re bogged,” says the medic-man to Emily. “Wait here.”

Emily nods, holding my collar tight.

The back of the box opens. The smell of bugs washes in. I can see tree trunks. We are still away from the road. The people run out of the metal-box; they move fast and surround the metal-box.

We wait. I definitely smell bugs. I tug at my lead and Emily, too surprised to do anything, can’t hold on to me. I run out and down the ramp.

The bugs are coming from behind the metal-box. I bark and I bark.

I hear the medic-man. “The dog’s freaking out.”

“Fuck the dog,” says the woman. “Ready. On three…”

The bugs are very close. I bark as loud as I can. Emily comes out and tries to drag me back into the metal-box, but I resist. The humans don’t know the bugs are there.

I know how predators think. The humans are prey.

The medic-man walks out from beside the metal-box. “Hey, buddy,” he says. “What’s wrong?”

I sniff, and I know where they are now. I look up and bark.

The man follows my eyes, up to the trees.

“Contact!” he shouts out. “Climbers in the trees!”

Dozens of bugs with wings fly down from the trees. They snatch up one of the humans and tear him in half. The medic-man fires his boom-maker: crack-crack-crack! Emily and I run back into the metal-box and hide far away from the noise. The door closes.

The sounds of fighting thump all around the metal-box. It shakes suddenly as something hits it.

Through the window I can see a big bug, its claws holding onto the sides of the metal-box. It has lots of arms; it slams a claw against the side, denting the metal. Emily screams. Thump. Thump. The metal cracks.

There’s a flash of light and fire. The bug explodes.

The woman who hates me appears by one of the windows, splattered in black blood. Her tube-weapon has smoke coming out of both ends. She jams a smaller tube into it and fires again at something I can’t see.

Eventually the noise from the boom-makers stops, and the back of the metal-box opens again.

Five humans return. There’s plenty of room now.

“The Prophets Wept,” says the woman. “That fucking dog… he could smell ’em.”

“Yeah,” says the medic-man. “Saved us. Good dog.”

Yes, I’m a good dog.

The metal-box drives on. One of the humans gives me some food from a pouch on his chest and I eat it.

I hope I don’t throw up again.

* * *

I don’t know how long the metal-box runs after that. Wherever we are, it’s a very long way from the vet.

The humans are nicer to me now. They give me pats and food, and the medic-man takes a look at my leg. I don’t like him touching it—it hurts, but then he pours some chemical on the wound, which makes the pain go away.

The metal-box trundles on. The rocking stops after a while and the journey is easier. I could even stand, instead of lying down and feeling sick.

But I’m so tired. Emily and I sleep a bit, snuggled together between the legs of the medic-man.

We wake up to a deep rumbling. I feel it before Emily does; I jump up, barking excitedly at one of the tiny windows.

Dawn has come, and in the light of the morning I can see a flying metal-box landing in a green field. It extends a ramp. The humans around us, tired and smelly, seem happy.

The door at the back of our metal-box drops down and I’m the first to run out. I even put weight on my leg; it works, and although I can smell the beginnings of rot starting to set in, I know it’s going to be okay. The medic-man fixed me.

The air is clean and no bugs are around. The grass under my paws is unfamiliar and rich. We must have run a very long way. We’re out in the middle of nowhere.

Emily is the last out. The medic-man is carrying her very gently, her boom-maker slung over his shoulder. He walks down the ramp, smiling widely.

“The ship’s here,” says the medic-man. “We’re getting out of here.”

“That’s it?” says Emily, looking at the new metal-box. It’s not a lot bigger than the one we just left. “But what about everyone else?” She looks around. “Where are the other cars?”

Everyone is suddenly tense.

“Emily,” said the medic-man, “There are no other cars. They didn’t make it. It’s just us.”

“But what about Mum?” Her voice becomes stressed. “Wh-What about Dad?”

“It’s just us,” says the medic-man. “Come on. We have to go. The ship won’t wait forever.”

Emily begins to kick. “No!” she screams. “I want my Mum!”

No, this is not good. I growl at the medic-man. He’s hurting Emily.

“Emily, wait, listen to me. Listen! This ship is your way off-world, and you’ve got to take it. These things—the things that killed your parents? They’re coming. We can’t go back for your folks, Emily. They’re gone. They’re dead. Listen to me! Fleet is going to blast this whole continent. They’re going to nuke it, Emily. Everything.”

She isn’t listening. Emily is kicking and shouting. “Let me go!” she says. “Let me go! I’m going back!”

“Emily, stop it!”

“Let me go!”

He drops her. Emily lands with a plop, and then jumps up and runs to me. I put myself between her and the medic-man, growling.

“The Interdictor’s preparing to leave,” says the medic-man. “Emily, come on. We have to get onboard.”

The ship begins to whine, a loud noise that shakes the ground.

Medic-man comes close. I snap my teeth at him. I won’t let them take Emily.

“Stay back,” says Emily. “Demon will get you!”

I will, too. I growl some more at him.

Suddenly the woman, the one with the tube who saved us before, is behind me, her arms around Emily. “Come on, you brat!” she shouts. “Get in the fucking ship!”

No! I leap. I bite the woman. She falls over. I jump on top of her, biting and snarling, going for her throat.

BOOM.

Pain.

Now I’m lying on the ground. There’s blood everywhere. My blood. I can smell it. The medic-man has Emily’s boom-maker. He boomed me with it. Smoke rises from both ends.

“Demon!” Emily grabs my neck, holding up my head. She’s screaming and crying, but it all seems really far away. “Demon! Demon!”

I’m so sleepy. I kick a bit as the medic-man grabs Emily and picks her up, carrying her towards the metal-box. She screams and cries and fights, but she’s so little. The medic-man carries her up the ramp and onto the metal-box.

The woman looks at me. She, too, is crying. She’s upset even though I tried to bite her neck. “Fuck!” she yells at medic-man. “You didn’t have to fucking shoot him!”

Medic-man says nothing.

He too is crying.

Emily fights. She’s trying to get to me. I can see her through a tiny window, her face filling it up. She thumps her fists on the metal. I want to get to her, although I also want to nap; to go to sleep and let the pain go away. But I can’t get up. My rear legs don’t work.

I have to be with Emily.

The door to the metal-box seals. It hums loudly as though it might explode at any moment. Then the ship begins to rise. Soon they’re gone. All I can smell is the fresh grass and the blood. Then the wind changes. With it, comes the distant scent of bugs.

The humans will make sure Emily is safe. I hope. I don’t know if I did the right thing, but I know one thing.

I’m a good boy.

I know I am because Emily told me so.

A Word from David Adams

David and Fall.

When I was planning my novel series Symphony of War, I wanted to do something at once different and familiar. I wanted to borrow from every science fiction world I’d known and use what I liked the most: the result is the Universe at War. It’s like someone took Warhammer 40,000, Starcraft, Pitch Black, and Ghost in the Shell and threw them all in a blender.

This part of it, though, is something different. When we see Polema in “Demon and Emily,” it’s through the eyes of a dog. Getting this right was a real challenge for me; this story is the first time I’ve used first-person present to write, something I swore I’d never do. But it suits the mind of a dog so much better than past-tense forms, which tend to imply a narrator. A dog has a more limited mindset than a person; the only things that Demon thinks about are happening in the moment.

One thing that stumped me in the writing of this, though, is just how old Emily is. How would Demon’s mind process this? She’s largely unchanged since he was a puppy; as far as Demon’s concerned, Emily and her family are unchanging. It’s a bit of a mystery, but if you pressed me, I’m inclined to say thirteen.

Astute readers might note that the Polema of my novel, Symphony of War: The Polema Campaign, is very different from the Polema shown here. That world is a barren desert. This one is rich and green.

War changes a place, even in as short as four years, the span of time between this story and my novel.

You can see more of the old Polema in The Immortals: Kronis Valley, more of the Myriad arachnid invaders in the novel-length Symphony of War, and I’m sure we haven’t seen the end of Emily, either. Watch for her in a future installment of The Immortals.

I’ve attached a picture of me and my cat, Fall. Fall is totally adora-Fall, and she was sitting on my lap for, like, ninety-nine percent of the writing of this story. So there’s that.

I hope you enjoyed reading “Demon and Emily” as much as I enjoyed writing it.

For more of my writing, see my website at http://www.lacunaverse.com/. To join my new-releases newsletter, go to http://eepurl.com/toBf9. You can email me at dave@lacunaverse.com and you can find my Facebook page at http://www.facebook.com/lacunaverse.

Keena’s Lament

(a Weston Files short story)

by Hank Garner

One

The world is rarely as it seems. You look to the stars and think you know all there is to know. You look to the depths of the sea and assume that by cataloging the variations of life, you are the master of your domain.

But what about the war that rages beyond your ken? What about the legends of old that occupy the collective unconscious of your people, the truths that dare to escape the dark recesses of your dream-self? You think you know yourself, but your dream-self knows you better. Your vanity could be your downfall on that day when the Final Stand is made—as it was once before.

I know this, because I have watched you for eons. That is what I do, and for years beyond counting.

Time immemorial.

And rarely have I seen one of your kind that stands above the rest, that accomplishes something worth remembering. Most of your race merely disappear into the dust of endless days, but on occasion, one among you will glean a useful insight into the universe.

One of your poets said it best.

Absolute futility,

Absolute futility. Everything is futile.

What does a man gain for all his efforts

That he labors at under the sun?

A generation goes and a generation comes,

But the earth remains forever.

And what was that other thing he said? Oh yes.

There is nothing new under the sun.

But then, when least you look for it, you see something that flies in the face of expectations, something that erases your preconceived notion that mortal creatures are innately inferior. Sometimes this nobility is shown in the rare spirit of one of your kind, and sometimes it’s in one of the Creator’s nobler beasts. As you will, perhaps, see in this story I am sharing with you.

Who am I, you ask? I have been called many things. Names. Labels. Myths. But I am most well known as Armaros, one of the Watchers.

And who are the Watchers? Each culture has its own way of describing us, and we have a history as interwoven as the most complex of tapestries. Most of your kind refuses to acknowledge our existence because of what that would mean for you. But if you open your mind to broaden your understanding, you will see that we have been here all along. One of your sacred texts even lays it bare.

“There were Nephilim on the earth in those days… and afterward.”

It would not surprise me if you have all but forgotten this. Your kind is cursed with the arrogance of willfully selective memory. Your species is special, as you believe, but not in the way you believe. You are the latecomers, a relatively new species. You think you are the only ones, Earthborn, and you think your history is the only history. I see your shortsightedness as a curse, but I suppose you might see it as a blessing. It is probably easier that way for you. Sometimes I too wish I could forget.

For all your shortcomings, I must say, you are beautiful. But you lack the ability to accept realities unsupported by your physical senses, and you think that if you cannot touch a thing, then the thing is not real. Perhaps it is due to your temporally linear nature. You feel a special connection with this floating rock. Grounded. And why would you not? You were fashioned from that very earth. How ironic, then, that the tale I wish to tell is of a legendary hero who built a boat to survive.

I witnessed this history—what you think of as myth—despite the Creator’s best efforts to wash us, the Unclean, away. We were here long before you. We are here now. We will be here long after you are gone.

You think you are His favorites. You think you are special in that way. But you will never be as close to Him as we could have been.

As once we were.

Thousands of species call this place home, and one of them is the purest of heart in all of creation. And that is where our story begins.

Two

I found her when she was just a pup.

I was walking along the valley floor one day. It was almost sundown. I heard a whimper and stopped, turning my head to listen. I found her burrowed under a log, her dead mother at her side. I bent down to pick her up and she growled at me. She wanted to be fierce, but she was small. I held out my hand to show her I meant no harm. She growled and bared her razor-sharp puppy teeth. I crouched down beside her to be less intimidating. I fished out a morsel of bread from my pouch and quickly won over the heart of the tiny but fearsome creature by appealing to her belly.

She whined and flopped her head over my arm, staring at her mother’s cold carcass. I stroked her shivering head.

“This is the way of things, little one. But I will care for you now.”

I took her with me as I walked the valley. When her mother was out of sight, the pup buried her head in my tunic, nuzzling around for a comfortable spot. Soon, she was fast asleep. I called her Keena, which means brave in the language of my people. I do not know how long Keena stood guard over her mother, but I must have earned her trust for her to sleep so soundly in my arms. Even the fierce must let down their guard eventually.

She never left my side after that, even after the Builder offered to take her. I will never forget that day. Or the days that followed.

* * *

Of all the Earthborn, the Builder and his family were different. I remember the first time I saw his great-grandfather, the one that vanished, talking about him. The great-grandfather had quite the reputation, always screaming about destruction. Always preaching his warnings.

“Destruction and desolation! Turn from your wickedness!”

He never found any peace. And his grandson, the Builder as we came to call him, carried his ancestor’s curse. Always disturbed, always an outcast. Especially after he had his vision.

Why the conflict, you ask? It goes back to the beginning. Before that, actually. Time is an invention of your people to measure your finite lives. Once you are outside it, you realize what a useless measuring stick it really is.

The Shining Ones existed long before even this world was formed. They were the fallen, the Unclean who once had lived as one with the Creator but now were shackled to the Earth for daring to challenge His rule in Heaven. They watched as the Creator made your kind and all the creatures of the world.

Then He fashioned you from the Earth, and the Shining Ones were amazed. In awe of your pureness of heart, your indomitable will. But mostly in awe of your subtle beauty. There had never been anything like it in the expanse of the universe, nor has there been since. Magnificence. That is one way in which you are special, I must admit.

So enamored of your beauty as they were, the Shining Ones enticed you, His newest creations, to lay with them. Their offspring, the Watchers, were born, and that is how I came into the world.

When the Creator saw the result of these liaisons, He grew angry with the Shining Ones for corrupting his newest creation and banished them from the Earth. But we Watchers, their children, claimed Naud—the right of sanctuary—since we were half-Earthborn. Despite His judgment of us as the corrupted issue of unholy liaisons, and lest He be perceived as merciless, the Creator granted our petition. And here we, the Watchers, remained.

However, His mercy carried with it a condition: He held us Watchers true to the very claim we invoked. He bound us to the Earth, never to leave. We were free to roam, but not break the bonds of this world like our star-born parents could.

Being half born of the earth and half of the stars, we are imbued with special abilities compared to you. Our lifespan is much longer than yours. We are practically immortal and can see past the veil of this reality. To some, we seem as gods. And with all races, yes, even mine, there are those who will take advantage of privilege. The Watchers were, after all, the descendants of those who’d rebelled against the Creator. I wonder if He grew to regret his act of mercy.

I was different from the other Watchers, though, and I suppose I still am. They had designs on power and conquering others, whereas I simply wanted to live alone and in peace.

So I was an outcast among my own people. They quickly divined that the Earthborn could be easily manipulated, conquered. I would have no part of it, so I walked alone. Until I found her, my faithful companion.

* * *

Keena and I slept under the stars. I would gaze up at the pinpricks piercing the pitch-black canopy. I would tell her stories of my ancestors, the Shining Ones. She would watch me intently and sometimes cock her head, regarding me as the tears inevitably trailed down my cheeks. Then she would gently nuzzle me and lick the tears away.

We were good for one another.

In a matter of months, she transformed from the ferocious puppy guarding her mother’s body into a majestic creature of grace and perennial good nature. Her regal head always seemed to float above her body as she strode by my side. Always by my side.

I am an imposing figure to your kind, or so I have been told. Nearly nine feet tall—small by my people’s standards, to be sure, but plenty big enough to intimidate your race. Which is why Keena and I steered clear of your settlements as much as possible. Every Earthborn I met seemed to regard me as either a god or a threat to be subdued. For my part, I want to be neither worshipped nor conquered.

Keena and I hunted for our food each day and ate by the fire of our camp. We enjoyed each other’s company and had no need for anyone else. We took care of each other and were content to do so. An orphan dog and her outcast master. Sharing my life with Keena was the closest I have ever come to the contentment I seek.

And we lived that way, in easy reciprocity. We were not master and animal. We were the best of friends. We protected each other, provided for each other. We understood each other. Words were unnecessary. Keena was the perfect partner. I had found the purest of all the Creator’s creatures.

Three

The Builder and his sons began to construct a massive box of wood. Each day some of my Watcher brethren would stand and observe the construction, and each day the Builder would ask them to turn from their wickedness and join him. As his great-grandfather had. Then the Watchers and the Earthborn that were loyal to them would gather and ridicule the Builder while he worked. To his credit, he never stopped his labors to answer them.

Keena and I would watch him from the edge of the forest. He would call out for anyone to join his labors who wanted to, but no one took him up on his offer. “The water is coming!” he would shout. But anyone listening would only laugh at him.

And we watched.

One day, a group of Watchers and Earthborn brought casks of wine and filled a long table with roasted meats and feasted while the man and his sons worked in the hot sun. When they were fully drunk, my brothers and their followers began hurling stones at the family and their long, wooden box. Their attack became so furious, so relentless, that the Builder and his sons were forced to seek shelter.

And we watched.

Keena growled, and the fur on her neck and back prickled. I shook my head at her and assured her this was not our fight. We retreated to the safety of the forest and our camp, far away from the Builder and his harassment at the hands of the drunken revelers.

This pattern continued for months. Keena and I moved camp often to take advantage of better hunting or fishing, but we always returned to look in on the madman and his massive construction project.

One day the Builder climbed down from his large, long box of a building and declared it done. On that day, everything changed for Keena and me.

* * *

The Builder left his home for the wilderness. A strange thing happened while he was gone. The sky filled with dark clouds, and a tangible sense of doom pervaded the air. When the Builder returned a few days later, he and his sons gathered provisions and stocked them in the large wooden box.

One evening, after the Builder had gone to his bed, Keena and I snuck inside the box. It was the most ambitious thing I had ever seen an Earthborn undertake. The inside was a combination of house, barn, and granary. It was four times larger than the largest house, with stalls that could hold many hundreds of animals. We could see the foodstuffs the family had stored, and it looked as if they could survive inside this box for a very long while. Looking around at the great empty stalls and provisions stacked high, a keen sense of foreboding descended upon me. I called to Keena to leave, and as we passed through the doorway, I made the sign against evil. We slipped away unseen into the forest.

I lay awake under the dim light of cloud-covered stars that night, wondering at the dread that had come over me, that I was still feeling. Visions of destruction filled my mind. Terror filled my heart, and I saw the end of all things. I thought of the other Watchers and their treatment of the man, of their followers’ cruelty and the Builder’s proclamations of doom. I thought of the Creator and asked myself what the limits of His mercy might be.

I jumped up gasping for breath! I must have fallen asleep. It was just a dream. All my terror, all my ponderings. I tried to shake off the dread from my dream, but as I went about the next day’s labors, my dark mood would not lift, no matter how I tried to distract myself. My foreboding was unrelenting.

Keena and I went into the village after a few days of nervous distractions. The normal crowd was there, gathered around the Builder and his project, but they stood in sober silence. The Builder was standing watch over the main entrance of the box, while scores of animals were shepherded inside up a long ramp. Some animals in pairs, some in groups of more than half a dozen. Slowly they plodded, one after another, up the ramp and into the box. No one said a word. Keena and I watched with the same amazement as the rest.

The Builder, no doubt seeing an opportunity to address an attentive audience, climbed up on a stump.

“You see now before you the work of the Creator. You have taken it upon yourselves to leave your natural estate and conduct yourselves in a manner that goes against everything you know to be right. You, the offspring of the Earthborn and the Shining Ones, and you, the Earthborn that have pledged your fealty to these fallen few—you are witnessing the arrival of disaster, that which has been foretold. You have been warned, and now you have one last chance to redeem yourselves. Even the beasts of the fields and forests understand they are being cursed because of you. That is why they come willingly to me. The Creator will destroy his creation and start anew, with a world uncontaminated by the likes of you. Turn now from your wicked path and join us, before your eternal souls are forever held apart from Him. Turn or be destroyed utterly!”

The crowd shook off their amazement and replaced it with anger. They refused to be lectured. They refused to see. Watcher and Earthborn alike picked up stones and hurled them at the Builder. Some struck the animals still in their long march up the ramp. The silent parade became a cacophony of bleats and calls and cries and taunting curses by the crowd as the animals raced inside.

He stood strong for a while, the Builder did, but eventually he too retreated into the box, where he continued ushering the creatures to safety. Eventually his detractors tired of their sport and removed themselves to other quarters in which to seek their revels. Keena and I went back to the forest to search for supper as I pondered all that I had seen.

My dread mood deepened.

The clouds darkened.

Four

A few days later, we felt the first drops of rain. Keena had always been fascinated by the strange water that fell from the sky. I think it scared her when it first dappled her fur, so she scampered under a tree, peeking out only to see who was sprinkling water on her. Eventually she got used to the rain, as she always did, and joined me to wander, wet, in our forest.

Over the next three days, the rain went from a gentle mist to a hard drizzle. After five days, it was a steady shower. On the tenth day, the thunder began.

* * *

The rain would not relent, and hunting is difficult when constantly bombarded from above. So Keena and I visited the village to trade some pelts for dry provisions.

We found the Builder furiously running through the village, telling anyone that would listen—and none were—that this was the time. Destruction was at hand.

He pleaded with me as well and told me to climb into his box now, before it was too late. But I pushed him aside. At the time, he seemed so insignificant. So much smaller than me, and his words of warning were like the insane ramblings of so many other prophets of doom in those dark days. Like the seemingly mad ravings of his own great-grandfather, now long dead. I prided myself on standing apart from the irrelevant affairs of the Earthborn; of my own kind, for that matter.

He knelt and whispered something to Keena. She looked up at me, and I could see it in her eyes: she had understood him. She whined, and it was clear she was afraid.

The Builder asked me if he could take my dog with him. “Spare your animal, at least,” he said. Keena seemed to understand this request, but when the Builder held out his hand to her, she moved back behind me out of reach. Her head was bowed like a supplicant, but she would not leave my side, whatever the disaster the Builder foretold.

He seemed to accept that he could not save anyone but himself, his family, and the animals they had gathered. Without saying another word, he stood up and walked toward the box. He ushered his family inside, and standing at the doorway, he looked out on the world he knew, now soaked and swollen with the rains of many days.

He and his sons pulled on the ropes attached to the ramp, heaving until it lifted and pivoted. I realized then that the ramp was a door they were pulling closed. With a final thud lost beneath the boom of thunder, the Builder and his family and all those animals were sealed into the box.

Human faces soon appeared, staring through windows at all they were leaving behind. They watched us watching them, and I felt the knot tighten in my stomach. For I knew at last that it was no mere box the Builder had made.

It was an ark.

* * *

Keena and I slogged through the mud to our camp. Water was standing everywhere, pooling up in any low-lying spot. That night we had jerky and hot broth from the fire. The last fire we ever built.

The rain got heavier, more intense in the next days. Homes once overlooking large pastures now stood half-submerged in water. Valleys had become lakes. We sought out higher ground, moving camp multiple times a day. We had to climb constantly to stay ahead of the creeping waterline. Everything was wet now, and if you stared long enough, you could see the water rising with your eyes.

From the top of one of the hills, we could see the Builder’s ark. Water climbed up the sides until eventually it began to float. It passed out of the fertile valley we called home on top of the flood waters. As we watched it go, I knew: Keena and I were running out of options.

We climbed the highest mountain in the region, and at the top found a cave. We walked to the edge and looked out over the world. Water surrounded the mountain. Keena looked over the valley, the only home she had ever known. She bayed mournfully, and I knelt beside her and gently stroked her back. In her guttural wail, she expressed what I could not—a kind soul’s lament for the loss of her world. I stayed by her thinking I was comforting her, but it was she, through her song of sadness, that gave me the courage to face what was to come.

We watched as others sought higher ground. A bear climbed seeking safety and howled as it was washed down the cliff face. Seeking better shelter ourselves, we ventured deeper into the cave. We found a shaft leading into the core of the mountain and followed it deeper in. Eventually, the tunnel formed an elbow, and we followed it until we reached an open chamber. We sat against the far wall and rested.

“We will be fine, girl,” I soothed.

She sat next to me, her ears perked up and the fur at the back of her neck bristling and wet. The tunnel amplified the constant, driving rain outside, and the chamber was filled with the eerie echoes of those pattering drums. We needed to keep moving, but we also needed rest, so I coaxed her to relax next to me. We slept.

Five

I was startled awake by a rising pitch in the sound that filled our chamber. In the dim light of the cave, it was hard to tell how long we had slept, and Keena had awoken before me. She sat at attention, staring down the hole. I rose and we walked down the tunnel to see what the sound was.

When we reached the bottom where the tunnel started upward again, we saw that water had begun to fill the elbow down the tunnel. It was ankle high and rising. If this kept up, I knew, we would soon be trapped.

Keena and I climbed back up the path toward the outside of the mountain, slipping along the way as we fought for purchase in the running water. We reached the upper chamber and saw the problem. The water was already trickling in from the opening to the outside. The rain was fierce now, heavier than before, if that were possible.

I looked at Keena and saw her shaking. She pressed against my leg as if to reassure me that she was there to protect me, but I knew deep inside she was as afraid as I was. The world was becoming one unbroken ocean. The earth-sea had claimed everything and everyone.

The horror struck me deep in my heart. Keena and I were alone with nowhere to go.

The end chamber was still dry, at least for now, so I judged it the best place to wait out the rain. As we carefully made our way down the shaft, a fish slid past my feet. The water at the bottom of the shaft was now knee deep and teeming with fish. Keena grabbed one and I snagged another. We might be trapped, but we would not be hungry that night. We climbed up to the back chamber and had raw fish for dinner.

* * *

The roar of the water got louder and louder. I had no idea how long we could last in the dry chamber, but we made trips back to the surface to watch as the waterline rose. Rain even filled the elbow of the tunnel.

I held my breath and dove under, swimming for the surface. I reached the top and saw that the water had breached the opening. It was flooding in. I knew it would soon cover the entire mountain. I dove down again and swam back to the chamber where Keena waited, anxious for my return. I could see that she knew it was hopeless. Any words I could say would be wasted. I sat down with my back against the wall and she put her head in my lap.

Her eyes looked up at me, and I could see in them her resignation. Her low moan filled the chamber. The sound of sadness for the loss of the world. Of fear for the loss of her life. We listened to the droning of the water for a long while. It finally lulled us both to sleep.

* * *

I woke up several hours later with a raging headache. Keena was lethargic, and I soon realized that even though we were still dry, our fresh air supply had been cut off by the flooded tunnel. Our time, like our air, was growing short.

She knew it, too. Keena stretched upward and licked my face. She snuggled into me and rested her head on my shoulder. Her breathing became shallow and ragged. I knew this was the end. Finally, after all the destruction and loss of life. After the washing away of the Watchers and the drowning of His other creations, I began to weep. Not for all or any of that. But for Keena.

I wept for Keena.

Some have said that you see your life pass before your eyes at the end, but I did not. I saw hers. Every moment we had shared together played out in my head. My own flood, a flood of tears, came as she huffed her last breath. I kissed her on the end of her nose as I inhaled her last sigh. I clutched her tightly and told her I loved her. The sobs became louder and more violent and for the first time I knew what real love was. How losing one so close can devastate your heart.

Losing Keena broke me in two.

I held my friend as blackness surrounded my vision. Then all was silent and dark.

The hollow emptiness of death.

Six

I awoke. The quiet was the first thing I noticed. I had become so accustomed to the rushing sound of water that the silence was deafening.

Then I heard the birds.

As my vision cleared, I remembered my friend and found her still lying across my chest with her head on my shoulder. The emotions of loss consumed me again. I cradled her stiff body in my arms and headed down the chute to try and escape the mountain tomb. The shaft was wet, but no longer standing in water. I could see bright sunshine beaming down from the outside.

I stood in the mouth of the cave and stared at the devastation and destruction.

How did I survive?

Why me?

Why not her?

The guilt was almost too much to bear. Why had the air been too thin for her but allowed me to survive? Did my heritage as a half-Shining One protect me somehow?

What about all the others like me? Did they survive? As I stepped into the world once again, holding my friend in my arms, I wondered if I would ever know.

* * *

Under the warm, baking sunlight, the waters receded quickly. Perhaps the Creator, having cleansed the world, was anxious to uncover its beauty again.

I made my way carefully down the hill, holding her body close. The thought consumed me: she must be laid to rest properly. I walked for miles that day, searching what used to be our fertile valley and surrounding forest for a proper place for her.

Utter devastation.

I walked until I could no longer feel my feet. In the fading twilight, I reached the end of the valley, a place that was known among the Watchers as the Spirit Road. I had never walked the Road before, but as the sun set along the horizon, I felt compelled to take it. Somehow, it would lead me to Keena’s final resting place. This I knew.

As I stepped onto the Road, a rushing wind whirled around me, lifted me up. My stomach lurched, and I experienced the sensation of falling into a black abyss. Then, as suddenly as it had begun, it was over.

I found myself standing in a peaceful grove in the warm, afternoon sun. But had it not been sundown only moments before? Had more time passed than I knew? Or had I simply appeared elsewhere upon the Earth, a place where the sun was high and shining? My surroundings were completely unfamiliar, but I remembered the old stories of the travelers, and I knew that I was in a place as enchanted as my companion was.

I had found Keena’s resting place.

* * *

I stood in the midst of hallowed ground, clutching my most faithful companion, the closest thing to my heart. I had traveled the Spirit Road to the place my heart most desired: a final home for Keena. I stood among the wreckage of what used to be an oak grove, still soaking from the Creator’s wrath. The acorns crunched under my feet and the air fairly crackled with the energy surrounding the intersections of the ley lines of the Earth. The sacred oaks would grow back, I knew. The earth would reclaim what was hers, and the world would have a new birth. The world that had been taken from Keena, the world for which she had mourned so achingly. And from here, upon this hill, Keena would see it all renewed.

I circled the mound to find the perfect spot. When I marked it, I took out the pouch that held the preparations. The ashes of the sacred nine, a pure silver trowel, a beeswax candle—I used these ingredients to sanctify the ground.

The sun began its gentle descent, and when the hill was bathed in the gloaming that is the time between times, I laid her in the hallowed ground. The sun’s rays shone against the horizon, and in this miraculous moment between night and day, I sprinkled the hallowed earth over Keena.

I made three sunwise circles around the hill and declared the spot forever sacred ground. Little did I know that the magic I cast on that hill would last so long, be so strong, even unto the present day.

* * *

The land was desolate when I laid her here, but look at it now. The grove that regrew following the Great Flood is ancient once more. Now your people, the Earthborn have built a community of homes here—the place of the Final Stand that is yet to come.

Remember what I told you, dear one, at the beginning? The world is rarely as it seems. You look to the stars and think you know all there is to know. You look to the depths of the sea and assume that by cataloging the variations of life, you are the master of your domain. But what about the war that rages beyond your ken? What about the legends of old that occupy the collective unconscious of your people, the truths that dare to escape the dark recesses of your dream-self?

Well, now you know a small portion of what is. I pray you take heed of your surroundings. Visit this grove when you can. If you sit quietly, you can still hear Keena’s lament whispering through the ancient oaks. Though I have never seen her—and oh! I wish I had—I have heard it said that on a moonlit night, the shape of a great hound can be seen circling the mound, standing watch. And waiting. Waiting for something that is most certainly coming.

Here among the sacred oaks of Weston.

A Word from Hank Garner

Hank and Eleanor.

Earlier this year, my friend Chris Pourteau started talking about this passion project that ultimately became the collection you are now holding. When he first released “Unconditional” as a stand-alone story, we all knew he was onto something unique and, frankly, quite special. There is something stirred deep within our hearts when we think of the most unimaginable catastrophes and how our four-legged companions show unconditional love in those times. I think these stories stir us to be better than we are.

I love stories about strange people and places. For a couple of years now, I’ve been building a fictional place called Weston, Mississippi. Each of my books have been set there, and each story has at its core the fact that the veil between this world and another is somehow thinner in Weston than in most places. Chris challenged me to tie “Keena’s Lament” to my larger world, and the idea for this tale was born.

I’m fascinated with legends and myths that seem to transcend cultural groups and specific places. Almost every culture has some sort of ancient flood story. There are also stories about creatures that came from the heavens and mixed with the people of Earth. These offspring became the demigods, the heroes of old, the Nephilim; they’ve been called many names. In most of these legends, these otherworldly creatures were destroyed in floods or other disasters. I wanted to tell one of these stories from the opposite viewpoint that you’re likely familiar with. I began to wonder what it would have been like for these creatures to experience an apocalyptic event. Would they also be blessed with the companionship of one of our four-legged friends?

“Keena’s Lament” is a piece of ancient backstory that gives a glimpse into one of the reasons Weston is such a strange place. In my latest book, Seventh Son of a Seventh Son, a character named Crowley has uncovered others of these ancient stories. He sets out to manipulate the power of this place for his own diabolical ends. But a man and his dog—different characters from the Watcher and Keena in this story—stand in his way.

If you’d like to learn more about me and my work, you can find my other books at hankgarner.com, as well as listen to the weekly podcast I host called the Author Stories Podcast.

Tomorrow Found

(a Wasteland Saga short story)

by Nick Cole

In the night she carried the runt away from the sleeping pack. It was the poor thing’s only hope. Its last chance. She’d given birth to a full litter in the remains of a bombed-out hospital where the pack had been hunting that winter. Five survived; one had two heads and didn’t. The others were starting to bully the tiniest. The runt. They’d bully it to death.

She knew.

It was the way of dogs.

But there was a memory in her. A memory of a different way deep down inside of her. She’d been a part of something she couldn’t articulate and could barely remember. Men. Women. People and dogs. Together. Living along the heat-blasted roads and in the blackened forests that would never grow again. Until they’d met other people. And then the people she’d lived with were no more. She’d escaped in the chaos of loud bangs and repeated metallic cackles.

Fire and screaming.

