Peter Cawdron

ALIEN SPACE TENTACLE PORN

Chapter 01: Tentacles

Damn, it feels as though someone’s jabbed an ice pick behind my right eye.

Slowly, my eyes flicker open.

I’m in a hospital. The walls are an indifferent shade of green. There are bars on the windows and a bathroom to one side. Worn linoleum curls up from the floor, making a backsplash reaching almost a foot in height.

I feel naked, even though I’m dressed in a thin cotton hospital gown. The bed I’m on smells old and musty. My feet rest on a scratchy wool blanket lying at the foot of the bed. The heavily bleached cotton sheets make me itchy. This shithole looks like something out of a 1950’s B-Grade movie.

A nurse says, “Try not to move,” doing nothing to dispel the notion that I’ve been sucked into a time warp. Her blond hair has been meticulously clipped back with bobby pins and pulled behind a dainty half-cap that looks as though it was made from folded paper. Her cap has the classic red cross symbol on a stark white background. I thought those had gone out of fashion long ago. She holds a wooden clipboard and has the traditional upside-down watch hanging from her shirt pocket so she can glance down and catch the time.

I half expect Rock Hudson or Dean Martin to come walking in to play the role of doctor. With perfect teeth, charismatic smiles, and hair slicked back under half a pound of lard, either of them would fit right in.

“Where the hell am I?”

“Brooklyn Psychiatric.”

“A mental hospital?”

I try to sit up, but I move too fast and my head feels like it’s about to explode. The room around me spins. I’m not sure if I’m going to faint or throw up.

“No sudden movements,” the nurse says.

“You’re not kidding,” I reply, bringing my hand to my head as I sit up. I turn to face her, wanting to get out of bed. I’m not sure why, but I feel as though I need to stand, if only to reassure myself of reality. I’m lightheaded and woozy. I know it’s not a good idea, but I want to feel the ground set firmly under my feet.

“Relax,” the nurse says, reaching out and grabbing my shoulder to steady me. “Not so fast. What’s the rush?”

My feet dangle over the edge of the bed a few inches above the floor. She’s right. I feel drained. If I stood up now, I’d collapse.

The light coming in through the window is blinding. There must be spotlights outside as a brilliant white light shines through to the far wall. The sky beyond is pitch black. There’s no moon, no clouds, no stars. The inky darkness looks unnatural in contrast to the bright lights.

“Could you pull the curtains?” I ask, but the nurse ignores me, checking something off on her chart.

A doctor walks into the room. Well, I assume he’s a doctor, as he’s wearing a classic white coat. He’s not quite Rock Hudson, but he’s pretty darn close. Doctor Not-Rock-Hudson smiles.

“Good to see you’re awake,” he says, taking a chair and turning it around in front of me. He sits down and leans into the chair.

“What happened to me?”

“You don’t remember?”

I shake my head. That’s a mistake. My inner ear swirls. It’s only then I notice the two officers standing behind the doctor. One Army. One Navy. Like the nurse, they could have been whipped out of a 1950’s movie. They’re wearing old-fashioned uniforms—plain shirts, heavily starched, flawlessly pressed trousers, black polished shoes. The Army guy even has a folded cap slipped under his right shoulder board.

“Where’s Rock?” I ask. It’s a private joke. None of them get it, of course, and it doesn’t seem to help my predicament. The two officers don’t show any emotion.

“Do you remember being arrested?” the doctor asks.

I’m not going to shake my head again. I offer a polite, “No.”

“Central Park? Do you remember running naked through the park?”

I can’t help but laugh at the idea. “Hell no!” Although that burst of emotion leaves me feeling dizzy. I’m careful not to fall off the bed.

“What about the aliens in Central Park? You were yelling something about space tentacles when they found you.”

“Aliens?” I ask, thinking this is more than a little ridiculous. “Tentacles? You’re kidding, right?”

What the hell am I supposed to know about aliens in Central Park? This is a psychiatric hospital. I can’t imagine the doctor believes in extraterrestrials any more than I believe there are pink elephants floating through the sky. Any serious discussion about the existence of aliens drawing crop circles in Central Park is likely to end with me being certified insane. I feel as though the doctor is toying with me. The scowl on his face says denial isn’t helping. I’m damned either way.

“Sorry, Doc. I don’t know what you’re talking about.”

I really don’t, but the look on his face tells me he doesn’t believe me.

“You need to be honest,” the doctor says. His eyes dart to one side, gesturing at the Army officer behind him. His voice softens as he says, “I can’t help you unless you tell me the truth.”

Ah, good cop, bad cop. He’s siding with me, wanting me to open up to him, only I don’t know what the hell he’s talking about. And to me, that’s the real problem. No one is ever sure of anything. I could be lying about this whole episode and he’d never know it, because he’s not me. I could be telling the truth, but that wouldn’t matter either because it doesn’t matter what I say. What matters is what he believes I’m saying. Him, me, the nurse, the officers. The only person that ever really knows the truth is the one living it, and sometimes even they’re fooled.

I’m not lying.

I really don’t know anything about running naked through Central Park yelling something crazy about alien space tentacles. What the hell is all this about? Was I messed up on drugs? It sounds like I was caught up in a low-budget porno. As my head clears, I start to get a pretty good idea how something like this might have happened.

The nurse angles the bed so I can sit up. I close my eyes, ignoring the doctor as he continues talking. I need to piece together what happened from my fragmented memory.

* * *

Sharon is a babe.

She lives in the ground floor apartment directly below mine. We bump into each other in the laundry from time to time. And by bump, I mean she has a full bust and we’ve skimmed past each other awkwardly in the long, cramped, narrow basement laundromat. She’s asked me for soap a few times, and once I bummed a quarter from her to keep the dryer running a little longer. We’ve talked about politics, the economy, science, and sometimes, just before we part, there’s an awkward silence that seems to say more than words.

Sharon is easy on the eyes, even though she dresses conservatively, with a blouse buttoned up to her throat, or a turtleneck sweater.

I’ve always liked her, and not just in the damn-she’s-hot sense. Sharon always has a kind word to say. There’s chemistry between us, but more than that, she radiates both enthusiasm and intelligence.

I think she likes me too, as she’s always happy to see me. But she lives with her brother, Mark.

Mark has a perpetual scowl. He’s one of these guys that’s bald on top so he shaves his head to look hip. Most days you can see a little stubble on the sides, just above his ears. It’s the Bruce Willis look, only I don’t think it does Mark any favors.

Mark is a sourpuss. I’ve never seen the man laugh or smile. Nothing is ever good enough for him. I remember stopping to chat with Mark and Sharon one morning, noting that the sun was out and it was going to be a glorious day. Mark sneered, saying storms were on the way. He was wrong, and that seemed to make him even grumpier that afternoon. Summer eventually gave way to autumn, and then winter, and Mark finally got his storms, but not on that day.

My eyes are still closed as I recall these details.

The officers in the hospital room are talking. They’re saying something about turning me over to the Feds, but threats are meaningless to a man who feels as though he’s dying. I doubt I could feel any worse than I do right now. I need to zone out and figure out how I ended up in a psych ward.

My thinking runs to hazy memories, wanting to make sense of the past few days, and the fog in my mind begins to clear.

Sharon and Mark were arguing with someone on the sidewalk as I walked down the steps of our shared brownstone. I didn’t think too much of it until shots were fired.

Gunfire in New York evokes a certain kind of contradiction. The city that never sleeps suddenly falls silent. It’s only for a second or two, and I’m hard pressed to figure out if it’s just psychological, and I’m imagining the silence in stark contrast to the deafening report of gunshots, or if there really is a moment when the city falls quiet and the bustle of life stops for a second.

Mark crumples to the pavement, but he’s got an arm outstretched, firing at a black sedan as it pulls away.

Tires screech.

The engine roars.

More shots ring out from the passenger window, and yet all I can think is: What is it with black sedans? Black is so cliché for bad guys.

Brilliant red blood sprays out across the murky grey snow, snapping me back to reality. Winter is lifeless. The trees are skeletons. The cars are covered in ice. Snow blankets the stairs. Everything’s white or an off-grey. Everything except the deep crimson stains on the snow behind Mark.

Sharon screams.

I run down the stairs, almost losing my footing on a patch of ice. Sharon holds Mark, cradling his head. Blood seeps through a wound in the center of his chest. His eyes stare blindly up at the blue sky.

“I—”

I’m speechless. I’m in shock. I’m vaguely aware that I’ve become a witness to a violent crime, and will be called on at some point to give a statement to the police, or to testify in court, but already my recollection of events is murky. I don’t know what Mark was arguing about. I couldn’t pick out the shooter in a lineup if he was six foot four and surrounded by dwarfs. I didn’t catch the license plate. About all I caught was a black sedan, but I can’t recall the make. It could have been a Cadillac. It could have been a Toyota Prius. I have no idea.

Sharon says, “Help me get him inside.”

“He’s dead,” I say, stating the obvious.

“We can save him,” she replies, handing me the keys to her apartment. “Put him in the bathtub. Quick!”

Before my stunned brain has time to realize what’s happening, I’m staggering up the stairs cradling Mark’s lifeless body in my arms. Blood drips on my shoes.

Sharon is gone.

I back through the front door. My heel catches on the carpet in the lobby and it’s all I can do not to fall backwards. Fumbling with her keys, I struggle to raise Mark high enough so my hand can reach the lock. I could put him down, but for some reason that feels wrong, and so I persevere until finally the door unlocks.

The door swings open. I accidentally bump Mark’s head against the doorframe in my rush to get to the bathtub—as though getting there actually matters. Turning sideways, I shimmy down the hall.

The apartment is empty. Mark and Sharon have lived here for years, but there’s no carpet, no furniture. There’s a fridge in the kitchen, but no table, no chairs. No couch in the living room. No beds in the bedrooms.

The apartment layout is the same as mine, so I head straight for the bathroom. It feels stupid, but I lay Mark in the bathtub just as Sharon instructed. I’m a little clumsy and his head hits the tap. Thinking about it, I realize I’ve put him in the wrong way, with his head by the faucet. Blood runs down the drain.

“Shit.”

I go to move him, but he’s heavy, and it’s awkward leaning down to grab his legs and twist him around. After a few tugs, I give up. What difference does it make? He’s dead.

I look at myself in the mirror. Blood has soaked into my jacket.

Sharon squeezes into the bathroom behind me. She’s dragging two metal trash cans full of packed snow and ice. She dumps them on Mark, covering him in slush.

“Ice,” she says, as Mark’s head disappears beneath the dirty snow. “I need more ice.”

“There’s an ice machine on the second floor,” I say, trying to be helpful, but very much still in shock. Did she just bury her brother in ice?

“Brilliant,” she replies, kissing me on the cheek. “Stay here with him.”

“Ah.”

She kissed me. Why did she kiss me? Her brother has just been murdered, and she’s kissing me?

Sharon’s gone before I can say anything. I can hear her rummaging around in the kitchen, frantically opening and then slamming drawers and cupboards. She runs out the door and pounds up the stairs.

I stand there feeling stupid. I should be doing something. There’s a dead body lying in the bathtub beneath the snow and ice. What is there to be done? Nothing. I stack the two empty trashcans together and sit them on the toilet seat. For some bizarre reason, tidying up makes sense of a senseless situation.

Sirens sound in the distance. Pulling back the curtain, I peer out through the tiny bathroom window.

A cop car skids to a halt in front of the building. There aren’t any parking spots, so he noses his cruiser into a slight gap, leaving its fat ass blocking the road. Blue and red lights push back the twilight, flickering over the snow and ice.

I look back at Mark. Two legs protrude from beneath the slush in the tub.

“This is so wrong,” I mumble to myself, but I haven’t done anything wrong. Have I? I don’t think so. Outside, a cop stands beside the blood-splattered snow on the sidewalk, talking to one of the neighbors from across the road. A small crowd forms as another cop car arrives from the opposite direction.

Sharon jogs back into the cramped bathroom still catching her breath. She’s carrying three plastic bags full of ice cubes, and she’s got a roll of Saran Wrap under her arm, along with a roll of tinfoil. She raises her elbow and both rolls drop to the bathroom floor. The bags of ice are unceremoniously dumped on the tiles. Ice cubes skate across the floor.

“Help me get him up.”

Sharon plunges her hands into the snow and slush covering Mark’s body. I’m more cautious, not wanting to touch him. She drags him up by the front of his jacket, and leans him against the side of the tub. Mark’s head lolls to one side. Ice sticks to his hair. His lips are blue. His eyes stare blindly ahead.

“You’ve only got three minutes,” I say, not sure what she thinks she can accomplish. I’ve heard of people doing some pretty weird shit when someone dies, but this wins first prize at the county fair.

“You might have three minutes,” she replies. “He has thirty.”

I start to say something but Sharon cuts me off. “Hold this.”

She positions the bags of ice around his head and grabs my hands, pushing them in place against the cold plastic. I do as I’m told.

Sharon pulls at the roll of Saran Wrap and starts winding the thin plastic sheet around Mark’s head. She dodges my arms as she wraps the bags against his face and the sides of his skull. I get the gist of what she’s doing and alternate my hands, making sure the ice is hard up against his skin. Sharon packs the ice carefully, patting it down and moving it around so none of Mark’s facial features can be seen.

“We’re scientists,” she says as she works. “We’re not from around here.”

“Brooklyn?” I ask, detecting a familiar twang in her accent.

“Wrong planet,” she replies, standing up and admiring her handiwork. I stand back as well, although I’m not sure what I’m admiring.

Planet?

Did she just say planet?

Maybe I didn’t hear her correctly. I try to think of the names of various countries that sound like planet. Nope, can’t think of any. Plano? Maybe she’s from Texas.

“The police are here,” I say, trying to be helpful.

“Oh, good,” she replies, reaching around behind me and pulling back the curtain. She pulls a handgun from the small of her back and fires three rounds blindly out the window. The sound of gunfire in a tiny tiled bathroom is like thunder breaking directly overhead, rattling my bones. I grimace, closing my eyes for a second.

And she’s gone.

I look around and Sharon has disappeared.

I peer through the window. The crowd has panicked. They’re screaming and running for cover as the cops duck behind their vehicles. The cops have their guns drawn, pointing at the building—pointing at me!

“Shit!” I whip my hand away from the curtain. The lacy fabric can’t fall back in place fast enough.

“Fuck. Fuck,” I repeat with my heart pounding in my chest.

“We need to get out of here,” Sharon says, standing in the doorway of the bathroom, only she’s talking to a banana.

I blink and look again, wondering if my eyes are deceiving me. Nope, I got it right the first time. Sharon is holding a banana like a phone and speaking into it. I can’t help myself. I reach out, wanting to touch the banana as she speaks, wondering if it’s like a joke phone or something.

“No, I don’t want a shuttle,” she protests to the banana. “I need a direct evac to the Moon.”

My fingers finally touch the banana. The skin feels like regular peel, while the banana itself is motley, with flecks of black in the skin and a bruise at one end. I wouldn’t eat it. My mother would make banana bread with it, or muffins, or something. She certainly wouldn’t talk to it.

“I don’t have time for this,” Sharon snaps. “He’s dead, don’t you get that? If I don’t get him out of here, he’s gone. A shuttle isn’t good enough.”

Sharon drops the banana to her side. I’d call her crazy, but my father told me, never call someone crazy if they’re holding a gun. I think that’s good advice.

“We’ve got to get to the lab,” she says. “If I can get a cerebral imprint, I can reconstruct his conscious awareness before it fades, but we don’t have long.”

The banana drops to the floor. I’d be happier if she dropped the gun.

“What’s going on?” I ask, trying to walk a tightrope with someone undergoing a severe mental breakdown.

“Oh, the banana?” she says.

It’s not just the banana I’m interested in, but that’s a start.

Sharon says, “They’re a great source of potassium isotopes—half-life of over a billion years!”

I raise my eyebrows. That’s not quite the explanation I was after.

“Potatoes will work too. Brazil nuts are the best.” She appeals with her hands. “It’s tech you wouldn’t understand. I can use the nuclear resonance of the isotopes as a natural amplifier. It allows me to communicate with the others.”

“Oh, I think I understand,” I say, backing into the corner of the bathroom by the sink. Carrying Mark inside, okay, I was trying to help a grieving neighbor. Shooting at cops, talking to bananas… yeah, this isn’t my circus, these aren’t my monkeys.

“Do you trust me?” she asks, and I must admit, looking into those pretty brown eyes and hearing her soft feminine voice is somewhat hypnotic, but I’m officially freaked out.

“No,” I reply, deliberately looking down at the gun in her hand to emphasize my point.

“See,” she says. “Honesty. I like that in a man. I get hit on by creeps all the time. They’re never honest, you know? I appreciate your honesty.”

Sharon grabs the tinfoil from the floor and tears off a couple of strips roughly two feet long. She hands one to me.

“Ah,” I mumble, looking at the thin, shiny foil drooping under its own weight.

“Quick,” she says, wrapping the tinfoil around her head. She crumples the foil so her head looks like a Hershey’s Kiss.

“Hurry,” she adds, waving the gun around.

“Uh, okay,” I say, somewhat reluctantly mashing the tinfoil over my head. I’ve gone for a World War II combat helmet look, but I look utterly pathetic in the mirror.

“Is tinfoil really necessary?” I ask as I mash the foil in place.

“A-lu-min-um foil,” Sharon says, correcting me. “Oh, aluminum foil is an invention ahead of its time. Horribly underappreciated. People just shove it in ovens, not realizing its potential. Did you know the docking collar on the Apollo missions was protected by aluminum foil? This is the stuff of rocket launches and moon landings. It’ll shield us from surveillance.”

I’m not convinced.

“Can I go now?”

“Yes, yes,” she says. “We need to go. Grab Mark.”

Ordinarily, I would say, “Fuck no,” but she gestures with the gun and it seems only polite to comply and stay alive for a few more minutes. I don’t want to end up like Mark—dead and buried in ice—so I hoist him and his ice-head up and over my shoulder. Slush runs down my arms.

Without looking, Sharon squeezes off a few more deafening rounds, firing out the window.

“Come on,” she says, but I can’t hear her words. My ears are ringing, but I can read her lips.

I follow her out into the foyer of the building. Nervous eyes peer from the corner of the stairs on the second floor. A cell phone camera snaps a shot of me with the iceman slumped over my shoulder and Sharon with her gun. That’ll make it onto the evening news. Sorry, mom.

We head out the back of the building into the alley.

Sharon’s able to move much faster than me. She keeps beckoning me on with her gun. I’m trying to recall how many shots she’s fired. I’m racking my brain. I don’t recognize the make of the handgun. How many rounds does the magazine hold? She’s fired four or five shots. She’s probably got at least the same number left.

“Quick, the shuttle’s coming.”

I jog down the dark alley behind her. My lungs are burning. My heart is pounding in my chest. Alien or crazy woman? I’m thinking crazy, but I’m half wondering if I’m going to see some kind of UFO alien space shuttle thingy arriving in response to her banana call. Nah… She’s a nutbag.

Headlights blind me as I round the corner of the alley.

An old-fashioned bus pulls up, the kind with the 1950’s flares and grooves, and an absurd amount of polished chrome. Instead of a digital display, there’s an old hand-cranked sign above the driver: Downtown Shuttle. I can’t help but let out a soft laugh.

Pneumatics sound as the door opens and Sharon scrambles up into the bus. I climb in behind her, seriously thinking about dumping the body and running, wondering how good a shot she is, but not wanting to end up like Mark.

“Thanks, Joe,” Sharon says, which confuses me for a moment because my name’s Joe but she’s not talking to me. She stands behind the driver, adding, “For a moment there, I thought we were screwed. Good old Joe. You’re always there when I need you.”

“No problem,” Good Old Joe replies. “I was in the neighborhood anyway.”

Good Old Joe’s an African-American in his late sixties. Tight grey curly hair and a receding hairline are the only clues to his age, as his skin is young and vibrant. He’s wearing a uniform, but he doesn’t look like a regular bus driver.

I plop Mark and his impromptu ice helmet onto an empty seat. His body slumps sideways and I have to stop him from falling onto the floor. I look up at the passengers apologetically. No one seems to notice. I’ve just climbed into a bus with a dead body draped over one shoulder and no one cares?

“How’s Mark?” the driver asks as the bus pulls away from the curb.

“He’s fine.”

“He’s dead,” I say, snapping those words into the conversation. I can’t help myself. This is absurd.

“He’ll be fine,” Sharon insists, gesturing to the seat opposite Mark.

I slide in against the window and Sharon sits down next to me.

Turning sideways, I look at the other people on the bus. There are a couple of teenagers making out in the back, a middle-aged man wearing a business suit, a nurse still in uniform, and an old lady sitting two seats behind Mark’s body. His feet stick out into the aisle.

“What is wrong with you people?” I ask, desperately hoping someone’s dialing 911 with their phone hidden out of sight. “Dead body? Gun? Tinfoil hats? Anyone?”

“Shhh,” Sharon says, trying to soothe me. Softly, she corrects me yet again with, “A-lu-min-um foil.”

I want to scream, but I compose myself.

“You need help—professional help, Sharon. Turn yourself in to the police and I’m sure we can work this out. No one has to get hurt.”

Sharon sighs.

“Do you know what I hate about all this?” she asks.

She gestures with the gun, waving it around as though she’s stirring soup with the barrel, only the barrel is pointing at my crotch. When Sharon asks if I know what she hates, I think she means our general predicament, but the direction that gun is pointing in seems awfully personal.

“Not being honest with you people,” she says. “We should trust you humans. Perhaps not everyone, but some of you. We should find people we can trust and we should trust them.”

“Yes,” I say, feeling like I’m finally getting somewhere with her. I’m hoping my nonverbal body language is saying something along the lines of—dialogue is good, crazy lady, now point that fucking gun somewhere else.

“Do you trust me?” she asks.

It’s the second time she’s posed this question. I’m tempted to say yes to curry her favor, but a loose hold on a loaded gun and a dead body in the next seat gets the better of me.

“No.”

“See, that’s what the world needs—honesty. You don’t trust me, but I trust you, and do you know why?”

I shrug my shoulders.

“Because you’re honest. You can trust someone that’s honest. You can never trust someone that lies to you because you never know when they’re lying.”

She leans in and kisses me on the cheek, saying, “Thank you for not lying to me.”

I flinch, steeling myself to make a grab at the gun, but she puts her hand around the back of the seat, and I can feel the warm barrel of the gun resting on my shoulder. I can picture things getting ugly if I lunge for it. The idea of a lead slug tearing through my body doesn’t exactly thrill me, so I focus on my breathing, trying to relax.

I decide to play along.

“So what is it with you aliens?” I ask, trying to soften my trembling voice. “When you said we were being picked up by a shuttle, I’ve got to say, I was expecting something with a few more rockets.”

Sharon laughs. She’s got a beautiful smile. Why is it always the pretty ones that turn out to be psychos?

“Well,” she begins, sounding utterly sincere and genuine, “we’ve been here for about three hundred years.”

“Really?” I say as the bus turns down a darkened street. The lights are out. There must have been a blackout.

“Oh, yeah. We’ve got a base hidden on the far side of the Moon.”

“The dark side?” I ask, thinking Sharon’s been paying way too much attention to Ancient Aliens on The History Channel.

“Actually, there’s no dark side. The moon has days just like Earth, only a day up there is a month long. The sun rises and sets over the Moon just like it does here on Earth.”

“Oh,” I say. “I didn’t know that.”

The natural, relaxed tone in her voice is such that she could be giving me gardening tips, or talking about tides before going fishing.

“Our mission is to use non-intrusive means to initiate social change. We can’t introduce any new technology, but we can guide scientific discovery as a means to effecting social stability.

“Our focus, though, isn’t on any one science so much as promoting the concept. We’re advocates. We’re trying to coax rather than push—to inspire people to give up on superstitions and traditions. We want humanity to see reason for itself.”

“Huh,” I say. As far as delusions go, this one is pretty good. It’s got just enough plausible elements to avoid a sense of cognitive dissonance in her mind.

“It’s a slow process,” she says, talking to me as though I’m a child. “We’re fighting against hundreds of thousands of years of natural instinct compelling your species to war. You war against everything—skin color, gender, culture, country of origin, any kind of change. I swear, if given the chance, you’d war against eye color—fighting over blue or brown eyes.”

“You’re probably right there,” I concede.

She’s relaxing. I’m thinking about grabbing the gun, but I’m only going to get one chance at this. I don’t want to blow the opportunity.

“Our job is to encourage enlightenment—to help you see the folly inherent in your own nature, to see your own biases and prejudices. And that’s not easy for people to accept.”

I nod.

“So what about me?” I ask. I wonder, how do I fit into her paranoid delusion? I’m hoping she’s going to say the good guys get to return to their people with the gospel of good news, or something.

“Oh, we normally wipe and replace.”

That doesn’t sound good.

“Like Men in Black?” I ask, making a flashy sign with my thumb. “You know, erase memories and implant new ones?”

“Something like that,” she says.

This is good. For the first time, I think I just might make it out of this alive.

“We hide in plain sight,” she says, running the barrel of the gun across the back of my neck. “We discredit anyone that gets too close to the truth.”

“So you plant conspiracy theories in people’s heads?” I ask. “They think they’re on to something. Everyone else thinks they’re crazy.”

“Exactly,” she replies. “We give them false memories. Usually, we let them pick. Anal probe, alien space tentacle porn, things like that.

“You’d be surprised how many people opt for a field trip to Mars, but there’s nothing to see there other than rocks. Seriously, you humans have the most interesting planet in the system and everyone wants to go to the dry, cold deserts of Valles Marineris.”

She laughs, adding, “We give them something just crazy enough that no one will ever believe them.”

“And no one ever does,” I say, astonished at how immersed she is in her role-play. I had no idea Mark and his sister were this wacko. That her delusion can contemplate yet another layer of complexity is madness. Her nonchalant attitude scares me more than the gun.

“But I won’t do that to you.”

Oh, that sounds like good news. I hope. I relax a little.

“So,” I ask, my curiosity getting the better of me as I wonder just how thoroughly deluded she is, “Where are you from?”

Sharon points into the darkness. With the lights out, the stars are just visible through the light pollution thrown out by the rest of New York. She points at a star just above one of the buildings. Like an idiot, I follow her gaze. What the hell am I looking for? What am I expecting to see? There’s a faint hazy dot, barely visible in the sky. It could be Venus for all I know. I feel stupid.

“Artellac,” she says, as though that’s supposed to mean something, but I’m pretty sure she just made that up.

The bus takes a right, and it’s only then I realize the driver isn’t stopping to pick anyone up or let anyone off. There’s even the occasional couple at a bus stop frantically trying to wave the bus down as it drives on.

“We’re here,” Sharon says as Good Old Joe the bus driver finally pulls over, stopping in a taxi rank outside Baconhaus, a fast food joint that is quite possibly a crime against humanity in its own right.

I grab Mark, surprised by how heavy he is. Having had a few minutes to recover from running down the alleyway, my muscles revolt at the thought of carrying him again. I hoist him over my shoulder. Icy cold water runs down my back and trickles down the inside of my leg.

“You take care,” Joe calls out after us.

I step down onto the pavement and, with mock enthusiasm, ask, “Which way to the lab?”

This ought to be good. I doubt she really has a laboratory, and I peer around, looking for someone I can signal for help, but the street is deserted.

Sharon walks down the alleyway next to the Baconhaus.

I see a teenaged boy walk out of a nearby 7-11. He’s looking down at his phone. He glances up at me and stops in his tracks.

I point at Mark draped over my shoulder and mouth the words, “Call the police.” He gets it. I see him instantly dialing a number on his phone. He backs up, returning to the store. He peers out the window at me as he holds the phone to his ear.

“Hey,” Sharon calls out, waving with the gun.

I turn and walk down the alley, knowing the teen just got a good look at the ice packed around Mark’s head. If that doesn’t freak him out, nothing will. I relax my grip on one of Mark’s arms, allowing it to slide to one side and hang loose. I’m sure the boy has seen that. Hopefully he thinks I’m a mob hit man disposing of a body. I can just hear the 911 call: “A gangster wearing a tinfoil hat just dragged a dead body into the Baconhaus.” That’s believable. I wonder if he’ll follow up with, “Send Mulder and Scully!”

“In here,” Sharon says, leading me into a storeroom behind the Baconhaus. The smell of fried bacon causes me to salivate, which is all kinds of wrong considering I’m carrying a dead man.

Sharon turns on a dim light and closes the door behind me, flipping a deadbolt lock.

“So this is the lab, huh?” I ask, looking up at the lone incandescent bulb. At a guess, it’s twenty watts, max. I couldn’t read in this light, which makes it a strange choice for a storeroom-cum-laboratory.

“It’s got everything we need,” Sharon assures me. “Lean him against the wall. Get those ice packs off him.”

I try to lower Mark with some dignity, but he falls from my shoulders like a sack of potatoes and sags against the wall beneath a small window.

Sharon hands me a pair of scissors and I cut away the Saran Wrap, puncturing one of the bags by accident. Freezing cold water runs over my hands.

Mark’s face is blue. His skin has shriveled. He looks more like a waxwork zombie than someone who was alive less than half an hour ago.

“Dry him off,” Sharon says, handing me a towel.

I don’t want to touch him. I’ve been carrying him, but this is different. He’s staring at me.

I stand to one side, not wanting his dead eyes to look at me as I pat down his head and shoulders.

Sharon steps to the far side of Mark with a roll of duct tape. She’s holding the tape out in front of her like she’s about to pull the pin on a hand grenade.

“Ready?” she asks.

“You bet!” I reply enthusiastically, with a big stupid grin lighting up my face. I have no idea what she’s about to do. Gagging a dead man with duct tape doesn’t seem entirely necessary.

Sharon moves with surprising speed. She tears a two-foot length of duct tape from the roll and slaps it on Mark’s forehead. Ice? Bananas? Duct tape? I should have stayed in and watched TV.

“Mechanoluminescent,” she says. “We’d get a better result in a vacuum, but this will have to do.”

Each time Sharon rips a length of duct tape from the roll, she does so with a rapid burst of strength. Apart from the very obvious sound of the adhesive tearing from the roll, I notice a slight burst of blue light.

“What was that?” I ask as Sharon slaps another length of duct tape on Mark’s head. She’s slowly covering his entire skull—his brow, his face, his ears, his neck.

“X-rays,” she replies. “We’re exploiting an electron discharge to produce x-ray radiation. It’s just like pulling a wool sweater over your head and getting static discharge, only this will allow us to build a three-dimensional model of Mark’s brain in its current state. I’ll need the computers on Luna One to reconstruct his quantum presence, but we’ll capture it on the tape.”

Luna One? That’s a stupid name. I want to ask her, “Is Luna One the best name you can come up with? You travel dozens of light years to get to Earth, only to suffer from stifled creativity when it comes to naming your super secret alien moon base?” I’m sorely tempted to blurt out, “Is there a Luna Two?” just to be snarky, but Sharon is nothing if not blinded by her optimism.

As appropriate as such sarcasm may be from my perspective, for her it would be mean and cruel. She’s undergoing a mental breakdown over the death of her brother, so I keep my mouth shut. I need to help her get through this, and then turn her over to the cops or the paramedics so she can get professional help.

“We can save him.”

We?

I shake my head.

Sharon is diligent in wrapping Mark’s head in duct tape.

Someone pounds on the door.

“Open up!”

Sharon looks terrified. She finishes the final strip of tape, pressing it firmly in place. Mark’s head is covered in shiny silver duct tape. He looks like a storefront mannequin.

“You’ve got to hold them off,” she says, handing me the gun.

I’m dumbfounded. I stand there holding the gun, pointing it at her simply because that’s the way she handed it to me. Does this woman have any grasp of reality at all? Does she have any idea what she’s doing in any given moment?

Sharon turns back to Mark and presses the tape firmly over his nose, eyes, and mouth as the pounding continues.

“This is the police. Open up!”

I’m still pointing the gun at her as she crouches and starts pulling the duct tape from Mark’s head. Bits of skin come loose, revealing dull red flesh, but there’s no bleeding. Great, I think. Now we’re desecrating a corpse.

I’m stunned on so many levels. I’m trying to figure out just how many laws I’ve broken. Am I an accessory to something? How is a judge going to see this? Juries are supposed to consider what’s reasonable. What is reasonable given I’ve been held at gunpoint? But now I have the gun. How am I going to explain that? She just gave it to me, your honor.

“Please,” Sharon pleads, turning to me as she pulls another strip of duct tape from Mark’s head, trying to keep the strips loosely together in the shape of a mask. “You’ve got to do something.”

And she’s right. I’ve got the gun. I’m in control now. I’ve got to do something, and I will. I’ll let the police in. I walk over to the door and fiddle with the lock, but the pounding has warped the door, causing the lock to jam.

“Open the goddamn door!”

“Hang on,” I yell back. “I’m trying.”

The only way to open the door is to push against the police officer, relieving the pressure on the lock so I can twist the catch. I push my shoulder against the door and flip the bolt back.

A cop comes charging in, knocking me backward on my ass.

“Drop the gun!”

My eyes go as wide as saucers as the realization hits me—I’m the one holding the gun. In his mind, I’m the bad guy. I’ve wanted to get hold of this gun for so long, but now I can’t let go of this chunky hunk of black plastic and hardened metal fast enough. My hands shoot up in the air as the gun bounces off my thigh and onto the concrete floor.

“Stay where you are,” the officer says. “Kick the gun over to me.”

He shines a bright light in my eyes. I can just make out the barrel of his gun next to the light, and I know his finger is on the trigger.

“Quit stalling,” he says. “Kick the gun to me.”

I don’t think the officer has thought this through. I’m sitting on the concrete floor with my legs outstretched before me. The gun is sitting in front of my crotch. I could flick it to him with my hands, but not my feet.

“Now!” he demands.

With my hands still in the air, I shimmy backward in little bounces, shuffling back on my ass until I’m far enough away from the gun that I can reach it with my feet.

“Hurry up,” the officer yells.

I want to plead with him and tell him I’m doing the best I can, but that’s probably not wise. I get the side of my foot on the gun, and with a couple of awkward kicks, the gun slides over to him.

“Face down,” he yells, gesturing with his gun for me to lean forward and lie prostrate before him.

Again, not thinking it through, Officer Whoever. The way I’m seated, without months of Pilates practice and intense yoga training, the only way I can lie face down is to turn around. I decide this is what he really wants and turn away from him only to have my head slammed into the wet concrete floor as another cop pounces on me.

Mark’s body is still leaning against the far wall. His eyes are staring at me again. The duct tape has been ripped from his head, leaving fine lines vaguely matching adhesive tracks running across his face.

The window’s open.

Sharon’s gone.

I wonder if Sharon was ever really here. Is all this just me having a psychotic breakdown? Did I fabricate all of this as part of some shock-induced delusion? Is this whole episode a fantasy of my own dark mind?

My hands are wrenched behind my back. Steel cuffs lock in place around my wrists, keeping my arms pulled tight behind me.

“What have you done to him?” one of the cops asks.

“Nothing, I swear.”

“Wise guy, huh?”

The last thing I hear is one of the cops saying, “Taze him.”

Fifty thousand volts surges through my body and into the wet floor. The tinfoil on my head burns into my scalp as my eyes roll into the back of my head.

* * *

Doctor Not-Quite-Rock-Hudson pulls my right eyelid open and shines a bright light in my eye.

“His pupils are responding,” he says, pulling the light away momentarily and then flashing it back in my eye again. He does this several times, which is really annoying. Just when I think he’s satisfied, he switches to the other eye.

I’m not sure what happened over the past few minutes, but I feel as though I’ve relived the entire day while lying here on the hospital bed, and yet there was no running naked through Central Park. No alien space octopus tentacles probing the various orifices of my body.

“Listen,” the Army officer says, appearing on the edge of my vision. “Answer our goddamn questions, or I swear, you’ll spend the next decade sunbathing in a chicken coop at Guantanamo Bay.”

The doctor steps to one side, allowing the officer to grab my cotton gown by the neck. He pulls me half out of the bed. He’s on the verge of throttling me.

“The aliens. What do you know about them?”

“Nothing,” I say. The Army officer throws me back on the mattress.

“Get him on a waterboard,” the Navy officer barks.

I can’t take any more. I snap.

“What the hell do you want to know?” I yell at them. I’ve lost it. I’m pissed. I’ve done nothing wrong. “You want to torture me? Go right ahead. What do you think you’ll learn? Do you seriously think I’m going to tell you about little blue/green midgets from Mars, or lovesick sirens from Venus? Do you think torture is going to give you anything even remotely meaningful?

“You want to know about aliens? I’ll tell you about fucking aliens. They’ve got ears like Dr. Spock and acid for blood. And tentacles, lots of goddamn tentacles. But the porn. Oh, the porn is exquisite!”

The officer steps back, but I’m not finished.

“Congress is full of reptilian aliens! Go on, peel back their skin and take a look. But you know that already. You’ve been covering this shit up since Roswell.”

“I think we’ve heard enough,” the doctor says, ushering the officers out of the room.

“Wait,” I yell. “I’ve got more to tell you. I haven’t told you about the Jedi Knights, and Yoda—Yoda comes to me in the shower! Clean, we must be. Dirt leads to grime. Grime leads to filth. Filth leads to the Dark Side, where they have cookies!”

The nurse closes the door behind her as she leaves, leaving me alone in my 1950s hospital room.

I sink back into the mattress feeling frustrated. I’m in deep shit. My life will never be the same again.

Someone claps slowly from out of sight in the adjacent bathroom.

“Bravo,” a man’s voice says.

I’m confused.

“See,” Sharon says, stepping into the room, “I told you we could trust him to keep our secret.”

Mark walks in behind her, only he has long scruffy hair. He’s still clapping slowly, which is more than a little creepy given he’s dead.

“Wh—what? How?”

I sit up on the bed. My feet hang over the edge of the mattress as I turn to face Sharon and Mark.

“You’re alive?” I say.

“Thanks to you,” Mark replies, reaching out and shaking my hand.

“I—I… What the fuck?”

I’m hallucinating. That’s the only possible explanation. None of this is real.

I push off the bed, only my feet barely touch the floor. My head spins. I feel as light as a feather. The world around me seems to twist and turn. I reach out and grab at the bars on the window to steady myself as I step forward.

“Easy,” Sharon says, but I’m distracted by my feet. Rather than walking, I’m drifting, floating between footsteps.

I look outside. The light is blinding. It takes a few seconds for my eyes to focus on the craters. There are hundreds of them, maybe thousands, stretching out into the distance. The ground is dusty and grey, covered in pits and boulders.

Where’s the grass?

In the distance, a vast mountain rises up from the plain, reaching up thousands of feet in a smooth curve. There are no cliff faces or sharp angles. Everything looks old and worn. The sky is black. The ground is white, but I’m not looking at snow. The surface looks like ash. A brilliant, blinding white light reflects off the rocks, making it hard to keep my eyes open.

Sharon says, “Welcome to Luna One.”

She slips her hand around my waist and kisses me on the cheek again, only this time she lingers a little longer.

“One question,” I say.

“Sure.”

“Do you have tentacles?”

Sharon laughs, hugging me affectionately as she says, “No.”

“Good.”

Chapter 02: Normal Life

“Coffee?” Sharon asks.

“Huh?” I say, suddenly becoming aware I’m perched on a set stool in a cafe next to Central Park. I wobble, grabbing at the wooden counter, trying not to keel over onto the floor.

Sharon smiles warmly, holding out a brown to-go cup with a white plastic lid. Steam rises from the tiny slit. I take the cup, feeling the warmth radiating into my palms.

“Latte, right? No sugar.”

“Ah, yeah,” I say, looking around. There’s no Mark. No doctors or nurses. No secret alien luna base. No tentacles, which is good. I’m happy about the lack of tentacles.

The cafe is packed. People bustle about dressed in drab, dark coats, fighting off the cold. The chatter is surprisingly loud. Everyone’s talking at once. A truck rumbles by outside and I find my senses overwhelmed—stunned.

“I’ll see you later.” Sharon says, kissing me on the cheek. Her lips are warm. She’s wearing a police uniform, only this isn’t a sexy Halloween costume. She looks like one of New York’s finest, complete with a gun, radio, pepper spray, and cuffs on her stiff black leather utility belt. Her hair is pulled back in a ponytail.

Before I can react, she’s gone. I blink and she disappears into the crowded coffeehouse.

I sit there for a few seconds, cradling the coffee in my hands as people bustle around me. The cafe is vibrating with warmth and life, while I’m sitting here as cold as a marble statue.

A sip of coffee excites my senses, and I get up, making my way through the crowd to the door. Outside, the sun is bright. Vapor forms on my breath in the cold air. Snow is piled in the gutter, slowly deteriorating into a grey slush. Patches of ice cover the sidewalk, but someone’s sprinkled salt, and puddles are forming on the concrete. I’m about a block from home, so I wander along the chewing gum covered sidewalk, past business men and women racing to get to work in a stampede of energy that seems more focused on staying warm than actually going somewhere.

I trip over a homeless guy sitting against the marble entrance to a fancy hotel. If I didn’t have such a death grip on my cup, I would have drenched him in coffee.

“Sorry.”

“That’s okay,” the elderly black man says, looking up from his torn cardboard sign: Will dance for fun, food, or money.

“Joe?” I ask, recognizing the bus driver from last night.

“Can you spare an honest Abe?” he asks, referring to a five dollar bill with Abraham Lincoln’s grave face and his distinct chin-curtain beard printed in lifeless zombie green.

“Joe? Do you remember me?” I ask, rummaging around in my pocket for some money. I pull out a crumpled note, not sure what denomination it is, but it doesn’t matter. I drop it in his cup, looking for some kind of recognition from him. Just a glimmer of remembrance will help me understand whether I’m going crazy or not. Was last night a dream? A nightmare?

Joe unravels the note, saying, “For one lousy buck, I don’t remember nothing.”

Double negative, but that doesn’t count as a positive in this context.

“Joe,” I plead, raising my voice while simultaneously trying not to draw attention to myself. “Please, tell me I wasn’t dreaming. You were there, right? You saw us. You know Sharon.”

“For five bucks, I’ll remember anything you want,” Joe says, grinning with a toothless smile. He laughs, cackling at me.

I fumble with my wallet, pulling out a twenty.

“What about Andrew Jackson?” I ask. “How good is your memory now?”

“Oh, yeah,” he says, snatching the note from my freezing fingers. “I remember you. You were with that pretty girl. The blonde.”

“She’s a brunette,” I say impatiently.

Joe laughs, saying, “Oh, yeah, I remember her now. Thin girl, right? Nice bust.”

He’s guessing. He could be describing the girl walking past behind me. I turn and storm away.

“Movies,” he calls out after me. “You were going out for dinner, right? And then a movie.”

Joe’s no help.

What the hell is going on? Last night was ridiculous, absurd. If it wasn’t for the dark bloodstains on my jacket, I’d question my sanity. Although, the bloodstains have me questioning my innocence. I didn’t do anything illegal, did I? Honestly, I just don’t know. I could have done anything while high on drugs.

This is not a good look, I decide, and despite the cold, I take off my jacket, draping it over my arm as I hurry along the sidewalk.

I round the corner expecting to see police tape cordoning off the area where Mark lay bleeding in front of my building, but there’s nothing beyond the hustle and bustle of every day life in the Big Apple. Everyone’s in a rush.

The tiny bathroom window in Sharon’s ground floor apartment is still open. I stop where Mark fell. There’s no blood. There should be bloodstains. And tire marks, revealing how the police cruisers cut across the slush to face the building, but the icy road looks normal, with two sets of tracks running in either direction, marking where car tires have compacted the snow and ice.

Turning around, I retrace my steps into the brownstone, expecting to see brilliant scarlet red drops in the snow, but the filthy grey sludge disappoints me.

Inside the lobby, bright yellow tape covers Sharon’s door—Police Line: Do Not Cross. So I wasn’t dreaming. For a moment there, I was wondering if I was suffering from a mental breakdown.

The door’s open. I can’t help myself. I have to peer inside. I have to convince myself of what’s real, but I don’t dare step into the apartment.

“Can I help you?” a pretty police officer asks from the shadows.

“Sharon?” I ask as the officer strolls toward me wearing disposable plastic gloves. Her standard issue police belt looks oversized on her dainty frame.

“You know this guy?” another police officer asks, following her out into the lobby with his right hand resting on his holster as though he were a gunslinger in the Wild West.

“Nope,” Sharon says, holding out a photo for me to look at.

“You live here, bud?” the male police officer asks. He’s all muscle and could have easily come straight from a body building competition. His radio squawks with some unintelligible mumbo jumbo and he responds, rattling of a bunch of buzz words and numeric codes that seem all too primetime TV cop show for me.

“Sharon?” I ask again, speaking under my breath as Mr. First Place in the Heavyweight division talks on his radio, but Sharon ignores me.

“Have you seen either of these people before?” Sharon asks, holding up the photo that was taken from the stairs. There’s Sharon and me—Bonnie and Clyde. I’ve got Mark draped over one shoulder. Water drips from his ice-bound head. We’re wearing tinfoil hats roughly mashed over our foreheads. The photo is blurred, obscuring our facial features, and the reflection coming off the tinfoil has caught the light, flashing back at the camera and washing out the image.

“No,” I say, looking deep into Sharon’s eyes.

Her eyes dart to the side. She’s trying to point at her partner without making it obvious.

“Where do you live?” Officer Could-Be-On-Steroids asks.

“I—I, um. I live upstairs,” I say, answering the officer’s question.

“And you don’t recognize either of these people?” he asks, clipping his radio handset back on his shoulder.

“Nope.” I frown, shaking my head.

“How long have you lived here?”

“Two years.”

I answer so quickly I’m almost cutting him off. I’m nervous. I’m coming across as guilty as sin.

How did Sharon get here so fast? Why is she impersonating a cop? I’m distracting myself. The musclebound cop leans to one side slightly, ensuring we maintain eye contact and keeping me engaged. He looks suspicious.

“And you’ve never seen either of them?” he asks, probing deeper. “Not even once?”

“The tinfoil would be a dead giveaway,” I say, trying to make a joke, but he doesn’t laugh. “No. People around here keep to themselves. I work odd hours. Shift work.”

That’s a lie, and I’m aware I’m making the classic mistake all liars fall for, trying too hard to be convincing. I’m saying too much. My eyes dart around. Everything about my body language screams, “Liar!” I might as well hang a sign around my neck.

I’m clutching at straws, trying to deny any knowledge of what happened. That I’m roughly the same height as the perpetrator in the photo, carrying the same kind of jacket, wearing the same pants and shoes, all seems lost on the cop, but I’m sweating, just waiting for him to notice.

“Well,” he says, handing me a business card with the NYPD logo on it, a phone number, and an email address. “If you think of anything, be sure to let me know.”

“Sure,” I say, trying not to look too eager as I turn away and make for the stairs.

“Thanks,” Sharon calls out from behind me. I raise a hand in acknowledgement, not turning back.

Upstairs, I rush inside my apartment, my heart pounding in my chest. After deadbolting the door, I lean against the stiff, wooden panel, expecting it to be kicked in behind me by Officer Schwarzenegger .

“What the hell am I supposed to do?” I ask no one in particular, half hoping someone answers from the shadows, half hoping they don’t. “Jesus, this is messed up. How the fuck did I get caught up in this madness?”