She’d escaped and in time she’d joined the pack. And they’d hunted the lone stragglers of men who seemed to be fewer and fewer in the days after the world was gone. The pack had even hunted bear and wolves and other dogs. And for a time she forgot the ways of men. The pats. The scraps tossed by firelight. The rubs for deeds done well. The darkness beyond the firelight around which the humans murmured or sometimes wept for what was lost, or softly sang old commercial jingles throughout the cold nights that were especially long in those times.

The firelight.

The pack had argued that gray, rainy, wet day before she’d taken the runt. There was a man making his way along the big road. But there was also a pack of wild pigs. Many, by sign and scent. Sucklings were easy pickings, and the pack had argued violently over which way to go. The Alpha, a big, iron-gray pit with demonic eyes, had been challenged. His challenger had been that night’s meal.

And she’d watched her own young bully the runt as the pack tore at what little the challenger provided. Imitating the big pit who had fathered them. That night, as the pack slept, she picked up the mewling runt by the neck and carried him out into the wind and the rain and darkness that smelled always of ash and death. She carried him across a desiccated plain thrashed by a howling, sand-filled wind that skirled like a nightmare’s scream. She carried him and ignored his feeble protests and his chubby-pawed battings. Sniffing the air, waiting, then moving on, she carried him.

And in time she caught the scent and smelled the smoke and remembered firelight. The smoke went with the firelight. Men gathered around firelight. Men, some men, were good to dogs and could make use of even a runt like she’d once been. Like the one she held between her teeth now, in the darkness.

Men could be good friends.

She found the stranger in the remains of a leaning gas station. The firelight glowed from within, and she crawled on her belly through the darkness until she could smell the lean rabbit the man had killed. She watched him motionlessly staring into the fire. She waited.

The pup whined.

She opened her jaw and released him to the dust. And slowly she began to nudge him forward. At first he didn’t want to go. He simply refused to budge, to leave her and her warmth. And then she nipped at him and he began to waddle forward and into the firelight. Crying for the loss of the only love ever known. Crying because the world was ending once more, again.

And when the man turned and saw the pup, he did not see her out there in the night, watching still. For a long while she watched from the darkness. Watched as the man stared at her mewling runt. Watched as the stranger mumbled to himself and then rose.

What he would do next she didn’t know, but she knew… she knew it had once been something she’d been a part of.

It was the only way. Her runt would never survive within the pack. And a mother is still a mother.

No matter what.

And always.

She watched from within the cold cloak of a howling night as the man bent, held out his weathered hand and waited for her pup. She watched as an ancient thing written into the language of all their DNA began again.

And it was a lost memory found to her.

And….

She knew the pup would live now.

* * *

He’d been alone for a long time.

Too long.

Too long since he’d crossed the wastes east of Saint Maggie’s home along the coast. His home. The only home he’d ever known. Too long since he’d steered clear of the craziness the mad wanderers he sometimes encountered called El Lay as he quested. Sent forth, like the others. Sent forth to find what was lost. Sent forth to find the past, if it still lived, breathed, existed.

Sent forth for some hope that the past might still provide.

He’d killed twelve men in his travels because he’d had to. The worn shotgun was down to three shells and who knew if they’d go when they were needed most in a clinch. He wore the gun on his back amidst the clutter of his patchwork armor and road-mended scraps as he crossed the Mojave and the Valley of Death.

In Vegas he’d found silence and nothing.

Nothing that remained of the past.

Nothing in the big rooms he’d searched.

Everything had been burned.

Not even a scrap that something might be written on.

Not even a page.

He’d walked down into the southwest and searched every corpse of a town for a specific building like he’d been taught to look for. Always the finding was the same. The remains of an old fire. Fires. The empty spaces along the crumbling shelves where the past had once waited. Waited to be had for the easy taking. Gone.

Gone.

Gone.

And gone again.

Years passed.

Men died.

He loved a blind woman once, but she wouldn’t leave her people and so he’d continued on in search of the past.

What had happened to them all? he wondered one black dusk when the map didn’t match the landscape and the night screamed again like a howling savage, angry at a world that had destroyed itself for no reason that made sense anymore.

What happened to them all?

Mac.

Teddy.

The others.

What happened to them all? Those who’d been sent forth. Orphans who’d been rescued on that last day.

And in the past two years, as he’d headed back west with no past in his ruck to bring back to the last home on the coast, he hadn’t spoken a word.

Who was there to speak to?

The blackened stubble of once-houses stretching off to the horizon like endless tombstones.

The mutie-blind pigs who hunted him beyond the valley that a big highway had once run through. Where he’d seen the bomb crater from five miles off atop the ridge that led down into it.

The bombs that destroyed the world on the day he was just a little boy on a bus.

He heard the distant sirens from that day again. In his mind. After all those years. The day he was just five and an orphan. The day Saint Maggie had rescued them all, all the orphans, in a stuck bus for “such a time as this,” as Miss Wanda had told the girl who was becoming Saint Maggie.

“How don’t you know, girl…” dying Miss Wanda had cried. “How don’t you know you weren’t meant for such a time as this?”

That was… thought the once-orphan man standing atop the ridge, looking down into the massive crater that the had-to-be-a-hundred-kiloton warhead, musta-been, had left in what had once been an interstate all those years ago….

Thirty years ago….

Thirty-five years….

Maybe even thirty-eight.

Which makes me….

He hadn’t said a word in the two years since the crater.

Who was there to speak to?

He’d crossed the Sonoran Desert and seen a village alongside another highway. They’d given him corn tortillas and offered him shelter, but he hadn’t stayed. He couldn’t speak. Couldn’t think of any words that would mean anything.

A man older than him watched him go and gave a little wave that was like a prayer.

He took the tortillas in a monsoon rain and kept moving on up the highway, smelling their mesquite wood smoke in the miles that followed.

You can only see so much.

That’s how it began.

The thought….

To end it all.

How much can you see? he’d asked himself.

And then he thought of….

All the bones. Bleaching in the desert, and the mud, and the hardened ash.

All the wrecks.

All the airplanes smashed across the landscape.

All the short, dark stubble where once a house, or thousands of them, had been.

All the twisted metal and melting rebar.

All the blasted roads and highways.

All the distant cities that looked like haunted, eyeless scarecrows and the signs that told people to stay away. Poison. Radiation. Plague.

And all the bones that had once been a someone.

Who was there to talk to?

You can only see so much.

And….

There is no past left to put in my falling-apart ruck and take back home.

And….

You can only see so much.

He found the gorge on the edge of a place that had once been a town. Found it at noon and stared into its wide emptiness for the better part of a day.

He imagined the fall.

The final step.

You can only see so much.

That night, back near the town, on its outskirts in an old, abandoned gas station, the wind howled and he stared into his fire and imagined the fall.

And remembered all the bones he’d seen.

You can only see so much.

The past was gone. There was none of it left to take back in his ruck. It had all burned up years ago.

He shifted his head downward in agreement with the thought.

The thought to end it all.

The gorge was wide and empty and it would take him. There was room. He would leave, and in time, just become more bones in a world filled with them.

And that was when he heard the tiny cry underneath the howl of the night. The soft whimper.

He turned and saw the pup.

Puppy, he thought and remembered something from a long time ago before the day the world burned up.

Puppy.

It waddled two steps forward and collapsed down on its stubby haunches.

The man turned and scanned the darkness.

No one, no animal, no thing was out there to be seen.

The puppy began to mewl. Its attempt to howl. To cry for everything and every injustice done. To resign itself to fate without a mother to guide or protect him.

Oh, he thought deep inside the silent well that was himself. Don’t give up, little guy.

And he stood and felt so old, and then again, young all at once. So old from all the years on the road, looking for the past. So young because of that something he could not remember from that same dimly remembered past. That lost word….

Puppy.

He knelt down.

He held out some scraps from the tasteless dinner he’d found no joy in.

And he felt the smile, the first smile in a long time, crack his burned lips as the stubby little puppy snorted and chewed and whined all at once.

The man scooped him up and held the dog against himself and away from the night and the darkness and the world that had died. He watched it throughout the night, waking and waking again to make sure the poor thing was still breathing as the temperatures dropped and the fire withered under the cruel blasts that raced like a lunatic out in the darkness.

In the morning, in the cold, orange light of the epic dust storm’s passing, in the silence that followed such, he spoke.

“I’ll call you Dog,” he barely croaked.

The puppy scratched at a flea behind his flappy ear.

“I’ll call you Dog.” Pause. He swallowed hard. “You can help me find the past now.”

The puppy tried to howl, surprised itself, and then looked around.

That morning they walked away from the town, away from the gorge, away from the fall, and continued on, in search of the past once more.

* * *

The dog grew and followed the man. Followed him into all the old ruins as they made their way west toward the setting sun each evening.

The dog who had once been a puppy wove in and out of the collapsed buildings and across the rubble as the man searched for the building he knew to look for, mumbling, “I am still faithful. I will never give up. I was… thank you for my helper. Thank you for my friend. I was just… too long by myself.”

When they, the buildings, weren’t found, and even when they were and they were empty save for the ash in the makeshift fire pits and the few bones they always found in such places, the man mumbled the words again, “Thank you, Lord, for giving me a helper to help me. Thank you for my friend.”

They shared the food they took from the land and the man would talk and throw sticks as they crossed the long stretches of a burning summer and a bone-deep winter until finally they came to the top of the mountain and saw the western ocean glittering far below.

When the man produced a small device, its clickety-clack noise-making made even the dog nervous.

“San Diego is like they always said it was. Annihilated because of the fleets and marines that were there,” mumbled the man. That spring they worked their way along the tops of lonely ridges, heading north along what was once called California on all the maps that had been burned for fuel and heating in the long winter that followed the end of the world.

“It seems like we’re going home, Dog. Giving up. But, there’s one last place to check and then….” He sighed as the wind beat at his clothes, making them flap and crack. “Then I don’t know where else to look.”

Dog thumped his tail against the chalk trail that barely existed anymore. Down below, along the coast well north of San Diego, spread the ruin of a massive urban sprawl that seemed ghostly and abandoned even from this high point.

“How can we have a future if we can give ’em no past,” muttered the man as he set to making their last camp in the coastal mountains.

All that spring and well through summer, they searched the ruin.

They found rusting cars.

Empty houses falling over on themselves.

Raven-haunted buildings.

Bones.

And the occasional salvager who shared a fire and told the man and dog that they were getting awfully close, dangerously close, too close to the El Lay and Mad King Arturo and the Dogeaters he made ally with.

Too close.

Too dangerously close.

On the wide stretch of cracked and broken highway, winding through the ruin of a sea of almost identical houses overgrown with weed and sage and vine, they came to the first totem of the Dogeaters.

Planted in the median, seven lanes of fading gray superhighway on each side. Clusters of housing collapsing along the hillsides above.

“Well…” whispered the man as Dog crept forward and barked at it.

Wide-jawed dog skulls, three of them, silently barked from the top of the rebar pole totem. Fresh guts and old skins dangled away from the sign’s crooked arms.

The man had known the new tribes of yesterday’s survivors to have done such things. To mark out their land with warnings like this. To keep others away. To keep what was within for themselves alone.

It was, in these hard times, the way things were.

But there was something about the dog skulls that was more. Something that said much more about the people who’d put them there.

“Best go wide here,” said the man above Dog’s growl. They moved off the freeway and down along some train tracks, working their way through the dried remains of a small swamp that had once gathered in the bottoms. Among the calcified mud and frozen rubbish of the past, they found another totem. And another further on. In time they were climbing up through dense eucalyptus groves that erupted up from the broken remains of ancient tract homes like the legs of giants, finding another nightmare dog-skull marker within sight of the last.

In the mosquito-buzzing heat within the shade of a massive, fallen eucalyptus giant that’d crushed three one-story houses all at once and long ago, the man dropped his pack and shed his patchwork armor for the day.

They were high up on a hill looking down into a bowl of residential ruin almost forty years gone. A planned community that had never planned for the end of the world.

“This was the last place, Dog,” he almost seemed to cry. “Further up the road and we get to El Lay, and everyone knows to stay clear of the madness that comes from there. Direct hit. Everyone knows that.”

Dog lay down next to him.

The man rubbed the velvet fuzz of the chocolate-brown sides of Dog.

“They find us in there and it won’t be good.” But what he really meant is that it wouldn’t be good for his friend.

“We’ll go back out into the desert, to the east, and skirt wide. After that, I don’t know where to look anymore. Maybe it’s all gone,” he said, staring out into the ruin and wondering about all those people that had lived there. What had they been like? Had they survived? Were they these Dogeaters?

He saw it.

Saw the type of building he was told to look for. Saw it far down there along the dim remains of an old road that wound along a hill above the dead swamp. Well within the borders of the Dogeaters.

All the years he’d been searching, he raged at himself that night, how many times had he found the exact same type of building. Just like he’d been taught to. And how many times had it been empty? Just fire pits and bones. Not a scrap of the past left in them.

“Every time,” he muttered within the vine-overgrown remains of an ancient family room that was scoured and brittle. An old, blackened family portrait still hung askew on one of the two walls that remained.

Every time.

They watched the fireplace and the fire within. In the night, an old owl hooted from the rafter of some nearby tract home, barely upright after forty years of hard sun and bitter winter.

* * *

He did not sleep that night. Late, when the moon was fat and low in the sky, he awoke and stood looking down into the valley once more.

Could he return and tell them he’d done his best? Searched everywhere to find the past? Could he?

He remembered her, Maggie. They’d called her Saint Maggie. But he had known her as just Maggie. He remembered the heavy smell of too-sweet flowers on her when she’d first scooped him up as the Doomsday horn rang out over the city and everyone fled. As fighter jets streaked across the sky and cars smashed into one another.

He remembered her running and saying, “I’m doing my best.”

Like it was a chant.

Like it was an explanation.

Like it was a prayer.

In the morning the man donned his armor and checked the last three shells. He loaded two and kept one in his jacket pocket.

“I gotta,” he told Dog. “I gotta do my best. I gotta go down there… and see.”

Dog had just returned from chasing something in the groves of the sweet-smelling giants that had collapsed across the old places.

“If we don’t find the past then they, back home, they ain’t got no future, buddy.” He hoisted his old ruck on his back once more. The old ruck that contained the transmitter he could use if ever he found the past. The times he’d shouldered its burden were uncountable. How many more times would he do it again?

And he could not help but think that today might be his last. Just as he’d thought every day.

They crossed crumbling terraces and followed overgrown streets down into the bowl of the old places. At noon, near an old intersection where large buildings had all burned down, he heard the bark in the silence. It came from an overgrown hill they were passing beneath. The man’s hand went to the worn stock of his shotgun as Dog tensed. The bark had been so harsh and sharp and sudden, it was as though it had come from nearby. And even now in the silence, its echo seemed to resonate down the long lanes of destruction.

A moment later it was answered. Not far off. A few streets over maybe.

And then another.

And another.

“C’mon, let’s move, buddy,” said the man, breaking into a trot.

The slope of the land was now leading downhill into a large section of smashed and broken houses. Their splintered roofs and jagged beams thrust upward like shadows against the dying afternoon. Behind them, a ragged chorus of harsh barking sharply broke the still air.

The man urged Dog on, his own breath coming in heaving puffs as his old boots knocked against the crumbling pavement of the sidewalk they ran along.

“In there,” he shouted, pointing toward the catastrophic wreckage that seemed the worst they’d seen in this place. As though all the houses had been crushed instead of burned or blown away. Dog followed a rabbit trail into the mess, and the man, just before getting to his knees to crawl in, turned and saw them coming.

Dogs. Big, mean, lean, wide-jawed dogs that raced forward, straining at big leather leashes held by rangy men painted in mud stripes beneath the Mohawks on their shaven heads. They waved jagged clubs and came on, ululating in sudden glee.

The man knew he’d been seen.

He turned and scrambled into the labyrinth, following Dog through ancient spider webs and past jagged split lumber and jutting metal.

The rabbit trail went on and on and the man wasn’t convinced it was a warren so much as a series of narrow spaces between the extensive rubble.

What if we find a bobcat in here, he thought, and remembered the one that had stared him down once from the top of a road alongside some train tracks he’d been following. The thing had radiated menace and, yes, evil.

But what was there left to do but follow Dog? And so he did and when he got lost, there would be Dog, snouting his way back through the dark and leading him on further into the maze.

The sounds of the men and dogs faded, and when they came out of the chaos of debris, it was full moonlight and early night. They sat in an ancient drainage ditch, drinking the last of their water. On the hillsides all around, lone torches bumped up and down, and at times packs of wild dogs began to bay.

They followed the old drainage ditch down into the dead swamp that was calcified mud and piles of dust and debris. The man led them along, looking for the landmarks he’d spotted from the hills. The landmarks that lay next to the building he’d been searching for, for what seemed all his life.

The count of all his days.

He stumbled on an exposed root and face planted into the dust. He was exhausted. He got to his knees and knew it was a just a matter of time before the Dogeaters found them.

A matter of time.

Dog was back, licking his face. Reminding him to step away from the edge. To step back from the gorge.

Because that’s where you were, weren’t you? he asked himself. At the gorge again.

He stood, his mind swimming, wondering if he’d banged his head in the stumble. He checked the shotgun and reminded himself that the three shells could not be counted on. Dog paced back and forth, whining slightly.

The man stared up and about. Nothing in the night was familiar, and the moon had already crossed over into the other part of the sky. Soon it would be blackest night, and what would they be able to find then? His mind was suddenly terror-struck.

Stop, he told himself.

But nothing looked familiar and how long had he lain in the dust?

How long?

Dog whined again and started off through the thin, dead, swamp trees.

Follow him, the man told himself. Your friend knows where to go for safety.

He stumbled after Dog, occasionally stopping for a few ragged breaths, trying to make as little noise as possible, cringing when some dead stick snapped in the darkness. He followed Dog through the night along the remains of a sandy-bottomed stream, and then up out of the stream and across a carpet of dead, ash-gray leaves.

The man reached out without thinking and grabbed the rusty iron railing that ran alongside the dusty stone steps leading up and out of the swamp.

It was the touch of night-cold iron that made him realize he was holding onto it. Holding onto something that could lead him out of the dead swamp. He clung to it for a moment and knew… knew there wasn’t much left in him.

He reached up to wipe cold sweat from his forehead and found the dried blood.

Oh… he thought.

Dog whined from the top of the stairs.

Slowly, the man began to haul himself up their steep length, pushing away thoughts of sleep and the edge of the gorge that was big enough to take him.

I can’t leave my friend here now, he thought and smiled up at Dog who beat the air wildly with his tail.

This is all my fault.

At the top of the stairs, the man saw a small empty parking lot ringed by an ancient mesh fence, and beyond lay the building he’d been looking for.

He went to one knee. Dog came up and licked his face.

“Of course,” said the man. “You’ve been searching all these years with me. You were looking too. All that time.”

In the distance, another pack of dogs began to bay and howl, like savage coyotes whooped and called in the night. The man knew the Mohawk’d Dogeaters had them by the thick straps of their large leather leashes, following the scent that would bring them straight here.

Dog bounded off across the parking lot and up the steps of the building.

The man stood and followed, knowing this would be the last search. Knowing what he would find. He climbed the wide steps, knowing that beyond the double doors of this place he’d find nothing. Again.

Nothing but….

Crumbling shelves.

Ashes in a fire pit.

Bones.

And nothing.

The double door was bricked over with cinderblocks. The man looked about. So were all the windows that usually ringed such places.

It wasn’t a large building, and they walked its circumference, finding each and every entrance sealed.

In the distance the Dogeaters were closing. Now they were down along the bottom of the dead swamp, casting about for his trail, baying and shouting bloody murder.

Dog began to growl and whine all at once.

“I know…” said the man, and couldn’t think of what he knew except that they were surrounded and out of options.

He looked up at the roof and thought, That’s all we have left.

Dropping to the ground and removing the pack, he fished for an old orange electrical cord he’d found long ago. For a moment he began to swoon as the blackness tried to consume his vision. Tried to consume him. The howling of the Dogeaters became distant and hollow all at once.

And then he was back.

Quickly he made a harness for Dog and tied the other end around his ruck.

“Stay,” he told Dog as he shouldered his pack once more. “Stay.”

He pulled himself up onto a low concrete wall and then reached out for the side of the building. He breathed deep and began to find handholds that would take him up toward the lip, knowing there would be a moment when he would need strength to pull himself off the ground and onto the roof.

That moment came. It came and he was holding onto the lip of the one-story building, knowing that to fall was to break something he could not afford to pay for. A leg. A hip. An arm. Anything would be a death sentence. Anything was beyond his ability to pay.

The baying of the Dogeaters along the sandy bottom of the dried-up stream reminded him that he was already under another death sentence.

“What does one more matter,” he chuckled deliriously and began to pull. He pulled and knew his strength would not be enough. Maybe if he dropped the pack. But the cord was attached to the pack. To drop the pack was to leave his friend.

“That,” he grunted, as an icy sweat broke out along the fiery iron coursing through his shoulders, “will not happen.”

But as much as he tried to pull—and he knew his strength was fading and there was not more than the smallest bit of it left—he could not gain the lip of the roof.

Some massive dog sent up a howl in the night.

Down near the steps, thought the man.

Its companions began to moan. He could hear the low, harsh grunts of the men who held the thick leather leashes. The Dogeaters.

He thought of the gorge that would take him. Of the fall into it.

It was big enough.

“Please…” he grunted. “For my friend who found me when I was lost and ready to give up.”

He almost screamed as he tried once more and instead exhaled a gusty, “please.”

And he was over the lip, feeling the ancient grit of the roof on his palms. He lay there panting, knowing that he’d pulled some muscle that could never be made right again. He struggled out of his pack and grasped the cord.

He looked down at his friend.

His friend who had found him in the night.

Dog barked.

And the man began to haul his friend up onto the roof.

They lay there for hours, silent as the Dogeaters followed the trail and called and called again into the last of the night. In time, in the early hours, they’d gone off on some new scent.

The man and the dog waited.

Knowing maybe one of the Dogeaters had remained in the shadows to watch and wait.

Dawn came and when the man was sure no one had remained—or if they had, they’d gone off—he got to his feet. The day would be beautiful. Golden light filtered down through the ancient eucalyptus giants that seemed to be everywhere.

In the center of the roof was an old hatch.

“Let’s go down inside, Dog. Even if there’s nothing left, it’s safe for us.”

He broke the old lock with his crowbar and peered down into the darkness.

There was a smell.

Like one he’d never smelled before.

Not death.

Not ash.

Not decay.

Not bones.

He’d smelled those all his days.

Sweet and almost heavy.

And his heart began to beat as he remembered the day she’d held one under his nose.

“I love their smell,” she’d told him one winter’s night, late, when he could not sleep in the refugee camp and there was no food, but she’d found something else to pass the long hours of the night.

“These are our past,” she’d said to the little boy he once was.

Saint Maggie.

The girl who was becoming her.

He carried Dog down into the dark. At the bottom of the stairs he lowered his pack and pulled out his tin of matches. He struck one.

He could hear Dog panting in the darkness.

They were standing in a small hallway. The floor was smooth. Linoleum. Clean except for the dust.

And that sweet heavy smell was almost overpowering down here.

Like it was a dream. Or dreams. Or all the dreams one could imagine. Dreams in sleep that seem so real, they must be. That the world inside the dream is the world and there’s no memory of the one where the sleeper waits for morning.

So real.

At the end of the small hallway was a gray door.

They walked forward, and the man pushed open the door and saw the tremble in his own hand as he heard a soft hiss.

And beyond its portal lay the past in great stacks and along the shelves. Every book in the world, thought the man who had no idea how big the world had once been. How many books had once been dreamed.

But to him, by the thin light of the guttering match, it was all the books in the world. Perfect. Preserved. And waiting.

All the past tomorrow would ever need.

He began to cry, and the match burned out in his hand with a small hiss that echoed in the silence of the place.

“We found it,” he repeated over and over while murmuring, “Thank you, thank you,” through his tears as he fell to the floor.

* * *

That night on the roof, with Dog by his side, he tuned the old radio he’d carried in his pack after the ancient solar charger had done its work. First star in the west was always the signal for the time to call. The time when they’d be listening.

He tuned in the station like he’d been taught.

How many years ago…?

Crackle. Hiss. A sudden Pop.

“We found one,” he croaked into the ether and felt Dog’s tail thump the hollow roof above all those waiting books. All that past that might be used again. Saved by some unknown someone who knew man and dog would finally come and find it. And that the world might need the past again one day.

“We found a library.”

They’ll wonder who I mean by we, he thought, and laughed as he patted Dog.

He keyed the worn mic again.

“My friend and me,” he paused. “We found the past.”

A Word from Nick Cole

Nick and Harry.

My first published novel is a book called The Old Man and the Wasteland. It’s part Hemingway, part Cormac McCarthy’s The Road, a suspenseful odyssey into the dark heart of the post-apocalyptic American Southwest. Here’s the description:

“Forty years after the destruction of civilization, human beings are reduced to salvaging the ruins of a broken world. One survivor’s most prized possession is Hemingway’s classic The Old Man and the Sea. With the words of the novel echoing across the wasteland, a living victim of the Nuclear Holocaust journeys into the unknown to break a curse. What follows is an incredible tale of grit and endurance. A lone traveler must survive the desert wilderness and mankind gone savage to discover the truth of Hemingway’s classic tale of man versus nature.” I wrote three books in this series, and they’re collected in The Wasteland Saga. This short story is set in the same world, and if you look closely, you’ll find some characters mentioned that recur in the Saga.

I really loved engaging with this story because I enjoy telling stories inside the post-apocalyptic wasteland. The Man and Dog story is a classic, and especially so in the post-apocalyptic genre; images from Fallout the video game and The Road Warrior came to mind. I wanted Dog not just to be a companion, but a friend. A friend to someone who needed one very badly. I think we’ve all had those moments.

If you’d like to check some of my other post-apocalyptic writing, go to NickColeBooks.com and pick up some of my other novels. I’ve even got a free one over there for you called Apocalypse Weird: The Red King. And I’ve just recently released a new novel The End of the World As We Knew It. It’s basically The Notebook meets The Walking Dead. Hope to hear from you and please say “Hi!” if you get a chance. Also, join my newsletter; I sometimes give away advanced reader copies of my latest works. Thank you so much for reading this story, and I hope you enjoyed it.

Pet Shop

(an After the Cure short story)

by Deirdre Gould

She didn’t know how long it had been since the little man who owned the store had shut off the lights and gone home. That was the last time they’d been properly fed. A few days ago? A week? Surly Shirley the parrot wasn’t certain.

They were in the deepest corner of the large mall with no window to the outside world. Surly’s experience of time had depended on shopping hours for over a decade. But the bird seed was almost gone. When she licked frantically at the small metal ball in her water bottle, not a drop rewarded her. She could hear the kittens crying in their box and the puppies scrabbling against the sides of theirs. The other birds had been silent for a long while. The animals around her were starving.

Even Princess, the pot-bellied pig, looked skinny. Humans had always coddled Princess. The pig, like Surly, had been at the shop for years because she was the owner’s favorite, and he couldn’t bear to sell her.

That was not why Surly had stayed in the shop so long. Princess was polite, well groomed, a pleasing, blushing pink. Surly Shirley was bedraggled at the best of times, her gray feathers always uneven, her yellow eyes cold and beady. Nobody talked to her. Nobody liked her. No one played with her or challenged her. Surly Shirley was bored. And boredom made her mean.

Even the owner had forgotten her original name, and Surly upheld her moniker with all the nastiness she could muster. She didn’t miss the humans at all, at first. But the dwindling bird seed and empty water bottle made her rock on her perch, nervous.

She’d figured out the latch on her cage years ago, much to the shop owner’s dismay. Surly let herself out and tried to check on the others. She landed on the cockatoo cage, carefully pecking open a bag of seed that lay on top, and letting it rain down on the sleeping birds. They squawked but began moving. There wasn’t much Surly could do about the water. They’d have to find a way out.

She knew she wouldn’t be able to save the others alone. As much as she loathed the pig, Surly knew she needed Princess’s help. So she flew down to the shop floor.

“Princess is a pretty piggy,” she squawked and clicked her claws on the cat carrier. Princess grunted. She knew when she was being made fun of.

“Pretty pig,” insisted Surly, “pretty Princess.”

The pig stared at her in the dim light. Surly tapped her beak on the box. The kittens began to meow softly.

The pig groaned as she got up from her pillow. She trotted over to the thin plastic cat carrier and sniffed it.

“Pretty pig,” squawked Surly again. Princess squealed at the box and then flopped against it, squishing it toward the wall. The kittens yowled, but the box’s flimsy top popped off as the container slowly flattened and they jumped out. Surly worked at tearing open a paper bag of cat food with her beak while Princess repeated the process with the larger puppy box.

“Princess is a pretty pig,” squawked Surly and flew back to her cage, closing herself in again, to think. She’d done what she could. Now she had to plan. The owner wasn’t coming back, that was clear. They had to go. Had to find fresh water. Light. Fruit.

Surly remembered fruit. It was rare that she’d ever gotten any. She’d usually had to steal it. The owner used to drink tea with a wedge of lemon in the morning. Surly had dreams about lemons, and the owner had caught her once making one of them come true.

“That’s why you’re such a sourpuss,” he’d scowled, but he sometimes gave her the wedges after that anyway.

She missed lemons. Maybe if they left the shop, she’d find some more. Surly Shirley ruffled up her feathers and shut her eyes to think as Princess turned over the large plastic container of dog treats and the puppies barked for joy.

It didn’t take long for the food to run out, except for some cans that the puppies chewed on but never got into, and a few sacks of birdseed that Surly pecked halfheartedly at. The kittens alone seemed satiated, eating the rodents that multiplied constantly. Surly Shirley had her own battles with the mice and rats over the bags of birdseed in the shop. And the lack of water remained. What little the animals could scrounge—from bottles left by the shop owner and the toilet the puppies dug their way into—was almost gone. Surly knew they couldn’t stay much longer. The problem was finding an open exit.

* * *

Surly was sitting on the shop’s cash register, staring out the window at the thick dark doors that led to the parking lot when the humans returned. The shrieks of someone enraged bounced down the hallway and echoed around her. Then she heard the boots.

“Welcome to Paws and Claws,” she said and whistled as she flew back to her cage. Princess looked up at her. The shrieks mixed with the deep shouts of several men, and the puppies ran to the door and began wagging their bony tails. A large group of people filled the hallway and tromped past. Surly squinted and pulled the cage door closed. The kittens stalked around their empty food bowls, meowing loudly.

“Hello, Paws and Claws,” she warned them again, and then immediately puffed her feathers and narrowed her eyes to small slits, pretending to sleep. A few of the men peeled off from the group and pushed on the pet shop door. It was locked. Two of the men picked up a heavy bench from the hallway and heaved it through the plate glass display window with a crash that scattered the loose animals. An arm reached gingerly around the jagged shards left in the frame to unlock the front door.

The bells bounced against the door as it opened. “Gah!” came a voice. The sharp yips of the dogs overwhelmed it. Surly opened one eye all the way, suspicious. The human was reeling back, its arm shielding the bottom of its face. “Something’s died in here,” he called back to his fellows. “Forget it.”

Surly appreciated the sentiment so much that she lifted herself up and added another dropping for emphasis. That’d convince them to leave, she thought. Her dislike made her temporarily forget the dire situation she was in.

“We need those tools, Walt. We have to at least look.”

The first human took a reluctant step into the store, kicking aside the tattered remains of a treat box. “This place is a wreck. It’s just a pet shop. What are we going to find here besides dead goldfish and dog crap?”

“Dental pliers,” replied the second man, pushing him forward. “And those claw trimmer things.”

A larger man drifted in behind them, holding up a bulky flashlight. He leaned down to pet one of the puppies. “Always hated this plan,” he grumbled. “They’re people. Can’t do this to people.”

“Really, Joe?” asked the second man, snorting and then spitting on the floor. “Next apocalypse you can decide what to do. Wasn’t my fault that bitch flaked out on the bounty. We had to do something with all those Infected, couldn’t let them run rampant the way they were.”

“I guess,” said Joe, “but what about that cure the trader told us about? Maybe we should check it out. Then we won’t have to—to declaw them and rip their teeth out.”

“That cure is a myth, Joe. Think about all those people hanging onto Infected they know. Like moms who can’t accept their kid is a zombie. The people who thought up this cure story are just trying to get people to willingly turn over their Infected. Pretend they’re going to get better and they can get some dangerous zombies off the street without a fight. But it’s a waste, killing all those Infected. They could make good workers. You don’t want to have to kill all those people do you, Joe?”

“No, Gray, course not. But it seems cruel to pull their teeth out—”

“I know, I know it does. But we got to keep our clients safe. If the Infected can’t bite or scratch, then if they get loose, they won’t hurt anybody, right? We’re just taking precautions.”

“Maybe we should just go ask about the Cure. I could do it. I could find out without anyone knowing about the herd—”

“Look, Joe, we don’t know anything about those people. Maybe they’re mad men. Maybe they rob and kill anyone that gets close. Maybe they have some kind of zombie army. I’ve kept us going this long. We both know I’m the leader and you’re the labor. Let’s just stick with what’s working. We just have to deliver the herd and we’re going to be set for life. Trust me. Now let’s find those tools and let the others know we’re ready to start the processing.”

Joe nodded hesitantly and placed the flashlight on the counter. The men began looking around and pushing empty shelving units to the sides of the store. Surly Shirley wasn’t going to stand for her home being invaded. She decided that was her chance. She slammed against the unlatched cage door, launching herself into the air.

“Paws, Claws, Paws, Claws,” she screeched to the others, exultant in her flight. She was a gray, sleek bullet aimed above Joe’s shoulder, a parrot superhero, leading the charge.

Except the others didn’t follow. The puppies barked frantically and Princess just grunted, sniffing at Walt’s pockets hoping for a treat.