I stuff my bloody jacket in a garbage bag, tying it off and shoving that bag inside another plastic garbage bag. I repeat the process again and again, convinced I need to hide the scent, wondering how many times I should do this to avoid the smell of blood being picked up by a police dog. I’ll throw this in the dumpster behind the alley. No, too obvious. Got to be smart. I should burn it. Yeah, because burning garbage in the middle of New York City isn’t going to attract any attention. Shit. I could tie a brick to the bag and dump it in the east river. What the hell is this? The Sopranos? I’m manic. I need to calm down. With no other options, I stuff the garbage bag under my bed. Yeah, they’ll never find it there. And my mind reels with sarcasm and pessimism. I’m totally screwed.

“Shower and a shave,” I mumble to myself, feeling somewhat hungover. “That’s what I need. Fresh start. Just. Calm. Down. Reboot the day. You’ll be fine.”

I start the shower, knowing it will take a few minutes to warm, and grab a change of clothes from the bedroom.

I’m supposed to be at work. What am I going to say? No one’s going to believe this shit. I had a cold. That’s what I’ll say. Yeah, I had a cold for about eight hours, but now I’m fine. Completely believable. Lying has never been this difficult. Okay, I’m late. I’m just late. No reason. No excuse. Sorry. That’ll do, I think, stripping down and jumping into the shower.

I lather some soap and rub it on my face, looking at the rough stubble in a tiny mirror stuck on the tiled wall with a suction cup. My regrowth is worse than usual. What am I? The wolfman? Working methodically, I run the razor over my cheeks, up under my nose and around my neck. I’m about to tidy up my sideburns when a face appears in the mirror—a face other than mine. I jump, almost slipping in the shower and collapsing to the tiles.

Hands slip around my naked waist.

“Sharon?” I cry, spinning around and bumping into the shampoo on the shelf. The plastic bottle crashes to the tiles. There’s no one there. I’m going crazy. That’s it. I am certifiably insane. Brooklyn Mental Hospital—that’s where I need to go. I’ve got to get help. I can’t go on like this, unable to separate my imagination from reality.

I dry off, get dressed, and head downstairs. The door to Sharon’s apartment is closed. The police tape is gone, and I’m left wondering whether she was ever really there, let alone while playing police officer.

The air outside is brisk and refreshing, a dose of reality, just what I need.

A black car races down the street.

A gun fires.

I’m standing in the same spot as yesterday.

Sharon and Mark are there at the bottom of the stairs with their backs to me.

It’s happening again.

I cringe, grabbing at the railing and ducking on instinct.

The car slows at the corner, indicating and waiting patiently for the traffic to clear before turning and merging between a bus and a taxi.

Mark and Sharon cross the road, only it’s not Mark and Sharon, it’s some other couple wearing similar clothing. Of course they’re wearing similar clothing. It’s winter, stupid. Everyone’s wearing thick jackets, gloves, hats.

But the gunfire? There wasn’t any gunfire, just a car backfiring, or a door slamming. Everyone else ignored it, I should too, but I can’t. My hands are trembling as I walk down the stairs. I’ve got to get away from here.

“Keep it together, man,” I whisper, glad to turn my back on the brownstone.

I take the subway, heading downtown to work.

Call me paranoid, but I can’t shake the feeling I’m being watched. Several people stare at me. Like every other sane person in New York City, I’m used to weirdos on the subway, but this time it’s me. I’m the crazy, paranoid conspiracy guy everybody’s avoiding. Or am I?

A young mother with a baby girl in a stroller stares me down, looking at me with unusual interest. Have I got something on my face? A quick peek at my reflection in the glass window opposite me says, “No.” I look away, trying to act relaxed, and then I glance at the glass window further down the car, using it again as a mirror to look indirectly at her. Yep, she’s still staring at me, ignoring her daughter. Creepy.

There’s an elderly man sitting almost opposite me reading the paper. Each time he turns the page, he folds the paper in such a way that he glances directly at me. He seems particularly uninterested in his paper. Sitting there, I time his page turns. He’s hitting roughly thirty seconds between pages. Apparently, each page contains exactly the same amount of content and nothing holds his interest for more than half a minute.

My heart rate goes up.

Am I just being paranoid?

What are they looking at?

Did I cut myself shaving?

Have I got snot hanging from my nose?

I’ve been so preoccupied by what happened after Mark was shot, it’s not until now that I stop and asked myself the most obvious question of all. Who shot him? And why?

Normally, I would stay on the train until Grand Central, but the Lexington stop comes along so I decide to test my conspiracy theory. I stand as the train pulls into the station, and walk over toward the door with a bunch of other commuters. Both the creepy mom and the elderly man follow. I catch their reflections in the windows.

The door opens and I join the mass of people leaving the train, only instead of going up the stairs, I double back, entering the same car through the second door further down the train.

Elderly creepy guy races to get back on board, following me through the door, while negligent mom reverses her stroller back through the first door and takes a seat again. Okay, so I’m not paranoid. I am being followed.

The train pulls out of the station. Fuck it. I’m going to sit down next to the elderly man with the square glasses. Might as well hit this head on.

Elderly incognito guy pretends to ignore me as I squeeze in beside him. He starts reading his paper, turning to the first page. We’re seated on a side bench the aisle.

“So,” I ask. “Are you having fun yet? Because I am.”

“Sorry,” he says, pretending he didn’t catch what I said. He knows damn well exactly what I said. What have I got to lose? Nothing. I haven’t done anything wrong. Well, that might not be entirely true considering Sharon shot at those police officers outside the brownstone and I helped her escape, but I don’t think I have a case to answer before a judge. She’s a psycho—a psycho from another planet—but a psycho nonetheless as far as American law is concerned.

How does the law apply to someone from another world? I’m guessing it’s the same as for foreigners. Sharon comes from slightly further afield than say, Australia, but the same principle must apply.

But what would a judge make of my involvement in Mark’s death? Would he take into account his resurrection? I was in the wrong place at the wrong time. I was a hostage. I have nothing to fear. I hope.

I grab the man’s newspaper, tearing it from his hands, being sure to make a scene as I crumple it into a ball and throw it into the aisle.

“Okay, playtime is over,” I say loudly. I have nothing to hide. “No more games. Who the hell are you and why are you following me?”

Within seconds, several passengers have their cell phones out, pointing them at me and capturing everything on video. Ah, you’ve got to love the modern age. There are people filming the people filming me. Brilliant.

“I don’t know what you’re talking about,” the man says.

“See this,” I say, gesturing to half a dozen complete strangers with their phones out. “This is my insurance policy. They’ve got you on video. Anything happens to me and the police are coming after you. Get it?”

The train rolls into Grand Central and I get up, saying, “Stop following me. That goes for you too crazy lady with the kid. Just don’t. Stay on the goddamn train or else.”

Or else? Really, that’s the best you can come up with? What kind of threat is that? Yeah, well I’m not exactly pulling out witty one liners like Arnold in The Terminator—or else will have to do.

The doors open and I step onto the platform.

As the train pulls out of the station, I wave at both the old man and the young mom. She’s talking on a phone. The scowl on her face is priceless. Several of the other commuters are still filming, catching a shot of me on the platform, which is fine by me.

I jog up the stairs feeling quite pleased with myself.

There’s a Starbucks just outside the station, so I duck inside and stand in line. I’m not actually thirsty. I want to keep my eye on the station exit and pick out anyone else that might be following. A second cup of coffee on an empty stomach is probably not the smartest idea I’ve ever had, and it’s bound to make me more jittery, and probably even more paranoid, but I want to be sure there’s no one else stalking me.

Within a minute, I’m standing at the counter, about to place an order, when a teenaged boy with bad acne hands me a cup with my name written on it, saying, “Joe Connors? Latte, right?”

“Ah, yeah. Thanks,” I say, slowly moving out of the line, unsure what’s going on. The clock on the wall reads 10:42. I’m over two hours late for work. My boss is an asshole at the best of times, so I head into Bloomfells, ducking in through the loading dock, hoping I haven’t been missed.

“Connors!” my boss yells as I step out onto the floor. All heads within the department store turn, customers and staff alike, and I cringe, wishing I could disappear. Sheepishly, I walk over to him, trying to think of a plausible lie.

“Where the hell have you been?” he asks with his hands on his hips.

“To the Moon and back,” I offer, not that telling the truth is going to help, but I’m hoping a bit of humor will.

“Three days! You don’t show up for work for three days, and you have the gall to sneak back in here and pretend nothing’s wrong? What? You can’t even pick up a goddamn phone and call in sick?”

Three days? I’m as shocked as he is.

“You’re fired. Get out of my store.”

I’m speechless. Stunned.

“Are you deaf?” he yells. “Go.”

“But Julian—”

“Out!”

Hamid over in computers cringes. Our eyes meet and I get the sense he’s born the brunt of Julian’s wrath over the past few days. He shakes his head, signaling for me not to take things further. He’s right. Julian’s like a bull charging at a red flag. I back away, trying to be dignified when I feel horribly embarrassed. The whole world stares.

“I’ll—I’ll get my stuff later.”

Julian doesn’t say anything. He just glares, and I wonder if my locker has already been emptied into the trash. I want to call him an asshole. I want to make a scene and yell at him, to vent, to lash out in anger, but two hotheads are only going to make matters worse. There’s nothing to be gained. To scream and carry on like a petulant child would only justify his position. My lips quiver. I’ve never been reduced to crying in public, but my pride has been hurt, and I struggle to keep tears from rolling down my cheeks.

“Sorry, man,” Hamid says softly as I walk past. I acknowledge him with a wave of my hand, unable to say anything. “I’ll be in touch. We’ll catch a Knicks game or something.”

“Yeah, sure,” I manage, choking up, but not at anything he said. I’ll probably never see Hamid again. Best of intentions aside, all we have in common is work. At most, we’ll bump into each other in the subway in a few months time, remember our awkward pledge of enduring friendship, and then disappear back into the bustling crowd again.

I feel crushed. I raise my disposable coffee cup as though I’m offering him a toast. Truth is, I can’t get out of this shitty store fast enough.

“Take care, dude,” he calls out after me.

Walking outside, I want to explode. I want to punch someone. I want to crush the fragile paper cup in my hand, but the coffee would go everywhere. Ah, Joe, you’re ever the pragmatist.

Life ignores me.

People brush past on the sidewalk.

Cars drive by, splashing the icy sludge into the gutter.

A dog sniffs my feet as his owner walks briskly along the pavement, dragging his curious miniature poodle on with him.

“Well,” I say to myself, trying to feel better with a little humor. “That couldn’t have gone any better.”

Sigh.

The name written on my cup has been scrawled on a sleeve of recycled paper acting as insulation. As the drink has cooled, I slip it off, wondering who ordered the drink for me. Written on the inside is a note: Call in sick. Don’t let Julian c u.

Good advice. A little late, but good.

I’m wondering if it was Hamid or someone else, when a familiar voice says, “How’s your day going?”

Sharon walks up from behind me, sliding her hand inside the crook of my arm and taking hold of my jacket. We walk away from Bloomfells. Dark clouds blot out the sun. As bizarre as my day has been, there’s something comforting and reassuring about being with Sharon. Against all reason, I feel relaxed around her. She sets the turbulent seas within my heart strangely at ease.

“Did you get my message?” she asks, and I hold up the sleeve before tossing it in a nearby trashcan.

“Oh,” she says, realizing I got it a bit late. “Don’t worry. He’s a dick.”

“He is,” I say, feeling a bit more cheery with Sharon hanging off my arm. Suddenly, the cold doesn’t feel quite so bitter.

“Did he fire you?”

“Yep,” I say. “He sure did.”

“Sorry.”

“Ah,” I say, sipping at the latte. “I hated that job anyway.”

“Don’t worry,” she says. “Probably for the best.”

“Sure. Who needs to pay rent anyway?”

“Yeah,” she replies, squeezing my arm and taking my comment way too literally.

“What about you?” I ask, looking at her dressed in tight jeans and a fluffy, down-filled jacket. “No more sexy police cosplay?”

She laughs, but doesn’t reply with anything more than an uninformative, “Nah.”

A couple of cops stand on the street corner, more interested in talking with each other than stopping crime, or wannabe terrorists, or whatever. Can’t say I blame them.

“I need your help.”

Oh, there it is.

“Help?” I ask, feeling I have a right to qualify her intent before agreeing to anything. “This doesn’t involve tinfoil or duct tape, does it?”

“No. Silly.”

“Or trips to a psychiatric hospital? Because, right about now, I could do with lying on a couch and talking to a shrink.”

“Noooo,” Sharon says, smiling as she snuggles into my arm. “You’re so funny.”

“Funny is good,” I say, relaxing. What is it with me and crazy women?

“I like what you did back there on the train,” she says.

“You saw that?”

“Very clever.”

I smile. Suddenly, life is rosy again, and I’m content. Jobless, but with a gorgeous woman hanging off my arm, I don’t know if life could be any better.

Without any warning, Sharon pushes me briskly into one of the cops standing on the street corner. My shoulder connects with his and he tumbles forward off the curb, skating for a second on the ice before crashing backwards on his ass in the snow. The officer ends up lying in the gutter covered in slush.

“What the hell?” the other cop says, already reaching for his gun. Before he can draw his 9mm Glock out of its holster, Sharon slaps him across the cheek.

“Police brutality!” she yells, pushing the cop. He staggers backwards, bumping into a trash can. Already, several bystanders have their phones out, holding them up and capturing the incident on video.

“I have the right to free speech,” Sharon cries, facing one of the pedestrians with his cell phone recording the incident.

“Just calm down, lady,” the cop says, holding one hand out in a gesture to keep Sharon at bay while his other hand grips his gun still in its holster. He’s seen the bystanders with their cameras and is playing to them as much as to her.

Sharon looks over his shoulder, facing one of the pedestrians recording the incident. She bellows, “The Second Amendment guarantees my right to assemble peacefully without police harassment.”

I’m mortified. Actually, I’m pretty sure that’s the First Amendment.

The cops are going to kill us—shoot us stone cold dead on the pavement.

“Nobody’s doing anything to take away your rights,” the cop says, as the first police officer gets to his feet. He’s hurt. He must have landed squarely on his tailbone as he’s leaning to one side and grabbing at his ass. He’s on the radio, talking into a microphone strapped over his shoulder.

I have my hands up. Just so everyone’s clear about what’s happening here, I blurt out, “I surrender.” I want nothing to do with this melee.

A siren sounds and a police car cuts across the intersection, sliding on the icy road as its headlights flash, catching us in their high beams. Blue and red lights strobe from the car’s grill.

“There have been too many unlawful deaths,” Sharon yells. “You can’t treat us like criminals, executing us without a trial.”

Two uniformed police officers jump out of the cruiser, positioning themselves behind each car door and leaning forward with their guns drawn.

My arms go from raised slightly above my head to absolutely fucking straight, perfectly perpendicular with the ground. I’m reaching so high I’m almost on tiptoes. I’m sure I look like a gymnast about to start a floor routine.

“Just take it easy,” the second cop says, pulling a pair of cuffs from his belt. “Let’s go for a drive downtown. We can talk about this at the station.”

“Do you see this?” Sharon yells, appealing to the cell phone cameras. “This is police harassment!”

Although she sounds hostile, Sharon has her arms out in front of her, with her wrists facing up, ready to be slapped with a pair of cuffs. The injured cop advances on me with his gun drawn. Out of self-preservation, I copy Sharon, holding my wrists out and hoping a pair of cuffs slapped on my arms is the worst that happens.

There’s some serious chatter going on over the radio. Assaulting a police officer tends to get the NYPD’s utmost attention, and another three police cars pull up with sirens blazing. Within seconds, several other police officers have shotguns and AR-15 assault rifles leveled at us. These guys are ready for World War III. I swear, the NYPD uses Die Hard videos in basic training. I only wish I could slip between the cracks in the concrete and disappear.

Why, Sharon? Why?

Someone grabs me by the scruff of the neck and marches me over to a waiting police car. Sharon’s bundled into one squad car while I’m pushed into another. These guys aren’t taking any chances, keeping us separate. Sharon’s still yelling for the cameras, “The United States is a police state!” As for me, I cannot shut my mouth tight enough.

“You and your girlfriend are pretty fucked up,” one of the officers says, hopping in the front of the police car and staring at me through the metal grate. What can I say? I agree with him wholeheartedly. There’s no argument from me.

“Where’s she from?” he asks as we round a corner and race down the road with sirens still blazing.

“She’s an alien,” I say. I’ve got to stop being so goddamn honest. No one’s going to believe this shit.

“Illegal alien, huh?”

“Something like that,” I reply, wondering how the hell I’m going to get out of this without spending the next few years in jail. For a cute chick, Sharon is seriously messed up. Why me? How the fuck did I get caught up in all this? Again? I’m questioning not only her sanity, but my own. Secret alien moon base? Are you serious? Try explaining that to the judge. What the hell have I been dosed with? Did someone spike my drink with LSD?

There’s more chatter on the police radio, as well as between the two cops in the front of the vehicle, but I’m in shock. I don’t catch anything not being said directly to me. I’m not sure if we drive a hundred yards or a hundred miles, but we pull into a police garage and circle down below the police station. Dozens of police cars, SWAT vehicles and heavy duty trucks are parked in the basement.

I’m dragged into a holding cell while they wait to process us for prints and mug shots. The steel bars that close behind me slam shut with a vengeance.

Sharon’s already seated on a bench running along the wall. A junkie sits slouched next to a stainless steel toilet. He’s counting ants crawling along the floor, pointing at them and mumbling numbers to himself.

Sharon is prim and proper, sitting with her back straight, her legs together and her hands resting on her thighs. She plays with her handcuffs, smiling warmly at the guard and I’m tempted, sorely tempted, to tell him not to be fooled by her looks, but I keep my mouth shut. The sound of boots squelching on the floor slowly fades, leaving the three of us alone.

“What were you thinking?” I ask, sitting down beside her. “I can’t believe you. Here I was thinking we were starting to act like a regular, normal couple, and you assault a police officer.”

“Oh, don’t worry about him,” she says, batting her cuffed hands through the air. “He’ll be fine.”

“It’s not him I’m worried about.”

Sharon ignores me. She twists her handcuffs, working her wrists back and forth so they oppose each other.

“What are you doing?” I ask.

“Getting us out of here,” she says with that sweet innocence that seems to mesmerize me every time.

“Getting us out of here? You’re the one that got us in here in the first place.”

“I know,” she says with a smile that reveals the machinations of a cunning mind.

“Why are we even in here?” I ask, knowing this had to be deliberate on her part. Sharon may be crazy, but she’s not stupid.

“Police stations are difficult to break into,” she says. “So I thought we should ask politely for a tour. Everything’s so much easier once you’re on the inside.”

I raise my hands in frustration, letting them then drop back in front of me.

“You were in uniform this morning. You could have waltzed in here.”

“Ah, not quite,” she says. “Technically, it’s easy to duplicate swipe cards and decrypt pass codes, but without knowing any of the officers personally, I’d be exposed and caught quite quickly. This is a much better solution.”

“Better?” I ask, holding my handcuffed hands up before her. “You think being locked in a cell with these on is better?”

“Yes,” she says, pulling her hands apart. A steel link drops to the concrete floor as the chain on her handcuffs breaks.

“How did you…?” I ask, changing tack mid-sentence. “Do you have like superhuman strength or something?”

“No, silly,” Sharon replies. “The NYPD spares no expense in purchasing only the highest quality handcuffs, and the higher the quality, the easier they are to break. Cuffs like these are actually quite brittle. Apply alternating torque and you’ll snap one of the links, or the base plate, within about sixty seconds.”

“Are you for real?” I ask, copying her motion and grinding the links together time and again as my wrists swing back and forth.

“Oh, yes. Only the very best handcuffs break this easily. And the NYPD settles for nothing but the best.”

There’s a sincerity in her words that tells me she’s genuinely impressed by the NYPD’s attempt at procuring quality law enforcement merchandise, regardless of how ineffective it may be.

The junkie sits watching us. He isn’t in restraints, but then again, he didn’t assault a police officer.

“Quick,” she says, standing up. “They’ll be back soon.”

I’m so intent on breaking my cuffs I don’t notice Sharon getting undressed. She lays her coat on the bench seat beside me, but it’s warm in here, so that doesn’t register as anything out of the ordinary. It’s not until she’s got the buttons on her blouse undone and is taking off her shirt that my handcuffs break and I look up at her full figure in a stunning lace bra.

The junkie laughs. He’s probably not sure if he’s hallucinating.

“Ah,” I say, trying to keep my eyes from popping out of my head. “Is this part of the plan too?”

“We’re going to need some lube,” she says, taking off her shoes and pulling off her jeans.

“You heard the gal,” the junkie cries, exasperated with how slowly I’m reacting. “Get the woman some lubricant!”

“Shut up,” I say, turning and pointing at him. “Just. Stay out of this.”

He laughs again, gawking at Sharon with wide eyes.

I turn back to her and she’s naked. She tosses her bra and panties on the bench beside me, saying, “Without lubricant, this is going to be tight.”

“Come on! You’re gonna need some lube, man,” the junkie says, gesturing with his hands toward her.

“You’re not helping,” I say sternly to him.

“We don’t have long,” voluptuous, naked, stunning Sharon says, bouncing slightly as she moves.

“Lube. Lube. Lube,” I say, desperately trying to take her request seriously. I scramble to think of possibilities, but honestly, there are other things on my mind. I close my eyes. It’s the only way I can think straight, even then, knowing she’s standing just inches away from me in her birthday suit has my heart racing.

“Water,” I say. “Will soap and water do?”

“Yes, yes.”

I turn on the tap in the tiny basin beside the toilet and start lathering my hands with soap and warm water.

“Ah,” I say, hesitating as I turn toward her, unsure exactly what I should be doing. I hold up my dripping hands, marveling at the insanity of the moment. Insanity, that’s how I’ll get out of this. I’ll plead insanity. Surely, the police must be videoing what goes on in these holding cells. They’ll see this. They’ll see Sharon stripping down. They’ll see me lathering her with soap. No jury is going to convict. After seeing this, they’ll have to acquit. Hopefully, I’ll get community service, or perhaps court-appointed psychiatric monitoring as an outpatient for six months.

“What are you waiting for?” she asks, beckoning me to run my soaking wet hands over her body.

The junkie’s laughing his ass off. I’m laughing. Even Sharon’s laughing. Although I’m not sure she’s laughing for the same reason we are.

“Yeah, baby,” the junkie cries as Sharon turns around, holding her arms above her head and pirouetting.

The junkie yells, “Move those hips, gal.”

“I did ballet. Can you tell?” Sharon asks as she turns, breaking into different poses as I splash her naked body with soapy water. I nod, grinning like an idiot. Yep, I can tell. Ballet. That’s just what I was thinking of. Nothing else. Honest.

Sharon has the body of a goddess.

I don’t know what the hell I’m doing. Like the junkie, I’m caught up in the moment and drunk on the sexual energy implicit in touching a sensuous, gorgeous, naked woman. I know it’s a cliche, but if this is wrong, I don’t want to be right.

I keep returning my hands to the tap, lathering more soap and splashing warm suds on her body, running my fingers over her silky smooth stomach, hips and thighs.

“Don’t forget my breasts,” Sharon says.

Forget them? I was trying to maintain some sense of dignity, but, okay. Go with the flow, Joe. To hell with being in a police cell, this is the greatest moment of my life! Well, slight exaggeration. Nope. No exaggeration at all. This incredibly beautiful, stunning woman has taken her clothes of in front of me—inexplicably. And all I had to do was body check a cop. Hell, if she’d told me her plan, I would have hit him with a baseball bat. This is my wildest high school pubescent dream come true.

Sharon twirls, raising her arms above her head and jiggling her body. Water splashes everywhere, but whatever. My hands glide over her smooth, soft skin, feeling the texture of her sensuous body sliding beneath my fingertips.

“Okay,” she says, coming to a halt. “I think we’re good.”

I hear those words, but my hands keep moving. I cup more water and splash it on her, rubbing my fingers over her breasts again for good measure. I must look like a clown.

Sharon raises her eyebrows.

“Oh, right,” I say, remembering there’s a reason she’s stripped down, and that reason wasn’t to fulfill my teenage fantasies. My hands are reluctant, but I pull them away. “Right. Serious alien stuff now, huh?”

“Something like that,” she says.

At a guess, she’s going to do a cool alien thing, like walk through the bars Terminator 2 style. Although she doesn’t look very alien. More playboy bunny minus the leotard. At least, she’s not like any alien I’ve ever seen in the movies.

Sharon walks up to the bars of the cell and bends over, squeezing her arms and head through the horizontal opening used for passing food trays and paperwork to prisoners.

“Damn,” is all I can say, watching as she wriggles and shimmies her upper torso through the bars. Roughly halfway, she gets stuck. She can’t get her hips through the narrow opening, and I watch in a trance as she leans forward, grabbing at the bars below her, wrestling to get through the opening.

“It’s so hard,” she says.

“Yes, it is,” the junkie cries, and I swat him on the shoulder, signaling for him to be quiet.

“Give me a push,” Sharon says.

“What?” I say, looking at the most perfect butt I’ve ever seen in my life. There’s not a single blemish on her peachy white skin.

“Quick,” Sharon says, looking at me upside down from between her legs.

I’m about to faint. My blood pressure is up, but there’s not much blood pumping to my head.

I position my hands on either side of her ass, feeling as though I’m about to explode. My fingers touch lightly against her buttocks and I push as though I’m committing a cardinal sin.

“Harder.”

“You heard her,” the junkie cries. “Give it to her harder.”

“Will you shut the hell up,” I snap.

Although it feels all kinds of wrong, I grab her ass and push. Sharon squirms sideways, and in a flash, rolls forward out of the holding cell, somersaulting onto the floor.

“There,” she says. “Now, that wasn’t so hard, was it?”

“Oh,” the junkie cries, unable to contain his laughter. “I’m pretty sure it can’t get any harder than that!”

I could hit him, but instead I grab her clothes and rush them over to her. It’s strange, but in the moment, I’m more concerned about her being clothed than being caught. I guess being caught is a given.

“No time,” she says, grabbing only her shirt and jeans. “I’ve got to move fast. I’ll be right back. I’m going to sneak in there like a commando and get the keys.”

“Oh, you’re going commando, all right,” the junkie says, seeing me standing by the bars still holding her bra and panties.

I throw a shoe at him.

He ducks to one side, roaring with laughter. I must admit, this whole situation is so crazy it really is funny. And yet, it worked. There she is on the other side of the bars.

Sharon creeps down the hall.

I pick up her shoe and stand at the door to the cell, ready to leave when she gets the key. This is actually going to work.

The junkie reaches out and touches my arm for no particular reason other than to determine if I’m real. I am, but he doesn’t look convinced. For him, this is an acid trip of epic proportions.

My heart pounds in my chest.

I like Sharon.

I like her a lot.

Actually, I’m not sure ‘like’ is the right word. There must be a better word to describe the way I feel about her. Not love. I couldn’t say I love her. I lust her. That’s the word I’m looking for. Nah, lust is too—sheesh, it just doesn’t fit. Not like. Not love. Not lust. I don’t know what it is, but I was actually a little horrified seeing her naked. Sure, I enjoyed the show. But there was something perverse about seeing her strip in a police cell. Pleasantly perverse, but perverse all the same. I feel as though I did something wrong by enjoying the spectacle, as though I’ve sullied myself. But, hey, on the bright side—no tentacles.

From her perspective, being an alien, I can’t help but wonder if there were any sexual connotations at all? Certainly, she seemed very matter-of-fact about the whole thing. What do aliens think of human sex? Is there an alien equivalent? And I don’t mean the reproductive act, I mean the sense of intimacy, vulnerability, privacy. For us, sex is a sensual act, consuming and overwhelming us in a moment of ecstatic release.

How would I describe an orgasm to an alien? It’s a serious question in my mind. The best way I can think of as I watch Sharon disappear around the corner in bare feet, is to lose yourself in a moment of pure, unadulterated pleasure, but I suspect words can never convey the reality of sex. It’s a bit like explaining red to a blind man. Strange how something so wonderful can be so intensely personal and private, so difficult to describe. Why is such an exciting, indulgent, shared pleasure often a source of guilt? I wonder what that says about us as a species. Our particular form of intelligence seems naturally predisposed to seek sexual pleasure, and yet we either hide from that instinct, or take it to extremes.

Do aliens have porn? Or is porn a particularly human invention?

And what is porn but to surrender to our instincts?

Dunno.

Charles Darwin spoke of both natural selection and sexual selection, with the latter, at least in part, describing why birds like the peacock have such stunning plumage. Are we like peacocks and peahens?

Sharon comes creeping back down the hallway, tiptoeing as she slowly builds to a run. She has a set of keys in her hand. Her shirt is tight-fitting and semitransparent, not leaving much to the imagination. I try to ignore the hypnotic bounce of her breasts, wanting to make up for my previous indiscretions as though someone’s keeping score. Perhaps a good deed cancels out the bad? If it was bad.

“Got them,” she says with a grin on her face.

I feel like a kid skipping school.

Sharon opens the cell door. The junkie gets to his feet.

“Not you buddy,” I say, holding Sharon’s jacket, along with her shoes, socks, and underwear, all neatly folded and stacked. I’m trying to appear industrious rather than sleazy. Sharon puts on her jacket, zipping it up and hiding her breasts from sight. Finally, I can think clearly again.

“Awww,” the junkie says, not arguing with me. He slumps against the wall and slides to the floor. The glazed look in his eyes tells me he doesn’t think any of this is real. His subconscious delusions are scolding him, and he’s resigned to sitting there numb.

“What about the cameras?” I ask, pointing at a dark dome on the roof, wondering about the angle that captured Sharon’s exotic, nude, rain/soap dance. It would grab millions of hits on YouTube.

“Mark deactivated them about twenty minutes ago,” she says.

“Ah,” I say as she closes the cell door behind me.

“So what’s the plan?” I ask, following her down a corridor leading away from the cells.

“There’s an access tunnel leading to the morgue in the next building. All we need to do is steal Mark’s old body.”

“That’s all,” I ask, being facetious, but apparently sarcasm doesn’t register with extraterrestrials.

“Yeah, easy, huh?”

Sharon leads me into a storage area and then down a dimly lit corridor.

I feel a little stupid, but I have to ask.

“And why are we doing this?”

“We can’t let them examine his brain.”

“Ah,” I say, as though I understand, but followed quickly by, “Why?”

“You humans have a hundred trillion neural connections. We have close to five hundred trillion.”

“Ah.”

Someone rattles a key in a door, inadvertently giving us the chance to duck into a room and hide behind some shelving. A janitor wanders in, grabs a mop and bucket, and then turns and leaves.

“And it looks different?” I whisper, still crouching behind the shelving.

“What?” Sharon asks, taking her shoes and socks from me and putting them on.

“Your brains?”

“Only under an electron microscope.”

“Ah,” I say, realizing this is the third time I’ve started a sentence with that pearl of a word. “You know you don’t need to do this, right?”

“Do what?” she says, tying the laces on her shoes.

“Steal his body.”

“Why do you say that?” she asks, taking her bra and underpants from me. I’m intensely curious as to whether she’s going to strip down again to get dressed, but she shoves her lacy panties in her pocket.

“They shot him,” I say, struggling not to lose my train of thought. “In the chest. Point blank. If the police even bother with an autopsy, it’s going to focus on the damage to his heart and lungs. They’re not going to open his skull.”

“How do you know that?” Sharon asks, unzipping her jacket briefly and lifting her shirt a little. She fastens her bra just above her waist and moves the bra around and under her breasts without lifting her shirt. With a deft motion, she slips her hands out of her sleeves, into the bra, and then back into the sleeves again without removing her shirt. Damn. That was like watching Cirque du Soleil.

“Joe?” she asks, catching me distracted by her contortionist routine.

“Oh, CSI Miami,” I reply.

“Sea-sided Miami?” she asks.

“The TV show,” I say. “You do watch TV? Don’t you?”

“Not so much,” she admits, looking as though she’s explaining something complicated to a child.

“They do this stuff all the time. Autopsies and things. All based on actual case work. Well, they take reality to an extreme, but the principle is roughly the same. If someone’s shot in the chest, they’re not going to bother examining his toes or his head. At least, not beyond a cursory glance to check everything’s normal. They’re certainly not going to slice open his skull cap and look at his brain cells under an electron microscope. They don’t even have that kind of equipment.”

“Huh?” Sharon says, sounding genuinely surprised. “But we still need to retrieve his body. At the very least, we have to cut off his head.”

I can feel my stomach churning already. I really, really want to talk Sharon out of decapitating a corpse. I do not want to be standing there sawing off a dead man’s head when the cops finally catch up with us.

“They’ll release the body to next-of-kin,” I say. Seems obvious enough to me.

“Huh?” Sharon says, sounding even more surprised than before. Us dumb Earthlings have our moments, I guess.

She stands there for a moment staring at me. I raise my eyebrows, saying, “So you can simply arrange for a funeral director to collect his body.”

“Ah,” she says, subconsciously mimicking me. “I guess I owe you an apology.”

“For what?” I ask, “For getting me falsely imprisoned for assaulting a police officer?”

She grins sheepishly.

“Ah,” I say. Fourth time. Fifth if I count hers. I smile, saying, “It was worth it for a trip to the Moon.”

Sharon nods. She has tears in her eyes, which surprises me. She doesn’t cry, but she looks as though she’s about to. Aliens. Emotions. Who would have thought it? And here, in a janitor’s closet deep inside the basement of a police station.

“We did go to the Moon, didn’t we?” I ask. “I mean, that wasn’t a hallucination, right?”

“Right,” she says.

“Can we get out of here now?” I ask. “Without cutting off anyone’s head?”

“Sure,” she says, and we creep back into the hallway. Sharon leads me to a side door. A sign reads—Emergency Exit. Door alarmed. But Sharon doesn’t hesitate. She pushes on the bar, opening the door, and we step out into a narrow stairwell leading up to the street. She must see my eyes darting around, waiting for sirens to sound, as she says, “Mark,” by way of explanation.

“Right,” I say. “Nice.”

We emerge from the basement and walk briskly away from the police station. I’m curious. I have to know.

“So,” I ask, still a little drunk on the whole my-girlfriend’s-an-alien thing. “If we couldn’t get out of there, what would have happened? I mean, you know, if someone had walked in while you were slipping between the bars?”

Sharon takes my arm, snuggling into my shoulder as we walk along. She doesn’t reply. Aliens are complex. The term weird springs to mind, but they probably think the same about us.

“Would Mark have sprung us with a UFO? Could we teleport out of there or something?”

Sharon laughs, saying, “You watch too much TV.”

She’s got me there.

Chapter 03: Sharon

There’s a grocery store on the corner.

“I need to report in,” Sharon says.

“Time to get some more bananas, huh?”

She shrugs her shoulders and walks into the corner by the potatoes. Holding her hair back behind her ear, she bends down and whispers to the spuds. An elderly woman picks up some tomatoes from the next display. The woman stares at Sharon with bewilderment. I smile, speaking softly as I say, “She’s in therapy. Doing much better. We’re on a day trip.”

The old woman smiles and nods, apparently being supportive, but she quickly finishes her shopping and heads straight for the cashier.

“We could just buy some potatoes and take them with us,” I say.

Sharon ignores me, picking up an apple as we walk up to the cashier. As she pays for the apple, the cashier notices the chrome handcuffs around her wrist. The chains linking the handcuffs might have broken, but the cuffs themselves are still firmly wrapped around our wrists.

The cashier is a young girl of maybe sixteen. She has a stud through her nose and long, dangly earrings. Seeing her interest in Sharon’s cuffs, I say, “Cool jewelry, huh?”

“Sweet,” the cashier says, smiling at us. And I make sure my cuffs remain hidden in the sleeves of my jacket.

Sharon mumbles, “Well played,” as we walk away from the store.

“So?” I say, “Placing another call are we? But using Apple FaceTime?”

Sharon laughs, taking a bite of the apple and saying, “Just hungry.”

As we cross the road, Sharon says, “Mark’s going to get Joe to collect the body.”

She’s silent, and I have a fair idea why.

“It’s about trust, isn’t it?” I say, confident I have a good read on what’s happening at a broader level. “You didn’t trust me, did you? Not really. Even after all that happened last night.”

Sharon shakes her head. She looks down at the grime mixing with the snow and ice. She’s still got her arm around mine, holding onto the crook of my arm as I keep my hands buried in my pockets, but she’s staring at her shoes squishing in the slush on the road.

“That’s why I woke in the cafe, right?”

She nods like a child admitting to stealing cookies from the pantry.

“That’s why you wouldn’t tell me about the plan to snatch Mark’s body. You didn’t trust me.”

She nods again, biting her lip. Tears roll down her cheek. It’s funny. I should be mad, but I’m not. Her alien heart is so tender. She feels bad. It’s hard to realize I’m walking and talking with an extraterrestrial—someone from another world. She seems so human.

Neither of us say much for the next few minutes. I guess it takes us both some time to process everything that’s happened over the past few days. My life is in ruins. Simultaneously wrecked and revolutionized. I’m not sure what I think about that, and yet my eyes have been opened to a new world, and that seems to outweigh any harm done. I’m not sure I could ever explain any of this to anyone here on Earth. I really would end up in the Brooklyn Psychiatric Hospital.

“Where are we going?” I ask as Sharon leads me into the New York Cemetery with its stunning wrought iron gates.

“Trust, right?” Sharon says softly. “I want to show you something—to show you that I do trust you.”

The cemetery is enclosed in a vast courtyard beyond the street-front buildings. We walk down a narrow alley, passing beneath an elegant archway. Old New York has been carefully preserved in this remote corner of the city. In some ways, it’s like stepping back in time. The snow is pristine, which is a rarity in New York. Bright, white, virgin snow is a stark contrast to the grey sludge out on the road. That there are no footprints other than ours reinforces the notion that we’re on hallowed ground. The snow is angelic, glistening in the sunshine.

“I thought you should know,” she says. “I thought you should see her.”

“Her?” I ask as we walk across the snow covered ground. Marble headstones and various stone monuments dot the enclosed courtyard. Rough-hewn stone walls surround the park, reaching up ten feet in height. Sharon leads me to a tiny, weathered obelisk standing barely three feet high.

Sharon Somerville

Beloved daughter of Jonathan & Daisy-Jane

Lost but not forgotten

1837-1842

“She died the day before her fifth birthday,” Sharon says, reaching out and touching the cold marble.

“This is… you?” I ask.

She nods, saying, “Yes.”

“You knew them? The parents?”

“Yes. They were good friends.”

“But?” I ask.

Sharon sniffs, wiping tears from her eyes.

“I brought you here because you need to understand.”

“Understand what?” I ask.

“We can’t.” Her voice breaks. She continues, sobbing softly as she says, “We can’t intervene. Even if we know precisely what’s happening and how to fix it, we can’t violate your autonomy. You have to do this for yourselves.”

I put my arm around her, comforting her. Sharon’s grief is raw. It is as though the grave is freshly dug. I hold her tight, but I don’t understand. I don’t know what to say in response. My head is spinning.

“It’s beautiful, you know,” she says, fighting back the tears. “That you remember the dead like this. Not everyone does. It’s one of the things that makes your species special.”

She turns toward me, resting her hand on my chest as she says, “Don’t forget. Those you love. Those you lost. Never forget them.”

Now she’s got me crying. A tear runs down my cheek, leaving a cold track on my exposed skin.

“It’s tough, you know,” she says, sniffing. “You have to go on. You have to keep living. But never forget. Memories are important.”

“They are,” I say, hugging her.

A knot sticks in my throat.

Crazy. We’ve spent hundreds of millions, I don’t know, probably billions, if not trillions of dollars looking up at the stars over the decades, looking for life on other planets. We wonder what First Contact will be like. Hollywood imagines spaceships with laser beams blowing up buildings, or UFOs hovering over the White House, but I don’t think we’ve ever stopped to realize what First Contact actually means. My take might be overly simplistic, but Life from over there reaches out to Life over here. That’s it. Life understands that Life is important. And here I am, standing in a place of death, humbled by a life form from beyond the furtherest reaches of the solar system. I’ve always thought of cemeteries as creepy—places to be avoided—but Sharon’s right. They’re a memorial to life. These aging marble headstones and cold concrete slabs show we care. We should never stop caring.

I wonder what the guys at SETI would think if they could see me standing here in the snow in the middle of a cemetery, comforting an extraterrestrial going through grief over the loss of a human child who died well over a hundred and fifty years ago. I’m pretty sure this isn’t what they imagine when they think about aliens landing on Earth.

“Bye, Sharon,” she says, kissing her fingers and then touching the cold stone with fondness.

I’m stunned.

Mentally, I’m reeling on so many levels.

Less than an hour ago, I watched this woman undress, being held spellbound, captivated by her feminine beauty, and now here I am standing before the grave of a child, realizing they’re one and the same. I guess that’s the thing about porn. No one ever stops to think, “That’s someone’s daughter.” No one recognizes that the sensuous naked woman folding out of the center of a sleazy magazine once grew up as a cute little girl, playing with other kids on the swings and tumbling down a slippery slide. That buxom beauty went to high school math classes and school proms like everyone else. Nah, when it comes to porn, women are objects, living statues paraded before us for our gratification. Porn is fantasy divorced from any connection with reality. This, though, the cold, the snow, the ice, the marble monuments and weathered headstones, this is real.

We turn and walk away.

I’ve had a glimpse into the inner working of an alien mind. Sharon, my Sharon, was so heartbroken by the loss of this child to some hideous disease we’ve long since banished to the history books, that she cloned her body and lived the life the real Sharon never experienced. My Sharon has mentioned the alien policy of detached encouragement. They can guide. They can’t push. But I feel pretty damn sure my Sharon targeted this particular disease, pushing for it to be eradicated as soon as possible, to the benefit of millions of other children around the world, including me. Sobering thought. I guess we never really know the debt we have to past generations.

“We want to see you emerge,” she says. “We want to see you gain mastery of your world and banish heartaches like this.”

Her voice is as gentle as the snowflakes falling in a light flurry around us.

“Do you want to sit and talk?” she asks.

“Sure,” I say, realizing the moment is cathartic for her.

It’s cold, insanely cold. We’re wearing jackets, but not gloves or hats, and yet I have to sit and listen to her. I must. I’m privileged beyond compare, privy to alien thoughts on my home world. And I wonder what Sharon has seen. I wonder about the worlds she’s visited, but for now, it’s this world she wants to talk about, so I’ll listen.

The entrance to the cemetery is through a narrow alley. Retracing our steps, we sit on a bench seat beside the wrought iron gates in the alley. The archway spanning the entrance has sheltered the seat from snow and ice, but the cold still comes through from the frozen wooden slats.

“You’re peculiar,” she says.

“I’m peculiar?” I say, laughing as Sharon slips her hands up and under my jacket to keep them warm. “You’re cold,” I say at the touch of her fingers. I can’t help but pull away slightly even thought I don’t want to.

“You’re weird,” she replies.

I laugh.

“No, I mean, you humans, in general.”

“Oh, well, so long as you’re insulting the entire human race and not just me, that’s fine.”

She snuggles a little closer and I feel myself falling in love. Not like. Not lust. Genuine, I’d-give-my-very-life-for-you love.

“So many contradictions,” she says.

“Like peanut butter and jelly,” I say.

“Just like peanut butter and jelly,” she says, looking at me with puppy dog eyes. “You don’t think it’s going to work—”

“But it does,” I say, completing her sentence.

“Yep.”

I could freeze to death on this park bench and I’d die a happy man. I tuck my hands in my pockets, clenching my fists and trying to warm my fingers.

“So what have you done while you’ve been here on Earth?” I ask, as she slips both hands into my left jacket pocket, gently rubbing my hand for warmth. “What have you changed?”

“Nothing, really,” she replies. A soft mist forms with each breath we take. “You’ve done all the hard work. All we’ve done is point a few things out.”

She pauses for a moment before asking, “Do you know Charles Darwin?”

“Not personally,” I say, and Sharon tickles me. Her efforts are largely ineffective given my thick jacket, but I play along, squirming slightly.

“You know what I mean,” she says.

I nod, mesmerized not by her beauty, but by her intelligence.

“Darwin sailed to the Galapagos and caught finches, dozens of them from different islands. He stuffed them to preserve them for the voyage home, but he forgot to label where the birds came from. He missed the opportunity to categorize them properly.

“We heard about him from a mutual friend back in England—Charles Lyell.

“Lyell couldn’t stop talking about Darwin’s industrious mind and his adventures on the HMS Beagle.

“Mark and I stopped by one summer day a couple of years later and asked Charles about his collection of finches. Isn’t that strange, I said to Charles. They’re all quite different. Some have thin, narrow beaks. Others, broad thick beaks. Rather peculiar, don’t you think? Where did you find them?”

“Peculiar?” I say, listening to her put on a posh British accent and chuckling at her recollection of meeting Charles Darwin in person before his rise to fame. She seems to like the word peculiar, which is peculiar in itself as peculiar isn’t a word used much these days. Peculiar is one of those subtle hallmarks that betrays her true age.

“Yes, peculiar. And so Charles says, I assure you, madam, these birds are all part of the same species. They differ only in that they were found on different islands in the Galapagos.”

With that, she stops.

That’s it?

That’s all?

I hunch my shoulders slightly, willing her on, but she doesn’t say anything else. It’s as though there’s nothing more to be said.

“And?” I ask.

“That was all Charles needed,” she says. “Just a gentle nudge to see what lay before him all along. His eyes lit up. All the pieces fell together from there. We talked for hours about barnacles and earthworms, and before long he’s telling us about how he thinks life branches out imperceptibly over countless generations from a common ancestor.

“Darwin may have sailed to the Galapagos and marveled at the wonders of Nature on those remote islands, but he discovered Natural Selection in his own backyard, looking at ants and weeds, ducks and pigeons. It was only in retrospect that he realized how important those finches were.

“Once we saw he was on track, we stepped back into the shadows and watched as history unfolded.”

“Wow,” I say. “That’s pretty cool.”

My nose is running with the cold. I sniff and wipe it with the back of my hand, hoping I’m not grossing her out.

“Hey, what about Einstein? Did you meet him as well?”

“Oh, yes,” she says. “He was so kind, even as a young man. Michelson and Morley performed an experiment for us in the late 1880s, measuring the speed of light in different directions. We knew what the outcome would be, of course, but it left them scratching their heads for a couple of decades. You see, light always moves at the same speed regardless.

“Light doesn’t make sense. No matter how fast you go, you can never get any closer to the speed of light than you are right now, sitting here on a park bench. Sure, you might race away from Earth at close to the speed of light, but regardless of where you are or how fast you’re going, the light around you always wins the race by exactly the same margin.”

I can’t even pretend to understand what she’s describing, but Sharon’s excited by the concept. To me, her words sound mystical, almost magical, even though I know they’re not.

“Do you know what made Einstein great?”

“No,” I say, feeling dwarfed by the discussion.

“That he accepted reality. Everyone else looked to explain away the results. Not Einstein. If the theory didn’t fit the evidence, then he had to find something that would. Once we saw that, we stepped back. We watched and kept him safe, but he did all the hard work. What a wonderful man.”

I’m speechless.