Joe squinted and held up his arms, not certain what was going on. Surly crashed into his chest, then pushed up with her claws and flapped away. She flew around the store, trying to get another angle. She swooped low over his head, raking his hair as she passed, then landed back in her cage, which swung with the impact of her anger. She watched the men from her rocking perch, expecting them to leave in the wake of her furious territorial claim.

“What was that?” asked Walt, pushing Princess away.

“Bird,” said Gray. “Maybe we can have a chicken dinner tonight.”

“Or bacon,” said Walt brightly.

Joe shook his head. “Thought we were just looking for tools.”

“C’mon, Joe,” said Walt, “we haven’t had a decent meal in days. It’s been slim pickings since we started meeting other people. You going to turn up your nose at the nice fat piece of pork right here?”

“But it’s—that’s someone’s pet,” he protested.

“Not anymore,” said Gray, “it’s just a pig. Probably wasn’t anyone’s pet anyway. Wouldn’t be here in the pet shop otherwise. These were probably all the rejects.” He nudged one of the dogs away with his foot. “They were destined for the pound Before, and we all know what would have happened to them there. At least this way, they’ll serve some purpose.”

Joe picked up one of the smaller puppies as it tried again to appeal to the other men. “You can’t mean the dogs too—”

“Why not? They’re no different from the pig. Bit gamier maybe.”

“But it’s—it’s a dog.”

Gray shook his head in disgust at Joe. “It’s better than starving. We need meat. Unless—you want to do what the Infected are doing?”

“I’d rather be Infected,” scowled Joe. “At least I know some people that’d deserve to be dinner.”

Walt shrugged. “So don’t eat ’em. Plenty of cans of cat food left over for you.”

Gray picked up the flashlight and swept its beam over the store. “Go on, Walt, check in the back. There’s probably some cleaning stuff back there. If we’re doing the dental work here, we gotta clean it up so our stock don’t get an infection.” He turned to Joe who was snuggling the puppy in the crook of his arm. “Never known you to turn down a pork chop,” he said, poking him in the stomach. “C’mon, Joe, it’s just a pig. Just like every other pig. It’s going to die in here anyway or get eaten by the Infected on the street. Right?”

Surly Shirley stared at Joe from her perch. His head drooped as he stroked the puppy’s fur. At last he nodded. “Yeah, Gray,” he said, “you’re right.”

Gray pulled the puppy from Joe’s arms and placed it gently on the floor. “So that’s how we’re going to look at them all. They’re livestock, Joe, for as long as we’re here. We’ll keep them fed and watered, we’ll give them a good, solid existence, and in return, they’ll keep us alive. No naming them. No playing with them. They’re just like cows and chickens. You wouldn’t snuggle a cow or sleep curled up with a chicken, would you?”

Joe shook his head. Gray smiled, satisfied. “Good, I’m glad we don’t have to fight about that. You know I don’t like fighting with you. These animals will probably go right back to their cages if we lure ’em with a little food. You got those fancy candles from that artsy-fartsy card shop down the way?”

Joe nodded and pulled his pack from his shoulder.

“Good. Set ’em up around, this place smells like death. I’ll get the tools. I want to get started. We got dozens to get through.”

Surly watched Joe set down the candles and struggle to ignite them with his dying lighter. He was harmless. She whipped her head to the side to look at Walt. Maybe he was a little more interested in eating than the other, but he was also careless and clumsy. Surly could easily dodge him if it came to that. He’d wear out before he caught her.

It was the other one that made her claws curl into her wooden perch. He was bad news. She watched Gray toss a single dog treat to the half-dozen starving puppies. He laughed as they began snarling and biting each other, desperate to reach the small bite of food. He’d never let them go, Surly knew. The best she could hope for was that he grew bored with the pet shop and abandoned them for richer pickings.

* * *

The men pushed the shelving units against the walls, making an empty square of the small store. Much of the broken window was blocked by the shelving units, but Surly thought she could still fit. She just had to wait for the right time. Her cage hung above them, but the cockatoo cage had been wedged in next to the fish tanks. Joe found more stock in the back room and emptied a large bag of dog food into the center. There was enough food that the puppies were all eating, their tails wagging furiously. Joe also put down a large bowl of water and was feeding the kittens when Walt started scolding him.

“Why you wasting food on them? We’re going to need that. We can use it for the herd.” He snatched the bag of food from Joe’s hands. The kittens transferred their meows from Joe to Walt.

“Can’t let them starve—” started Joe.

“But it’s okay if we do? Every bite of food you give them is one less for us and for the Infected. Hasn’t exactly been a bounty out there lately.”

Gray had been staring out the front window. He turned toward the other two. “Let him feed them. Feeding ’em fattens ’em up for us, right? We’ll just eat ’em, when it comes to it. Besides, we only have to make do for a couple of days. The labor market’s due to open next week.”

“Are there more—uh, more vendors?” asked Walt, handing Joe the bag of cat food.

“Nah,” said Gray, turning back to the window. “Not for Infected anyway. Everyone else is too chicken to round ’em up like we do.”

Joe dumped a little pile of food at his feet. The kittens rubbed against his legs and purred before attacking the dusty pellets. “Maybe that just means they treat the Infected like humans. Labor market, Gray? Why not just call it a slave auction and be honest about it?”

Gray turned around. “How many times do I have to explain this, Joe? If we leave ’em on the street, they die. We don’t have the means to keep feeding ’em for doing nothing. They got to pull their own weight. Have a purpose. Just like these dogs. You think they’re better off dead?” He paused for a moment and pulled out a knife. “If that’s what you think, go ahead. Go take care of the herd. Be done with it.”

“No, Gray, I just…” Joe stopped, quailing under Gray’s stare. “You’re right.”

“Cheer up, Joe. They’re going to be useful. They’ll pull plows and carts, they’ll intimidate enemies, they’ll provide a way to work off tension without anyone getting hurt. They’re going to be valuable and they’ll be comfortable as long as they stay useful. It’s not a bad life. Now, planning all this? That’s hard work. Making me hungry,” he grinned, never taking his gaze away from Joe. “Walt, help me wrangle that pig.”

Walt looked around the dim room. “Sooey!” he laughed. Joe looked uneasy.

“Help us catch it, Joe,” said Gray, staring harder at him. “If you help us catch it, I won’t make you kill it yourself.”

Surly fluttered and rocked on her perch as Joe sighed and looked around him. She and Princess had never been friends, but she didn’t want to see a slaughter either. “Pretty Princess!” she screeched, trying to warn the pig. “Pretty Princess, pretty pig! Nuh-night! Nuh-night!” She rocked on the perch, swinging the entire cage, trying to think of other warning words the shop owner had used on occasion.

“Joe!” shouted Gray over Surly Shirley’s raucous shrieks. “Shut that bird up, it’s driving me crazy.” He picked up a dog toy and flung it at the cage. It went wide.

“Nuh-night, Princess!” Surly cried.

Joe abandoned his search for the pig and climbed onto a step stool, catching the swinging cage and holding it still between his hands. Surly beat her wings toward him, but he didn’t let go. “It’s okay, Princess,” said Joe, thinking the parrot was shrieking its own name.

Surly stopped and stared at him. How could he mistake her for the pig?

“That’s a pretty Princess,” said Joe, foolishly sticking a thick finger into the cage to stroke her feathers. Surly bit it. Hard. Joe hissed as she held on tight, but he didn’t yell. “It’s okay, Princess, I know you’re scared. We’ll get out of here soon.”

Surly hadn’t expected that. She let go of the salty finger. “Surly Shirley,” she cooed. “Surly Shirley.”

“I don’t know who Shirley is, but I don’t think she’s coming back,” said Joe, sucking his finger briefly, then fumbling in his pocket for a moment. He pulled out a wrinkled plastic bag.

“Surly Shirley wants a cracker. Princess is a pretty pig,” she responded, curious to see if he’d get it.

“Oh, you’re Shirley—”

“Joe,” yelled Gray, “stop talking to that chicken and help us. This pig is heavy.”

“Here you go, Shirley,” he said softly and pulled out a dried apple slice from the bag. He poked it through the cage bars and then looked around. The pig wriggled between Gray and Walt, who were standing in front of the back door. Joe stepped down from the ladder to let them into the back of the store.

“Nuh-night, Princess,” chirped Surly quietly. The large flashlight the men had brought with them bounced its beam off the silent aquariums, flashing green beams over the shop. Princess began squealing her fear, and the dogs barked, excited, though they didn’t know why.

Surly puffed her feathers up and turned around on the perch. She didn’t want to see Princess get murdered through the aquarium glass. She worked at the cage latch as the pig’s distress reached a crescendo. Princess had bought her a chance to escape. Surly wasn’t going to lose it.

She looked around the shop, distracting herself with memories. It was the only home she’d ever known. What was out there, beyond the long, tiled hallway? More birds like her? More men like Gray? When the store owner hadn’t returned, she’d thought the humans were all gone. Were they just waiting to catch her out there instead? Where could she go? Maybe there was another pet shop somewhere. She’d never know if she didn’t find a way out. She glided from the cage over the top of a shelf, just barely clearing the broken window.

The mall was dark and silent except for the large clothing store that capped the end. It glowed with lanterns, and a rippling moan seemed to travel forever through it. That’s where the other humans were. Surly didn’t want to go there, so she flapped toward the other end, her wings stiff but warming to the unaccustomed exercise. Sterile glass and stone were all that she found. A long barren tunnel of window and floor. No water, no trees, no fruit.

She was still inside the mall. But there had to be a way out. The humans had to have come from somewhere. Then she rounded a corner and saw it. Sunlight and trees waving in a breeze. She could almost feel the wind.

Surly swooped low and fast before anything could stop her, before anyone could catch her and force her back into her cage. She smacked into the glass door with a dull thud and toppled onto the floor. Dazed, she simply sat for a while and stared at the green leaves of the tree just outside. When her head cleared, Surly hopped around looking for a break or a breath of fresh air.

Nothing.

At last she turned and flew back to the pet shop. Where else was there to go? It was the only home she’d ever had.

But Surly knew the men wouldn’t be satisfied with Princess for very long. She might well be on the menu tomorrow. She couldn’t give up. She had to find her way out of the mall. Whatever was waiting for her outside, at least she’d meet it head on, instead of waiting around to be eaten like the pig.

The squealing had stopped by the time she slipped back into her cage. The puppies had settled down, though they occasionally scratched at the back door of the shop and whined. She knew what it meant. Surly wouldn’t be competing with Princess for fruit anymore. She poked with her beak at the sliver of apple that Joe had given her. She picked it up, holding it carefully in one claw, and pushed open the cage door with her head. Princess’s pink plastic food bowl glimmered in the half-light, cleaned to a shine days before. Surly swooped over it, dropping the soft, sweet apple slice into it. The sound of one of the men retching startled her and she fluttered back to her perch.

“Useless…” came Gray’s voice from behind the fish tanks. “Go build a fire to cook it.”

“A fire? Out of what?”

“Find something! I swear Joe Mackey, I should’ve left you in that pool hall for the Infected to kill.”

“Sorry, Gray, I’ll find something.”

Joe emerged from the back and shut the door. He knelt down for just a moment to stroke the puppies jumping at his legs, then stood up. He found the pet care books and began tossing them into a pile in the center of the linoleum floor. Surly watched him smash one of the wooden shelving units into small pieces with an ax.

The parakeets and cockatoos fluttered and chirped and whistled in protest at the noise, but Surly was silent. She was resolved not to miss any opportunity, and she sat grim and unmoving as she watched Joe and the shop door. He lit the large pile of wood and paper, and the flames startled Surly. A billowy plume of smoke rose to envelop her cage and she couldn’t see. She wheezed in the thick cloud. “Bad bird!” she protested, because it had been what the owner yelled at her whenever he wanted her to stop what she was doing. “Bad bird!”

A few seconds later, Joe emerged from the cloud of smoke, pressing his face to the bars. “Sorry Shirley,” he said, unhooking her cage. He swung it down onto the shop’s counter. “Wasn’t thinking about the smoke.” She was only a few feet from the door now, but it was still blocked and closed. Joe bent down to look at her.

“Bad bird!” she spat once more, glaring at him.

“Sorry,” he said, reaching a finger in to stroke her feathers. She bit him again, but only lightly and let go so she could accept his petting her. “I won’t do it again.” He pulled out the plastic bag again and offered her another apple slice.

“Lemon?” she asked.

“Apple,” he said, holding it out. She pretended not to notice. He looked around at the crackling fire as the linoleum bubbled and blackened at the edge. The puppies were cowering against his legs, and the kittens had jumped onto shelving units to get as far away from the flames as possible. “How are we going to keep you safe from the smoke? We can’t breathe it either.”

“Hello, Paws and Claws,” said Surly, trying to suggest a door. She snatched the apple slice as payment. But Joe didn’t get it. Instead, he returned her to her cage and stood up to open the door to the back room. The puppies hurtled past him as much attracted by the smell of Princess as driven by fear of the fire.

“Joe, get these dogs out of here, they’re trying to grab the pork,” yelled Walt.

“Got to let the smoke out somewhere,” said Joe.

“Relax, Walt,” said Gray, “give ’em a hoof or an ear or something.”

A bright square of light stretched across the floor, and a blast of chilled air hit Surly. The back exit was open! She smashed herself into her cage’s door, forgetting that Joe had closed the latch. Shaking her head to clear it, she began lifting the catch carefully with her beak, just as Gray yelled at Joe to close the door.

“You’re going to attract someone’s attention!”

“There’s no one out there, Gray,” Joe protested. “Look for yourself. It’s all clear. You’re way too jumpy. We should just drop the herd off at that City and go. We’ll go south, live where it’s warm and the fishing is good. I heard it’s practically empty in Florida, got evacuated early. Lots of stuff just waiting for us. We don’t need the Infected. What do you say?”

Surly managed to undo the latch and pushed at the door with the top of her head. There was a shuffle as Gray moved to the open exit door. “We aren’t leaving until we trade the herd.”

“But why?” asked Joe. “We don’t need the traders’ stuff. We can all be comfortable—”

“Because I listened to one of your rumors before. Remember how that turned out? Sure didn’t have a problem chopping up the Infected then, did you, Joe? And all I had to show for that was a string of shriveled ears and a broken arm. Maybe Florida is paradise, like you heard. I’m willing to bet that story is as made up as the cure, but who knows? I just want some insurance first. Unless, of course, you want me to start thinking you set me up back home. That maybe you thought that dumb broad in the police station was going to take care of me and let you go your merry way with all my earnings. Is that what you want me to start thinking, Joe?”

Surly fluttered out of the cage to the floor. She didn’t want to risk being seen, and she didn’t want to be up near the ceiling in the thick smoke. She scuttled toward the back door, keeping one eye on the kittens, who were licking their chops. Their tails rippled and twitched.

“No, of course not,” started Joe.

“Then stop being a coward—”

Surly had made it to the entrance of the back room. Across from her stood Joe and Gray in the frame of the open exit door. Walt was hacking off bits of pork from Princess’s body, the puppies who hadn’t gotten Gray’s bribe watching him anxiously. Surly tried not to look.

Joe’s face turned red. “I’m not being a coward. I didn’t know the bounty thing was a bad rumor. I wouldn’t put you in that spot, Gray. But this is—this isn’t right. What if these people wake up? What if they get better and find out they got no teeth, that they’re slaves? It’s not like the people we sell them to are all going to treat them kindly. Some of them might get hurt. Some of them might get killed. Or—or used. They’re people.”

“They’re cattle. Dumb, useless beasts. Monsters even.”

Joe shook his head. “You’re more a monster than any of them have ever been. At least they kill to eat—”

Gray’s fist shot out and slammed into Joe’s face. He grabbed the ax from Joe’s belt and pulled it out. Gray held it up. “You better watch it, Joe,” he hissed as Joe cupped a hand around his nose. “That mouth is going to get you in trouble one of these days. You got anything else you want to say? Any other precious pieces of kumbaya shit you want to spread around?”

Joe shook his head, blood leaking from under his hand and splatting to the floor in front of Surly. She hopped nervously.

“Then shut the fucking door before a rival group or the Infected see us. You can open the transom instead, that’ll suck out the smoke without leaving us open to attack.”

Joe reached out to shut the door and Surly’s heart sank. The dangerous man was winning at every turn. She watched Walt climb up to the small window in the back room and crank it open. Even she wouldn’t fit through that, not without falling to the ground outside and injuring herself.

Gray carefully slid the ax back into Joe’s belt. “Joe,” he said quietly, “you know I’m your friend. Let me lead. Let me take care of you. You know you don’t have the brain power to survive this alone. I got your back. But if you ever talk back to me again, I’ll cut your fucking tongue out. You got it?”

Joe just nodded.

“Good,” said Gray, a little louder, “let’s get that bacon sizzling then, I’m starving!”

He turned toward the front of the shop and saw Surly. He scowled. “And get this damned chicken back in its cage. I don’t want birdshit on my dinner.” He aimed a kick at her, but Surly just fluttered out of the way.

Walt carried a big metal dog bowl of bloody meat past her without stopping. Joe sank down into the owner’s office chair and tried to stop his nosebleed with the tissues sitting there. Surly Shirley hopped over to the desk. She flew up to the top of it and landed in front of Joe, watching him. He reached out with his clean hand and stroked her feathers. She didn’t bite him this time. “Pretty bird,” she cooed, ducking her head under his fingers.

“Yes, you’re a pretty bird,” he said softly, his words muffled under his hand.

Surly hopped up onto his shoulder, walking herself sideways to his ear. “Pretty bird, Pretty, pretty. Joe,” she said, trying out the new word. “Pretty Joe.”

Joe laughed. “Not anymore. Gonna have a crook in my face now.” She wasn’t sure what his face had to do with it. She tried to praise him again.

“Pretty Joe,” she repeated and fluttered down to the floor. “Lemon?” she asked, trying again.

“Sorry, fresh out of lemons. I think the only place with lemons is a greenhouse near home.”

Ah well, she thought, apples are acceptable. She tapped her beak on the exit door. “Pretty Joe, Surly Shirley. Nuh-night.”

He wrinkled his brow. “You practicing your words?” he asked.

“Nuh-night, Paws and Claws.” She tapped the door again, trying to make him understand.

“You want to go to sleep?” He reached out a hand for her.

“Pretty Joe, Surly Shirley, Nuh-night Paws and Claws.” She squawked, getting desperate. She flew past the open window and then back. How could she get him to see that they needed to leave?

“Soup’s on, Joe,” yelled Gray. “Come get it before these damn dogs do. And stop talking to that chicken.”

Joe stood up. He grabbed another fistful of tissues from the box and mashed them against his nose. “C’mon, Shirley, time to get back in your cage now. You don’t want me to get into trouble again, do you?”

“Pretty Joe,” Shirley cooed and flew, disappointed, back into her cage.

* * *

The smoke from the small fire filled the shop, floating through the broken display window and transom. It made Surly and the other animals sleepy, but the smell of cooking pork soon attracted a small but raucous group of humans. They joked with each other as they stood in line for a share of the cooked pig. Walt chewed on a bone before tossing it to the drooling puppies, who battled for it.

There’s loyalty for you, thought Surly with a pang of regret for Princess. The pig didn’t last long. The men at the end of the line frowned at their portions. One of them tossed a plate in disgust onto the counter next to Surly’s cage. “I’m sick of these scanty rations, Gray,” he grumbled. “You promised us decent wages.”

“And you’ll have them,” said Gray without bothering to look up from his plate. “We’re almost at the payout. A few more nights’ work and we’ll all be able to retire. If the pork doesn’t satisfy, toss that chicken next to you into the pot.” He jerked his thumb toward Surly’s cage. The man who complained bent down to look at her. She squawked as he reached a hand toward the latch. She wasn’t going to go willingly.

“No, don’t do that!” cried Joe.

“Why not?” asked the man without pausing. The door squeaked opened. Surly beat her wings and opened her beak to bite.

“Because it’s a parrot. They’re really smart. It’d be like—like eating a person.”

“Bullshit, it’s just a bird.” The man’s thick hand hovered at the cage door.

“Look,” said Joe, handing over his own plate, “if you’re hungry take mine. Leave the bird alone.”

The man turned and looked at the small bit of meat on the plate. “Not the only one that’s hungry. Besides, I haven’t had chicken in months. And what do you care? It’s just going to die in its cage anyway.”

“I’ll trade you something,” said Joe, trying to close the cage.

The man laughed. “You don’t have anything left, Joe. You lost the last of your tobacco in the poker game, and you traded Ben those batteries so he’d let that sweet little piece go two towns back. You got nothing.”

Joe hesitated. “You can have the last bottle of tequila.”

The man whistled low and long. Surly hopped on her perch, not certain whether to be relieved or not at the sound.

“Your last bottle, Joe? You could buy a woman with that. Or a doctor. Why do you want this bird so bad?”

Joe shrugged.

“It’s empty isn’t it? You’re trying to trick me out of a meal.” The man plunged his hand back into the cage and clutched Surly roughly. She stabbed him with her beak, and he swore but held on.

“No, no!” said Joe, “It’s brand new, full, I’ll get it, just—just put the bird back.”

Joe pushed his way out of the crowded shop as the man released Surly and pulled his hand back to suck the skin she’d bitten. Joe came back with a silver bottle that gleamed in the firelight. The man smiled and handed Joe the cage. “Don’t know why you care about a stupid seagull, but it’s good doing business with you.” He grabbed Joe’s plate. “Taking this too.” Joe let the plate go, waving him off and lifting the cage to his face. He opened the door and gently smoothed Surly’s rumpled feathers.

“Sorry, Shirley. You okay, pretty bird?”

“Pretty bird. Pretty Joe,” she clucked beneath his soothing strokes. He unwrapped the last of his dried apple slices and held it on his palm. She carefully picked it up. The crowd of men was leaving as Walt threw a box of cloth cat toys onto the fire. Another silver bowl of water boiled in the coals, and Gray threw in some metal tools.

“We going to do it in here?” asked Walt.

“Back room,” said Gray. “On the vet table. We’ll restrain ’em with the leashes. You wash the table off. Make sure you bleach it or sterilizing the tools will be pointless. We got to keep em from getting sick.” Gray laughed. “Sicker, I mean. Joe, go get the Infected.”

Surly glanced at the back door. It might open again if they were doing something back there. Then again, she had a better chance for sympathy with Joe. If only she could make him understand. She decided to stick with him. After the other two went to prepare the table, she flew up to his shoulder. He still had little crusts of blood under his nose, and his cheeks were swollen and dark under the eyes. He shook his head as she cocked hers sideways to look at him.

“No, Shirley, you don’t want to see this. You stay here.” He held out a finger for her to climb on, but she refused. He wiggled his shoulder. She flapped but clung on.

“All right,” he said, “but I don’t have anything for you, that was the last apple.”

He opened the front door and its tiny bells jingled. They turned down the hallway and into the large clothing store. The racks had been shoved to the side, and dozens of humans stood in the empty center, each bound with rope except for their feet. Thick pieces of cloth blocked their mouths, but they still made the continuous moan that had warned Surly earlier. They shuffled to and fro but never moved far or looked at anything for very long. Not even each other.

Something was wrong with them, but Surly didn’t have a lot of experience with human behavior, seeing only customers of the store for a few moments at a time. Joe grabbed the closest one by the lead rope binding her hands. Surly noticed the woman was muddy and scratched, something she was sure humans found uncomfortable. At least, the ones she knew would.

Joe led the woman grimly back to the pet shop, Surly still attached to his shoulder. The bells rang again and the woman jerked and snapped her head around, as if she were looking for the sound. The puppies began to whine immediately. They knew something was wrong with the woman. Surly fluttered down to the floor as Joe led the woman into the back room.

Surly didn’t want Gray to see her and force her back into the cage. She inched around toward the exit door, ready to dart out. Where was she going to go? She wasn’t sure, but it had to be better than the dark pet shop. The men were struggling with the bound woman, lifting her onto the table and tying her down. She snapped her head from side to side and kicked, but the ropes held her tight.

Gray took off the thick mouthpiece and fished a steaming pair of silver pliers from the dog bowl. “Walt, hold her down. Make sure she doesn’t get loose. Joe, you got to keep her mouth open for me.”

Joe looked down at the woman on the table. Surly saw the flash of a tear falling from his face.

“Joe, pay attention! I’m trusting you to keep her mouth open so she doesn’t bite me. You understand?”

Joe nodded and put one hand on the woman’s forehead and the other on her bottom jaw, forcing open her mouth. “Shouldn’t we—isn’t there something for the pain?” he asked.

“Did I have painkillers when that bitch broke my arm? No. There aren’t any more. Besides, look at her mouth. Most of her teeth are rotten. It’ll probably be a relief when they’re gone.”

The woman screamed as Gray pulled on the first tooth. Surly hopped around, nervous. She found a tall box of dog pillows and shuffled behind it, out of sight.

“Damn,” swore Gray, “it broke.” The woman continued her screaming. It went on and on, the puppies barking and growling, the woman shrieking and choking on the blood. Joe winced with every tooth. At last, Gray stuffed the cloth mouthpiece back. “Get her hands,” he said to Walt. Walt uncurled the woman’s bloody fist and forced it flat onto the table, holding it there. Gray began casually cutting the long, jagged nails on the woman’s hands. “That took longer than I expected,” he grumbled, “but with practice I’ll get faster. Next patient, nurse!” He elbowed Joe cheerfully.

“I can’t do this,” said Joe, his face a pale, sweaty moon. “I can’t take two dozen more of those.”

Gray glared at him, but then softened his gaze. “Ah, you’re just tired. Don’t blame you, it’s been a long day. Tell you what, we’ll get some of the other guys to do a few while we sleep. Wake up refreshed and ready to tackle more.” He slapped Joe on the back. Joe didn’t respond. Walt untied the woman and led her out, blood already soaking through her cloth mouthpiece. Gray strode out after him.

“Can’t let them do this,” mumbled Joe to himself.

Surly hopped out from behind the box. “Bad bird,” she scolded. Joe knelt down to pick her up.

“I know,” he said. “I was really bad. This is worse than everything else we’ve done. I can’t let them do it again. But they’ll be at it all night. What can I do?”

Surly tapped the door with her beak. “Nuh-night,” she chirped helpfully.

“If only I could bring the Cure here. I know Gray would do the right thing if he were just certain it was real…”

“Bad bird!” squawked Surly. Nothing that Gray did was right. Even she could see that. Joe opened the back door. The way was clear. A soft night breeze blew fresh air over Surly. She hopped toward the door.

“They’ll know I’m gone,” said Joe to himself. “They’ll know what I’ve done and come after me.”

There was movement in the hall outside the shop. The next procedure was about to start.

“Have to try,” said Joe grimly. He looked down at Surly with a smile. “Stall ’em for me, will you?” He laughed. “Must be crazy, plotting with a bird.”

Surly hopped to the entrance and looked out. The flat parking lot spread out farther than she’d imagined anything could. The air was clean and sweet in contrast to the fetid stench of the shop. She even thought she caught the scent of ripe berries. No cages. No humans poking things at her or grabbing or scolding.

“Well,” he said to her, “in or out. I have to go, and fast!”

Surly looked up at him. With nothing to delay the bad man, he’d catch Joe for sure. He’d hurt Joe. Joe who didn’t yell when she bit him. Who took her away from the roiling smoke. Who saved her. The bells on the shop’s front door jangled. The men were back with another Infected. “Nuh-night, Joe,” she cooed softly, then flapped away, back into the store. Joe slid out the door and gently closed it without a sound.

It was up to her to stop them, to buy Joe some time.

She flew around the back room in a loop. The men had been very careful to clean everything before they started. They’d put the tools in water and scrubbed down the table. Maybe if she soiled it, they’d have to stop and clean it again.

Surly landed on the table, her claws clicking on its hard surface. She let a few droppings splatter behind her onto the table and tried to grab the tools. But they were heavy. She nudged the bowl, trying to tip it before the men came in. She could hear Gray talking to them in the front and knew she didn’t have much time. She flew up and hurtled back down toward the bowl, her momentum nudging it off the small stool and dumping the tools onto the floor with a clattering splash.

She surveyed her work. Not enough. They’d have it cleaned in seconds. A cup of bloody teeth and filthy nail shavings sat on the counter next to the table. Surly found it light enough to pick up with her claws. She dumped it and the teeth skittered across the table, leaving bloody trails behind them.

The men were coming. The table was as dirty as she could make it. She glided over the heads of the men to the top of one of the shelves. Surly heard them swearing as they saw the table. She tucked her head under her wing, confident she’d distracted them enough.

* * *

After a few moments of swearing, the men had started the fire again, trying to boil enough water to sterilize the table and tools again. Surly had fallen asleep waiting for Joe, sure she’d delayed the men for long enough. When she woke to the screams of an Infected, she knew they’d returned to their grisly dental work. She tried to come up with another plan to stop them, even though she thought it pointless. Humans didn’t learn. They were so stubborn. But Joe thought it was important, so she fluttered down to the floor and the safety of deep shadows.

A new Infected was strapped down to the table. Gray was back, yanking teeth with a satisfied grin. The man on the table writhed and screamed, choking on the blood that spilled from his gums. Surly didn’t know what good it would do to try to stop Gray. He’d just go get another.

She didn’t even know why she cared. She didn’t like when things suffered, but it was how the world worked. Big ate little. Fast beat slow. Strong took weak’s food and mates and home.

But Joe cared. He wanted to change how it worked. And Surly Shirley was realizing she cared about Joe. So Gray had to stop because Joe wanted him to stop. The world had to change.

She hopped under the metal table, unseen by the men. She stood near Gray’s legs, looking for a vulnerable spot. Then she sank her beak into the meaty part of one leg. There was a clatter above her as he dropped the pliers and bent down, his hand swatting blindly. She waited until she saw his face, then pecked as hard as she could before hopping out of reach.

She’d missed his eye. Surly darted in again, grim and silent. She bit his ear and hung on for a second. Gray roared and Surly let go, intending to flutter away for another pass, but she was too late. One of the other men grabbed her right out of the air. She tried to claw his arm, but he just squeezed. It hurt and she went limp, hoping it would make him relent.

“Give me that fucking chicken,” growled Gray. The man handed her over, and Gray flung her against the wall near the trash can. She hit and tumbled, seeing stars. Surly struggled to get upright but couldn’t stand. She lay on the floor next to the can, stunned and in pain.

Gray turned back to the Infected. Surly knew she was powerless to stop him now. The screams resumed. Surly lay on the cold linoleum and listened to them for hours. She thought hearing that constant shrieking would push all the words she knew right out of her brain. All that’d be left would be the unending sound of human screaming.

* * *

At last the door opened and the cool, clean air ruffled through Surly’s feathers. She saw Joe’s boots, and then another pair. Bloody and sweating, Gray turned around from his gruesome work.

“Who the hell is this, Joe?” he asked, brandishing the pliers, a bloody tooth still clasped in them.

“I wanted to show you. I knew if you heard it for yourself, you’d help me get the Cure to the herd.”

Gray motioned for the other men to take the Infected out. “You’re from the City?” he asked the stranger.

The other pair of boots shuffled. “Yes, I’m one of the soldiers defending it. We have plenty of room. We can take you all. We just have to go a few miles and we’ll reach the nearest Cure camp—”

“There’s no such thing,” snapped Gray.

“Oh, but there is. I know it seems impossible, but the Cure works. I’ve seen it myself. It takes a few days, but they wake up perfectly sane.”

“See?” said Joe. “And the City has food and electricity, Gray. We could go back to normal there. All of us. No more fighting, no more starving, no more running from guys with more guns. We can be there tonight.”

Gray seemed to consider it as he moved closer to the two men. He dropped the pliers on the table and wiped his hands on his pants, leaving dark brown bloodstains. Surly wanted to call a warning, but she couldn’t. She didn’t know if she was paralyzed from the fall earlier or from fear. Gray was bad. All bad. Deep-down bad. He didn’t want to quit, he wanted to keep hurting forever. It was like a foul odor that came off Gray in waves. How did Joe not see it? Surly tried again to say anything, make any sound. But she couldn’t.

“Oh, Joe,” said Gray when he was standing a few inches from him, “what did you do?” His hand flashed out and he grabbed the soldier by the throat.

“No! Stop!” cried Joe, trying to pull Gray’s hand away. But he was too late. Gray flipped his knife out with his free hand and plunged it into the soldier’s neck. He released the dying man, and the soldier choked to death on his own blood as he slumped to the floor.

“I told you never to question me again, Joe. I told you what I’d do. Now you made me kill an innocent guy, ’cause you couldn’t keep your mouth shut. All you had to do was keep it zipped for two more days. Two days, Joe.”

“But he had the Cure. We can save them all—”

Gray grabbed Joe’s shirt and shook him. “When are you going to get it through your thick skull? I don’t want to save them. Nobody wants to save them. They just don’t want to have to fight ’em anymore. I’m making them useful. Obedient. Safe. Fuckable. Profitable, Joe. I’m turning lemons into lemonade. But you had to interfere. Now this guy’s friends are going to come looking for him. I’m going to have to push up the timeline. We’re going to have to move faster and get out of here tonight. Roll up your sleeves and find a pair of pliers and let’s go.”

“No,” said Joe. “I’m not helping you do this.”

Gray twisted the knife and let it shimmer in the pale light of the camp lantern.

“You want to hurt me for not helping, Gray, you go ahead and try. I think it best we part ways instead. I never joined you for this.”

Gray sneered. “You didn’t join me, Joe. I saved you. You were blind drunk in that bar because you were so scared. Just waiting to die. Just waiting to be eaten alive. I found you. I saved you. You owe me.”

“I don’t owe you this. I’m not going with you, Gray. I’ve gone along with too much. You said we were going to protect people. You said we were going to keep families safe from the Infected. And I believed you. I thought we were going to be like superheroes, fighting the zombies together and making the neighborhood normal again. I never wanted to be a slave trader or a murderer. Or a—or a pervert. I’m done. I’m going to the City. If you want to come with me, then I’ll take you. If you just want to hurt people, then I’m done.”