Sharon asks, “If you had to pick one thing in the last thousand years that has had the most profound impact on your species, what would it be?”

I want to say, “I don’t know,” but I have to show Sharon more respect than that, and not take the easy way out. She’s an alien. She’s from the other side of somewhere. I don’t know quite where. The stars? The galaxy? The universe? It is an astonishing privilege to sit here with her talking about human history—my history. I have to come up with a meaningful answer.

“The most profound change in a thousand years?” I ask, looking deep into her eyes. She smiles warmly, sitting back a little and burying her hands into her jacket pockets. She’s genuinely interested in my perspective.

“Is there just one thing?” I ask, my mind rushing to the various possibilities. “I mean, there’s been so many things.

“Galileo pointing a telescope into the night sky… Ah, vaccines. They’ve saved hundreds of millions of lives… The advent of science as a discipline, allowing us to combat superstition… Writing. No, reading becoming commonplace… The invention of the printing press—that had a huge impact on our species… Or the abolition of slavery.  The industrial revolution.”

“Pick one,” she says, being patient with me. It might be cold, but I could melt under her warm gaze.

“Okay,” I say. “The microscope. Without it, we’d have no idea about microbes and the diseases that plague our bodies. It’s an invention that spawned the entire medical field as we know it today.”

She nods thoughtfully.

“But it’s not what you were thinking of, was it?”

“No,” she replies with tenderness.

“So what is it?” I ask.

“Ah,” she says, radiating with enthusiasm. “Not an it. Not a thing, but a concept. An idea.”

Sharon pauses, perhaps to see if I’m going to come up with the answer on my own, or simply to give her own answer more weight.

“Equality.”

“Equality?” I say, genuinely surprised. “Really?”

If anything, I’m a little disappointed by that answer. I don’t get it. Perhaps I’m too close to humanity to see clearly, but equality is a buzzword doing the rounds on TV.

“It’s an idea more than a thousand years in the making,” she says. “The idea that each person counts for one and only one.

“Throughout your history, kings and queens ruled with an iron grip, but their edicts were arbitrary and whimsical, rarely handed down justly. Princes demanded equality before the law, then landowners, then the common man, then slaves, and finally, women.”

She might as well hit me over the head with a baseball bat. I couldn’t be more stunned.

“Equality is the quiet enabler,” she says. “Think about how remarkable these times are. Up until the start of the last century, half of the adult population had no say in the affairs of their own lives.”

“Women?” I say, not having thought about it before. “Women were the last ones to get the vote?”

Sharon nods.“In America. In some countries, the color of your skin barred you from voting. Equality is a catalyst for genuine change.”

I feel somewhat ashamed that for a species that’s been in existence for hundreds of thousands of years, that’s been civilized for at least ten thousand years, it’s only in the last hundred years we’ve actually lived up to our ideals—and even then, only barely.

“I guess I just always assumed… And it makes a big difference, huh?”

“Giving 100% of your adult population the freedom to choose their government is significantly better than keeping it to 49%,” she says. “And yet, even though this principle has been established by law, it has still taken over a century for minorities and women to really come into their own as equals. And there’s still work to be done.

“It’s easy to see the sensational. The advent of nuclear power. Neil Armstrong walking on the Moon. Jet planes and computers leading the charge of change. But it’s the small things, those that seem insignificant, that are often the most meaningful and lasting.”

I’m staring into the eyes of a woman, and yet I’m not. I have to remind myself that behind these beautiful brown pupils lies the mind of an entirely alien creature from some other world. If I could see her true form, she would in no way resemble either a man or woman. In less than a day, she’s torn apart my preconceptions about women. From the dance of the soap suds to visiting young Sharon’s grave, and now hearing her talk about equality, I’m seeing humanity through alien eyes.

I splutter, saying, “And you’ve seen all this, the change we’ve been through?”

“Most of it,” she says.

“What about Hitler?” I ask, knowing I’m focusing on the sensational, but I have to know. “Why didn’t you guys kill him? You could have, right?”

“Yes, we could have vaporized him from a low Earth orbit, but what good would that have done?”

I cannot help but blurt out, “It would have prevented the bloodiest war in human history.”

“Would it?” Sharon asks. “One man does not a nation make. There were plenty of people trying to kill Hitler, but they failed to see the broader problem.

“There were worse leaders among the Nazis. Take out Hitler, and Goering, Goebbels, Eichmann, Mengele, Himmler, or even Bormann would have stepped into his shoes. There was no shortage of fascists ready to take power, and the outcome would have been largely the same. No, as tragic as it was, Germany needed to be defeated. If anything, Hitler’s pigheaded stupidity hastened that fall. He made all kinds of stupid decisions that went unquestioned and shortened the war.”

She pauses, and the weight of what she’s describing seems to bear down upon her.

“Your literature describes hell as a place of fire and brimstone, but there’s no hell imagined that’s as bitter as war… And I fear we failed you.”

“You failed us?” I ask. “We failed ourselves.”

Speaking softly, she says, “War is the failure of reason. It is a return to barbaric times, the last resort of civilization. Suddenly, culture is meaningless. War is to society what amputation is to the body—an act of desperation to ensure survival.”

She sighs.

“We did what we could. We petitioned governments, helped catalyze the nation. Mark worked on the Manhattan Project. I served in Churchill’s office, and made sure Alan Turing’s efforts with the Enigma machine made it to the right people. We ensured you discovered radar before the Germans. We did what we could, but we couldn’t intervene. As much as we hated to, we had to stand on the sidelines despite the appalling loss of life.”

“Why?” I ask. It’s a question that’s been burning in my mind for a while. “I mean, even now. Why not send a spaceship to the White House? You know, land on the East Lawn in a flying saucer. I come in peace. And all that stuff?”

“Why not play kindergarten cop?” she asks in reply. “Because it wouldn’t work. Oh, it would get everyone’s attention, but in entirely the wrong way.

“Look at your recent history. Terrorists fly airplanes into the World Trade Center and the Pentagon in broad daylight. They even admit to it, and still large swathes of the population are convinced it was the U.S. Government attacking its own citizens. No amount of evidence will persuade some people. Disinformation is more dangerous than dynamite. What do you think they’ll make of us arriving in our silver spaceships?”

I hate to admit it, but she’s right.

She takes my hand, holding my fingers as though I were a child.

“You’ve got religious leaders in the Middle East convinced your planet is flat. I mean. Wh—What? After all your rocket launches, your satellites, and space stations, your missions to the Moon, to Mars, and Jupiter, and Saturn and beyond, still they’re convinced otherwise. What do you think they’d make of us?

“We would be demons in their eyes. We would be hell bent on destroying life on Earth as far as they were concerned. Everything we do would have some sinister undertone designed to deceive and mislead people. But they—they would be the vanguards of truth, the grand protectors of life. Too many people would look up to them and follow their lead.”

I wish she was wrong, but I know she’s not.

“We’ve run the numbers,” she says. “We’re continually scouring your social media, sucking up every Facebook post, tweet and Instagram pic on the planet, and the analysis is always the same. Factions will form. Blood will be shed. Hundreds of millions will die.”

Despite the cold, I have my hands out, holding hers as she speaks.

“As well meaning as we may be, if we came down here, we’d take a volatile species and set it alight.”

I nod, saying, “You’re protecting us from ourselves.”

“We’re trying,” she says. “Some days, we do better than others.”

“So what’s the answer?” I say, “What’s the solution? How do we grow up?”

Sharon doesn’t reply. She doesn’t have to. No sooner have those words left my lips, than I know. A single word slips from my cold lips.

“Equality.”

Sharon smiles.

“It’s a quiet revolution,” she says. “It may not mean much to you, but a husband scrubs the toilet, and we rejoice.”

“Because, why the hell not?” I say.

“Exactly,” she says, squeezing my fingers.

“Well, I’ve got to say. This isn’t what I expected. I mean, too many movies, I guess, but I thought you guys would be all ray guns and alien space tentacles.”

Sharon laughs, punching me playfully on my arm.

“Pleasantly surprised?”

“Pleasantly.”

Fuck, it’s cold.

I can’t feel my feet.

I try to hide the chatter of my teeth.

“We should get going,” she says.

“Yeah,” I say, although I don’t want our conversation to end. I want Sharon to tell me about her world, about outer space, about the other planets she’s visited. I want to revel in the mysteries of the cosmos.

We get to our feet and Sharon stops abruptly.

Two black sedans come sliding to a halt, skidding on the ice. I recognize the cars. I’ve seen them before, a few days ago when Mark was shot.

“Run,” I say, pushing her behind me and shielding her from sight.

“But—”

Already, soldiers are spilling out of the vehicles. They’re carrying machine guns.

“Go,” I cry, “I’ll hold them off.”

Hold them off with what, lover boy? Harsh language?

Sharon runs.

I grab one of the wrought iron gates, swinging it closed. Soldiers run in hard toward me, shouting and screaming. “On the ground. Get down on the fucking ground.”

A black-clad assault trooper darts through the far side of the gate, sprinting down the narrow alley after Sharon. I throw myself into him, body checking him into the brick wall like a hockey player in the final minutes of the Stanley Cup. He crashes to the footpath, sprawling out across the snow.

Several other soldiers come running in behind him. They ignore me. Sharon’s the prize. I grab the park bench with both hands, surprising myself with the surge of strength pulsating through my body. I’m high on adrenaline. I wrench the seat off the frozen ground, spinning it around as though I was a highlander tossing a telegraph pole, and send the seat careering through the air into three soldiers.

Someone crash tackles me from behind, connecting with my ribcage and knocking the wind out of my lungs. Several more soldiers pile on top of me as though they’ve sacked the quarterback.

The cemetery is a dead end. The aging brick walls are easily ten feet high, forming a vast courtyard, but I catch a glimpse of Sharon springing off the ground in the far corner, bouncing from one wall to another, scaling the brickwork like a cat. And with that, she’s gone.

Chapter 04: DARPA

—RIP OFF YOUR GODDAMN HEAD.

—YOU FUCKING HEARD ME, THAT’S WHAT I SAID.

What the hell?

I open my eyes but there’s nothing beyond the darkness.

—HATE IS LOVE.

—HURT IS PEACE.

—WHAT YOU THINK IS RIGHT STINKS

—AND YOU’RE DEAD

My arms are strapped to a wooden chair, locked in place from my elbows down to my wrists. A pair of headphones have been clamped over my head along with some kind of blindfold.

Heavy metal music blares in my ears. The guitar is thrashing a single chord, madly tearing at the strings and sending out a wall of noise. Drums boom around me, exploding like the crash of thunder. I swear, a bunch of chimpanzees are beating on a snare drum, a top hat, and a bunch of tom-toms in some bizarre syncopation that jars the mind. I can hear the chimps screeching and squealing, wailing in the background. All I can think is they’re determined to puncture the drum skins, not to mention my ears.

—LOOK AT ME WRONG AND I’LL GUT YOU LIKE A FISH

—I’LL SERVE UP YOUR HEART ON A RUSTING METAL DISH

Words scream in my ears.

The noise is so loud, it hurts.

I can’t think.

Through the haze of pain, I somehow grasp that this is the point. I’m being tortured. It would have been nice if they’d introduced themselves first, but no, all I get is:

—CRUEL TO BE KIND.

—KIND TO BE CRUEL.

—THIS IS MY WORLD.

—I SET THE RULES.

I don’t know how much of this I can take.

My head is pounding.

The rules.

Don’t play by the rules.

As difficult as it is to think straight with this infernal noise pounding in my ears, I have to try something. Anything. I’ve got to stop this tsunami of sound, but how?

I start tapping my feet and nodding my head in a vague sense of time with the music, if it can be called that.

“Do you take requests?” I ask, knowing there must be at least one other person in the room with me, perhaps a guard or an interrogator.

“Have you got any Def Leppard?” I’m trying to recall as many heavy metal bands as I can. I wonder if I’m yelling. It doesn’t feel like I am, but it’s natural to try to be heard above the noise, even though the maddening racket is confined to my headphones. “D-E-F not D-E-A-F. Be sure to spell it right.”

There’s no response.

I make more of a show, humming as I tap out an imaginary beat on an invisible bass drum with my right foot. Although my arms are strapped to the chair, my hands are free, so I make as though I’m holding drum sticks, beating at the air. I’m sure to swing quicker with my right hand than my left, giving my wrists a good flick to complete the picture, and make as though I’m tapping a snare drum and alternating with a cymbal. I’m loving this, at least, that’s what I want to portray.

“What about Black Sabbath?” I ask. “Iron Maiden? Megadeth?”

I’ve got a good wobble going on with my head. Funny thing is, the masquerade is helping me deal with the deafening wall of noise. Giving my mind something to do allows me a little respite from the insanity pounding in my ears.

“But please, no Metallica. That would be torture.”

And I laugh at my own joke.

Suddenly, the noise stops, but my ears don’t register the silence immediately. The ringing in my ears is so bad it’s easy to confuse that with more external noise, and it’s not until the headphones are removed that I realize the music has stopped.

“Hey, not fair,” I say, pretending to protest.

“Very funny, Joe,” a voice says. I can barely hear him over the buzzing in my ears.

“What was that you said?” I ask, hamming it up and yelling in response. “You’re going to have to speak up.”

A black bag is ripped from my head. I thought I was wearing some kind of blindfold, but it was a loose hood, not unlike those worn by kidnap victims when they’re led to an execution. My skin crawls at the thought.

A chair scrapes across the ground and a military officer sits in front of me. He has the chair facing backwards so he can straddle the seat, leaning on the chair back as he stares into my eyes.

“You want to answer some questions for me?” the officer says. “Or should I leave the music blaring until the boss arrives?”

“Suit yourself,” I say. “I was just getting into the groove.”

He tosses the headphones into a black duffel bag sitting on the floor. I try not to look relieved.

“They say we shouldn’t talk to you, that you can weave magic with words. Is that true? Are you some kind of Harry Potter from another planet?”

“Hah!” I laugh. “I wish.”

He clenches his jaw, not saying what he’s thinking. He thinks I’m one of them—an alien like Sharon and Mark. He’s sizing me up, trying to make sense of the subtlest quiver in my response.

I can’t help myself, I have to add, “You have no idea who you’re dealing with.” Only I mean that in an entirely different manner to how it’s received. Which is good, I hope.

There are two black-clad soldiers standing by the door. At a guess, I’m in a seedy motel somewhere remote. There’s an old rundown sink in the corner with a mirror set above it. Paint is slowly peeling off the walls, signaling decades of neglect.

“What?” I ask. “No blinding lights? You’re disappointing, you know that? I mean, the whole heavy metal music thing to disorient me, and the spooky guards in black. You were on a roll. But no interrogation lights? What is wrong with you guys? You’re amateurs.”

I’m talking too much. I’m nervous as hell and trying to cover that with a plethora of words. Calm down, Joseph.

“Laugh all you want,” the officer says. “But we got you. We got both of you.”

“You’re lying,” I say, snapping out those words without any additional consideration. I’m not sure how I know. Perhaps it’s because, if they had Sharon, I’d be dead. I’m pretty sure she’d tell them I’m nothing more than a bystander, not realizing that for these guys that makes me about as useful as a sandbag in the Sahara.

The officer’s eyes narrow. Sharon’s escaped. He doesn’t admit as much, but if he had Sharon, he would have quickly figured out where I sit in the grand scheme of things and wouldn’t waste more than nine grams of lead on me, or whatever it is they make bullets out of these days. He thinks I’m one of them. I’ve got to play to that.

“No imagination,” I say, putting up a cocky facade. Bluffing is all I’ve got. “Black cars. Soldiers wearing black. Crew cut hair and starched shirts. You guys are about as inconspicuous as a Bond villain. Honestly, you’re clowns.”

The officer doesn’t bite, but I can see my comment is grating on him. I can’t figure out which branch of service he’s with as his uniform is nondescript.

I clench my hands to hide my trembling fingers and ward off the cold, flexing my fingers by opening and closing my fists. Although I’m doing this to hide my nerves and get some blood circulating in my hands, it gives the appearance of someone spoiling for a fight.

The crook of my left arm hurts, it’s as though I’ve been stung by a bee. Glancing down, I see a band-aid holding a ball of cotton in place, strategically set over the veins in my arm. Ah, that explains the music. They drugged me. Between being doped up and having Megadeth pounding in my ears, they must have been trying to keep me in a state of sensory overload. At a guess, they just stuck me with some kind of antidote, springing me back to consciousness.

“It would be nice if you were wearing a name tag,” I say, pushing my luck. No response. “Well, it’s nice to meet you. Thanks for the ride, but do be a pal and untie me. I’ve got places to go. People to see.”

Shut up, Joseph. I can’t help myself. If he’s not talking, I am. I have to. It’s self-preservation kicking in. Doing something—saying something—is better than nothing at all. Or is it? Am I tightening the noose around my neck? Stop overthinking things, you fool.

“So you admit it—you’re one of them?” he asks.

Without hesitation, I blurt out, “No, I’m not.” Inwardly, I curse myself for being so brash and honest. I really have to learn how to lie. Picking myself up from that slip of the tongue, I shake my head and say, “Actually, yes. I am.” Ah, there’s no words quite as powerful as a mixed message.

“So which is it?” he asks, and I see an opening to plead the case to avoid more torture. The thought of being waterboarded is terrifying. In essence, it’s drowning on land. And if at all possible, I’d like to keep my fingernails and teeth intact, along with whatever appendages they might want to slice from my body.

“Which answer do you want?” I ask. “See, that’s the problem with torture. I’ll tell you whatever you want to know. True or not. So—No, I’m not. Yes, I am. The choice is yours.”

He purses his lips. I can see he wants to say something, but he’s choosing his words carefully. Out of nowhere, he laughs. Not with the side splitting laugh of someone recoiling from a joke, but with a laugh that suggests something cunning has unfolded.

“They were right,” he says. “You really do weave magic with words.”

I don’t know who ‘they’ are, and I really don’t want to find out, so I change the subject, wanting to keep him off balance.

“You didn’t find anything, did you?” I say. Being cocky seems to be working, so I run with it, finding myself relaxing as it becomes apparent these guys are ill-prepared to deal with a bonafide extraterrestrial like me. I thought Uncle Sam would have run these kinds of scenarios dozens of times. I guess they never thought first contact would actually ever happen. The more courage I muster, the better, so I guess. “You ran Mark’s body through an MRI and found nothing, right?”

I hope Sharon’s correct about anything shy of an electron scanning microscope coming up empty. The blank stare suggests I’m correct.

“How did you know about the trap?” he asks, employing my tactic and shifting the subject on me. Cat and mouse.

Oh, that’s interesting. This guy doesn’t realize I didn’t know they’d set a trap for us inside the police station, but now I do. Makes sense. They must have followed us from there to the cemetery.

I bluff.

“In the morgue? You’d be surprised what we know.”

We. That was a bit of subterfuge. I suspect my ability to bluff and pretend to be an alien is all that’s keeping me alive. If they couldn’t find anything unusual about Mark’s body, they might just believe I’m one of them. If that tidbit of misinformation keeps me alive, it’s a feint I’m happy to pursue.

“How does it work?” he asks, pulling a banana out of the bag.

I can’t help but laugh.

“Do you realize how silly you look?” I ask. “Oh, please. Tell me someone’s videoing this. Seriously, this is like an episode of Get Smart.”

I turn to each side, but I’m not really looking for a camera. I’m trying to get a better idea of where I am. There’s a single bed behind me. The blanket is plain and the mattress is stiff, giving the bed a box-like appearance. Could be fake? Maybe? Perhaps this is one of those double bluffs and I’m actually on a movie set or something. There’s a window. Snowflakes fall outside. The dim outline of another building is just visible through the falling snow. My jacket is lying on the floor, but I try not to let him see how bitterly cold I am.

“What do they say?” I ask. “When you appear behind closed doors before a senate appropriations committee. What do they say when you tell them there are aliens talking to bananas?”

“Answer the damn question,” he says, apparently about to hit me with the banana.

“You ran me through an MRI as well, didn’t you? While I was unconscious. Didn’t find anything out of the ordinary, right?”

Not that he would in my case, but I’m not telling him that.

I’m curious. The sound system they used to torture me is portable. There’s no television in the room, no bedside clock. No radio. No power cables. And the lights aren’t just off. The bulbs have been removed from their sockets, making it dim. Night is falling. They caught me early in the afternoon. Assuming it’s still the same day, we must be a couple hours north in upstate New York.

My interrogator notices my eyes drifting around the room.

“It won’t work,” he says. “We’re miles from any tech you can manipulate. No power lines. No phone lines. No wifi.”

I nod knowingly, at least I hope he thinks it’s a knowing nod.

“And no heating,” I say, watching as a fine mist forms on my breath. How the fuck am I going to get out of here?

“Why are you doing this?” he asks.

“Me?” I ask, incredulous. “Why the fuck are you doing this? I mean, seriously. Have you considered the possibility we could scorch the entire goddamn planet if we wanted to?”

Hey, I like talking big. Funny thing is, if they caught Sharon or Mark, I doubt they’d ever say anything that provocative. As aliens go, they’re too nice. They need to add a little more Independence Day to their repertoire.

The officer has a good poker face, but the guards don’t. They shift slightly, uneasy at what they’re hearing. They’ve bought my story.

“Who are you?” he asks.

“You wouldn’t understand,” I reply, which I’m pretty sure is true on several levels. Lie, you idiot. Lie.

“Where are you from?”

“The stars,” is all I say. Hell, apart from Orion the Hunter, and Taurus the Bull, I don’t know the names of any of the stars. Actually, they’re constellations, not individual stars. So, nope. None. I try to recall the name of the star Sharon pointed out from the bus, but I’ve got nothing. I could make something up, but then I’d need to remember that name going forward. At a guess, saying something like The Big Dipper probably isn’t going to sound scientific enough to convince him, so I stick with stars in general. Lies tend to unwind once specifics emerge, so it’s in my best interests to be cagey. Besides, there’s an air of mystique in being deliberately vague.

“Which one?” he asks.

My ears are still ringing, which is incredibly annoying.

“One?” I reply, visibly catching him off guard. That was fun. I liked that.

“Why are you here? What do you want from us?”

Hell, I don’t know. Sharon’s told me a little bit about their motivation, but even I don’t know who they are or what they want in the long run.

“Take me to your leader,” I say. Corny as hell, I know, and I struggle to keep a straight face, but it’s a genuine point, I think. “What? You think I’m going to divulge anything to you? If you want answers, I want to talk to someone in charge before you fuck this up and me and my homeboys torch the Continental U.S.”

Please don’t call my bluff. Please don’t.

Action Man, the supposedly All American Hero sitting before me with his chiseled jaw and high cheekbones, doesn’t blink. He’d be great at poker.

He gets up, saying, “That’s the way it’s going to be, huh?”

“That’s the only way it can be,” I say, hedging my bets on the fact this is some off-the-books black site. They’ve taken me off-grid for a reason—they haven’t taken me to a military base. They’re trying to keep this on the down-low. That tells me someone is extremely nervous about kidnapping unconfirmed extraterrestrial beings, as well they should. Given the way I’m being treated, with the caution one has when approaching a caged lion, unsure whether the bars will hold, I’m thinking shooting Mark was an accident. These guys know they’re out of their league. They’re scared. They’re making shit up as they go. I guess the prize of capturing an alien and catapulting American technology thousands of years ahead of everyone else on the planet is a little too tempting.

“Don’t fuck this up,” I say sternly, reiterating my previous point and pretending I’m the one in charge.

Out of the corner of my eye, I catch a faint flicker of yellow through the window. There’s a light coming from what must be an adjacent, and presumably similar hut, not more than twenty yards away.

G.I. Joe sees my interest and says to one of the guards, “Secure that window.”