He took a step toward the fallen soldier, and Gray sprang after him, whistling loudly for his men. Joe turned and his arm slammed like a piston into the center of Gray’s chest. Even as he fell backward with a gasp, Gray slashed wildly at Joe, but he was too far away.

“Don’t make me hurt you, Gray,” Joe growled. But the sadist wasn’t listening. His blood was up. Gray recovered his feet and lunged again, making contact this time. The two men fell to the hard floor, and the entire shop seemed to shake. Surly tried to twitch her wings, her claws, anything to move. To help Joe.

Gray was quick and straddled Joe as they both struggled for the knife. His men were finally responding to the whistle and joined the fight, helping their boss to pin Joe down.

“I told you what would happen if you talked back, Joe. I warned you.” Gray punched Joe’s broken nose and the injured man groaned, unable to shield his face.

Surly finally managed to move one wing. She tried harder, flexing her claws.

“Joe’s betrayed us. He’d rather save those monsters than help his friends,” said Gray, getting up. As Joe moaned on the floor, clutching his face, Gray aimed a savage kick at Joe’s stomach. The other men joined in.

Surly managed to roll onto her stomach and pushed up with her feet. She was upright but dizzy. Her heart raced, and she was panting again. She had to rest for just a second.

“After everything we’ve done, Joe. We shared our food with you. Kept you from being devoured by the Infected. Gave you purpose. Let you tag along even though you were slower than the others. And you betray us?”

There were too many men now to fit around Joe, and they had to take turns beating him. Surly wondered who was watching the Infected. She gently flapped her wings, testing them. No way. She wouldn’t be able to do it in time.

“That’s enough, boys. I want to make sure he remembers this lesson. Get him onto the table.” Gray picked up the pliers. He leaned over Joe. “You know what’s coming,” he growled. Joe twisted and whipped for a few seconds, until the others restrained him, smashing him hard onto the table. “Open your mouth,” ordered Gray.

Surly flapped again. Her wings were finally starting to work. She hopped a little. Everything ached and she had a whistle deep in her chest, but there was no more time to recover. Not if she wanted to help Joe.

“I need more light,” shouted Gray and one of the men ran to the door beside Surly and opened it so the morning sun streamed in, spotlighting Joe as he writhed on the table. The man propped open the door so he could return to aid Gray, who told another man to hold Joe’s nose closed. That forced Joe to open his mouth.

Surly saw her chance. No one was watching. She could go. She could fly away and never see this place again. She could find the warm sun and ripening berries and clean air. She didn’t need to help Joe. She didn’t even need to think about him or Gray or the screaming Infected ever again.

What had humans ever done for her? She didn’t like them, she reminded herself, and they’d always hated her. Ten years in the pet shop and never adopted. Why did she need a human now? No one had ever been kind to her. Not the owner, not the attendants or customers, not even the other animals.

But that wasn’t quite true, was it? Joe had been kind to her. He’d stroked her feathers and cared for her. He’d kept the other man from eating her, like they’d eaten Princess.

Joe screamed behind her, and Gray laughed wickedly. He had Joe’s tongue pulled too far past his lips with the pliers. Surly at last gathered her strength and burst upward with an echoing shriek, one she’d heard over and over from the Infected the night before.

Gray’s men whirled around, panicking and releasing their hold on Joe. Gray barked orders and they scattered to find the Infected that were on the loose. But Gray wouldn’t be moved from his task. His knife slithered through the thick sponge of Joe’s tongue, slicing half of it off.

Joe’s gagging screams filled the shop as Gray turned to face the bird. Surly dove like a hawk, attacking the arm holding the knife, tearing the skin of his hand with her claws, still screaming like the Infected, echoing Gray’s deeds back at him. She took off again and landed on the back of his neck, slamming her wings into his head.

Joe turned to his side on the table, coughing on a mouthful of blood. Surly stabbed at Gray’s ears and cheeks with her beak, trying to work her way around to his eyes while avoiding the man’s hands clutching for her as she attacked the back of his neck. He was shouting for his men to return, to help him. Surly didn’t let up, screaming the Infected’s shriek and battering Gray as he backed further into the pet shop.

Attracted by the shouts and no longer herded back into the large clothing store, the Infected had sprinted to the pet shop. Gray’s men struggled to control them. For weeks the Infected had been bound and walked to the point of exhaustion, fed only enough to keep them on their feet. Gray’s men had become lazy and neglectful, lulled by the seeming ease of controlling them. But the Infected were well rested by their pause at the mall and the screams from the pet shop had excited them. Some had torn their hands free of the ropes that bound them and clawed at their captors or pulled the mouthpieces from their own faces. One had gnashed through his mouthpiece while his hands were still bound. He roared, tattered streamers of cloth drooping and fluttering around his neck like an old shroud as he closed his ragged teeth on a captor’s shoulder.

Gray’s men were surrounded, and they brandished knives and axes as if it would deter or delay anything. The bitten man howled and bashed at his attacker. Another Infected growled deep in her throat and leaped onto the bitten man’s back, clawing at his throat. Disoriented by the parrot’s frenzied attack, Gray stumbled right into the middle, pushing past a few of the Infected without even realizing it. The cluster of Infected closed in, roaring and grabbing at Gray and his men.

Surly swooped away, wary of the snapping jaws as the Infected began to feed. She heard Joe tumble from the table behind her and turned in a tight loop. For the slightest second, she could see him lying on the floor near the open back door. The sun highlighted his bruised, swollen face. A pool of blood spread under his cheek as it dripped steadily from his mouth.

Then someone’s hand shot out of the tangle of teeth and claws and skin. It grabbed her, hard. She was spun around now, feathers bending between Gray’s clumsy fingers. The fury on his face scared her more than his iron grip did.

“Fucking chicken…” he hissed, wrapping his other hand around her and squeezing harder. Surly Shirley shrieked. A parrot scream, her true voice, crying out in pain as she felt her left wing bones snap.

One of the Infected bit down on Gray’s leg and with a roar he let Surly go. She hurtled through the air, slamming hard to the floor and sliding into the back room. She lay there for a few long moments, the chaotic fight behind her fading beneath the pain electrifying her body. Short reports of gunfire followed by shouts brought her back to reality. She realized Gray’s men were shooting their Infected, trying to save themselves.

The melee died down as Gray regained control and the men left to restrain and herd the remaining Infected and fix their own wounds. Surly struggled to stand up, wobbling and dragging her broken wing. The whistle in her chest was louder now. She tottered up to Joe’s face. His eyes were closed.

“Pretty Joe,” she chirped, hopping sideways in front of him. “Pretty Joe, Surly Shirley. Nuh-night. Nuh-night Paws and Claws. Come again.”

Joe didn’t move.

“Pretty Joe. Nuh-night.” She tried to beat her wings, tried to make a light breeze over his face. Pain arced through her again as her left wing only thudded weakly. So Surly bit his finger gently and pulled at it. He opened one eye a crack. It was too swollen to open further. Joe reached out and stroked her feathers for a moment. “Ahh-ee—” he started and then groaned as he realized he could no longer speak. He coughed on more blood oozing from his severed tongue.

“Pretty Joe, Surly Shirley, nuh-night,” she said. He picked up his head an inch or two and saw that she was hurt. He reached out with one hand and gently scooped her toward him. She squawked but let him pull her into his chest. He tucked her gently into his shirt, careful not to touch her limp wing. He got up on all fours and began crawling. Walt appeared behind him.

Surly saw him over Joe’s shoulder. “Bad bird!” she screeched. “Bad bird!” Joe turned over to see who was there.

“Shut up, you damn chicken,” muttered Walt. Joe put a big hand around her protectively and Walt shook his head, then bent over Joe. “Why’d you do that? So stupid, Joe. Why couldn’t you just keep your head down and follow orders for another two days? Why bring the soldier into it? What does the herd matter anyway? They’re just Infected. Nobody wants them. You think anyone’s going to want them even if they’re cured? Nobody wants a monster in their neighborhood. You were always thick, though. C’mon, I’ll help you get to the wagon.”

Joe shook his head.

“I have to, you’ll die if I leave you here. Just be quiet and we’ll be back home by tomorrow night. Gray’s crazy. I’m not being paid enough to get eaten by some zombie. I’m going home. I’ll drop you at that doctor lady’s place. Just don’t let Gray hear you.”

He pulled Joe up onto his feet, and they stumbled out the back door to an old pickup truck, Joe’s hand cushioning Surly as they walked. The cab had been sawn off and there was a scrawny horse yoked to it. Walt dropped the tailgate and dumped Joe onto it. “Just stay quiet. I’ll be back after the trade in a few hours.”

Joe lay down in the truck bed. Surly Shirley stayed still, letting the deep strobe of his heartbeat soothe her. He pulled a handkerchief from his pocket and shook it out, then stuffed it into his mouth with a sob. Something had crinkled when he retrieved the handkerchief, and Joe managed a weak smile. Reaching back into his pocket, he pulled out a small package of oyster crackers and opened them. Joe placed a tiny cracker next to Surly’s beak before he realized she was already sleeping, her body in shock. So he put the crackers away. The pain in Joe’s own body kept him awake for a long time through the rocky ride in the wagon. After several hours, the wagon finally stopped sometime in the night.

“Get out, Joe,” said Walt over his shoulder. When Joe didn’t comply, Walt turned to find that he’d finally fallen unconscious, the parrot a trembling gray bundle of warmth on his chest. Walt sighed and got down. He lifted Joe off the wagon and put him onto the grass in front of a huge glass dome, then got back on the wagon, twitching the reins so the horse cantered on.

Joe awoke with a groan as a light rain began to fall, chilling him. A woman with a light came out of the glass building. She pointed it at Joe, carefully circling him. When she was sure he wasn’t going to attack her, she leaned over him and patted his face.

“Are you Infected?” she asked as he opened his eyes.

He shook his head.

“What’s your name? Where did you come from? Who did this to you?” she asked in quick succession.

“Oo oo,” was all he said and put a hand to his mouth.

“It’s okay,” said the woman. “We’ll help you, there’s a doctor inside.” She lifted him up slowly and helped him walk into the building. He kept a hand cupped around Surly’s still form. She hadn’t woken up.

“Ruth!” called the woman. “Ruth, I need help!”

She helped Joe sit down on a warm cement bench. He looked around him. The greenhouse was shaggy, unkempt. Half the plants were brown and shriveled. But something was blooming. He could see startling bursts of color amid the dull, dead vines and leaves. The woman brought another with her. Ruth, he presumed. She was carrying a small basket of lemons, which she set beside him. He thought Surly would like them. Would like this place.

“What happened to you?” she asked.

His eyes filled and he shook his head. He never wanted to talk about it. Never again wanted to be the man who’d run with the likes of Gray and the others.

She patted his hand gently. “It’s okay, you’re safe now.” She glanced over him. “I’m just not sure where to start. What hurts the worst?”

Joe cupped both hands around Surly. He held her out for Ruth to see. Ruth glanced at the other woman and then back at Joe. “I’m so sorry,” she said. “I’m not a vet. I don’t know what to do for a bird.”

Joe nodded and then burst into tears.

“Let’s get you back to the clinic so I can help you,” said Ruth, carefully taking Surly from him. She set the bird gently down by the basket. “Juliana, will you help me?” The other woman helped her lift Joe from the bench and they walked him carefully outside.

Surly woke to the sweet, thick scent of lemons warming in a bright pool of summer sun.

A Word from Deirdre Gould

Deirdre and Franco.

I’m not certain if there are pet shops in shopping malls these days. I haven’t seen one in years, but they used to be in both of the large malls in Maine when I was growing up. In both cases they were tucked away in a corner furthest from any natural light. When I was a kid, they were like some fantasy land of cheerful people and adorable furry things I was never allowed to take home. (My family adopted strictly shelter animals, and still does.) But my dad is a high school biology teacher, so we went to the mall pet shop fairly often for meal worms and mice to feed the snakes in his classroom.

The mice used to come in these small, white cardboard boxes with air holes. They were shaped roughly like a happy meal box. The similarity was not lost on me. There aren’t many animals more vulnerable than pet store denizens. Especially exotic ones, like Surly Shirley in the story. Without international shipping of food and medicine, most exotic pets would die pretty quickly. And while instinct can take an animal a long way, for an exotic pet far from its natural habitat and peers—a pet that was born in captivity—the odds of survival are pretty slim. I wanted my underparrot to win. I wanted a very vulnerable character to not only be able to survive the immediate chaos of an apocalyptic event but to become heroic in some way.

But even superparrots need sidekicks. Surly Shirley starts out as a bird I wouldn’t like. She’s mean, she’s jaded, and she’d rather bite than make friends. She’s someone I probably wouldn’t want around. Just like Joe, who starts this story as maybe a coward and definitely a thug. He goes with the flow, even around bad people like Gray, because it’s easier to do so. He’s willing to hurt people, just like Surly.

But when the chips are down, both realize they won’t be able to live with themselves if they don’t try to do the right thing. Without each other, they’d never have transformed into the heroic characters they become. So, what happens to them both? Does Joe recover? That I can answer since it’s already written in Krisis, the third book in my After the Cure series. He does recover, mostly, until he meets Gray again and must decide whether to save himself or the women in the greenhouse that rescued him. And Surly Shirley? Does Joe ever see her again? There aren’t many vets in the post-apocalypse. I hope she wakes up to a warm greenhouse and all the citrus she can eat, but she’ll probably never fly again. But that’s okay. Not every superhero flies. And sometimes they can be cranky and prone to bite.

If you’d like to read more about Joe, pick up Krisis. And if you’d like to read more about Surly Shirley, tell me so! Connect with me on Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/Afterthecurenovel.

Kael Takes Wing

(a Mayake Chronicles short story)

by E.E. Giorgi

They came every spring. Condors. They circled the sky and waited. Silently, stubbornly. They knew if they waited long enough, their reward would come; their hunger would be satisfied.

All they had to do was wait. Eagles hunted. Brown falcons hunted. Even humans hunted. But not the condors. They fed on death. And all other birds hated them for that.

Everyone but me.

To my young eyes, they were immense and majestic. They owned the sky. When the condors came, I poked my head from the nest and stared, fascinated. Their wingspan seemed as wide as the sky itself, their glide seamless, their flight as steady as the breeze. I was mesmerized. The feathers of their wingtips looked like fingers, spread out to embrace the currents of the air.

“Don’t look at them,” Mother would say, pushing me back inside the nest. Like everyone else, Mother hated the condors. She said the only reason they thrived was because of the Plague. The disease had wiped out most of the creatures on the planet. Humans, mammals, even fish. And yet the condors banqueted on the death and never got sick.

“Don’t look at them and don’t ever leave the nest,” Mother would say every time she left to hunt. “No chick has ever survived falling from its nest.”

* * *

I never met Father. It’d always been just the two of us, Mother and I, since the day I’d hatched. Mother must have been very self-conscious about this, because while all other falcons nested in trees, she’d built our home in a crevice among the cliffs overlooking the forest. She’d propped branches and twigs against the entrance to hide our nest from predators.

It was a gorgeous spot. The ledge around the crevice overlooked the river and the forest all the way to the waterfalls. When Mother came back from hunting at the crack of dawn, the sky was pink and crimson, and the water looked like a golden braid braced by trees.

The condors came after that, after the sun was already up. Mother would watch them warily from the ledge. The other falcon couples took turns guarding their nests, but being alone, Mother didn’t have that luxury. Maybe that’s why she never brought back a lot of food. Moths, crickets. Sometimes a small mouse. She regurgitated everything and watched over me while I ate. I never noticed she was getting thinner until much later, when I thought back on those mornings together. All feathers and no meat, as we birds say. That was Mother.

I should’ve known then. I should’ve known there was going to be a dawn when Mother wouldn’t return. The sun rose. The jays screeched. The condors circled in the sky, their black silhouettes racing over the profile of the mountains.

Clouds rolled. Humans came fishing, their loud calls echoing against the cliffs. By then I was hungry… really hungry. A lizard basked in the sun nearby and then slinked away. My stomach gurgled as I watched it go.

I raised my eyes and looked at the condors. I longed to fly with them, to soar on conquered winds. I stretched my wings and noticed how pathetic they looked. By now, the other fledglings in the tree nests had grown feathers and shed their down. I, instead, only had a hint of vaned feathers. The rest of my body was still covered in gray, stringy down. How I wished I had the beautiful, flawless wings the condors had, their fingered feathers so elegantly scraping the sky.

As I waited on Mother to return, that day seemed never ending. Sunset came at last, followed by twilight. My nest grew cold. Stars dappled the sky. A sliver of moon came out from behind the clouds, and in its milky light, the branches that Mother had placed to hide us drew long shadows across the crevice where our nest rested.

When I awoke the next morning, Mother had still not returned. I felt lonely.

Lonely and hungry.

I believe what kept me alive in that time, waiting for Mother to come home, were the condors—those same condors that were likely waiting for my death. And yet, every time I watched them soar high in the sky, I felt alive again, despite my growing hunger. I knew I belonged up there, that one day I too would conquer the skies.

At last, more than the drive to be with them, hunger made me force my fears aside. I needed to find food. I climbed out of the nest, squeezed through the branches, and crawled onto the ledge.

Oh, the excitement! It flowed through me as the wind from the ridge rustled my down. This is what it feels like, I remember thinking, the rush of the cool air under my wings. What it feels like to fly!

I stretched my wings. Fluffs of down fluttered in the air, reminding me how pathetic I was. Pathetic, weak, and hungry. I looked over to the right and spotted the lizard again, lounging in the morning sun. The sight made my stomach rumble.

Lizards are slow in the morning, I thought, steadying myself on the ledge. Easy pickings.

So I scooched closer. Slowly. And closer still. And just before I leaned forward to snag it, a full-grown falcon fledgling swooped down and snatched the lizard from under my beak, knocking me off my feet and over the ledge.

I’d imagined flying as the most rewarding experience of all. To stretch your wings and be free, weightless, liberated. And yet here I was, spinning in a free fall that seemed never to end, my useless wings a dead weight carrying me ever faster to the ground below.

I hit one tree branch, then another, and a third, until I reached the ground with a soft thud. The world around me turned black. As I passed out, I remembered what Mother had said.

No chick has ever survived falling from its nest.

For sure, my next encounter with the condors was going to be as dead flesh.

* * *

The first thing I saw when I opened my eyes was the boy. A human boy. I might as well have died. Condors ate humans, birds, and rodents alike, but only after they’d been killed by something else. Humans weren’t so considerate. They killed everything else in order to eat.

The boy wasn’t alone. There was a man with him. He took me from the boy’s hands and examined me. I cringed as he handled my broken wings and legs. I thought of Mother, wondered if she ever made it back to the nest.

And then I thought of the condors. My dream of one day flying with them was crushed. My beak hung open and silent.

The boy and the man argued, but I couldn’t understand a single word they said. They put me in a bag. The pain was overwhelming. I closed my eyes and passed out.

* * *

I woke up in a warm place. A fire was crackling nearby, and the scent of burning wood filled my palate. To my surprise, the pain was gone. I wiggled the tip of one wing, then the other. Still no pain.

Muffled sounds came from close by. Steps, voices, the clinking of metal. And more scents. Lots and lots of scents—like a new rainbow of smells entering my beak, olfactory hues I didn’t know at the time. I later learned to recognize them: fish stew, sweet potatoes, candle wax, soap.

The smells of humans.

I’d never inhaled so many scents before.

And yet here I was, snuggled in a wool blanket, alive despite myself, pain free, and with a sense of smell so strong it almost blinded me.

I lifted my head. The fire was burning a few feet away. The flames cast dancing shadows on the white walls. One of the humans was sitting on the floor a few feet away from me. No, it wasn’t the boy who’d rescued me. It was a girl.

A bit younger than the boy, she stared at me with large, wondering eyes. I startled and tried to hop away from her. I didn’t get too far, my talons skidding on the hard surface of a table.

I turned and saw the boy. “He’s going to learn how to fly,” he said.

I gasped. Suddenly, I realized, my sense of smell wasn’t the only thing that had improved. I could understand what they were saying! I was so shocked I slipped on the table and fell to the ground. The girl crawled across the floor and picked me up.

“Did you give him a name?” she asked, stroking my back.

The boy sat on the floor next to her and ruffled the down on my neck. “Kael,” he said. “I’m going to train him to be a hunter. Dad implanted a smelling chip in his brain. You’ll see.”

The girl tilted her head and made a sad face. “I don’t want him to be a hunter. I want him to be a friend.”

The boy scoffed. He took me from the girl’s hands, stood up, and placed me back on the table on top of the blanket I’d awakened in. “Leave him alone. He needs to rest. It’ll take a few weeks before his broken wings heal completely and the implanted chip is fully functional.”

I didn’t know what he meant. I realized I could understand the words but not the meaning behind them. The boy walked out of the room. I craned my head and looked over the edge of the table. The girl was still there, sitting on the floor. She looked up at me and our eyes met. There was something broken in her eyes, something we shared beyond our different genes, different species, different languages.

It took me a few days to figure it out. The girl couldn’t walk. Just like I couldn’t fly.

To be honest, these humans that had rescued me, they all had something weird about them. The mother was missing an arm and used a gadget with a hook in place of a hand to grab things. The father had chips and wires poking out of his ears.

The boy came and fed me in the middle of the night, when I was most alert. By then I’d been moved from the table to the kitchen window, where I spent most of my time both day and night. The boy would sit on the windowsill and look outside, and after a while I realized he could see in the dark, just like me. So that was his weirdness. His eyes were like my nose.

I tried to stay detached, but as time passed, I confess I grew accustomed to these moments with the boy. The house—not really a house, more like three or four rooms the family shared in a huge building full of humans—was silent at night. The windows were always open, and you could hear crickets chirping outside and water rushing in the river.

The boy always brought morsels of food when he came to see me. I still wonder at how strongly I could smell the meals he’d give me. The insects and rats Mother would bring to the nest never smelled so tasty. Human food instead made my stomach growl in anticipation. Now I’ve pretty much gotten used to it. My sense of smell is no longer just a part of me. It’s who I am.

The boy would talk to me and tell me how my wings were going to heal, how he was going to teach me to fly. He’d sweep a hand across the sky, point to the moon, and say, “Imagine when you’ll be out there, riding the winds.”

Yes, I looked forward to those moments when darkness fell and the boy would come to feed me. Which, of course, was a terrible thing. Me, a brown falcon still dreaming of flying with the condors one day—how could I afford to become friends with humans? The fact that they’d rescued me didn’t matter. I had to leave as soon as possible. I had to return to the nest, to prove Mother wrong. “Look, Mother,” I would tell her. “I fell from the nest and yet I survived.” And I had to find the condors again. Soar in the skies with them.

So I waited. Waited until my broken bones healed and my vaned feathers grew in. Waited until the boy would teach me how to fly so I could realize my dreams and return to where I belonged.

Except I wasn’t the same anymore. They’d changed me. The smells I could see as patterns on the wind, the fact that I could now understand them. I’d sit on the windowsill during the day and listen as they talked among themselves.

I soon learned why the boy could see in the dark. His eyes weren’t made of flesh and blood. They were made of chips and wires, just like the mother’s arm and the father’s ears. The girl I still hadn’t figured out.

From what I overheard, she used to be able to walk but got sick and spent many days in bed. When the fever had passed, she could no longer walk. The mother and father were very upset about this. But the girl—she didn’t seem to mind. She’d crawl across the floor to the window, where she’d sit and watch me.

“Tell me what you see,” she’d say. “Tell me what you see when you look out the window.”

I did tell her. But only in my head, because my beak could not create all the sounds humans make with their soft beaks—lips they call them. I’d tell her about the river, how I was born hearing it rush beyond the cliffs. I told her about the waterfalls, though I couldn’t see them from the window; but I used to see them from the crevice where Mother had built our nest, the sprays of water rising over the forest. And I told the girl about the condors, too—about how I loved to watch them soar high in the sky, the sun glinting off their black wings. I don’t know if the girl could hear my thoughts the way I could understand her words. But she’d sit there with me under the windowsill, and stare out the window as I relived all those memories.

I was no longer a chick by then. I’d become a fledgling, my body covered in white and brown feathers. Mother had done her best to feed me, but as a single parent she could never leave the nest for too long, so she rarely brought back much to eat. As much as I hated that the humans had implanted stuff in my head, I confess that I finally felt strong and healthy in a way I’d never felt before. When the breeze blew in from the north, I’d spread my wings and catch the wind in my feathers. The boy would come yelling, “He’s going to do it! Kael’s going to fly!”

But I never did.

Every time I stretched out my wings, the memory of my fall flashed before my eyes. Maybe that’s why no chick recovers from a fall. It’s the haunting memory of the ground spinning up toward you. It paralyzed me. I longed to leap from that window, to return to my nest. I didn’t belong with these humans. I belonged up there with the condors. And yet I couldn’t make that leap. No matter how many times the boy would tell me I could fly, I just couldn’t do it. The thought of falling again terrified me.

Oddly enough, the girl was experiencing the same thing. Her father would pick her up and make her stand, gently holding her against his side. He’d tell her how she’d walked for a long time before she got sick. How her legs had forgotten how to walk, but that if she tried hard, they would remember again.

The boy wasn’t as sweet. He would snarl that if she didn’t start walking again, they’d chop off her legs and force her to get fake ones. I’d seen humans like that, not in this family, but in other groups that lived in the same building. They had legs made of rods and wires. I took the boy to mean that his sister was going to be forced to get legs like that, too.

But no matter what they’d tell her, the girl couldn’t walk. Or wouldn’t. Just like I couldn’t fly.

Then one day they took us outside. And that’s when everything changed.

* * *

It was a nippy, fall morning. The leaves were changing colors, and stripes of gold mottled the sea of green sprawling beyond the river.

The boy hooded me. It was something new to me, and I didn’t like it. But then he pressed a button under my right wing and everything went dark. The boy could deactivate me just like that, with a flick of his fingers. They all had buttons like that, only humans carry them at the backs of their heads. The next thing I remember is waking up to the sound of rushing water.

The air was different. It smelled crisp, tinged with the scent of leaves and river moss. And then there was this strong odor, sweet and rotten at the same time. I could feel the ground moving beneath me.

The boy unhooded me. I swayed forward, then closed my talons around his gloved hand and regained my balance. He was holding me while sitting on the back of a horse, a beautiful creature I’d only seen from my perch on the windowsill. I’d observed these animals run along the river with the same elegance and power as the condors, only on the ground instead of in the sky. And now, for the first time, I took in their strong scent.

The father and girl were there too, mounted on a second horse. The girl was riding in front of the father, clasping his sleeves as he held the reins.

“Are you ready?” the boy asked, holding his gloved hand in the air and the reins in his other. When the father replied with a nod, the boy kicked the horse and prompted it to a fast gallop.

I squawked and tilted forward, my talons digging into his glove. The memories of my fall overwhelmed me. Wind whipped my feathers and fear pounded in my veins. The horse ran along the riverbank, the rhythmic beating of its hooves so like the hammering inside my chest. The boy held up his hand and told me to spread my wings. I obeyed. It was instinct.

“You can do it,” the boy yelled. “You can take off now!”

But I couldn’t. My wings were frozen, my talons clutching the leather of his glove. I was petrified.

The boy pulled up hard and stopped the horse. The second horse swept by us, and just as it ran by, the father let go of the reins, picked up the girl, and propped her up on his shoulders. The girl cried out, but it wasn’t a frightened scream. It was joyous! She was having fun! Then the father reined the horse around and came running back toward us.

“Now, Akaela,” the father yelled. “You’ve got to do it now!”

He clasped her hands and lifted the girl, her useless legs dangling behind his back. The horse ran faster at us, sprays of sand arching from under its thundering hooves. The father cried out again, and something popped out from the girl’s back.

All of her shirts had an opening at the back, a horizontal flap a couple of inches beneath her shoulder blades. Now I could see why. Rods came out of her back, extending and unfolding just like wings. A canopy stretched between them, and as it opened, it caught the wind and lifted the girl. The father held her hands, but her weight was no longer borne by his arms. The wind was carrying her along like an invisible hand holding her. The girl lifted her legs until they were no longer dangling, her body straight and parallel to the canopy now.

So she could move her legs.

The girl started laughing. Both the father and the boy cheered her on, shouting, “Fly, Akaela, fly!” When the father let go of her hands, the wind picked her up and she took off. She shifted her body, tilting the frame, and glided over the river, stretching out her arms and grinning from ear to ear.

She was so happy, it made my heart melt. She, too, now could fly. Like all brown falcons. Like the condors.

No, it wasn’t an elegant flight. It was clumsy and bumpy. Once more, the father reined the horse around and ran to fetch her before she dropped into the water. But it was her first flight. And my, did that make her happy.

I envied her.

I wondered how condors learned to fly. They too must’ve looked clumsy and totally out of their element when they first took off. And yet, those I’d seen from my nest were so graceful. I raised my eyes and there they were, their black silhouettes ever-present against the daytime sky.

“It’s your turn, Kael,” the boy said. I felt jittery with fear, giddy with anticipation. But if the girl could fly, then I knew I could do it, too. Her legs had been motionless until the minute her canopy swelled. That’s when she realized she could move them, that she could raise them high so her glide would pick up speed. It’s an instinct we birds know well, but sometimes you’ve got to teach your body those instincts all over again. And if a human could do it…

The boy yelled, kicked the horse’s flanks, and off we went. My talons squeezed his glove again. I dipped my head forward. Speed made my blood pump faster.

You can do it, Kael. You can do it.

I stretched my wings. I could feel the pull in them, the wind lifting me. All I had to do was open my talons and let go. It was in my head, though.

The fear.

The fall.

My heart wanted to fly, yet my head wouldn’t let it.

Then the boy did the unthinkable. He slid his hand out of the glove. And there I went, me, my stretched wings, and the glove still clutched between my talons.

It was a fantastic feeling.

Liberating.

Inebriating.

Terrifying.

And it lasted two seconds before I tilted my wings too much and almost slammed into a tree. But it was done. The boy had unlocked my wings by letting me go.

On our next attempt, he never let go of the glove.

I did.

I flapped and took off, found the thermal—the column of hot air rising up from the ground—and rode it like I’d been doing it all my life. Like the humans rode their horses. I flew over the river and above the forest, my eyes feasting on the landscape sprawling below. I skipped across the scents on the air, and they lifted me, drawing me forward. Herons took off from the water as I swerved by them. I saw the waterfalls in the distance and flapped my wings until I found the perfect currents that took me right over them. I dipped in the cloud of sprays rising from the water.

I felt strong, I felt alive.

I could finally fly.

I wanted to tell the world. No, not the world. I wanted to tell the condors.

So I left the waterfalls and rode the thermals back to the river. I saw the boy, the father, and the girl running with their horses at full gallop along the bank. They waved at me and cheered me on. They didn’t say, “Come back.” Instead, they yelled, “Look at you, Kael. You can fly now!”

I can fly.

Mother would be proud.

I flew over the forest and back to my nest in the crevice. Other brown falcons were taking off from theirs in the trees. They looked up at me in wonder, a young fledgling they’d never seen before. Or didn’t remember. I rode the ridge lift as it pounded against the cliffs, found the ledge, and landed in front of the crevice where Mother had built our nest.

How long ago was it? Days? Weeks?

I’d lost count.

The nest was empty, the branches that Mother had so lovingly propped against the crevice all but blown away. The down she’d used to make my bedding was dirtied with rat droppings. The smell was rotten and foul. I was disgusted.

A forlorn feather clung to the entrance of the crevice and flapped in the wind. It was from my mother, one of the few she’d left in the nest to make it warmer. I plucked it with my beak, freed it, and watched it twirl in the currents until it vanished.

Goodbye, Mother, I thought. I can fly now. I can survive.

I spread my wings and took off again, rising over the cliffs. The condors were there, their finger-feathers gliding on the winds. They drew circles in the sky. My wings had grown tired, my breast muscles sore. Yet I ignored the pain and kept rising in the sky until I reached my idols. I sensed no communication between them, just mindless gliding and waiting like machines, ready to swoop down on the first carcass they saw. I circled with them. I flapped my wings and called out to attract their attention. I wanted them to see me fly.

One of them flew over me, and his full shadow embraced me, his wingspan at least three times mine.

I circled and called to them, “Can I be one of yours?” But they never replied. After a while, my fatigue caught up with me. And I felt lonely.

So very lonely.

So I withdrew from the lift drawn by their wide wings and glided back down. Back home.

Back to my family.

* * *

My name is Kael. I’m a brown falcon, and my family is made of humans. A father, a mother, a boy, and a girl. They all have something special. The father has wires in his ears, the mother has a hook for a hand. The boy has eyes that can see in the dark. The girl has a flying sail that unfolds from her back.

They made me special, too. They gave me a bear’s sense of smell. And they taught me how to fly. I can hunt at night, like my brother. And I can glide over the cliffs, like my sister.

Not all families are equal; not all are made of the same species even. In my family, I’m the only feathered animal. I don’t mind that and neither do they.

A Word from E.E. Giorgi

Elena and baby chicks, ca. 1975.

Kael’s story is set in the world of my book series titled The Mayake Chronicles, a post-apocalyptic world where only two human races have survived on the planet: the Mayakes, who avoided extinction thanks to nanobots and electronic implants, and the Gaijins, who dominate the Mayakes using state-of-the-art technology and weapons.

Kael makes his first appearance at the beginning of book one as the pet falcon of Athel, the boy in my story, and Akaela, the girl. I realized then—as the bird soared with Akaela over the mesa and joined the brother and sister in the attack on one of the Gaijins’ droids—that he deserved his own backstory. I’m grateful to Chris Pourteau for the opportunity to reveal this bit of the Mayakes’ world and tell the story of how one family was so generous as to use the little technology they had left not for their own ends, but to save a bird’s life.