The guard opens the door slightly and slips outside. A flurry of snow comes rushing in. It’s a blizzard out there. Pristine white snow lies piled almost a foot deep against the door. Although I only got a brief glimpse outside, I could see the silhouette of trees in a dense forest. This isn’t a roadside motel.

Boards are nailed over the one, solitary window. And again, I’ve learned something invaluable. They weren’t prepared for this—for me. Their supposedly black site is a little grey and murky. Someone’s commandeered a bunch of hunting lodges or something for my interrogation.

“Low tech,” the officer says. “But effective against the likes of you.”

Oh, he’s brought the lie hook, line, and sinker.

The soldier thumps the hammer with a vengeance, nailing four boards in place and slowly blocking the view outside. They’re going to leave me in here. This is good. Time is the only ally I have, and I wonder about Mark and Sharon. I wonder where they are, hoping they’re planning a rescue.

Rescue? Me?

I’m expendable.

If Sharon and her extraterrestrial buddies won’t intervene in a goddamn world war, what hope is there for me? I’m fucked.

“If you tell us why you’re here, perhaps I can help you,” the officer says.

“Actually, we’re here to help you,” I say. It’s the truth, but once again, the truth doesn’t appear to do much for me these days.

“Why are you really here?”

“We’re really here to help you.”

At least, I think that’s the truth. There is the possibility Mark and Sharon have played me for a fool, but I don’t think so. Sharon is genuine. I’m convinced of that. After our conversation in the cemetery, I trust her wholeheartedly.

The soldier returns to the hut, and snow again swirls inside, settling on the musty carpet. Cold air rushes into the room, chilling my exposed face. The soldier whispers in the officer’s ear before stepping back next to the door. I get the feeling there’s not that many of them out there.

“President Harding will be here in the morning,” he says. “Until then, consider yourself our guest.”

President fucking Harding?

I must look shellshocked as the officer says, “You have to understand. The President’s schedule is tightly controlled. We can’t just bring him here without the media gaggle getting suspicious. We have to coordinate with the Secret Service and the NSA, while offering the media a plausible explanation for the departure from his schedule. I apologize for the delay.”

“You apologize?” I say, feeling somewhat incredulous. “You kidnap me in broad daylight, drug me, drag me god-knows-where, blast my ears with heavy metal music, imprison me, strap me to a chair, and you’re worried about the inconvenience of a slight fucking delay?”

“We took the steps we felt were necessary in light of national security. We had to make sure we could control contact.”

Typical fucking military. Why push a thumbtack into a wall when you’ve got a perfectly good sledgehammer at hand?

I shake my head. What was once an act is now real. I’m incensed that this is the way my government, no, my people, humanity, Homo sapiens, react to the prospect of alien contact. I have to be careful to speak in the first person, not the third, as I don’t want to give anything away, but I’m glad to be siding with Sharon and Mark. I don’t care where they come from or what they look like, they’re a helluva lot more civil than we are–alien space tentacles be damned

“National security?” I say, speaking with slow deliberation. “Well, you can take your national security and shove it up your—”

“You have to understand,” the officer says, cutting me off. “There’s no precedent for this. We have to ensure security. We have a right to protect ourselves—our country, our people, our planet.”

With a stern voice, I say, “You need to be very careful adopting a position that speaks for the entire human race. VERY. CAREFUL.”

I’m deadly serious. What if they had taken Mark alive, or Sharon? What would Joe and the others have done? Dipshits like this could get us all vaporized. In some ways, I’m glad it’s me in this seat and not Sharon. I don’t know how long I can keep up this charade, and I have no idea what I’m going to say to the President of the United States of America, but it’s clear there’s a state of enmity, if not war, between us and the aliens. Perhaps cold war would be a better description, but war nonetheless. I have no idea how long they’ve been hunting Mark and Sharon, but they’ve clearly figured out they’re not from around here, and Uncle Sam is nothing if not heavy handed with illegal aliens—different country, different planet, what’s the difference?

“How long have you been watching us?” I ask, not expecting a reply.

“Long enough.”

“Ah,” I say, nodding and putting on a fake smile. “So not that long at all.”

It’s bluff, counter-bluff, and counter-counter-bluff.

As they’ve confused me for one of the aliens, I doubt they’ve been watching Sharon and Mark for more than a week. Perhaps they had an inkling. Perhaps someone slowly pieced together the clues, but they’ve only just begun any real surveillance, of that I’m sure, or they wouldn’t have been fooled by me. I wonder if the shooting was a snatch-and-grab gone wrong. I guess they didn’t expect Mark to be packing heat. Once one bullet was fired, everyone got jumpy. That’s what happens when you go in with your finger on the trigger.

“You’re spies,” he says, trying to justify his position. “Initially, we thought you were working for the Russians.”

Well, that explains why they were so heavy handed and clumsy with Mark.

“We’re tourists,” I say, trying to hose down any notion of hostility and wanting to represent Sharon as best I can in a non-threatening manner.

“So you just came here for the sights?”

“Yep,” I reply. “You’d be surprised how popular the Statue of Liberty is in Andromeda.”

I did it. I remembered a star. Well, I remembered around four hundred billion stars, as in retrospect, I’m pretty sure Andromeda is an entire galaxy like the Milky Way. I wonder if aliens take offense to us naming our particular galaxy after the secretions of mammals?

“Who the hell are you?” he asks.

“Who are you?” I ask in return. I don’t have any answers other than those I’m making up on the spot, so I turn the question back on him to get some breathing space.

The officer is silent, so I clarify, “I don’t mean personally. I’m not asking for your name. I’d like to know who you represent.”

“DARPA,” he says. "The Defense Advanced Research Projects Agency.”

“Oh,” I say. That explains a lot, but I don’t tell him that.

“We’re going to leave you in here for the night,” the officer says, apparently not wanting to answer any more of my questions. “There’s a toilet in the corner. I’ll have a guard posted outside—for your protection.”

“For my protection? Oh, that’s sweet, but you really don’t have to.”

“I insist,” he says with a smile.

They’re leaving me in here alone? Are they nuts? Hell, if I was one of these guards, I wouldn’t so much as blink, let alone take my eyes off ET. Haven’t these guys seen The Thing or Alien? You never leave a xenomorph alone. Never. Bad things happen. I could be an alien shapeshifter. I’m not, but they don’t know that. They could walk back in here in the morning and I could have transformed into a coat rack, or a suitcase, hiding in plain sight. Now, that would be cool.

I’m left wondering about the scope of this covert action. It reaches the President. That’s impressive. But it’s an absurdly small team. I make four of them—the three in here and whoever told the guard about the delay. Maybe there are more soldiers in the other hut, but I doubt it if there’s only going to be a single guard outside. Perhaps they’ve got reinforcements ‘en route,’ as the military is so fond of saying. More than likely, they’re trying to balance numbers against the threat of exposure. Loose lips sink planets.

If these guys are from DARPA, there’s a good chance no one else knows about this. That would explain the absence of the broader military muscle. For some reason, Sharon and Mark appeared on DARPA’s radar, probably quite literally, and even though it’s a fringe possibility, DARPA took the idea of First Contact seriously and investigated. Perhaps they took it a little too seriously. Initially, they thought they’d stumbled across a Russian spy ring, but at some point they realized Sharon comes from slightly further afield, and they nabbed me by accident.

The unnamed officer reaches out and unstraps my left arm as the two guards keep their guns trained on me. I’m not sure what type of firearms they’re carrying. Like the soldiers’ clothing, the guns are black. They’re not handguns, but they’re not rifles either. They’re something in between, being stub nosed with a long magazine poking out from beneath the block of the gun. Lots of bullets. Lots and lots of bullets.

“Do I get to keep the banana?”

“Hah, not likely,” the officer says, tossing the banana back in his black duffle bag.

I was going to eat it.

“How about something to drink, at least?” I’m not thirsty. I’m looking for concessions of any kind, anything to soften my captor’s attitude. Somewhat reluctantly, he retrieves a plastic water bottle and tosses it on the bed. It’s half empty and could have been bought from the nearest gas station.

“And it’s Nathaniel,” he says. “My name. It’s Nathaniel Jacob Lill.”

“Not so nice to meet you, Nathaniel,” I reply.

“Sweet dreams,” he says, grabbing his bag. The three men back out of the room, being sure not to turn their backs on me. I catch a glimpse of a red taillight glowing through the falling snow behind them as someone touches the brakes on what appears to be a truck or a Humvee. The truck is easily fifty yards from the room. An outer cordon? Maybe that’s it. Maybe they’ve got layers around me, and these three are the close-contact team.

I work with my left hand to unstrap my right arm, but the leather is stiff. It would have been nice if they’d freed both hands, but I’m happy with a little paranoia on their part. They’re treating me with the respect you’d afford a Great White shark.

Once my other arm is free, I grab my jacket and walk around the tiny one-room cabin trying to get warm. What a dump. This place must have been built decades ago. It’s a hunting lodge of some kind, although lodge is too generous a term, and with only a single bed, it’s not exactly hunting party friendly.

There’s a portable toilet in one corner, but the bluish water in the bowl is frozen solid. No cameras or hidden mics, but that makes sense given the comments about Sharon and Mark manipulating Earth technology. The soldiers must have felt naked without a radio piece in their ears, although I did notice a pair of night vision goggles in the black duffle bag.

I peer between the slats of wood nailed over the lone window. As I suspected, there’s another hut next to this one. A soft yellow glow flickers from the far window, marking a gas lantern. Action Man wasn’t kidding about low-tech and not taking any chances.

My feet are freezing. I’m wearing boots, but it’s as cold as a meat locker inside this cabin.

I walk quietly to the door. There’s a peephole with a small bead of glass affording a fisheye view of the snowstorm outside. It’s getting dark, but there’s a lone streetlight on the far side of what looks like an empty parking lot buried in snow. I can make out the boots of one of the soldiers standing beside the door.

I try the door handle. It turns, but the door is locked. The lock is old, with a large keyhole accessible from both sides. I haven’t seen a lock like this outside of a B-grade 1950’s movie.

I grab the blanket from the bed, wrapping it around my shoulders and trying to stay warm. I might as well wrap a sheet of ice around myself for all the good it does.

“Think. Think. Think,” I mutter to myself. “What would Sharon do?”

Aside from strip down and lather herself with soapy water, I’m not sure.

“Be serious,” I scold myself, pushing my mind to notice the details around me. Sharon would use the everyday, ordinary things in here to escape, but how?

The mattress is covered with a white fitted sheet. I peel the sheet back and find a a white plastic cover beneath that. The mattress itself has started to rot with age,  tearing easily beneath my fingers. Great.

I turn on the tap over the sink, but nothing comes out. The water has been disconnected, probably to stop the pipes from freezing and bursting. Huh—who would have thought something as sloppy and squishy as a water could split open steel pipes?

There’s a medicine cabinet behind the mirror above the sink. I open it. Inside, there’s a jar of vaseline and an unopened condom.

“If only Sharon were here,” I sigh, joking with myself. Picking up the condom, I mumble, “What would Sharon do?”

Chapter 05: Dreams are free

I’m not sure how long I spend pacing back and forth huddled under the blanket, but it’s so stupidly cold I have to keep moving to stay warm. I establish a pattern, walking around the edge of the room, stopping briefly to glance through the fisheye peephole, and then over to the crack in the wood barring the window.

What the hell am I going to tell the President?

I’ve got to get out of here. Sooner or later they’re going to figure out I’m as human as the rest of them, and then what? I’d rather not wait to find out. But how can I escape?

Every hour, the guard changes, disappearing into the other hut before swapping. At a guess, they’re staying out there as long as they can stand the cold, and then switching to get warm again, but that gives me an opening to escape. If I can get the door open, I could make a run for it in the minute or so between guard postings.

But run where?

One step at a time, Joe. Just get outside the hut.

What would Sharon do? She’d use whatever she has around her to her advantage. Okay, so I’ve got a condom and some lube. Condom and lube. Condom and lube. At times like these, I have to treat my mind like a dog. Mind, stay. Don’t go there. No. Stay. Staaaay. Be serious. Condom. Lube. How can anyone be serious with a condom and some lube?

I toss the lube slightly in the air, feeling the weight of the jar as I catch it. I’m racking my brains for a way to escape. And as for the condom. It’s laughable. This is as crazy as rubbing Sharon down with soapy water.

Damn, it’s cold.

Think. Think. Think.

Condom. Lube. Cold. Soapy water.

Lube won’t freeze. Water will, but lube won’t. How can I use that to my advantage? I vaguely remember something about water expanding as it freezes from my high school physics class, or was it chemistry? When water freezes, it expands, exerting thousands of pounds of pressure per square inch. An idea forms in my mind.

I tear open the foil packet and unravel the condom. Rolling the end of the condom over the opening of the bottle and fill it with water. What seemed like a simple idea is actually quite difficult. There’s no pressure, so the water doesn’t inflate the condom. I’ve got to stretch it and then pinch off the condom as though it were a water balloon. I tie off the end of the condom, but I can’t help spilling water over my numb fingers. The lid on the lube is stiff and unyielding, which in any other context I’d find humorous, but my fingers are so cold they hurt.

The guard is outside. I take pains to be quiet, not wanting to attract his attention.

After rubbing lube over the condom, I work it inside the antique lock, being careful not to pinch the rubber and cause a leak. It takes a couple of minutes to squeeze the condom inside the door lock, being careful to avoid puncturing the thin latex. Patience, Joe. Slow and easy. The lubricant makes my hands greasy, but eventually the condom slips completely inside the door.

I wipe my hands clean on the white bed sheet.

White sheet.

Once I get outside that door, DARPA is going to close in on me pretty darn quick, especially as they’ve got night vision goggles. I’m going to light up like a Christmas tree in the infrared spectrum. Maybe. Just maybe I could use the mattress for cover. It’s thick which should absorb any body heat I’m giving off. Hopefully the plastic cover will reflect any infrared radiation making it through the mattress, plus the white is going to be practically invisible against the snow.

I like it.

Sharon would be proud.

I pull the mattress off the bed and stand it beside the door. The mattress material tears easily, allowing me to reach inside and hold onto the inner springs, using them as both carry holds and as insulated gloves. This is going to look insane, like something out of a Wile E. Coyote cartoon, but it just might work.

In the silence, I hear a soft crack from the door.

I peer through the peephole. The guard is still outside, but he hasn’t heard the crack within the lock.

I pull gently on the door, testing my condom-lock-destroying idea.

Still locked.

Damn.

Wait a minute.

Locked or stuck?

There’s a difference.

With a little pressure, I can feel the door moving slightly.

There’s a silver-plated ashtray with a thin, beveled edge on a ledge over by the toilet. I tip out a bunch of cigarette butts and use the ashtray to pry softly at the lock, slipping it between the door and the jamb. My fingers are so damn cold I can barely feel them, but I can just make out the bolt jiggling in response to my touch. It’s loose, it just needs to be pushed back inside the lock. But the lock is full of ice.

Grrrrrrr.

Okay. Think. Think. Think.

I need to melt the ice. I need warm water. Where can I get warm water from in the middle of winter? To be effective, I need water that’s at least a hundred degrees Fahrenheit, if not more.

Oh, no.

No.

Really?

Come on, Joe. Any shred of dignity you had departed when you started dating an alien. Actually, I haven’t been on a date with Sharon. I wonder what she likes to do in her spare time? Pool in the asteroid belt? Ice skating on Enceladus?

I know what needs to be done. I unzip my fly and let nature take its course, urinating into the lock. Oh, cold hands. Cold hands. Freezing cold hands.

Gross.

So gross.

But steam rises. It’s working.

A quick peek through the peephole in the door, and I catch a shadow moving as the guard walks back to the other hut to get warm and swap duty.

It’s now or never.

With the edge of the ashtray, I dig into the doorjamb, flicking the bolt to one side, pushing it into the slush and mush inside the lock. There’s a soft click and the door eases toward me.

Yes.

There’s time for a quick fist pump to celebrate, and then I grab the mattress, holding it awkwardly under one arm as I clamber out the door. I rest the mattress against the outside wall and pull the door shut. Snow swirls around me like embers from a dying fire. The door won’t close all the way, but the gap is tiny. This is going to work.

Crap. There he is.

The replacement guard walks toward me through the blizzard. I can just make out his black uniform through the heavy snow.

Damn it. No.

I’m busted before I made it ten feet.

No, no, no.

I can’t run.

There’s no time.

Any sudden movement and he’ll see me.

As silly as it sounds, I grab the mattress, holding it vertically and turning the side with the white fitted sheet so it faces the oncoming guard—it’s all I can do.

Standing behind the mattress, I cringe, waiting for the soldier to come barreling into me and crash tackle me to the snow. I half expect to see bullets tearing through the flimsy material on either side of me.

After roughly thirty seconds, I realize he can’t see me.

This is crazy. I’m no more than five feet from him on the far side of the door, and  I’m wearing a goddamn mattress.

Slowly, I creep away. I have my hands low, grabbing at the exposed inner springs and allowing the mattress to lean on my back as I inch across the pristine white snow. I want to run. I feel stupid. I feel as though the soldier is about to stick his head around the side of the mattress and ask me just what the hell I’m doing? I already have a big cheesy grin on my face in preparation for my mea culpa. My shoulders hunch in anticipation of being caught, but somehow I sneak further and further along the side of the hut without him noticing.

The wind picks up. The mattress is like a sail and flexes with the wind, threatening to topple backwards with me on top of it. Well, that will look just dandy. Alien drops out of nowhere onto a mattress in the snow. Film at eleven.

I hunch forward, fighting against the snow flurries swirling around me, desperate to escape.

Once I clear the corner of the hut, I shuffle sideways, hopefully disappearing from his line of sight. I can’t shake the feeling that he’s simply humoring me, walking along quietly behind me and watching with stunned curiosity, just waiting to say, “Boo!”

Peering out from behind the mattress, I’m genuinely surprised there’s no one there. Damn, that actually worked.

Okay, time to put some serious distance between me and DARPA.

I hunch over with the mattress leaning against my back and start jogging through the knee deep powdery snow, moving off between the trees.

I’m not lost. I know precisely where I am and where I’m going. I’m between two trees over here, and I’m heading over there, between another two trees. I’m horribly lost. I could be wandering toward the edge of a cliff and not know it in the dark.

A gentle lope has me covering a hundred yards in roughly ten minutes. Still, no one’s raised the alarm. I don’t think the boys from DARPA have cottoned on just yet, which is good. Could anything prepare them for the wiles of an alien on the run, hiding behind a mattress? I can’t help but laugh at myself. Spielberg’s ET never had it so good.

I’m tempted to junk the mattress so I can move quicker, but I don’t for a couple of reasons. First, it’s a dead easy clue to stumble across, giving away my direction of travel. At night, with the blizzard in full swing and snow drifts forming against the trees, my trail won’t last long, so I don’t want to leave any obvious clues. Already, a dusting of snow is covering my tracks.

The other reason to keep the mattress is it should shield me from anyone that gets too close with night vision goggles, and to hide me from helicopters using FLIR. I’ve seen the TV show Cops. I know how this shit works. And besides, the mattress could come in handy as a shelter if I find some rocks and can get out of the wind. I must look silly as hell hiking through the snow with a mattress leaning across my back. The Sherpas of Nepal have nothing on me. For now, it’s all about distance.

At the top of a rise, roughly a mile away from the huts, I pause, catching my breath and peering back from behind my supposed cloak of invisibility. Vehicle lights illuminate a series of huts. I can’t see anyone walking around at this distance, but they know I’m on the run.

I head down into a gully, getting out of the wind and following the terrain away from camp. I’m hoping there’s a road or some houses further down the valley. Although I have no idea where I am, this must be upstate New York. I can’t imagine I’m more than ten miles from some form of civilization. Just keep those legs moving, keep those thighs pumping.

The sound of rotor blades drifts by on the wind, and I huddle under my mattress beside a rocky outcrop. Search lights flicker across the forest, but without coming close to me, and as quickly as they came, the helicopters are gone. They’re moving in tandem, flying methodically over the forest, which is good as they’re circling away from me.

I push on through almost waist-deep snow, trying to find high ground above the drifts to make my trek easier.

I’m stupidly cold. Over time, my forced march deteriorates into a drunken walk, which further degrades into a frantic stumble. After collapsing a couple of times, I realize I need to get out of the storm and try to get warm. Good idea. Not very practical, but good. I’m in the middle of a forest with few options. I’m utterly exhausted—physically and mentally. I pull the mattress against the base of a pine tree with low hanging branches, and huddle there shivering, waiting for a dawn that may never come.

Hypothermia is setting in. Not good. And what’s worse, I know the symptoms. Once the shivering stops, it won’t take long until I lose consciousness and die.

“Sorry, Sharon,” I whisper into the dark night. “I tried.”

Snowflakes tumble around me, twisting and twirling like acrobats at the circus. They’re beautiful. So fine and delicate, and yet so bitterly cold.

I’ve made a fire.

I’m not sure how, but flames flicker over a bunch of twigs piled beside me on the ground. I warm my hands, rubbing them together and holding them out, only there’s no warmth radiating into my palms, which is confusing.

I blink, and the fire is gone. The twigs remain, but the warm glow was nothing but a dream.

I’m delirious.

There are more lights in the sky. At first, I think they’re stars, but they dance across the heavens. Search lights flicker over distant treetops. Like spotlights shining on a microphone stand set alone on an empty stage, they entice me out of the darkness. Getting to my feet, I shuffle out from beneath the pine tree, leaving my precious mattress lying among the dead twigs and broken branches.

I’m hot.

I’m sweating.

In the back of my mind, I’m vaguely aware this is an illusion marking the final stages of hypothermia. My internal organs are shutting down and my body is on the verge of dying, but I feel as though I’m sitting in front of a furnace.

“So hot,” I mutter, unzipping my jacket.

I stumble out into deep snow, leaving the shelter of the trees behind.

“Can’t breathe.”

Staggering through the snow, I pull off my boots, and cast my socks to one side. Within a few feet, I’ve shed my trousers, my underwear, and my jacket and my shirt, leaving them lying on the snow. Still, I feel as though I’m burning up. I’m on fire, I’m sure of it. Naked, I wander through the storm, wading out into what is probably a beautiful meadow in spring but nothing more than a frozen wasteland in winter. Wind howls across the open ground, but I’m past feeling.

The clouds have parted. The stars fall to Earth like snowflakes, drifting slowly down in front of me. So pretty. Like fireflies. A blinding light erupts over me and I’m vaguely aware of the beating of rotor blades overhead.

“Sharon?” I ask, seeing her angelic face enveloped in light.

Suddenly, I’m soaring above the treetops, climbing high in the sky.

The light around me is blinding, forcing me to cover my eyes with my hands. A bright red glow permeates my skin. Warmth washes over me. A sensation like pins-and-needles runs down my back. My toes are painfully sore.

“I don’t understand,” I say, squinting, trying to see beyond the glare.

“You have frostbite,” a kind, gentle voice says, injecting something into the side of my neck. “But you’ll be fine.”

“Sharon,” I say. “Tell me this is real. Tell me, this isn’t a dream.”

Warm lips touch softly against my cold cheek. Words are whispered in my ear.

“This is not a dream.”

“Smart move,” a male voice says, and I recognize Mark’s distinct twang. “Pulling off your clothes like that. Made it easy for us to distinguish between you and the ground troops.”

“I told you Joe would do something smart,” Sharon says, beaming with pride. I want to correct her, but my mind is lethargic, still struggling to come to terms with what just happened.

The light fades, and I’m standing in the middle of a vast metallic sphere.

“Is this a—a UFO?”

“No, silly,” Sharon says, punching me playfully on the shoulder. “UFOs are unidentified. This is a Q-class explorer.”

“Ah,” I say, taking in the sight around me. “I meant, unidentified as in not an airplane.”

“Oh, no,” she says, yet again talking to me as though I were a child. “This isn’t an airplane. Planes have wings.”