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The Bear’s Child

by Harlow C. Fallon

For the past hour I’ve followed buzzards circling in the sky, looking for the spot where death has drawn them. Where I hope to find enough unspoiled meat to get me through another day. When I arrive and scare the buzzards off, I find the corpse of an Icarite. One less Icarite in the world is one less pain in my ass. But I’m still annoyed that I’ve lost a meal.

There isn’t much left of him; the buzzards have taken care of that. By his clothing I know he’s one of their hunters. The Icarites have hunted me often enough. I have the scars to show for it. By the arrow protruding from his ribcage, I see this hunter became the hunted. The irony isn’t lost on me, but he’s no concern to me now. I still have to find food.

It’s hot out on the grasslands. The green scarf I keep wrapped around my head keeps the sweat from my eyes, but my shirt clings to my skin where the sweat trickles between my breasts. I raise my canteen to my mouth. Only a dribble comes out. I know where I can get water, but food is more urgent, and less plentiful.

I should be enjoying my time alone, but there’s never any joy in it. Always, it’s about survival.

I shade my eyes and stare into the distance. My vision fills with prismatic light—it’s the disease leaching into my brain. The air is full of rainbows; my sickness is a monster wearing a mask of beauty. I blink to clear my eyes, straining to see if I’m alone in the wide sea of grass. Phantoms rise up to mock me, to catch me off guard. They gather substance, then dissipate like smoke. More tricks the disease plays on my mind.

The high wall surrounding Icarus is barely visible from where I stand, but it still feels too close. I need to move on, back to the safety of the woods and the mountains, before another Icarite hunter finds me.

My empty stomach rumbles as I fall into a steady lope. My legs also protest, but I ignore the ache and adjust my stride, compensating for my limp as I always do. When I reach the tree line, I wait for that elusive feeling of safety the forest sometimes provides. But it never comes.

I kneel at a familiar stream and satisfy my thirst, then fill my canteen. I’m always at a disadvantage when using my left arm—my good arm—for anything but wielding a weapon. My right arm is weak, my hand mangled. Only my thumb and the nub of my forefinger remain. It’s the price I paid for escaping an Icarite trap that almost took my life two years ago. An arm for a life. No argument there.

As I cup more water to my mouth, I listen for out-of-place sounds—the snap of a twig, the crunch of leaves underfoot. My hearing is the one good sense I have left, and it’s honed to a sharp edge. I don’t hear anything, but I’m aware of a presence just inside the trees. Without turning around—I need the element of surprise—I slip my knife from its sheath.

“No need for that, Anya.”

I jump to my feet and face him. Gunther. My brother. We share the same blood, but there’s no love between us. He’s older than me by four years, but the disease that claims us all outside the Wall of Icarus has ravaged him less than it has me. He still has most of his hair. He stands straight. There’s little weakness in his flesh and bones.

He treats me like I’m at death’s door, but not in a kind, protective way. He lords his condition over me, and I hate him for it. Gunther despises me because I wander alone, away from our clan. Because I don’t act like a woman. He resents that I leave him to care for our ailing father, a job the daughter should do. He envies my freedom. My willingness to take it.

Gunther looks to the west. “Storm coming.”

I follow his gaze and see the bare wisps of cirrus clouds marring an otherwise clear blue sky. “Not for a while,” I say. “Tonight or tomorrow.”

Gunther shrugs in his indifferent manner, as if what I say matters little. “Bode is asking for you. You should come home.” It’s not a request, and he doesn’t wait for me to respond. He turns and disappears into the woods.

Bode is our father. The harshness of our lives has stripped us of any desire for endearing terms. I feel little connection and no obligation to him, or to any member of our clan. The disease has hardened us, made us resentful. We congregate only because we stand a better chance of surviving in a brutal world where food is scarce. Where nature has become a wrathful, unpredictable demon.

But we aim most of our resentment at Icarus—a city built as a shrine to itself. Before Bode was born, the world was in turmoil. There were gods of war and hunger and hardship. Gods of madness. Then other gods came—gods of science who believed they could perfect those things that had always resisted perfection: the human body and the weather.

But traveling the road to perfection means there are always failures left in the ditches. We, the Ferals, as they like to call us, are those imperfect missteps. We’ve been discarded like trash outside the city wall.

Abandoned to deal with disease that can’t be restrained, and weather that won’t be subdued.

But inside the wall—under an invisible dome where light and precipitation and temperature are well ordered—life is comfortable. Icarus worships at its own feet, and its perfect residents flourish, disease free. Their immunity was earned through our suffering.

We are the Ferals, the bastards Icarus refuses to claim. But imperfection is insidious; the Feral undercurrent pulses inside the city wall. When the Icarites realized they could never tame the demon of their own fears, they soon learned they could at least appease him. And so the Icarites hunt us for sport. It’s how my mother died, and why our clan has been reduced to a few dozen.

* * *

Our camp is always well hidden, and we never stay in one spot for long. When I arrive, the clan is already packing up and preparing to move on ahead of the storm.

Bode huddles beside a small fire. When I join him, he pierces me with an icy gaze. His sunken eyes are clouded; they’ve seen too much suffering. He’s hard and wiry, in body and soul. Even though he’s not that old, the disease has aged him far beyond his years. He can’t walk without help. When the clan moves on, Gunther will have to haul him on a travois made of tree limbs and animal skins.

“About damn time,” he says by way of greeting.

I don’t feel like arguing. He knows I’m a loner; I’m tired of defending myself. “I found a dead hunter,” I say. “Arrow in his chest.”

Bode squints. “Whose?”

“Jamison’s clan, looks like.”

He nods and pulls his knees closer to his chest. “Good.”

That’s one thing we share, at least. An appreciation for dead Icarites.

Gunther shows up with a roasted rabbit skewered on a stick. My gut rumbles again in response, but he won’t share the meat. It’s meant for Bode and him. The rest of the clan shares, to an extent, but I’m not around enough to contribute, so I don’t eat.

“What did you want me for, old man?” I ask. I watch as Gunther splits the rabbit with his knife and hands Bode half. The smell of roasted meat wafts to my nose and my mouth waters. Bode eyes me for a minute, then tears off a piece and hands it to me. Gunther’s disapproving scowl follows.

Normally I’d refuse the gift, but I need food. It’s been two days and I feel weak and shaky. I nod my thanks to Bode and eat, avoiding Gunther’s glare. The rabbit is tough and gamy but I devour every bit of it. Then I suck the bones.

“Thought you might want to know where we’re headed,” Bode says between bites.

“I can follow your trail,” I say. The clan knows how to hide their movements from hunters. They’re good at it, but I know what to look for.

“Where’d you find that Icarite?” he asks.

“About a mile out. On the grassland.”

Bode levels a long look at Gunther and tells him, “Go find Jase. He’ll want to know. Icarites might come around thinking we’re to blame.”

Gunther’s sour expression deepens. I can tell he wants to argue. He wants to find a way to blame me for the dead hunter, for Bode’s order, for all the wrongs heaped on him.

“I’ll go,” I say.

They both look at me, no doubt a little surprised that I’m offering. Bode nods. I get up and make my way through camp, ignoring the iron glares of clan members as I limp past. No one cares for me much. I’m sure Gunther has a lot to do with their collective opinion. They condemn me because I’m a woman who doesn’t follow the rules. Since I contribute little, I’m worth even less. Truth be told, I prefer it that way. It’s easier for me to come and go as I please—to mostly stay away as I please.

I find Jase stuffing his belongings into a rucksack. Jase is the leader of the clan, as much as we have one. He’s the mediator of disputes and clashes. He represents us to the other clans. On his say-so, the group moves and resettles. He’s sharp minded and able bodied, which is saying a lot for a Feral. I like Jase, but I know the feeling isn’t mutual. He glances at me once and continues to work.

I squat down and wait for him to say something before I speak. It’s a gesture of respect we grant to those in leadership. He gives me another glance and says, “Hand me that cord there.”

I do as he says, watching as he shoves it into his pack.

“Something on your mind?” he asks, without looking up.

“I found a dead Icarite about a mile from here. Out on the grasslands. He had an arrow in his chest. Bode says you’d want to know.”

Jase pauses and considers my words. “Was it your arrow?”

I bristle at his question; it feels like a backhanded insult to my weakness. An indictment of my disobedience. Women aren’t allowed to handle a bow. But even if they were, my weak arm and mangled hand make it impossible.

“You know it wasn’t,” I reply in a cold voice.

His gaze shifts briefly to my hand. The look in his eyes confirms his assessment of me as useless. “You recognize the arrow?”

“Looks like Jamison’s clan.”

He nods. “Storm’ll be moving in by morning. We’ll be out of here before then. I doubt hunters will be wandering around with a storm lashing their heads.”

Sometime I get bad feelings, like an itch I can’t reach. They’ve saved me more than once from walking into danger. I have one of those feelings now.

“Maybe not hunters, but…” I trail off, reluctant to finish my thought. I know how Jase will receive it.

He throws me a skeptical glance as if he’s read my mind. “Flamers? You think those Icarite bastards are gonna hit us with flamers? When’s the last time that happened?”

I remember when. Eight years ago. I was a little girl, maybe ten, and our clan was on the move. We came upon another camp engulfed in fire as four flamer vehicles drove away from the massacre, back to the safety of Icarus. Why they’d unleashed such a demon on the clan, we never knew. Where was the sport in that? We couldn’t even tell which clan it was. The bodies were burnt beyond recognition.

“Maybe it’s been too long,” I tell Jase. “Maybe the demon can’t be held back anymore.”

Jase glares at me under a furrowed brow. “What the hell’s wrong with your head, girl?”

I stand up and step back. Jase won’t listen to me. He thinks I’m crazy, and I am. I know I am. My mind is slowly surrendering to the disease. I feel things, see things that aren’t shared by others. My thoughts are twisted. The disease mostly attacks the body, but for an unlucky few, it worms its way into the brain as well. As much as I try to fight it, I know it will take me—all of me.

“Never mind,” I say. “Do what you want.”

“Get the hell out of here, Anya,” Jase says, irritated. “I’ve got work to do. Unlike you.”

Anger fuels my need to get away. I’m mad that Jase has dismissed my concerns. Fear moves my feet. I’m afraid he might be right, that the bad feelings roiling in my gut might be a symptom of the chaos in my head. I don’t know what to trust and what to ignore anymore.

So I leave the camp, because alone, I can deal with it. Alone, I can let it knock me down like an angry gust of wind. I can wait until it passes, until I can rise up from it and see again. Until I can find my feet and my way again.

Dusk is settling in and a chilly wind has kicked up, chasing the day’s heat away. It’s a portent of what’s to come, I’m sure of it. Storms are always worse than expected. They’re unpredictable and violent, filled with fury. At least this time there’s some warning.

Despite my stiff muscles and fatigue, I find a steady stride through the woods as the rabbit settles into my stomach. I run quietly, my ears alert to danger in its many forms. There are hunters in the forest, and not just the human kind.

I make my way north to the foothills, where I know I can find safety. The clan will probably head the same direction. I’ll be able to find them easily enough if I want to, after the storm passes.

When I reach the hills, my jog slows and my ascent becomes a fight for every step, every handhold. I stop and rest more often than I should, but the energy given to me by the meager meal is almost spent. Thunder rolls like drums in the distance, and the cold wind carries a bite now. I shiver as I push on toward a place I know—a cleft in a rock face nearby, where I’ll be able to take shelter from the storm.

I’m nearly there when I hear the clatter of loose gravel behind me. Without looking, I know—an Icarite hunter is trailing me. Sometimes, no matter how careful I am, they find me.

He’s a damn fool for being out at night with the storm approaching. He must be inexperienced, with no idea what he’s in for. I could find a way to ambush him, but I don’t need to. The storm will do that for me.

I just need to run.

Adrenaline surges, and my fatigue dissolves. In the growing darkness, I change direction, heading further up the slope. I duck behind rocks, zigzag through trees and scrub to throw him off my trail. The wind’s fury intensifies as I climb. Needles of ice prick my skin. Flashes of lightning turn the night to day, revealing my position. This storm wants me, but I refuse to let it have me. Perhaps an Icarite sacrifice will appease its hunger.

I stop for a brief moment to catch my breath. I listen, but the shrieking gale is all I can hear.

Then I notice a glow in the distance. My heart drops. Fire consumes the forest, whipped to a frenzy by the winds. I understand now why the hunter is here.

My premonition has come true. Flamers have found my clan. The demon is free.

The storm lets loose all its rage. Is it punishing me for escaping the wrath of the fire? The wind knocks me to the ground as the clouds break open, unleashing a stinging downpour of icy rain. It hammers my body against the mountainside. Torrents rush down the slope, threatening to wash me away. I have to find cover. I scramble over rain-slick rocks and muddied ground, with water surging around my feet. I grab at anything I can to keep me anchored to the earth. I find a pocket under a tumble of boulders from an ancient rockslide and climb inside, shivering with cold as the driving sleet peppers the rock face. The storm blows in behind me, pursuing me, lashing at my back and legs. To escape it, I scramble deeper into the hole.

It takes me a moment to realize the pocket is actually a small tunnel that leads upward. I hesitate to crawl further in. An animal lives here—I can smell it. There’s the scent of old rot, and a pungent, musky odor.

The wind and sleet pummel the outside of the cave. Lightning cracks the air. I flinch, fighting back panic. My mind races through the possibilities of what animal might live here. I’ve faced predators in the forest and on the grassland—wolves, big cats, even bears.

Confronting any of these predators in a den terrifies me, but I have nowhere else to go. If I go back outside, the raging storm will kill me. If I stay in the tunnel, the cold and wet will pull the last bit of heat from my body and I’ll die of exposure. I’ve survived worse storms, but not when I’m exhausted, underfed, and weak.

I crawl a few more inches in. The air feels warmer. I’ll take my chances.

It’s pitch black inside. Lightning flashes don’t show me enough of the cave to ease my fears. But I feel my way along and find a dry floor covered with dirt and leaves. I huddle against the cave wall and close my eyes so my ears will open wider.

There are clicking and popping noises, followed by a series of huffs. Something grumbles low in its throat.

Bear.

My pulse races, and I weigh my fear of this creature against my fear of the storm. Maybe if I sit still enough, if I don’t act threatening in any way, it’ll leave me alone until the storm moves on and I can get out.

I don’t mean to trespass, I think to the darkness. I’m just afraid.

I curl up tight and press into the wall, shivering. I can’t see the bear, but I know it sees me. I hear it breathing. So close I can almost feel its breath across the hairs of my arm. Or maybe that’s my fear brushing against me.

Every time I shift the slightest bit, the bear huffs. But it doesn’t attack. Maybe it’s just as afraid of me. Or maybe it understands I’m only looking for shelter.

I try to focus on the warmth in the cave; it’s a welcome relief. Gradually I relax, and my shivering stops. I fight to stay awake, as if that will somehow protect me if the bear chooses to attack. But soon I surrender to exhaustion, and the wailing storm invades my dreams.

* * *

When I open my eyes, I forget for a moment where I am. I don’t even remember falling asleep. I’m still curled up, my muscles stiff with an ache that reaches into my bones. My head feels thick and cloudy, and sparks of light fill my vision. The kaleidoscope of colors again, the beautiful disease.

I blink and clear my eyes. The storm has spent itself. Daylight has eased into the small space. Then I remember the bear and my pulse quickens.

From the opposite wall, I see it now, watching me with dark, round eyes. It’s close enough to reach out and touch. Its breath smells of death. I’m afraid to move.

The bear huffs once and wags its head as if to say, you’re a sad sight.

“Sit up, child,” it says.

I blink and stare. The bear didn’t speak. The disease is making me hear things that aren’t real. I slowly right myself into a sitting position, wincing at the pain shooting through my body.

“The demon has worn itself out,” it says.

I shake my head, as if the effort will somehow resettle my infected brain properly. I look around and see a small mound, now decayed, only fur wrapped around protruding bones. A dead cub. A steel arrow juts out of its side. I recognize that arrow; it’s not one of ours. Her cub was killed by an Icarite hunter.

She leans toward me, thrusting her nose in my face and over my body, exploring me by smell. Her warm breath blows across my skin and raises the hairs on my neck; it was her breath before, after all. I pull my knees up to my chest and close my eyes. Pressing myself into the wall, I wait for claws to rake me, or teeth to sink into my flesh. If Gunther finds my body, I wonder, will he mourn or rejoice?

Instead, a warm tongue washes my face. I open my eyes and meet the bear’s dark, appraising gaze.

“I’m sorry,” she says. “It’s the best I can do. I’m sick, you see.”

“So am I,” I whisper. I can’t hold the words back. They seem pulled out of me.

Her dark eyes gleam. “I know. I can smell your disease.”

I glance over at the dead cub. “You’ve lost your child. To an Icarite hunter?”

“Yes,” she says, blowing out a breath long with suffering. “But now you’re here.”

I don’t know what that means. If I’m imagining this conversation, am I trying to tell myself something?

“I have to go,” I tell her.

The bear shifts in her corner, grunting. “I’m hungry,” she says.

I’m hungry too. What I feel, she feels, I think, though I can’t explain where the knowledge comes from. My sickness is her sickness. Is this real? Or is my mind doing this?

I slip out of the tunnel into a bright day. Clouds still linger in the sky, but a chilly wind pushes them past the sun. To the west, a black scorch stains the forest. Wisps of smoke still rise and catch the wind, even after the storm’s deluge. I’m afraid to go there, but I’m drawn to it, as if I have no choice but to bear witness to the devastation.

I make my way down the mountainside, stopping once to look back. The bear emerges from the den and watches me. In the full light I see that she’s a grizzly, and so bony I don’t know how she’s still alive. She looks after me a moment, as if I might not return, then ambles off.

I continue my descent. The ground is puddled and slippery. I lose my footing so often that by the time I make it halfway down the mountainside, I’m covered in mud, scrapes, and scratches.

In a patch of ruined trees I come across the Icarite hunter who pursued me. His body is twisted around a broken sapling, half covered by a slide of rocks. His head is crushed, and a branch protrudes from his gut. The storm has taken its sacrifice and spared me. Looking at his mangled body, I feel little but relief.

When I finally approach the charred aftermath of the flamers’ attack, the acrid odor of burnt, wet wood hits my nose first. Then I see my camp, burned and ruined before me. The scene hurls me into my memories and I’m a ten-year-old girl again, feeling the horror of it.

I’m not prepared for this. The loss of my clan hits me hard. These blackened, misshapen bodies are people I knew. I never felt a strong connection to them, but now that they’re gone, I feel it—the bond severed, conspicuous in its absence. It’s a hollow ache inside my gut, worse than the hunger that always seems to be there. Much worse.

Without realizing it at first, I start counting the bodies. Ten, twelve, twenty…. When I reach thirty-six and find no others, I know some have escaped. There were forty-three in our clan, including me, so six are unaccounted for. A rush of hope fills me, hope that my brother and father are among those who escaped. But I know Bode, lying on his travois and unable to move quickly, would never have been so lucky. I keep looking, and soon I find him—number thirty-seven—burnt and twisted, bone and flesh and leather and wood, all one charred mass.

Emotions I never expected to feel take up arms and clash inside me. Grief and rage and emptiness. Most of all, guilt. If I’d been there… maybe…. But I know I would likely have died alongside Bode and the others. All at once, I miss my father. The knowledge that I will never speak to him again, never hope for acceptance from him again—it all overwhelms me. I miss a man I never felt love for, never thought was important to me.

But now his absence leaves a hole. I wonder if this is how the bear felt when she lost her cub. The emptiness is infinite inside me.

I feel a sudden need to make it up to him somehow—now that it’s too late. I have to do something, show that I’m sorry for not giving myself to him more, for not being there when he might have needed me, for letting Gunther carry the whole burden.

But I don’t know what to do. I have no idea if Gunther is among the dead. The bodies don’t give up their secrets. They’re all blackened and shrunken and warped by the white-hot fire that consumed them. I recognize children from adults only by their size. I know Bode only by the shape of his travois on the ground.

Phantoms emerge from the burnt trees and hiss at me. They point accusing fingers and stare with hate-filled eyes. The cold wind wails in my ears, a lament for the loss of so many lives. Bode cries from his ashes. “Why weren’t you here?” he moans. “Why didn’t you help?”

I turn and run. I put the scorched devastation far behind me. I run back to the only place I can call home, now that home matters. Back to the cave. Back to the bear who is sick, as I am sick. Who is hungry as I am hungry. Maybe I can tend to the bear in a way I never allowed myself to do for my father.

At the base of the mountain, I nearly stumble over a recent kill, maybe a day old. The storm must have chased away the predator before it had a chance to finish its meal. The hindquarters on the young doe are still mostly intact. This is more meat than I’ve eaten in weeks.

I sever the spine with my knife and hoist the hindquarters over my shoulder to take with me to the cave. If the bear will eat, I’ll feed her. Before I get there, though, I need to find a place to make a fire, somewhere away from the bear’s den. There’s always the risk that a fire will draw Icarite hunters when they see the smoke. But the severity of the storm should keep their heads down for a while. I’ll take my chances.

I find a rocky nook in the hillside that gives me some respite from the wind. The temperature has fallen steadily and the clouds have gathered again, turning the sky to steel. I manage to collect some dry tinder, and scrape my flint to spark a flame. Most of the wood I find is still damp, but I toss a few branches on, watching as steam billows up. The wood hisses and pops as it releases moisture. Soon the fire is burning hot, and I arrange the meat on the heated rocks to cook. The fire feels good and chases some of the ache from my muscles.

I don’t hear the Icarite. He just appears on the other side of the boulder. He has no gun, no weapon of any kind that I can see. I jump to my feet and pull my knife, ready to attack. But he does nothing more than eye me curiously and smile.

“Smells good,” he says. “Venison?”

I begin to wonder if he’s a phantom too. Is my diseased mind conjuring this hunter out of my fears? Has he come to seek revenge for the other Icarite’s death in the storm?

“Share your fire with me, Feral.”

I have no choice but to do what he says. He’s too close. If I try to run, he’ll be on top of me in seconds. I’m no match for his size and strength. I might be able to attack with my knife, but I need to catch him off guard. And that’s not going to happen with him standing there, staring at me. Besides, I’m still not convinced he’s real. No Icarite hunter would ask to share a fire with a Feral. Much less a female.

So I cautiously crouch by the glowing stones, my muscles protesting my every move. The Icarite settles himself opposite me, rubbing his palms in the heat of the flames. He squints at the sky.

“Looks like snow,” he says. “Not a good time to be outside the wall.”

“Then why are you?” I try to keep the acid from my voice.

He studies me with a strange gleam in his eye. “Urges,” he says. “Primal urges. They drive me.”

I can only imagine what he means by that, but I don’t like the sound of it. I glance around me, looking for an escape. There’s a space between two rock slabs. If I jump there, the rock might slow him down, give me a chance to run. He can’t grab me without….

“They’re going to wipe out every single one of you,” he says. “They’ve decided you’re too much of a threat.”

I swallow hard, my fear like a rock in my gut. “We’re all dying anyway,” I remind him, as if we’re having a logical discussion. “Why don’t you just leave us alone?”

A brief smile tugs at his mouth. “Not fast enough. And not all of you are dying. Your children. Some are born healthy.”

That may be the case in other clans, but not mine. Even the children were born with the disease. Now it doesn’t matter. They’re all gone.

“Why are you telling me this?”

The Icarite rises to his feet. “You’d better be on your way,” he says. “Gather your food. They’re almost here.”

Snow starts falling. Heavy, white flakes. The hunter looks up and smiles as if he’s been waiting for it. Before my eyes, he fades into the flurry.

My head pounds in rhythm with my heart. I’m shaking as I try to make sense of what just happened. If he was ever there at all. I’ve never hallucinated like that before. It’s a warning, clearly a warning. Someone is coming. Flamers? Can they navigate the mountainside? More hunters? My chest tightens with dread, but the more I try to control it, the worse the pain in my head grows. I squeeze my eyes shut and press the heels of my hands to my temples, waiting for it to pass.

It doesn’t, but I can’t wait any longer. I kick dirt on the fire and collect the meat, tucking it inside my shirt. The cooked pieces sting my skin, but I ignore that and start climbing, heading in the direction of the den. The snowfall turns heavy. Between the white squall and the spots clouding my vision, I have to feel my way up the mountainside. Now and then I stop to wipe my eyes and blink away the blurriness. The wet snow soaks my clothes and chills me to the bone, but I press on to the bear’s cave.

Behind me, the sounds of skittering rocks alert me to the Icarite hunters following. They’re still a good ways off, but given my condition, they could be on me quickly, before I know it. I keep climbing, pushing past the ache, willing my muscles to work harder, ignoring the pain in my head.

Then I recognize the shape of the fallen boulders, now slick with snow. I scramble over them into the tunnel. As I catch my breath, the familiar smell of musk comforts me.

A blast shatters a rock outside the tunnel, peppering my back with shards. I clamber all the way inside, hugging the wall opposite the bear. She tenses and huffs, clacks her teeth and snaps her jaw to intimidate me. A fresh wave of fear floods my body. Does she even remember me?

Her black eyes gleam in the dimness. She leans over and sniffs me, her nose pausing at my shirt, where I have the meat tucked away. Her warm breath blows out in a loud snort, and she settles back into her corner. I relax only a little, knowing what’s soon to come from outside.

When I hear the crunch of footsteps, the bear hears it too. Her ears flick forward, then tuck back, and she turns into a dynamo of muscled energy, shooting out of the tunnel with a bellow so loud I can’t keep my own shriek inside me. I’m shocked that a creature so bony and weak can transform into such raw rage. Where did it come from? Its suddenness shakes me to the core.

I hear the screams of the hunters, the primal roar and snarl of the bear, the crunch of bones, cries and pleadings for mercy. But not one shot fired.

Then quiet.

I don’t have to see the aftermath to know what happened. The bear could have done the same to me, but spared me. The thought leaves me awestruck. Is she so far gone that she thinks I’m her child? How does she not recognize me for what I am?

She returns in a few moments, shaking snow off her fur. Her muzzle is smeared with blood. She looks at me and grunts.

“You have food,” she says.

Though I’ve heard her voice before, impossible as it seems, hearing it again startles me. With trembling hands I pull the meat from my shirt and stare at it a moment. My mind is a whirlwind. How can the bear be talking to me? But then again, an Icarite hunter warned me of danger. An Icarite who might never have been there at all.

“Never mind,” she says. “I have plenty to eat now.”

She shuffles outside again. When I hear the sounds of ripping, the snapping of bones and tearing of flesh, I try not to picture it in my mind. But I know the less that remains of the bodies, the safer I’ll be. Eventually I’ll have to go out and bury whatever she doesn’t eat.

While the bear is gone, I eat a little of the cooked meat and feel some energy return. But I’m so tired my eyes won’t stay open. I curl up near the cub’s remains and fall into a restless sleep.

When I wake, the bear hasn’t returned. Cold has seeped into the cave and I can’t stop shivering. I crawl down the tunnel and discover the mouth nearly covered in snow. That means several inches also cover what’s left of the hunters. I’m safe for now, until the unpredictable weather decides to sweep away its white blanket and reveal what the bear has done. Then I’ll have to bury the Icarites’ remains.

I hear her snuffling, and scramble back inside. She follows, shaking the snow from her fur and settling into her spot. It rains on me and makes me even colder.

“A full stomach is a wonderful thing,” she says.

I nod, shuddering at the images her words evoke. Then I squeeze my eyes shut for a moment, searching for clarity. She didn’t say that. Bears don’t speak, I remind myself, not really. Do they?

“You don’t have to worry about them,” she tells me. “The snow has hidden them.”

“I know. But not for long.”

The bear blows out a weary breath. “You must be cold.”

“Yes.”

“Lie close to me. I’ll keep you warm.”

I hesitate, worried that this is a trap set by my traitorous mind. Is it deceiving me? Speaking for the bear? If I make one unexpected move, she might kill me as she did the hunters. Maybe getting me to approach the bear is my brain’s way of ending my own suffering.

Maybe I’m okay with that.

I inch closer. She doesn’t huff or growl. She seems to be waiting for me. I advance slowly on hands and knees. In the deepening darkness, I barely make out her eyes, like polished obsidian, watching me. She sighs, deep and rumbling, rolls on her side, and with one paw draws me up against her until I’m snug in her motherly embrace. Her warmth percolates into my body. I close my eyes and sleep again.

When I wake, I can’t breathe. My head pounds and the air in the cave is thick and suffocating. The bear lies still, wheezing. Blackness spots my vision. Gasping, I untangle myself from the bear’s grip and crawl on my belly down to the tunnel’s entrance. It’s completely blocked by snow.

I claw at the wall of ice where the snow met the warmer air of the tunnel. It doesn’t budge. I ram my elbow into it, and with a crunch, it gives way to the softer snow on the other side. I dig and dig, my hands aching and numb from the cold, my head hammering, pulsing in my ears.

Finally, I break through. Struggling against the soft, biting ice, I shove my whole body out into the dazzling white, sucking freezing air into my lungs. I climb on top of the drifts, roll onto my back, and let the cold embrace me until my breathing slows and my pulse drops to its normal rhythm.

I hear a frustrated growl and snow from the hole showers me. The bear shoves past me, panting and grunting. She wobbles, as if the slightest breeze might knock her off her feet.

“Are you okay?” I ask, still hesitant, still wondering if our conversations are real.

Her head sways in my direction. Her eyes are glazed. “Yes. And you?”

“I’m fine now.” I sit up and take in the world now blanketed in white. The forest to the west looks clean now, the snow covering the ugly black smear of the fire.

“You need food,” the bear says. “You’ll feel better if you eat.” She takes a few steps forward, sinks to her belly and stops, as if considering whether the effort is worth it.

I wonder, not for the first time, why she cares so much about me. Like letting me sleep beside her. Defending me against the hunters.

Maybe she needs me as much as I need her.

It’s strange, this feeling of need. I think of my clan, now dead. How have I come to this? How have I lived with a family and never felt this connection? How is it that now, after all this time, I want to feel it, to know it? Inside I see the truth: it’s taken a loss of connection to find it. Perhaps the bear’s loss has forged a similar path for her. Perhaps, in this way, we are also alike.

“There’s still meat,” I remind her. “Enough for both of us.”

She blows a noisy breath through her nose. “You eat. I need to wander.”

Now fear seizes me—that the bear might not come back, that she’s leaving for good, to let her sickness claim her alone. The hole that opened inside me when I saw my father’s blackened remains, aches in my gut like an ulcer.

She casts me a glance. “I won’t go far.” She says it with assurance, as if she knows my thoughts. I’m starting to think she does.

I watch as she plows a lumbering path through the deep snow. When she disappears past the rocks, I go back inside.

Our den is still stuffy, but cold, fresh air has wafted in. I curl up on the floor where the bear has slept. I still feel the lingering warmth of her body. I don’t feel hungry, only tired; a deep, aching fatigue I know will never relent.

I toss and turn, listening for the sound of the bear’s return. Worry chases sleep away—worry that the bear might die out there, leaving me all alone. After a while, I sit up and eat. Maybe a little food will soothe the knot in my gut.

There’s still a hindquarter left when I’m done. I hope the bear will eat it when she returns.

I wait until the light begins to wane. The fear that earlier pricked at the edges of my thoughts now becomes a frenzied animal inside me, and I can’t sit still any longer. Just as I move to search for her, she returns, crawling through the entrance. I sidle out of the way, and she flops onto her spot with a long, rumbling sigh.

She doesn’t shake the snow from her fur. I know right away something isn’t right.

She regards me briefly with those dark, appraising eyes. “Why are you there, and not here?” she asks.

I move next to her, nestling into her soaked fur. It makes me colder, but I don’t want to be apart from her. Not now. “Are you worse?” I ask, my throat tight.

“Yes,” she says, the word carried in a long breath.

I listen to her lungs rattle with each struggle for air. If she hadn’t attacked those hunters, thrown all her energy into one last effort to protect me, maybe…

She did it for me. And now there’s nothing I can do for her. Her weakness seems to seep into me, like the cold and wet of her fur. I feel myself sink into it along with her, as if we’re both being pulled under by it. Drowning.

“Tell me about your mother,” the bear rasps.

I want to ask her why but ignore the urge. “She died when I was young. So I don’t remember a lot about her. She was beautiful. She’d lost her hair, but kept her head covered in a scarf the color of the grass and the leaves.” I touch the scarf wrapped around my head. “This scarf. It’s the only thing I have left of her.”

I take a breath and swallow the lump in my throat. “She was gentle. Quiet. Didn’t laugh much. But nobody does… did. But she always had a smile for me. I remember that. I remember her smile.”

“How did she die?”

“Hunters killed her. Like your cub.”

The bear lets out a little groan that tells me she understands our mutual loss.

“And your father?” she asks.

The pain of his passing sweeps through me. “Flamers attacked our clan, right before I found you. He was killed in the fire.”

She doesn’t respond. Her brittle breath fills the silence.

“I wish…” I begin. Stop. Wonder if it matters if I voice my regret.

“You wish you’d been closer,” she says.

“Yes.” I swallow hard.

“There is a place,” the bear says, “where the food is abundant. Berries and roots and the streams full of fish. My mother is there. And my cubs.”

I close my eyes. The darkness tugs at me. Wants to separate me from her warmth. I want to acknowledge her own loss. I hadn’t known she’d had more than the one cub. Had suffered more than the one too-soon death. Instead, I ask, “Is that where you’re going?”

“Yes,” she answers. Her breathing is like dry leaves underfoot. I feel her heartbeat at my back, irregular and faint. “There is a place…” she says, and I wonder as she catches her breath if she’s fallen into confusion, repeating herself, “…where you can go. Beyond the river.” She speaks between shallow breaths now. “Beyond the next mountain range. You’ll be safe there. The hunters won’t find you there.”

“The hunters are everywhere.”

The bear grunts. “Not everywhere. Not there.”

“You mean, after I die?”

She draws in air, the sound like bubbles in her throat. “No. But does it matter?”