Yeah, I got that.

The not-quite-a-UFO isn’t a flying saucer as such, more a flying sphere roughly fifty feet in diameter. Gravity pushes outward from the hollow center so that wherever anyone is within the sphere, all ways are upright, all pointing in toward the empty middle of the craft.

“Hey, Joe,” another voice calls out. “Good to see you again.”

Old Joe, the African American bus driver and part-time street bum, is the pilot. He’s sitting upside down above me, but from his perspective, it probably looks like Sharon and I are the ones upside down.

“Oh, Hi, Joe,” I reply, craning my next to look up at him. We’re both talking and acting as though this is entirely natural—an everyday occurrence. It’s as though we ran into each other again on the bus. I half expect him to ask, “How are you doing?” To which I’d have to say, “Fine,” being almost completely disconnected from reality. But thankfully the conversation doesn’t extend that far. He just waves and keeps going about something alien.

Aliens are so relaxed. Nothing seems to bother them. It’s like they’re all from Hawaii, and they’re running on island time.

Good old Joe’s got a bunch of glowing control panels around him with hundreds of tiny lights. He walks from one station to another, his feet above his head. It’s as though I’m hanging upside down from a building ledge watching him walk around on a movie set.

Mark walks down toward Sharon and me. As he passes the halfway point, he looks as though he’s stuck sideways to the outer wall of the sphere. There are a variety of sections within the UFO, but most of them look like the clustered lounge chair settings in an airline rewards club, set in groups around what looks like retro-sixties coffee tables. There are large portholes affording views outside, but out of necessity they’re all set into the vast, circular, all encompassing, spherical floor. Mark walks over one without a care in the world. Actually, I’m not even sure we’re still in the world for him to care. There’s an awful lot of stars outside that window and not a single cloud.

Both Mark and Sharon stare at me as though I’m crazy. I have no idea what I look like, other than that I’m naked.

Naked?

My hands shoot down to cover my groin.

“How are you feeling?” Mark asks. “Better now we’ve got you on board, I’m sure. As soon as we learned they’d taken you, we started looking everywhere for you.”

“Ah, um. Thanks. Really, thank you. Any longer out there in the snow and I would have died.”

Sharon asks, “Do you need anything?”

I would have thought that was obvious. I stare down at my slightly hairy chest, with my arms extending to just between my thighs, and say, “Clothes?”

Mark says, “Over there, in the drawers beneath that table.”

As I turn to scurry away, Sharon slaps my backside lightly, saying, “Cute ass.”

I can’t believe it. I’ve just been sexually harassed by a creature from another planet. Sharon’s always been so quiet and reserved. It’s surprising to see her so boisterous. I can’t help but laugh at the tables being turned on me. Given how I grabbed her ass and pushed her through the bars of a jail, I guess we’re even.

I open a drawer and there’s a bunch of tightly rolled cleaning clothes set neatly in three rows, but they’re tiny. They’re kids clothes.

“I, uh.”

“Give them a shake,” Sharon says.

A flick of the wrist and suddenly I’m holding an adult size, ironed Nike t-shirt. The material, even the weight feels significantly different. And it changed color from white to navy blue.

“I’m not going to ask,” I say.

I slip the shirt over my head, and Sharon hands me two more scrunched up rags. A quick flick and I’m left holding a pair of underwear and some jeans.

“Nano tech,” she says as I turn slightly to one side, still feeling embarrassed, and slip on the underpants and then the jeans. They’re pleasantly warm.

“DARPA, right?” Mark says.

“Yes,” I reply.

“What did you tell them?”

“Everything,” I say.

Mark laughs.

Sharon punches me in the arm again, saying, “You’re such a kidder.”

I wasn’t kidding, but I guess they know I knew nothing to begin with.

Standing there inside the quirky alien spacecraft with its wacky gravity sticking everything to the outer wall, I can’t help but wonder how many times I’ve already seen this only to have my short term memory erased. Once on the outward bound journey to the Moon. Again on the return to the coffeeshop. That’s at least twice, assuming direct flights. And I’m left wondering if this moment will be expunged from my memory at some point in the near future and all these memories will be lost again.

“They thought you were Russian spies,” I say, trying to be helpful.

“Is that why they shot Mark?” Sharon asks.

“I think that was an accident, a snatch-and-grab gone wrong.”

I’m in a precarious position. Although I’m on Sharon’s side, I’m not an alien. I’m human. I feel compelled to stand up for humanity even if we have screwed up First Contact with our paranoid, macho bullshit. “They were going to introduce me to the President.”

“You?” Mark says, raising an eyebrow.

“They think I’m one of you.”

Sharon takes my arm, leading me over to a table high on the curved wall. As we walk, the table slowly descends in front of us. In reality, we walked up to the table, not over to it, but the zany way gravity works inside the UFO screws with my sense of perception.

“Trust, remember,” I whisper in her ear as Mark retrieves something from a waist-high cabinet, leaving me wondering if I’m about to have my brain fried again. “You guys have to trust us at some point.”

Sharon squeezes my arm affectionately, but she doesn’t reply, which feels a little ominous.

We sit down at a table that wouldn’t look out of place in an IKEA store catalog.

Mark places a can of Pepsi in front of me. Pepsi. I would have taken aliens as Coke drinkers, personally, but Pepsi’s good. I crack open the can. It’s ice cold, which ordinarily I’d enjoy, but my insides are still warming so I only take a sip.

“Are you hungry?”

“Starving,” I say.

Mark pulls a burger and fries out of the same cabinet, setting them down in front of me. I got a brief glimpse inside the cabinet. It’s quite deep and wide, and entirely empty, and yet the fries are warm—in stark contrast to the cold soda that came from the same cabinet moments ago.

I stuff my face with crisp, salty french fries. I can’t help myself.

“Oh, these are good,” I say with my mouth full.

Mark leans forward on the table, saying, “So they think you’re one of us?”

“Yes,” I say, taking a bite out of the burger. I chew for a few seconds and swallow before adding, “They ran me through some kind of scanner. An MRI, I think. I don’t know. I was unconscious at the time, but the officer talked about it later.”

“And they didn’t find anything,” Mark says.

“No. Which is good for you guys, right?”

“It is,” Sharon says. “But it does raise a question.”

“What?” I ask, feeling rather naive when it comes to intergalactic politics and stuff.

“How did they know about us at all?” Sharon replies.

Mark clarifies, saying, “Being Russian spies was our cover. They should have fallen for that.”

“They did,” I say, trying not to spit my food over the table. “But why choose such an antagonistic cover story in the first place?”

“Well,” Sharon replies. “It’s plausible.”

I nod, finishing the burger. I’ve wolfed down the bun, greasy patty, cheese and onion rings packed into the burger. A tinge of heartburn sits low in my throat, but it’s nothing a liberal dowsing of Pepsi won’t cure. God bless fast food.

I wipe my mouth with the back of my hand. My fingers are sticky, but there's no napkin.

Sharon and Mark look at each other knowingly. Are they telepathic? Is this the alien equivalent of talking behind someone’s back?

“I’m screwed, aren’t I?”

“What makes you say that?” Sharon asks, reaching out and taking hold of my greasy fingers.

“Well, for one, the way you’re holding my hand.”

Neither of them say anything, but the glances they give each other suggest there’s some deeper discussion going on between them.

“I mean. I can’t go home. The Feds, or DARPA, or the NSA, or someone will be looking for me. They’ve got my prints. Facial recognition will pick me up the first time I hit the subway. I’ve lost my job. I’m on the run.”

Neither of them say anything, at least, not out loud.

“I’m not an alien like you. I can’t go racing off through the Milky Way doing whatever alien things aliens do.”

I’m waiting for some reassurance that I’m overreacting, but that never comes.

“I’m like the celestial equivalent of Benedict Arnold.”

“You’ll be fine,” Mark finally says, but who is he kidding? From the look on his face, even he doesn’t believe what he’s saying.

“So, what next?” I ask, looking to Sharon for some encouragement.

“We anticipated something like this. We’ve changed your identity,” she says, but she’s ignoring my question. Sharon hands me a credit card and a driver’s license, saying, “The pin is the first four odd numbers 1-3-5-7. There’s a fifty grand limit. You don’t have to worry about money, there’s about two hundred million in the account.”

“Two hundred million,” I’m dumbfounded. “What are you guys? Drug lords?”

Sharon laughs, saying, “No, silly. We’ve been investing in stocks for hundreds of years. There’s plenty more where that came from.”

I look at the driver’s license. It’s my face, but the name is Jason Owen.

“But what about you?” I ask, realizing she’s still avoiding my earlier question.

Mark says, “We need to figure out how they stumbled on us. Mission parameters…”

And his voice trails off. It’s as though he’s only just realized he’s talking out loud rather than communicating telepathically.

“You’re going to leave, aren’t you?” I say. “You’re going to abandon Earth.”

“We have to,” Sharon says sympathetically, patting my hand gently. “We can’t risk any escalation or exposure. It’s too dangerous. No one nation can monopolize First Contact. It would lead to a world war.”

I hear her words, but both she and Mark are fading from sight.

“What about the two of us?” I cry, but it’s too late. “You said you trusted me!”

I swear, I never moved, but suddenly, instead of sitting at a table on a warm alien spaceship, I’m sitting in front of a frozen concrete picnic table in Central Park. Snow flurries drift around me as Mark and Sharon float into the sky, blending into the darkness.

“Wait,” I plead, getting to my feet, but they’re gone. “Goddamn it.”

The cold bites instantly at my bare feet. Jeans and a thin t-shirt are no match for a blizzard. The wind seems to whip straight through me. Out of necessity, I run for the streetlights, wanting to get out of the snow. There’s a hotel across the street—The Astor. Without thinking, I dart into the lobby, relieved to get out of the cold, and wondering just what the hell I’m going to do next.

“Mr. Owen?” a pretty young lady behind the reception desk calls out. “Mr. Jason Owen?”

“Me? You know me?” I ask, pointing at myself like an idiot.

“Are you okay, Mr. Owen?”

I look at her sideways. I want to ask if she’s one of them, but then I notice she’s holding a printed sheet of paper with a photo on it. I move closer, leaning in slightly to take a look. It’s my photo on the page.

“We were expecting you a little earlier this evening,” she says, peering over the counter, curious at my lack of shoes.

“Ah, yes,” I say, resting the credit card and driver’s license on the counter. “Sorry, running a little late.”

“Running?” she asks, glancing at the driver’s license and scanning the credit card. She hands them back, but she’s clearly  wondering about the bare feet and the lack of any jacket, gloves, or hat. “Bit chilly out there, isn’t it?”

“Yes, it is,” I reply, rubbing my hands together. “Ah, did anyone leave anything for me?”

“Yes. Your assistant dropped off your luggage this afternoon.”

“Wonderful,” I say with a voice that screams insincerity to my mind.

“We have you booked for five nights in the penthouse suite,” she says, handing me a key fob, adding. “You’re in 1801.”

“Thank you,” I say, as though I’m being polite while robbing a teller at a bank. I walk over to the elevator, trying to keep my bare feet out of sight, feeling distinctly embarrassed.

The penthouse suite is spacious, with a large living room, kitchenette and three bedrooms, two of which have views across Central Park. The heating is on, and it feels glorious—like Florida on a hot summer’s day. There’s a massive skylight in the living room, stretching out over the couch in the shape of a dome. I can’t help but stare up at the night sky as the clouds begin to part. Stars radiate in the darkness.

“Which one are you going to?” I mumble, thinking about Sharon. I feel dejected. Defeated.

There’s a bowl of fruit on the table, along with a box of chocolates and a bottle of champagne. With just a couple of fake ID cards, I’m suddenly a multimillionaire, but all this luxury is no consolation for what I’ve just lost. What humanity has lost.

The master bedroom has two suitcases. I open them and they’re full of clothing. Shoes, shirts, jeans, shorts, underwear—everything I need still wrapped in plastic.

I collapse on the bed and sink into the soft mattress, pulling the blanket over my shoulders.

I’m lovesick. I can’t stop thinking about Sharon. Is it wrong to feel a little horny? She’s an alien. Is that sick? Twisted? And yet she looks and feels so human. I touched her skin. I ran my hands over her stomach and across her hips. I felt her soft breasts beneath my fingertips. Love? Or just lust? Is love a personalized porn show? How do you separate love from animal instincts and sexual desire? Or is one an extension of the other?

Within a few minutes, I’m asleep and dreaming of a particular sexy alien siren dancing naked in a police holding cell.

Chapter 06: Mr President

I wake feeling refreshed.

The bathroom is stocked with everything I need, including a razor and shaving cream. After having a shower and getting dressed, I grab some fruit and take the elevator down to reception.

“Good morning, Mr. Owen,” a young man behind the counter says as I step out of the elevator. He smiles warmly. I’m not going to ask how he knew I was about to step out of the elevator, I’m guessing that’s his job—to make millionaires feel important. Me, I feel disappointed, but not with him so I smile warmly.

Sharon has good taste in clothing. I’m wearing designer jeans, trendy leather boots, a comfortable cotton shirt, polar fleece sweater, and a North Face down-filled jacket, along with a New York Yankees baseball cap. A quick glance in the mirror as I pass through the reception and I look like I’m ready for drinks at the ski lodge.

“Have a great day,” the receptionist says.

“You too,” I reply, burying my hands in my pockets as I walk out through the rotating doors. It’s a beautiful day outside—the sky is electric blue. A magnificent, radiant sun warms the winter air. The day is cool, but not chilly.

I bite into an apple, leaving my banana for later. For me, breakfast is normally yogurt and granola, as I generally need something thick and heavy to sit in my stomach until lunchtime, but I’m not that hungry today. I’m focused.

Dammit. Why the hell did we have to go and blow our first chance at conversing with creatures from another planet?

A brisk walk along Central Park West has me striding past the American Museum of Natural History.

What am I doing? Where am I going? Where can I go? I’m walking in a straight line with no real purpose or destination in mind, simply keeping Central Park on my left. At this rate, I’ll end up doing laps of the park and going nowhere. But what can I do? I’m not an alien. Or am I?

Okay, let’s think this through. At the moment, DARPA is convinced I’m one of the crew. That’s the only point of leverage I have. When I lose that, and I will, I’m screwed, millionaire or not.

I stop at an ATM and withdraw fifty bucks. When the machine asks if I want a receipt with the balance, I can’t resist. Hell, yes. And there it is, more numbers strung together than I’ve ever seen in my life. Damn.

Current balance: 197,884,534

Just disappear, Joe.

With money like that, who needs a passport? Jump on a yacht, sail the Caribbean, follow your dreams. Only my dreams aren’t about money. They’re about Sharon. I can’t do it. I cannot pretend none of this ever happened. Sharon and Mark may have turned their backs on us Earthlings, they may have been forced to by whatever alien edict they’re following , but I can’t run and hide. It’s stupid, but I believe in their cause—awakening humanity from its long, dark slumber. I could never be satisfied if I took the easy way out.

I backtrack to the museum, wondering if Sharon and Mark are like the alien equivalent of Jane Goodall and David Attenborough. Venturing into the untamed wilds of planet Earth, they speak in hushed tones, describing the jungle natives for an intergalactic audience lounging in celestial armchairs.

I can imagine Morgan Freeman narrating in my head. The males are particularly driven when it comes to mating rituals, often going to elaborate lengths to entice a female’s attention with such displays as karaoke, and gifts in the form of chocolate or an impressive bunch of flowers, when often all that is needed is a kind word and some help with the housework.

There’s a row of public computers in the lobby of the museum, along with a payphone. I find the phone number for DARPA on their website.

Over the phone, I hear a distinctly computerized voice say, “Defense Research, how may I direct your call?”

“Nathaniel Lill,” I say, being careful to pronounce his name clearly.

“Professor Lill is not in the office at the moment, connecting to his cell phone. Please wait.”

Shoom, bar-bap-boom, shoom bar boom, plays through the phone like elevator music. The tune is actually a little catchy, and as it repeats I find myself tapping my foot to the beat.

“Nate here,” a familiar voice says.

“How did you sleep last night?”

“Who is this?”

“It’s me,” I say. “Joe.”

“Joe?”

There’s muffled talking in the background as he holds his hand over the phone and scrambles to get someone’s attention.

“Have you still got that banana?” I ask to dispel any notion of doubt in his mind about who he’s talking to.

“Yeah, I’ve got it,” he says, and we converse like long lost friends. “We’re still trying to figure out precisely how you got out of here. Did you piss in the lock?”

I can’t help but laugh.

“What can I do for you, Joe? Why are you calling me? Are you ready to come in?”

“Not quite,” I reply. “The game has changed.”

“I’m listening.”

“First, no funny business or Chicago gets nuked. You got that?”

“I got that,” Nate replies. The tone of his voice changes markedly with those few words, signaling his somber acceptance that this is not a meeting of equals. I’m not sure Mark and Sharon would condone threats of violence, but it seems to get the message across. I’m still not sure what I’m doing, but I’ve got to try something. I’ve got to salvage some sanity out of this crazy mess.

“Tell the President. Noon at the American Museum of Natural History in New York.”

“I’m not sure—”

“Make it happen,” I cut him off. “We meet in public. We talk. We leave and go our own separate ways. And there’s no further contact. Is that understood?”

“Understood.”

With that, I hang up. My hands are shaking. I’m not sure what I’m going to say to the President, but I feel compelled to stand up for Mark and Sharon. At some point, they’ll be back, or someone else will drop by, and we need to grow up a little before then. We’ve got to stop playing silly games.

I’m an imposter. I feel stupid. Utterly incompetent. But wait. If I was incompetent, how would I know? I wouldn’t. Utilizing the rationale I’ve seen on display from Sharon, if I was incompetent, I’d be convinced I was competent. So feeling incompetent gives me a glimmer of hope, an opportunity to be genuinely competent. Sharon would be proud of my logic, I’m sure.

Perhaps feeling as though I’m an imposter means I’m not. Maybe feeling stupid gives me the chance to make smart choices instead of blundering on oblivious to my own stupidity. The smart choice would be to get out of the country. Find somewhere with no extradition treaty and run like hell. But perhaps the smartest choice is what I’m doing right now—refusing to be selfish and take the easy way out.

There’s a cafe in the lobby so I grab a coffee and buy a book on American Natural History from the gift shop next door, giving myself something to read while I wait. There’s a television in the cafe showing footage from CNN. The sound is down, but there’s speech-to-text running, so I can see what’s being said. It’s mostly finance news and a running commentary about yet another bloody conflict in the Middle East. More lives needlessly lost over oil in the sand. Around 11 AM, there are images of President Harding landing in New York. The caption reads:

President to visit American Natural History Museum… Benefactor during his term as Governor of New York… Heading on to the United Nations this afternoon for talks with German Chancellor Hamult.

Nice work, Nate.

By 11:30, the tourists are all particularly beefy, with crew cut hair, dark sunglasses, two piece business suits, and radio pieces in their ears. No one approaches me in the cafe. It’s as though I’m invisible. I’m nervous, watching the clock on the wall as it slowly approaches noon. I go to the bathroom to pee at 11:45 and again at 11:52, desperate to steady my nerves.

Shortly after noon, the President enters with a small detachment of Secret Service agents surrounding him. I’m expecting him to walk over and sit down with me, but he doesn’t, even though I’m staring at him as he walks briskly by at a distance of about twenty feet. The president disappears into the museum. I guess they didn’t give him any mug shots. To be fair, everyone was staring at him, so he wouldn’t know who he was supposed to meet.

I get up, leaving my history book on the table, and try to walk casually into the museum, but I’m sure I look like a criminal creeping around, waiting to nab a purse and run.

I need to pee again.

Get it together, Joe. He’s just a man. He puts his pants on one leg at a time just like you. He eats, sleeps, poops and pees.

Don’t think about pee.

Breathe.

The President stands alone in front of a display showing an authentic teepee with Native American Indians depicted as lifelike models going about their daily chores. They’re tanning hides, starting fires, tending to children, repairing bows, and sharpening arrowheads.

The Secret Service stand in a loose circle roughly twenty feet away from the display. As I approach, one of them stops me and lightly pats me down. His hand rests on my jacket for a moment, politely suggesting I should empty my pocket.

Slowly, I pull out my banana, saying, “Don’t worry. It’s not loaded.”

No response. No sense of humor.

I put the banana back in my jacket pocket and walk up behind the President. He’s lost in thought, staring intently at the display. Okay, this is it. Showtime. Don’t be intimidated. You’re an alien. Be the alien—a badass, acid-for-blood, rip-your-heart-out xenomorph complete with writhing tentacles.

Okay. Be serious.

“Twenty million. Dead,” I say, letting those words sink in as I compose myself.

The President turns to face me. He’s nervous, and strangely enough that helps me relax. He looks older than he does on television, and sadder, lacking the charisma I normally associate with him. His hair is slightly ruffled, and his tie is off-center. It’s been a hectic morning for him.

It takes me a moment to realize he doesn’t know what I’m talking about. I’ve been reading up on American history all morning so the facts are fresh in my mind, but he seems to think I’m threatening to kill twenty million people. To be fair, I did just threaten to nuke Chicago.

“Mainly from disease,” I say, gesturing toward the display. “Ninety percent of the population was wiped out. Sometimes deliberately, but most of the time, inadvertently.”

I need to be careful with my pronouns, making sure ‘I’ or ‘we’ refers to aliens while ‘you’ is reserved for humanity.

“Your knowledge of infectious disease was so rudimentary, there was little that could be done to avoid the misery and suffering. Disease spread like wildfire.”

He nods thoughtfully.

“This is what we’re trying to avoid. Unforeseen, unintended consequences. Consequences that cannot be reversed.”

Good use of ‘we,’ and a point well made, I think.

I pause, wanting to give him the opportunity to respond if he wants to. For a few seconds, there’s an awkward silence. Radios squawk softly behind us. Secret Service agents speak in hushed tones that echo softly off the vast marble floor.

“I presume you’re wearing a wire?”

The President nods nervously, like a drug snitch being fingered.

“That’s okay,” I say, as that simple question told me something important. He’s being honest, but not forthcoming. I find that curiously interesting.

“What do you want from us?” The President asks, wiping sweat from his forehead. The poor guy probably thinks he’s been dragged here to negotiate the peaceful surrender of humanity to an alien invasion force. Too many goddamn awful movies, that’s our problem. No one stops to think aliens might be peaceful.

“Nothing,” I say. I’m pretty sure that’s accurate. “We don’t want your water, or your gold, or your women, or anything crazy like that.”

Again, I let my words sink in. He looks relieved.

“We want you to emerge into your own. We want you to leave the past behind. Our only interest is in seeing you mature as a peaceful star-faring species.”

“And you can help us?” he asks.

“Not in the way you think.”

“So no beads for blankets, huh?”

“No.”

Again, the silence around us is deafening. I keep waiting for him to say something, but he seems distracted. Maybe he’s overawed by the occasion. If only he knew he was talking to a spoiled brat from Queens.

“We can guide you,” I say, which is kind of true, and kind of a lie. It was true. It’s not any more. “We’re not going to give you, or any other nation, any kind of alien tech. You have to earn your own keep.”

He nods.

I’m racking my brains trying to figure out what Sharon would say if she were here. She’s not, which eats away at my heart, but I’m determined to do her proud. I’ve got to try to fill that void. I’ve got to keep us moving in the right direction. Equality. Sharon was big on equality.

“Look at this,” I say, leading the President over to the other side of the floor. There’s an exhibit on the Revolutionary War. A copy of the Declaration of Independence has been set behind a glass frame in an ornate wooden display case. Spotlights highlight the fine cursive writing on the aging parchment.

I point to the second paragraph, saying. “Look at how this journey began.”