I consider the question. I don’t believe there’s anything after death. But if the bear believes, maybe I do too. Maybe we can share more than disease, more than need.

“I have to sleep now,” she says.

I press against her, willing her to keep breathing, to stay alive and connected to my life, to be my companion for the remainder of my days. But each breath grows weaker, each beat of her heart slower, until the air in her lungs escapes in one long sigh. This mother, this companion had been a strong and powerful creature. Now, she’s gone.

I have never cried in my life that I can remember. But all my anguish and regret and loss seem to churn inside and press up through my chest, seeking release, spilling out in hot tears. I surrender to sobbing, burying my face in the bear’s fur until the last of her warmth drains away and the cold finds me.

Numb, empty, I’m ready now. I want to leave this place for the one the bear has described beyond the river. I close my eyes. Darkness and weakness and sickness roil together inside me, an undertow I can’t resist, even if I wanted to. Maybe Bode will be there, and Gunther. I might have another chance to make things right. Maybe I’ll see her there. Maybe she’ll know me.

* * *

I open my eyes. A shadow, a phantom hovers over me in the cave.

Has the bear returned? For a moment I think I might be waking from the sleep I couldn’t find when she went wandering. Then I remember: she’s dead.

Am I dead too?

I draw a breath, feeling the bear’s cold body at my back. I’m not dead. A fresh wave of grief rolls over me. I’m still in the cave. Still dealing with phantoms. Cold and ache and disease.

And then relief surprises me. Relief at being alive. I’d been so ready to die. But now that Death has moved on, I don’t mind seeing it go.

The phantom is still there, now less colorful, dressed in the rags of the Feral. I blink through blurry eyes, try to focus.

“Anya,” the apparition says. “Are you okay?”

No, I think. I’m not okay. I’ll never be okay. Why are you asking? Why do you care?

“Anya. It’s me. Gunther.”

Shock pulses through me. I blink again, suck in a breath. The phantom’s features sharpen to reveal my brother’s face. “Gunther?”

“Yeah. Finally found you. What are you doing here, curled up next to a dead bear?”

“She wasn’t always dead,” I say. “I thought I was dead.”

Gunther stares at me, a puzzled look on his face.

“I’m dying,” I add.

“We’re all dying, Anya,” Gunther says. “But we’re not dead yet.”

I wince as I prop myself up on one elbow. The air in the cave isn’t as cold as I expected. Maybe a warm front has moved in.

I look at the bear. She’s just a shell now. The light has left her eyes. My chest feels tight, knowing she’s gone. But thinking of where she might be—in a land where she can be reunited with her cubs, where they can eat fish and berries to their hearts’ content—softens the loss opening inside me.

I look up at Gunther. “I found Bode’s body.”

Gunther turns his head away, but not before I see the pain flash through his eyes.

“There are five of us left,” Gunther says. “Six, if we count you.”

“Do you want to count me?” I ask, afraid to hear his answer. Afraid that it will damn me to a life alone, a life I would have gladly chosen only a few days before. A life that terrifies me now.

Gunther shakes his head and sighs. “Do you want to spend your last days here with the dead?” he asks. “Or with me? With the living?”

I stare for a long moment at the bear, stiff and cold in death. The bear who taught me everything I know about caring, about bonding. I look up at Gunther. His eyes are gleaming. He seems eager to hear the answer I want to say.

“With you,” I tell him, reaching for his outstretched hand. “I want to go with you.”

A Word from Harlow C. Fallon

Harlow and Korey.

As you can see by the picture, I love cats. Since I was a baby, cats—often several at a time—have been a part of my life. I’m currently owned by Korey, who isn’t very social, bestowing her attention only when the mood strikes. I was lucky to get a picture of us together as she was wriggling out of my arms. Not in the mood.

So why did I write a story about a bear? Maybe it was to help purge my fear of bears, which I’m pretty sure stems from a close encounter I had with one when I was three and living in Alaska. I’m also pretty sure the encounter wasn’t all that close, but grew exponentially in power and influence over the years, as memories often do.

Don’t get me wrong; I find bears to be beautiful and fascinating creatures, but I don’t want to live anywhere close to their natural habitat.

I enjoy writing stories that don’t always answer every question in the end. Anya, the main character in my story, also has a close encounter with a bear, and it changes her life. Anya is afflicted with a sickness that slowly consumes her body and mind. Is Anya’s relationship with the bear real? Or is her encounter fabricated by her diseased imagination?

I’ll let you decide.

If you’d like to know more about my writing, you can find me on Facebook at https://www.facebook.com/harlowcfallon and on Amazon at http://amazon.com/author/harlowfallon.

Wings of Paradise

by Todd Barselow

One

The end of the world as the world knew it came rather suddenly. Humanity’s influence on the grand scale of things led to—as many had feared and predicted—a catastrophe in every way conceivable. Political espionage, corruption, and corporate greed ran roughshod over the Earth, destroying humanity in one fell swoop. Nearly every nation succumbed in a matter of hours, once the cascading Collapse began. Humanity went out without a bang, and for that matter, barely a whimper.

Of the seven billion people living when the world ended, only a few thousand souls survived—not even enough people to fill a modest football stadium or concert hall. Most survivors were living on outlying islands in the Philippines, Indonesia, and Malaysia and were thus spared—for a time. Within six months, most of them were gone too, victims of the plague unleashed by the Earth’s core in retribution for a century of cumulative abuse. Fracking for oil and natural gas was the undoing of man.

The Earth began repairing itself almost immediately. In short order, animals reclaimed dominance over their near-extinct Human masters with a swiftness impossible had more than a few Humans survived. One-time pets were now rulers of all they surveyed. Once removed from under the rule of mankind, animals’ natural instincts came to the fore. Unfettered by Human dominance, their intelligence developed rapidly.

Animals born natural enemies became amicable inhabitants of the same space. Without humanity encroaching and poaching, food and water became plentiful once again, lessening animosity between species. While hunters still hunted and prey still fed them, a harmony and balance unlike any seen before mankind’s ascension was restored.

But this tale isn’t just about endings. It’s also about beginnings.

Two

Life in Davao City was always relatively easy, even before the Collapse. Then, with the people gone, paradise began living up to its name in earnest. While there were many animals living in Davao, two groups made up the majority—the Bat colony on Samal Island, who identified themselves as the Bats of Paradise; and the colony of Budgerigars, or simply Budgies, who identified themselves as the Birds of Paradise.

Budgies and Bats, while not normally enemies, shared an easy alliance in the renewed world. Both groups worked together toward mutual, comfortable survival. The common enemies of Bats and Budgies included Cats, Rats, and occasionally Dogs. In the months immediately following the Collapse, many Budgies were lost to raids by these predators, and likewise, Bats sometimes fell prey to the same raiders, if less often. And so the two flyers became natural allies for mutual protection.

When the alliance between Bats and Budgies was forged, a council was formed to manage it. Called the Wings of Paradise, it was composed of six members, three from each colony. Two of the three representatives were Elders, chosen for their knowledge and ability to exercise rational, clearheaded thought. The remaining member of each group was a Youngling, chosen for their flight skills, bravery, and willingness to learn.

All three of the Budgie council members—Max and Hettie, the Elders, and Vic, the Youngling—had been human pets before the Collapse. All the Bats came from the wild and so had little experience with Humans before their extinction, save with the visitors who’d snapped pictures of them at their main colony cave.

The oldest of the Bats was called Bongse. He was a skilled hunter and always knew where to find the best insects whenever the colony ventured out in search of sustenance. His fellow Elder on the council was Magsay, who’d given birth to many strong pups and was revered for her expertise in raising capable Bats, as well as for her hunting prowess. Whenever members of one of the colonies were sick or elderly and couldn’t hunt for themselves, it was Magsay who organized the other Bats and Budgies to provide for them. Rounding out the Wings of Paradise council was a Bat pup named Kal.

The council’s job was ensuring the mutual protection of both species, as well as seeking new territories for expanding the colony. Each species trained a Guardian class to secure the perimeter around both colonies and repel any attackers that might threaten them. Budgies provided daytime protection, while Bats covered the night watch.

Others were trained as Kidapawan, who roamed far afield in search of new areas suitable for offshoot colonies to expand the territories of the two species. The night-flying Bats of the Kidapawan were responsible for aerial scouting, while the day-flying Budgies performed ground observations and identified food and water sources. Once these scouts discovered an area suitable for both species, Transplants—small groups of Bats and Budgies—would leave each of the main colonies and begin the settlement process.

On the seventh such mission, Humans were seen for the first time in as many generational cycles.

Three

As the afternoon waned, the setting sun shone like brilliant diamonds on the ocean. Vic, the Youngling Budgie council member, and Via, his sister, made a final sweep of the island they’d been exploring for much of the day. The previous evening, smoke had been seen near the center of the small island; but closer inspection by the Bats patrolling couldn’t confirm it, so a daytime patrol was dispatched to investigate further. A small, nearby cave system held promise as a new colony home, and the presence of smoke so close to it was worrisome.

“I still don’t see anything,” carped Via. “We should head back. I’m getting hungry.”

“All right. Quit complaining. Let’s do one more low sweep over that clearing, then we’ll rest for a bit before heading home,” Vic replied. “There are some ripe mangoes down there we can snack on.”

“I guess that works,” Via said reluctantly.

The pair began their descent, sweeping in tight circles around the open area populated by coco palms and papaya and banana trees. Vic led them down, with Via riding close on his tail feathers. As they made their final circle aiming for the grove of mangoes, Via squawked a warning before shooting straight up and away from her brother. Taken by surprise, Vic nevertheless followed suit, quickly catching up to her as she settled, fluttering her wings, at the top of a coconut tree.

“What’s your problem?” he yelled, landing beside her.

“There are Humans there! Didn’t you see them? There are three big ones and two little ones.”

Vic hadn’t seen anything, but he was loath to admit it to her. “Of course I saw them. I wanted to get a closer look, before you scared the crap out of me. We should find out if there are more of them. This place would be a perfect offshoot site, so long as it isn’t too overrun with Humans.”

“I don’t want to live anywhere near Humans,” Via snapped. “They stink and make too much awful noise.”

It was something Vic had heard before. He and Via had been adopted by very different Humans. Via’s owners had kept her cage-bound, never letting her out to fly or stretch her wings. She’d lived her entire life indoors before the Collapse and now, with the freedom of a clear-blue sky to fly in, considered her life under the rule of Humans as near-imprisonment—the din they’d made, the constant, oppressive odors they’d created. Looking back on that time, Via found her memories of cooking chicken and a blaring Tee-Vee particularly offensive. It was only by chance that one of her owners had opened her cage to feed her when he was struck down by the Collapse Plague. His death had been her harbinger of freedom.

Vic simply couldn’t understand Via’s attitude, mainly because his Humans hadn’t been so bad. He’d been allowed free flight inside their home and could come and go from his cage as he wished. Because he’d been treated relatively well by them, he held a higher opinion of Humans than most Budgies. Deep down, if he were honest with himself, Vic missed his Humans. He missed their attention and their providing food and water for him. But if he were ever to acknowledge that, he’d likely lose his seat on the council. His was a minority opinion.

“They’re not all so bad, you know,” he said. “You just got unlucky with yours. I don’t want to live with Humans again either, but it might not be a bad thing to have some around. They build things that we can use as shelter, you know. So we don’t have to live in the trees.”

“But we’re meant to live in the trees, you dolt. We’re birds. Being caged isn’t natural. Just ask any of the Elders. I bet Hettie would spew seeds at you if you repeated to her what you just said to me. Even Max—”

“Okay, okay. Point taken. Stop breaking my beak. Look, I want to go take a closer look while we still have the light. If I can see how many Humans are down there, then we can assess how big a risk transplanting to that area would be.”

“Fine, but I’m staying here.”

“Scaredy bird!” Vic shouted. He quickly took wing before Via could retaliate.

His flyby confirmed what Via had seen. Five Humans—an adult male, two females, and two children. They were using the cave as shelter and had cleared the area in front of it for a fire pit. Vic couldn’t tell if they’d begun constructing a more permanent shelter, but he didn’t think so. Now the night fliers would need to confirm what he and his sister found and determine, if possible, if the Humans were establishing a permanent presence in the area. It was possible the Humans were only passing through, but Vic doubted it. The island was a good ways away from the mainland, and no boats had been spotted on the shores. That suggested an intent to stay.

As he motioned for Via to follow and they headed back to the colony, Vic wished they’d never flown this way. He had a bad feeling about what was going to happen when they reported back to the council that Humans were nearby.

Four

As word of the Humans’ discovery swept through both colonies, reactions were mixed. Many Bats and Budgies alike held the opinion that the Humans should be left alone to either destroy themselves or thrive, as nature determined. Others were more vocal in their protests, demanding something be done about them to ensure the safety of the colonies.

Budgie Elders Max and Hettie were discussing the issue when Bongse and Magsay, the Bat Elders on the council, joined them.

“We should just leave them be and observe only,” Max was saying. “As it is, they’re in no position to harm us, nor would they be likely to even if they were capable of doing so.”

“While I agree with you for the most part,” Hettie nodded, “I do think it would be in our best interests to be prepared, just in case they attempt to relocate to Davao.”

Bongse spoke up then. “Hettie is correct. We must be prepared for the eventuality that the Humans will migrate back to the mainland and threaten us. We must take steps to prevent them destroying what we’ve built and will build in the future. They’ve had their time to shine, to rule this planet. They squandered that chance and destroyed themselves in the process. And how many other species as well? No, we cannot allow them the opportunity to do again as they did before… and, perhaps, destroy more than themselves this time.”

Magsay flexed her wings in agreement. “I agree, Bongse, but what can we do? We don’t have the capability to defend ourselves or our colonies like you suggest. We rule the trees and the air. This is something best left to those who rule on the ground—the Dogs and Cats and Rats.”

“While that may be true, we cannot rely on the others to fight our battles for us. And I will not turn over our fate to those who might make peace with the Humans. I don’t trust Humans to honor any such peace treaties,” Bongse replied.

“Then what would you have us do, Bongse?” asked Max. “Attack and destroy them before they can destroy us? How many of us would you kill with that course? You’re suggesting the same kind of rash action that resulted in the Humans destroying themselves. Are we to become like they are now out of some misguided attempt to avoid extinction at their hands? Now, wouldn’t that be ironic! What’s your opinion, Hettie? You’re unusually quiet.”

Hettie appeared hesitant to speak. Finally, with a deep breath, she began. “Max, I have given Bongse’s suggestion a great deal of thought, and I must concur with his assessment. We must take action now to defend ourselves, while we have the advantage. Magsay is too meek to admit this, but I can see it in her eyes—she feels as I do… as we all should. The Humans may be harmless now, but they will not be so in the future. History shows us the course of the future. They’ll multiply and spread as they did before. They’ll consume everything they touch.” Hettie swallowed hard. Very quietly, she said, “They mustn’t be allowed to live.”

As Hettie spoke, a grim coldness settled into Bongse’s eyes, but Max looked shocked by what his fellow Budgie was suggesting. Magsay seemed sad but didn’t argue with Hettie.

“We must see how the others in the colonies feel about this,” Max sputtered. “We cannot make a decision this momentous without the input of all who will be affected.”

“Very well,” Hettie stated. “A meeting of the colonies has been called for, and we will hear arguments both for and against action regarding the Human camp. Whatever action—or inaction—is deemed necessary will be decided tomorrow by all of us… together.”

* * *

“This is so unreal, Kal. I can’t believe this is happening.”

Shaking her wings and chirping quietly, Tal—sister to Kal, the Bat pup on the council—was beside herself. The pair had been eavesdropping on the Elders’ conversation, though Kal could have joined it as a council member. Instead, he’d chosen to remain hidden in the shadows. “We have to go and talk to the others! We have to get a handle on this before a huge mistake is made.”

Kal sighed, drawing his sister away as the Elders went their separate ways. “We have until tomorrow, although I don’t know what good we can do in just a few hours.”

“We must try to convince the others that the Humans don’t deserve whatever it is Bongse and Hettie have planned for them. I’m afraid of what will become of all of us if we don’t use restraint now, when we have the opportunity to show mercy.”

“Let’s find Vic and Via and see where the other young Budgies stand,” Kal suggested.

Tal nodded her head with nervous energy. “If they don’t stand on the side of reason, we’re all doomed,” she said. “Surely they’ll listen.”

“I wish I could maintain your sense of optimism, Sister. But I don’t think it’s going to be that easy.”

* * *

When they found Vic and Via, the two Budgies were heavily debating the Human question. Judging by the amount of tension in the air, they were clearly on opposite sides of the issue.

“It’s just as Elder Bongse says, Vic. The Humans must not be allowed to survive and thrive. It cannot happen, or we’ll all suffer the consequences.”

“Your opinion is colored by your past experience with Humans, not by rational thought,” her brother answered. He was clearly becoming agitated. “As a whole, we outnumber these Humans by millions to one. They cannot now, or ever again, pose a threat to our survival. It’s insane to think otherwise.”

“And I suppose your opinion isn’t influenced by your experience with the Humans you lived with?” retorted Via, her wings flapping anxiously. “And you call me biased! You’re a hypocrite, Vic!”

Her brother leaned back, scratching at her underbelly with a claw, and soon both birds were striking each other with claw and wing as only siblings can, screeching and flinging curses at one another.

“See, Tal, I told you it wasn’t going to be that easy,” Kal said dryly as they approached. Both Bats were careful to give the feuding pair a wide berth.

“Guys! Cut it out!” implored Tal. “We have to talk about this rationally!”

After a few moments of continued pleading by Tal, the Budgies reluctantly separated and set about preening themselves to put their feathers back in order and calm the ire coursing through them. In a short time, they were even preening each other carefully, almost lovingly. Their anger had burned brightly, but also passed quickly.

“Look, I can understand both sides of the argument,” continued Tal, “as I think most can. But don’t you think we should err on the side of caution rather than resort to brutality among ourselves or against the Humans?” Tal said. “Haven’t we always damned them for choosing that very course?”

“I guess, when you put it that way,” Via grudgingly admitted. “The last thing I want to be is like a Human.”

“We’ve spoken with many of the other Budgies and they’re as torn as we are,” Vic explained. “It’s going to come down to how the Elders speak about the matter, I think. Their opinion will likely sway the younger birds. One way or the other.”

“This is not good news,” Kal replied. “If what you say is true, we might just be going to war.”

Five

The next day, both colonies met and arguments commenced. Many on both sides were neutral and couldn’t care less what was decided. That is, until Bongse spoke. His words chilled all but the world-weariest of Budgies and Bats present.

“Humans rose to power by eating one another, by trampling on those species they considered lesser and then consuming them too. As the Human population grew, so did their greed, their lust for power and domination—not only over the weakest of their own species, but over all they could conquer. They treated their home, our Earth, with such disdain that it rose up and consumed them. A just fate, that.

“I feel no sorrow or pity for these creatures. I feel nothing at all for them, just as they felt nothing at all for the lives they extinguished. I would not see them come to power again. We must end them now, here, while we have a chance. Not only must we exterminate those five so close to discovering our colonies, but we must seek out survivors elsewhere and destroy them as well. Humans must never again be allowed to have the power of life and death over other creatures.

“We must, as one force of Budgies and Bats, rise up and strike down the enemy. Go forth and retrieve any weapon you can fit in your talons and claws. We—with our millions of wings strong—will rain down a final fate upon these creatures who would become masters again over a world where no masters are or ever were needed. Nature is and should be our only master, and nature demands this final sacrifice of life to guarantee the survival of all.”

The chamber erupted as Bats and Budgies argued fiercely with angry words sharp as talons. But soon the naysayers were shouted down by Bongse’s supporters, who’d been whipped into a frenzy of fear by his ominous warning. Some seemed ready to take flight at that very moment.

“Think about what you’re doing here, Bongse,” Vic cried out. “We cannot behave this way and expect to survive our—”

“The decision has been made, Vic,” Bongse replied coldly. “The majority agree that we have no choice.”

“What? I didn’t hear a vote! There must be an alternative to murdering them with no provocation!”

“Enough, Vic! It is done.”

For several long moments, no one made a sound. The pervasive quiet was eerie and uncomfortable in the wake of Bongse’s pronouncement. Finally, the silence was broken as Budgies and Bats alike took wing to do his bidding and carry out the attack. Amidst the flurry of activity, a minority began once again to argue against the Bat Elder’s final solution to the Human problem. But it was too little too late.

Paralyzed by the chaos around them, Vic and Kal, the Younglings on the council, faced a difficult choice. Should they choose to speak out further against Bongse, they could be exiled from their respective colonies. At the very least, they would likely lose their positions on the council and be shamed, with derision and scorn heaped upon them, should they choose to stay. Seeing no real chance to dissuade their species from their murderous course, Vic, Via, Kal, and Tal raced to the Human settlement to try to warn them.

But by the time the Younglings arrived the Humans were already dead. The Human elders had clearly died protecting the young as wave after wave of Bats and Budgies flew sorties over their small camp, first pelting them with sticks, stones, and shells from above before ripping them apart with beaks and claws and teeth. They’d had no chance to retreat to their cave for protection. In the end, their pitted flesh and broken bodies would lie unburied in the sun, their lives forgotten by all but the few who’d shunned the slaughter.

* * *

When it was all over, when the attack was finally halted and the victory celebration by most had begun, the Younglings made a decision regarding their future with the colonies. Vic and Via, Kal and Tal, and less than a hundred others of both species requested an audience with the council Elders.

Though he dreaded it, Vic began the conversation that would change their lives forever.

“Council Elders Bongse, Magsay, Hettie, and Max. As you know, we council Younglings were opposed, for the most part, to your decision to eradicate the Humans. We feel that, with a little more consideration and a little more time, we could have found a better alternative, some other way to ensure the safety of the colonies. We feel that you acted just as the Humans of old would have. And by doing so, you’ve proven they were not the only creatures on this planet who are selfish and greedy, malicious and murderous.

“Your actions, whether you realize it or not, have doomed these colonies to collapse. You’ve planted the seeds of hatred within your own colonists, and before long these seeds will no doubt spring forth to kill all that you see, all that you now hold dear. The very thing you were so afraid of in Humans has now taken root in our own society—and that’s your doing. You have become the very thing you so feared and despised.

“I am ashamed—I am mortified—to have witnessed your act of barbarism against the Humans. I cannot be a member of a society that sanctions such slaughter. So it’s with a heavy heart that I must hereby resign from my position on the council. Kal also offers his resignation. We, along with the others in the colonies who agree with us, will depart immediately to begin our own colonies as far away from this tragedy as possible.”

The council Elders gaped, speechless, as Vic exited the meeting chamber followed by his sister, Kal, Tal, and the Bats and Budgies who would leave with them. None, not even the firebrand Bongse, could utter a word as they left.

Max seemed sad but resigned to Vic’s words. He knew them to be true. And a similar light of understanding was dawning on the faces of Magsay and Hettie. Understanding and loss. And a deep sense of mourning.

* * *

At daybreak the next day, the hundred or so new colonists began their journey to a new land and a new life. The Budgies would fly by day and the Bats would fly by night, each group meeting at sunset and sunrise to further plan their travels until they found a suitable place to settle down and begin life anew.

A Word from Todd Barselow

Todd with George and Tori.

I’m best known for my work as an editor who specializes in assisting independently publishing authors. I’m also known as the senior editor at Imajin Books, a small Canadian publisher, whose books are widely read and enjoyed around the world. All told, I’ve worked on more than 200 books in my career as an editor. I’m also the owner and publisher of Auspicious Apparatus Press, which produces quality fiction in ebook, paperback, and audiobook formats.

I’m a frequent contributor to Anne Rice’s official Facebook page and have been dubbed by Anne as a Pillar of the Page—one who frequently contributes content considered worthwhile by Anne.

I live in Davao City, Philippines, with my wife and four lovely little Budgie birds—Max, Charlie, Bleu, and Sandy. “Wings of Paradise” is my first published short story.

Ghost Light

by Steven Savile

They told us we didn’t need to be afraid of the Russians anymore. They told us that they were our friends. What that meant was that we neutralized each other. Mutually assured destruction. That’s not the same as friendship.

We weren’t meant to worry when they annexed the Ukraine, they said. That was just reclaiming what was already theirs. Most of the Crimea was still Russian in their hearts, if not their passports. That’s what they told us. They made excuses when the missiles first launched into Syria, a scorched-earth policy meant to burn the land and ISIS with it. Or IS or ISIL or whatever we called the terrorists back then.

Most of us just believed what we were told. The Russians were the greatest threat we’d ever faced. They were the scourge of the East. They were the root of all Evil—capital E evil, not the small stuff—but we weren’t meant to worry because our friends were on the case. Their missiles and bombs and guns would cleanse the world, and we’d line the streets and cheer when our boys came home from the front as heroes.

That’s what they told us.

Pity is, it was all a pack of lies.

I don’t remember when it all started to unravel. Maybe there wasn’t a single defining moment. We like to think of things in neat terms. We look for a tipping point, an Archduke Ferdinand moment, but sometimes life—and especially death—just aren’t that clean.

I’m part of an older generation. We were brought up knowing our enemies were big things with little names: diseases like AIDS and HIV, superflus and flesh-eating bacteria. We knew we were destroying the world with our CFCs and polluting it by burning fossil fuels. But we were selfish. We wanted to drive our Escalades and our muscle cars and didn’t give a crap about our carbon footprint. We were here, this was our world, our one life, and we’d damn well live it the way we wanted to.

And then the Russians changed everything.

It was hard to believe that some craggy-faced vodka drinker could actually do it—lean forward and press the button. But he did. It probably wasn’t how I imagine it. The end of the world seldom is.

I like to imagine him knowing exactly what he was doing, lining up some ridiculously expensive Cohiba cigar and a bottle of Stoli, a well-thumbed copy of Das Kapital beside them, the holy trinity for a Russian patriot. I can imagine him clipping off the end of the cigar and sucking in the smoke, puff-puff-puff, followed by a long exhalation as smoke rings drifted up in front of his face. Then he washes the taste out of his mouth with one last, perfect shot of vodka and turns to a passage in the good book that brings him comfort. Because it’s a big thing, ending the world. The act needs a certain resigned serenity to it, a certain ritual. I don’t want to think about power brokers in a nuclear bunker arguing about times to detonation, viable targets, and strategic strikes. I guess I want to believe it was a better world back then.

I know it isn’t a better world now.

I was one of the lucky few. Or the unlucky few, depending upon your perspective. I was airborne on a 747 flying from Munich to London. Going home. Only, it turned out, there was no home to go to. We watched the clouds rise like fungus from the earth, the nuclear winds battering the hull, forcing the pilot to rise higher. The shockwaves came again and again like tidal surges. Of the 418 passengers, 197 didn’t want to land. They argued it would be better to fly until the fuel ran out and hope the plane came down in the ocean because that was a fast death. That way we’d not have to watch what had happened to the world. Two hundred and twenty-one people refused to give up hope. Two hundred and twenty-one people damned everyone on Flight BA949.

We didn’t land at Heathrow like we were supposed to. The pilot took us north, banking up towards the Highlands of Scotland. We didn’t understand why he did that at first, but the Scots built their roads to function as emergency runways. So we could land on a remote strip well out of any city, away from the radiation and the sickness that threatened. We didn’t think about stuff like altitude and the cold or how tough it would be to scavenge food when our new world was frozen. We just wanted to hide from the worst of the destruction.

Of course, we’d have to go into the cities eventually. We had a full roster of passengers, some with brilliant minds, others not so sharp. There were engineers, musicians, teachers, salesmen, you name it—the entire spectrum of knowledge was represented, thousands of years at the best schools in the world amassed between us. And no one could agree how long we’d have to wait before it’d be safe to venture into what had been civilization.

As we went into that first night, it was hard to believe that the sun would still rise the next day. But it did.

Some of us didn’t make it through the first week. We’d lost fourteen people by the end of the first month. I think it was the reality of life in a post-nuclear world that killed them. All the things we’d taken for granted, those precious status symbols we’d paid over-the-top prices for because they had a glowing apple for a logo, our cell phones and laptops, all were suddenly worthless. Our social network was reduced to the faces around us. The only tweets were from the birds in the trees. The only music we made ourselves, though we didn’t have much to sing about. It was hard to believe that it was all gone; not just generations of learning, but entire civilizations’ worth of understanding. Lost to the world.

We focused on shelter at first. Gutting the hulk of the plane to make sleeping bays. We each had a blanket, which wasn’t nearly enough to see us through winter. I didn’t have many friends in the group. I’d been on the flight alone. My family was back home in Epsom, a little town just south of London. We’d lived up on the Downs in a little cluster of two hundred houses called Langley Vale. I say we; I mean my wife, Em, and our best friend, Buster, a soft-coated Irish Wheaten Terrier we’d nicknamed The Terrorist. He was nine months old when the vodka-swiller pushed the button. Buster had barely started living. I thought about trying to walk home, but six hundred miles in the fallout might as well have been six thousand.

I wasn’t sure it would even be possible.

I thought about heading to the east coast of Scotland and trying to steal a boat. The water would’ve kept me away from the worst of the radiation. But I never took that course because deep down part of me knew Epsom was only seventeen miles from London. The blast radius of a one megaton nuke was about six miles.

The Tsar Bomba, the new Russian nuke, was a hundred megaton bomb. It had a fireball radius alone of two miles, meaning there was no City of London left. The radiation circle was nearly five miles wide with an expected 90 percent mortality rate from radiation sickness in just the first month or so. The air-blast radius came in two tiers. Within eight miles of detonation, the winds were forceful enough to tear down huge concrete-and-steel structures, rendering the devastation absolute. Up to twenty-one miles from the heart of the explosion, the nuclear winds were still damaging enough to demolish most buildings. As far as fifty miles away, people would experience third-degree burns to all exposed skin. Flammable material, like clothes, would burn away. It would have been like hell on Earth.

And that was the real reason I wasn’t thinking about trying to go home. I could only pray Em and Buster hadn’t suffered.

That was an odd thing, too. Suddenly I was thinking about religion, but I wasn’t religious. I’d always been a non-believer. A lot of the survivors, though, were born again in the wake of the world’s end. They kissed the ground and thought about everything in terms of prayer and miracles.

People were getting superstitious, too.

That happens when you’re reduced to firelight. It takes you back to a more primitive existence, and with it come primitive fears. We’ve never really grown out of them as a species. They’re still there, all of those old caveman fears we thought we’d left in the Stone Age. They’re hardcoded in our DNA, just waiting for disaster to reawaken them.

It didn’t take long before the first of the survivors started seeing things in the moonlight, shapes circling around the ruined plane. Out there. Watching. They rarely came close enough for us to get a good description, and everyone seemed to see something slightly different. Different sizes, different shapes, coloration, but one thing everyone agreed on—the phantoms moved on all fours. Piecing their different stories together, it sounded like everyone was describing their own version of a pack of stray animals, some dogs, maybe wolves, some more exotic; there was even a horse among the sightings. I didn’t think they had wolves in Scotland, but I didn’t want to stake my life on it.

What I didn’t tell anyone was that I’d seen something out there, too. A shape. Low. Golden fur matted with ash and dust and dirt. Nosing around in the undergrowth. It never came closer than maybe five hundred feet from the crashed plane, but that was close enough for me to recognize what it was.

A ghost light.

I kept what I saw to myself, but some people in the group must have worked out that everyone was seeing something similar flickering out there in the darkness of night.

Those dogs were a curse.

To see them was to know you were dead, even if death hadn’t caught up with your body yet.

It was only a matter of time.

I wasn’t ready to go. Nothing was going to make me give up my grip on this life until I was ready. I hadn’t survived a nuclear holocaust to give over my fate to phantom hounds. I’d leave, but on my terms. Though I had no idea what those terms actually were.

I started to look for a purpose, beyond the obvious, in living. I wondered if it might not be worth going on a pilgrimage, trying to find some of the old relics, maybe venturing over the water into Europe, try to find the Spear of Longinus or the Shroud of Turin, some kind of holy artifact that survivors could rally behind. Was that my hope I was looking for? Maybe the mainland hadn’t been hit as badly as Britain? That was something to cling on to, wasn’t it? The notion that old enmities had made us a target, but that somewhere out there, life was almost normal.

I thought about the old legends, about Glastonbury Tor and ley lines and the legends of Arthur, the Once and Future King, who was supposed to return in the hour of our greatest need. If ever there was a time for him to show up, this was it, wasn’t it? I thought about Saint Patrick charming the snakes out of Ireland and the old forest gods that predated modern faith. Herne the Hunter, Puck, and Robin Goodfellow. I thought about our warrior queen, Boadicea, and our Lionhearts and bravehearts and broken hearts. The landscape, sour now, reminded me of the burned monasteries and kings buried in carparks.

Surely, in all of this ruin, there must be some sort of symbol, something that could be used as a beacon to shine its light in our dark time?

Yusef, an old IT programmer with no useful skills in this broken new world, was the first to volunteer to become one of my Grail Knights. Hejdur and Heldur, two brothers from Iceland, offered their strength—and with both of them close to six-five and built like the proverbial brick shithouses, they had plenty of that to offer—and Priya, a mother of three from New York who’d lost everything just like me, completed the circle. Five of us from the original 418 survivors broke camp and set off south, walking out of the mountains into the nuclear winter.

I don’t remember the first time we noticed the shadow moving through the trees, but it was Yusef who saw it. He pointed through a gap in the skeletal limbs toward a deeper darkness he claimed was back there, but I couldn’t see it. Neither could the others. We believed him, though. It was one of two things: a dog, hungry, driven out of the shadows to follow us and find food, one that none of us could seem to get a fix on. Or Yusef’s days were marked.

I almost told him, but almost is a big word. I couldn’t. Not when it came right down to it. Telling someone you think they’re going to die because they’ve seen a ghost dog… well if it isn’t exactly bugfuck crazy, it certainly isn’t normal conversation, put it that way.

And if it wasn’t a ghost, then it was a flesh-and-blood animal, and it was only a matter of time before it became desperate enough to attack.

We were in the heart of its territory.

We made camp that night, huddled around the few sticks we’d managed to scavenge, warming our hands. We didn’t talk much at all. No matter how much life we managed to stir into the flames, they didn’t give off any real heat. I was shivering despite being layered up in several skintight tee shirts beneath my heavy-duty four-seasons fleece. I should have been sweating. But I just didn’t sweat anymore.

He saw it again. I know he did. But he didn’t say anything. That was the first real hint he knew what was going on. He was a smart guy, Yusef. When no one else was looking, he tugged down the collar of his shirt and I saw the blisters. He was sick.

The dog had come for him, come to shepherd him into a better death.

Again, I thought about the golden shadow shape that had dogged my footsteps since the plane; my own ghost light.

I wished he’d fought it. I wished he’d realized it didn’t have to end this way, that there had to be hope, there had to be miracles in this ruined land.

His answer was to tell me there were 23,000 nuclear warheads in existence. That was it. His version of a miracle. I didn’t grasp what he meant until we reached Arthur’s Seat and what had been Edinburgh Castle.

Twenty-three thousand warheads.

How many of them had been launched? Not just one or even a handful. When the Russians launched theirs, had we retaliated with Tridents and the Americans with their bombs, filling the sky with that long-promised mutual end? We had no way of knowing, of course. There weren’t secret factions out there with shielded computers and secret networks clued in to news broadcasts on hidden television stations. There was nothing. We hadn’t seen a soul since leaving the wreck. That alone scared me more than all the other things we had seen added together.

Edinburgh had been razed. Several walls had survived intact, the shadows of collapsed landmarks charred onto them as a reminder of the city that had been lost. The wind was the worst. It churned up the ash, making devils to blow down Princess Street. It stung my eyes.

I wept. And not just because of the dust.

There was no weakness in tears, no matter what I might have thought when I was a kid trying to learn to be a man.

We went down towards the River Leith, though in my mind I was calling it the Lethe, which made it feel like an entirely different river we had to cross. The Queen’s ship was down there. Or had been. The metal had buckled and warped under the incredible heat. Now the thing in the water was unrecognizable.

Staring, fixated at the hulk, I heard something.

Birds.

A huge murder of crows. Thousands upon thousands of them came banking and arching down the slope from the ruined city to ride the thermals out over the water. They cast a shadow across the world that might—if we truly were Grail Knights—have been a dragon. It wasn’t until the first of them fell out of the sky that I began to see the sickness in the flock. The surge of hope I’d felt at finally seeing some sign of life in the land died with them as one by one the birds fell, splashing down into the estuary.

It took an hour for the last of the circling birds to fall.

An hour of us watching them die.

I hated my eyes.

There was nothing there for us. We needed to move on. To hope that it was different in Newcastle or York or Leeds. We needed to believe that somewhere had survived. But with every passing mile, it became more obvious that no place had.

On the third morning out of Edinburgh, Yusef left us.

We’d slept around the campfire that night, taking refuge in an old Roman hillfort in the borderlands. When we woke, he wasn’t there. I stood in the doorway calling his name. My voice echoed across the Northumberland moors. Purple heathers stretched as far as the eye could see. Midges swarmed around us, but where a few weeks ago they would have fed on our blood, they left us alone now.

I saw the dog in the heather, playing. It raced in circles, chasing some invisible prey, each circle faster and tighter than the one before. I could have watched him play for hours. The way his tail was up and his gait changed to a prance as he finally tired was so familiar.

When the brothers emerged from the hillfort, I thought about pointing him out, but realized I didn’t want them to tell me they couldn’t see him.

Instead, I told them that Yusef was gone.

They didn’t say anything.

Maybe he’d walked off in the night to die alone so we wouldn’t have to worry about his body? What would we have done? Buried him? Built a cairn of stones over his corpse or left him to feed the animals? I realized we hadn’t discussed what we wanted to happen to us when we died. There were four of us left. We weren’t alone in this. Our deaths would require a certain measure of practicality from those who survived. We should agree on these kinds of things going in, shouldn’t we? It would save any arguments if someone wanted to be laid out for the birds or someone else wanted to be cut up into steaks to feed the rest of us.

I couldn’t remember the last time I’d been hungry.

Properly hungry.

I should have been ravenous.

But I wasn’t.

I remember a story, the Lambton Worm. I’d grown up with it. A local legend. I could only remember the first few lines of the poem, but I knew its lair was supposed to be around here somewhere.

Whisht! Lads, haad yor gobs

An’ aall tell ye aall an aaful story.

Whisht! Lads haad yor gobs

An’ aa’ll tell ye ’boot the worm.

The legend went that a local lad had skipped church to go fishing but hooked the devil rather than a fish. But thinking Old Toby a mere lamprey-like worm, the lad tossed it down a well and forgot all about it. As penance for his rebellious youth, the lad joined the Crusaders and went off to the Holy Land while the worm grew and grew down that well, until it grew so big, it could wrap itself seven times around the base of Worm Hill. The worm would snatch local children, growing fat on them, you see. With armor and sword magically blessed by a witch—the blessing itself heavily weighted with a curse—the lad’s promised his armor will protect him and his sword slay the worm. But after the worm is dead, the witch requires the lad to kill the first living thing he sees to pay the blood price and seal his pact with her. He slew the worm in a raging river, then looked up at the riverbank to see his beloved dog barking, full of excitement at its master’s return. The lad couldn’t kill his dog, and in breaking the pact brought a curse down on his family that saw nine generations of his descendants doomed—his son drowned at sea, his grandson killed at the Battle of Marston Moor, his great-grandson slain in the Battle of Wakefield, his great-great-grandson trampled under the hooves of his horse, and so on.

We were a day’s walk from Worm Hill.

The dragon-slaying sword was supposedly sealed away in the monument built atop the hill.

Was that the kind of truly British relic that could unite the people?

The story of the Lambton Worm was a variant of the Saint George tale, with the worm replacing the dragon. There was no more British a legend than that of George and the Dragon. Could the sword under the hill be Ascalon, the saint’s fabled sword?

The chance, however remote, that it might be gave me something to focus on as we walked. Part of me truly believed we needed a miracle to return life to a dead land. No matter how remote the possibility that Ascalon actually existed might be. I wasn’t thinking rationally. I knew that.

I told the others what I had in mind.

They followed me to the monument.

Before we disappeared inside the cavern at the foot of the hill, Priya let slip that she’d seen a stray trailing us for the last hour. Neither of the brothers had seen it, and I didn’t dare admit that I’d been seeing my own dog for the last month or so, or that he was watching us even now from a spot up by the Athenian structure that guarded over the top of the hill. There was so much destruction over the last hundred miles we’d traveled, it was amazing to think the ancient monument was still standing.

We lost Priya in the darkness.

Four of us walked into that cave, but only three of us emerged.

There was no sword in the stone waiting for me to find it.

We crawled about inside the cavern, reaching out blindly to feel our way along the walls in the claustrophobic darkness that smothered us. The air was old in there. Stale. It didn’t taste like the air outside, which in turn didn’t taste like the air I’d grown up breathing. The air now carried the dust of our lost world. Every lungful inhaled was another little bit of our loves that we’d lost drawn into us. That almost made the hell of it all bearable. But again with that word, almost.

I don’t know what happened. There was no fight. No screams. But with no light, we were fumbling around in there, trying to feel our way towards a prize we could never hope to find. It was a stupid way to go about it, I know that now. It wasn’t as if the sword would just be lying on an altar down there, waiting to be drawn up. I had tried to sell myself a lie that there was something Excaliburish about the whole thing, and that by raising the sword, people might start to believe that our greatest hero had found his way back and that we would prevail, we would batter back the darkness and find a way to rebuild. But even I didn’t buy the lie I was selling anymore.

I followed the golden blur of my ghost light out into the fading twilight. The Celts used to call it the time between times. It was one of the two hours of the day when magic was possible.

I guess the only magic here was that I was still alive.

I’m sure the brothers felt the same way, but like their Scandinavian stereotype, they weren’t very talkative. At least not with me. I think the fact that we’d lost Yusef and Priya weighed on them. But they didn’t argue when I said we had to move on.

We weren’t going to find a holy cup or a gleaming sword or any other sort of relic. I had come to accept that. I didn’t want to believe it, but I accepted it. We were still three hundred miles from the Downs, where I’d made my home with Em and Buster. I wanted to think that a lot could happen over three hundred miles. But as each mile passed beneath our trudging feet with more of the same dust and decay to show for it, how much could really change over that distance?

Heldur was the next to admit he’d seen something, but he was much more precise in his description of it. It wasn’t an animal. It was a sallow-skinned naked man, feral, his face blistered and raw, clumps of hair fallen out to reveal suppurating sores and puss seeping from his scalp.

I wasn’t sure if he was Heldur’s ghost, or if the feral man was the first survivor we’d found.

I’m not sure which possibility was worse.

Hejdur woke us in the middle of the night to say he’d heard something and crept out to investigate because he was sure he’d seen the same feral man lurking close to our makeshift camp. That gave me the creeps, but to be blunt, better some feral enemy come at us tooth and claw than the grimmest reaper turn out to be an irradiated corpse skittering across the blasted landscape. That was the stuff of nightmares right there. If he was real, we could put him out of his misery.

That’s how I’d started thinking; the first man we’d encountered, and I was picturing ways to end his life. I didn’t understand what was happening to me.

When Hejdur returned without finding the man, the brothers decided they were going after him.

I didn’t follow them.

I needed to get my head around the fact that I was seeing monsters where there were—at worst—desperate, dying men. I didn’t like what the long walk was turning me into.

It wasn’t until I’d been walking for an hour in the opposite direction that I realized I had no intention of heading back to the camp. I was going home. Alone.

Only I wasn’t alone, was I?

I was following my own golden ghost light south toward home.

It didn’t take more than twenty miles for him to make himself known again. This time as we walked, he kept looking back over his shoulder, as if to make sure I was still following.

His tail whipped back and forth, always happy, just the way I remembered him. The closer we came to home, the more familiar my ghost light became.

He’d found a stick.

It might as well have been the canine equivalent of Ascalon or Excalibur or whatever other name that fabled sword went by the way he strutted with it in his mouth. So proud. There was a wonderful nobility about the way he watched over me as he led me home. There was no judgment for my having not been there when he and Em had needed me the most.

I wept as I walked, a single track of tears trailing down my dirt-smeared cheek. I was sure I was losing my mind, driven mad by the solitude, twisted by the grief until I’d finally broken.

I thought of all of the other animals the survivors had seen around the wreckage. A few had seen wild horses, flocks of sparrows, owls in the trees, crows, dogs like Buster; there was even a hart.

They were all soul guides, psychopomps.

Their role in every culture was the same: to shepherd the soul into the Afterlife.

But I wasn’t ready to go.

Not yet.

I wanted to go home first.

We reached the crater that had been London. All that remained was mud and silt and broken stone buried under a cloud of ash. Long shadows were burned into the ground by the heat from the nuclear blasts. Twisted wrecks of cars and buses resembled nothing more than struts of old meccano. I reached down to stroke Buster, needing to feel the familiar comfort of his soft fur beneath my fingers.

He hadn’t barked once in three hundred miles.

He looked up at me expectantly.

Once upon a time I would have dipped my hand into my pocket for some sort of treat when we walked through the woods. We were denied those simple pleasures now. But we were together, and that was miracle enough to this non-believer.

At last, a miracle in a broken, blasted land.

We were a day from home.

I hunkered down beside my best friend, ruffling my fingers through his fur, and said I only wanted one day, just one more.

He looked at me with pity in his eyes and understanding.

I wished I could read his mind.

“Penny for them,” I said, as he inclined his head, looking at me.

He answered by licking the ash off my fingertips.

I couldn’t remember the last time I’d eaten—or what that last meal had been. Fish, maybe?

That felt like something I ought to remember.

We walked through what remained of the capital. Everywhere I turned there were ghosts. They offered their own mournful laments carried away by the wind.

I saw lovers holding hands.

I saw an old man on the corner smiling at the ghost of the woman who’d been his wife for sixty years.

I saw kids on the corner kicking a football against a wall that wasn’t there.

I saw an elderly woman weighed down by carrier bags overflowing with groceries she’d never eat.

I saw a boy pushing a bike and girls skipping rope.

I saw all these signs of life, normality, but none of them saw me.

They all had that same glazed expression on their faces, locked in their shared moment of death. They were just the last lingering memories of life the city clung to. They weren’t real.

Neither were the buildings.

They were just more memories. That explained how streets led into the wrong streets, missing out huge sections of the city as we walked, each step one step closer to home.

We shared one last night under the stars, Buster and I.

There was fire in the sky as the night remembered the death of the world.

It wasn’t beautiful.

There was no beauty left in the world.

Buster was anxious. He wanted to be on the move. He didn’t like the rumbling thunder off in the distance. The sound—or maybe it was the change in barometric pressure—made him uncomfortable. I hated that I couldn’t soothe him. So instead of sleep, we walked on.

We arrived on the Downs at sunrise.

The other hour when magic was in the air.

Langley Vale was in a dip in the rolling hills. What that meant was that the two hundred houses were saved from the worst of the nuclear wind. Seventeen miles and some from ground zero meant that some of the houses that had once traded hands for upwards of half a million pounds still stood. The old school with its prefab guts had blown away. There wasn’t even a shadow where it had stood.

Buster whined as I stood there, looking at the raw wound in the land where it’d been, remembering my first kiss that had happened in that old building. He wanted to move on. He was in a hurry to get home.

We entered Grosvenor Road at the top of the village. The old street sign was buckled, half the letters blistered and bubbled away from the metal.

Buster was half-jumping with every step now, so close to the bungalow where we all lived.

The long tarmac drive hadn’t been repaired in the thirty years since I’d first walked up it. Weeds grew wild, coming up through the cracks. The old sycamore was split, half its trunk torn open and in the grips of mold, while behind it the three oaks were gone, their roots ripped up. Bricks and broken mortar gathered around the fallen trees. Bar one wall, they were all that remained of my home.

This wasn’t the homecoming I’d promised myself.

I walked through the rubble, my faithful friend at my side.

Along with all the horror stories of after, they never tell you about the flash burn that follows the rolling out of the nuclear wind. It’s like a photograph imprinted on the wall in a perfect silhouette. Em was there. So was Buster. I could see her crouched down beside him. Holding him.

I wondered if he’d been frightened.

I couldn’t bear that thought.

I knew my wife. As terrified as she was, her thoughts would have been for Buster. I could hear her now murmuring: Shhhh, shhhh, it’ll be all right, it’ll be all right…

I wasn’t a Grail Knight, I knew.

I wasn’t any sort of hero who might unify the survivors after the bombs.

I was just a guy called Steve, desperate to go home to a life that was over.

I hunkered down beside Buster, within touching distance of the ash shadow burned into the last wall of my home, and let him lick my face.

He had done his duty.

He had been my guide.

I was ready to admit the truth: that I had never walked away from that wreckage. That everything, the weeks and months that followed in that endless aching journey to get here, was my soul coming to terms with the truth.

I saw movement in the shadow as Em’s blackened outline slowly rose.

I saw her hand reach out.

Buster left my side, walking into the shadow beside her.

They were my life.

And now that it was over, they could be my forever after.

I was ready.

I could go now.

I walked towards them, my shadow joining with theirs on the wall.

A Word from Steven Savile

Steven and Buster.

I used to say that I didn’t write stories; I wrote little pieces of me. Sure, that’s a bit pretentious, but the idea is that the author puts a lot of himself into his work, and in this case, there’s M, my wife (so not quite Em), and Buster. I was raised in Langley Vale on the Downs in Epsom, and it’s one of the few places in the world that truly feels like home. So, when I was asked to write something for this collection, it felt only right that it should be a sort of homecoming. They say you can never go home again. I like to think that isn’t true.

That’s the thing: I’ve changed a lot as I’ve grown older. I used to be all about the adventure. I’ve toured the States, backpacked across Europe; hell, I’ve even upped sticks and emigrated to Sweden, but now all I really crave from life are the simple things, and all of those are at home. So, just like the Steve in the story, I like to think I’d move Heaven and Earth to get back there when the End came. Sorry, I mean if… if the End came… if.

Steve’s latest novel is Sunfail.

Kristy’s Song

(a Pennsylvania short story)

by Michael Bunker

One

Brighton Boxes and Q

She won’t go in a store when she’s not working. It’s just a thing of hers. I don’t explain it, except to explain it away. I tell people that she’d rather lie just outside the door, out of the way, and watch strangers zoned on Q pass by.

The door to Marty’s slid closed behind me with a whoosh, and I watched through the glass as she moved to the side, circled twice, and plopped down on the cement sidewalk to wait.

“She can come in, you know,” Marty said from behind the counter.

“I know.”

“I’d probably even find her a treat around here somewhere,” Marty said as he gestured with obvious irony at the sparse shelves.

“What can I say? Kristy doesn’t come inside unless she’s working. I don’t want to make her come in.”

Marty cocked his head to the side and smiled. “What is it you two do again, anyway?”

Again? I’d never told Marty what I do.

I smiled. “I run errands. Do some off-book deliveries if you must know, or if you’re taking notes for Transport. Nothing big.”

Marty’s face worked hard to feign hurt and insult.

“I… I… You know I don’t deal with Transport. I’m no rat spy.”

I smiled again, showing him I was joking. I didn’t know if he informed for Transport or not, but it wouldn’t do to make him think I suspected him. For now, I didn’t.

“Man, you gotta be careful with talk like that,” Marty said mostly under his breath. “Ain’t much love for TRACE around here, but a guy could get shanked if some people thought he was spilling to Transport.”

“I know,” I said. And I did. “I was joking.”

“Well, don’t joke around like that,” Marty said. His brow dipped and he looked at me through narrowed eyes. “We’re all just trying to get by, man, and besides, I don’t care what you do. I don’t know anyone who doesn’t have some kind of extracurricular income. God knows I do.”

I nodded slightly and held Marty’s gaze, not giving anything away. As I expected, when I didn’t break in, he kept talking.

“Yeah, and on that note, I… And this is… you know…”

“I know,” I said.

“Well, it’s just that I have a large quantity of clean Q if you’re interested. Off-grid stuff. No tracking codes or tagents.”

“Nah.”

“Maybe if you were going out near the hangers or anywhere by a refusenik camp.”

“I’m not.”

“But…”

“I don’t use Q,” I said. “I’m still off-line and got no thought of logging on anytime soon.”

“Yeah. Yeah. I know,” Marty said. “I remember that. But… you move around a lot, you know. Doing whatever it is you do. And you meet people. Know people.”

I looked outside, and from up near the counter, I could see Kristy as she sniffed a passerby. I knew if she smelled TRACE or Transport she’d let me know. The real reason she chose to stay outside.

“Yeah,” I nodded at Marty. “I know people. I move around. But I don’t know the kind of people you’re talking about.”

Marty’s head rocked back a little and his lips pulled into a smirk. “I’m stuck here, man. I don’t get around. I have to make contacts when I can. Limited clientele and all that.”

“I don’t deal contraband Q, Marty.”

“Hey… Woah!” Marty said. His hands went out flat and he pushed them up and down slowly. They, the hands, said, “shut up, man. Keep it down!” He fidgeted with some protein packets on the counter. “I’m just saying, if you know anyone.”

“I don’t.”

“Okay, then. Just thought I’d, you know, keep you up on what’s down, you know? I gotta communicate to make a living.”

“No need for Q,” I said.

Marty nodded and shrugged.

“Got any Brighton boxes?” I asked. I made eye contact with the man, gauging his reaction. Looking for any information he might be hiding behind his words.

Marty’s eyes widened. “Woah again, my friend.” A smile touched his face. “Now we’re talking. Yeah, in fact I… Why? You moving some stuff? Anything good? Anything I… might want to know about?”

Brighton boxes are ultra-heavy-duty transport boxes of all sizes, from egg-carton size up to shipping containers, designed with some high-tech liner material that could obscure the contents from prying eyes, scanning, x-ray, infrared, or just about any other invasive technology, including all signal transfers. Transport uses them in moving ammunition and war materiel to hide the contents from TRACE rebels. Likewise, TRACE uses contraband or commandeered Brighton boxes to hide their own war goods from TRACER drones and crowd scanners. It’s the way of war. When a war lasts long enough and enough money is involved, both sides end up with most of the same technologies at some point.

Brighton boxes are also used widely by noncombatants. Bootleggers, forgers, and dealers in any kind of illegal contraband love the boxes… when they can get them.

I reached in my pocket and pulled out three small, solid-gold buttons and held them for a moment while Marty’s eyes focused on them. Then I let them slide from my palm onto the counter.

“What the f—”

“Easy, Marty,” I said, “I’m dealing in real money today.”

“Holy mother of many sons!” Marty said as one of his hands scooped the gold off the counter and into the other hand. “I… I have some boxes, but not that many!” He brought one of the buttons to his mouth and bit down.

“Wow,” Marty said. “I don’t think I’ve had a customer pay in gold in… hell, I don’t even remember how long it’s been.”

“The boxes?” I said.

“What size you need?”

“Shoe-box size.”

“I have five that size,” Marty said as he shuffled through a curtain of hanging beads to retrieve the boxes. When he returned, he set five of them on the counter. One at a time, he opened the boxes to show me they were empty and that the special liners were intact. When he got to the fifth box, he slowed down, caught my eye, and smiled.

“I don’t have change for that much gold, partner,” Marty said, “and I know you said you don’t need Q. But Q is what I have.”

He opened the fifth box, and I saw it was filled with the little white pills of Quadrille, the drug used by almost 100 percent of the population to minimize the negative effect the direct-Internet BICE chips can have on brain function. Basically, Q exists to keep people passive and mind-surfing so they don’t go crazy from too much information assaulting them all the time.

“I don’t need the Q, man,” I said again.

“Take it,” Marty said and threw up his hands. “Like I said, I don’t have change and you already paid for it.”

I frowned and sucked in a deep breath.

“Listen,” Marty said, “I already told you this’s pure, off-grid stuff and untraceable. No tagents. But it’s in the box, so it can’t be tracked even if I’m lying, which I’m not. So just do me a favor and take it. Dump it off on a Q dealer or something. I know you run into a lot of people I can never get to. It’s good stuff, and when they come back to you for more because it’s that damn good, just point ’em my way. You’ll be doing me a favor.”

“I don’t like the stuff,” I said. “It’s off my radar, and it’s dangerous to deal in. They put you under the retraining camp if they catch you moving this stuff in quantity.”

From the corner of my eye, I saw Kristy alert. No one else would have noticed it because she was an old master at this, but I saw her slide backward, pushing herself with her paws like she was stretching; then her hind end stood up so I could see her through the door.

In two steps I was at the door and had kicked it open before spinning on my heels and heading back to the counter in a hurry. Kristy calmly entered the store before the door slammed shut behind her, and in a single bound she was on my heel.

“Back door?” I said to Marty.

“What? What is it?”

“Back door! Now!”

Marty popped to attention and pushed the beads back with one hand while indicating with the other. “Through here, man.”

I snatched up the boxes, including the box with the Q, and rushed around the counter with Kristy hard on my heels. Through the back door and left down the alley. We picked up speed without running, and in ten steps we were turning right down a darkened narrow street, staying in the shadows.

“I need a hide,” I told Kristy, who immediately bolted ahead of me.

We were fast-walking along a frontage of New Detroit’s endless blocks of mostly empty condos and apartments. The streets were deliberately narrow, designed to make sure there would never be ground transport traffic on them. The city was made to be walker friendly. Designed to avoid the mistakes of the old world. What resulted was a maze of dark roads walled by uninhabited buildings, like cliffs stretching up to the sky.

Two, three, four entryways and then Kristy bolted into one of the alcoves and bounced her front paws off the door.

“Good girl,” I said as I set the boxes down and pulled a code card and thin scramble box from my pocket. I slid the card into the reader, then clipped two small alligator clips from the scramble to the metallic leads and pressed my thumb to the reader on the box. The door buzz-clicked and popped open half an inch. I snatched up the boxes before propping the door with my foot just as Kristy jumped ahead of me and cleared the first flight of stairs before waiting for me on the landing.

There was a maintenance bin near the bottom of the stairs and as I approached it, I snapped open the fifth box, the one with the Q in it, and dumped the contents into the container before kicking the bin back into the shadows.

Thousands of Unis worth of Q, but I didn’t need it, and no way was I going to get pinched moving contraband Q loaded with tagents that could lead Transport directly to me.

That’s if Marty was trying to screw me.

I couldn’t know if he was or not, and I wasn’t going to gamble and find out.

I took the stairs two at a time. Kristy bolted upward again, clearing each flight on her way up, watching for eyes in the night, sensing any danger. She knew what she was doing, and I let her work. In this part of the job I’m merely dumb hands, carrying contraband or working doors. She’s the brains of the operation.

She keeps me from getting caught.

On the seventh floor she waited at the fire door leading to a hallway, so I pushed through it and watched as she jetted to the left, sprinting toward the end of the hall. She stopped at an apartment, 794, and bounced both front paws off the door.

Scramble box and card out. The click as the lock retracted, and we were in the abandoned apartment. Not abandoned. Never inhabited. I pushed the door closed again behind us, and for the moment, we were safe.

She’d found just the right hide. Just enough walls to keep us from showing up on drone infrared or other scanning device.

Who knows how Kristy does it? I don’t. I just know she keeps me safe.

I try to do the same for her.

Two

Kristy

I sing an old song to her when she’s done a good job, and she loves it as much as she loves cheese sandwiches and canned meat. Dog food is impossible to find because there aren’t that many dogs up on the Shelf. Maybe there are a lot out in the wild, but in the cities they’re a luxury, I think.

Her tail wags and it’s almost like she smiles when I sing her song. At least that’s how it seems to me. I can’t tell you why or what this song might mean to her. It’s just an old song my mom used to sing to me back when I was young and before Dad died in the war and we made the move from New Pennsylvania up to the Shelf. To the Promised Land. Or promised city. New Detroit. One of the big cities built by Transport’s Central Planning Unit back when they thought the masses from Old Earth would be migrating here by the millions. Before the war came here too.

I press my back against a wall in the apartment’s back bedroom and slide down until I’m seated. Kristy sits in front of me and listens to her song.

Nobody came. To New Detroit, that is.

Almost nobody.

A city built for half a million colonists inhabited by a couple dozen thousand. Maybe fewer.

And here I am in a never-inhabited apartment in New Detroit singing Kristy’s song to her because I’m fresh out of cheese sandwiches and canned meat on this trip. She’s happy nonetheless. She’s always confident we’ll get home.

Home.

Funny word for a dissident camp where untagged refuseniks like me wait around to get raided and rounded up for lacking implanted ID.

Even as I think these thoughts, I sing for Kristy because I can sing that song without concentrating on it. My mouth knows it by heart and my voice knows it by feel, so my mind can drift.

So I sing and consider. Multitasking.

And Kristy smiles.

Another trip and, as I figure it, one day closer to getting caught. Everyone without some form of implanted identification eventually gets disappeared, and me with no BICE implanted in the back of my head, and no TRID in my arm… it’s always been just a matter of time.

I’ve said that to myself every day for the last three years. And if it weren’t for Kristy, any one of those days could have been my last as a free man. Would have been my last, for sure. She’s saved me from being captured—jailed or killed as a rebel—at least once or twice a week since I first made the decision to have my BICE removed. That was three years ago. Young and dumb and impetuous, I was then. Still am, but I was worse then. Not that I regret getting the BICE removed. I’d do it again. But I do wish I’d studied up on it more.

BICE. The Beta Internet Chip Enhancement. The ultimate means of control. It married Transport’s central monetary control system with a mandated personal biometric identification utility. The BICE is an all-in-one, easily implanted system that gives every user access to the Internet in their heads; and, of course, it makes sure every user needs regular doses of the drug Quadrille… Q… to help them assimilate all the information they’re bombarded with without frying their brains. All in one fell swoop, the geniuses at Transport had given people what they really wanted—round-the-clock information and entertainment—while ensuring that they’d remain passive and obedient and easily trackable.

I had to laugh to myself. It’d all worked so well for the ruling Transport Authority; that is, until TRACE said no to all of that. Even here on New Pennsylvania.

I had the chip removed at a hack shop with no understanding at all what it meant to be on New Pennsylvania untagged. The hack shop sure didn’t tell me I’d be lucky to last two days out there with no chip. Especially up on the Shelf. They didn’t tell me the odds. Maybe because the word odds implies there’s a chance to win. A chance to escape. The probabilities were so miniscule, they just chose not to disclose that to the young and dumb and impetuous.

They weren’t in the business of warning away customers. They were in the business of slicing open heads and pulling out BICE chips in exchange for gold.

They talked about keeping the wound clean and how to avoid infection.

They talked about getting off Q and how to ease the withdrawals.

What they did not talk about is the fact that the whole system was designed to ferret out rebels and refuseniks. To arrest them and remove them from society. They didn’t tell me that I could no longer use Unis… Unilets… the system of money used on New Pennsylvania. They didn’t tell me that Transport’s TRACER drones could scan for BICE or TRID data on people as they fly by. They didn’t tell me that by removing my BICE, I’d basically declared war on Transport. No… those things they forgot to tell me. Most of their customers disappeared in a day or two, so no one else told me either.

Maybe I’m making it sound totally hopeless.

There are refuseniks. And the salvagers who come in from the flats and deadlands. The brave ones who make their way up from off the Shelf. Some of them are smart and they survive. The refusenik camps are always around, even if the men and women who live there are usually caught; the population rotated. Replaced by someone else young and dumb and impetuous like me.

And I’ve been out here three years now. Making runs and trips without a BICE or TRID into New Detroit on a weekly basis. And I haven’t been caught. Yet.

But that’s only because of Kristy.

* * *

Kristy finally sensed that song time was over and she curled up at my feet. She didn’t even ask for a cheese sandwich by sniffing at my pockets. She knew the song was her only payment for now.

I stacked the Brighton boxes against the wall next to me and then closed my eyes, pressing my head against the wall. When I did that… pushing my head firmly like that… the lack of the BICE there reminded me that I’m not safe. I’m never safe.

Don’t get too comfortable, Kevin. That’s what I’d say to myself whenever I had time on a trip to close my eyes. They are coming for you.

My eyes are closed now, and I reach over and touch the boxes again with my right hand. I don’t know why the strangers need the Brighton boxes, but they’re paying well and paying in gold, and I’m pretty sure I don’t want to know why they want them. Some voice around a fire back at the refusenik camp speculated that the newly arrived strangers wanted the boxes in order to acquire and move okcillium. That was always the rumor, though. I wondered if it was true this time. The strangers had TRACE rebels written all over them, and I wondered what they would do with the okcillium if it were true. Five Brighton boxes of okcillium was a ton of the stuff. Enough to blow up the planet a few times over, if that’s what they wanted it for.

Though my eyes were closed, I squeezed them even tighter. None of that is my business. I’m only selling the boxes. What the strangers do with them… well… that has nothing to do with me.

I’d found okcillium before. A source for the stuff. At least I’m pretty sure it was okcillium. But I hadn’t told anyone where I found it.

One time, Kristy and I were trapped in an apartment complex just like this one. I’d been forced to tear through a wall to escape a wily Transport agent, who was closing in on us.

Trapped, Kristy had bounced off a certain spot on the wall, so I’d kicked through the sheetrock to make a hole for our escape.

That’s when I found it. A small ball of metal-like material clamped to the wiring of the apartment. Like a fishing weight squeezed tight around the wires that ran through the walls.

It had to be okcillium because it fit the description and because I’d done wiring like this before and had never seen anything like it.

I’d heard a rumor from an old salvager, half drunk and blathering near a fire in the refusenik camp. He said Transport had rigged the whole city with okcillium. So they could zap it somewhere else if they wanted to.

Everyone thought the old man was nuts. Maybe he was. But then I found the stuff clamped to a wire. And I didn’t have time to remove it or check it out. The Transport agent was on our tails, and Kristy was through the hole as soon as it was big enough. She’d found a place in the wall that even had a gap in the firewall, so we were able to escape into an adjacent apartment.

We escaped that night because of Kristy. Again. And now I knew a secret about okcillium.

* * *

I felt Kristy move and my eyes flew open. She wasn’t fully alerting, but I could tell she was checking things out. I blinked a few times, trying to get my eyes to adjust to the darkness. That’s when Kristy bolted to the door. As fast as I could, I snatched up the boxes and I was right after her.

Down the hall, back the way we’d come in, but this time Kristy halted at the stairs and stood still for a moment. Frozen. Tail pointing straight back. Then she was rushing past me again, back toward the apartment we’d just vacated. This can’t be good. It has to mean that Transport is either already in the building, or close to it. Kristy is smart. No way she’d run down stairs if we were trapped.

But now what?

Three

Lost

I’ll have to kick a hole in the wall. Just like that last time I had to do it.

We’re back in the apartment where we were resting only moments earlier, and I watch as Kristy sniffs the wall before bouncing off a place closer to the closet.

I kick. Kick and kick as sheetrock falls to the floor and dust floats in the air. Dust is a common thing in New Detroit, when the wind blows the limestone powder from the cliffs and coats the town.

Now it’s sheetrock dust in the air and as soon as the hole is big enough, Kristy is through it to the other side. I kick some more, expanding the hole to man size.

I hear noise coming from down the hall. Most likely it’s Transport agents on our trail. I wonder if the agents found the Q I dumped in the bin downstairs. I wonder if the Q had tagents that would trace it first to Marty, then to me. Probably. I’d even bet on it. Even if I escape this, they’ll be looking for me now.

That’s when I see it again. An okcillium ball clamped to the wiring. Just like before.

This time I pull out my knife and take the precious time (time that I don’t really have) to pry the soft metal from the wiring. In a few moments and with a few twists, I work the ball free and drop it into my pocket. Maybe when I’m caught I can bribe the Transport agents with the okcillium and the gold buttons I have with me.