The President reads aloud. Normally, a vast room like this would be a cacophony of noise with its marble floor and high, lofty ceiling, but today the museum is solemn, silent and empty, allowing the President’s voice to echo with gravitas.

“We hold these truths to be self-evident, that all men are created equal—”

“Don’t you see?” I say, cutting him off. I’m excited, remembering the passion with which Sharon talked to me in the cemetery. “This is what America stands for. Equality. It’s right here, at the very foundation of the nation. And yet even as Jefferson penned these words, he kept slaves in his home. Jefferson spoke of equality, but only for men—white men.

“As a nation, you have spent over two hundred years trying to live up to the heart and intent of these few words. You’ve spent two hundred years trying to get equality right.”

The president rubs his hand over his face, lost in the words before him. I seize the moment to drive my point home.

“Do you want to know what it takes to reach the stars? It doesn’t take rocket ships and ray guns. It doesn’t take astronauts and robots. It takes equality here on Earth. Think about what equality means and you’ll find yourself among the stars.”

He wrings his hands together, saying, “They briefed me on what to expect when I walked in here—NASA, SETI, DARPA, the National Security Council. They had me memorize dozens of points that were likely to come up. But, you know what? They were wrong. All of them.”

I nod, seeing he gets it.

“They thought First Contact would be about you, but it’s not, is it? It’s about us.”

I smile.

“I’m supposed to ask you lots of questions, like where you’re from, how you got here, who else is out there, but you’re not going to answer any of those questions, are you?”

I shake my head, not that I could answer any of them anyway.

The President taps the glass, resting his fingers over those few words as he says, “This was supposed to be our turning point.”

“Yes.”

“We started on this path a long time ago, but we’re not there yet, are we?”

“No.”

He breathes deeply, exhaling and sighing at that realization.

“So what happens next?” he asks.

“Keep growing as a species, not just a nation. Keep changing for the better. Reason must prevail over instinct. Honesty must prevail over ideology.”

“And you?” he asks. “Will I ever see you again?”

“No,” I say. “Not unless something goes horribly wrong.”

Although, when I say, horribly wrong, I mean as in me being caught out as a con man impersonating someone from another planet. Dear God, that would be embarrassing. Yes, Mr. President. I lied… April Fools? I’m sure I’d cringe and grin like a clown, shackled in chains, but for now, I keep a solemn face.

I offer him my hand in friendship. He accepts. His fingers are shaking. He’s going to be so pissed if he ever figures out what really happened here today.

“Have a good day, Mr. President.”

“You too, Joe. And thanks.”

I nod and take my leave, walking slowly away from him. The Secret Service agents eye me with suspicion, mumbling into tiny microphones, saying something about being on the move, but they let me pass.

My heart pounds in my throat. I have got to get the hell out of Dodge, and I have to cover my tracks. That means withdrawing bucket loads of cash and taking a variety of different types of transport going in different directions, all the while watching my tail. I’m thinking—Bus to Baltimore. Backtrack to Philadelphia. Grab a rental and drive to Harrisburg. Switch rental companies and drive down to Atlanta. Fly to Nashville. Grab another rental car and head to Florida. From there, I’ll try to get passage on a boat to Cuba, by way of the Bahamas. Gee, fun!

I’m so busy planning my escape, I barely recognize the woman standing at the bottom of the stairs outside. She has tears in her eyes.

“Sharon?” I’m thunderstruck. “But I thought?”

Sharon throws her arms around me, holding me tight and kissing me on the cheek. She’s sobbing.

“I don’t understand,” I say, watching as she wipes her tears away.

A heavily modified black Cadillac pulls out of the lane beside the museum with motorcycle cops riding along on either side. Several black SUVs form a convoy around the president as he races away.

“You,” she says, stepping back and looking at me, still holding both of my hands.

“Me?” I say only because I don’t have anything else to say, and I’m not sure what’s going on. “I thought you left. I mean, the planet. I thought you were going to go back to, you know, to that star above the building.”

She laughs at my awkward description of her home.

“We were preparing to depart, but then we heard you.”

“You heard me?” I say, reaching into my pocket and pulling out the banana. “On this?”

“Yes,” she says, laughing and resting her hand affectionately on my chest.

“And you stayed,” I say, losing myself in her beautiful brown eyes.

She nods, saying, “You’re not bad for an Earthling.”

“Well, you’re not bad for an alien. I mean, I haven’t met very many aliens, but you all seem quite nice.”

She laughs, saying, “Walk with me.”

Sharon slips her hand in the crook of my arm as I zip up my jacket against the cold.

“Where are we going?” I ask, wondering if we’re about to assault more police officers. I don’t know that I could handle that today.

“Trust,” she says, as we make our way along the icy sidewalk, crossing the road at the lights.

“Trust is good,” I say, but I can’t help myself. I have to know. “So what are we doing?”

“You’ve convinced Mark,” she says, picking up the pace slightly. “I’ve been saying we should trust you humans more, but Mark wanted to stick to the mission, running things by the book. The last few days, though, he’s seen a different side of you crazy Earthlings.”

“And?” I ask, wondering where this is leading.

“And he thinks we should trust more of you.”

“That’s great,” I say. “I agree.”

Sharon urges me on, quickening her pace.

“So you’re going to reveal yourselves?” I ask, wanting to be sure I’ve got this straight.

“Yep. But only to world renowned scientists.”

“But what if they won’t keep your secret?” I ask. “What if they expose you to the public?”

“I’m betting they won’t,” Sharon says. “Firstly, they’re going to love being on the inside, and secondly, it would be professional suicide to go public with such a crazy, convoluted story. I think they’ll keep our little secret. Besides, we’ve always got a dose of alien space tentacle porn if anyone gets too vocal.”

“Ha,” I say, quietly reminding myself not to become too outspoken.

“We’re following one of them now.”

“We are?”

I knew there had to be a catch. I don’t mean to, but I can’t help but peer around, looking past the heads in the crowd, trying to pick out who we’re following.

“Oh, you won’t see him,” she says. “He’s behind us.”

“How can you follow someone if they’re behind you?” I ask, genuinely confused. “Don’t you have to be behind them to follow them?”

“No, silly. If we were behind them, they’d know we were following them. By staying in front of them, they’ll never know we’re following them.”

“Because we’re not,” I say, still trying to wrap my head around Sharon’s alien logic.

“But we are,” she says, pointing at a store front window in front of us. The glass on the recessed entrance provides a brief glimpse behind us, and I catch a glimmer of a tall African American dressed in a suit about five yards back.

“Who is he?” I ask, starting to turn my head.

“Don’t look,” she says, squeezing my arm.

“See that bus?”

“Yes.”

“He’s about to get on it. We can’t let him.”

I don’t ask why. I’ve given up trying to figure out why aliens do anything, it’s enough just to follow along and figure it out after the fact.

“I need thirty seconds,” she says as we walk up to a line of people boarding the bus. “Distract him.”

I spin around, almost bumping into a jovial, older African American man with a neatly groomed mustache and a warm smile.

“Neil?” I ask, astonished to realize I recognize him from TV.

“Yes,” he answers in a suave, deep voice that has an unusual air of elegance. Somehow, Neil makes that one word sound refined.

“Neil van Brahe?” I say as my eyes go wide in surprise.

“I don’t give autographs,” he says, apparently reading my mind.

Damn, that’s not going to work.

With a wave of his hand, he signals for me to get out of his way. How the hell can I stop him from getting on this bus? I have only fractions of a second to come up with something. What could possibly stop this giant intellect in his tracks?

I blurt out, “Star Wars is the most accurate science fiction movie ever made. You can’t argue with that.”

I’m not sure where that idea came from, but it works. Neil looks at me as though he’s staring at a child.

“That is ridiculous,” he says. He waves with his hands, making as though his fingers are the wings of an airplane banking through the air. “You think spaceships move like Tie-Fighters and X-Wings? Swerving as they turn? There’s no air in space. No air means no aerodynamics.”

“What about the Force?” I say as though I’m getting one up on him.

“Pfft,” he replies, almost spitting on me. “I’ll take the electromagnetic force over your imaginary force any day. The electromagnetic force is what gives atoms all their characteristics, including their size. Without it, we’d be squashed into nothingness. The whole Earth and everyone on it would be squished into a blob the size of a football stadium, with temperatures and pressures like those in the heart of a neutron star.”

His words are majestic, evoking a sense of awe. Neil clearly relishes the challenge, even if it means he might be a little late wherever he’s going. A gauntlet slapped across his face could not have worked better.

“And there goes my bus,” he says, his hands dropping to his side, but he still has a smile on his face. Neil is irrepressible.

Sharon joins me, stepping in beside me and saying, “Look, here comes another bus.” And I watch as a 1950’s style coach with highly polished chrome and an immaculate paint job pulls up to the curb. The door opens and old Joe smiles.

“After you,” I say. I can’t believe we’re about to kidnap Neil van Brahe, one of the world’s leading astrophysicists and science communicators.

Neil steps onto the bus, still laughing at our Star Wars banter, saying, “And don’t get me started on the Millennium Falcon doing the Kessel Run in under twelve parsecs.”

Sharon can’t help but giggle as she follows me onboard, whispering in my ear, “This is going to be fun.”

“It sure is.”

The End

A Word from Peter Cawdron

Thank you for taking a chance on Alien Space Tentacle Porn.

The first chapter of this novella originally appeared as a short story in The Alien Chronicles, an independently produced anthology that has lots of great stories by a dozen other awesome indie writers.

UFO sightings and alien abductions are modern folklore. Thousands of people claim to have been abducted, and abduction stories are remarkably precise and share many common characteristics that have turned them into something of a cultural phenomenon. This novella explores a silly but semi-plausible angle to these stories, that these abductions could be a deliberate cover story designed to discredit those that get too close to the truth.

Yes, bananas really are slightly radioactive.

Yes, you really can produce x-rays with sticky tape.

Yes, NASA really did use aluminum foil on the Apollo docking hatch.

Yes, Michelson and Morley observed that the speed of light never varies almost two decades before Einstein figured out why.

Yes, Charles Darwin really didn’t notice which island each of his famous finches came from and had to piece that together long after the fact by talking with other crew members from the HMS Beagle.

Yes, Darwin sailed to the Galapagos, but he discovered natural selection in his own backyard, digging up plots of dirt and watching how weeds grow, looking at the differences between wild and domesticated ducks, considering the role of earthworms in ecology, observing how breeders varied pigeons, and watching ants fight on his garden path. Darwin even opened On the Origin of Species with a detailed discussion on “variations under domestication,” presenting artificial selection as the basis for understanding natural selection.

Yes, you really can break handcuffs by working the brittle links back and forth.

Yes, if you’re small enough and slippery enough, you can slip between the horizontal section of some jail cell doors.

Yes, upwards of twenty million North American Indians were killed inadvertently by disease when Europeans began settling the continent.

Yes, the Declaration of Independence ignored slavery and the rights of women, although to be fair to Thomas Jefferson, this wasn’t by his choice. Jefferson wanted to include a reference to slavery in the Declaration of Independence, but concern for the support of southern states had his proposed clause removed. Women, though, had to wait for the suffragette movement of the early 1900s before they were recognized with the right to vote.

Yes, the electromagnetic force gives atoms their structure (outside of the nucleus) and their chemical properties.

Yes, this is a silly story and shouldn’t be taken too seriously, but it has some foundation in fact.

But no, there’s no alien lunar base on the far side of the Moon, at least none that I know of.

One day, we will make contact with intelligent extraterrestrials, but they’ll be far more interested in our science than our bowel contents. As for tentacles, we’ll just have to wait and see.

If intelligent extraterrestrials ever do visit Earth, I doubt they’ll keep their presence secret. Such concepts work well in fiction, but I suspect ET will be quite open and transparent about dropping by for a cup of coffee and a chat. There’s one aspect of our culture, though, that is sure to perplex ET—porn.

Porn is a complex subject, making it easy to adopt an over-simplistic position that it is either good or bad. The reality is… porn is porn.

Is porn unhealthy? That depends on a number of factors including the type of porn, along with the mindset and maturity of the individual. For some, porn is a source of positive reinforcement, for others it’s detrimental.

All too often, pornography exploits its participants, and skews the way men and women perceive sex and intimacy.

Porn dominates the internet, but not in the way you’d think. The actual number of dedicated pornographic websites is difficult to measure, but estimates range from 4%-12%, which is surprisingly low. But it’s how often these sites are accessed that’s the real measure of interest. A 2015 survey revealed 75% of Christian men polled in the United Kingdom viewed pornography on the internet at least once a month, with 41% describing themselves as addicted to porn.

Another 2015 survey conducted by the University of Sydney, Australia, revealed the average age of first exposure to porn was a shocking 11 years old, with 80% of 15 to 17 year olds being exposed to hard core pornography online, which can mold sexual expectations in an unrealistic and emotionally unhealthy manner.

Pornhub reported 18.35 billion visits in 2014, with the number of videos viewed during these visits reaching almost 80 billion—not bad for a planet with only 7 billion people, especially considering less than half of us have access to the internet.

Some consider porn and erotica as unnatural, perhaps even dirty, and yet our desire for sex is the natural result of evolutionary selective pressure. Just as natural selection leads to traits like faster cheetahs and stronger gorillas, sexual selection leads to ornate peacock feathers for attracting mates, and deer antlers for driving off rivals. Homo sapiens are not immune to these evolutionary drivers, if anything, we are the direct result of the same processes.

Natural selection is blind, whereas sexual selection is in the eye of the beholder. Sexual selection has shaped humanity so it is no wonder sex continues to mold our collective consciousness in the form of porn and erotica.

Is porn addictive? The brain is an active, dynamic organ that changes all the time. Repeated exposure to outlandish porn can rewire the brain’s sexual circuits, but that doesn’t mean pornography is addictive, or that porn is making irreversible changes.

Cocaine is addictive for one in six people. Marijuana is addictive for anywhere from one in ten to one in twenty people. If porn is addictive, it would be for one in hundreds of thousands, so it’s not in the same league as these drugs. Yes, porn releases the same feel-good chemicals, dopamine and endorphins, but so does chocolate and music.

The reason why porn seems addictive may lie with a phenomenon called supernormal stimuli, an evolutionary adaptation that means there’s no upper limit to a good thing.

Ostrich eggs, for example, weigh up to three pounds, or just over a kilo. They’re normally six inches in diameter, or about fifteen centimeters. Paint a volleyball so it looks like an ostrich egg, and even though it’s ten inches, or roughly twenty five centimeters in diameter, an ostrich will abandon its own egg and attempt to incubate the volleyball. Why? The reason is simple. Evolution hardwires animals to see bigger and more intense stimuli as better and more desirable. This is why we can never have enough cake or candy, and may explain the allure of porn as porn overstimulates our sex drive.

Supernormal stimuli may also explain our infatuation with size when it comes to curves, hips, breasts, butts, penis length, etc, and even the general muscle tone people obsess about when it comes to abs, legs, etc.

Porn influences sexual behavior. Teenagers that haven’t had adequate sex education can be unduly influenced by unrealistic pornographic acts, and these can distort attitudes toward women. The real issue is sexual confidence. Both men and women have to have the confidence to define what they like about sex for themselves, and not feel forced into acts they’re not comfortable with, or feel compelled to live up to unrealistic ideals.

Perhaps if porn was better understood, it wouldn’t be a source of shame and would be recognized as satisfying natural desires.

What it means to be sexy has even been commercialized, with flirts and a flash of flesh becoming so ubiquitous they go almost unnoticed, weaving their way into entertainment, celebrity magazines, advertising, TV shows, and movies.

Sex sells, as the saying goes. Fifty Shades of Grey has sold over 125 million copies, putting it in the top ten best selling books of all time, a list this book will never make. And Fifty Shades is not alone, with alien/werewolf/whatever sexy romp novels dominating the Amazon charts. Perhaps, I’m a tad jealous as all the men on those book covers have six packs to die for, while I’m left with a single beer keg.

For better or for worse, we as a species have a love affair with porn and erotica. Alien Space Tentacle Porn is an opportunity for us to poke fun at ourselves and take a lighthearted look at the role of porn in society, looking at the subject through alien eyes.

If you’re a fan of Alien Space Tentacle Porn and you’d like to join the circus, you can grab a t-shirt for ComicCon or just for lounging around by the pool.

Both the men’s and women’s shirts come in tank tops and classic t-shirt styles.

If you are brave enough to grab a t-shirt, please post a picture on Twitter or on Facebook as I’d love to see you turning heads as you walk down the street.

If you got a kick out of this story and thought it was a bit of a lark and some good, clean fun, I dare you to post or tweet:

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By the way, Hello World is another short story set in the same fictional universe as Alien Space Tentacle Porn, focusing on our dependence on social media.

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Other books by Peter Cawdron

Thank you for supporting independent science fiction. You might enjoy the following novels also written by Peter Cawdron.

WHAT WE LEFT BEHIND & ALL OUR TOMORROWS

Hazel is a regular teenager growing up in an irregular world overrun with zombies. She likes music, perfume, freshly baked muffins, and playing her Xbox—everything that no longer exists in the apocalypse.

Raised in the safety of a commune, Hazel rarely sees Zee anymore, except on those occasions when the soldiers demonstrate the importance of a headshot to the kids.

To her horror, circumstances beyond her control lead her outside the barbed wire fence and into a zombie-infested town.

“Five, Four, Three, Two—count your shots, Haze,” she says to herself, firing at the oncoming zombie horde. “Don’t forget to reload.”

MY SWEET SATAN

The crew of the Copernicus is sent to investigate Bestla, one of the remote moons of Saturn. Bestla has always been an oddball, orbiting Saturn in the wrong direction and at a distance of fifteen-million miles, so far away that Saturn appears smaller than Earth’s moon in the night sky. Bestla hides a secret. When mapped by an unmanned probe, Bestla awoke and began transmitting a message, only it’s a message no one wants to hear: “I want to live and die for you, Satan.”

SILO SAGA: SHADOWS

Shadows is fan fiction set in Hugh Howey’s Wool universe as part of the Kindle Worlds Silo Saga.

Life within the silos follows a well-worn pattern passed down through the generations from master to apprentice, ’caster to shadow. “Don’t ask! Don’t think! Don’t question! Just stay in the shadows.” But not everyone is content to follow the past.

THE WORLD OF KURT VONNEGUT: CHILDREN’S CRUSADE

Kurt Vonnegut’s masterpiece Slaughterhouse-Five: The Children’s Crusade explored the fictional life of Billy Pilgrim as he stumbled through the real world devastation of Dresden during World War II. Children’s Crusade picks up the story of Billy Pilgrim on the planet of Tralfamadore as Billy and his partner Montana Wildhack struggle to accept life in an alien zoo.

THE MAN WHO REMEMBERED TODAY

The Man Who Remembered Today is a novella originally appearing in From the Indie Side anthology, highlighting independent science fiction writers from around the world. You can pick up this story as a stand-alone novella or get twelve distinctly unique stories by purchasing From the Indie Side.

Kareem wakes with a headache. A bloody bandage wrapped around his head tells him this isn’t just another day in the Big Apple. The problem is, he can’t remember what happened to him. He can’t recall anything from yesterday. The only memories he has are from events that are about to unfold today, and today is no ordinary day.

ANOMALY

Anomaly examines the prospect of an alien intelligence discovering life on Earth.

Mankind’s first contact with an alien intelligence is far more radical than anyone has ever dared imagine. The technological gulf between mankind and the alien species is measured in terms of millions of years. The only way to communicate is using science, but not everyone is so patient with the arrival of an alien spacecraft outside the gates of the United Nations in New York.

THE ROAD TO HELL

The Road to Hell is paved with good intentions.

How do you solve a murder when the victim comes back to life with no memory of recent events?

In the twenty-second century, America struggles to rebuild after the second civil war. Democracy has been suspended while the reconstruction effort lifts the country out of the ruins of conflict. America’s fate lies in the hands of a genetically engineered soldier with the ability to move through time.

The Road to Hell deals with a futuristic world and the advent of limited time travel. It explores social issues such as the nature of trust and the conflict between loyalty and honesty.

MONSTERS

Monsters is a dystopian novel exploring the importance of reading. Monsters is set against the backdrop of the collapse of civilization.

The fallout from a passing comet contains a biological pathogen, not a virus or a living organism, just a collection of amino acids. But these cause animals to revert to the age of the mega-fauna, when monsters roamed Earth.

Bruce Dobson is a reader. With the fall of civilization, reading has become outlawed. Superstitions prevail, and readers are persecuted like the witches and wizards of old. Bruce and his son James seek to overturn the prejudices of their day and restore the scientific knowledge central to their survival, but monsters lurk in the dark.

FEEDBACK

Twenty years ago, a UFO crashed into the Yellow Sea off the Korean Peninsula. The only survivor was a young English-speaking child, captured by the North Koreans. Two decades later, a physics student watches his girlfriend disappear before his eyes, abducted from the streets of New York by what appears to be the same UFO.

Feedback will carry you from the desolate, windswept coastline of North Korea to the bustling streets of New York and on into the depths of space as you journey to the outer edge of our solar system looking for answers.

GALACTIC EXPLORATION

Galactic Exploration is a compilation of four closely related science fiction stories following the exploration of the Milky Way by the spaceships Serengeti, Savannah, and The Rift Valley. These three generational starships are manned by clones and form part of the ongoing search for intelligent extraterrestrial life. With the Serengeti heading out above the plane of the Milky Way, the Savannah exploring the outer reaches of the galaxy, and The Rift Valley investigating possible alien signals within the galactic core, this story examines the Rare Earth Hypothesis from a number of different angles.

This volume contains the novellas Serengeti, Trixie and Me, Savannah, and War.

XENOPHOBIA

Xenophobia examines the impact of first contact on the Third World.

Dr. Elizabeth Bower works at a field hospital in Malawi as a civil war smolders around her. With an alien spacecraft in orbit around Earth, the US withdraws its troops to deal with the growing unrest in America. Dr. Bower refuses to abandon her hospital. A troop of US Rangers accompanies Dr. Bower as she attempts to get her staff and patients to safety. Isolated and alone, cut off from contact with the West, they watch as the world descends into chaos with alien contact.

LITTLE GREEN MEN

Little Green Men is a tribute to the works of Philip K. Dick, hailing back to classic science fiction stories of the 1950s.

The crew of the Dei Gratia set down on a frozen planet and are attacked by little green men. Chief Science Officer David Michaels struggles with the impossible situation unfolding around him as the crew members are murdered one by one. With the engines offline and power fading, he races against time to understand this mysterious threat and escape the planet alive.

REVOLUTION

How do you hide state secrets when teenage hacktivists have as much quantum computing power as the government? Alexander Hopkins is about to find out on what should have been an uneventful red-eye flight from Russia. Nothing is what it seems in this heart pounding short-story from international best selling author Peter Cawdron.

HELLO WORLD

Hello World is a short story set in the same fictional universe as Alien Space Tentacle Porn, focusing on the role of social media in modern life.

Professor Franco Corelli has noticed something unusual. The twitter account @QuestionsLots is harvesting hundreds of millions of tweets each day, but never posting anything. Outwardly, this account only follows one other twitter account—@RealScientists, but in reality it is trawling every post ever made by anyone on this planet. Could it be that @QuestionsLots is not from Earth?

In addition to these stand alone stories, Peter Cawdron has short stories appearing in:

1. The Telepath Chronicles

2. The Alien Chronicles

3. The A.I. Chronicles

4. The Z Chronicles

5. Alt History 101

6. Tales of Tinfoil

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Content

Peter Cawdron
ALIEN SPACE TENTACLE PORN

Chapter 01: Tentacles

Chapter 02: Normal Life

Chapter 03: Sharon

Chapter 04: DARPA

Chapter 05: Dreams are free

Chapter 06: Mr President

A Word from Peter Cawdron

Other books by Peter Cawdron

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