Probably not. Why make a deal when they can just arrest me and take the stuff if they want it?

I’m through the wall, where Kristy is waiting impatiently. She knows what to do but she always has to wait for the dumb human to catch up.

Once I’ve cleared the hole, Kristy darts through the facing apartment and bounces off the front door. Then we’re through the door and running down the hallway, and for a moment I feel like we’re going to make it again. Another narrow escape.

Kristy is ahead of me and she bounds down the stairs at a full gallop. Fur and feet and purpose, and that’s all she is now. This time she doesn’t wait for me at the landings, and I get a bad feeling in the pit of my stomach.

Why isn’t she waiting for me?

Something’s up. I get it. She knows there are Transport agents waiting downstairs, and we don’t have time to go through another wall. I keep following her, but the feeling of loss and despair washes over me like a baptism. Cold fear, unmixed.

I think about dropping the boxes. I should drop them, but I don’t.

I make it to the bottom floor and see Kristy engaged in battle with two Transport agents just inside the door leading to the lobby. One of the agents has dropped his pistol and then landed on it hard when Kristy attacked, while the other one shoots wildly, trying to scare Kristy while not killing his partner. Neither one sees me.

My mind races. Kristy has made this sacrifice for me. To get me out of the building. But can I leave without her? No. She looks up at me and barks twice before launching herself at the standing agent who has his gun aimed and shaking but isn’t firing.

The agent stumbles backward and reaches for the door, trying to effect his own escape. I think about dropping the Brighton boxes again, abandoning the mission altogether, but for some reason I don’t do it. Agent #1 is still down and not moving. Shock and fear, I guess. I think about going for his gun, but he’s lying on it, and I know I won’t get it before Agent #2 cuts me down. I clasp the boxes against my chest with one arm and push myself against the wall near the door. I’m frozen, not knowing what to do.

Then the tide turns.

Kristy takes down #2, dragging him groundward by his arm, twisting it as bone and flesh give way, and his gun hits the ground. I scramble for it and snag it just before he can reach to reclaim it.

I point the gun at the injured agent and Kristy releases his arm. The appendage is bloody and wrecked. Twisted. Like this world and all that’s in it.

“Easy cowboy,” I say. “Don’t get killed over this.”

The agent slides down to the ground in silence, cradling his arm. The fight’s gone out of him.

Once out the door, Kristy and I beat feet through the lobby, and I kick open the front door and we’re onto the narrow street.

That’s when I see the TRACER drone. Too late. It spins on me and I’m trapped.

I see the aiming eye, and think I hear the drone thrum into action, ready to fire. Now I drop the boxes. Finally.

Kristy brushes by my leg and I turn to see her race down the street. All brown and gold and speed. In a split second, the drone that has me dead-to-rights spins and fires at Kristy. But she’s bobbing and weaving as she races down the street, and the drone misses every time.

I aim steadily with both hands and fire, hitting the drone broadside. It sparks and whirrs and spins back in my direction. I fire twice more, hitting it with both shots, and watch as the TRACER spins wildly, sparks flying, crashing into the complex across the street in a brilliant fireball. Another drone buzzes by, seemingly unaware of me or the wrecked TRACER. I figure the last message the downed drone sent was when it fired at Kristy escaping up the block. The second drone is after her now, but she’s long gone.

I gather up the Brighton boxes.

I’m alone.

* * *

I made it back to the camp. I don’t know how I did it without Kristy, but I did.

I looked for her on the way. At least I tried to, but the drones were getting too thick in that sector. So I headed to the only place I figured she might go. The refusenik camp. I hoped to find her waiting there for me.

I didn’t even know if the camp would be there. The untagged move around a lot, rarely staying in the same place more than a few nights in a row. There is no real leadership among the refuseniks. No one decides to move the camp. It’s just a feeling that comes over the place and soon one after another of the refuseniks, salvagers, and rebels pack up their meager belongings and shuffle off to the next hide.

But it was there. The camp was. Right where I’d left it. Down in a small valley not far from the cliffs, where rainwater had cut a hide, fifty feet deep and a hundred yards long into the raised limestone floor.

Small fires cast shadows on the valley walls and a sentry, who had no fire, recognizes me as I shuffle down into the hide from the darkness.

* * *

The strangers are happy to get the boxes, but I find no joy in delivering them. My eyes scan the camp for Kristy, but I know if she were here, she’d have found me already.

The man who seems to be the leader of the rebel strangers, a man they call Pook, tells me he’s pleased and thankful to get the boxes. I tell him they’d cost me a lot—too much—so I hope he makes good use of them.

“We will,” he says. “I guarantee it.”

I don’t know why I do it, but just then I reach into my pocket and clutch the small okcillium ball. At least I think it’s okcillium. What do I know about okcillium that isn’t rumor or hearsay? I roll it around my palm in my pocket as I stare at Pook, trying to read him.

Friend or foe?

Friend, I think.

Pook is inviting me into the strangers’ small camp for a cup of coffee, but I feel like I hear his voice afar off. Part of my brain is turned off, nonfunctioning, and another part is thinking about Kristy. Only the tiniest bit of my attention hears the word “coffee.”

Coffee? Who has coffee up on the Shelf?

That’s when a blur of motion catches my eye, brown and gold fur catching light from the small fire.

Kristy!

She bounces off me and goes immediately to sniff out Pook and his team.

Satisfied. Friends.

She bounds back into my arms and we both fall to the ground, me laughing hysterically, her licking my face.

Lying on the ground, I see Pook smile. He doesn’t know the story, but he knows it. Know what I mean?

A man and his dog. It’s an old story.

I struggle to my feet, with Kristy trying to wrestle me back to the ground. I reach into my pocket again, grabbing the okcillium ball. I toss it to Pook. He sees it move through the light of the fire and catches it deftly before drawing it up to his face. His eyes narrow and he smiles again.

“Where did you get this?” he asks.

“I’ll tell you for that cup of coffee,” I say.

“Deal. And we have some canned meat for your dog if she likes it.”

“She does. She does.” I pause. “Cheese sandwiches?”

Pook smiles. “We can fix something like that I’m sure.”

“Then maybe this relationship’ll work out,” I say.

A Word from Michael Bunker

Michael and Kristy, ca. 1982.

My first time up on the Shelf! That’s right. Although the Pennsylvania stories—including my original stories that have been gathered into The Pennsylvania Omnibus, the short stories I’ve written in the Pennsylvania world, and the dozens of fanfic stories (some of which were published in the Tales from Pennsylvania anthology)—have had fun exploring the world of New Pennsylvania, I personally have never written any stories set in the derelict cities built on the limestone Shelf that cuts across the primary occupied continent of New PA. A few of the short stories, including Bob Crosley’s fantastic short story Shelf Life, were set in the cities on the Shelf, and it’s from Bob’s story that I drew life and inspiration for “Kristy’s Song.”

I mention this because it highlights a fantastic reality that’s been brought about by the new paradigm that is indie publishing. “Kristy’s Song” is substantially fanfic written by me based on fanfic from another author set in my own original, created world of Pennsylvania! It’ll be fun to see if any other authors (or Bob himself!) decide to expand on the world of New Detroit, upping the game even farther!

Also, I should mention that Kristy—the brilliant, brave, and indomitable mutt from my story—is based on my real childhood dog named Kristy, whom I loved and still miss terribly. I hope you’ve enjoyed my little story, and if you liked it, make sure to pick up all of the other Pennsylvania tales while you wait for Oklahoma, the next Amish/Sci-fi novel set in the Pennsylvania universe. And hey, the universe is expanding. In October of 2015, I sold a film/TV option for Pennsylvania to Jorgensen Pictures. JP is currently developing the universe for production into a feature film or television series. So, stay tuned!

And if you’d like to keep up with me, please visit my website at http://www.michaelbunker.com/ and sign up for my newsletter. I’m always giving away free books and writing blogs about things like how to roll the perfect cigar.

Unconditional

by Chris Pourteau

He wasn’t old, the dog. Not too old to run. Not so old that he felt the need to wander into the woods and simply lie down until death took him. Not so old that he didn’t miss the boy terribly. He was still young enough to enjoy life and love the boy’s sharing it with him.

But now he was on his own. Alone.

He’d lost the boy. After the Storm of Teeth, when his pack had been forced from its home. Then came the time of fear and scavenging. And searching for the boy.

That’s how he thought of him—the boy. Not like the Man, who sometimes forgot him outside when it was too cold. Not like the Woman, who was kind more often than not and sometimes slipped scraps from the table into his bowl.

Not like the Baby. Once when she pulled his tail, he’d nipped at her, and the Man had whipped him. Pulling his tail had hurt, and he’d barely scratched the Baby with his teeth. Less than fearsome, more than playful, to teach her a lesson that hurt begat hurt. But the Man had given the same lesson to him.

The whipping had scared him more than hurt him then, but now he was glad for it. Without it, he might never have learned to think before he acted. And lately, that lesson had served him well.

All the other members of the pack outranked him. Even the Baby. He was and always had been the runt. Except for the boy. The boy had always just been the boy. After the Baby joined their pack, the boy had also become a runt, like him. Last in line to eat, behind the Baby. Sometimes forgotten entirely and left to fend for himself. But those times were the dog’s favorite, when the boy would seek him out for companionship. They explored runthood together.

The boy would come and find him, and they would happily flee the squalls of the Baby to run a squirrel up a tree or a rabbit into the brush. Unlike the Man or the Woman or the Baby, the boy had never treated him as anything other than equal. Never made him do anything he didn’t want to do. Never beat him. Never shouted at him. Never asserted senior runt rank in any way.

And so he loved the boy as a playmate, a second self, a twin runt. They shared everything. Sometimes it was a ball the boy threw. Sometimes he grabbed one of the boy’s furs because it smelled so much like him, and the boy would pull on it and try to take it back. That was a fun game. And play-fighting. The boy would offer his hand, knowing his second self would never do him harm. He’d gnaw the boy’s fingers and the boy would make disgusted sounds and wipe his hand, and he’d chase the hand under the fur the boy used to dry it. Sometimes he’d catch the hand, and their game would start all over again.

Each had absolute access to whatever the other had. Except the boy refused to eat from his bowl. Though when the Man and the Woman weren’t looking, sometimes the boy let him eat from his bowl. But otherwise, they shared everything.

Mostly that was love, one for the other. Without expectations or conditions or demands, other than to know the one would always be there for the other. Would always protect the other. As they proved with the stray, on the day they’d even shared danger for the first time.

Long before the Storm of Teeth had come, they were walking in the woods near their home. A stray ran up on them, baring its teeth and looking for trouble. The boy froze in place, and though the dog was small, he moved between the boy and the stray to protect his twin. Teeth bared. Spinal fur erect. The stray had been much bigger than him. Most dogs were. More desperate seeming. Hungry, even.

That day, for the first time, he’d heard the boy shout. It surprised him. It wasn’t like his own bark, but it sort of was. The same, but with different sounds mashed into one. His bared teeth and the boy’s loud barking had scared the larger dog off.

So they shared this instinct too, he’d realized then. The instinct to look out for one another. As he was trying to protect the boy, so the boy had used his strange bark, aimed at the stray, to protect him. Twins in more than just spirit then, he’d decided. Love was also one runt sacrificing for the other. Theirs was a shared runt love.

That thought made him happy, but remembering it and the day they’d faced down the stray also made him sad. It made him miss the boy all the more. Part of him feared walking in the world made by the Storm of Teeth without the boy’s bark beside him to protect him. Part of him feared not walking beside the boy to shield him from that world with his own teeth. All of him missed the boy entirely. His stomach ached with the longing for his twin’s companionship. To chase a squirrel or a rabbit or a ball. To do anything, really, as long as it was done together.

In the days following the Storm of Teeth, his memory was one long stretch of boredom punctuated by flashes of terror. Eating when he could. Hiding and waiting until it was safe to move again. At those times, his thoughts couldn’t help but turn to the boy, and each day he felt a hole open wider inside him where the boy had been. He whimpered when he was sure he was alone and no one—and nothing—could hear.

* * *

His pack had left him behind. They’d all run out the front door of the house only a few nights ago, though it felt like forever. He remembered that night, when the Storm of Teeth had come.

He was in the backyard, lying on a bed of leaves on a cool evening that was sure to turn cold later on. On those nights, the boy often slipped him into his room without the Man knowing and snuggled with him under the covers. His twin would rub his belly, and he’d arch his head in the air and moan and the boy would laugh. On those nights, love would smell to him like the warm scent of the boy radiating beneath the covers. And they would sleep, curled up as one, until the next morning.

But it was too early for him to be inside on this particular evening. The pack was eating their dinner, and so he was outside in the backyard, awaiting a runt’s turn at his bowl. Then the storm came—slavering, growling, more frightening than even the stray had been. Than a hundred strays could ever be.

Their scent reached him on the wind long before he could see them. It was impossible not to smell them. The wind didn’t carry the scent of a good death, the natural odor of an animal after its life had ended. The scent of a food source he could roll around in and bring back to the boy. No, this was the smell of un-life, walking when it should be still.

He wanted to stand and bark, to be brave and warn the boy and the others, even the Baby. But the stench on the wind was so overpowering, so rank and fetid, that he merely dug under the leaves and woofed his fear. Then, when the creatures were closer, he hid his voice as well. Haunches shaking, he watched from his hiding place as they came into view.

The Storm of Teeth moved upright when they should be dormant and dead. They seemed to drag the cold with them as they lurched through the open yard behind his pack’s home. He cowered in his corner of the yard, far away from their path, where the Man had tied him to the corner of the house. They moved together, like a pack, but random and stumbling. They moved like a pack, but they didn’t hunt like one. They were slow and ponderous, not fast, but they never stopped or slowed down. They just kept coming. Like locusts looking for flesh.

He could smell the plague they carried as they moved past his hiding place, straight for his pack’s home. The smell marched into his nose on tiny feet, overpowering and putrid like its source. Dead and worse, like rotten meat infested with worms. Nothing should be walking and hunting like these creatures did. They kept moving when they should only lie still and let the worms do their work.

Had he been able, he would’ve stood and run away from them, as far as he could get. Every instinct in him demanded it, overwhelming his courage. But the Man had tied him with a rope, and it kept him from running.

They crossed the yard and scraped and clawed at the side of the house. The Man and the Woman screamed and fought. The Baby, useless, merely squalled, drawing more of the creatures. He remembered the boy shouting his name. But unlike the day when they’d stood together and faced the stray, the Storm of Teeth and the rope that held him separated them. If he moved at all, he knew the creatures would see him and come for him. Kill him. He wanted to avoid death. Death would mean he’d never see the boy again.

Finally, the creatures had broken in, and his pack had fled from the other end of the house, leaving him behind. The last thing he heard was the boy, screaming his name again. He’d wanted to run after him, but the rope had kept him from it. So instead he remembered the Man’s lesson.

He lay beneath his fur of leaves and waited. He’d always wanted to be bigger, especially on the day when they’d faced the stray. But now, as he hid himself from the slobbering herd, he was glad the lump he made beneath the leaves was small. Maybe the creatures wouldn’t notice. Maybe the leaves would hide his smell from them.

Some of the creatures pursued his pack, but others milled around the house for hours. He was alone among them. He’d never been so frightened. As the night’s cold descended through his fur and into his bones, he shook and wanted so badly to whine. But he remembered the Man’s lesson.

They tore and slavered and hissed and looked for more to eat. Their appetite seemed insatiable. But he remembered to think before acting, and so he waited and waited and waited longer. While the rope held him, there was nothing else he could do.

He learned to dart his eyes from creature to creature without moving his head. He watched them roam and stagger and slam against the house again and again, until the moon was rising in the sky. Finally they moved on, leaving him shivering beneath his leaves, exhausted. But he dared not move yet. He had to be sure they were gone. He fell into a fitful sleep.

* * *

He jerked awake, his paws kicking. He’d been running in a dream. A nightmare, then? Only a bad dream.

The night was cooling fast. It’d be a perfect night for him to scratch softly at the window, the promise of warm love waiting beneath the boy’s furs. It’d make having the nightmare worthwhile.

But then he saw the hole in the side of the house and his sadness, like the cold, settled deep into him. It hadn’t been a dream after all.

He sniffed to make sure he could no longer smell them. When he was sure they’d gone, he stood and stretched. His fur was soaked. His legs were stiff, despite their dream-running. The leaves clung to him with the night’s dew, sealing in the cold.

But he waggled off the leaves and dropped to his belly again and began to gnaw. The rope was bitter and stringy and rough against his tongue. It tasted like hay smelled. But he thought of finding the boy again, and that gave him strength.

He chewed. Time passed.

Once he thought he heard one of the creatures, but it was only a cat. The cat walked by him and watched him gnawing and he growled at it without stopping. The cat had simply turned away as if he weren’t worth her time and, mewing, walked on.

By the time the moon was full overhead, he’d eaten his way through the rope. His harness remained, but he didn’t mind that. It reminded him of the boy and their walks. Of the day they’d stood down the stray together. And that gave him courage. And hope.

He went inside the house, through the hole the creatures had made. His pack’s scent was everywhere. It mixed with the stench of the invaders. And something else. The smell of food. Real food.

His eyes followed his nose around the room. Whenever the Man or Woman wanted him to do something, they’d bark their strange sound, and he’d come running to this room. After he did the thing, they’d give him a reward. Next to the boy’s room, this was his favorite room in the house.

There were treats all over the table. His pack had been feeding when the attack happened. He stood up on his hind legs and sniffed. He began to salivate. The smorgasbord of smells almost overpowered the lingering, wormy reek of the creatures. He looked around left, then right. An old habit. But the Man and the Woman weren’t here to bark a warning at him. He was glad and sad at the same time for that.

He leapt up on one of their seats and stared at the table. Food covered it in wide, flat bowls. He was famished, he realized, now that the danger had passed. As hungry as the creatures seemed to be.

No, not like them. Never like them.

Placing his front paws on the table’s edge, he looked around one last time, then leapt up on the table and filled his jaws. He ate for the pure joy of eating while standing on the tabletop. He’d dreamed of it many times. He looked around again, just to make sure he wouldn’t get into trouble, then remembered: they were gone. The boy was gone. His sadness found solace as he gorged himself.

When he was finished, he tumbled down, first to the chair, then to the floor. His belly was fat and he felt sleepy. So he went back to the hole in the side of the house, looked left and right to make sure none of the creatures were around, then pooped in the backyard. Eating from the table was one thing. Pooping in the house? That just wasn’t right.

He walked back inside and to his favorite room in the house, where his twin runt slept, and clambered beneath the boy’s furs. He buried his body in them, just as he’d burrowed beneath the leaves. He wanted to absorb the boy’s scent into his own fur. He wanted it to be all he could smell, ever again. As he inhaled deeply and his belly spread full beneath him like a fat pillow, the sorrow returned. If he left here, he knew, eventually the boy’s scent would leave him. Especially now that the heavy odor of the Storm of Teeth lay across everything. He fell asleep, buried in the furs and painting a permanent memory of the boy’s scent into his nose.

* * *

Dawn brought more of the creatures. He awoke to them moving through the house. As he had the night before, he inhaled deeply to stamp the boy’s smell on his brain one last time. Then he poked his nose from beneath the covers.

One of them dragged a foot aimlessly down the hallway as it passed the door to the boy’s room. Eventually, he knew, he had to move. The longer he delayed, the further away the boy was. There was no rope binding him now. He must move soon if he were ever to find the boy.

He stood, ready to hop down, and his stomach roiled with his earlier feast. The creature’s shadow hesitated. He stood stock still, the boy’s furs around his head and shoulders. The creature grunted as it turned to come back up the hallway.

Fear coursed through him. His brain prepared his body for combat. He wanted to growl, to warn the creature away, as he and the boy had warned the stray away. But they were too big, much bigger than the stray, and they never stopped until they fed. Even after they fed. His growl would only bring their attention to him, he knew.

He had only one choice, then.

Leaping from the bed, he darted through the doorway, ignoring the groan of hunger behind him. He waddled down the hall, last night’s binge weighing him down.

Shambling shadows appeared in the living room, attracted by the first creature’s frustration. One of them was small like the Baby, only crawling. It dragged itself across the floor of the living room toward the hall. His eyes darted back and forth, looking for a path to freedom.

The crawling creature reached for him, and he was tempted to nip at the hand like he had the Baby’s. But he thought before acting. He wasn’t sure what biting one of the creatures would mean. Would he change too? Would he become one of them, no matter who bit first?

He feinted left, then jogged right and past the crawler’s clutching hands. Another creature stood between him and the open front door, but he darted between its legs and tumbled outside.

Creatures moved randomly in the street as the others in the house turned to pursue him. He could see bodies of the members of other packs sprawled around in death. At least some of them had stayed dead, as they should.

Now that he was out in the open, it was easy to avoid the creatures. His leg muscles bested the weight of his stomach, and he moved from body to body, making sure they were not the boy or the other members of his own pack. When he was satisfied, he moved into the woods behind the neighborhood and began his search.

* * *

His strategy was simple. He hid when the creatures were around and tracked when they weren’t. But tracking the boy was difficult. His scent was almost impossible to find.

As the Storm of Teeth grew in ferocity and size, as its biters spread their plague, the stench of the dead was everywhere. They were everywhere. Always hungry. Always eating. His fur was up more often than it wasn’t. He began to feel awake, even while sleeping.

The first day he spent going to the places he and the boy had always gone. The dog park. The route they walked, where the stray had attacked them. The fishing hole. But each time he failed to find the boy, his sadness deepened, his desperation grew. For three days he searched and tracked and found nothing but danger and grief.

On the third night, a bat attacked him, and he ran into cover on instinct. The bat carried a disease like the creatures. He could smell it. Only this disease was older, one he knew to avoid without thinking. He knew that if the bat bit him, he’d die. Death would be agony. He knew this. And he’d try to spread the bat’s disease to others, too.

Maybe the plague of the creatures was like the bat’s disease, then. He’d seen it turn members of other packs rabid after they were bitten. They joined the Storm of Teeth and became spreaders of the plague. Deep in his bones, he knew if a creature bit him, the plague would take him too. The same as would happen if the bat bit him. At last, the answer to the question. Whether he bit a creature or it bit him, he’d become a plague carrier. And go mad.

He resolved in that moment never to become like them. Not just for himself, but for the boy too. What if he found the boy after becoming plagued? He knew he’d try and hurt him, try to spread the sickness. Like the bat had tried to hurt him. And hurting wasn’t love. Not even runt love. And he didn’t want to hurt anyone, not ever.

That night, he returned to the fishing hole and laid his head near the edge of the pond. Maybe the boy would come back here after all, he decided. Maybe he’d remember this place, their refuge on lazy afternoons.

As he rested, the thought suddenly came upon him: what if the boy had been bitten by a creature? He whimpered quietly. Missing his second self made him ache inside. But it hurt even worse to think of the boy as a plaguebearer. Drooling, ravenous, and spreading madness to others like the bat.

No longer a boy. No longer his boy. An un-boy.

His twin wouldn’t want that, he decided. The boy was just like him and would never want to hurt anyone. He’d only ever barked the once, when the stray had threatened them. He’d never barked again, not even when the Baby cried all the time and everyone else began to bark at one another, aggravated.

He and the boy shared the desire to never hurt another soul. Better to die a natural death than walk, eternally ravenous, through an unnatural un-life. He slipped into the waking sleep that now passed for rest.

* * *

Before dawn, a noise startled him awake. His eyes popped open. That night in the yard, he’d learned to look first without turning his head. But the noise was off to the left. His spinal fur was already up, alerted by his nose. His ears too had warned him before his eyes had opened. It was the shambling noise. The shuffling, methodical step… step… step of eternal appetite. The hungry, persistent tread of a creature that should be still and dead. He sniffed quietly, but the wind was moving in the wrong direction.

He turned his head slowly to see how many.

Only one.

The only one that mattered.

The only one that mattered at all.

He whined.

The boy’s clothes were shredded and dirty. His eyes were yellow and rheumy. His mouth was red and shredded, as if he’d gnawed his own lips away to stave off starvation.

The wind shifted and he caught the scent. It wasn’t the boy’s sweet smell, the smell of runt love and playtime and warm furs on cold nights. It was the rotting stench of un-life.

He couldn’t stop his sadness from becoming sound. His whine of fear became a moan of hope stolen away. Attracted by the noise, the boy turned and reached out for him.

He stood up. He barked. He didn’t care if other creatures heard. He wanted to warn this one away. To somehow scare the plague out of the boy and make it give his twin back to him. To be a champion again for his second self.

All his searching. All his caution.

He wanted the boy back!

The un-boy marched forward, moaning. A sad sound. But as with the other creatures, hunger ruled all. The un-boy bared his teeth through a ragged, receding mouth.

Reaching.

The dog growled and backed away. He’d never growled at the boy in anger. Only in play. But as the two of them stalked one another along the same shore where they’d shared so many afternoons dozing in the sun, he knew this creature was no longer his twin.

One moved forward, hungry; the other back, frightened.

Other sounds. Other creatures. From the other side of the shore.

He glanced to his right. There were several.

Then more.

Then many.

Too many.

He turned back to the creature that had been the boy. His whine erupted into a ragged, desperate stream of barking. The un-boy’s fingers worked the air, clutching for him. He remembered the boy’s scent, his real scent, and how much it smelled like love. How much it filled him up to share everything with the boy—to share a reason for living as a friend, each a champion for the other.

Then, he decided. Despite every instinct that begged him to run, as he’d run at the house, he stayed and stood his ground.

He knew his second self would never want to be this un-boy, hurting others. And he didn’t want it either—for either of them. But the boy couldn’t protect himself now. It was up to him to stand between the boy and the stray again. To free the boy who was his best friend from the un-life that should never have been.

A final moment to share together.

He leapt into the un-boy’s outstretched arms and ripped out his throat.

A Word from Chris Pourteau

Chris and Queenie, ca. 1969.

I’ve loved dogs for a long time. In fact, except for a handful of years in high school and college, I’ve never lived without one.

Dogs are slobbery. Some of them bark a lot, even when there’s nothing to bark at. Most unashamedly beg for food.

But they’re also incredibly loyal. They’ll fight for you before they fight for themselves. They can sense your moods, giving you space when you need it or resting their heads on your lap to let you know you’ve got a friend. At night, they’ll lay by your side and watch over you, just in case the zombies come knocking.

So when I sat down to write “Unconditional,” I wanted to capture that. All of it. All of what it means to be a dog: the second-class citizenry they sometimes endure; the soul-mate love they sometimes find with a special human; the undying loyalty and self-sacrifice they give instinctively.

One day in the fall of 2014, my friend, Stefan Bolz—who contributed “Protector” to this anthology—posted a photo of his dog, Ember, on Facebook. She stood in the middle of an empty country road in the fall, leaves covering everything, stock still and staring down the road’s lonely length. The perspective of the shot reminded me of similar images I’d seen on The Walking Dead a hundred times over. Ember held a determined stance, but there was also something sad in the way she stared at that empty road. Like she’d lost something—or someone—and was on a quest to find them. Her boy, perhaps. And that was the genesis for “Unconditional.” Thank you, Stefan, for posting that image.

When I first published the story, I worried about how it’d be received. It’s no Disney tale of two dogs kissing over a plate of spaghetti. I even considered giving “Unconditional” a happy ending. But no, that’s not what the story demanded. And so I published it on Amazon in January 2015 and bit my lower lip.

By and large, the response has been tremendously positive. Readers—especially dog lovers—found something in the story that spoke to them, and its reviews reflect that. And then I thought: why not an entire anthology? And with other animals too, not just dogs.

So I reached out to the most talented authors I knew, and that’s how this anthology came to be. Although I originally published “Unconditional” as a solo short story, I felt it had a place as the final tale in this collection. The story—and reader response to it—started the process that created this anthology, so there was a certain serendipitous synergy to including it. If it’s your first time reading my story, I hope you enjoyed it. And if you’d read it before, I hope you found something new to like.

If you’d like to know more about me and my writing, please visit chrispourteau.thirdscribe.com and sign up for my newsletter. Or you can email me at c.pourteau.author@gmail.com or find me on Facebook at https://www.facebook.com/arkewall. I’d love to hear from you.

Acknowledgments

It took a huge team of dedicated individuals to put together this anthology. And though I’m sure I’ll forget someone, I want to take a moment and acknowledge as many people as I can.

First and foremost, I want to thank all the writers for their excellent contributions. I especially appreciate David Adams, Michael Bunker, Nick Cole, Hank Garner, E.E. Giorgi, Deirdre Gould, and Edward W. Robertson opening up their respective worlds in which to set their Tails stories.

My principal partners in crime for producing this collection were contributors Todd Barselow and David Bruns. Todd took point on publishing the paperback through Auspicious Apparatus Press (http://www.apparatuspress.com/), helming coordination of the audiobook and working his connections to help us garner as much support for launch day as possible. David stepped up and took the lead on marketing. The collection wouldn’t have been nearly as successful without them since I was head-down for most of the time editing the stories. And David was the one that came up with the inspired idea of teaming with Pets for Vets, Inc., and he couldn’t have found a better cause for Tails to support.

And speaking of Pets for Vets, Founder Clarissa Black, President of the Board of Directors Ann Black, and Houston Chapter Director Jessica Devitt, have all been amazing to work with. They not only helped us promote the anthology on their Facebook page, but Clarissa went on podcasts with us and, I hope, won over new supporters for Pets for Vets. The stories presented in Tails emphasize the inherent nobility, self-sacrifice, and unconditional love that animals so often show their human companions, so Pets for Vets’ mission of training and matching shelter dogs with military veterans suffering from emotional trauma (like Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder) was a perfect fit. If you haven’t already, please visit http://www.petsforvets.com and ask them how you can help this noble mission of mercy that finds a loving home for dogs who would otherwise be euthanized and a loving companion for those who need one most. And please “like” their Facebook page at https://www.facebook.com/PetsforVetsInc?fref=ts.

E.J. Smith, a good friend and advisor for the Military Family Advisory Network (http://www.militaryfamilyadvisorynetwork.org/), helped us get the word out nationwide to a number of organizations dedicated to supporting military families. This helped raise Pets for Vets’ profile across that network and helped our authors find readers they might never have otherwise reached.

Contributor Hank Garner opened up his Author Stories Podcast—which is carving out an ever-increasing niche for itself as the go-to place for authors to discuss how they do what they do—to help us promote Pets for Vets’ cause and Tails. Contributor Jennifer Ellis organized a rockin’ Facebook launch party, which (as usual) was a blast and a great way for readers and authors to come together and talk books, movies, and anything else they could think of. She also championed our cause on Goodreads and helmed the giveaway event we held there.

Adam Hall, our graphic designer, knocked his cover design out of the park with the first try, and all the ads, desktop backgrounds, etc., you might’ve seen in connection with Tails are a tribute to his talent. He also didn’t mind my going back to the well time and again with numerous “Can I get one of these now?” requests.

Joanna Hunt and Michelle Benoit, both friends of mine I also happen to work with at the day job, helped with the formatting and final proofreading, respectively. It was a great help to have them covering bases that left me time to focus on other last-minute things. And another friend and colleague, Michelle Hoelscher, lent her social media and media relations expertise to help us promote the collection and our benefiting Pets for Vets to the media and the world at large. Her contribution to our ability to get the word out cannot be overstated.

All of Team Tails would like to acknowledge our spouses, significant others, loved ones, and friends—not only for their support of this anthology, but for their continued support of this compulsion we all suffer from called “the need to create.” Their patience, alpha reading, and honest feedback (when what we write isn’t all we hoped it would be) are just some of the ways we writers experience our own version of unconditional love.

We also appreciate our advanced-review copy readers, who took on the responsibility of reading the anthology (under a tight deadline) in order for us to launch on November 20 with enough reviews to make a splash. Without them, we’d just be one more lonely, self-published Amazon e-book surrounded by the virtual equivalent of crickets in the marketplace.

And last—but certainly not least—thank you, dear reader, for spending your time reading the stories in this collection. Few things are as precious a gift as another person’s time, and we at Team Tails appreciate your sharing yours with us. We hope you enjoyed our stories.

Chris Pourteau, Author/Editor/Producer

Tails of the Apocalypse

November 2015

A Word to Our Readers

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The authors support the work of Pets for Vets, Inc., and the Humane Society of the United States.

Content

TAILS OF THE APOCALYPSE
Edited by
Chris Pourteau
Foreword by
Mary Buckham

Story Synopses

Foreword to the Collection by Mary Buckham

The Water Finder’s Shadow by David Bruns

A Word from David Bruns

When You Open the Cages for Those Who Can’t (a Breakers short story) by Edward W. Robertson

A Word from Edward W. Robertson

Protector by Stefan Bolz

A Word from Stefan Bolz

The Poetry of Santiago by Jennifer Ellis

A Word from Jennifer Ellis

Demon and Emily (a Symphony of War short story) by David Adams

A Word from David Adams

Keena’s Lament (a Weston Files short story) by Hank Garner

One

Two

Three

Four

Five

Six

A Word from Hank Garner

Tomorrow Found (a Wasteland Saga short story) by Nick Cole

A Word from Nick Cole

Pet Shop (an After the Cure short story) by Deirdre Gould

A Word from Deirdre Gould

Kael Takes Wing (a Mayake Chronicles short story) by E.E. Giorgi

A Word from E.E. Giorgi

The Bear’s Child by Harlow C. Fallon

A Word from Harlow C. Fallon

Wings of Paradise by Todd Barselow

One

Two

Three

Four

Five

A Word from Todd Barselow

Ghost Light by Steven Savile

A Word from Steven Savile

Kristy’s Song (a Pennsylvania short story) by Michael Bunker

A Word from Michael Bunker

Unconditional by Chris Pourteau

A Word from Chris Pourteau

Acknowledgments

A Word to Our Readers

Copyright